#and I cannot mentally afford that

[tomayto-joe]

I had better keep busier than ever now because if I stop dissociating for one second I’m cooked

[angelpuns]

Calling out of work will never not feel terrible terrible bad terrible but I have to remind myself that I work for a corporate company so :/

[ourskiesaboveus]

to be united after death isat animatic. no other thought it's just been stuck in my head for the past month

to be united after death / to make the same mistakes again / and to be left wanting for breath / like it is something i have left

(one more try one more try one more try)

[dip-the-pip]

wish dnp were real </3

[cliverosfieldslefttiddy]

I won’t deny I’m a tiny bit curious about sleep token’s whole thing but I unfortunately cannot rent any more brain space out to 3rd outlandishly-clad European rock/metal group, I simply cannot

[purpurussy]

i really think i might have an anger problem the frequency with which i lose my entire mind over something and then 5 minutes later im like wait. it was never that serious :3

[post-traumatic-slaughter]

[pangolin-404]

thinking about how buddy is inherently more durable than its crew. they are humans (presumably), soft and killable. but buddy is not its body, but a mask, which is very hard to break. it can get burned, shot, dismembered, poisoned, and blown up six ways from sunday, and its mask will be fine. thinking about how the crew settles into that mindset that buddy is innately more expendable whether they want to or not

it can travel in front. if there is a bracken, it will follow last. it is first to cross the gap to determine if the jump is worth the risk. it loves to do this because it keeps its crew, significantly more vulnerable than itself, safe. it serves as bait for a spider and laughs when it is numbed with venom and collapses, laughs knowing it just had to get the thing to turn around, to leave itself open to be killed by someone else. fifteen teleports it for the seventh time and grows numb to seeing what a thumper does to a body, watching the host stop moving in the ship. it shoves five out of a nutcracker's line of sight and gets shot and still twitches and laughs as it bleeds its energy out, to keep its attention on it rather than anyone else. how readily it will split from the others and serve itself on a silver platter to anything and everything, just to keep them alive.

its crew don't like it, how it has formed some odd complex about it. it never gets downright reckless with itself, because getting a body is a pain kept to a minimum, but that doesn't stop that looming knowledge of how it can be used. a useful ability to have, leaving it and its team assured that there is a fail-safe. that it's okay for someone to lag behind or march into danger, because they can always get it another body. it is the perfect sacrificial lamb.

it gets a little scared when the baboon hawks rip it apart, seeking for things to swallow whole, and wrap their maws around its skull. turretfire or a nutcracker could hit its mask. a pack of dogs fighting over it could (and eventually do) crack its mask. but it does it anyways, no matter how it disturbs itself or its team, because that is the role it has embraced; it is happy to die for them. it can afford to get eaten alive, so why wouldn't it place itself between a dog and its beloved crew? it is simultaneously ready to die and terrified of death

[ourladyoftheflytrap]

In other news my quest for an official ptsd diagnosis is being thwarted at every turn

[brown-little-robin]

yeag

[downintheseine]

2 weeks before my period: i'm just pmsing and having the usual suicidal pmdd episode, it will pass

during my period: in pain but at least i'll be free in a week max

immediately after my period: idk i guess i'm still a bit sore?

2 weeks after my period ended: i still have the exact same symptoms and additionally my legs are numb/sore and i'm constantly cold. i wonder what it could be. my period probably.

[mitamicah]

Good morning

Time to queue (as soon as my hrt has dried) and honestly I am not feeling great about it

[crazylittlejester]

…….why am i getting so many bbc merlin posts on my dash- what’s goin’ on-

[laz-kay]

I have an interview tomorrow at the library I practically lived in as a child, but it’s a very part time role that I - economically - cannot afford to accept.

On the other hand, I absolutely despise my current job and wish to burn the building to the ground every damn day. Mental health over financial stability battle commences🫡

[x-h3kk3ning-x]

There is a lot of discussion and awareness here about anti-homeless architecture. It's good and I don't want that to stop, but I do want to talk about how most homeless people live out of their cars.

Some do because rental prices are too high. Some are in between jobs and have no income. Some choose it because it is the only way to accommodate a disability in a place that hates the mentally ill (Hi I'm the problem its me).

Either way, if you start seeing more 'NO PARKING ANYTIME' signs go up around your city, I can PROMISE you it is for anti-homeless reasons. What happens is, a homeless person is living in their car and needs to park to sleep. Walmart is no longer the friend it used to be and neither are most gas stations because they don't want 'nasty dirty homeless folk crowding their lot'. So, what is someone finding themselves in this situation to do. Travel pavilions cost money now, and not all rest stops legally allow overnight parking.

So, you find a decent looking neighborhood, and park for the night. During that time some 'friendly neighborhood watch' Karen, decides your two-door sedan is a threat to her two story house and yard, with a full RING security system, so she calls the cops and reports 'SusPIcious ACtivetiy'. Cops come and shoo you away, and then the city puts up a 'NO PARKiNG ANYTIME' sign to prevent 'strangers' from sleeping on the sidestreets of neighborhoods anymore. There goes ONE MORE half decent place for a homeless person who wasn't even being visibly homeless to sleep. So, if y'all are gonna go off against anti-homeless architecture (which you should) also go off about strict parking laws around you.

[b-blushes]

guys will get lowkey sick to their stomach scared and ashamed like "what if it's evil to buy sandals" 👍

at least this is a lot less graphic than the other thoughts i have been being repeatedly haunted by the last couple of weeks, and like all of them i am just letting them float like "okay. what if it IS evil to buy sandals *not a real question* *looks at myself blankly*" because i know that reassurance just reinforces the loop but like. hello??? 😅 also thumbs up is definitely the wrong emoji here but i simply cannot put specific moods or expressions to this situation hope u understand hahaha sorry for my tone <3