#also. WHERE IS THE SPICE for real!!
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dunetwo thoughts: cinematographically stunning. it goes so fucking hard. plot-wise it's kind of weaker than i expected, though? i don't care for incest nephew but WOW i do care for irulan. i liked chani much better than in the book. i love the women unhinged potential.
in short: visually pretty. plot & themes make me think "i can FIX HER". perfect combination to activate my fandom brain
#everyone who said this could've handled the colonialism themes SO much better was of course right#also. WHERE IS THE SPICE for real!!#when paul near the end threatens to blow up the spice reserves. i went like: oh right that's a big deal#and i'd known that!! but after 2 and a half hours i think the script should've reminded us more#dune
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hey does anyone have any soup recommendations for beginners. like. theoretically if I had never tried any soup other than tomato before. and also every other soup seems kind of gross to me and I am scared of most vegetables. and also âchunks in liquidâ sounds kind of grossâŚ.. but like I really enjoy soup as a concept???? and wish I could enjoy it more for real. but ohhgghhhh ohh itâs so scary.
basically does anyone have any suggestions for super simple, tasty soup to try that might be suitable for someone with a lot of sensory issues??? no chunks or minimal is a bonus but I understand itâs not always common. I just want to be part of your world⌠(soup world)
#vegetable flavors are Scary but maybe something with a focus on other flavors like spice or like garlic and onion or something???#so that itâs not just Vegetable you feel me#Iâve also had potato soups recommended to me so maybe Iâll try that sometime#Iâm just struggling with where to start on my soup journey bc they all seem so gross I gotta be real đđđ#but likeâŚ. Hot Liquid as a savory meal sounds soooo good and cozy. in my mind.#until I remember what soup is like in real life and then I am like oh! I would rather choke and starve!#anyways. sorry. Iâm not a soup hater just a soup fearer#but I would like to Understand
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not attaching this to that post because obvioulsy the unexamined colonialism is more important than like. nitpicking historical details. but also its such a shame so many fantasy settings are so incurious about actual medieval european food because its so much more diverse and interesting than a bland assumption that everyone is eating either a big cartoon roast Meat⢠or a potato stew and thats all there was. like im not a food history expert at all but ive been to reenactor banquets prepared by people who Are and these guys are out here doing the absolute most. making reproduction menus from specific stories or events and reconstructing recipes from extant medieval cookbooks (that are just online for free btw!) and re-building awareness of local native staple ingredients that have been all but lost (in this case lost largely due to the cultural impositions of that same colonial empire) and learning how to grow historically common fruit and veg that has been left behind. your modern day diet is probably more monotonous in terms of veggies than an average medieval irish person's but you'd never think so going by any fiction thats ostensibly set pre-1500
idk i just think if u Are writing a medieval-europe-based setting this information is pretty accessible and makes your world more interesting and more real and its FUN, so resorting to the genre classics of Ambiguous Potato Dish is genuinely lazy. sorry.
#ofc using real historical inspo would also require thinking about trade connections to the rest of the world which is not europe#because the spices are sooo important for medieval foods#but a lot of fantasy settings are (intentonal or not) just looking for a point where europeans had no knowledge or link to anywhere else#which has never been the case ever so of course that reads hollow#i wish i could remember the spiel about the native irish staple foods from when i was helping out at a public demo about it#bc it was so cool and itneresting#noneuropean tangent so im not including it in the actual post:#also truly will never stop thinking about the medieval western mongol feast#that was so good and the guy who cooked it had like basically a whole research paper explaining each dish and its context#which is pretty normal for these events but thats the biggest one i went to so it was especially impressive#a
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Space Pirate + tree, please!
See, the thing was, right, he knew what it was. Like, objectively, he absolutely did. He might not have gotten the education Mister Fancy over there got (just because he was supposed to be on the ship, not the children of people who hid in the cargo), but he did read books. He knew what a tree was.
But man, that thing was massive. It dwarfed the four of them, branches extending out in all directions, at least twice as big around as him.
He moved without thinking, scrambling up the tree, ignoring the way the bark dug into his palms. It was much more textured than the shiny metal of the ship, much easier to hold onto as he pulled himself up. Higher, higher, not giving a thought to the ground; there was only up.
It was.... Okay, he could admit it: it was pretty. Maybe even beautiful, or whatever. From all the stories he'd heard up top, this place should've been a wasteland, but Allie's peeps... For all that the way they treated her was messed up, they'd done a good job with the land. Everywhere, as far as the eye could see, fields of vibrant green.
Ryn would love it up here.
Not letting himself overthink it, he called down to her (and whoa, okay, he was a little higher than he realized), "Hey, Ryn, come check this out!"
Her answer came with a laugh that did nothing to disguise her terror: "No thanks, I don't really do heights!"
Well. He'd have to help her with that sooner or later, but in the meantime... He grabbed a leaf, the most vividly green one he could find, and made his way back down, way less gracefully than he'd ever admit.
"Here ya go!" He held out the leaf, and Ryn grinned, tucking it behind her ear without hesitation. And... Yeah. She was beautiful.
#answered#thanks for the ask!#accidental-spice#three post apoc#this is my second fic with space pirate. and my second fic where he climbs on something.#apparently part of his character is now 'i was born in space and now i'm on the ground and i'd Like To Not Be'#my fics#my writing#mine#also HEYYYY two of them have at least placeholder names#allie is just trying to survive#ryn is the whimsy doc#who has yet to have any real whimsy. sorry girlie pop. you'll get there.#gnawing on these prompts#thank you for the enrichment in my enclosure
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Hey, a shy mutual here, I love reading your tags on stuff, they always make you sound like you're in the middle of a manic episode or some other psychotic state, and that's exactly the sort of shit I stay on tumblr for đđđ you're doing.the Lord's work
wdym âsound likeâ ? đđ
#asked#anonymous#queen itâs bc i AM !!!!! đđđđđ#iâve been twitching all day from either dehydration hunger or both & iâm still refusing to eat#like ok real stimulant users get it âŚ. u know when u been up like 30hrs & u havenât eaten at all & ur so tired & itâs like ur muscles in ur#neck are literally having spasms trying to keep ur head up bc ur body is so exhausted & starved#u can just dm btw like will i respond ? probably ! the same day ? week ? month ? we will find out â¤ď¸#i literally just talked to raid again yesterday since october 13 bc iâve been constantly panicking & too busy to respond at all#âtoo busyâ girl ur just being crazy & doing shit u SHOULDNT#also i think the jeeters i usually get have switched to spice i think their real weed money ran out ALSKALSKALKSLAKSAKSL#idk like a real thc oil isnât supposed to be running and viscous at room temperature itâs supposed to be slow & thick like glue or syrup &#shut shit is FLUIDDDDDDD#i think itâs just cut honestly w what lord knows but u can tell like they donât include the microusb or the little antishatter sponge in the#packs but itâs fine idc im still smokin it im high im happy im going to kill myself i swear to god anyway not the point#where was i going w this#i donât remember
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need more mechs fics about their blatant disregard for human life
#ones where they're all empathetic and sad about worlds dying are all well and good#but like. its pretty clear in like every bit of canon content that they dont do that#they see real events as stories#and commit lots of bloody murder to spice em up#more brutal acts of mass violence in my mechs fics please#they deserve it#the mechanisms#the mechs#this is all lighthearted btw#in the sense that yes i do want this but i am also devouring soft mechs fics#ALSO this isn't about inter mechs violence#uh i should add tw tags probably#idk what though#bloody murder#violence#saymbles
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The episodes at the baratie are good if you ignore the big fucking elephant in the room that is sanji. Which is you know not a thing that can be easily ignored
#and everything is so in your face have we tried subtetly#those boots are ugly af zoro.... not a boot transition....#sanji made riceballs............ there is zosan even before they talk to each other.... it is real to me......#there is zosan everywhere for those with the eyes to see it#the waddy itchy monkey#luffy spirialing ajdhajshssjj my boy.....#their meeting is so ass.......the oregano callback....#they need to get okay with hitting children sometimes or we arent making it to wano#zeff lost his spice double belt in the storm :(((#you know they could have gotten away with it if sanji just witnessed zoros fight... like that is the whole point.... zosan moment missing#critical one even#luffy listening to a backstory OOC!!!!!!#koby telling garp luffy will always be a pirate.... where is his fist of love#nami saying she always ends up hurting the people close to her.... that is NOT it#sanji didnt need to take off his shirt for that....#no soft measures we will capture them. what was the plan before lmao#theyve got brunch at the baratie so modern#this was funny at least. I AM LEAVING WITH LUFFY. SURE YOU HAVE MY PERMISSION. and they are both still angry#well you know luffy abandonment issues in here are done early and big#also where is carne#talking tag#watching opla#like sanji leaves put of spite... is that it...#literally sanji and zeff watching zoro fight and making two comments would have fixed it.... bc sanji would understand there why zeff#wants him gone.... without zeff explaining it
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Popular person in the CRK fandom also vibing with the concept of Yandere Spice having a one-sided toxic crush/infatuation with Golden Cheese, exactly like me:
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But also, I've been on Yandere Spice timing for ages now, I AM A PIONEER, I INVITED YOU ALL TO MY PARTY MONTHS AGO AND YOU'RE ALL LATE, GET ON MY LEVEL, YOU DAMN SCRUBS /j
Seriously though, if anyone is picking up what Cuppa is putting down here, I'd love to offer my works as a supplement. I have two Yandere Spice fics on here, plus several on my AO3 (name's in my About Me), AND a general Yandere Beasts AU I'm tinkering with still. You want horrifying toxicity, I'm your guy lmao
yknow while I donât subscribe to golden cheese x burning spice, I think Spice having an unrequited, toxic crush on cheese is a fun and scary angle
(yap below, tw for possessive/obsessive themes)
Spice wouldnât have taken her seriously before and during BY 5 and 6, seeing her as little more than a thief with squandered potential that he just wants to see changed. Sheâs not supposed to be weak, heâs supposed to be a legitimate adversary. Heâs bored, and sheâs supposed to excite him! Itâs why heâs mad when she gets her ass handed to him, and why heâs elated when he learns she escaped her birdcage. That burning anticipation for a reunion continues throughout the story, with Spice hunting her down for their (what he assumes) final fight, not wanting to waste any more moments without her in his sight. Sure, he believes heâll kill her then and there, and go on to destroy everything she holds dear. Itâs par for the course for all the heroes heâs seen and slain. Sheâs more special, a little different, but the same. Itâs even looking like that when he finally tracks down and battles her, seeing the lost queen desperate and hanging on by a thread.
But then she puts up a fight. She defies his expectations. She turns into something more powerful than he could ever fathom and Spice isnât even mad, heâs not horrified, heâs ecstatic. The most ecstatic heâs likely ever been in centuries to millennia. Finally, finally, Spice has something new. After a long and tired quest to make his life more interesting, he has it. And then the temple collapses on him, and his new light disappears. Itâs not the end of the road for him, though, no. He laughs under the rubble. Itâs clear heâs not given up, and he wants to see her again. He will see her again. He must see her again.
Spice never stops thinking of the day Cheese came back from the edge of death and teased him with power that heâs desperate to get a taste of. He wanted her to be entertaining, and he almost doubted her, but she proved to be it and more. She surprised him. She amused him. She, just like his addiction to destruction, provided an avenue to cure his boredom. His imagination runs wild with ideas of what she could do and how she could entertain him, his bird, just like she did back then. He wants to lock her up again and watch her plow through his underlings again. He could play other dangerous games just to see how sheâd do. And he wants another fight, he wants to see her on the edge, but then what? What other surprise could she give him? She could find a way for him, or else heâll just force her to find a way for him. Maybe her new wings could be torn off too, and sheâll once again crawl and struggle until she rises up stronger than ever. Because sheâs full of those surprises, isnât she? They can do this forever. As immortals, they have all the time in the world for each other.
I like to think that Spice isnât fully aware of his feelings for her, but heâs aware of how she makes him feel. The thought of her and her power makes his jam boil and chest flare with tingling heat. Remembering her limp in his clutch makes his dough tingle with fervor. Maybe he notices that his breath hitches in the smallest way when he thinks of how sheâs somewhere out there, waiting for him. Itâs something not even destruction could make him feel, no, the little bird is above that. She makes him feel this way and he likes it. He wants more. Spice wants to keep her, plain and simple. He had her in his grasp once, and she ran away with the promise of more. He wants more. He wants it. He wants her. And maybe, if he takes away everyone sheâs ever known and loved, sheâll have no one but him. His little bird, his to entertain him forever.
Cheese is absolutely none the wiser to this, and sheâll be in for a hell of a ride when their paths cross once more.
#i also enjoy exploring dark and toxic elements in relationships via fiction. none of it is real so it's fine#obviously this behavior is abhorrent irl and I condemn it the same as anyone else#fiction enables us to explore dark things like that without any real people being harmed#also haha shameless self-promotion go brrr#also also I have fics where Spice is NOT a psycho freak if anyone would rather read those instead lol
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favorite things from Breaking Bad VR But The AI Is Self-Aware, aside from the obvious stuff like the music, the ending, and walt being haunted by the specter of the breaking bad poster:
in general, the stark difference between the people who clearly know the scenes and the actual lines from the show and the people who either don't know or don't care, and the way wayne has to roll with it and constantly shift between both styles
as one of the youtube comments put it, the way walt's agency is downplayed by the railroading of the plot and the way his most heinous acts (letting jane die, poisoning brock, etc.) are largely skipped over make many moments where characters turn on walt and attack him feel comically unprovoked, which makes it feel like the version of the story walt would tell to make himself look better
mining the giant crystal for meth
the fact that they made "drives an el camino" at least 70% of skinny pete's personality
the sudden extreme yellow filter that appears when they cross over the clearly marked mexico border
the bit where they straight up just play the saul goodman commercial from the show on jesse's tv via youtube, but then someone switches it to the "you're not a real lawyer" scene from better call saul and they're all just so caught off guard that they kinda just start watching the scene. and then they just ignore what chuck is saying about his brother and let the quality of the cinematography alone convince them to hire saul
hank suddenly appearing in the car for a split second when walt, jesse, and saul are driving back from the desert, and to avoid completely derailing the plot wayne just looks down and clutches his head and says "cancer did that"
jesse saying he can do anything walt can do better and playing the breakcore breaking bad theme remix and wayne just goes "damn! damn!" and starts dancing
the fact that there's an extra salamanca cousin to make them triplets for no particular reason
the whole jane subplot isn't depicted so the plane crash above walt's house becomes a complete non sequitur
baaulp referencing the spice curls
they skip over the events of fly, but the map references it by having a giant fly in the superlab, which is labeled with an arrow so you can't miss it
jesse's drug-fueled house party having this playing on loop in the background
the homoerotic moment walt has with one of the salamanca triplets at the party in mexico, and also the one he has later with saul
to sidestep the whole neo-nazi thing in their lighthearted gmod stream they instead give uncle jack a gang of clowns and an evil circus (playing off of the vamanos pest fumigation tents, i assume), clearly labeled Uncle Jack's Evil Circus
since they skip the whole train heist they just have drew sharp show up at vamanos pest looking for some tiddlywinks
everything that happens with huell when walt is trying to explain to saul that hank figured everything out
and, of course, saul being chased off by the undead chuck mcgill
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pop that cherry
a/n: woop woop! here's the little slutty story that you guys voted for when i asked what you wanted to see happen next in this au ŕ§ŕ
summary: âhey, I get it,â he flashed you a comforting smile, âIâm a complete stranger. You just shook my hand two seconds ago and now weâre expected to bang in front of a bunch of other people you also donât know,â his broad thumb swept over your knuckles, âyou just have to decide if you wanna pack up your things, go home and chalk this up to just a fun experience, a lesson learned about what corners your sexuality and such does and does not stretch to,â he uttered with sincerity, âor you can come back inside and we can make some magic happen. Itâs up to you.âÂ
warnings: camgirl!reader x various, pornstar!ari levinson, roommate!bucky barnes, porn director!bruce banner, smut, porn au, college au, readerâs porn name is cherry blossom (UrLittleCherry), filming pornography, reader's first time doing professional porn, kissing, masturbation, toys, oral, fingering, voyeurism, exhibitionism, dirty talk, size kink (pornstar!ari is famous for his monster cock, you're welcome), belly bulge, manhandling, multiple orgasms, squirting, penetrative sex, unprotected sex, facial
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Curled up and melted on your mattress, you absentmindedly scrolled through your phone. Your puffy pussy, hidden between your still trembling thighs, clenched in dull soreness from the fuck machine frozen by your feet and still glistening from the show youâd put on only moments earlier.Â
âHey, pretty girl,â a familiar voice emanated from your doorway, âI didnât know you were done streaming.â
Lazily blinking up at Bucky as he leaned against the frame, âyeah, just signed off a few minutes ago,â you exhaled, âdid you just get home?â the question flowed from your lips and he swiftly nodded in confirmation, âhow was class?âÂ
âOh my god, donât get me started,â your roommate let out a groan and pushed himself off the wall, his stride swiftly carrying him the short distance to where you laid and plopped himself down beside you.
A soft smile tugged at the corners of your lips as you felt him press a slow peck to your exposed shoulder.Â
âDo you need help lifting the toy back in the closet orâ,â Buckyâs kind offer was then cut short by the shuttering gasp that suddenly crawled out of your lungs.Â
âOh my god,â your eyes grew to the size of saucers as you stared down at the message youâd opened on your phone, âoh my god!â
âWhat? What is it?â he propped himself up on a forearm to peek over your shoulder.Â
âIââŚâ your eyes scanned the email wildly, âthis canât be real, right?â you cast a glance back at your friend.Â
âLet me have a look,â and you swiftly handed him your phone before hearing him skim through it, âdear miss Cherry Blossom, bla, bla, blaâŚÂ we here at Smash Studios really love your vibe and were wondering if you would ever consider doing professional pornography, because if so, then we would love to work with you,â his blue eyes flickered a moment longer over the screen before they fluttered up to meet yours, âno, I think itâs legit.â
âHoly shitâŚâ you breathed, an airy giggle then bubbled out of you as this was quite the news to take in, even when one wasnât still hazy from haven fucked one silly in front of hundreds of people.Â
âYou think you wanna do it?â
âBeautiful, gorgeous! And look right here, up there, yeah, thatâs itâŚâÂ
Sharp clicks shuttered the camera and shot throughout the massive house as a photographer snapped the last of the stills for the shoot. You were posed perched and kneeling on a bed with your right hand buried in the already tiny crop top, youâd brought as one of the outfit options, and held up high to reveal your tits.Â
The groan of floorboards creaking then found your ears and your gaze swiftly fluttered towards the door where the salt-and-pepper-haired man, who youâd come to learn was the head of the little porn studio, crossed over the threshold.Â
âHow are we doing in here?â Bruce adjusted his glasses before stepping further into the room.Â
âI think weâre about done,â the photographer lowered the camera from his eye and cast a glance to his boss, âthink we got the shot.â
âGreat,â Bruce clapped his shoulder as the other man passed by and exited the room. As you tugged the short t-shirt back down into place, you met Bruceâs gaze before he asked you, âhow are you doing? You ready?â
Though your mind was way too preoccupied to offer him an answer and instead blurted, âhas he arrived?â as you scooted off the bed and felt the tiny shorts you wore ride up enough for your grasp to float down to adjust.Â
âNot yet, Iâm sorry,â he tilted his head, âtrust me when I say that he isnât usually this late. He wouldnât have the stellar reputation he does if he was. But we can still begin without him and just fix it in post if youâreââ
Someone then poked their head and announced, âhey Banner? Heâs here. I just spotted his bike roll up the driveway.â
Feeling your heart thump in your chest, you heard Bruce clap his palms together, âgreat!â before you followed him out of the bedroom and through the pristine halls of the rented modern mansion.Â
Just before your bare feet began to conquer the long staircase, your absentminded grip tightened on the glass railing as you looked down at the open living room, clearly visible from the wide balcony, and spotted the figure that then sauntered in.Â
âSo sorry Iâm late, traffic was literal hell.â
Ari Levinson.Â
With sun-kissed brunette locks flowing from his head and a motorcycle helmet nuzzled under his burly arm, the infamous pornstar was not only blessed with a smile that could make anyone swoon, but also a dick so huge that any sane person would be downright terrified by the idea of having it split them apart.Â
Though that wasnât what had stopped you in your tracks, what had made your palms embarrassingly clammy when he soon shook one of them once youâd somehow made your way down the stairs.Â
Why did your very first partner have to be someone youâd obsessively been getting off to for years?Â
You were barely listening to what the people around you were saying as you couldnât rip yourself out of the trance youâd snapped into.Â
âIâm sorry, what?â you soon blinked, trying to avert your gaze.Â
âI asked if you were ready,â Bruce patiently repeated.Â
ââŚfor?â you breathed, feeling as if you were inside of a giant ethereal cheese bell, making the entire world around you seem blurry.Â
âFor the shoot,â Bruceâs words still flew straight over your head, âI said that I was thinking that Iâd do the filming myself, if that could make you more comfortable since youâve already met me. That way itâll just be me, the two of you and then Sam in the corner doing audio.â
âO-okayâŚâ you said quietly, feeling your cheeks heat up as Ari let his gaze linger over you, an observant brow soon twitching as he spoke up.Â
âWait, actually,â he placed a palm on Bruceâs forearm, halting him as he reached for the bulky camera resting on the white couch, âdo you mind if I grab a quick smoke break first?â
âYeah, sure,â he nodded, âletâs just all take five before we begin.â
It caught you completely off guard when the object of your distraction walked by you and paused to murmur in your ear, âcome with me outside for a second, will you?â
Shadowing him all the way out of the tall glass door and onto the terrace, you watched him lean his frame against the fence and tilt his body for you to slot in beside him.Â
âI donât actually smoke,â you uttered softly as you let your fingers ghost over the railing.Â
âOh, neither do Iâ, or well, thatâs not completely true, I do, just didnât need one right now.âÂ
âSo then why did you ask for a smoke break?â you cocked a brow.Â
Blowing out a swift breath, Ari then twisted to face you more and gazed directly down at you.Â
âYou mind if I hold your hand?â he held out his own palm.
âOh, uhm,â your glance flickered down to his upturned hand before you carefully placed your own atop of it, âokay.â
His warm fingers swiftly engulfed your own as his stare stayed fast upon you.
âSo, this is your first time, huh?â
âOh, no, I'm not a virgin, IââÂ
âI meant porn, sweetheart,â he tilted his head to be more at your level.Â
âRight,â you averted your gaze as butterflies soared in your stomach, âyeah, I havenât really done this before⌠I mean, Iâve some stuff, Iâve cammed for a pretty long time now and even recorded custom videos for some people, but no, I havenât really taken this step beforeâŚâÂ
You were staring down at his large hand engulfing yours as he then said, âyou know, itâs okay if you donât wanna go through with it. This field isnât for everyone, in fact, only very few thrive in this environment, and if itâs not for you, then itâs okay.â
âOh, no,â your eyes flickered up to find his as you urged, âI wanna do this, I really do. Iâm sorry, I guess I just kinda got a bit more nervous than I expected.âÂ
âHey, I get it,â he flashed you a comforting smile, âIâm a complete stranger. You just shook my hand two seconds ago and now weâre expected to bang in front of a bunch of other people you also donât know,â his broad thumb swept over your knuckles, âyou just have to decide if you wanna pack up your things, go home and chalk this up to just a fun experience, a lesson learned about what corners your sexuality and such does and does not stretch to,â he uttered with sincerity, âor you can come back inside and we can make some magic happen. Itâs up to you.âÂ
âSo, Cherry,â Bruce purred behind the camera as he knelt on the floor beside where you sat at the foot of the bed, âI canât believe we finally convinced you to come have some fun with us. I gotta tell you, you are just a fucking dream come trueâŚâ
âOh, thank you,â you smiled, kicking your feet slightly as they dangled over the edge.Â
âBut you must get that all the time, I mean, look at you.â
âIt has been known to happen on occasion,â you chuckled, thinking back to all of the lewd compliments the viewers of your streams generously tossed at you.Â
âSo, a little birdy told me that this is your very first time fucking on camera. Is that true?â
âYeah, it is,â you bit down on your bottom lip, âIâm so ready to pop that cherry.â
âOh, you are, are you?â he smirked, panning the bulky camera over your frame as you tilted your head in a nod, âyouâre just ready to show the whole world what a perfect slut you are?â
âThink itâs about time,â you giggled in response.Â
âWell, then why donât you do something for me and stand up?â he shifted back a bit as you got up from the bed, âand now, Iâve already seen it, but can you please turn around and show everyone how fucking perfect your ass is?â a grin stayed fast on your face as you slowly spun around. Your butt was barely covered in the tiny shorts that clung around your hips, so when you twisted and let the camera catch that part of you, Bruce quietly groaned, âwowâŚâ and he shifted his grip to let one of his hands float up towards you, âcan I touch you?âÂ
âSure,â you arched your back a bit to make his palmâs journey that much shorter.Â
âDamn⌠this has got to be one of the greatest booties Iâve ever seen in my entire life,â he offered your softness a brief squeeze. His fingers first dented one cheek, then the next, before his grip caught your waistband and tugged your shorts up just a tad bit more, making the fabric momentarily rub against your covered pussy.
His flat palm then scooped around your hips and guided you back to face the camera.
âDo you wanna see my boobs?â you smiled as you blinked down at him with big doe eyes, your hands gently grazing over the hem of your crop top.
âOh, yes, please,â he virtually begged as he let his warm palm stay glued to your waist.Â
Peeking down, you slowly lifted the shirt up and let your tits quite literally spill out as they jiggled slightly from the release of how fiercely you let the cotton graze over your skin.Â
âJesus christâŚâ you heard him utter as your palms fluttered down to play with them, squeezing the soft peaks gently before Bruceâs fingers sneaked up to pinch one of your nipples.
Once youâd put on a show and pushed the tiny shorts down your legs, the crotch of which had been slightly soaked since you werenât wearing any panties underneath, you rested back down on the bed and spread your legs wide for the camera, grinning as the older man asked you to play with yourself.Â
âOh my god⌠I gotta tell you, I am so hard right now,â you watched how intently he stared at the small monitor, getting a closeup of how your fingers rubbed your little clit, âyou have no idea how tough it is not to just fuck you right now, itâs crazyâŚâ
âOh yeah?â you giggled, the melody of your want echoing throughout the room at every teasing touch you offered yourself, âhow bad do you wanna fuck me?â
âSo fucking badâŚâ he uttered in a nearly hypnotise tone.Â
Continuing to circle your puffy pearl, your fingers briefly dipped down to tease your entrance, only shyly slipping inside before you swept back up.Â
âYou know what?â Bruce said as he then began to twist a bit to get the open door to the room into frame, âI have a little surprise for you,â and perfectly on queue, Ari appeared at the threshold, burly chest on show with just a pair of jeans hanging low on his hips.Â
His stride was slow as he only stayed in the doorway a moment before sauntering over to where you sat, melted back and resting against the one forearm that propped you up.Â
âHey,â he smiled and plucked up your face as soon as it was within reach.Â
âHi,â you managed to utter just before he bent down and pressed his lips to yours in an unhurried and gentle kiss.Â
He kissed you as if he had all the time in the world, like some dude wasnât pressing a bulky camera closer to the intimate act, but like he was the lead in a PG romcom.Â
When Ari withdrew, he let himself linger in your warmth, ever so slightly nuzzling his nose against your own as your fingers kept up the dizzying pattern you drew between your parted thighs. Tilting his head, his touch traced the length of your arm till his reach came down to aid your efforts, making you gasp from the way he caressed you.Â
âYou,â he nudged his nose gently against your own, âlook like youâre in need of some cock in that little mouth of yours.â
Letting out a soft chuckle, you said, âyou read my mind,â before popping the button of his jeans and tugging the zipper down. Even though youâd seen his famed cock numerous times on screen before, it truly was something else to witness it in person. A breathy, âholy shit,â left your lips as you tried to wrap your fingers around his girth, though he only let out a soft laugh at the way your eyes grew wide.Â
Ceasing the caress he drew between your thighs, he instead grabbed the base of his heavy length with his fingers still glossy from your arousal. As you stuck out your flat tongue, he tapped the weight against you for a second before you tilted your chin and wrapped your lips around the bulbous head. Â
As you disappeared into the meditative motion of slobbering all over his cock, gradually taking more and more of his intimidating length, your frame twisted to lay on your side and face him more.Â
Blinking up into his hooded eyes as the corners of your lips burned from the severe stretch, you felt his hips begin to move, rolling to meet your every bob, till his fingers tangled in your hair and he got to take over completely, fucking your face till slobber dribbled down your chest and rained down on your crop top, still tugged up and framing your tits.Â
His free hand then snaked its way back down your body and cracked your legs open wide for the camera to see as he plugged your pussy up with two of his fingers, making you moan around his girth as the tip of him bruised your throat.Â
When he yanked your mouth off of his cock, he did so with a gravelly growl, like he could have lived in your silky warmth and it pained him to say goodbye so soon.Â
âCome here,â he grabbed you and flipped you around for your frame to face him as his feet stayed planted on the side of the bed. Kicking his jeans the rest of the way off, you panted up at him as you scooted even closer, nearly letting your butt hang off the mattressâ edge as you laid already crumbled and folded before him, utterly bewitched by the anticipation of what his legendary size must feel like stretching your poor pussy out.Â
Shimmery spiderwebs of your nectar clung to him as he then let you feel the weight of him tap against your puffy pearl, briefly skimming through your folds before he found your eyes and tipped down, nudging to catch your weeping entrance.Â
âOh my g-godâŚâ you gasped, all of the air escaping your body to accommodate as he slowly pressed just the tip inside. Your cunt clung around his dick as he gave you a second to catch your breath. Your pulse throbbed in your pussy as your silky walls moulded around him and your thighs gently trembled from the intensity of it all.Â
âFuck,â he groaned as he gave you another inch, âyou feel so good,â gently stuffing more of his length inside.Â
His grip dented your trembling thighs as he held you open for the camera to see how you struggled to take his cock. Even when the tip of him kissed your cervix and made you feel as if he was all the way up in your fucking throat, when you hazily gazed down to see where he split you apart, there was still a generous inch of him that your little pussy just couldnât take.Â
As your eyes lingered a little longer, you too caught sight of how a dull bulge formed in the lower part of your belly, perfectly timed with each of his mind-numbing thrusts.Â
When you then tumbled over the edge, nearly blind from the overwhelming pleasure, your pussy couldnât help but accidentally gush around Ariâs girth, simply because of how mind-boggling he felt.Â
âOh, shit,â you panted. Still in your orgasmic daze, you swiftly cast a worried glance up at Bruce steady behind the camera, âIâm sorry,â you briefly broke the scene as Ari too paused his movements as you breathlessly spoke, âI really tried not to squirt, I know that wasnât part of todayâs plan, butâ, fuckâŚâ your eyes fluttered up to find Ariâs, âyour dickâs just so goddamn big,â you hazily giggled.Â
âDonât worry, sweetheart,â Bruceâs voice washed over you as you watched a smile tug at Ariâs lips, âthat was just an unplanned bonus.â
âWait, so youâre not mad?â your neck twisted to cast a glance at the director.Â
âNo,â he swiftly shook his head and flashed you a reassuring smile to calm the obvious anxiety that had bubbled up inside of you.Â
âOh, good,â you let out a sigh, âsorry, I just got nervous for a second. Okay, alright, we can keep going.â
âYou good?â Ari checked before he cracked out of his frozen form.Â
âYep, yep, Iâm okay, Iâm wonderful,â you chuckled and let the last bit of nerves wash away.Â
âAlright,â he dipped down to press a soft kiss to your lips, before his hands guided your arms around his neck, slinking them around him.Â
His grasp then scooped down under you and he effortlessly plucked you up off the bed, a shy yelp bubbling up from your lungs as he picked your frame up to cradle you in his arms, his massive cock still lodged inside of you, though when he settled you in his strong hold, it felt as if he found a mystical way to slide even deeper.Â
Moans flowed from your lips and vibrated against his skin as your neck soon gave up and lent your cheek to smoosh against his fuzzy chest.Â
âThere you go,â he stood up tall and bounced you in his arms like you were a toy, just a cocksleeve for him to get off with, âthere you fucking goâŚâ
As he picked up the pace and truly gave you a taste of how a real pornstar pounded a pussy for the camera, your eyes screwed shut tight and you felt yourself float away on a cloud, curled up in Ariâs burly arms and surrounded in a storm of your collective moans. The existence of the video camera even faded from your reality as you peeled your eyes open and peeked up at Ari from the pillow of his pec, knowing full well that he too could feel how you began to clench around his cock once more.Â
âYou gonna cum again?â he repeatedly lifted you up and down on his fat girth, âyou gonna be a good girl and cream all over my cock, huh?â
Blinking up at him, your brows crinkled in pleasure as you nodded, âuh-huh.â
âYou think you can squirt again for me?â his grip dug into the plush of your ass hard enough for it to leave marks.Â
âI-I donât knowââ
âOh, I think you can,â he switched up his pattern, slowing down slightly and dragging you all the way up till his cock nearly slipped out of you, only to sink you back down in such a rough, yet intensely slow manner, that it made your eyes roll in your skull, âjust listen to that,â he smirked at the soft sloshing sound that sinfully echoed as his fat girth repeatedly slid against your g-spot, virtually bullying it till you surrendered, âitâs like sheâs begging me to just spend the rest of the day making her gush over and over again until you fucking pass outâŚâ
A shrill cry escaped your form as you let go once more, shaking in Ariâs grasp as Bruce knelt down to capture your sinful drizzle. Â
You nearly felt drunk, like you were hours into the best party of your life, when you eventually found yourself planted on the floor, quaking legs unsteady beneath you as you blinked up at Ari, looming above you and furiously fucking his fist.Â
âYou want me to cum all over that pretty little face?â he grunted as you hazily stuck out your tongue.Â
âYes,â the corners of your lips blissfully curled up into a grin, âpleaseââ
Even though your bones had turned into jelly and your pussy clenched in soreness, the drawn-out moan that rumbled in Ariâs chest as hot ropes of his cum then shot out and painted your features sent tingles throughout your body and filled you with a desire to just wrestle him back down onto the mattress, hit rewind and do it all over again.Â
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Traditions | Feyd-Rautha x Reader
REQUEST: As Feyd-Rautha's wife-to-be, you have moved to the Harkonnen homeworld to await your wedding. You're doing your best to adhere to their customs, but when a supposed doctor examines your 'purity,' Feyd-Rautha's reaction is anything but calm.
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WARNINGS: SA in a medical setting (not graphic but also more than just implied), canon typical violence (also not graphic)
Harkonnen customs were strange.
Harkonnens were strange.
Everything about Giedi Prime felt alien to youâits black sun, bathing the world in infrared; its barren landscape, polluted and abused by years of unbridled industry; and, perhaps most of all, its nobility, the Baron and his his nephew, Feyd-Rautha.
âA Harkonnen?â You had choked out when your parents informed had you of the decision. You had been in disbelief, as if reality had come to slap you in the face. All you had ever known was your homeworld and the comforts of the family palace, on a planet that was lush and beautiful. Everything you had ever heard of the Harkonnen homeworld was the oppositeâharsh and inhospitable, its people even more so. You had resisted the information initially, refusing to believe that your life was changing so suddenly and so dramatically.
But, ever the dutiful daughter, you stood and met the na-Baron when he arrived, openly staring at his appearance while another Harkonnen introduced him. Feyd-Rautha was extremely pale, his skin nearly white, and, like the rest of the delegation from Giedi Prime, he was hairless. He did not even have eyebrows, and as your father welcomed him to your world, you wondered if he was truly hairless, everywhere.
As your thoughts wandered, the na-Baronâs eyes slid to you, meeting yours. You suddenly felt as though you had been caught doing something naughty, the way he looked at you, drinking you in, tilting his head slightly as he appraised you.
âIs the na-Baron pleased with what he sees?â You spoke up in a moment of bravery.
His eyes raked over your body and he smirked, making a rough sound you assumed might be a laugh.
âOh yes, princess.â His voice was just as harsh as youâd expected. âVery.â
Feyd-Rautha spent a week on your planet, courting you in the ways of your House. He presented you with gifts of refined spice and Harkonnen riches, knives and strangely austere jewelry. He walked with you in the evenings, where you spoke of mundane things, unsure of what you were meant to do in his presence exactly, and he watched you like a hawk hunting a field mouse. When the week was up, you accompanied him back to Giedi Prime to prepare for the wedding, leaving your homeworld behind.
Feyd-Rautha was less well behaved when not surrounded by the members of another House. He was an unsettling, panther-like man, always on the hunt for something to killâŚand when you arrived on his planet, you saw that he sometimes killed without abandon, fighting drugged prisoners in a public arena to satisfy his own ego.
You were not sure that you wanted him as your husbandâhe seemed somewhat disinterested in you, leaving you to the guest chambers you would eventually be moving out of in favor for his bed. Your first week on Giedi Prime was another of courtship, though this time in the ways of his people, and you were honored to witness his fighting prowess in that arena beneath that strange sun. You dined with him and his uncle the Baron Vladimir, a large and unpleasant man, one you could tell your husband-to-be felt no real love towards. Feyd-Rautha simply enjoyed that he would one day take the Baronâs place, and when Vladimir commented on your figure one evening, you saw the way Feydâs jaw tensed. Perhaps he did want you as his wife, after all.
Another strange Harkonnen custom revealed itself to you toward the end of that week, when a doctor entered your chambers and informed you that your purity was to be inspected.
âMy apologies, butâŚwhat?â You asked, confused. You had never heard of such a thing. Surely he couldnât possibly mean what you thought he meantâŚ?
âWe must ensure that none other than the na-Baron have had you, milady.â The man explained. You noticed he sported a gray sash around his middle, and you assumed it was some sort of uniform. âIt must be guaranteed that you are untouched, and that the heir you provide will be the na-Baronâs and no one elseâs.â
You felt your face grow warm with anger and embarrassment. âIs my word not enough?â
âIâm afraid this is tradition, milady.â He stared at you with intense, beady eyes. âThe na-Baron was eager to honor the customs of your House. You do not want him to think you are refusing those of House Harkonnen, do you?â
No, you did not. The last thing you wanted was to anger Feyd-Rautha and potentially drive your future husband even further away from you. You did not want to seem rude, nor did you want to cause a fussâŚand you had been examined by doctors before, though perhaps not for this exact reason. You could withstand a few moments of awkward discomfort, you reasoned, if it meant avoiding an unhappy marriage.
âYou do not have any instruments,â you noted.
The doctor smiled, revealing the black teeth of the Harkonnens. âMedical instruments are not necessary for this, milady. Please, move to the bed so that I may examine you.â
You rose from your place at the simple table in the center of the room, abandoning your half-eaten breakfast. As you turned, you felt the doctorâs eyes watching you a chill prickled the back of your neck. You needed to relax, you told yourself; if you were expected to produce an heir, there would be many more invasive check ups far stranger than this. You had seen your mother pregnant with your younger siblings, and had heard her speaking with the midwives and Bene Gesserit woman who stalked the halls of the palace back home. Perhaps this was how you could ease yourself into all of that.
When you turned to face the doctor once more, you were relieved to see him standing just as you had left him. His smile unsettled you, but then so did most Harkonnen features, you realized as you sat on the edge of the bed.
âLay back and relax, milady.â He said, approaching you. âThis wonât take but a moment.â
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To your surprise, Feyd-Rautha joined you for lunch that day. A servant had been sent ahead to inform you that the na-Baron would be arriving to your chambers shortly, but when he did, you insisted on eating elsewhere. The encounter with the doctor had done more than simply unsettle youâit had rattled your nerves, leaving you feeling angry and confused. Though the man was long gone, you had no desire to remain in that room any longer than you absolutely had to, and lunch could not come early enough.
The na-Baron led you to his own chambers and food was served for you there, at a well-sized table just as austere as the rest of the buildingâs furniture and decor. He watched as you picked at your food, pushing it around on your plate but hardly eating any, and he took the opportunity to attempt conversation.
âWe will be wed soon,â he said.
You wanted to roll your eyes. You were in no mood for small talk, but remembered who exactly you were dealing with and stifled a sigh. âYes, na-Baron, we will.â
He smirked. âI look forward to the consummation, milady.â
You felt bile rising in your throat. The thought of anyone touching you again at the moment made you sick and angry, and you hated him for his peopleâs customs.
Feyd-Rautha tilted his head as he looked at you. âDo you not?â
âI am sure it will be everything we hope for and more,â you grumbled, looking down at your plate.
âIt is unavoidable,â he growled. âWe must produce an heir.â
âAnd we will!â You snapped, glaring up at him. âAnd you will be happy to hear that your doctorâs examination went as expected, my lord.â
The venom in your words stunned him almost as much as the words themselves. If Feyd werenât so busy working through what exactly you had just said, he may have been tempted to bend you over that table just to show you how hard you made him, wedding night be damnedâŚbut there were other matters at hand now.
âDoctor?â He asked, eye twitching as his brow furrowed in thought.
âYes, the one who confirmed that I am, in fact, pure,â you spat, voice laced with pure malice now.
You saw what could only be anger bubbling inside of him as he straightened his shoulders. âHow exactly was this achieved?â
âByâby the usual means, I presume,â you said, quickly growing afraid of Feyd-Rauthaâs infamous temper should it make an appearance. âHeâŚconfirmed that I amâŚthat I have neverâŚâ
The na-Baron stood suddenly, knocking in the table in his haste. âDescribe him to me.â
âI-I donât know, he was a doctor!â You stammered. âHe looked like every other Harkonnen, I donât knowââ
âWhat did he wear?â
âA-all black, like everyone hereâŚa sash, a gray sash, around his waist, and he had no instrumentsââ
âWhat?â Feyd-Rautha roared, fists slamming down onto the table.
You jumped at the sudden outburst, staring in confusion as he stood. "I apologize if I've upset you, I don't understand why you--"
"Come." he hissed, grabbing your arm roughly and hauling you out of your seat.
You shrieked in surprise, stumbling to keep up as he dragged you out of the room and down the corridor. "Na-Baron, what is the meaning of this?!"
You received no answer. Feyd-Rautha was too angry to speak, shoulders hunched and full of violent tension as he stomped down the halls. Servants and Harkonnen nobles alike scattered upon seeing him, and as you twisted your head to look back at them, you saw them whispering and looking after you with pity on their faces.
"Feyd-Rautha, this is absurd!" you protested.
He came to a halt in front of a door. Though the wait for it to slide open only took a few moments, it felt like agony, and you had nowhere to look aside from the na-Baron's heaving form. You had never seen a person so angry before, so utterly enraged that he was practically incoherent. His silence was frightening, as when the door finally opened, you felt relieved...until he grabbed you once more and brought you inside with him.
The room was full of Harkonnen men, and as they looked to the door in surprise, you realized that you had entered some sort of lounge. You recognized their uniforms as military, and at the sight of their na-Baron, they all immediately stood, saluting him and bowing their heads.
"Which one?" Feyd-Rautha hissed, pulling you to stand at his side.
"What?" you asked, still confused by this entire operation.
"Which man?" he asked, voice strained as if he were holding himself back.
As you looked around at the Harkonnens, whose faces were stoic but whose eyes were frightened, you realized what your almost-husband was asking of you. It was difficult to tell them apart--their pale faces blended into one, their uniforms all nearly identical save for subtle distinctions of rank. Then, an idea; the gray sash you remembered, surely the doctor still wore it? If he were there in the room with you, perhaps you could--
Yes.
There he was.
You recognized his face and your lips pressed into a thin line. Feyd-Rautha, whose eyes had been glued to you, watching your every tiny, minute move, noticed the way your eyes lingered. His lip curled into a sneer as he turned to look at the man, whose comrades had all immediately stepped away, leaving him alone and exposed.
"Captain." the na-Baron's voice was dangerous. It was terrifying. You had never heard another human make a sound so guttural, so animalistic, and yet still manage to form it into a recognizable word.
As the man took a panicked step backwards, Feyd-Rautha stalked toward him. Your future husband smoothly pulled a long knife from a hilt on someone's hip as he passed them by, and you could only stare as the captain was brutalized.
You had never seen such agony.
When Feyd-Rautha was finished with him and the room had finally quieted after the screams died out, he stood from the fresh corpse and turned to you, holding a weapon now dripping with dark blood as he faced you.
"For you," he said simply, sincerely, bowing his head yet never breaking eye contact.
You stared. You had no idea how to react upon witnessing such a barbaric act, one that was sure to play out in your nightmares for weeks to come. When you felt panic rising in your chest you forced it down, and mustered all of the courage you possibly could to say, "Thank you, my lord," and bow your head in return.
He seemed satisfied with this as the knife clattered to the floor and he strode forward to you. "Let us leave."
You agreed wholeheartedly, following him and leaving the other soldiers to collect the pieces of their captain, now strewn across the lounge. Feyd-Rautha held your arm once more as he led you down the corridor, though this time, he was far more gentle. Something had been released from within him, his bloodlust sated and his anger quelled for the moment, and as the reality of what you had just witnessed him do crashed down around you, you stumbled to a halt and doubled over.
"Milady?" he asked, confused, before he turned to see you holding a hand over your mouth as you desperately tried not to be sick. His hands gripped your elbows as he faced you, undeterred by your retching. "What is this? He is dead, there is nothing to--"
"You killed him!" you choked out as you gasped for air, the bile in your throat still threatening to come up.
"Yes," he said, head tilted as he looked at you. "Of course I did. For you, as a gift." Then he paused, thinking. "...Was there another? An assistant?"
"No!" you managed to swallow down the last of the bile, throat burning as you grasped your sweat-slick forehead with your palm. "No, there was only him, but--why would you do such a thing?"
Now he was truly bewildered. "Why wouldn't I kill the animal whose hands touched you before mine?"
"Because...I..." you huffed, glaring at him. "What is going on? What is all of this, over a custom of your people? I did not enjoy his examination by any means, but I am doing everything in my power to accept the customs of House Harkonnen with grace and dignity no matter how awful they are and this entire spectacle has now made that very difficult, na-Baron!"
"House Harkonnen does not practice such a thing," he sneered, eyes angry once more.
Your shoulders dropped in horror. "...Excuse me?"
"That man should never have been within a thousand lengths of you."
"...Oh..." the panic had returned, but now, it felt much worse, and your voice sounded impossibly small. You lowered your hand to your lips, chewing your nail in agitation.
"Do you understand?" Feyd-Rautha asked, still holding your elbows.
"...Yes, I'm afraid I do..."
He leaned in, his forehead meeting yours as he still stared at your eyes. You found his to be a deep, dark blue, an abyss that threatened to swallow you up. But right now, you wouldn't mind such a thing, if it meant you could hide away from the world forever.
"No one will every lay a hand on you." he growled. "No one but me."
"...You killed him for me," you whispered.
"I did."
"You avenged me...yet you did not proclaim your reason in front of those other men?"
"I do not need a reason to take a life," he barked a laugh.
You just nodded.
"And I would not humiliate my wife in such a manner." he straightened once more, letting go of your elbows and offering you his arm once more.
"Thank you," you said as you took it and began walking.
"It does not matter to me if you another man has had you before." he said, staring forward. "I know the children you will bear will be mine."
He said it with an arrogance that may have annoyed you had the situation been different. Now, it was a comfort that he had such a big ego.
"That is correct, na-Baron," you said, sighing in relief. At least the whole ordeal was over now, and you doubted anyone would be foolish enough to cross your path now that one man had already been publicly eviscerated.
"Call me Feyd."
"Thank you," you glanced up at him with a small smile. "Thank you, Feyd."
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Can you pleaseeee also write staff mingyu x idol readerđĽšđĽš
staff!mingyu
WARNINGS: angst, fluff, jealousy, suggestive. may be triggering because of; extreme diets, blackout, getting scolded by the choreographer, fingering, a bit of possessive talk, hair pulling, cock riding, devoted mingyu too.
staff!mingyu who you're in one of those tiny-ass dressing rooms with, the ones where you can barely move without smacking into a light fixture or tripping over cables, andhe's , towering over you, big frame almost making the room look even smaller. heâs your stylist-slash-PA-slash-damage-control-for-whatever-stupid-thing-you-say-in-interviews guy, which means heâs there to check every last detail on you, no matter how close heâs gotta get.
itâs day four of this overseas tourâbarely halfway in, and youâre already feeling like youâre running on fumes. youâre dodging local food left and right, not âcause it doesnât look good, but âcause itâs either not on this wild diet theyâve shoved you on or it just doesnât sit right with your stomach. for real, you didnât think thereâd be a point in your career where you'd be skipping meals, just âcause the food doesnât fit some "ideal look" they cooked up for you.
and staff!mingyu... always there, at the exact moment when your stomachâs about to start an opera of complaints, hands full of grocery bags and this half-smile on his face, like heâs in on some inside joke only the two of you share.
âalright, sit down,â he says, like youâre gonna argue, and starts unloading enough ingredients to feed a small village. he moves around the hotel kitchenetteâpots, pans, seasonings, a whole rotation of stuff heâs pulled outta his endless stash. he even managed to drag around a few of those little plastic spice bottles from home, âcause apparently, foreign supermarkets donât stock paprika exactly how he wants it.
âdidnât know your resume included chef duties,â you joke, propping your chin on your hand as you watch him chop veggies with the same focus youâve seen when heâs backstage, touching up your makeup or fixing your outfits.
he laughs easy. âoh, it doesnât,â he says, glancing over his shoulder with a grin. âbut you looked like you were about to faint this morning, so i figured iâd make an exception.â
âwhat, you gonna make a whole buffet?â you tease, but the moment he sets that first plate down, youâre quiet. itâs nothing fancy, but it smells like heavenâgarlic, spices, veggies mixed with something hearty, real food for the first time in days.
âlook, you eat this, or i swear iâm shoving it down your throat myself,â he says, crossing his arms, and even though heâs joking, thereâs this serious fringe in his eyes. like, he wonât let you get away with just picking at the food.
âalright, alright.â you dig in, taking that first bite, and itâs somehow exactly what you neededâwarm, filling, like someone wrapped you in a blanket from the inside out. youâre not even halfway done, and heâs already cleaning up, telling you about how he once had to do this for himself, back when he was training and could barely afford takeout, let alone proper meals.
âso, yeah, iâve been cooking for years,â he says, like itâs the most natural thing in the world. and it hits you then, this guy, whoâs supposed to be here to make sure your eyeliner doesnât smudge, is actually going out of his way to make sure youâre not just a shell of yourself on stage.
âyou know, if this whole career thing falls through, youâd make a damn good chef,â you say, and he just shakes his head, laughing.
ânah,â he says, âi think i like this job better. get to keep an eye on you, make sure you donât faint halfway through a song.â
staff!mingyu who notices everything, who noticed how you walked into the practice room that day looking like... hell, honestly. there were bags under your eyes so dark they couldâve been bruises, and your skin was that shade of pale that came from days of no sleep, maybe a crazy diet, who knows what else. mingyu was hanging out with a bunch of the other staff in the corner, narrowly paying attention at first, but then he caught sight of youâreally looked at youâand yeah, it wasnât just fatigue. he knew what he was seeing; it was that same look heâd seen too many times in trainees and idols back in the day. the look that meant youâd been pushing way too far for way too long.
by the time you got through the first set of counts, your choreographer was already on your case, his tone sharp as knives. âagain,â he snapped, crossing his arms, and you could practically hear his frustration from across the room. âyouâre not even hitting the moves properly. what is this?â he scoffed, giving you that disappointed stare that always made you feel about two inches tall. âdo you even want to be here right now?â
mingyuâs fists clenched a little. heâd seen you pull off that choreography a hundred times before, and he knew damn well it wasnât that you didnât care. it was that you literally didnât have anything left in the tank, and this guy was still going in on you like you were some slacker.
but you didnât argue back, didnât defend yourself, nothing. just bowed your head, muttering, âiâm sorry,â in this tiny, defeated voice. mingyu could see the exhaustion written all over you, the way your shoulders slumped, how you couldnât even lift your head all the way back up after bowing. you just stayed there, bent over in that apologetic pose, like maybe that was the last bit of strength you could pull together.
but then, as he watched, you didnât straighten up at all. in fact, you didnât move for a solid couple of seconds. and then, like you were a puppet whose strings had just been cut, you dropped. one second, you were still standing, and the next, your knees buckled, and you collapsed right there on the damn floor.
for a split second, no one reacted; it was like the room had frozen.
but then mingyu snapped out of it, his heart racing as he lunged forward. the rest of the staff started moving too, voices rising in panic, but mingyu was already at your side, leaning down and calling your name, voice barely hiding the worry.
âhey! hey, can you hear me?â he said, reaching out to gently shake your shoulder. you were breathing, but it was shallow, and your face had gone even paler than before, if that was possible. mingyu felt this pang in his chest seeing you like that. youâd been pushing so hard that your own body just gave up on you.
someone behind him was calling for water, another person was getting the choreographer to back the hell off.
jobs in general werenât easy, he knew that. but for mingyu, there was nothing worse than watching idols, the people he was supposed to support and protect, get wrecked like thisâshoving themselves into diets, swallowing the criticism like it was part of the gig, sacrificing sleep and health just to fit into a pair of jeans or to mold into some industry standard that kept shifting.
heâd been in this job for years, and heâd seen it all before. too many nights spent watching trainees lose more weight than was healthy, idols pushing themselves until theyâd practically faded away. sometimes, in the back of his mind, he wondered if itâd be worth leaving, finding a path where he didnât have to witness it all so up close. heâd think about it on those long nights when he was running on four hours of sleep and too much coffee, wondering what the hell he was doing here when he could be somewhere else, not dealing with the cycle of pushing and breaking and then pushing even harder.
but then there was you. you, with your stubborn smile and that relentless drive he couldnât help but admire. maybe it was that same drive that had you here, running yourself down like youâd forgotten how to stop. but mingyu had felt that pang deep in his chest at the thought of not being around youâof not being there to see you through the highs and lows, to make sure you had someone who cared about more than just your stage presence.
it was that thought, that tiny, persistent ache, that kept him rooted here every damn day. even if he had to watch you crash sometimes, even if it drained him dry just trying to keep up, heâd stay. heâd be right there, whether you knew it or not, making sure that someone in your corner would be looking out for you, whether you wanted it or needed it, or not.
staff!mingyu whoâd quietly made it his side mission to keep you fed, like heâd added it to his job description without anyone even asking. it started small, maybe just a little sandwich heâd stash in his bag for you after seeing you collapse that one time. but then it became routine, almost sacred, the way heâd show up like clockwork with that lunch pack in hand, looking half like your bodyguard in his all-black staff gear, half like your own personal chef with a menu that he swore changed every time he showed up.
âmingyu, whatâd you make me today?â youâd ask, bouncing into the dressing room after each performance, all amped up and practically beaming because, letâs face it, youâd come to love his little surprise meals more than youâd admit.
and mingyu, with that smug but bashful little smile, would act all nonchalant. âoh, nothing much⌠just a little chicken and veggie stir-fry,â heâd say, but it was always something next levelâsome five-star recipe heâd learned just for you. and the best part? heâd make it seem like it was nothing, just a side gig heâd taken up on the fly, when really heâd been researching recipes, planning, and even practicing to make sure it came out perfect.
heâd hand you the lunch pack like he was passing off something top secret, keeping a close eye as you took that first bite, watching for any sign you didnât like it. but, of course, you always loved it. because mingyu wasnât just making foodâhe was making damn art. youâd take a bite, eyes lighting up as you hummed in appreciation, and heâd try to hold back that grin but always failed, shoulders relaxing like heâd just won something.
âyou donât get it, mingyu,â youâd say, mouth full but smiling like a kid on christmas. âi think youâre the reason my performanceâs getting better. youâre, like, my actual secret weapon.â
and heâd laugh, pretending to brush it off, but inside? he was proud. because knowing you were hitting the stage with a full belly, with energy to burn and that spark back in your eyesâthat meant everything. it was his way of giving back to you, even if you never asked for it, even if you didnât realize how much he cared.
staff!mingyu who somehow became the worldâs best photographer without ever meaning to, taking these casual, almost-too-good photos of you that drove your fans insane. youâd be walking through some cobblestone street in italy or leaning out of a coffee shop in tokyo, and heâd be there, catching that perfect shot with his phone. no fancy equipment, no staged posesâjust mingyu, with his natural eye for what made you shine, snapping photos that were somehow intimate and made you look like everyoneâs dream. fans called them âgirlfriend pics,â and if only they knew the man behind the lens.
you had to admit itâhe was stealing your heart a little more with every click. at first, you brushed it off as some harmless crush, a side effect of him being so damn good at his job. but then heâd do something small, like bring you soup when you were sick, or drape his coat over your shoulders when you got cold during a late-night rehearsal, and itâd hit you all over again. mingyu, with that goofy smile, the biggest heart, and hands that somehow felt gentle and grounding as he adjusted your hair or let you lean on him during those endless backstage waiting times.
it was easy to fall for him. too easy, really. and the way he cared? the way he was there for you, always? how could you not? he had this way of making you feel seen, like no matter how chaotic things got, he was your solid ground, always steady, always there to keep you safe and keep you going.
but, of course, staff!mingyu was a catch to more than just you. youâd see the way the other staff members watched him, the way some of them giggled and whispered, eyes lingering a little too long. and mingyu, ever the nice guy, didnât even seem to noticeâor maybe he did, but he didnât really care. heâd give his number when they asked, smile back when they flirted, just being his usual, friendly self. youâd tell yourself it didnât bother you, but the truth was, it was like a little ache in your chest every time.
after a show one night, you and the whole team went out to celebrate, and mingyu was right there, laughing, clinking glasses with everyone, in his element. when it got late, exhaustion finally started to settle in, and you decided to call it a night. you told everyone you were heading back to the hotel, hoping heâd maybe do the same.
but mingyu didnât. he stayed behind, still chatting and laughing with a few of the girls from the staff, and you could feel itâthat twinge of jealousy, the frustration, knowing theyâd probably spend the rest of the night with him, hanging on his every word, maybe more.
as you looked back one last time, watching him, it hit you like a punch in the gut. maybe to him, all this was just workâa job. you were part of that, someone he cared about, but just someone in his care. and the pang of that realization stung. maybe you werenât so special after all.
what you were about to do wasnât right. hell, it felt downright selfish. you sat in the bathtub, hot water swirling around you, trying to drown out the nagging voice in your head that told you to just let it go, that this was a bad idea. but you couldnât shake it offâevery thought twisted into a knot in your stomach. you felt almost sick, like you had this strange, heavy weight pressing down on your chest, something that felt more like heartbreak than anything else.
âgod, what am i doing?â you muttered to yourself, scrubbing at your skin like it might wash away the confusion. you knew mingyu was just doing his job, that he was sweet and caring and everything you admired. but watching him flirt with those girls, knowing theyâd likely take him away for the night, made you feel like you were going to hurl.
âugh, this is so dumb,â you groaned, splashing water around, the sound echoing off the bathroom tiles. âwhy canât i just be normal about this? itâs not like iâm his girlfriend or anything.â
but then the truth hit you again, a sharp stab of clarity amidst the chaos. you wanted to be.
after a few more minutes of spiraling, you said âfuck it,â feeling a rush of determination surge through you. you fished your phone out of your towel, thumb hovering over his name. your heart raced as you typed out the message.
âhey, mingyu. i know youâre probably busy, but i just wanted to say... iâm not feeling great. kind of sick, actually. do you think you could come by?â
you hit send, the knot in your stomach twisting tighter as you leaned back against the tub. was this too much? but then again, maybe it was time to stop hiding how you felt, to admit you needed him without a million excuses holding you back. it was either that or let him slip away for good, and you werenât ready for that.
mingyu came in a rush, as if heâd been waiting for your text the entire time. you barely had time to wrap yourself in a towel before he was at your door, knocking frantically. ây/n! are you okay? open up!â
you opened the door, and the sight of himâhair a little messy, eyes wide with worryâmade your heart race. âyeah, um, just feeling a bit under the weather,â you replied, trying to keep your voice steady, but it wavered slightly. you didnât want to come off as dramatic or needy.
he touched your forehead and you leaned into his touch without even realizing it, closing your eyes for a brief second âyou donât have a fever at all,â he said, confsed.
you pulled back abruptly, the warmth fading as reality crashed back in. clutching your towel tight around your body, you walked over to the window, pretending to be fascinated by the view outside. the city lights twinkled in the distance.
ây/n?â mingyu called, confusion clear in his voice. âwhatâs going on?â
you couldnât believe you took one of his rare moments of lounge because of being selfish. mingyu leaned against the wall, arms crossed, his brow furrowed in confusion. ây/n, you were perfectly fine just a few hours ago. whatâs really going on?â he asked, the suspicion creeping into his voice.
âi told you, itâs just a little... off,â you replied, avoiding his gaze. the guilt gnawed at your insides, knowing you were lying, but the way he was looking at you made it hard to come clean.
âoff?â he echoed, raising an eyebrow. âthatâs the best you can come up with? you donât just go from fine to âi need my staff member to check on meâ for no reason.â he took a step closer, eyes narrowing. âyouâre not actually sick, are you? whatâs up?â
you shifted uncomfortably, the towel clinging to you. âseriously, mingyu, itâs nothing. maybe just a little headache or something,â you said, hoping the casual tone would brush off his concern.
he let out a huff of disbelief. âa headache? so bad that you needed me to rush in here? that doesnât add up.â he studied you, like he was piecing together a puzzle. âjust tell me the truth. are you really feeling sick, or is there something else bothering you?â
âi just thought maybe you could... keep me um... company, you know? just for a bit.â
âkeep you company?â he repeated, tone incredulous. âso you fake being sick just to get me in here? you couldâve just asked! you know iâm always down to hang out.â
âmingyuââ you started.
but he cut you off, his voice firm, the playful light fading from his eyes.
âwhy would you do that? this isnât some joke, y/n. my job isnât a game. itâs serious.â
you pressed your lips together at his louder tone, the shock of it stinging more than you expected. you hadnât meant for things to escalate this badly, and as you felt tears prick at the corners of your eyes, it hit you like a ton of bricks: you never thought mingyu would raise his voice at you. it felt so out of place, so foreign, and your heart sank.
âhey, hey, iâm sorry,â he said, the anger melting away as he noticed your expression. he stepped closer, the care flooding back into his eyes.
you quickly wiped your eyes before the tears could fall, you could feel the heat rising in your cheeks. âyou know what? i hate it,! you blurted out, unable to hold back any longer. âi hate when theyâre all over you, mingyu! it makes me sick to my stomach!â
his brows furrowed, clearly caught off guard. âwait, what? you hate it when whoâs all over me?â
âthose girls! the staff!â you said, your voice rising with every word. âthe way they throw themselves at you like youâre some kind of trophy. and you smile back at them, like itâs all just a joke or something. it drives me insane!â
mingyu looked stunned, blinking at you as if he were trying to process what you were saying. ây/n, are youâare you... jealous?â
âi â wellâ hell yeah, iâm jealous!â you shot back, frustration spilling over. âyouâre so kind and caring, and they see that. they want you, and it feels like they think they can just waltz in and take you away from me. itâs infuriating!â
âbut itâs just⌠itâs just me being friendly,â he stammered, âiâm not trying to lead anyone on. you know that, right?â
âi know, but it doesnât change how it makes me feel,â you replied. âitâs like youâre this perfect guy, and they all want a piece of you. and here i am, just trying to keep my head above water, feeling like i have to compete for your attention.â
mingyu shook his head, a soft smile creeping onto his face despite the tension. âyou donât have to compete for anything. youâre⌠youâre the one who has my heart. all those girls? theyâre just⌠coworkers.â
you pause, processing his words, and mingyu scoffs lightly, a teasing grin on his face.
âoh please, itâs true. you think iâm not bothered when i see those idols shoving their numbers on your sandwiches?â
you blink at him, completely taken aback. âwait, sandwiches? what are you talking about? i only eat the ones that you make for me.â
he interrupts you with that signature smile of his, one that always makes your heart race a little faster. âyeah, exactly. thatâs âcause i always give those sandwiches to someone else.â
âmingyu, what the hell?â
ây/n, what the hell?â mingyu mocks, raising an eyebrow at you, a playful smirk creeping onto his face. âyou seriously thought you could pull this off? lying about being sick? thatâs low, even for you.â
you roll your eyes, trying to maintain some semblance of defiance. âi wasnât lying, i justââ
âsure, sure,â he cuts you off. âand is wearing just a towel part of your grand scheme too? because if it is, youâre gonna need to step it up a bit.â
âand what if i just want you to come over⌠in a towel?â
âthen iâll take that as a personal invite,â he grins, his gaze flickering to your towel before meeting your eyes again. âjust know, if youâre gonna pull this kind of stunt, you better be prepared for me to take advantage of the situation.â
staff!mingyu who wastes no time, pressing forward until youâre caught between his solid frame and the cold glass, as his body pins you in place.
âyou really went all out for this hm?â his fingers trailing down to the knot of your towel.
staff!mingyu who tugs the fabric free, letting it drop to the floor, leaving you fully naked. his hands spreading wide over your back, fingers firm as he turns you around to face the glass. your chest presses against the cool surface making you gasp as mingyuâs hand trails up your spine, steadying you.
staff!mingyu who grips your hips, pressing you forward, and then trails his hands up over your sides, his fingers brushing along your curves until he reaches your shoulders, leaving no part of you untouched, as though heâs marking every inch of your skin as his.
staff!mingyu who leans down, one hand sneaking around to splay across your stomach, pulling you closer to him, making you feel his hard erection on you.
staff!mingyu who lets his hand slip lower, teasing over the sensitive skin of your thigh before slipping higher, his fingers skillfully finding your pussy as he watches you through the reflection, face contorting in pleasure, a smirk tugging at his lips.
âdonât look away.â he instructs, his tone a command softened by that grin of his.
staff!mingyu who keeps one hand firm on your hip, controlling your every move as he slips his fingers inside you, âall this just because you couldnât stand seeing me with someone else, huh?â he curls the fingers, trying to pull a response form you. âadmit it,â he coaxes as he presses you harder against the glass, his fingers never relenting. âtell me you wanted thisâwanted me.â
staff!mingyu who doesnât stop until he feels you melt against him, a soft, teasing chuckle escaping as he takes in your breathless state. ânext time,â he murmurs, brushing a strand of hair away from your face, âjust say the word. iâll come running.â
staff!mingyu who yanks your hair, tipping your head back to meet his lips as you twist in his grip. itâs a little clumsy, the angle throwing you off, but he holds you steady, his mouth hot and insistent on yours. youâre all melting into him, trusting the way his hands keep you secure, letting him take control as his grip on you tightens.
staff!mingyu who, somehow, maneuvers you both towards the bedd, he scoops you up with ease, laying you back as he hovers over you, he presses his hands into the mattress on either side of your head, caging you in as he dips down, pressing soft, lingering kisses along your collarbone, down to your shoulder, and back up to your jaw.
staff!mingyu who takes his time, exploring every part of you with slow touches, like heâs determined to map out every reaction, to memorize every place that makes you moan.
staff!mingyu who, even in bed, is all about making sure youâre comfortable, arranging the pillows just so, adjusting the blankets if theyâre too rough, whispering âis this okay?â and âtell me what you needâ like heâs got all the time in the world. his hands are warm, grounding you, and he never rushes, taking the time to check in, to make sure youâre exactly where you want to be, that heâs giving you what you want, down to the smallest detail.
staff!mingyu who lets you wrap yourself around him however you want, all limbs and tangled sheets, whispering soft reassurances in your ear as his hands trace your back, making sure you feel safe. heâs patient, careful, coaxing you with soft, murmured words, taking his time until youâre both lost in it, every sensation heightened.
staff!mingyu who surprises you by pulling back, catching his breath, and suddenly flipping the rolesâguiding your hands to explore him, encouraging you to take control. âiâm yours too, you know,â he murmurs, watching you with that familiar smile, the one thatâs equal parts playful and sincere, as he lets you explore, giving you the chance to take the lead.
staff!mingyu whoâs all breathless and desperate under you from the moment you take the lead FORREAL and ride him, his hands gripping your hips, trying to guide you even when heâs struggling to keep up. soft, wet sounds filling the room as you roll your hips in slow circles, making him whine. his head tips back, eyes fluttering shut, but you bring a hand to his cheek, making him look up at you.
âtell me,â you murmur, lips brushing just against his ear, âtell me youâre mine, mingyu. that none of these hoes matter.â he looks up, his eyes hazy but still so focused on you, like heâs trying to pour everything into that gaze.
âiâm yoursâyours, only yours,â he chokes out, his voice rough and pleading, like he needs you to believe it. heâs babbling now, his grip tightening on you, thumbs pressing into your skin, anchoring himself as you move, each drag pulling another whimper from his lips. ânone of themânone of them mean anything,â he gasps, desperate, brows knitted together. âjust you. only want you.â
staff!mingyu whoâs practically begging at this point, his hands sliding up to your waist, trying to pull you down, closer, as if he could somehow get more of you. âplease.â he whispers, his eyes filled with so much want it makes your heart pound.
âyouâre mine, mingyu. no one else. got it?â and the way he shudders, that choked, relieved sound he lets out, is everything. he nods frantically, hands gripping you tighter as he starts to lose control, bucking up into you.
staff!mingyu whoâs wholly ruined beneath you, lost in every kiss, every whispered word, clutching onto you as if heâs scared you might sneak off, even when youâre right there, telling him over and over againââall mine.â
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POTES SEMI-LIVEBLOGS KOTOR!
ive been writing my thoughts in the notes app but due to popular demand (one person asked for it) i'm posting my liveblogging DO NOT SAY/TAG/COMMENT SPOILERS PLEASE i read tags
warning im a yapper, im 10 hours in and theres a lot already (separated into sessions):
SESSION 1
whos this clown i thought i would be playing as revan
ive been too spoiled by dragon age origins this character creator sucks ass
only human???? ): fr?? ill just imagine her different in my brain or some shit
my life is being mansplained to me. is this bad writing or do i have amnesiacs
hes meta now??? hes talking abt the screen controls?????
omg a jedi and an evil jediii
omg their asses suckedddd they both died immediately
i <3 bringing a sword to a gun fight
WHY R THERE SO MANY SITH WHERE IS TJE RULE OF TWO
i clicked a workbench and it said lightsaber so either i get a lightsaber or i get a jedi friend whose lightsaber i can steal if im careful
I assume u play as revan in kotor2 so im gonna buy that now so i can play it when im done playing w this clown
i got light side points im getting a good grade in game morality which is something both normal to want and possible to achieve
everyone keeps saying revan is dead but thats my friend revan from tumblr hes clearly alive. or they???
my characters ass is distractingly present onscreen
huge fan of the way everyone collapsed drunk what the FUCK was in that wine
ok these sith ppl might be the bad guys but their armour is DRIPPY AS FUCK
ideologically i dont agree w the sith but they kinda went off w the fits
googling how to become a sith without being evil cause they have Drip
SESSION 2
i paid ÂŁ1.19 to see revan he better show up in this game at some point
all these sith n i still cant find one revanâŚ.. stop faking ur death rn come out n talk to me babygirl this isnt like uâŚ.
why can i be light/dark side if im not a jedi. give me a laser sword
maybe this jedi gyal will know where revan is faking his death. or give me a fuckin lightsaber PLEASEEE
was just thinking 'does this game have romance' and then carth called me beautiful. i dont think im gonna romance anyone until i get this amnesia sorted
why is carth questioning me so much abt the crash im pretty sure i have amnesia
why tf did the jedi lady have me transferred to this ship are we in lesbians with each other???
carth's not wrong it is suspicious but i lowkey have amnesia so i coulda done that i coulda not
a lot of clone wars voice actors in this. was lucasfilm so broke in the 2000s that they could only afford the same 3 VAs for every project
mission is 14??????? we need to get my girl back in school
SESH 3
tale as old as time i fucking suck at racing games
ok i didnt realise you had to mash click i won
REVAN!!! REVAN!!!!!!!!!
why am i dreaming abt revan tho. real as hell but ?????
lmao cringe revan getting blown up. i thought the jedi beat rev-meister in a fight but no. accident
"such visions are often a sign of force sensitivity" COOL YAY GIVE ME A LIGHTSABER
BASTILLE LOST HER FUCKING LIGHTSABER??
CARTH IS RIGHT THATS LIKE DAY ONE JEDI SHIT. ok i still love her even tho shes a bit of a bitch and also doesnt have a saber
if we find a lightsaber im taking it first tho
whys carth getting weird abt me being weird that he doesnt trust me. i just wanna be friends mate
SESH IV: A NEW HOPE
'i mean no disrespect, but perhaps one of the male slaves could serve you better' i went in here to start a slave revolution and instead got called a lesbo
LMAO THERES A SPICE LAB???? WALTER WHITE WHERE ARE YOU
thats insaneee they blew up BILLIONS of people to get to one jedi?????? these sith arent fucking around theyre scary
UM THIS IS CRAZY GRAPHICS THE LIGHTING IS CLEARER/DARKER WHEN I COVER THE SUN W THE SHIP EDGE?? 2003 IS THE YEAR OF THE FUTURE
someone just called me padawan i kinda assumed i was in my late 20s do i just have baby vibes
all the jedi in the movies are so chill but every kotor jedi i've met so far has been a bit of a bitch
YO THEY HAVE A YODA!!! its not THE yoda but
cool so these guys are just the regional managers at best. your asses are not the council
why can everyone smell my force juju so strong
THATS STRAIGHT UP YODA'S CLONE WARS VA
why does fake yoda not blink both eyes at the same time. im calling him master tortimer he reminds me of the animal crossing mayor
bastila there was no need for such a fancy bow
malak is like evil aang
revan is so much shorter than malak omg
are me and bastila sharing dreams. are we both obsessed w revan
poor mission ):
WHAT WAS MASTER TORTIMER ABT TO SAY????????? EVER SINCE WHEN??? DID WE KNOW EACH OTHER BEFORE MY AMNESIACS????? DID BASTILA TELL U SMTHN MORE WHEN I WASNT IN THE ROOM???
im intrigued i like this whole hidden jedi shtick its very compelling. so is whatever theyre hiding from me
kinda surprising no jedi found me before tho given my force juju is so strong
IM A LEGIT JEDI NOW??? SICK!!!
does revan rlly not have pronouns i thought that was a tumblr thing but they straight up are a nonbinary icon ive never heard a single pronoun used. revan's pronouns are revan/revan's
damn revan seems so cool in these stories (charismatic war hero that convinced their troops to join them as conqueror?? julius caesar) and yet all we've seen them do onscreen is get blown up and die by accident
A YEAR AGO? the way they were talking i assumed revan died like. a week before the game started
master uh i forgot his name he has martin scorcese vibes said revan was a paragon of the jedi so what im getting is that all jedi gifted kids turn evil
even if i didnt know revan as a tumblr darling id KNOW revan has to be alive somewhere they way everyone talks abt them is too cool for a character who exploded and died. i think. i hope. I PAID ÂŁ1.19 TO MEET REVAN
'only you and bastila can stop malak' seriously????? just us two?? ive been a jedi for like, 6 minutes and you guys keep calling bastila young???? do you guys not wanna help??
omg im getting carth to traumadump! <3
HE WAS ON REVAN'S ARMY>??
i totally knew the jedi code and did not have to google it whatsoever
they rlly said fuck going to illum heres a crystal from the bin
he told me id be a great sentinel and i was like i know but i want blue cause i dont wanna be matchies with bastila
OGH!!! I HAVE A LIGHTSABER!!!! THIS IS GAME OF THE YEAR!!!!
omg i made my lightsaber perfectlyyy which is rare <3 getting a good grade in jedi
maybe i was a travelling lightsaber salesman before my amnesia
seriously though WHO was i everyone's kinda stopped acting like i have amnesia since the first mission BUT IVE PLAYED DRAGON AGE THAT GIVES YOU OPPORTUNITIES TO RP UR PAST. THIS DOESNT. EITHER THIS GAME IS BAD (but i love it so its not) OR I HAVE RETROGRADE AMNESIA
also everyone keeps being like "Oh ur force juju is so strong" AND NOBODY FOUND ME TIL NOW??? suspicious. did getting a really bad concussion activate the force in me
im too confused and amnesiac'd to think abt anything except the fact i have a glowing stick now
FSESH FIVE:
big fan of using aliens to avoid having to get VAs to read every line
oh so carth's boyfriend saul betrayed him and became leader of the sith fleet so he has trust issues
well he needs to calm down. i can't betray him cause i dont know what the fuck is happening
yooo i love the design differences on the mandalorians
oh my god this lady wanted to fuck her droid cause it was her husband's. and then it killed itself. wtf. game of the year tho
wtf they jebaited this juhani person into going dark side but then i talked her out of it. that seems a bit mean of them
i hope she can join my party she looks too unique to be a random npc
ive been thinking and I might be going crazy but there was a loading screen tip ages ago that said jedis could wipe ppl's mind and all i thought at the time was 'fuck the shitshow acolyte didnt make that up'. but what if one of them wiped MY memory and i used to be a jedi or smthn ????????
cause they keep being like ur weirdly good at this??? did bastila steal my memories??????????
I KNOW I HAVE AMNESIA!! EVEN IF EVERYONE DOESN'T BRING IT UP BC THEYRE PROBABLY TRYING TO SAVE MY FEELINGS
if i dont have amnesia and im just deeping the fact the opening had my life being mansplained then im gonna look real stupid
anyway time 2 go to the fuckshit ruins cave where r-dog and malak went to
"it must be referring to revan. the dark lord and malak--" revan's pronouns are revan/thedarklord
bastila said theres no mention of the Builders in the archives. does she just know every text off by heart
THIS DROID IS 20K YEARS OLD ???
omg i can equip 2 lightsabers at once. game of the year
OK I TAKE BACK EVERYTHING I SAID ABOUT THE AMNESIA BASTILA IS ASKING ME QUESTIONS ABOUT MY BACKGROUND THAT I CAN ANSWER. I REPEAT I DO NOT HAVE AMNESIA
ok i didnt get choices and i didnt really uh⌠say anything that i didnt already get told im still not ruling out amnesia
also booo i didnt get to find out how old i was
master tortimer rlly looks like the ultimate ketamine yoda
LMAO THERE WAS A DIALOGUE OPTION 2 CALL JUHANI A CATGIRL
omg kashyyk from jedi fallen order!!!
I CAN UPGRADE MY LIGHTSABER THIS IS JUST LIKE JFO
omg this ship is fun i wish everyone had personalised bunk spaces like hfw⌠a game which came out 19 years after this i should probably just take what we have
im gonna start w manaan cause im p sure thats what B-dog said n its the same language the droid was speakin
omg hyperspace from star wars
THE GUY THE BUILDING FELL ON???
am i having dreams abt revan bc bastila killed revan and im connected to her this is so roundabout
maybe i'd sleep better if my ponytail wasnt clipping into the pillow
[kiwi accent] six
carth needs a xanax every time i think we're friends he stops trusting me
also lmao he actually pointed out how wild it was that a day one padawan is being sent on this uber important mission and HES RIGHT IT IS WEIRD!! i thought it was main character logic but he's calling it out
i really really like the sense of unease that's setting in like at first i thought it was just cause im not used to 2003 games but no this is on purpose bc carth my friend carth keeps calling it out
THERE IS A CHILD ON MY SHIP ??????????????????
lmao the representative for menaan is roland wann. its like poetry it rhymes
there are no cameras in the sith hangar <3 rookie error i can commit crimes now
bastila's favourite hobby is getting shot and walking into my grenades
this isnt a combat system this is a missing system
I GOT ARRESTED???? IM JUST A GIRL
nvm i had a datapad that said the sith were evil so theyve let me go free and we're besties
why do i feel like ive just walked into an underwater horror mission
this suit waddles at the speed of a penguin on fentanyl
i tamed the beastie this is like how to train your dragon
MALAK FIRED ON REVAN?????? WERENT THEY BEST FRIENDS???????
but maybe revan escaped when bastila wasnt looking THEYRE FINE THEYRE OUT THERE SOMEWHERE. I BELIEVE
so hopefully when we run into revan they'll be like agh i changed my ways cause of the being shot thing and they'll be my bestie
great news i successfully communicated w the ship child and gave her back to dantooine. my girl has shockingly good linguisitics skills
bastila is so dour "oh watch out for the dark side" GIRL I AM. I NEED TO GET THE BEST GRADE IN GAME MORALITY
ok OFF TO KASHYYK i hope cal kestis is there⌠thru the force i guess⌠bc he wont be born for another 4000 years but its whatever
omg you'll never guess what. another vision. wow its one of the thangs. cool this is a tomorrow me problem
#how long to beat says it's abt 29 hours so this is roughly a third (??) of the game???#talk is cheap#kotor#swkotor#knights of the old republic
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okay ive been working on this for like a half hour already i will figure out the rest later but i needed to share while the insanity is still fresh
we have:
how to befriend your favorite internet stars
pizza mukbang
dan and phil and dogs
dan's diss track
amazing dan
slime and sadness cinnamon rolls
five nights at freddy's
interactive introverts
giving the people what they want
hello internet
something we want to tell you
i wrote pumpkin spice pumpkin cookies but it's actually spooky cupcakes
we're all doomed
pinof 1
dan and phil finally tell the truth
daniel and depression
internet support group 6?
phil's video blog
saying goodbye forever
basically i'm gay
zomg red panda!!?
dan and phil react to teens react to dan and phil
punk edits in real life
why i quit youtube
sims ep1
my tumblr tag 2
coming out to you
i believe under daniel and depression is festive ditl but i haven't been able to confirm it
also i recognize this image of dan scrolling on his laptop in the london apartment but i don't fucking remember from where
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the one under basically im gay idk
also these
the photo booth challenge
idk
#several of these are insane#im insane#they're insane#dnp#dan and phil#phan#tit tour#daniel howell#phil lester#amazingphil#endymion speaks#1k
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Pulchritude
Pairing: ITZYâs Yeji x Male Reader
Word Count: 7,089
A/N:Â It's been a while Orenjideul! This wasn't planned to be on my draft schedule but planned at the same time LOL (pretty much quickly written). Also, thanks for @mintwithchoco for the beta-reading that made the insights about the fic!!
This was originally part of something I've been working on with and expanded it with such vague plot to probably spice things up. Enjoy reading!! <3
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âYouâre crazy for this one, Chaewon.â
âItâs not my doingââ Chaewon retorts, circling her fingers onto the rim of her glass with such a distinctive smell of a concoction that piques you, distracting you a little from her words. ââthis is just a part of a test.â
She drinks from her glass and darts her eyes towards you, laced with anticipation and that hint of doubt in you. You smirk with her given stare, feeling that she's getting ahead of herself with it and sheâll soon eat up her words. Extending your arm a little onto the head of the chair, you look at her with vanity and such a playful intent that intimidates her a little. âIâd say you being here is somewhat helpful by all meansâŚâ
âAnd why is that?âÂ
Her eyes never fail to intimidate you, those orbs glowing in anticipation as she doesn't break her sophisticated demeanor. You fix your posture and lean closer to her, elbows on the table and your hands subtly clasped, answering her. âSo I could let you know that youâll be embarrassed at the end of the day.â
Chaewonâs hubris wouldnât let your words slide and make her believe you, a chortle audible within your ears as she shifted onto her usual phlegmatic disposition. âWeâll see about that but for nowââ Her well-manicured nails click the champagne glass two times, before giving a sly smile of a faulty sincerity. ââyou gotta do what you gotta do.â
It wouldnât end in a usual Chaewon fashion unless her drink is empty, sipping the last few milliliters of that delectable concoction, then getting off on her seat with her last words of the night. âText me when youâve done it, then we'll meet tomorrow afternoon.â
Grabbing her designer bag then leaving towards the doors of such a high-class bar, you could just sense the air reeking defeat all over you, but youâll prove her wrong. Youâll just thank yourself for getting rid of her condescending nature albeit it really fuels your aim for victory, so is the upbeat music the bar brings.Â
Youâll make things work and take that triumphant ecstasy up to your name, with someoneâs panties on the floor.Â
âI guess we need the devil inside me to take over.â Of course you will, and youâll do that just about right.
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Maybe the myths are true: sometimes, the devil does unspeakable things and itâs only a matter of time before it unveils its real nature. Not exactly an excerpt, a quote or the sayings of the elderly but mostly your own common conscience that has its own intersections of roads you canât fathom nor followâdeep inside, youâre on a leash and Chaewonâs words intoxicates you, and youâll prove her wrong after this.Â
âWeâre going to have some fun tonight.â
âOh, do you think we will?â You ask pretty playfully and audaciously, playing with her possible games. You barely know her aside from being that time where youâd constantly steal glances with her during and after Chaewonâs existence at the bar and subconsciously know youâd always come. At that moment, you know somethingâs disturbed within you and itâs in a good wayâthis is something thatâs completely going to serve gratification, and you can sense how strong your gut feeling is.
âWe will.â The girl inches herself closer towards you, your back pressed against the cold concrete as she pins you with her frame, fidgeting her fingers onto the hem of your shirt and then the penultimate, such dexterous fingers circling around your chest.
You feel her minty breath mixed with a hint of tequila brush against your skin as you raise her head, eyes in contact with yoursâyou know sheâs proving something, even just with her words but those wouldnât be enough.
âCare for an introduction?â Your hands fancy its way onto her waist, as you endearingly looked at those sharp, monolid eyes of hers rivaling that alluring stare.Â
Her eyes dart between your face and onto your body, as her voice speaks up in a volume.âYeji. You can call me Yeji.âÂ
Her voice invites you, and youâre captivated with her sultry tone and god, that stare of hers would make any man fall upon your own judgment but on your shoes, it would bear such a challenge. Even with such temptation handled pretty well, you canât help but hint such an invitation under her spellâthose eyes, her sultry voice, such a beautiful face and the promised treasure of them all, her impeccable figure.
Youâd like to start on something fresh, induce such a new chapter thatâs bound to end up in such an incredible fashion but you could only assume those things, yet.
Well, you wonât fight yourself over some idiotic retaliation between your temptations and let yourself be the judge of her capabilities and this doesnât help when sheâs just inches away from laying such a mark that will define oneâs lust.
Looking straight to the abyssal void of her eyes, youâre enticed as you lift off her chin with your finger. âThere you go, I love a woman with manners.â You hit her up with her own medicine: tempting.
âWho says anything about manners?â Even such chagrins or predicaments wouldnât stop her, not unless you tell her so as the only thing you could feel are those luscious lips locked against yours.Â
The sounds of such muscle creating vacuum of sounds and suctions overpowers the fading noise of the music the bar resonatesâall you can hear is her kisses up against yours and youâd love to listen to it all day.Â
Nothing too short nor sweet, but god, this was enough to make such a bold verdict.
âA talented kisser, hm?â Yeji hums as she pulls away from your lipsâ embrace, feeling captivated with the way you display such talent.
âA girl as pretty as you would make a man like this.â Your hands then freely roam to the limited skin her waist shows but youâre not the guy to complain, but to be grateful. âNow tell me something, YejiâŚâ
Yejiâs eyes widen; pupils dilate as she anticipates your next words, âTell what?â
You smirk, as your buttons were pressed enough to make such a bold move. âWhy would you want me? From all of the people there, why me?â
Yeji smirks just like you, then bites her lips, using such a modicum of her actions to indulge you even more. âI just know the world destined us to this momentâled us to this moment and godâŚâ Yejiâs hands unbuttons the topmost button of your shirt as her hands permeate such heat onto your chest to push you onto the edge. âI know what youâre gonna give to me tonight.â
Such telepathic abilities enable you to read her thoughts, and you know exactly where sheâs going towards, âLet me guess, a show for the world to know?â
âFor the world to fucking know.â Yejiâs words end your sentence, and seal the deal.
Licking her lips in delight, you can feel her hands roam on your chest, your abdomen then the final stop, your growing bulge. She cups onto it like itâs something she would ruin and take care of, the best of both worlds as you let out such a nigh-inaudible moan, and Yeji knows exactly youâre liking this.
âYou always need to ask.â And there she goes with her wonders.
All you can see is Yeji promptly getting on her knees, and with her absolute dexterity, does her talent to unbuckle and undress your bottom half more than a count to ten.
âGodâŚâ Sheâs mesmerized with the view sheâs currently having: you, still in your boxers as her disposition clearly displays awe and amazement. âYouâre hard already this fast? Mustâve turned you on too much?â
âWho wouldnât with a girl like you?â It just shows your evident arousal, and Yejiâs grateful to bear such an entrance. Giving the green light, she then slowly strips off your boxers down to your ankles, mostly gravity doing the work and there she goes, such eyes gleaming with utter hunger and lust.
Her lips mouth such words full of awe as her hands cups the base of your erection, leisurely stroking it as she utters such profanity, âGod, your cock is something else I didnât expect.â
Your hubris just elevated, and let your commanding demeanor take over. âGlad it is. Now, show me what youâre made of.â
She wouldnât lose against such a hubristic battle, and settles up for a possibly stellar moment. âI wonât disappoint.â
A clear view of her lips sends pecs around your length, letting you know the immediate worshiping and carnal needs fueling her for the time being. From the base up to your already leaking slit, she didnât waste such precious time letting you know how much she loves this and it's just evident from the start.Â
She grows impatient with her repetitive kisses and ups the ante, knowing how this will make your world go wild. âI may just find myself occupied more with this.â
âLess talking and more sucking.â As much as her patience grows thinner by the second, and so are yours. She scoffs off a giggle, knowing that the main event will be such a roller coaster ride.
With the last suction of her lips collecting that colorless liquid, she advances onto something pleasurable. Her tongue then dances around your red cockhead, swirling and permeating her saliva around, upping such sensitivity on your end and with that result, you shiver and inevitably moan in response.
She suckles on your swollen head, then advances past your frenulum to do the wonder she does to your slit and god, this was elevating the experience of such gratification.
âGod, s-such a talented mouth, huh?â
âGifted, I guess.â She continues her oral assault on your throbbing length, thrusting her head up and down as she quickly accelerates the pace up to both your likings.Â
The quicker speed sums up the possible experience she has and it showsâsuch technique is unmatched with the way her tongue dances around your shaft and the little introduction of such a serrated culprit antagonizing the pleasure youâre experiencing, albeit, you wouldnât bother with such little pain. She takes more than half of your shaft as spits dominate her heart-shaped lips, running down to her cheeks and onto her chin which shows the passion sheâs giving in every second.
The occurrence wonât be complete without elevated stimulation: youâd just feel your balls being fondled by her right hand as she encourages more for you to feel.Â
And itâs working well, too well for you to utter such compliments. âYouâd make myself occupied too, i-if you wantâshit, thatâs greatâŚâ
An audible mhmm can be heard between her bobs as she elevated the speed, then resulting into such a mess thatâs just turning you on even more. Saliva continues to drip down onto her chin and onto your clothes thatâs probably damned to be given care with, tears flowing down her cheek as she takes more and suddenly, she tests her limits with a single act of boldness and bravery.
She rests her nose onto your abdomen, testing her gag reflex as sheâs determined to tame it but in the end, it wasnât in her favor. Gasps escape her mouth as she catches her breath, saliva connected onto those sinful lips was just the cherry on top yet your grow little concern, afraid she may push herself too much as soon as she coughed. âYou good, Yeji?â
âIâm goodâIâm good, Iâm g-greatâyour cock is just addicting.â The succulence was evident with her repeated slurps onto your shaft, and youâre just in total bliss with her performance.
Things are not done, and sheâd like to end the business with a good note.
She proved herself enough and with her immediate harsh pace, you wouldnât be a hypocrite nor lie about it. The blurry orange-bobbing head of hers just becomes a repeated image tarnished in your brain, etched until the end of time. She continues what sheâs best at, gripping your thighs for further display of talent and as a reply with the surging pleasure coursing through your veins, you opted to fight the leverage with the gripping of your hands onto her audacious head.
Constant slurps, gags and moans just became the music in the air and itâs just the paramount mood you're indulged into. Youâd be damned if someone will see the both of you in such a sinful act but you donât care anymore, not when Yejiâs mouth does explicit wonders on every inch of your body and clouding your mind with such sinful thoughts.
The head game is literally onto another level of experience, but such things wouldnât last for so long.
She can feel your persistent throbs in her mouth, and itâs a common courtesy to ask where it will end. âYouâre pretty close, I assume.â
âYeahââ You groan in pleasure as she strokes your saliva-sheathed cock with the utmost pace her hands can muster. ââand I want it all over your face.â
Yeji just smiled mischievously, knowing how things will end up on a pivotal climax and how things will unveil between the both of you. âThen do itâcover me.â
All you can see are those pretty, sharp eyes in awe as she closes it, her visage in full display for you to paint on. This is a canvas worth investing such artwork on and youâd besmirch it with such strokes worth millions. She moans as she feels each rope touches her face, mostly her cheeks, nose, lips, chin and some even getting onto her hair. Those fifteen seconds felt like a minute as youâre in a total state of bliss and for such a conclusion, she strokes you in hopes of milking you dry, emptying up your reservoir.
âGod, that tasted great.â Yeji licks her lips and hums in satisfaction and when your senses are coming back to life, you ask her with such doubt.
âHow would you clean up?â
Yeji chuckles as she stands up, facing you, âNo one wouldnât care.â
You smile sincerely as you dress your bottom-half up, satisfied as her voice invites you. âLetâs get out of here.â
Sheâs partly a monster; partly an angel in disguise, yet she can be the best of both worlds and itâs only a matter of time before depths will be reached.
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Gone are the boisterous music ringing repeatedly in your ears and the alcohol that will probably dominate your body, because at this time, thereâs nothing better than her lips locked against yours for the second time.
She feels ruthless and so were you, feeling her tongue dancing against yours and you gripping her waist harshly as you deepen such entanglement.
Her room was something pivotal about your already impeding arousal: dim lights, vanilla-scented air freshener and such a balcony for the both of you to enjoy, and maybe itâs something else than whatâs usually known for people to do there.
âNever knew you could have such a room, Yeji.â
Yeji smirks as her nails dug into your skin gently, pressing it playfully as she mouthed her own pride. âThis is nothing compared to anything youâll see but for now, youâll be more than my guest.â And then her eyes locked up against yours as those orbs wandered around your beautiful face.
Her eyes really tell you about her adoration, as the earlier test was just the tip of the iceberg, and guess what, you passed with flying colors.
âIâd love to be one, Yeji.â
You then share another torrid kiss with her, feeling attached to her ultimately and falling under her spell. She kisses you genuinely as you reciprocate, but you want more, so you pull out of her lipsâ embrace, earning a moan from her as you find your way on peppering her neck with pecs and those sharp collar bones.Â
Youâd eventually take a glance of her flawless features, even though itâs evident ruined by you earlier but itâs such an important element of such undying beauty. You earned your minuscule rewardsâher faint moans and chants calling youâand youâd love to double it, with more skin, your lips parts and marks.
âGod, pleaseâfuckâŚâ Yejiâs pleas are audible enough for you to be distracted and itâs worth your while knowing itâs something that could elevate such an experience.
âPlease what, Yeji?â You continue pecking her creamy, porcelain skin, suckling on it but not enough to result in hickeys and god, it just resulted in sexier moans escaping her lips.Â
Sheâs struggling to articulate words that can formulate her wants, but sheâd put up an end to such a clouding demise. âI want moreâgodâmore, pleaseâŚâ
You grip her waist harsher, gaining such control as you pin her harder onto the wall and what a poor soul whimpering upon your own dominative assertion. You grant her needs as you caress her waist while peppering her with torrid kisses, resulting in such a cacophonous symphony that you would cherish hearing every second.Â
You wanted more from her and her answer still made your satisfaction resting onto a low zero. âWhat do you want from me, baby?â
The word elicits a gasp from her mouth, feeling appalled with such a name she always finds hot and funnily enough, the stars are aligning.Â
She whimpers but manages to think clearly and didnât hesitate to be vocal about it, âYour cock, pleaseââÂ
As sheâs about to advance her hands onto your clothes crotch, you stop her as you shake your head leisurely, having another plan in mind. âNoâhave some patience and alsoâŚâ Yejiâs eyes scintillate beneath the dim light that appears as sheâs anticipating what words could leave your mouth. âI gotta return the favor.âÂ
Your hands roamed its way onto the hem of her tight skirt, and asked such a question she canât deny. âMay I?â
She hitched a broken breath and gulped as she responded intimately, âYesâyes, you can.â
Your fingers ran towards the edge of her skirt and eventually found the zipper and did such wonders, things that could easily soothe her and make her more comfortable. As much as you wanted to see it down on the floor, revealing her probably wet panties, you have other thoughts about your own, selfish arousal.
âDonât want it on the floor?â
âThis outfit, Yejiââ Your left hand then forced her figure pressed onto yours as she yelped with your immediate action, earning a startled whimper as her eyes looked at you like itâs her favorite candy. She loves your subtle harsh acts, and she wonât be deprived of any since this was just a gentle introduction. ââlooks amazing on you.â
Yeji smiles as the compliment strokes her ego and how genuine you sounded, âThanks, forâooh, gosh!â
She yelped with your touch permeating on her legs as you roamed your hands towards her clothed regions which earned such a sultry, needy moan from Yeji. You can feel the heat thatâs rivaling your cold hands and as the cherry on top, her wetness evident from her slit which is probably leaking right from the start.
You loosen up the zip of her skirt and god, she vocalizes how better it felt and maybe itâs mostly because of the fact that your fingers are pleasuring her crotch against that fine silk thatâs about to be ruined thanks to your dexterity. It was pursuant to her and wherever she wants it, youâre going to follow it and with her subsequent moans, youâd like to let her know that your skills are up to par. Feeling the hunger running down your body, you canât help but share another kiss, but this time, it feels chaste since all of the attention and unfeigned emotions are translated down with your fingers. They both felt like deprived lions from the wild, and such an inevitable kiss will bound to feed the pleasure the both of you are needing.
The evident bulge pokes down on your pants and Yeji was quick to notice that, cupping it and caressing to tame the beast. You moaned with her actions and so she is, too, but it's a repeated chant in your ears as she pleads with you for your own comfort. âYour cock, please.â
You didnât care anymore, and knowing how the both of you wanted this then you wouldnât deny her for doing the same thing youâre great at. Even with pleasure lingering onto every lobe in her brain, it wonât stop her to claim her promised prize as you help her undress your bottom-half, unbuckling your belt as she does the last step and all you can feel are your defenses going down, one by one as the raging beast thatâs inside that clothed prison is about to be unshackled.Â
The wait was worth it and the both of you are now in such a vulnerable state that a single touch would make a writhe or shiver as sensitivity is the culprit. Yejiâs fingers are on point and dexterous as expectedâthe way she danced her hands around your shaft, stroking it in a corkscrew motion is making you feel such bliss thatâs unmatched and god, the scene is just hot.
You never thought the sight of the both of you masturbating would be so damn arousing and thought it was just some myth but yet again, hypocrisy is eliminated within the time being.
âGodâyou really canât wait, huh?âÂ
âHow can I? We need to mutually feel the same.â Yeji knows her pursuit against your aching beast wasnât going to bother you, but rather the opposite. Her strokes were going livid as you groan with the lack of lubrication but it was exchanged by the pleasure that she gives you and of course, you wouldnât lose onto this game and did the same, possibly vibrating your fingers and you maintain such an up and down motion which inevitably elicits such visceral moan from her.
The both of you did your best with your own expertise, doing such sinful things without even the main event is honestly criminal, and you would hold onto that because you want to make use of this and youâd prove to her youâre as good as she is.
âYouâre fucking dripping, Yejiâgod, did I turn you on so much?â Possibly a rhetorical question or maybe not, but either way, you know sheâll be a little irritated enough to defend her claim and quit such hypocrisy.
âN-No shitâyouâre that talented too, huh?â You smile with her inadvertent compliment as you avert your eyes through her clothed crotch and itâs being ruined with her own doing, leaving such a masterpiece of clothing worthless, spoiled with her own juices.
âA natural, more likelyâah!â You yelp with Yejiâs sudden squeeze of your shaft in between her strokes as you glare at her playfully, her face then forming such a seductive smirk then a little scoff with your confidence.Â
âYouâre cocky too? God, youâre such a rare gem.â
A rare find, you suppose which is truly the truthâyouâll prove to her that thereâs no one she can find that will be better than you. Your impatience is growing thinner by the second even with such a hot mess between both your crotches, and youâd let her know about your frustrations and needs.
âYeji, I need to fuck you now.â
The tone is commanding, your face stern and her eyes widen with those simple words of need. Your eyes meet hers and they never lieâthose glowing orbs of yours didnât cease the exhilaration youâre feeling and sheâs the one to blame.Â
As much as it hurts for the both of you to stop, it will be rewarding once the climax settles in for such a spectacular show.
âHow would you want me?â Yejiâs voice was bubbly but still hinting at that lace of seduction, being the alluring vixen that she is.Â
âStrip that skirt, lay onto your stomach, and lastly, feet onto the floor.â
She is as thrilled as you are, and immediately puts up a show but doesn't go further without a question for such clarification, âDonât you wanna see me naked?â
You would want to, but not now.
âJust the skirt, please. Everything else, on.â Commanding and straight to the point, just how you wanted all along.Â
There were no complaints or the fact sheâs abstaining from this command of yours, and in fact, it maybe even made it hotter. The way sheâs seductively teasing and pulling her zipper until gravity does the job, itâs just a sight to behold and the final product left you in awe: the ruined black silk panties in such alongside the scribbled pattern of her stocking that just made the sight sizzle it complete heat that she emanates (figuratively).
âLike what you see?â She turns around then again, showing you her perfect figure all with your eyes to feast on as you were a step away from your final prize.
âYes, now please turn around and lay on your stomach like I said.â
Your imperative nature sets herself in a position of reluctance but then shifts onto an immediate opposite. She does what she was told and wiggles her ass leisurely to invite you with a temptation to ruin her and even though if she wonât be vocal about it, you'd make it so that she won't be able to walk until the next day.
Yeji looks back onto her shoulder and lets out such profanity words, âMake a mess out of meâI donât break easily.â
You wonât be convinced until you try it yourself but looking at her robustness and skills earlier, you might have to be biased with your judgment. âWeâll see about that.â
Completely kicking your garments to god knows where, youâre now in a better state of control as you tease her wet folds, earning a whimper that becomes uncontrollable as soon as you sink your finger against her raging heat.Â
You canât wait no more, you absolutely canât because youâre dying to know what she feels like and with her last bit of defense out of your way, itâs time to do the unthinkable.
Now parting her supple legs with your hands, your eyes feast on her impeccable figure then onto that delicious cunt thatâs making you drool. Unable to contain your enjoyment and your fantasies against her, you caught her by surprise with an unexpected twistâprobably the twist that youâre involved in would be your tongue lathering her folds and tasting the escaping nectar that she produces.
It was succulent and you dived in it easily as the musky, floral scent of her tight cunt invites you, and you didnât waste time as this was a golden opportunity. You wanted to tease her just for the sake of stimulation, playing a game with her ramping orgasm building up but youâd reckon the opposite and such pace ensued impatiently.
âFuck! Such a t-talented mouthâfuck!â Yejiâs whines were coherent enough for you to increase the pace and double your effortsâyou wish to let her reach her denied climax earlier with your fingers and your mouth. It wasnât far off as you can feel her juices forming a rivulet onto her labia and spreading onto your chin and mouth, knowing how incredibly close she can be. She calls you repeatedly, gripping the sheets tight enough to rip it but it canât and you eat her out with an effort that no one can rival.
A single wail is what it took before she screams, and there goes your long-chased win within a second awayâ
âIâm going to cumââ Surprisingly short and articulate, you let her give everything she has and there she goesâ
Yejiâs orgasm comes in quickly as soon as she mutters those desperate words, and she immediately lays waste as she constantly spews liquid after liquid onto her sheets which instantly gets ruined. The both of you didnât care about it but rather mind your own business while you still extended her climax, achieving such heights of her vocals.
âGodâjust fuck m-me now, pleaseâŚâ
Your cock is aching and throbbing in need, and with the penultimate action making her see such stars, itâs time for the last and the main event to take place.
You ask her if sheâs in good condition and she didnât bother to assure you, so with her green light, you stepped onto the throttle and gave in to your deepest, carnal desires.
Standing up, you then give her backside a last look before you plunge your length inside her wet hole and immediately groan with its tightness, feeling like her walls are gripping your shaft with a Herculean effort that probably was the blessing in disguise.Â
âYouâre fucking tight, Yejiâthis feels just right.â And it is too right to be true, and you love it.
âStretch me outâfuck, youâre crazy.â
Lust ignites you and it serves such an everlasting fuel for whatâs bound to happen, and you give in just like that. You started off slow, letting her get accustomed to your length as you bury the entirety of your shaft then withdraw with just the tip inside, showing such penetration that could make any girlâs mind go haywire.
Itâs starting to get to her slowly in every thrust you doâthe utter pleasure your cock brings was phenomenal and with her small whines could determine how sheâs really feeling deep inside. She grips onto the bedsheets like her life depends on it and itâs only going to get better once you manage such a pace that will make her think of you and you only.
Her cunt tightens once you spanked that pristine skin of hers and then called out to let her know something, âIâll own this cunt until you see the stars above, do you understand?â
Between her wails of pleasure is her ephemeral nod with your question, unable to speak up due to the stimulation thatâs coursing through her. Every stroke you do causes such slaps that adds to the orchestra of her moans that can be possibly heard outside as her room is too puny to shackle such sinful sounds of sex. You grip her hips harshly and increase your pace, making you moan on how she clenches her velvety walls once your length hits it balls-deep inside her.
âWant me to be rough, Yeji?â You hammer your hips in a velocity thatâs making her brain in shambles, unable to mutter a response after a second in which you didnât like.
A small punishment would do the job, but this is rewarding for her and a statement by yours. âI asked you a question, didnât I?â
Her breaths are ragged between your thrusts as she cries with your immediate barrage of spanks, causing her to finally answer you even with her mind unable to achieve such clear articulacy. âYes, p-pleaseâI want it, ow!â
Another spank onto those pristine skin of hers never fails to make you throb with how it jiggled with such harshness, and the marks thatâs finally imprinted on the soft skin tells such roughness. As she grows accustomed with your length due to her repeated chants of pleasure, you quickly opted for what could raise such an experience.
If her mind is ultimately clouded with you and canât think straight, then youâre the opposite, clearly adapting to the situation.
âYejiâŚâ
âWhaâooh! Mffhâmmh!â Ragged breaths leave her mouth as she struggles to breath with what youâve doneâyou opted for a leverage that asserts your domination over her making the long, black lace at the back of her neck deemed as a leash rather than an aesthetic of her outfit. She probably liked the fact of such risking playing between life and death thanks to the asphyxiation and it didnât stop you, but rather prove a point.Â
âYou like being choked and used, slut?â Your words just made Yeji elicit more moans as sheâs being tamed, controlled by you and god, the way sheâs creaming against your rapidly ramming length tells you about her satisfaction. The sheets will probably rip off no matter how durable they are and lastly, it will be soaked with her own juices and thatâs thanks to your own doing. Her feet then raise up in the air as you give a better angle of penetration, switching between the black lace and onto her legs for leverage.
Even though she's barely stripped from her clothing, her clothes really compliments her figure and youâd like to take this mental picture and etch it on the deepest parts of your brainâsomething worth remembering until the end of time. The way that she's a disheveled, ruined mess right now just fuels you to break her in half and youâre not going to stop until youâve fulfilled such destiny.
You wanted your hands to be occupied onto something and not being idle most of the time and with such a completely ruined mess of a girl she is now, youâd love to add more of it. You then grab her wrists and command her to arch her back, in which she complies and immediately, your hands reach onto those perky breasts of hers with the clothing still in the way. You caress them and Yeji can vouch she could feel such intensity even with such stellar clothing being a nuisance but thereâs nothing to worry about, not when youâre giving her absolutely everything to feel.
You didnât stop there as you leaned your frame closer to her while hammering her tight cunt repeatedly and utter the words, âThis cunt is mine now, Yeji.â
She nodded and exclaimed a faint yes as you gave her pecs onto her shoulders, letting her know how much you love every single inch of hers and how youâre marking your own territory. Between your kisses is a feeling that somethingâs building up and you can feel it with the way her walls pulsate around your shaftâyou know she's close and itâs up for you to let her wants prevail.
There wasnât any choice and you love to see Yeji writhe as you give her such thrusts before her cardinal end.Â
âI know youâre dying to cumââ You invite her to give in as she moans with your words, urging such a release that could let her see the things you wanted her to have a sight of. ââso cum on this cock. Cum for me.â
Your words act like a lever that opens up her reservoir and it feels like a tsunami surging around your length. With multiple cries to spare, you wanted to make her feel something exquisite while achieving her own orgasm, letting you finger avert her chin facing you, against her shoulder as you kissed her lips intimately. Time felt slow as the both of you locked lips and to ride off her high, you slowed down because you still wanted her to feel such intense gratification through her awaited climax.
âI n-never felt that good in my entire life.â Yejiâs breaths were jagged, as she recovers from her orgasm even with your lengthy still penetrating and possibly destroying her insides. Even with a possibly mind-fucked Yeji, she knew what you wanted all along and didnât hesitate to ask you about it. âArenât you close?â
âWell, if you didnât cum, I wouldâve come first.â
An audible gasp resonated in your ears as it piqued her willingness to help you, and it was evident in her tone. âI could feel it tooâjust fuck me silly again and just cum.â
She recovered fast because of the evident change of her tone, and you, still a bit puzzled and hesitant knowing she may want a load deep inside her. âDonât want it insideââ
âThen do it in my mouthâyou fucking which hole is now your choice.â
Her invitation is just persuasive and alluring and it never fails you to fall a victim for. Knowing how she wanted it, as much as you wanna bother such another session being between her legs, youâd want to fulfill her wants and itâs safer with the help of a great oral ending.
âOn your knees then, and open your mouth. Iâm going to fuck your face.â You let her position and prepare herself for what's about to come as surprisingly, her legs are still working fine after all of the havoc youâve brought into her.
Yeji closes her eyes, her mouth agape, ready for the taking as you stroke your length in its absolute vigor and there she goes, taking you again for the second time. This time, you take control by grabbing her ponytail thatâs shockingly intact even with the ruckus you made her be in earlier. Sheâs taking you like a good girl as you ram into her face with abandon, skin slapping signaling the constant harshness you bring and it is perfect. She gagged and you didnât care, yet she managed to tame it but wasnât successful as alwaysâyou praised her attempts and wasnât close to being futile. Her nails dug into the skin of your thighs as she let it be the leverage onto your constant rummage in her throat, and she welcomed every thrust with a gleeful demeanor, locking her gaze towards you.
She cries, tears running down her cheek as she was a disheveled mess and youâre proud of what youâve done. You could feel the familiar sensation tingling near your stomach and a better way to end such a monumental note is giving everything you can.Â
The unstoppable force meets the immovable object, as such velocity is unparalleled, hammering her tight throat like itâs her cunt and within seconds from her last gag you could feel everything coming down to this moment. Here it goes: Yeji chokes yet manages to keep your length all the way in, you groaning and calling her name like a chant and of course, the awaited climax that filled her throat up to the brim. You stayed for five more seconds, burying your length as her arms writhe with her repeated gags and then, pulls out immediately, strings of saliva adding to the mess she is and of course, the image of Yeji almost choking out your load but manages to compose herself to swallow it all, humming gleefully as she not get to taste the entirety of your delicious load.
âLike I saidâitâs fucking deliciousâhah.â The both of you caught your own breaths yet Yeji shows the struggle evidently. Still on her knees, she managed to show what youâve done as your reward and the last thing you just saw her go is gulp down all of it in one go, into her stomach. She initiated the last dance with her hands grabbing your shaft, then directing it onto her mouth in order to clean the mess she made onto it. You groan with the sensitive surge she brings you, thankfully her tongue doing the work but you don't complain as within seconds, she ends her oral assault and it makes you feel spectacular for a long while.
You cup her cheeks, admiring the glamorous mess you made in which she unhesitantly neaten with her utmost capabilities. âYouâre so damn pretty, Yeji.â
âYou too.â
It was mutual at this moment and you never knew it would end like this but her voice wants to tell you that something isnât over, yet.
âHelp me clean up?â
And it was a hint, just out of curiosity, youâll probably pull the trigger because how can you not refuse her invitation?
---
After countless sleepless nights and tumultuous days, you find yourself at the top of the world, and what better way to end this is just to go home, lay down and reminisce what a day this has been.
âThe lights are pretty, huh?â Yeji interrupts your moment with her voice, and she locks her eyes towards yours, staring deeply into your soul as you fall onto it yet manage to snap back to reality.
âYeah, it isâalso, I just canât comprehend how we ended up this way.â Yejiâs on the same boat as you and you could feel it in your nerves. This felt like a fever dream and you loved every second of it.
âMaybe thatâs how destiny works, huh?â
You scoff, as your lips curled up a faint smile and muttered, âMaybe it is and yeah, I should leavââ
âLeave?â Yeji pouts as she inches herself closer onto yours, holding your wrist as her tone hints at her disappointment. âDonât you wanna bother and stay just for this night?â
You canât resist her, you absolutely canât as you donât want to be the bearer of bad news that will make her feel awkward.
You have a choice and youâll stick with that⌠in her favor.
You smile sincerely, and Yejiâs holistic demeanor appears, âOkay, how can I resist you?â
âUp for you to find out.â
Maybe she was good, but honestly, sheâs great. She is partly a monster and partly an angel, and youâll live in those worlds together as you find your soulless heart beating rapidly for the first time in a long while.
Youâre completely invigorated, and youâll embrace this new chapter that opened.
âSheâs good, sheâs goodâsheâs great.â
---
You continue ruminating about the day youâve had, and every moment was worth remembering. You smiled in your victorious attempts, which is having her number on your phone and sleeping with her through the night. As Yeji does her hygiene in the bathroom, a buzz on your phone piques your attention, and it was no other than the devil that made yourself look like an angel despite what you descended yourself into.
kim_chaewon on 23:15 - âGuess I shouldnât have doubted you huh? Well done with the second phase, meet me tomorrow afternoon for further details. Enjoy your night for nowâweâre still not done.â
She received it damn well minutes ago and made her eat up her words, but youâre still clearly within the base of the iceberg, and youâre still starting your remarkable journey.
âHah⌠Of course we arenâtâŚâ There was no surprise with that as you muttered in response to her text.
Yet there are multiple questions lingering in your mind: How did she know about this? How would she know if youâre lying or not? What may happen tomorrow? How long will this take?Â
You could never answer those unless you figure things out, and let Chaewon introduce you to more of whatâs possible between both worlds: you and everyone elseâs, including hers.
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in which a vacant home sits awaiting for spencer reid's return, and then he sits waiting for yours.Â
pairing: spencer reid x reader genre: hurt/comfort tags: established relationship. cm s12 spoilers. post prison reid. most certainly not canonically accurate. in fact diana reid is nowhere to be seen. canonâs not real anyways i know him better than the cm writers. past non prison reid trauma mentioned. reader has hair long enough for a ponytail (?) word count: 2.6k a/n: happy parfaitblogs post prison spencer reid fanfic to a searows song to all that celebrate.
The air was uncomfortably still in apartment 23. Thick, coating every piece of furniture, as if it was some incredibly translucent fog. Everything had been moved, and yet nothing was different. Empty mugs sitting in his sink with a coffee stain that reached a centimetre from the top, shoes dispersed on the floor by the front door. He just might've gone crazy in prison, considering he was pretty sure he could spot the layer of dust on each and every surface.Â
Your things mixed with his own. A blanket he doesn't remember ever purchasing in a crumpled ball on the couch, your laptop sitting awkwardly atop his own on his desk. But you weren't there. He could literally tell from the lack of movement happening in the space, and the fact that your bag wasn't situated anywhere his eyes could see. He also just knew you wouldn't be here. He hadn't spoken to you in three months, not even through words on a page. He was sure he'd not want to talk to you either, if the roles were reversed.Â
He wants you here, regardless.
He doesn't like his apartment without you in it. It's dull, and he's too on edge to do anything about it. Letting the oppressive air suffocate him in his new position on the couch, veins still peeking through his cold skin even as his hands sweat from your blanket he had wrapped them in. It smelled of you, and it was the closest comfort he could find in an otherwise discomforting time.Â
He wants you here.Â
Dinner was a steaming plate of nothing. No food he could eat without being sick sitting in any of his cupboards, for his appetite had grown bland during his time in prison, and you were not a plain crackers eater. He misses your cooking dearly. He misses your rambling about the different spices you were trying out that evening.Â
He wants you here.Â
His shower was cold. Icy water to rinse the running sweat from his constantly uneasy state. No shampoo, despite how badly his curls needed to be treated nicely again. It was shampoo you had bought for him; shampoo you had lathered through his hair time and time again as you taught him how to take care of his curls to keep them pretty, as you had said. The smell now made him sick.
He wants you here.
His bed remained untouched. The indent of where your head lay in his pillows still there, sheets and duvet wrinkled from your no doubt hurried job at making it that morning. He refused to get into it. Instead, he curled up on the floor at the foot of the bed, like a dog guarding the piece of furniture. His knees at his chest, arms around his legs. Positioned in a ball to keep him as small as possible, probably. Exhaustion never came, and his brain never silenced. He spent who knows how long staring at the doorway, out into his living room, thinking. Longing. Ruminating.Â
He needs you here.Â
Sunlight was peeking into his apartment through the blinds. Which he hadn't really noticed until he tore his eyes away from the medullary rays he was intensely studying, at the sound of his front door creaking open. He didn't say anything as he heard the familiar noise of your charm adorned bag rattling in the space. In fact, he almost smiled at it. He might've, if not for the aching hole in his chest.Â
He had no idea if you knew he was coming home until he heard your breath hitch. You were still far away, standing by the back of his couch, your hand halfway through tugging your hair out of its ponytail. Frozen in time once you had spotted him, confirming that no. You had no idea Spencer Reid was coming home today.Â
It was an awkward back and forth of breaths, and eye contact that he couldn't break even if he wanted to. You were real, and you were here, and even though you were staring at him with a heart shatteringly broken expression, he felt relief heat his glacial veins. You had not turned on your heel and sprinted away from him, and you were not screaming at him either.Â
He watched your muscles relax and your brain seemingly sink back into your body as the initial shock wore off, your feet now carrying your body over to his position on the floor.Â
He untangled his limbs before you reached him, grimacing at the ache in all his joints, ignoring the stickying feeling of the wound in his thigh reopening, blood coating his pants once more.Â
You didn't ignore it.Â
Nor did you say anything. Clocking the deep red stain on his otherwise white sweatpants, and disappearing into his ensuite to collect his first aid kit and a cloth. He couldn't count on his hands how many times you had stitched him up after he had come home from a case throughout all these years, the act awfully habitual by now. Yet, he was carefully watching your every move like it was the first time, responding to every signal you gave him to move or still.Â
Delicate fingers that brushed against his thigh encouraged goosebumps onto his skin, his sweatpants now in a heap on the floor next to your two bodies. His legs stretched across your crossed ones, a quiet, "Sorry," being the first word you said to him, as he winced at the gauze pressing against the open wound.Â
He murmured back an, "It's okay," while your hands wrapped a bandage around the limb, your heart rate increasing with fluster as you felt his gaze locked onto your face.Â
You aren't sure what to say to him after you finish dressing the injury, and so you stand up, heading towards his closet to pull out a fresh pair of pants for him to wear instead. You weren't quite sure if he actually wanted to speak to you. For three months, you were convinced he didn't.Â
He did want to be near you though, you learned. Trailing after you like a lost puppy as you moved through the motions of your post work routine silently. You didn't argue about it, even as he sat in the bathroom while you showered, or watched you intently as you boiled water in the kettle, and made a cup of tea for yourself and him. You didn't ask if he wanted one, and he was eternally grateful you had done it anyways.Â
Two cups of tea sat domestically on the coffee table, a sight you had sorely missed throughout these past weeks. He was curled up on the couch, his head in your lap, your fingers entangled in messy curls and balancing your focus between his unsteady breathing, and the old cartoon you had put on for visual stimulation in the space.Â
A conversation was needed to be had. One you most certainly did not want to have. You broke the silence to begin it, anyways.
"I wasn't allowed to go see you."
If not for the words themselves, then the cracking of your voice and the obvious heaviness of a sob lodged in your throat broke his heart even more. He had a lot of practice recently in being quiet voluntarily, and yet he was truly at a loss for words right now.Â
"I know," he decides on saying. "I kept you off the list."
"Why?"
The explanation felt incredibly meaningless now. It had at least made sense three months ago. And, worse than that, it was an unfair reason. He should not have decided for the both of you your limitations on seeing him based on insecurities.
"I didn't want you to see me like that," he admits, each word heavy on his tongue, for he could feel the way your fingers stilled in his hair, and he was sure your shoulders had just deflated.Â
You swallow down your snarky defence, knowing it wasn't helpful or even worth it right now. Instead, you nod your head, silently, and take a few beats to decide how to respond to him.Â
"I just wanted to see you," you whisper, eyes transfixed on the television screen, though your attention was anywhere but. "Just once, Spencer. JJ wouldn't even give me updates on how you were doing."
His throat bobs, and you look down at him, unsurprised to see his eyes studying your face already.Â
"I know. I asked her not to. I didn't want you to worry any more than you already were."
You knew he wouldn't do well in prison. If not for how mind numbingly boring it would've been for a brain as active as his, then for how unsafe he would've been as a federal employee. Everyday, you feared the phone calls you received from any of his colleagues, waiting for the one to inform you of his death within those concrete walls.Â
To know he was doing so bad he didn't even want you to know about it was quite possibly worse than any fear you had had the entire time he was in prison.
"I pretended to write to you," he informs you, quietly. "It kept me sane. Writing letters, even though you'd never receive them."
"Do you still have them?"
"No."
"Oh. Okay."
He hates how small you sound in your response. He hates himself for throwing away those letters. They may not have been the most pleasant, but they were an insight into his life during prison. One he was sure you were keenly interested in. Never mind the confessions of love he had jotted down. Daily. Reminding himself over and over what he was surviving for. Who he was surviving for.Â
"I made a friend this week," he says. "I think he's a friend. He used to be in the Bureau too. We bonded over that and books. He got me my own cell, next to his. We've been playing chess. He's kept me being a federal employee quiet, and kept me safe."
The confusion that had originally swept across your face settled upon realising what he was doing, and your lips twitched upwards. Grateful once more for his eidetic memory.
"I read As You Like It today. I'm not sure if you've read it, or any of Shakespeare's works. I don't know how I've never asked that. I wish I had. I will if I get out of here. I think you'd like Rosalind. She's hilarious. She reminds me a bit of you. She has an entire monologue scolding someone because she doesn't love a man who loves her dearly, while simultaneously berating that man for being a shepherd."
"I read Romeo and Juliet in high school," you say, staring down at him, and his chest puffs in a small laugh. Your heart swells in your own.Â
"I miss you everyday," your smile falls again at his words, as does his own, and you instead feel your stomach sink into the same inextinguishable black hole that permanently resided there. "I'll get out of here one day. Even if it's in twenty years. I selfishly hope you never move on if it takes that long. I'll be okay if you do. I love you."
"How many more do you have?" you ask him, fingers trailing down his face, tracing gentle patterns on the skin absentmindedly, for your mind was busy whirring about your first introduction to his time in prison.
"If I think hard enough, all of them," he answers. "It's hard to focus on much right now."
"That's okay," you say, chewing on your lower lip, staring at the two half drunk teas in front of you. "You don't have to tell me another one now."
He only nods his head, and you can only be silent from then on, unsure of what else to say to him that isn't a plead for what you had missed over three months of no contact.Â
He encourages you to move to his bedroom after his body falls asleep on you once, before jolting awake after only a few seconds. You comply, and intertwined fingers drag him to the bed you had become exceedingly familiar with.Â
He had never felt like a child in the present his whole life. Only ever when he looked back on the years before did he truly recognise he was young. Too young to have lost his dad. Too young to be solely responsible for his mother's health care. Too young to be battling a drug addiction. Every key moment in his life was a violent reminder of how fast he was forced to grow up. Simultaneously, he was unable to stop the time from passing.Â
And yet, as you cradled his head in your hands against your chest in his bed, your heartbeat providing him a welcome comfort that you were alive and he was with you, he felt like a child. He felt too young, and, for the first time in his life, he did not feel intelligent enough to deal with any of this.Â
He had caught a glimpse of his twelve year old self attending high school when he first arrived in prison. A small fish lost in an ocean of sharks. Here, he ponders whether or not that version of himself ever actually left his body, or if he was simply twelve years old and navigating this adult life fraudulently.Â
"I don't know how to deal with this," he whispers into the air.
He despises the way your caressing hand stops. Though, he doesn't mention it.Â
"Time, I guess," you murmur, chest rumbling against his head.
"I hate time."
"Yeah," you agree, quietly. "Time is the best healer, though."
"I hate that idiom."
"You suddenly hate a lot of things?" you ask, eyebrows shooting up.Â
"Mm," he nods his head, and exhales a sharp breath of air. "Not you."
A quip manifests on your tongue, but you bite it down, unsure if he will actually comprehend your humour right now. "That's good. I don't hate you either."Â
Silence settles over your bodies, though, unlike the air when he had entered the night before, it's much more pleasant.Â
He breaks the quiet with a whisper. "Thank you for not being mad at me. I'm sorry I didn't let you come see me."
You want to say you're mad at him for the sake of the principle. It wasn't fair, and the way you had felt during those three months was neglected and uncared for. But then the man you had been upset with had come home, and you're very quickly learning his reasons for it all. Anger dissipates quickly when it comes to Spencer Reid, you've found.Â
You also believe if you had seen him the way he is now, but without the ability to hold him the way you are, and a piece of glass separating your bodies, you'd probably be a lot less composed.Â
"It's okay," you mumble. "Thank you for not making me see you like that."
He only nods his head as a response.Â
He fell asleep sometime after your last comment, and you allowed yourself the time to finally look at him intensely.
His skin was bruised. Purple and yellow painting the skin all over, and you fought the urge to search for all the other marks all over his body. You were already blinking back tears; you weren't sure how much more you could handle.Â
Quietly, as your hands drop from the contusions on his face to your sides, you whisper earnestly, "I love you too."
And as his breathing hitches for only a moment, you're sure he hears you, even while asleep.Â
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