#and bc it’s the only thing keeping me sane

[angeldarkrose]

So fucking miserable that I can’t even hang with my sister when she asks me to.

[unclewaynemunson]

Pt2 to this post

'Is something wrong?' Nancy asks, not long after the two of them have taken their familiar spots on the hood of Steve's car. They're basking in what might be the last warm sunlight of the year, looking out over the quarry, at a safe distance from the edge.

It's become a tradition the two of them share, ever since they reconnected back in March. It calms them both, to just sit here and take in the view, no one around but each other. Nancy is one of the few people Steve can share a comfortable silence with: sometimes they sit here quietly for what feels like hours, side by side, listening to music or to nothing but the birds singing around them. But they also have their best conversations here: it's the place where Nancy entrusted him she wanted to break up with Jonathan; it's the place where they talked about their shared past and decided they would always love each other as friends; it's the place where they finally talked about Barbara in a way they couldn't when they were younger. It's where Nancy talked about the ghosts still haunting her and Steve talked about how lonely he sometimes felt.

Steve huffs. 'How did you guess?'

'When you frown, you always do it with your whole face,' Nancy notes. 'So it's hard to miss, really.'

Steve glances at her side profile. There's a serenity to her features that's still relatively new. It means she's healing, slowly learning how to be happy again. It means she stopped waiting for the end of the world and started believing in a real future again. It makes Steve proud of how far they both have come.

'I had a fight with Eddie,' he confesses. 'And with Dustin, I guess.'

'What happened?'

He sighs. 'It's complicated.'

'Wanna tell me about it?'

The look in her eyes is kind and inviting. Steve hesitates. He wants to, but he doesn't know if he can. It's a risk. It's scary.

But he can't imagine Nancy Wheeler ever being careless with his secrets. He can't imagine her judging him, can't imagine her being as small-minded as most people in this town.

He was planning on telling her anyway, because things had been going so well with Eddie lately and – no, he shouldn't think about that right now. But maybe it would actually be nice to talk about it with Nancy.

'So, um...' His throat feels tight and his hands are sweaty. 'I recently discovered some things about myself. I-' The words get stuck somewhere on the way to his mouth, and he clears his throat.

Nancy doesn't push, but only gives him an encouraging nod, waiting for him to find his voice again.

'I found out I like boys,' he finally manages to confess. 'And I need you to know that – that that doesn't mean that what I felt for you wasn't real. It was. I loved you, and now I fell in love with a boy. And-'

'Steve.' Nancy's hand suddenly covers his, causing him to finally jerk his head away from the view over the quarry, to focus on her face again instead.

Her eyes are wide, and she squeezes his hand.

'You don't have to explain yourself to me,' she tells him. 'We're good. But thank you for telling me. For trusting me with this.'

Steve heaves out a relieved sigh, and Nancy smiles; it's that genuine kind of smile which reveals all kinds of dimples and soft lines across her face.

'We might be more similar than you thought,' she tells him, a faint blush spreading over her cheeks.

'Really?' Her words make his breath catch in his throat. He squints at her, trying to see her in this new light. 'Are you saying what I think you're saying?'

She shrugs. 'I don't know. I'm not sure yet,' she admits. 'Still figuring things out.'

'Take your time, there's no rush,' he tells her. 'But...' He bumps his shoulder against hers. 'When you're done figuring it out, talk to me, okay?'

She nods. 'Okay.'

For a while, it's quiet between the two of them. Some kind of raptor circles high above them in the sky. They both follow it with their eyes until it disappears among the tree tops west of the quarry.

'Is it Eddie?'

Steve blinks dumbly a couple of times.

'Wha- what?'

'The guy you were talking about. The one you fell in love with. It's Eddie, isn't it?'

'Jesus, Wheeler, what kind of sorceress are you?' Steve exclaims.

Nancy laughs again. 'You're not being as subtle as you think,' she tells him. 'The two of you have been hooking up for a while now, haven't you?'

Steve huffs dramatically. 'This is unfair. You know everything; I can't even tell you my own secrets anymore!'

'So what happened?' Nancy asks. 'You said you had a fight with him?'

'It's fucking stupid,' he sighs. 'Dustin was getting way too excited about the fact that I was gonna be hanging out with you, so I told him I was seeing someone. Next thing I knew, he was telling Eddie all about how I was seeing a girl.' He waves his hands around to make annoyed air quotations. 'I wanted to tell Eddie it was a misunderstanding, but Dustin was there, so I couldn't out us just like that, and he looked so betrayed and heartbroken... He didn't wanna listen to me.'

Steve sighs; he still can't manage to forget that look in Eddie's eyes when Dustin delivered the big news. 'I wish I would've talked about what I felt for him earlier. I should've been honest when I had the chance, y'know. But I was afraid he wouldn't wanna label what we had, that he wouldn't feel the same way – and now we're in this whole mess. God, he must hate me right now, Nance.'

To his surprise, Nancy gives him an unexpected slap against his arm.

'Ouch, what the hell was that for?!'

'What are you even doing here with me, Steve? You should've gone after him, tell him how you feel!'

'I tried, obviously, but he didn't wanna listen to me!'

'So make him listen! You're in love with him, he obviously feels the same way about you, and you let him leave to wallow in a broken heart he doesn't even need to have!' She rolls her eyes and slides off the car, adding something under her breath that sounds suspiciously like an exasperated 'Boys!' before she pulls Steve off the car as well. 'C'mon, time to get your ass over to the trailer park. Right. Now,' she says through gritted teeth. And, well, Steve knows better than to argue with a determined - and truthfully quite terrifying - Nancy Wheeler.

Read the last part here Taglist: @withacapitalp @ultimatedreamer104 @irregular-child @jcmadgirl @estrellami-1 @myguiltyartpleasure @hallucinatedjosten @jaybren @thew1ldblueyonder @melodymeddler @alycatavatar @zoeweee @lolawonsstuff @fairy-princette @saramelaniemoon @phirex22 @krazyperson @xxsky-shockxx (I only put people on this list who explicitly asked to be tagged. That's really no problem, I love to do that so dw about asking, but I got a lot of relatively vague reactions to the previous post that i'm not gonna dissect and interpret, bc I don't wanna clog anyone's notes unwanted. So just to be clear: i consider it a huge compliment if anyone asks for a tag but please do it clearly if you do!)

[lavendermin]

going to be real ive been imagining jing yuan and kindergarten teacher doing it before the misconception gets cleared up so mid sex it’s just like “we should stop i don’t want to hurt you especially when you’re having a baby or ruin your relationship with your partner ” “im having a WHAT???”

anon… anon when I catch you 🫵 we share the same braincells truly. This similar concept is in the outline as a potential point of conflict that adds fuel to the fire and now I’m considering keeping it in the final fic still bc ugh. The fine line of being morally grey with already having feelings for each other and thinking both are taken but not being able to resist lingering touches and heightening sexual tension… GOD…

cw | cheating (but not really), nsfw, mdni, pregnancy mention

Finally crossing the line because he’s so nice and kind and hot… and honestly you feel the back of your neck getting warmer when you also think back to how your eyes have wandered elsewhere and that man is definitely packing. To put it lightly.

Aged like a fine wine, truly.

And Jing Yuan equally thinks your partner is not a good match with the amount of times you’ve expressed you would eventually love kids of your own. They’re probably infertile at this point—he has to assume that much. Why wouldn’t your partner give you a child if that’s what you wanted? And he can hardly even feel bad when he’s balls deep inside of you in a guest room you two stumble into at his company’s year-end dinner hosted at a rented estate.

Both your actions betray your words as his hips continue to grind into your wet heat and your nails claw at his back, urging him deeper. He’s a little breathless as he suggests you two should stop, he’s getting close and as much as he would love to creampie you he thinks that might be too far. What if your partner finds out, and your pregnancy, and—

You come hard as he’s breathlessly airing out his concerns and kissing your jaw down to your shoulder. So hard you have to take a minute to get your senses back in order, voice hoarse from how badly he wrecked you. Did you… hear that right? What?

“I’m not pregnant. I– Who told you that?” It comes out as a breathless whisper, throat parched.

You’re too fucked out to even process the part about him assuming you have partner.

Don’t get your news and facts from kindergarteners, folks.

[buttercupshands]

hello hi I have no idea how I started drawing again

[sun-marie]

"Long Rest"

A redraw of this piece I drew during EA, now including my lovely Tav Zephyr 💙

[2namayo]

i wanted to draw toge with the cat i put on my nendoroid of him

[ghostsoforpheus]

random julie and the phantoms gifs 08/∞ (julie & luke in every episode edition)

[gen-is-gone]

Am I continuing to hyperfixate on a children's show from ten years ago because the alternative is fantasizing about walking into traffic?

You can't prove it.

[samipekoe]

thank you for introducing us to findoland, sami

aren't they so GOOD!!!! I'm happy you checked them out!!!!!!

[tsukasalover]

Unfortunately my wxs obsession has gotten so bad that i will find time to cram them into my mind no matter where i am. Doesnt matter if im busy. I was supposed to be locked in and paying attention but somehow my mind couldnt stop cooking up fic and analysis ideas for ~45 minutes Which is seriously bad and distracting. Although i don’t believe anything can be done about this right now and my grades are usually top notch anyways so Ill worry about that later

[gay-jewish-bucky]

that ask spacelaserwolf got where that person couldn't even say die or kys, reminds me of a suicide bait as i got where they called me the k-slur but spelled 'ass' like 'ahh', like i think ass is the least offensive word there buddy 😭

[rakkuntoast]

my enjoyment of philever is a constant battle of deciding if its funnier them getting platonically involved or forever being permanently in his boyfailure era

[syrcus]

some soley pics i never posted

[tamaharu]

the thing abt toothless and hiccup is that toothless is just as obsessed with hiccup as hiccup is with toothless. if their roles were reversed toothless would also have drawings of hiccup above his bed.

[infinitelytheheartexpands]

this post didn’t go through when i tried to make it on monday but we are SO BACK IN REHEARSALS BABY!!!