#am i happy with the name im currently using? as happy as i'll ever be using one name ngl

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

in the process of legally changing my name ? 👍

[darkosomatsuconfessions]

hi. i run a decently popular ososan blog (well, it's a bit dead nowadays, but still), and i've been pretty vocally anti-blmatsu for its entire run. i've been diligent in keeping every post free of any of it, and that's not going to change anytime soon, for the sake of that blog's remaining follower base who rely on it being a safe space away from the proshipping, but...

well... i just made a blmatsu sideblog. and i've been feeling a lot of conflicting feelings about it and about my personal sense of morality considering my previously strong stance against it.

something simultaneously really funny and really sad to me is that i actually still don't ship or support incest shipping in any other fandom. (i've never supported harassment over any kind of shipping though. so idk if i count as an anti or more of a neutral party with a strong opinion? well i guess none of that matters now bc here i am, shipping blmatsu lmfao)

i still find incest to be morally wrong, but my hypocrite ass just... eats blmatsu up for breakfast lunch and dinner. i'm tired of fronting like i don't. how do i reconcile these conflicting beliefs? how can i be an anti and ship it at the same time? GOOD QUESTION, UHHH, LEMME GET BACK TO YOU ON THAT ONE IN LIKE... NEVER YEARS

i'm gonna put my inner conflict in a bottle and try really hard not to think about it <3

i've wrestled with myself about this for a while actually— i used to have another blmatsu blog, way back in the peak of the fandom, that i deleted out of guilt shortly before making my current main and taking my opposed stance to it. part of me still feels like an awful person for "sliding backwards" and taking part in something i previously thought i was "over".

i really don't even have a good defense for it, if im honest, so i won't even try. i've heard every argument against it because i used to make them. in the end, it just feels right to me that the only ones desperate enough to get with these losers are... these losers.

i could never ever endorse irl incest because i'm a victim of it, and i feel like that alone should have ensured i would never touch blmatsu!! it adds heaps to my guilt about all this, because i feel like in a way i could be failing my fellow victims... but seeing blmatsu art makes me just as happy as seeing platonic art of them does. i just keep coming back to it no matter how hard i try to repress it. it's practically unavoidable around here anyways, sooo...

sooo. i'm done repressing! if that makes me a bad person, then i'll see you in hell. oh yeah, and if you like karamatsu ships you should come follow me at todokaras on tumblr <3 (no, i'm not THAT todokaras, i just stole their name)

TL;DR: I run a blmatsu blog and an anti-blmatsu blog at the same time and i feel pretty guilty about it. oh the thrill of a double life

Congrats! It’s actually pretty common for antis to secretly like « problematic » things, because puritanism inherently goes against normal human behavior such as kinks and catharsis. It’s sad that we have to hide to avoid abuse and harassment, but that’s how it is for now.

Anyway, going against the shame a cult has pushed into you must be hard, but it’s great that you’re taking that first step to understand and express yourself free of shame!

I also feel honored that you came to my page to confess this ^^

[tales-of-wocdes]

i hope im not asking for spoilers but what this game is actually about like living with trauma in the orpanage or something more? Because tbh im really curious about the story but im not really sure what else it can be about (please dont take it as hate😭😭) i was thinking like - learning magic and defeating the bad guy at the end of ch2 but i dont really think this game will be focused that much on revange/fighting.

Anyways im sure whatever youll create ill amd many more people will be happy because its so well written that i feel like you could just write a 1000 word story about a rock and id be so invested ill cry (youre an amazing writter and im glad im able to see your art)

Thank you! It is surreal to hear people say things like that. I'll see about the rock story at some point....

No worries, I am not so easy to offend :D It is a good question. And the answer is scary. Because it makes me doubt if we ever get there. Because the answer is that it is both about living with the trauma, and something more.

You can read the pinned post for some idea about the "overall" direction that is planned.

The rest will talk about what I would imagine the structure to be like and what I have divided it into in my notes. Read at your own peril. And also know that this is a very long term plan.

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So the basic idea is that we have these "acts"

Where MC is at this age. The current act. The start of the journey so to speak. Getting used to life outside the "void". Everything is odd and new. Possibly a short time skip (weeks, months) during this act; or just make it into a new act.

2. MC is still a child but a couple of years into living at the orphanage. Basically the "living with trauma in the orphanage". This would be the phase where say MC is used to living at the orphanage, might get to venture out into the city. Is getting lessons about normal stuff.

3. MC is a teen/young adult in training. MC is actively in training and learning to fight.

4. MC is an adult. (The name of the IF and the pinned post do state what MC is supposed to become). MC goes out into the world with some companions to fulfill their duty.

Now does this make sense? There is a bigger background story but you can't really tell too much about it from this outline :D That bad guy at the end of C2 is supposed to start setting up some of the bigger background. Though I will freely admit, that it might be a tad too early for that interlude... but I can just move it a bit later if needed. I had it written so I included it :D I do things like that.

And this is not at all locked into stone. It is massively ambitious, meant to span a long time. I have already been quite honest that my outlines suck so who knows what will happen :D

I am taking it one day at a time, and refusing to worry about it too much :D Chipping away at it one tiny piece at a time.

[holymaccaronii]

im sorry i absolutly love BE

I see AM as a father figure for some struggles I got and BE is sooo well writed for me I couldnt help but slowly see her as a mother figure as well,,,,UGH i love her you writed her so well pls ramble more about her(BE and AM are even divorced just like my irl parents/j)

Ou anon you don't know how happy you make me when knowing you see AM and BE that way + asking me for rambles. Of course I'll ramble comforting facts abt BE and her behavior towards AM. I might've mentioned a few things before but i dont rlly mind. Have some rambles below the cut and a doodle :P

So first an introduction shall we? We might explain some background as well despite being repeated a lot. As her lore dictates, BE was born from the materials of a much bigger ai implanted on the moon after HEL-102 (former human that was part of the mission turned into a dictator) tore it apart and built his society + kingdom. She spent a good while in there being used as a role model (with other units like her too) for lower-class units to believe that, if they worked hard enough, they could achieve to be upgraded into her type of model. This being all a big lie. She lived a life seemingly flawless and perfect... but at last, it was her own curiosity, determination and hope that got her out of that hell she realized she was in. She eventually meets AM after a series of events on earth and she gifts him the ability to be anything and do anything he wanted, their relationship eventually grows and grows...

Facts about BE herself:

-Up in the moon, she used to accompany HEL-102 to his personal theater a lot. She gained an interest for dancing in there + learned her classic "to be or not to be" phrase during a play.

-Her exposed cables showcase their current temperature thru colors. Her core/closed body is the warmest area, thus why you can see red/orange colors in there. Her hair and arms are the most stable areas, but if touched/affected they can vary on color patterns. This also means that she can give you a warm or cool hug whenever you need it c:

-BE is able to configure your body to dream about something specific, and she uses this feature to avoid any nightmares on her survivors. As long as there is not another evil ai trying to access your dreams, you'll get a guaranteed good rest.

-BE can grant you about any wish as long as it doesn't pose a threat to you, her, or anybody. Want to have a profession or be someone? Sure! Want to go somewhere and experience the place of your dreams? Of course! Want to have a cat? Have 15! Her power is limitless as long as she uses it above the surface.

-I headcanon her voice to be similar to the one of Rose Quartz (SU).

Facts about BEAM (yep that's their ship name):

-I have mentioned it many times alr but BE literally provided him anything he wished for and even things he didn't know he wanted... mainly to receive different forms of affection and the ability to shapeshift. Their relationship relies heavily on comfort from BE's part, since she believed he was abandoned and thus deserved all the affection she gave him.

-BE wasn't really allowed to be too affectionate or expressive up in the moon, but with AM, she could show as much love as she wanted.

-She was all in for physical and verbal demonstrations of affection. She LOVED to do stuff like face smooches, teeth smooches (since well yk about my AM), rubbing, scratching and cuddling.

-At some point she also started to call AM names such as dear, sweetheart or honey, and he initially had to eat these up to not give her his real-self impression, but as time passed by he got used to them.

-To comfort him she also used her abilities to create and transform matter with her code as well, allowing him to shapeshift and enjoy life not necessarily in a human body.

-Annnd you guessed it right anon, they do behave as motherly and fatherly figures towards the survivors, BE forming a bond with them ever since they proved their worth and values to her as humans, and AM forming a bond when they accepted to help him get back together with BE. The ending of that route gets even better but I won't spoil that :p

I hope these were good rambles and sorry for the wait tehee

[transformersandturtles]

Hello hello, this isn't my normal kind of posting but it's been about uh. . . 8 months since I've done private/1 on 1 roleplays (of course excluding my MK1 Syzoth acc) and have been curious in finding a new RP partner. Information under the cut!

Hello! If you don't know me, my name is Seven and I use They/Them! I am 18, a hs graduate, and am currently pursuing 2d art as a hobby and tattooing as a career! I do have a busy home life and am not on 24/7. Time zones aren't a problem, I'd prefer an RP partner 17+. I am autistic and have social anxiety so it is hard for me to reach out first but I am always happy to start talking! ^^

I mostly do AUs or post-story kinda stuff but I'm down for any kind of fun/chaos. Here is a list of fandoms I will RP -

bold/color is what I'd prefer most.

• ROTTMNT

• 2012 TMNT

• Transformers One

• Transformers Animated

• X-Men (live action + 97)

• MCU/Avengers

• DC (mostly Batman/Batfam)

• Pokemon (Mostly the game stories)

• How To Train Your Dragon

• Mortal Kombat 1 (2023)

• Digimon Adventures

• Spider-Man (ITSV & ATSV)

• Voltron Legendary Defender

. . . And more but mostly these!

PLEASE NOTE I AM STILL NEW TO X-MEN AND DC SO PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH ME AND LMK IF I EVER GET ANYTHING WRONG MY KNOWLEDGE IS LIMITED 😭

I also do Crossovers! Mostly other fandoms x Pokemon or x HTTYD but I'm really up for anything! With that, I also do tend to put in headcanons so if something doesn't line up or sounds odd please lmk.

I also do -

• Canon x Canon (Rom/Plat)

• Oc x Canon (Rom/Plat)

• Oc x Oc (Rom/Plat)

There doesn't have to be shipping or pairing or anything, but if it is Oc x Canon I do wish for it to be two ways and even (i.e. Your Oc x Canon and my Oc x Canon. Doesn't have to be equal words but equal sentencing is preferred but not required!)

Here are some things I will NOT do -

✘ No NSFW! Don't care age or anything, will not do it at all. Time skips are fine, but nothing more. (im being so real it makes my skin crawl writing it so I'm really sorry.)

✘ No form of any kind of -cest. I'll do familial bonds but no blood relaxations at all! If they're in the family tree, leave them be! Also no adults x minors or anything of the sort.

✘ I will not be doing this "OC Name: *waves* Hello!" format. Nothing against it, I just personally won't use it, I like to be detailed.

There is probably more to this but that'll come and go depending on RPs.

I have been roleplaying for about 8-9 years and am very detailed in my responses! I try to match replies so if it's short then it's short or if it's long then it's long. I am a writer so I do put in details from time to time that may be too much so if that is ever the case please lmk and I'll tone it down.

Here is an example of my writing style for RP! -

Lucius blankly stared at his acquaintances, almost bewildered by them. "Have none of you played a game of Uno in your life?" He questioned, a slight country drawl to his words, something that often came out when he drank too much or got emotional enough. How the hell had a bunch of people his age never even seen a deck of Uno? "It's like, a classic, y'know? Have y'all been livin' under a rock?" Despite living in New York for years now, he never shook off that Midwestern talk.

Logan Howlett, by far the oldest of the whole table at the moment, gave a small snort as he let out the smoke of his cigar. "A rock? No. Runnin' for our lives is more like it. Not every day for pleasantries or domesticity." He stated firmly, before setting down a red reverse card onto the short pile. "Your turn, bub. . ." He leaned back in his seat with a huff.

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I do have OCs and information and stuff for all of them! Feel free to DM me if you're curious and we can talk it out on what fits! ^^

[riewritten]

I'm terrible at writing stories like that person I've never tried to write a story, but that's not the point hehee

If you don't mind, do you mind if I tell you about the scenarios that I keep running through my mind?

Have you ever read watched or heard the trope of hero/main character x his side guide female character?

So… I got the idea of lord/knight Erwin x maiden Yn. If you don't know what a Maiden is, they are a kind of guide and assistant of people in the upper echelon (such as lord lady). Male versions are also called summoner.

I've seen this trope most often in FromSoftware's games, the soulslike games.

( Umm do you mind if I post this as a reference 😳 😶‍🌫️?? https://www.instagram.com/reel/C89-RK5OJxh/?igsh=MWRhbjh4a3JodXZ3Ng== )

And recently, after the dlc of elden ring came out recently, after I finished the dlc, I went back to playing elden ring again and played the frenzied frame ending, which is the dark ending that I was internally disturbed by.

And I thought of a scenario where Erwin gives up his lordship and throws the world into chaos for Yn to survive. And there are a lot of scripted soulslike au's like that, but if I tell them, it would be too complicated and ridiculously long hehee

If I need to explain this game so that it's not confusing, in this game we are assigned a maiden named Melina who guides us to become a lord for the order of this world, who transforms our power into runes, who helps us along the way. And after the journey we learn that in order for us to become lord, we need to burn the erdtree, the great blessing of this world. And for this tree to burn, the maiden's body is needed and Melina agrees because her goal as a maiden is to elevate her guide to lordship and burn for it. And instead of burning Melina and becoming a lord and fixing the world, as there are a few endings in this game, you can do the most nihilistic ending, the frenzied flame ending, and burn the whole world into chaos. So melina can live. But Melina is not happy about this because you have ruined the world and you have not fulfilled her purpose, so in this ending she turns against you and vows to kill you.

I apologize for explaining the game rather than the scenario. I mean, I imagined it as an AU with Erwin and Yn in this scenario. Erwin, manipulative, manipulating others for his own ends, takes a liking to his maiden, his guide throughout the journey but he was saddened to learn that he had to make sacrifices for his cause and for his rise to lordship. He looks for many ways to save her and realizes that the only way out is to become the lord of chaos, the lord of the frenzied frame, and… it happens.

first of all, i'd like to thank u @collinnmckinley bc had u not shared your erwin royalty AU this anon wouldn't have gathered the courage to share such a lovely story idea as well 😭❣ i am blessed with very creative and imaginative readers and it fills me with warmth

i'll be honest with u anon, ive never read an erwin x reader fic crafted as intricately as this one and if u ever gather the courage to publish this as an actual fic, i think you'll be the first ever to do so. and our fellow erwin x reader girlies would SURELY love it.

i know very well that writing it out is such a hard task compared to just imagining it inside your head, but if i could only convince you to publish this, it'd be so nice 🥺

im also currently venturing a version of erwin that would be very much willing to burn down the world for a certain someone when he could sacrifice them for the greater good through the story Edge of the Precipice, and let me tell you that because of this factor, writing it is just so much fun compared to my other fics. exploring a facet of erwin's character by venturing this type of 'what if?' is just so cathartic and it makes me enjoy erwin more!!

and your reader's initial characterization is soooo good already. she's not a mere blind blank MC who only looks at erwin. can i just say how much i love having readers like that??? it makes the chemistry more palpable💕

thank you so much for sending this!! i love love love this idea so much

[dogwittaablog]

this ask turned into some insane ramble feeling journal entry dump thing that got away from me im so sorry

i got into hockey last year during the playoffs and had basically no interest in nolpat or the flyers like watching the burner exposé unfold meant basically nothing to me. i didnt even know all the nhl teams much less care about this brain damaged draft bust from a team not even in the playoffs but im currently living that NEET life and ive had time to be bored as fuck and fall down that rabbit hole and get invested. im so annoyed np is attractive (only when hes mostly cleanshaven and with certain hair lengths. his facial hair is nasty i think hes going through twink death) i watched the bo show and was smiling fuck my shit life.

the 1 on 1 nolpat flyers vid (https://youtu.be/UyjbFn2QRXk?si=UgsT637ka3_qFZbO&t=304) the interviewer at the end (like 5:04) asks what he wants people to associate with his name "probably just be a good person. a good teammate. thats kinda the main thing for me honestly......being a good teammate, good person off the ice is one of the most important things" with the knowledge of the burner is soo ironic like that media training is being put to work. i am finding some joy that majority of hockey fans only really remember him is for being an injury riddled bust or one half of a ship of him having gay sex with a teammate. and the burners. plus his biggest fans being people who shipped nptk and kinda headcanoned him as like genderfucky? because of his pretty face and the long hair. i bet he was fucking seething. he's so irrelevant now. i so badly want a front row seat of his life being shit. i want to see him to go through all levels of hell while alive. i hope he fucking hated living in philly. i want him to feel like sisyphus pushing that fucking pointless rock up that hill everyday (AND NOT ENJOYING IT OR FIND HAPPINESS IN THE ACTION). i lowkey need him to go bankrupt and start a gay4pay OF. can everyone please manifest with me. i need him to go through what he was saying about women on the burners. get in a skimpy dress and on the workbench now!!!! god hes a loser do u kno abt those batman 2022 riddler fanart/fics that has like horny incel vibes??

this is a lot and i'm sorry for coming to his grave and defacing it by hate jerking off while everyone is shit talking him.

I live for rambles ngl especially when they're articulate and self expressive mixed in with some good humour and relatableness.

He's stated more than once that he values how people perceives him especially around the locker room and team, but tbh if you read inbetween the lines I think he really was telling us that he mainly just values his friends, families, hockey bro's and his coaches/staff perception of him and not necessarily anyone outside of that. Not saying that's super bad but you can tell that mf is selective af with being genuinely nice to people in general.

STOP the way old videos of him really got us kicking and swinging our feet in the air. The BO show was such a classic gem ugh his laugh is literally engraved into my brain from that vid. Draft him was 10/10 nobody could deny it, he is too in love with the greasy musty look I don't know when we'd ever see him look like that again.

I am unaware of the batman 2022 riddler fanart/fanfics, but I'll jump into the rabbit hole.

[rosamariawrites]

Could you make a story not related to your current fix but still about johnny from the tcm game? like just one part purely like smut and stuff?

Johnny Slaughter x f! reader oneshot

hi! im just recently coming back to tumblr and im really happy to see a request. I don't know if this user is still on tumblr cause i haven't logged in for a very long time, but I will deliver/ continue working on my current fic.

contains: oral sex (!m receiving) pet names (little bunny) degrading, slapping. reader is kind of a whore but also isn't (lmao)

this is just gonna be like a drabble/ pretty short so im sorry about that! i also apologize heavily, i haven't written smut in a long time so im starting off easy.

MATURE (obviously)

anyways nsfw below the cut

I reach over to my drivers side door, opening it and stepping out of my truck, beads of sweat rolling into my tank top due to the texas heat.

I should've stopped for gas a while back but I couldn't find any gas stations nearby, so I decided to keep driving until I found one, and here I am.

"Last Chance gas station and barbeque huh?" I read out the sign, then my attention is turned to one of the doors as someone comes through.

A man who looked to be around my age emerges from the door.

He had black, slick back hair, yellow gloves, gorgeous dark brown almond shaped eyes, a black shirt with the sleeves cut off, jeans and some work boots.

I stared at him for a moment, taking note of the pieces of hair sticking to his forehead from the heat.

"Hey there!" he says, a smile on his face, "Sorry if ya came lookin' for gas, we're almost completely out." pity in his expression. He looks me up and down eyes stopping at my breasts, then quickly pulling his attention back to my eyes.

"Well hi, it's nice to meet ya. But.. sir are you sure you don't have any gas? Like, at all?" I question, "I mean how could a gas station have no gas."

He chuckles at my remark and moves closer to me, "I know, we do have some, but it'd cost ya, my family wants ta' hold on to it."

I nod and he leans on the hood of my car, facing me. "I'll seriously do anything, I need that gas." I tell him, and he expresses some concern.

"Anything?" he furrows his brows, "I mean I would just hate for a pretty lady like you ta' be stuck here." he says, my eyes naturally wander to his jeans, a visible tent on his crotch.

"What's your name, pretty girl?" he asks, his voice lower than before, "Y/n, and you?"

"My name's Johnny." he tells me, "Well.. Johnny. Yes, I'll really do anything." I gesture to the ever growing tent in his pants.

His eyebrows raise and within an instant, he cups my cheeks in his hands, roughly bringing his lips to mine. I let out a quiet moan into the kiss, which only makes Johnny kiss me with a hungrier passion.

His hands move to my hips and he flips us, my back now against the hood of my car. He removes his lips from mine and takes a breath, staring at me, only inches away from my face.

His eyes wander all around my face, landing on my e/c eyes. I kiss him once more, slowly placing kissed onto his jawline, then down to his neck.

He throws his head back, groaning as I place gentle kisses on to his neck while I palm him through his jeans, easily able to tell how uncomfortably hard he is.

I kneel in front of him, just tall enough to be right in front of his erection. I unbuckle his pants and with Johnny's help, pull them down, leaving him in his boxers.

He stares at me hungrily, eyes narrowed, watching as I run my pointer finger down his clothed cock, bringing my finger up and down, going up one last time, reaching the hem of his boxers, pulling them down slowly, revealing his large, throbbing dick.

He throws his head back again as I press my lips to his tip, gently sucking on him.

He groans as I bring my mouth lower on to him, gradually taking it into my mouth, holding on to his thighs. But Johnny had other plans.

He takes a handful of my hair and shoves me all the way down on his cock, "Awh fuck.." he groans as I choke on him. He leads my head up and down his cock roughly, and his groans go straight to my core.

He releases a string of deep moans as he lets go of my hair, putting his hands on both sides of my head, he beings to pickup a brutal pace, facefucking me.

I hold on to his thighs like my life depended on it, saliva and pre cum dribbling all down my chin and onto my tits.

"Fuck, you're such a whore huh? Just a little slut." He says, picking up his pace again, I struggle to breathe, gurgling and gagging on him and I claw at his legs, and he takes his cock out of my mouth.

I take the opportunity to breathe, but not long before Johnny shoves himself back into my mouth. "Shit, little bunny. I'm so close baby." he groans, caressing the back of my head.

Tears drip from my eyes as he shoves himself impossibly further into my throat, cock pulsing as he cums down my throat, moaning and groaning, shoving himself in and out of my mouth a few more times before pulling out completely.

He tucks himself back into his boxers as he starts to pull his jeans back up.

I begin to get up, my legs completely asleep and aching from the gravel. He buckles his jeans and looks at me up and down, still catching my breath.

He leans in and places a kiss on my forehead and makes his way towards the inside of the gas station.

Moments later he returns with a can of gas for my truck. He shoots me a smile before making his way to the side of my truck, opening up the gas slot and pouring it in for me.

I wipe the saliva and cum from my chin and chest as Johnny walks over to me, placing a gentle kiss on my lips, "Maybe I'll get to see you again. Even just as a friend, or a stranger." he says.

"I'll be back, and when I am, you'd better return the favor." I say, and we both begin to laugh.

We both start towards my drivers side door and he opens it for me. He shuts it once I get inside, "Bye bye little bunny." he says with a smile as I drive away.

[seefare]

#SEEFARE: an affiliated misha rp blog, trailblazing with mik (20, they/them, gmt +8). embarking on a journey to the stars that has already begun. rules and portrayal notes may be found under the cut!

RULES

ON AFFILIATION: this blog is affiliated with golden reveries. as such, personal blogs and rp blogs not affiliated with gr will be softblocked or blocked.

ON ROMANCE: i'm not open to shipping as of the moment, but i do want to note that misha is a YOUNG BOY. please do not make any unsavory jokes about him, whether in character or not.

ON FORMATTING: i make a separate title post and use trim reblogs for my replies, which is a practice i got from the other rp groups i've been a part of. i use small text with icons and colored dialogue text in my writing. if you have any issues with readability or would like me to change my format, please let me know! as for my personal preference: i would prefer it if my partners could use small text in their replies so i can read it more easily <3

ON OOC CONTACT: as tumblr's IMs have been acting up recently (for me at least) i prefer discord dms. my username is emblian! i am part of gr's discord server so you may also ping me there. i will let you all know now that, while i have grown more comfortable speaking with others ooc, i am still prone to bouts of anxiety and may pull back at any given moment. please don't take this personally! i may just need some space and time to get myself together.

ON REPLIES: my schedule has gotten considerably less free since i'm starting my semester so expect me to take anywhere from a week to a month to reply. i'll do my best to avoid having my partners wait for too long, of course, but i just want to be clear just in case you think i might be ghosting you or forgetting our thread. though that's not out of the question—i'm also a pretty forgetful person, so feel free to ping me if you feel that may be the case!

ON TRIGGER WARNINGS: i will use general trigger warnings for things such as gore, extreme violence, suicide, and other topics that i deem sensitive enough to warrant it. i will be using "tw // (word)" as a tag. if you have any triggers you'd like me to tag, please feel free to let me know through a dm. i also tag spoilers under "hsr spoilers"

PORTRAYAL NOTES (NOT SPOILER-FREE)

note: my portrayal is subject to change with the story of gr, as well as my own understanding of the premise. so not everything is final!

ena's dream has graciously allowed (read: forced) misha back into the dreamscape. by the grace of the order, everything that was put out of place is now back to where it ought to be. we are all happy. sweet dreams for all. huzzah!

so... deja vu, huh? well now that he's back, misha's memories have been wiped. he has no recollection of the things he's discovered: he doesn't know he's mikhail, he doesn't know the truth of what he is. it's essentially back to misha before you complete 'then wake to weep.'

though, of course, he feels there's something... missing in his memory. like there's a name at the tip of his tongue that he can't quite speak. something that leaves him grasping at straws, feeling incomplete. ah, don't we all?

in any case, he's back to working at the reverie. so there's no need to worry about any of that strange stuff, right? riiiiight?

other notes: i treat clockie as an npc and might occasionally write him into my work. if ever we get someone who apps in clockie (if that's even possible omg) i will defer to them.

also: in line with my current portrayal, i will treat misha and mikhail as separate entities. though, of course, there is only so much distinction to be had between them, considering how misha's existence is tethered onto mikhail's memories. and again, like i've clarified, everything here is subject to change with the story of gr and whatever development i get with misha through ic threads and interactions. don't rule out the possibility of misha getting his memories back yet.

ALSO: in canon, misha cannot be seen by anyone save for the nameless, gallagher, and black swan. this post goes into more detail but, essentially, you can assume that misha can now be seen due to the freaked up nature of penacony messing with the memories he's made of.

[alicethepiper]

hehe i like tag games - nine people I'd like to know better (but I think nini already tagged most of our fellow RE mutuals lol) thank you for tagging me @goodpointsandbadpoints <3

last song i listened to: it was either "Ghosts Embodied" by Nahko And Medicine For The People OR it was "Good Luck, Babe!" by Chappell Roan (are we surprised) - those are the two latest songs i've downloaded and i've just been switch swapping between the two for short drives.

currently watching: okay SO i just finished season 2 of Interview with the Vampire and BROTHER IT WAS SO- RAGGHHHHH i literally binged that all last week. i watched the '94 movie because it had been on my list forever and i was like "this is so gay?? i love this??" and so i booted up the tv show (which i only found out existed because i googled how many books there were in the series) AND IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD. I WAS SO FUCKING HOOKED. anyways. that's the last "new" show i watched; the last show i had on and watched was Resident Alien. i rewatch that one constantly. it's just a feel good show at this point even though it's genuinely great (and it having resident in the name is just coincidence).

(rereading this and it actually may have been HBO'S The Last of Us?? another good one for a rewatch. i also did watch World War Z again the other night. it's all jumbling together and i don't remember the order sorry. noticing a theme with the media i consume? it's either zombies, vampires, or residents)

sweet/savory/spicy: ptfff it's a toss up honestly. sweet when it comes to fruity stuff specifically, so i guessss i'd have to go with savory here.

relationship status: single - ive spent the past year planning to move, so ive made no effort to date - and also i spent a good chunk of time in a relationship and feel like im still on reprieve (that may not be the right word but idk). i'll only be moving briefly before heading back to where i am now (hopefully also brief 😭), so i cant imagine the relationship status changing for a while, but im a happy single :)

current obsession: alright bruthers we know the answer to this one. honestly resi has been a consistent obsession among a wider obsession of horror games for the past five years or so, but the past eight months (roughly) ive fallen in DEEP. quite literally alice in the rabbit hole, etc. and i blame all of my lovely mutuals and all of the lovely fanfiction ive read and all of the lovely fanart ive consumed <3

okay i can definitely think of more than nine people but here are some that i didn't see tagged - no pressure to do it and also sorry if you were previously tagged 😭

@resident-rats

@lightenupcowboy

@kinoko-kai

@murderturtles

@samblerambles

@phoenixmetaphor

also - completely off topic but i feel that it is important for the court to know (meaning i just find it fun): @resident-rats and @lightenupcowboy you both have re4r leon as your pfp, so i always get y'all briefly confused, but you are both known to me respectively (and lovingly) as "mr. rats" and "mr. cowboy" - if you ever have a problem with those names please let me know 😭

THANK YOU FOR THE TAG NINI <3

[writingmysanity]

Oh please tell me about the Eskel and Haldir fics!! 8k!! I can’t imagine writing so much 😭 that’s awesome!

When we were gods

This one is the story of eskel x kit! Starting somewhat at the beginning, right behind my two piece jaskier fic "take me to church"

So it'll explore how they met (again), all of their trials, and tribulations, their time on the path and how they fall in love!

I have a teaser part if anyone is interested. Though I am not ready to start posting the actual story. It's a very very in depth piece I'm pouring a lot into.

Any specific questions I'd love to answer though!

Whispers of stars

This story has several names at the moment, this is just the one I've used on tumblr since you asked and I didn't wanna be like uhhhhh *breaks out wheel with options and spins dramatically* (okay I kinda did)

Others being "the way the stars whisper" "written in the stars" and "the stories stars can tell"

For background information, as I've learned many people didn't know, elves (like penguins and many other birds!) Essentially mate for life. They have one love, and if that love passes for any reason- they do not remarry. They also don't sleep around (according to Tolkien since I know this is common in fics and no hate! I am just going by what he says specifically because I WANT TO) because for elves sex = marriage. And they marry for both life AND death.

I believe this story is going to be 100% OC, as i haven't even decided if I'll be sharing it online online, as of yet. I have let others read it. The only one who has completely caught up to where I am currently at is @thehistoriangirl 😂💜 she's waiting (im)patiently for me to continue.

This is the story of Haldir and his love, where she is taken from him (kidnapped) and how she gets brought back after she's found, how they heal together, and conquer all adversity together. He does go to Helms Deep, but he doesn't die, ans comes home and they deal with the fall out of everything else coming about.

That is as vague as I can make it (not because I want to) as to not lose completely everything in my explanations. So if you'd like to know more, or anything specific I would be more than happy to share!

As a writer, I can speak for many of us here, we LOVE talking about our pieces simply because we have so much that goes into it. Lore that doesn't make it into the final product but gives explanation. Pieces we had to cut due to fluidity. Alternative routes not taken, and why!

We love our characters and we want you to love them, too. We just don't get the same sort of audience wanting to see bit and pieces of our WIPs as artists do (mainly because they're not quite as interesting as artists WIPs as it's hard to get a full picture from a few sentences)

I am really so very excited about your interest 💜 please, I love interaction with you guys! If you ever have any questions about any pieces I'm working on, I'd gladly make a whole list of every piece I have for you to ask questions about

[kquil]

i am sorry if this is inconvenient (this is my first time requesting something), but could you update us on post-azkaban sirius? like does ever reveal himself to be Sirius Black? do they find the irony in their naming? ahh so much potential! thank you for doing what you do already, and for even reading this!!

don't worry darling, you're not being inconvenient at all, im always happy to hear from you lovelies so even if it's just to say hello, i love the interaction!

also, i have current plans of writing a part 2 to that sirius black timestamp but i will take your ask as an official request so it moves to the top of my to-do list (≧▽≦)

haha! you're right in that it has a lot of potential so i'm gonna have some fun writing it (≧▽≦) thank you so much for requesting this, darling! i'll do my best to write it soon

[ilovebl0od]

diary entry ― 07/01/2025

"i used to cry because i loved too deeply, now i cry because im terrified i'll never love again in the present tense"

it has been a while since i've written here, last month was pure chaos.

it's been a while since i've cried, i'm one month clean of self harm and i've been having a hard time staying sober. i don't know what to do, i'm numb since new years eve. it was a blissful night, i was high on ecstasy and it felt so good to be happy, but since then, i haven't felt much.

my screen time has been awfully high, all i do is wake up, scroll, talk to bots and sleep; it's pityful, to say the least... staying home has been overwhelming, and i feel very needy for someone that does not exist.

i wonder if it's fair to stay this way... i'm always short on money and when i get some i spend it all on drinks.

harmful behavior? maybe. i have no wish to see or speak to anyone if it means i'll have to be sober while doing so. i barely have enough will to do anything at all, to be fair.

i go on dates, people are nice, sweet and and some might actually be into me, it makes me feel guilty, because i know im not able to feel much for them.

the thing is i dont know what to do now, for some reason i believed that, as soon as the new year came, i would have some kind of epiphany that would finally give me a line to follow, a path to walk on, a purpose. i guess thats just not how it works, silly of me to believe it would be so easy.

im trying to let go of the past, but i'm addicted to my memories, and even more so to my imagination. i keep wishing i could go somewhere, anywhere, just away from here. there is someone missing and i have this need to find them, yet i know they are nowhere outside my mind.

every day i feel the need to run into the arms of my past lovers, why is that? it's been a while since i have been able to feel real comfort, real safety. that feeling when you're in love and you know for sure that everything will be fine and if not, you still have your fate intertwined with the fate of another, and that, somehow, seems to be enough to make you want to live, enough to make you try.

the problem with me is that i keep wanting to dig graves, when the corpse has decomposed and the bones are just a memory. why? i think it's because i want to know if it was real, if love was ever real or if it was just inside my mind.

i feel very unlovable these days, i try not to admit it, but its true.

was i always this way? i wish the ones who once felt something for me, would come to me and tell me why. what made them love me? how can i be more of that and less of this?

i need to understand why is it that the love i had reserved for them is still inside of me, and why is it that the love they once gave to me seems to have vanished from all realities.

am i allowed to still love them so much?

i wish i could go back in time and feel the warmth of their voices once again.

but my name just doesnt sound the same... there is something in the way it is said that feels like a sword piercing through the bittersweet comfort of my illusions.

i envy the versions of myself, lost between the fractured and deorganized universe of my mind. i envy every touch and every smile they received, every word they've ever heard, because its all for them, they had it; real, palpable, factual. and what i have instead is the sensation of a memory that can't be grasped and fit into my current reality.

i wonder if everyone feels this way, like their lives don't belong to them.

i used to cry because i loved too deeply, now i cry because im terrified i'll never love again in the present tense.

i never knew a feeling could get stuck in the past, and i would not have believed it if someone told me it would hurt so bad.

i'm unable to live in the present. and i'm losing my mind to it.

i only feel anything by remembering the feelings of the past or by imagining the feelings of the future, the present is an endless void that i can't seem to endure in sobriety. i dont know what to do anymore.

i havent seen my real friends in a while, i miss them a lot.

[cloverwood]

✧ Cloverwood | Adult | They/Them - Fai/Fairs/Fairself | Aotearoa ✧

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Hi! This is my blog about my alterhuman life ૮꒰˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶꒱ა

I am Otherkin and Therian!

You can call me N, Rabbit, Cloverwood or Clover!

��*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟOTHERKIN･ﾟ*:✧THERIAN✧*:･ﾟARCHETROPE･ﾟ*:✧･ﾟ*:✧

✧ Otherkin - Green Forest Fairy Kin 🧚‍♀️

I am a forest fairy with shapechanging abilities! My fairykin identity originates both psychologically and spiritually.

I often take forms outside of the standard 'little fairy with wings' look, here is a list of some of my most common shapes:

Fairy Dog aka; The Black Wolf

Shadow

Fairy Nightfury (httyd/oc)

These aren't individual/true "kins" but rather simply different forms of my fairykin self. But i may use tags and labels like "wolfkin" or "nightfurykin" when discussing these forms.

I also practice a form of paganistic fairy faith but this pinned post is already getting long as is ^_^; if i discuss it more in future posts i'll link them here.

related links: Name Hoard - [link]

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✧ Therian - White Rabbit 🐇

I'm also a rabbit therian. Purely psychological origin as I believe I imprinted on rabbits as a wee child. (we kept and bred rabbits in my childhood).

I am unsure of any specific breed or type, but I know I am a white rabbit but not albino. I tend to swap back and forth between wild and domestic. I am also considering snowshoe hare.

But until I figure it out (if ever) I'm happy just being a rabbit ૮₍ ˃ ᵕ ˂ ₎ა

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✧ Archetrope - Wizard 🧙‍♂️

questioning wizard archetrope. I feel more like im on the journey to becoming a wizard than am currently one, but i still identify very strongly with them and it makes up a large part of my philosophy towards life.

Influenced strongly by 70-80s fantasy wizards and the earthsea series.

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✧ Hearted - Unicorn, Pergasus and Dragon 🦄🐲

??? maybe??

✧ - no DNI (they're silly) i just block if ur vibes are wack.

✧ - this blog is intended for mature audiences, im an adult that talks abt adult things - 16+ followers pls

✧- this blog supports trans folk, all queer folk, bipoc rights, indigenous rights (Toitū Te Tiriti!), palestinian freedom and bodily autonomy.

✧ - If using tone tags with me please spell them out in full <3 (no acronyms / shorthand)

my adults only mythkin discord server:

[beeismessingaround]

Its 2 am and i am really bored let me answer some of these 😋

DR type related !!

1.My fav DR changes like every week currently it's probably mha tho

2.My weirdest DR is probably Jonh wick idk why i made a john wick DR but like its there

3.I have a hermitcraft and dsmp crossover DR lol

4.Im kinda nervous for my star wars DR because it is ALOT

5.My first ever DR was my mcu one

6.Honestly im not sure😭

7.So okay i have a fame ,boarding school ,college ,streamer ,fantasy ,cottage core and weirdly a Fae DR but like THOSE fae fics from the mcyt fandom with the sbi

CC Related !!

1.16/17 idk i kinda lost count

2.Nope

3.I scripted some beef with a girlie named Sarah in one of my DRs and i also kinda have beef with bakugo in my villain mha DR

4.so im really excited to see my girlie Mina and obviously my s/o kats or shigaraki in my other mha DR

5.I will update this when it happens 😭😭

6.So my friendgroup is basically the bakusquad and we are...very problematic Ig were supposed to be really well known in UA but its for some really peculiar reasons, its cuz like Katsuki is always angry, and Sero cussed this one bitch out, mina is always in every drama possible, denki is like struggling for his life with his grades and i once fell off the ua roof so like uhmmmm

7.So my family in basically my mom who's a pro hero and my grandma who's baddass, and then my 2 sisters who are like very young still althought i really wanna shift to find out their quirks

8.Probably Stain, or AFO or the doctor guy and possibly overhaul so yh quite alot actually

9.So in my hero DR its probably Mina,Aizawa and allmight because theyre so sweet yk dadzawa and dadmight and i have daddy issues

Miscellaneous !!

1.I have a DR which is basically a self-insert into those sleepy boys Inc found family fics and its really detailed

2.It was last night and I don't know if it was necessarily connected to my DR but class 1A was there and we were on a school bus but the bus was invisible so we could see all around us and the only we could see of the bus was the seats and some engines basically we were jst chilling and I was talking with some girl on the bus and then the bus fell off a cliff 😭

3. I don't really know I'm still trying figure that out

4.Probably when Bakugo confessed to me in the middle of a fight we were having, also shigaraki holding my through a crowd which is something I would've never imagined he would be comfortable enough to do but okay

5.I don't really script those but I can play electric guitar and violin and ice skating

6.I feel very connected to these fantasy worlds and ever since I was young and I used to daydream I was in them all the time and make characters and write self-inserts and shifting allows me to be there. I normally used to daydream to escape from my home situation and with shifting I feel like I can make little me happy by having gotten out of that home situation and making all her daydreams come true

7.In my villain DR, shigaraki gets like manipulated by AFO to do smh and the lov don't agree with it so while the heroes are trying to stop shigaraki's little evil plan the league is very confused cuz we don't support shigaraki's plan and we know hes gonna get hurt in the end but also we're not a fan of heroes. But in the end Izu is trying to beat shigaraki and there's this huge storm in the sky being caused by a machine and izuku's like "I could beat shigaraki if only the sky was clear" or something like that and little attention whore me scripted that i ran infront of izuku and started flying up at manipulating the sky to clear up and izu was like 😮 and I was sent him on his merry way yk like "Go!" but asked him to please spare shigaraki and he did so all is well but yh

8.Honestly I dont know I'm hanging by a thread on my shifting motivation right now

9.No although I want a snake but I'll get it when I'm there lol

10.if im I'm cuddling someone I'm always comfortable and so are they and i dont feel their breath of me idk why it bothers me the breath thing but it just does (and i fall asleep easily that's also a good thing to script)

That's it I think anyways I'm probably gonna go shift now 😗

Reality shifting ask prompts! Reblog this to encourage your followers to send you any of these asks ☺️ (you can always say no to answer some of them obviously!!) (and this includes me, you can send me asks too 🤭)

🏡DR TYPE RELATED🏡

🏰 what’s your favorite DR?

🛸 what’s your weirdest DR?

🎡 do you have any crossover/AU DRs?

🏔️ which DR are you most nervous to go to?

🛤️ which DR have you had for the longest time?

🏖️ which DR is the most comforting when you think about going there?

🛶 do you have any DRs that are NOT based on fictional worlds or some type of fame DR or waiting room?

👯 CC RELATED 👯

💕 how many S/Os do you have?

💍 are you married in any of your DRs?

🩴 do you have beef with anyone in your DR?

👑 if you have shifted, who was the first person you saw when you got to your DR? If you haven’t shifted, who are you most excited to see?

🧦 if you have shifted, are there any unknown/side characters that you made friends with?

🤝 what’s your friend group like?

👥 who is your family in your DR, if you have one?

🧛 is there anyone in your DR who scares you?

🫶 who is your favorite person in your DR that is NOT an S/O?

👜 MISCELLANEOUS 👜

✍️ which one of your scripts is most detailed/you’re most proud of?

💤 what was the last dream you had that was related to your DR?

🪁 what’s your favorite method?

🎭 what’s your favorite scenario that you have scripted?

🏄 what are some unnecessary talents that you have scripted for yourself?

🍭 what are you most looking forward to when it comes to shifting?

☀️ why is shifting important to you?

🌍 what’s the most “center of attention” scenario that you have scripted?

☔️ what helps you not give up when you have failed attempts?

🐶 do you have any pets in your DR?

🧃 what’s something you think everyone should add to their script but no one thinks of?

[agathokakolog1cal]

intro :3

the basics

monarchofthequeerpotatoes-agathokakolog1cal

hey guys if you have moneys please consider helping out my lovely friend <3 hes selling cool stuff and its hard for it atm

decorate my christmas tree!!

on adults interacting with me

the sweetest most prettiest berry in the whole wide world, the sirius orion black to my remus john lupin, who is approximately 15 hours too far away

me!

hello! my name is iris. you can call me whatever nicknames you want (some people call me rissie) but my name doesn't really lend itself to nicknames haha. i also like pet names so you can call me those if you want :3

i use he/she/any neos/they pronouns (any neos/any neos's are not my pronouns, pronouns page is js annoying) in order of preference! (and yes, this does mean you may choose whatever neos you think suit me. please do not exclusively call me they/them.) i use any gendered terms but please don't call me a person in the way people use it as a gender neutral version of boy/girl? yk what i mean? js pick boy or girl idm

i love meeting people and making new friends :D but i can be a little awkward

im bi with a preference for guys, ambi (taken and definitely not actively looking for other relationships because im very happy with my current partner but if you do like me we can talk about it) and probably aspec

i do moodboards based off people's names!!! if you want one just send an ask and if you have multiple names tell me which one you want :333

im a red fox therian :333333333 yip yip

dni

adults privately without asking

homophobes, transphobes, racists, zionists, etc

exclusively nsfw blogs

pro ana/pro sh blogs (ed/sh blogs can interact. i have the tags blocked. you may vent to me, what triggers me is spo/sh pics/stuff along those lines)

byi

i will try to tag whatever you need. remind me if i don't. please tag rape/sa, blood, emeto, and ed/sh content if we're moots :)

i don't have opinions on most discourse stuff (except for the obvious stuff in my dni). if your opinions on syscourse or shipcourse or any of that stuff are so strong that you can't interact with someone who doesn't share exactly the same ones…don't interact i guess? idc about anyone with any opinions regarding that stuff interacting with me but don't be mean to my moots who have opposite opinions.

i am neurodivergent (diagnosed audhd + probably some other stuff) and might be a lil awkward

im quite affectionate (if i comfort you i might call you love or sweetheart and i'll probably tell you you're pretty if a photo of you comes up on my dash. i mean this platonically unless explicitly otherwise stated and i'll stop if you tell me to)

my dms are also open to any of my moots who aren't adults :) come!! ask me random questions!! send me photos of your cats!! tell me about that new song you heard or place you went!!! tell me how you're not doing great or how you're feeling better!! i care.

i don't reach out to people very often because i'm a bit scared of it but if you send me an ask or dm me or whatever i will go YIPEE and start talking to you

i have bad rsd. please use tone indicators and avoid making me think you're mad at me unless you are (i am one of those people who thinks everyone hates me and i am an imposter everywhere i go blablabla)

im happy to participate in tag games but i usually open tag

im not a fan of bullying or cringe culture or mean people in general. this is a positive space, please try to be nice.

boundaries (in emojis bc they change)

👜- you can do this!

💵- ask before doing this!

⚜️- please do not ever do this unless i explicitly tell you to

🤎- please do this! i actively like when people do it

venting to me-👜

sending me anything nsfw-⚜️ (tagging me in suggestive stuff is fine but please dont try to sext me/send me nudes/whatever, i am an asexual minor.)

asking me for advice- 👜

sending memes-👜

tagging me in things- 👜

messaging me and asking to be friends-🤎

asking for other socials- i'll answer for you now, i don't have any. close moots can have my email if they wanna email me for whatever reason or if they wanna call me (ill only call if we're close close)

posting about me- 👜

calling/facetiming me- 💵 but also 🤎

asking if i'm okay-👜

asking which pronouns i prefer at the moment- 👜

asking for my playlist- i don't have spotify

sending me selfies- 👜

asking for selfies-👜 but you have to take no for an answer

using tone indicators- 🤎

making me anything :) (art, moodboards, playlists, whatever)- 🤎

asking about anything you wanna know- 👜

you are supported, accepted, and safe on this blog <333 ily

stuff i like

green=favs

music (in random order i just. add new artists in the middle idk why. yes crispin you are in this no you cant argue) - will wood (and the tapeworms), billie eilish, fontaines d.c, kendrick lamar, alex g, car seat headrest, taylor swift, the mouldy peaches, chappell roan, olivia rodrigo, conan gray, jolie holland, radiohead, declan mckenna, hozier, lana, noahfinnce, yungblud, beabadoobee, bikini kill, frank ocean, @outlying-hyppocrate, boygenius, nirvana, cavetown, sam fender

books/tv/film- osemanverse (including the heartstopper show), studio ghibli, young royals, across the spiderverse, good omens, anything to do with the moomins, tsoa

general stuff i like- animals, etymology, reading, greek mythology, pikas, tea, bjj, drawing, the marauders (notorious multishipper i love most ships), baking

mooties/people i like!!

@beanthebugboi - my beloved sibling <3

@sarkylittlemonster - best writer in the universe ever nobody argue or you're wrong

@forest-fairy-wren - bird boi bone lover /ij

@gh0stly-sunb0y - my son

@everythingseasoning - mother

@i-ate-the-sun7 can always rely on that guy to tag me in cute marauders shit

@gay-little-isopod username is self explanatory whats not to love about a gay little isopod

@michaelholdenkinn1e - lovely first mootie

@not-ready-for-gaster trusty reblogger

@thebabycage SUCH A NICE PERSON. MUCH NICE SO KIND OMG.

@homocidalpotat the bestest of bodyguards

@th3-c0ld-n0v3mb3r-r4in - my daughter

@old-man-spine - also cool guy :33 hes very comforting idk why

@outlying-hyppocrate - too cool to be moots with me, most fanciest way of talking award, awesome musician

@greenteaandspikes - the sweetest berry in the world <3

@s1l4s-w0rsh1ps-t0m4t03s - JHKSHKJAHJKHJKKJH SO COOL. tomato's biggest fan, beloved emo boy

@dracosleftarsecheek - yip yip

@solzinstarzzz - also too cool to follow me

@kairosthegoat - likes maths for some unexplainable reason. cool guy tho

@kawaiibarty - STOP MAKING ME CRY OR ELSE

@moriartyyoushouldseemeinacrown - kitty cat!!

@lifegoalsofafish - fishyyy best jewelry maker

@s4ge-s4ge-s4ge - beloved ask box spammer. also my daughter :D :D

@just-a-lurking-creature - yip yippppp :333

@sakiluvr555 - mayayyaayayayayayayayy his name sounds like yay when you keysmash it bc they make me go YAY

@666godsperfectidiot - how could i forget micah. professional askbox infodumper and i am very very grateful for that /gen

if you want to be included or dont want to just tell me :33