#am i a people person? Not really. but am i a Drug People person? ohhh absolutley yes

[3knecrotic]

Valium and strawberry mimosa mix and maybe even bong time let's FUCKING GO gang

[animeomegas]

Imagine the naruto boy's alpha going on anaesthesia for whatever reason (e.g. a dentist appointment or for an injury) and then they wake up from it and see their mate beside them and goes "damn can I date you?" bc they're still high from the drug and have no idea who their mate is😂

You blearily blinked at the room comprised almost solely of a dazzling and blinding white. Automatically, you squinted and turned your attention to the thing, no, person, sitting next to you, thankfully not wearing white, to give your eyes a reprieve.

All thoughts about where you were or why you felt weird flew out of your head as you really looked at the mysterious person. He was the most stunning person you'd ever seen.

"Wooooow," you said, trying to sit up. Your voice sounded different to how you remembered... Oh well.

The mysterious man's hands shot out to support you. He was touching you. This angel of a man was touching you! It was clearly your lucky day!

"Careful," he said. Even his voice was attractive, how unfair was that? "The mednin said not to rush trying to stand."

"You... are the most sexy person I've ever seen," you said honestly, trying to maintain eye contact with the man. It was hard because your eyes kept slipping. "Are you single?"

...

Naruto:

The man immediately burst into peals of laughter. He was howling so hard he almost slipped off his chair.

"Am I single?!" he repeated in between gasping breaths and cackling laughs.

You huffed. How rude. It was only a question!

Chouji:

"No, I'm not single," the main said softly, cupping your face gently. You whined at the thought of the beautiful stranger slipping from your grasp.

"None of that," he said, bopping you gently on the nose. "I'm not single because I'm married to you."

It took your brain a few minutes to process his words, but when you did, a big dopey smile lit up on your face. You were married to this man!!!

"Wooooooow!!!" you said again. "Does that mean I can kiss you?"

"When you're mouth is all healed, you can kiss me as much as you want."

Shikamaru:

The man stood abruptly, making you jump.

"Botan!" the man shouted, startling you once more. A second man walked briskly into the room.

"Nara sama? You called?" the second man asked.

"They don't remember me," the first man hissed, his scent becoming distressed. You felt an urge to comfort him, but your legs didn't want to cooperate and you couldn't get to him. "What happened to them? I thought you were just taking teeth out?!"

The second man held up his hands in a placating gesture.

"Confusion is very common after the kind of medication, Nara sama," the man sounded nervous. Why was he nervous? "Give them a few hours and they will be much more coherent."

Your brain was too fuzzy to make out what they were talking about. Why were the two men here again?

"Ohhh, I get it," you said suddenly, the pieces clicking together. Both of the men turned to look at you. "This man is your mate and I have to fight him if I want to date you, yes?"

Both of the men blinked at you, but you just nodded to yourself. That made perfect sense.

"I will win," you solemnly promised the second man. "You obviously don't treat him right, and I can't ever forgive such a crime."

Kiba:

"Yes," the man grinned, leaning closer to you. "Totally single."

"Best news I've heard all day," you slurred, leaning in too, until your noses were bumping.

"Yeah?" the man asked. "If you wanna date me you have to say why you think I'm the sexiest person ever."

"Pfft, that's easy," you said, happy to hear that was all you had to do. "I think your arms are so sexy, like... like powerful snakes but sexy, y'know? And then your face, why is part of it red? Mysterious... Sexy people are always a bit mysterious, so there's stuff to talk about after sex, that's how it works."

"Oh? What makes you think I'll have sex with you?" the man asked, but he sounded like he was having fun. Good, that meant you had a shot.

"What if I said please?"

Kakashi:

"Hmm, I might be," the man said, turning the page of a book you couldn't make out the title of. How could he be so sexy with most of his face covered? Also, how did he sneeze with the mask on? Unless...

"You should date me," you said confidently. "People must discriminate against you because you don't have a nose, but I love you anyway. I still think you're hot."

"Ah," the man turned he full attention onto you, the book lowering. "What?"

"It's okay, I'll keep your nose secret," you whispered, patting him on the thigh. Oh, and his thighs were glorious. You gave one a quick squeeze. Yes, very nice. "I'll also let you sit on my f-"

"Okay! You should try and get some rest," the man interrupted you, pushing you back against the bed. The little bit of his face that you could see was now turning red. Was this man sick?

"You're too pretty to be sick," you mumbled, already drifting back to sleep. The last thing you heard was a little strangled choking noise.

[halevren]

FHJY Spoilers || my live thoughts as I watch episode 7

this may take me longer than usual because I have hurt my hand so it's wrapped up rn and it makes it hard to type 🫡

TTTTAKING OVER TEENAGE REBELLION

I miss ayda aguefort i hope she shows up in this episode.

pitch perfect 2 mention! I used to be so into music related movies

So much happened last episode, this recap is so long

I am not a fan of Grix.

AGENT CLARK...

Two Kristen's again

OH NO

ADAINE COMING IN WITH THE SAVE

"Pretty fun to commit fraud"

"That was sophomore year, I'm cool now"

Body rolling I love body rolling it's so fun to just vibe

Mandatory drug test????

Bard class cool as hell

GRIX NETTED DURDEN?

Rip Gorgug he fell on the stairs

"Did she cast a spell on you " "I mean, in a sense..."

Littledoggy Girlcollar

they should investigate definitely

"If we all do drugs, they can't expell all of us."

Riz trying so hard to keep Fig from being expelles

shrimp burrito

Gorgug not being a fan of Mary Ann is very interesting to me and very reasonable.

"I think it's a really good thing you're thinking."

kipperlitty is subliminally messaging people with the food?!?!?!?!?

I can't wait to see the fan art that comes out of this episode

"Hey.... Girlie"

THE SILENCE

"Did you hear? She passed." KRISTEN EHEHEJWKEHBEE

OHHH KIPPERLILLY. THAT WAS SHADY. YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO SAY IT SO LOUD. I ABSOLUTELY KNOW YOU DID IT ON PURPOSE

KRISTEN KRISTEN KIRSTEN KRISTEN KRISTEN

"Hey do we need to lock it in" yeah probably

Max Durden is probably my second favorite npc

"Everyone has to have a least favorite friend, it's fine" NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Fabian running a study hall is so cool

This downtime sounds fun

SPECIAL THING IS GOING TO HAPPEN IF GORGUG GETS NAT 20????????

Riz "The Ball" Gukgak

SERVER AT BASRAR'S!!!!!!

Aewlyn mention 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

SHE GOT THE JOB

"Nice new shirt, did you buy it underground?"

The stress tokens are actually making me real life stressed

GORGUG NAT 20!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SECOND GORGUG NAT 20!!!!!!!!

"It might be more stable than mine"

i miss Cassandra I hope she's okay

The shrimp jump. WAS a miracle

let's go Cassandra!

Fig paladin of Cassandra??????????????

Oh my god is Fig Multiclassing

oh my god wait craig he's still around

"it's like animal piss but in a good way"

"Kristen, your adult man is being weird"

"You'd be a nasty as paladin?"

"I don't want to harsh your vibe"

"Everyone has to lick me"

oh no he's a noodler

DETECTIVE BABY

gorgug has tunnel vision

Gorgug is literally so stressed

"I SUCK, YOU RULE"

the rage!

Fabian is such a loser when it comes to talking with girls

This is so painful, Fabian needs something. I don't know what but God he need something

THIRTY TWO????

Fabian stress token

Walking store Adaine

ya hoo

av class 🔥🔥🔥

i need art of fishing club Riz just goin' fishing

NAT ONE THAT BECOMES A 10

Gorgug & Riz joint birthday party!!!!

17 having a ice cream party sounds absolutely lit

SELF INSERT PC CLARK

Gorbag and Roz!!!

goodbye lucilla she's gone to the skies

"I think you're being weird here"

oh my god fig

Fig is having a strange day

"Why can't I tell him he's weird"

A YOGURT YEAR

"Haha! Counterspell! ♪"

"You've gotta be fucking kidding me."

oh my god Brennan said teenage rebellion.... just like... just like the song teenage rebellion... T-T-T-TAKING OVER TEENAGE REBELLION IT'S OUT TIME IT'S OUR YEAR—

"Can I take a stress for Kristen"

Riz is the only character allowed to take a stress for another person

popular kid Kristen!!!!

"Anyone who think he's cool" me too I fall in love with everyone who thinks I'm cool

alter emo hauntings a kid's dreams

"Not All Who Wanda Are Lost" single released on all listening platforms. 1 mil listens in a week

oh no...... this is going to be awful and awkward.

ohhhhhh....... ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... Fabian.......... This is painful........

Ivy is catching these hands, leave my girl Mazey alone

"You missed your shot, playboy" no he has a call with his bank

Riz is at his conspiracy board

Something does feel off about grix

Everyone has a stress token

"Go roll me a corrupted bardic"

Even I'm grieving Lucy, she sounds lovely...

oh there's something deep going on with lucy

"It's the boss, baby"

Murph has figured it OUT

The epic music

This stress system is making me STRESSED

I relate to the stress causing antisocial things

LYDIA!!!!!!!!!

ohhhhhh goodness.....

[surely-galena]

ToT Main Story 9 Commentary/Thoughts (Part 3)

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This is the final part and I will be including some longer thoughts (and my bingo card) at the end! I've purposely stayed away from other people's episode 9 posts while I write this up (notably Zak and Sam's) so their thoughts don't influence mine, but I am definitely looking forward to seeing if the feelings/concepts I'm picking up align with what other people are thinking. Heads up that the commentary here is going to be slightly out of order so I can push my longer thoughts to the end.

Ohhh. Okay, this got me. Marius was literally physically attacked and no one (except Vincent probably) has genuinely cared enough to ask about Marius the person and not Marius the suspect/informant. I'm really glad MC chose to ask this question rather than let Luke interrogate him right off the bat. And the fact that Marius is surprised also speaks so much as to what he was expecting... I did not think I would be getting treated to good MariRosa today.

(He went down to the NSB office... alone. Marius...)

Vincent's back on the case again, I see. Truly, what would Marius do without him?

This bit confused me. Didn't Luke only tell MC about his illness in his first anniversary card? Am I missing something from the timeline here?

And hey, more details about the incident. The fact that Luke contracted the illness during his treatment and that the drugs were suspected definitely point toward NXX influence.

-

Longer Thoughts Incoming, Here We Go

All right, first thing. This scene on its own doesn't say much. It's when combined with the other things I've picked up on that it feels... a little off?

I don't know if I've spent too much time with fanon!Luke or if I've simply been reading too much into it, but episode 9 Luke feels different. He's really aggressive this time, which is nothing strange, we've seen Raven before, but it also feels like he's relapsing into keeping MC/Rosa in the dark? (It's not quite that, either, I'm having a hard time putting the exact feeling into words.)

That scene with Julian where Luke is trying to push him into standing up for himself? It was well meaning, but gosh was it tense -- especially with the lack of communication with MC. No wonder she felt the need to step in and help.

There's a lot of fist banging on tables and harsh sentences from Luke, a lot more often than usual (to Julian, to Skye, to NXX members). It's a good reminder of how scary he can be, but it also provides massive whiplash from all the fluff we've been getting recently.

Additionally, Luke's interactions with the other NXX members (notably Marius and Artem) feel more distant. Like they're potential enemies, not coworkers/teammates.

I also think it's possible all of this is because Luke is getting desperate. He's getting worse, the meds are doing less and less for him, and he knows he's running out of time. Despite this, he's still alive. He's still able to change his fate -- or at least he hopes he is -- but to chase after his goals, sacrifices have to be made. He can't afford to dawdle or spend time not getting to the point, because time is slipping through his fingers and he needs to do as much as he can before he's entirely done for.

Basically? I think Luke is becoming increasingly stressed and he's (either consciously or unconsciously) taking it out on everything happening around him. The only people he's been truly open to in this episode are Aaron and MC herself. He's beginning to close himself off, even to MC (*points to the final scene with him covering her eyes and talking about lying to her*). Physically, he's not fine, and mentaIly, I don't think he's doing okay either, and that is concerning.

Okay, now onto the second major detail that has been nagging at me. These are from the final scenes as example excerpts, but is it just me or have the NXX been weirdly hostile to each other throughout this entire episode?

In one of the earlier scenes (after Marius speaks with Tyson), Marius runs into Luke. The conversation sounds like fairly normal NXX team banter, but Marius' demeanor is strange:

"But when [Marius] gives Luke a side glance, his eyes reveal a sense of sarcasm and coldness, completely different from his tone." (Main Story 09-01)

I'd assume this is because of the recent NSB action regarding Pax, the press, and the NXX Team's investigation. Luke is a potential weakness in the NXX Investigation Team because he belongs to the NSB. But after all the team building events MC put her heart and soul into, this is honestly kind of tragic. For them to fall apart so easily, because it was only ever her who glued them together.

(I know @roshie-writes has mentioned something to me about the NXX team falling apart, but I didn't know it would be so soon, or be so abrupt. Not like this...)

Not only do Luke and Marius have some kind of under the surface conflict, we have Luke and Artem who have a much more overt kind of conflict (i.e. Luke pushing for Skye's guilt and Artem being Skye's attorney). I've got to say that this is really interesting because we've never had Artem and Luke on opposite sides before. It's always been Artem vs. Marius or Artem vs. Vyn. To have Luke be isolated because of his association with the NSB (and potentially his illness) is an interesting story move (even if it hurts the found fam enjoyer within me).

Considering we're passing off the lead role to another boy after this, MC will no longer be tagging along with Luke in the next episode. This means that while Luke and Artem are on opposing sides of the conflict, MC has the advantage of being middle ground (because, y'know, they're all in love with her).

Even so, this part surprised me:

It's not out of character for Artem to prove MC wrong. What stands out is that he usually does it kindly. This is a laugh that MC knows to be directed to an opponent, and it hits harder when they're work partners. If there is anyone Artem can expect to be an ally, it's MC. But not in this case. Not now, when tensions are so high.

Then we have Vyn, who's being, what? Switzerland in all of this? In this episode he existed to have one conversation with MC, along with the absolute boldness to take it in front of his mystery guest. You do you Vyn, we love our behind the scenes guy doing suspicious things as usual. Notably he hasn't chosen a side yet, and neither has MC. We know that MC will follow her heart, and that Vyn will always look out for MC in his own way (which is true for all the boys), but it might be interesting to keep an eye on him as we head into Main Story 10.

I know the ToT main story can get pretty heavy, but this one was more emotionally draining than I thought it'd be. I'll have to see how it all connects before making a proper judgement about how much I liked it, but overall I'm glad we gained a lot of new info (and more questions to delve into later).

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Here's my bingo card for the episode. I was so close to a bingo, but I got to cross off many boxes anyway!

[lunarsun12]

Papa Hongjong In Charge - Part 1/2

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Seonghwa had enough with Hongjong being absent all of the time. One of the kids asked of him and Hongjong got divorced (don’t blame Mingi from the Yeonjun incident). He decided put Hongjong in charge, to feel his pain and stop hiding when he needs help.

To Seonghwa surprise, Hongjong did well as when he got home. The house was peaceful which seonghwa was low-key jealous about.

Will Hongjong peaceful reign remain peaceful?

Back at Hongjong and Seonghwa Private Chat

Today 22:00

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Please I am begging you! Don’t leave me alone with the kids again!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: I dunno what they do next! What if they touch my earrings or MY LAPTOP. I already lost it once

Seonghwa🌸: It has to be done! You need to step up!

Seonghwa🌸: I will look after the company…maybe I can make my own mixtape

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Then I am not coming home then! You can’t make me! I already had trauma from the kids prank

Seonghwa🌸: Shall I tell the kids, that you pretended to busy…to avoid spending time with them

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Since when you get so smart?

Seonghwa🌸: I’m always smart, you never bother pay attention to me

Seonghwa🌸: You better get back home. You shift starts at 6am

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: 6am!?

Now back present day…

Back at Ateez Family Chat

Seonghwa🌸: HONGJONG! DID YOU DRUG THE KIDS!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: What? Why would I do that, they were already behaving when you left…strangely

Seonghwa🌸: They are behaving so well and EVEN Wooyoung and Yeosang are even playing games together with no screaming

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: You see I can be responsible!

Jongho🍎: Appa is the best! He taught me how to make a song!

Yunho🐶: Appa you should come back home, more often we really missed you!

Yeosang🍗: I don’t know how I manage to sit in room peacefully with Wooyoung

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: Yeah…I dunoo when Appa is home. I don’t have the urge to annoy yeosang

Mingi🦄: Mingi loves Eomma ❤️

Jongho🍎: Mingi, stop lying. It gonna hurt more that you were crying when you thought Appa left

Seonghwa🌸: Maybe I should leave you Appa in charge more SINCE you all love him

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: NO! The kids will miss you!

Jongho🍎: I will be glad, if he left for a month

Yeosang🍗: Same…he talks a lot

Yunho🐶: Come one guys…Eomma sometimes worries too much but that he’s thing

Mingi🦄: I love Eomma and Appa the best

Mingi🦄: And Jongho shut up! Before you make Eomma even more sad

San🗻: I HATE YOU ALL AND ESPECIALLY APPA

Seonghwa🌸: AHA! Finally someone said it

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: San?

Seonghwa🌸: Is he in hulk mode?

San🗻: I’m upset! You all are stealing MY Appa away from me! I saw him first!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Ermmm, look at the time. It’s time for me to sleep! Seonghwa you sort San out…

Seonghwa🌸: What about you being responsible!

San🗻: APPA BARELY PAID ATTENTION TO ME! He forgot I was in the house as he forgot to make dinner for me!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: I don’t want to be here but your Eomma is literally glaring at me

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: San, I don’t remember who said you on field trip today

San🗻: Who made up that rumour! I have been here all day!

Mingi🦄: Ohhh that…

Jongho🍎: Be quiet Mingi! It’s a secret!

Hongjong🏴‍☠️: Wait what? San has been here all day! Why didn’t anyone tell me!

Seonghwa🌸: That explains everything now! I’m sorry to say this the kids are your pulling leg plus San

Wooyoung🐈‍⬛: Before y’all oldies blame me! It’s not me! I will never do such thing to San!

San🗻: I know my Wooyoungie and yeosangie will never betray me

Hongjong🗻: Why would they do that to San unless they are jealous of San and I relationship

Jongho🍎: Maybe that person or people just want some love

San🗻: Wooyoung and Yeosang we have a crime to solve! Get them punish for stealing my Appa time!

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[bleachbleachbleach]

2/24 - 3/2/2024

For the last couple months, I've been working my way through Pravesh Bhardwaj's favorite short stories of 2023, and not enjoying a lot of them. Maybe Bhardwaj and I just have different taste, but I kept thinking to myself, "so what? why did we just spend this time with these characters?" or, alternately, grating at the "reveals," because I kept receiving them as weirdly trite. Trite in ways that I guess I don't associate with contemporary fiction. Like, ohhh he killed the friend for drugs! or She was in a mental hospital! Like, what is this, an episode of Law and Order?

But there is also a voice inside me that's like, I think you're reading these uncharitably, because these writers aren't stupid and don't seem like the type to condescend to the sensational and probably aren't actually doing that. Maybe it's YOUR brain failing to read for nuance. And in the case of "spending time with these characters," I was like, what am I wanting, exactly? A plot? A thesis? The former doesn't sound like me; I almost never read anything for the plot. As for theses, maybe?? But it's not like I wanted some heavy-handed symbol or Meaning-Laden Scene to come bursting through the door like the Kool-Aid Man. I like reading things that are just studies of a character's life. "People sitting around" is my favorite genre. I still felt like I kept coming up short after reading them, though, like, is that it? Is there no meaning to this? (Am I blind to the meaning? Am I blinding myself because I'm imposing some rigid set of expectations or "shoulds" onto things instead of reading openly and with some semblance of intelligence?)

I thought maybe I just don't want a short story right now, and need something longer. I really enjoyed the novella Make it Black by Andre Dubus III, which really is just a lady sitting with people and driving around. But even then, toward the end I felt like the meaning got a little too pointed, even though I've been grumbling this whole time about the ~meaning of it all not being pointed enough.

But then I was like, oh, lmao, you know what all of this actually sounds like? I'M PROBABLY JUST DEPRESSED AND BURNT OUT. (Cue realization hitting as though these things haven't been true for years, albeit manifested in ways other than these very specific ruminations on short stories.)

Writing-wise, I can only hope that what I am writing is also secretly good, like those short stories probably are. I didn't write very much this week, though I read the aforementioned Make it Black, and Chapters 86-88 of Bleach. I did write for a couple hours yesterday, which was a decent enough time. I found myself wanting to write a lot this week, and then not doing it. In addition to my generally just being a wet husk of a person, this week has been acutely sad. My sister had to put her dog to sleep on Sunday, so this week I've spent most of my free time energy being sporadically weepy about that and trying to send my sister long-distance love. It's one of those things where I was like, god, I really want to write, because I want to process this grief through fanfic. But after going to job-work and doing the laborious work of Being Sad, I was just like, I am too exhausted to do anything else, I barely did THOSE things.

I was struggling to remember what, exactly, I wrote yesterday--because it continues to be drop-in scenes in the Hisagi chapter--but it looks like it was some overwrought Hisagi thoughts about Matsumoto I'll probably delete, some Hitsugaya paragraphs that took 19 years to write apiece, some jinzen lore, and this exchange between Hisagi and Rukia:

“We’re not going anywhere. No one’s going anywhere. Just rest,” Hisagi says. How he manages to make the truth sound so unconvincing is beyond him. There’s an unbridled terror in her eyes that Hisagi does not know how to handle. The 4th makes it look so easy.

Kuchiki locks onto Hisagi. Maybe she can see his terror, too. He watches as hers closes itself behind an impassive mask, eyes hardening into dark stones. She, too, makes it look easy, though the green tinge to her cheeks and the new beads of sweat at her brow, already weeping down her temples, betray her.

“The thing I did with the hell butterfly. That’s what you’re feeling. It should help. It will help.” Hisagi tries to sound as reassuring as possible.

Kuchiki looks less than reassured, though more put out by the notion than terrified by it. So there’s that.

"In the Living World, Kurosaki Isshin is a human doctor. But I also saw him successfully operate on a dog once," Kuchiki informs him. “He was very good at it. Even so, I don’t know that I would expect a dog doctor to operate on a human.”

It’s unclear whether the statement is encouragement or insult, but Hisagi has published enough Kuchiki poetry to know that it is likely intended as both.

“Akon handled the actual surgery,” Hisagi offers.

This Kuchiki cannot be won over. “Perhaps it would suffice if it were Ichigo. If Ichigo needed the operation, I mean. He’s very good at that.”

“At... being a dog?”

“At enduring what he’s given.”

[aquadestinyswriting]

Incorrect Quote Tag Game

I was tagged for this by the lovely @lexiklecksi and am using this generator. This should be fun.

no pressure tags: @druidx, @sparrow-orion-writes , @homesteadchronicles, @warriorbookworm, @mariahwritesstuff, @ashirisu, @thesorcerersapprentice, @blind-the-winds, @philosophika and anyone else that fancies having a go.

Placing all of these under a cut to save peoples' dashes. See my list of characters here as some of them may be from that extended list.

Laurence: Am I going too far? Snotgrut: No, no, no. You went too far about 7 hours ago. Now you’re going to prison.

Birghe, holding a rock: Ugri just gave this to me and said "I feel like you deserve the moon but all I can give you is a rock". Yoruk: If you don't marry him, I will.

^ Meredith (offscreen); Not if I ask him first!

Thaddeus: You know guys, sometimes I feel like Thazaar doesn't take me seriously enough. Dwena: "Sometimes"? Selene: "Enough"? Thaddeus: Selene: Change that to 'at all' and we'll talk.

Elowyn: What do you do when someone offers you drugs? Quentin: Take them! Meredith: Punch them in the neck! Felix: Say thank you! Snotgrut: Offer them more drugs to assert dominance! Elowyn: … Elowyn: No.

Enezeage: Ooh, somebody has a crush Elowyn: Pfft, I don’t have a crush on Meredith, I just think they’re cool, it’s not like I stay up at night thinking about them. *Later that night* Elowyn, very much awake: Uh oh.

Snotgrut: What the fuck. Felix: ESPN is showing 2003 national jump rope championship. Snotgrut: Who the hell watches jump rope competiti- ooh bouncy.

Quentin: We’re kind of missing something guys. Felix: Cohesion? 'Arry: Teamwork? Laurence: A general sense of what we’re doing? Elowyn: And Snotgrut is not here. Laurence: Oh, and that, yeah.

Thaddeus: Hey, Selene? Can I get some dating advice? Selene: Just because I'm with Edwin doesn't mean I know how I did it.

*The gang responding to being stabbed by a sword* Elowyn: Rude. Laurence: That's fair. Quentin: Not again. Snotgrut: Are you gonna want this back or can I keep it?

Meredith: Yoruk kissed me! Birghe: Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! Meredith: It was unbelievable! Birghe: Oh my God! Oh my God! Oh my God! Ugri: Okay, we wanna hear everything. Birghe, get the wine and unplug the phone. Meredith, does this end well or do we need tissues? Meredith: Oh, it ended very well. Birghe: Do not start without me! Do not start without me! Ugri: Okay, alright, let’s hear about the kiss. Was it a soft brush against your lips or was it like a, you know, “I gotta have you now” kind of thing? Meredith: Well, at first it was really intense, you know? And then, oh God, and then we just sort of sunk into it. Ugri: Ohh... So, okay, were they holding you? Or were their hands on your back? Meredith: First they started out on my waist and then they slid up and then they were in my hair. Birghe and Ugri: Ohhh. *meanwhile* Yoruk eating pizza in their house: And, uh, and then I kissed them. Kidri: Tongue? Yoruk: Yeah. Kidri: Cool.

Selene: Snotgrut, can I ask you a question? Snotgrut: You just did. Selene: Okay, can I ask you two questions? Snotgrut: You just did. Selene, frustrated: OKAY, CAN I ASK YOU FOUR QUESTIONS?! Snotgrut: You just did. Selene: When?! Snotgrut: Just now.

Selene: Due to personal reasons, I will be fucking sinking to the bottom of the ocean in a large metal box. Dwena: Did Edwin say 'I love you' and you said 'Thanks'? Selene: THE REASONS ARE PERSONAL–

[autistikmystik]

Introduction

This was definitely not the day & age for me man. Was it? Wasn’t it?

I guess I have the sight to see through the glass mirrors & smoke, the illusion drenched in false idols & feel good vibes; is so clear to me…

How brilliant these Masters are, how infinitely intelligent, fashioning their puppets up with plastered on smiles & pre-recorded laughs & snickers for the world to see that they’re happy; yes indeed they are happy!

They have their Games, their Work, their Democracy, Their Drugs, Their Love, Their Smartphones, & Their Distractions, Their Beauty and Fashion Shows, Their Westerns, Their Sports Cars, Their Dreams (even though most won’t come true; care to try a Dandelion dear?)…

They’re happy indeed!

As long as you don’t look up.

As long as you don’t think too deeply…

Or ask the right questions…

If you don’t Wake Up.

If you don’t See what is actually going on.

Call me crazy, I don’t care anymore. Call me paranoid, if that suits your fancy. Hell, call the cannibalistic evildoers in their white coats to drag me away in the streets, screaming I TOLD YOU!

But…No matter what, I know. Ohhh, how I know.

These Masters cannot fool me, no. I can see the lines and strings that make up their caricature, their silly little scripts with their eight-syllable terms that mean nothing to me but only meant to confuse me. These Masters who play the Good Guy in front of the screen, waving at the cameras as him and his opponent argue over democracy and freedom and what’s right and deserving of The People; but then behind closed doors and as the world sleeps, they are Evil Doers, slaves themselves to the Evil Eye, who rape and murder Unknown Children who were born in the secret black market of teens who they themselves were Unknown or Taken with no birth certificate and only a Missing Persons flier, respectively, on hidden islands stinking to Heaven of evil and murder. Rot and Decay.

They can try and talk me in circles all they want. I may fall for it temporarily, I am only a VERY traumatized human after all (but what is that?), but I won’t be kept in the dark for long. Hell, I might not even be able to be fooled ever again. Last night’s info dump was… Insane, to say the least.

They feed us all with this filler info, useless info that has no meaning other than some little meaning that has no meaning. Everything is just filler at this point. Where is the Truth? What is the Truth? Who knows the Truth? All in the name of distractions and conspiracy and secrets and hush hush and assassinations and death and drama and murder, secret wars and sooo much shit they cram down our gullets…

All for what?

Happiness? What is that? Is it born of ignorance?

Power and control and population mitigation? A sense of control?

Why do we humans need a sense of control to feel okay? Why do we need to have some power over something or someone in order to feel secure enough to walk another step? Why does everyone hurt? Why is there so much pain here? Why can’t we as a society just use our common sense? Is the problem really the amount of people here on this planet? Is it because the collective conscious is overloaded with so much useless info that everything is now deeply convoluted and perversely intertwined? Is there no respect and adoration for the borders and boundaries that make up the separateness of the parts that make up the whole? Is that where we all went wrong?

They call the people who go under and Wake Up insane, mad…

They shove pills down their throats so they can’t think for themselves, they prick them with needles to inject a drug that will knock a horse on its ass so the guards can go smoke their cigarettes and bitch about another wacko off the streets in their hair. They tell these Mad Babies “Oh silly human, that’s not true! We just want you and everyone happy and working and ignorant to the real world around them because, well, that doesn’t make you happy, does it? And everyone knows that if you want to live a long life and be healthy, you have to be happy. At All Costs.”

They remove all the ones who actually Think for Themselves by exiling them out of their own social circles and casting them out of the hearts of their own loved ones with soothing lies. They slap on condescending labels and instill fear in their hearts. Something is wrong with them. They were born defective. Stay away from mainstream society, you’re too weird.

Sounds like something from a novel from a special Wells guy, but… Is it?

Is it?

I do believe my dear, that I have gone mad.

[coachbeards]

(jamie & beard anon) ohhh beard's family/childhood is definitely messed up and i think while not living there, he is still somewhat in touch sporadically or at least he knows what is going on since he says his mum has gone full blown qanon.. I can see both his parents possibly not being parents at all, leaving him to himself since he was a kid which ends up with him keeping the wrong company (+ addiction can run in the family if he was so exposed to it growing up it's not surprising). While jamie has not gone into sex work it could be seen as him having a particular relationship with his own body (the body as a vehicle for footie + him going to have sex live on tv) so perhaps there is an element of hypersexualization as a consequence of trauma (depending what we assume Beard has experienced as a child.. but a house of addicts is often filled with people taking advantage of unsupervised kids that no one will protect). I am going to be honest and admit I don't really have enough knowledge of stis to say whether they could've got them in certain instances and they keep coming back? is that a thing? I do feel like i read something about survivors of abuse being more likely to have recurring infections but have no idea on the science behind it, if it has something to do with a messed up immune system. I don't know where you stand on ships, but also an interesting thing to see if either one was in a relationship and how their partner (likely not informed on the matter) would take to them suddenly having a sti aka "they cheated" (jane definitely would think that!). And on that note - 100% behind jamie being the one making beard realise he deserves better!!

not to derail into my personal headcanons for beard (trust me he's like a full fledged person in my brain im like picturing his childhood bedroom and everything lmao. i have so many thoughts about him) but..... i think his father was a vietnam war veteran, common for children born during the early 70s like beard was....a father who's reeling from his trauma from the war, becoming an alcoholic (which is also extremely common),,, beard growing up like that, with a volatile tough household, irish catholic conservative parents in 20th century illinois..... i think beard was very much. on his own. like as much as he could be. which led to stunted emotional development and social skills, as he's definitely also autistic (undiagnosed for the longest time, obviously. i actually Don't think he's diagnosed /now/) so he really was,,,,,,,,,, on his own.

and then we get the canonical information that beard turned to sex work in college as a stripper, and given his parents (or what we can infer) he probably did so as a last resort to help pay for college, rather than just because he wants to. needing the money, desperate for it, resorting to sex work that continues into his adulthood since he has to exchange his body for drugs/money/food..... i think there's a chance beard's had his fair share of treatable stis, like chlamydia or gonorrhea, especially since meth causes lots of disinhibition and incredibly unsafe sex........ yeah.

i do think beard's immune system has definitely taken a huge hit from his various medical struggles.....yeah.

but with beard and jamie i really do think it's interesting how they both......have signed away their bodies for others uses. jamie's body belongs to football, to whatever team has him. like. his body isn't his own. it's Theirs. and beard had a similar thing with his sex work (also i think it's so fascinating that beard............. left one career of service to....becoming ted's long term assistant. like. he never left giving himself up for others, he just transferred it from sex work to coaching) ... like they have never been their own people. they've always belonged or provided services for someone/something else,,,,,,, and it's such a hard thing to shake, especially when they've both suffered violations of autonomy and their selves................

i know this is a ramble and makes zero sense but. i think the both of them losing autonomy and still never fully having it back..... yeah.

[islandfate]

s2 character recap time!!! this may get somewhat controversial but i am excited to share my feelings, so enjoy what's below the cut! i had a loooot of emotions this season and my fav man ever appeared so, that made me very happy. but some characters made me very UNHAPPY which you will see. also i really needed to finish this up so some character recaps are a little short. whatever. anyway!! enough chatter, let’s get on with it.

ben – you knew this was coming. there’s no way in hell i could talk about a lost season without starting with my favorite character ever, both in lost and otherwise: benjamin linus! now obviously we don’t get a lot of information about benry this season, and from what we do get, most of that isn’t even genuine. the ben we see here is just ... not who ben actually is!! the manipulation and the lies – yes, absolutely. his sass, too, which does slip out when he’s posing as henry gale. but his genuine personality is so wildly different from s2. this man doesn’t give a damn if he’s beat up. you could hold a gun to his head and he wouldn’t even blink. bc he always knows he can weasel his way out of everything!! but he’s gotta play it up as henry so .... obviously he’s gonna act scared and pathetic. honestly though, there isn’t one scene ben is in that i don’t adore. as usual, he captures the scene every time and just fully enhances it, even when placed next to characters i don’t really like. i am truly under the impression that ben was caught on purpose bc no way was that man wearing THAT outfit. and him getting caught in a trap just seems unlikely. but anyway, he was such a treat this season and just makes the show so much better.

charlie – i truly believe that charlie was done so dirty this season. as a whole, i don’t mind the idea of charlie having to continue battling his heroin addiction; i think the island tests people in different ways, and this was an interesting ( and heartbreaking ) way to go about it. what i didn’t like was the way everyone else reacted. ‘fire + water’ is already not the best episode, but to see the entire camp treat charlie as if he was nothing more than a drug addict, when it’s clear that other people have seen insane, nonsensical things﹘shannon seeing walt, kate and sawyer seeing the black horse, jack seeing his fucking dead dad﹘and not really been judged about it? it just rubs me the wrong way. charlie was unable to control himself, he was doing this while sleepwalking, and the one time he actually does take arron on his own merit is because he’s truly convinced that this is the right thing to do. and we have no evidence that charlie is even going to hurt aaron. but the whole camp ganging up on him, locke punching him, charlie being ostracized﹘to me, it’s just fucked up. no one tried to help him. and locke switched up on him so fast! i get locke was losing faith in the island, but to treat charlie like he was nothing more than a junkie really had me mad lol. i just think charlie just wasn’t given a whole lot of amazing screentime. i know that’s going to change in s3 for obvious reasons, but overall, i didn’t like charlie’s arc in s2.

sayid – ohhh sayid … here’s where my possible controversial opinions are coming into play. as stated in my previous character recap, i’ve never been a huge fan of sayid, simply because i don’t find him all that interesting. his flashbacks don’t really do it for me. and sayid in s2, well, i think he might be one of the most terrifying survivors. not necessarily in a good way, either. i understand that losing shannon was devastating for sayid, but the way he retaliates against the others is not it for me! there was absolutely zero evidence that henry gale was an other besides sayid’s gut instinct. and to me, enacting violence simply based on a feeling doesn’t cut it. obviously, later on, we know henry gale is an other. it’s ben. but, the survivors don’t know this at the time, and to see what sayid does to him is genuinely disturbing. he completely loses it, and if jack weren’t able to open that door, i have no doubt that sayid would’ve killed ben. even when sayid, ana lucia, and charlie go to find the balloon, sayid immediately jumps to the conclusion that ben lied without even looking around for it. he wants to kill him. he’s bloodthirsty, and that’s scary! but i do think it’s interesting how sayid is painted in this positive light, mostly because we’re seeing these events through the eyes of the survivors. and they trust sayid, however deranged he may become. but i like how they leave that trace of hesitation in the viewers; you watch sayid do this and you question it. it’s just interesting. and i love sayid’s line, “my name is sayid jarrah, and i am a torturer.” the look on ben’s face is great, and i just love him and sayid in this scene together. after this, though, sayid fades into the background for me. but from what i saw of him this season, i do not like sayid. i think his methods are questionable and always resort to violence. sayid might’ve been right about ben, but you even see later that ben is willing to talk without violence. it’s like there’s no other option in sayid’s head, and i just don’t like it! again, not saying he’s badly written, i simply don’t like his actions and i think there’s always another, usually better, way.

locke – as a general locke stan, i was surprised to see how much i disliked him in this season. which i guess isn’t anything new, that’s what this show does, but i expected to be a little more empathetic to his problems. i think how he treated charlie, however, really put a bad taste in my mouth, and it was just hard to watch anything with him afterward. genuinely, the only time i like locke in this season is when he has scenes with ben. i will always live by the fact that those two are the most interesting; i love their insane relationship, and to see the way ben gets under locke’s skin, even this early on, is so fun. ben truly is the reason locke decides not to press the button. crazy! locke just becomes so much more compelling when he’s having one of his verbal spars with ben. and the acting between those two is phenomenal. i’m sure i’ll have much more to say on these two in s3, especially s4, but i like what we see of them in this season. other than his ben scenes, however, i wasn’t finding myself enjoying many of his episodes. i think he’s so out of character in ‘fire + water,’ because to make locke angry enough that he would punch someone should take more than charlie taking aaron. something like that should be in a locke-centric episode. it was just … so stupid! and i’m not faulting the character for this, moreso the writers, but at the end of the day that’s what’s canon, so it’s what i’m going to judge. he just didn’t feel like the same character and it threw me off a bit.

jack – alright. as crazy as it is to say, i didn’t completely hate jack this season. he has his moments where he pisses me off, which is usual for him, but for the most part i didn’t mind his scenes and was actually on his side in some instances. mainly, when sayid was beating ben up and jack told locke he’d let the timer go down to zero if he didn’t open the door. i was like yes!! you did that!!! now jack made me mad with his dismissal of walt, telling michael that they were going to go find walt … just not yet? and when michael goes off to find the others and jack, locke, and sawyer follow, they’re obviously stopped by mr. tom friendly, who brings kate out, who was secretly following behind ( literally only because jack was being annoying and said she couldn’t go ). and jack seriously considers letting kate die in order to keep guns. that just made me so fucking mad i will not even lie to you. it’s jack’s fault for not letting kate come along; he knows how she is. and why he didn’t let her go with them is beyond me. i also enjoyed the scenes between jack and locke. the man of science / man of faith argument. it’s something that stays steady in the rest of the series, and i just really like their dynamic in this season. and jack playing poker was a little cute … i’ll admit. he was more in the background this season so i don’t have a whole lot more to say about him, but for once, i did not loathe this character!

ana lucia – not once in my life have i been a genuine fan of ana lucia. i’ve always felt a little indifferent toward her, but this season she was truly testing my patience. while i don’t completely blame her for shooting shannon﹘i know she was just afraid of the others﹘i think she was still a little too quick to shoot for having been a cop ( or maybe that’s exactly why LOL ). and her seeming lack of guilt for doing this is what also made me question her. i didn’t mind her relationship with sayid, that was interesting, but she didn’t seem to have many true relationships with anyone else. she and eko barely talk after they reach the beach camp, if at all. i guess she’s friends with jack, but their whole talk of an army didn’t even go anywhere, so i don’t exactly see what the point of that was. i just think she was in the right place to get killed off because she didn’t have much going for her, however terrible that is to say; it’s shocking, but probably not in a devastating way. it’s only really horrifying when libby is shot and lives, at least for a little bit. ana lucia simply didn’t do much for me. i didn’t despise her, but i didn’t really like her, either. she was just … there. always has been, and probably always will be!

eko – eko has always been one of my favorite characters. i think his backstory is not only intriguing, but completely heartbreaking, and seeing him become the new priest after yemi dies truly destroys me. i liked his short-lived friendship with ana lucia, and i just really enjoy the scenes he’s in. he has this air about him that makes you want to just … listen to what he says. and i think some of his quotes are the best in the series. i don’t necessarily agree with his idea to build a church, but i liked that he wanted to, and that he was still honoring his brother’s memory even now. and the plane boone died in being connected to eko still blows my mind. especially the fact that boone was literally talking to bernard on the radio. anyway, i think he’s just such a cool character, not only by looks but also by his personality. he’s gentle, but hardened. and he’s not afraid to kill if he has to. i just really like that, what can i say. his theme is also one of my favorites, something i of course have to mention, considering what a soundtrack junkie i am. overall, he’s just such a great character and it’s a shame we don’t get to see more done with him.

desmond – desmond!! he is absolutely one of my favorite characters in this show, definitely in my top five. maybe even my top three. i think he’s such a great addition, and not only are his centric episodes some of the best in the entire series ( flashes before your eyes?! THE CONSTANT?! god they’re soooo good ) but he’s also such a compelling character. i love his personality and i think he’s so fun to watch on screen. we don’t get a whole lot of him in this season, so i can’t say much about him, but i truly do adore him and he’s one of those characters post s1 that just makes this show so good. like, just an iconic fucking guy. i will never not love desmond and i think the writers killed it with him!! when he realizes that he may have crashed oceanic flight 815?? chills, every time. so good. ugh!

michael – as anyone who knows me knows, michael is one of my favorite characters in this show. something about him is so fascinating to me and i really just love his relationship with walt and how it completely shapes his actions. how love warps the very nature of his being, as we see in this season. it’s so fucked that he loses walt almost as soon as he gets him back. and i think his desperation is so … human. so understandable. and just heartbreaking. i honestly don’t know a whole lot of parents who wouldn’t kill for their children, so michael’s actions, however terrible, do make sense to me. if jack or locke or anyone had reached out more, had offered to help, had gone and done something for walt, then none of what happens might’ve happened. and if they’d done that, if they’d even bothered to have tried, then maybe michael would have trusted them enough to tell them what he had to do. because easily, michael could’ve told jack that he needed these four people to come with him to meet the others, and that they needed to let ben go. but he doesn’t, because he feels alone. and he’s terrified that he’ll never get to see walt again. however selfish it may be, it’s so compelling, and i just … fucking love this plot. it’s one of my favorites in the show﹘not only the benry gale era, but michael committing these murders in general. both things are just so unexpected and shocking. and you can see how horrified michael is by his own actions, and as we later witness, how much this really affects him in the long run. this whole plotline is just sooo crushing, but in the best way possible. i truly believe that it’s the best part of s2 and i will forever stand by that.

hurley – hurley has always been one of my favs. we really don’t get to see a whole lot of him in the first season, though we start getting a little more in s2﹘which i enjoy. i love the ‘dave’ episode and i remember being so shocked when you find out that dave wasn’t real. and hurley’s therapy session is just really hard to watch. he’s not in this season too much, so i don’t have a whole lot more to say, but i do think he’s one of the funniest characters in lost. like definitely in my top 3 for funniest characters ( which would be ben, sawyer, and hurley ). they all just crack me up. i know we’re getting to really fun things with hurley, especially considering the tricia tinaka episode in s3 is one of my all time favorites in the show, but i’ll hold off talking about that until i finish s3. but just expect more hurley thoughts next time!

sawyer﹘you know, i’m having a hard time remembering what sawyer actually did this season. i know he was shot, and there was the whole thing with the guns, but he really wasn’t too involved in anything else as far as i remember. that being said, he didn’t change much for me. he’s one of my top three characters and most likely always will be, i just love him so much and i think he’s absolutely hilarious! but, yeah, i don’t have much to say abt him this time around. i think he shines more in other seasons.

rose & bernard – i’m putting these two together because i probably won’t be talking about them again. they have never been insanely important characters to me, but i really do appreciate that the show gives time to them this season – not only with their reunion, but also with the ‘s.o.s.’ episode. they’re a cute couple and i genuinely enjoy their chemistry, and i’m glad we get at least one episode looking into their past.

claire – wasn’t a huge fan this season. i was slightly annoyed at how she made her problems everyone’s problem…i definitely understand with her prior trauma but it’s just like!! the whole camp doesn’t need to be involved! and i would get her being wary around charlie, i mean let’s be real he isn’t the best this season, but to just assume like everyone else that he’s taking drugs rubs me the wrong way. no, they weren’t technically together, but they’d been through so much shit together i felt like there would’ve been something more there. just overall, was not a fan of claire in s2!

kate – i was definitely able to stand her more this season, similar to jack. she has her moments where i like her and i think the thing with the black horse is interesting. honestly, being in the throes of s3, i’m kind of blanking on what she did this season, but all i know is how i felt aaaand … that was me being more tolerating of her! again, kate has never been a fav of mine, but at least i enjoyed her a little more this season.

shannon – yeah, they sure did shannon dirty didn’t they? dying weeks after her brother … phew. that’s rough. i really liked shannon so i was sad to see her go, but also her wanting to kill locke felt a little odd to me. like, you’re telling me this girl wants to kill someone? i’m sorry, but it’s just not connecting!! felt like tension for the sake of tension. i did like her seeing wet walt teleporting around and hated the fact that sayid never took her seriously about it. and being murdered by ana lucia UGH. but yeah shannon was fine this season, didn’t do much for me but also she was hardly around so. yk.

sun & jin – again with putting these two together because i’m too lazy to separate them. i think jin starts becoming much more likable this season and i like seeing him with the other survivors, especially sawyer and michael. sun is fine, i don’t have much to say about her as usual. can’t remember what these two did in s2 either. oh well! they’re simply alright to me.

libby – fuckin died in the worst way possible. literally no one listened to her. it’s heartbreaking!! but i did like her and i thought she and hurley were pretty cute. sucks she had to go but also it makes sense, michael had to kill someone and it wasn’t going to be a person in the main cast so … cue a somewhat background character dying. she didn’t deserve that. but i did find it so sad that she just went down for blankets and happened to stumble upon that scene. kills me!!

honorable mentions:

walt – was hardly around but the short scenes we get of him are fun. i have no idea what was going on with him and the others but it’s a fun plot for him to have been kidnapped. can’t even imagine the confusion of leaving the island and seeing the people he knows tied up and gagged while he and his dad get to leave! crazy.

cindy – the flight attendant. i liked that she was in this season and i enjoy seeing her in the next one. just some fun continuity with a character who doesn’t even matter.

pierre chang / marvin candle – slayed those orientation tapes. i have nothing more to say.

[winderlylandchime]

2/2 He just saw Brian’s scar ‘HE HURT MY BOY! MY BOY IS HURT! HOW FUCKING DARE HE THAT MONSTER! YOUR STUPID BOYFRIEND HURT HIM!‘ Ethan is leaving and this man is now sitting and bouncing up and down ‘he’s leaving! He’s leaving! and please stay gone! HE NAMED HIS UKULELE?! just for that alone id break up with him. (Justin says Ethan will be back tomorrow) not if i have a say in it! WHY IS JUSTIN DUMBING HIMSELF DOWN FOR THIS DUDE? He just called himself an idiot because he didn’t know a quote or whatever. HEY! 1500 SAT! YOU GOT INTO DARTMOUTH! and you’re dumbing yourself down for the knock off version of Shaggy? Have some respect for yourself AND ME. (Ethan says you will be and shows his ring) I actually puked in my own mouth right now’ ‘BRIAN COME ON WHY WOULD YOU WORK WITH THIS HOMOPHOBIC PIECE OF SHIT?! Oh this dude for sure has a gay crush on Brian. I mean same but I’m better. BRIAN COME ON!’ WE ARE AT THE CONCERT SCENE! ‘Oh god here he go again, i cant esca- WHY ARE WE CLAPPING HIM? No stop that! You dont know him! You dont clap for terrible people! BLONDIE! BLONDIE IS THERE! HE SURPRIS-WHO IS THAT?…did you see how he looked back? OH HE IS CHEATING ISNT HE?! AND THE SAD VIOLIN MUSIC? OH FUCK YOU IF THIS IS THE CASE! PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT! JUSTIN BURN HIS HOUSE DOWN!’ Ted just got arrested ‘WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED? What the fuck? This is..what even? See! If you had stayed an accountant, we wouldnt be in this mess!..what’s that noise? Oh Benny Boy is puk- CAN YOU DO ANYTHING? MICHAEL HOW..lets me calm down so i dont say something rude…he has the spine of a gummy bear. He is a DRUG ADDICT! Why is he acting like he has the flu? Why does he keep throwing HIV into peoples faces? Dude, i get that he’s sick and this was before now so it’s different and scary but COME ON? At this point someone should smack him and tell him to get over himself..and i am willing to make the sacrifice to volunteer..i know what Ben is saying is serious but all i can think about is Brian saying that self pity makes his dick soft’ And we are finally at the Britin scene again ‘i really hate that ring. SEE BLONDIE! You miss the bars and the clubs! This *waves at him* pretentious behavior is not you. Wait i forgot he saw that fucker leave with that other fucker! Oh blondie, its gonna be okay, i know JUST the man who can mend that heart! (Camera shows Brian) *screams like a crazy person and pauses tv* AHHHH THERE HE IS!! LOOK AT HOW HES LOOKING AT HIM! He is trying so hard to pretend like he doesnt care (Brian watches Justin and then like closes his eyes for a second longer) *literally pulls his hair* AHHHHH FUCKING HELL! LOOK AT THAT! HE HAD TO CLOSE HIS EYES TO FORCE HIMSELF! He is so in love and still hurt and he wants to go to him but he also doesnt but he cant stay away. He didnt need to sit next to hi- YES BUY HIM ANOTHER ONE- NO THANKS?! JUSTIN WHY DO YOU FUCKING HATE ME SO MUCH? (Brian asks where’s your fiancé) RIGHT IN FUCKING FRONT OF HIM IF YALL WOULD JUST FOR ONE FUCKING SECOND STOP FUCKING PISSING ME THE FUCK OFF! (Justin answers and it shows Brian and he once again pauses tv and rewinds it) DID YOU SEE HOW HE CLOSES HIS EYES FOR A QUICK SECOND AGAIN?! DID YOU SEE THAT! HE HAD TO LITERALLY PULL HIMSELF TOGETHER FOR A SECOND! DID YOU SEE THAT SHIT! HE BLINK BLINK BLINK AND THEN CLOSES HIS EYES FOR A SECOND LONGER CAUSE THAT ANSWER HURT! (Brian points to the ring) seriously can we get rid of it- WHY ARE YOU LEAVING BRIAN! NO! COME BACK!!!…does that mean they broke up? Please say yes. I am begging you please say ye-ohhh cool trick’ Just so you know, he burned himself 3 times because he wanted to try to lit up a match the way Justin does it in the end of the ep.

Oh this dude for sure has a gay crush on Brian. I mean same but I’m better. I snorted so hard at this!

AHHHH THERE HE IS!! LOOK AT HOW HES LOOKING AT HIM! He is trying so hard to pretend like he doesnt care (Brian watches Justin and then like closes his eyes for a second longer) *literally pulls his hair* AHHHHH FUCKING HELL! LOOK AT THAT! HE HAD TO CLOSE HIS EYES TO FORCE HIMSELF! He is so in love and still hurt and he wants to go to him but he also doesnt but he cant stay away.

Your brother is alllll of us analyzing everything. Also he's right.

Just so you know, he burned himself 3 times because he wanted to try to lit up a match the way Justin does it in the end of the ep. I DIED AT THIS.

[lovestuckyhatemarvel]

7 Here we are.

1.) Do you think Robin was supposed to be there with the marching band?

2.) LIttlest Wheeler says ‘Yeah, dad, it’s fun!’ On the Ferris wheel which I think makes that Holly’s first line in the entire show.

3.) Also I think that’s a completely different Holly actress.

4.) Holly sees the trees moving because of the Mind Flayer goop monster.

5.) I’m shocked that it took a discussion to figure out the Mind Flayer knows where they are since Billy literally told her that it knows where they are.

6.) Dustin is a terrible driver.

7.) I know lots of people like to give Robin and Steve trauma about getting high because of this, but I don’t think this would actually traumatize them. I think this would be the least bad part of the evening, tbh.

8.) Nancy with a shotgun, hell yeah. Jonathan with an ax is a little optimistic. Not because he’s a bad fighter, but because I would not wanna be that close to the blob monster that can take over people by getting into their mouth.

9.) He gets like 2 hits in before Nancy takes over with a shotgun.

10.) Well, and then El takes over. Sort of. There’s a lot.

11.) oh shit, I forgot El gets pulled up and it takes like, all of them to hold her. Well all but Lucas and Nancy, who are wielding the weapons.

12.) Ohhh yeah, it like, punctured her leg.

13.) Neither Robin nor Steve understand Back to the Future while high.

14.) I just realized I think they had Hopper act like an insolent man baby just so they could have Murray call him that and have the moment where Alexi is like WAIT THESE TWO HAVEN’T FUCKED? Happen.

15.) I love that Max is good at first aid because of skateboarding.

16.) This is the first time Nancy or Jonathan have acknowledged that real people are dying if they kill the Mind Flayer. And they only acknowledge it for like, a second.

17.) Okay Lucas is right about El needing backup.

18.) BITCHIN’.

19.) Mike is officially more mature than Hopper this season.

20.) The walkie talkie takes 8 AA batteries? That’s so many.

21.) I forgot Steve staring at the lights while balls to the wall high.

22.) So glad we stopped the action for a conversation about New Coke.

23.) Steve does say he’s not in love with Nancy anymore while under the effects of truth serum. Like yes it’s right before he hits on Robin, but still.

24.) Robin’s face as she hears Steve talk about her.

25.) I am glad they ultimately made Robin a lesbian.

26.) Robin and Steve singing after vomiting up Russian truth drugs si something that can be so personal actually.

27.) Did they…did they CGI blood onto Alexei? That initial blood pool looked weird.

28.) I do kind of adore how the Wheelers are mostly clueless.

29.) Hopper should teach Steve how to fight.

30.) Mayor Kline is the reason Alexei is dead. So for any innovative folks, an easy way to save Alexei is to just have Mayor Kline die when he’s first confronted by that enforcer dude.

31.) I am glad Joyce punched Larry and kicked him in the balls.

32.) I will admit that the shots in the Big Top fun house are pretty great.

33.) The Russians have alerted Murray that the children are in the mall. I mean, they didn’t mean to tell him, but they found out.

34.) El and the rest of the gang to save the day! Hell yeah, baby girl. Hit them with that car!

35.) I forgot how gross the CGI leg thing looked. But also man the CGI just never really got better for this show, huh?

[crunchkind]

you’re the first person ive been a anon for so every response has me kinda 🥹

besides that i also have vocal stims sometimes its random sounds that i cant even describe and sometimes its a squeal, mostly i just do silly movements

i’ve actually been doing quite well!! one of my cats is scheduled to get fixed tomorrow so im quite excited for that!!!

i hope you’re having a good day today!!

-art muncher🍔

Sorry this took so long to respond to! But I’m glad to be your first anon it’s really special to me I think getting anonymous people to send you messages is like the funnest and coolest thing ever it’s just nice

I’m so glad I’m not the only one who does this! I also have silly movements but it’s only when I’m alone or I like hit my head or my thigh sometimes it’s just something that grounds me it’s fun!! I find it so fun when people stim cause I copy them sometimes I jump to stimming is fun

Ohhh also your cat getting spayed I hope it goes well and nothing happens to them! Cause my dog she had issues but she’s fine now it will be funny to see your cat being all crazy and high it’s very funny for me my dog just looked at walls it’s very silly so that’ll be an experience I think it’s really cute not them being drugged or anything just the fact that they don’t know how to react to cones or whatever you put em in

I’m also very happy your having a great day very glad to hear that it’s really nice to hear others are happy it makes me happy as-well not sure why and I am having a good day may the rest of your days be amazing!!! Eueueue

[skeleton-squid-boy]

this is just everything I sent to my friend whilst we finished house I'm just copying it all here so I can delete it out of my notes it's incomprehensible :)

how many times have I told you I want to be alone and you've made yourself a pain in the

ass...I owe you

"we don't have to have sex sometimes it's just nice to cuddle and talk" HOUSE SHUT THE FUCK UP

all his little trinkets from dead people

martinis and chemo this'll be fun

house is trying to scare him because he cares

"IF YOUR GONNA SAY YOUVE ALWAYS SECRETLY BEEN GAY FOR ME EVERYONE KINDA ASSUMED IT"

YOU HAVE WHAT WE NEED RIGHT HERE WE BOTH DO SHUT THE FUCK UP

why is there a child here ohHH NOO FUCK YOU JOHN

house is giving him his own vicodin........

"you'd still have cancer" "Yeah but at least I'd feel like I deserve it" HEY

Wilson is crying becayse he doesn't want to go to the hospital

house is holding his head and promising and I am going to kill them both

I liked them limping to the bathroom together

WILSON IS PROPERLY LAUGHING

he's threatening to drug him <3

CHASE IS GONNA QUIT??

wilsons being nice to the old lady :,)

bus scene :(

house saying he could live without Kyle is house saying he loves wilson cos he's a fucking idiot and I hate him

house saying by to chase is so interesting and normal

watching holding on

IMMEDIATELY SAD WILSON THIS WAS A TWRRIBLE IDEA

aw he's drugging him like the good old days

HE GOT A ROOM FULL IF THE PEOPLE HE SAVED WHAY THE FUCK U HAYE THIS SO MUCH

oh it's fake

it's the thought that counts

"friends....or friend" UGH SHUT UP

thirteen saying house firing her was the most selfless thing anyones ever done for her I want to hug her

house apologising:((((

just dinner? sounds nice...

hws laughing........house got him oreos.....

I need you OK I want you to be around as long as possible because I don't know what I'm gonna do without you

no no don't do that I don't owe you anything our entire relationship has been about you my dying is about me

I need a friend I need to know that your there I need you to tell me that my life was worthwhile and I need you to tell me that you love me

no. I'm not gonna tell you that unless you fight.

life is pain I wake up every morning im in pain I go to work in pain you know how many times I've wanted to just give up? how many times ive thought about ending it?

I cannot be responsible for the happiness of Gregory House. you are responsible. youve had 3 wives hundreds of colleagues thousands of patients...but you've kept that one best friend

why. because you need me. and I don't think thats a bad thing anymore

no. your the only one I listen to an the last couple of days I didn't and I almost killed my patient so I think its time for me to accept that your just smarter than I am.

are you really OK thay there's only 5 months left?

no. but jts better than nothing.

I'm not gonna say I love you. thank god. got any oreos?

how long?

I'm sorry.

HOW LONG

six months.

last time he went to prison he thought he had you waiting for him

that's what you think the sum of what you are is a doctor, a friend to wilson?

and then house spends the rest of the episode deciding if his need to be a doctor outweighs his love for wilson or his desire to die. and he gives up his chance to die and his chance of ever being a doctor again

You can die for something you dont believe in? what about love. I lived with you for years I know you believe in love.

there's only one person you can count on. I thought there were two. I need to do this. for you.

hes always been your good side.

you're right. but I can change.

Wilson was going to run into that building for him.

somewhere in there he knew how to love.

shut up you idiot.

you'll never be a doctor again. I'm dead wilson how do u wanna spend your last 5 months.

[bandluvr97]

mbb 🎅

I live in a city full of people whose personalities are “I write code and drive fast cars”, I let them show off and nod politely because I’m classy.

Oh you’re really new to it! Congratulations! Is it just general, or do you focus on one issue?

Shownu’s just like “here’s my terrible child who bites me, ah, what can I do about it, I love him deeply”. He’s those images of animals climbing all over a capybara that’s just chilling. And of course I love his arms literally what am I doing at the gym if not trying to get his arms. He’s so strong and so controlled in his dance it’s insane, and then you remember he’s taller than a lot of idols and it’s even more impressive.

Minhyuk’s holding it down for all of us with those big ass hands of his.

“Disney face Marvel body” is absolutely Wonho. When he’s in skimpy clothing that shows off his body but being a sweetheart or a complete dork? He’s soooo precious.

And then the way Changkyun released “Goddamn” after they knew Wonho was landing on his feet with his re-debut? It felt like a direct response to it, and a very deliberate story about an individual struggling with substance use and mental health issues deserving of care and empathy, rather than “drug users are monsters and criminals”. I love Duality so much, it really feels so small and personal from being such a small team doing everything, and the fact he took that opportunity to address an issue that hurt someone so close to him so publicly was really beautiful. Especially picking drug imagery that implies suffocation and muteness? If I tear up at the shot in the video where he looks up at the camera with the mask on with exhaustion and resignation, well, that’s between god and me.

Anyway!

That sounds like a really healthy way to go about dating. A partner should enhance your life, not be your life, and it’s great that you’re waiting for something that is beneficial to you rather than just trying to make it fit.

Hope you’re having a good, restful weekend!

Hey love ❤️ thanks! The weekend is going well just doing some errands and finding gifts for the fam for this coming weekend lol how are you? Hopefully your resting too ❤️❤️❤️

Ahh the “high society” folks lol!! Aren’t they absolutely delightful 😂😂 I have those people too where they think their entitled and know how the job works and what not and I think to myself “honey, you got a big storm coming” 😂😂 like is it worth it to flaunt your money around? No but if that’s your personality then that’s on you lol

Yeppers!! Fairly new still but it’s a good time ❤️❤️ it’s general because there’s a lot of clients coming into the program so there’s a wide variety of peeps lol but it feels good to help out even if the client doesn’t appreciate it but it’s all good lol wbu? How is work going? How long have you been at your job for?

Lol!!!! Right??? He just glared at his youngest son and just takes a heavy sigh like “hhhhhhhh. Yep. There he goes again” 😂😂he has that mood and it’s funny as heck to see lol!! Ohhh yeah his arms are workout goals lol he knows what he’s doing during the time off lol now the question is - will we be able to see them arms again when he’s out? And it’s getting closer to April!!! It’s almost over!! Lol also (cue sarcasm) why must you hurt me with the fact that he is tall as heck? Like I’m already aware that he is a huge man but then I forget sometimes 😂😂 how tall are you love?

Lol! Oh yeah min mins hands are insanely huge 😂😂😂 they could cup a basket ball lol also changkyun and hyungwons hands are crazy huge too and I have yet to find a fanfic or two that is about their hands 😂😂😂 do you like to read fanfics love?

Right?????? Like does he have to be a sweetie and have a nice body too?? Now that’s just not fair but I’m here for it lol he is a huge baby and a total sweetie too lol

Oh yeah changkyun knew what he was doing with god damn. Like you can’t deny that that song was a direct response and a big f u to starship lol wasn’t duality amazing???? Like he knows what he’s doing with the lyrics and connecting it to serious topics ❤️ he’s awesome for that! And for that last comment that did make me bawl for like five minutes straight cus ir hit hard lol but that’s a topic for another day 😂

Thanks love ❤️ right??? It’s all about the give and take lol what are you up to during the day before work? Do you watch tv and such? Lol

[disdaidal]

this bitch really said with her whole pussy that 'bullies aren't people to date'. The internet is wild yo. What about drug dealers and people who sell hard drugs to teens? Bully/Protagonist ships slap hard as fuck! Let the protags fuck their bullies. Give bullies the dicking the down they need 2k22.

Well that person is now blocked because they couldn't (unsurprisingly) stay away from my post even when I said I would block them, so. 🤷‍♀️

I think Eddie should've been given a chance to teach Jason a lesson. Put him on his knees; teach him how to be a good boy and how to behave. That's the kind of protagonist x bully dicking down I would really like to read between them. I think it would be a very self-indulgent, therapeutic fic for me considering the people like Jason, Angela - and let's face it, s1 Steve, and Tommy - used to bully me in school just like Jason bullied Eddie in s4.

But ohhh, that just means that I condone bullying and abuse this way. 😥 I am not allowed to deal with my own past even through problematic fiction, because it's problematic and problematic means bad. So now I am bad, too.

And speaking of which: if Jason's bullying is directly comparable to real-life abuse and bullying - shouldn't Eddie's dealing be directly comparable to real-life drug wars? Because drugs kill people, too. 🤷‍♀️ So why don't we just cancel them both and start only stanning and shipping characters that haven't done anything wrong in their entire lives? Good luck finding them I guess because pretty much everyone has sinned more or less in ST.