#and I have a tremor and no time so

[simplysoniferous]

So, a lot of you know that I had to stop playing my main instrument - violin - about three years ago because of health reasons, and that I’ve been working really hard on my OT and physiotherapy this past year to be in a place where I can pick it up again (amongst other goals).

A couple of months ago I felt that I probably could manage a small practice session now, but I was too scared to open the case. I built it all up in my head and eventually had to open it with the support of another person. It was really hard, but about a month ago, I opened the case, and today I was brave enough to play it.

I will say, the twenty minutes of tuning did take the anxiety out of it a bit. And yeah, I’m out of tune, and I have a lot of left hand tension, but it’s all still there! I’m so relieved im tearing up (okay, I tear up at everything, but still). It is all still there.

It’s still there.

Picked a Christmas carol since ‘tis the season. I could only manage two play throughs though because my body started protesting. It’s going to be a long road. But I’m happy to be back on it.

(Also, for anyone wondering why my bow is so short - that’s my spare bow that I got from a viola friend years ago who for some reason owned a 3/4 sized violin bow????

My regular bow? Well, um….

Let’s just say it needs some attention).

Merry Christmas <3

[toonagi]

learning to draw sonic characters for. reasons

they're so hard for me to draw their proportions are so different from how i draw anthros so i have to fight my own muscle memory ;-; this is my first somewhat successful attempt out of... a few (read: too many)

[kuruk]

stayed up late to play splatoon with my little sister who's on a horrible sleeping schedule rn and when I went to lay down in bed my joint pain and finger mobility suddenly felt so weird I couldn't control my hand (real) and I had a panic attack instantly thinking I wss having a stroke (not real) 😑 90% of the panic attacks I've had this year happened like as soon as I laid down to go to sleep. don't even know how to prevent it other then literally don't stop sleeping and napping in case you accidentally go over 12 hours of being awake and start to decline mentally. lying on back is the worst for anxiety even on a good day I can't stay like that without getting anxious for no reason and lying on my stomach is my preferred position but I can feel my heartbeat too much like that T_T and side isn't good either because I always have to switch and then I get scared.. not to mention how one side is going to feel uneven and make me think it's finally happening...

[corntort]

just read viscera objectica T_T

[lousiee]

im gonna be honest i havent thought abt DBD in like a solid 2 1/2 yrs but seeing the unknown mothgerfuckner crawling up like that is making me want 2 redownload it again

[chosos-lesbo]

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[silanb]

You ever just so so so so so so tired?

[sanitizarium]

SPILLED DRINK DOWN THE SLEEVE OF MY FAVOURITE JACKET

[ragingtwilight]

ok i got a lil too confident, felt like i was gonna die last night lol

[disengaged]

had to walk 1.5h in the pouring rain for a counselling intake appointment, only to be told there’s a 6 month wait & they’re not sure why i was referred there in the first place 😀

[trans-yllz]

crazy that one of the symptoms of withdrawal from my medication can apparently be Seizures and no one thought hey maybe we should bump this pa to top priority until I started calling them about it every single day

[couldthatreallyhavebeenit]

as someone who was born during summer/generally warm month yet generally prefers cold months and the winter, the line "you say you're a winter bitch, but summer's in your blood" is engraved into my being in such a way.

[zukkaoru]

wip game!

rules: share a few lines or a snippet that sums up the main relationship(s) in your wip

tagged by @longhairsokka 💓💓 technically i think i did this a while ago but i love sharing wips so i'll do it again! this fic was originally supposed to be kunidazai but.. it kinda just turned into kunikida Going Through It for 7k+ words while dazai and ranpo try to help him via pushing him to the breaking point

There’s a knock on the door, and then Dazai lets himself in. “Hi, Kunikida-san!” he chirps, and Kunikida hates it. He hates himself for hating it. He hates this office, and he hates his hands. Dazai leaves the door open. A plastic bag dangles from his wrist as he crosses to Kunikida’s desk. He’s getting better at handling his crutches—or, more likely, since Dazai is an instant prodigy in everything except cooking, he’s simply stopped playing dumb. He drops the bag on Kunikida’s desk. Beside Kunikida’s laptop, instead of on top of it. Because this desk is big enough for that. “What’s this?” Kunikida asks. He doesn’t reach for the bag. It’s been tied shut, and he doesn’t trust himself to open it. “A gift!” Dazai uses one of his crutches to tug a chair closer, then sits. This time, he props his crutches up against Kunikida’s desk. “Lucy-chan brought up today’s leftover pastries from the café.”

uhh idk who to tag so i won't tag anyone but feel free to join in if you want!

[stonedinlurv]

AVERAGE Sorrel SLAY. NO COCK SHAME PUSSY FACING THE WORLD.

[parkeryangs]

ive learned to kind of. accept my sickness a lot more this year but some days ET is just so fucking miserable :(

[booksbwaybadflower]

googling hyperthyroidism again and learning it's just Fast Disease