#which susprirsed me because I’m just a casual twoset fan

[simplysoniferous]

So, a lot of you know that I had to stop playing my main instrument - violin - about three years ago because of health reasons, and that I’ve been working really hard on my OT and physiotherapy this past year to be in a place where I can pick it up again (amongst other goals).

A couple of months ago I felt that I probably could manage a small practice session now, but I was too scared to open the case. I built it all up in my head and eventually had to open it with the support of another person. It was really hard, but about a month ago, I opened the case, and today I was brave enough to play it.

I will say, the twenty minutes of tuning did take the anxiety out of it a bit. And yeah, I’m out of tune, and I have a lot of left hand tension, but it’s all still there! I’m so relieved im tearing up (okay, I tear up at everything, but still). It is all still there.

It’s still there.

Picked a Christmas carol since ‘tis the season. I could only manage two play throughs though because my body started protesting. It’s going to be a long road. But I’m happy to be back on it.

(Also, for anyone wondering why my bow is so short - that’s my spare bow that I got from a viola friend years ago who for some reason owned a 3/4 sized violin bow????

My regular bow? Well, um….

Let’s just say it needs some attention).

Merry Christmas <3