#and I am losing horribly

[valcaine]

it’s been so long

[lilyflxwers]

i. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath / ii. As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980, Susan Sontag / iii. Suddenly, It's December, Margaux Paul / iv. Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another, Jan Heller Levi / v. The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde / vi. The Letters of Gustave Flaubert: 1830-1857, Gustave Flaubert / vii. unknown / viii. @inanotherunivrse / ix. @violentcherries / x. Heaven, Mieko Kawakami (thank u @aworsening for attaching the sources)

[blueskittlesart]

i hope everyone in nintendo’s management department dies and goes to hell no matter what and i’m not kidding

[egophiliac]

(looks at upcoming card releases)

I'm in danger :)

[wh0r3zzz]

I'm so tired of feeling like this.

[brodyfoxxsmassivetits]

POWER!!-......katya?

the monster is yuu....hi yuu hiiii

[pencilnewt]

ratthew (+ the bathrobe)

[danishprince]

still thinking about the ken-roman LITERAL WOUND-OPENING hug that was. insane. insanity on my television

[grim-green]

the ship name is electricguitar to me

[whoviandoodler]

i'm kinda obsessed with mark and dr reghabi's dynamic skdskdjsk i love that before mark was like 'you have to reintegrate me as quickly as possible i need to see my wife' and reghabi went 'i cant its too dangerous' and now reghabi was like 'we have to finish this as quickly as possible we're so close' and mark went 'you want to kill mietter?!! jail for doctor!! jail for doctor for a thousand years!!"

[lauralot89]

Remember earlier this year when I posted on the verge of a nervous breakdown because my RA medication stopped working and instead of letting me have the injections my doctor advised, my insurance demanded I try every pill in existence first?

So then I went on a pill that causes mouth sores and gives me rashes with exposure to sunlight, and after I'd been on that for some arbitrary bullshit length of time, my doctor again asked the insurance company to pay for the injection and this time they said yes

so last week the pharmacy delivered two syringes to my house (since it has to be refrigerated) and I thought things were all good

Today I get the bill.

My insurance is covering about 900 USD worth of the cost.

Leaving me to pay the remaining 400.

So yeah. I can't afford that. I will never in my life be able to afford that. So I guess I'll just stay on the sunlight rash medication for the rest of my life and hope that my progressive autoimmune disease doesn't progress

[qhostcaptain]

Larry rickard in the ghosts bloopers will ALWAYS be one of my favourite things in the universe HOW CAN ANYONE HATE THAT MAN?????????????

[blarefordaglare]

Hey Blare, are you feeling any better? 👀 Sorry you’ve been sick :(

I am questioning whether I want to under or over share because I can never find a middle ground 😭😭 so ig I’ll do both lol

1. lol nope but we continue on because that’s what you do when things are hard 👍

2.

I am freaking dying, but NOBODY WILL HELP ME. I haven’t been able to breathe right since the last HOUR (as I’m rereading this longer than that) and my choir director won’t let me sing in the concert because I CAN’T GET THROUGH TWO FREAKING MEASURES WITHOUY GASPING FOR BREATH. SAYS I DONY HAVE ENJOHH ENERGY I AM TRYING MY BEST MAAM. I was so excited and I practiced so good and I had a solo and WHY DOES LIFE DO THIS??

Urgent care is NOT helping, and I can’t afford a proper doctors appointment (neither urgent care but it’s cheaper soooo). They keep telling me that I should just take “cough medicine” or those nasal things. IVE DONE EVERY SINGLE OTC REMEDY IN CVS, WALGREENS, AND THIS SHADY PHARMACY NEXT TO SOME RANDOM CAFE. I just want help, but I can’t get it anywhere 😭😭. I’ve been to urgent care MULTIPLE times why won’t they listen to me

It’s a struggle to even SLEEP every night because I can barely breathe. I know that I WON’T die but I feel like I would at this point. I literally was crying the last few nights (WHICH JUST MADE THINGS WORSE) because I thought I wasn’t gonna make it (obviously I was, because hello, still here. But it felt VERY real when I was experiencing it)

I’m so done with this stupid thing. I’ve had it for about FIVE months now. I can’t afford another appointment, thank god I am not fired yet, for my entire income is dependent on this STUPID UNDERPAID JOB THAT I WANT OUT OF.

I don’t even know what I did— I’ve never smoked in my life, never inhaled anything, no drugs. The environment I live in has a good air quality. What did I do???

I’m so sorry for complaining, and how long it took me to type a response. Anyways, how are you doing?

[wh0r3zzz]

No amount of apologies will ever make up for the fact that I'm ruining you.

[ganondoodle]

i wish i could get a break from my own emotions, i either feel nothing or everything constantly and so intensely, its so exhausting, i just want a pause, a break, a breather, a vacation from myself, something that lets me live and not be aggravating or aggravated for once

[spilling-blood]

I hope today goes better.