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#me agarro un virus chingon#virus choto#te odio#justo en mis dias de descanso#que rabia#solo espero mejorar#y que tu tambien mejores#que sanes#sanemos#quizás el futuro sea mejor#ahora solo quiero vivir#en mis peores momentos siempre te ví s mi lado#seria bkn verte en un sueño febril#you know I still die for you#i hope you are happy#without me#not now#tomorrow#in a incertain future way#and everything goes hard#more problems#but#where are my lighhouse of hope?#i need u#u need me#i can't di...#Spotify
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Uncaring
#original art#schoolwork#comic#cartoon#bugs tw#house centipede#goes for other bugs and animals too tbh#snake's art#Maybe it's ironic that I think everything has something pleasing about it if you look hard enough#For house centipedes it's their silly little faces
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Sometimes at work it's not my place to tell people the things I want to say, and I find I often go home at the end of the rougher days to stand blankly in my shower and tell myself over and over what I wish I could pass on.
This accomplishes very little, and mostly just gives me a tension headache, but through it all I think I've narrowed myself down to a few solid things I'd like to tell people the most.
You can't change people. Not permanently, not for anythig. You can support them, encourage them, love them, give them tools and opportunities and resources, but you can't make them change. They can change themselves if they want to, but they have to want to, and they have to want it for themselves, because they're the only one that's certain to be with them forever.
For better or worse, you make your own choices, and blaming bad choices on others doesn't only work to absolve you of responsibility- it also robs you of control. Because if you say you only did something because I did something, then you arent only shifting blame- you're admitting that you cannot control yourself, that you cannot truly make choices for yourself, that other people can control you- and as long as you truly beleive that, you'll keep facing the same problems over and over. You'll keep letting others dictate your choices, because you'll beleive that they can, and you'll never be free.
White knights on horseback are from fairytales. Nobody can help you if ou're not willing to help yourself. To try, to put the dirty work in, to belive you're worth that effort- Act as though nobody is coming to save you. From a struggle, from pain, from bad relationships, from yourself. And when you do save yourself, because you will, because failure here isn't an option if you want to survive, you'll never find another dragon that can keep you prisoner.
Don't say anything to anyone that you wouldn't want them remembering forever.
Doing the right thing in bad circumstances is hard. It's the hardest thing. But if you make the choice to do that hard thing anyways, despite your fear, you'll go on the rest of your like knowing that you're the sort of person who did something.
The present only seems the hardest because the past I over and the future hasn't happened.
There's so much joy ahead of you, the kind you can't possibly understand until you see it yourself.
The responsibility of consequences is often disguised as the power of permission. "I won't do this if you help me", "I'll work on my anger if you do this for me", "I promised you I'd quit, but can I have just one?". The unspoken question is, "Can it be your fault if this goes badly?"
You cant make someone love you the way you need to be loved. Someone can love you very much and still be bad for you, even if you love them very much in return. Two people can love each other very, very much, and try their very best, and still be wrong for each other.
Sometimes being near to someone changes you, even in good ways, and the people you become don't fit together as well as the people you were.
Caring takes work. Even if it's real. Especially if it's real. And the most important gestures aren't the grand, poetic, songs-and-flowers-and-tears moments; they're getting out of bed even though you don't want to. Paying attention to things you don't enjoy. Scrubbing pans, or opening a window, saying "thank-you", or helping carry groceries into the house. The small things fill the big things- without the small, boring, mediocre things, big things feel hollow.
Thrre is honour and dignity in humble work.
If you are a cruel and spiteful person, then you will find every place you visit to be full of the same cruel, spiteful people. This is not because the world is as cruel as you, but because everywhere you are, you will be disliked. This is the curse that comes with being persistently cruel and spiteful.
If you are a kind and ppsitive person, you will repeatedly encounter kind and positive people, because as they grow familiar with you, they will be happier to have you near. This is the reward of being a kind and positive person.
When splitting paths with loved ones, briefly or forever, aim for your last words to always be "I love you".
#I'm still so young and ignorant#but I wish someone had told ME these things before I had to learn them#And now when shit goes south and everything is over and calm again the same things just roll though my head#Over and over and over#It's like everyone I meet has the same 3 problems and its ruining their lives#I just want to take everyone I meet by the shoulders and shake them#I KNOW why this is happening to you#Do you realize you can be better?#Do you realize you can do it?#Aren't you terrified of wasting your life like this?#*I* want to be happier#*I* used to be so much worse than I am#And I don't have it all figured out#But if we all decide to help ourselves then it'll be that much easier to help each other#Right?#It's so hard to lift dead weight#You need to kick against the waves with me#You need to WANT to float#Do you understand#Ugh it's 6am#This has been your overdramatic midnight ramble#Imma grill me a cheese and go back to bed#Blaurfhgh
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Curly's little blurb on his steam trading card just keeps reminding me he is a much more miserable person than people realize.
We don't get a lot of his thoughts, inner confliction that aren't bogged down by what Jimmy says or does. Even in the The Last One and Then Another, his dialogue is reflective, not the Curly before the crash but the result of everything. Parts of the him he was are there of course, but also disfigured and warped beyond recognition just like he is physically.
Curly really doesn't think much of himself and desires. He clearly chases fleeting moments of happiness. He doesn't really have prospects for himself, assumes in a similar way to Swansea, that if it should make it happy then he is happy. Though, he hasn't reached the point Swansea did to admit it doesn't. He neither sees the glass half full or empty, it's just water, something he needs and he'll take it from any perspective.
He wasn't running from anything but he's never really been going towards something either. He's listless. I've been using the term complacent to describe how he feels about his life and the closest people (really just Jimmy) in it, but now that word feels too neutral, too nice. Happier than Curly really was. There isn't just one word for it, he's unfulfilled, uncertain, uninspired. There are no active problems he faces and that's the issue, why should he be upset?
I believe he really is a person who doesn't know who he is or wants to be. He follows a structure. I don't think he's suicidal, but he clearly doesn't think about what makes him happy. He's numb. I suppose that is a better word than complacent, used to the feeling even if he hates it. It doesn't hurt so why stop it?
#like curly is very much does his job goes home takes care of self repeat i dont think hes like an asocial person but he doesn't take the tim#time to indulge in himself the way he thinks hes a bigger picture guy so as long as nothing is disrupted hes relatively okay even if its#slowly chipping away at him and making him feel hollow like he thought space was endless that he could never reach a point of feeling finis#he never had to predict what to do after the end and suddently he realizes there was no end to it because there cant be an end to nothing#hes accomplished so much objectively but hes done nothing with his life outside of his work like he mentions no hobbies other friends or an#thing of the sort he doesn't even feel like he can vent it cause what? hes complaining about how hard it is to get promoted to have securit#in a job you hate and a position that keeps weighing you down like I feel like if he explained himself at the party and didn't let Jimmy t#talk for him hed actually have made points the others would get cause even if they envied his position he still is justified in being unhap#not everything that you think would bring you happiness does or fulfills even a small part of that desire#idk hes a lot more fucked in the head but like towards himself than people realize like how he lets Jimmy treat him is indicitive of that i#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#captain curly#curly mouthwashing
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Luffy + being completely normal about Zoro.
#tvedit#onepieceedit#oplaedit#one piece live action#opla#monkey d. luffy#roronoa zoro#zolu#one piece#zoro#luffy#myedit#mygifs#long post#THEY'RE SO#luffy always being so happy to see zoro and thinking he's cool makes me feel things ok#luffy: if i had a first mate i would hype him up so much -#also the fact that when everything's seemingly falling apart the person he wants (needs) most by his side........is zoro#im so unwell#also maybe im just a simple man but 'i'd do anything to save him. anything. except stand in the way of his dream' goes so hard#love is real actually#this isn't even all of it......but if i giffed more this post wouldn't end#love them so much
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I MADE A TMA PATCH
through sweat tears and a bleeding finger I finally have some kind of tma merch (as I live in an ass of the world where shipping for a stiker costs half a kidney)
now I have three queer flags on my bag /j
#also i haven't been drawing a lot for a while#or everything i drew was either very sketchy or oc stuff im not sure i will post yet#anyway im proud of myself and can die happy because SEWING AND EMBROIDERY IS HARD OKAY.#tma#the magnus archives#kuprum goes brr
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About that one ask where Machete murders everyone. I'm in my fire phase at the moment and thought blue would look good in contrast to Machete's usual red :)
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#wwwwhhhh oh boy#there he goes#can't decide whether I should feel bad for him destroying everything he's worked so hard for or happy to see him finally unleash#decades worth of resentment and bad energy#when I first saw this it was around noon I think and I had my brightness turned way down so I didn't see the text on the background#and pretty much lost it when I took a better look at it later#the lighting though! I love how vibrant blue the flames are and how they contrast against the red background#excellent unhinged villain cackle A+#thank you!#gift art#lavenkel#own characters#Machete#(don't) let him cook
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i simply can't get over how tommy immediately opens up to buck about his feelings over the current 118. like saying "i wanted to be a part of that" is such an honest and personal admission to a person you barely know, especially to a person who is a part of that thing you wanted in. choosing the words "i was jealous" is a direct admission of being envious which is hardly considered the most admirable or desired feeling by anyone. it's also him admitting that he lacks that type of deep connection which is not something many people are very forthcoming about, let alone with people they met two weeks ago. and you can see in his body language that everything he says at that moment comes from this very real and honest place. it's not calculated, it's not just him trying to make buck feel better about his own feelings of jealousy. it's personal to tommy, honest, real, even a little uncomfortable as it takes a bit of effort but tommy says it anyway because he genuinely feels like he can be vulnerable with buck about this because buck has been vulnerable with him. it's like the truest moment of connection between two people.
#sure yes he's emotionally matured everything leading up to that (him coming over to buck's to clear the air#reassuring him etc.) are proof of him being emotionally mature but this admission is not just that#i dont think this is something tommy could tell anyone as he's done with buck so quickly#that inexplicably feeling of clicking with someone on an emotional plane goes both ways#every day i tell myself not to read too deep into bucktommy scenes lest i set myself up for s8 but it's so hard man#their every scene has been so beautiful and so meaningful#in 20 mins they established something that reads so special to me idk how to be normal about it#911#bucktommy#tevan#kinley#911 abc#tommy kinard#dailykinley#mimi.txt
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An Unsexy Post About Censorship
Sooo...gumroad is shutting down NSFW content sales because of Stripe and Paypal. This is also why Wishtender has been down as well, if you weren't aware. And why Patreon is also cracking down on anything remotely kinky.
(If you're wondering why your favorite FICTIONAL sexual content isn't allowed on most platforms, it's payment processors.)
Please be extra kind to anyone who works with NSFW content right now, whether it be art, writing, audio, photos or video. Whether it be tasteful erotica, or the kinkiest BDSM porn you can think of, we're all in the crosshairs right now.
And, judging by trends from these past few years, this is only going to get worse.
Support NSFW creators where you can, whether by tipping or buying our content (where you still can) or just helping boost content on sites where algorithms want to drown us out.
Call representatives where you can and complain about payment processors acting as arbiters of what YOU are and aren't allowed to pay for and enjoy.
This may be about porn right now, but censorship of this caliber doesn't just stop with porn. Any transgressive (read: non-conservative) media is fair game.
Fight against it where you can. Support creators where you can.
Art is important. Reflections of our sexuality are important. We don't want a world where people aren't free to make or see the things they love and enjoy.
#nyxrambles#Warning: I'm going to get kind of grim in the tags so peace out of you have to.#This bums me out so fucking hard!#I have artist friends who are struggling because their content suddenly goes against these stupid fucking guidelines!#I'm going to have to take my stuff off of Gumroad even though it was previously allowed!#It's hard to not feel like everything is just spiraling toward fascism sometimes yanno?#I am usually opposed to slippery slope arguments but the goal of moral conservativism is to destroy everything that isn't in line with it.#They will not stop until the world reflects their narrow ideals. Like...that's the whole point of it!#Sorry guys I'm just having a rough one.#Between this and being sick for months I'm getting pretty fucking Done.#I'll be okay but I'm not going to pretend it isn't hard and scary.
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#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza series#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#ichiban kasuga#masato arakawa#ryo aoki#snap sketches#edit: two versions cause im indecisive about everything ever#this one goes out to anon ..... hi ....#Truly ask really did just. make me wanna draw em LMAO#idk why i decided they should get takoyaki afterwards but idk. best thing to do before you go to jail vjaLRKVKE#tbh i just know that whenever i was upset my sis would take me out to get food#it wasnt often since shes not home much but on the off chance she caught me on a bad day we'd always get ice cream or somn#ironically my sister's coming home from a trip later today and my sister's always been my best friend tbh so. funny timin for this doodle#i wont go on a mile long tangent like i usually do so ill just say my sister's really cool and important to me and i cant wait to see her#def why y7 hits hard for me ..... the FAMILY bro ........ beating aoki with a metal pipe as we speak#nuff of that tho. for now i sleep for ten seconds bye everyone
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Me, talkign to my friends: yeah theres this neat action film coming out soon that dev patel stars in/wrote/directed, i hope its fun
Me, going into the theater: im ready to have a good time, hopefully this will be like bullet train and have some cool visuals and fun acting :)))
Me, exiting the theater:
IN THAT ORDER
#monkey man#ive already watched it another 2 times#im not normal about this movie#i will have it on dvd that is a promise#i love it when people have a project they put their everything into#its so beautiful#dev patel#i was breaking down the lighting on each scene in the theater#dev patel my beloved#let this man cook#he deserves it#hijra rep goes hard#minrorities SHOULD get to rip open their oppressors with a khadga while dressed as a goddess of time and destruction#as a treat
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Why is it taped to the locker like a pipe bomb ????
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#costco department manager solas#the Costco au#anders tries so hard tbh#but everything he says always comes out so wrong#he’s so cringe and earnest tbh#like bro needs to learn to keep some of his feelings on the inside#and listen#the forklift thing?#That was an ACCIDENT#he didn’t try to run anders over on purpose!!!#allegedly#The kick me sign was on purpose tho#the poor bastard#no one likes him enough to tell him about it#Also anders handwriting is literally so bad he has doctor handwriting#and fenris can barely read#also Anders goes by Anders but his name is Kevin Anderson#Does fenris know any of that? Of course not#dragon age au#dragon age 2#fenris dragon age#anders dragon age#fenders#dragon age fanart#DAcostco#noble art
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I was thinking back to the post I made about ebooks being so much more accessible for so many people compared to paperbacks/hardbacks and the other thing I wanted to add is the vast, vast majority of the time, the author gets so much more profit comparatively for an ebook than a paperback/hardback.
That's not a problem for huge huge huge authors either way, but for small-time authors, or authors with small publishing houses, the difference in profits can sometimes be $2.00 or $3.00 per ebook sold vs. $0.50c or $1.00 per paperback. Really. You pay more, but the author gets a lot less.
In the case of indie authors like myself, ebooks give the highest returns always.
This isn't necessarily something most readers think about, but I have had readers assume that because the book format cost them more, that automatically means more goes to the author. In fact it's often the opposite. There are very few exceptions (university texts come to mind). But in the case of your run-of-the-mill indie fiction, if you genuinely want the most profit to go to the author, get the ebook.
#asks and answers#ebooks more than any other format - audio / paperback / hardback#almost always return profits the fastest#it's hard to explain#but yeah that's how it goes#there are exceptions just like#there are exceptions to everything#also the most expensive format for any author is audio#this is why so many indie authors are straight up using Gen-AI to produce audiobooks#a novel costs around $4000-6000 USD to record in audio#and most indie novels only ever make $1000 over their lifetime if that#for many authors they are either vanity projects#or they thought they'd earn out the loss and then realise just how broke they are#for all that accessibility is extremely important#audiobooks and the cost have killed indie careers#keep it in mind before asking an author to create an audiobook#that's only ever going to sell about 50 copies sdlakfjdas
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something something blood-soaked hands cradling your face something something
anyway here's the post btw
#what if post dp3 logan struggles to emotionally accept that wade Will Actually For Real Survive Anything#and one time they are fighting some random baddies#and they somehow get in a few shots straight to wade's cranium and he drops like a bag of slutty slutty potatoes#and logan goes full berserker trying to get to him#like he just massacres everyone in his way and wade still isnt getting up ohnoohnoohnonotagainohno#(healing factor or no a few direct shots to the brain stem/t box take a bit to recover from)#(no more than five minutes but it's an eternity to logan)#and his heart sinks to the very core of the earth as he kneels down next to wade's body#and his hands are shaking and soaked in blood and he can't seem to sheathe his claws in his dazed adrenalined state#he tries to peel back wade's mask and fear is just *pounding* through his system because in that moment#all he can see are the xmen dead in massive pools of blood#and that feeling of unreality is rushing over him like thiscantbehappeningthiscantbehappeningnotagainohgodnotagain#wade's still and unresponsive and there is so Much BLOOD (hard to tell how much is Wade's and how much is just on his hands)#and logan doesn't even realize he's crying until suddenly wade's eyes light up like a computer restarting#and he's smiling and gasping and joking immediately#“well howdy there hot stuff what did I miss?”#and then he clocks that logan is Not Okay#“... well gee willikers golly goddamn peanut 'twas only a flesh wound! no need to go all waterworks over lil ol me”#“you know it would take a helluva lot more than that to make me shuffle off this here mortal coil!”#“see all better I'm hunky dory peachy keen right as fucking rain”#“I mean cmon I can't have been out for more than five minutes so let's just go back to you being exasperated with my bullshit antics okay??#“...okay sugarboobs? snookums? babycakes?.... Logan?”#and they just sit there on the floor holding each other for a while#wade babbling and logan crying about everything he's lost and wondering distantly how he has come to care so much#about this blithering jokester in like barely a week#that the thought of losing him brought him crashing back to the worst memory of his extremely rough life#anyway that's enough tag mini fic lolol I'm having feelings about my own drawing I guess 😵#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine art
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me finding out there’s no fics for kyle gallner and that he’s married all in the same day
#kyle gallner#dinner in america#x reader#fics#the passenger#jennifer’s body#smile#i’m devastated#he’s just SOOOOO hot#this is unfair#this is cruel#how can i get over him if i cant read everything about him and live out my fantasies#i need fics before i die#hyper fixation goes hard#i will think about him for the next ten months if i can’t read something#somebody help me#😫😫😫😫#i’m not surprised he’s married#he’s too hot to be alone#good for them i guess 🧍♀️🚗#the way he is in interviews TOO? if i was his wife i’d be sweating#or i’d be so proud that he picked me#he’s so flirty#and gorgeous#and his smile#omg#i’m in love#i need a man like him irl#or i need to be institutionalised
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I guess that kid ended up eating his fair share of good soup, too.
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#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#tails the fox#miles tails prower#sonic au#sonic fanart#sonic fancomic#story mode#soup goes with everything; especially exposition#dude. backgrounds are so hard to keep consistent#but i'm doing them anyway!!#anyhow. tails :]
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