#and because this is me processing TRAUMA :)

[anna-scribbles]

emma dupain cheng on the brain😽🎀

more:

[mostly-natm]

Lore keeps a baby (out of spite).

[princessamericachavez]

like yes yes eddie needs to choose and buck needs to be chosen but also 

Eddie needs to get over the very big trauma of losing his wife. Last time he dated someone he had literal panic attacks at the thought of her being mistaken for Chris’s mother and as much as we saw him work through in therapy we never?? really?? talked?? about?? that?? So, yeah, Eddie needs to realize that he’s at a point where he’s ready to risk his heart and give love a second chance 

(and maybe realize he already did becase there already is a partner in his life who gets consistently confused for Chris’s guardian and it feels natural to him?? but he still needs to realize he’s ready for love)

And Buck needs to be ready to be in a relationship where he’s loved for who he is, where he doesn’t bend and twist to fit someone else’s expectations. And for that Buck needed to die, and needed to come back, and now he needs to process that trauma and steady himself. 

(and Buck loves so quickly, so openly, so loudly, and he gives so much of himself and he wants to be loved that way, and maybe he’ll realize that he already?? is?? loved?? but he needs to let himself accept it)

so basically, it’s not only a matter of choice... eddie needs to be ready to love and buck needs to accept that he is loved if they are ever going to find each other properly together

and that, my funny little friends, is the point of their arcs were we are at right now

[cha-lii]

if it had been hughie the shapeshifter turned into, and annie that they tricked and raped and proposed to - there would have been monologue after monologue this episode about how violated annie felt.

and if hughie had blamed annie for even an instant for not realising it wasn’t him or for being raped or accidentally getting engaged to a person who had the same face, body, voice, mannerisms and memories as him - the amount of unholy backlash hughie’s character would face in the show and from fans would blow him away.

why are people (and the fucking shitty writers) so fucking quick to dismiss hughie’s trauma and accept annie’s wrongdoings just because he’s a man and she’s a woman? being a man doesn’t immediately make you the wrong one, and being a woman doesn’t excuse your mistakes. like, they both suffered huge amounts of trauma - why should either of them have had to apologise for what happened to them? and to the people saying “oh annie forgave him and they made up immediately after” no - she told him to get an std test and somehow that made everything okay again?? seriously?? roles reversed, how would that have felt coming out a man’s mouth to a woman?

fuck kripke so much

[aroaessidhe]

2024 reads / storygraph

Don’t Let The Forest In

YA horror

an anxious Australian boy whose only friends are his twin sister & best friend/roommate returns to boarding school in the US - but his sister is ignoring him, and his friend is acting strange, with rumors of having something to do with his parents’ murder

he follows him into the nearby forest one night - and finds him fighting eldritch monsters from the dark fairytales & art they create together, desperate to stop them from hurting anyone else

ace MC, m/m

[darlingod]

Taryn Duarte should’ve ended up with a woman idc goodbye

[faraskyetruther]

can't imagine morgan fey being bothered enough to handle mia's funeral but i can imagine a 17 YEAR OLD maya fey pushing herself to make sure her sister has a perfect funeral while trying to ignore all the trauma and grief of losing a sister and being accused of her murder with only one person truly being in your corner (who she barely knew well enough to fully trust but she had to force herself to trust). and also while still being a fucking child who has been forced by circumstance to grow up when she remains unprepared.

[sieglinde-freud]

missing the maribelle/tharja family unit today. i think maribelle would be elated to have a daughter. she meets noire for the first time and she goes “do you play chess? violin? ride? drink tea?” and noire goes “no but im really good at throwing up in a bucket” and maribelles like “oh!!!! okay!!!!” i think she finds noire’s talisman persona charming. chrom is like “um maribelle can you please go get your daughter… she’s terrorizing the camp” and she goes “shes harmless! why do you hate women?” and he never speaks on it again. i think tharja needs a kid that will beef with her and i think brady is 100% the guy to do it. i think she looks at him and goes “what is your problem” and he flips her off. she tries to curse him but he spins his staff ninja style deflecting them back at her. he serves tea to his moms but he spits in tharjas and she knows it. and then she drinks it because it pisses him off. brady could come to love her at some point but it will not be easy and it will not come without a lot of work and a lot of arguing and i think i need some more parent/child conflict in this game. awakening gets one f bomb and its hidden in the random tharja brady PC support where he just goes “FUCK YOU” Tharja and Brady attained support level B.

[likeawolfatthemoon]

i need some more suggestions for my tbr list going into next year. tell me your favorite book you've read this year and why (feel free to reblog or just comment).

[spale-vosver]

exvangelicals/exmos who haven't deconstructed their cultural Christianity when you politely ask them not to shut down every discussion about (any) religion because of their specific trauma:

(Goyim can interact but do not clown, more info in the tags)

[camojacketfag]

Just booked my ticket for the Hunger Games prequel tomorrow. The fact that we’re in the middle of a Hunger Games renaissance is mind-blowing to my childhood self. I’ve yet to miss a midnight premiere for the entire series and although they’re not a thing anymore, I still plan on viewing the earliest fucking showing tomorrow. This series helped me so much as a kid. I'm sure if someone looked they’d notice that there are small breadcrumbs of the series all throughout my little blog. It’s still incredibly personal to me. So much of my life mirrors Katniss’. How fucking special it was to have someone go through so much trauma at the same age as me and still try and maintain her humanity and strength throughout. I named my dog Primrose, as a reminder to keep going, and on days when I can’t give myself any care, I pour it all into her. I feel excited about something for the first time all year. I feel like a kid again. I feel stupid and slightly embarrassed but I'm so fucking glad Suzanne decided to expand this world and enrich its characters once more.

(heres my Primrose)

[takemetodragonstone]

can things stop happening? i’m still trying to process the things that happened when i was 3 what do you mean there are more things

[deservedgrace]

The thing is that yes it's better being outside the religion, yes it's better having information, yes it's better that my reality and identity and person aren't being controlled and manipulated by people convinced that the end times are upon us and The Gays are destroying society as we know it and humanity is evil & every single person who has ever existed deserves worse than death, yes of course it's better to be outside of all that (and more). And also... not processing things as traumatic while you're in it (partially as a coping skill to get through it and partially due to emotion/thought/information/reality control by the group) is a great protective measure by your brain at the time, but it means that a large portion of the pain and trauma and heartache hits you after you leave. And it can sometimes be hard to connect that the past abuse and trauma are the issue and not leaving in and of itself, because so much of the Big Pain and Dealing With & Coming To Terms With The Extent Of The Trauma didn't happen until after you left.

It hits Extra Hard when you've been taught to fear leaving over everything as it'll lead to pain and heartache and isolation and death and destruction and hell and torture, because now you have proof that they're right: it is Really Hard & Painful Out Here. But you also can't go back because now even just thinking about it contributes to the trauma and painful feelings, and actually being back would amplify it by 10 at least. I left over 5 years ago and I still sometimes feel that same helpless, untethered feeling as when I first left. Where everywhere you look, backwards or forwards, in or out, all you see is pain.

And to be clear, as someone who has been out for years, it does get better and easier. I'm not trying to spread hopeless doom and gloom "healing is pointless" kinda sentiments. You heal some pain and you build a life of better and happier things around other pain.

The presence of pain does not disqualify you from a good life. It is also okay to talk about the pain sometimes.

[blackquill-inchains]

thinking about mastermind!korekiyo as a sort of weird parallel to mukuro: someone who wanted to befriend others but was manipulated by their sister into being a pawn for despair

some personal kore conspiracy thoughts below cut for those interested:

i think a lot about korekiyo's relationship to his sister less in terms of reality and more so in the way his thinking has warped to rationalize around the trauma. an important note before moving forward: i headcanon korekiyo killed his sister.

i think a lot of his character is unreliable narrator through the lens of guilt as a motivation

his relationship with his sister was extremely isolating, and people think he's offputting so they avoid him even when he's being friendly

whether you take it the canon direction of her dying of an illness or you're like me and think korekiyo possibly killed her, i think he feels guilty that he gets to do everything she didn't. she got him into anthropology and he gets the ultimate title, he gets the travel while she's confined to a hospital bed, he gets to live and be healthy while she's sick and dies. and they are both alone.

but then korekiyo gets close to people. in the case of the killing game; angie and tenko. his victims. he bonds with kaede faster than shuichi, and he passes judgement on the girls by comparing them to his sister to see if they're fit "friends" for her.

for the sake of the mastermind au my reasoning for the murder essentially goes as follows:

sister is the only person he's close to, isolation is exasperated by the nature of their relationship and its "secrecy"

kills sister (at time attributed to jealousy and possessiveness as she began to get close to other people)

despite attempts to stay distant, natural human pack bond instinct and years of anthropological interest means becoming close to and beginning to feel attachment to other girls during the events of the killing game (angie, tenko)

kills the girls he's closest to in a warped desire to repent both for the death of his sister for trying to have friends outside of him and for feeling as if he's "betraying" her by having done the same thing

[mudshelf]

something about seeing fan art of Wolfwood in the catholic priest attire (vestments & black clerical suit?) reawakens my #hashtagreligioustrauma and i remember being an altar server all over again!!

[bunnyboy-juice]

spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner