#and can’t stop crying

[girlplantiess]

this week has been a lot.

on tuesday, the santa ana winds blew up to 100mph in my beautiful city of pasadena, leaving the windows of my apartment rattling and the trees lining my street to come tumbling down. a few blocks north of me, families homes were being destroyed by a fire that was being carried from house to house, business to business, by these winds. i’ve never seen winds this strong or fires this ravenous my entire 26 years of living in southern california.

i evacuated that night after locking myself into the only space of my apartment that had no windows, fearing they’d shatter from the force of the winds. the smell of smoke made me think my own building was on fire. panicked, i packed a few things and left. while i was gone, the neighboring city of altadena and parts of pasadena burned. thousands of homes were lost, and at least a handful of people died.

now, i’m mourning. although im so grateful that my home and myself are safe, that i had a home to go back to, im mourning for a town i loved so much, that had so much history, for the thousands of families that don’t have homes anymore. that don’t have anything but the clothes on their backs.

altadena was a beautiful haven, a hidden gem of LA, a pocket under the mountains that had so much history. all the homes and buildings were over 100 years old, all the residents understanding importance of that history and preserving it.

“altadena was californias first middle class black community, offering black families a chance to acquire land, build homes, and create generational wealth amid systemic oppression.” The town became a sanctuary for black americans after escaping the Jim Crow south.

i’m sad that i don’t feel hopeful for the future of altadena. a lot of the families don’t have the money to rebuild, let alone buy a new house. and these homes that were so gorgeous and unique, with preserved history, are gone and will be replaced by new modern builder grade homes with no character. all the history lost in one day.

there’s a misconception that LA and the people affected by these fires are all rich, and that because of that, people shouldn’t care. for one, altadena is a middle class neighborhood, most families having lived there for generations, passing their homes down to their children and to their children. there are a lot of people now who can not afford to buy a new house, can not afford to rebuild. secondly, although the palisades is a wealthy area, the people that live there are not these billionaires that are hoarding this countries wealth, they are not who we’re talking about when we say “eat the rich.” you’re just showing you’re ignorance, your stupidity. these are normal people, families, children that don’t have homes, don’t have schools to go back to.

i’m so disgusted by people leaving comments about “karma,” or how we’re being punished by god because we live in a city full of sin. the irony to make comments like that and still think “god” is going to save you? not to go on a tangent, but do you really think believing in “god” just so you’ll go to heaven when you die meanwhile having no moral compass and being a shitty human being is going to get you a ticket to heaven? if hell is real i hope you burn.

these fires are still ongoing, a new area of LA being evacuated daily. more of my friends are being evacuated as of an hour ago. we haven’t had a moment to relax, fearing that mother nature could defy all odds again and that we may need to pack up and leave again at a moments notice. i just want this to end soon. i’m so tired.

[n0ahsferatu]

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[stellarnat]

Saw this quote on Pinterest and immediately knew what to do

[mateofuxks]

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE IS BACK IVE CRIED THREE TIMES SINCE 10AM AND YOU WILL ALL BE MY ENEMIES ON FRIDAY AT 10AM I WILL BE IN THE TRENCHES THAT IS TIXKETMASTER….

[kelin-is-writing]

How… Do I recover from this…?

[aleksikesa]

Life changing image just dropped, thank you Ichiban

[sceletaflores]

five nights in 5,000 different positions

[dxmianwaynesstuff]

jayce and viktor.

on absolute devotion.

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[shadowhaert]

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[pixlokita]

Wait I’m just realizing how funny it is that springtrap/ William and all his variations see an unhappy child with brown hair, brown eyes and striped shirt and immediately goes … yes I must have him as my own like 🧍‍♂️

[unfolded73]

“The Star Beast” was camp and corny as hell and emotionally devastating, just as Doctor Who should be.

[daynascullys]

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[chetney-pockopea]

Herald of Second Chances // “Kaladin…your eyes”

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Screaming and crying and throwing up about this still.

[bixels]

Hey, I need some advice. For anyone experienced with kids, how do you deal with young children with hyperactive ADHD. I’m doing well babysitting but I’m afraid of being a pushover and letting these two kids get away with too much, especially when they’re rough-housing.

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