#and avpd is basically autism

[raccoon-queer]

the bpd urge to rant about all of your problems vs. the avpd urge to never tell anyone anything ever

[edible-emerald]

How many As do you have

if I forgot any lmk and I'll add them (allos dont count bc they're basically free) (I'm not a hypocrite for also putting alive in here)

-Alterhuman

-Apathetic

-Anger Issues

-Anxiety

-Asexual/Aspec

-Aromantic/Arospec

-Aplatonic

-Afamillial

-Agender

-Androgynous

-ADHD

-Autism

-AVPD (Avoidant Personality Disorder)

-Asocial

-Alive

-Avolition (the inability to initiate or engage in goal-directed behaviors)

-Allergy(ies)

-Ambidexterous

-Artist

-Anarchist

-American

-Armenian

-Asian

-African

-Atheist

-Agnostic

-Antitheist (Opposed to religious belief or religion)

-Apocalyptic

-Anemic (a lack of energy or enthusiasm)

-Amnesia

-Anorexic

-Arthritis

-Addiction(s)

-Amnesia

-As in school are a fantasy

[ndcultureis]

avpd + autism culture is wanting to unmask so bad but also being terrified and basically unable to because of what other people might think or say because you know youre obnoxious and loud but you never present yourself that way around other people and just. eugh.

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[fidgetyego]

Hello.

You can call me FJ, Fidget, or Ego. We are an unnamed DID system. Collectively uses he/it pronouns.

We have several disorders we will post frequently about. Some include NPD, AvPD, BPD, DPD, OCD, Autism and ADHD.

We don't give a shit about discourse, but we will be blocking freely. Don't be harmful and we're okay basically.

This post will be updated as we feel like sharing more info.

[raenyships]

Salut!

My name is Rae and I am a slut for old men with questionable morals. Please read this post so you know what you're getting into here.

About me:

I am 24, use she/her pronouns and am asexual/biromantic. I am diagnosed with autism, depression, anxiety, and AvPD. I am working through trauma and use self shipping to cope with that. Plus, I just love my fictional boyfriends.

About this blog:

This blog will be exclusively about self shipping - THIS BLOG IS 18+ [nothing super explicit but definitely not safe for minors]. I'll mostly be reblogging content about my F/O's.

My main is @/raensofcastamere so I interact from there [my main is safe for minors, it's just a multifandom mess if you're interested].

Please check my carrd for my DNI/BYF and F/O list. There are details on there about sharing but basically don't interact with me if you selfship with Jaime, he's very important to me.

Thank you for reading you lovely human <3

[aavpdyapping]

SHELL 🐚 . THEY/IT . MID 20s

I was recently diagnosed with AVPD! I've made this blog to talk about my experiences living with it. I have various other disorders and illnesses, including BPD, CPSTD, Autism, and OCD. I also am chronically ill, and struggle mostly with fatigue and brain fog.

This blog will mostly be me yapping, basically journalling, about how I'm struggling and how I'm trying to heal. I hope I can connect with others with similar experiences.

Feel free to send me asks or whatever, I will try my best to answer! Because this blog is about Being Mentally Ill, I know I can come across as being overly negative, but I can be friendly and happy, haha

This is a sideblog, main is @/e*****w

‼️ I support those with any personality disorder/s and other demonised/"scary" disorders and illnesses. narc abuse and borderline abuse do not exist. ableism will not be tolerated

‼️ I'm pro researched self diagnosis. I'm anti "MUDs" / trans-IDs / r*dqueer etc

‼️ if you think you know me, either online or irl, please leave. this is meant to be a safe space for me without feeling Known or Watched

‼️ blinkie credits - one . two . three

[rainbowxocs]

why do you even need to know half of this…

Name: Kaguya Tsukino (かぐや 月の) only my friends can call me by “Kaguya”..

Other Names: “Kami” (神) God is also acceptable for you English readers.

Special Titles: Kami of the Moonlight, Kami of The Powerless, Kami of Animals.

Username: kami

Nicknames: Moon Bunny.

Chronological Age: 432.

Age: 26.

Pronouns: He/Him (In English.)

I Pronoun: Soregashi (某) (An archaic neutral pronoun, gives off extreme neutrality, as if the person doesn’t want you to know who they are.)

Sexuality: Demisexual, Demiromantic, Gay.

Gender: Trans Guy.

Species: Kami. obviously.

Disorders: Anxiety, Autism, Major Depressive Disorder, Bulima, Contamination OCD, AVPD, Compulsive Lying, CPTSD.

Religion: Atheist. you shouldn’t trust gods.

Job: Owner of the Maid/Cat Cafe.

Lives in: Okutama, Japan, 2024.

Languages: Japanese + Most Languages.

Height: 6ft

Ethnicity: Lunarian, Japanese.

Accent: Completely Monotone.

Animal Form: Barn Owl. hoot. or whatever.

Voice Claim: L from Death Note (JP Dub)

Powers: Was Born Powerless. Can however do human magic, can hear other peoples thoughts, and has divination. it’s awful.. I feel cursed sometimes..

Weaknesses: Basic God Weaknesses, Being powerless.

Alignment: Neutral.

Text Color: Blue.

Main Hobbies: Entomology, Reading, Resin Art, Bug Pinning, Origami, Bonsai, Crochet, DND, Trinket Collecting, Shogi.

I only eat specific things.. I’m incredibly picky..

Favorite Drink: Sakura Tea, Pu��er Tea, L’Original Marie Antoinette Tea, Strawberry Shortcake Tea.

Favorite Fruit: Peaches.

Favorite Snacks: Apples and Peanut Butter, Ants on a Log, Broccoli, Honey.

Favorite Foods: Chicken Noodle Soup, Animal Sushi, Rice and Nori.

Favorite Candy: Gummy Bears, KitKats, Lollipops, Matcha Pocky, Jelly Beans, 3D Gummies.

Favorite Desserts: Jello, Mooncakes, Astronaut Icecream, Gourmet Marshmallows.

Weapon: Kunai, Revolver.

Favorite Flower: Orchids

Scent: Orchids.

Handedness: Left.

Blood Color: Gold.

Soul Form: Gold Flame or Emblem.

Awareness: VERY Aware. (Effect: Negative.)

Birthday: January 1st 1592 (Leo, Dragon, AB.)

Theme:

Playlist:

Fun Facts: i dislike this whole biography thing.

Special Interests: Entomology, Fairytales, Paintings.

Stims: Tends to stim with fabric or his clothing. But also has a pair of dice he stims with.

Comfort Objects: His collection of rabbit plushies, his jacket, His dice, His sailor moon collection, His Ear Defenders.

Stimboard: LINK

Moodboard: LINK

Fashionboard: LINK

Family: Tsukuyomi, Nayotake (Parents) they abandoned me. So.. not really family..

Friends: Uru (BFF), Damian.

Romance: None.

Enemies:

Are. I despise that woman.

Hwan. I think that Hwan has the IQ of a rock. And that’s an insult to rocks.

Pets:

Rolo (ロロ) (Pug) my baby.

also my babies.

Hichew (ハイチュウ)(Emperor Scorpion)

Whopper (うぉっぺっ) (Blue Tarantula)

Skittle (スキットルズ) (Rainbow Stag Beetle)

Twizzler (ツウィズラーズ)(Giant Millipede)

Hershey (ハーシー)(Giant Centipede)

Konpieto (こんぴえと) (Leaf Insect)

Candy Cane (キャンディケイン) (Stick Insect)

Poifull (ぽいふーー)(European Mantis)

Pocky (ポッキー)(Ghost Mantis)

Ramune (ラムネ)(Orchid Mantis)

The Honey Hive (Bees)

The Hissing Bandits (Hissing Cockroaches)

The Earth Kingdom (Honey Ants)

The Fire Nation (Fire Ants)

The Water Tribe (Yellow Crazy Ants)

The Air Nomads (Black Carpenter Ants)

Brief Personality: Kaguya is a very monotone person. He has a tendency to push people away from him by making himself as boring and unapproachable as possible. But in reality he’s just really awkward. He is the type of person who much rather stay at home with a bunch of books than go outside and hang out with his friends.

Brief Backstory: Kaguya was born without a name, somewhere on the moon. His parents kicked him off the moon and he plummeted down to earth. He was found by a local orphanage due to his crying.

He never really knew why his parents abandoned him.. But he did know that humans weren’t much better.. His peers would bully him for most of his life due to him not being like them.

He lost himself in fairytales, reading every book he could. He thought if he lost himself in the stories and his role as a god, everything would be alright.

However, now Kaguya is very standoffish. Not even giving people the privilege of speaking his real name. Instead wanting to be referred too as “Kami” or “God”.. He is a bit of an odd ball..

Many people have hurt Kaguya over the years, causing him to retreat further and further into his shell. However lately a few cracks have been shown.

[windowmanjpeg]

we should be looking for a job and we have been but all the jobs require a degree, are too many hours / give too much money (lmao. basically theres a rly low cap on how much you can work and earn on disability benefits (: ) or are customer facing which would be our worst nightmare so we cant apply to them anyway.

theres one place an hour and a half away that i can apply to for a couple days a week that is kiiinda likely to accept us (over 50% hopefully) but its volunteer work (so it would actually cost me in petrol to do it anyway) and just the idea is overwhelming so i can’t imagine actually doing the job would be much better.

our parents keep telling us we have to get a job but it all seems so bleak every time we look that we have a panic attack and give up for the week. it seems almost impossible to do anything without any experience or higher education, with a physical disability and with all our mental health issues (especially the autism and avpd)

and THEN on top of all of that the benefits system actively discourages you from working because then they cut the tiny amount of money theyre giving you and now youre way iller than before from working and you probably make barely more than what they were giving you anyway because again I HAVE NO PROSPECTS and could never get anything more than a minimum wage job, volunteer work or nothing at all

honestly just want to give up. we will just be poor and a disappointment to everyone and then maybe one day we can be dependent on our partner rather than dependent on the government. its so depressing. we have so much knowledge and so many skills (factual information not bragging sorry for coming across that way) but cant ever use any of them for anything. i wanna die haha

[blockbusterselfship]

Intro Post!

❤️ Hello! This is my intro post to the selfship community! Please be kind! ❤️

BASIC INFO:

💕 Hi! Call me Blockbuster, SUPER new to selfshipping but got the courage to make a blog (and will absolutely Not disclose my main unless I really trust you! Sorry, it's moreso out of shame, (Edited) but I might follow you from my main. If you can figure out that its me, don't reveal it please.) 💕 I AM OKAY WITH SHARING F/O'S! they should get all the love they can!! ^_^

💕 It/It's PLEASE! No they/them! Agenderfluid, Lithromantic, Polyamorous and Lesbian. (Fictional men are not real men, they don't count!)

💕 I am 21 years old!

💕 I am an OSDD-1b system! So posting will be spotty. unwilling collector of other various mental illnesses (BPD, AVPD, Autism, Anxiety) 💕 I AM CRITICAL OF ANY MEDIA I CONSUME. I do not condone the actions or put money into the pockets of problematic creators. I super avoid incredibly controversial stuff out of discomfort though.

DNI:

💔 Proshippers (Get out.) 💔 Harry Potter enjoyers. 💔 If you self ship with minor characters if you're an adult. I don't care how you do, by aging them up or yourself down, it's just weird to me. 💔 People who participate heavily in syscourse (It stresses me the hell out as a system. My stance is to believe people about their own brain experiences.) 💔 TERFS, transphobes, etc leave me alone lol 💔 If you say or think shit like "BPD/AVPD/NPD/etc people should die/are evil". that is ableist. fullstop. Personality disorders don't make you abusive.

Putting a list of my F/O'S and their tags under the cut! But thank you for reading this far! <3

ROMANTIC/QUEERPLATONIC F/O'S:

Gregor // Romantic // Limbus Company: #Gregor🤎 Cactus Gunman // QPP // Gregory Horror Show: #Cactus Gunman💚 Xiao Longbao // Romantic // Uchuu Sentai Kyuranger: #Xiao Longbao💜 Ignacio // Romantic // Spooky Month: #Ignacio❤️‍🔥 John // Romantic // Spooky Month: #John💙 Jack // Romantic // Spooky Month: #Jack💙 Father Gregor // Romantic // Spooky Month: #Father Gregor🖤

PLATONIC F/O'S:

Sinclair // Bestie // Limbus Company: #Sinclair🌿

Deneb // Bestie // Kamen Rider Den-O: #Deneb🍭

FAMILIAL F/O'S:

Big Band // Father Figure // Skullgirls: #Big Band🎺

[telvannibugmusk]

was looking at the avpd subreddit and kinda noticed there seems to be a lot of overlap with autism and intellectual disabilities and like. Once again proven that personality "disorders" are ptsd symptoms and avpd is basically the trauma of the social isolation that comes from having significant communication difficulties

[aheeheemwhimper]

going through the personality disorder wikipedia page and collecting all the ones i could be misdiagnosed with like i’m adding ingredience to my chipotle bowl

[avpdvoidspace]

Where is the line between autistic avoidance of people because of past trauma related to being autistic, and avoidance due to AVPD?

I/we are an autistic diagnosed DID system, suspecting AVPD.

How can we tell the difference between AVPD and autism/trauma?

We have 2 safe people, both of whom are equally avoidant DID systems, though none of us had any idea in school when we became friends.

We have several performative alters who took care of social interaction in school that aren't around anymore and the rest of our natural tendencies are towards avoiding social interaction as much as possible. Shopping is okay if it's very fast and I use self check. But I have a short timer for social interaction that when it runs out my whole brain goes with it. I just dissociate heavily and stare at nothing unless someone gets my attention.

I guess I'm just trying to ask, what are some clearer indicators of AVPD than what's in the DSM? from what I can tell we meet the criteria but if it's for the wrong reasons it won't be the right diagnosis.

Thank you for your time

Tbh, this is difficult for me to know exactly because I'm not autistic, so I can't know what autistic avoidance of people feels like from the inside. I can say that the aspects of avpd other than just avoiding people and social situations are intense fear or criticism and negative evaluation which is often the driving force behind social avoidance, an unstable sense of self, malicious self regard, and feelings of paranoia that other people are thinking bad things about you even when you have no tangible reason to believe so. Also the belief that you're inherently inept compared to everyone else at even basic things, that you're uniquely incapable of functioning. That's the best way I can summarize what it feels like to have avpd in my own experience. If anyone following is both autistic and has avpd, feel free to chime in.

[noivern]

its really fun and enjoyable having mental illness actually

[n3ur0gl1tch]

April 12th: Is there anything you find hard to do because of being autistic? Is there anything that you find easy?

Oop, fell behind. Here comes three days in a row.

Communication is hard for me, especially communications concerning my emotions. It takes me a lot of self reflection and time to recognize anything outside basic happy, sad, or angry type categories. Sharing it or discussing it is usually near impossible, whether thats due to autism, AvPD, or trauma is anyone's guess.

Idk if this is due to autism, but im really good at figuring out order of events with minimal environmental clues, as well as other visual puzzles. Its part of why I wanted to be a crime scene analyst!

[littleblackqrow]

(Don't want to sound clueless/out of loop, but unless you don't feel comfortable talking about him, who is Ray?)

((Ray’s current blog that he apparently logged into recently is @whitecanvased  Here’s the callout we did about a year ago, but I understand its long and there’s a lot of trigger warnings for abuse, rape, racism, ect involved.

Keep in mind that the entire time that we knew each other, I was Ray’s friend, not his ex’s. I’m not just ganging up on him or picking sides in a messy breakup.

To just do a quick run down of the stuff i witnessed first hand (that is in the callout, I wrote the stuff from the rvb rpc,and about the icons that he didnt ever make me):

Claimed to have multiple mental illnesses, including autism, OCD, dissociative identity disorder (which he called multiplicity), AVPD, but when confronted with inaccuracies, he would accuse people of being ableist

Used to make his white Jewish character darker skinned because "white people aren't Jewish"

One of his rvb muses (Felix, a Canon genocidal murderer) he made a "Chimera" so that he could have two different skin tones and made that character both Korean and Japanese, playing into stereotypes on both ends

Had at least one Native American character who's two traits were Bloodthirsty Rage and Flower Power

Told a friend of mine with autism that they didn't have it and disregarded them and the way they expressed those traits

Forced that same friend to write a relationship as abusive even though they did not feel comfortable doing that

Forced different multiple friends to write rape kink and abuse

Drove multiple people offline or out of the rpc entirely for capricious reasons.

Insisted that his characters were never in the wrong because they were constantly victims even when others' characters had legitimate issues.

This is not an exhaustive list, and I know I’m forgetting something, but I know for a fact that if you called him on any of the problematic shit he’d do, you were instantly labeled racist/homophobic/transphobic/ableist. I know for a FACT that he hated being corrected because when I brought up to him (on anon because I’m not stupid) that Chimerism in humans usually only presents as like, two different blood types, he complained bitterly and refused to acknowledge it.

Now with the exception of giving his characters mental illnesses that he badly misrepresented and obviously racist toned traits, he mostly pulled his abuse of other people behind my back. I had very little idea that he’d been treating my irl best friend like garbage behind my back. I ALSO didnt know that he was talking shit about me behind my back to his ex. We communicated mostly over skype which means that I dont have 90% of our correspondences anymore, but I can promise I have some back to back messages where he said one thing to my face, and the complete opposite about it to Tony.

Now the big thing is that Ray made a lot of graphics and icons. Hell, the theme I have on @abitofafatass was made by him, and the icons that I use there and on @ceohargrove were made by him. I paid him to do that. I paid him to make me more icons and a theme for my Apollo blog basically when I first started the damn thing, and he never delivered. FOUR YEARS he strung me along, and I was willing to wait because I know how difficult it can be and I thought we were good friends and that he would produce something. He never did.

I did eventually get the money back, after an anon reminded him that technically that was non-delivery fraud, and I could sue for damages. I was not and still am not in a position to do so, especially because there are two different countries involved, but c’est la vie. He did end up paying. But even in his last message he was lying to me, saying that I “must not have seen” his message despite the fact that you can contact me at literally any time of day and I will respond. My email, my dms and tumblr ims are always open. Hell, I dont even turn off anon.

So this got long, but I put up with Ray for 5 out of the 6 years I’ve been rping, and like fuck him and anyone who’s defending him.

I do have screen caps that include timestamps if anyone would like to see, and some images of at least one of his old blogs from the good old Wayback Machine. You can also see his writing on Grif and Apollo since I dont delete shit ever.

[trashcandroid]

it's done. i'm professionally confirmed to just be a Fuckin Weirdo