#also: WIND FEELS SO WEIRD

[unironicallycringe]

Sometimes i think about TMM and get all Hearts Emoji about it, but other times i just feel embarrassed or ashamed. It's weird! I feel like my ability to be joyfully cringe and creative has eroded over time. It's a muscle that needs working out. Sharing my work has become emotionally taxing. I started out posting TMM really regularly, then after a couple incidents, I got slower and slower. Now, in posting Dear Brother, I just sort of show up every other month or two and drop a chapter and bail lmao. I talk to a few mutuals and then skip town. I think about how I used to do weekly / biweekly TMM updates and I'm like "who tf was that guy with so much naive energy" LOL

I think maybe when I continue posting TMM, I will have to be way more distant and quiet in the fandom space, as I am lately with DB. Much much love to all of my readers and thank you for your patience and interaction! It's just been such an unexpectedly-long hiatus, and I've been paralyzed on posting TMM for many, many different reasons.

(I know I show up like every 5 months and make a post musing aloud like this, just consider it a proof-of-life if you're not tuned into my TES stuff /lh)

[thewingedwolf]

luther: the golden child

diego: the mastermind

allison: the peace keeper

klaus: the clown / mascot

five: the rebel / truth teller

ben: the lost child

viktor: the scapegoat

is this something i think this is something

[cattocavo]

A schmol update! Baz appeared!

I already spent 7 hours on it💀 i swear this was supposed to be a quick painting redraw but mate this is gonna end up taking me 14 hours probably…

[marzipanandminutiae]

The fact that I will never read The Red House by Julián Carax is homophobic

[vancoor]

more haithams

[rurinnfane]

With access to my tablet again I wanna jump on the Miku in your culture bandwagon soooo bad, I need to see Burqueña Miku with a Zia tattoo behind her ear. I need to also see her dressed like a typical rich white lady in Santa Fe with all the huge gaudy turquoise jewelry

[keeps-ache]

wink blink look !!

[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent things.. mostly just writing screenshots lol

[butchlifeguard]

attention spans dont real lmao. nothing about the condition or support needs of yr adhd can be measured by measuring yr attention span because the nature of adhd is that attention span is incredibly variable. this is bc adhd is characterized by dopamine seeking behavior and not just a timer until we get bored and go on our phones

[cyeayt]

Back on my bullshit answer my questions

while doing some rudimentary research for this poll it has come to my attention that pins and needles are a feeling felt while the limb is asleep, not the period of intense sensation/tingling/sensitivity experienced while it comes back online. or maybe it's both? the stuff i read referred to it as tingling that happens while the limb is pinned/under pressure/numb. i cannot find anything that references what i have come to think of as "the agony" but ive referred to it as the pins and needles in the options for this poll anyway.

Mild: limb has muted sensation but can be moved and used carefully, pins and needles begin almost immediately after limb is moved from whatever position caused it to fall asleep. Pins and needles not painful and do not appear painful, and last a few seconds, person affected is capable of speech and moving other parts of their body during pins and needles, which last a few seconds.

Middle intensity: limb is numb or partially numb and can twitch but not be moved precisely. Pins and needles begin a few seconds after limb is unpinned or when it is moved. Pins and needles not painful but intense and appear uncomfortable, taking a lot of the affected person's attention/capacity. they last between 5 and 7 seconds.

Intense: limb is numb and cannot move/be used, pins and needles begin 5-7 seconds after the limb is unpinned. pins and needles are intense and may be painful or not painful but 'unbearable', causing the affected person to cry out, grimace, or otherwise appear to be in pain. Person cannot speak or move their other limbs during pins and needles, which last 10 or more seconds (without shaking) and have residual tingling for a few seconds after limb regains movement/becomes bearable to move

obviously this all depends on how long the limb was pinned but just answer whichever is the most common for you, and if you want you can put in the tags what positions make your limbs go numb/how you deal.

[tempestclerics]

i pretty much exclusively make ttrpg characters who cannot go home to some degree but upon thinking about it hathym might be the Most Cannot Go Home of all time and they’re definitely realizing this at the same time

[izzy-b-hands]

Reminder that if the first thing I see on a blog new to following me are even vaguely positive posts abt h*rry p*tter, I'm gonna assume ur a t/erf/transphobic and immediately block u

Shout-out to the person this morning who liked one of my fics on here, followed me, then when i went to their blog literally the only post was something abt h p. Had me really excited (new person reading!) then really sad (they're most likely a transphobe) in the space of less than a minute before I blocked them. Hence this reminder that tbh I really didn't think I'd ever need to make but. Here we are.

(said as someone who read the books as a kid and at the time did v much have them as a big part of my life so like. I see the angle of nostalgia/rose tinted lenses that many claim, but the thing is that joanne is a piece of shit who wants ppl like me dead so fuck nostalgia, fuck her, fuck her books, there are far better authors and books out there to read/support/make a major part of ur life if ur so inclined.)

[transgaysex]

wtf. born this way by lady gaga came out 12 years ago and this is the first time i actually read the lyrics and i feel SO silly but i teared up

[keeps-ache]

'heat advisory! on my computer??' [brief pause] '..it's more likely than you think!!'

[yugocar]

art my mutuals/followers were touched by this year

made this little compilation mostly for myself, but also for anyone else looking for random inspiration. thanks to everyone for sharing <3

tito i ja (tito and me) dir. goran markovic // film

niederungen (nadirs) “herztier” (the land of green plums) - herta muller // literature 

album “ghost story” (dorothy may, unmarked, you left this) - fern maddie // music

four winds series EP’s (notos, eurus, boreas, zephyrus) - the oh hellos // music

uhvati zeca (catch the rabbit - lana bastasic // literature 

winter in sokcho - elisa shua dusapin // literature

‘night mother - marsha norman // literature

the sisters brothers dir. jacques audiard // film

the year of magical thinking - joan didion // literature 

true west - sam shepard // play

giovanni’s room - james baldwin // literature 

the white album - joan didion // literature

i’m thinking of ending things dir. charlie kaufman // film 

struggle: the life and lost art of szukalski dir. irek dobrowolski // documentary

last breath dir. richard da costa & alex parkinson // documentary 

the broken earth trilogy - n.k jemisin // literature

kurak gunler (burning days) dir. emin alper // film

[marsixm]

related unrelated tangent theres also a very specific way that elder milennial/young gen x online people especially people who make neurodiverse activism or parenthood a huge part of their Brand talk and it gives me the ick so bad