#am i competent? no

[solarsyrup]

for whatever reason tumblr has flagged this post from a deleted blog as explicit so I can't even reblog it anymore which is a shame because it's one of my absolute favorites

[lesbiancientforesttroll]

Think about Harrow's AU Bubbles

Thinking about Harrow's AU bubbles, not as fanfic references, but as expressions of her subconscious fears and desires, is so fascinating.

The Harrow Nova one is pretty obvious. Harrow's parents were obsessed with her being a necromancer, were willing to kill for it. It's only natural she'd wonder, "What if I hadn't been?"

And the answer Harrow gives herself is: Your parents and everyone would reject you (except, wildly, for Crux). Also they'd be alive cuz you'd never opened the tomb, and you'd be an unpopular orphan they'd abuse (Just Like Gideon). And you'd still be just as devoted to serving the Ninth with a blade. There's a lot there. But the other really telling bit is her relationship with Gideon. Harrow Nova professes to hate the reverend daughter even as she seeks to (re) create the necro-cav bond with her. But that hatred doesn't seem to be mutual. And the bit about the daughter intervening when Harrow was whipped…

That's Harrow's subconscious saying if their roles had been reversed, "Gideon would have treated me better than I treated her. Gideon would have protected me."

The Ball AU also seems like a reasonable extension of Gideon's childhood query: "What if my other parent is the most important guy in the universe?" Answer: Emperor Dad would throw a big party.

But also… it's a bride-finding ball! That's so very telling. It could have been anything, but Harrow invents another scenario where she's fighting, competing to get to Gideon, to be awarded the role of her sworn partner (first cav, now bride), while outwardly claiming not to want it.

Now The BARI Star AU often gets described as a "coffee shop" one, but it's actually set in a cohort cafeteria. And normally I wouldn't split hairs over that, but I think the cohort setting is actually really significant. The Cohort was Gideon's dream, and also Harrow's rival for Gideon's attention. It's what she kept trying to leave Harrow for.

So now Harrow dreams that she's left Drearburh to join the cohort and will meet Gideon there. Not fight or compete for a role where they're bound to each other, but just meet her there. That feels like yielding. Like compromise. It makes me think Harrow's subconscious has matured past trying to keep Gideon with her always and is instead looking for ways that SHE can be with Gideon. Meet Gideon where she is.

(Also this may be a stretch, but I always find it low-key funny that Harrow imagines Gideon in the cafeteria… I like to think her brain is skimming lists of hypothetical military jobs like... what sees the least action... ah, coffee-adept, she'll be perfectly safe there...)

[krytus]

can we also appreciate ballister nailing this guy in the dick and then using the shield which is still attached to him

[thomas-the-goat-of-satan]

one of the funniest things about Light Yagami is that he is So aware of himself and So invested in Not Being Perceived As Strange that he has no real grasp on what an actual human interaction should look like. he knows what a Perfect interaction should look like, sure; he knows how to appear effortlessly charming and how to assuage suspicion, but the issue with that is that he reacts to really stressful and bizarre situations in an unnaturally prim and proper way, and then somehow can't understand why that makes him look even weirder. like. okay. this man with the darkest eyebags you've Ever seen and ever Will see walks up to you during your college entrance ceremony and says, "yeah, I'm L. best detective in the world." and Light goes through seven Completely Understandable And Normal Reactions in his head before he settles on, "y'know what would be the normal thing to do here? to completely fabricate my reaction so that I seem as disingenuous as possible! I can't have this guy think that I learned how to interact with other human beings from anywhere else but PBS KIDS! I have to react like Chief Yagami's totally normal son would!!" and like, that's all good and well, but if you were Actually Normal and not the weirdest person on planet earth, you'd have probably looked at the little cryptid and said, "uhm, actually I think that you're a filthy liar and also you dress stupid. why do you exist in greyscale."

[strawberrycartt]

Boo. 🎃

[carlyraejepsans]

genuinely you need to love the trans girls in your life with everything you have. love them until your heart bursts.

[urpersonalpublicgalaxy]

trying something out

[banal-isenatha-nsfw]

Regulars

A little variety while waiting for s2 of Arcane. Also my girlfriend begged me to do a Sevika piece for days, so here we are 😆

[fauvester]

THE KING OF THE NORTHERN DESERT... AND THE LITTLE CROWN PRINCE OF THE NORTHERN DESERT!

i like to think that demon children are naturally very self sufficient and feral and after birth their parents just sort of. throw them to the wilds to raise themselves. but shang qinghua isn't going to let MBJ pass up on being a boydad god damn it

[flying-cat]

people who undermine the importance of izuku and katsuki's relationship throughout bnha because of "annoying shippers" or because they just don't like katsuki are insane because their relationship is literally so? important??? to the entire story???? katsuki is the deuteragonist of bnha. he was one of the first characters to show up. he was the first other person to know about OFA. so much of the manga is spent showing his development. if you deny his character development and relationship development ("relationship" does not always mean romantic relationship) with izuku, you are quite literally denying a massive part of the series. the manga starts with them and ends with them. you're allowed to dislike him but if you dislike him so much that you, in turn, start hating how izuku is a "punching bag" or a "doormat" for the entire series because he doesn't stay angry and vengeful at people even though a massive part of his character is that he's compassionate and kind even to people who aren't to him or used to not be, and you seriously think that that makes him weak, and you just start to dislike the main two characters of the series, i think you should. idk. stop reading, probably. read the revenge fantasy shit that you obviously want to read. there are like seven million manhwa available to you where the character gets the revenge you so desperately want to see.

[vellialavellious]

hakuba knew that kaito kid was disguising as shinichi cause his ass was too flat i know because im gosho thank you goodnight

[grandwretch]

i do think peak comedy is a steve who is absolutely aware of the effect he has on people, but has never felt that way towards anyone else-- the closest he got was with nancy and robin, because he loved them both in different ways, and sometimes he felt like he was going to go insane if he didn't talk to them or touch them right now, but it was never like he had seen other people act about him. robin and nancy made him a better person. they didn't drive him to ridiculous levels of violence and obsession. maybe people in hawkins were just fucking weird.

and then he meets eddie, falls in love with eddie, and he's like... yeah, okay. alright. no, i get it. if anything happened to this guy i would steal the nuclear launch codes.

[veryintricaterituals]

Guys is it gay to forgive him for the ultimate betrayal, is it gay not only to decide not to kill him and then yourself, but also promise it, in your native tongue that you had forgotten, while putting your life in his hands, is it gay to visit his mother and look at his childhood pictures and taunt him on the phone, is it gay to introduce him as an equal, as part of the family (when once we were four, we are now five), is it gay to feed him human blood for the very first time and help him finish transforming into a creature of the night, is it gay to get his first victim ready for him, to make it as easy as possible....

I really want to know, is it gay to have predicted all along he wasn't ready, that this life wasn't yet for him, is it gay to decide to fix it, is it gay to then dress him up in robes and tie them around his neck while speaking to him so softly, is it gay to comfort him and guide him to the intricate ritual you constructed in order to give him the choice you never had, is it gay to decorate your house with banners and candles, and to have all your friends surround you both in a circle and bear witness....

Please, I'm not sure, is it gay to ask him, to make sure he gets to make the decision, and to make it with dignity and respect, is it gay for your own voice to break when you said you predicted the outcome (that you know him so well), is it gay to break the most sacred of rules for him and kill your own brethren just so he doesn't have to do it himself, is it gay to hand him his glasses that you had ready for him, that you'd carried with you for who knows how long, is it gay to stand next to him with your hand on his shoulder as he grasps the enormity of the situation and tell him that this was the only way for him to realize what he really, truly, wanted....

[minusforty]

Gianmarco Tamberi

European Champion, World champion and Olympic co-champion in high jump

[mermmarie]

Randomly thinking about how Bay!Donnie would destroy Rise!Donnie on the court and it makes me giggle.

Like... Bay!Donnie just seems like the all out nerd with his taped together glasses and suspenders. But if I had to put money on who could make a three-pointer I'd have to give it to the geek with a IPAD strapped to his bicep.

[foldingfittedsheets]

Graduation is coming up later in April and I’m beyond proud that I’m graduating with honors. I worked super hard to keep my grades up and I get a pretty gold tassel for all my efforts.