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#coming to tumblr for the first time in three days just to bitch because i feel like shit <333#sorry if i havent responded to your message i will as soon as i get a grip but rn im just too busy#both with uni and with crying because a friend said a mean thing to me lol#and because im tired of this new friendship already and tired of hearing this girl talking how great she is lol#am i jealous? fuck yeah i am.#and it's not like she's mean like straight up. cause like.#when i say im really considering quitting and dropping out she tries to encourage me ig#but then she follows it up with 'ofc *I* never had a problem with this and that because it always just came naturally to me teehee#but yknow. dont give up uwu'#and she keeps sending me recordings of her singing to tell her how good she is and always tells me how her teacher praises her#and like. its cool. like i get it that its a nice feeling when you do something well and wanna share that joy with a friend#but idk. i just think its kinda. well not mean but a litt#*a little tone deaf? when ive just been telling her that im in a Bad Place rn and my voice isnt working as it should#and my pianist is bullying me and i end up crying on almost every lesson#and she hits me with a 'damn that sucks fuck that pianist dont give up tho <3#now do you wanna listen to me sing bel raggio lusinghier like a pro and my professor telling me i am sublime?'#also when i tell her that im sorry that im not very social and i just cannot stay and chat cause im having a horrible day today#and really dont feel well and she's like 'yeah i havent noticed anything you're always like that... *side eye*' in a way that suggests#im a horrible friend cause im not talking with her enough and yet again im disappointing her (aint that familiar lol)#i just. idk. the last two-three weeks have been absolutely horrible to me. i cant get out of bed i havent done a single colorful make up#in so long ive basically forgotten how to do that. and i loved doing fun make up looks that make people tell me i look like a clown.#but i just dont have the energy to do anything more than put on a random tshirt and spray dry shampoo on my unwashed hair#i dont even wear my rings anymore. ive stopped caring about being the pinkest slayest queerest looking bitch in the room cause i just. cant#and even some casual friend of mine asked me yesterday if im okay cause they can see something is Not Right. but SHE not only doesnt notice#anything. i have a feeling she feels like im disappoing and neglecting her because i cant be bothered to text with her 24/7#like idk. maybe its just my imagination but i barely even feel like an actual person. more like just a homunculus made to trail after her#and listen to her bragging about how pretty/talented/unbothered she is#oh and also for her to keep dissing m/ozart lol like idk why it hurts me so bad but then ig its not that unusual to feel shitty#when someone keeps talking shit about something you really love and are passionate about and making you feel like an idiot#because you like it. because its stupid and boring and you're a simpleton for enjoying it instead of liking sth more 'ambitious'
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Finally got new glasses (lenses AND frames!) bc I broke my old pair lol
Thing is I had my old pair for. I don’t even know how long. 5 years maybe? Either way I was long overdue for an upgrade to my prescription and holy SHIT when I tell you my jaw dropped when I put my new pair on. You people see like this? Crystal clear? Every day? You can read signs from really far away? And not have to squint?
When I was driving home today I could see all the way to the mountains I could literally see all the little details of the snow and the trees and I was like YO DUDEEE this is INSANE. People with 20/20 vision you have no idea how good you have it I cannot believe people can see that clearly normally
#Shima speaks#When I tell you I am blind as a bat without my glasses!#I am Velma Dinkley levels of blind!!#I took that eyesight test at the doctors office and I couldn’t even read the top row. The TOP ROW#My doctor kept making the letters bigger and I was like no matter how big you make them I will NOT be able to make them out. Period. LMAO#And every year my sight just gets worse#So yeah my old glasses…..they were definitely outdated…#I can see so clearly. People without vision problems I am SO jealous of you what the fuck#That includes my sister bc for SOME reason my entire immediate family all has shit eyesight except for her. She’s got almost 20/20 vision.#Girl give me your GENES that is NOT fair#I can see clearly now the rain has gone……
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"negative effects from 10 year wait for solavellan closure were minimal, study finds"
#solavellan#solas#yall need to stop encouraging me#i am drawing a massive fucking crestwood piece complete with little forgetmenot flowers hidden in the fucking bushes#yeah everything is a wip i have no time to finish anything#ok did i ever tell yall about the fucking. forgetmenot flower headcanon i have#that solas randomly. in the emerald graves. ties some fmn flowers to lavellans staff while they're chatting near a dreadwolf statue#and then at the exalted plains she takes one of those flowers and leaves it as the offering to the dreadwolf at that shrine#while he's like. gripping his staff for dear life bc wtf wtf is she doing does she know? no she doesnt know. he confirms. she's just sweet#and he jokes about it being a nice gesture and she's like oh i bet hope your not jealous i gave one of your flowers to the dreadwolf#pina art
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A peice of me dies whenever I see Richard Horvitz hanging out with Vivziepop THAT SHOULD BE ME NOT HER
#“Oh LoOk At YoU aRe YoU jEaLoUs?-”#Yeah I am fuck off#Forgive me for 1:#Wishing I could interact with one if my idols like any normal person#And 2:#For thinking an absolute LEGEND like Richard shouldn't be wasting his time with an ass like Viv#Hhhhhghghgghhh free my man he did NOTHING WRONG#doodles rants#vivziepop critical#vivziepop criticism#vivziepop critique#helluva boss critical#helluva boss criticism#helluva boss critique
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What is this love triangle 😵💫😵💫
#one day i will make like a horrible compilation of all the various Fernando x ron dennis articles me and min(renaulonso) found#bcs theyre actually sickening. SICKENINGLY FUNNY!!!!#they make me fucking screech with laughter#its been months since we discussed it and went on a deep dive#but whenever i go back at look at those article titles and snippets#i am actually in tears of laugher bcs theyre so unwell#the title of the article this snippet is from btw is:#'Seven years after their acrimonious split love is in the air again for Ron Dennis and Fernando Alonso +'#'+ as the driver’s need meets McLaren’s desperation#LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!? WHY ARE THESE THE WORDS YOU CHOSE!?!?!?!?#there was also another article decribing their 'wedding' as jenson button watched on as the best man#like what the fuck made them write these#but yeah sorry suddenly needed to post this after that flavio quote from the doc#bcs im like wow...he lowkey sounded jealous as fuck talking abt ron dennis and fernando#as i said. describing it like a marriage and mentioning that they had to divorce at the end of 2007#and saying that ron wasnt strict enough w the implication that he WAS#flavio briatore#ron dennis#fernando alonso#f1#formula 1
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Ohhhh Folly my beloved. I understand you like no one else does. I get it. Cycles of self hatred and not forgiving your inner child. I get you Folly AUGH IM SO ILL IM FUCKED UP ABOUT THIS FOREVER. AUGHHHH. FOLLYYYY
#text tag#I am NOT maintagging my insane ramblings ouhhhg you guys don't even know how emo I am about her ohhhhhh#Nebbie text posting#You guys don't even KNOW half of it .you don't. Not even people in patronage. I think cloudy's the only one who'd get her like I do#The cleave is such a metaphor about self loathing and how growing older changes you. Yeah okay sure yeah the tree god who's you is mad at—#you for having more potential than it when it's also you and it made you. This is a love letter to everybody who's hated themselves for—#not living up to expectatations in childhood and hating how they can't create like they used to and being jealous of their younger selves.#But that younger self is you too and when you hate it you hate yourself and you hurt yourself. And you become consumed by it#The great one and the dreamer and the parasite are all the same person and Folly is made of all three parts of herself fighting eachother#She's so ohhhhgg fuck. She's so tragic I'm so fucked up about this#AUUGH. AAHHHFGGHH CAN ANYONE HEAR ME. FUCK!!!!!! AAUUGH#LIKE OKAY. LOOK. IT SAYS. IT SAYS RIGHT THERE IN THE STORY THAT ITS OWN HATRED BECAME A PARASITE. LIKE#THAT HATE IS NOT AN OUTSIDE FORCE THAT'S HER OWN HATE FOR HERSELF FROM HERSELF OF HERSELF.#IM SO FUCKED UP ABOUT THIS. FUCK. THIS IS ALL IM GONNA THINK ABOUT FOR SO LONG#HI. HERE WITH NEW REVELATIONS TWO DAYS LATER. I've seen it interpreted very ALSO CORRECTLY as—#experiences of a victim of child abuse and even CSA. And I wanna say those takes are incredibly real too.#Cycles of self harm is the first way I saw it but the tree as a mentor or parental figure that becomes jealous of their child—#rings true with the experiences of a lot of people and. ouhgn fuck it hurts. The cleaveeeeeeee the CLEAVEEEEEEEEE#<- insane person rambling and sobbing I'm so fucked up about the cleave.
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My mom has been gushing to me all day because she starts her second of THREE vacations this year starting tomorrow and I don’t have the heart to tell her I’m mentally on my hands and knees, just waiting for this year to be over…
#personal#Am I kinda jealous? Yes and no.#I want time away from my job so bad but she’s going back to the beach and I’m not a beach person.#I do have time coming the beginning of September and November though. It’s just a matter of waiting for it.#I want to do something but I don’t know what for either of them.#But yeah this year has sucked so fucking bad for me thus far. My mental health tanked and I’m uh not doing well. 🙃
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periodic disclaimer that any mystra bashing on this blog is a joke and as far as forgotten realms lore goes i find her an interesting and enjoyable character. i would go as far as classify myself as a mystra enjoyer (although i do find her portrayal and presence in bg3 weak but thats not here nor there).
she is, still, the villain of gale's (back)story very specifically. i find it annoying that people who view it that way or who are critical of the relationship between her and gale (in a 'it was not a healthy good relationship' sense not in the sense that it shouldnt exist in the text because what) are labelled as hysterical and jealous mystra-hating fangirls ??? i mean ????? huh ????? whuh ????
#out of spell slots / ooc.#everyday im forced to read bad takes even though i try so hard to be a good person#anyway admittedly a part of my annoyance is the fact that i never self-insert even a little when i play games#so i take the insinuation that i ; me ; lare personally am jealous of mystra lowkey personally#like no yeah i adore gale we all know this. no i dont actually want to fuck him or wine and dine him myself.#and i find it a little weird that other people do actually get that way about fictional characters#but i fully get that thats a me thing lmao because i also dont get being into real people either#ANYWAY I DIGRESS being critical of mystra re: gale specifically is such a basic reading i dont??? understand the vehemence against it???#even if larian does fumble with them a lot they still exist in the context of the rest of the party and the game overall
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#hello to anyone who happens to b interested in the saga of my life... also maybe the irl person i gave my url to... hopefully my blog#didnt freak her out too much lol. anyway so its been a busy week? 2 weeks? month? year? life? its been a lot. my parents helped me move#across the country from the desert to somewhere that's beautiful and green. my dad is so jealous of me lol its so so so pretty and theres s#so much to do. will i do any of it? that remains to be seen but im gonna try to be better about that sort of thing. try to get some help#with the thoughts in my head that keep me from doing and enjoying most things. its weird like im decorating my new room which i love. the#location and living situation seem ideal and i really hope i can stay here all 5 years of my program but i was picking a lot of bright#colors and now it feel uncomfortable. like if i wear things that r too bright or my room is too bright without dark contrast it feel weird#like if im wearing it it kinda makes me feel sick. idk what thats abt. anyway. ill try to heal my brain and im just so happy to b out of the#southwest. i was so so so excited when we were leaving thr city and even more so when we left the state. i cant believe im here. in December#it felt like a million years away and i really truely could not fathom how i was gonna survive that long. my thoughts were so distorted. but#i did and here i am. and in like a month i should b starting my phd program and my parents were telling me how excited ppl r for me and#jealous of where im living and im glad. im glad they're excited. i think i am too but its under a layer of: if i get excited it wont happen#im not allowed to b excited or it wont happen. which is irrational but ya kno. anyway so that's yeah. im so happy to have a fresh start and#the town seems super cool. a liberal blip in a sea of... not that so theyre very visibly pride forward haha and i think itll b way easier#for me to get around without driving. and im gonna try to make friends. i need someone to tell me where to get tattoos haha. so yea im happy#but exhausted and i dont wanna go back to work and so so greatful to my parents for being wonderful ppl idk how bc both of them had fucked#up childhoods. like my mum will say the saddest shit and im like bro this is y i don't wanna talk to my grandma fuck her and my dads parents#r so fucked. like my nana is the reason im so fucking control freaked out but i kno i have issues and she has no insight and thinks shes#better than everyone. anyway hopefully i can get back to drawing a posting more now. ive been drawing it its been in a sketch book#like an actual sketch book for sketching big ideas thst r gonna take fucking forever to draw 😭#so that's all. just uprooted my whole life. thats all. but in a good way :-]#unrelated
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#lol ignore this im being whiny and throwing myself a pity party#i just get so upset and jealous when i see people meeting dnp 2 3 4 or even 5 times and i cant just once#like yeah im happy u get to meet them that many times and im not saying u shouldnt be able to meet them multople times#and no hate to anyone who does bc them meeting dnp multiple times isnt whats stopping me i just hate it#but i just wanna meet them once and i am trying so hard to and fucking begging the universe to no avail#anyway sorry to complain abotu this so much the meet and greet pics just make me so fucking sad
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ok that was a good essay and altho i wish they had gone more into what "the romance myth" is and the actual critique of it i also hope more poly people write stuff like that + more people read it, especially monogamous people. idk every time i see those posts being like "I'M OKAY W POLYAM PEOPLE HAHAHA BUT COULD NEVER BE ME IF MY PARTNER SUGGESTED IT I'D SHOOT MYSELF" etc etc it always just strikes me as like.
monog people believing their feelings are just bigger and deeper and that poly people are somehow fundamentally different from them. which is sad and disturbing tbh. like nope, poly people can experience jealousy and difficulties surrounding concepts of love, need, desire, self, etc. just as you do. i think the essay was rly good at showing that
#it's for lovers and fighters by dean spade. it's from 2006#20yrs since but we need more lol#and partially i get it bc that used to be me after i dated poly ppl and twice it sucked ass and i was made#to feel like such a terrible person bc i was jealous#and/or admitting to feeling lesser than bc i was the newer partner#and like yeah. honestly. it fucking sucked ass#but it's literally just a person thing the same way monog people can be shitty partners too#why am i on my soapbox abt this. i'll shut up#i think i've just seen hurtful stuff lately on polyam and the essay brought them back to the surface#it's not smthn i so deeply identify w. bc i'm open to any arrangement as long as i feel happy/comfortable#it's more of an i believe in their beliefs situation. and it's hurtful i think to see this sort of regression into hating particular groups
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So my roommate is also into One Piece. I’m not sure if he’s watched any of the anime, I know for sure he’s watched the live action, but earlier tonight he came upstairs and watched a few episodes with me while waiting for a food delivery, and then he got hooked, and then he sat and watched MORE episodes with me without really knowing what was going on. But it was still wildly entertaining to him, esp since I’m right in the middle of one of the (arguably) best arcs rn, and now he wants to finish the arc with me LOL. NOBODY is immune to One Piece propaganda. Or Bon-chan 🥰
#Shima speaks#IT WAS JUST REALLY FUNNY#Like he’s been spoiled to a lot of stuff and has general knowledge of some things#So he knows (as well as I) about what’s going to happen to Ace#But yeah I’m in the middle of Impel Down and it’s absolute fucking CHAOS rn. Insane.#He was like. How much more are you going to watch tonight.#And I was like well I usually go until right before bedtime when I’m binging it#So he was like let me grab my blanky :) LOL#We started chanting PRISON RIOT!! PRISON RIOT!! PRISON RIOT!!!!!#Idk it’s just nice. I usually don’t get this kind of reaction to stuff I watch#My parents don’t like anime and my sister. Well she likes it but only specific series#So I couldn’t rope her into OP even if I tried lol#So having someone be like ooooh what are you watching it looks good I want to join!#IT FEELS NICE. OKAY. I don’t get that ever!!!#I don’t have the kind of family who would be willing to watch anime with me#And tbh I get jealous when my friends tell me they watch anime with their parents#I doubt my parents would watch anime if I were on my deathbed and asked them to. LMAO#Not faulting then it’s not their cup of tea which is fine. It just makes me sad#*them#Bc that’s just. Such a HUGE part of my life and who I am. And they don’t know anything about that side of me#Or about the things I’m into#Sorry didn’t mean to get emo in my tags. Anyway.#I was gonna watch more OP during my lunch break tomorrow BUT since my roommate also wants to watch more. I will wait :)#Never have to do that usually! Huh!! How fun!!!#One Piece
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i think i don't wanna go to my friends bday party tmrw because of jealousy tbh. which isn't fair
#we were attached at the fucking hip for years there wasn't one of us without the other#we understood each other uniquely well#and i was in online school while she was in in-person school so i had no other friends#then i made friends outside of them for the semester i was at public school. but i left and went back to online#but her in the other hand? she made really good friends#she has a community of people that understand her#and i have maybe five irl friends. none of which i am close with. except for the one i am mutuals with on here hiiii#yeah so now they have people outside of me that understand them that they can let their mask down around and i. dont. so im jealous#but im even more jealous of the friends for understanding more about her then i do now. i wonder what they think of me. do they even#it goes without saying that this was one of my handful of homoerotic codependent platonic friendships. by the way.#god i sound so fucking ridiculous. im gonna show up and she'll have great friends who understand her and ill be happy for her
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what if instead of messaging me in the middle of the night about your stupid fucking girlfriend and your stupid fucking problems with her you actually act like my fucking friend and message me like how you message everyone else in our group
#bye ignore my venting bigger problems what fucking ever#im sick of her ass she only messages us for us to help her with her fucking girlfriend problems like we arent even friends atthis fckn point#and i love her shes so funny whatever but god shes literally the worst because i just want to be friends i dont fucking care ab her goddamn#selfish ass gf thats shes obsessed with. be obsessed tell me about it but cant we be friends ab other stuff too#we used to be her 'favorite friend' cause we shared so many interests and we hung around what fucking ever but fuck that right#get a gf and just use us to help better yalls relationship without even telling her you're sharing her private msgs w us huh yeah sure#what fucking ever im so done with this bitch and i cant even get my contacts out cause i have long nails and im js poking my eye#AND SHE WOULD NEVER BE SORRY if our friendship fell apart she would tell everyone i was jealous of her gf or what ever i literally dont care#she was like an older sister before i dont get why getting a gf would have to change shit like ok good for u but what ab us#what about me its not even fucking fair like is it that hard to keep up w ur friends?? NO its fucking not#taking me so long to write a post bc im still fucking helping her with her stupid dumb selfish idiotic gf omfg#just BREAK UP i literally dont fucking care just leave her if she makes u unhappy its literally online tf is she gonna do to u nothing omfg#why am i the one being punished when shes the one with the stupid dumb gf that hates her and herself i dont fucking care i js want m friend#and i cant tell any of our mutual friends cause she dont do that to them its js me so itd be like im being dramatic#and like shit i guess i am but i dont care atp thats all she ever talks to me ab like ok i get it i helped u but stop jfc#but if i said that we'd never talk again bc what fucking ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cause im just dramatic whatever#if u cant resolve these simple problems of communication on ur own then maybe u shouldnt be in a relationship idk js my thoughts! die#sry the 1 person who knows what xactly i mean is asleep and im so tired of getting late night msgs being like hii can u help me SHUT UP#id love to help if we were actually still fucking friends but we arent so js leave me alone bruh#post#nickpost#will delete in morning my mom keeps telling me to put my phone down bt i need 2 say smfh 2 some1#i hate change i hate slight differences in my normal day to day i hate everything i hate not having smth to rely on i hate change i hate it#sry im alg now im js sick of her ass js leave bruh#nimbhe my moms yelling im tired anyway i need to js isolate myself forever no problems if im on an island alone#living my best life in the shade drinking idk water or whatever and just talking to myself bc who even needs friends right!!!!!!!!#its 11:11 make a wjsh#adding more cz whatever im deleting this ltr anyway#its so clear where i stand with everyone cause its always close but not close enough friendly but not friends and i guess its the same w her#bye im out of tags etc whatever nobody matching my freak ever never comfortable in any friendships
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gosh getting a bit drunk has only made my wolverine pining worse. time to probably fall asleep while rewatching x-men i think :)
#personal bs#i love him. i want him.#i should definitely write my daydreams of him out into a coheisive x reader fic cause why not yknow? they are Extensive#i like a good x reader fic too but not a lot cater to my asexuality#i know what i want and i can and will give it to myself#i should actually. self care and all that <3#he's just too pretty. absolute babygirl. wanna kiss his hands <3#fuck im drunk and besotted rn#emphasis on the drunk. which like goDAMN#i am only on my second vodka lemonade. i am a lightweight (:#anyway. i think he needs to be kissed. by me. specifically#yeah. ima go watch that film and scream at the fact hes in love with Jean Grey. which even sober does not make sense to me#like- specifically in the x-men films. cannot fathom why he was just suddenly in love. zero buildup and she wasnt interested either?#in the 90s cartoon i just kinda rolled with it cause we didn't see them before jubilee meets them so sure ok they prob have history#but in the films there is NOTHING#maybe im just not letting myself suspend my disbelief cause im a jealous little idiot but eh whatevs.
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I loved this movie about nami and her ex situationship reconciling and also anti capitalism
#i have one question are the episode 0 of movies just fanservice am i reding this right. also zoro looks jealous and petty#can they in like love action make zoro chastize sanji bc he is an ally and not just letting him sound jealous and petty like i enjoy both#but clarificaiton sometimes you know. like sanji stop that its dehumanizing and disrespectful also i want you#why are they worried about money when they are in a casino. nami was great at playing cards wasnt she#franky and luffy bonding sumo time.... nami gets the title hell yeah lmao i have been saying she is the strongest#omg the children sellong flowers... dont tell me luffy is going to defeat capitalism in this movie. hell yeah#i was gonna say cant believe they let luffy bet but he does have good luck tho. the stomach ache lmao#sanji is so stupid akdjsksks the guy who likes pain also....don't let sanji think too much about it omg the golden dust....#zoro is going to be executed sanji and luffy are unlucky and all of them are broke and in debt. damn. how are you broke as a pirate even#nami and carina ex situationship talking about trusting each other again looking at the sunset... exactly#that was such a nasty betrayal and nami trusting her again so easily and fast like damn.#also what is the cp0 koala and sabo doing there like damn. jesus even#also what is absalom doing there....#and WHO let luffy infiltrate. FRANKY GOT IMPALED!! gold is really malleable and not resistant and strong like this is getting me out of it#sanji got a cleaning man fit instead of a cleaning lady fit so why is usopp wearing one ajdjaka.... i mean he is the crews babygirl....#also second movie where zoro gets kidnapped. the peoples princess.#omg they are in the pipes. also why is there pipe for the entry of seawater in a boat. maybe i don't know enough about boats#franky getting luffy out of the fan.... cradled like baby jesus for an instant#omg they have been bamboozled BY CARINA?????? OMG AGAIN??? NAMI!!!! OH NVM!!! WHAT???#luffy didnt know they were doing all this cause he would have fucked it up akshaua him being thrown half dead out of the tower ahsuakaia#this reminds me of super mario wii where bowser turns into a bigger bowser when you kill it. damn#also another good guy turned villain because of tragedy. two in a row#the kid with the metal pipe omg... sabo is coming#i heard hikken and the voice was so similar i wondered why ace was there.... for a millisecond he was there..... 😞#the red hawk and everything..... should we all kill ourselves.... omg carina didnt betray her actually#tesoro dumb asf for taking nami look how he is going down after that lmao didnt expect gear fourth tho. damn#still thinking about how gold isnt that strong so this shouldn't be necessary but alas shonen be shonen. luffy saving namis gf too <3#talking tag#watching one piece#watching one piece movies
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