#am i healing? im not sure

[stonething]

this might be progress. i am noticing a lot of my behaviors in a new way, and i want to change so many of them. it feels like i'm clumsily stumbling around, trying to fit in a body that isn't my own. there is a lot of agitation in this process, of course, but there have also been moments of real joy that i never thought possible. i never thought i could feel things like this.

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

[starcrashedsatellite]

[moeblob]

They're soulmates in every single universe and I miss them at the most random times.

[rowanisawriter]

going through all the stages of grief today lmao!! whatever im gonna play video game now!!

[i-cant-believe-its-not-silk]

Atheist cringe but its yet another post about how the appeal of human domestication guide is not just peplay and hot Plamplt but also that its a transfem powerfantasy and also unconditional love.

Hello I am the 332nd hdg fan who has infact also read 'that post' and understand and process things by explaining them in my own words to others

[pleasedontcareaboutme]

It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry

( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)

(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)

[mushroominaforest]

I mean yes, definitely, but I also just really like projecting lmfao

[the-acid-pear]

Y'know I really feel like Harry and Dave's relationship goes highly unexplored which is a shame because there IS quite a bit to explore, ESPECIALLY if you care about shipping. But as the game stands I mean, they must be aware of each other. Harry in fact definitely knows about Dave. I don't think he'd tell the fucking weird rotten bunny his terrible boss brought in IS the number one threat against Freddy's since day 1 but even so. Dave I don't think would see Harry as much more than A Phoney™ though, which is always more of an obstacle and way less of a person. Which is usually opposite of how Jack sees his often sole employee. Like, you get what I mean? It's almost similar to 2 with the main opposing routes being Peter and Dave except the stakes are arguably way lower now.

[yuckydraws]

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Healing & Growth

(gif made by my friend @robanilla-arts is below - slight warning for flashing! Thanks again, Rob!)

[liquidstar]

I started reading oshi no ko recently and it's. A lot. Wow. But what i am thinking about right now is that kaguya having a cameo here means that reincarnation is now canon in the kaguya sama universe

something else ive heard abt only though out-of-canon content is that in the kaguya sama universe is that the tale of the bamboo cutter is an actual historical event. this holds no actual importance to the plot and is never actually referenced. supernatural shit exists in their world but it just doesnt fucking matter we have highschool romance melodrama to act out rn no time to acknowledge these things at all

[terra-tortoise]

how it started vs how its going (:

(outfit inspired by this post)

[seariii]

Anyways, if you vote me guilty, it's okay because I feel bad for shooting Mg. If you vote me inno... I guess I can give you a kiss on the forehead or a pat on the back...?

[fishareglorious]

Forehead so big and shiny you start seeing things

Also why does Demian have the bi flag colors in his bg

[egons-twinkie]

genuinely feel like a day or perhaps a night with andrew hozier byrne would cure my every ail and woe in this lifetime

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

one odd thing about going deeper is that I'm no longer satisfied with shallower. and that's, weirdly enough, a net positive. I've self harmed - eh, twice? in the last month. both were well into the criteria that should have got sutures and ignored it; suspect I hit a vein once and was extremely close to muscle, which feels kind of odd. yeah, it's ramped up; yeah, there's a lot of blood and all that kind of stuff. very high risk of infection, potential nerve damage and all that kind of stuff (though I have not got either of them; I scared off an infection that wanted to hang round by chucking quantities of alcohol on it). but at the same time. that's only twice. that's a lot better than previously.