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ganondoodle · 2 months ago

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i wish i could get a break from my own emotions, i either feel nothing or everything constantly and so intensely, its so exhausting, i just want a pause, a break, a breather, a vacation from myself, something that lets me live and not be aggravating or aggravated for once

#ganondoodles talks #personal #at this point i almosst want to have a breakdown #if i knew id feel normal afterwards ..#its been over a month of this now- constantly on the edge of a breakdown- the worst i can be #aside from those awful short circuits where i explode for 10 minutes and then feel fine again and rly weird about what i just did #i want a break from this #wasting time doing nothing but feeling things that dont matter and make everything worse #just stop ...............................#im losing even the few connections i made online and cant get myself to start new ones #despite there being people that seem to try and reach out #i am horrible at reaching back #and keeping it alive #if i could at least get rid of the guilt #the guilt from every decision i make or not make #everything always ends into guilt #and it just keeps piling up #even posting these things! guilty feeeling bad over and over

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