#and every time I do I just wanna scream
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I. Finally. Fucking. Got. A. Yarn. Spinner-winder-thing.
#it’s a lifesaver honestly#I’ve been into crocheting for like#a year#but I’ve been REALLYYY into it lately#like#I’m making plushies n shit#lowkey proud of myself 🤭#but like#the yarn was always#and I mean ALWAYS#tangled.#it’s always gotten on my nerves#but recently#it’s REALLY getting on my nerves#cause like#I’ll be in the middle of a body or limb or sumn#and there’s a giant mess of a knot#and you know#I try to fix it#but I make it worse#and every time I do I just wanna scream#lol#anyway#sorry for the rambles but thank you for listening#:)
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"shipping saiki is aphobic because he's aroace!"
stares at you with my demiromantic asexual in a committed relationship eyes then looks at the camera like im in the office
#good thing those folks have yet to find their way into my inbox or id be at risk of embarrassing myself lol#if you wanna see more of the content you prefer...make it yourself :3 MAKE IT YOUR FUCKING SELF lol#youre so attached to the idea youll complain about it but you refuse to do anything about it even create works that you and others will sur#ly enjoy how does this even make sense#sorry for reviving this from the dead when it blessfully hasnt been a thing in the tag for a hot moment but im still irritated hahahah#seriously you know what that screams to me? virtue signalling. you wont do anything except say a few words every now and again like#the motivation starts and ends at appealing to the popular opinion. earn your brownie points. and do nothing.#what is your care made of? thoughts and prayers?#every time ive asked one of these people why they dont make the content themselves the response has been 'i shouldnt have to lol'#you shouldnt have to bully people either with your aphobic BS but look at you! aw~#yall dont wanna commit to shit you just want to tell other people how they should exist.#if you cant create for whatever reason you better be ready and willing to drop your rec list and fave artists. and i sure as shit hope your#complimenting them thoroughly.
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So I've been playing Star Rail and from what I've seen, basically the main trio are SIBLINGS. I love them.
#honkai star rail#SO MUCH SIBLING ENERGY#the MC is a fucking raccoon#looking for shit in trashcans#and March and Dan Heng just WATCH in disgust and horror#hsr dan heng#hsr march 7th#hsr mc#hsr stelle#i wanna draw them all doing goofy shit now#im still halfway through the game no spoilers plz#the mc is UNHINGED btw did I mention the fucking CLOSET#found family is my KRYPTONITE#every time Dan Heng looks exasperated at March#or when March judges us#or when Dan Heng is a loser nerd boi#i point and scream FAMBLY FAMBLY FAMBLY#cant forget himeko and welt who are parents but like in a 'we are not together and will never be but we are still your parents' way idk#tax breaks or something#their group chat is called the 'ASTRAL EXPRESS FAMILY' I WILL DIE#FOUND FAMILY FOUND FAMILY FOUND FAMILY
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Odd Squad agents in Tiny Time Travel and Dino Dana -> thanks to @serendertothesquad for the heads up!
#odd squad#tiny time travel#dino dana#odd squad pbs kids#odd squad gifs#edits in the palace#gifs in the palace#cameos#easter eggs#I learned so many new things today#I freaking watched ttt a few days ago and never noticed this cameo???#and then I learn that there were os agents in dino dana too???#AND there is a meta joke about the multiverse???#TIM MCKEON JJ JOHNSON I JUST WANNA TALK#odd squad extended universe#if I had a nickel#for every time an odd squad creator had odd squad agents walking in the background of one of their other live action shows#I would have two nickels#like I knew about soundcheck existing in dino dana#but to have actual agents??? in both dino dana and tiny time travel#just WOW#also the odd squad leitmotif started playing in the background of the dino dana clip#THEY KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING#just AHHHHH#SCREAMING
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making a collection
making another collection with a threatening aura
#davy back fightbpart 3 letsgo#HOW do the three big guns get wasted on the eating contest... horrible plan.... luffy is fine bc well... but not sanji and zoro like damn.#luffy DOESNT WANNA EAT??? CALL THE NAVY!!!!#what was i saying.... bad idea putting the three beasts there#FRANKY FRANKY FRANKY!!!! they captured the two princesses :(#one sided beef squashed between luffy and foxy. friendship ended with random ex marine guy. now luffy is my best friend#usopp and franky bonding time hell yeah. throw usopp by the head once more pelase#nami with zoros swords just like holding them looks so cool like she should get a few swords too... nami three sword style oda drawing pls#i think this man underestimates nami and luffys power together he doesnt know about shiki#luffy saying he knows its a trap and sorry for being late.... lets go on an adventure all nine of us.... usopp yes anding his lie..... omg#cant believe nami isnt there yet. she could take this guy. oh there she is!!!!! she does look cool with the swords and jumping to get luffy#zoro screaming in agony from luffy getting shot omg THIS FUCKING GUY OF COURSE!!! this looks like its so over#zoro and sanji must feel so useless rn. they didnt even get the chance to fight like damn#komei-kakka??? more like come caca. boom#luffy face down dead on the floor akdjkaa chopper have you tried looking at the wound to see if it harmed him idk#it hit the face akdjskn usopp that was coom also#was robin flirting with the other guy and zoro caught her and she told hum to shut up???#'your friends got the best of me but you are still in my arms an-' 'HEAT EGG!! ALSO YOU'RE ON FIRE!'#flare maneauver that was so slay also luffy and nami in the same frame so twins of them. my children. birthed them one right after the othe#zoro and sanji fighting back to back. back to back to back to you i dont wanna fall right back to us maybe you should run right back to her#that is such a bop song. also post wano zosan. and post wci. see the recurrent theme#fighting in water.... being on top of the sword that was a slay... red hawk ace i will never forget you it seems#foxy liking his jolly roger omg nami fooled him ahdhsjs i think they should have pirate game event every year they yearn for contests#now since this experience foxy should make monthly multitudinary pirate games olympics hoping the strawhats join them a la gatsby#the faces at the mushroom akdhaksjs#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies#kinda loved how robin betted on franky against usopp.... i will take the crumbs
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Okay I think that’s it now
#ngl Buck chasing after that dude screaming I just wanna talk was the highlight of my day#why did he do that#evan buckley#911 abc#911 fandom#9 1 1 on abc#eddie diaz#Christopher and Carla are national treasures#chimney han#maddie buckley#buckley siblings#we are very passionate about the Buckley family#if I had a penny for every time one of us said WHO SAID THAT after saying smth stupid#I would have like five or however the thing goes
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okay what i have to say is lowkey embarrassing but i wanna bitch and it’s probably only embarrassing to me bc im shy about this stuff anyways the moral of the story is i wanna bitch and u should probably just ignore me. god bless
#honestly halfway through the wedding i did see this guy i thought was rlly cute#like. REALLY cute (so fucking embarrassing)#but i’m too shy to talk to hot people and i’ve never approached anyone before and no one’s ever approached me so i don’t know what to do#idk how to talk to people to begin with let alone like. try to flirt or something#but as the night went on (this is so embarrassing) for some reason i literally couldn’t stop looking at him (kill me)#and he probably definitely noticed me looking at him so he probably thinks im some like. crazy creep or something#but like usually when i see someone attractive im just like oh wow and admire them from afar#but i COULDNT STOP LOOKING AT HIM! WHY! and for some reason i felt like i just really wanted to talk to him#but i didn’t know what to do! i just felt this urge to go try and start a conversation but i just. i couldn’t#and every time i thought i would work up the courage either my sister or my grandmother would come back and hover over me#and i didn’t wanna be like ‘sorry gotta go i need to go embarrass myself in front of this cute guy’#OR he would get up and start taking pictures again. it’s like he knew#he wasn’t even the official photographer he was just one of the guests who clearly wanted to take photos of his friends wedding. which like#is so endearing to me. he has HOBBIES. WOW. (kill me)#idk j can’t even put everything into words i just feel like screaming into a pillow AAAAAAUGHHH#i felt like i was in hs again there was a point i even excused myself to step outside just because he was out there#but he was talking to some old lady. so i was just sitting outside in the grass moping#i feel so stupid i dunno. why am i so worked up about this. i had a few opportunities to approach him and i didnt. because im an idiot#i feel like i’m down so bad which is so STUPID because i don’t even know his name and ill never see him again in my life#so it doesn’t even matter! and every time im like oh oh well it was just random infatuation clearly it wasn’t meant to be#but then i just get upset and all blushy cause he was SO CUTE! and i wanna know more about him! why!#i haven’t felt like this in FOREVER i just feel so stupid for even feeling this way#i know ill be fine in a few days or something but im just like. i wish i could have at least spoken to him once#sigh. idk what’s wrong with me#maybe he’s already dating someone anyways all the cute people seem to already be in relationships#except ME im the only one left. who am I supposed to date!!#i want to jump out the window#snow.txt
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minedai yaoi could heal me
#snap chats#i love. the bastardized use of yaoi and its weird life cycle in vernacular over the years. has anyone noticed that <- of course we have#this post aint bout that tho anyway.#i just got back to my dorm and //screams//#WHATEVER all of thats done with ... still irritated .... but just one more week then i dont have to room with these people ever again#while i was driving i was thinking of this minedai fic i wanted to do but then i was like 'what if i wanted to do a comic of it'#i do this literally every time like how many times have i typed a variant of those tags i need to be shot yesterday#POINT IS. minedai yaoi could make me not aggro i think. i will think of writing this and then when i do ill let it rot in my docs#im going to bed in like twenty minutes i just wanna play a little minecraft first 💀💀💀 still .....#ok bye
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with how the splat 3 fanbase is acting about splatfests, you'd think there's something real and tangible on the line and not like, superficial bragging rights and a few extra snails. idk why people are sitting here and getting angry at shiver as if she's a real person who has any actual will to do anything and not just pixels on a screen, especially when there are legitimate issues with how splatfests are designed and run in splat3, and that's the devs and nintendo's fault, not shiver. she's not real and she can't do anything to you. and i've seen way more complaining about the concept of "toxic shiver stans who always pick shiver and ruin it for everyone" than i have any actual evidence that these kind of people exist on a mass scale. it really feels like that kind of person is a guy that the fanbase made up to be mad at every time they lose. i agree that there are huge problems with splat 3 but the moment someone lays the blame on shiver they throw all credibility out the window. it's not shiver, there's no evil cult of shiver stans manipulating the splatfests, and don't get me started on how people are talking about the asian playerbase with these splatfests.
#luminiscore#splatfest#splatoon 3#listen guys. ive been playing since splat 1. and let me tell you. even then it wasn't as bad as this#*old man voice* back in my day callie won almost every splatfest and we liked that JUST FINE. ok we didn't#but judging from numbers of past splatfests majority of the player base DOES pick based on what they like best and not the idol#so idk why im seeing people call for idols to be dettached from splatfest thats not gonna change the issues with balance#like i hate to break it to you all but majority of the splatoon player base are casuals who are not deep in the fandom if at all#and they do not care about what your ideas of fairness are. they just wanna play#and its stuff like. i think a lot of you seriously underestimate how popular stuff like vanilla ice cream is. it's not shiver#im just amazed and baffled by all the hatred and vitriol directed at shiver bc ive never seen this before with splatfest discourse#the WAHHH (insert winning team here) IS FULL OF EVIL SPAWN CAMPERS excuse is as old as time and should not be listened to. sorry#and in no world in a pvp game will the enemy roll over and let you win and play “fair” bc you want them to. thats not how it works#and i despise how whinging and screaming from a small and super toxic section of the fandom is poisoning discourse for casuals#touching grass isn't enough some of you guys need to start a garden
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im fully aware that i need to stop forcing myself to engage with every new sonic thing immediately and finish it as quickly as possible . im working on that. but why did my first time having to actively practice being okay with being a little late to a major new sonic thing end up being a game i was looking forward to way more than any of the other new or upcoming sonic projects from the past year or so . tragic
#well i guess i didnt just now start having to do this ive been Pretending I Do Not See It with the movie stuff for a little while now#but thats differenttttt#funny how when the sonic generations remaster got leaked i was like ummmm. literally who cares#and then when it came out that shadow was gonna be majorly involved i was apprehensive#but the first trailer immediately changed my mind and i screamed in surprise/excitement when i saw dooms eye#and my excitement only grew more and more as time went on ...#i still dgaf about the sonic generations remaster part though sorry#anyway. at least i know my copy of the game + journal are safe and waiting for me when i get back#for reference i have been watching/reading/playing like every new sonic thing immediately when it comes out since like 2018#the only things ive missed i think are a couple spinoff comics that didnt catch my interest but i did read most of them eventually#and also games that were rereleases that didnt add enough new content for me to wanna buy them#so being 2 whole days late to a new sonic game . on top of not getting early access. painful
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#Ignore me#4 months is quickly coming up... 4 months since Alec died#Every moment of every day I'm at a loss for what to do#And how to behave#Keeping myself busy at work is nice. I have#To be forced to use my brain other ways and do things#But by the end of the day I'm so unbelievably exhausted#I'm just masking as a happy-okay person.#I spend the quiet time at work rotating this new reality#It's exhausting to pretend to be okay#But what else am I supposed to do?#It's not fair to the people around me to constantly be on the brink of crying.#To be sad and quiet and idk. I don't want their pity or sad looks#But sometimes I do just wanna scream#I don't always want to hear about their recent adventures#I want to curl up in a ball because my regrets are eating me from the inside out#I fucked up an important part of my life because I'm a coward and#I was juggling too many trashfires in my life to deal with the messy place#We left our friendship. I thought there was time. There should've been time.#A whole lifetime to figure it out. Make things worse. Make things better.#To be happy#And now he's dead and none of it matters#I'm supposed to live the rest of my life now#I don't know how to do that anymore#Nothing feels right or real#Every atom of my being keeps raging against the truth#He's gone#The sweet boy that would make me laugh... share my love of myth & language...#Carry me bridal style... kiss every inch of my face... kiss the palm of my hand#And then hold it to his chest to fall asleep....
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I am Obsessed with my running route here
#please#this is so distracting#i stopped like 10 times today just to take pictures and they don't even capture how pretty it actually is#(and yes I'm obsessed with that one bridge. it's how far i usually run so i see it every day and i will miss it so so much)#i usually run only a bit more than 5 kilometers but today i did 10 and i really wanna do that again while I'm still here#solely for the view#void screams#korea#seoul
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I must know why Blaine hates bmo this is crucial information. please
well see i just thought it would be funny if like
if like. like. all of finn and jakes other lives start with B and S (beth and shermy? shoko and. bchubby tiger? butterfly and something. idk. blai--)
#bmo just frantically goes around blasting everyone he can reach with Regression Simulator every single time finn and jake die#he couldnt reach wizard city so he stood outside it screaming until people wandered out#you dont even wanna know how long this comic actually is.#larrys past lives were like. random sheep farmer. Useless.#blaine has no use for past life memories and is just mad at bmo for bringing them to their mind.#theyre. like. twelve. cmon. what are they supposed to do with this knowledge.#ok im done. silly au. finn and jake were totally in wizard city (hbo special) see :D#asks#mispelled#the 'blaine is a reincarnation' thing is silly au but i really do vibe with bmo tracking down his friends in a panic every single time#SOMEONE else has to remember them right. they cant be gone fr fr right. cmon. ok im done#au
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#poster; edward#poster; flash#every single time he went “oooooh” or “ILL BE RIGHT BACK 🧟” in the movie i looked at the screen like that he’s just like me fr meme#asexual trans culture is drawing the guy shirtless not because hot but because top surgery scars#a little cause hot#i wanna do a finished piece of them#scream#scream movie#stu and billy#stu macher#billy loomis#stuilly#frequentlyposts
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reading is… frustrating. I first read this thing when I was in an all too foggy state, I’ll think, so I didn’t really absorb it all too well — I’d best read it again and really make sure to take it all in. And so I do, and I really do take it all in! Except then I’ll be all too foggy to read for a few days, and when I get back to it and continue on to the next chapter I’ll just have. Completely forgotten what happened in the last. Makes you feel rather defenceless to the fog
#sigh#it’s like. What do i even Do. Make personal little summaries of everything I read?#like yeah i Guess#but that would require rereading again…#which isnt bad in and of itself… i do enjoy the stuff i read. but it’s a really frustrating feeling to go over the same things seemingly -#- over and over again and none of it sticks#ultimately proof that even on good and less foggy days i still have so so so much brain fog#i was gonna do a little fic rereading to pass the time until i get off work#but i forgot which chapter i was even on and just That frustrated me to the point it really put me#off the whole thing. mostly wanna cry now#i hate this shit i really do#z talks#im gonna go cry in the work bathroom now. but you didnt hear me say that ahah#also i think part of what makes the summary idea feel so frustrating is just. still the internalised ableism…#it’s. i hate that this is what i’m like now (had to fight to not phrase that in a meaner way lol)#and every accommodation i make for myself is a reminder of just that#especially something like this — my brain fog is the thing i hate the absolute most about my current state#it makes everything. absolutely Everything. frustrating#as funny as it is to be haha a little stupid in the friend group i hate it so much it makes me want to fucking Scream. anyway
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"oh healing from trauma is easy, you just gotta [15 things that are inaccessible to you] and then keep working at it 😇"
#borbtalks#locking myself in a box to scream#how can i build a life worth living if my body won't let me#like babe i can only shower every other day !! im physically limited in how much i can do !!#and the rest of the time im just stuck in bed !!!!#i dont wanna just spend my life only being able to do 20 min of a hobby before needing to rest#i dont want this !!! i was supposed to do more !!!#i was supposed to be *healthy* !!! the only fucking reason i decided at 18 and 19 and 20 to keep going is bc of my future#why the fuck did i not go through with [redacted] if this is what happened. was it fuckihg worth it? to stay alive? just to suffer?#besties i dont know how much longer i can survive in this house. why do i need to keep fighting.#when am i allowed to just. give up.#(disclaimer: not in any danger. am just upset & yelling)
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