#this took so long to answer bc i couldnt stop yapping...sorryzzz

[irlbkgs]

🐛👕 for the ask game >.<

🐛 What kind of character development does your S/I go through within their story?

so nicky's always really struggled with a few things throughout his life: self worth, communication and lashing out. this is all very obviously bc of his trauma and the first two very much so have to do with his parents whereas the last one is The Disorders. growing up his parents were never really around and then out of nowhere when he was like 12 his parents adopted a child???? and then brought her with them to basically all their functions and "family" trips while he still got left at home with a nanny because he was always loud and argumentative, he liked asking too many questions and he was very hyperactive as a kid (still is as an adult but ya know), whereas this other girl, siobhan, was very shy and only really spoke when spoken to. despite it all, nicky and her got along well once he realized their parents had basically just adopted her to keep up appearances and she was also a very traumatized child which is why she was always so quiet, she was scared to speak out of turn, thinking (knowing) she'd be punished. still, nicky knowing this didnt help him build any sense of self worth especially when every time he did see his parents they made it clear he was worthless to them. because of him basically never seeing his parents and already struggling socially bc of audhd, he basically has terrible communication skills and he avoids confrontation like the plague with people he Actually Likes because he doesn't want to know how they actually feel about him since he's basically convinced everyone around him feels the same way his parents did. and then because of this when he does end up in confrontational situations he just ends up lashing out. he'd rather ruin things himself then let somebody else say what he fears most. this also sorta goes hand in hand with the bpd diagnosis he gets later in life but he never really received proper treatment for it. a lot of his lashing out is really just splitting but he doesn't know how to deal with that.

anyways i say all this to say i think being around people who like. go out of their way to save him even when he's actually useless in this world—like can't fight for shit, can't shoot, can't hunt, can't fish, is generally a klutz and has no volume control so taking him on runs is a risk in and of itself—eventually leads to him realizing that maybe he was just surrounded by The Worst People and that he's actually not worthless and just existing can be enough to make him worthy of care. i also think being around people who are much better communicators and are willing to be patient with him (glenn, maggie and carol especially) really helps him get a grasp on expressing his feelings without feeling so overwhelmed that it just leads to his own ruin every time. and of course being around somebody like daryl who actually wants him despite how he is and its not just for sex helps with all of that too bc basically every relationship he's ever had has felt more like transactional almost? nicky gets used for his endless devotion and how willing he is to give it up and nicky thinks if he just keeps giving eventually he'll actually get back a fraction of that affection. with daryl its actually mutual and it really confuses and scares him at first but it's also all he's ever wanted.

he really just sort of grows into the best version of himself when he's actually given the appreciation and love he's been starved of.

with kennie i think it would be very minimal just because the length of the story so far but also because she's reluctant to allow herself to change. she is changing whether she likes it or not but she tries to pretend it isn't happening because she's afraid of growing to be more open and caring. she's always struggled making connections and every time she has made one that she felt would last forever she's ended up regretting it for one reason or another and she doesn't want to let anyone hurt her like that again. she kinda fucks that all up when she starts attending GodU tho because first she let's emma in because she's just so. almost pure in a way? like kennie can just tell she's never purposely done anyone wrong and it's hard to not cave to someone so endlessly supportive and kind to you even when you're being a bitch. and then sam comes along and it really goes from "okay ill make this one exception but keep her at arms length" to "i need to keep this boy safe at any and all costs, fuck my safety, fuck my feelings, he could trample on my heart and id still be happy as long as he wasn't in danger" and it happens so fast that kennie doesn't know how to deal with her own perceived weakness. she knows she wants to let herself just feel everything she's feeling wholly, let herself love and dote on her friends and boyfriend, but there's just a part of her brain that keeps telling her these people are going to hurt her just like the others all did.

👕What are some other outfits your S/I wears throughout their story? Show us some examples of clothes they wear!

so for nicky it def changes from season to season. for s1 i think it'd be more stylized bc he had just dropped out of college when he walked out of the office and was greeted with walkers galore so he also had like a bag on him already of stuff he had to take out of his dorm room, giving him more clothing options than others may've gotten. he's definitely a layers guy bc he grew up in VT and the weather is very back and forth up there. some examples:

he def accessorized still at first so think rings, necklaces, earrings and hats (specifically a coonskin cap and an ushanka when it gets towards the winter). he wears classic dr martens with yellow laces.

later seasons get simpler especially when its hot. think wife beaters, jorts, bandanas to get his hair out of his face, possibly overalls. he drops the luggage post quarry so instead he has a messenger bag to carry necessities (probably the only guy who still has a tooth brush and he refuses to share)

and during like alexandria through commonwealth eras it'd still be simplified but there'd be more graphic tees and sweaters again

for kennie she's ur typical laid back college student in terms of outfits. she might wear more accessories than a normal person but besides that it's very simple. she can go from cutesy to gross in the same day if her mood switches between classes or events. she likes putting in effort but sometimes she just needs to leave looking like a slob or she wont show up at all.

this is her fc btw! cause i dont think ive ever posted it. (@/bo0giebrat on ig)

moving on to some examples tho! i think she'd have a thing for stars so you'd see a lot of that. green is one of her favorite colors so def a good amount of that too. she's a baggy jeans little shirt kinda gal but she'll switch it up sometimes. and she looooves stripes its her fave pattern evaaaa