#am i overreacting? probably

[thel1ghtningthief]

if youre not diabetic and make diabetes jokes i want you dead. btw

[esta-elavaris]

Have to get up early to make a series of Scary Phone Calls tomorrow which means like? I'm basically capable of nothing other than sitting in silence and trying to remember how to breathe this evening.

Can I distract myself? Nope! Can I use this anxious energy for anything other than feeling nauseous? Nope! Can I just sleep through it? Also no! No sleep tonight! Too scared!

[epaily]

head in my hands

[an--artistic--autistic]

i hate when people don't give me context about things, it's one of the few things that still gives me anxiety attacks

like

"I need to talk to you about something"

or

"can i ask you a question?"

with no explanation about what it's about.

the answer is no you cannot ask me a question because now i am extremely stressed out

[dont-open-dead-inside-net]

this bitch insulted me and i didn't even get to ragequit because the damn server disconnected me...

this is so fucked up... i was playing among us and really vibing with my group (three of them said they liked me!!) and right after dying i got disconnected... :(

[sonseulsoleil]

I’ve seen some posts that are variations of “I wish they’d just queerbaited me instead” and while I’m sure most of them are jokes, it’s still rubbing me the wrong way.

I first read Good Omens when I was about 15 years old. At the time I was closeted, and extremely depressed. I knew I was feeling a lot of things that I wasn’t “supposed” to be feeling, and that I wasn’t feeling other things that I thought I should be feeling. I knew I was different, but I hadn’t figured out exactly how yet. Good Omens came into my life during this time, and it spoke to me. Crowley and Aziraphale’s relationship was not defined, but the queerness was obvious, just beneath the surface. And even beyond them, it was a book about choosing love. Adam chooses his love for his family and friends and Tadfield over being the antichrist. Anathema chooses a life with Newt over Agnes’ predictions. Crowley and Aziraphale choose their love for the world, for humanity, and for each other, over their duties. It’s against the rules. It’s deviant. But it’s the right thing to do. Love, in every form, is always right, that’s what I learned from Good Omens as a sad repressed queer teen. And I fucking loved it. I saw myself and my own struggles in that story.

When the first season of the show came out, there were a lot of accusations of queerbaiting thrown around, but I never saw it that way. It’s always been a story drenched in queer themes and motifs, intentional or not. Would it be nice to see the angel and demon kiss? Of course. But I didn’t need it. I was happy with the story the way that it was.

And then season two came out, and honestly? I underestimated how much blunt textual queerness would mean to me. And I’m not just talking about Crowley and Aziraphale. All the queerness. Maggie and Nina. The magic shop owner and his spouse. Beelzebub. The story of Beelzebub and Gabriel falling in love and choosing each other over their respective sides, which took those queer themes already present and doubled down on them. Even little things like Crowley offhandedly saying “actually not either” to “you’re a good lad” took my breath away.

The ending was heartbreaking, but it was heartbreaking because it felt so real. It tapped into a specifically queer pain, the pain of repression and fear, and how easy it is to give into the desire to simply fit in, and how that can tear apart our relationships.

It truly, sincerely, means so much to me. This story that I’ve loved and seen myself in for over a decade, has just said back to me, loudly and utterly unapologetically: yes, you are a part of this story. yes, it’s for you.

So, no. I wouldn’t have preferred to be queerbaited.

[youling-the-ghost]

This might be a kinda weird thing to say but I’m actually really relieved that the sfth fandom doesn’t emasculate Luke. I’ve seen other fandoms where the smaller people/characters are constantly called “schmol bwean 🥺” by the fandom and it’s always so uncomfortable (especially when it’s real people, like that is a grown ass man that you’re babying). And like I know that this is technically not a huge deal but it’s always been a big fandom culture pet peeve of mine.

Anyways I just find it so lovely that this fandom able to appreciate Luke’s cute moments (which there absolutely are don’t get me wrong) without treating a 30-something year old man as a child.

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

[santips-mmdxli]

i just realized that ozone dies in a timeline AND IM NOT OKAY, my precious little boy that i swore to protect is DEAD SOMEWHERE LIKE????

[silly-lil-scribbles]

geesussss can my brain chill out maybe like at this point people arent even doing anything im pretty sure its just pretending something is off so i can start panicking about if someone hates me and im not enough and they will leave and i am the worst person ever because of this. why. dude. please. nothing happened. why do you even do this. and worse why the fuck do i still believe you every time no matter what

[spookybeandoodle]

ITS AI ART!?!?

NOOOOOOOOOO

I HAD SUSPICIONS BUT I REFUSED TO BELIEVE IT-

He’s right that wasn’t the answer I wanted to hear damn- 😭

[weird-wonders]

[blazevillains]

trans people arent only valid when theyre attractive to you

[butterflyfish0]

hashtag praying the gay away

i'm scared i have a crush on my best friend. i'm praying it's just my brain adjusting to having a best friend.

i know i'm gay. bi? omni? idk. but i like girls.

i'm just scared of liking her. i don't wanna ruin our friendship. but then why do i feel super flustered when she looks at me in certain ways or is sitting next to me???? no. i don't like her like that. i hope. NO.

hell, this is part of why i'm so attached to sangihun - i hc sang-woo suffered from internalized homophobia growing up (bc lets bfr. that man is NOT a woman kisser) and developed a crush on gi-hun, but tried his best to push it down for multiple reasons. (and failed.)

anyways. uh. yeah. help????

also it doesn't help that i'm pretty sure she's straight and also one of my friends also kinda have a suspicion of her being homophobic????

it's so hard to tell what i want. so i'm just going to keep denying it!!!!!!!!!

[sleep-deprived-luka]

can you draw vampire Emu mayhaps? (Whether she is just in a costume or truly is A Vampire is up to you!)

the critter 👍 (she got da batwings)

[no-brain-just-akutagawa]

Was anyone going to tell me that fyolai made it to top100 ships of the year on ao3 or was I just supposed to find out through a youtube video