#also starved of any kind of functional relationships

[timdrake-yumm]

Tim’s the type of person that considers a joint patrol a date and Jason’s the type of person who would be horrified by this thought

[vaultdwellerbarbie]

(Bet We'd Have Really Good) Bed Chem

cooper adams/f!reader (4.2k wc)

summary it probably wasn't good that your first instinct upon hearing that your hot neighbor got a divorce was immediately seducing him, but what's the worst thing that could happen?

content warnings eventual smut (not in this part sry), pining, age difference (reader is between 23-25), lowkey oblivious reader, kinda soft cooper but he's not in murder mode here <3 he's nice when he's not in murder mode we all know this <3 , basically au in which rachel actually believed he was cheating

important notes this was going to be one part but then i was like no... more parts. why i did this when i start classes tomorrow?? i don't know. also important to note that it's kinda ambiguous if cooper is actually like seriously interested in a relationship or if he just needs to have a functioning normal civilian life for his brain to be happy, but that'll become clear eventually. this isn't going to be super long! probably like five parts max.

There were a million things that you would rather be doing than agreeing to accompany your younger sister to meet up with her friend Riley for the entirety of one of your seven days home for the fall holiday. Getting your master’s degree with wholly frustrating and difficult, and perhaps it would have been less of a bother had you not gotten home the night before after riding a delayed Amtrak for 13 hours because you were faced with the decision of taking a long train and having groceries, or taking a flight and coming home starving. 

Realistically, you probably had a way out of going. Certainly, one of your parents could have indulged an argument that was brewing in your head. You were an adult, you surely didn’t have to do something that you didn’t want to do. You had also just finished an exam, and you were certain that they could empathize since you were just doing what was best for yourself and seeking higher education. You’d also been frugal, and you perhaps would have been less tired if you were more financially irresponsible. Plus, and here was the kicker, you found out on the phone that Riley’s father was going to be there to watch her as well; your sister was going to need someone to take her home, but Cooper Adams had always been very kind in your experience, so you didn’t think that he would be opposed to driving your sister home if you raised that idea with him or your parents. In fact, you were certain he would be understanding of your issue. 

Yet, it was the fact that he was going to be there that convinced you to not raise a single argument that you had thought of during the early morning when you were finally speaking about it with your parents. 

From the moment you met him, you’d been incredibly attracted to Cooper. Some part of you was remiss that you only knew him for a few months before you went to college, but your parents had moved while your younger sister was still young enough that she could make new friends and you had just graduated, so you wouldn’t have to make new friends during your senior year of high school. It was thoughtful, but it also meant that the man who your father worked with at the firehouse who had told him about the house on his street becoming available was someone who you only saw on holiday’s. 

However, a larger part of you was grateful that things had happened like they did. You were eighteen when you met Cooper, and had you been any younger you were certain that your attraction toward him would have been incredibly inappropriate. More inappropriate than it already was given the fact that he was a happily married man. Or, you were pretty sure that he was a happily married man at the time.

Last summer had been a big let down in terms of coming home for the off-season and seeing Cooper. You’d lined up a paid summer internship in downtown Philadelphia, so you were often not home during the day. Cooper himself was typically not home during the day, since he worked at the firehouse. But, sometimes he worked late into the night - he’d been working late into the night more that summer from what you’d heard. At some point, about a week before you returned to campus, your father had grown incredibly worried for his friend since he seemingly ‘hadn’t been himself’ as of recent. He had been picking up a lot of hours, and seemed to just not want to be at his house. 

The week you returned to campus you found out through your father that Cooper was apparently going through a divorce and didn’t want to share that information with anyone. Around that time, his wife moved out and throughout the early fall period it seemed like he wasn’t working quite as much because he was dealing with custody and divorce proceedings. Of course, you weren’t there for any of that. All you knew was that your family had been watching their children a lot more than they ever did before, and that Cooper had been having them over for dinner more than he ever did before. At the very least, he seemed to be doing better now that Rachel was out of the house and people actually knew what was going on in his life. 

It wasn’t the most moralistic thing to be almost relieved that the man was divorced. But this was going to be the first time that you saw him since the divorce, and you’d always just overall considered him off-limits. He was considerably older than you, he already had two children, and most importantly: he was married. The first two statements were still very much true, but now that he was divorced, those statements didn’t bother you all that much. It wasn’t like you were a teenager, you weren’t even freshly twenty anymore. There was no real reason why you couldn’t try to pursue him other than not wanting to make him uncomfortable. But that was the thing, wasn’t it? It was about his comfort, because that man wouldn’t flirt with you at any point before this. If it was some situation of a creepy older man hitting on a younger woman, that wouldn’t be the case. You were the one interested in him, and he was no longer in a relationship that would make it morally reprehensible for you to do something about that. 

That’s not to say that you intend on coming right out of the gate swinging. Afterall, you’re only going to be home for a week before you have to go back to campus. Theoretically, you could continue your efforts when you come home for a longer period in December, but some part of you feels predominantly interested in trying to get this done now. 

Cooper, of course, had called to let you know that he was fine with everyone taking his car rather than riding separately. Truthfully, that should have been enough for you to rationalize that you really weren’t needed at all on this expedition, but you were both distracted by the fact that he had called and interested in going solely so you can see him. But, additionally, since you really didn’t get to spend much time with your sister. The age difference did make it difficult for you to see her very often, and you were a lot less tired than you were the night before since you had made sure to go to sleep early since you knew that you were going to be busy throughout the day. 

So, you ended up walking with your sister to meet him at his car. The younger girls occupied the back seat, while you took the passenger seat with Cooper. It dawned on you that this was - to the best of your recollection - the first time that you had been in a car with Cooper.

“We’re headed to the mall, right ladies?” Cooper confirmed with the girls in the back, who broke their conversation to inform him that his memory didn’t fail him. As he pulled out of the driveway, you couldn’t help but wonder what the actual plan was. Were you both going to follow the younger girls around? Probably not, that’s not usually how this went. What was more likely was that you were going to end up sending them on their way with some cash (cash that your parents had already given your sister this morning), and you were going to presume that you were going to be alone with Cooper for at least a little while.

Realistically, you probably should have realized that before you agreed to this. But there was no backing out of it now, and you really didn’t want to. 

You were quiet for most of the car ride, Cooper was engaged in speaking with the girls in the back and you were engaged in checking your emails for the last time before you were (hopefully) able to stop worrying so much about that for the rest of the week. Of course you interjected here and there, but you were happy to just listen to the girls talk - you remembered being their age, and you typically preferred not having people interrupt you while you were talking to your friends too much if you could help it. 

Once you arrived, the girls were sent on their way with the agreement that they would meet yourself and Cooper every hour just so you were both sure that they were okay. Cooper seemed to be incredibly attentive to making sure that the girls were safe, but you couldn’t blame him. There were plenty of dangerous things going on in this city, there was no reason for him to not be concerned about the wellbeing of the young girls. Especially considering everything that he was going through, assuredly he didn’t want to have to add anything to his plate when he had already gone through as much as he had. 

“I don’t think I got to ask you how getting your master’s degree has been.” Cooper stated, giving you his full attention for the first time since you had gotten into the car. 

“It’s harder than undergrad, so far.” You admitted, walking alongside him in an aimless direction. You weren’t really sure where you were going, but it also probably didn’t matter all that much. “Definitely sucks being a little bit further away than I was before, but it’s okay. So long as I don’t think about how long I’m going to be stuck on a train at the end of the week.”

“Your dad mentioned that you took the train, how long was that?”

“Thirteen hours, but it was delayed so if you count my time in the station it was about fifteen.” You replied, internally cringing at the memory of it. You were lucky that you had your phone and computer, you weren’t sure what people did if they were stuck for that long before - even reading didn’t seem viable, an especially dense book in a somewhat loud place wasn’t possible, and any other book would definitely be finished before that time was over. But, you really didn’t need to think about that. “I was sorry that we didn’t have enough time to catch up last summer, it seems like there was always something going on or I wasn’t home when you were.” 

“That was more my fault than yours.” He admitted, but seemingly didn’t want to dip into the subject. “But we have plenty of time to catch up now, Riley… she’d be at this all day if we let her. I’m sure you don’t want to stay out too late though.”

“Oh, I don’t mind. Won’t see you or them for another month after this week and after that… you know.” You would be home for a few days in the spring, outside of that you wouldn’t see anyone back home for quite some time and at that point you were going to self-isolate for a week in recovery from finals. But he knew that, you were always the same when you returned home after taking finals. Cooper himself had once made the mistake of trying to break your isolation when coming over to grab your sister since she was spending time with Riley, needless to say, he didn’t make that mistake again. 

“I was surprised you came along, I assumed that you would want some rest after traveling for so long yesterday.” 

“Yeah, well-”

“Guess you really wanted to catch up with me.” His tone was teasing, but you still couldn’t figure out if that teasing was anything more than platonic. You believed that it was platonic, Cooper surely wouldn’t cross that line without you doing something first. In theory, trying to pursue him seemed easy. In practice, you were having a difficult time figuring out where to begin. 

“Would it be sad if I said that’s like… ninety percent of the reason why I came?” 

“Not sad at all, just makes me feel special. What’s the ten percent though? I need to figure out who my competition is.” Still, a joke, but it was also a dad joke. Cooper had always been very good at dad jokes, you knew that much about him. 

“I don’t think it’s fair for you to try to compete with my twelve year old sister, there’s probably some inequity there.” 

“I wouldn’t be so sure about that, you haven’t seen her this year on the soccer field. That girl is a fighter.” 

“Oh, I’ve seen her, trust me.” It was just about every week that you were sent long videos of your sister on the field, but, you were always remiss to not be able to see her in person. “I do miss home, you know, I’m glad that I’m away and getting my education but it’s just… hard. Not seeing my younger sister grow up, I guess.”

“I get that, being away from home so much last summer was a lot for me. I was still seeing Riley but not as much as I would have liked.” 

“If you don’t want to answer, that’s totally fine, but… I have been curious about how things have been going. I’ve heard bits and pieces from my father, but it’s not like he’s spilling his guts about your personal life.” 

Cooper finally stopped aimlessly walking to sit down at a nearby table, which you joined him at. You had to sit somewhat close to him since it was loud in the food court - both with the other people chatting and the preemptive Christmas music that you were sure had started playing on November 1st - but you tried not to let that get to your head as you waited for him to respond to your question.

“It’s been difficult.” He replied, seemingly looking for the right words to explain what was actually going on, but not wanting to dump too much on another person. “Rachel hasn’t been very active with the kids but seems to want sole custody of them, or, at least she doesn’t want them to live in the same house as me.” 

“That’s really awful, Cooper, I’m sorry.” 

“Thank you, I- honestly, I’m not sure exactly what it is that she wants from this.” 

It would be worth noting that Cooper, not even once, has told anyone why the divorce was happening to begin with. He mentioned irreconcilable differences, but not what those differences actually were. 

“She thought that I was having an affair, but I wasn’t having an affair.” It was very much true that he was not having an affair, it’s just, arguably, not as bad as what he was actually doing. But, Cooper wasn’t going to express that… obviously. 

“Why would she think that?”

“Because I was out late, she said. Because I was coming home with jewelry, but I thought that I was just being nice.” 

“If it counts for anything, I don’t think you’re the kind of guy to have an affair.” Some part of you was nervous to say even that, especially so when he finally met your eyes after having been looking at his hands. You’d always been taken by his eyes. From time to time, he zoned off and seemed to be deep in thought about… something. But when he actually looked at you, when you held eyes with him - and when he looked at his daughter - there was always a softness in his eyes that made you feel incredibly comfortable around him. 

“You know,” Cooper started, finally letting some of the serious tone in his voice slip away from him as he addressed you. “If you were so curious about what was going on with me, you could have called.” 

“I wasn’t sure if we had that type of relationship.” You admitted, though it had crossed your mind to call him on more than one occasion. Though you were, obviously, incredibly attracted to him and jut wanted to hear his voice, you were also curious about how things were going with him after hearing about the divorce. Sure, it had a lot to do with wanting to seduce him, but you also understood that Cooper was a human being who was going through something incredibly serious and life-altering. “But I did want to reach out, make sure that everything was okay. Not like I could’ve offered much help from so far away, but… something, I guess.” 

“You should always feel free to call.” Cooper’s tone was warm and inviting and you weren’t sure if it gave you too much confidence or just the right amount of it. At some point, you were going to have to figure out if you actually had the guts to go through with trying to seduce him or if you were just going to end up going back to your dorm with a new invitation to call him whenever you wanted and a curiosity about how you could possibly twist that to work in your favor. 

But, there was also the key driving force behind your need to try to seduce him quickly. It wasn’t because you believed that he was looking for a rebound, that type of thing was difficult when he already had children. It was because you knew that he was incredibly attractive, and tall, and that people liked speaking to him. There was a reason that, when the station did firemen calendars and other sorts of fundraising efforts he was front and center. Everyone knew that he was good looking, and everyone knew that men who looked like him and were as easy to talk to as him were difficult to come by. The idea of coming back at some point and having missed your chance lit a fire in your belly to do this as quickly as possible - if possible - but you just weren’t sure how to approach it. Anything too far could be detrimental since he was friends with your family, but you weren’t sure just how subtle you could be without your efforts entirely flying under the radar and not really being considered efforts at all. 

“Is this the only day I’m going to see you this week?” Your voice was as casual as you could muster, but you weren’t sure the question that you had asked was particularly casual. It was curiosity, but it was evidently more than that. Even though Cooper probably took notice of that, he didn’t do anything to deter you from your line of questioning.

“Actually, no. I thought your parents would have said something, but your dad felt so bad about me spending the holiday alone with the kids that he invited me over.” His response was surprising, you had not yet been informed that Cooper and his children were going to be spending Thanksgiving with your family. It made sense, though. From what you remembered, he usually joined Christmas and Thanksgiving with his parents because it was easier for them, but you weren’t sure if that was going to change since he no longer needed to worry about Rachel’s family. 

“But outside of that…”

“Two days isn’t enough?” If his tone wasn’t light, you might have been embarrassed by him catching onto the slight clinginess. But, he continued speaking before you could get in your head about something like that. “You can come to my house, if you want to. Not tomorrow, the day after tomorrow.” 

“That’s… Tuesday?”

“Right.”

“Okay, Tuesday’s fine. Wednesday I’m… doubly busy now.” You always took part in cooking and baking for the holiday’s, but you weren’t actually anticipating cooking for more people than usual this year. There was no protests in your head, though. You wanted to spend time with Cooper, and you were surprised that he was inviting you to spend more time with him without your family around. This was all under the guise of co-babysitting, but that was something else entirely. Well, unless he was inviting you to co-babysit with him again. But what reason could there be, truly, for Cooper to invite you over like you were casual friends? He’d never done it before, but- wait- were you missing some signs? 

“Great! It’ll just be us, though. Grandparent day on Wednesday since the kids are out of school. If that’s alright, of course.” 

Finally, after perhaps not even beginning to think that there may be signs for the entire time that you were sitting down, you could see in his eyes that the warmth had somewhat changed. There was something different behind his eyes from what you had ever seen from him before, but it wasn’t that dark look that he got when he zoned out. It was something new, something that made you certain that you had definitely been missing the signs that there was something going on here. 

“Cooper, are you flirting with me?”

“Depends on if it’s working.” 

Just as he opened his mouth again to seemingly go on some sort of rant about not wanting to make you uncomfortable, you spoke again. “I kind of agreed to come here today because I wanted to flirt with you, so it’s definitely working.” 

“Huh. And here I thought I was the clever one.” 

At some point, you had to do something about how erratically your heart was beating. Instead, you let him take your hand for a moment. This definitely wasn’t exactly how you anticipated your afternoon going, but you weren’t complaining whatsoever. Still, there was one particular thing on your mind. Spending the day with him Tuesday, alone in his house, definitely the last time that you’ll be alone with him before you go back to your campus for another month before you can actually see him in person. You, afterall, had needs. 

“Can I ask you something?”

“Shoot.” You’d expected a dad joke, but you were fine with the semi-distracted expression in his eyes.

“Can you kiss me?”

“Oh, sure.” 

The words alone weren’t the enthusiastic response that you were hoping for, but the feeling of his mouth against yours mere seconds after you said anything was definitely what you were hoping for. Cooper didn’t mind as you brought a hand to the back of his head, your fingers tangled in his hair and holding him close. He, in fact, deepened the kiss in response. But, he did pull back. He had to, you were in public - it was indecent to make out in public, plus there were two young girls that you knew you were going to be meeting up with soon enough who were definitely prone to saying things that they maybe shouldn’t be saying to people who maybe shouldn’t hear them. 

While you played with his fingers, he finally took the opportunity to stand back up. 

“How about lunch?” 

The day went by quicker than you would have wanted it to. You spent it with Cooper, keeping up normal appearances when you were in front of the girls but keeping your hand on him somehow when you were alone again. It was important, for now, that nobody knew that something was going on - even if neither of you were actually sure what that thing was - since you were certain that it was going to make things incredibly awkward for you both back home. In close communities like the one you lived in, people were prone to talk. Not only were people prone to talk, but your family alone might feel some type of way. But, that didn’t mean that you couldn’t enjoy it even if some part of it absolutely didn’t feel real. 

When you did part with him later in the evening, he was sure to make sure that nobody could see what you were doing when he kissed you again before you left. And, he was sure to remind you that, in fact, your theories about being alone with him in his house was definitely going to not be so… innocent. Which, in turn, kept you twisting and turning in bed for the entirety of the night. 

At some point, you would need to confront the fact that you had no interest in being a rebound, if that was what was happening, and that your father was definitely going to be at least a little bit offended to find out that you were sleeping with his friend behind his back. And Cooper, of course, was going to be a lot better at keeping his little secret from you than he was with Rachel - who, admittedly, still seemed to be under the impression that he was cheating on her and not that he was secretly the killer that everyone was on the hunt for. That point was not a seven-day-vacation, but it would certainly come at some point. 

For the time being, you were happy to sneak around with someone. It gave you some type of rush, especially since you’d been attracted to him for so many years at this point. Cooper, too, was happy to be able to have his secondary, happier, life which was so rudely disrupted by the prior divorce; even if it was in a different capacity.

[rosaline-black]

I would love a blurb where hotch has a girlfriend whose love language is physical touch and gift giving 😍🫶

Went for just physical touch today because I believe wholeheartedly in touch-starved!Hotch

this is short but incredibly fluffy. Like almost grossly fluffy tbh

Also I’m currently accepting hotch blurb requests so feel free to send them in!!!

Hotch would consider himself good at his job. He noticed the smallest details about his team just because he was very intuitive. He knew Prentiss was a nail biter after a week of knowing her, he knew Reid would blink more as his anxiety increased and he knew that you showed love by small touches.

3 minutes and 42 seconds. 3 minutes and 42 seconds of torture as he tried to pretend like his heart wasn’t imploding at the mere sensation of your hand planting itself on the sleeve of his blazer.

When you first started dating Hotch was apprehensive. You’d known each other for years, you’d known him when he was married, when he was divorced. He’d known you through break ups and relationships you swore were the real thing. But as time ticked on, and he noticed more about you, more of your declared touches. The more he realised as cliche as it was, that the ‘real thing’ was actually in front him the entire time.

So right now, as you both sat side by side on the jet, your cursed hand resting on his arm, did Hotch relish in the feeling for the first time. He appreciated everything you did. The careless smiles and crude snorts that followed laughter you’d been bellowing after one of Prentiss’s sarcastic quips. Even the things you’d sworn you hated. He adored all of it. All of you. Especially the touches.

It took him a while to get used to it. Before you there was Haley, and well before she passed and even before the divorce papers had been signed he had been separated from her in physical form.

So yeah, it was safe to say Aaron hotchner found it tricky to function when you so openly loved him. Hugged him in front of everyone just because you wanted to, put your hand on his shoulder when you were standing behind him in briefings just because you wanted him to know you were right there. He’d never felt so wanted.

“What’re ya thinking about? I know it was a tough case but we caught him Hotch… he won’t be able to do that-“

“You… I was thinking of you…”

Your eyes widened like the rest of the teams did. It was rare to see Hotch express any kind of emotion during work but ever since the two of you had finally gotten together after literal years of pining, well they had all noticed the subtle changes in their unit chiefs earnestness.

No one was brave enough to interrupt the extremely romantic (and slightly nausea inducing according to Prentiss) moment except one Derek Morgan who had a sarcastic quip just waiting to be spoken.

“Woah there Bossman… next you’ll be getting down on one knee at the plane runway…”

Funnily enough Hotch couldn’t find it in himself to be angry. Not when he could practically see your cheeks radiating heat at the mention of marriage. Not when you’d now been touching him for 5 Whole minutes.

[enbyleighlines]

TW for mentions of disordered eating

I imagine that Soren has a rather complicated relationship with food. I mean,

He nearly starved to death as a child, after eating all the food in the old mage’s house.

While living in the streets, it’s likely that Soren had to scrounge for scraps, meaning that he really could not afford to be picky.

His first memory with Ike involved Ike giving him a sandwich, which was also the first time Soren can recall anyone showing him any kindness.

Oscar mentions in his support with Ike that Soren “doesn’t like anything” in regards to food, and

In Engage, Soren mentions that there’s no particular food he likes, nor any particular food he dislikes, and also that it’s unwise to be picky during a war.

All of this suggests, to me, that Soren’s relationship to the food is (at least on the surface) very utilitarian. He refuses to be picky, and while he will eat anything, he does not exhibit any sense of enjoyment while eating (at least, not that Oscar can see). To him, food serves the singular function of keeping him alive.

Yet I cannot help but wonder if there is something more than that.

This is all conjecture, but I think it would be fitting if Soren actually enjoyed food quite a lot, nearly enough to compete with his foodie boyfriend. Only, Soren has some hang-up’s in regard to expressing this.

I imagine that, once he first got access to regular meals, it took him a while to get out of the habits he learned while he lived on the streets. For example, not eating food as quickly as physically possible.

He probably had to be taught to slow down, to not eat too much in one sitting.

So it’s my headcanon that, while Soren does enjoy eating nearly as much as Ike, he is also hyper-conscious of the way he eats. He might force himself to eat slowly, to take small portions, for fear of being seen as too greedy. And so eating in front of others can be stressful, because he’s so focused on what others might perceive.

Which would explain why Oscar thinks that Soren doesn’t actually enjoy eating.

But, to end on a fluffier note, I like to think that, when it’s just Soren and Ike eating together, Soren feels comfortable enough not to worry about how fast or how much he eats. After all, Soren really can’t compare to Ike, whose stomach might as well be a bottomless pit.

Additionally, Ike probably catches on that Soren eats more when it’s just the two of them, so when he notices Soren taking small portions, he makes sure to take extra for himself, and subtly sneak bits of food onto Soren’s plate when he thinks no one is looking. Of course, Ike really isn’t all that subtle, so people do notice. And Soren notices them noticing.

It’s a little embarrassing, maybe. Soren’s really not a fan of PDA. But he can’t find it in his heart to complain.

Every time Ike shares his food with Soren, Soren is reminded of their first meeting, of the kind-hearted boy who saved him from the brink of death and, more importantly, who treated him like a person.

[c0rpseductor]

random fic thots. and also fatphobia thots. and sexuality thots. Lots of topics

morningstar is just kind of about a lot of stuff that’s important to me bc it’s lestat appeal fic, and one of the things i’m planning to unpack in it is just a bunch of shit about fatphobia and desirability and eating disorders and so on and so forth

so pfeil has disordered eating habits that mostly revolve around restriction, but is still fat. he’s often on that ‘one meal a day just enough food to kinda shakily maintain basic functioning’ grind. it’s not entirely about his body image, but of course like, he’s aware he’s fat and is self-conscious about it, so it’s still relevant.

obviously this is why we need chubby chaser emet. in this narrative. emet likes fat guys. he specifically finds pfeil’s fatness attractive. it also majorly concerns him that pfeil is like…quietly and almost incidentally starving himself in the way a lot of people with eating disorders do when they’re not actively restricting. And he and pfeil just kind of naturally settle into a fairly low stakes D/s thing.

what i’m saying is i think “Please eat and don’t die” may end up getting tied up in their sexual dynamic, and between that and the general focus i feel like i’ve given to both the Idea Of Fatness and what characters are eating day to day, i’ve been kind of worried that if and when things head there readers are going to be like “what is this weird gross feeder shit all about!! Fatphobic! fetishizing! blocked and reported!”

it’s mostly a dumb concern, i think it’d help if i got some sleep lol, but like, idk. what i really want to write here is a story about a very traumatized guy coming to reclaim the idea of having a body and a sexuality and part of that is necessarily going to have to deal with the fact that he’s fat and does not eat in order to punish himself. and it like. just fucking frustrates me that i feel like if you try to touch on that in a sexual context At All then suddenly everything you do and say is suspect and fetishistic and weird and evil and fatphobic. even if you’re fat. Please make that make sense.

like. idk. food is such an important part of daily life bc without it you fucking die. eating together is a very basic human social activity. im very of the dungeon meshi mindset with this. food is a major arbiter of daily rhythms and social bonds and the way characters interact with it says a lot about them and their relationships to themselves and others and denying oneself pleasure related to eating is like. psychologically bad for you. sharing food with other people is a gesture of intimacy and affection and care. you don’t break bread with bitches you hate. Do you see where i’m going with this.

i’ve thought about just not including that dynamic bc of the way people view fat people having basically Any sexuality that acknowledges being fat as Weird Predatory Degen Fetish Shit unless you’re self-flagellating about your weight, but like. I don’t think i want to do that actually. i think maybe i am saying something important about inhabiting one’s own body and also about loving a person who is very ill.

idk. i feel silly making a long defensive post about stuff i haven’t even written yet. i think it’s more kind of like, i just wanna be able to kind of sift through my thoughts, and i wanna be able to express frustration about The Whole Thing. i think it’s kind of fucked up that i don’t feel at all nervous talking about wanting hot guys to put cigarettes out on me or hit me in the face or whatever bc that’s typical kink but the minute im like “i am fat and recovering from atypical anorexia and i would like a hot guy to think it’s hot that i’m fat and encourage me to eat because he thinks that’s hot and not care if i gained weight recovering” it’s the scariest thing in the world bc there is a significant number of people out there that think this is inherently dehumanizing of fat people. and will be offended. or just disgusted. im not even into weight gain i literally just want to be encouraged not to starve myself But Sexy. idk bro it’s fucking nuts that people take issue with this

[gearbox-doll]

Hi hello

Take this as a free card to talk ab litterly any fic you'd like

Maybe the Alex/Jay vampire thing? Idk if you're making a Fic outta it but I'm still fixated on thst lol

HONESTLY FAIR I have so many vamp!Alex thoughts

Jay is of course his favorite! He ends up feeding on most of the cast at some point but Jay is the one he focuses on. He also isn't nearly as gentle/caring about it with the others.

Jay is very into it.

I don't think I've talked about this with you but I have a very particular view of these two? In my head they're childhood friends and have been incredibly codependent for many years. Like, told each other they would marry the other when they were old enough and Took It Seriously. All of Alex's middle school/highschool girlfriends hated Jay because Alex payed so much more attention to him and would neglect their relationship just to hang out with Jay and stuff. It's obvious very early on to anyone who dated Alex during this period of time that he and Jay are in love. Alex is straight up having an emotional affair with Jay and neither of them notice it because this is just how they've always been, they're a package deal, they mean more to each other than anyone else and who cares if they're unhealthily entrenched in each other's lives, anyone who tries to get with one of them should already know that the other comes first so in their opinions Alex's girlfriends are all in the wrong. They should have known Alex would prioritize Jay, it's what he's always done.

They're also incredibly weird4weird. Like. Carrying anime body pillows to school, doing blood pacts, fighting anyone who tries to get close to the other, kind of thing. They were two outcasts who found kinship in each other and took it to the natural weird kid extreme. They're both fascinated with the paranormal and ostensibly run some kind of club about various monsters and cryptids, but anyone who tries to join gets put through a hazing ritual that scares almost everyone off. (The only person to get through it is Brian, who joins in his second year (Jay's last year) and is the only reason that come college, they're at all functional socially. He's basically their filter who makes sure they can function enough to not completely isolate themselves.)

All this to say, Jay figures out Alex is a vampire and is so fucking into it. Like yeah sure he's fucking terrified of getting bit, but he's not going to pass up the chance to be the one to feed a vampire! And anyway, it's Alex, his best friend, and Alex is starving and he can't just let him suffer. He's also definitely a bit of a masochist and knows this about himself so getting bit by Alex is like heaven for him.

Alex feels really guilty about it at first, which is like 90% of the reason Jay starts babying him through it the first time (the other 10% is The Caretaker Thing, which is something I headcanon Jay has, he just seems like the type of person who needs to take care of someone. He needs someone to depend on him so he can help them because otherwise he feels like he has no purpose). Alex is kind of surprised by how into it he is, like, he didn't expect to enjoy having Jay coo at him like he's something simple that doesn't know any better and should be treated gently because of that, but he does! He doesn't really know how to feel about it but as long as Jay keeps petting his hair and holding him so gently and murmuring to him about how he shouldn't be expected to control himself when feeding because it's just his instincts and no one can blame him for that, like how you wouldn't blame an animal for just doing what they know, he supposes he'll be alright.

... Yeah, Jay picked up on the purring and immediately started treating him like a pet. Like yeah Alex still has autonomy and whatever but when it comes to being a vampire and especially feeding time and stuff, he's Jay's little pet vamp. He's tame, but only for Jay.

Jay is just riding the high of Vampire Boyfriend Who Treats Him Like He's Special. Jay's out here living his "mc of a vampire romance novel" fantasies and he is thriving. Sure no one else knows Alex is a vampire, at least until college and even then only their other friends, but still. He's a special little boy who's irresistible to a big bad vampire and managed to tame said vampire because of it. He's living his best life.

I could probably keep going but I've temporarily run out of words so have this.

Oh also, @teddy-blegh because. Other jaylex moot.

[sunshine-for-serotonin]

yandere mark heathcliff headcannons please?

Yay!! A Mandela ask! Thank for requesting my darling, I hope these meet your expectations!

I see Mark as being more of an obsessive yandere than a possessive yandere, that doesn’t mean he isn’t going to kidnap or manipulate you into staying with him, he’s just very gentle about it all.

Any affection you give Mark of your own free will makes him cease to function, not because you did something wrong, but a large part of me sees Mark as touch starved and to finally get that validation from you of all people makes him think he’s died and went to heaven.

just because he’s gentle with you though doesn’t mean he is defenseless against anything he perceives as a threat to you, him, or your relationship. He has a gun for a reason, darling.

In truth, I don’t think he even would have ever gone to Cesar’s house, because Mark would have been so paranoid about leaving you for anything. Instead of the two of you succumbing to the hands of the alternate, you instead spend your time trapped in his suffocating embrace while Mark begs you not to leave him in between sobs and apologies.

as mentioned above, Mr. Heathcliff over here loves physical affection of any kind, and yet he still manages to be overly shy about both giving and receiving even simple things like you cupping his face. Mark’s favorite position to cuddle in is to lay on top of you with his head tucked under your chin, because he’s baby and also because I said so.

Kissing Mark is an experience for sure, and it’s also never a casual thing. If you just give him a quick peck and then try to pull away, Marks turning red and freezing before chasing after you for a real kiss as well as a long cuddle session where he rants about how much he loves you, how he would do anything (even kill) for you, and how he would do anything you asked!!! (except let you go)

your first kiss after he kidnapped you, he looked at your lips constantly and when you asked him what his deal was, Mark turned the brightest shade of red you’d ever seen. You’re also pretty sure you heard him murmur “please, want a kiss” under his breathe, but to this day you still aren’t sure. Mark had slowly crept towards your standing form and encased you in an iron grip as you moved to try to evade him, and held you nearly impossibly close to him. His lips went to your ear and you could hear him whisper “please love me , please” as tears swam in his eyes.

Taking pity on your captor you tried to pull Mark off of you so you could see his face, but the poor man only held you tighter as sobs racked his body and leaked audibly into his voice. Gently gripping his hair and pulling lightly, you told Mark to look at you and you could see what a mess he was as he trembled pathetically in your vision.

Gently cupping his face, you guided his lips to yours. Marks body immediately went taut before practically melting into the kiss, you’re pretty sure you even heard him whimper slightly but that’s neither here nor there. After a few seconds pass, you try to pull away but Mark is quick to object, the soft chanting of “no, no, please, please kiss me more, please don’t stop” is quick to sway you to rest your lips on his once more as Mark all but melts into a puddle of love, obsession, and happiness.

Mark would do absolutely anything for you besides let you go, darling. It seems you have quite the worshipper on your hands, just kiss him and give him affection and Mark will die a happy man.

[theviceadmiralswife]

the Vice Admirals And Their Sick partners part 1

Salute recruits and soldiers on this swelling Sunday ⚓🌊⚓🌊⚓🌊⚓🌊⚓🌊⚓🌊⚓

I apologise for the rather meger posts toddler and myself were sick.... Doberman gladly is back out at sea , he says hunting pirates is a walk in the park compared to having a sick family.... 🤪😭🤣

That brings up the question how do the vice admirals handle their sick partners and here are the answers. Let's start with the buster call 5

Onigumo, Yamakaji,  Strawberry,  Momonga and Doberman. 

● ONIGUMO 

•your audacity of getting sick...is hard to swallow for him •Well its Onigumo don't expect him to cut you any slack,  he wants you to function and do your duties regarding the household •on the flip side he will sleep on the couch or his battle ship if your sick, he doesn't want to catch your cold. • calls for a doctor to do a house visitation and pumps you full of meds you need to get better asap •He is also very much avoiding giving you attention or fulfill any needs. Want him to bring you a tea forget make it yourself. •It take years of being in relationship with Onigumo before he gets the idea about caring for you in this way much of it is because he can't stand seeing you being pummeled by a cold or flu instead of his sadistic punishments. • so if he eventually comes around you find he prepared everything you need in a crate with a note ordering you to stay in bed till your better • after your cold/ flu has disappeared you better deep clean the bedroom and change the bedding  and put on some pleasing hot lingerie cause Onigumo had to wait so long to have his way with you • you will end up after.that night with another fever a fever of lust

● YAMAKAJI 

•Yamakaji is the polar opposite to Onigumo he is uber caring, whatever you need you get it. •first he stops smoking his cigars in the house, he considers it bad manners when your sick •Yamakaji takes over the household and cooking, he serves you everything you need or desire, broth, tea, fruit,  salad, medication , he makes sure everything is at your bedside •Yamakaji will look after you and rub your chest and back with vices vapo, burn diffusers with menthol and lavender to make sure you sleep sound •checks on your temperature regularly  • will go with you to the doctor even if its only a small head cold  •he makes an excellent cook, uses his mothers recipes to get you better •he doesn't shy away from giving you foot rubs either he doesn't mind getting your cold/flu  •after you've recovered its Yamakaji turn to be repaid for his excellent attentiveness, you love to spoil him after this long 7 days of you being sick Yamakaji is badly starved of your affection. He will make intimately love to you that night in many positions

●Strawberry 

•Strawberry is attentive to your needs when sick and gives you what you need to recover • and while he's attentive Strawberry asks you what you wish for he can stay or leave you he entirely goes after your wishes • if you desire personal space while sick.he will nod quietly give your feverish forehead a loving kiss and retreat to spend a few days on the couch •in case your needy and want him to stay and help you he does so, he cooks for and feeds you as well  • you be the first thing he checks on when coming home vigorously checking your fever if it goes down  • he smiles with every day you get better • as soon as your better a lot of intimacy is in order, sharing a nice romantic dinner that you cooked yourself for him to say thank you for his care or just combing that long beard treating it with beard oil, Strawberry will love you for that even more • eventually he ends up massaging your body and quietly but happily 

●Momonga

•oh Momonga he's the kind of man that with the slightest sneeze thinks you should stay in bed, even though you declare your fine •but your not fine and Momonga is as usual right you get sick 2 days later, he's having a built in vulnerability radar  • nonetheless your sick and apologetic but Momonga pats your head says its fine and takes care of you •all items needed are at your bedside, this man literally moves the kitchen into the bedroom so your independent as long as he's working • when he arrives home momonga turns into the most adorable male nurse,  • if you wish Momonga sleeps beside you in bed even when you're sick, he has to watch and to listen to every cough making sure you are OK •brings you to the doctor if you wish so, just like with Strawberry  this is your choice. Momonga trusts your judgement  •if you don't want him near you because you don't want him to catch your cold, Momonga sleeps in a chair right outside your bedroom, he watches over you like a hawk a lovestruck hawk • when you get better Momonga is relieved beyond words and the deep red blush as he sees you laid out in your bed in lingerie licking your fingers in a lewd way to seduce him

● Doberman 

•Doberman is a practical man and tuned into whats going on, he noticed immediately when I caught my cold/flu and predicted the moment it would break out •of course he gets medicine and stocks up the kitchen with tea, honey ect and he does so quietly  •once I was sick,  Doberman takes great care without any fuss, medicine and food like his home cooked chicken broth is scheduled throughout the day •he looks out that I sleep well and enough  •if he is at home he takes over the harder household tasks,  if he's working he hopes i can do the bare minimum, if not he cuts me some slack. He knows i get back on track. • rubs me with vicks vapo twice a day •Dobermans instincts are sharp as a tack and when he sees I'm not getting better as predicted he makes sure I see a doctor to get antibiotics • after the doctor Doberman becomes extra strict with bed rest •when my cold/ flu is gone he knows it as soon as he comes home the house clean and fresh smelling, it causes his lips to curl into a smile • of course after such a long period of being unable to relax my husband deserves a nice hot soak in the bath of course I join him for much needed intimate relaxation and hot water games where Doberman doesn't fail to fire some potent shots 🤣

[astroariska]

Hello! Hope this ask finds you in good health.

My NN is in Cancer in 3rd house and my SN isin Capricorn in 9th house (I also have my Moon and Venus in Capricorn in the 9th house).

Thank you for your time and energy. Have a nice day! 🤍

Capricorn SN signify the urge to control everything and make everything under your control. 9th house often being asociates by travel, higher education, religion and your relationship with gods, royals (kings, queens), luck and privilege.

I often found that 9H SN people always have that kind of privilege or luck that makes your life journey easily. Maybe it's your educational background or the support from your parents, family and/or any authority figure you have. Maybe it's the system in your living society (country) that helps you to have it better than other people. Or maybe it has to do with just feeling of lucky girl syndrome that make people tell you "you have it easy"

But 3H north node is not an easy north node. Even if it's not the grimmest, it has difficulty because 3H deals with adversity and our body as a temple of our soul. Cancer north node signify the need to be babied. The need to be taken care of, the urge to be vulnerable and cry it out, scream it out, put your whole anger into it and sometimes fuck all of it and just kick it. But the whole problem is 3H is also a connection house. It's connect the soul with the body, the body with the environment, the environment with the neighbourhood, the heart with the brain, the intuition and the common sense, the thought (or heart whisper) with the verbal communication and so on. So Cancer 3H north node signify the problem with communicating, calculating and connecting with care and vulnerability.

This is the north node that thinks all the thought until they didn't realize they have starved themselves. The north node that has trouble with communicating their needs to be taken care of because they used to be all independent and superior. This is a placement that push the limit in their mind without understanding that their body has the capacity to fully function on a daily basis.

Sometimes, it feels overwhelmed when you deal with things that you want to escape. Sometimes, your control system has something to do with escapism as you mistake it as boundary, detachment or as smart decision. But all you need to do is actually to fully engage with everything happened inside you and sit a little by yourself. Identify and distinguish the feeling of your own breath, your own pulse and heartbeat and try to recognize what your body wants rather what your mind told you to do. If it's makes you feel like you want to cry, probably because it need to be cried out load. If it feels like a hunger to yourself, eat more. If it makes you feel stupid, perhaps stupidity is the hidden vulnerability to let you figure out more.

[h-worksrambles]

I was talking with some folks on Discord about Leo’s route, specifically the relationship between Chase and Kudzu. But during this discussion, someone asked: ‘how different would the story have been if Kudzu had been a love interest for Leo, rather than for Chase?’ And I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

Now for the record, I really like Chase and Kudzu’s relationship. For one thing, Kudzu is important in terms of contrasting the toxicity of Chase and Leo’s relationship with a more healthy supportive one. Kudzu goes out of his way to make sure Chase is safe, not out of obsession or because he needs Chase to function. But because of genuine compassion and selflessness. And they’re able to mutually support each other in the aftermath of the trauma they’ve undergone. He also serves to enhance Chase’s own character arc of being less passive and more decisive across the route. As Leo descends deeper into paranoia and jealousy as the hysteria takes its toll on his mind, he lashes out against Kudzu and kicks him out of the safety of Leo’s house. Chase making the choice to reject what Leo wants, and go and help Kudzu cements that he is steeping out of that noncommittal enabler role. Actually putting his foot down about what he wants by going to help Kudzu just as the raccoon has done for him. I know some people find their dynamic to be a little too ‘knight in shining armour’ adjacent. But Chase has honestly become more self actualised and so is in a better place to start a relationship on even ground.

But he’s also a foil to Leo in that they’ve both lost someone important to them in the past in a way that still affects their behaviour. Kudzu’s grief for his deceased boyfriend manifests in his aloofness and flashes of anxiety. While Leo is still struggling to get over Chase. But contrasting how Kudzu manages his sense of loss compared to Leo, who gets swallowed up in it causing him to hurt other people, is an interesting parallel. There’s also the fact that Leo stays in Echo as a way to hold onto his nostalgic memories of the past, while Kudzu goes there to get away from his.

Keeping that parallel in mind, let’s talk about Leo and Kudzu. They’ve spent two years as friends and neighbours. They’re both dealing with the fact that they lost their romantic partners. In particular Leo is kind of starved for any solidarity with other queer men, since the only out people he knew growing up were Chase (who has now left town on bad, uncertain terms) and Flynn, who is cagey and distant at the best of times and who Leo himself kind of ignored after he and Chase started dating (keep in mind Carl is still closeted/questioning at this point so he doesn’t really apply to this case). Suddenly here comes this new guy who he gets on well with, is going through similar experiences to himself, and who he can relate to as some of the only queer people in a bigoted, backwater town.

Even their personalities are potentially a good match. Leo is highly affectionate and protective, which could be good to help Kudzu, who’s still closed up emotionally due to his grief, out of his shell. Kudzu meanwhile is selfless, protective in his own right, but he’s also willing to put his foot down and, as Leo’s friend, tell him when he’s crossed the line (he knows about Leo’s enmity with Clint and has repeatedly tried to help Leo stop and see fighting with him isn’t healthy). On paper, they could be a good match.

So what if Leo thought the same thing? What if he had considered a deeper relationship with Kudzu? But he couldn’t bring himself to. Because he’s still holding out hope to rekindle his relationship with Chase. To go back to the good old days of how things used to be. It would make for a character arc very similar to Chase’s own across Leo’s route. Of learning to put down the nostalgia goggles and learn to let go of something unhealthy. And Kudzu would play the same narrative role as a healthy alternative relationship, to this deeply toxic one. But the focus would be on Leo outgrowing his worst tendencies and obsession with the past, with a partner who could not only help him make a fresh clean start, but also challenge his behaviour and inspire him to be better, to be worthy of the love he seeks.

Do I think this would be a better direction for the story? Not necessarily. True, it might make for a slightly more believable pairing since Leo and Kudzu had two years to get to know each other while Chase and Kudzu had a week. After all one of my only complaints with Leo’s route is that I’m not entirely sure why Kudzu likes Chase (sorry, my otter trainwreck. I love you but Kudzu can frankly do better). But I do think it was the right decision to end both Leo and Jenna’s routes with Leo on his own. Leo’s unhealthy idealisation of romantic relationships is one of the things he has to overcome. In his ending, he’s slowly making the first tentative steps to recovery by himself (albeit in an extreme, cold turkey way). And in Jenna’s he’s actively atoning for his mistakes, supporting a friend who he hurt in the past, Micha. Leo probably should end the story by learning to be comfortably single. But I can’t help but think about the idea of him and Kudzu as an interesting ‘what if?’ direction. So if any of you fanfic writers out there see this post, I mean…Free real estate.

[persephoneflouwers]

Hey, do you have any recommendations for some angsty fics. I want to read copious amounts of angst, so much so that I can hear my bones breaking. Thankyou.

Oh my. Should I be worrying about you? lmao I don’t usually read strong angsty fics BUT I can try find some in your urgent care interest.

Too good to be true (153K) by tatu28

I haven’t read this one but saw @rainbenrry23 crying her eyes out through it. Me being the incredibly talented intuitive person I am took it as a good sign for angst fic. “you're just too good to be true, can't take my eyes off you. the one where louis doesn't eat, harry doesn't function and all they need is each other. or: one lonely boy trying to heal another is love.”

Fading (202K) by tothemoonmydear

Probably one of the most angsty I’ve ever read. Louis knows about beauty; the combination of qualities that pleases the aesthetic senses. He creates that combination every day in the garments he designs while studying fashion at uni. The cut of the design, the color of the fabric, the intricacy of the stitching; it all comes together to create something beautiful. When the science student with the long legs and dimpled smile agrees to model for him, Louis decides he’s found beauty personified. Harry just thinks Louis needs someone to show him how beautiful he is. (Read tags)

Call answered (249K) by beechersnope

Mind you. This is tagged as heavy angst. The day after his 27th birthday, Harry Styles attempts suicide. Louis is flown to his bedside to unravel the mystery of why he did it after a flash drive is found with a note attached, addressed to Louis. On it are a collection of 78 songs, all written for different dates from their past.

Time passed (66K) by coffinofachimera

“Louis struggles with their relationship as Harry grows into his identity.” I will also add my comment after reading it to spike your curiosity: I have no words. Beautiful beautiful And the end????? Jfc. Im shaking (read the tags)

Dance to distortion (96K) by Lis (domesticharry)

“Louis accidentally breaks Harry's camera lens and in order to get it fixed, they decide to participate in a romantic couples study. The only issue is that they are not actually couple. Well that and the fact they cannot stand each other.” I don’t think this is the kind of angst you are looking for but it’s worth a try!

Consequences (78K) by allwaswell16

An Amnesia AU. Two years ago Harry let his powerful family come between him and the love of his life, something he deeply regrets. Louis has tried to move on from their devastating break up. Sometimes, he even thinks he has. It only takes one moment to freeze them back in time.

And down the long and silent street (86K) by whimsicule

The year is 1881 and if you’re alone in this world you might as well be dead, because starving dogs have no mercy. The one where Louis and Harry are on the opposite ends of the social ladder, but their paths still cross on the filthy streets Louis calls his home. The odds are staked against them from the beginning, and even more when Louis' past finally catches up with him.

Gods & monsters (201K) by Velvetoscar :

The instructions were simple: seduce and destroy Harry Styles. Not once did they discuss the option of Louis actually falling in love. So, naturally, that's exactly what he did.

Flightless bird (97K) by audreyhheart

I learned this was a controversial one, but you asked for angst. You’ll have angst with this (and any other from this author). AU where Louis Tomlinson is a principal dancer with The Royal Ballet. When his rival from ballet school, moody dance prodigy Harry Styles joins the company, old wounds are reopened and old passions reignited. During the company's production of Swan Lake the secret that doomed their love is finally revealed, but will it be too late?

Victorian boy (101K) by audreyhheart

Victorian AU. Harry the virgin Duke of Somerset knows little of love, while Louis the sly Duke of Warwick knows too much. When the two dukes come together for the Bilsdale fox hunt in York, Harry finds himself drawn into Louis' bed. But when secrets from Louis' dark past come to light, Harry fears that the fox isn't the only one being hunted.

Own the scars (144K) by crinkle-eyed-boo ( @crinkle-eyed-boo )

Louis has never felt like he was good enough: for his stepdad, for his life-long best friend, for the life he's supposed to want. After an accident that nearly costs him his life, Louis' parents send him to rehab where he’s forced to face his demons. On the long and difficult road to recovery, Louis must confront the truths he’s been avoiding about his future, his relationships, and his sense of self-worth. Because before he can love anyone else, he’s got to learn how to love himself first. (Read tags)

Cocaine for breakfast (309K) by guccikings

I’m not sure I finished this one cause I remember I was so mad lmao but I think the trope gets angsty too so “Louis Tomlinson is a drug addict, sent away from his beloved party-scene to recover. There, he discovers that small towns have just as much access to drugs as London did, plus something even better that he just can't get enough of. That something is a boy with green eyes and bouncy curls named Harry Styles.”

Time bomb (291K) by ThisSentimentalHeart

Another one I haven’t finished, but I remember it was angsty enough. The one where Louis has everything: a lead role in a giant Hollywood franchise, a glittering new house with an entertaining Irish neighbor, and a steady, normal boyfriend who he probably loves. Louis never expected to become a household name among young Hollywood overnight. He also never expected to find something endearing about the enigmatic rockstar who keeps showing up on his back porch.

Got the sunshine on my shoulders (124K) by hattalove

You’ll already know this one! The way I hate this Harry aaaaargh 5 years ago, harry styles left his tiny home town to make it big as a recording artist. he didn't have much regard for what he left behind - a life, a family, and a husband, who woke up one morning to find him gone. now, harry has everything he could possibly want: he's rich, famous, and adored by everyone he meets, including his boyfriend. but when said boyfriend proposes to him, he's forced to face the uncomfortable facts of his past - and louis, who's spent the last five years returning every set of divorce papers harry sent him (or, an au based on the movie sweet home alabama).

If you are into ABO (if not, you’re missing out!) here’s aa few angsty ones for you:

Seeing blind (46K) by zedi

the one where Harry’s an independent omega who likes to have his fun and Louis is the blind alpha that changes Harry’s priorities.

Pretty please (with sugar on top) by angelichl (113K)

Harry is a sugar baby omega who cons rich alphas for a living. Louis is a rich alpha with too much self-control.

Also I remember one if the most angsty fics I’ve ever read is take me to church, but it’s not on ao3 anymore but you can support the author with their works on their website (wickedarcher).

Another one, but it’s controversial and fucking nuts if you ask me, is A darker shade of love. It’s long like very very very long (over 700K), but the plot twists and angst never end. It’s very triggering tho, so please read tags. You can find it on ao3 I think, I haven’t read it there!

You can find my other fic recs here: my bookmarks - canon compliant - fics as movies - favourites.

[remdeans]

pre-relationship: 2, 4. general: 4, 7. love: 2, 3, 8. domestic life: 4, 10 ! :>

hii jerome!! thank you for sending an ask, i love seeing your ships :]

PRE-RELATIONSHIP:

2 has been answered here.

4. Who felt romantic feelings first?

When we met it was a crush-turned-friendship kind of thing. Like we're shy around one another and find each other cute but then we become friends and the initial attraction kind of ebbs. But then months pass of us getting to know each other and I'm like dang he's kind of perfect actually I wanna kiss him oh no.

So yeah, me, most likely. It would take Spencer a bit longer to recognize those emotions and accept them, but I see us falling for one another at the same pace. It just takes us a while to do anything about it.

GENERAL:

4. Were they each other’s first anything (kiss, relationship, etc.)?

Spencer actually has a lot more experience than me in the romance department, believe it or not. In canon, he literally made out with an actress in a pool in season 1 lol so I definitely wasn't his first kiss. There's not much said about his romantic history pre-show, but I imagine he definitely dated around a little here and there but hadn't had a real long-term relationship before me. And, well, he wasn't my first relationship but he was my first kiss among other things to put it simply.

7. Who takes the lead in social situations?

We're both socially awkward, introverted nerds (he's an INTP, whereas I'm an INFP) so it honestly varies. Our job calls for us to start conversations whether they're uncomfortable or not, but if we're paired up in the field he'll usually take initiative at first but he lets me get a word in as well. But really, we function pretty fine in social situations, we can just be a little weird sometimes in ways others might not understand. We both won't hesitate to step in and stand up for each other if it comes to it, though.

However, I'm definitely the one to (maybe not confidently) go up to a server with him if they got his order wrong. If they got my order wrong, I wouldn't want to be a bother, and he's the same way. So we can overcome our social anxiety if it means doing something for the other, if I'm making any sense.

LOVE:

2. What are their primary love languages?

My personal love languages are gift giving (primarily) and physical touch, I think. I absolutely love buying or (especially) making things for my loved ones if I can't afford to spend money. Honestly if I was rich I'd be buying people stuff all the time, and it makes me so happy when people enjoy the thing I made them. I also love giving and receiving hugs, having my hand held, cuddles and the likes, but I can be touch averse at times depending on the person. Spencer is the same way.

I think Spencer's would be quality time (primarily) and physical touch as well. I've noticed through my binge of CM that he's often inviting his friends out to events and stuff. I believe conversations count as quality time, so he'd really appreciate someone who's willing to listen to him go on for as long as he wants and do the same in turn. And despite being a total germophobe, he loves receiving hugs and loving gestures from people he's close to. He's secretly very touch-starved.

3. Who uses cheesy pick-up lines?

I do on occasion just because I love watching him try not to smile and roll his eyes at me. We'd probably make stupid Doctor Who references at each other ("Are you a weeping angel? 'Cause I could stare at you all day.")

But Spencer goes all out with his, and I could see him being especially corny on anniversaries or romantic holidays. He even flirts in other languages and leaves me to scramble to try and figure out what the heck he just said to me.

8. Who’s better at comforting the other?

I feel like we can both get kind of panicky and awkward when it comes to comforting people who are upset, but when it comes to it all we really need is someone to be there for us and listen if we need to vent or just hold us if we need to cry. So I don't think either of us would be "better" at it, you know? We just know what to do for each other.

DOMESTIC LIFE:

4 & 10 have been answered ^^

[ask-the-elden-lords]

Wylde Family Lore!

Evelyn Wylde

Disclaimer: This character sheet is outdated and will be edited soon.

Evelyn Elise Wylde - yes her initials are EEW - is a fourteen year old demihuman, and granddaughter of the famous Orokin scientist Doctor Cedric Wylde - though their relationship is one of father and daughter so they refer to each other as such. She identifies as bisexual and her pronouns are she/her.

Evelyn is 5 feet 6 six inches (66 inches) in height and is usually seen wearing cleated snow shoes, jeans, winter snow pants, a long sleeve shirt, a jacket that she's "borrowing" from her girlfriend, @doll-the-zombie-drone, and a magic talisman from her late mother that protects her from harm. She has elven ears, a round face, soft lips, tanned skin, freckles, a button nose, piercing sapphire-blue eyes with slitted pupils, braided shoulder-length silver hair with purple, blue, and light green highlights, fangs, sharp claws for nails, well toned muscles, and an Australian accent. However, her most notable features are her molted green prehensile lizard tail, the tip of which boasts a razor-sharp blade, a pair of bat wings she keeps hidden under her jacket when she's not using them, and - though she'd almost always hiding it - a vivisection scar on her chest. Unless you want to be punched in the face at full force, it would be wise to not touch it.

Depending on who she's talking to, her personality varies wildly. Thanks to her childhood she has trust issues and is slow to warm up to people. Of course, once she does she goes from cold and distant to a lovable goofball cinnamon roll who loves to snuggle. She is also capable of purring and adores physical affection - that being said, don't touch her tail without permission, as it's extremely sensitive. She is surprisingly touch-starved and as a result physical affection has become her love language. She also adores praise, and especially likes being called a "good girl." The one thing that remains constant throughout the two sides of her personality is that she's a massive tomboy and ready for a fight at any time, including when she's asleep. The girl keeps a hatchet under her pillow for Void's sake. She is also autistic - high functioning - and has a hard time telling whether or not someone's being sarcastic, subtly making fun of her, or being genuine. She's also also insecure, has abandonment issues, hates loud noises, and is terrified of driving her loved ones away.

After learning the truth of the Absolute Solver in episode six, Evie has developed a strong phobia of Solver-infected Drones and the AS itself.

Thanks to Evie's great great grandfather, who's name has been stricken from history, she and her entire bloodline are effectively immortal and while they can be killed, they will eventually come back to life. Preventative measures can be taken to slow the self-resurrection process, but it cannot be stopped. The family also has supernatural powers, with Evie specializing in Pyromancy, or fire magic. She also also has a familiar - a phoenix she named Sol. She is very protective of Sol and will deck you without hesitation if you hurt her bird.

In terms of combat, her options are surprisingly varied. Not only does she have the aforementioned fire magic, but she is also incredibly strong, a black belt in jujitsu, carries multiple knives on her person at all times, and has a substantial collection of weapons that she can pull from and summon into her hands at will. She is also one of exactly three people who wields the Delta Solver - a variant of the Absolute Solver created by her grandfather. The Delta Solver is much less powerful than the AS, but more versatile, not sentient, lacks the biological aspect, and can only be given to others by an Admin.

As an added bonus she is capable of turning into a Disassembly Drone with blue lights instead of yellow, though she usually only uses this form to fluster her girlfriend.

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The Vivisection Incident (how she got the scar):

Evelyn's theme:

[the-travelling-witch]

first of all thank you thank you for liking that sweet little drabble eheh~

unfortunately i'm a very touch starved person cuz all my friends live far away from me, i never had a relationship in the 20+ years i've been alive and and and yeah scara is basically my designed victim whether he likes it or not ;w; along with all of my others husbands and wives from genshin and honkai lol

anyway holly a few quick questions about the mighty newspaper: how did it started? who uses the newspaper more often? who gets it more often? IS THE NEWSPAPER THE EQUIVALENT TO THE CHANCLA/CIABATTA/WHATEVER FOR THE BOYS? also the teasing was just perfect, i will make him arriving late just to get venti's news about their ruthless teasing (bonus points if hickies or prints of any kind are visible)

also, as always, take care, you're amazing, you write beautifully, there are a lot of people who love you and in case i can steal caelus' baseball bat and use it against your enemies ⚾️

— ❄️

[finally working on my backlog of asks orz]

ogh, touch-starved + friends living far away, i feel that ㅠㅠ throwing myself into the arms of my fictional men to feel a little serotonin hshhs

yes, the almighty newspaper… how it started is pretty simple: heizou and venti were being idiots and scara grabbed the first thing in reach (everything turns into a weapon in his hands); since then it has just kind of established itself in its non-lethal function hsjshh

to no surprise, scara uses it most, followed by xiao; although, the scariest user is aether by far bc he has to be absolutely mad to use it and everyone knows that playtime is over once he reaches for it…

if there are hickeys or other bite marks visible the teasing will just get this much worse “oh have you discovered a new tattoo method?”, “wow, your way home must be dangerous”, “i know canvases are expensive but you should really invest in one” etc etc

ogh thank you ㅠㅠ (twirls a bat like stelle “rules are meant to be broken”)

[sock-to-the-third]

Dead Space

By Kali Wallace

Let’s just say, combining kick ass writing, lil jab at capitalism, living in space and a cute ass artificial intelligence called mother-fucking BUG— how the fuck am I not supposed to fall in love with your writing Wallace.

*from a distance* JESUS FUCKING CHRIST ITS SO FUCKING GOOD! FUCK*

*calmly adjusts my bow tie*

Anyway…

. . .

Marley

Basically, Marley is a survivor of an extremist’s attack on her exploratory vessel that was meant to chart this distant planet. She accumulated serious injuries due to the fires leading to the loss of her eye, arm and part of her hip I think. (Don’t quote me on that) Since the company Parthenope wasn’t the type for charity, she could only afford the minimum to function. So no better than human sight and plenty of drawbacks.

Circumstances cause it to get brought up, like how stress affects her prosthetics. She can’t clench her fist for too long or it’ll damage it. Plus she does it on accident sometimes. Her hips get fatigued easily when she runs for long periods.

Then there’s the social aspect like how people look at her. Sometimes she’s a sideshow attraction, othertimes its this weird admiration like she’s the next step in humanity’s evolution.

Plus, due to her being in serious debt to the company and all the NDA’s, she can’t get help for them outside of their doctors who treat her like a lab rat and will use any excuse to bring her in for more tests so she’ll do anything to avoid going to the prothetist.

Also, she works with her kinda ex Ryu (they/them) and they got an adorbs platonic dynamic.

The way she describes the trauma she went through and her aching to be reunited with her family on Earth is so palpable yet unable to tell them. (Emotionally, I don’t think anything is physically stopping her from explaining her feelings around being forced into indentured servitude.). Idk, something about her brother talking about his kids and growing up but Marley being unable to see them is so heartwrenching.

I also just love that they’re still in contact. Even if they don’t have page time together, I just love sibling relationships. Hit right in the soul.

Ryu

THEY/THEM-ER FOR THE WIN!!!

Ryu is I think some kind of foresic analyst person??? They collect the evidence CSI style idk. They don’t get a ton of page time but it’s nice seeing rep.

Also, didn’t expect Wallace to dig into Ryu’s background living in some fundamentalist cult who they had to cut contact with who wasn’t cool with their identity I think.

Ryu gets like 2 good scenes and mostly is just spoken about after that. A little lampy tbh but as a minor side character, they vibed.

Adisa

Adisa, Adisa, Adisa, a fella full of surprises and talks in a way that makes me think “ah.. space Canandian.” He’s a survivor from the war against Mars that saw such intense war crimes with AI and nightmarish weapons (like exploding spiders) that all weapons above tasers were banned galaxy wide.

He broke into a prison vessel trying to free the prisoners who were being held indefinitely and starved without trial.

He’s a sweet fella with a steely undertoe that you can’t just help but love.

Also, omfg, he gets so many microaggressions directed toward him. I want to punch like all those characters. Jeez, if they were alive…

Anyway, he gets lots of screentime in Act 1 and 2. I like how he’s not cruel despite him being someone Marley could never trust because if he’s survived the company so far, he’s had to cross a couple lines to keep his job.

Sigrah

GAAAAAWWWD! I hate her so much. Think every HR style manager who covers her ass and throws everyone and anyone under the bus to keep the production train going.

Like, she’s written very compellingly as an antagonist and oo, does it feel good to hate.

Also, just how she outright lies in the 3rd Act in a monotone voice from the cameras like “yo, somebody’s killing us. Send backup” while she’s the one setting the murder spiders on the crew and even killing her accomplice. *chief’s kiss* gotta love a villain who can go all the way.

van Arendonk

An absolutely annoying af uppity lawyer but damn, I didn’t even consider part of it was a front. He helped out Adisa in the past when after breaking into the prison vessel. Attempts to help out Marley after releasing Bug.

There’s this silly moment when they meet in the Weapons Factory where Marley breaks his nose thinking he’s Sigrah and there just arguing and he just seems so human and not some rich above it all fansy pants, idk, he added some fun flare to the story.

Overseer (AI)

I love how Overseer didn’t end up being the end antagonist but used the lock down to attempt to protect the crew.

TvT it’s so endeering. I wish that Overseer had more page time but at the same time, I see how the story would suffer for it since Bug was more vital for what Wallace was going for.

Just makes wish for AI centric stories all the more.

Bug (AI)

1. Cute nickname

2. Can transform into a praying mantis

3. Is baby

4. Love AI kid and parent relationship

Okay, maybe Bug isn’t literally a child. Fucker’s probably mentally older than Marley with how AI’s experience time in this story but still!

My favorite scene by far is when Marley and Bug went to this underwater research facility. There was this mansplainer going on and on about how Marley should do this and that despite his team stealing their AI designs from someone else.

Big thing was Bug was scared of moving around in the water (I think). Routinely curled up and retreated. Then one day Marley told it to “make her proud” and the little guy swam up to the other AI’s vessel, swallowed it, then let go and darted off. All the while the jackass researching is shouting “WTF IS HAPPENING?!!!” Sort of thing and omfg, it’s so adorable how Bug caused all that.

. . .

In conclusion, great book. Awesome writing. Superb suspense and world. I love me some magical prosthetics that can let you be super human but I also love these down to earth ones as well.

[irlbkgs]

🐛👕 for the ask game >.<

🐛 What kind of character development does your S/I go through within their story?

so nicky's always really struggled with a few things throughout his life: self worth, communication and lashing out. this is all very obviously bc of his trauma and the first two very much so have to do with his parents whereas the last one is The Disorders. growing up his parents were never really around and then out of nowhere when he was like 12 his parents adopted a child???? and then brought her with them to basically all their functions and "family" trips while he still got left at home with a nanny because he was always loud and argumentative, he liked asking too many questions and he was very hyperactive as a kid (still is as an adult but ya know), whereas this other girl, siobhan, was very shy and only really spoke when spoken to. despite it all, nicky and her got along well once he realized their parents had basically just adopted her to keep up appearances and she was also a very traumatized child which is why she was always so quiet, she was scared to speak out of turn, thinking (knowing) she'd be punished. still, nicky knowing this didnt help him build any sense of self worth especially when every time he did see his parents they made it clear he was worthless to them. because of him basically never seeing his parents and already struggling socially bc of audhd, he basically has terrible communication skills and he avoids confrontation like the plague with people he Actually Likes because he doesn't want to know how they actually feel about him since he's basically convinced everyone around him feels the same way his parents did. and then because of this when he does end up in confrontational situations he just ends up lashing out. he'd rather ruin things himself then let somebody else say what he fears most. this also sorta goes hand in hand with the bpd diagnosis he gets later in life but he never really received proper treatment for it. a lot of his lashing out is really just splitting but he doesn't know how to deal with that.

anyways i say all this to say i think being around people who like. go out of their way to save him even when he's actually useless in this world—like can't fight for shit, can't shoot, can't hunt, can't fish, is generally a klutz and has no volume control so taking him on runs is a risk in and of itself—eventually leads to him realizing that maybe he was just surrounded by The Worst People and that he's actually not worthless and just existing can be enough to make him worthy of care. i also think being around people who are much better communicators and are willing to be patient with him (glenn, maggie and carol especially) really helps him get a grasp on expressing his feelings without feeling so overwhelmed that it just leads to his own ruin every time. and of course being around somebody like daryl who actually wants him despite how he is and its not just for sex helps with all of that too bc basically every relationship he's ever had has felt more like transactional almost? nicky gets used for his endless devotion and how willing he is to give it up and nicky thinks if he just keeps giving eventually he'll actually get back a fraction of that affection. with daryl its actually mutual and it really confuses and scares him at first but it's also all he's ever wanted.

he really just sort of grows into the best version of himself when he's actually given the appreciation and love he's been starved of.

with kennie i think it would be very minimal just because the length of the story so far but also because she's reluctant to allow herself to change. she is changing whether she likes it or not but she tries to pretend it isn't happening because she's afraid of growing to be more open and caring. she's always struggled making connections and every time she has made one that she felt would last forever she's ended up regretting it for one reason or another and she doesn't want to let anyone hurt her like that again. she kinda fucks that all up when she starts attending GodU tho because first she let's emma in because she's just so. almost pure in a way? like kennie can just tell she's never purposely done anyone wrong and it's hard to not cave to someone so endlessly supportive and kind to you even when you're being a bitch. and then sam comes along and it really goes from "okay ill make this one exception but keep her at arms length" to "i need to keep this boy safe at any and all costs, fuck my safety, fuck my feelings, he could trample on my heart and id still be happy as long as he wasn't in danger" and it happens so fast that kennie doesn't know how to deal with her own perceived weakness. she knows she wants to let herself just feel everything she's feeling wholly, let herself love and dote on her friends and boyfriend, but there's just a part of her brain that keeps telling her these people are going to hurt her just like the others all did.

👕What are some other outfits your S/I wears throughout their story? Show us some examples of clothes they wear!

so for nicky it def changes from season to season. for s1 i think it'd be more stylized bc he had just dropped out of college when he walked out of the office and was greeted with walkers galore so he also had like a bag on him already of stuff he had to take out of his dorm room, giving him more clothing options than others may've gotten. he's definitely a layers guy bc he grew up in VT and the weather is very back and forth up there. some examples:

he def accessorized still at first so think rings, necklaces, earrings and hats (specifically a coonskin cap and an ushanka when it gets towards the winter). he wears classic dr martens with yellow laces.

later seasons get simpler especially when its hot. think wife beaters, jorts, bandanas to get his hair out of his face, possibly overalls. he drops the luggage post quarry so instead he has a messenger bag to carry necessities (probably the only guy who still has a tooth brush and he refuses to share)

and during like alexandria through commonwealth eras it'd still be simplified but there'd be more graphic tees and sweaters again

for kennie she's ur typical laid back college student in terms of outfits. she might wear more accessories than a normal person but besides that it's very simple. she can go from cutesy to gross in the same day if her mood switches between classes or events. she likes putting in effort but sometimes she just needs to leave looking like a slob or she wont show up at all.

this is her fc btw! cause i dont think ive ever posted it. (@/bo0giebrat on ig)

moving on to some examples tho! i think she'd have a thing for stars so you'd see a lot of that. green is one of her favorite colors so def a good amount of that too. she's a baggy jeans little shirt kinda gal but she'll switch it up sometimes. and she looooves stripes its her fave pattern evaaaa