#also yeah I didn't even talk to yoshida

[lxlitabunny]

//Oh yeah I forgot to post my P5R tierlist here. I made up a lot of dumb tiers so there's an explanation as well.

Sojiro is my actual father.

It took me a bit to warm up to Iwai but he is a good man and I love him.

I think the writing in the Royal section was rough (like really give me one good reason why a world where everyone's lives are better is a bad thing) also I prefer the twins (though i still like Lavenza.) Maruki seemed like a great man until Royal turned him into a total freak. So he gets a half-point for pre-Royal characterization lol.

I have WORDS FOR THE WRITERS THOUGH. Ryuuji, Ann, and Haru got this the most I feel but Yusuke isn't very well off either. After their initial intro chapters...they get sidelined so hard. The writers really just said "Okay cool, Ryuji is just stupid now and that's all." he would be in my best boy tier if not for this. I loved him so much in the beginning. Ann was great as well but her and Haru after their own shit's been dealt with were kinda just...there. At least Makoto had her sister to keep her relevant.

"Good" category is just characters I enjoyed but not as much as a "best" category. "They're aight" are more or less neutral opinions.

Also I'm sorry but Mishima was obnoxious.

Only reason Akechi isn't in "Fuck this guy" or "Hate Sink" is because I recognize that he's a good and important character. Far more than fucking Shido who was just a rich guy who wanted to drop his competition and has a disappointingly easy boss fight.

[ryndicate]

Double Down ⨳ Yoshida, Denji

“Didn’t know you were into that stuff.”

warnings: fem body/pronouns, nudes posted without permission, drug use, exhibition, creampie, videos taken with permission, stepcest, infidelity, masturbation, handjob, some spit mentions, premature ejac, implied fuckery, implied theft, if there's more i am just too wacked out to see it so lemme know!

event: @bastardblvd 's slimeball alley collab !! my first submission of who knows how many to come, im gonna try to not go crazy with it, promise

notes: didn't realize until it was done that I could've made it much more slimy but its okay. We'll get 'em next time babes 😩 this idea is expanding on a little blurb I put in cassie's inbox once, i included it in the fic itself with some itty bitty changes

By expanding, you are consenting to viewing adult/dark content, and all warnings listed above. 18+ Minors DNI

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Your fist slams on the bathroom door. “I swear to god, Denji! Where the fuck did you get those! Delete them now!”

“I already told you, Power found them online!” Your stepbrother yells back through the door, keeping his weight against the handle so that you can’t force your way in.

“You’re full of shit you fucking perv! You took them off my phone or something.”

“Wanna fucking bet? The real perv is that prettyboy bastard you call baby,” Denji sneers back, yelping as you get a good shove in on the creaking wood.

Your efforts to break the bathroom door pause. “The hell’re you talking about?”

“I told you he was trouble the day you two met. What—you think I was lying?”

You growl under your breath at the barenecked taunt in Denji’s voice. Yeah he told you, one time before he got high out of his mind. The only reason you even met Yoshida Hirofumi was because he hooked your stepbrother up a couple times, and you begged to tag along once. That situation ended with your brother counting stars on his buddy’s ceiling while you saw them on the backs of your eyelids with the guy’s lips wrapped around your clit. 

One thing led to another, and that “prettyboy bastard” became your boyfriend. He’s a bit of an ass, but Yoshida’s also sweet and funny, doesn’t roll his eyes at your music choices, doesn’t bat an eye when you want to go out with your friends, and is full of sexy, smirky sass that makes him so fun to be around. Sure, you sent him some photos, but he wouldn’t have put them out anywhere.

Your anger deflates, but your indignance does not. You step away from the bathroom door. “He’s got nothing to do with this.”

Denji throws the door open with a toothy grin, repeating himself. “You wanna bet?”

“You know what, yeah!” you snap at him, crossing your arms as he leans in the doorway, still looking smug. 

“Your boyfriend put your pics up on OnlyFans, and he’s using the money to pay for his xanny. If I’m right, you two gotta upload a video. Together,” Denji states, his eyebrows furrowed in twisted delight that makes you sneer at him.

“You’re disgusting!”

“Yeah? Tell me what you get if you win.”

Caught up in his childish bullshit, you push at his shoulder. “You gotta start an OnlyFans if you’re wrong, which you are. And you gotta wear lingerie.”

His smirk full drops at that, and he glares at you, cheeks darkerning. “Now who’s a perv.”

“This whole shit was your idea!”

“Lingerie?”

“How is wearing lingerie worse than telling your stepsister to fuck and post a video about it?!”

“Shut up!”

“And since we’re on the topic, I swear to god if you don’t stop taking my shit out of the laundry I’m gonna tell that redheaded lady at the DMV that she’s at the very top of your fap list.”

His blush deepens and he palms your face backwards in a light push. “The fuck she is. Shut up.”

“Yeah well, me and the thin fucking walls in this apartment would have to disagree.”

“Go find your boyfriend.”

“‘M gonna.”

“Fuck you.”

“Fuck you.”

“Fuck him,” you hiss in barely supressed rage, gripping your boyfriend’s phone so tight you’re disappointed when it doesn’t crack. 

You’d waited for his high to hit him and let him drift off before going through his phone—what’s the point of asking him outright if it’s not true, right? No reason to stir the pot. But your stomach had dropped with unease when the account site was in his search history; you tried to brush it off as maybe he gets off to a set of camgirls, but the moment you saw the login info presaved—as in frequent entry—you began to forget the bet altogether.

Now your jaw is clenched, seething as you scroll through every racy picture you ever sent him. Each have thousands of views, hundreds of comments and jeez—so many subscribers. The heat of betrayal simmers through you. Your jaw drops at the total that’s set to drop into his account at the end of the week and resist the urge to slap Yoshida awake, but instead you set about trying to change the banking and login info, only to get halted by an infowall. Frustrated, you slip off the bed and call your stepbrother, edging into Yoshida’s bathroom so you don’t wake him up.

“You were right, and you fucking knew it, didn’t you? You set me up.” you hiss into the device as soon as he picks up with a mumbled ‘sup. You can hear voices and music in the background, paired with light explosions. You assume he’s out with his friends, probably gaming like usual. 

“You didn’t have to agree. Wait—” there’s the sound of the phone moving around and suddenly the music is gone. “Does that mean you’re gonna do it?”

“That’s besides the point, Denji!”

“Oh fuck, you are!”

“Chill your boner,” you snap, “‘m not gonna do it unless you help me!”

“Help you? What, like you want me to hold the camera or something?”

“Denji, I swear to god—”

“I’m kidding, jeez.”

“I can’t change the account info. They’re my pictures, and they’re already out there! He shouldn’t get to make money off of me.”

“Wait, so you want to keep the account?” He asks curiously. You hear a door slamming and wonder if he’s still moving, or if his friends are.

“Dude, we’ll have rent and anything else covered for the whole month with a single week’s drop from this thing. I don’t see a reason not to. I can quit Mcdonald’s!”

“Shit, for real? Lemme talk to Denki, ‘m pretty sure he knows a guy.”

“Thank you,” you coo into the phone.

“Yeah, yeah, just make sure you pay up.” You can hear his pervy smile, and you grumble a sulky fine at him.

“Ok. But he’s gotta do it soon. It pays out in a couple of days.”

“I’ll give him some cash to see if he can do it tonight. Don’t see why he’d say no—" Denji sounds a lot further away from the phone now, "—Oi! Don't bro! Give it back."

A familiar voice purrs into the receiver and you roll your eyes. "Heyyy, princess. You with that Yoshida guy still or are we allowed to hang now?"

"Byeee, Kiri. Tell Kat hi f'me." You hang up with a smile and leave the bathroom, glaring at your supposed boyfriend still sleeping. You never heard him say he was working and you always kinda wondered where he was getting his cash, but you always just thought he was dealing or something. Not the kind of think you ask about. You obviously should’ve asked.

You crawl into his lap and begin sucking on his exposed throat, admiring the sharp lines, the bob of his adam’s apple as thick lashes flutter open. 

“Mmm,” Yoshida moans. “Damn, was I out long?”

“Nah,” you hum, slipping your fingers up his shirt, smoothing over his waistline. “Got bored without you, that’s all.”

“Yeah, baby?” He grins up at you, dark eyes fuzzed out and sultry, and his hands come up to settle on your hips, easing you into a slow grind. “Wanna do something?”

“Mm. Maybe,” you tease softly, pushing his shirt up his chest and leaning down to wrap your lips around his nipples. He groans at the warm, slick suction, arching into your touch. 

“Fuck, baby,” he breathes out, his cock swelling beneath you. 

“Maybe I wanna do something…different.”

Yoshida grins up at you, half-lidded. “Yeah? Like what?”

Your nails make pink lines down his chest as you lean in to whisper in his ear. “What if you fucked me, and we let some people watch?”

His fingers dig into the fat of your waist, his dick thumping beneath you. “Anyone I know?”

Yoshida’s pupils have overtaken his coal irises, and you give him an inviting smile. “No one specific. I was thinking more like…a video or something. I wanna be able to see it later.”

“Holy fuck, baby. That’s sexy,” Yoshida grins up at you. “Didn’t know you were into that stuff.”

“Me either,” you breath softly, rocking yourself over his covered erection.

You’re left to yelp as he displaces you from your seat on his lap and pulls you out of the bed by your wrist with a wide smirk. “Come on.”

“Wait, where are we going?”

“Don’t worry baby, I just wanna pick something up at the Malmart first.”

“Fine, I guess,” you pout at him and his smirk only grows.

“‘S okay, baby. I’ll give you something too.”

“This is not what I meant when I said video, Hirofumi!” you gasp out. Your fingers are splayed out on the hood of his car as you try to stay upright. “Someone could actually see us!”

"If you don't wanna be seen, you gotta cum. Cause I'm not stopping til you cum."

"Fuck, fuck please, just hurry up!" You plead, half your words caught between whines and whimpers as he pounds into you from behind, your skirt flipped over your back.

"You think I'm not fucking you like I mean it?" There's so much smile in his voice that you want to call him on his bullshit for once, but the solid smacking of his hips into yours, the head of his dick pressing as deep as it can go with every thrust quickly makes you forget what you're snapping at him for.

"Just‐just, fucking make cum– ‘fumi!" You're desperately telling yourself you don't want to be seen. It's the middle of the night, so even here, parked under the one of the many lightposts that don’t work in grimetown's 24-hour walmart parking lot, the risk of anyone seeing is slim.

But not zero. Especially with the light from his phone camera shining down on your exposed lower half. You’re like a slutty beacon for whoever might be looking this way.

"I'm working on it baby, you gotta relax." His fingers slide around your waist, brushing past your clit and forcing a frustrated whimper past your lips at the neglect, to drag them through the slick dripping obscenely from your pussy lips. It's dripping to the rusted black hood, making it glisten. He aims the camera down at them before moving it back to the way your pussy clings to his cock. "You're so fucking wet for this, you'd think the whole thing was your idea. Well, most of it was."

You don't answer him, trying to work yourself back on him, chasing that fluttering heat twisting itself tighter and tigher with each passing second.

"Good girl, look at you. Fuck, look how bad you want—"

"Oi! Get the fuck out of here before I—"

Your whole body locks up at the tired but authoritative voice that rings across the lot.

Your boyfriend calls back. "C'mon man, have a heart. Let me finish her off and I'll give you a look." Except his last syllable staggers off with a groan, broken with a laugh as his grip on your hips tightens to a bruising pressure. The vice grip of your cunt has him looking down to sees your juices gush around the girth of his cock, dripping down your thighs to dirty the hood of his car even more. The sight pushes pushes him over and he calls out again, his voice tight but smug.

"Nevermind, we're done here."

He gets one last shot of his cum dripping out of you before closing out the livefeed.

“It’s like four in the morning,” Denji grumbles, rubbing one of his eyes as he cracks his bedroom open further at the sight of you. “Thought you were Power or somethin’, jeez.”

Denji blinks the blur from his eyes, zeroing in on your screen, and you just about hear his pupils expanding. He pulls a shaky inhale and you roll your eyes.

“Done. Bet over, and here’s your damn proof,” you grumble right back, slamming your phone against his chest and shoving your way into his bedroom to flop down into his bed. It had taken over an hour to convince Yoshida back to his place and get him to fool around enough for him to pass out and you to sneak back home.

"Also Kiri wants you to call him back. He's mad you hung up on him."

A small grin curls your lips but you don't respond, wiggling deeper into his mattress until you're comfortable.

He throws himself down in the bed next to you. “Turn on my speakers.” 

“Or you could just wear headphones, you freak.”

“Nah. Turn ‘em on.”

With an exaggerated sigh, you stretch out to reach up to his desk, turning on the bluetooth speakers that he usually uses to be a nuisance when he’s smoking. “If your dad was home, I’d kill you for this.”

“You’re not even breaking up with him, are you?” Denji chortles, ignoring your bickering. His eyes are glued to the screen as he shoves a hand into his loosened shorts. “What the fuck, you guys were outside?”

You shrug. The video’s only been up for a couple hours and it already has triple the views and donations of all the photos Yoshida has put up so far. “Looks like he’s gonna be making me lots of money, so why not? It’s the least he could do to pay me back.”

Your stepbrother doesn’t answer you, his breathing getting heavier. You close your eyes and sigh as the sounds wet sounds and your own whiny moaning starts bouncing off the walls of his room, wondering to yourself if you really sound like that or if part of you was exaggerating because of the camera. The mattress creaks every now and then as his hips jump, his arm brushing your side as he grinds into his own fist. 

You roll to face him, taking in the sound of his stuttered breaths, the muted slick sound of his fist pumping in his shorts. “So what about this gets you so riled up?”

Denji groans, stomach rippling where his shirt is pulled up around his midsection. “I’nno, it’s hot, isn’t it?”

You keep prodding, “What is? Yoshida? Or me?”

He gives a small whine that has your pulse picking up in sick interest, so you continue. “Was Power really the one to find it? Or…you were subbed to the account, weren’t you Denji?”

“Mm- maybe?”

“Shit,” you whisper to yourself, listening to your own voice begging to cum, shifting your weight onto your arm so you can look at him. A strange curiosity has taken over your body. He looks wrecked but his eyes are still on the screen. “Denji, look at me.”

Your body tingles as his eyes tear towards you, but he’s still got a hand around himself, hidden from your eyes. “Can I touch it?”

“You wanna what?” he moans, just barely, teeth digging into his lip.

“Can I jerk you off?”

You’re a little surprised when he actually hesitates. You’ve tolerated it all this time; as much as he pervs out on you, and your stuff, yet somehow he’s got a little crumb of morality left in there somewhere. And right now…you wanna kill it.

“My panties, my pictures…is this really any different?” you ask softly, sweetly, as you run with this electric current, placing your hand over his covered groin. You grin as his hand immediately goes slack at your touch and slips out of his shorts, and you get to feel for the first time how hard he is, rubbing over the smooth fabric, feeling out the shape of him.

“I mean…I guess not.” He sucks in a breath as you grip him over his shorts and give a couple experimental strokes. “B-but what about—?”

Denji’s head drops back to the pillows with a groan, phone in a death grip as you tug his waistband down, his dick slapping free. It’s pretty and slender, flushed deep red.

“What about what?”

“What about prettyboy, huh?” He finally gets it out as you spit in your hand and take him up again, stroking him steadily from base to tip, squeezing at the top with a gentle twist of your wrist. Yoshida always seemed to like it, seems like he does too. 

“That’s what you’re worried about? Not the whole stepsister thing?” You shrug. You’re still stung about Yoshida’s betrayal, so this feels like a little bit of retribution. A little bit. You still need to find more ways to make him pay first, but this is a good start. “Yeah, he’s my boyfriend, but ‘s not like you and me are dating, Denji. It’s a handjob. What’re you gonna do, marry me?”

Denji splutters and his dick throbs in your hand. “Don- Don’t say stupid shit!”

You coo at him and his lips part, panting hard as you work him faster. 

“What– haa, what if it wasn’t just a handjob? What then?” Denji gives a low moan as you settle over his lower thighs so you can gently cup his balls. They seem to tighten under your touch, before he relaxes and he tries to look at you. 

“What, like my mouth or something?” you ask playfully, leaning over and showing him your tongue, letting a strand of spit drip down to his dick.

A litany of curses tumblr from his mouth as Denji squeezes his eyes shut, fingers twisting into the pillow beneath his head as his cock jerks and shoots a load of hot sticky white into your palm, getting smeared down his throbbing shaft as you slowly work him through his high until only a couple dribbles get pressed out by a final pass of your thumb over his slit.

“Wasn’t expecting you to finish already.” You wipe your hand off on his comforter and try to ignore the throbbing in your panties. You feel like you can still imagine the slick from earlier tonight seeping out of you, but it’s as if it’s no longer enough.

“Holy fuck,” he mumbles under his breath, digging the heels of his palms into his eyes as he calms his breathing enough to raise himself up on his forearms. He watches you as you take your phone and flop down next to him. “I didn’t even get to see the rest of the video.”

“It’s online now, freak. You can watch it whenever.”

“Yeah...” 

You’re too busy trying to go through the account settings to notice the way he’s eyeing up your thighs; he hasn’t even put his dick away yet. 

“Hey,” he mutters softly, ignoring your glare when he puts a hand on your thighs and pulls them open. “If you can touch me, does that mean I get to touch you?”

Your pulse jumps and you try to keep your true thoughts hidden as you hide back behind your phone. “I guess that’s fair. If you wanted to.”

You can hear the click of Denji’s throat as he swallows, and you can’t stop the low whimper as his calloused fingers brush your inner thigh, right at the edge of your panties. 

They’re warm as they brush over the seat of your panties, timid but curious as they explore the surface, stroking over the tempting warmth and wet seeping through the thin fabric. A bolt of pleasure bursts and has your gut clenching as he swirls over your clothed clit

“H-hey, wait,” you say suddenly, nerves getting the better of you as you try to make sense of Denji taking control of your body. “It got switch but this isn’t my banking info. Is it yours?” You flip the screen towards him, and his brown eyes squint in the pale blue light.

“Uh, nah, that’s not mine.”

You mewl as he pulls your panties to the side and traces a finger through your folds, delicate, hungry. “Who did you say– mm, h-hacked the account for me?”

“I told you. M’friend Denki, his buddy did it. That purple-haired guy who works at the smoke shop.”

“The one wi—” you suck in a breath as he sinks his index finger into you. “With the tattoos?”

“Yeah him,” Denji mumbles, hardly paying attention to your words. He’s grinding against the bed as he pushes his middle in alongside it, imagining the tight squeeze around his dick instead.

Your groan is part pleasure, part dismay as you realize just who he’s talking about. “Oh fuck me.”

Denji bullies his way between your thighs in an instant.

“N-no, Den– that’s not what I meant!”

[dropintomanga]

Given - There's No Going Back and It's Going to be Okay

I finished the last arc of Natsuki Kizu's given and it's a testament on trying to move forward despite the anxieties you may face.

With Given potentially becoming a professional band, Ritsuka Uenoyama decides to help out a rival band called syh, led by Hiragi Kashima, as the latter wanted to perform a song that Mafuyu Sato's ex-boyfriend, Yuki Yoshida, wanted to do. Tension arises between Mafuyu and Uenoyama as both appear to be going in totally different directions, music-wise. Mafuyu appears to lose his voice, but Uenoyama invites him to a concert that syh is peforming at. Uenoyama is determined to channel what Yuki wanted to play before he died. Mafuyu is hesitant in attending the concert because he feels that things will change so much and relationships could be shattered.

He tells a now-rejuvenated Ugetsu Murata, who has become a better person after finally breaking up with Akihiko Kaji,

"I'm afraid we'll never be able to go back. When he talked to me about actually debuting, I was actually really, really happy. But if I choose music, I know I won't be able to turn my back on it again. Even if that means sacrificing love. And if I don't choose music, I know, no matter what, that I won't be able to face him exposed without it. I can see us breaking up either way. If I go to the concert now and listen to the music, I'll decide to either abandon music or our relationship. I know it'll drive me to a permanent decision.

Just like you had to choose between music and Kaji."

Ugetsu replies.

"If that's the issue, then you can't go back either way. Regardless of what you choose or don't choose, everything is going to change. Even this moment right now. There's no going back the way you came. Besides, choosing to stand in the same place is draining too.

So anyway, what I recommend is to go as far as you can!"

While Mafuyu continues to hesitate, Ugetsu goes on to say.

"Also Mafuyu, haven't you forgotten about his feelings? Before you go deciding everything on our own, maybe you should hear what he has to say.

But...you've given this a lot of thought on your own, Mafuyu. And that's pretty damn amazing."

Once at the concert, Mafuyu becomes scared, but once he sees that Uenoyama perform the song that Yuki helped wrote, he finally admits that he wants to sing and still be in love. Mafuyu didn't care anymore. With music, Mafuyu can always find a way to ease his grief and anxiety.

I know people talk about the point of no return when it comes to starting a relationship, but relationships often change drastically. I love the display of anxiety portrayed by Mafuyu. The person dealing with it often believes they're the only one who has to deal with it themselves. They don't try to talk to a supportive partner/friend about it because they're afraid of being criticized. They're not sure that they understand their concerns.

You never know until you ask. But the asking is always the hardest part. And the future is always scary.

But recently, I wonder how scary will the future actually be. Sometimes, people do say some outlandish things about how bad things can get. Yeah, it will be bad. And I believe that people are more resilient with the help of those around them. Just like Uenoyama being there for Mafuyu. Reading the final arc of given makes me realize how much people can be inspired to take on anything when people come together to do activities like create music.

We need those types of communal activities in a world that wants to devalue art and portray people as entirely cruel. Communal activities heal so much pain. Let the love for music remain, right?

What should be given is how loosely tied together we are all. We're all living with fears and anxieties. And we deserve to be given chances to hear compassionate words that recognize our innermost vulnerability and propel us to move forward with joy and no regret.

Change is inevitable, but suffering shouldn't be a given.

Also, what an incredible manga. given is such a wonderful series. I highly recommend reading all 9 volumes.

[symphonic-scream]

Hey everyone it's time for more of my

Transboy Haru arcana swap

Starting off with just a list of the arcana, and under the cut I'll just. Blab

Fool - Haru

Magician - Ryuji

Councillor - Kawakami

Priestess - Morgana

Empress - Yusuke

Emperor - Makoto

Hierophant - Yoshida

Lovers - Futaba

Chariot - Shiho

Justice - Kasumi & Sumire

Hermit - Goro

Fortune - Rise

Strength - Sophia

Hanged Man - Sae

Death - Maruki

Temperance - Kanji

Devil - Tae

Tower - Mishima

Star - Ann

Moon - Akira

Sun - Shinya

Judgement - Naoto

Faith - Hifumi

Apostle - Mitsuru & Akihiko

Hope - Minato & Minako

TBATS RIGHT I FIGURED OUT STRIKERS

Anyways. Before I do the cut I'm gonna just talk about which genders I'm gendering cause I'm gay.

So Haru? Trans guy. He/him. Has been out for the entirety of high school, has had top.

Futaba? Gender is a construct don't speak witch at them. Any pronouns. Akira is CIS but Ren is a trans guy too

Makoto is fluid/non-conforming/non-binary. Uses bandanas on their upper arm to show pronouns. Navy for He/him, forest for They/them, and maroon for She/her

Trans man Naoto! He's he/they, very secure in himself he's having a good time now.

And, trans girl Hifumi

Okay time for the cut ASK ME STUFF ABOUT THIS SEND ME ONE OF THE CHSRACTERS YOU WANNA KNOW MORE ABOJT I VAVE LOTS

Toranosuke being just. Best dad in this

First for Goro, by trusting him and listening when he would mention stuff he'd heard or seen that weren't there. And getting him meds and not punishing him, and

And for Haru, he lets him use his family name since he's been disowned. And teaches him to cook, and how to do life things Like SHAVE

Cause Haru is starting to get a little fuzz and it excites him but he doesn't like having it on his face, and he listens attentively as Toranosuke teaches him how to shave, and the gentle fatherly hug after

And even with Morgana, just, gosh

The little guy eats like a vacuum and Tora just. Smiles so wide when Morgana finishes a beef bowl and asks if he's allowed to have more for real

And he even buys a bunch of cool shit for Haru's "lizard". Ryuji feels pampered as AHIT. A big terrarium, a nice heat lamp, and even a little hat

And he gets so excited when Haru brings his first friend home

Cause when Tora got his papers, it said Haru was a loner with no friends back in Nagoya. That he didn't go out, and his anger issues would probably keep him from having friends

Especially when he happens to hear rumours about his foster son on the trains, even

So when Haru nervously asks if he can have two friends over for a little hangout, Tora is so excited

Goro never had friends over when he was in school, before he got worse. So he's playing up being host

Gets them snacks, buys Haru the DVD player so they can watch movies, and shakes both Shiho and Futaba's hands with a big smile. Offers them dinner too

Futaba: dude your placement is awesome! Not as amazing as my dad, but still!

Haru: yeah, he's pretty great

Shiho: pass me the popcorn? I'm snacky

Ryuji: the big guy is good to us here, Haru got lucky finding a guardian like him

During the Kobayakawa palace, he lets Makoto stay with them. She doesn't feel safe going back to the living space she's been in before, and hasn't reached out to Sae yet, and was planning to just, stay in a hotel room

Tora makes up the couch in his home and lets her sleep there. Haru brings home extra homework for her and they sit at the living room table and work together, and Tora smiles at them and. He knows

Tora: hey kiddo, did your friend find a safe place? I haven't seen them in a while

Haru: yeah, Mako's with their sister now. Thanks, Tora. It was nice of you to let them stay with you

Tora: kids like you folks haven't been able to trust adults, and that's not fair. So I'm making up for my generation, one interaction at a time

Tora: also, make sure you treat them right, and they treat you right. A broken heart can be quite severe

Haru: t-thanks,,

Ryuji: how'd he know you have the hots for Maks?

Haru: I don't know, maybe he's just good like that

Haru: can I have my friends sleep over...?

Tora: YES, YES OF COURSE! Oh, this is so exciting, I'll get the extra futons, and- and we'll do a grocery trip! Oh kiddo I'm so happy for you!

He sees Shiho and Futaba come into the shop just like last time, but Makoto comes in with a blue bandana on his arm, binder on, arm slung around Haru and smiling all gooey and

Tora: hey! Ms Shiho, looking bright! Futaba, are those new glasses? Nice! And- Makoto, you look handsome in that flannel, is it new?

Makoto, all beaming from gender euphoria: yeah, I went shopping with my Sis. Uhm, if you could use male terms for me today...

Tora: say no more. Now, do you kids wanna order food or would you like beef bowls? On the house?

Like. He just wants the kids of tomorrow to have the best chances possible

He doesn't get the gender stuff really, but he tries

Asks them questions respectfully, takes fucking notes

Tora: I don't think I need to scar you, you're a good kid. And your relationship is far from the norm, but- be safe, kid. And if you need info on stuff, I can find someone for you.

Haru: thanks, Uhm. Dad?

Tora, tearing up: Y-YEAH. UHM. HAVE A GOOD DATE

Haru: my dad really likes you

Makoto: he's your dad now?

Haru: don't dodge the compliment, love. He thinks you're the best thing since sliced bread

Makoto: gosh, that's. I'm glad,

Sae: hey, we're back with dinner! There better be two fully dressed boys at my table in a minute!

Makoto: COMJNG SIS! You ready for hotpot with my sister and her partner?

Haru: considering I met both of them before you? Yes

Sae notices the green on Makoto's arm and rubs at their hair: hey, sorry for saying boy without checking. How's my sib doing?

Makoto, voice cracking: I'm good,

Sae is a defense attorney who lives above a gym. She gets them weapons from a supplier for said gym, and the guns are special order from a Yakuza she infiltrated a while ago for the cops. They don't know she still has connections with them, and it would get her fired, Makoto out of her custody, etc

Tae is working for a pharmacy at the moment. She gets them info on people through her connections to an online group for past and present abuse victims

Their apartment isn't anything special, it's kinda small, and has a loft that becomes Makoto's when they are free from Kobayakawa

Sae meets Haru first and when she figures out the fluffy boy has something to do with that coach changing heart, she asks him to save her sister

Haru: you're a very sad looking girl

Makoto: excuse me?!

Haru: I'm attracted to you

Sae and Tae on a shopping trip with a newly freed Makoto, who is gravitating towards baggy clothes and masc stuff, and at the end Tae asks if they want an underfut, And she shaves it herself, and smiles at Sae when Makoto looks so happy

Haru is just slightly taller

He's short for a boy his age. Makoto doesn't mind at all, they like being able to rest their head on his shoulder

Ryuji: your group is quite something

Haru: aw, thanks Spikey

Maruki: alright, I think we'll call it there. Great work, Haru, you're showing great improvement.

Haru: thanks, doctor

Maruki: now, got any plans after this?

Haru: ...a date

Maruki: HOLY SHIT REALLY?!

Haru: ...yeah?

Maruki: that's so exciting! Good luck!

Haru and Makoto go to see a Yakuza movie and they share a thing of popcorn, and Makoto has an arm around Haru, and. Haru kisses at their jaw a little, not enough for a full distraction. Just, affection

They kiss just as the credits start, when it's still a little dark. Makoto's eyes blow wide, red ass face, death grip on Haru's arm

"...I wanna do that again"

Theyre touch starved and never realized it and now they have a touch starved boyfriend and it's just resulting in them being super casual about moderate pda

Makoto's favourite is playing with Haru's hands. They'll be in the Lizard Mobile or at Thief meetings or in safe rooms and they just. Grab at his hands and go to work

Having little bites of each other's lunches and shit

Okay so the reason I have Naoto as the Judgement? Cause the Shadow OPS would want to investigate into what's happening and wouldn't want Okumura and his people to cover up possible Persona stuff, so there's that

So they already know about Kirijo and shit

This ties into what I want for a Strikers. The metaverse suddenly comes back out of nowhere and Haru would probably wake up there, and find two confused adults. One with emo ass blue hair, the other with red/brown ponytail, neither with any memories, and an inability to leave

They tag along to help with the jail's. But then, Mitsuru Kirijo shows up and asks for Haru's phone. When he refuses, Mitsuru makes it clear she will get what she wants

It's weird and makes them freak out a bit and then the cops are after them

And Akihiko shows up to save them from the cops, and he confirms the twins are back somehow, and explains Mitsuru's stuff and. They team up to take down the baddy, and manage to get the twins out of the metaverse as it closes once more

Their memories are still gone. They're not sure how they're back, or what's happening with the sea of souls. The Royal semester shit messed with it, reviving the Justice Twins and all, and that's all I have lemme know if you think that'll work

[possiblylando]

An 'Early' Analysis of Chainsaw Man Chapter 138

Woah hey I'm back, I didn't feel like talking about the past few chapters cause I didn't feel like I had anything to add since they all seemed pretty straight forward. That being said this chapter gives me alot of talk about. So we get a name for Sex Offender Girl. Boy this woman only gets worse the more we learn about her. Mifune is quite literally a government plant in denji's high school.

It's refreshingly disgusting the type of shit these girls will put denji through. It's like Fujimoto keeps trying to one up himself each time he introduces a new "love interest" (Mifune is not a love interest she is a sexual predator let's keep this 100% clear). Maki was a groomer, Mifune is just a straight up Pedophile. She is going to have such a satisfying death I can feel it. This chapter goes on to confirm a few things. First off, Yoshida is apart of Public Safety. Which sorta debunks a previous thought I had of him being apart of another group. I am interested to learn 1. What Divison 7 does 2. Which Division Yoshida is in Given we know 4 was the rejects and 5 are hybrids. My best guess is that Division 7 is a sort of Espionage/Intel Division. Yoshida likely also belongs to Division 7 unless he's got some silliness going on, Which is very likely. Actually- I just now realized something. She calls it "Special Division 7" not Division 7. Looking through the list of Division members on the Wiki, That Special Prefix is very important. The Special Divisions are all full of freaks and monsters. This Sex Offender is more than likely a monster all to her own if she's apart of a Division we've never even heard of.

Public Safety is just as fucked up as actual governments. It's great.

I hate that she's winning me over. I want this woman dead stop making me think she's silly. Fujimoto is really good at humanizing horrible people. It mirrors real life monsters who tend to blend in with society and even seem charming on the surface. Moving on from this fucking Sex Offender. Asa continues to be the realest character in the series.

I doubt I even need to say anything about how real she is. Asa is a deeply disturbed and neglected person who's shut off from the world despite her own need to validation and recognition. She and Denji are different sides of the same coin. While she tries not to show it, The fulfillment she receives from praise seeps through. This scene specifically resonated with me a ton.

I wish we got a better look into Denji's thoughts in this scene. I can't even really get a grasp on what he must be thinking through all of this. In the last few days he's lost a major part of himself and has been replaced in face by a fraud and in action by a girl who he was forced to dump by his sister. There was a moment here before the reveal on this very page where I was thinking Swords was someone else. It was clearly someone from Part 1. He had a hoodie so maybe it was Violence? But that couldn't be real Violence was killed by Darkness. WAIT- BEAM? No I couldn't be beam he's been dead aswell. The Chapter is called Swordman so then maybe it's Katana man's return? No he wouldn't be on speaking terms with Denji after his testicles got mashed. So then-

Turns out it's the Longsword Hybrid from the end of Part 1. Yeah turns out he's alive. Which as many people have pointed out, Means the rest of the Hybrids are alive. So is Reze alive? Certain fans seem to think she is. At this point she seems to be the only match for Denji who isn't a complete psycho. But she still tried to kill him. But then Denji was still willing to run away with her at the end of the fight. If she does come back I hope she and Denji don't rush into a relationship, Let them chill for a bit before getting into anything serious Fujimoto please. If Reze really is alive I'll talk about her more in depth when she shows back up. But I need to say my peace.

The Whip Hybrid is going to be insane popular and so many of them are going to be just as Horny as Anime-Only Makima fans. I hope Swords ends up being chill with Denji and not another dickhead who tries to kill him. Denji needs another Male friend who doesn't treat him like shit. His only known ""friend"" in part 2 is yoshida and we all know yoshida has not been treating him well.

[mycomicbox]

Random Thoughts on Persona 5 Royal - Part 2

[Progress: July 9th, 3rd Palace conquered]

<<< Part 1

One thing that this game does better than previous Persona titles is the satisfaction upon beating a boss. Taking down a Palace ruler feels so much more rewarding than beating a Shadow Self or a Full Moon Boss, especially watching them break down from guilt.

Speaking of rewards, Social Links (now called Confidants) have way more rewards for ranking them up. This is such a nice change, but I'm surprised that it didn't make its way into Persona 3 Reload. Granted, I think it's because Confidants are, lore-wise, slightly different from Social Links, as they're based on accomplices in crime rather than just bonds.

THE PERSONA COMPENDIUM CAN BE SORTED ALPHABETICALLY. Where was this feature two games ago?

Who let this small child into the magical catacombs?

Yusuke might be my favorite Phantom Thief so far. I feel a slight kinship with him, being an artist myself. Plus, I like his voice.

The Madarame arc gives me somewhat similar thoughts and feelings to the real-world AI art debacle. Y'know, with the whole plagiarism-for-profit thing. Someone smarter than me could probably word it better, but you get what I'm saying, right?

From what I've seen, I think that this is the most a principal in a Persona game has been relevant to the story. I don't know about Persona 1 or 2, but the principals in 3 and 4 were just no-name whatever guys.

Okay, the hot pot scenes were really sweet, with the squad just hanging out at Leblanc and talking.

That one Shinjuku scene is one that I've heard horror stories about, and... yeah, even after it was altered in Royal, it's still bad. At least it's brief.

As it turns out, I am far better at video game darts than real-life darts.

Makoto had it rough before she became a Phantom Thief. Glad that she did, since her Persona and costume are dope.

Fusion Alarms are way better than Persona 4's Fusion Forecast.

⚡️ Confidant Lightning Round:

Chihaya is too goddamn cute. She scammed me out of ¥100,000 with a block of salt and I couldn't even be mad.

Imagine if you were shopping for medicine and the pharamacist asked "Why do you have such a serious look on your face?"

I think Kawakami deserves a hug. And also five billion yen.

Yoshida's got my vote.

I remember reading somewhere that it's possible that Kasumi was planned to be a female protagonist, but was scrapped? Like, if you hack the game to give her Joker's guns, she can actually wield them (unlike other party members, who will just freeze the game). I could be wrong, though. Anyway, I can't wait to learn more about her.

Mad sus that I have to rank up Maruki's Confidant or else miss out on a whole third semester. He seems pretty nice so far, but I'm keeping my eyes peeled...

Overall, the story and gameplay loop have me hooked, even more so than previous Persona titles. Can't wait to see where the story goes next.

[oveliagirlhaditright]

These last few days, I've been trying to think of what I want out of a Final Fantasy XVII. And I've definitely had some interesting thoughts there.

But one thing I definitely want--which I just know is a surprise to everyone, I say sarcastically--is a female protagonist... which I'm sure would go over really well with the people who hated Final Fantasy XIII. -shifty eyes- (However, people seemed excited about the idea of Agni's Philosophy, that would have no doubt had a female lead.)

However, enough time has passed since XIII, right? I'd like to try this idea again. Especially since, let's be honest, the real leads of Final Fantasy VII, X, and XII are Terra, Yuna, and Ashe respectively, even if you might not know it because you don't necessarily play as them... So obviously female Final Fantasy leads can be done and done well. Why, then, does suddenly making them the playable character make a difference? (I know it's just because people didn't like Lightning. So let's make a character that everyone likes, then.)

Although, if I'm being honest, I also mostly don't trust Square Enix when it comes to writing female characters anymore. Though I still don't want them to give up, of course. So who would I even want to attempt this?

Kazushige Nojima comes to mind, as he's penned a lot of our favorite Final Fantasy games, of course (and some of our favorite leading ladies in them, like in VII and X). So if he wasn't busy, he could surely be great for this... However, I'm also somewhat afraid of his work now, because of the Final Fantasy X-3 stuff, but hopefully that was the one time he really failed--and will ever fail--amidst all of his stellar work.

Yasumi Matsuno, who was responsible for Final Fantasy XII and Vagrant Story? I'll admit that I'm a terrible person who has never played Vagrant Story, though I did start watching a walkthrough for it years ago... and though I loved it, for whatever reason I never finished it. Back then I had started watching a million different playthroughs of games and couldn't commit to one (I think because I had a busy work schedule hen, and if I chose one, I wanted it to be worth it. Not that Vagrant Story wasn't. It most definitely was... I also was so overworked back then, I would sometimes fall asleep while watching the games, sadly, like with Final Fantasy VI--that had nothing to do with the games themselves, but how tired I was, which is why I inevitably gave up on this whole endeavor). But even so, I of course could tell how genius the game was, and I can definitely understand why so many people love it and are clamoring for a remake of it. As a whole, I feel both of these games are very well-done and greatly scripted. And, while I'll admit, that the Final Fantasy XII heroines don't grab me as much as some of the other ones in the series do, they're still extraordinary ones, nonetheless. And no one can argue how great Ashe was at directing the plot of XII. So if Matsuno wanted to direct a female led FFXVII, I would be all for it.

Naoki Yoshida. While I do think some of the stuff with Jill fell apart at the end of Final Fantasy XVI, I felt like she was a wonderful heroine for most of the game--and I like the girls in all of this installment--so I wouldn't mind giving him another chance. And another chance at the next FF installment in general, as there was so much about FFXVI that really hit the mark and that I loved: and I think that many people agree with that sentiment.

Yoko Taro. I'll admit that the only thing I know about Yoko Taro is the little bit of the first NieR I saw from a playthrough I watched (so I might not be the best person to talk about this). But he's always willing to bring crazy ideas to the table, it sounds like, and to experiment. So if he'd be up for trying such a thing, I'd most definitely let him try.

Motomu Toriyama. Yeah, this isn't going to happen with how much everyone hated his XIII trilogy. But all of his female characters in the XIII games were so great, imo (-shot-). And he's partly responsible for X and X-2, as well, and the ladies were wonderful there, as well (he's also helping out with the FFVIIR stuff, and we all love Tifa, Aerith, and Yuffie). Oh well...

Akiko Ishibashi. She was a female writer on Neo TWEWY. And I loved how our ladies there were handled--and, of course, having a woman write other women (or to at least help out with that process) is most definitely a good thing--and now she's helping out with the Kingdom Hearts series... which is a godsend. And I don't really want to take her away from there, because Lord knows we need her when it comes to KH. But if she were to also help out a bit with FFXVI, I certainly wouldn't mind that.

[bitchylandtyphoon]

A little help

Gif does not belong to me!! Credit to marrissacooper Part 1? Word Count: 2484 Paring: Paxton-Hall Yoshida x Reader Warnings: Talks about g*ns, the words k*ill and p*rn, language, set in season 2 of Never Have I Ever so spoilers ahead! A/N: Hi hi! I hope you guys are having a nice day/night so far! I’ve been watching season 2 of Never Have I Ever and developed a crush on Paxton. I tried finding some fanfiction but found nothing :( Soooo I decided to make one just for him! Also the first part before the line break but after the long paragraph is a scene from the show itself so its not from me myself !! If you have any recommendations feel free to tell me! Any suggestion leave it in the suggestion drop box thingy! Sorry, I'm new to this whole Tumblr thing! Summary: Paxton needed to raise his grades and needs help from a certain someone. —————————————————❈———————————————— Everything was going downhill for Paxton. Even if he had chicks behind him every 10 seconds, he felt betrayed and alone. He got into a fight with his family, which made Rebecca disappointed, Devi played him and his friends were being assholes. Gosh, the list can go on and on. But the most annoying thing bothering him was his broken arm. After the accident at Devi’s “rager” party that landed him a broken arm, he couldn't swim. He was told he needed to raise his GPA to get into at least one college. “Ayyy, what are you doing home so early?” Trent asked “Oh, right. No swimming for you Nemo.” “Yeah, no swimming for me” Paxton closed the door behind him “Wait do you usually come to hang out at my house when I'm not home? Paxton asked with a confused expression. “Yep, find it's a peaceful place to sit with my thoughts” Trent responded, “or to watch porn.” “Didn't need to know that” Paxton sighed and sat down on the couch “What's wrong buddy? You seem down” Trent asked, seeing how down Paxton looked. “Ms. Warner said without swimming, college isn't looking so great for me” “Ehh, who needs college. After high school, I'm going straight to youtube. Get this. I'm gonna react to reaction videos” “Cool,” Paxton responded not finding it cool at all but still trying to be a supporting friend. “I know right” Paxton didn't know what to do. He thought everything was laid out perfectly. But of course, things went bad for him. He wished things would get better. “Paxton, you good?” “Yeah, yeah I'm great man. Just kinda don't know what I'm doing with myself” “Oh, I'm gonna tell you what to do. Now that you're free, we can party every day.” Trent reached behind his backpack to show some fireworks “You wanna blow some shit up?” Paxton sad face changing into a happy one “Oh shit” Even though the two were different. They still found a way to connect with one another. —————————————————❈———————————————— Since he came back from school he was a little hungry and wanted a snack. Heading to the kitchen, he chose an apple. Even if he wasn't swimming he should still stay in good shape. He sat down on a chair and started thinking about a plan to raise his grades. “Oh my gosh! That looks so good! How did you manage to do that, I could never.” A voice peaked Paxton’s interest. Who was at the house? Was it one of Rebecca’s friends? Out of curiosity he still went to check. “I don't know to be honest. I looked at the magazines you bought for me and got some ideas.” “You are so talented, where do you even get it from?” “I have no idea” knock knock knock “Come in! Paxton? What are you doing here?” Paxton saw as his sister and Y/N were in her room looking at some papers, that he assumed were Rebecca's designs. Y/n was one of Rebbecca’s good friends, he knew them from school too but never really talked to them. He didn’t mind Y/n they were nice and supportive to Rebecca. Y/n was 2 years younger than Rebecca but they were still good friends. He appreciated Y/n being there for his sister when he couldn’t be. “Can’t I check up on my sister?” He answered leaning against the door. “Yeah yeah, do you need anything? Y/n and I are gonna head

out. She’s been studying a lot so I wanted to drag her out of her house.” Rebecca said as she started cleaning the papers off her bed. Paxton watched as Y/n shyly smiled at him. Cute he thought. “Y/n, can you help me clean this up?” “Yeah sure,” Y/n scrambled to her knees, cleaning the papers off the floor. They were trying not to make a fool of themselves in front of the Paxton Yoshida. Y/n never found Paxton interesting. He was just another boy who was popular and “perfect” but what really captured their attention was Paxton’s side that was shown to Rebecca. At school, he was a rowdy, a player a jerk etc. But at home he was a different person, he was so kind and generous with his sister. After that Y/n fell for him real hard. Y/n didn't have any high hopes. Y/n knew they were in different parts of the world and didn't dwell over it. It is what it is. That doesn't mean they stopped liking him of course. They just put their feelings aside. “Okay well. You guys stay safe. I'm gonna be in the kitchen. Have fun” Paxton said as he walked away from the two closing the door behind him. Before you got to say “bye” he was gone. You sigh. *Smack* “Owww what was that for,” Y/n said as they rubbed their head “Why did you hit me I didn't do anything” “When are you gonna make a move on him? You’re gonna be lonely forever, you watch” Rebecca said with her arms crossed head shaking no. “Rebecca” you rolled your eyes “you know it's never gonna happen- wait how did you know I liked him. I don't like him. I just think he's cute-you know? Like a friend of course nothing else.” Y/n stammered. “God you are so obvious” Rebecca groaned as she pulled you from the ground onto your feet. “Come on we got so much to do” “Yeah yeah, I need to go to the bathroom. I'll be right back,” Y/n said as they patted down their clothes. “Ok, be quick though!!” “Got it, ma'am,” Y/n said walking into the bathroom. —————————————————❈———————————————— “Hey, Rebecca, what is Y/n studying for?” Paxton asked as he threw the finished apple in the garbage. “Why do you want to know?” Rebecca asked, squinting her eyes at him. “Tell me the truth Paxton” Paxton sighed “I need a tutor to help raise my GPA and I don’t know the first thing to do” This was a perfect situation. She was gonna play cupid and get these two together. Devi broke Paxton’s heart and Paxton needed someone to be there for him. They would make a nice couple and she knew it. “They’re studying for math, I don't know to be honest but they get really good grades. You should ask Y/N to tutor you. They are really smart.” Rebecca said. “What? No.” He scratched his head as he burst his answer. “Why not? You guys would click pretty fast” Rebecca said, bouncing her eyebrows up and down. “Rebecca, don't even. I'm done with relationships. I just got played by a nerd.” He started walking away but Rebecca pulled on his arm. “Okkk okkk sorry. Just ask them though. They can help you a lot and maybe you’ll get a nice friend for once” “Wait, what's wrong with my friends?” He asked with his eyebrows furrowed “Everything” Rebecca jokingly said as Paxton glared at her “Ok I'm back, sorry” You came in seeing the two jokes around. “OW,” he clutched his foot glaring at his sister. “Go on,” Rebecca whispered with an innocent smile. With a sigh, Paxton spoke “Can I talk to you after you guys come back? If it’s alright with you of course?” You were taken aback. Thee Paxton wanted to talk to you?? Sigh, it was probably a dare of some sort. You put a brave face on. “Yeah of course” You answered, smiling at him. “Perfect, I'll catch you later then,” Paxton said as the two walked out the door. Giving them a small bye he sighed. He hoped you would say yes. —————————————————❈———————————————— Who knew the day would be good. You were surprised at how fun it was though, you were so used to staying in the house studying that you forgot what the outside world was. Well, at least you got some good ass grades from your hard work. You guys were heading back to Rebecca’s house. It was getting late and you

needed to head home before your parents would kill you but you needed to get your stuff first. As Rebecca opened the door the thought of Paxton filled your head. Shit. you were fucked. What were you gonna say? Would it be bad? Oh gosh, you bet it was some prank. You hoped he forgot about it. You entered the house to see the lights off but the sound coming from Paxton’s hangout spot. As long as you two were quiet everything would be fine. “Hisss” You were blinded by the bright lights of the kitchen “Rebeccaaa” “Sorry sorry it was way too dark in here,” Rebecca said laughing You both walked to her room, well you ran. You were trying to avoid the planned meetup. You were glad the guys didn’t hear you two. After picking up some of your belongings in her room, you gave her a small wave and began to walk out of the house. “Gosh that was close” You were relieved, but still felt guilty. Paxton did seem desperate but you didn't wanna fall into a prank. “Oh fuck it” You turned around, you didn't know why but you just did. You walked towards their hangout spot and knocked on the door. “It’s open!” Hearing Paxton’s voice you opened the door to see him and Trent playing video games. You knew they would take a while, it looked like they just started a game. “Oh hey y/n, do you mind waiting a good 20 mins?” Paxton asked, eyes still on the tv. “Oh, yeah of course I'll just wait outside-” “Nahhh come and watch us we’re freaking good bro,” Trent said eating a slice of pizza “Are you sure? I don’t mind being outside.” You asked. You didn't mind it was pretty outside but it was chilly. “Just come on in we got food, drinks and guys, what's more to like,” Trent said with a suggestive smirk. You laughed and came in sitting down on a separate chair not wanting to get too close with the guys. You watched them play, finding it amusing. You played video games yourself. You weren't the best but you were pretty good. “If you're gonna be running and sniping you should try adding the stippled tape, it’ll help trust me,” You said pointing to the screen “Add the double-time too since the gun is heavy and will cause you to slow down.” You looked at the guys seeing their surprised faces. “Since when did you play video games, aren't you a nerd or something,” Trent asked, getting a glare from Paxton. “Aha well, when I have time I play. I'm not the best though I just know the basics.” You shrugged explaining yourself. It was true though. You did enjoy gaming, it was fun and something different. Paxton reached for the table and gave you an extra controller. “Here, play.” “Are you sure you guys seem like your having fun and I gotta go home soon,” “Just play one round and then I’ll walk you out.” Paxton budget. “Hm ok fine but don't blame me if we lose,” You said, grabbing the controller adoring how it was see-through “nice controller, by the way, it looks sick.” “Oh, thanks and don't worry. We suck ass anyway. What do you wanna play?” Paxton asked getting a playful punch from Trent. “I'm down with anything” You responded smiling. —————————————————❈———————————————— “15 kills??? How in the hell did you get so many kills?? Oh my godddd. You are sick bro. We got our first freaking place. Let's goo” Trent exclaimed as he was awed at how good you were. You gave a smile and laughed. “Ok you’re invited next time,” Paxton said, gawking at the screen. “Yeah right, as if Rebecca would allow that” You grabbed your bag and put the controller on the table signalling that it was your time to go. It was a long game and you were getting tired. You were 100% sure you’d get a nice yelling once you came home but an excuse would do the trick. “Anyways, I gotta go. Don't eat too much Pizza or you’ll puke Trent.” With a “yeah yeah mom” from Trent and bye from the two boys, you left the area and started walking home feeling like you forgot something. —————————————————❈———————————————— You came out of the shower, drying your hair with a towel. Sitting in front of your vanity you heard a buzz from your phone. “Unknown number? Who did I give my number

to?” view on phone ??: Hey Y/N: Hi? Do I know you? ??: Oh, it's me, Paxton in Y/n head “What??? How did he get my- OMG Rebeccaaa” You groaned internally, you were gonna kill her. You quickly changed the number to “Paxton”. view on phone Y/n: Let me guess, Rebecca gave you my number?😑 Paxton: Yep lol. Also, I forgot to talk to you earlier. in Y/n head Fuck, you forgot, again. Dumb y/n. Taking a breath, you mentally prepared yourself. view on phone Y/N: Oh yeahh, sorry about that. Do you want to talk about it now? Paxton: I was just wondering if you’d be down to tutor me? Rebecca always talks about how you get good grades and study a lot. And due to my broken arm, I have to raise my GPA to get into the college I want. Is it ok if you help me? in Y/n head Tutor Paxton. You stared blankly at the screen. That's what he wanted?? Well so much for panicking. Well, it wouldn't hurt. You knew it would be hard work but he needed help and you didn’t mind giving a hand. view on phone Y/n: Hm, well I'm ok with it as long as you prioritize the time we spend studying and committing to it ok? Paxton: Yep got it ma'am Y/n: So when are you free? Paxton: I'm free every day after school maybe after hanging out with the guys though. Y/n: Ok well I have after-school classes so I'm only free on certain days and certain hours. Sorry about that. But I can try to help you as much as I can. What subject do you need help with? Paxton: Ight it’s fine. And I'm having trouble with every subject. Y/n: Ok that’s fine😊. I'll send you my schedule later if that's alright. We’ll make a schedule for us after school tomorrow. Is it ok if I come by tomorrow? Paxton: Yeah. Y/n: Okk perfect, I'm heading to bed now so gn :) Paxton: Lol gn in Y/n head Oh. My. gosh. This day couldn't get any better for you. “Gosh, am I in a tv show like what???” You chuckled to yourself and closed your eyes. Oh, the things that were going to happen to you.

[eijispumpkin]

ash? for the character thing?

HELL YEAH HELL YEAH HELL YEAH

favorite thing about them

he's so gentle and loving. he has so many reasons to be jaded and selfish and bitter but he's not. he values innocence, he is so kind especially to kids, he wants to protect his loved ones and to fight for them rather than himself. he's my favorite archetype of character: the gentle badass. real "i do not love the bright sword for its sharpness, nor the arrow for its swiftness, nor the warrior for his glory. i love only that which they defend" energy.

least favorite thing about them

yoshida (and therefore a chunk of the fandom)'s insistence that actually he had to die to achieve peace because actually Fuck people with ptsd i guess

favorite line

it just... really encapsulates everything about him in a nutshell. all he ever wanted to be was griff's kid brother, just a normal person with a normal life. and so instead of being envious that eiji didn't suffer the same way he did, he just yearns and treasures that about eiji so much. love is stored in the ash lynx.

brOTP

ash & griff (crying screaming shouting wailing), ash & max, ash & nadia, ash & eiji's family

OTP

asheiji 😭🥰🥺💕✨😊🥰💖👌💕🥺😭🥰

nOTP

shorter/ash (but i already talked about that in my shorter post), ash/max (brb throwing up after even typing this), ash/literally any of his abusers, ash/blanca (throwing up again)

random headcanon

he uses dino's dirty money to pay for nadia wong's bottom surgery (yes nadia wong is a trans woman and i will not accept concrit on this thanks). at first she's like no ash i can't possibly accept this, but he gives her a very soft look and tilts his head a little and says "if you can't accept it for yourself, do it for me. there's nothing that'd make that old geezer madder than knowing i'm blowing his funds on making the people who loved me despite his best efforts happy. and i love the idea of making him spin in whatever shit grave he ended up in. if any. please, nadia? i don't want his money, and i want to give back to you for everything. it'd make me really happy if you'd accept it?" and she's just like. oh ash... because how can she say no to that?

unpopular opinion

he doesn't try to get eiji to leave him/try to leave eiji bc of ~abandonment issues~ lmfao he does it bc eiji got kidnapped and traumatized in a horrific way once already and he doesn't wanna see it happen again??? also i am literally begging yall to learn how to characterize him correctly bc i swear to god everyone either leans too hard into ~dark academia~ tropes/aesthetics (i.e. makes him just straight up ooc) or makes his literal only trait "having ptsd" and both of those takes fucking suck actually.

especially the "his only personality trait is having trauma" one, bc it invariably leads to demonization of ppl w trauma bc it DOES make a relationship read as v unhealthy if one person in it has literally no personality outside of being traumatized and sad all the time. but thats not ACCURATE or even realistic as a depiction of ppl w ptsd and it makes me want to tear my hair out!!! *stern parent voice* im gonna have to take ash lynx away if yall dont learn to behave

song i associate with them

"no rest" by dry the river !!!!

favorite picture of them

this one has been my icon on discord for like 2 or 3 years at this point. i love him

[fire-dwelling]

So Yoshida disappears because her son says her role in this story comes to an end.

But no other characters disappear at all.

The implication then would be that those other characters still have a role to play in the rest of the story, so they don't disappear.

...

Okay, then what were they? What were the roles these other characters were supposed to fulfill for the rest of the manga? Because I don't see any reason those characters should have kept existing.

I know that sounds super nihilistic, but when your series ends with nihilism ("LOL religion is stupid but people are dumb and need it to keep going, and, oh yeah, let's have people not worry about how they can survive decapitation and have Honda and Juggernaut literally go 'whatever'"), it is hard to ignore the logical conclusion to that nihilism, namely, that the characters no longer have any role and therefore would have just disappeared like Yoshida did. You can't end your series saying that Death just loom over us at all times but act like offing your entire cast by wishing them into the cornfield is not also just as likely an ending.

Maybe there is a reasonable explanation. I mean, I could say, "Once Adolla was no longer merged with the Earth, and once Shinra and Lord Death got rid of pyrokinetic abilities, 'you disappear when your role ends' no longer applies." Fine, I can accept that rule for now.

But then we're to pretend that somehow Tamaki et al still had roles in the story? What are they? Because that would assume that their role in the story was going to persist even _after_ the world was brought back to life by Shinra in god form--and that, as with a lot of my complaints about this series, remains a big ask, a major moment of suspending disbelief. I don't think any character after Shinra restored the world really had any further bearing on the plot--not Ogun, not Takehisa, not Hibana, none of them.

If Tamaki existed just for Ohkubo to go red pill and tell his red-hat anime avatar weirdo audience that, "Yeah, that girl should just fulfill the role of fanservice and be nothing more," then how come Tamaki still exists in the story when there is no more obvious fanservice titillation around her? I mean, if her role is just fanservice, why give her any victory in this fight that was mostly based on her fighting ability and not the camera angles ogling her? Why not have her be fanservice in-your-face throughout the rest of the manga? I am not at all suggesting that he should keep using Tamaki as fanservice (she's underage, for Christ's sake), but if that's your argument, that she needs to embrace some role as fanservice, then wouldn't he have committed to that and done so? Wouldn't every last moment with Tamaki for the rest of the manga just be the most obvious fanservice shots? He can't even do that right--he states an intention, then doesn't follow through. I'm grateful he didn't commit to that, but he can't even be consistent with his awfulness: he's awful, then he gets bored with his awfulness and gives up. No wonder enough people thought he was just tired and wrapped up Soul Eater, NOT, and now Fire Force in the most tiresome ways possible. (Good thing he wasted time on Inca's "I want your sperm" nonsense--those pages totally were worth that nonsense rather than actually fixing what was wrong with his story.)

Why do the other characters exist after Tamaki's fight? So that Akitaru can die and lead Shinra to burn down the Earth? Why is Arthur still here, just to give Shinra that pep talk and plant into his head the idea to change reality? Why are any of these characters still around if they no longer serve any function to the story? Because, at a certain point, the story acts like anyone who is not Shinra does not matter. Sure, Sho and Mari are still there--but they just merge with Shinra, Mari says next to nothing, and Sho just keeps repeating the same "calm down" mantra. Haumea exists only to keep philosophizing about the death drive without saying anything significanlty new about it. The rest of the cast was burned down with the Earth. So, why do these other characters still exist if, as Yoshida's son said, a character disappears once their role in the story ends?

I get it, the characters still exist so that Shinra has someone to return to and hug in the "last" chapter. I get it, the other characters--good or bad, always dead or just dead in this final arc--are resurrected for an "everybody lives" ending. I understand those are the roles those characters serve in this story. But to act like _every_ character still had some role to play is bullshit. Look at the endings these characters got: Maki and Lisa are just shopping, Tamaki has a chemistry-less relationship with Juggernaut, Iris isn't thinking about how her family is resurrected but just whether her boyfriend is going to get Inca pregnant--what the hell is this crap? You can't say "this character is here because they serve some role" and have that role be so empty as "the girls out shopping, the girl getting put into a heteronormative relationship with little chemistry, and the girl failing the Bechdel test."

And this is all just so Ohkubo could rant for three chapters about anyone who didn't like his sexualizing of and embarrassing of an underage girl character in his manga and decided to dismiss all that criticism as "LOL bitchy old women that no one finds attractive." I swear, and I keep repeating this, his ability to write Maka and Crona was by accident, not by intention. The man has just fallen into the most toxic of thoughts, and I feel sorry for so many people looking forward to any Soul Eater anime reboot (if it ever happens) because he is going to find a way in this post-Fire Force world to make that worse than how Chapter 113 paid off.

[stitched-mouth]

Hey! I saw that match-ups were open sooooo may I please have a Never Have I ever match-up and Umbrella academy please? Tysm in advance and I love your writing! :D

Zodiac sign: Leo sun, Aries moon, Leo rising

Personality Type: ENTP

Pronouns: She/her

Sexuality: Straight (For now might be bi but i'm going with straight)

I'm 5'4 and I have a very tiny body frame so i'm extremely petite and pretty small. I'm not very curvy and I literally have the body of a cereal box...lol but its fine because I have nice hips and thighs. I have thick brown hair that goes down to my back and it gets tangled pretty easily but its kinda fluffy. I have brown eyes and tiny freckles all over my face and body. I also have a very strong grunge style, like Flannels, band t-shirts, combat boots, leather jackets etc. But i'd also always enjoy a nice oversized sweatshirt or hoodie with a pair of skinny, ripped jeans and some converses or something along those lines.

For my personality.....this is where things get interesting. At first people find me very intimidating due to my resting bitch face and cold exterior but I promise i'm not like that ALL the time. When you get to know me, i'm goofy and about everything that comes out of my mouth is sarcasm or some dry humored joke. I'm also that one friend in a group where they literally will do the stupidest shit ever like for an example one time it was super dark outside and my other friend was there, while I was trying to climb a tree and I failed and fell out of the tree, and landed on my back. I got straight up after that somehow it didn't hurt.....like at all? But yeah i'm super reckless and sometimes people have to save me from myself if you get what I mean. I also have a very strong "I don't give a fuck" attitude and I will not hesitate to stick up for myself or my friends....like i'm the type of person where if someone glares at me, i'll glare right back.

I have bad anxiety and I can be very self destructive. This is where my feisty, stubborn, hardheaded side comes in. If I want something then i'll fight for it even if it hurts me and i'll get into a bad cycle of putting myself down and trying to do better even if I did great the first time but I always push myself too far and other people have to stop me because I usually can't see it when its happening. I also cover my emotions up and I have a lot of trouble talking about whats bothering me or what problems i'm having emotionally so I put up a wall and I act tough, or happy and sometimes i'll be the exact opposite but I try to hide it.

Weird things about me: I've grown up in the south all my life so sometimes when I talk a few words they'll come out sounding WAYYY more country and southern then I wanted, I don't have an accent but sometimes my words just come out that way. I also love the smell of cigarette smoke....let me explain. When I was a kid my parents smoked a lot and I was used to smelling it and now it reminds me of home and is sort of comforting.

Things I like: I love swimming (I was on a swim team for about 9 years), I love horror movies, I like rain and the sounds of thunderstorms because its calming to me, I also love the smell of rain, I like cloudy days, cooking, listening to 80's and 90's rock but mainly 90's because 90's is the best, My favorite bands are Bush, Audioslave, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Linkoln Park, Pearl jam but i'm pretty open to anything.

Things I dislike: Spiders.......I will scream if I see a spider.

Match-Up #46

Warnings: Mental health is really talked about in the tua match up. But other than that, nothing really.

Requested: Yes.

Format: Match up.

A/N

I’m so sorry this took so long! You sound like such an amazing person! Someone I’d love to be friends with! We have a lot in common 😅 I too love the smell of cigarette smoke because of how much my parents smoked around me as a kid.

Please be careful with how much you write, keep the information short.

Never Have I Ever - Paxton Hall-Yoshida

You and Paxton had a rather quick love affair. Meaning, you both fell in love very quickly and started dating very quickly. Like maybe after 3 weeks of knowing each other?

You saw the potential right away, but Paxton likely did not. You didn’t say anything though since he already had so many female swooning for him.

Paxton was immediately attracted to your accent, he thinks it’s the sexist thing in the World. Likely because he hasn’t met a lot of southern girl before because of where he lives. He hates that you don’t find it as attractive as he does.

You have a lot in common too. You both have a very similar taste in music and you both love swimming. Perfect! He first started gaining feelings for you after you listened to music together for the first time. Then he knew for sure you had stole his heart when he found you in the school’s pool one day.

I’m warning you though, Paxton can be an ignorant arsehole sometimes. He might break your heart without even realising it.

The Umbrella Academy - Number Two/Diego Hargreeves

Diego’s love for was slow and it snuck up on him. He didn’t see it coming but it hit him like a fucking truck.

He thought you were chill and cool at first. He liked that you had a lot in common and thought there was potential for a little fling. But nothing special, well he was wrong wasn’t he?

I’ll be honest, the very first thing Diego noticed about you was your body. He loves a good pair of hips and thighs. But he slowly grow to love your goofy side more than that. Your goofy side brings out his goofy side and makes him feel so comfortable and relaxed, no fear of being judged.

Diego relates to you on so many intimate levels, for example he also is very self-descrutive. He tends to sabotage the good things in his life quite a lot. He’s aware of it and he hates it, but it’s all because of how insecure he is. I don’t doubt that Diego has had a lot of toxic relationships, and that he was definitely a contributor to a lot of them.

You see how you can bring out his goofy side with your own, that’s because Diego tends to radiate the same energy of people he likes. So it could work both ways, positive and negative. For example if your toxic and bad temped too, that will bounce of Diego and he can become the same. He isn’t entirely aware of that yet but he can somethings up when it’s happening. He hasn’t worked out why it happens yet or how he can prevent it. This makes him incredibly insecure as he fears that the toxicity in his past relationships were his fault.

What’s worse in this case is that all your flaws (stubbornness, bad anxiety and continuous bad cycles) are all flaws Diego already has. All of which are direct results of his childhood trauma. But Diego is willing to change that and fix himself, he is also willing to help you too but that will only work if you‘re willing to change too. Are you? Because your relationship with Diego won’t last long if you’re not.

Also, Diego is afraid of spiders too.

[pangwave]

Uh I read somewhere on one of your blogs that you have a tattoo? Does it represent anything? If it’s too personal then just ignore this question

hi! hello anon!!! thank you so much for your question!!

i don't mind talking about this at all (in fact, when the matter is my tattoo i could rant about it for hours!!) but i'll try to keep this as short and not-too-personal as i can lmao (but i might mention trauma and self harm so beware!)

well, this is my tattoo. it is a literal banana fish!! it is on the back of my neck and i got it done on september 9th 2019 as a late birthday present to myself.

it's one of akimi yoshida's (banana fish's author) original drawings for a postal card and i chose it because i love her style and because i wanted something that really screamed banana fish

now why banana fish? you may ask. the meaning behind the tattoo and me choosing something so blatant to represent it is this:

i've been having a pretty hard time since 2013. that's when my whole trauma started and it lasted until 2016, when i finally moved out of my biological mother's house and came to live with my dad and my mom. but as we all know, trauma doesn't leave you alone the moment you break out of it. and i didn't completly break out of it when i came to live with my dad because my biological mother was still present in my life and still maintained the toxic dynamics that made me so sick (in fact it wasn't until this year that i finally stood up for myself and cut all my relationship with her once and for all. for the sake of my mental health. but that's another story!). but even with her still being a part of my life at that time, i was able to get a lot better and begin recovering from what happened with my parents' help. i still have a long way to go before it all stops affecting me so much but whenever i look back at the progress ive made during these five years im very happy and proud of myself and my family for always sticking together and helping each other out no matter how hard things are.

in december 2018 my little sister came into our lives and it was hands down the happiest moment in my life, she is my number one source of happiness and comfort and i love her way much more than words could tell. however, my mom's pregnancy wasn't easy and her health suffered a lot, so when she gave birth to my sister, she needed tons of help and that's when my life turned upside-down. my grandma moved in with us temporarily, i had to move my room to the back of the house and everything was about my sister. of course it would be, she was a helpless little miracle in our lives and she needed our attention. but even knowing that, i couldn't help but feel lonely and a lot of memories related to my trauma resurfaced during that time.

ok, yeah, sure dawn, but what the fuck does this have to do with banana fish? well, it has to do with that fact that it was precisely during this difficult time that i was watching banana fish. i began watching it around september 2018 i guess, and it aired until dec 21st 2018. so while this mess was happening in my life, i was watching banana fish every single week while also reading the manga. because when i feel extremely overwhelmed by things in my everyday life, i tend to find a safe heaven consuming series, animes, music, whatever. and that's what i did with banana fish. i held on to it so tightly during that time that i grew to have this deep deep DEEP emotional attachment to the anime/manga, its characters and the story itself.

banana fish's plot is fantastic but also very depressing, because it's real, it's a painful reality we all know exist but try not to and banana fish makes us see it uncensored, makes us see the worst of humans and how unfair the world is without any filter. it was really an experience for me, especially reading the manga, to see this ugly world and all the hardships people go through in such a raw way. and i just fell in love with it. i fell so hard for banana fish and it shaked me up so much that to this day i still tear up seeing anything bf related and in my everyday life i have tons of banana fish related things happening, my tattoo being one of them. (and also my name! yeah, dawn is inspired by banana fish, because aslan (ash's real name) is said to be a word used in prayer that means daybreak which means dawn :D)

oof, ok. sorry. to finish this: i chose the drawing because banana fish is that important in my life. when i say it's life changing, i mean it. when i say banana fish taught me valuable lessons and it made me into a new person, i swear to you im not exaggerating. this tattoo represents me. represents the strength i had to have gone that far. it represents a new chapter of my life that had began harshly to me but that i overcame. represents a bit of shorter, eiji, aslan, sing, yue lung and every other banana fish character that i hold dearly in my heart and who were all as strong as i was i able to be during that time. i think, even with banana fish being the fish of death and the famous "when you encounter a banana fish, you will feel like dying" thing, it doesn't mean im sad, or that i want to kill myself, but that i want to kill that part of me that doesn't let me go on, that weak and scared part of me that isn't me anymore and now i can let go of it. it's in a way a rebirth of me? i guess? u could put it that way.

OK ANON I THINK THAT'S IT! sorry for the big ass rant and for getting a lil bit Too Personal anyways lmao i hope this entertains u a bit!!! and thanks again for the interest and for playing with me!

[eijispumpkin]

yeaaahhh, rather than blaming mental illness though i honestly would hope it comes from a place of ignorance as to just how insidious abuse can be, rather than actively just deciding that today we're gonna victim blame and make excuses for abusers. regardless i absolutely do not wish to see it, it does Not spark joy

gotta say, bc ive blocked multiple people for this in the past week. if you write bf meta that involves blaming ash for being abused and showing signs of having been abused, or treating abuse as a character flaw, i will instantly block you. no questions asked. i do NOT fuck around with abuse apologism