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tpwk-formula1 · 2 days ago
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Hiii! Could I order a Sicilian crust pizza with alfredo sauce, broccoli, ricotta, buratta, shrimp and oregano with a Mountain Dew (dom reader and Dino, sub Paul), White Claw (Paul) and a slushie (Paul) with dessert served by Dino Beganovic and Paul Aron
My idea was Dino and reader are switches, it's Paul's first time being a sub and he's a bit nervous
Lee-Lee's Pizzeria Menu
TW - Crying, threesome, MxM, multiple orgasm, unprotected sex
WC 3100+
Sicillian crust dating Alfredo sweet sex broccoli "Made just for me huh?" ricotta "I love your voice but it's always my favorite when you're moaning my name" buratta "How many was that? three... I think you can give me another" shrimp "I'll be gentle" oregano "Please, let me cum in you" mountain dew dom/sub white claw crying slushie sir kink dessert yes served by Dino Beganovic and Paul Aron
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Y/N POV
"Armastus, can I speak to you for a second," I hear my blond boyfriend call out from another room in our shared apartment.
"How can I help you," I find Paul in our shared bedroom sitting on the bed with a perplexed look on his face.
"I want to try something but I'm worried Dino might not be into the idea," he says softly making me walk towards him and climbing into his lap and feeling his hands circle around my waist and pull me in closer something he tends to do when he gets anxious.
"Love, you know Dino is always open to new ideas, but what did you have in mind?" I ask softly while running my fingers up and down his covered chest.
"Well, you and Dino always get to be switches and I'm always dom and I love it don't get me wrong! I love seeing you guys submit to me but I wanna try being sub for once," Paul says softly making a smile spread across my face before leaning down and placing a soft kiss on his lips.
"Oh! Dino is gonna be so excited! He's been rambling lately about wanting to dom you but too scared to ask because you've always loved having us submit to you," I admit softly making a small smile spread across his face before moving his hands from my hips to my face and pulling me down for a few quick kisses.
"We'll talk as a couple later but we should probably work on our communication a bit better," I laugh softly making Paul grow slightly red and nod his head.
It's been a few days since Paul and I had talked and Dino was finally home from Sweden which meant we could all sit down and talk finally.
"Dino, can you come to the entry room," I call out softly from the kitchen where I had grabbed a few waters for each of us. I find Paul already sitting on the couch looking rather nervous while I see Dino coming down the hall with a confused look.
"Paul wants to talk to you," I tell him softly when he reaches where I'm standing and placing a softly kiss on my lips.
"How can I help you," Dino says with a joking sing song while plopping down on the couch where he placing a kiss on the side of Paul's face still not picking up on the anxiety coursing through his body.
"Kärlek, what's wrong," Dino finally asks picking up on Paul's nervous tendencies.
"I- um- please don't hate me but I want you and y/n to dom me tonight," Paul rushes out making me even struggling to know what he said but based on the happy look spreading across Dino's face I can tell he knows exactly what he said.
"Go to the bedroom, strip down and be waiting exactly how you have us wait for you," Dino tells him softly before placing a kiss on his lips and watching Paul disappear down the hall where our bedroom is.
"Who's idea? Did you talk to him while I was away?" Dino turns his attention onto me where I was sitting on the coffee table just across from the Swed.
"We talked but it was his idea," I tell him softly making him smile and nod his head.
"Are you gonna join him or me tonight?" Dino asks softly making me smile.
"You, I want all the attention on him," I answer softly making a smile spread across Dino's face before nodding and standing up.
"Strip down thought," Dino says making me laugh softly and strip down into just my matching bra and thong.
"You too than," I say while point to him being fully clothes. Dino strips down into just his briefs before we both make our way into the bedroom where we find Paul completely stripped down on his knees near the end of the bed. I instantly noticed how hard his is making me smirk slightly.
"Get in the middle of the bed and lay on your back," I tell him sternly while gesturing towards the bed and walking towards the closet where he kept all of our toys.
I grab out several different things, but I toss the rope to Dino where he instantly starts typing up Paul while giving him plenty of reassurances and soft kisses along his body only fueling his horniness.
"Paul, love do you have absolutely any limits, things that are a definate no?" I ask soft while walking towards him with a blindfold, cock ring, and vibrator in my hands making Paul's eyes grow slightly wide at the sight,
"No blindfold please, not this time at least," he says softly staring directly at the long silk ribbon making me nod and softly smile dropping it on the ground before I hold up the cock ring making Paul blush bright red but softly nod before eyeing the vibrator and nodding a soft yes at it as well.
I smile softly before nodding and placing them on the bed making my way back to Dino where he is observing his handy work. Paul was tied down in a star position making me smile at how vaulnerable he looked.
"Are you okay?" Dino asks softly seeing the pure anxiety flickering through Paul's eyes.
"I think so, just a bit nervous," Paul admits softly.
"We'll go slow, it's all about your pleasure tonight. You know the safe word. Use it if you need to and yellow out if you don't like something but don't want to stop overall," Dino answers softly before approaching the bed and climbing up between his spread legs and grabbing the cock ring laying next to Paul's body.
"Kurat" I hear Paul hiss when Dino gripped onto his cock and pump it softly.
I climb on the bed next to Paul's body and start trailing my nails along his torso watching his abs flex under my touch before making it to his nipples and giving them a quick pinch making his eyes roll into the back of his head while his back attempts to arch but Dino had tied him down too good.
"Oh kurat, sir please," Paul begs making me look down to see Dino oh so slowly rolling the cock ring down Paul's large angry cock.
"Breath, you look so pretty like this," I whisper against his lips making him whimper softly before I quiet him down by placing my lips on his.
I grab the vibrator next to us and turn it on the lowest setting before softly placing it on one of his nipples making him whimper as the vibrations shoot straight to his already aching and leaking cock.
"Kurat, Y/N," Paul whimpers when I start slowly bringing the vibrator down to where he needs it the most.
"I love your voice but it's always my favorite when you're moaning my name" I tell him while I place the vibrator right on the tip of his cock making him loudly moan out at the intense pleasure.
I watch as Dino starts to play with Paul's balls making me smirk when I see Paul start to shake from his impending orgasm.
"Please, please, I need to cum," Paul whines out making me smirk slightly at his desperation.
"I think you should make Dino cum first," I tell him while removing the vibrator from his cock and softly slapping Dino's hand away making him get up and pull his briefs off before climbing back onto the bed but this time near Paul's face where he turns his head as best he can and opens his mouth and starts sucking Dino's large cock.
"God, you're so good at this," Dino groans outs making me smirk while I lean down and pull Paul's cock into my mouth making Paul hiss around Dino's cock which resulted in Dino whimpering at the sudden vibration.
"Fuck, made just for me huh?" Dino smirks while pushing his cock all the way down Paul's throat making him gag slightly. I can hear Paul softly hum in confirmation sending the vibrations straight to Dino's cock making him shudder and fuck Paul's face a bit harder before pulling out and cumming all over Paul's face making him look like a proper sub for us.
"Please, I need to cum," Paul begs not ever caring about the cum leaking all over his face.
"Cum for us," Dino leans down and whispers in Paul's ear making me speed up the actions with my mouth making Paul whimper before his whole body tenses slightly before relaxing and unleashing a massive load of cum filling my mouth up. I swallow whatever he gives me before sitting up and crawling towards his cum covered face before leaning down and licking a large strip of cum off his cheek before hovering over his open mouth and letting the cum slide down my tongue and into his mouth where he closes his mouth and swallows with a groan.
"Look so pretty covered in his cum," I whisper against his ear before placing a few soft kisses on his lips.
"Please I need more," Paul begs making my eyes find Dino's to see him already at the foot of the bed with the vibrator ready to make Paul cum again.
"You better make Y/N cum twice before you even think about begging to cum," Dino tells Paul sternly making me clench my thighs together loving when the Swed gets like this. I quickly pull my thong off before climbing over Paul's face and centering my core with his mouth.
"Please, I need to taste you," Paul whines not quite being able to reach given I was still hovering over his mouth. I finally lower myself down onto his face while watching DIno flip the vibrator on full blast making my eyes go wide knowing just how hard he's about to make this for Paul.
"Fuck," I moan when Paul starts sucking on my clit. One thing about Paul was he was a munch and knew how to bring me over the edge with just his mouth in a matter of minutes but with Dino distracting him with the vibrator I knew Paul was gonna struggle with the task at hand.
"Dino! I'm gonna fucking cum if you keep doing that shit," Paul snaps getting frustrated, his dominant side coming out slightly. He's quickly shut up though when Dino slaps his inner thigh making Paul whimper at the sudden sting.
Paul instantly attached his mouth back onto my clit using his cool down to his advantage and bringing me over the edge through my first orgasm rather quickly.
"Fuck, Paul," I whine out when I feel my orgasm hit soaking Paul's face with my essence.
"Kurat, taste so good," Paul whimpers into my pussy sending slightly overstimulating vibrations through me.
"Don't you fucking move, you better cum in the next 3 minutes, our boy won't last long," Dino tells me sternly.
"Yes sir," I moan out when I feel Paul start licking at my sensitive clit again. I'm already shaking from overstimulation and with the added pleasure of Paul's tongue I know I won't last long this time either.
"No, too much," I hear Paul start to whimper letting me know how close he was getting.
"Shit, I'm gonna cum," Paul breaths out into my pussy making me grind down on his face a bit harder.
"Cum with me," I moan while falling over the edge and watching Dino stroking Paul's cock while keeping the vibrator pressed firmly against his tip.
I watch Paul fall over the edge with a loud shout before he's moans quickly turn into whimpering when Dino keeps the vibrator firmly pressed against his tip clearly wanting to throw him over the edge against.
I slowly climb off of Paul's face to find it soaked with my juices but I can tell some of it is from his tears he was freely letting fall due to the overstimulation he was feeling.
"Please! Sir, it's too much," Paul whimpers making both Dino and I look down at him with a smirk.
"I don't think I can cum again, please," Paul continues to beg making me look down at him with slight worry in my eyes.
"Paul, color?" I ask softly while pushing Dino's brutal hand away from the angry red cock.
Green! Fucking green," Paul shouts when he quickly feels the vibrator press down on his sensitive cock again.
"Please! So close," Paul whimpers making Dino remove the intense vibrator and quickly take all of Paul's length down his throat before pulling a third orgasm out of him.
"Fuck, fuck fuck," Paul chants in English cumming down Dino's throat. Dino and I could tell Paul was getting close to his limit but he could still go again.
"How many was that? three... I think you can give me another" Dino says while looking straight into Paul's eyes. Paul just nods his head still too blissed out to talk. I see him tug gently on the rope around his wrists before looking at them and them me, a silent plea to untie him.
"Please, armastus," Paul begs making me nod my head and slowly start untying his wrists while Dino worked on untying his ankles. Once he was completely untied he slowlyy starts moving his wrists around trying to losen his muscles before he softly reaches for me and pulls me into him where he starts placing kisses all over my face clearly still deep into subspace.
"I wanna ride him," I softly say looking right at Dino who nods his head and helps me climb into Paul's lap who hisses when my wet pussy slightly touches his overworked tip.
"I'll be gentle," I tell him softly while sitting up slightly and aligning his cock with my pussy before slowly sinking down onto his cock making him hiss and moan at the sensations.
I could feel Dino lining his cock up to my ass making me whimper slightly when I could feel his lube covered cock start pushing into me.
"Dino," I whine getting louder and louder the more he pushed into me.
"Knulla," Dino moans the more he pushed into me.
Once he has fully pushed his cock fulling into me I took a few deep breaths and allowed myself to adjust to their sizes before I slowly start moving my hips making all three of us moan out instanly.
"I can feel him moving," Paul cries out letting more tears streak down his face. I lean down kissing a few of his tears away before I feel DIno instantly start fucking my ass making both Paul and I scream out at the sudden overwhelming pleasure.
"Fuck, fuck fuck," I chant out struggling to catch my breath with how fast I can feel my orgasm approaching.
"Cum, both of you," Dino grits out making Paul start fucking his hips into mine bringing me over the edge with a shout.
"Oh my God," I cry out when I feel myself start squirting my orgasm all over Paul's tummy making him groan while gripping my hips tighter.
"Please let me cum in you," Paul begs making me nod my head in approval before he falls over the edge triggering Dino to thrust deep into my ass and unleash a massive load.
Once Dino had come down from his orgasm he slowly pulls out of my ass making me whimper at the feeling before he softly hushes me with a soft kiss before placing another one on Paul's lips.
I can hear Dino starting a bath which has me sitting up and slowly pulling Paul's cock out of me before getting up and heading into the bathroom on Shakey legs.
"What the hell! I was coming back to get you," Dino says with wide eyes as I sit on the toilet and start doing my business with a shrug of my shoulders.
"I dommed tonight too, it's my duty to help him out of subspace," I reply back softly.
"Ya and we also both just split you in half, it wouldn't kill you to be taken care of a little," Dino tells me with a smile on his face. I just laugh softly back before standing up and placing a soft kiss in his lips.
"I love you," I tell him softly while wrapping my arms around his waist.
"I love you too, but I gotta go get our man. Get in that tub and be ready to cuddle him," Dino tells me making me smile and climb into the extra warm bath water. When I sink down I wait for my boyfriends to return and when they do I can't help but let out a laugh.
"Dino! Fucking hell put me down!" Paul shouts with a laugh as the slightly taller boy carries him.
"See! I told you it only works when we carry her! I never want to be carried again!" Dino laughs back referring to all the times Paul had dommed Dino and instisted on carrying him which he complained about everytime.
"Fine! I won't to it again if you put me down," Paul laughs making Dino softly place him into the bathtub before I instantly crawl into his lap. I'm sort of curled into a ball sitting sideways so I can still look at Dino while I rest my head on Paul's shoulder.
"I love you," I whisper into his neck softly while I watch a wide smile spread across his face.
"I love you too," Paul says back with the same bright smile while pulling back slightly and placing a soft kiss on my lips making me smile.
"Will you want to try it again some time?" I ask softly playing with Dino's hand that I had reached for when he sat next to the tub.
"Fuck yes," Paul breaths a laugh making me smile and squeeze Dino's hand in excitement.
"I wanna watch you dom both Dino and I together soon," Paul says making me laugh and nod.
"It's one of my favorite fantasies," I say with a smirk.
"I also want for both of us to be subs together soon too," Paul tells me softly making me nod.
"I like that we get to be this versatile," Dino says with a laugh falling from his lips.
"Keeps it interesting. Just a couple feels boring now," I say with a laugh referring to a standard 2 person relationship.
Both of the boys laugh along with me before the room fell into a comfortable conversation while we all relaxed. Once the water had ran cold Dino helped both of us out of the bath and helped us into our room turning on a moving and taking a quick shower himself.
"He left us here with a movie on like a pair of Ipad kids," Paul says making both of us bust out laughing.
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sakashq · 2 days ago
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Too Late. 𐙚 kenan yildiz x fem!oc
🪬 summary. In which Isabel has never experienced love and doesn’t know what to expect of it. Once she’s shown it, she doesn’t know what to do.
🪬 face claim. this story is based on a work i had published on wattpad but have since unpublished. qlorify IS me guys i’m not stealing💔. she was a black woman in the book so i still fully see her as one here, but imagine isa as you please.
🪬 yap! I hate my ex. but i also miss him. so this is my current feelings for him written as someone else for someone else🤗. to my favorite divas who unfortunately have to go through this weird ass break up with me! @ar4ujos @hrts4havertz @planetpedri @halfwayhearted 🩵
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Isabel was not one to love. She just wanted to feel loved. She hadn’t yet met someone that was worthy of her love, past situations failing on the guy’s end. Love was such a strange concept for Isabel, the girl never being shot by one of Cupid’s arrows. Sometimes she felt like she wasn’t worthy of an arrow, watching everyone around her except her fall in love with their forever.
It wasn’t like there was something wrong with Isabel. She was beautiful—talented, too. Would do anything to make someone feel the way she wanted to feel, even if love was too strong and too terrifying for her.
She considered it ‘like-like’, more than liking someone, but not as much as loving them. Loving someone felt too scary, as she knew if she grew attached she wouldn’t be able to let go. And Isa wasn’t one to take no for an answer.
That’s why she couldn’t love. She’d get too attached and lose herself in that person. Who knows, if they were really worthy of her love, she’d destroy herself for them. It was like a lose/lose situation; if Isa loved, she’d lose herself. If she didn’t, she’d lose that person.
Well, this was all before him.
Someway somehow, Kenan had something different to him. He wasn’t like the other guys who wanted Isa. Personality wise, sure, but still. Something was off.
She didn’t know it at the time, but he was starting to develop feelings. They’d seen each other several times by this point, even going as far as texting everyday. He was doing what Isabel feared the most; falling in love.
He didn’t know it at the time, but Kenan was not falling in love with Isa. He fully thought he was, the idea of being with her being something he constantly thought about and highly considered. She was beautiful—talented, too. There was nothing he couldn’t like about her. Her flaws seemed like ghosts, being there but not seen. Maybe had he caught it he would’ve realized she was falling in love.
This scared Isa. She had never fallen in love with anyone. What made Kenan so different?
This scared Kenan. He had tried love a few times and desperately wanted it with Isabel, so why couldn’t he? There was something wrong with him, something so irrevocably wrong that he begun to hate himself for it.
He didn’t know it at the time, but he was scared of love with Isa.
She didn’t know it at the time, but she was scared of not loving Kenan.
He came to her door with flowers, as he had done once every week to convince himself that he really did love her. She answered as she always did, a bright smile on her face and her heart beating out of her chest.
“Hi,” she continued to smile, her stomach feeling like it was trying to crawl it’s way up to her heart.
“Hi,” he repeated back to her, a smile on his face. Why couldn’t he love her as she did him?
“Come in.”
He did as she said, putting the bouquet in their designated vase. “What’d you do today?” He inquired, hoping that conversation would plant a seed in him that would blossom into love for the girl.
“Nothing much. You?” She responded, sitting down at her counter. He sat next to her, their chairs facing each other.
“Bought your flowers.” They both chuckled. One with love, the other with anxiety.
“They’re beautiful, per usual. Thank you, Kenan.” She couldn’t take her eyes off of him. He was so handome, she didn’t know if she could stop loving him.
He couldn’t take his eyes off of her. She was so pretty, why couldn’t he love her?
They hung out for a while, soon moving to the couch. He had his arm around her, she had her head on his shoulder.
“Kenan,” she spoke softly.
“Hmm?” He replied, taking his eyes off the movie in front of him and looking at her.
Her eyes met his and she melted into him. “I’m scared.”
“Why?�� His voice was filled with genuine concern. Why didn’t see feel safe with him? Was this his fault? What did he do wrong?
“I… I’ve never loved someone the way I love you. And it scares me.”
He tensed up and froze. What? She loved him? No, no, no, this couldn’t be. She couldn’t love him. He couldn’t even love her! How could someone afraid of love make an exception for someone who didn’t feel the same?
“I’m sorry, that was way too forward,” Isabel frowned, moving out of his arms. “I didn’t mean…”
“Hey,” he held onto her, using his hand to guide her head to look at him. “It’s okay. I feel the same way.” That was a lie. He didn’t even know what he wanted.
Her face lit up, her brown eyes shining brightly against the TV glow. “Really?”
He smiled at her seeing her excitement, wishing he could share it with her. “Of course.” He kissed her gently, their soft lips connecting. This wasn’t the first time they’d done this.
“What does this mean now?” Isa asked after a few moments.
“What?” He knew what she was asking. He just didn’t know what to say.
“I mean… you love me, I love you. What’s that mean for us?” She questioned.
He had to ask her the question now, if he didn’t he’d seem like an asshole. He already told her that he’s in love with her, might as well right? “We… Can I be your boyfriend?”
It was already set in motion; it was too late. Kenan was now stuck.
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confiaenanaa · 2 days ago
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sweet girl - eminem
fem!y/n x B. Rabbit
masterlist
synopsis: y/n finally meets Lily after Rabbit decides they're ready.
warnings: cursing, mention of sexual actions
A/N: hope y'all enjoy! if y'all have more prompts, share!
Y/N sat in bed, reading her newly-found favorite magazine. As she turned the page, she felt a buzz under her leg. She sat up, searching for her phone (which she'd presumed had made the buzzing). She opened it to find a text from none other than her beloved boyfriend, Jimmy.
"Hey baby. Can you call right now?"
She had to admit, she was a little surprised. This was supposed to be his break time, during which he never called. She texted back quickly, wondering what could possibly warrant a call during his beloved 20 minutes of break.
"yeah. what's up?"
Y/N started to grow anxious. Why is he calling? Did he want to break up with her? Did he do something he shouldn't have? Did she do something to upset him?
Before she could finish her thoughts, her phone rang. Caller ID: jimmy :)
She answered by the second ring.
-Hey! What's up Jimmy? Why'd you call?
Jimmy smiled behind the phone. He was glad he was doing this.
-Hey baby. Just wanted to know if you could come by my place today and sleep over.
-Yeah, I can come by soon. Who's your sister staying with?
Every time she'd come by Jimmy's house, it was for a quick fuck or to hang out for a few hours. And Lily was never home during these sessions. Jimmy didn't want Y/N meeting her and Lily getting attached without knowing that Y/N was trustworthy.
But, by now, he knew she was ready to meet Y/N and Y/N was ready to meet her.
-Actually, I was hoping if you'd want to meet her today. I think it's time.
Y/N was basically jumping up and down with joy when she'd heard this. But she had to keep her cool.
-Uh, yeah. Yeah, I can come by and meet Lily for the first time.
When Y/N approached Jimmy's door, her legs began to shake a bit. Whatever Lily thinks of her could make or break her relationship with Jimmy; plus, she wasn't a huge fan of the idea of her boyfriend's little sister hating her.
Jimmy heard rapping at the door and stood up quickly. He'd already told Lily she was going to be meeting his girlfriend today; she seemed quite calm about it. To be honest, she was more calm than he was. He was praying to every god known to man that they'd get along. He opened the door and saw Y/N standing there with her duffel in hand and some snacks to share.
He smiled and let her in and called Lily into the room to say hi. Y/N was a bit tense, but it was now more out of excitement than anxiety. She looked to the doorway and saw a timid little thing with bright blonde hair staggering over to the couch.
-Hi, you're Lily right?
Y/N immediately softened her voice when she spoke to Lily. She seemed so sweet and quiet, Y/N knew immediately that they were going to get along just fine.
Lily nodded and looked her in the eyes. She then shifted her eyes to look at Jimmy behind Y/N. Jimmy smiled to try and reassure her.
-Y-Yeah. You're Y/N... right?
Y/N's heart broke at seeing Lily's reluctance to show her true self around people.
-Yeah! Say, Lily, what do you like to do in your free time?
-I like to watch cartoons and draw...
-Hey, me too! You wanna go do that now?
Lily nodded and a big grin began to crawl up her face. Jimmy smiled and sighed in relief knowing that everything was going to be okay.
Lily was in bed, probably dreaming of unicorns and princesses. Jimmy held Y/N close in his arms while they laid in bed, staring at the ceiling.
-She really likes you, you know?
Jimmy asked, smiling at the memory of Lily telling him how awesome Y/N was.
-I'm glad. I really like her too. You know, when you asked me over, I thought you were wanting to do something else.
Y/N said, slightly smirking. Jimmy chuckled and playfully slapped her on the shoulder.
-You wish that's what we were doing.
-Nah. Meeting Lily was better. They both giggled, feeling content. Then, they fell asleep in each other's arms.
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cottoncalicoes · 2 days ago
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⸻ USED TO HAVE A SWEET TOOTH, BUT YOU ROTTED ME
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- Endo Yamato x Fem!Reader • Word Count: 1.1k -
Content warnings: vouyerism, mutual masturbation, teeny tiny bit of degradation, reader is kinda pervy, roommate au, porn w/o plot, italics is flashbacks
Kinktober Day 22: Endo Yamato + Masturbation in collaboration with @ficsforgaza | Full masterlist with other creators works here -> xxx
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It’s wrong, the ritual you’d assumed ever since rooming with Endo. When he’d first offered up his spare room, it’d been you who was nervous of the prospect. The idea of a man like Endo having access to personal belongings made your stomach twist. But, after much convincing (and lack of other options), you’d moved in within a week.
“Come on,” your friend says, “living with him couldn’t be that bad. Plus he’s easy on the eyes, and you know he’s loyal. You won’t have to pull his weight.”
You groan, letting your head fall to the table with a thump, “I hate when you’re right.”
“Look,” she sighs, taking a sip of her coffee, “just give it a week or two. If you’re really that miserable then you can crash on my couch until you find a better place, okay?”
You huff at her words, curse her and her logical thinking. You allow yourself to sulk a few minutes longer before you finally concede.
“Fine,” you say with a roll of your eyes, “i hate you.”
She laughs out loud, flicking your forehead lightly, “I love you too. Now stop being such a pussy and call him.”
You’d expected him to creep on you, him to steal dirty laundry and bring girls home every other night. You’re not sure when it started, your infatuation with him— with his routine.
Loud moans echo through the thin walls between your rooms, cries of your roommates name falling freely from the lips of his latest conquest. That had been when it started, your yearning.
“Come on,” he groans, “touch yourself for me.”
Your eyes had widened at his words, breath stuttering as he continues to spit lewd words at the girl.
“Rub your clit, baby,” he snarls, “cum on my cock.”
It’s embarrassing really, how wet you find yourself. Maybe it was because you hadn’t been laid in a while, maybe you’re ovulating, maybe you’re done denying just how much you’re attracted to the man who lives with you.
The front door slams shut, interrupting your thoughts. Muttered curses can be heard through thin walls, and your thighs clench in anticipation of what comes next. You can hear him shuffle around his room, angrily tossing things around before he settles on his bed. You do the same, the thin wall being the only thing that separates your backs from being pressed together.
There’s a jingling of his belt, and you nearly whimper in anticipation for what comes next.
You can hear everything this way, pressed against the wall. The lewd sound of him spitting on his cock, the low moan he lets out when he strokes his over himself.
You do your best to muffle your own noise, a shirt you’d stolen from him stuffed into your mouth to hide your own sounds.
“Fuck,” he groans, the schlick schlick shclick sound of him stroking his cock growing faster.
You quickly push past the hem of your shorts, fingers moving to fuck yourself in time with him.
“Sweet thing,” he groans.
You pause, heart hammering rapidly in your chest at the familiar pet name.
“C’mon sweet thing,” he moans, “won’t you let me hear you too?”
You pull your hand rapidly from your shorts, crawling back from where you’d previously been pressed against the wall. Surely he wasn’t talking to you, you’d been so careful, so quiet.
“Such a little freak,” you hear him laugh, “you like listening to me get off? You’re not as quiet as you think, you know?”
Your stomach turns and you clench your fists, anxiety clawing up your chest.
“It’s okay,” he moans, “touch yourself for me. Need to hear how worked up you are for me.”
You stay still, fear still settled deep in your belly as you ponder your next move.
“Touch yourself or I’ll come to your room and make you.”
You whimper at his words, the imagery of him stalking to your room and watching you touch yourself has heat simmering deep.
“There you are,” he says with a laugh, “c’mon sweetheart. Make yourself cum for me.”
You find yourself pressed back against the wall, hands making quick work of your pants before you relieve yourself of the building pressure.
“Fuck,” he groans, “can hear how wet you are. Is it all for me?”
You moan out loud, fingers stuffing themselves inside of you as deep as you can.
“Answer me.”
“Yes,” you whine, free hand moving to grasp at your chest, “it’s all for you.”
Endo groans, head thumping against the wall as he strokes himself faster. You match your fingers with his strokes, clawing around the bed desperately before you find his shirt and press it against your face. His lingering scent has your eyes rolling back, your moans freely falling from your lips as your high approaches.
“Cum for me,” he gasps, “cum for me and I’ll come fuck you like you need.”
You picture the way he throws his head back, the furrow in his brow as his high approaches. His name falls from your lips again, and again, and again, your own high close to washing over you.
“Please,” you whine, “make me cum.”
Endo groans loudly, hips frantically bucking to meet his strokes.
“Yeah?” he goads, “Want me to come over there and stuff that pretty pussy full? Think you’ll be able to take it?”
“Yes,” you whine.
“Don’t stop,” he growls, voice growing quieter, “don’t fucking stop.”
The sound of his door opening is muffled by your whines, and you nearly screech when your own goes flowing open.
Endo marches over to your bed, pulling you to the end of it as he stands over you.
“I said don’t stop,” he says, hand holding you spread open for him. His own hand pulls his boxers down, stroking his cock as he looks down at you.
“Need to see you when you cum for me.”
Your hand swiftly returns to your clit, fingers circling before you press your fingers into yourself. Endo moans at the sight, weeping cock twitching at the sound of your pussy.
“God you’re so fucking wet,” he moans, “you usually get like this? Or is it all for me, sweet thing.”
“You! Just for you,” you cry, your high quickly returning at the sight of him, “gonna cum. Please.”
Endo’s eyes roll back, hand squeezing tightly at the head of his cock, “Cum for me.”
You callout his name as you cum, hips bucking up as your high washes over you. You whimper as you watch him fall apart with you, the heat of his cum landing on your stomach aiding you through the after shocks.
It’s quiet besides the sound of both of your heavy breathing, the both of you easing down from your high.
A kiss is pressed to your thigh, and you attempt to snap your legs closed at the feeling.
“W-what… what are you doing?”
Endo smirks up at you, his tongue lapping at his own release, “Cleaning my mess of course.”
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artofmyraid · 3 days ago
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Oooooo it's a Ghost!sif and Possessed!Siffrin based one-shot, spoooky.
(Technically, this can also count as Canon-compliant.)
Minor in stars and time spoilers, y'know island north of Vaugarde stuff and minor Siffrin backstory stuff.
Cws; implied death, depictions of drowning, panic attacks, and Siffrin-typical memory issues, read with caution :3
(he really goes through it in this one)
Also, this is my first time posting any writing of mine, so any feedback is appreciated!
(Especially about how I wrote Siffrin, wanna know how I did for my first time)
You hate potatoes, you hate them, their mushy and gross, and you're sick of eating them.
You are storming away from your house, ignoring the distant yelling of your parents telling you to come back, you have an idea...
Just... a small prank, to take your families fishing boat out to sea, just for a bit, you'd be right back.
You know how to operate the boat, you've done it plenty of times with your family members.
You won't go too far either, you just want to scare them a little bit.
You feel your shoes sink into the black sand. Shells and rocks glitter in the moonlight.
The beach looks like it's very own night sky.
It isn't long after you reach the beach that you see your families dock in the distance. You can see the fishing boat bobbing slowly up and down in the water beside it.
You speed up, you don't think they'll follow you, yet... but you don't want to get caught sneaking away with the boat until you're out in the water, at least.
Hopping into the boat, you feel the boat sway underneath your weight, and you bring out your arms, trying to keep your balance.
When you're sure you're properly balanced, you grab the rope that's keeping the boat tethered to the dock and begin to untie it.
You let out a tiny "whoop!" when the knot comes undone with little to no struggle!
You gently push against the dock, and the boat begins to float away, grabbing the oar you start to row away from the shore.
You row, row, and row, you look back when you feel like you've been rowing for long enough.
You look behind you, you can still see the shore, there are lights out on the beach, you can't make out many more details, it's too dark from this distance.
This is far enough, you decide.
You look to the sky and you stare at the stars.
They look so pretty out here...
The island is almost entirely unlit at night so that the light pollution doesn't pollute the sky and block the stars.
But looking at the stars has always been nicer on the water, in your opinion.
Their everywhere out here... they reflect against the water, everything around you is lit up, its almost like you're one with the stars.
You lay against the side of the boat, watching the stars. You start to point out constellations, you point towards Ursa major, a part of it is the big dipper, you trace it's path to the north star, Polaris.
Polaris, your mother always says that if you're lost to look for Polaris, and it will guide you home.
Polaris is a part of Ursa minor, you remember, you trace the constellation with your finger. Tracing Ursa minor until you land on the constellation for Draco.
You continue this for a while, letting the gentle sway of the waves lull you into serenity.
It's just you, the stars, and the sea out here. You and the universe
You breathe in, and out... your eyes begin to flutter close, it's so calming out here...peace and quiet.
. . .
Your eyes snap open, you're jolted awake when a particularly strong wave rocks the boat. You tense, feeling your body jolt up.
How long have you been out here???
Your head snaps behind you.
You can't see the shore anymore, you realize.
Your breathing hitches, you spin your body around, already grabbing the oar...
...
You realize...
You don't remember what you were doing...
What are you doing out here? Were you... looking for something?
You drop the oar in the boat, You look around, seeing nothing but water. You feel your anxiety start to rise, your breathing grows unsteady.
You don't remember, you don't remember, what are you forgetting.
You try to find answers, anything from your memory, any reminders.
But nothing comes up.
Suddenly, you're hit with another realization.
You can't remember anything, a home, a... family, a name even, you... don't remember who you are.
( Who are you? )
You are thrown into a full-blown panic attack at the realization, your head hurts, thinking is making it worse. Your hands move making their way under your hat as you start to pull at your hair.
You... need to find land, you realize.
You take a few shaky breaths, you breathe in. . . And out. You continue that a few more times for a while.
Once your breathing is steady and the pain in your head is duller, you start to look around again.
You're at sea, you know that, with nothing else but a boat and an oar.
...But which way do you go to find land?
You don't even think about it as you look to the sky... you stare at the bright lights looking for something...
...you aren't sure what.
You just remember their important, that's something... at least.
You breathe in.... and out.
Your gaze lingers on the brightest star in the sky... you look away.
You have a really bad headache again, it feels like your mind is rebelling against you, it's making you dizzy...
You flinch when another strong wave rocks the boat, and water splashes you, leaving puddles inside the boat.
You grab the oar, gripping it tightly... you feel like there might be a storm coming... that's not good.
You breathe in and out. You swing your body around, picking the opposite direction, you start rowing,
You continue to row until your arms hurt, your breath hitches as you start to hear a distant rumble, the lights in the sky start to fade as lightless clouds quickly take their place.
You try to row faster as the waves grow aggressive. Your progress is hindered with every crash against the waves.
You row forward, and the waves push you back. A desperate dance of push and pull.
Which is, of course, when it starts to rain, it starts suddenly, you don't notice at first, you're already soaked from the waves.
But the drizzle almost immediately becomes a heavy downpour, and with it, the sea gets more aggressive. Working against your boats every movement, you hear it creak and wobble.
"No, no, no, no!" You squeeze your left eye shut when a splash of salt water hits the side of your face, you don't stop rowing. You aren't even sure you're moving forward anymore.
The sea pushes you back, and moves you forward, the boat is basically stagnant as you moves back and forth.
You see flashes of light even with your eyelids closed, followed by the rumbling thunder.
You feel sacred. You're terrified, you realize.
This feels like the worst possibility, no land, stuck in a storm with the sea working against your every move.
You gasp out when another bad wave crashes against your boat, you let out a yelp of surprise as you're thrown across the boat, you slam right into its side.
The impact causes you to drop the oar, it falls to the wayside.
The waves don't stop there.
Right after the first one you see an even bigger wave, one of the biggest waves you've ever seen. You stare at it wide eyed.
You grip onto the sides of the boat, holding tightly, you screw your eyes shut, taking one big gulp of air as you brace for impact...
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*CRASH
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*SPLASH
You're startled when you feel the water engulf you, the water is freezing cold upon impact, but you don't feel it that much after.
the waves bounce you back and forth like children fighting over a toy.
You open your eyes, the salt burns them but you keep looking up.
You force your aching arms to move as you swim upwards.
You manage to break the surface, gasping for air, you only get a moment to take another gulp of air before another wave pulls you under the surface once more.
You feel heavy, your soggy clothes are making swimming difficult, but you keep moving up, you have to.
Just when holding your breath starts getting difficult you manage to get your head above water once more.
You breathe in- and are immediately taken underwater, taking in a big gulp of water instead of air.
You immediately start to choke, and your body locks up as you feel salt water burn your throat.
In a sudden burst of energy, you ignore your bodies' protest as you push yourself up again.
You cough and cough, when you're finally met with air, you spit out water, but you don't have time.
You take in a painful breath of air, and then you are once again taken under the surface.
You continue to swim up, desperate, but suddenly, you start to feel the weight of your cloak against your body.
You can't swim up, YOU CANT REACH THE SURFACE OF THE WATER.
The waves push and pull. Any progress you make upwards is swept away as the waves push you further down.
You keep moving, keep treading, you can't hold your breath any longer-
Your lungs hurt so much. Your body burns in agony, the waters thrash against your body, and you realize that you are going to die.
You are going to die here. Alone, confused, gone, you'll disappear under the waters of the sea.
Would anybody notice you died? Are there people out there missing you? You can't remember, and you'll never get to find out, either.
As you find your body too heavy to move any longer, the searing pain in your lungs makes you unable to hold your breath for a second more...
You can't move, everything is cold and hot, you feel it as water starts to fill your lungs, your body is in too much pain to fight any longer...
You're so tired...
One, last time, you ignore the stinging in your eyes as open them, you look to the surface, and you see... light
So many lights, they feel...familiar to you.
You can't remember why, but seeing them again... makes you feel comforted.
...stars, your mind provides...
You feel your thoughts...start to become as murky as the water... slow, distant.
...you stare at the blurry streaking lights above you... closing your eyes... as you make out one last coherent thought...
You want to live, you wish to live, please!
The universe, the stars, anybody....
You just know there is so much out there... You...
You don't want to give up here!, you just want to live.
You... want to...
Sinking deeper into the lightless abyss with only the company of the streaking lights above you.
You find yourself unable to hold on any longer.
And
You
let
go...
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uncanny-tranny · 1 year ago
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Good news! You aren't required to make your hobbies and passions "marketable." In fact, your crafts, hobbies, and passions don't even need to be public if you so choose. You don't have to spend all of your energy becoming perfect if you aren't enjoying the process. You are not a product, you are a person, a creative, and your work also does not need to be a product.
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milesofstars · 2 months ago
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posting this before i start disliking it
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i need to clarify that i have only just completed the gluttony palace and if i get any spoilers ill cry
also i know like jack shit about akechi ive talked to him a whole 3 times but the first time i saw him in that one beginning cutscene i was like "I NEED TO SEE THAT TWINK AGAIN" and got excessively excited when we met him ingame so i have been overcome by the urge to make him my best friend (which i will do. he will be my best friend.)
its also so funny bc everyone ingame is like "ugh that akechi is so annoying.. ruining our rep... hes so infuriating.." and im sitting here like "man i wonder if akechi will like this next case.. sigh i wonder where he is rn.. i like his voice"
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i Cannot Be Bothered to draw the background so they r in the blue gacha void
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hanzajesthanza · 8 days ago
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god we need to bring crackfic back. or just short and idiotic ideas that wouldn’t happen but would be funny to read
#i just had a vivid imagination of geralt’s company having a pillow fight#setting and timeframe: september 10ish. in riverdell aka transriver#dandelion hits geralt with his bedroll pillow (a quite flat thing and not very comfortable but what are you to do) for levity#it’s a game of a bygone time. a mild pillow fight is plausible between geralt and dandelion in the short stories#cahir comments . wow … really dandelion … this is so juvenile … i haven’t done a pillow fight since i was 10 … it’s for kids…#dandelion’s response: pillow to the face. immediate vicovarian reaction: dandelion razed harder by his pillow than cintra by nilfgaard#dandelion screams ear-curdlingly (you’d imagine someone was being murdered in this swamp)#geralt (still at this moment in time resentful of cahir) leaps and attacks him with his pillow#geralt and cahir spar with pillows like swords but get to smothering each other quickly#milva (see this is foreshadowing for like two weeks days later) had enough and starts pillowing the both of them#she also had not said literally anything for the past week so this is a surprise that she would involve herself#dandelion hits milva on the ass (with his pillow…) she nearly kills him#geralt and cahir try to save dandelion etc#regis has been watching all of this like 🫤#geralt (better mood now) asks him why he is not getting involved.#regis: ‘what… ought i to be doing’#geralt: ‘helping me smack cahir with pillows’#regis doesn’t even sleep with a pillow. dandelion calls out he probably has an extra on his bedroll. milva screams at regis don’t touch that#regis psychoanalyzes they are relieving their stresses and anxieties in a social bonding ritual involving play fighting#which is likely of primal origin in simian social troupes but i digress#regis reasons he doesn’t have latent quarrels with anyone in the group so it would be pointless for him to join#cahir is like well i like everybody here and i still am smacking dandelion with a pillow 😐#milva reasons just imagine someone you hate on the other end. she imagined beating the crap out of her stepfather 👍#regis still reluctant to join | geralt gets an idea and smiles—imagine the guy who coined the term ‘undead’#wrath of eons unleashed#regis after knocking geralt off his feet with a pillow: am i doing it right ☺️#meanwhile nilfgaardian spy watching them from the bushes:#‘i was going to report on them but it looks as though they’ve all gone insane’#‘or maybe they were like that all along’#the elbow-high diaries
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bunnihearted · 1 month ago
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#im gonna meet up my old friend today.... :////#like we havent seen eo in 7/8yrs??#and its not like we just drifted apart it ended not so great#i just have lots of anxiety surrounding him and also stuff that he reminds me of#so im feeling very anxious.....#he hasnt replied yet to like confirm confirm so a small part of me is like#oh noooo i really dont hope he wont reply at all and then we have to change day 🤥#but yeah probably maybe im seeing him today#and we're going to a café (which... i do not like cafes. theyre overpriced. noisy. crowded.#u have to EAT infront of ppl 🤢#and yeah mostly i just have anxiety abt the price bc like i dont have money to spend on this stuff. i need it for groceries#but what am i supposed to say?? yeah no sorry im poor we will have to sit on a bench in the rain#i hate spending that much money on smth food wise that isnt even gonna taste good and im just gonna sit there and be uncomfortable#but it's just one time i guess.....)#and it's like wth am i supposed to talk abt with him?????#it's so weird to think that years ago we used to go to cafes and mcdonalds and stores and shops all the time#no problem. no issue. we used to talk for hours and hours#we have so many pics together.. we have gone on so many walks#but now it's just like... not the same anymore#i lowkey think that u arent reallyyyy supposed to drag all of this up. and it's better to just let some ppl be of the past#tbh i have no idea why im doing this 💀#but its too late to back out now bc avpd wise im mostly worried abt how i can be judged#so if i cancel now he will think im unreliable and annoying and all of that#ughhhh im so anxious i dont wanna do this !!!!#but he just replied and said meet u there so 🙃🙃🙃#like genuinely i have so much anxiety i dont wanna
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plutobutartsy · 4 months ago
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omg ppl really don't lie when they say your life can drastically change for the better in a short amount of time, don't let depression tell you otherswise
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tswwwit · 2 years ago
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Will Dipper always have almost no magic of his own, even after being reincarnated? He obviously has a talent for life magic but he can’t really train to get better at it, because he’s using Bill’s magic for it (and we know the latter hates it lol). I just don’t want my guy to be sad and miserable forever🥺 He deserves to become a cool and independent magician! And prove his bullies wrong once and for all!
A reincarnation of Dipper could definitely have more magic of his own! And as clever as he is, there's a bright future ahead of him. Perhaps even one where he's excellent at life magic and healing, and getting a little cocky about his own talents.
Bill, of course, upsets all the plans he had for his life. Again.
The good news is that it's a life where Dipper could use more life magic. Theoretically. The problem there is going to be hashing out how he can use it once they're bonded again.
#answers#It'd be pretty fun to see a Dipper who's managed to get a few neat achievements under his belt magically. Perhaps even... smug about it?#Suddenly faced with a guy who knows even more than him by miles#A Dipper with ideas about how to break this 'bond' and cast Bill out. Only to get increasingly stressed out as all of his efforts fail#I mean c'mon. It's Dipper. The big walls of 'I'm Great' he built were only to protect the anxiety-ridden core of himself#Bill is amused. You put up a pretty great fight kid!! You mighta made a dent if this thing didn't have centuries of weight behind it#Even then it's pretty rock-solid construction; bet you'd *hate* to meet the guy who forged it#Though in all honesty. Dipper wasn't trying *quite* as hard as he could have to break the thing#Something kept holding him back#Alternately: Healer/Doctor Dipper who's now Very Annoyed that Bill's getting in the way of his chosen practice#So what if it makes Bill sick? Screw him. If they're stuck together then what's the magical equivalent of separate bank accounts#No way he's giving up his awesome talent. He's great at it. It helps people. Bill can go kick rocks#Alternate of the alternate: Dipper insisting *Bill* learn a few life tricks even if it's uncomfortable for him#Goading him into it by declaring that well. His knowledge isn't *really* infinite without *That* area of magic. Is it.#Good job Dipper! You truly know how to needle your husband into doing stuff he normally wouldn't no matter the lifetime#Probably comes in handy when Dipper gets Very Hurt that lifetime! Bill'd rather stumble off to be sick in the bushes than lose him again
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motherforthefamicom · 7 months ago
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transmechanicus · 7 months ago
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A-!
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mithomite · 7 months ago
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had the most braindead repetitive conversation/argument with my parents. buzz cuts are too masculine but if you dye a design on it it become effeminate which is bad because then you look weak and if youre weak then society falls apart (all societies ever that have fallen apart for any reason are actually because of feminine men) and we start sacrificing babies. and also all mental illness is invented because only 4 people had anxiety in the 90s and covid was made up so that we would all become gay and trans and then the government can control us better and be joe biden's little sex slaves. and also i need to keep my hair long because my father finds it attractive. what
#lolaa.txt#what do i even tag this with . my mother wouldn't let me leave and i kept asking for sources and she kept saying 'i'm your mother!!!'#'i wouldnt lie to you!'#okay. say that to someone maybe who doesnt know you lie to them all the time.#its tiring going around in circles with her.my father is better because at least he admits when he doesnt have a reason for feeling some wa#also what got me. she said 'do you own research if you want!! but im right!!!'#yeahh not seeing anything about anything you just said. i think you made that up.#i have a theory that my mother secretly hates herself because she believes all women are weak and must serve strong men#and my father has so so much trauma and anxiety that he cant be that strong man#so now she feels like shes betraying her very biology when she has to step up.#and also because i am stronger than her now and my hair is long and far far denser than hers and i have a younger face#that she feels that im wasting my precious femininity that she could be using. does that make sense.#shes so miserable trapped in her idea of what makes a man and a woman what they are. once you stop caring about what makes someone somethin#you dont have to worry about anyone else.#im queer because i dont really feel that connection to biological and social ideas of gender that my parents seem to#never really have#im not gonna theorize 'ohh shed be happier nonbinary' or stuff like that because it is up to you and you alone to define who you are#if you spend your whole life trying to fit a box for the sake of fitting the box#then when would you have any space for self discovery#youve invented personality traits to go along with your box. now you can never ever change or grow as a person. congrats#and you know what? one day she will die. and that will be the end of that.#and i will live and i will probably shave my head a thousand times. and come up with new names#and new ways to be a better person that makes me feel happy#and i will dress like a boy because its all made up anyways. who cares.#and if you care? that much about what im wearing or how i look?#then thats your problem and i wont be responsible to maintain your happiness.#SORRY RANT OVER.#im just so flabbergasted. what a sad life someone can lead poisoned by jealously and reactive rhetoric.#tw homophobia#tw transphobes
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itspileofgoodthings · 7 months ago
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Nina and I are unfortunately like dynamite and gunpowder. something happens and we’re just like oh yeah? You wanna go? Let’s go! Meet me in the ring bitch!
#part of our power is the insane SPEED and then reconciliation of our fights#we forgive and communicate as fast as we fight#but there is no one in the world who makes me just SAY the shit I shouldn’t say than her#like she just. she herself is so fast and so blunt and so ruthless and so bullying and so LOUD#that it fires me right up and it’s like okay well FINE the gloves are off#but then it makes me anxious after like. did I say something TOO hurtful#Nina and I always joke we have the RANGE#because for all of my we’re the struggling married couple of sisters#we also have times where the fun and exchange of ideas is flowing#and this ability to say and hear things to/from each other that most people don’t/can’t?#like. the level of rock-solid trust is SO high. but equally high is our wildly differing personalities and worldview#so there isn’t anything quite like it and it can be confusing from the outside#like I HAVE to meet her in the parking lot because she’ll be being the WORST#but also she thinks I am being the worst#but anyway I do hate when a fight seems like NEW territory#and then I always worry that I have done irreversible damage#I can hear Nina in my head mocking that very idea because she is so tough#and mocking the anxiety of me being like nothing can ever be okay again#but life and certain subjects have been traumatizing in the past year#so idk what is safe exactly right now#I am FULLY rambling and having a million thoughts at once#but yeah#SORRY FOR SWEARING#twice
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rapidhighway · 2 years ago
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I didn’t go to sculpture again……
#please please please I have anxiety I have a mental illness#I can’t make myself go there it’s hell idk why I’m just so nervous every time I make myself feel sick#and then I get another excuse not to go becuase I literally feel like I’m gonna throw up#I’m not going to pass if I don’t start going there…….#and I cannot handle repeating a semester#I live in fear#and it doesn’t help that I have intermedia class later today which is my second greatest enemy and just as dreadful#banging head on the table#I need to be wrapped in a blanket and go to sleep forever#god even if I go there I’m never going to be able to come up to my prof and talk to him about my project I get physically I’ll at the#slightest suggestion from my friends that I should finally do it#everyone’s done it already#I will literally cry if anyone talks to me#the profs just intimidate me so badly I feel like they hate me#and everyone says they’re super nice but I can’t make myself believe ittttt they will eat me alive#but if I never go I won’t pass the class and repeating the semester will cost money#pleas I have the stupid project idea ready but I just can’t do it I’ve thought about just emailing them and doing it all through email but#I couldn’t do that either I’m just in panic mode instantly#so yeah I’m just venting not asking ppl for solutions 😶✌️ I just don’t want to text my friend again bc I’ve been putting way too much on#them#they do practically everything for me anyway bc I can’t do shit by myself#uh ok I just need to put this SOMEWHERE#I’m gonna curl up and draw metal or whatever#ugh I know I’m making things worse by not coming#but I can’t make myself I just cant I’m gonna have an anxiety attack ✌️#no one look at me#I being sensitive and vulnerable here
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