#and I know I’ll never be enough
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I woke up from a good dream, sweetly cuddled up next to my husband this morning only to see he was already awake and looking at naked pictures of other women on Reddit. Instantly sent me into a silent spiral of self hatred.
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Twisted Wonderland self-aware!Yuu except they’re empathic.
When I say self-aware!Yuu I don’t mean a scenario where Yuu transmigrated into Twisted Wonderland with memories intact.
When I say self-aware!Yuu I mean someone who knows themselves better than anyone else.
They know they have flaws. They know that, sometimes, their flaws will get in the way. Whether it’s shutting down emotionally, not being able to express themselves properly, or something to do with a physical ability. Their flaws will always follow them around. Even in Twisted Wonderland.
And yet, self-aware!Yuu is still kind. Still loving all of their strengths and flaws.
Ace needing a place to stay after Riddle off’d-his-head? “Yes, of course you can sleepover.”
Deuce breaking down after letting his delinquent side out? “No, you’re not a bad guy— you just protected me and Grim from those bullies!”
Riddle having a crisis after his overblot? “I don’t accept your apology. Not yet at least. But I can understand why acted this way… you’re allowed to feel angry about your past. You didn’t deserve that kind of treatment.”
No matter how wrong the opponent is, self-aware!Yuu always empathizes with them in the end.
Maybe one day, someone confronts them about it. I can see Leona or Azul or Rollo and maybe Jamil. They’re people who have experienced and or seen how terrible people can be.
“Why are you so nice all the time? You’re too thought. Too kind. Good people like you always end up last.”
Perhaps self-aware!Yuu will look at them with a stoic face. Perhaps a shocked expression, accompanied by a frantic gasp. Perhaps even small laugh at their question. And just as the confronting student was about to retort again, self-aware!Yuu will smile.
“Well, I’m not a good person. I just do what I think is right.”
Self-aware!Yuu will sit down, watching activities unfold around them— heart still bursting full of kindness. They’ll pat the empty space beside them. An invitation, but it’s up to the student to take the initiative.
“It’s everyone’s first time living after all. May as well make it kind.”
Soon enough, if the student plucks their courage, they’ll sit and slowly learn how to become self-aware too.
banner credit: @bunnysrph
#idk thinking about how a self-aware!Yuu could change a lot of things in Twisted Wonderland#especially in NRC#someone who knows their flaws#knows they’ll fall time and time again#knows that their flaws will most likely never fully disappear#yet still loves unbashfully#self-aware!Yuu that loves themselves and everyone around them unapologetically#it doesn’t matter what their personality is whether cheerful or quiet as a mouse#no matter what they’ll always hold kindness in their heart#and maybe one day that kindness will influence those around them#because it doesn’t matter if their love changed anything#just as long as love was still there. present and unwavering.#(why do i suddenly have a puddle of tears around me😔🤏🏼)#ANYWAYS long story short#I WANNA HUG THESE BOYS UNTRUAMATIZE THEM RN💥🤺#twisted wonderland x reader#twst x reader#Leona x reader#jamil x reader#Azul x reader#riddle x reader#ace x reader#deuce x reader#twisted wonderland x yuu#self-aware!yuu#^^ maybe I’ll make some small scenarios of self-aware!yuu and expand on their relationships w/ others#MAN YUU IS GONNA HAVE A FIELD DAY WITH ROLLO#yuu/reader: *rolls up sleeves* So how much trauma do you have wanna cover today?#LMAOOOAOAOAOAO#alright that’s enough
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I think one of the most beautiful things about Aziraphale and Crowley is that they will get to be together forever.
Once they get their happily ever after, it really will be ever after. No grief waiting for them at the end - no goodbyes. Just love, and the two of them, until the heat death of the universe, or beyond.
Sometimes the finite nature of life gives it meaning. And I’m not sure I would choose infinity myself, given the choice. But there is something beautiful about these eternal, immortal, ineffable beings living on together til the end of time.
They will never leave each other alone.
#I know whatever happens I’ll never have enough time with the love of my life#I’m glad Aziraphale and Crowley will have enough time with theirs#good omens#ineffable husbands#crowley#aziraphale#aziracrow#crowley x arizaphale#aziraphale x crowley
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thinking abt how satoru is one of the only adults in the jjk universe who can separate the child from the situation/cards they are dealt with… yuji took in sukuna as a host and he’s the only adult who sees yuji as a child/his own human being while other adults see him simply as “sukuna’s host” who needs to die. thinking abt how satoru was also one of the only adults who stepped up for yuuta and that’s one of the reasons yuuta appreciates him so much… same with when he took in megumi. at the end of the day gojo satoru is the only one in the universe that knows what it’s like to be used/seen as a weapon or Entity rather than a person and he won’t let his kids feel the same way/he’ll do everything in his power to make them feel better & actually LET them be children!
#and yes i do mean one of the ONLY adults#suguru didn’t see yuuta as a human being/child he saw him as someone to kill and overtake#which is so interesting considering what happened to riko like suguru really did just continue the cycle of killing kids to further agendas#nanami at first didn’t see yuji as a child but rather sukuna’s host and it isn’t until satoru has that convo w him in the bar#that i think nanami realized how much satoru cares about these children#which in turn ofc we all know how much nanami loved/adored/cared for yuji :’3#and then ofc teen gojo taking in megumi/tsumiki#i know people always say gojo was never a father he’s more of a brother/uncle etc etc etc#like sure he may act like that but . he did take care of them in a fatherly way#just bc he acts silly doesn’t mean he can’t be a good paternal figure 😭#i think abt how tsumiki had the biggest and best room in the hospital when i watch the anime and how gojo definitely pulled that#idk i just. satoru doesn’t get nearly enough credit for the simple act of CARING. for children especially#moreso than any other character in the manga and i’ll die on that hill#gojo satoru#personal
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was deciding where i would put each lifers hearts and then i got stuck. this is how far i got
#sphynx sketches#trafficblr#life series smp#life series fanart#i dont really feel like tagging this so .thats all#this is just a little headcanon i have but i’ve never been able to decide on everyone lmao#ummm anyway secret reason for posting this is to maaaybe ask for requests?#because i’m having a meltdown trying to draw. or write. anything. because i have exactly zero ideas. maybe even less somehow#do you ever feel like your need to create something is tearing you apart from the inside.#like it’s gripping your heart and lungs and climbing up your throat until you can’t breathe#there is an innate need in me to create and yet i have. NOTHING in my brain that is a comprehensive idea#makes it worse when i want so badly to create meaningful things . i don’t have enough brain power for that#can’t promise i’ll get to any requests in a timely manner but. you know. it’d be cool.
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I don’t get people saying it doesn’t make sense for Lestat to be guilty because he let Claudia die. I, personally, cannot think of a better reason to be eaten alive by guilt for a century than if I let my daughter die. I, too, wouldn’t move out of catatonic grief and stillness knowing if I had the chance to do it again I still wouldn’t save her. I, too, would never be able to get her out of my mind. Just me though!
#like . u guys#that was his DAUGHTER. that was his girl his child and he let her die he didn’t pick her and knew he wasn’t going to#he never picked her! and never will#why would guilt leave him#why would him knowing he never loved her enough free him from guilt??????????????#I need her in his ear at all times the memory of her the love of her the anger of her!!! she’s so like him I just. oh man. dude#lestat de lioncourt#interview with the vampire#claudia#this is NOT a Lestat hate post I’ll never make one of those my scary girl is everything to me
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do you guys ever get too scared to post ocs because you’re worried that their design or story isn’t cool enough
And then someone posts their OC/sona that looks super similar to your OC, even though you’ve technically made yours first
And now you’re scared of posting them because you’re afraid someone is gonna try and compare the two, because someone will always do that if they look similar enough
Do you guys ever feel that way or am I just really really stupid
#darkzyx#clink#minor vent#little bit of a rant I suppose#I don’t know I dont wanna look like a copy cat but at the same time my guy has been around since 2017#I have the watt pad art to prove it 💀💀💀#but at the same time#no one knows who he is because I just never had the confidence to consistently tell/post about my ocs and their world#mainly because I kept changing their stories all the time…#💀💀💀💀#like I can’t stress enough just how similar their concepts are to the other persons#which is an extremely big shame because I really really like my OC#but I also love their concept#but if someone accuses me of being a copycat#I think I’ll crumble away into a pile of ash 💀💀💀
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Pokeymon
@ask-willowleafeon @ask-shiny-umbreon
#fuckkkk pokeask nostalgia got me by the throat. I can’t do this again Im not strong enough (does it anyway)#drawing eeveelutions is always fun Theyre so shaped. theyre up there on fav pokemon to draw right next to dratini. and maybe shinx#these two stick out to me in my mind just cause like. their designs are so good it kind of squishes my brain the right ways#I never got to draw Percy for an ask or anything but he is. very creature#and willow of course I have a soft spot for. shes so sweet and gentle uuhghhgghhhh I love her#fuck dude .maybe I will come back adhd be damned. I dont fuckin know. really tempting rn#I tell myself that but deep down I know I suck at roleplay. but maybe I’ll do it. but I suck at roleplay. etc#btw leafeon should be allowed to be autumn coloured without being shiny. it would fix me. I just want Some Guy dressed like a maple leaf#without the awe of being a 1/1000 chance. I don’t CAREEEEE gimme the crunchy red leaveeeesss#I also wanna draw Gardevoir with a barn owl face. and leafeon with seaweed leaves#aaahhhhggghhhhh clenches my fists#pokemon#pokemon ask blog#pokeask#others oc#ask-willowleafeon#ask-shiny-umbreon#Percy umbreon#willow leafeon#myart#my art#pokemon oc
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Thinking about them…
#Dungeon meshi#laios touden#touden family#Toudad and momden#The laifam. The touuu… tou… toudamily? Help idk#Laios holding onto his dad like that after a near death experience after he ran away from his warnings gets to me so bad.#Dad does care dad was so worried and he WOULD stick with u thick and thin he just thinks about ur sake#w momden i also almost put the exorcising Falin thing instead but that wasn’t Laios centric enough#I’ve been writing a laios pov family angst fic lately i’ll be posting it real soon#Gonna be called Push the deciduous out of my gums you’ll know it when u see it#Sigh. Isn’t it neat how the Toudens are scandinavians but Toudad has an interest in myths so he gave his dogs and Laios greek names#That “he never told me anything” panel is prob my fave touden family moment like god what good framing what good hollowness in the delivery#Momden having debilitating anxiety but caring so so much and being overprotective and overdoing it my beloved. Peeking in on them eating#Dad too busy and mom too bedridden to share meals :(#Is the mama reading book pic very tiny and blurry? Yes. Do I have a better resolution of it? No#Could that be a servant peeking in and not their mom? Yes. Do I believe so? No
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surprised i haven’t seen anyone talking abt this parallel. jacob & delainey’s lil comforting shoulder touches🥺(no wonder everyone always gushes about those two in interviews, how could u not adore them? sweethearts. gaaah this whole cast is so solid <3)
#i really adore and respect when celebs are this earnest#like#when they’re visibly nervous and invested in the fan’s response#that kind of vulnerability#it’s what puts the /feeling/ in it !!#bc that’s how you know they rlly care abt what they’re creating#it’s the magic that moves media from ‘content’ to art#and putting your art out there for the whole world is a scary fkn thing to do!#ppl really don’t appreciate that enough these days#god. i’ll never have enough kudos to give this production#also#not to parasocial on main#(well. this isnt my main lmao)#BUT#it’s so sweet seeing how much more comfortable he (&the whole cast) has become each year#you can seeeee the physical difference in anxiety in just these gifs#i’m glad it seems like the world doesn’t feel so close to ending for him this time around:’)#iwtv#delainey hayles#sam reid#jacob anderson#sdcc#my gifs!#my posts tag:)
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Scuffed-ass COTL height chart where I don’t even tell you their heights, I just show you how tall they are relative to each other. If they share an arrow they are basically the same height. Most normal followers can be expected to reside in the general area of ‘above lamb but just below Kallamar’.
This is also the most useless chart ever because I didn’t even show what most of ‘em look like body-wise ghhhh it’s ONLY relative height. I should be thrown in prison
#all of my respect to the ‘tall and lanky leshy’ community but in my mind he is small because worms are small. to me.#and then on the opposite end.#Squidboy is one of the tallest followers but he never gets to flaunt it because I nerfed his immune system.#by that I mean he’s perpetually sick so he spends most of his time lying down or sitting yknow.#I’ll explain it more on some future post#cotl#ivy’s scribblings#cult of the lamb#cotl kallamar#cotl shamura#cotl heket#cotl leshy#yes I’m only tagging the bishops because I know for a fact that the lamb and Narinder tags already have enough content.#they don’t need me.
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Odysseus when he has a wife Odysseus when he thinks about his wife and talks about his wife and did you know I have a wife her name is Penelope her name means weaver she weaves really good wanna meet her her name is Penelope she’s my wi
#tagamemnon#Odysseus#the odyssey#Penelope#I’m not far enough in the Iliad to know if he talks about Penelope but I assume so#since tsoa is a retelling and he does in that (so much omg)#if Penelope was married to me I too would never ever shut up#I hope he does in the Iliad if he doesn’t I’ll riot
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It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.
#this unfortunately hits way too close to home for me#let’s not even get into Claudia’s anger at never being enough#iwtv spoilers#interview with the vampire#armand#this is just me speaking from personal experience…but there is definite manipulation at play here from Armand#and I don’t necessarily mean that pejoratively- when you’re desperate for people to like/love you you’ll become whatever they want#or whatever you think they’d want and you give it to them so they’ll want to keep you around#I’ve done it so often with the people in my life- and make no mistake it’s also a survival tactic#you give someone what they want they won’t hurt you#and when that’s how you survive for years and years it becomes the default method of interacting with others#even with normal people who genuinely mean you no harm you revert to that people pleasing mode#as a means of control both external and internal#this is what i see armand doing- his way of surviving that he’s never truly broken out of#armand ceding coven control to Louis and curating the Dubai penthouse for Louis are part of the same pattern of behavior#and even tho it’s ultimately harmful and will only end badly for armand and Louis’ relationship#idk if armand knows how to not exist that way with someone he loves/desires#all of this also ties into louis and daniel#because of course Armand will lose it over Louis finding connection and interest with someone else aside from him#someone HUMAN no less#and I can see Armand taking out his anger on Daniel as a way of expressing his own frustration at still not being enough for Louis#breaking daniel’s mind in a desperate attempt to understand why this human could reach Louis in ways he couldn’t#not saying any of this to excuse Armand and his behavior obviously (I’m very upset and worried over the trial looming on the horizon)#but I do understand this impulse and how you’ll throw ANYONE under the bus in order to preserve your place with loved ones#it’s all horrifying but unfortunately I empathize#like even if Louis is right to walk out on him when he learns/remembers the truth of what happened to Claudia#I’ll probably still find myself saddened by Armand’s fate because I’ve absolutely been there myself#it’s a tragedy of his own making- his fear and desperation birthing manipulative and controlling behaviors#that ultimately result in your own abandonment#god this fucking show
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the ittiest of bittiest solkara based off this post
#napping in Sols apartment#my art#solkara#I think that sometime when it’s rainy kara comes over just bc he knows it’s sols fave weather for napping LOLLS#and then they nap……. and its like. sol used to never ever nap / they just have a hard time relaxing enough to nap + they’re an insomniac#so.. when kara comes over they feel safe and comfortable enough to take a break and they nap together. dies#ok I’ll sleep now
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my romantic self-esteem is just absolutely rock-solid. for whatever reason!
#I’m a catch!#and I’m so not interested in anybody who wouldn’t demonstrably make my life better in every way#and that involves not being afraid of me or the idea of romance/marriage in general#and if you are afraid it just isn’t interesting or attractive enough for me#there was a boy a few years ago and tbh I think he liked me#and I liked him! he was cute he was intense in an endearing way#and he was smart#we argued about Taylor and then the next time I saw him he was like Christmas tree farm is a good song#(it had just come out)#and he never did anything about it and then he moved away and that is totally fine#and I wish him well.#but the crush was killed by the simple fact that he never liked me enough to say it#like truly and with all (non-romantic) love; go with God#at that point lol#that said I have never wanted marriage or children as an abstract concept#so it makes it much easier to think along these lines#it would be so devastating to want it so badly and not get it!#but I can’t even imagine summoning the desire for it in an abstract sense#I’ll meet someone and love them and then that will lead to marriage and possibly children#or I won’t#but both roads look about the same to me in terms of desire#or any desire big enough worth mentioning#not talking about the whispers or the daydreams that do sometimes intrude#but yeah I don’t think full desire would come until there was a person#and there might not be! I cannot conjure them from the deeps lol#anyway I’ll stop talking about it because I know it can be sensitive/delicate to talk about#in a public setting
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Sophie Shepard & Kaidan Alenko (ME2) 1/?
MIRA'S MORE CANON ME2 "The wrong place at the right time..." AKA: The aftermath of Stealing Memory. Mass Effect 2: Legendary Edition (2021)
#mira makes gifs ✨#sophie shepard#kaidan alenko#shenko#fshenko#mass effect#mass effect 2#me2#mass effect legendary edition#dailygaming#morecanonmasseffect#otp: you're real enough for me#these are my favorite bisexuals on the citadel sir#if bioware won’t give me soph and kaidan content in me2? FUCK IT. i’ll do it myself :)#i’m not even kidding about more canon either :) there’s some cute little details i spent way too much time modding in lol#kaidan’s little moon earring he gets after soph dies#me now knowing how to add outfits to the closet so i can yoink the male hoodie mesh to kitbash the hoodie she steals from their apartment#literally right after she resurrects that she always wears around the normandy :)#special shout-out to tali and thane bc their romance scenes have some nice moments#i could rant about soph’s me2 canon for hours but the cerberus plotline is shit#so half of that gets tossed out and kaidan and ash end up back on the normandy when she stages a coup from cerberus :)#bioware canon sucks so i’m rewriting ME2 :) they get to smooch more :)#like this!!#kaidan shows up on kasumi’s loyalty mission to help out with the undercover aspect when he hears soph is in citadel space :)#so they take out hock together :) and i think that’s how they end up rekindling (even though they never really stopped) :)#one of these days i’ll get around to giving kaidan his full arm tattoo instead of just the shoulder one you can’t even see lmao#i am now very powerful since i remember how to mesh swap and i can control the closet :)#i fear i’m about to be obnoxious about gif’ing ME2 missions#i think kaidan ash soph and zaeed are about to be going places#SORRY FOR THE RANT :) enjoy your day 💙
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