#and doing so makes me vvv anxious

[whsprings]

my team keeps asking what the status of my admission is and. I don't know. most if not all of my labs are back idk what my pcp is waiting for

[tonightforever]

VvV | ———

Raveri Nektyn. Essentially an adult, especially on account of my impressive maturity.

My blood colour is obvious, I gladly serve the empire. I do not appreciate insults or harassment against myself or any superiors of mine. My eyes are like that, yes. I cry copious amounts of blood, yes. Its status as a mutation means nothing as the empire has let me live regardless, and I appreciate it for that.

I do aim to make acquaintances during my time here, only so that I may potentially have a pastime that isn't struggling to debug my latest errors. Programming on my dryware computers is a hobby of mine. I do not have long to live, so it is all I can do without being bound to my duties.

Do not interact if you are here to release information about myself. Do not interact if you are going to take light jabs at my medicully supervised sopor intake. It is normal. Do not interact if you can hurt me. do not interact if you can.hurt me

——— | VvV

As before, run by @salty-ooc. Very anxious to be back in the saddle, very very anxious. I love interactions but I am ... really scared of some parts of this site. Even more now. Very scared. Sorry.

He's 8 sweeps old.

[hellowyelloww]

Last set of entities are finished !!

Headcanons are below!

Hellow, I’ll be now accepting questions and doodle requests either for the entities, my headcanons on them, or for me :) I rlly like to talk to yall

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A timid and anxious Curious Light

Curious Light is capable of doing the crucifix power, it just doesn’t know that idea yet.

Curious Light did interact with the Rooms entities but rather stays distant to them and watches them.

60’s aura is always really hot compared to Ambush, but rather appearing through emotions it’s just normal like that. Strong emotions makes it MORE hot where players’ hands get turned to ashes.

60 doesn't always have a bright red, burning, glitchy appearance. Its aura wasn’t an aura, rather it was once dark red, 60 was hairy (like Dupe) and with no glitches.

60 is the first Rooms entity to “break in” the Hotel, it was confused how it got here until it was banished back to their realm by Glitch. Glitch gave 60 an odd effect on their body after being teleported back.

90 doesn’t mind the Rooms entities a lot, but it doesn’t like 60 even more.

90 is the newest denizen in the Rooms

Sudden movements, touch or any action (even to the entities) makes 90 flinched and glitched a lot, so nearly most entities have to directly call 90 before sudden action.

Short 90 lol

90, like Halt, also owns a stop sign

A-90 🤝 Halt: Stop sign wielders

omg I made 120 into art……

120 is a rlly good sketch artist, it likes drawing a lot. It also likes to write for books either about fairytales, dark stories, romance, or history. Sometimes it does origami too.

120 has a sketch book filled with crude and impressively detailed drawings. Some of the drawings has a dark meaning to it.

120 once (and only once) drew Cat (the neko kind) Seek and Figure in a rlly realistic look on a piece of paper.

As you can see, that small creature looks like some sort of tortoise. Small Snares break off the greenhouse floor tiles and bury themselves in and cover their shells with dirt.

That human looking Snare is the owner or like the mother of the smaller ones.

The big and small Snares put delicate care of the flowers in the greenhouse and they’ll be strict about it if Rush, Ambush or Screech comes in. Eyes doesn’t reck the place, so Snares wouldn’t mind them.

Not much about Shadow honestly, it just likes to dangle around places. It suddenly disappears with the flickering lights when a player comes where it is. It doesn’t like to be seen my trespassers.

Shadow was unsure of itself if its being a good parent to Sally. Rush or Hide assured Shadow is doing great there.

Shadow has met and talked to Bob alive once (before El Goblino)

Void doesn’t have a physical body, unless u count its eyes as its physical body. Imagine your in a dark room and see a pair of white eyes and you tried to shine your light at it and it’s just gone. That ain’t Screech, Screech was also freaked out about this too

(btw, this is my first time drawing these entities in my style)

[rantyraven]

hey tumblr 

this is a little weird for me. but I feel like documenting my emotions and my trials and errors with this issue will help motivate me to actually making progress on it. for about a year and a half now I've been struggling incredibly hard with a weed addiction that I'm struggling to find a support system for. most of my closest friends not only smoke it daily as well, but are firm believers in the “it’s impossible to get addicted to weed” motto. based on their attitudes and actions tho, they’re just not self aware. looking thru tags on here have made me feel less alone and more validated that there is something wrong with me -- that there’s a reason I feel like I'm struggling so bad.

I hate who I am with weed. I feel so entirely useless and unmotivated to do anything. I miss the old me, the me that didn’t know the meaning of procrastination, who exercised daily, who actually completed projects, who actively practiced writing. I can feel my brain rotting away and I hate myself for letting this happen. 

I know this will be a long rant post and I don’t wanna clog any timelines so ---------vvv

my experience with weed didn’t begin until I was 24 when my partner brought stuff home from a dispensary out of state. back then it was fun and something I only did once in awhile. I remember how I couldn’t imagine how anyone could enjoy participating daily -- it was too much for me and I often felt hungover the next day. then I abused it during my final semester of graduate school -- the excuse was I needed to smoke to help my artistic expression. but soon I wasn’t working on my creative projects on weed anymore. I was entertaining manic episodes and busy being emotional and paranoid. the longer I smoke the more I feel like a rotting fat corpse. every day I'm desperate to stop but I still choke down 3-4 joints and maybe a bowl or two. I get anxious early in the day to smoke if there’s nothing else to distract me, or if I feel too lazy to do anything. but, the moment I smoke I feel the strength to stop and feel the shame of already fucking up before I could start. it’s so ridiculous that I only feel the motivation to completely quit weed only after just having smoked. 

god I'm so desperate to quit. I want my old life back. I want the old me. I want to live a normal life again and feel the ambition and drive and passion that I used to feel over the project ideas I have. I have so much potential to be successful and I feel crippled by this fucking drug. I hate that I can’t even confide in my friends without them interpreting my journey as some kind of better-than-thou bullshit. 

I want to quit so badly but I don’t know where to start. I've never even smoked cigarettes before so I have no experience quitting a substance that has such a grip on your life. 

I would love to receive some advice or support. maybe anyone else on here who’s in the boat with me, who also wants to work on their sobriety. I've tried and retried on my own over and over and always fail. if anything, I hope using this as a vent space for my frustrations as a quit, or if I fail again. what are some of the best ways to help distract from the craving to smoke?

[cleosven]

Wednesday’s Stalker

To me the stalker seems too interested in Wednesday specifically, and that makes me anxious, like they are trying to trick her, or us as an audience. 

Essay with 4 parts below vvv

Misbeliefs: 

And all of Wednesday’s misbeliefs kind of rub off on us as an audience, because we are seeing this world through her point of view. And it feels like this stalker thing is playing right into Wednesday’s misbeliefs about herself and the world.

On of the big ones, is she chronically puts people in boxes. That’s why so many people still underestimate Enid’s personality as just ‘bubbly’ like Wednesday did originally, even though she has proven to be far more complex. And also why people still act like Tyler is evil, when that’s just what Wednesday was seeing because she see’s things in black and white and felt betrayed, but not what the facts of the show were stating. 

Another one of Wednesday’s core misbeliefs is that she is at the center of everything, and that’s why she missed so many clues along the way, like why Xavier was closed off, why Tyler was interested in her, or why Weems or Kinbott had literally any emotions or goals. She thought these were all reactions to her presence, when they weren’t. 

Her Ego:

Unfortunately, the fact that the last bad guy’s plan actually did revolve around her really didn’t help that misbelief, and it may have actually strengthened it. Now I feel like that self-centered world view is about to be exploited. 

This stalker appears to be setting up some sort of Sherlock/Moriarty-esqe game, which plays to her ego so well. She writes all those mystery novels, because she likes playing the role Sherlock, so of course she will be intrigued with the idea of a criminal mastermind counterpart. 

Is the stalker just a stalker?

I still don’t get why anyone would specifically target Wednesday in this kind of way genuinely? Like are they just some crazy individual stalking her, or is it a part of a bigger sneaky plan?

Sending those texts alerts her to the fact that there is a threat, which might mean they want her to come to them. And it uses the silly bit-mojii style thing, which makes the stalker look like someone young. Maybe they are young, or maybe they just want her to think that, so that when she comes looking for them, she underestimates them. 

And getting her phone number? Do we know if that is actually difficult in a world with both high tech stuff, and fancy magic? Either way, it makes them seem powerful and techy. Which they very well could be, but maybe that’s just what they want her to think. 

Bad guys we know of:

We know Willowhill is a bad guy group in this world, but I feel like they wouldn’t be the type to send this stalker message. They have their own goals of experimenting on outcasts, but why would they want Wednesday? Do they want to lure her in, and get her powers? Or do they want her friends powers? Do they actually think of her as a threat, and therefore they want to distract her with mind games?

One thought I had, that I’ve seen others get to, is that the stalker could be Bianca. She was in both the Weathervane and the Nevermore lobby when the pictures were taken. And she could be doing it for her mom’s Morning Song cult, because she doesn’t want to be outed for sirening her way into school. But what would a group of failing sirens want with Wednesday Addams? Money? Her powers? Her blood to unlock yet another Addams family spell? None of these motivations seem particularly likely, although it’s fairly likely she took the pictures.  

So maybe it really is Enid just playing a prank on her. Maybe Bianca, Xavier and Enid got together to plan this whole thing. Maybe the ‘stalker’ is just a hook the writers set up for us as an audience to overanalyze so that we are more likely to miss the other clues available to us, and this whole stalker thing will be resolved in the first episode of s2. 

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What do you guys think? Who is the stalker, and what do they want from playing this game with Wednesday? 

[angeloftrumpets]

gonna babble on dis blog about the movie cause i have so many emotions it literally healed me so WARNING FNAF MOVIE SPOILERS vvv

this might be a little lengthy and thats okay but ill try to explain this as fast as possible, i didnt originally think i would watch it but something randomly made me decide to and also i was like "hey! i can do this in my costume and it will be fun!!" so i booked my ticket and ykyk, but the thing is when i was little i really disliked fna.f because of my christian upbringing (my mom found out about it, didnt like it and deemed it "satanic" and told me to fight for god and save people from liking such an 'evil' series, and i did, i said horrible things to people when i was little for just simply liking it and even things similar, after a bit i realized how wrong it was for me to just do that?? people were just having fun and not hurting anyone? so i stopped, but through out the years i still had a little sting when i saw anything related to it because i felt horrible, then more time passed and i eventually got casually intrested, enjoyed seeing things related to it and stuff like that, then the movie happened, and i just happened to decide to go, i was suuuper excited and happy the past week to see it, got a little anxious from some things i read about people not liking it but i genuinely thought the movie was fantastic, i wanted to see the anima.tronics be friendly and have fun and ultimately be good in the end, i wanted them to win, i love the dream sequences with mike because they felt soo surreal, that whole part of the movie alone i could go insane over. and van,essa. oh my god. i dont know too much about her but i loved her in the movie, her face, the betrayal on her face at getting stabbed, i bursted out crying at that scene, theres so many things i cant even begin to remember but i loved it, and i am happy to know my inner child has healed and ive finally forgiven myself for what my younger self did, i think the only thing id take away from here is: let people enjoy things, if its not morally wrong, or hurting anyone let people do it!! look at what it can lead to, its incredible how much of a difference it can make.

[saintobio]

Hi Saint! I finally got the courage to write you. I actually had a hard time knowing how to write this post because I don't know much about tumblr, I only use it to read your T-T fics. Anyway, I love Sn/Sy even though at first I was naive and even though there was angst I thought I would get through it without affect. Well, that was wrong T-T. I don't know how to describe it but at the same time I can't stop reading ( it's almost like an addiction ) and at the same time it makes me so sad because nothing happens the way I want it to. At the beginning of SY, I had hopes that Gojo and Y/N would be able to put things in order and that they would be able to start again from scratch, with obviously a little bit of anguish otherwise it's not funny ;)) but the more I progress in the readings the more I tell myself that we are far from that.

I try to read as much as possible the opinions of other readers and especially your answers and it makes me even more anxious. Many blame Satoru or even Y/N or the opposite, defend like good lawyers. Me, I'm neutral. I think they both hurt themselves a lot with either the cheating or the fake abortion. I don't know if I'm ready for the end of SY. I still don't know how I can hold on with my little heart x). I'm especially a bit revolted for the YN x Toji. I'm sorry but I just can't get over it! Gojo supremacy I say! Same thing for utahime, but still it's ok they're not engaged yet but still. I'm looking forward to the sequel and full of stress too. Thanks again for the work you're doing. The last chapter has upset me so much especially the end argh !!!! I'm still holding out hope for a y/n x gojo ending ( even if I have to pour out my entire bank account ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) ) I'm sorry for my crappy English ( I'm French oui oui baguette ) keep it up! Love u <3

thank you for reading and yeah i can understand where you’re coming from !! but i like that you’re neutral even tho it must be vvv hard not to take sides :D also, i only have 15 chapters for this sequel, but each of them will be very lengthy so you’re in for an angsty ride 😭

[iplaymatchmaker]

Wahhh your prompt matchups are such a cute idea! May I please request one for Ikevamp, with the prompts 5 (this sounds so interesting! Can I perhaps get Cinderella—balls make me soft) and 8 (i don’t drink, so my suitor would be the drunk one)? Take your time with this please, and take care!

Pronouns, MBTI, and Hogwarts House: I go by she/her, and I’m an ENTP-T Gryffindor (if I had the choice, I’d choose Slytherin tho).

Hobbies & Passion: I love English Literature (and general history), and I’m working to gain a PhD in the field as I’d love to talk with likeminded people about literary works. I also enjoy various sports, especially dancing, and baking, and writing... it’s hard to narrow down since I get distracted by other activities easily (Entp tingz)

Likes/Dislikes: I value honesty in relationships, even if the statements might be negative. Also, I like people that won’t disregard my physical boundaries—it takes me some time to accept physical affection from someone, but once I do open up, I can be vvv snuggly (if the other person is comfortable with it ofc). Beyond that, I believe you can work around lots of traits in a relationship if they aren’t too earth-shattering.

Attitude towards other people: Towards my loved ones, I’m very playful and loud, and I enjoy teasing the shit out of someone. While I’m blunt, I try to be softer around the people I love. I care a lot, so I can easily appear overbearing and annoying, I’m sure.

Towards strangers/acquaintances, however, I’m extremely critical, stubborn (except when someone actually brings a good argument), and argumentative (and it depends on my respect for them how harsh I will be). Mostly quiet, serious, and quick-witted. If my friends are around me tho, strangers will catch a glimpse of how loud and playful I can be.

Thank you so much for this in advance 💜💜💜

I match you with

Sebastian!

 Thank you so much for requesting! I’m sorry it took so long! I got a little carried away with the prompts, but I hope you like them. If I ever write a cinderella AU for Sebby, we will all know the origin story.  I based the second prompt off of the first one, which has a meet cute vibe to it. I know you didn’t request that, but it sort of happened as I was writing 😅. Anyways, thanks again, I really hope you enjoy this!❤❤❤

To be honest, after reading your ask, the beautiful token human butler was my only option. While many of the residents could probably match your wit, Sebby is the one who would actively challenge you.

When you first met, you two wouldn’t stop bickering. Comte considered splitting the housework so you two would have to work together as little as possible, but neither of you are about to give up on your daily arguments. There are still points to be made.

Despite how your relationship looks like from an outsider’s perspective, you both do enjoy each other’s company, even if you have convinced the rest of the mansion of the opposite. Sebastian enjoys having someone around who will question him, helping him improve in the process, even if he won’t admit to that.

It doesn’t take long for you to come across his obsession love of history. You may come across a certain notebook, but neither of you shall ever speak of that again.

After that fateful day your conversations shift towards the topic of history. After living in a mansion full of geniuses for so long, with only a notebook to share his fangirling admiration with, he is very excited to have someone to share his discoveries with. You two can often be heard comparing historical figures, trying to conclude who was more impactful in the long run, while somehow managing to cook for the entire mansion in the process.

When you two grow closer, you get more comfortable, allowing him to witness another side to you. And so the teasing begins. You can’t help yourself. Despite how put together he looks, he is not immune to you. His reaction is especially picture worthy when you flick him for the first time. His eyes wide with shock, gloved hand rubbing his forehead. It’s impossible not to laugh. Even Comte, who happens to be present, can be heard chuckling/

 Prompt 5: Fairytale AU:

When you entered the ballroom, all eyes turned to look at you. You hoped the eye catching dress would work in your favor later. You sighed before descending down the stairs, eyes scanning the room for the prince. This was the chance you had been waiting for. The chance to get away from your stepmother. All you needed to do was convince the prince you were special, special enough to consider marrying. Being an option would be enough to earn you a fresh start.

When your eyes fell on the young man, you discreetly made your way towards him, waiting for the right moment to strike conversation. When the music started playing, you saw him looking around for a partner. You moved swiftly, before more ambitious women noticed.

“Care to dance?” you looked him in the eye, determined to achieve your goal. He smiled before putting his hands around your waist, guiding you to the dance floor. Everyone’s attention was on you. You were worried one of your step sisters would notice you, despite you best attempts to disguise yourself. You needed to get him away quickly.

“I was surprised to see a prince look so lonely in a room full of people.” He didn’t seem to hear you, his gaze seemingly somewhere far away.

“Um, sir?” he didn’t reply. When the song changed he pulled away, head dipping once before walking away in a hurry. You stood there, alone, discarded by a prince himself. He hadn’t even batted an eyelash.  Frustration welled up inside you as you watched him walk away. So much time built up to this. Another loss.

“Would you mind giving me this dance?” a young man appeared in front of you, his hair a mixed shade between black and grey, depending on the angle you looked at it from. He seemed anxious.

“Sure.” You couldn’t hide the disappointment from your voice as he took your hand, the two of you falling back in line with the rest of the pairs.

“I am sorry I’m not the partner you hoped for. The prince is… not motivated to find a partner tonight.” His words were meant to be comforting, but in that moment you didn’t care about what the prince wanted. He was your ticket out and he had barely even looked at you.

“He could try to be more considerate. Some of us aren’t so privileged we can play hard to get.” You knew it was probably reckless to speak of the future king that way, but you didn’t care. It was over now.

“He is… complicated. But he did care enough to send me lighten your mood. Not sure how much of an apology that is.” The man almost sounded sad. You looked him over for the first time that night. He wasn’t dressed like the other nobles. Something about his face was familiar.

“Aren’t you the prince’s assistant?” when the realization hit you, you wanted to kick yourself in the foot.

“Yes. You don’t have to look so worried. I can’t blame you for your frustration.”  You couldn’t let yourself relax, knowing you had just insulted the prince in front of his right hand man.

“I apologize for my disrespect. I just…” your voice trailed off.

“Just?” you hesitated, unsure of whether or not you could trust him. That was when the song ended. You expected the man to walk away, but he led you to a less crowded corner of the room, not speaking up until you had some privacy.

“His majesty never agreed with this ball. It was his father who insisted. The pressure of an heir weighs heavy on his shoulders.” You had figured that much. A ball that gets organized with the purpose of finding a wife isn’t the most romantic start to a love story.

“We all have to make sacrifices. Marriage is more often than not, based on interest, not love.”

“So I can presume you didn’t come here today because of your feelings for the prince?” you nodded, knowing there wasn’t much you could do after all you heard.

“I needed an escape. The prince could have given it to me.” You were both silent for a few minutes. You almost thought the conversation was over until he spoke up again.

“Can I show you something?” he was offering you his hand. This was the first time you were meeting this man, you weren’t sure if you could trust him, but something about the way he looked at you compelled you to put your hand on his, allowing him to lead you away from the crowded room.

You ended up on a balcony, the entire city laid down before you. The noise of the party was completely drowned out, only your breathing interrupting the silence.

“It’s beautiful” in that moment you forgot about your step mother, the prince, the party. It was only you and the world before you.

“It’s a vast world out there. You don’t need the prince to show you your way.” Everything felt so simple. The stars were bright that night, lighting the city bellow, stretching for miles, as far as the eye could see. You felt you opened your eyes after a long time.

“What’s your name?’

“Sebastian.”

 Prompt 8: Drunk

It had been a few months since you met Sebastian. After that first encounter the two of you grew closer, arranging outings when you were free. But today was the first time you were meeting after you managed to leave your step mother, your own house and work finally secured.

“This would have happened way sooner if you had let me help you know.” He had offered his help countless time, but you refused to take an easy way out.

“Absolute show-off. You know, offering so much help to someone usually looks a certain way, especially to an outsider.” You leaned closer to him, batting your eyelashes to get the full effect. His face quickly turned beet red. You couldn’t help but laugh as he coughed, trying to regain his composure.

“You are the one making it look that way you know.” He took a gulp of his drink, avoiding looking you in the eye.

After some time filled with similar interactions, Sebastian was slowly getting considerably drunker.

“I don’t think I’ve ever seen you drink so much.” You looked back on the time you’ve known him, realizing you had never actually seen him drink before.

“I-It’s a celebration. T-That’s what pe-ople do.” His words were interrupted by a heavy amount of hiccupping.

“I think that’s enough alcohol for you.” You pulled the cup from his hand with ease, considering his limbs were practically jelly. “I wouldn’t have been offended if you didn’t empty the entire bottle.” You laughed watching him struggle to look you in the eye.

“I- I got it specifically f-or this occasion. It would be r-ude to let it g-o to waste.” You burst out laughing, unable to contain yourself as he fumbled with his words. Even drunk he was a gentleman.

“You should go to bed. Come one, up you go.” You tried to pull him to his feet, but his weight was just a little too much for you. “Come on, you can stay here for the night, but I’m not letting you sleep out on the balcony.” You looked at the view in front of you, feeling once again grateful you had found a house with one. It reminded you of your first meeting with him.

“Come on Sebby, don’t make me drag you there.” At the sound of the nickname, his body shot up.

“I’ve said not to call me that, it makes me feel like a child.” It didn’t shock you that this was the only thing he had said without completely losing to flow of his speech.

“You kind of remind of a child right now. So I think Sebby is quite fitting.” He looked at you for a good minute before the words registered. You watched as he pushed himself up on unsteady feet, his hand reaching up to catch your cheek. Despite his drunken state, his gaze was almost focused as he looked into your eyes. You couldn’t help but stare back, getting momentarily lost in the grey.

“I remind you of a child?” in that moment you thought of him as everything but a child, but you weren’t about to admit it.

“I think it’s time we both go to bed.” You tried to ignore the beating of your heart as you helped him inside, towards the sofa. You tried to let him down as gently as possible, helping him get a little more comfortable before draping a blanket over him. His eyes closed quickly, the alcohol finally getting the best of him.

“Goodnight, Sebastian.”

[bukojuiice]

Hii! Congratulations on reaching 2.3k followers, dear!! To be honest I'm not really surprised, because your writing is captivating and so inspiring! I'm in GI fandom and I read every headcanon/fic at least 3-4 times, my favourites being the late night study one and there is only one bed (they never fail to provide comfort whenever I feel overwhelmed/anxious). You deserve every follower and more!

If it's alright, can you please make a playlist for Dainsleif stargazing and cuddling with his s/o? (she/her pronouns, for nicknames: love, beautiful, dear, starlight, but you can add/choose whatever you want and for aesthetic blue+space)

I'm not really familiar with jpop/kpop, but English songs/classical music/instrumentals are fine! And I'm not really comfy with pics of other people.

Thanks in advance and have a great day/night!

✨ anon

hiii ✨ anon! thank you for your request bub! it makes me vvv happy that my works have given you a sense of comfort! i hope my future works will continue to do so! 🥺💕

༉‧₊˚✧ i hope you enjoy your night underneath the stars with Dainsleif through this playlist! 🌙💙

bukojuiice's 2.3k event!

[whsprings]

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[vanillahaught]

listen don’t take this personally but IM JUST WONDERING why NOBODY talks about, headcanons, draws, or writes about nicole and waverly becoming moms. it may have something to do with the fact that i binged all of workin’ moms in 24 hours, but i REALLY want to see more people talking about wayhaught babies.

vvv some of my personal headcanons below vvvv

when waverly and nicole get married, they don’t change their last names. the independence of their last names is very important to them and they choose to keep their last names- it doesn’t make them any less married. when they decide to have a baby, ultimately the obvious decision is that waverly carries the baby. nicole’s job is too demanding both of her body and of her time, so waverly decides to volunteer for it. when waverly is pregnant, nicole spoils the absolute SHIT out of her. she brings home waverlys favorite foods, various cravings, gives her massages, and most importantly keeps her healthy and happy. nicole gets really protective once waverly is pregnant- this is her family now, and even with the revenants gone she still feels paranoid about some demon trying to snatch up a pregnant half-angel.

they have a baby girl named fauna (dom said that’s what she would name the wayhaught baby in a panel somewhere, i can’t find the clip) she has golden blonde curly hair and brown eyes. she is an absolute angel, very well behaved, very sweet, and playful. waverly is naturally really good at being a mother. she’s very good at naturally knowing what fauna needs and she’s all around just great with children. nicole on the other hand isn’t sure how to handle a kid at first, shes awkward holding fauna and never really knows exactly why she’s crying and how to fix it, and waverly has to teach her a bunch of stuff, but to them that’s what parenting is all about- learning and parenting together. don’t get me wrong, nicole is an amazing mother, they both are, but nicole has never been exposed to a kid that small. nicole gets really fidgety and anxious that she’s a bad mom, and deep down it’s because she doesn’t want to be a bad parent like her parents were, and there’s a moment where waverly pulls her in for a tight hug (with fauna in the middle of them) whispers in nicole’s ear how wonderful she is, both as a mother and as a partner

[marlsbuck]

— && guests may mistake me as ( haley lu richardson ), but really i am ( marley buckley + cisfemale + she/her ) and my DOB is ( 6/13/1994 ). i am applying for the ( vet tech ) position as part of the EHP and would like to live in suite ( 211 ). i should be hired because i am ( witty & empathetic ), but i can also be ( indecisive & absent-minded ) at times. personally, i like to ( dance, knit & volunteer at the zoo ) when off the clock, but that won’t interfere with work.

hi pals! we’re back with a marley mae revamp! our favorite lil cowgirl is getting the makeover she deserves, so let’s get started, shall we?

before we get too into it, though, we have a stats page and a pinterest (which is also getting a revamp before too long bUT...i digress).

lil tw moment: abuse, alcohol, drug, death mention tws. per usual, i went a little heavy on the tws just to be safe! 

- marley mae buckley was born june 13th, 1994 to finnegan and shailene buckley.

- her father is a chief exec at an oil company and her mother was a stay at home mom and socialite, the latter of which she preferred.

- the family moved to billings, montana shortly after marley was born so her father could be more involved with work. this meant her mother had more time on her hands and more time to attempt to mold marley into the perfect daughter.

- except marley liked dirt, climbing tress, and pretending to ride the family dog like a rodeo bull.

- needless to say that did not go well????

- substance abuse tw early in marley’s life, her mother mixed prescription pills and pinot, which only made the tension between the two more intense. 

- abuse tw baby marls never understood why her mother would want to self medicate, essentially checking out and missing a majority of her only child’s life, until one night after her father came home after a day of ‘meetings’. smelling like expensive scotch and cigar smoke, marley saw her father hit her mother for the first time.

-  abuse tw she didn’t witness the actual abuse often, but marley started noticing the signs more and more often. bruises around wrists, large sunglasses when it wasn’t sunny out, concealer caked around her eyes and jaw. for a while, she begged her mother to take her and leave, but marley’s mother refused - firm in her belief that she wouldn’t be able to make it on her own.

- so they endured. more often than not, marley’s mother took her pain and frustration out on her daughter. it didn’t take long for marley’s parents toxicity to turn her into an angry, resentful person. marley was around 8 when she started acting out - “accidentally” breaking things around the house, saying out of pocket things at her father’s work events or fancy dinner parties. marley was 10 the first time she left home and didn’t come back for hours on end, only to come back and realize no one had really noticed she was gone.

- when she was about 13, marley really started acting out and rebelling. she started hanging out with a rougher group of kids who were significantly older than her. even though she never took part in the more intense stuff, marley did manage to get herself into some trouble that finally managed to catch her parents’ attention.

-  one night, while out with that older, rougher group of friends, marley was arrested for a destruction of property charge. since she was a minor, her parents were called immediately and, after making a sizable donation to billings pd, made the whole thing go away.

- officially done dealing with marley and the whole “mothering” of it all (if you can call it that), her parents shipped her back to their hometown of big timber to live with her paternal grandparents.

- she tried to run away a few times (even going so far as to steal her grandfather’s work truck - even tho she didn’t get far because she didn’t know how to drive stick yet) because rebellious, but after paw made her stay and help one of their cattle give birth, marley fell in love.

- marley fell in love with every animal on the ranch - all their quirks and distinct personalities. it quickly became the home marley’d never had. it was warm and loving and full of joy and life. her grandparents became the only parents she’d ever really known.

- they were the only reason marley agreed to go back to her parents. they’d made a deal that if she behaved at “home”, she’d be able to spend the rest of her summers at the ranch.

- so marley went back to her parents and did the dance classes, and dinner parties, and even did the whole debutante thing and “came out” to society.

- at 16 she petitioned to be emancipated and a judge granted said petition. she promptly moved into the renovated barn at the ranch that her grandparents had rented out while she finished school.

- marley ended up graduating early and began attending classes at the local community college, eventually getting her associates in science all while still working on the ranch when she could.

- at 19, marley began classes at montana state, majoring in microbiology as a pre-vet track.

- death tw shortly after she finished her first year at msu, marley found out her mother passed unexpectedly. when she went to attend the services, her father effectively disowned her (even though they hadn’t spoken in years) and blamed her for her mother’s issues and death.

- marley came back to the ranch more depressed than she’d ever been and instead of dealing with the hurricane of emotions she felt, marley dropped out of school and ran

- marley drove all along the west coast, eventually settling on a cattle farm in texas.

- there, marley met literally the worst thing to ever happen to her. only a month or two after settling in texas, marley started dating wade because mess attracts mess. duh. his parents owned the farm she was working on and he gave her attention. that’s it. that’s all it took.

- abuse tw it didn’t take long for the gas lighting, lying, and cheating to start. a short six months into their relationship was when the physical abuse started. growing up, she’d always told herself that she’d never allow a man to treat her the way she’d watched her father treat her mother - that she’d be stronger than her mother and leave after the first time. finally, though, marley realized the battle her mother had fought to endure all those years of abuse and just how hard it was to muster the courage to leave. 

- to this day, marley carries around the guilt of spending years blaming her mother for being weak and missing the opportunity to apologize while she was still alive.

- eventually paw caught on and WASN’T having any of it. so he snuck down with maw in the middle of the night while wade was out on a bender and packed marley’s shit and took her back home to the ranch like the knight in shining armor that man is.

- two years of animal therapy and literal therapy, marley applied to finish her bachelors in chicago after maw suggested it. she was accepted and once again left her home behind, but this time it was to chase her dream and we’re all v proud.

- she’s been at the mlanati now for two years and has finished her bachelors and is a certified vet tech. she’s currently in her last year of undergrad and is getting ready to start applying to vet schools officially.

hcs!

- marley is a jeeple. she owns a 2008 black jeep wrangler x. 100% named it ringo. definitely has a black jeep of the family bumper sticker and let me tell you, this girl is SO proud.

- y’all will never catch this girl in shoes. she will start the day in shoes and by the time lunch rolls around she’s barefoot. the only pair of shoes she enjoys wearing are her justin boots or her vvv worn out vans. 

- she knits when she’s anxious, which is more often than not now that she’s in a new place. but it also means she’s giving out cute lil beanies and scarves to her new frens.

- loves and i mean LOVES westerns. tombstone and gunsmoke were staples growing up.

- also probably the worlds biggest dolly parton fan. if it involves dolly, marley is in.

- ALIENS, MAN. your girl loves aliens and most space things. roswell (the og and new shows) are her jam bc...y’know....cowliens.

- she has three tattoos: some wildflowers on her upper left ribs, “worthy” in her grandpa’s handwriting on her upper right forearm, and the silhouette of big timber peak at the nape of her neck.

- marley is also one of those people that doesn’t need a ton of sleep? 4-5 hours max and she’s golden.

- cold brew coffee also runs through her veins. her coffee order is a trenta cold brew with hazelnut and almond milk, thanks. it’s also probably one of the reasons she never stops moving....ever.

- big time questioning her sexuality. marley’s only ever been with men, but uuuuuhhhhh WOMEN y’know? also nb folx are v nice. we do not discriminate in this house.

- 2 cats! doc (7 y/o himalayan long hair) and ike (2 y/o munchkin). both rescues she met while volunteering at a shelter.

- snake tw would also v much like a colombian rainbow boa pls and thank

- will always make time to take a dance class or book space to just dance all her feelings out. it’s one of the few joys she has that comes without feelings of pressure or stress. 

- holds most  people at arms length. she’s more than happy to listen and support everyone around her, but is a literal steel trap when it comes to talking about herself and her past.

- alcohol/drugs tw not a drinker. buckley’s don’t have a great track record of being able to handle their liquor (never let her do shots pls), so marley sticks to the occasional blunt. esp when she’s feeling extra anxious, it calms her down and evens her out.

- she do be jumpy af! loud noises (that don’t obviously come from animals) make her anxious and shaky. it’s the *pTsD*.

- marley’s triggers include but are not limited to: grabbing her face/chin, breaking glass, loud noises - specifically yelling, general violence, the smell of vodka or scotch and cigar smoke, being grabbed from behind/picked up without warning.

wanted connections!

- travel pals! : people marley met on her trip from montana to texas! she wouldn’t have stuck around long, but she was a hot ass mess and these would have been people who met her at p close to her lowest? so seeing her at the malnati would be like meeting a whole new person. she’ll probs be hella flustered and embarrassed so, like, we love that.

- hype squaaaaaad! : marley’s self esteem is still.........nonexistent, almost. she’s all about giving the love, but is the worst at accepting it, so obviously we need someone to shove all the love and positive affirmations her way! help ya girl see her worth!

- post hook ups! : likely only one or two! marley isn’t one to hook up unless she’s feeling pretty awful about her self and needs some instant validation. can be awkward or cordial! i’m down to plot specifics!

- crushes! : unrequited or nah (lbr i’d live for unrequited pls) male, female, nb - gimmie it all! babie is ready to give all the love....kinda. from afar. bc trauma. bUT!!! leggo. lololol.

- confidant! : literally probably the only connection that’s limited to one person. they know eeeeverything. every horrid, gruesome detail about marley’s past and all her insecurities. they could be someone that met her when she was on her way to texas/she met in texas or someone she met after and got to witness one of her panic attacks post texas. aka the one person she trusts most.

- scurry folx! : pls gimmie plots where marley is at odds with someone, whether or not it’s because they scare her a lil (aka angry, aggressively loud, bully-ish type someones) or just people who can’t handle her goofy, oddball, pollyanna type personality! i. need. ANGST!! pls. ty.

- chemistry, ofc!

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Who are some of your Favorite people here on Tumblr ?

Hohohohhooh this will be a long post

@paimania : First up is Pai. For starters she’s like, the nICEST PERSON IN THE WORLD- she’s so fun to talk to and everytime we chat is just a blast! Even though it’s short because suck at keeping a conversation going LMFAO- I’ve known Pai for like... 2 years now, and I can say that she’s just an amazing friend to have, I remeber when she proposed the idea of a collaboration between her AU and my OCs, best moment of my social media life, it really changed everything for me. Thank you Pai

@jordanthecat11 : Jordy is just a big mush of sweETNESS, literally she’s just AMAZING- I met her through Pai since she was Pai’s main contributor to BATMC. It was awkward at first, but as we got to know eachother I say from my point of view I got really comfortable talking with her! Not only that she is like...so caring. So. Very. Caring. There will be times where I’m not feeling to well, and she takes the time to send me a message on discord to check up on me. I look up to her a lot, she so talented and creative and just overall the kind of friend you want to have. ❤️

@ros-doodles : Ros was the third person I met on tumblr. And the first person (besides Pai and Jordy) to interact with one of my OCs, Raziel. At first I got a wave of anxiety mainly because long before I actually existed on my tumblr acc, I would look at her art and be really inspired. She was an artist I really looked up to and I was so shocked when she commented on one of my posts saying she wanted to interact with Raziel. Not only that we started to talk on discord and..can I just say she is the most understanding person ever? Like really this girl is so gentle, sweet, soft, and just a precious bean who I will protect forever. I think the one flaw that she has tho is that she won’t admit sheS A FUCKING GOOD PERSON. Because she’s stubborn as hell and I need to smack some loving sense into her every now and then.

@wushfo : Fourth person I met on tumblr, gotta day this girl is weird.

..weirdly amAZING- SHES FUNNY AS HELL! She makes me smile and laugh so much! First time we met I was super shy and shocked that she actually started talking to me. I remember our first rp together, it was the thing that got me into rping in the first place. She messages me whenever she can to brighten my day, even if I’m upset, and hands me advice when I need it. She’s just an amazing person to be around and i love each and every one of her OCs to bits, love you BICH-

@sibuhleen : At first me and Sib didn’t know eachother too well mainly because I only knew her through Pai, it wasn’t until we did an art trade when we started to talk more often! I have to say, SHOW THIS GIRL SOLE LOVE AND RESPECT BECAUSE SHES SO GODDAMN AWESOME! Literally, she may not think it but she’s so fun to be around. I love her very much, and I don’t get to talk to her as often because I don’t want to bother her, she has a life outside of tumblr after all! It makes me feel so warm inside knowing that she likes my OCs just as much as I love hers, and whenever we talk it always brings a smile to my face. And sib you may or may not read this, but I will always be here if you need to talk❤️ love you gurl!!

@mythical-things : I met Myth last May, and it’s been one of the greatest things thats ever happened to me. She’s truly just...an amazing girl whos gifted with so much talent. She’s one of the people I really look up to when it comes to art. Each of her OCs and stories are unique, and I strive to become a better artist like her! AlsO-- I like rLLY LOVE ALL THE ART CHAINS WE DO!! its so fun to bring the stories we've come up with to life, and seeing it all pay off is just amazing. IM happy that you enjoy the shit that we do, and I just wanna say to sTOP BEING A HYPOCRITE SOMETIMES. Also, She works really hard in what she does and I’m proud and happy to call he one of my best friends. Lately she’s been feeling a bit down, but that’s ok, I’m here for you Myth! I send my everlasting love ❤️ I love all the times we talk and ramble and rp, the stories we come up with are so much fun to mess around with (aswell as the shitposts-) and i just ant you to know how much you make me happy💕💕

@jsweetsdraws : The Meme to describe Me and Jess is “I’ve only known Jess for a month, but if anything were to happen to her I’d kill everyone in this room, and then myself,” because I WOULD. LIKE HOLY SHIT THIS GIRL IS A BEACON OF SUNSHINE! She works so hard, despite some things that she’s been through. I love all of her OCs and artwork, her style is just so niCE lookin ;) not only that she’s so sweet and funny, and I love staying up for hours with her talking about stories and OC interactions, it really makes my schooldays a lot better than how they are ❤️❤️ and if anyone screws with her I wiLL FITE THEM. BAK OFF BITCHES IM HER PROTECTOR!

@nolalistra : I don’t talk much with Nol, but god her OCS are so damn pretty. Not only that her personality is so damn pretty. I can say how much she really inspires me. The stories she created are so interesting! And honestly she’s like super chill, and super great. Like she’s the kind of person you can be open with and feel comfortable when talking with her. Normally I’m a anxious and paranoid person, but with her? Nope, I’m 200% comfortable. Love u BOI-

@alavidere : I just met Al, but I can already say that she’s like.. fuckin FANTASTIC. Literally, she’s really sweet and her personality just embodies candy and everything nice in the world. Once again, she’s another artist I will stalk for hours, her anatomy is just 😔👌 and her OCs are 👀❤️ it surprises me that she likes my shit too! Never thought that would happen bUT hERE WE ArE- Also I have no idea how she’s able to stay so committed and productive with her drawings- heck she’s running a full on webcomic by herself and idk how- teach me your ways talented beAN- AND I HOPE I CAN GET TO KNOW YOU MORE ASWELL!! >:VVV❤️❤️❤️

Also fun fact, I knew each and every one of you before you knew I existed. I remember when I was younger id scroll through your blogs and see all this good aSS artwork and id be like “these are my idols-” HAHAHA 

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Hi jelly!!! Hope you're well 💛 19, 34 and 67 for the ask game -sarawatilism

aamna!! hello there my love!! 💙 i am, i am!! i just finished eating (a vvv late) dinner so my stomach is full and well, a full jelly is a happy jelly yey 🥰!!

19. Favorite old film?

here goes my 'forgets all the films i've watched once someone asked me what my favorite film is' syndrome again ahhh!! 😭 but ok,, uhm what's on top of my head right now is a filipino film "Got To Believe In Magic" released in 2002. so it's a romance movie about a woman who's a huuuge fan of weddings but is always the bridesmaid in every wedding she's been to and a photographer who is always always there to capture her most embarassing moments. the girl has an old belief in her family where every maiden who reaches age 25 without getting married won't get married for life so little sissy is anxious and in NEED OF HER HAPPILY EVER AFTER!!! luckily, mister photographer is a social butterfly who basically knows everyone and so he promises to help her find her better half ONLY IF she agrees to pose for him for a magazine he really needs to get into. YOU CAN JUST IMAGINE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT HIHIHI. it's so nice watching them both fall in love with each other so slowly, yet surely. it's such a beautiful movie!! imagine miss hopeless romantic always in search for true love meets mister weddings are hoax and true love is a myth. AND THEY FALL IN LOVE!!! ahh. and i love how bright the girl's personality is in the movie!!! (ok i blabbed too much but i really reaaally love that movie!!!)

34. Who makes you happy?

WIN METAWIN!!! BYUN BAEKHYUN!!! aka my sunshines and my two rays of light. 🥺💙 (i won't answer my family or my friends bec. that's already a given hihihi)

67. Do you have anything you do to physically comfort you when your sad? Such as a favorite blanket? Or a relaxing bath?

hmm i mostly just distract myself whenever i'm sad. oh oh oh i watch running man!! it's been my go-to lift my spirits up show since forever. 💙

+ sweetheart asks ❄️

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Tagged by @provenance​ - thanks for the tag, friend! <3

when was the last time you left your home?

I ran out to the supermarket briefly today, and because they didn’t have everything I needed will likely have to go back out in a day or two, which I had been hoping to avoid doing.

what was the last thing you bought?

Some (but not enough!) staple groceries (milk, bread, etc.).  But I feel like I am on the verge of going wild online shopping.

is quarantine driving you insane or are you finally relaxed?

OH MY GOD ARE THERE PEOPLE ABLE TO RELAX DURING THIS.  I’m generally fairly anxious on a good day, and I’ve definitely been panicking over all of this on the regular.  I went through a bit of a rough time right before this all started, so I basically feel like I’ve been stressed and isolated since like February.  I can’t decide if the extra length is making this feel worse, or the fact that the rest of the world is on the same page with me at the moment is making me feel better.

who are you spending quarantine with?

My own thoughts - lucky me.  I’ve spent a bit of socially distanced time with family recently, but that was definitely a one-off.  And i’m potentially meeting up with a local friend from some social distanced outdoors time soon.

do you have pets to keep you company?

My main man Catsby, thankfully.

what are your current responsibilities?

Trying to get work done and just take care of myself on a daily basis.

do you have a room to yourself?

I have several rooms to myself, which is a luxury in this city, I suppose.

are you exercising?

No, but I have to force myself to start.  Maybe tomorrow.  

town, country, city?

City - an NYC borough.

how’s your toilet paper supply?

I’ve got a couple of rolls at the moment, but I’d like to get some more soon.  (I cannot believe this is such a valid and important question right now.)

what’s the worst thing that you had to cancel?

Um....I don’t know if there’s a worst thing?  Had been having some medical issues before this all started and I’ve had to cancel some follow ups for the time being.  I don’t like going to the doctor, so on the one hand it’s nice to be let off the hook but on the other hand it’s slightly worrisome to have to keep pushing that stuff back.

what’s the best thing you’ve had to cancel?

A trip to Scotland and London.  My very best friend from college (and probably just in general) lives in Glasgow now, and I was going to visit with her and her husband for awhile and then we were heading to London together to see Timmy’s play and I’m borderline devastated when I think about it.  (Also my plans to go see Armie in The Minutes, basically once a week.)

(I’m interpreting the above as the worst thing I had to cancel as something bad that was fortunately cancelled, and the best thing as something good that was sadly cancelled, but my brain is actual mush so I could be wrong.)

who do you miss the most?

The Yankees.  (JK, although my brother and i commiserate almost daily over how much we miss sports.)  Friends and family.  My niece and nephew especially - my niece was born in January and I feel like she’ll be walking and talking by the time I get to see her in person again.

do you have any new hobbies?

I was never someone who facetimed with friends before all of this started, but I’ve dipped into that lately and it’s been really nice.  I just made a list for myself the other day of random things to do around the house, so maybe I’ll discover a new hobby there.

what are you watching the most?

The news basically all day until my brain is screaming and I have to turn it off, followed by my beloved food network cooking competition shows and Schitt’s Creek and Bob’s Burgers until I’ve reset a bit.  Then I do it all over the next day.  (I have finally begun crossing things off of my insane queue though - Bodyguard and Fleabag to start - and recommendations are always welcome.)

are you still going to work?

Thankful to sill have a job (at the moment), and especially thankful that I’ve been doing it from home for a month.

what are you out of?

Starting to get nervous about cleaning supplies.  And my grocery has been vvv hit or miss with produce and meat lately.

have you made any changes to your hair during quarantine?

Not yet, but I am beyond tempted to cut my hair.  (I failed cutting in pre-k, so this is a dire, self-destructive impulse.)

Tagging: @thatajthings​, @eliooliver83​, @stormyks​ - only if you wanna! (And anyone else who wants to.)

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💥💘 🔥 for ur WIFEY —scout

💥- how does you f/o react to loud noises?

FooF is probably vvv flinchy like me!!! I am more anxious, she isn’t as much but loud noises are surprising and spooky!!! So she is probably jumpy!! Mayhaps,,, she would cling to my arm,,,, 🥺

💘- What was the moment your F/O fell completely in love with you/ realized they were in love with you

Uuuuhhh fuck I actually hadn’t thought of that,, I can say that I first fell for her when I saw how bubbly and curious she was,,, smiling like a dork,,, as we grew closer I just fell more and more but her,,, she probably doesn’t know what certain feelings names are, so she first started feeling it without knowing! When it happened was probably once I got closer to her and was genuinely happy and laughing,,, she is doin da Look™️🥺,,, and feelin all soft,,, after a while she thought she was sick/allergic to me and described it to jolyne n ermes (a lil bit before we confessed at the beach 😳)but they were like “BRUH YOURE IN LOVE!!!” And she’s like “w o w ok!! I’m gonna tell her!!” Wow I’m soft,,,

🔥- What kind of hijinks and shenanigans do you and your F/O get up to?

I am an absolute bastard who fucks with my friends and makes a ton of jokes while threatening them playfully,,, and FooF quickly learns what sarcasm and jokes are (I imagine she still doesn’t know much about humans so I help her!!) and she quickly joins in !!! We both poke fun at our friends !!! Plus we probably hide underwater often,,, nothin special,,, just kissin (and her helpin me breathe(I headcanon she can breathe underwater even as a human)) and we see how long it takes for our friends to notice we’re missing/hiding !!!

Scout thank you Sm I am crying,,,,🥺🥺🥺