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cicidarkarts · 2 months ago

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Are You Busy, My Love?

Summary: Matthew Patel is a bit stressed at work and his beloved is so happy to help him relax.

Rating: PG-13 // contains: kissing (neck kissing, tongue kissing), mild cursing, references to drugs (weed), an egregious amount of sappy pet names

Word count: 1.3k

Backstage was always so hectic, even on practice days. Some actors and actresses didn't take things seriously until opening night. Today was one such day, where Matthew Patel thought he might rip his own hair out at the chaos and blasé faire attitudes dividing his fellow performers. A mixing of overenthusiasm and apathy lead to tripped over lazy feet and half-done props.

Even in his costume, a silky oversized shirt with billowing sleeves and an open chest, the hot air backstage stifled his lungs, made worse by all of the body odor and perfumes of the other actors. And a certain skunky smell lingered.

“Yo, Patel!” called one of the younger actors.

When Matthew turned around, he caught a tossed wig. With his face. The young actor and his friend—who was a girl but definitely not his girlfriend, seriously guys—bust out laughing. A stark odor wafted off them. Well, Matthew finally discerned who reeked of weed…

“A joke is supposed to be funny,” Matthew called, holding the short-haired wig out like he was scruffing the world's scraggliest cat.

He rolled his eyes and tossed the admittedly shitty wig in one of the many prop trunks littered around. He had to get away from all the noise. People around him yelled indecipherable things—laughter and shouting.

Matthew hurried toward the men's changing room, the air from his speed-walk chilling his legs from the loose, thin jeans of his costume. His boots clacked against the waxed hardwood like a jackhammer—yet more noise he wished didn't pound into his ears.

The men's room was thankfully empty, and he shut the door behind him to blot out sound. Muffled, but much better. The brightness of the changing room—full of lights and everyone's different colognes and clashing colors of costumes—presented a swirling cacophony to his senses.

He took a seat at one of the mirrors, facing cock-eyed so he could stare at the wall instead of lights or mirrors or brightly colored clothes. He brought his thumb and forefinger together on each hand, held them at either side of his body, closed his eyes, and breathed deeply. In through his nose, out through pursed lips. In. Out. In…

A knock on the door made him clench. He brought his lips tightly together and tried not to let irritation show in his voice.

“What?” he snapped.

The door opened. A familiar pale face curtained in thick black hair poked inside. All of his anger melted away.

“Babe!” he called, hopping off his seat.

Matthew sprinted up to her as she closed the door. He snatched her around the waist, twirled her through the air, and planted a huge kiss on her lips. When he broke their kiss, he realized he'd also dipped her at some point, though his overstimulated mind hadn't registered that.

“Changed your tune real fast, huh?” she teased as he helped her get steady on her feet again. His hand buried in her long hair, brushing against her warm skin to ground himself. “Sorry.” Her teasing broke into a sympathetic smile as she fixed her glasses. “I brought you some lunch.”

She lifted her black tote bag, opposite hand caressing his back and shoulders.

“It smells so good,” he said, taking her to sit on the small sofa. “Did you make the chutney yourself this time or…?” “Nah, I just got it from our usual spot. They make it way better than me.” “I think it's great when you make it, too,” he said, rolling some stools over to use as makeshift tables. “But it is a bit of a pain in the ass, isn't it?”

He sat beside her and wrapped his arm around her soft waist. They spread all the food out, letting the scents overtake the cologne that stuck to the corners of the room.

Matthew wasn’t sure how he got so lucky that his angel loved to cook. She'd really honed her craft over the years and the perfect crunch to the samosas was a testament to that. He didn't have the heart to tell her how much he preferred her cilantro chutney over the restaurant-bought stuff—last thing he wanted to do was make her feel like she had to make the chutney herself.

His muscles unclenched at her smiles and gentle, distracting chatter. Matthew knew he'd been in the dressing room for far too long. Once the Tupperware was empty of all her delicious labor-of-love food, he helped gather it from the stools and store the empty containers in the tote on the floor.

“Well,” she said, standing to leave, “guess I should let you get back to it. You guys looked busy out there.”

But he didn't want her to go. Sure, he’d love to go practice, but more importantly: he'd love to have his angel steal him away. Away from all the noise and lazy outstretched feet and chaos and weed stink. She faced him for a quick kiss, but he reached out and sunk his fingertips into her supple hips.

“Moonflower,” he spoke, her pet name caressing his lips. “I don’t want you to go yet.”

He led her close and her squishy, thick thighs straddled him. Her weight cradled his lap and he rested her across his chest, embracing her tight, letting her drape atop him like the most perfect weighted blanket. Her hair tickled his face and he breathed in her shampoo—that girly floral and herbal scent that he’d grown so used to. That scent which seemed to banish his anxiety just by existing. Her busty chest pressed against him as he tugged her closer and buried his face in her neck.

He kissed her sensitive skin, layering small, loving devotions upon her. Teasing fingertips brushed up the back of his hand, her hand weaving through his hair in such a way she left goosebumps in her wake.

“Oh, Matthew,” she murmured.

He hummed against her warmth, surrounded by her hair and her skin. Greed crept up on him. He wanted more. He couldn’t go back to the bustle of the stage just yet. He knew he should—people were probably looking for him—but his moonflower called.

His name had tumbled from her lips like a siren’s song. With her still firmly in his grasp, he lifted his face toward her tempting mouth. His lips took hers in a reverent, soulful kiss. But rather than stealing his life, her kiss reinvigorated him. Her murmurs and moans made that smoldered ember inside him grow hotter and wilder, flickering to life with each motion of their entwined tongues.

The flavor of their lunch mixed with her usual sweetness—intoxicating, addicting. One of his hands found home in her silky, messy locks while the other held her soft cheek, cupping her face to keep her close. He needed to have his fill. It felt too good rekindling the flame inside of him.

With every passing second, his tightly wound nerves came undone. His fingers loosened as they caressed her cheek and hair. His brow unknitted. His shoulders came off his neck. And the noise and footsteps outside didn’t bother him.

All that mattered was her. Scent more relaxing than a spa day. Tongue sweeter than his favorite dessert. Lips laced with his that softened his entire soul.

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She kissed the tip of his nose, then placed her forehead against his. He looked into her gorgeous eyes. He was right where he was meant to be.

“Feeling better, Matthew?” “Much.” He embraced her and nuzzled against her neck, leaving a few kisses in his path. “Goddamn, I love you.” She giggled and snuggled against him. “I love you, too.”

Based off an Ask by @m00nbunny1

Thank you once more for this Ask! This was a ton of fun to make and I just really wanted an excuse to write more Matthew Patel fanfiction. Especially if that gives me an excuse to kiss him. I hope you like what I came up with!! 🖤🖤

So, in short: when Matthew is busy, he takes even more precious time and care to love me, to ground himself, to relieve stress, to feel present and loved amidst the maelstrom of obligations. Sorry my Asks take an entire era to complete, I often really want to do more than just yap, and enjoy flexing my creativity. But with a toddler, I find that I have very little time (or energy) to do such things. So thank you all for bearing with me while I work on these! They are seriously so much fun and I adore them.

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mujeans · 9 months ago

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MY ONLY LOVE, MY ONLY ONE ✦ LCY

SYNOPSIS ✦ you and anton’s relationship through the years - because maybe not all love has to be young.

“if we’re both still single by the time we’re thirty , let’s get married.”

TAGS ✦ anton x f!reader, one-shot, angst, fluff, non-idol au, yn has mommy issues, slice of life, bffs to lovers, slow-burn

WARNINGS ✦ mentions of drinking at a bar, reader isn't really referred to as y/n or _, just "you" 😭

WC ✦ 4k

PLAYLIST ✦ only by leehi, still into you by paramore, every summertime by niki, toothbrush by dnce, bad by wavetoearth

AUTHOR'S CORNER ✦ was originally meant for heeseung, but i changed it lolz also ik i said i'd post it in a few days but i finished it early and wanted to put it out so i hope u enjoy!

snobby, proud, self-centered - these were the words that described anton's first impression of you.

he'd just moved to town, tagging along with his parents to the local mall when his mother stopped in her tracks, causing him to nearly walk into her. he looked at her confusedly when she suddenly gasped, and squealed someone's name, before she practically ran up to another woman, who he'd soon find out to be your own mother.

"guys, this is my old friend from college," she'd told him and his dad. "and this is her daughter," she said as she gestured to you.

you'd been few inches taller than him, so he was intimidated by you and immediately got the impression you were looking down on him. (well, you were, literally.)

"why don't you two kids go to the arcade? here, my daughter has a game card," your mother spoke as she ushered you two away whilst the adults went somewhere else to catch up. anton and you awkwardly stood next to each other as the parents left you two alone.

once they were out of sight, you seemed to deflate; the intimidating aura wiped and replaced by a more relaxed and amicable ‘you’. somehow, you felt more human, and he let out his own steady breath when you smiled and held out your hand for him to shake.

“sorry, my mother can be a lot to handle. you play DDR?”

turns out, you were way more fun when your mother wasn’t around.

holding hands was something you two did often.

your friends would often tease you two about it, but neither you nor anton thought much of it. it was completely platonic, right?

but nonetheless, you two were relentlessly asked if you were dating, even when one or the other was in a relationship with someone else. in fact, your closeness had led to your first and most recent boyfriend breaking up with you.

"can you believe it? everyone knows we're literally just friends," you ranted to anton later that night. "so what if we're close? he himself had his own girl best friend - several in fact!"

anton hummed to let you know he was listening, busy working on an assignment that he'd spent far too long procrastinating.

"i mean, how insecure can he be? is it really that unbelievable for a boy and a girl to have a completely platonic relationship?" you paced around his room, not caring whether or not he was listening. you just needed to get the day's frustrations out - and where better than anton's comfy and personalised room?

something about the hanging leaves, band posters, the warm lamp in the corner lighting up the room, it was your favourite place to hide when your mother would be in another one of her moods.

"i'm never going to date again. ugh."

"you sure about that?" anton half-heartedly asked.

"yes. if i have to sacrifice our friendship to kiss some guy, then no thanks."

anton turned to you with a smile playing at his lips. he didn't take you seriously at all.

"anton..." you whined. this wasn't funny to you.

"sorry, sorry," he said, but you could still hear the laugh in his voice. instead, he took your hands in his apologetically, the warmth a familiar gesture.

"if you never date again, then i won't either."

"anton, you've never dated."

"well, it's like you said. if i have to sacrifice our friendship to kiss some girl, then it's a no for me too."

he stared at you sincerely. you guys knew you both would probably still go on to date other people, but the promise felt real anyway. what with the way he was staring up at you.

"swearing yourself to celibacy for me? how sweet," you relented, sitting down on his bed, your hands still clasped in his.

suddenly, an idea popped into your head.

using your linked hands to pull him closer, his chair rolled over, knocking against your knees.

"anton, let's make a pact: if we're still both single by the time we're thirty, then let's get married."

graduation came faster than anton expected, and he only realises then that he's known you for five years now.

as expected, you and him had taken lots of photos together (wait, when did he get taller than you?), and eventually your families decided to dine together at some fancy restaurant after the ceremony. it a celebration of the two of you leaving high school, and moving onto the next chapter of your lives: university. something you were particularly stressed about.

"why is applying for uni so hard?? i'm just a girl - just accept me!"

anton could empathise with that sentiment - he'd been an exceptional student, yet his lack of curriculars had ended him up on three waitlists, and with one rejection. not to mention how complicated the process was, what with all the different requirements for every university. honestly, he felt like he'd been lied to by all those people telling him not to worry.

looking over at the parents busy in conversation, he noticed that the both of you had finished your meals already.

"can we go? i'm gonna take her out for a drive," he asked them, gesturing to you.

surprised by the sudden plan, you looked to your parents for approval.

"aren't you going to stay for desserts?" your dad asked.

"i'm sure we'll find something sweet on the way," anton replied simply.

"well, i'm okay with it," your dad agreed, looking at anton's parents who nodded back.

you watched him turn to your mother, a silent argument spoken through their eyes. she reluctantly sighs, a sign of surrender, and you cheered on the inside as anton pulled you away and out of the restaurant.

going for drives was something you and anton always did when either was stressed or upset. windows down and music blared as the sky turned an array of colours, it really felt like the movies in moments like this. you sighed contentedly, head propped up on your elbow as you stared outside. the wind combined with ONLY by LeeHi being the only sounds between you and anton.

"ah, i'm not sure if i can do this whole university thing," you confessed your thoughts. "if applying is already this hard, i can't imagine the real thing."

"it won't be this bad. c'mon, we'll be together, right?" anton's voice replied.

"always."

silence engulfed the two of you again.

"i want to do something crazy. something that'll make her mad."

"yeah? any ideas for this crazy plan of yours?"

"hmm... what about..." you trailed off, thinking for a while.

"what about a month-long trip around europe?"

anton's head snapped to you, eyebrows reaching his hairline.

"seriously? she'll actually lose it."

"not that she already hasn't already done so several times before," you grumbled into your elbow. "besides, i'm always sticking to her stupid rules. i just want to do something 'rebellious' before we get thrown back into classes and assignments and homeworks and blah blah blah..."

a pause. then, “let's do it. where do you want to start?"

"really? you'll do it with me?" you perk up, finally looking at him.

"duh," he rolls his eyes, as if you ever leaving him alone was such an unimaginable thought. "let's figure out those visas first though," he added as an afterthought.

2 Notifications yn : you free later this week? yn : feels like i haven't seen u in forever

anton sees the notifications later that night, and sighs as he pushes his hair out of his eyes. he takes a quick look at his monthly calendar.

to be truthful, the two of you had been swamped with finals and work this past semester, so you hadn’t been able to hang out as often as you used to.

seeing that the next part of his coursework wasn't due until next saturday, he decided he had just enough time.

anton: what about tmrw? 12pm at café bleu

"i was thinking..." you started. "what if we do another month-long trip this summer? like we did last year.”

anton grunted at the thought.

"honestly, i've stayed up countless nights this sem for this stupid assignment. i wanted to catch up on sleep thus summer.” i don't think i really have the time for another trip.

"oh. that's okay! we're both going back home anyway, so i'll just come over to yours like always."

"sure, if you want to watch me sleep all day."

but the way he said that - it was a clear no. he didn't have the time, not when he was going to spend all summer trying to catch up on missed sleep.

"never mind, then."

the waitress placed your orders in front of you, and the two of you began to eat in terse silence.

looking at him closely, you notice the darkened eyebags, the pale skin, the way he hadn't even bothered to wear a nice outfit. anton had been pretty cold towards you lately, and he felt guilty, but he couldn't help it. stress was a bully everyone was a victim of.

seeing the way your demeanour seemed to shrink, he was hit with a wave of shame and regret, and took hold of your hand.

"hey, remember that show we watched in senior year? it has a prequel movie coming out soon. we should watch it together."

you perked up immediately. "really? when?"

"november, i think."

he frowned when you faltered, but then you said something that completely sent his heart to the ground.

"i can’t. anton, i'm going on a study exchange programme."

talking to jake was easy. talking to him was nice.

in the three months since jake arrived from australia, anton and him had quickly become good friends, (although he would never be able to replace you). so of course he's sad that the exchange programme was coming to an end soon, and jake would have to leave for home.

however, that meant you'd be coming back too, and he was far more excited about that. the past three months had felt empty without you, even if you were a bit absent from his life for some time before the programme started.

so anton finds himself at café bleu in the same spot you'd told him about your plans, but this time with jake on the other side.

"we'll stay in touch though, yeah?" jake assured him. "i'll definitely come visit some time, this place is really great."

"i'll be looking forward to it."

"i think you're more looking forward to me leaving though, aye? what with your friend coming back too."

at the mention of you, anton couldn't stop the smile from spreading on his face. he really did miss you.

"yeah, she's my rock. always there for me - well, except for these past three months. hopefully you'll get to meet her when you visit."

"i'd love to meet the girl you've been talking about this whole time!"

"you'd get along well," anton nodded, imagining the three of you sharing a slice of cake at this very café. "hey, why don't i call her right now, and you can meet her? although it's just online."

jake nodded eagerly, "why not?"

pulling up his phone, anton quickly swiped to the favourites tab on his contacts app, and called you. after just two rings, you pick up.

"hey! what's up?" your voice greets him, bringing an instant smile to his face.

"nothing much, just wanted to introduce you to jake - he's the student who came in your place as part of the exchange programme," he introduced the guy, turning on his camera.

"oh, hi!" he hears you say after he turns the screen to face the other.

"hi! nice to finally meet you. hope australia treated you well,” jake starts smoothly.

"trust me, it has. everyone so nice and welcoming, i just love it here."

"sounds like you've settled in nicely, i'm almost sorry you'll have to pack up and leave again. but hey, you'll be back home and reunited with this guy, right?" jake laughed.

"well... about that."

anton knew something was up - your voice had that same tone as when you dropped the bomb that was you leaving for the next three months. just before you said your next line, anton felt his heart sink again like it did the first time.

"i've decided to transfer here.

"anton, i'm staying in australia."

once again, anton finds himself in a graduation gown. but for the first time, you're not at his side.

looking at the photos his mother took of him on her phone, he couldn't help but feel a little upset by the lack of you next to him. for the past nine years, he's never had much solo photos; you were always with him, sharing these moments.

but this time 'round, he's completely alone, and your friendship has devolved to instagram mutuals, reduced to liking each other's posts and reacting to stories. the thought leaves a bitter taste in his mouth.

surprisingly, your mother still came to watch him graduate, even if he was only ever just her friend's son.

"oh, anton. you've grown so much since i first met you."

"thank you, auntie," he says awkwardly.

"you know, i miss the two of you. my daughter's all the way in another country, so i barely see you anymore..." she trails off in thought. in the past few years since you left, she seemed to soften up in your absence, no doubt missing you despite the strained relationship between the two of you when you left.

"oh! have you seen the photos? she just graduated herself last week," she fished for her phone in her bag, and began to swipe through her camera roll to show him.

"i wish i could've been there, but i'm not sure she would've wanted that. she's lucky her dad attended instead."

anton shakes his head. "not true, i'm sure she would've wanted you there."

but he wasn’t sure. have your feelings about your mother changed? or were you still upset with her? he doesn’t know. he hasn’t known much about you in a long time.

"i guess we'll never know, will we?"

swiping through more photos, anton's eye caught onto a few of them, where you were standing particularly close to another guy.

"auntie, who's this?"

"ah, him? why, that's her boyfriend, of course." she then turned to look at him oddly. "hasn't she told you?"

he frowned, and shook his head. he's a little off put by the fact that you didn't bother telling him, but then again. you two haven't exactly been friends in a very long time.

and just like that, memories of a pact resurface in his head. it was never going to come true, wasn't it? but if you ended up marrying this guy, anton could never bring himself to watch.

the sound of his friends' voices brought him back to reality. "hey, anton! come over here-" and he forced himself to shake off the thoughts, joining the group instead.

anton had been learning to live life without you for the past four or five years now. he had a new friend group, a nice job in the city, his own apartment, all without his best friend. it was hard to unlearn all the mannerisms he didn't even realise he had for you, not until he would get home from the grocery and realise he bought two boxes of sushi like you used to share, or when he'd almost bought a second, folding mattress for when you'd come over for a sleepover, or even just holding an extra hair tie or two on his wrist in case you needed one.

and that was all in the past now, he's finally began to move on from mourning the loss of your friendship. he only thinks about you once in a blue moon, and his life feels like it's no longer on pause.

but you were always cruel to him.

"wait, what?"

right when he'd begun to move on, you came back.

anton stared at you in shock; when he heard the doorbell ring that day, he'd never have expected you to be on the other side. an intelligent 'wait, what?' was all he could muster when he finally registered just what, or who he was seeing.

"hi," you say in that familiar voice of yours. and you almost sound out of breath, although its clear you hadn't run there.

he finally lets you in after a moment, and you explain how you're moving back, and starting at a local company. you tell him about life back in australia, the friends and experiences you made. you tell him about the past five years of your life as if it was just any normal day after high school.

as if you hadn't just completely left him on his own, his other half gone with you.

although the conversation is stilted and awkward, and theres a gap between you that feels wider than the distance between australia and home, anton's still glad to see you. it almost feels unreal, and he wouldn't believe any of this was real if he couldn't feel your weight pushing down on the sofa, or the very essence of you in his living room.

you and anton agree to get coffee some time after you've settled back in, and he asks if you need any help.

"yes, please! its like i brought my whole life from australia back with me, what with all the boxes i need to unpack."

and so, leaning against the door frame, anton watches you walk away again, catching himself wondering if it would be the last time he'd see you again in a while. he had to keep reminding himself that you were back for good.

"oh, and me and my boyfriend broke up."

anton sucks in a breath, and slips his hands in his pocket to hide the shaking. he wasn't sure how he was supposed to feel - angry? relieved? sorry? anton hasn't known how to feel in years.

"just wanted you to know," you spoke into the air, after you received no response from him.

so with an awkward wave, you leave him once again, with a promise to see each other soon.

"happy birthday!" people greet as they enter the bar, giving anton a quick hug.

"thank you," he smiles back. "wow, twenty-seven. i feel so old."

"twenty-seven isn't that old," you tell him, hugging him from behind as a surprise. he chuckles and holds onto your arms clasped around his middle for a bit before letting you go sit across him.

"think about it, we've been friends for longer than we haven't!"

"including those four or five years we barely spoke?" you raised an eyebrow at him, taking a sip from your glass.

"shh, what years? we've always been as thick as thieves," anton grins, pinching your cheek.

after you moved back, it didn't take that long to rekindle your previous relationship. somehow, you two picked up right where you left off, like there was never a period in your friendship filled with almost radio silence.

"you two," eunseok sighed with an exasperated but fond tone. "if i didn't know you guys were 'just friends', i would've thought you were dating."

"or married!" sohee shouts from somewhere.

you roll your eyes at your friends and coworkers, the guests. dating allegation were nothing new in your relationship, having suffered from them for over ten years now.

"we have been friends for a while now, huh? fourteen years is pretty crazy."

"i honestly can't remember a time when i didn't know you," anton agrees.

"being 'friends' for longer than you haven't is quite the achievement," wonbin remarks with a knowing look. "personally, i don't have toothbrushes and extra clothes at my house for my friends though."

all this talk of friends and friendship was making your head hurt.

"anton, remember the pact we made at sixteen?"

anton looked at you sharply, knowing exactly what you were referring to, but asking anyway. "no. remind me again?"

with a scoff and a smile, you said, without regard to the fact that everyone was half-listening, "when we promised we'd marry each other by thirty if we were both still single?"

clinks of glass and utensils falling around the two of you, your friends were suddenly more invested in the conversation, not even trying to hide their curiosity.

"you really want to talk about this right now? in front of everyone?" anton murmured, voice low enough just for you to hear.

you stared at him, and then continued.

"well, looks like there's three years left to our promise. three years left to run away from me." that pulled out some laughs.

anton just stared at you with a mix of surprise and uncertainty.

"well, i haven't run away for these last eleven years since, have i?"

whoops and cheers filled the bar; you yourself were surprised with anton's boldness and honesty. you always did wonder why he barely ever dated, only ever having a few flings here and there.

suddenly, you felt a little flustered by his bold declaration, and the implication that he'll wait out the remaining years.

"i..."

suddenly, anton's face morphed into a smirk as he took another sip from his own glass, eyes still on you.

"what's another three years?"

"ah, my mom keeps asking when i'm going to settle down," you whine to anton, sitting in his living room as you two share a late midnight snack.

something about it all feels nostalgic, whining and complaining about your mom to him, sitting in his comfy room (or this time, his apartment), with a vinyl record playing in the background. this is home, you decided.

what you don't tell him is that your mom had been more specific with her words.

(when are you and anton going to get married and settle down?? i want grandkids, you know!)

anton laughs lightly, feeding you another sushi. the whole atmosphere was quite domestic, and you wished you could spend the rest of your life like this; with him.

"some things never change, do they?" he remarks with a fond smile. and your heart melts a little.

(hopefully soon, mama.)

"isn't sushi a little heavy for a midnight snack?"

"well, it's not just any midnight, isn't it?" anton asks.

and he's right. it's actually a special one - the night before your birthday.

looking at the clock, you see that it's almost twelve, and you find yourself thinking back on the past twenty-nine years. anton's in most of the memories, something you weren't particularly bothered about. when you two spent that day at the arcade together, something about it all just felt right.

you've always loved change, always wanted more experiences. but one thing you wanted to stay the same forever, was anton being by your side. when you'd gone to australia, it was a slow realisation that some part of you was missing. only when you reunited with anton did you realise why that was.

the soft beeping noise of a clock brought you back from your thoughts, signalling that it was finally twelve o'clock. that you were finally thirty. hearing shuffling behind you, you turn to look at anton for the annual hug and cheer that made your whole birthday.

but instead, you watched in shock as anton sunk onto one knee, and pulled out a box.

"don't look so surprised, now," he chuckles awkwardly. "this was a long time coming."

"i know... i just. i didn't expect you'd do it as soon as i turned thirty," you laughed. "looks like someone couldn't wait any longer."

"can you blame a man who waited fourteen years?"

you shook your head before anton called our your name, even though he already had your full attention.

"my only love, i don't have to hide my feelings anymore. i love you."

with a deep breath, filled with years and years of longing, he finally asked.

"will you marry me?"

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scourgeofmyownbrain · 9 months ago

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This took way too fucking long- Everyone, gaze upon the Megatron/Galvatron height chart I made. If someone could get me a cold drink, I would love one, I have been working on this for the better part of a month. 26 separate designs, for one character, across 40 years of history. And I had to exclude a couple, the grand total is like 30 different ones. I left those four out because they were just pallet swaps of a design I already had; It felt redundant to include them.

This guy just can not decide if he's named Megatron or Galvatron sometimes, he just switches between the two names at random. I think in Unicron Trilogy, he switches to Galvatron multiple times, and yes, he does switch back to Megatron before every one.

My brain is kinda broken after finishing this. I worked on this one and the Optimus one at the same time (the optimus one is so much bigger holy shit-) and I've lost the ability to feel pain at this point.

Quick Disclaimer, if any of the images look weird, it's because I had to stitch a few separate images together to create a full body shot of the character.

Links to my Bumblebee Chart and my Optimus Chart. !!NEW!! -> Shockwave, Soundwave, Ratchet, and Ironhide. For future reference, all these charts will be filed under my "Transformers Height Charts" tag and my "aka the adventures of a..." tag. Hopefully, my bumblebee post is acting up and idk if the same issue will happen here.

Master Post

Explanations below the cut, I have to justify myself for a few of these.

G1 Beast Wars V1 - ~9 Feet (PMeg. TFWiki, he's so small. Dinosaur Man is so small)

G1 Beast Wars V2 - ~10 Feet (PMeg. TFWiki, This fucker has roller blades. I'm not fucking with you, they gave the T-Rex Roller Blades and he uses them)

G1 Beast Machines V1 - ~12 Feet (PMEG. The Wiki doesn't have any numbers for Beast machines, sadly, but I found an old forum post comparing the heights to the Beast Wars designs, so I win)

G1 Beast Wars V3/Machines V2 - ~13 Feet (PMEG. The TFWiki says this bitch is like 11.5 meters tall, but no, I've done the math, he is not. If he was, Rattrap, a character who is consistently stated to be 1.8 meters tall across multiple sources in multiple languages is actually not that tall. So no, he's about 2 and a bit Rattraps tall, and that translates to about 13 feet. And I'm pretty sure he reverts into this at some point in Beast machines, though correct me if I'm wrong)

G1 Beast Machines V3 - ~16 Feet (PMeg. This design is identical to the Optimal Optimus design so I'm gonna be lazy and use that number. Not like I have many other options.)

Beast Wars 2 - ~16 Feet (Galv. Idk, the wiki had the number and his name is Galvatron, was I supposed to ignore this? Never gonna watch it, but here it is)

Earth Spark - ~16 Feet 2 Inches (Mega. There are no actual numbers for Earth Spark (yet), but I was able to find Bumblebee's height, which I then compared to Optimus's height, and now I can compare Optimus and Megatron.

Yay!- he's so short it's so fucking funny tiny short man universe)

One V1 - ~17 Feet (Mega. I am aware, of the supposed "Canon Heights" listed on the wiki. 32.462 feet, allegedly. But, have you considered A: These numbers are sourced from the Walmart Promotional AR Experience that came out before the movie. B: There are three decimal points, and that number does not convert into a whole number in meters (which is originally what I thought was weird about it). C: The director has said that this movie is both canon to the LA movies and its own separate canon. AND ALSO Meg is taller than Optimus the entire movie but his height is listed as shorter than him on the wiki. They are the same height by the end of the movie, I call BULLSHIT Walmart; these are not actual numbers I will ignore them POST HASTE! Sadly, Megatron has yet to appear in the KCV live-action movies as I make this, but we know Meg and OP are the same height by the end of TFOne, so knock a couple of feet off this one, and we get pre-cog height)

Netflix Cybertron Trilogy - ~18 Feet (PMeg. Slightly confusing, but there are two Megatrons in this universe, but they are two completely separate characters. This is Predacon Megatron, design-wise identical to his V1 Beast Wars counterpart, but he is much taller in this universe. So I did some admittedly deranged comparisons to other characters and I got this height. It's a similar ratio to Prime & Primal's height difference so I'm running with it)

Gen 1 V2 - ~ 18 Feet 6 inches (Galv. So the Wiki failed me on this one, but- and maybe this is backwards thinking, the WFCT Galvatron is this height, at least comparing him to WFCT Megatron, who I've decided is the same height as Gen 1 Megatron, who we actually have a number for- I am aware it's convoluted but it's all I got)

Netflix Cybertron Trilogy - ~18 Feet 6 inches (Galv. Okay so, Galvatron and Megatron are entirely separate beings in this universe, which is a large departure from Gen 1 where they're effectively the same guy, which means I could compare their heights, and this is about the height Galvatron is. And I have decided that the WFCT Megatron is the same height as Gen 1 Megatron because they're nearly identical otherwise, making the assumption that the Galvatrons are the same easy. The amount of hoops I have to jump through sometimes...)

Gen 1 V1 - ~19 Feet (Mega. TFWiki. Hey look, it's the guy that's the foundation of like 5 other character's calculations)

Prime Wars - ~19 Feet (Mega. As I've said before, I have decided that this design is the same height as the Gen 1 design, because they're identical, yes one is 2d, and the other is 3d but I don't care)

Netflix Cybertron Trilogy - ~19 Feet (Mega. You already know what I'm going to say; it's identical to Gen 1. Just try and stop me)

Unicron Trilogy V2&3/ENG&CYB - ~19 Feet (Mega/Galv. He flip-flops so much in this universe, I think Megatron becomes Galvatron 3 separate times. For the uneducated, the Unicron Trilogy has given each of its 3 seasons separate names and 3 separate art styles. These are the designs used in Energon (S2) and Cybertron (S3). The Wiki had Cybertron's numbers but not Energon's, so for my own sanity, I decided the two were the same height. I could have done something in between Cybertron's and Armada's (S1) numbers, but there was a lot of float between the two)

One V2 - 19 Feet 10 Inches (Mega. As I have stated in the previous One entry: I don't trust Walmart, Meg and OP are the same height by the end of the movie, and the KCV LA and One are kinda one universe. Optimus is this height by the end of the movie, therefore so is Megatron. How many times do I have to explain this)

Cyberverse - 21 Feet (Oh sweet, sweet "I don't have to justify or explain my numbers, I have a source". This comes from a screen-shot of this video which has the Cyberverse height chart everyone uses, though the quality of the screen shot is iffy. If anyone has a better one, I would love to see it)

RID 2001 - ~22 Feet (Mega/Galv. TFWiki. Why are there so many Megatrons who become Galvtron at random and look functionally identical to each other why does this keep happening. Also this guy transforms into a hand)

Unicron Trilogy V1 - ~23 Feet (Mega/Galv. TFWiki. I am very tired, we have another functionally identical Megatron Galvatron conversion and I am in pain)

Bayverse V2 - 30 Feet (Mega/Galv. TFWiki, Movies 4 & 5. This time, they're actually identical, and Mr. Bay has once again blessed me with numbers from all of his movies)

Aligned Cont. WF/FOC - ~30 Feet (Mega. TFWiki. Look man, I don't know how he grows nearly five feet between the games and the shows, it's just what the video game info screen said)

Animated - ~31 Feet (Mega. Animated has no actual numbers, but the lovely @phoenix-inanis has provided a frankly astounding resource with their own calculations for the heights of all the TFA characters. Go look at it, it's wonderful -> https://phoenix-inanis.notion.site/TFA-Height-Chart-f6ad2960ca8c4c5b859ee4958723aaa4?pvs=4)

Aligned Cont. TFP V1 - 34 Feet 5 Inches (Mega. Yes, this is from Fandom. But, and I will continue to say this until my lungs give out, this entire universe is just fucking enormous. Look, I believe Bayverse is the most consistent tf universe when it comes to the transformers' models and designs, and if we do some comparisons between characters with similar listed heights (I did it at the end of this post), it's way too close for me not to believe it)

Bayverse V1 - 35 Feet (Mega. TFWiki, Movies 1-3. Look at this bitch, getting his secrets exposed by Mr. Bay. Look at him, he's going to shrink down in the forth movie, gonna get dumped down to 6th place on the podium. Get Shrunk, Idiot)

Aligned Cont. TFP PR V2 - 42 Feet 7 Inches (Mega. Look at this enormous bitch, look at the freak standing there, fuckin enormous n' shit. Wack ass Unicron- Did you know that this is probably the TALLEST base form transformer ever? Excluding any super modes or upgrades or a transforming Cybertronian Base/Spaceship, just default general body size, I'm pretty sure this Megatron is the tallest Regular transformer ever)

Not Pictured: RID 2001 Galvatron Pallet - ~22 Feet (the only thing that was different between the two designs was the colours, if felt redundant to include it), Unicron Trilogy Galvatron Pallet(s) - Armada: ~23 Feet, Energon/Cybertron: ~19 Feet (Again, just the colours changed, otherwise everything else was the same)

I have done it. I have conquered my Everest. I have finished the big two charts. If anyone has any suggestions for which transformer I should aggressively analyze next please tell me I don't know which ones to do next

Here are the different layers separated out into their own pictures, I know it's kinda hard to tell everyone apart when they're all on top of each other.

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13tinysocks · 1 month ago

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hello,, I absolutely adore your stories and art for them. going through your art tag and seeing the fun doodles or extra tidbits makes me so happy, and they're just so funny... I get surprised when I see a TikTok reference, like the "until I found out there are other ways to score," I was like wait I know that one!! I've been using MDGF as a reward system to make me study for coursework and get things done by saying when I'm done I'll read newest chapters, and after certain accomplishments I'll let myself reread the whole thing 😭 it is so special to me, it feels like being 13 again and reading fanfics until 5am knowing you have school in the morning buy you just can't stop... I was surprised you're a BTD fan too, I remember I just got out of an intense BTD phase and moved back to Invincible and read your story, then saw a Ren body pillow and it was like a crossover of two media I never thought I'd be able to see next to each other. it's also gotten me out of an art block lately, it's so inspiring.... im kind of worried my favorite is going to die soon though LMAO I feel like im starting to see death flags 💀 but honestly I like all of them so much that if one or even a few died I'd still be perfectly satisfied LMAO. I drew how I imagined Mohawk killed Dregs, as well as Viltrumite Mark.... the self insert is just me so I tried to give each dimension a different hairstyle I've really had to differentiate them, so in Viltrumite Mark's she never got out of her bangs phase.. I'm sure neither probably cried as they did it, but it's nice to imagine them feeling sad over it in the moment 😔 anyways, I can't wait to catch up - thank you for this wonderful story truly this shit means something to me man!! 😭 (srry for burner - I'm very shy 😔)

First of all, your yn is such a baddie. Your art is fucking awesome. We are besties forever one million billion years. This is going on my wall.

Second of all, so many people are using mdgf as a reward system. You guys are like my hamsters. Im going to give you sooo many pellets. By the time im done with you people you will be dead. Hamster overfed with pallet and fucking DIES like-

Oop!!! Thats a spoiler for way later in the arc. I will say the next death is a long while away.

But i will spoil something for you my newest shy bestie. Screenshot redraw strade style hashtag swag

#i apologize #if this is incoherient im very tipsy rn #yasluvsmark #mdgf #mdgf fanart #doodles #dregs #mohawk #gray #kisses you times one billion #this is so epic again your yn is so… 🫦🫦🫦🫦RROOORRWW..

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grace-williams-xo · 1 year ago

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RAMBLING THOUGHTS AFTER FINISHING PART TWO. GONNA ADDRESS MY P1 THOUGHTS FIRST. SPOILER WARNING.

1 & 2: I think Debling could’ve worked in the second half, and I’m kinda sad Cressida didn’t get a happy ending. The Creloise fell of a CLIFF after ep 5 but I think it could still be saved

5: no cishet man has ever loved his wife more than Anthony Bridgerton I’m gonna be ill

6 & 12: kanthony’s absence was felt BAD in the finale, I think their reactions to LW were sorely needed. Also Jonny and Simone have both said they’ll be at every sibling’s wedding and stick around for years but they missed Francesca’s??? Also felt their absence too much then. They’re both booked and busy I think we’ll continue to only get a couple episodes a season from them

8: Francesca did get to thrive happy in pt 2 my baby I love her

9: I think they managed to disconnect the mondrich plot even further like 😭 once again, I don’t mind them their plot just feels very empty

10: Pen and Delacroix CONTINUE to be my fave duo I love them so freaking much and they can never get rid of it

13: Portia’s growth this season continued to be 10/10 I loved her and Penelope’s relationship it really showed what it’s like to be closely related to people you oppose and the process of needing to forgive and understand them for your own peace of mind

14: that was not how I was expecting Colin to find out about Whistledown

15: Marcus felt a little rushed in part two but I think I need to watch the whole season together to fully decide

17: this was indeed the longest 27 days of my life I got Covid day after it dropped lmfao

MY ~NEW~ THOUGHTS:

We finally got character development from Cressida and if they write her out I’ll be inconsolable (as will Jessica Madsen)

I hope they paid Golda Rosheuvel good for her feet exposure. Worth more than titties in this economy

I feel the need to tell everyone that £5000 in 1815 is in the realm of £500,000 today and we cannot brush over the fact Penelope has made herself the equivalent of a literal millionaire

Anthony has two moods ‘I’m obsessed with my wife’ ‘I want to win this game’ like it is comical how drastically different his facial expression is in the game of charades compared to pretty much every other scene

Anthony saying the marriage is perfect and not hard work and Kate being like BOY I will humble you,,,, doing the lord’s work I love her so much

At some points I felt like Francesca was fighting Anthony for ‘Violet’s least favourite child’ award lmao

John saying he’s off to look at the wainscotting was unfairly funny

Cressida in the red dress is even better than I imagined fuck even if she’s not gay then I am

Peneloise back together the universe is healing I love my babies all we need now is creloise lovers and peneloise friendship simultaneously I don’t like it being one or the other sue me

However much Brimsley is getting paid isn’t enough,,,, Hugh Sachs the man that you are

I adored Penelope’s wedding dress so much and as bitter as I am still about no kanthony wedding in s2, it felt kind of right somehow for Polin to be the first wedding we properly see in this show

Most of the costumes and makeup feel like they got worse,,,,, big ‘I hired a 14 year old’ energy. I don’t need historical accuracy but I would like a modicum of care and the costume/hair/makeup dept looking at a single historical reference from before 1850,,,, please

We all got the bi Benedict we’ve been asking for and I appreciate it, and recognise that he needed Tilley to explore that, but I still would’ve preferred if they first main queer experience was not a threesome

If they go straight into benophie in s4 (which idk, I’m so torn bc I feel like F, E and B all could work well next season) then I also feel like bi Benedict was just them throwing a bone for 5 mins but meant nothing

The CONTENTIOUS Michaela Stirling,,,,, I was undecided until I saw it but that was the definition of gay panic from Francesca and it worked so well I am so excited.

As your resident peerage expert, it is much easier for women to inherit titles in Scotland than England so I wonder (not that anyone on this show knows anything) if that was a reason they chose Francesca to be sapphic [general peerage info and female inheritance info if you care]

On the above, if they can canonically end racism with one marriage then they can end homophobia with one marriage as well

We all know Eloise was the easy and obvious choice to be the queer love story but part of me does kind of like them not taking the easy route, and them going something more unexpected, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want Creloise/Sapphic El like they had eight children let’s be honest

Finch’s sneeze and Phillips’s “now Varely! The bugs!” were unfairly funny

Everything Lady Danbury said to Penelope about suspecting her and what not felt very in character and you can fight with the wall idc

Did they tell us the name of Polin’s baby boy???

Hyacinth saying she thinks of Gregory as the family pet,,,,, girl you an icon walking amongst mere mortals

Predictions I got right:

Anthony didn’t kill Colin, but “are you gonna duel your own brother” lmao I was on the right track

I knew Polin would win the Featherington baby race and I love that for them (but why were Prudence and Phillipa pregnant most of the season, barely showing, Kate was showing almost immediately, and then in the epilogue the sisters all had baby’s similar-ish ages???? Give the writers room a calendar please)

I SAID FROM DAY DOT THAT THE FURNITURE THEY BROKE FROM SEX WAS A CHAISE I CANT FIND THE POST BUT I KNEW IT I FUCKING KNEW IT WHERE DO I COLLECT MY PRIZE SOME OF YOUR GUESSES WERE TRULY FUCKING COOKED

Okay that was too long if you made it this far I’ll make you cookie ily

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heavenb3nt · 5 months ago

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Inner demons trailer thoughts:

“So your childhood? What was school like?” OH boy where do we fucking start. Got drowned, the bully got killed in front of him then the guilt got beamed onto him for centuries. He had a drumbeat in his head since he was 8 that was only relatively recently removed. Two of his friends died and then were wiped from history and the rest of the group fell apart, and on that note one of his friends growing up turned out to have been spying on them all The Whole Time. Also there’s the fact he grew up in the gallifreyan nobility.

Really enjoyed the references to crispy and the missy-saxon suicide. So true you SHOULD talk about that in therapy. Also “just when I think I know myself I stab myself in the back” sniffle hic. Missy thought she was making progress. I should kill myself. Why are they so ouroboros

“Do you find yourself comparing yourself negatively to others?” “No, no, not usually” he said. Like a liar. Who lies. Mr told 13 to kill him after she said she was better than him. Mr “I destroyed you, please don’t make me go back to being me” mr calls himself the doctor at every available opportunity. Sure. Sure. Okay. Okay. You’d neverrrr.

I like that he enjoys axe murders. No hear me out. Because doctor who is a family show they do not show the master killing particularly viscerally, so it’s nice with audio we have the opportunity to embrace him just absolutely going at someone with an axe. Back to basics

“What’s the name of your true authentic self?” He’s probably gonna say master, but. If he said koschei I would never be mean to big finish again out of thanks (lying, but. I would still go insane about it)

Love him laughing <3 was that funny bbg

“Why has he done this? All this pain and misery, what was it for?”“Oh I dunno, I think I was bored” hilarious. He’s beautiful and stupid

God he’s so pathetic I love him

#the master #spy master #dhawan!master #big finish #call me master: inner demons #doctor who eu

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brightest-stars-if · 6 months ago

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It's funny because I never thought MC's prophecy was that ominous. The way I see it, it basically means MC's and Lux's lifes are linked. But like, Lux can very well die when they're 90 years old, for all we know.

And even aside from the death meaning, it can also simply refer to Lux straying away from the light aka taking the corrupt path, in which case it would mean even if MC is low corruption, it would still lead to a dark path or stuff like that... which isn't relevant to me since I'm damn well doing everything for my MC to stay low corruption and for Lux to be too.

I hope MC will be able to come to see the prophecy as something positive.

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As I mentioned before, the prophecy can mean several different things, it really depends on how the game plays out. Right now the MC is a scared 13-year-old kid who is a smidgen traumatized from having an ominous-sounding prophecy literally branded onto their skin. But in time, they might be able to see it as something positive. I'm still debating on that, we'll have to see.

#the brightest stars #mc #ask #konoi and noir

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timeslipcamp · 3 months ago

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honestly looking up the demons in the ars goetia was the worst because as i was reading through it and looking at some of the connections i was like DAMN this is really cool. aw man, now ive gotta do a whole post on subarus demon smh

spoilers through ep 15

back at it again with the crack theories!! it's what i do best, what can i say.

initially, when i was going through the demons in the ars goetia, i was like "huh, dantalion sounds a lot like dandelion. i wonder if that's going to have to do with us." and then i got further in my list and saw it was subaru's demon and there went that theory. and THEN i read more about dantalion and holy shit dude

anyways this is just a post going a lil more in depth on subaru's stigma, demon, and where i think he fits in the story

so first off, the ars goetia is fucking bonkers. in my professional opinion (i'm an opinionated nerd and a former humanities major), all grimoires that were written around the 13-15 centuries (and were widely publicized) are so goofy. the like, "modern" witchcraft thing is so funny to me because these experts were just making things up and making up their rules and all wildly contradicting each other in every book. i love the drama

but that's not what you're reading this for so i'll get off my soapbox

several of these demons are listed in a bunch of grimoires, but the tkdb wiki (however reliable) lists the ars goetia, so we'll go with that description

shoutout to wikipedia for having one of the only compilations of info that didn't have pretentious drivel to get through (i'm not being a hypocrite shh). tumblr mobile stop deleting my drafts challenge

as far as i can gather, the rankings in the ars goetia are meaningless lol. each demon has their title and their legions and satan rules over all. each demon is also listed as the things they were meant to teach, because the purpose of having these demons in a list was for summoning purposes. you would summon a demon, wear its seal so you could control it, and ask it questions based on what it had dominion over.

the demon's other abilities were what i was really interested in, especially in relation to subaru. the first one listed is the ability to declare counsel on anyone; basically he can read minds. he knows anyone's secret thoughts and can also apoarently change them to his will.

this one applies directly to subaru's stigma. his stigma is the ability to read residual thoughts from people and objects. there is zero doubt in my mind that if we were to enhance his stigma, he'd be able to read active thoughts. or more! luca summoned a whole ass creature with his and all he can do is guard or whatever. who knows what he could do? change thoughts maybe?

manipulate thoughts to the point of someone being intermittently amnesiac? side eyeing my incomplete taiga theory post

the next ability listed isn't as relevant, "cause love and show similtude", but the NEXT part: "show the same by means of a vision." could subaru, in theory and while using us, project the memories he's seeing so that everyone can see them as well?? i think so!!

the last part is also just so subaru, "many faces," meaning he can appear as anyone, man or woman. ngl, i thought subaru was a lesbian the first time i saw him and got so excited, but this is definitely referring to his ability to act. we saw a bit of it in episode 15 where he auditions for the haunted house and then acts like SUCH a freak in that room. love him.

there's also a part about the demon always being depicted holding the book but idk what that means yet, will revisit later

subaru's abilities are so fascinating and honestly he has so much potential to do some crazy shit with us boosting his stigma. i do think he fits aomewhere into my theory about what's going on with taiga's memory but again, i don't have a solid theory yet just because of how little information we have.

the main theory thatni have about subaru is that i think he did have something to do with taiga's memory issues, and i do think he's the type of person that could be blackmailed into helping the faculty and work against the ghouls. his stigma would allow him to get an insane amount of information on the other ghouls simply by touching things discarded by them. the galaxy express area is full of lost items, it'd be a field day for him. who knows how much he's found out about the campus just by grabbing things in there?

maybe he doesn't leave his room anymore because he found out too much last year. maybe he doesn't want darkwick to use him any more than they already have. who knows?

what we do know is that subaru is a squishy little freak and i'm so fascinated by him and his story. can't wait for the next sinostra chapter to come out and (hopefully) get more info on taiga.

asks and dms always open!

#tkdb #tokyo debunker #tdb #theories #subaru kagami #fascinating l #lil freak of a man love him

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unbelenting · 24 days ago

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"Never Give Annabelle A Gun" commentary :-)

I was there for the premiere, so this is my SECOND watch-through! I have lots of thoughts on it that I wanna share, because I had SO much fun, but I don't wanna spam. So I decided to compile them into a post like I've seen other people do!

Obviously, spoilers ahead!! And let's get to it YEEHAWWWW!!!

Immediately adored Butch and she remained my favourite character over the course of the play. One of the very few messages I sent my friends after the premiere started:

2. "I was wondering if she wanted to come out" surprisingly didn't turn into a gay joke, but like. I can't be the only one who was thinking about it.

3. "Looking at dresses and findin' ourselves husbands" is rapidly entering my lexicon. It's like a version of "and they were roommates" and "2 bros chillin in a hot tub" but imbued with SFTH greatness. Also real.

4. I love their little gestures and facial expressions, this isn't exclusive to a certain play, but it stood out to me for Annabelle since she doesn't get to talk much at first. They can be so funny and - perhaps more importantly - they make the characters feel so REAL!<333

5. When I got to this part I was genuinely expecting a wolf to show up later in the story. Dinosaur-wielding-guns style.

6. Good thing these are stereotypical /j/ lesbians and not stereotypical bisexuals. Imagine getting triggered every time they pull out the finger guns! Good lord!

-sincerely, a stereotypical bisexual

7. Has anyone been keeping track of how many times Sam's played a bartender on camera? Typecast by fate.

8. Wait... Omg I didn't make this connection. I'm sure a million ppl have already. DANNY the BARTENDER? In the next town over from Death For A Dollar? IS THIS THE SAME DANNY ONLY OLDER????? We've got a "keyboard" guy as well.... I am looking intently.

9. LOVE the helium bit. I especially enjoyed seeing Tom struggle to keep up (and adapting). I also just missed Sam and AJ's Miss Piggy, and well. This is close enough!

10. SING-J!!!!!!!! <3333

11. This fucking screenshot

12. Is this Heathers?

13. Can we get a Tom Mayo "HOOWEE" counter as well? (love it) (second to Ayoyoyoy)

14. I get what Sam was cooking with that one line but it's very funny. Especially after he'd asked "Who else's eyes would you have been watching with?" earlier.

15. He KNOWS he killed that. ("You can see the lights")

16. I hate them (they're my entire world now)

17. Ah yes, real Sam in the livestreams from home, whenever he starts telling family stories and whatnot <3

18. I know we later find out WHY they do bank robberies, but Annabelle also seems genuinely INTO IT and I love her for that. Butch too ofc. Hell yeah girls you're killing it!!

19. AJ's timing with the singing is impeccable every time. So fucking funny. Catch me singing "woooooman with the guuuuuun" for the foreseeable future.

20. I finally get to watch the others in this bank robbery scene lollll. Love Butch tossing that gun over to Annabelle, they're so cute and so cool together. I can't form any coherent thoughts other than YEAHHHHHHHH!

21. The manager twirling after seeing Butch's spinny motion lmaooooo. Also wait, they got DIAMONDS?! Yeah I don't think those 5 dollars are gonna be a problem anymore..

22. AJ inserting a Cinderella element into the story reminded me of him seemingly not recognizing a Beauty And The Beast reference in another video... Also the whole "wolf" thing from earlier, I thought he was gonna make this into a fairytale story to bring that back late into the show or something! No I didn't particularly want that, I was just genuinely convinced it'd happen :-)))

23. "Mama was the same" took me out, 10/10.

24. Her face after the dad says "And y'know, you hang out with Butch an awful lot, and Butch..." AWGHHHH

25. "It's just 'she' daddy" "Oh well, give it time" was SOOOO realllllll. She'll get there if (when) she does <3

26. Love her silly ass

27. The "every time I try to tell her how I feel, what comes out instead is [..]" is sooo goodddd. I just love how ridiculous that is, this entire story couldn't have happened if Annabelle wasn't weird like that.

28. "Oh I'm still wearing [the mask]" reminds me of Mystery of the Midnight Circus lol

29. "Ohh myy godd I'm with a lunaticcc... a musical lunatic.." I love you Butch.

30. I wanna know who this guy is and what happens to him after the villain's dead. Silly

31. "Flirting vs. sexual harrassment" meme. If you've seen Cinderella's Castle, yes we all had deja vu. I don't like the Prince getting excited off of Ella's shoe, but Butch can do it alllllll she wants because DAMMIT, can't a lesbian goofball be a little freak sometimes?? Good for them.

32. "I've been waiting my whole life to find that woman" sir, the robbery happened just a few weeks ago--

33. "Fine, I'll tell you.. Just.... come closer" KILLED MEEEEEE. I love you Butch x2

34. "eh x28" I love you Butch x3 she's so. wueuee

35. I know Tom clarified in the QnA, but I also never would've thought there was a pig CARRYING the helium, so I didn't get his shock at the "pumping helium out of the pig" bit. Is it messed up? Absolutely. But I thought that's what he wanted!!! He said "a pig full of helium!!" Also, Luke ONCE AGAIN being the animal AND the animal handler.

36. "I was just reminding myself who I am so that I remember who I am" and "I'm gonna sit in my chair, which is right here where I left it" might've been the most quoted lines for me if I was still at the peak of my psychosis and dissociation issues........ but thankfully that's not the case! lol (tho I can still appreciate&use it, like some of the stuff in I Killed The Mockingbird <3)

37. Was the piano guy picking at his bellybutton. Hey

38. The scene of Henry trying to persuade (and then force) Annabelle to be with him was genuinely super eerie, both on account of Luke and AJ's acting and how realistic it felt (in my experience at least, not to generalize). The tension, the quiet, the shift from "an excuse to slide into conversation" to intimidation, the slow bubbling rage from both of them. Like damn okay! Really making me want this guy dead if I didn't already! Henry and Henry should NOT be on speaking terms............. Um on a more lighthearted note, how the hell did Henry fit that shoe on top of Annabelle's shoes? Or did she go to Butch's place with one shoe still missing? I can see her walking around barefoot, countryside style, but it's funnier to imagine he's in so deep that he thinks it "fits perfectly" even with her other shoes forcibly stuffed into it.

39. Laughed so hard... And Tom's reaction :-)))))

40. "YOU WANT A GIRL WITH A GUN??" from Butch was AWESOME. Like yeah okay it'd be cool if she WAS the target of his affection, but it's a million times better considering the actual circumstances. So badass, the video description wasn't lying. I love you Butch (again)

41. Awesome lesbian couple vs evil and intimidating foot

42. "As best frieeeendsss..." Butch don't piss me off now. I say knowing damn well I've done the same thing.

43. BEST KISS EVER (hyperbole) (but it's immediately entered my favourites DID YOU SEE THAT CUTOFF??? THEN THE FANCY DO-OVER????? HELLOOOOOOOOOOO i love them so muchhhhh.... d'awwwwwww...)

44. That joke from Sam was honestly perfect (sorry Butch). Really tied it all up nicely.

45. I need to explode. their stupid little hand-holding... Also, Butch looks like SHE might explode as WELL. REAL

46. The tippy toes from Annabelle as well :-((((( I hate themmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

...Aaand with that, we're done. I had an absolutely lovely time and I'm sure I'll yap about this longform in the future, but I just needed to get all of THIS out. Typing this post (and rewatching) took me like an hour so it's time to go to bed.... after looking at everybody's posts as well. I'm so happy!!! I love them! I love this! I HAVE to draw them. I keep saying that but I'LL GET THERE I SWEAR TO GOD!!

Edit before I go to sleep: I would also like to add that my internal monologue now has a southern accent. This has not happened before (aside from me switching between english and romanian randomly) and I have no idea how long it'll last. But okay.

#shoot from the hip #never give annabelle a gun

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hi. me again. at work I was thinking about mttv on air all day but now i've watched the peak objectum movie and mttv plagues me so you have to hear my thoughts that aren't gonna make much sense. do you hear me. okay questions + thoughts. lets see if I can remember them all

oneeeee. do you think mtt's show has a feel to it that tenna's did? Tenna just thinks that that's just what a show and set is supposed to feel like; Mtt just subconciously makes it feel like that because how much Tenna's show did for him. Neither of them notice it. I think everybody else does though. smile.

twooooo. I don't remember if I had something here. I think I did but I can't remember

ccccc. do you have any specific heights for each of the freaks.

44444444. I would ASSUME tenna and mtt hang out off set but pleeeassssseeee if you would be so kind as to enlighten me to what activitess they might do.

eefffffffffff. WAIT NO I rememebered thought two. something something REALLLY stupid but Tenna being otherkin but he's. just TV. guy who feels like a tv. just because I think it's really really funny.

seveennnnn. I forgot what question six was for the third time.

sixxxx. we're still lookking for the question.

eeeeeee. okay I still can't remember the question. so I'll be back when I do. in the mean time. smiles. I will think about mttv and mttv on air

Hello *wave* hello *wave* drop the movie I wanna SEE

#one

I think mettaton’s show would very intentionally refrence the vibes of various media he likes/fascinates him I just think he’s just. A tv/ movie freak. Writing love letters to media via esoteric surreal insane and violent sketches and bits LOL

Specially TV Time. Of corse. AND!! he will also inject the vibes unintentionally on occasion.. as one does when making art….

Tenna doesn’t notice either way HEHHE he does not remember everything he’s said. mettaton would have to point out the references for him to notice. And he’s not gonna do that ever especially with the episodes before Tenna is on. Simply a little embarrassed. And. Yes. I think people notice this.

(Mettaton going over a script with tenna and tenna is Like. *This line sticks out weird what’s that about? And mettaton knows it’s a reference to episode 13 season 4 of TV time and he’s like. *Nothing. it’s nothing. Erases it from pure humiliation LOL)

Two.)

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3: had to think. All I knew is tenna is big as HELL‼️‼️‼️‼️ MTT: 5’8” TV:6’6” final choice (subject to change) Tenna pisses Mettaton’s crew the FUCK OFFF because they have to figure out how to put him in frame 😭 they’re not used to it

For-

OMG hanging out…. Imagining them going out to lunch together when they start working together but not calling it a date. Tehe.

BUT when there dating they are doing ACTIVITIES. Mini golf. Pottery Classes. Picnic. Wine tasting. And they are sooooo annoying at every place they go a person with anxiety’s worst nightmare they will talk to you and hype you up in a way that makes you feel like you’re being held hostage they make me SICKKK!!!!!! (lovingly) they are having FUN!!!!!

YEASSS‼️‼️💥💥💥 I love the idea that he doesn’t really have the words for it but he’s like. That’s me I’m the TV. He probably wouldn’t talk about it because he thinks he’s WEIRD but… ur not weird to me tenna you’re awesome…….. 💔

I also LOVVEE mettaton also being like I’m a robot a little bit actually (even though he wants to be human moreso in undertale… always wanting something!!!!!)

#Eighty three

I belive in you one day you’lol remember

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Thank you for the food YAYYYYY YAYYYY i will also be thinking about them…. I love you MTTV…..

#YAY YAY YAYYYYYY very good fun questions :)#answered asks #MTTV on air

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nosferatuix · 17 days ago

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I'm thinking about first year sashisu and shoko thinking she looks like a lost little alien boy and gojo making the same reference 13 years later to sukuna. do you think shoko actually told them this, or just had an obsession with paranormal hoaxes and stsg saw the silverman photo and each of them grabbed one of shoko's arms and went look its you! Or do Gojo and Shoko just share a brain cell and didn't directly mention it to each other but they have the same odd sense of humor?

haha good question actually. let's brainstorm a bit here bc i loved that connection of both of them making the same joke. there are a couple of possibilities which i find equally entertaining:

1. shoko told them during a moment she felt chill enough to entertain them with this idea, because i feel like she'd be the type to easily make fun of herself if she knows her friends are going to match her energy instead of turning this into a bullying session/clock this as an insecurity of some sorts. and i had always hc'd her to be interested in this sort of obscure morbid shit like true crime or the occult (let her and yuji bond over this shared hobby...) and stsg probably know some stuff thanks to her sharing some stuff with them on occasions where she feels like yapping a bit, so why wouldn't she also be knowledgable in paranormal/extraterrestrial stuff? bonus points if they were cracked tf out of their minds due to exhaustion because i feel like they'd only cry with laughter at how stupid this correlation is if they were too tired to think right.

2. somebody else showed sashisu the photo. shoko spared one glance at it before declaring it an extremely cheap photoshop job, suguru examined it carefully for a couple of seconds before saying it looks like a family portrait, to which satoru just snorted out a response: "this is so us." insert the two of them wheezing their lungs out and shoko rolling her eyes so hard that her irises basically get stuck somewhere in the back of her head (she wants to laugh so bad but she doesn't want to let satoru think he's actually funny because he's going to be ten times more obnoxious than he already is)

3. shoko, being into the obscure morbid shir she is into, has always thought this but would never admit it out loud if you put a gun to her head because she knows how much of a bully stsg are. satoru, being into the same obscure morbid shit shoko is into AND MORE, has always thought this but knows shoko well enough to know he'll get his kneecaps broken if he dares to make the joke and keeps it to himself (shoko never knows what he's laughing at whenever she's standing between them and he sees their reflection in the mirror)

i like the first option the best i think lmao

#sashisu #ieiri shoko #gojo satoru #geto suguru #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #ask #nosferatuix answers

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differentalpacafestival · 5 months ago

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You know, something I just realized is actually kinda funny.

The sole reason I even know what transgenderism is, is simply because I started seeing transphobia.

"This is so wrong, this is disgusting" etc made me wonder why they thought it was so wrong, so I pursued knowledge.

RuPaul's Drag Race was one of the first queer and LGBTQIA+ friendly media I ever consumed. I was not, and still am not the biggest fan of the drama because I just simply don't like drama, but I saw so many contestants coming out during that show. Grown "men" crying as they admit to feeling ostracized from their childhood communities, their family and friends, saying they've come to realize they're not actually a man, but a woman. I watched a handful of them becoming so vulnerable and stripping (emotionally) completely in front of someone they adored, but also a huge camera crew, and thus essentially the entire world. I thought "How is this wrong? What's so disgusting about this?"

I was 10 when I sat in the school bus after school and talked with some younger kids I was friends with about transgenderism. I don't remember the conversation, obviously, this is like 13 years ago, but I remember telling them it was actually possible for a boy to get a surgery to remove his penis. I remember feeling proud to be the one telling them this, but also appalled that their natural reactions were so strong, because mine never was, and both my parents and my older brother were vehemently against self expression like that.

When I was like 13, I identified as bisexual. I became obsessed with the flag's colours and tried to coordinate my outfits to have a similar vibe.

When I was 14, someone in my class told us after a visiting performance group that the lead singer *wanted* to be confusing, gender-wise. Someone had tried to make fun of the lead singer after their performance, and were quickly shut down when no one followed. My friend explained what being non-binary meant, and I felt so outed, but in a good way. My friend said the singer's long, messy hair was purposeful, that their big clothes were purposeful, and that they never introduced themselves by anything other than name, nor talked about it because they didn't need to; their self expression said everything for them. I remember going to the bathroom that same day and looking at my own long [straightened] hair and baggy clothes and wondered for the first time if I was on the same wavelength, just not the same wave.

When I was 16 I met my first ever trans friend. I quickly developed a crush on him, which, in hindsight wasn't actually a crush, but admiration, and I wanted to protect him at all costs. Whenever our elder teacher misgendered him or used his dead name, I, fairly aggressively, corrected her in front of the entire class to the point that I was yelled at for interrupting and that "she" [referring to my GUY friend] knows it's not on purpose. He never told me to stop, so I never did. We also didn't have that teacher for many classes, and I noticed she started to avoid using pronouns or even his name because I didn't back down.

That same year I found out that a friend I had, but had lost contact with, had also come out. She had socially changed her name when she started a new school, and her appearance had drastically changed from when we went to the same school just a year or so prior. I messaged her, asking if it was true and told her I was proud of her for being herself and that I was happy she had found who she truly was. The next time we met, I slipped with her pronouns, but that was also the only time I ever did. I apologized and we continued our lives as friends again. The next year, after I, too, had started my own self discovery journey, she dead named me, and I dropped her instantly. As a trans person, how do you have the guts to insult someone the same way you have been, even if they're not actively trans? (at the time, I only thought I was gay) Another in the same friend group followed suit after berating her, and after nearly 20 years of acquaintance, she dropped her as well. Apparently, they were never actually friends, they just happened to be the only two who were left out and decided to stick together. Had me and my two childhood friends from a different school not entered the picture, they wouldn't have maintained contact after their last year at the same school. I've also minimized contact with her since, after finding out she blames the entire trans community for everything that's wrong in the world after I came out as enby to her. She has always been protective of me, and has, on numerous occasions said she admires me, but when I learned that she wasn't just not a big fan of the, prior, only trans person in our group, but actually had fundamental issues with her as a trans person, my view of her changed. We had a short discussion about being trans and what it meant, and she argued with the same point you usually hear, like "You can never change your biological sex" and how we're just mentally unstable [which really felt like a personal attack because she knows I am].

About a year after I came out to my friends as enby, I came out to my mom after we had been drinking. I remember my thoughts being so loud when she started her usual transphobic tirade, and just as I was about to tell her, my nose started bleeding. I cleaned myself up and started by saying I knew why that happened, and came out to her on the spot. She stammered when she realized every bad thing and every criticism she has ever slung at the trans community, were also indirectly thrown at me. We've tried talking about it since, but she stands firm on non-binary not being real and how it doesn't matter if one is trans during life because "iN onE ThOusAnD yEaRs-"

My point is that in my peers' attempt at keeping everything strictly conservative, they helped me figure out that I'm a liberal.

My transphobic family's comments made me pursue my own conclusions because they were too emotional about it and never talked about trans people as other civils.

And I find that kinda funny.

#lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtq community #lgbtq+#lgbtqia+#queer #transgender #trans #nonbinary #enby #agender #genderqueer #genderfluid #gender nonconforming

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Yap about Ajaw. I want to hear your thoughts on him. Headcanons theories rants etc etc <- also normal (lying) about ajaw

oh my mutual who I hold so dear (but have never actually spoken to), you know not the horrors that you have unleashed by asking me this

anyways yapping time. i am going into this with zero structure and will probably repeat myself

ok so the big issue for me with the way Ajaw is treated in canon is that you'll have lore showing up in world quests & all that about the 13 sovereign lords that very strongly implies that Ajaw is, in fact, telling the truth about having been a dragonlord (which I've believed since 5.0 because Genshin's lore puts importance on dragons and I thought that if a character was loudly claiming to be some big important dragon, there might be a grain of truth to it at the very least) and at the same time the other characters will be treating Ajaw like he's a spoiled pet throwing a tantrum.

And it's pretty clear that we're meant to think that Ajaw was one of the 13 sovereign lords, since only one is still alive and "not in the form that it would have wished to maintain". We're not supposed to think it's Ixlel because at this point she's already died in Open Your Heart to Me, so the one character we've already met who is definitely not in a form he wants to be in and also claims to be a dragonlord would be Ajaw. I think it's highly unlikely that this is referring to someone else and that Genshin's just gonna later go "this was actually referring to a completely different person and Ajaw is full of shit lol"

and like... yeah I get it, it's funny for a character with a big ego to not be taken seriously by others and Ajaw is meant to be a comic relief character. But it the Whirling Waltz event particularly bothered me because we just got huge new info about the 13 sovereign lords (and 2 very possible identities for Ajaw) in the patch immediately before that event and then during the event Ajaw was treated less like a person than Cacucu was. And yeah, Cacucu can canonically understand human speech perfectly fine and just can't speak it very well, something you can learn by talking to Cacucu while indwelling a saurian during Mavuika's story quest, but it's the fact that Cacucu is not only a fucking bird but also not even an adult qucusaur and yet he's treated with more dignity than Ajaw, who is canonically thousands of years old (Kinich Character Story 5: "According to reliable research by the Saurian Relics Association, Ajaw is a bona fide relic from the era of dragons, dating back several millennia.")

The tone change between Ajaw's lore and the way Ajaw is treated by other characters, and the game in general, leaves a bad taste in my mouth sometimes. Even outside of the lore found in world quests and stuff, it's been shown that Ajaw isn't 100% a mean, boastful little brat. Take Kinich's vision story for example:

Ajaw shows a side of himself here that we don't really see normally. That we aren't allowed to see because the game is too busy treating him like a yappy little dog, or a toddler throwing a tantrum. Ajaw is antagonistic definitely, but despite his sealed appearance he's not that 2d of a character.

Ajaw's treatment by other characters feels fitting of his current form almost, to me. He was robbed of his dignity by being sealed in a bracelet where he is now just a phlogiston projection (unknown if done by himself or not because we know very little about his sealing in the first place. If he's CL-10, then he was most likely sealed in the bracelet by Ixquieh and Ahpub, because the Ring of Yaxche's description describes those two sealing CL-10 under a mountain. If he's CL-04 then that carries the possibility of it having been done by himself, intentionally or not, because of something to do with the Phlogistonization of Life that he was researching. I think it's most likely that someone else sealed him somehow, no matter which identity you follow him having) and now not allowed the dignity of being treated like the once important dragon he was in the past, or really even the dignity of being treated like a person

It's also a bit strange that Ajaw is often treated like he's stupid because, to quote Kinich's Character Story 5 again "However, Kinich is well-aware that Ajaw is all too intelligent, has an all-round awful personality, and poses an immense threat, and has thus rejected them without hesitation. He knows that Ajaw is, without a doubt, dangerous — arrogant, cunning, chaotic, and wicked."

Ajaw isn't an idiot. Especially if, like me, you believe that he's CL-04, who we know was doing research into "the Phlogistonization of Life"

but even without that, Kinich says himself that Ajaw is "all too intelligent" and "cunning"

Speaking of Ajaw possibly being CL-04, I want to go over why I think that he is and also touch on the possibility of him being CL-10.

So. the 13 sovereign lords. We know 2 who are possibly Ajaw's past identity, as they both have fitting personalities to what we see from Ajaw (though being arrogant and rude seems to be pretty standard for all of the dragonlords, the others seemed to mostly agree on CL-10 being particularly so, and CL-04 is described by CL-02 as "disdainful, decadent, decrepit" and also suggested to be "merely looking for an excuse to neglect his duties") and who we additionally do not currently know the canonical living status of (other than that one of them is dead, as there is only one of the thirteen still alive following Ixlel's death)

and yeah we technically aren't told about CL-13's death either but he's definitely not Ajaw so we can ignore him when theorizing.

Now the evidence pointing to Ajaw being CL-10, other than the obvious detail of personality, is that it's a known fact that CL-10 was buried under a mountain, as told by the narrative in the description of the Ring of Yaxche

Kinich's Character Story 5 (which I keep bringing up bc it centers around him & Ajaw) tells us that Ajaw was in a ruin that was unearthed by an earthquake ("All this goes back to an ancient dragon ruin that was rumored to contain a "secret draconic treasure." It was unearthed due to an earthquake, and before long, had attracted much attention.")

Additionally, "Undying Wings of Lofty Isolation" is a title that fits Ajaw rather well, all things considered.

But really all the evidence pointing to CL-10 Ajaw is the ruins and the personality. That's not to say that he can't be CL-10 or that I think the people who think that he is are stupid or obviously incorrect. Truthfully if I woke up tomorrow and it was confirmed without a doubt that Ajaw is CL-10 I'd just be like "huh guess my theory was wrong. Oh well, this is cool too" because it's really not that deep.

I simply believe that CL-10 is a red herring for Ajaw's identity.

One detail that makes me believe in CL-04 Ajaw is Ajaw's claim of having "a grand castle at the highest point in the nation" while CL-04 is described as having a "lonely citadel atop the high cliffs". It's a small detail, but when it comes to theories it's the small details that matter

There's also the name. Aj Awaj K'umilal Kan. Firstly, at one point I was yapping to my bestie about the CL-04 Ajaw theory, and she was like "wait isn't that basically confirmed" when it came to the names after I sent my screenshotted list of the 13 sovereign lords, so there's that detail. Secondly, apparently CL-04's name and Ajaw's name share certain Chinese characters.

There's also the Phlogistonization of Life thing and how that possibly has something to do with Ajaw's current state ("His true form has been sealed within an enigmatic engraved wristband, his current one being a mere projection via phlogiston.")

It doesn't really matter if Ajaw is CL-04 or CL-10 because in the end he's still the same as he is in current day Teyvat, but I personally find CL-04 Ajaw to be more interesting than CL-10 Ajaw.

But as I stated before, if I woke up tomorrow to confirmation that Ajaw is 100% without a doubt CL-10 I would not be particularly upset (other than the usual "aw sucks that I was wrong" feeling when your theory is confirmed incorrect) because at least it would be confirmation of Ajaw's identity. And people are free to believe whatever theories they want to believe in

this is already getting super long and I have to start getting ready for bed soon so here's some Ajaw-related headcanons I have

-Ajaw is touch starved as fuck but if you were to give him physical affection (or just affection in general) he would be mean about it and call you pathetic and clingy. He would say all of this while clinging to you like a koala attached to you with velcro (I have mentioned this HC before)

-Ajaw's deal with Kinich extended the latter's lifespan to match a dragon's. This means Kinich cannot die of old age and he also ages very slowly. I also HC that their deal gave Kinich some draconic traits, though they haven't become particularly visible yet because it hasn't been a super long time since they made their deal (the dragon traits are as a result of Kinich's body being modified to be able to handle Ajaw's powers in the first place, both to fulfill Ajaw's part of their deal and also because Ajaw doesn't want Kinich's body causing him problems when he inhabits it after his death). Kinich is currently unaware of the modifications to his body and lifespan.

-Against his will, Ajaw is actually rather fond of Kinich. He is bad at showing this though, due to a combination of his personality in general and also an unwillingness to admit fondness for a mortal, let alone a human (this HC can be interpreted as either platonic or romantic, as I do happen to ship Ajawnich but I also just like them as a duo)

-Torn between wishing that people still knew his name and being fine that his old name was forgotten. He's the Almighty Dragonlord, K'uhul Ajaw now, who cares who he used to be! (For all his boasting of that name, he misses the past. He misses his home. He misses all the people he knew and cared about that died either before his sealing or during the long time that he was in those ruins. Ajaw is haunted by a past that he cannot return to and that he alone is the only one left to remember. Ajaw is so very very lonely, and he just wanted to see the sun again)

-Absolutely needs therapy but would not cooperate in the slightest if you tried to give him therapy. He swears that he is perfectly fine mentally and that nothing about his past or his time in those ruins he was sealed in has caused any damage to his mental health. (He hates being left alone and being in small, enclosed spaces. He would literally rather die than admit this to anyone and will continue to suffer in... well not silence because he will complain about it loudly, but he will continue to suffer nonetheless)

-Would actually probably get along decently with Sigewinne if the two of them ever met. They definitely wouldn't be the best of friends, but their interactions would also not be mainly negative. They would both think that the other is strange and interesting, for different reasons. Ajaw wouldn't be able to handle the taste of the milkshakes she makes, though

-Being a phlogiston projection currently, Ajaw doesn't actually need to do things like eat or sleep, at least while he's still sealed in the wristband. He certainly didn't do much for eating during his time in the ruin, though he did do a lot of sleeping. Despite not needing food or rest, he happily indulges in them anyways. Whether this is greed or just the comfort of normalcy that he hasn't had in a long time is not exactly clear to most. Kinich is aware that Ajaw doesn't actually need to eat or sleep, but he usually will somewhat go along with it anyways (he's not getting Ajaw expensive or hard to find/make foods, obviously, but if Ajaw wants to eat then that's his own business)

#i would apologize for the word vomit but you literally asked for this #anyways neuvillette and ajaw should've met in the whirling waltz event #i swear its like they're allergic to letting dragons meet #genshin impact #k'uhul ajaw #ajaw #genshin ajaw

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milolovesbmc · 1 year ago

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Thinking about Bowtie Productions Falsettos, and I see no one talking about it, so here's a fun little thing I noticed!!

During March of the Falsettos, the men are wearing baseball uniforms, i think it's interesting how in this specific production, the mens childishness is shown by (their love for) sports. As in, in the bit in MOTF where they're muttering and talking at the very start they're muttering "baseball" and sport related stuff, which I think is a really interesting way of portraying this immaturity.

Anyways, where I'm getting with this is, their baseball (MOTF) uniforms say Falsettos at the front, which I think is really funny, because that means this literally is the march of the Falsettos, they're LITERALLY the Falsettos. In the back, they each have a different number, like you would have in any baseball uniform, and THAT'S what I want to focus on. I think this is really well done because MOTF is all about how Trina views the men, as childish and immature, but also about how she views each of them:

Starting off with the most obvious one, Whizzer's says 69, which wildly known to be the number of/the number that represents sex, this is because Trina views him as lustful, this could tie back to the view/belief that existed at the time around gay men being overly sexual and perverted, but that's a whole other can of worms I could get into some other time.

Marvin's says 01, which very obviously is tied with being the first, the one on the top, the best, basically. This is tied to his need to control everything and everyone, of "wanting it all", he needs to be at the top so that everyone will do as he says.

Moving on, Jason's number is 13. In Judaism, 13 signifies the age at which one becomes a man, due to this being the age at which a Jewish child has his Bar Mitzvah. Obviously, in MOTF, Jason isn't 13 yet, he's somewhere around the age of 10 or 11 years old, and we actually get to see him get Bar Mitzvah'd during the end act 2. This could signify how, even though he's not literally a man yet according to Judaism, Trina views him as one. Jason's portrayed as the most mature of the four men, seeing as he is the only one who isn't singing in Falsetto (in a high voice), this is how Trina thinks of him.

Finally, the one I'm most interested by, Mendel's says 42. Funnily enough, I first thought this was a reference to 420 (since they couldn't put a 3 digit number) and they were somehow implying Mendel smoked weed or something, I don't know why but that was what I first thought of. However, 42 is apparently the number gives as the answer by a supercomputer to “the Ultimate Question of Life, the Universe, and Everything.” in a novel by Douglas Adams, making this number signify the answer to the ultimate question (the meaning of the universe, everything, to put it simply). Was this intentional? Most probably not, but I think it's really fascinating that Mendel has this specific number, it could signify how during Trina's song (previous to MOTF) Trina treats marrying Mendel as the thing that'll change her life, the thing that will (supposedly) finally make her happy, she sees (her upcoming marriage with) Mendel as the answer to everything.

#i seriously need to hear everyone's thoughts on this production #please feel free to reblog with your thoughts!!#i have only seen like the one other post about it #I think it deserves sm love!!#Bowtie Productions Whizzer is so so important to me guys #he's the best i love him so much #Falsettos #march of the falsettos #falsettoland #musical theater

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am-i-the-asshole-official · 1 year ago

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AITA for being condescending towards an asexual kid in GSA?

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Long post so buckle up.

I (17, they/it/he) am one of three co-leaders of my school’s GSA, along with R (18, she/her) and N (17, he/him). All three of us are openly bi, and I’m also openly trans and (most importantly) very loudly aromantic. We’re all in 12th grade now but we were leaders last year (in 11th grade) too. The school/GSA is small enough that all four grades (9–12, so around 13–18 years old) are in the same GSA, there’s no separate upper grade and lower grade groups. We also have two advisors, both cis queer teachers; and some younger queer faculty members also join sometimes for formal events. We take turns running events during club time, such as fun crafts or watching music videos. Sometimes we also do educational stuff or documentaries, including having teachers come in to facilitate discussions.

I’ve been planning (since early December) to run a two part series of discussions about asexuality and aromanticism (separate discussions of each). I really just wanted to do one day about aromanticism, but R said that if I did that, people would derail it and just talk about asexuality anyways, which both N and our advisors also agreed made sense. So, it’s two days, and the asexuality one is first so that the aromanticism one can be closer to Aromantic Spectrum Awareness Week (ASAW).

There’s a girl in GSA, let’s call her A (16, she/her), who’s in 11th grade. She’s very socially awkward and if someone points out that she’s accidentally said something rude or offensive she’ll make a big deal out of not knowing and generally derail the conversation. Also, two years ago A made a ton of “jokes” about me and my little sibling (16MtF) being “secretly dating.” When I asked her (politely at first) to stop, she said she was just joking around, and kept doing it. I asked her again and also asked the theatre teacher and school counselor for help, and eventually she did stop. But A kept following me around and trying to be friends with me, and I was super uncomfortable to the point that I asked the school counselor to facilitate a conversation between A and I so that I could ask her to fucking stop. It somewhat worked. Now she still keeps trying to start conversations with me in the hallways and such, but I just brush her off or ignore her.

The one place I can’t do that is during GSA. Since I’m a leader, I have to be civil to everyone and actually talk to people (R, N, and I set norms at the start of the year during our planning meetings). A is asexual but not aromantic, and today she showed up like 5 minutes into lunch (cafeteria lines are annoying) and loudly asked if she was late. We weren’t doing anything in GSA today, just chilling. At some point during the meeting I announced casually that next week we’d be discussing asexuality, and then the week after that we’d talk about aromanticism, which leads nicely into ASAW during February break. When I said this, A immediately said that she would be extra ace that week [during ASAW]. I was like, “during aromantic spectrum awareness week?!?!” in the same tone of that “during pride month?!?!” meme. She looked like someone had just given her an F on the most important test of the year and said she hadn’t known.

I also made a comment about how there’s way more openly aspec people at our school than at most schools, and N said that maybe the presence of role models is part of that (clear subtext: he was referring to me). I said pretty loudly (more people could hear) that it was kinda funny that I’m the “ace role model” when I’m literally not asexual. A looked super lost and confused at this, and I think she might’ve thought I was ace, even though I’m super open about not being ace, and have told her directly more than once.

Here’s where the potential assholery comes into play. There’s an ad for PrEP that was fairly common on the back covers of theatre playbills in the past year. The ad shows a Black man dressed in ripped leggings with fishnets, shiny knee-length heeled leather boots, and some sort of white leather harness, doing a bridge pose with one leg extended upwards so that the “r” in PrEP is resting on the sole of the boot. The ad has a bright red background and text that says “you cast of PrEP options is changing” along with a small QR code and website link. The pose is somewhat provocative, but not out of place on a playbill for an all-ages show.

During GSA, A was saying that she thought the ad was bad, because of the leather being “fetish gear” and “weird” (basically the same arguments people use to say that gay people shouldn’t be allowed in public). I told A that there’s nothing wrong with someone wearing leather, and she said that “it’s fetish gear and that’s disgusting and degenerate and just bad advertising!”

I explained calmly, like I would to a child (although I probably wouldn’t talk about this topic with a child), that PrEP is a medicine that people take if they anticipate having sex with someone who’s HIV-positive, so it’s okay that the ad is somewhat suggestive. She seemed to accept that, but still said that the leather was weird, and the ad should’ve shown “a diverse group of people getting pills at a pharmacy” instead, because “fetish gear” was too much.

I asked if she thought that all leather clothing was inherently fetishistic, to which A said yes, and then I asked, “do you know that people can’t just choose fetishes?”

She hadn��t known that, but she still said the ad was too sexual. I pointed out that it was a fairly well-targeted advertisement, using theatre references, but maybe A was not part of the target demographic. I also said that sometimes outfits are just hot without there needing to be any fetishes involved, which she didn’t refute, and that even if it was a fetish, that wouldn’t make it inherently “bad” or “degenerate” at all.

A said that she still didn’t like it, and I told her that she was entitled to have whatever feelings she wanted to have, but that doesn’t mean the advertisement itself is a problem.

Another person (17, he/him) called out “[OP], what do you think about kink at pride?” in a sort of nonchalant way, so I walked over while saying “i’m pro–kink at pride.” The conversation eventually moved in other directions, and then club ended and we had to go to our next classes.

TL;DR: given my position of power and responsibility as a GSA leader, AITA for being kinda condescending towards an ace person who’s 2 years younger than me because she was being very sex-negative about an ad for PrEP?

What are these acronyms?

#aita #am i the asshole

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