#Ritsuka Uenoyama

[given-anime]

Given movie: To the Sea official trailer and poster!

[rubydragon16]

ᴍᴀꜰᴜʏᴜ & ʀɪᴛꜱᴜᴋᴀ ⟡ ɢɪᴠᴇɴ: ʜɪɪʀᴀɢɪ'ꜱ ᴍɪx ♥

[seiyuucrossovers]

Uchida Yuuma in BL anime

Banana Fish

Given

Dakaichi

Sasaki to Miyano

Uchida Yuuma in Non-BL anime

Jujutsu Kaisen

Bonus

[crude-cunt]

“My life is still controlled by this man.”

[pauldng]

My fanart of the boys from Given, Mafuyu Sato and Ritsuka Uenoyama. 佐藤 真冬  上ノ山 立夏

[prplocks]

♡☆♡ given wallpaper

reblog if you save ▪︎

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[gabbyp09]

[lilium-dragomir]

[magicpotatoobsession]

I JUST SAW THE TO THE SEA TRAILER AND I AM NOT OK 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Ok the thing is that chapter where Uenoyama gives the ticket to Mafuyu was such a traumatising scene when I first read it but it's interesting how seeing it animated and with the little blush from Ritsuka makes me feel so much more for Mafuyu??? Like the tenderness of that scene has been amplified by 100x while in the manga there was such unspoken tension and friction. I'm so curious to see how it plays out in the actual movie! AND I CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR THE GODDAMN SONG

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My Given Metas

[bachiras-toaster]

it honestly amazes me how people can genuinely prefer yuki and mafuyu over mafuyu and uenoyama… yall know who the main couple is right?

uenoyama is done so dirty by the fandom by constantly being shoved to the side for a mf who isn’t even a main character. like what yuki and mafuyu had was special, but mafuyu has moved on yall

[given-anime]

New key visual for movie “Given To the Sea” 🎸

Now playing in Japan. Stay tuned for more information about international release.

[oasisdew]

'Given' and grief

The first time we see Mafuyu think about Yuki consciously in given is in code 4.

And what we see him thinking is that he doesn't feel lonely.

Mafuyu thinks here, even when he knows he'll never see Yuki again, he still doesn't feel lonely because he still carries something within himself that Yuki loved.

And this was Mafuyu being in denial about Yuki actually really being gone. He was still trying to rationalise it.

“I am not lonely!” he protests, “The person that I loved so much, couldn't just become nothing! As long as I'm here, he is here somehow!”

And he keeps carrying Yuki's guitar everywhere, symbolising that burden. That thing that Yuki loved, yes, but Mafuyu wasn't a part of.

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Then the story progresses. Mafuyu learns to play guitar. Mafuyu makes new friends, he learns to smile again and be excited, he starts to fall in love again. He starts to heal.

THEN Fuyunohanashi happens.

And we see him starting the song with, “I'm not lonely”, again.

He is back there. He is protesting, “you are not gone! You can not be gone! You are still in my head! Everywhere you once were you still are!!”

He has healed meanwhile, yes, from when given manga started to when FnH happened, he has. But he still hasn't come to terms with it.

And then, while performing this song, while on stage, this sudden realisation strikes,

“I am so lonely” he thinks. He has started to realise that Yuki is fading, Yuki's memory, his presence that Mafuyu imagined, they're fading slowly, and that is sad! That's why he is lonely!

After the performance of FnH, Mafuyu thinks again, “I am not lonely”, and this time it's not regarding Yuki. This is the general feel of it, Mafuyu isn't lonely anymore. He has friends, he has someone new he loves, he has started to heal, and with that comes the feeling of guilt.

“I wish I could tell you this!” I wish I could find closure from you!

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And then we get the extra chapter 'Umi E'. Expanding on the on stage "I am so lonely" panel!

Mafuyu realised on that 'blindingly bright stage' what 'loneliness' means. It's the healing part of the trauma. It's the guilt of letting go of the person who isn't here anymore.

If Mafuyu forgets Yuki bit by bit, which will certainly happen, because people can't keep living with someone's vivid memories forever, then who'll remember the Yuki that only Mafuyu knew? He will really be gone forever! And thinking about that is sad! And THAT is loneliness.

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Mafuyu is still there during CAC. Even though he has moved on, even though he is totally in love with Ritsuka and committed to him, it still feels like betraying Yuki somehow. The more he grows, the more he changes, the more the distance with Yuki grows.

Remember, that line in yorugaakeru that literally says, “even though you're not here, I can still continue to live on, in the end, that's what makes me sad.”

This part of grieving isn't talked about as much as it should be. It's the guilt you feel when you heal.

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This brings us to the last arc of 'given'.

There were many things going on with RitsuMafu the last arc, but part of why playing 'Umi E' for Mafuyu without telling Mafuyu was bad idea was because it meant forcing Mafuyu to confront something that he had no intention of confronting just yet.

But turned out it was for the best. At least for Mafuyu to realise that he has actually really moved on. He doesn't feel guilt for letting go of Yuki anymore. From the time they performed YgA to the SYH concert, Mafuyu has healed more.

See, compared to the first 'to the sea' memories, the last 'to the sea' memories are so blurry! He really forgot the details!

It's just a vague feeling of nostalgia to Mafuyu now! And it's still anxiety inducing, yes, especially seeing that he was already dreading everything.

But there's no guilt to be found of letting go of Yuki. His only concerns are not being able to connect to Ritsuka now.

Yuki is not somewhere inside Mafuyu anymore, or he doesn't feel pressured to keep him close to heart anymore. He has accepted the truth. He has found closure. Yuki is a memory now. A fond memory, preserved in a song, the memories are blurrier still. And Mafuyu is happy with that. Forgetting the details doesn't make him lonely or guilty anymore.

Which is why the last chapter we got, where just after being confronted by 'Yuki's song', Mafuyu still isn't sad or guilt ridden at all, he is sparkling and eager to perform alongside Ritsuka, he is so happy that he almost proposed to him, is so special!

[chelseajackarmy]

Ritsuka Uenoyama from the Given anime

[march-gay-shipping-madness]

[jenni41arts]

Mafayu: Ritsuka, I want to touch you.

Uenoyama:

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♡ 14 Days to Fall in Love ♡ with: @apparently-artless

⤿ Day 9: You're on my mind constantly