#and I will do stupid exercise

[jennhoney]

I need to make some nickels soon, for continuing survival, but I guess I need a nap sooner.

[ciderjacks]

despite Laios low self esteem making him think that if he’d been eaten, Chilchuck and Marcille wouldn’t have helped Falin,

theres a small part of me that thinks the reason Chilchuck stayed with the party and went back in the dungeon in the first place was because he didn’t want to leave Laios alone. That Laios was moreso the reason he stayed.

[puppyeared]

(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time

[kingthunder]

Bg3 characters going down on you. Ahem.

Astarion: He'll get you off faster than you've ever gotten off in your life but he's not going to enjoy himself while he's doing it. It's not you it's him. Don't take it personally.

Wyll: He's never done this before but he's just so happy to be here. Aimless as a puppy at first, but takes direction well and gets the hang of it within minutes.

Gale: Look. We all know that Mystra trained his tongue very well. But you can never be sure how much of his enthusiasm is desire for you vs desire to fulfill your expectations, and he might not know either.

Lae'zel: Would much rather you go down on her. If she does decide to use her mouth, she will take you apart with ruthless precision and leave the pieces lying on the ground.

Shadowheart: Queen of edging. Likes to watch you squirm.

Karlach: All sex is fun sex and she will go down on you enthusiastically, but if mouths are involved she'd rather be 69ing so you can both be having a good time at the same time.

Halsin: Eats you out like a starving man at a buffet.

Minthara: Her mouth is a gift that she sees fit to bestow on you. Best not to forget that.

Dame Aylin: Will make you come eight times in a row before taking a quick water break and diving back in. Sorry, I meant Isobel, not you. She'll make Isobel come eight times in a row before taking a quick water break and diving back in. The rest of you are on your own.

[starz4valen]

me when i realize the reason i dont feel like i can claim the term butch is cause i dont feel attractive enough

[crow-n-tell]

I just experienced something so insane I don’t think anyone I tell will believe it

[lovesodeepandwideandwell]

y'all are great. tonight I will be displaying my huge competence and level of productivity by Going To Bed without completing my to do list

[friend-dogor]

actually wait in relation to the last post about ghibli and how it is aestheticized into bland and toothless images of comfort, it's got me thinking abt Ursula K Le Guin again

The trouble is that we have a bad habit, encouraged by pedants and sophisticates, of considering happiness as something rather stupid. Only pain is intellectual, only evil interesting. This is the treason of the artist: a refusal to admit the banality of evil and the terrible boredom of pain. If you can’t lick ’em, join ’em. If it hurts, repeat it. But to praise despair is to condemn delight, to embrace violence is to lose hold of everything else. We have almost lost hold; we can no longer describe a happy man, nor make any celebration of joy.

(from The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas, 1973, top of pg.2)

i think that the original post is guilty of this to a degree, seeking to refute the idiocy and simplicity of focusing on the "happy" themes of ghibli movies my instead shifting attention to the horrors and pains contained within the text—those which could be seen as intellectual, needing perhaps a more sophisticated understanding of environmentalism and geopolitics.

but, furthermore, i think i'm guilty of it even in trying to defend miyazaki's often returning narrative commitment to hope and environmentalism and anti-war sentiment and kindness—after the last tag, i wanted to add something about "i know that putting kindness above pursuit of power feels like a baby theme for babies" because it Does, to me. "be kind" is, like, the first and simplest rule most of us are taught as children, be kind, don't hit your brother, be kind, share, be kind.

i don't refer to this as one of his more challenging themes, of course, because why should i? we all know to be kind. of course, i refer only to topics of war and environmentalism and grief as challenging. kindness is simple!

(nevermind that one of the biggest challenges for myself and a lot of people i know is how to stop being cruel to oneself after decades of practice and learned examples and instead to learn to be kind and forgiving with one's own mistakes and failures and perceived flaws)

and i wonder two things: 1) is it possible that the self-aestheticization of miyazaki's movies (for example, the rapturous visual attention paid to food, the attention paid to soft chairs, pillows, small and pleasantly cluttered environments, with plenty of natural light, lush plantlife and endearing creatures) contribute to miyazaki's more "challenging" messages, and if so, that there's a degree of success in people remembering the thick-cut bacon and eggs on toast from Howl's Moving Castle before they think of Sophie Hatter's town on fire because of the king's war? Has Hayao Miyazaki succeeded in making war and destruction at once horrifying and banal, but a simple good breakfast fascinating and compelling? ——not to say that people who simplify the movie to Only the aesthetics are right. they still aren't. they exist in dialogue with the destruction and it's ridiculous to sever the two. but is it possible that the majority of people thinking first of the "cozy" elements of Studio Ghibli's work is not nonintellectual and reductive, but rather contributes to a larger point of attention?

2) i ought to find other examples of media which do not treat "happy" themes or "light" themes—(i struggle even to talk about the category i mean without dismissing it entirely as Simple, or mischaracterizing it. i mean things like kindness over power and compassion over fear, things like that) which do not treat the themes as childish or nonintellectual, but also do so without fetishizing violence and suffering as Special and More Deserving of Thought than Simple and Stupid Good Feelings so that i can kind of investigate this concept a little more

[dilsdoes]

this is so dumb but im having a kind of hard time with my health right now and unironically the thing that might help a lot is a pair of fucking roller skates. and thats ridiculous.

[vroomian]

Sometimes the urge to call my doctor and ask to be put down like old yeller is overwhelming

[luck-of-the-drawings]

REFLEX IN THE SKY, WARNS YOU YOURE GONNA DIE, STORM COMING, YOU BETTER HIDE. FROM THE ATOMIC TIDE

(messin around with (ONLY) pens and colored pencils, error correction done with paper n glue)

[tiefling-queer]

so many people would rather shit themselves to death than bother reading anything about landback and making any attempt to understand decolonization.

ending apartheid in south africa didn't result in a genocide of white settlers and their descendants. freeing palestine isn't calling for another genocide of jewish settlers and their descendants. landback isn't a call for mass genocide and deportation of white americans back to europe.

your paranoia about the expected retribution should the indigenous peoples your illegitimate nation oppresses have their land restored to them is unfounded and racist.

your brain is poisoned by this conception that a hierarchy must exist and if youre not at the top then you must be at the bottom. and especially for white people, who cannot imagine being anywhere other than the top (hence why white people subject to other forms of oppression often perceive that oppression as being the worst form of oppression, rather than as a different facet of the same overarching systems that deem us unfit), the idea of being oppressed by groups that youve been taught your whole life, subconsciously or even consciously, to see as lesser and animalistic fills you with fear.

[solradguy]

It's fun dressing cartoonishly masculine. I need to put a steel chain on my leather jacket that matches the spikes and compliments the cyborg demon skull painted on the back

[wizardlyghost]

one of the worst parts of being tired is that you can't remember a time when you weren't tired. this is all there is i guess.

[jennhoney]

I read old messages from my mom to hopefully soften me. I was a grief monster yesterday. So mad at her. She for most of my adult life felt so separated from me and she said some pretty rough stuff especially when I was staying with them during her chemo. Mostly it’s the stuff she didn’t say or try to resolve that I’m having trouble forgiving her for. Because there is no more time. Leaving me alone in a hospital bed in Raleigh is still something I can’t fully think about or I might shatter into a million pieces. That she wouldn’t go to the Golden Girls convention that I gifted her. It was probably unfair of me and I didn’t fully know I was doing it but I would put us in situations where maybe she would pick me, prioritize me (or us), and she never really did I don’t think. I have this issue in my romantic relationships as well 🫠. But I guess she tried the best she could and that was the time we had.

It’s snowing

[aces-to-apples]

I've actually decided just now today that I'm morally opposed to the modern conception of 'exercise'. I am willing to be physically active while either playing a game or completing a task, but I reject the idea of doing it for its own sake, to fit into arbitrary ideals of what is healthy or gods forbid attractive. That's fucked up. We gotta stop calling shit 'exercise' and start being specific about what we're doing and why.