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Bri 🥺 what are we gonna do now? 🥺 it’s official, he’s leaving 😔
Honestly, words are failing me right now. Nothing seems to come close to how much this news hurts. This was a goodbye message I was hoping I wouldn’t have to write this year. Losing Marco was bad enough, but losing Marco and Mats in the same season is unbearable. Much like Marco, Mats is a BVB legend in his own right, and despite what the media may sometimes try to suggest, his stint at Bayern did not, and will not, taint his legacy. He is, and will remain, German football at its very best. He will go down as one of the most gifted centre-backs of his generation, maybe even of all time. Mr. Reliable—a hallmark of German efficiency.
All too often in football, strikers and goalkeepers get the glory. And yet, without the security and stability defenders provide (often thanklessly, I might add), success of any kind would be a mere pipe dream. See, defenders may not need the glory (or even ask for it), but that doesn’t mean they’re not deserving. And I can think of few more deserving than Mats Hummels.
See, Mats was the footballer who taught me that defense can be an art. Anticipating danger with the accuracy he does is nothing short of exceptional, as is the ease with which he sweeps balls out from under advancing strikers. There’s a beauty in the certainty he brings—in his quick-thinking and natural intelligence. He’s a crisis-averter to his core, extinguishing fires before they have a chance to spread with the help of a pinpoint pass or a decisive slide tackle. Not only that, but he’s turned back the clock time and time again, proving that age truly is just a number. Even this season, at age 35, you’d be forgiven for thinking at times that he was a footballer in his prime.
I like to consider Mats the Bundesliga’s diplomat—the man who represents the best of its elite clubs: Bayern and BVB. After all, he taught us that you can retain your winning mentality, ambition, and leadership without losing touch with the community—without forgetting the fans who stood by your side through it all. Through him, we learned you can stay down-to-earth while reaching for the stars.
Sure, Mats may have started his career at Bayern and returned there for a time, but I think it’s safe to say BVB was the love of his life—his found family. If BVB is a stronghold, he is its garrison. And now, although the yellow wall has lost its bricklayer, he will not be forgotten. The foundation he built over the course of his career will remain. The dreams he chased and the relentlessness which which he pursued them will be reborn in those who succeed him. And something tells me that even though he’s leaving BVB, the club will remain close to his heart, no matter where life takes him.
So today, even though we may have hoped for a happier ending, we pay tribute to an icon of the German game: Borussia Dortmund’s scrappy, unrelenting foot-soldier—the inimitable Mats Hummels. Best of luck in your future endeavors, Legende. Just know we’ll always have your back, the way you’ve had always had ours 🖤💛
#mar <3#all I feel is heartbreak right now#all the players I grew up watching are saying goodbye#and I don’t know what to do#I miss him and he’s only just said goodbye#nothing about this feels right#mats hummels#borussia dortmund#bvb09#bvb#beating the subject matter to a pulp as per
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Was anyone going to tell me that there is no fanfiction of the 2014 Adam Sandler movie Blended or was I just supposed to find that out myself?
#I think I’m mad enough about it to write some myself actually#this is an untapped market#and I’m not super invested#but I AM shocked and disappointed#like it was a passing curiousity but now I am baffled#and i don’t know what to do#I think I’ll just start making headcanons#I think I have to fix this#this is insane#like?? hello??#this cannot be the one thing that has escaped fandom?? it’s an Adam Sandler movie???#there’s so much potential#like I didn’t really care before but now? I’m obligated to be the fandom#anyways#blended 2014#adam sandler#blended Adam Sandler#my new goal is to fandomify blended
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i 👏🏻 am 👏🏻 struggling 👏🏻👏🏻
#honestly just feeling so awful right now#physically and mentally#just like honestly a dumpster fire#in every way#and being an isolated fucker is usually fine because whatever#but carrying this shit around alone for weeks and weeks and not having anyone to fucking just hold my hand for a moment#is really starting to wear me out#and I don’t know what to do#I feel like I’ve been effectively avoiding myself for two years and this has just stalled me out and everything has just rear-ended me#and not in the fun way#delete later
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living in a new state and not knowing anyone is fucking awful it’s so lonely. 0/10 would not recommend
#my heart feels heavy#been a sad bitch for a couple days#and i don’t know what to do#sorry for sadposting#jj’s thoughts
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‼️UPDATE ON HEALTH‼️
I am currently sick and I’m just trying to send some jokes or like some posts to ease my concern. I’m skipping school today to go to the clinic. Many students at my school have gotten covid over these past few weeks, this might be my last post if I end up getting Covid, but the chances are low. Thanks for reading!
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wait what happened?
So, for reference, this is the same doctor I went to this weekend that diagnosed me with lice from across the room without looking at my head/hair. I do not have lice. I almost poured pesticides on my head for no reason and I thought that was bad.
This is worse.
I went because I had a rash on the back of my neck, kinda like one my goddaughter had. It was cheaper for me to go see what it was than her, so I went.
This doctor looked at it for literally 5 seconds at most and diagnosed it as ringworm. Put me on a medication for it for the next month.
When I picked it up, the pharmacy only had enough for a few days and I was supposed to pick the rest up today.
Well this morning I got a call from the pharmacy from one of the techs. Immediately I could tell he was extremely serious and alarmed by his tone.
He asked me if I was still taking Abilify, which I do for my anxiety. He asked me if my doctor knew this and I said yes. Then he was like, “The medication she prescribed you absolutely can NOT be taken if you’re on Abilify. It’s a Level 1 drug interaction.”
According to Google: “Level 1 consists of the most serious, life-threatening interactions implemented as “hard stop” alerts that require a clinician to either cancel the order he or she is writing or discontinue the pre-existing, interacting medication order.”
He told me that it can cause serious heart issues like arrhythmias.
I am on heart medication because my heart rate is insanely high naturally.
The other day I felt EXTREMELY unwell. I was shaky, dizzy, didn’t feel safe to stand or move, etc. At the time, I thought it was because of caffeine, but that it was weird since I didn’t have any more caffeine than my usual.
I now think I had a heart episode because of the medication I was prescribed.
So, yeah. For once, I’m not being dramatic when I say my doctor literally almost killed me. This bitch literally almost killed me.
#I’m so mad#and I don’t know what to do#obviously I’m gonna stop taking the meds she prescribed#but that’s all I know
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Y’know if I’m gonna be homesick I’d like to at least remember what home was like -Party
#ventish#tw vent in tags#I’ve been feeling really bitter as of late#probably doesn’t help that some of the only stuff I can remember from my past is my shitty childhood#kind of hard to ignore when I get flashbacks that send me into a nervous breakdown every time I get close to crying#I hate it#so so much#all of it#not to mention my eating disorder is a constant pain in the ass#and i don’t know what to do#I don’t think any of my headmates have anorexia#so they can’t help me#and I can’t get help from externals cause singlets are too hung up on whether or not I exist#and it seems like other systems just want individual headmates to shut the fuck up about any issues they have and pretend they’re singlets#so what the fuck am I even supposed to do#how is it that I’m in a body with 50+ other people and I feel so alone?#I need help#i really do#but this isn’t something where I can pretend to be a singlet#no mental issue is#because it’s always in some way connected to our plurality#like almost everything else in our life#and others just can’t see that and it feels shitty#y’know back in the zones I was always seen and not heard#bl/is whole propaganda around me was that I looked different and was too ‘revolutionary’#people (in bat city) never cared about what I said just what bl/i said I said#and now it’s the opposite#people hear me but they don’t fully see me#they see a singlet I never wanted to pretend to be
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MY DREAM LEE: Someone who loves being tickled but also likes to be a bit bratty with it heheeee! I’d love a ticklish navel and a bubbly laugh, maybe someone I could even be a bit intimate with :))))
MY DREAM LER: absolutely destroy me then let me eat u out when ur done
Volunteers???
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it’s 3:27 am and i don’t know what i’m doing with my life.
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I honestly don’t know what to do rn
#I’m shaking a lil bit#I woke up to parents n brother having a really really bad fight#but I also smell this really bad smell throughout the house#and I don’t know what to do#it’s like oily? or gassy? very mechanical at least#I don’t know#The Crab Speaks#vent
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So… I’ve been receiving anon hate, being harassed and stalked by someone from the RC fandom for months now all because of my criticisms of Niall and Ursa. Now unfortunately I found out that this same harasser has now been into the inboxes of several mutuals of mine harassing them about me.
I honestly don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve blocked so many people, I report each anon hate I receive, and I even left the RC fandom. Yet someone has such a sick and unhealthy obsession with me that they have been stalking and harassing me since I left the RC fandom in June. This has been going on for seven months.
I have received homophobic and misogynistic hate (calling me a whore, slut, bitch, etc.) and have been stalked by someone who very well is aware I don’t want them interacting with me at all. I was stalked by accounts I had blocked in the RC fandom who even went as far as to have their mutuals screenshot my posts and send them to them (they even admitted to doing that themselves). I made several posts begging those accounts (without ever giving names) to please leave me alone. They did not listen.
So I left. And for seven months I have been harassed and stalked by someone who either is in or was in the RC fandom. I was able to handle that. Because it wasn’t daily and because I get so much joy out of being on here and interacting with so many lovely people.
But now I’ve had to find out that this harasser/stalker has been into the inboxes of several of my mutuals trying to turn them against me and make up claims that I’m a bully all because I criticized a fictional character and an author who writes incest, grooming, and racist things in their books.
This is an increase in an already concerning pattern of behavior. I have made posts in the past begging people to stop harassing and stalking me. I have contacted Tumblr before and I have now been forced to contact Tumblr again. But I’m now in fear that my mutuals, who are good people, could get harassed because of me or that I could get doxxed or my safety in any way at threat. I have no idea.
This isn’t healthy. This isn’t normal.
This is unhealthy. This is obsessive. And this is concerning.
Because I don’t know what else to do and because I am genuinely afraid right now, I’m going to have to unfortunately take a step back once again.
All I can say is that if someone blocks you for the love of god please do not find ways to circumvent that block to view their account and do not send anon hate.
Be the better person because not everyone is.
#I know this sounds sad but… I AM sad#I’m sad and I’m fucking scared#this isn’t fucking healthy and it’s not normal#it’s obsessive and concerning#like I’m concerned for my safety rn#and I don’t know what to do#so I’m gonna take a break for a bit#and I hope to god they leave my mutuals alone because they’re good fucking people who don’t deserve this person’s toxicity
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I Can See You by Taylor Swift is such a Roy/Jamie song…I’m fighting the urge to write a fanfic based off of it
#plz guys ao3 is still down#and I don’t know what to do#like you tell me that isn’t them???#Jamie sees Roy at the club and is imagining a life being with him#but Roy rejects him because he’s struggling with his feelings#‘I can see you up against the wall with me’#ted lasso#jamie tartt#roy kent#Jamie x Roy
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I wish it was easier for me to get through requests but a lot of the times I never know what to write for them so they just sit there and I feel really bad about not doing them
#like I want to do them#but sometimes there isn’t enough#info#or there’s too much#and I don’t know what to do
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#dealing with death and loss today#I can’t really cope#I feel really awkward around these things#and I don’t know what to do#really sets my anxiety off#will delete later
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i want to disappear. i want to be eaten alive by the soil under my feet. i want to run in the street at 6 in the morning, i want to live on a sunny island, i want to play in the rain in london. i want to build snowmen in denmark, drink vodka in russia, party in rio, read a book under a cherry tree in japan, watch a musical in broadway, go on a safari in the african desert, swim in sidney and eat pasta in italy.
i want what each of these places has even the tiniest bit to offer.
instead i’m just laying on my friends’ couch
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millions of people are dying in the us in palestine in ukraine in israel everywhere in the world and the supreme court sits up in their fancy chairs and argues about keep allies and winning elections and i just. i can’t. when does it end.
#god. godddd.#fuck fuck fuck#does nobody care. do they just. human lives are suffering and they don’t care.#how do you make them understand?#god.#i feel so helpless and hopeless#and i don’t know what to do
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