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oswaldsleftbicep · 7 months ago

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Hey,how are you? I know that you're not very atm but i saw that you had 0 asks so I thought I'd leave one here for when you come back :)

I'd like to know your headcanons about them boys in a human high school, since we already got the college hcs

anyways, take ur time and i hope you will feel better <3

the boys as high schoolers

omg this was so fun to think about lol also you're so sweet :,) i am doing a lot better, just trying to push myself back into getting my life back together again

genre: crack, unintentional angst

cw: american high school, language, mention of sex

Lucia

❧ deffo in the popular crowd, the one with the preppy boys and girls who are also all involved in a sport, throughout all four years of high school

❧ he gave off the vibes that he would be kinda stuck up and would laugh at you behind your back, but he was actually one of the nice ones, albeit just a tad bit insensitive

❧ played a sport, maybe something like lacrosse or basketball, and was the captain of his team in his last year of high school. he'd also been on the team since he was a freshman, spiking his popularity immensely

❧ his favorite class was probably chemistry, because of the experiments, or gym, because it was easy

❧ his language arts teacher loathed him because he just could not understand any of the books they assigned. he would always take things too literally or say "it's not that deep, bro" to the teacher's face lmao

❧ he and his friends would sit to the side of the class, never up front but not quite in the very back, and this mf would always be making some kind of noise, either tapping his pencil or running his mouth-- at least he was kinda funny

❧ he was on grade level for most of his classes, except for being in honors sciences beginning his second year. he managed to graduate with a 3.1 gpa!!

❧ went to all the dances and formals, and he won prom king his senior year, although the girl he went with wasn't even nominated for prom queen awkward

❧ he honestly had one of the biggest glow ups, but like personality wise. when he was a freshman he was obnoxious and running through the halls and bothering people with rude jokes, but then he got diagnosed with adhd, got meds, and learned a bunch of coping strategies that calmed him down and made him a better student and friend

❧ picked on levy in the halls every chance he took, and if it weren't for the teachers, he would've picked on him some more in the classes they shared. he would've done the same with mefy, but his youngest brother always seemed to evade him somehow

❧ had a petty rivalry with mikael, and was pretty good friends with ricardo in that they always got into shenanigans together

Levy

❧ straight-a student and valedictorian the year he graduated :,) you bet your ass lucia was cheering so loud for him during his speech

❧ volunteered in the school library all four years, but especially so in his senior year when he had a bunch of free periods. anytime he had free time or it was study hall, he'd go to the library

❧ valued comfort in terms of his outfits but he also wanted to look put together, so he'd always be in a sweater or nice shirt with dark jeans or casual dress pants

❧ had a small group of friends that consisted of people he'd have multiple classes with or was in clubs with, but he also spent a decent amount of time with mefy and kaim

❧ speaking of clubs, he was in the book club all four years of high school as well as participating in the debate club. he was also in several honors societies and acted as a peer tutor, and you bet he was decorated as hell during graduation

❧ wanted so bad for his school to have an equestrian team, which they didn't because what kind of school has that, so he joined a local team instead, which got a few snobby popular kids to tease him for being "a horse girl"

❧ he liked all of his classes, although is favorites were history and english; his least favorite was gym, hands down. he would always be doing the bare minimum and coming up with excuses to get out of the more intense sports

❧ didn't go to any of the typical high school events like dances or games because he thought he was above all that, but he was really just too anxious

❧ he played an instrument in his first year of high school, something he carried over from middle school, but he just got too busy for it and it was no longer a priority. he either played viola or some shit like the oboe

❧ his teachers at the start of every year would see his last name and get filled with dread like "oh no not another one" but they then visibly relaxed when they realized he wasn't anything like lucia

❧ was in a lot of above grade level classes, which eventually led him to be in the same class as lucia a few times. levy thought it was so embarrassing and tried to sit as far away from lucia and his friends as possible. lucia has tried to get levy to do his homework before lol

Mefy

❧ he was an enigma to like ninety five percent of the school; he barely associated with anyone, always stuck to himself, wouldn't linger in one place for very long, and no one could find him during free time

❧ this unfortunately led him to be labeled as the "school shooter kid," which never bothered him but his brothers would be livid at hearing anyone call their baby brother that awful thing

❧ he had like two close friends and spent a lot of time with levy, and he was also close with the psychology/sociology teacher, whom he would eat lunch with every day for his last two years of high school. he liked that they never seemed to mind his deep, somewhat worrying questions about life and the human psyche

❧ his first year he stuck with levy in the cafeteria for lunch, then his second year he'd steal lucia's student id to eat outside in the senior courtyard

❧ he was a brilliant student, but he hardly ever participated in class and didn't put in more effort than he needed to which lowkey brought his grades lower than they could have been. his phych/soc teacher was the only one who noticed this and talked to him about it, which earned them his respect

❧ his favorite classes were psychology, sociology, and computer science, in that order. he was okay with the other classes, but refused to take any that would draw attention to himself, like theater or music

❧ he faked a doctors note that got him out of gym and levy was so salty about it. so all he ended up doing for that semester was walking laps lmao

❧ he joined the debate club with levy, but solely for the purpose of arguing with people and being able to get under their skin and gaslight them without serious repercussion. the advisor for the club knew what was up but genuinely did not care enough to stop him

❧ for his foreign language credit, he probably took something less popular like german or latin, and he'll just be saying shit in that language to lucia while levy snickers in the background

❧ he came up with the senior prank for his class and everyone loved it and immediately had a change of heart for him like, "man maybe this kid wasn't so bad." the prank ended up being a little too much for the principal, who demanded to know whose idea it was, but nobody snitched

❧ ...which made him feel just a little bit bad for hacking the school's grade system and changing everyone's grades to a d it got fixed don't worry

Oswald

❧ the american football coach tried so hard to get him on the team, but oswald didn't trust himself to go through with it because of his anger issues. he also didn't know if he could keep his grades up enough to stay on the team

❧ also kind of a loner, but in that he didn't really have anyone who he was close with at all. he hung out with noel the most, and lucia and kaim every so often, but for the most part he walked the halls alone

❧ he was a part time babysitter all four years of high school, and all four years he worked for kurt's family, and he brought that kid to watch every football game the school had

❧ he was a below average student, graduated with a 2.8 and had to retake algebra 1 his freshman year. he had to get a tutor for pretty much every general subject, especially for language arts his handwriting and essay skills are atrocious

❧ the one subject he never had to get help in though was science. earth and space, biology, chemistry, somehow even physics he always excelled in. physics was a bit of a struggle for him because of how much math is in it, but at the time kurt really wanted to be an astronaut and oswald was willing to learn physics to help him achieve that goal

❧ by the time oswald graduated, kurt no longer wanted to be an astronaut :,) rip

❧ he found out about the votech program and enrolled his junior year. he joined the agriculture one and fell in love with it, setting up an easy career path for him to go on as soon as he graduated

❧ he joined the environmental club starting his second year and managed to convince the principal to start a student garden! oswald spent pretty much all of his free time taking care of the garden, making sure it was watered and weeded

❧ he was so close to being able to join the science national honors society, but his gpa was just under the minimum requirement :(

❧ which meant that he didn't have any chords or anything during graduation which is nothing to be ashamed of, but he was kinda hard on himself about the snhs thing, so little eight year old kurt made him an honor chord by messily finger crocheting a row of chain stitches out of neon green yarn :,)

❧ he wore it with pride and anyone who'd ask about it would swoon at the answer, "my kid brother made it for me"

❧ he was low-key a heart throb in his school, but solely for his tall, dark, and handsome appearance. anyone who tried to ask him out or confess immediately found out that he's kinda clueless and not at all the bad boy they thought he was lmao

Kaim

❧ he was absolutely that mf who wore a suit to school every day. he'd go "casual" on friday by wearing a cashmere sweater and some dress pants

❧ his mom is friends with the brothers' mom, so he was close with all of them growing up but more so because his mom told him to "look out for them," knowing he was the only one out of all of them who had any real sense

❧ he was lowkey the therapist friend but on a more crisis intervention scale than a "do u need to vent" scale. he called lucia out several times for his shenanigans, kept mefy from becoming a bully, and talked oswald down from a lot of near spirals

❧ his favorite class was consistently language arts and he could write one persuasive ass essay, which helped him a lot in history, too. his least favorite class he had to take was computer science; no matter what he did, he just could not get his code to work and it nearly cost him his flawless gpa lmao

❧ speaking of gpa, he maintained honor roll throughout the entirety of high school, and graduated with a 4.0. he was above grade level in all his classes but refused to take ap classes, claiming they were a waste of time and money they are

❧ he favored his electives a lot more than his general classes. he low-key thrived in home economics, and the teacher convinced him to take the culinary class starting his junior year and got him enrolled in the field experience for culinary arts in his senior year

❧ he absolutely was an orchestra kid and had been playing the cello since fourth grade, earning him first chair by the time he was a junior. he also played the piano and helped out with school musicals and talent shows by playing the piano for songs if it required live music

❧ he earned a decent amount of chords for graduation: honors society for language arts, culinary club, orchestra, honor roll. he now uses them to tie his curtains back lmao

❧ everyone low-key dreaded being partnered up with him for projects, only because he's such a perfectionist and would make damn sure everyone did their part of the project and did it correctly

❧ absolute teacher's pet though, all of them loved how diligent and intelligent he was, making him the high school version of a teacher's assistant

❧ my school didn't have this, but he would absolutely have been hall monitor. he was, however, almost elected student body president despite not running, his class just nominated him lol

❧ much to his dismay, he was elected vice president of the student body and was put in charge of organizing student events. planning prom almost gave him grey hairs at the ripe age of seventeen

Mikael

❧ he didn't really fit in with a particular crowd, so i guess you could call him a wallflower in that sense? he was kinda a loner, but didn't give off the typical "loner" vibes

❧ very quiet, always got his work done on time, and always did his work exceptionally well, which made him a straight-a student as well

❧ he very well could have been the top of his class, but his lack of participation in class discussions and such knocked his grades down slightly. he always preferred to work alone, hated presentations, and never elaborated his verbal responses

❧ the one exception to him working alone was if noel was in his class; he knew that noel would be reliable and would just want to get the assignment over, and he wouldn't talk his ear off

❧ some of his teachers understood that he just wasn't comfortable and made an exception or didn't deduct points because they saw how eloquent his written responses were, but there's always those few teachers that just don't care lol

❧ he graduated with a 3.9 unweighted gpa, and he took several honors and even a few ap classes on top of being in science national honors society and national art honor society twin; he's a smart cookie

❧ his favorite classes were astronomy and art, he loathed gym and, despite him being good at math, he just could not understand geometry. he chose latin as his world language, although i could also see him taking greek if his school offered it

❧ he took ap psychology and ap world history, amongst a few others, and the exams annihilated him; he would have been elated to get a 3, but was beyond shocked when he saw he got a 4 on all of them

❧ his immense knowledge about the christian religion and the bible impressed the school's christian athlete leader did y'all's school have one of those?? and she tried to recruit him thinking he'd be perfect for the group, but he looked at her with the most perplexed look ever and responded, "i'm neither christian nor an athlete, why are you asking me this??"

❧ she got super embarrassed and refused to look at him when he took her sat prep class the next semester lmao

❧ he ate his lunch consistently in the atrium for the first three years of high school, and then in the senior courtyard next to the little fountain his last year, always alone though

❧ he was in choir for the first year of high school, something he'd done since elementary school, but he quit after seeing how petty everyone was to each other

❧ he'd hated lucia since he met him in the third grade, and on graduation day, mikael told lucia that he was genuinely surprised to see him graduate lmao

Ricardo

❧ definitely a student athlete, his first year was spent in basketball and his last three years were in american football, and he definitely got benched a few times

❧ he actually almost got kicked off the team in his sophomore year for bringing a fucking knife to school-- at least he was smart enough to not bring his gun

❧ he's a decently smart guy, but he just didn't put in the effort for his classes-- he did just enough to stay on his team. he was practically on a first name basis with his guidance counselor from how many visits they'd have between his grades and since the knife incident

❧ that being said, his grades never saw above a 3.0, in fact he averaged about a 2.6 all of high school. he also didn't bother to take the sat because he genuinely didn't think he'd go to college until the last semester of his senior year when he got a surprise scholarship for his athleticism

❧ his favorite class was gym, he always made sure to take a physical education class once a year. he also secretly really enjoyed the home economics class he put off until his last semester of senior year. the teacher was this older lady, and they grew pretty close and he'd even eat lunch with her, spending his free period and study hall in her classroom under the excuse that he needed more help on a certain topic. he gave her his jersey at the end of the year and she made sure to get a photo with him on graduation day :,)

❧ definitely infamous in his school for being a massive flirt and has definitely hooked up with several cheerleaders. it's funny cuz he always scoffed at what you learn in health class about sti's and safe sex, until he caught mono from someone in the theater class lmao

❧ i'm sorry but he was low-key very disrespectful to his teachers, at least for the first half of high school. like he'd roll his eyes at them, leave a mess, be on his phone all of class

❧ he was also a pain to be partnered up with for a project; if you got stuck with him, you bet your ass you'd be doing all the work. anything he said he'd do would be half assed, and you better hope you had a teacher who didn't grade collectively

❧ the academic classes he'd pay the most attention to were history and government, especially in terms of war periods and diplomacy. he lowkey loved playing devil's advocate in these classes which pissed off everyone else lmao

❧ his freshman year he was definitely the kid who wore those god awful graffiti-style backpacks with a speaker inside them, blasting the worst trash rap you ever heard

❧ another thing that almost got him kicked off the team, he got caught bullying a freshman in his junior year. he had to have a meeting with the kid's parents and apologize formally to the kid, and he got a semester's worth of detention and suspended from his sport for a month

❧ he shaped up a lot after that, and he ended up becoming one of the team's star players, definitely not the mvp or the captain, but he was valued for being a machine on the field, pure manpower and determination

❧ was pretty close friends with lucia, and although they drifted apart in their junior year a bit, they got close again come senior year and talked about going to the same college together after ricardo found out about his scholarship

❧ brought an air horn to the graduation ceremony and almost didn't get to walk the stage lmao

Noel

❧ won the superlative for being the quietest in his class lol; it got to the point where his teachers wouldn't cold call him for discussions knowing they'd get one word responses that wouldn't contribute anything at all

❧ he was always seen alone, or with either mikael or oswald, never anyone else. with mikael, they'd just eat together every once in a while, or they'd work on a project together. with oswald, they were just the oddest duo to see: a behemoth of a man and a small guy with a killer resting bitch face

❧ he really enjoyed biology as a class and elected to take anatomy, but promptly dropped it when he learned what they'd be dissecting. instead, he switched to forensic science and had a little too much fun making his crime scene diorama

❧ this poor kid could barely make it through his math classes. he had to be tutored in math all through high school and oswald became his study buddy aw

❧ the same thing applied with his language arts class: he just kept falling behind, his written grammar skills were awful, as was his handwriting. between this and the fact that he hardly spoke, his teacher just assumed that he didn't speak the school's primary language and had the bright idea of putting him in an "x for speakers of other languages" class lmaoo

❧ he was evaluated and it turned out that he, in fact, could understand the primary language, he's just very silent and is bad at grammar. so, he was moved again to a lower language arts class

❧ he didn't particularly hate any of his classes, he just knew he had to suck it up and do them. he'd try his hardest, sure, but sometimes he'd just do the minimum effort required if he really wasn't feeling it

❧ he joined the environmental club with oswald and helped him with the gardens. he also tried out the culinary club, but upon promptly burning his first dish to ashes, determined that maybe it wasn't for him lol

❧ so aside from the environmental club and tutoring, he didn't really have any extracurriculars. he was very much a "i'm here to learn and go home" type of guy

❧ he graduated with a 2.8 gpa, and hated the grad cap lmao he absolutely wore his casual clothes under his gown, which he took off almost immediately after the ceremony was over

Lucas

❧ very well known through the whole school, he was regarded as a heartthrob and resident pretty boy, but for some reason he didn't seem to have very many friends, and no one really seemed to know much about him

❧ he was as active as possible in school life; he joined the yearbook committee in his first year and started taking journalism classes in his junior year, he also one of the only ones to pay attention to student board elections

❧ he was very big on the arts classes that his school offered, especially photography, which in turn helped out a lot for the yearbook. he also took a ceramics class, and the art teachers loved him so much that they gave him his own senior studio space in his sophomore year

❧ he actually did really well in all of his classes, he's a quick learner and had a phenomenal memory. the one thing he sucked at was note taking. so when he took a history class that required cornell notes?? bye, that was the lowest grade he's ever gotten

❧ mans was the king of extracurriculars, on top of the yearbook committee he was in the gsa and best buddies, and he scored national art honors society

❧ he hung around a different friend group every day, so he knew everyone's beef all the time, which easily made him the most powerful man in the school in a way. he never used it for bad, but it would give him topic ideas for the school newspaper

❧ failed the pacer test so bad in his freshman year that half the people in his class that had crushes on him got the ick and stopped lmao

❧ he tried doing theater in his sophomore year, but everyone was so in each other's business that he stopped after that one year; he landed a spot in the musical though and killed it

❧ the psychology/sociology and language arts teachers always got a kick talking to him because of the odd shit that comes out of this guys mouth; he'd pose the most thought provoking and lowkey existential questions about the content material that had the teachers on a tangent for the rest of class. his classmates would either love him or hate him for this, grateful to have an easy rest of class or freaking out at the question too

❧ he graduated with a 3.6 gpa, and he had several chords from his extracurriculars. he didn't really want to wear them, not finding them important or that big of a deal, but his art teachers convinced him that he worked hard for them

❧ the yearbooks all four years of his high school career were the best the school had seen that their sales went up. after he graduated, they dipped in quality and the yearbook committee advisor was so sad lol

#lmk if you want me to elaborate on any of these this was so fun #genuinely had to think really hard about what I took in high school lol #my. hcs #nightmare harem #nightmare harem hcs #nightmare harem lucia #nightmare harem levy #nightmare harem mefy #nightmare harem oswald #nightmare harem kaim #nightmare harem mikael #nightmare harem ricardo #nightmare harem noel #nightmare harem lucas #otome games

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yutopia-eleftheria · 2 months ago

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Do you have any headcanons for Nemona, Arven, Penny, Carmine (the canon one) and Kieran? Just wondering!

Thank you very much for this ask ! Sorry if I was a bit late to answer, but I was busy with Inktober and Inkember so I barely had time to do anything else at this point.

Here are some headcanons I have of the Scarlet & Violet Rivals/Friends Squad ! :

Note : Their names are a combination of their French and English (with the only exception being Penny, which is her nickname in my Headcanons). I'm just saying this so you are not confused.

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Menzi Nemona, Pepper Arven, Pania Peony Rose and Roseille & Kassis Kieran Headcanons

Menzi Nemona :

Age : 16 years old

Birthday : April 1st

Zodiac Sign : Aries

Height : 5'7" (170 cm)

Weight : 139 lbs (63 kg)

Blood Type : O+

Hometown : Cuchalaga (Cabo Poco)

Place of Residence : Cuchalaga (Cabo Poco)

Sexuality : Panromantic Genderfluid Bisexual

Lover : Juliana Harui (Female MC)

"Anthem" : Guarantee by Black Eyed Peas ft. J. Rey Soul

First Pokémon : Pawmi (Pohm) ♂

Team :

"Sparky" Pohmarmotte (Pawmot) ♂ ELECTRIK TERA

"Nino" Palmaval (Quaquaval) ♂ WATER TERA

"Sunshine" Lougaroc (Lycanroc Day Form) ♀ ROCK TERA

"Addison" Muplodocus (Goodra) ♀ DRAGON TERA

"Sora" Deusolourdo (Dudunsparce) ♂ NORMAL TERA

"Pipp" Ferdeter (Orthworm) ♂ STEEL TERA

Apart from the freckles she has on her nose, she also has some on her shoulders as well.

She is very tactile ; Physical contact is very important to her. In fact she does tons of huggies to her significant other.

She was meant to inherit her parents' business alongside her older sister, but she is not interested. Her parents are very rich, like billionnaires, but she has different projects than following her parents' footsteps. So it is most likely her older sister that could continue the legacy (if she is still around, who knows...).

Actually, she wants to be just like the Chairwoman Alisma Geeta. She in fact idolizes her.

She is partially deaf and wears a device to help, although it is hard to spot when you don't know about it.

It is because of her deficiency that she speaks louder than average people.

Due to her deficiency, she learns sign language.

She has motricity problems in her right arm since birth, but the reason behind it is unknown. Since her right hand is her dominant one, she has a motricity helper to conter this problem (her specific red and black glove is the device).

She has a strong ADHD disorder.

She is also VERY overactive, which doesn't help as she just wants to battle again and again.

If she has an intense laughing fit, she will start to sound like a seal, which doesn't help at all stopping the giggles.

If you ever make her REALLY angry, you will most likely regret it. Get ready to be insulted in the Paldean (Spanish) dialect.

She is the type to be heavily excited all the time, and will be trembling from excitement everytime.

Pepper Arven :

Age : 17 years old

Birthday : October 9th

Zodiac Sign : Libra

Height : 5'5" (165 cm)

Weight : 170 lbs (77 kg)

Blood Type : AB+

Hometown : Mesaledo (Mesagoza)

Place of Residence : Route de Cuchalaga ; Phare (Poco Path's Lighthouse) {formerly}

Naranja/Uva Acdamy {currently}

Sexuality : Pansexual Cisgender

Lover : Juliana Aceituña (my Pokémon Violet OC)

"Anthem" : Bird with a Broken Wing by Owl City

First Pokémon : Maschiff (Grondogue) ♂

Team :

"Matthew" Dogrino (Mabosstiff) ♂ DARK TERA

"Compagou" Rongrigou (Greedent) ♂ NORMAL TERA

"Sodapop" Gigansel (Garganacl) ♂ ROCK TERA

"Champi" Terracruel (Toadscruel) ♀ GROUND TERA

"Hot Sauce" Scovilain ♀ GRASS TERA

"Sour" Crustabri (Cloyster) ♂ WATER TERA

Picnic lover. He is used to go picnic with his Maschiff (now Mabosstiff) multiple times a week.

Let the others play with his hair, as he doesn't mind. But he lets his other half Juliana go all out with it.

Self-taught boy. He was on his own almost all of his life, as his parents (Olim Sada & Turo Arven) were never there to really take care of him. He is able to do many things, such as cooking, sewing, and multiple chores.

He feels uneased alongside Mora Raifort, as she reminds him a lot of his parents, more specifically his mother (they were best friends back in the days).

Visually impaired. Maschiff was given to him as a gift for Christmas in order to help him out with this disability. So we can say it is pretty much a guide dog. This was one of the most significant things his parents ever offered him.

He was on his own living in the lighthouse for quite some time. But ever since his last time in Area Zero where he learned about his parents' passing, Clavell offers him a place to live in the academy (since he didn't know either that they passed away).

Unlike his parents who were prodigies pretty much at every school subject, Pepper has had a hard time following all the subjects, and often needed private lessons to help him reach the average level.

Ever since what happened to his partner in Area Zero (which almost led to his dear Pokemon's death), Pepper never wanted to do any battles anymore. So he never goes to Élige Dendra's fighting and battling lessons.

Now he goes from time to time, but it is not the lesson he is the most thrilled about.

Always going in cooking classes after class. He is practicing even more with Clavell, who is now his father figure.

If there is one subject he is thrilled to learn more about, it has to be foreign languages and cultures.

Menzi is teaching him sign language as well.

Is actually helping out Team Star with their community services. He likes to feel useful and helping out people.

His greatest dream is to open and be the chef of his own restaurant, the biggest one in Mesagoza, near the academy. One that will for both Humans and Pokémons.

Kombu sometimes asks him to come in his restaurant in order to help him achieve his dream.

Pania Peony Rose :

Age : 15 years old

Birthday : May 29th

Zodiac Sign : Gemini

Height : 4'11" (149 cm)

Weight : 77 lbs (35 kg)

Blood Type : AB-

Hometown : Motorby (Motostoke)

Place of Residence :

Sexuality : Non Binary Demifluid Androgynosexual

Lover : Ortiga Mejadoha

"Anthem" : What Have you Done by Within Temptation ft. Keith Caputo

First Pokémon : Eevee (Évoli) ♀

Team :

"'Vee" Nymphali (Sylveon) ♀ FAIRY TERA

"Umbra" Noctali (Umbreon) ♂ DARK TERA

"Aqua" Aquali (Vaporeon) ♂ WATER TERA

"Volt" Voltali (Jolteon) ♂ ELECTRIK TERA

"Flare" Pyroli (Flareon) ♀ FIRE TERA

"Leaf" Phyllali (Leafeon) ♀ GRASS TERA

Is always seen wearing a hoodie and leggings.

She suffers anxiety and autism (her uncle has anxiety as well).

She only uses the 6 Eeveelutions mentioned above for battle. She actually has all of them but the remaining 2 (Espeon and Glaceon) never battles.

The remaining 2 Eeveelutions are named "Espoir" and "Glacia" respectively, and are both Females.

All of her Eeveelutions' names are based of thei real names, or have a name that is reminiscent of their species names, apart from Sylveon. The reason for that is because she had the later as an Eevee when she was very young, and mistook the species's names as "Vee" rather than Eevee, so she decided to stick to that name.

All of her Eeveelutions knows Quick Attack and Baby-Doll Eyes. They also all know a stab move and a coverage move, apart from Flareon, who has 2 Fire Type Moves. Here are their 2 other specific moves :

Aqua : Hydropump and Aurora Beam

Volt : Thunder and Pin Missile

Flare : Flare Blitz and Fire Spin

Espoir : Psychic and Dazzling Gleam

Umbra : Dark Pulse and Psychic

Leaf : Leaf Blade and X-Scissor

Glacia : Blizzard and Last Resort

'Vee : Moon Blast and Shadow Ball

She dreams that one day, there will be countless different Eeeveelutions. So to feed up her dream, she draws "fake" Eeveelutions designs, starting up with the known typings that don't have an Eeveelution yet.

She is an absolute fan of Mashynn Iono. She is collecting all goodies and products related to her.

Roseille Kieran

Age : 17 years old

Birthday : November 22nd

Zodiac Sign : Scorpio

Height : 5'10" (178 cm)

Weight : 132 lbs (60 kg)

Blood Type : O-

Hometown : Septentria (Kitakami)

Place of Residence : Jaderaude (Mossui Town)

Sexuality : Polyamorous

Lovers : Irido Drayton

Nérine Amarys

"Anthem" : Break the Rules by Charli XCX

First Pokémon : Poltchageist

Team :

"Tea Tree" Théffroyable (Sinistcha) GRASS TERA

"Escape" Grahyéna (Mightyena) ♀ DARK TERA

"Yacht" Bazoucan (Toucannon) ♀ FLYING TERA

"Béatrice" Morpeko ♀ ELECTRIK TERA

"Rosalina" Feunard (Ninetales) ♀ FIRE TERA

"Antoine" Baggaïd (Scrafty) ♀ FIGHTING TERA

When her little brother was still a baby, she accidently "hit" him in the head when holding him.

She has to change her phone's password almost everyday. That's because Kassis always steal it from her and snook in it. He loves to tease her and watch all of her life (because her phone is basically her life).

She was once so angry at Irido that she punched him in the face and broke his nose.

Can't stand the heat.

Kassis Kieran

Age : 14 years old

Birthday : October 26th

Zodiac Sign : Scorpio

Height : 5'3" (160 cm)

Weight : 110 lbs (50 kg)

Blood Type : A+

Hometown : Septentria (Kitakami)

Place of Residence : Jaderaude (Mossui Town)

Sexuality : Demiromantic Abrosexual

Lover : Loreleÿ Carmine (my Pokémon Scarlet OC)

"Anthem" : Shy by Jai Waetford (DLC 1)

SNAP by Rosa Linn (DLC 2)

First Pokémon : Applin (Verpom) ♂

Team :

"Cinnamon" Pomdorochi (Hydrapple) ♂ FIGHTING TERA

"Simon" Tarpaud (Politoad) ♂ STEEL TERA

"Highball" Dracolosse (Dragonite) ♂ NORMAL TERA

"Moonsault" Félinferno (Incineroar) ♂ WATER TERA

"Eisenhardt" Porygon-Z ♂ GHOST TERA

"Rugitou" Angoliath (Grimmsnarl) ♂ DARK TERA

Has learned how to do flower crowns. He at first learned it to try to earn Ogerpon's trust and becoming friends with it (when he saw it for the first time). Now he does them for his love Loreleÿ.

Sometimes gives the mails to everyone in his village to gain his own money. He does it like once every week.

His hobby is collecting shiny stones and other shiny objects and artefacts.

Easily blushes (even in his "emo" phase).

Can't stand loud noises. These can make him feel ill at ease, sometimes even make him have a panic attack.

When he is stresses, he bites his nails as well as his skin around them.

Autistic and anxious. He has a good relationship with Pania because they understand each other's problems very well (since they both suffers from these).

He doesn't drink natural water. It always has to be with sugar and/or added flavors. Or he drinks sodas.

Sometimes has insomnias.

Not a big fan of showers. He prefers baths (Yup, still a baby deep inside).

He got attacked by Pecharunt (Pêchaminus) during his sleep, but he has no memories of it. He now has Pecharunt marks on his back. This is a parallel to his lover Loreleÿ who has cracking marks all over her body because of Terapagos.

#pokemon #pokemon scarlet #pokemon violet #pokemon nemona #pokemon arven #pokemon penny #pokemon carmine #pokemon kieran #paldea #headcanon #headcanons

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foster-the-world · 1 year ago

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In better news

I thought I was going to write a post about how terrible the pre trial hearing to try and get baby boy an enhanced rate for OT, PT, speech and SEIT providers was. Trust me it was horrible. It was abundantly clear we needed a lawyer. I had called multiple law firms- all of them had long waiting list and one quoted $10k. It would make more sense to spend that money on providers. We figured it couldn’t hurt to go forward with it ourselves. Worse case they say no and we are just in the same spot. The DOE lawyer had “not talked to her client.” so nothing could be discussed. Which brought back not fun memories of years of foster care court time with lawyers who clearly showed up without even reading the case let alone doing any actual work. Anyway it was terrible but we moved forward with writing affadavits and gathering documentary evidence. I was dreading the actual trial with every ounce of my being.

In the mean time they called to say they found a SEIT! Ten hours per week 1 on 1 services. My special ed lawyer friend said she is 99% sure it was the threat of trial that made it happen. I signed an authorization form but no word on a start date. The evidence/affadavit was due and already done so I went ahead and submitted. In an old trick from foster care I included a very cute picture of him as a “remember this is an actual human being we are talking about.” I’m afraid if I cancel the hearing the SEIT won’t actually start. The hearing is next Thursday. Fingers crossed the SEIT starts so I can officially cancel the hearing.

We still need 2xPT and one time per week speech but I’m much less concerned with those.

He’s also been doing really well recently. Someone in the special needs FB group recommended a high school senior who gives private swim lessons really close to our house. The private lessons were the same price as group lessons. Signed him right up. He has no fear so I think he will learn to swim really quickly. I was just afraid to put him in group lessons because I don’t think he will sit and wait for his turn.

My husband took him to the first development pediatrician assessment. Thankfully covered by insurance. He has one more appointment but it seems he will get a ADHD diagnosis. No autism. Which was what I thought but didn’t want to dismiss the school evaluators. I didn’t think I was the type of person to be in denial about my kids diagnosis. Especially because I don’t mind if he has autism - I just didn’t see an overlap in his behavior. Anyway nice to know I’m not crazy. Although admittedly bummed to miss out on the many services insurance would cover with an autism diagnosis.

I would have prefer to take him but had to work. Also, 100% recognize the benefit of my husband going. We need to start splitting this stuff more evenly. It’s better for everyone in the family.

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kquil · 1 year ago

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Hello,

Can I please get a cupcake 🧁,

I'm an INFJ pronouns she/her, I'm introverted but get attached to people very easily. I love staying home to bake, read and listen to music but I'm not opposed to social gatherings once in a while if someone I'm comfortable with is attending with me.

I'm a Cancer (Virgo rising). I dream of finding my soulmate (platonic and romantic). I have ADHD and l'm autistic (Although I am very good at masking it). I’m a Gryffindor.

I'm 5’3, slightly chubby and I have long brown hair and hazel eyes, I have pale skin and I basically can’t tan.

l'm into guys and l'm open to poly relationship.

Thank you 💕

of course you can have a cupcake, darling! im sorry for taking so long getting this to you (｡>﹏<) but i hope you enjoy it and are happy with the ship!

i ship you with Sirius Black

i. you were besties with remus. it started off with you and remus going off to read together often and it eventually led to you baking treats in the kitchens on saturdays while remus read to you. sirius could only take the absence of his friend for so long until he snuck off to follow him one saturday. what he found was you baking away with a cute apron while remus sat at a kitchen countertop reading his book aloud. the two of you weren’t chatting to each other but it was a comfortable silence that didn’t need to be filled with unnecessary chatter. sirius, being an avid talker, found many faults in this.

ii. being the dramatic person that he was, sirius kicked up a fuss, complaining about how remus doesn't hang out with him, James or Peter as much anymore. “What even is this for, Moony?” Sirius whines as you roll your eyes, fanning your freshly baked goods for a moment before moving away to help clean up with the elves, who insist on providing a little help despite it being your mess.

iii. as sirius continued to ramble, over his shoulder, remus and you made eye contact. You’ll let him be dramatic but you’ll try to shoot him down suddenly and quickly. with a tap on his shoulder, sirius grumpy turns around and immediately gets fed a fruit tart. that was all he needed to be convinced to shut up and now he accompanies you and remus every saturday to bake goods together. well…remus mostly sits around reading in peace, occasionally reading passages to you but with sirius there for company, he gets baking too. he makes it a competition, almost. sirius tries to bake alongside you and promises that his will taste better each time - it never does though. but you’re kind and sweet and always offer to help if you see him struggling across the counter.

iv. whether he admits to it or not, sirius was beginning to like you…a lot. he found comfort in you, you bring a comfortable feeling that the marauders don’t bring, it’s unique to only you. so it’s understandable why sirius often seeks you out even when it’s not saturday. because of this, he discovers your love for music which only makes him fall for you more - and just when he thought you couldn’t get any more perfect!

v. now, he has you sneaking to his dorm with the boys to listen to music together. the two of you are often seen dancing or singing together or pretending to playing air guitars, drums and pianos, it’s a silly sight to behold but you two were having so much fun and smiling so genuinely, the marauders didn’t have the heart to break it up, especially because they’ve never seen sirius so genuinely happy except for when he’s around you.

vi. whenever there’s a party in the gryffindor common room, sirius would be the first to invite you or spend the most time with you at the party, especially when a song that you both liked dancing or singing started playing. however, if you weren’t feeling up to it, he respected your decision and left you alone or insisted on keeping you company - being around you was better than being around more people than necessary, anyway. of course, that was just an excuse, sirius loved being at parties and being around multiple people but he liked you more than any of that.

vii. how he confessed when he finally mustered up enough courage to, was during your saturday baking session in the kitchen. he said he wanted to surprise you with a baking creation of his own - he was just making regular ol’ but delicious chocolate chip cookies - and he needed you to taste test it with your eyes closed. from what you saw during his baking, you expected chocolatey, cookie goodness but got something better, his sweet, soft lips.

viii. honourable mention, I also ship you with Remus Lupin. you two found it easy to become friends but remus wanted more, he craved it. sometimes, it bordered on obsession but he was good with controlling himself, he respected you more than he needed to have you as his. the way you just seemed to understand him, took interest in all of the same things he did, cheered him up with your baking creations and lulled him to sleep from stressful nights leading up to the full moon by softly singing one of your favourite songs…you were perfect in his eyes. but he wasn’t the one to confess, you were. for his birthday, you had gotten him many gifts but the one he was most grateful for was a copy of his favourite books of all time, where you had highlighted a confession using the words on the first few pages of the book. he couldn’t stop himself from saving you there and then.

1K MILESTONE EVENT : CLOSED

NAVI.

#☀︎ : 1k milestone #☀︎ : 1k #sirius black #sirius black x reader #remus lupin #remus lupin x reader #🧁 : cupcake 1k

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anulithots · 7 months ago

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LKSDJFLKDS Yay I’m glad you liked my playlist titles (although ‘head bopping is perfectly valid, perhaps even more so because these titles do not specify what songs are actually in the playlist soooo… stares at the ones with link click pfps that I never listen to and now my music taste and shifted just enough to not listen to those as of now…. my music taste changes so quickly just yesterday it turned to a folk-ish song my sibling sent me an a hatsune miku song I saw a JJK animation meme too… it hurt my soul

okay my side thoughts within other things is getting so long this is actually ridiculous… and hence why it’s kinda difficult to write ANuli because fae goes on tangents and I lose th original point because we’re both adhd af, fae just thinks it in a more ‘quiet theater/poet kid’ way than I do and I HAD AN ORGINAL POINT AAAAAAAAA-)

Okay so I had to use Anuli’s random ponderings over the weather for somethinggg. I did not permanently change my writing style - to the point where it creeps out in things like messages to friends and essays and emails and everythingggg all of sudden and I must make my words very silly to counteract that and noorie. Noorie listen to me, do not go on another tangent in the middle of one of those dash things that should end in a reasonable length and cannn you have multiple sentences within the dash thing because Anuli definetly pushes it aisdfljlaklsdfjkasld -

…

has to read back to see what I was trying to say

OKay.

ONe sentence. Say it in one sentence. ANd not an abnormally long one like you usually do.

fineeee

(stop talkign to yourself thorugh typing have weee really gone to this level now? Was talking to yourself out loud not enough. Although this is sort of carthatric and is thisss why I like writing dialouge so much… despite Anuli’s POV not having much dialouge HOLYHERBSSTOp-)

whyyy cann I never write this much in prose for stories

Okay

alksjdf

adskjfaskjldf

adsklfdsafk

akldfadfk

It’s a curse. Lovely people are like ‘oh you’re so smart, can write so well’ it’sss a lieee don’t believee thee liesssss It’s a curseeee, to such a degreee where it overpowers any other redeaming qualities, and those thinsg like intelligence and scarcasm and writing and stories become the things they are angry at me for anddd stoppp meee. Noorie stop it. Nooo ranting about parents here. THERE WAS AN ORIGINAL POINT WHERE IS IT

LITERLALY WHAT AM I SAYING

… this is why we don’t write tumblr responses on a random doc without being about to acess the tumblr post we’re replying to.

OKay.

So anuli writing. yes. poetic. so therefore. playlist titles. poetic. Inspried by the ones on youtueb. I could probably make playlists on youtueb. I should do tha-

HELLO noorie! i present to you a song rec that is very link clicky (i literally listened to it, gasped, and went 'noorie would love this'. seriously it's too fitting esp the line about hair like moonlight)

anyways it's 《爱在夏天》 (love in the summer) by 告五天. i would translate the whole thing out for you, but it's 11pm and i'm lazy asf, so i just searched for an english translation that seemed the closest. i'll link it here <3

it's about a summer love longed for and lost. you can get more insight on this blog post! it's in chinese, but to translate it just paste the link into google translate... learn how do to it here <3 (oh my gosh there are one million links in this ask i swear)

p.s: i knoww i'm finally online again and i'm supposed to be answering all my backlogged asks and reblogs and the likes. but i'm not doing it yet because i'm a procrastinator. so people who see this no you didn't <3 i'm so sorry i will get back to yall this was just like a last minute ask thing after hearing the song and going on a internet spiral

OOOhhh I do love this song. It's so soft and pleasant and the LYRICS LDKSJFKLSDFJ

Nice to see you again Cristie! also also, so after playing this song in spotify, the queue set itself up with some other chinese songs. Now I despise spoitify for not being able to copy and paste the titles so I can find them on youtueb.

BUt I did get two playlists out of it!

they will fill up very quickly

Thank you for recommending me these! I might start branching out in music taste now hehehhe.

#noorie listens to songs on loop #noorie infodumps. be very afraid

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thistransient · 3 years ago

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I decided since I was done with what has amounted in total to probably a solid month of quarantining/health-managing, and school did not seem likely to close any time soon, I could feel free to buy a monthly public transport pass, which I did. Sunday night our teacher declared that she was positive for covid and had to quarantine, so we’re back to online class! C’est la vie. We have to go in-person for a final exam on Friday (proctored by someone else), and then...well, frankly I have no idea what happens next, ie: if we have some kind of break between levels, or immediately continue class with a new teacher. My previous language center had distinct, three month, 120 hour semesters (except winter which was shorter), but this one has rolling monthly admissions.

Currently our course material is classified as B2/C1, although aside from the guys from HK and Malaysia (not fair!) I would say I am the most confident classmate when it comes to speaking/listening (just don’t ask me to write characters on the board) and might have feasibly started at the next level up. However, given that the guy from Hong Kong who throws out 成語 (idioms) left and right is in our class, it makes me wonder if there even was a next level being offered currently. I had high hopes of being able to get to the green block within the 6 months of class I had to pre-pay in order to get my covid-times entry permit/visa, but it seems that won’t come to pass. (Red circle is the level we finish this week, green is the Optimal Goal)

I’m currently formulating plans. The options are A) find a job that sponsors a work visa and stop formal studying, B) keep studying and test out jobs with an open student work permit, C) keep studying without working and look into MA programs. I suspect I might not mind getting a job doing copy-editing, since I find proofreading things for my friends quite fun, but that could require a master’s degree, and somehow I feel whatever degree would qualify me for English copy-editing might not require me to be fluent in Chinese to take classes (and thus no reason to continue that). Job aside, I also just really like studying Mandarin. If I didn’t need money or want to get permanent residency, I might be happy as a pig in muck to just keep taking class forever. However, since I’ve already done one relatively useless language degree in something I “just really liked studying”, I don’t see much point of going into, say, Chinese Studies or something, given that I suspect the only job option that would leave me with is academia, and everyone doing that seems stressed out to a level beyond what I believe I can cope with.

What I really should do is go outside and try to meet people and establish some 關係 and see what unexpected opportunities may arise. Unfortunately the rainy season is now over and it’s increasingly fucking hot out. My schemes, foiled by the weather!

#i could also try to find someone to marry me for the residency card #unfortunately my soul mate is probably also a hermit disinterested in socialising #wait that describes my ex #my soulmate must be an extrovert with the power to drag me out of the cave and into the night market!#although that could be any one of my multiple friends with adhd #or my first ex who also had adhd #what was that quote about neurodivergents traveling in packs like groups of socially awkward wolves

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fluffshisuga · 2 years ago

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Exams (Xavier x Reader)

Hello again! Finals are here at my university and let me tell you, it sucks. But this is perfect, because a request came in!

Requested by @ilovexavierthrope : Could you pls write one about Xavier x reader and the reader has ADHD maybe if your okay with that and the reader is studying for finals like crazy bc its their first year at nevermore? (Maybe mention that reader has autism). I tried my best, I feel like I had the ADHD part down, especially since I have it, but I’m currently not professionally on the spectrum so I hope I didn’t do too bad! Also, for anyone taking exams, I believe in you! You got this! This is 4225 words omg also it's 234am i love you guys 💙

Warnings: Mentions that reader is fem, some angst, panic over exams. I never really said that the reader is autistic or had adhd but it's heavily implied mainly by my own adhd habits, i had YouTube playing while i wrote this and i was also listening to music.

Like any other school, Nevermore had exams for their classes as well. Of course, they were different from normal exams, which meant that the students had to study harder than the average teen. Although most students were already used to the hard studying, newcomers were prone to having a far more difficult time trying to fit studying into their already busy schedules. Especially you, who had only just started your first year at Nevermore. Classes were already pretty difficult for an ever-racing mind, but trying to cram a bunch of information in to a brain that can’t even remember what it had for breakfast? Torture.

Your routine was based off the clock, classes from 9am to near 5pm, giving you barely enough time to eat during the day, which resulted in you just completely forgetting that you needed food. Once that was over, you would beeline to the library to collect any books you could that had information on the classes you were taking. You had no idea what you were doing, never having a set study habit, and just trying whatever came to mind, you had flashcards and paper filled with copied notes, some colour coded in hopes that it would make it easier to remember. You even had a whole playlist that you listened to while studying, yet, for whatever reason, the words wouldn’t stick. You’d have to read over what you had already read multiple times, only to space out halfway through and come back confused. You’d constantly look up from your books and check the time, frowning when you noticed it had only been 5 minutes since you last checked, although it felt like it had been way longer. You would constantly change the song as well, deeming certain ones to be unhelpful in your studies even if you added them to the playlist specifically for that reason.

You only really had contact with friends in class, who would ask you if you were free later that day to hang out. Enid especially asked you almost every day, frowning each time you told her you needed to study for the exams coming up. Wednesday even started to show concern, pointing out the dark circles forming under your eyes, and the growl of your stomach at the mention of lunch. “I think you should take a break, really.” Enid said, taking the book out of your hand and closing it. You desperately tried to write down what page you were on, but it had already left your mind. “Enid! Now I must read the whole thing again to find out what page I was on.” You scowled. Enid only shook her head and gathered your things up as the class was dismissed. “You’re coming to lunch with us, whether you like it or not! I can even quiz you while we eat if that would make you feel better?” You could only sigh as you left your seat, trudging after Enid and Wednesday.

You sat down at a table, looking down at the food you had grabbed with heavy eyes. A slam next to you nearly made you jump out of your skin. “Pop quiz!” Enid exclaimed, holding one of your books in her hand. “Let’s see…ah! Who was the last God to enter Olympus?” You stared blankly at Enid, not comprehending what she had even said yet. You tried to think, racking your brain as you did, but nothing came up. There was only one name that came up when you thought of the question. “Alexius?” Was all you could come up with, and you knew it was the wrong answer as soon as you said it, watching Enid’s smile droop slightly at the answer. “Uh, no not quite. It says here that it was Dionysus. I’m not sure if I’m saying that right but yeah, not Alexius.” Enid stated, placing the book down in front of you and pointing out the answer. You facepalmed as the answer came into your head just seconds before she said the name, becoming mildly discouraged already.

“Dionysus was the last God, but only because Homer didn’t admit him in.” A voice spoke behind you, and you felt the seat next to you shift as someone sat down beside you. Looking over, you lock eyes with Xavier, whom you shared the class with. He smiled as he continued, “Although that was a good guess, but his name is pronounced Alcaeus, it’s not really spelled the same way. That was the original name of Heracles, also not pronounced the same way as the Disney movie. It means Strength, and many leaders in Greece were named Alcaeus for that reason.” You dropped your head in defeat and embarrassment, feeling inferior to Xavier’s random knowledge on the Greek Gods. “That wasn’t even part of the class though, where did you get that name from?” He asked, placing his hand on his cheek as he looked at you. “I’m going to be honest,” you started, “no idea. I thought that if I read the whole book, I’d be ready for the exam, but I don’t even remember reading about Alcaeus.” A moment of silence fell onto the table, only to be interrupted by a gasp from you. “That’s right! That name was in a game I played! It was all about Greek Mythology. Alcaeus was the brother that we thought was dead. That’s where I got the name from.” The sudden memory made you excited, but your cheeks flushed red as you realized that your outburst was all because of a game, and that your answer to Enid’s question was all based off said game. “Anyway, clearly I need to study more, so I should be going.” You started, taking a large bite of food, and gathering your items once again. “Y/n! At least finish eating?” Enid yelled, watching as you trotted away, a book opened in your hands.

Later that day, you sat under a tree, a different book in hand and pencil in the other, hurriedly writing anything that you felt was important for your French class. You had a list of words that would be considered feminine in French, placing certain words into the column and others in the other. “So, If I wanted to preserve something…it would be…sanctuariser. Do I even need to know that?” You spoke to yourself, looking back to the little piece of paper with a list of things the teacher said to study. “Absolutely not.” You groaned as you dropped your arms, playing with the grass and taking a few breaths. “Need any help?” A voice spoke, spooking you and causing you to hit your head on the trunk of the tree. Xavier hovered over you, a concerned look on his face as he watched you rub the back of your head. “Xavier, you scared the living daylights out of me!” You breathed, checking your hand to see if you were bleeding. “Sorry,” he chuckled, taking a seat next to you. He looked over your shoulder and read what you had written down, taking your pencil, and correcting minor mistakes like accents over e’s and the like. “I can help you, if you want?” He asked, watching as you looked down at the grass. You didn’t want to ask for help. Asking for help was like admitting defeat, and defeat would make people disappointed in you. Your mind raced at the idea that people would see you as a failure, and you desperately grabbed the grass to keep yourself grounded. “Uh, not now. Thank you, Xavier, though.” You said, taking the pencil back and writing more terms in French. Xavier kept his seat next to you, watching as you tried to study a new way, a way that you were taught when you were small. It was mainly a way to make sure you remembered how to spell words but writing the French words three times seemed like it would help you to remember them. It worked, slightly.

As the time passed, the sun began to set. The breeze, although it was welcomed, was also distracting, and getting colder. You shivered as you flipped through the pages of yet another book, drifting your eyes over to Xavier every now and then to see if he was still there. He had been looking over your shoulder the whole time, asking if he could help every now and then. Sometimes he would help whether you liked it or not and would write little notes on the side of certain words in hopes that it would help you remember them better. Eventually he stood up and extended his hand out to you. “Come on, lets go inside before it gets too cold.” He offered. You stared at his hand for a moment, gathering up your things and taking it. “I still haven’t found the answer to a lot of the review questions, though, so once I get inside, I need to go to the library and find a book that has the answers.” You started, walking beside Xavier towards the giant doors. “I’m sure you can find the answers tomorrow, the exams aren’t until next week.” Xavier said, opening the door for you. You sighed as the warm air hit you, closing your eyes and giving you a brief wave of fatigue. You opened your eyes, looking up at Xavier, “I know that, but I just need to make sure I know the material.” Xavier could only scoff and shake his head as you checked your phone. “I have to go; I need to get those books!” You shouted, sending a final wave to Xavier as you sped away.

The next day was a Saturday. There were no classes, giving students extra time to catch up on both sleep and their studies. This also meant that you were up at sunrise, quickly making your way to the library. Your mind raced as you thought of what you needed to study next, while also trying to remember what you had studied the previous day. This early in the morning, there weren’t many people in the library, giving you first pick at what you needed for studying. With your arms full, you tucked yourself into a corner and set up your study space.

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Xavier woke up around 10am, a time he deemed normal for the weekend. He turned in his bed and glanced at the empty bed on the other side of the room, once occupied by Rowan. He would always comment on Xavier’s sleeping habits and tell him about getting enough sleep, claiming that it would help him remember more from his classes. He groaned at the thought of Rowan not being there, and slowly got up. He took a quick shower and made his way down to grab something to eat. He took a seat next to a tired Enid and emotionless Wednesday, Enid picking at her food as she looked around the room. “Xavier, you’re later than normal.” Wednesday pointed out, glancing over at him. Xavier could only shrug and take a bite of his food, watching as Enid’s head whipped around every few moments. He raised an eyebrow, “what are you looking for, Enid?” He questioned, fork midway to his mouth. Enid’s nails shot out and quickly retracted, and she took a final glance around before she set her eyes on Xavier. “Y/n, they aren’t here yet.” She said, tapping her fingers as she took another bite. “She’s normally here by now,” she mumbled, placing a hand over her mouth so she wouldn’t spit any food out. Xavier looked around, scanning the room quickly before shrugging. “Maybe she’s sleeping in? She’s been studying a lot; she’s got to be exhausted.” He explained, taking a final bite of his food. Enid shook her head and frowned. “She never misses our breakfast routine, you know that.” Xavier raised his hands, nodding his head. “I understand. Listen, I’ll keep an eye out for her, how about that? If I see her, I’ll let you know and tell her you’re worried.” Enid’s face relaxed a bit and her shoulders dropped slightly, nodding.

With that, Xavier went about his Saturday routine. Archery practice, a trip to the library, lunch. The whole time, he kept his eyes open for you. He didn’t see you in the library, which only told him that you were probably still sleeping. Once 3pm came around and you didn’t show up for lunch, he went out in search of you. He looked by the tree he had found you the previous day, a pencil in your spot. Xavier figured that you left it by accident and picked it up, planning to hand it back to you next time he saw you. He ran into Ajax and asked him if he had seen you, “last I saw Y/n, they were in the library, in the normal corner. They were there when I showed up, but that was a bit ago.” Ajax recounted, and he walked back with Xavier to the library to show him where you had been sitting, only to find the corner empty save for a book. Xavier sighed as he picked it up, placing it in his bag along with the growing list of items he needed to return to you. You weren’t at dinner either, and now Enid wasn’t the only one worried about your whereabouts. Xavier even went to your dorm, knocking on the door and talking with your roommate. “Honestly? Haven’t seen them for a bit. They weren’t in bed when I got up this morning. Come to think of it, they weren’t in bed when I went to sleep either.” They said, shrugging. Xavier sighed and ran a hand through his hair, stress building up as the time went by. He had no idea where you would be hiding.

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You were on the ground, laptop in front of you and books scattered around you. Your phone played your studying playlist as you waved your hand along the ground in search of the pen you had just put down. Your laptop had multiple tabs open, YouTube in one, a few word documents, an “official page of Greek Mythology” opened in yet another tab. So many things happening at once, yet you couldn’t focus on any of them. Normally, having multiple stimuli helped you get assignments done, but for something so nerve wracking and important as exams, nothing seemed to do the trick. You felt yourself breakdown slowly as you stared at the blank page, unable for the life of you to come up with the answer to “Who visited Danae, and fathered her son?” Your mind told you that it was simple, the answer on the tip of your tongue, yet nothing. You start to shake your head, muttering curses to yourself for not remembering something so simple as a name. You switched through songs on your phone, hoping that a song would pop up that would spark the answer. You didn’t hear the snapping outside the room, or the rumbling of the statue revealing a staircase. You were too preoccupied, trying desperately to hold your tears back so you wouldn’t smudge the ink on your paper.

Xavier walked down the stairs, stopping mid step to find you in the center of the room, rocking and holding back sniffles as you shuffled through paper. He called out your name, hoping to catch your attention, but he quickly realized that you had your earbuds in, unable to hear a single word he could utter. He stepped carefully, making his way slowly towards you so you didn’t get spooked. He watched as the tears welled up even more in your eyes as you slowly looked up, realizing that you were no longer alone. Realizing that you were in a vulnerable state, Xavier sat next to you, wrapping an arm around your shaking figure, and rubbing your back, letting you collect your thoughts. You shuddered as you tried to hold back your tears, but Xavier’s calming voice seemed to finally break the dam. “I know you’re stressed. You can tell me about it when you’re ready.”

Tears spilled from your eyes and ran down your cheeks. You struggled to get anything out that weren’t incoherent sobs, a stutter of words falling from your lips as you struggled to explain. “I just? You know? It’s my first year here,” another sob, “and I don’t want to seem like a failure. I want them to know that I can handle it! I can! But my mind is just racing? Everything is distracting me, but if I don’t have anything to distract me, I get super anxious and cant focus. But I hate it so much.” You breathed heavily as you tried to find a way to explain your thoughts. “I just…I don’t want to be a disappointment. I want to get good marks on these exams, so no one looks down on me, and yet I just can’t understand what I’m looking at. But the idea of asking for help feels so demeaning! It feels like I’m admitting to failure, and if I do that, then I’m a lost cause.” You continued to sob as you turned to bury your face into Xavier’s chest, the harsh reality becoming real as you spoke, causing you to break down even more. Xavier remained quiet as he kept rubbing your back, humming a soft tune to calm you down. He allowed you to get all your emotions out and calm down on your own, only whispering every now and then soft words of comfort until you had cried enough. You slacked in his embrace, taking deep breaths as your tears began to dry.

Xavier brought your face up so he could meet your eyes. He took note at how red they were, how puffy your skin had become, and how dark the circles under your eyes had become. He sighed as he studied your face, trying to find the right words to say. “You’re not a failure, I can see that. And you’re not a failure for accepting help when you need it. Exams are stressful, trust me, but you don’t have to deal with he stress of them alone, you know. You have me, and Enid, and Wednesday would probably help you if you asked.” He wiped tears away as he continued, “No one will think you’re a failure. They wont see you as a disappointment either. No one is perfect, hell, I failed an exam my first year all because I was too stressed to even understand what it was I was learning. Am I a disappointment?” You shook your head in response, a small smile on your lips. “No, maybe a bit of a dork, but not a disappointment.” You responded. Xavier smiled and rested his forehead against yours. “Exactly. Everyone fails at least once. I think it builds character. But you’re not going to fail. Not if I can help it.” He pressed a kiss to you temple as he grabbed one of your books, “Now, Danae was visited by a God and was then pregnant. Remember that her son is the one that’s supposed to take down the king, her father. Which God seems like the kind of person to knock a girl up knowing that the prophecy states a war to follow?” You bit the inside of your cheek, thinking hard. “A God that would do something like that? It sounds like a Zeus thing?” You questioned, brows furrowed. Xavier smiled and nodded, pointing out an excerpt from the book. So Danae endured, the beautiful, to change the glad daylight for brass-bound walls, and in that chamber secret as the grave She lived a prisoner. Yet to her came Zeus in the golden rain. This was the story of Perseus.

Xavier stayed by your side as you studied together, helping each other to remember the content. As the night dragged on, your eyes became heavy, and you yawned. “I think it’s time to wrap it up for tonight, don’t you think?” Xavier asked as he closed the book he was reading from. You nodded slowly, stretching your arms, and sighing as your back popped and cracked as you moved the stiff muscles. “Can we do this again tomorrow, then?” You asked, gathering your items up. Xavier smiled and nodded, “Of course, but only after you get some rest and something to eat tomorrow.” You chuckled and made your way up the stairs, walking with Xavier back up to your dorm. The next morning, you woke around 10:30, rubbing the sleep from your eyes. You looked over at your phone, finding a text from Xavier that read, “Once you wake up, let me know, I’ll meet you for breakfast.” You smiled as you sat up in bed, stretching your tired muscles and letting out a yawn. You grabbed something to wear and picked up your bag full of study material, shooting a text to Xavier and making your way to the dining hall.

He met you there and walked with you to grab your food, sitting down at your normal table and eating silently for a few moments. Enid and Wednesday followed shortly after, Enid hurrying to your side and expressing her worries for your well-being, and scolding Xavier for not telling her that you were ok. You chuckled at her and thanked her for worrying about you, continuing to take bites of your food as the two girls went off to get their own food. “So, I was thinking,” Xavier started, holding his fork in the air, and pointing it towards you. “That’s never good,” you quickly said, stifling a giggle. Xavier frowned, continuing, “I’m going to pretend I didn’t hear that. Anyway, exams begin in three days, so why don’t we study together until they’re over? We meet in the secret room, I bring snacks and water, we ace those exams?” You sat there, chewing on your food as you thought about his offer. He was a great help when it came to studying, and your little session last night helped you to understand a bit of what you were doing. “Sounds like a plan.” You said, taking another bite of your breakfast.

The days following were filled study sessions with Xavier, and once one exam was done you studied for the next exam. Feeling confident, you walked into each class ready to take the exam, meeting Xavier afterwards to tell him about it and how you felt afterwards. You’d then get dinner, study for the next exam, and just hang out between studying to give your minds a break. It felt as if the exams went by with a snap, and before you knew it, they were over. You had two days until the grades would come out, and although you were happy for it to finally be over, a part of you was sad that you wouldn’t be meeting Xavier each night to study anymore. It felt as if a cloud hung over your head as you went to bed that night, only growing heavier as your thoughts raced once again. In the morning, you woke up to a text from Xavier, asking you when you wanted to go get breakfast. You smiled as you got up and ready, the cloud above your head slowly shrinking as you went to meet Xavier for breakfast. Afterwards, you walked together into Jericho, finding a coffee shop to refuel your energy that had left your body from the week. “Do you think you passed?” You asked Xavier as you took a sip of your drink, its contents brought you joy and comfort. Xavier took a sip of his own drink, a smile gracing his lips. “Of course, I had the best study partner in all of Nevermore to help me.” You felt your cheeks warm at his comment, drifting your eyes down to you drink in embarrassment. “Yeah… Maybe I did well too, then.”

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When grades came out, you nearly cried. You had passed every single exam, and it was all thanks to Xavier. You had looked everywhere to find him, finding him in his dorm working on a sketch in his sketchbook. When he opened the door, you ran in and wrapped your arms tightly around his torso, a giant smile greeting him. “Xavier! We did it! I passed all the exams!” You shouted happily, jumping in excitement. Xavier hugged you back, planting a kiss to your hair as he reveled in your excitement. Your smile was contagious and seeing you happy made him happy. “That’s amazing!” He exclaimed, his smile widening as he looked at you. “We need to celebrate.” And with that, the two of you went out to a small restaurant, enjoying each other’s company as you talked about anything you could think of. After, you went to get something sweet to eat as you made your way back to the school, making your way to Xavier’s dorm. “Let’s watch a movie!” You said, pulling out your phone and connecting it to the little projector you had left in his room one time. You spent the whole night watching movies, cuddled up together. Eventually, you fell asleep in Xavier’s arms, and he gave you a final kiss on your temple before whispering goodnight, falling asleep himself.

Hi me again. Your comments mean so much to me💙 i woke up to my phone constantly buzzing with feedback on Festive Outings, it made me really happy you have no idea. Again, if you have exams soon, you got this!! 💙💙

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willowwhispersspeakeasy · 3 years ago

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Hey hey! If you're okay with it, can I request how the brothers would react to an MC with Tourette's? My tics have been an absolute menace recently. Flipping people off mid conversation, repeating sounds (bing bong is a recent one, so is "what doin"), the occasional head banging against whatever's behind me, multiple spilt drinks from hitting the table with my hand, etc etc

yes yes yes I got so excited for this request!

storytime: I am autistic and my best friend has ADHD. we both have small tics related to our anxiety and we like to listen to overstimulating music together sometimes. my current tic is jerking so hard I knock myself off balance and then I go “whee!” like a small child on a rollercoaster. she thinks its cute.

demon brothers react to an MC with Tourette’s Syndrome

warnings: gender neutral mc, accidental self harm mention, ableism mention

Lucifer

actually, I head cannon that this wouldn’t be particularly strange to him. he may be caught off guard by it at first, but he's a demon, eldest of the seven avatars of sin and right hand to lord Diavolo. he can handle your tics.

Lucifer is quick to take up the role of your guardian (even if you'd rather he not) and will ensure you are not harmed. unfazed by any shouting or loud sounds, and does nothing but blink unimpressed at your middle fingers.

you are now a legend among lower level demons. a human able to be so “rude�� to the avatar of pride with no consequences. but his pride really swells when you come to him for help. asking him to open something for you because each time you try you find yourself flinging said snack across the room.

Mammon

he at first has no clue what's going on but once you explain he's like “oohhh oh okay.” and you never have to explain anything again. very quick to jump to your defense if someone says something rude or mean to you. you’re his human! he's gotta protect ya!

if you are comfortable he would love to do things like the egg challenge with you, laughing his ass off when it ends with pieces of shell in his hair as you threw it at him.

he will also finish your tics for you.

you: “-BING BONG-”

Mammon, not missing a beat: “suhh baby, take me out tuh dinner-”

his crow familiars now also know “what doin” and “hower you” which he finds hilarious.

Leviathan

the first time you tic around him he just thinks you made a random stim noise. so, unfazed, he simply repeats it back to you. as you two become close, this becomes a game.

you’ll clap your hands mid sentence and from across the room you hear a matching “clap”. he mostly ignores them in general so the only recognition you’ll get from him is when he mirrors you. its his way of showing that he doesn't see it as weird and just excepts it as a part of you.

(not sure if he’d have tics of his own... will get back to you on that)

although you may end up with some of his stims as tics. he's actually very amused and almost honored when you click your tongue as a tic, perfectly matching his.

Satan

king of reaction time. you’re about to drop something because your hands decided “nope” well, not today Satan. he caught it before it could hit the ground.

he does his own research on Tourette’s Syndrome and is technically the most educated on the subject. but, as Satan knows well, book smart does not equal experience. he will kind of just sit back at watch, especially how you interact with Mammon (who is the most willing to engage with your tics).

once he feels he has a better understanding and won’t be taken by surprise, he tried to just interact with you as normal. seeing it as any other disability. he's happy to catch things for you, often pulling you away from hard surfaces so you don't hit your head by accident.

Asmodeus

he’s probably the most confused. I don’t think he’d do a good job in the beginning. he takes what you do and say to personal and Lucifer or Satan has to sit him down and explain, probably several times until he gets it.

he will however, apologize. he didn’t realize he was being kinda ableist with some of his comments. but after that he does his best to just take you as you are. he's not perfect, and he’ll make some mistakes or insensitive comments but he always apologizes.

does offer to message your sore muscles after a really bad episode. cooing about what kind of oils you'd like, or music he can play to help you relax.

Beelzebub

he worries more then the others I think. the verbal ones don't faze him, and his reaction time is excellent like Satan. however, he does get nervous for your physical ones. finding you flipping him off amusing, its the more jerking tics that he gets jumpy with.

there was once time when you banged your head so hard against the wall it started bleeding. Beel is well aware you are much more delicate as a human and he's worried you’ll get hurt.

if you are particularly jerkish that day he's more likely to stand behind you, with his arms over yours. this just helps insure you won't slam your hands into the table or throw your head back against a door frame. and please don't be worried about hurting him, even with all your might your tiny hand on his arm just makes him chuckle.

Belphagor

why is the human yelling? he may find it annoying to begin with. it wakes him from his naps which makes him sigh. he doesn't lay in your lap anymore after an incident where you tugged on his hair. he wasn't upset after you apologized, just mildly grumpy.

he may just, grab your hand and hold it still to see what happens. he's curious and if you are willing to humor him he sees it almost like a game. places his hand over your mouth, quickly greeted by your tongue slobbering on him. okay, maybe not.

there any many demons in the devildom who behave in ways that are “strange” to a human’s definitions. but, he's lived with Levi and Mammon for millennia, he’s not fazed.

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januarymoreau · 2 years ago

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Neurodivergency Coding in Disney and Nick Shows

Okay this was requested by @gstone97. I'd like to talk about neurodivergency coding in Disney Channel and Nickelodeon shows. Disney and Nick shows have A LOT of neurodivergent coding, and whether they give neurodivergent traits to characters unintentionally or intentionally to mock neurodivergency is something I've considered but have not come to an answer on. Personally, I believe the neurodivergency coding is unintentional, but I'd have to research it more. Seeing as I'm autistic and have ADHD, most of these characters will be characters I believe to have Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) or ADHD, but if you'd like to add any characters that have any other neurodivergency I'd love that.

Let's start this post off by talking about Cat Valentine from Victorious.

Although many have said that Cat may just have trauma (and I'm not arguing with that, she definitely has trauma), I'd like to argue that Cat also has Autism Spectrum Disorder. She says inappropriate things during inappropriate times. https://www.facebook.com/watch/?v=246172576497297 If you watch this video you can see multiple times where she says inappropriate things. This could lend to my next point which is that Cat doesn't understand social cues. I can't find the exact example, but I believe there's a scene where Cat doesn't understand an expression. Cat also frequently uses self stimulatory behavior, also known as stimming. Additionally, Cat collects stuffed animals, which could be considered a hyperfixation.

The next character I want to talk about is Max Russo from Wizards of Waverly Place.

I'd argue that Max has ADHD. He struggles with his grades, as we see through most of the show. However, he is smart, he just needs a different learning style. One of my favorite episodes with Max in the show is the episode where the school gets a new principal and he starts doing really well in school. Despite common beliefs, Max is NOT stupid. Additionally, Max has a hard time picking up sarcasm. There are a lot of episodes where he takes things literally, which could be a symptom of autism but can also be a symptom of ADHD. He seems to go through brief phases where he's obsessed with things, such as when he gets obsessed with the idea of being Family Wizard.

Another character I believe to be autistic coded is Spencer Shay from iCarly.

Spencer's Wiki page even refers to him as "weird, eccentric." A lot of autistic people can come across as weird. Plus, Spencer's interest in art could easily be considered a hyperfixation or special interest. Plus, Spencer doesn't understand social cues. He brings home an ostrich and doesn't seem to understand why it's a problem. I definitely view him as autistic.

Another character I headcanon as autistic is Skylar Storm from "Mighty Med."

Although I could write a whole other post about the autistic coding of alien or other-worldly characters, this isn't that post. Skylar shows a lack of understanding of social cues, likely because she's from another planet, but even as time goes on Earth she fails to grasp them. She frequently says inappropriate things. She often fails to understand that Oliver is flirting with her. I would definitely argue that many of these could be due to not being from Earth, but I would definitely say she's autistic-coded regardless. Many alien characters that find their way to Earth are autistic-coded, and she definitely fits in there.

Finally, I'll talk about what to me is the most obvious autistic-coding of a character on Disney Channel: Dez Wade from Austin & Ally.

Dez fails to understand common phrases, a reoccurring joke in the show. He also fails to understand tone and doesn't seem to comprehend when people are mad at him. He seems to have a special interest in film and has a very almost obsessive relationship with Austin. He struggles socially and has difficulty making friends. I could go on and on about why he's autistic, but I won't.

Overall, I don't know why so many Disney and Nickelodeon characters are neurodivergent coded. It could be an attempt to mock neurodivergency, or it could be a completely innocent accident. I'd like to believe it's not on purpose or if it is it's not an attempt to mock autism or neurodivergency, but it's definitely possible. Also, if you're a Disney or Nickelodeon fan who's neurodivergent please watch "The Proud Family." They have a character who gets diagnosed with autism.

#disney channel #nickelodeon #cat valentine #dez wade #victorious #austin and ally #wizards of waverly place #max russo #icarly #spencer shay #skylar storm #personal essay

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fredzina · 4 years ago

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Dean Winchester has ADHD and here's why

Before I get into this I would like to preface that I'm not a psychologist nor have I actually taken a psychology course (although I tried but apparently I'm not allowed to take 11 courses a semester). Point being, all of what I'm about to talk about is from my own research, and my friends' experiences with ADHD. I also have not been properly diagnosed with ADHD or any type of neurodivergency yet but I will try my best to be a good advocate and ally.

First thing I need to get out of the way. ADHD is a developmental disorder and it often manifests during childhood. There are three types of ADHD, predominantly inattentive, predominantly hyperactive-implusive, and combined ADHD. I will mostly be talking about predominantly hyperactive ADHD. However, ADHD manifests differently for different people, and there is a discrepancy between afab and amab and how ADHD shows. If you have any questions I will be happy to answer to the best of my abilities

Okay now into why Dean Winchester has ADHD!

Hyperactivity

One of the most common symptoms of ADHD is restlessness and fidgeting. From the very beginning we can see that Dean fits into this category. Luckily for him, life on the road allows him to get out a lot of the restless energy and need to move. But it wasn't always like that. For example in season 1, episode 18, Something Wicked this Way Comes, Dean talks about himself as a kid and says. “It was the third night in this crap motel room and I was climbing the walls. I had to get some air.” he describes going against John's orders because he physically could not stay inside the motel anymore.

Another example of this is in season 2, episode 7, The Usual Suspects. We can see as Dean tried to wait for Sam but quickly gets bored and begins to make noises before quickly getting up and leaving

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Yet another example in season 5, episode 21, Two Minutes to Midnight. During the montage where Sam and Dean are watching the surveillance footage Dean is shown to have gotten up and paced around the room, all while Sam has barely moved. There's other examples of this when Dean has to wait for something, he quickly gets bored and will typically fidget to some extent.

Sensory processing

People with ADHD often struggles with sensory processing, Dean himself exhibits some of these traits through physical sensibility. One of the most recurring examples of this is his love for good water pressure. The first time he made a remark on it being in Season 1's Bugs. He also exhibits having an oral fixation in the earlier seasons, specifically season 1 (god I love season 1 Dean). His oral fixation can still be seen in later seasons it's just not as noticable.

Dean also exhibits having happy stims

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For those of you who don't know what stimming is, it refers to self-stimulation and usually involves repetitive sounds and/or motions, such as hand flapping. Everyone stims, it's just more common place for neroudivergent people.

Easily Distracted

While yes, Dean can very easily maintain focus while on a hunt, he is also, just as.essily distracted. At multiple points throughout the series we can see Dean wandering off and looking at things in people's houses, getting distracted by photographs, food, etc.

Getting distracted by a rubber band

Regarding Dean also shows a lot of Dean getting easily distracted, which could have easily been part of the spell but I also think it was partially his ADHD

Views of the World in Black and White

A less commonly known symptom of ADHD is viewing the world in Black and White, Good and Evil, etc. This is pretty prevalent in Dean's character, in particular season 7 episode 3, The Girl Next Door. Despite Sam vouching for Amy and saying she's not evil, Dean still goes and.kills her. While I'm not defending his actions here it shows that he struggles with the concept of a grey area, and this is shown throughout all 15 seasons.

Impulsive actions

Ah yes, what would Dean Winchester be without his reckless and impulsive decision making? It should come as no surprise to any fan of Supernatural that Dean is often prone to impulsive decision making, whether it be from suddenly yanking down his pants and yelling "Pudding" to saying yes to Michael. Dean's always had a problem with making impulsive decisions, and it tends to come back and bite him in the ass.

Some other specific examples of his impulsive decision making: telling Cassie about the life after only knowing her for two weeks (also their relationship and his attachment to her is another aspect of ADHD which I will touch on later), midnight drives in Baby, going to a Jayhawks game on a whim, leaving in the middle of the night to go somewhere, making a demon deal, the list goes on really.

Executive Dysfunction

Executive dysfunction is a very common trait of ADHD, and while it may not be super noticable Dean does exhibit some traits of it. Part of why this particular symptom may not appear a lot is because of their lifestyle, with constantly being on the move, up until they got the bunker, they didn't have very many belongings to make a mess. However, one of the first examples of this is in season 2 episode 15, Tall Tales, Sam is shown to be nagging Dean about the mess he's made and the food and socks lying around everywhere. And while Dean normally keeps a clean room, there are times where he seems to lack the executive function to keep it clean

Poor Emotional Regulation

Another big shocker, I know. It is very common for those who have ADHD to have poor emotional regulation. This is shown quite often in the case of Dean, from his fits of anger that lead to physical altercations, emotional outlashes, to the destruction of several innocent lamps.

He is also shown to have frequent mood swings and a constantly changing sense of self. It's also no secret that Dean has a low self-esteem which is another common trait of ADHD.

One of the most harmful traits of ADHD that can manifest is substance abuse. This is shown in abundance as Dean's go to coping mechanism as seen with his alcoholism. Adults with ADHD are also 14% more likely to try and commit suicide, which sadly, has happened on more than one occasion on the show with Dean.

Another symptom of ADHD is dwelling on emotions and the past. Dean is commonly shown to be dwelling on his past mistakes and guilt, which I mean, it's understandable.

He also seems to suffer from RSD (Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria). This is a common trait in ADHD but is less commonly talked about. RSD essentially means that you are more prone to being affected by other people's perceptions of you and use it as a reflection of yourself. This is commonly shown with Dean and how he is constantly trying to appease his father and Sam. It's also part of his codependency issues and why he pushes people away.

Hyperfixations and Focus

A common trait of ADHD is the inability to focus on things that do not interest the person; on the flip side is the ability to hyper focus, or 'fixate' on things that are of great interest to them. In Dean's case this extends to his music, his car, cowboys, movies, and tv shows such as Dr. Sexy and Scooby Doo. In things that he has an interest in not only does he show over excitement to it but also extensive knowledge of the subject. Such as:

"Because I swore part of what makes Dr. Sexy sexy is the fact that he wears cowboy boots, not tennis shoes!"

Another example being in season 14, episode 4 Mint Condition, and his extensive knowledge of the hatchet man movies. Or literally anytime cowboys are mentioned

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There are literally so many examples about his knowledge of cowboys lol

Relationships

While Dean was quite the "lady's man" in earlier seasons he had very few meaningful relationships throughout the series. While part.of that is no doubt due to the life they led, some of it was caused by his symptoms of ADHD and Dean's unhealthy coping mechanisms.

Cassie- as I mentioned earlier, Dean's decision to tell Cassie about the life is part of what caused this relationship to fail. Another factor was probably because of how quickly and strongly Dean latched onto her emotionally, had he not felt like he loved her he would have never told her about the life.

Lisa- Dean's inability to rely on Lisa and feeling like he was the sole caretaker of their family was part of what led to the downfall of that relationship

Both of these issues stem from symptoms of adhd, in particular RSD.

Another example is his relationship with Cas, he is constantly pushing Cas away and hurting him by lashing out in fear of rejection. His emotional outbursts and impulsiveness has caused more than a few bumps in their relationship. The same can be said for Sam as well as his other friendships.

In conclusion...

Dean has ADHD. While I don't mean to make this seem all doom and gloom there are negative aspects of ADHD that aren't as often discussed that I wanted to talk about in this post. I also tried to highlight some of the positives. Either way I love Dean Winchester.

But now it is 11 at night and I need to start my homework that is due tomorrow, please wish me luck lmao (also I know I didn't cover everything but I didn't want to make this too long)

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tenthgrove · 3 years ago

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yess thank you for letting me ask you about the lore >:3c so I have to get my absolute favorites outta the way first— what kinda lore and thoughts do you have for sorbet or gelato ( <- before they get together and the earlier years of them getting together if you need a specific period ) I have to also ask are you ok if I go down the “line” and get your thoughts in other asks about the rest of the la squadra babes? Thank you sm 💖💖 I hope you’re having a wonderf day/evening

Ah! Now this is one of my absolute favourites! Apologies to anyone who has already heard me ramble about my Sorbet and Gelato backstory ad nauseam on multiple occasions, but this is really an area where I can't help myself. Besides, this is my opportunity to go more in depth where I haven't before:

(Note after writing this: It's stupidly long. I'm sorry I just can't help myself with these backstories. I couldn't decide what to leave out so I decided nothing.)

(Also please feel free to ask me more lore questions because I love doing this)

We'll begin with Sorbet, born in Naples in February 1967 if you follow the canon timeline (although by default I write in modern AU so move the dates 20 years later). His situation at birth was absolutely dire, the eldest child of an incredibly vulnerable woman and one of her clients as a sex worker. Sorbet's mother was by all means a decent woman but her severe mental illness and drug addiction made it impossible for her to be a good mother, which of course had a bad effect on Sorbet growing up. After Sorbet, she had 5 more children, all through clients, and Sorbet was saddled with much of their care.

Though he loved his siblings, Sorbet was pretty much done with this life by age 12 and was easily swept up by older boys from the local street gang, who paid him well to peddle drugs when he should have been in school. This was a very underfunded neighbourhood so nobody questioned his truancy, and within the next couple of years he had stopped going to school entirely. Shortly after this, having acquired sufficient money through his crime involvement, Sorbet left his family to stay with his new friends, moving between them on a regular basis. He also discovered his sexuality around this time and dated a few male friends, though none of these relationships got very far.

By age 16, Sorbet had earned a reputation in the street gang for skilled and passionate violence, and was selected by the ringleader to commit the group's first planned murder, in exchange of course for a lucrative reward. Sorbet accepted, succeeded, and became the group's de-facto assassin whenever needed. He continued to hoard considerable money for the remainder of his adolescence, though continued to be functionally homeless since he didn't see it necessary when sofa-surfing was suiting him fine.

Before resuming with Sorbet, let's explain the life that Gelato came from. Gelato was born in October 1967 in St. Petersburg, Russia, (Note- I previously used the city of Minsk, unaware that this is in fact, in Belarus) to an upper-middle class businessman and his Italian wife, a distant relative of French Monarchy. Gelato's relationship with his parents was rocky from the start due to the fact they would have preferred a girl after three successive sons, but any parental love they had for their youngest child broke down entirely after he was diagnosed with both Autism and ADHD at age 5, in an evaluation intending to find the cause of some behavioural issues that were really, just a response to emotional neglect.

When Gelato was 13 he, his parents, and two of his three brothers (the eldest was already an adult by this time and elected to stay behind) moved to Italy to escape some allegations of corruption in the father's business. They moved to a rural village in North-West Italy where the community was very middle-class and quite stifling for Gelato, who had enough social rules to remember in the familiar, economically-diverse city he grew up in. His behavioural issues got worse and began to include things he would later regret, such as attacking and stealing from younger children, and things he would absolutely not, like attacking and stealing from teachers. By this point the family had largely written him off as a failure, revering instead their academically successful, well-behaved older children, which absolutely contributed to the spiralling cycle of behaviour issues Gelato faced.

Then, at age 17, Gelato failed a crucial exam and was expelled from high-school. His parents kicked him out on the spot, and with no other family in Italy Gelato had very few options on what to do next. He recalled, however, one older friend having links to a street gang in Naples, and decided to see if this boy might have a route out of destitution for him. Indeed, the friend did know of a man in Naples needing assistance within the gang, but could offer no help in getting Gelato there. Seeing no other way, Gelato walked the whole journey.

Arriving in Naples, the friend's associate announced that the position Gelato was after had been taken, but taking pity on his distress, informed him of another friend who needed someone to look after an unlicensed bar that served as one of the group's main meeting points. He agreed to arrange for the small apartment above the bar to be given as payment.

Gelato accepted, but although he had now solved the problem of homelessness his life was still incredibly miserable. For one, with his pay being the apartment he had to rely on measly tips to get by, which rarely left him with enough to eat let alone anything else. Additionally, as an outsider with little understanding of the way gangs work Gelato was an easy target for abuse, and was treated like absolute shit by the bar's patrons.

By this point in time, Sorbet had just turned 18. He was, incidentally, in the same gang Gelato had joined, and a regular at the bar he worked in. For a good couple of months they took no notice of each other, until Sorbet came to be in a coincidental feud with one of the men who was violent to Gelato at the bar. When Gelato witnessed the two of them in a fight, he made the spur-of-the-moment decision to join in on Sorbet's side, knocking the patron unconscious and leaving him too afraid to visit again. For his trouble, Sorbet gave Gelato a portion of the money he looted from the fight's loser, and flirted with him lightly before going about with his evening. Unknown to Sorbet, he had just sent Gelato falling head over hills in love.

Gelato found out about Sorbet's sexuality from other patrons and, delighted, attempted to flirt with him the next time they saw each other, but his attempts came off very poorly and Sorbet actually thought he was being insulted. Angered, he dragged Gelato into the cellar to demand what was going on. Gelato, terrified, admitted having a crush, which Sorbet found to be the sweetest and most genuine thing he'd ever heard. While he couldn't promise a relationship, he did agree to show Gelato more attention in the future. But, it was only a matter of days until Sorbet found himself loving Gelato back.

This whirlwind relationship continued happily for three weeks, Sorbet greatly improving Gelato's situation through his saved money and helping him fend off the abusive patrons. Gelato, in turn, offered Sorbet a permanent place to stay in the apartment, which he accepted. Sorbet was in the process of moving his things, and they had plans to refurbish the place to make it actually habitable.

But then, everything came crashing down. One night the bar was subject to a surprise raid by the police, operating by the false assumption it was empty. Sorbet and Gelato attempted to flee but were caught, and in a panic, Gelato shot a policeman dead. Rushing to his defence Sorbet killed two more, but a fourth escaped to tell the tale. The couple knew they were screwed. Running to the headquarters of their gang they begged for protection but were informed the small group simply could not save them from a charge this serious, and gave them only a single night of shelter to plan their next move. Gelato, who remember had never committed anything more serious than minor ABH before, had an absolute breakdown over this predicament that night, and whilst comforting him, Sorbet devised a blood pact with him to stick together no matter what came.

Over the next few days, Sorbet and Gelato fled north, avoiding the police through Sorbet's skills as a criminal and Gelato's very convincing Russian tourist impression. They were almost at the French border when Sorbet awoke one night to find Gelato missing behind him. He chased his tracks to the driveway of a rural house, a tearful Gelato clutching a knife at the shut door and trembling. He informed Sorbet that he had intentionally led him to the village where his family lived, with the intention to break in and kill them as revenge for the years of abuse. Sorbet warned Gelato that this would not be good for their attempts to flee, but said he understood fully and would help him if this is truly what he wanted. Gelato agreed, and together they broke into the house and slaughtered Gelato's mother and father, additionally killing one of his brothers after he woke from the noise. The other brother, the youngest other than Gelato, was spared, as Gelato felt his role in the abuse had been comparatively more minor and he did not deserve to die. This of course, left another witness.

The massacre in the village was quickly linked to the one at the bar and Gelato was promptly identified from a comparison of DNA found at the scene to his surviving brother's. Sorbet, a known criminal, was identified soon after. Not only were the pair now known but the police figured out what their plan was and informed the French police as well, making things exponentially harder for the couple.

They made do for a while by hanging low and keeping on the move, living off money stolen from the parents' house. Eventually however, they needed more, and began making deals with local crime organisations to carry out assassinations in exchange for money or temporary shelter. While Sorbet was already a pro at this, Gelato found himself a fast learner, and soon realised he shared Sorbet's adoration for the act of killing. He felt as though he was finally coming to meet his true self.

Though the assassination deals were lucrative, they did not help the couple keep a low profile and the attacks from police were relentless. Several times, they barely escaped capture. All this was not good on their mental states, and after two years, Sorbet knew it needed to end. He and Gelato returned to Naples in the hope their old gang might reconsider protecting them, but they were met with a surprise as their old gang had been completely overtaken by Passione. Even still, the new mobsters had heard a lot about Sorbet and Gelato's exploits and agreed to get them an audience with a local Capo, Pericolo, who was impressed by the men's skills and moved by the sense of honour suggested by their love for each other. He agreed to initiate them into the gang.

Soon after this, Sorbet and Gelato recieved stands which, although not very powerful, assisted them greatly in the art of assassination. Soon, they were natural choices for Passione whenever a hit needed carrying out in the Naples area. At some point a few years in, they befriended a man named Prosciutto who had been recently forced into Passione due to his heritage. Prosciutto was also funnelled into assassination jobs and, with less of a reputation for impulsivity than Sorbet and Gelato, was the one given the order to form a new assassination squad when the need arose, around 1993 if we're following canon.

(Note, I hc La Squadra was created by Passione in response to a real life government crackdown on the Italian mafia around 1992-93, in response to an incredibly scandalous series of assassinations. In such a climate, it would make sense for Passione to want to consolidate an elite squad of its best hitmen, do avoid future problems.)

Due to personal commitments Prosciutto did not want to be the captain, so attempted to give this responsibility to Sorbet, a request the boss promptly denied. Prosciutto was, however, allowed to add Sorbet and Gelato to the team's ranks, cementing the three of them as the first members of the team.

Prosciutto would, soon enough, find another person to give the title of captain to, but that's a story for another time.

#small asks #haha small #btw if you've already read my backstory for them this doesn't really add much except add a few new bits of trivia #la squadra #la squadra x reader

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gingersnapwolves · 5 years ago

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So Untamed looks really cool and I want to watch, but I have a problem and idk if you have any tips maybe? I tried watching the first episode (didn't get very far, maybe 15 minutes) and was utterly confused. I think I'm having a hard time keeping track of characters/names? Partially because I'm not used to watching non-English media and partially because it's hard to get an unfamiliar name to stick in my head the first time I see it, maybe? Any tips on figuring out what's going on in ep1?

Friend! I’ll have you know that I had NO FUCKING CLUE what was going on for the entirety of episode one. Literally SO CONFUSED. Nearly stopped watching. However, luckily for you, I am pend-up and bored right now so I have made a guide for you.

First things first: just accept you will be confused during episode one. Or skip it entirely. Along with most of episode 2.

The timeline goes like this:

Episodes 1+2 -> jump back 16 years! -> episodes 3-32ish -> these take place over the course of about 3 years -> jump forward! 13 years! back to where episode 1 started! by this time you have forgotten everything in episode 1 and 2 and you’ll have to rewatch it anyway!

I’m not saying you can’t watch it in order but boy is it easier to understand if you watch it in chronological order instead. But unfortunately the flashback starts about five minutes before the end of episode 2, not just at the beginning of episode 3, so you have to skim through that episode and wait for Wei Wuxian to faint in a field.

Now, a quick guide! I’ve made snapshots from early on in the series so these are the outfits they’ll be in when you meet (most) of them. Here are your protagonists:

Wei Wuxian aka Wei Ying

Precious ADHD child. Wants to be friends with everyone but also is ready to Throw Down at the drop of a hat. Classic disaster bi.

Lan Wangji aka Lan Zhan aka Hanguang-Jun

Mr. Stoic. Usually seen annoyed with Wei Wuxian’s antics. Classic repressed gay.

Quick note on names: almost all the characters have two. They get a name at birth (Wei Ying, Lan Zhan) and later when they come of age they get a courtesy name (Wei Wuxian, Lan Wangji), and if they’re super cool they get a title (Hanguang-Jun). I could write a long, long primer on what names are used in what situations but it can basically be summed up as the courtesy name is more formal and respectful, and the title is even more respectful than that, and when Wei Wuxian calls Lan Wangji ‘Lan Zhan’ in episode 4 he’s doing it SPECIFICALLY to be a little shit and get a rise out of Lan Wangji, and oh boy does it work.

Additional sidebar: in the book at least, they are 16ish at this point, I know they don’t look it, but teenagers never look like teenagers on American TV either, so, whatever. Anyway that explains a lot of Wei Wuxian’s behavior lmao.

Their families:

Jiang Cheng also but hardly ever known as Jiang Wanyin

(sidebar: these are not really the best caps because my computer was being a jerk so I was just grabbing the first one that came to hand, sorry for not catching your best side JC)

(Because the story is from Wei Wuxian’s point of view, and he grew up with Jiang Cheng, the less formal name is used even in the prose, hardly anyone ever calls him Jiang Wanyin)

Jiang Cheng is Wei Wuxian’s younger brother (although Wei Wuxian is adopted) who is angry almost all the time because Wei Wuxian gets away with Literally Everything including things he really shouldn’t, and Jiang Cheng has massive jealousy and resentment issues which are pretty much his mother’s fault. He’s not a bad guy but oh boy, board the Issues Train.

Jiang Yanli (women do not get courtesy names)

(or maybe this is her courtesy name? Please correct me if I’m wrong)

Jiang Yanli is their older sister. She is made of sunshine and rainbows.

Notes on this family: Clan Leader Jiang was friends with Wei Wuxian’s parents. When they died, he took in Wei Wuxian. His wife is Big Mad About This because she suspects (probably correctly) that Clan Leader Jiang was in love with Wei Wuxian’s mother. However, as Wei Wuxian’s mother is now dead, she should Get Over This. Spoiler alert: she doesn’t. This causes lots and lots of problems. Like. Half the series probably could have been avoided type of problems.

Lan Xichen aka Zewu-Jun

Lan Wangji’s older brother. Not Actually a Himbo because he’s not actually dumb. He possesses multiple brain cells. He just Never Uses Them. Very soft and gentle, would like to protect. He’s the Clan Leader even though he’s much younger than most of the other Clan Leaders because their father is either dead or in seclusion depending on if you’re in book or TV show canon.

Lan Qiren

Their extremely strict uncle who raised them and probably didn’t mean to fuck them up for life but probably did.

He’s known to be a good teacher which is why everyone in the teenager arc is there in the first place for Sword Wizard school.

Sidebar: nobody in this show really ages. They’ve done some stuff with makeup and hair to show the time change before and after the skip but that’s all. This is a genre thing; once Sword Wizards have attained a certain level of Sword Wizardry, they stop aging.

Other Important Characters:

Nie Huaisang

Young master of the Nie clan. He is Their Soft Friend during Sword Wizard school.

Jin Zixuan

Heir to the massive Jin clan. He is a dick in the first arc. Gets better later but boy does it take some time. He is betrothed to Jiang Yanli but feels it’s below his station so he’s a jerk to her a lot of the time.

Meng Yao

Jin Zixuan’s illegitimate half-brother. Their dad is a slut. And I don’t mean to slut shame, but he is a Bad Person also, and doesn’t care about his illegitimate children, which tends to cause problems. Meng Yao tried to join the Jin clan when he came of age but Dad Slut refused to allow him in, so he went to serve the Nie Clan instead. But, he is not technically a young master like all these other characters and is more of a high-ranking servant.

Wen Ruohan

The Big Evil of Part One, easily identifiable by his outfit, Lava Palace, and propensity to make zombies

Wen Chao

His super obnoxious kid who goes around threatening people and pissing me off.

Wen Qing

Badass doctor with a big heart who’s serving Big Evil because a) he took her and her brother in after her parents were killed, and b) her brother is basically a hostage.

Wen Ning

Her brother who nearly had his soul sucked out by a ghost one (1) time and as a result is kind of delicate and fragile, but always wants to help others.

Xue Yang

An Edgelord who works for Wen Ruohan and just wants people to stop kinkshaming him for his homicidal tendencies.

These are all the characters you really have to known for the first arc (Sword Wizard school) and by the time you get to episode 6 or 7 you will have gotten used to the names and stuff, I promise. It just takes some time. The rest of the characters are introduced slowly, one at a time, so you don’t get as overwhelmed.

Anyway! I hope this helps! I would really recommend just skipping to the end of episode two (again, watch for Wei Wuxian fainting in a field, that’s your cue that the flashback is about to start) and watching from there, then when you get to the time skip, just go back and watch episodes 1 and 2.

Let me know if you have any questions as I’m always happy to answer them!

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All of them 🌿

Girl, you wanna break me so bad and not in the good way.

Here we go.

1. have you ever been in love?

Yes. Had my heart broken twice.

2. who is your favorite artist?

I forgot to mention before, but I love Monet.

3. what is your favorite music genre?

It may come out as a surprise, but I like k-pop.

4. have you ever had a penpal?

Yes. And I'd love to have more. It makes me happy to write letters and send simple gifts to other people.

5. are you single or in a relationship?

I've been single for a month. Not sure how I feel about it, but I think I may need to be alone for a while.

6. what color are your eyes?

Warm brown eyes.

7. what is your favorite word?

It depends on the language. In English, it's serendipity.

8. do you play any instruments?

Would love to, but I don't. Used to know a bit about drums, but now I've already forgotten everything.

9. what is your favorite color?

Every shade of green, but forest green and jade green are my favorites.

10. do you have any nicknames?

Mostly on the internet, people refer to me as "Flor", which means "flower" or "Faerie" (short for faerielian, my Twitter name or faeriegrimoire, my Instagram name). But my name Bia (or Bea if people prefer to call me that way) is short for Beatriz.

11. what is your favorite flower?

Besides stargazer lilies, I adore all kinds of roses, lavender, waterlilies, orchids, lotus flowers and sunflowers.

12. what qualities do you find attractive in a person?

Kindness, interest in music/books/art, love for nature, funny laugh, pretty smile, sense of humor, empathy, when the person is interested in communication instead of feeding conflicts, honesty, when the person acknowledges that everyone makes mistakes, including themself. Also, they must like cats.

13. do you have any pets?

Yes, three dogs and three cats.

14. have you ever traveled outside of your home country?

I've been to Uruguay twice.

15. what language(s) do you speak?

Portuguese, English, Spanish and Italian.

16. who was your first crush?

Either Xena, the warrior princess or Ariel, the little mermaid.

17. do you wear glasses?

Yes, they're brown and softly squared.

18. what is your favorite pastry?

Strawberry cake.

19. do you prefer swimming in a pool or in the ocean?

The ocean is much better.

20. bright, dark, or pastel colors?

I don't really mind nowadays, but I prefer dark colors.

21. what is your favorite social media app?

Instagram.

22. what is your sexuality?

Lesbian, demisexual.

23. do you have any siblings?

One younger brother.

24. what is your favorite scent?

Herbal scents, rose, strawberry.

25. where do you want to travel to?

Italy.

26. what is your favorite film?

The Lord Of The Rings, Practical Magic, Amélie, Pride and Prejudice, Studio Ghibli movies.

27. who do people say you look like? (celebrity/family member)

My mother, sometimes my father. No celebrity in particular, although I've been weirdly compared to Natalie Portman and Florence Welch.

28. who is your best friend?

On tumblr, it's @beenzene. In fact, Bee is one of my best friends, really.

29. what is your dream job?

At the moment, I don't really know.

30. do you know how to drive?

Not yet.

31. who is/was your favorite teacher?

Always the Biology teachers, but also the professor who taught me Zoology at uni.

32. are you a feminist?

Yes.

33. what is your zodiac sign?

Scorpio sun, Leo moon, Capricorn rising.

34. do you enjoy reading?

Yes, I love to read.

35. do you have any hidden talents?

Not that I'm aware of.

36. have you ever dyed your hair?

Multiple times. Right now it's 30% golden blonde and 70% green.

37. what is your favorite thing in your bedroom?

My bookshelf is nice.

38. what is your biggest fear?

I hate needles.

39. can you whistle?

Yes.

40. do you make your bed every day?

I only leave it undone when I'm feeling sad or when I get up late.

41. do you have any tattoos and/or piercings?

I only have my ears pierced twice. tried to add two more piercings each ear, but I needed to let them close.

42. have you ever been on a roller coaster?

Yes, it's called "my life".

43. surfing or skateboarding?

I'm not really interested in any of those, but both sound nice to watch.

44. are you a dog or a cat person?

I like both the same amount.

45. what is your favorite animal?

Frogs, cats, marine animals.

46. do you have a skincare routine?

Yes. Constantly wearing masks and fore shields is ruining my skin.

47. what time do you typically go to bed at and what time do you wake up at?

It depends on the day.

48. what is your favorite memory?

Not sure.

49. how tall are you?

I'm 160cm.

50. what is the best gift you’ve ever received?

Every gift is special.

51. do you have a garden?

Yes, I love plants.

52. do you like bugs?

I don't like all of them, but I respect them and avoid some of them.

53. what is your natural hair color?

Dark blonde.

54. what is your favorite food and drink?

Passionfruit juice and fried bananas.

55. do you want kids?

Yes, one day.

56. what is/was your favorite class?

Zoology.

57. what color shirt are you wearing?

Yellow.

58. if you could time travel, what year would you go to and why?

I have no idea. It doesn't sound safe for me anywhere.

59. what is your skin color?

White.

60. hugs or kisses?

Hugs.

61. have you ever drank alcohol?

Yes, but I don't anymore because of my medications for depression, panic syndrome and ADHD.

62. have you ever done drugs?

No.

63. netflix or youtube?

It depends on what I want to watch.

64. ice cream or frozen yogurt?

Ice cream. I don't like frozen yogurt.

65. succulents or flowers?

I like both, but I prefer flowers.

#beenzene #the bee to my flowers #answered

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kashleycoon · 3 years ago

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My COVID Experience... 2020

Firstly, I haven’t yet filled that new prescription. I’m feeling pretty good so far and haven’t seen a need to start a new medication when my moods have been pretty balanced. I’ve done some reading and apparently there’s quite a bit of overlap between ADHD and bipolar disorder which makes sense as to why I often feel that maybe I don’t actually have bipolar, but instead it’s just my ADHD. Although I was diagnosed by multiple professionals and I should probably just trust that they’re professionals for a reason.

Moving on...

January 2020, I suspect COVID-19 hit my household. It started when my youngest child came home from school feeling unwell. They were fevered, had little to no appetite and slept for what felt like a solid 3 days. Their fever remained within a safe zone and they displayed no other symptoms, though I did feel worried and had told my husband that on the 4th day if they were still unwell, I planned to take them to see the doctor. Luckily, the morning of the 4th day, my little one came bounding down the stairs with all the energy in the world, no fever and behaved as though nothing had taken place at all. My middle child on the other hand.... came down the stairs at a sluggish pace and knocked out on the couch before breakfast. The sickness only lasted about 2 days in my middle child before moving on to my eldest, who was pale and complained of a headache but was perfectly fine by the following day. My husband was hit similarly, looking very pale with chills and a headache. He too, was over it in a day. Unfortunately it was then my turn. and the virus was not so nice to me. I experienced a migraine worse than any I’d ever had, and a sensation within my lungs that felt as though I was drowning. I would cough until I was gagging. I would lose my breath just standing. My sinuses were on fire and would begin bleeding every time I blew my nose. I remember laying on the couch on my birthday feeling as though I was dying and crying to my husband that I needed some kind of relief... At the time, he thought I was just being dramatic.

The worst of it lasted about two weeks before the migraine finally let up and my coughing began to work to move the build up of fluid out of my lungs. I continued coughing until the following April when I finally felt as though I was mostly back to normal. Unfortunately, the following May, I had a vertigo attack. At first I thought it was just my eyes. Things seemed blurry and out of focus, sometimes I would see double. My grandmother asked if I would like to see her optometrist and try to figure this out, and so I did. We did find that I have an astigmatism in one eye, but not so severely that I’d need glasses. Beyond that, he informed me that my eyes were perfectly healthy. My vertigo continued to get worse and my friend told me that dizziness can be a symptom of COVID-19. I expressed that I was certain we had already had the virus but told her I would call my doctor, then did exactly that. He advised me to get tested and to my surprise the test came back positive. My family got tested after me and each of them came back negative. Unfortunately, while I was experiencing vertigo and prior to my getting tested or even thinking I needed to, my Mother-in-law brought over my brother-in-laws children to play with my children. Once my doctor advised I be tested, I sent a message to my brother-in-laws girlfriend to let her know what was going on and everything seemed to erupt into chaos from there. She accused me of doing this for attention, told me I needed to ‘get help’, and acted as though I had purposefully interrupted her life by getting sick. At the time, she was studying to be a nurse, but her reaction was anything but one of concern for anyone beyond herself. I don’t blame her for being concerned for her family, I was concerned about them too and I wish she had seen me coming to her from that angle rather than painting me in such a negative light. Under the weight of my own anxiety regarding the virus and the additional pressure of causing disruption to family members work lives and households, her blowing up at me caused me further distress and frequent panic attacks. And so began my quarantine. I carried around a bottle of bleach spray and vigilantly sprayed anything I touched outside of my bedroom on my way to and from the bathroom. My husband kindly brought up my computer and desk so I could pass the time with something, and in that time I taught myself to crochet. My COVID experience this time around wasn’t anything like having been sick in January. I didn’t develop a fever, nor headaches, and didn’t begin coughing until the end of my quarantine period. My biggest issue within quarantine was my heart rate and mental health. I experienced panic attacks daily. I couldn’t watch the news or read any articles about COVID without spurring on another and when my husband told me he’d tried to speak with his brothers girlfriend about the ordeal, that caused me anxiety as well. When my quarantine was over, I came out of it with a freshly crocheted little goldfish and a heartrate and oxygen monitor which would stay with me for another month.

And that cough I developed after quarantine? Has been with me since. to be continued....

#personal #deardiary #working through it #tough #anxiety #emotional distress #covid #virus #vertigo #depression #mental health #health #family #quarantine #hurt #healing #processing #bipolar #adhd

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cottoncandyskies7 · 5 years ago

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Euphoria girls character analysis: who I liked best, who I related to the most and who I aspire to be.

*DISCLAIMER: Euphoria is a show which deals with real issues such as abuse, sex, drugs, mental health and so on. It contains very graphic and mature scenes, therefore I suggest you don't watch this show if you are under 16 years old or you get triggered easily by the topics mentioned above. This post will contain spoilers. By this post I don't want, by any means, to glamorize, romanticize, normalize or glorify any of the character's situation or behaviour. This is purely my opinion and nothing more than that.*

♡Cassie: I know many people dislike Cassie and I totally get why, as there are many flaws in her character, but I still genuinely enjoyed her. She has a pretty tragic story; she hasn't seen her father in years and her mother is an alcoholic. Because of the absence of a father figure in her life, Cassie tends to fall in love with every guy she hooks up with; unfortunately, most of them don't want anything but sex from her and don't actually want to date her. Most people see her as a slut due to her reputation and she constantly gets objectified and sexualized by the men around her. On top of that, she never managed to achieve her biggest dream: becoming an ice-skater, as her father couldn't afford her lessons. I related a lot to ger character, as we both have self-esteem issues and we are always looking for validation from other people (something I've been working to improve lately). She definitely is a very flawed character, but she has been through a lot and I'm looking forward to her development in season 2!

♡Lexi: I really, really liked her! She is such a sweet and forgiving person and I'm really sad the producers didn't give her more screen-time! Although she doesn't have any major development or importance in the story, I managed to relate a lot to her, as we are both a little shy and awkward when it comes to meeting new people (I have no problem interacting with people I already know, and I can actually be very talkative.) I hope she receives a storyline or her own, maybe involving some romance in season 2!

♡Maddy: Oh boy, I really hate to love her character, but I can't help it! She is good-looking and she knows it, she can charm absolutely any guy into hooking up with her and she mainly focuses on the wild, unpredictable side of life and she always is the life of the party. She doesn't really focus on her future, which I personally think is an issue, as she doesn't have any interests and/or talents, so this is not beneficial for her at all! I also think she is very immature for trying to get back at Nate, despite acknowledging the fact that he is abusive towards her. I also tend to believe that she is slightly selfish (I'm all for being self-preserved and confident, but let's be fair, she didn't care much about her friends' lives), so I totally get why Kat roasted her towards the finale. In spite of all of her flaws, I still appreciate her glamour and sense of style and make-up and I totally aspire to having her confidence one day!

♡Jules: I don't really know where to begin with her character. She was my favourite character in the beginning, but all of the likeability I had her for her went down the toilet in the last two episodes of the series. So, let's start off with the good stuff. First of all, she is one of the most unique characters I've ever seen; from the way she dresses and does her make-up to her overall attitude. Yeah, I know many people might say that she is the embodyment of the manic pixie dream girl, but I personally think that there is so much more to her than just that. Second of all, she has a big heart and I tend to believe that she ignores the duties she has towards her own persona, in order to help others. She knows what suffering looks like; she was thrown into a mental asylum by her own mother when she was 11 and has sex with older men she meets via the Internet every night, putting herself in multiple dangerous situations throughout the season. Unfortunately, what truly made me lose respect for her in the last 2 episodes is the fact that she treats her romantic relationship with Rue in a very superficial manner and even calmly admits to cheating on her while she was visiting her friend. I'm 50/50 about their relationship at the moment; on one hand, they are absolutely adorable together, not to mention that Rue gives up doing drugs because she didn't want to lose Jules; on the other hand, there is too much toxicity coming from Jules and it really,really hurts me. I genuienly hope that she will get her shit together, and eventually get back with Rue in season 2!

♡Kat: Kat is a queen. Period.

Now seriously, she started out as this quirky, nerdy girl who was anonymously famous on the Internet for writing gay 1D fanfiction, though no one really knew her in real life. It's pretty crystal clear from the beggining of the show that her deepest struggle in life is her weight, which she has been bullied for for several years;not only by her classmates, but also indirectly by the principal. I feel like most of her character development is based off of that; but what I truly appreciate about it is the fact that we don't actually see her losing any weight, rather we watch her grow more and more confident in her own body as the series progresses. I think is important to mention, though, that the methods she uses to make herself more confident are not always healthy (she uploads videos of herself on porn sites, videochats and she always seeks for male approval in real life.) She definitely is a very flawed character-but let's be fair, who isn't in this series? (I think it's perfectly fine to like a fucked up character and even "borrow" traits from them, as long as you are aware that certain aspects of their behaviour are not normal.) To sum it up, I love her character growth, as well as overall vibe, and I can't begin to explain how happy I was when she finally kissed that guy from the carnival at prom(I can't remember his name lmao.) Kat deserves the world and more and that's that!

♡Rue: She is, for sure, my favourite character on the show. She is a recovering drug adduct who suffers from general anxiety, OCD, borderline personality disorder and bipolarity, ADHD and depression. I can't even begin explaining how much I lived the show through her character (we all know Zendaya is a queen, but this was outstanding)! Honestly, I wish I could write a more in depth analysis of this character, but the love I have for her is absolutely beyond words, so I suggest you go and watch the show and enjoy her yourself. All I have to say for now is that she has a beautiful character growth and I really wish she was my best friend in real life.

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