#and by it i mean

[blitzwhore]

Hey what if I FUCKING SOB

[wonderpetsfan46]

oh we are SO back

[some-triangles]

I think about mutuals who come and go - months, even years of silence, followed by a flood of posts. Folks who you don't know personally so you can only observe this angle, this one symptom of their periodicity, and speculate on the causes. Mental health? Vagaries of work and school? Self-reinvention, in an endless loop, forgetting that this particular step of the dance has already been tried? You can diagnose the oversharing types, trace the rise and fall of their mania - are you sure you want to stay up all night dancing after spending a week in bed, you think, but don't say, secure in the satisfaction of the diagnostician - but I prefer the mysterious ones who appear in a flutter of birds and swift asides and are gone again.

So if somebody were watching me from their window, what cycles would they see? Nearing the end of a week off, I'm getting florid. Dashes and parentheses swirl around my ankles in a riot of excess energy. This is why I have to report to the world for hard labor on the regular. I get too pleased with myself otherwise. It'll be back to business as usual soon.

What I am wondering is if there are any larger cycles creaking to a close. It's been seven years, which is just about how long it usually takes me to run out of money and move across the country, and I'm still doing OK here. I've managed to mitigate a few of the worse ones, particularly the inherited ones, like my mother's habit of pouring energy into a new group and then becoming offended when they don't elect her God. But I am getting that nagging "when is it my turn to be evil" feeling. The "I'm bored, let's knock things off the shelf" feeling. The "let's observe myself making ruinous decisions in a kind of detached, amused way" feeling. Like there goes your boy again, doing a thought experiment on a real person.

Hoping to exorcise those along with the excess punctuation via the ritual of Posting.

[toughttt]

The feminine urge to change my pronouns to He/him + vamp/vamps

[dookie-blaster]

going BANANAS on it bustin it down SEXUAL STYLE u feel

[chaoticbuggybitchboy]

Who else up and getting queerplatonic with it

[brooken-harted]

In the club. Queering it up.

[sillystringstar]

no one does it like hananene and emukasa i fear

[cosmicseafoam]

Tobias please,,,, let me just… lemme ,, ugh

[s3znl-gr3znl]

One might assume that since most girl dont have a.peanits they cannot be jorking it in the stripped club. ladies if youre pull on youre clitor it will suffice. Heed not the rules of man, jork that shit as your please

[keirawantstocry]

"not sleeping because of woke"

it took me a second to get that but I love that so much I think that's my favorite joke

i love inserting specific jokes into all situations 😊

[bunigirlthighs]

any sharkgirl want to BLÅ my HAJ ?

[lurk1ng-s1d]

making my friend taking ap spanish translate copypastas into spanish for me so i can send it to my friend that won’t stop texting me in spanish

[xxdrowxx]

I love it so much