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I could hlget a haircut and tattoos and piercings but those things cost money and to be quite honest I just can't be bothered anymore.
#kinda wanting my hair short again but 1) itll look bad 2) i have no money 3) itll look bad 4) im not willing to cut it myself at the moment#5) itll look bad#so weird how some days ill actually think i look kinda hot and then the next day ill just look at the mirror and think im the most hideous#thing to ever walk the earth#like just. reminding myself i dont have the same face shape or skin tone or facial proportions as the person i though hey that haircust nic#and that feels bad. nothing looks good on me nothing is āflatteringā BECAUSE its me#no matter what#idk anymore#like my clothes are all messed up i have shirts that are abou to become floor rags#i have 1.3 pants that āfitā me#and absolutely no money to go buy more#fast fashion is bad and low quality. thrift shops are expensive and dont have anything my size.#might as well kill myself already#i dont even know what my style is anymore i just wear whatever fits#<<<barely anything
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A lil guy !
#honkai star rail#dan heng#genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy#so dan heng in a hoodie#now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw#but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today#since shes been in the hospital for many many days#so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos#and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good#and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner#and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool#and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those#are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email#and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct#then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way#but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now#so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv#while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now#on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it#and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once#this is literally a personalized attack to me#and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie#and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening#and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down#that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this#and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!
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animal jam is a lot more fun when you're rich
#seriously notp is making me RICH on ajpw#i can get like. one corruption orb per hour of playing dungeons. the super sweets prizes?? got an alpha after like 5 rounds. got soo many#rares from that too.....#and now i'm like. oh i want to play as a dragon? don't have to wait two weeks to save the sapphires! i can buy it now!!#looking for a cool specific piece of clothing for my outfit? i can just buy it right now!! without worrying about the price!!!#i'm seriously considering buying an alpha. just like. snooping on explorer looking at the different wizard hats for when i sell mines#(i'm not That rich lol)#kind of disappointing anyways. like. it's easy to grind this stuff when you're not a kid but it must take so long for kids to do this!!#most of the people in this game get rich by paying money!! and like#i was always a nm on classic and while they are definitely more pay to play it was like. you could have so much fun and still be poor#play wild it's like. you do get all these features but so much of it is focused on Buying. like the only non purchase stuff i can think of#is crafting ???? and the phantom dungeons.. and the minigames. and talking to people i guess.#but like honestlyyy people only really care about the items and getting items and what items are coming out next month?? and what animals??#what new effects can i get for my pets for my items??? AUGHHHHHHHHHHHH#idk. idk. i know animal jam is far past its glory days and it needs to do this to survive. and i definitely do not want this game to die.#but it is really going full capitalism mode. and i think the content and the players and the devs are really suffering from that. idk.#jamblr#i do really enjoy doing the nonogram puzzles and i absolutely love the dungeons. i'm glad they give me stuff to sell. but man. i kind of ju#t wish it wasn't so much like this yknow#ramblings#bangers
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Be so fucking for real my firesetter plushies got here and like an hour after they arrived i went to the mail room to grab them and they grew legs and WALKED AWAY because that package was NOWHERE to be seen . I turned the whole room upside down and asked the staff and no one knows where it is.
I think some lady grabbed it thinking it was hers bc i guess were just gonna grab packages without actually making sure the information is accurate. Ok
Hopefully they track her down and figure this out cuz thats so annoying . I spent 70 bucks and waited for months and i SWEAR i knew something was gonna go wrong the whole time and it DID . The worst part is theyre limited edition so i cant just buy them again and ill never be able to get them . All because the package evaporated ig.
Now i get mad every time i see the plushies i swear why is my luck with packages and merch so bad lately .
#i just wanted to COMPLAIN!#plus i got scammed right after i bought these plushies bc i got some text abt packaging being damaged#and they got my credit card info or whatever bc i was dumb.#and i lost a ton of money to it . that was stupid on my part#but now thats even more infurating bc if i never recover these plushies that means it was for absolutely NOTHING#it was already for nothing but even more so now.#i doubt anyone intentionally stole it bc what business does anyone have taking those#u cant even tell what it is from the package alone#buying these plushies has just been one of the most annoying things ive bought .#its no ones fault rlly . its just been stressful the WHOLE time#and i cant even say āoh i was just panicking irrationallyā cuz something bad DID ACTUALLY HAPPEN#I KNEW SMTH WOULD GO WRONG THE WHOLE TIMEEE#i wont even tag this properly
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Back on my meds, making a damn decent paycheck despite how many days I had to take off this month, my momās feeling better now that sheās home and weāve figured everything out, our neighborās gonna build us a wheelchair ramp for cheap, and my dad miiiiiiiiight be buying a new car as we speak š¤ (my mom just canāt get into the truck anymore, and she hasnāt wanted to drive her two seater for a while now, so weāre trading it for something practical). Things are finally going fairly well, all things considered ā¤ļø
#she speaks#after the absolute hell weāve been in all October I think we deserve a fucking break#hopefully this post doesnāt jinx the car lol#weāre keeping the truck obv cuz like we got livestock#but the lil beamer has got to go unfortunately#sad itās a fun lil car#but it hasnāt been getting the love it deserves and itās time for something more suited to our needs as a family#kinda exciting really I hope we get it#we all fucking hate spending money so both my parents have been waffling on it for a couple of days#but like I told them mama you got a doctorās appointment next week for your g tube#and then a hospital follow up with our pcp the week after that#and youāre gonna have to see a gi and a nutritionist pretty regularly#and thereās gonna be more surgeon follow ups Iām sure#and eventually weāre gonna need to take you to outpatient pt cuz we canāt have a home health pt forever#cuz insurance only pays for it for like six weeks#so either weāre gonna have to rent a car every time you go to the doctor#or we gotta buy one#and like this isnt going away youāll have to go to the doctor often#cuz youāre missing like half of your small intestine#so getting a rental all the time is gonna suck#it would be better to have a car you can get in and out of easily just on hand#not to mention eventually youāre gonna wanna get out of this house just for the hell of it#and itās not like we can wake up one morning and decide hey letās go on a day trip#and then waste two hours driving back and forth from the nearest enterprise#which is on an extremely busy two lane highway and is FUCKING terrifying to get to lmfao#so with any luck my dad will keep that in mind and not back out at the dealership lol
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cw: reader is mentioned wearing a dress and corset, mentions of a butt plug, pet play? kinda
very specific thought I have sometimes when I online shop: deku likes to buy your clothes for you. not in a weird, controlling way reallyāhe just has certainā¦.visions of you in the things he sees. and heās a little obsessive on his worse day, and he knows he wonāt ever get the image of you in those pants if he doesnāt buy them for you immediately.
heās a little bit of an idiot though, is scammed damn near every week because instagram wont stop promoting those websites that sell all might themed undies and those knee highs with his own face plastered all over them. he says itās worth it though, when the clothing comes and he surprises you with them with the hope of a fashion show.
he sits on the side of the bed, biting at his thumb nail, staring at your moving shadow from under the en-suite bathroom door. he brought you a baby blue dress with fluffy white buttons up the chest, a matching corset that heās waiting to tie up, the bunny ears that came with it, and a pair of blue boots with fuzzy ears on top. itās ridiculous, you told him the moment he showed it to you. Iām not some show pony, you poke at him when you take the clothes in hand. Youāre just a perv, you mutter as you close the bathroom door behind you, ready to try it all on.
And you feel so stupid when you come out, all fuzzy and blue, ready to ask if you should hop over to him. But Izuku looks damn near in awe, eyes rounded and his hands in the air, reaching out for you, quietly telling you to turn around for him. You donāt expect for him to rush over to you, to hook his chin over your shoulder, to whisper about how pretty you are, for his warm and large hands to tie the corset so gently, that your breath stutters from his closeness.
āYou like it?ā You ask him, looking at him from under your lashes, watch how his big emerald eyes damn near sparkle as he takes you all in. Izuku hesitates before he answers with a nod, guilty eyes fluttering over to another unopened box you hadnāt seen by the door.
āI think the whole outfit will be complete with one last finishing touch.ā He murmurs, doesnāt let your turn in his hold, grabs you tight against him as he hides his warmed cheeks in your neck.
āWhich is?ā You hum, swaying a little, letting the high skirt of the dress tug up even higher against the very obvious bulge resting at the curve of your ass. Izuku pauses for a moment, before he whispers into your skin,
āA bunny tail butt plug. Just for the aesthetic.ā He tacks the last part on quickly, seals it with a kiss against your jaw, groans a little when you gasp. You eye the package now, suddenly interested in this little get up, finally understanding his pervy little methods. You smile though, wide, and stroke the hand resting around your stomach, the other carding through Izukuās thick locks.
āJust for the aesthetic.ā You agree and, you swear, you feel his entire body tremble behind you.
#I was thinking about bkg in doing this but instead itās you terrorizing him lmfao#showing him the outfit and going āthis would be great with a bunny plug right? :)ā#and heās choking on air for 8 seconds bc that was so random but also the image is making him feel things#but I like pervy Izuku even more#little weird guy that buys you every little thing he wants to see you in#I would absolutely let him bc I have a shopping addiction#just brought these pants Iāve been wanting that have been sold out for months#I damn near cried LOL#I also want this really cute dress shirt top thingy too but Iāve been spending too much money lately lol#Iāll just wait a week to get it like that makes such a difference ahdhdjfhf#also I was laying down and then saw this outfit and was like hey lemme write this#and now itās almost 2am help#anyway gn and Iāll schedule this for the morning bc nobody ever sees my stuff this late :(#ānew treat in the streets! š«#deku treats! š¬#tw: pet play#just to be safe Iāll tag it!!
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i was gonna say "i shouldn't have to go to work when my brain feels like a depression slushie" and then i was like "wait but then i'd basically never ever go to work" and i'm actually doubling down on the first part now bc my god how am i supposed to heal my brain from burning out 5 years ago if i can never get an actual break
#//juri speaks#i also at this moment: do not know if i have health insurance anymore / if i will be able to get insurance#if i can't get insurance i will not be able to take classes this fall#if i can't take classes my loan repayments will kick in immediately#i already don't have enough money for anything and i certainly don't have a spare $150 a month for the government#at any rate i need to submit my tuition waiver Soon but i can't until i know if i can get into the second class#so i have to wait for the prof or my advisor to get back to me#all the while a funeral day draws nearer#and then AT work i still feel like my position doesn't need to exist#but i desperately need it to exist because i need the money#and this big mchuge data migration project we were SUPPOSED to have had done in JUNE is being pushed to the absolute last minute#not by us but by the folks in control of the software we're moving to#so we're not going to have any safety margins with the old software#it's going to be GONE and dead and unlicensed while we're trying to learn the new shit#and i'm going to have to deal with the other branch cataloger trying to do everything for us which Won't Help#and i need!!!!!! a break!!!!!!!!!! from everything!!!!!#i need the world to stop and i need to go sit in the desert for like 6 months#instead best i can do is go buy the new taz gn for a little crumb of escape. maybe a little coffee drink while i'm there#even though i've been hitting sugar hard lately and really do not have the funds to buy more clothes if i gain a few more lbs#and can't afford a walking pad/treadmill and don't want to go outside bc it is a billion degrees all day every day rn#uuuuuuuuuuuugggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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A very obvious hc but Diluc absolutely does NOT keep a running tab for Kaeya. Never had, never intends to. Kaeya most certainly is getting free drinks each and every time he stop by the Angelās Share, and anything he does pay, Diluc keeps the money separate from everything else so he can send it to Jean to sneak it back into Kaeyaās salary somehow.
#hc; diluc#//I like to think Jean knew better than to try and do so outright#//Bc he would absolutely keep careful track of his salary and question any sudden changes in it Immediately#//So she just. adds the Mora to his allotted Official Knights Of Favonius Klee Spending Fund#//He was going to use his own funds to buy her things anyways; might as well make up smth to āgive it backā without him rejecting it#//Prolly tells him to spend the fund and pocket whatever he keeps#//Knowing damn well Kaeya would simply just save it up for the next āKlee fundā to have more there#//Luc& Jean gotta fucken play fucken mind chess with this man just so Luc can continue to ensure he gets his āfreeā drinks whenever he can#//Jean is just fed up they canāt talk it out; that Luc canāt just Tell Kaeya he is allowed free drinks without Kae protesting it#//She wants to strangle them sometimes#//If its a smaller amount Kaeya paid; like for a drink or a tip; then Luc will try to like#//Reverse pickpocket it to him jdbdb#//His sleight of hand isnāt as good as Kaeās but he tries#//Though getting caught tends to make him hastily say smth like he doesnāt want Kaeās money then just. Refuse to elaborate#//Which ofc DOES NOT FUCKEN HELP#//Yeah; no; itās easier just to make an elaborate scheme to make sure the money ends right back in Kaeyaās hands#//Totally
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Iām sitting in a botanical garden parking lot convincing myself it would be alright to spend 115 dollars on an annual membership just because itās huge and pretty and would make me happy but like Iām nervous about how much money that is and like I have the money but it seems so frivolous I donāt actually need to go to the botanical garden like for survival or anything
#my grandma says I should think less about buying things for survival and think more about buying things to arrive at the life I want#honestly a one day ticket to the garden is 20 dollars so itās not a horrible deal and I know I would come here probably often and I went to#one of their free days last year and I loved it but it was absolutely ridiculously packed because it was a free day and itās usually so exp#expensive so this way I could just visit when I want to and it wonāt be as crazy#Iām worried Iām being ridiculous though and that I should definitely forget about this and go save my money for a future need
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Putting some drama under the cut about the recent GO developments
I thought it over, and I don't think I'll be watching the "season 3 episode" when it comes out.
I love Good Omens, deeply. Good omens was the fandom that made me stop being a lurker online and put my opinions down to share with other fans. I met an amazing community in the fandom and I made so many friends, and the characters and story meant very much to me.
But I don't feel comfortable knowing my engagement may go to support an abuser.
I am not judging anyone for separating the artist from the art and especially I am not going to judge people for supporting the cast and crew of the show.
I just. Don't feel comfortable thinking I may inadvertently contributed, even in a minuscule capacity, to a parasocial relationship that gave so much social power to a person who used that social power to hurt and abuse people.
It's complicated and it's nuanced, but for the time being I'll peace out from that and dedicate myself to things that bring me joy
Just needed to get it off my chest I suppose
#don't even know how to tag this#i know that pure art forms don't exist#much great art that i personally adore was created by horrible people#i am aware of that and i am habitually all for the death of the author concept#i do however feel uncomfortable with the idea that my love for something may actively bring more pain into the world right now#like no-one will be hurt if i love caravaggio despite him being a literal murder#or enjoying lovecraft - because he's freaking dead#but the idea of my money going to people that will use to hurt others right now#that makes me deeply uncomfortable#will it have any impact on the world as large?#absolutely not JKR is still incredibly rich and she absolutely doesn't care if i don't buy the pretty ravenclaw mug#it's just ... a personal way of mine to deal with it#as futile as it may be#negativity#discourse
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dc is doing a little mini relaunch after the current crossover finishes and honestly thank god because literally only two of their current ongoings interest me but there's a bunch of fun looking stuff happening in november that i might actually look at. and also it's starting series for several guys who should have had ongoings this whole time like the fucking JUSTICE LEAGUE
#i.e. black lightning JSA question batgirl. and i'll keep up with justice league now that they actually HAVE an ongoing#insane that it just wasn't happening for so long. why did they do that.#now i might actually take an interest in the mainline crossovers if there's a series that they're actually building from#then again. if it's crap i probably won't stick with it#but like marvel has three avengers books running concurrently CONSTANTLY. and yet dc hardly ever has justice league stuff going on#a team book is just. the obvious place to do all that stuff. cos i'm not reading batman i do not CARE about batman#but the new justice league has flash and black lightning and martian manhunter and other guys who i think are cool outside the Trinity guys#also i'm thinking i'll have a look at the 'absolute' universe. yes we are pointing and laughing at the batman design but it seems like an#interesting concept. and also extremely funny that they're going oh fuck marvel relaunched ultimates we have to do something like that too#but actually looking at the ACTUAL premise of the thing. it's more about making an extremely stripped back version of each character#designed to be at their lowest with no support systems in place#idk how it'll turn out. might be too edgy and angst filled for my tastes.#but it looks worth a look#for the record the two series i'm actually readign currently are poison ivy and the flash.#flash i'm actually collecting (i got in when it started and am yet to be disappointed)#lily dot tee ex tee#my pull list is getting so long. and my actual pull list of comics i'm buying is getting a bit much too#but i do not regret impulse subscribing to The Power Fantasy having just read issue 1. it's INCREDIBLE.#i've stopped getting ultimate x men tho. was good but i don't think really worth the money of getting it physically. i'll just pirate.#and tbh the current dr who run is eh. and also only a 4 issue limited series. but it's dr who comics of course i'm collecting it anyway.#immortal thor is a thousand times worth the money tho holy SHIT that book is SO GOOD and i'm SO GLAD i'm reading it physically#sorry i don't comicspost often but i had. a lot of thoughts.
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saw a starfish on the beach today & was absolutely ENAMOURED - literally 3 of us were just squatting over this tide pool watching him move
#stream#omg i just remembered i was the last 1 to change / shower & i had just walked back from the cold ass shower thing to rinse off the salt &#punya came over & he was like ābrother ā¦ā & i was like what ? & he went šš«“#& i asked what do u want me to give u ?? āa cigarette u motherfuckerā āu know what i would love 1 TOO bitch but GUESS who smoked them ALL b#it WASNT ME !!!ā šššš AKSJAKSKAKSKKSKSKAKSLSKSL#& NOW I DONT EVEN HAVE A VAPE BC OF THE FREAK BRIT THAT JUST WALKED OFF W IT#iām still not upset abt it iām more so just bewildered ? just shocked ? like i didnāt even care to try to get it back i was just like ok ?#iām still shocked by it bc itās just so#COMICAL ? LIKE ??? šššš did neither of us speak english like 2 entirely different messages werenāt sent#LIKE ITS NOT A DISPOSABLE THIS IS A RECHARGABLE REFILLABLE VAPE#it was just 20Ā£ & getting 2 disposables are also 20Ā£ from the off license & i used literally like 80 ? 100ml ? in it ? so saved money#regardless but i did buy a pack of pods but 1 of the 3 that i used didnāt end up working & that was the third on it excluding the original#battery & those are 10Ā£/pack so 30Ā£ overall for what would equivalently be like idk probably around 10 of those 5k off license vapes which#would yea be 120quid so including the price of the vials themselves itās 3-for-10Ā£ used 5#so thatās 50Ā£ bs 120Ā£ even w the cost of a new device say + 30 thatās still only 3/4 of the price of what it would be using dispos which ar#cheaper than cigarettes REGARLESS#even the 30/120 thatās still u know literally a quarter of the cost itās just a bigger upfront cost but itās significantly cheaper long ter#STILL SAVING MONEY ā¦. i say as if addiction isnāt inherently a waste of money but u see to that argument i budget it like food bc thatās ho#addiction works itās just going to continue & ur going to include it in the budget as if itās a PHYSICAL NECESSITY TO LIVE#to be fair sometimes it is lol like bro i couldnāt stop drinking w/o being in a hospital bc alcohol withdrawls can literally kill u#like my blood pressure was over 180 at 1 point when i was detoxing in hospital ššššš#SCREAM#anyway#forget that#happy new year 2024.5 ššš#my new year starts now fuck u the first half was just warm up#could i stop smoking if i wanted to ? yes ! will i ? absolutely fucking not !#IM ALLOWED THIS AS A TREAT#THAT I INHALE LIKE OXYGEN: CONSTANTLY
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#my mil has had me buying groceries for the whole house for weeks even tho i make less than $200 most weeks and she makes $80k/y#so weve been constantly on the cliffside of having absolutely nothing to eat in the house bc i cant AFFORD to feed 3 adults#and then when i DO get food she eats our stuff as much as she eats what i bought for her so im just#so fucking hungry all the time#which is the case rn im so so hungry but wtf am i even going to eat at this point#were out of produce out of potatoes out of frozen food out of beans like#brooggghhh#im so hungry š but i have less than $100 which means the delivery and tip fees make ordering Worthless until i have more money to spend#stupid evil system i hate it here#i had blissful dreams about grocery shopping fat stacks and cooking for friends lastnight
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this is just me going "fine I'll just do it myself" after not being able to find a single fanart for Yi Xian (the cultivation card game). (I bet there's some but I'm just not able to find it)
so here we are, catering to myself and myself only with very low-effort doodles to destress feat. mostly Mu Yifeng, Yan Chen and Jiang Ximing
#Yi xian: the cultivation card game#Mu Yifeng#Yan Chen#Jiang Ximing#i know these arent solid at all but times rough and scribbling go brr#anyway hey if anyones intrigued and wants to know more about the game#its an autobattler deckbuilder in xianxia setting#so if pvp deckbuilding/strategy is your style you absolute should go check it out#i myself hate using my brain and pvp so this is absolutely not what i usually play or would pick up but it charmed me and i love it so much#even tho i SUCK at it so bad#its in early access on steam for 7 euro#for anyone interested#and it makes me so sad that theres so many negative reviews saying its p2w cuz its NOT!!!! the only thing available with money is reskins#and u can get the jades to buy them by playing anyway#but ive heard there were p2w elements back when it got released but they got hotfixed quickly but i guess the rumours stuck around?? sad#also if u like the concept and wanna see more without actually playing i recommend gameplays by retromation they're super entertaining#anyway#yeah i absolutely shouldnt be playing nno games whatsoeveer rn bc i cant afford any of the precious time I've got left#i dont even know exactly how much ive got left until the school leaving exams and shit for Uni like two months ig#im useless absolutely i cant i cant but brain no work and pretty card game makes stress go away uh oh spaghettios#oh well enough of that#cheers#btw ive been doodling in the meantime but ppl actually follow this blog now so I'm overthinking it again and not posting anything goddammit
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#really struggling today#my vet suspects my cat has FIP and Iām crushed since thatās basically a death sentence and he only just turned 5 :(#I know GS-441524 is somewhat available in Canada now but since itās not FDA approved itās like 8k#whatās worse is my family and I have a 2 week vacation scheduled on May 11#so even though thereās this drug with a 90% success rate itās just so incredibly expensive I doubt we could afford it#even if we did manage to get our hands on it we wouldnāt be able to administer it to him for those 2 weeks#and even though heās doing somewhat ok at the moment who knows what his condition will be like during those 2 weeks :(#ultimately weāre trying to decide whether or not to put him down before our trip#like if he does have it and died alone and in pain while we were out of the country I would be crushed#but Iād also be crushed if we put him down when thereās the chance he doesnāt have it since FIP is so hard to diagnose#itās the not knowing whatās going on that makes it worse#itās so hard because heās still so sweet and curious and has really been my rock since we got him Iām just absolutely beside myself#like the whole day yesterday heās done nothing but cuddle me and my mom like he knows weāre upset but doesnāt know why#I just feel like Iām abandoning and failing him in his time of need#I desperately donāt want to go on this trip so I can spend more time with him and maybe scrounge up enough money to buy the drugs#and give him a fighting chance#but I canāt and I feel sick and trapped about it
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staff: *makes awful decisions* users: maybe if we all give staff tons money for making awful decisions, they'll stop making awful decisions! staff: *receives tons of money* staff: *continues to make awful decisions* users:
#ada weblog tag#//i genuinely do not care how you spend your money.#//if you wanna spend it on merch to support a site you use often: go ahead!!#//i know i have been tempted to buy some tungle dot hell merch myself. i haven't. but i have been tempted.#//and the people who go ''if you spend money on tumblr and not [issue 3258] then dni'' are very annoying#//because of course people will spend money on a service they like and know instead of a stranger insulting them. sorry to say.#//even if i do agree you need it more#//but respectfully? crab day was the stupidest idea i've ever seen#//''yeah let's reward the staff for doing absolutely nothing!! surely that'll make them start doing things!! ... by talos''
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