#also sorry for few asks everyone...
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
Complaining abt Suicide Squad yet again but the fact that they have Waller exposing the alien community to space racist attacks and talking abt how she got to her position through deceit and being a terrible person and stuff is just. Ahsfiwueh JUST SAY YOU DONT KNOW WALLER.
Anyways literally the 3rd mission of the Squad ever (and the first framed as smth Waller picked and not orders from above) was the Squad discrediting and stopping a rogue vigilante who was only arresting POC and funneling white people into white supremacy groups (of which he was the most prominent member) in SUICIDE SQUAD #4. and it's explicitly framed as this mission being personal for Waller that she's hiding from the government bc its illegal like. Guys. Please why are we having her incite (space bc comics) racist attacks now
Also the whole "Amanda got her position through deceit and being a terrible person" NO. she KEPT her position through being shitty and playing complicated political games!!! She wasn't always that way like there is a difference and it is IMPORTANT ppl PLEASEEEE. In Secret Origins #14 we learn Amanda's backstory and she used to be a normal, caring person! Like even after she entered into working in government and politics she wasn't automatically morally bankrupt like please people. She was originally given control of the Squad by Reagan (*sigh* 80s comics...) to distract and get rid of her because she was so successful at pushing progressive social policy in Congress. Acting like she's this static pillar of evil is such a waste of her character and so fucking uninteresting and disrespectful to her arc it drives me MAD.
Like I am NOT saying Waller is all sunshine and rainbows, she fucking SUCKS (said w love <3) but like there's a human being there. It's a progression, she has a character arc like please, DC, please!!! They've fucked up Waller so bad and made her so opaque and uninteresting she can't even be the protagonist of her own story for fucks sake!
Like I don't know how many times I have to scream it until DC hears me or remembers but WALLER IS THE MAIN CHARACTER OF SUICIDE SQUAD. ITS HER BOOK. yet right now she's a cutout to be used as the villain wherever the writers please. Even in her book we get none of her perspective really displayed, no exploration of her thoughts with any kind of understanding of the role she traditionally has played and was made to play in the story.
#its like youre unable to root for her in any form. which is annoying bc shes actually awesome actually#also having her say āactually im the good guy fuck you'' w/o any actual deep analysis of her psyche or whatever while doing these things#doesnt count as development or showing shes 3 dimensional. its just having 2 dimensional waller say shes right when everyone is obviously#supposed to believe shes wrong#anyways i want real waller back please i miss herrrrrrrr#anyways hope mr john ridley has read secret origins no 14. i know its from 1987 but please guys please. my only hope#also it was a few months ago but i think they tried to push certain elements of a diff backstory in dream team and sorry but fuck that. and#any mention of another waller background like my eyes are closed sry. im a preboot truther#actually im just ignorant of most squad comics outside the original series. im gonna do a readthrough and become knowledgeable on other#stuff i just need to find time. so if im wrong then sorry if its smth factual and if you disagree with my opinion then uh sorry for ur loss#anyways shoutout to the time i had a nerd night w my one friend and she was asking me abt dc and said my favorite villains and i said waller#and silver swan. and she had a āyuck WHYā to waller and a ???? to silver swan. love shouting out my faves and explaining them to the less#informed. didnt say a number 3 but would probably be parallax ig. idk hes kind of slay. or maybe someone else honestly i like hal but waller#and nessie are blorbo level for me i could think abt them for hours#or maybe it wouldnt be parallax actually idk who my 3 would be. hes definitely up there but way below the other 2. maybe the cheetah#interpretation that i personally have. v different from the popular cheetah interpretation esp rucka vers actually. much closer to the pĆ©rez#and esp develops some subtext there surrounding barbara and the exploitation and theft of sacred cultural artifacts and pieces but also#like british colonization a lil bit#but i actually despise the cheetah that lives in my head but think shed be interesting to use narratively and see diana fight#vs the other guys who i find interesting and sympathetic and like for themselves#whereas my fave interpretation of cheetah can rot in hell#i got off topic here#blah#swishy rant#also disclaimer that w the main character ik dreamer is the main character of dream team. im talking more in general and that amanda should#always have a huge role as shes the main character of the squad and yet is treated like its villain and not its protag#sui sq
96 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
I am turning EB around in my head like a microwave and I have a couple questions:
What is EB and EX's relationship like? I know they view each other as family and EX gets EB's booth, but will we see how they interact more?
Did anyone wind up telling EB that hels!zedaph is dead? If not, does he have suspicions that he is?
and a more general Hels question (that is totally not related no siree) - what is the upkeep for the remembrance walls like?
EB and EX are on friendly terms! They previously saw each other,,, not as rivals in the traditional sense. They didn't openly attack or oppose each other. But EB viewed EX as a challenge: How do I stay distinct from my brother's shadow? Anyone looking for it would find it obvious. EB got Bigger and Louder whenever EX was around, and he used to be much bigger and much louder than he currently is. It's less that he was mean, and more that he was prideful. Becoming friends with Helsknight changed him for the better in that regard. Since he's mellowed out, he and his brother have become closer. They enjoy visiting with each other during Colosseum matches [EB will often stand with EX in the box and talk both before the events, and during intermission] and EX invites EB to a lot of parties, where they shit talk the guests together. We'll see them together once during RnS, but EB is a secondary character, and outside of the one appearance, I don't intend to have EX very involved in the story. He's kind of the unspoken god of the world: he gets a lot of mentions because he's very important to hels, but he's not very important to the plot lol.
Someone did wind up telling EB about hels!zedaph, though yes, he did suspect before he was told. EB hadn't gone looking for HZ for a reason. He didn't want to be the one to find out he was gone. If I can't see it, maybe its not really there.
And the Remembrance Wall Ramble got long so its under the cut!
[Hello future me cutting in here because I just realized you were probably talking about what individuals like EB would do to upkeep a name of a loved one. Mostly it involves regular visits. Keeping the stone clean, replacing it if it gets cracked, making sure it doesn't wear down. Nether bricks to me are a bit brittle, and the ones on the bottoms of the walls will crumble and break down over time. Most of the time, the Order of Remembrance is pretty good at getting them replaced, though they encourage individuals to do it themselves, to decorate the stones, paint or carve them, and overall keep the care personal. People will also sometimes leave gifts of food, flowers, and favored items at walls where loved ones names are kept. Walls are very colorful spots in hels, full of a lot of care.]
The Remembrance walls are, basically, graveyards. Alongside friends and family, who will make sure loved ones names are put down and remembered, the Order of Remembrance manages all Remembrance Walls in the city. We'll get into it a little in the upcoming chapters, but the Order of Remembrance church, and its knights, have a very active presence in hels. They are the cloaks seen most often roaming the streets, in twos and threes. They have regular routes they walk, with walls they are assigned to tend. They make sure the stones are stacked straight and don't fall, replace broken ones, and help people carve names. Many knights have prayer chants where they intentionally try to memorize every name on the wall. Their focus is on the idea that no helsmet is truly gone as long as some memory remains of them. They welcome helsmets approaching them with fond memories of loved ones, and will take testimony from people who know their time is coming. Their church is a glorified library and house of memorization. Part of their worship in remembrance of people is also in the remembrance of history, and they have at least one copy of every book, memoir, and journal in hels they can get their hands on. They have one private collection in the church, and one public library in hels, which they regularly update with copies of originals from the church library.
The only place outside the Order of Remembrance's domain is the shady side of town where Cleo's gangs keep the peace. For control reasons, Cleo doesn't like any opposing force on her claimed land, which includes Order of Remembrance knights. She does still have Remembrance Walls on her side of town, but they are up-kept by the people that live there as a community project. People get together once every few weeks, make food, talk about those that are gone, and make sure none of the stones are broken or stolen.
Erasing memory is a big taboo in hels, understandably. The universe is already cruel enough in taking people, and people, once taken, are woefully easy to forget [they were never meant to exist in the first place, after all]. On the sides of town where the Order of Remembrance upkeeps the walls, anyone caught stealing or destroying stones is tracked down by their paladins, and subjected to community service under close supervision. They're often roughed up in the process, but the paladins won't kill you for breaking a stone. Depending on whose stone you break, and how angry hels is that day, the same can't be said for anyone else who catches you. Repeat offenders, or people who destroy many stones at once with the express intent of erasing memory, are branded by the Order with a mark somewhere visible, normally on the hands. Anyone with that unlucky brand will see increased hostility from their peers, ostricization, lost of livelihood and home -- it's a great way to make everyone in hels hate you. Anyone on Cleo's side of town caught destroying a stone is hunted actively in the streets, and leaving her side of town will not save them. She offers high bounties for that kind of thing.
#rns asks#evil xisuma#evil beezuma#remembrance walls#hels#hels worldbuilding#aloe-vera-ghost#sorry you activated my trap card#i have a lot of thoughts on the Order of Remembrance#They're very very good guys#They're some of the few people in hels everyone likes#There is also an unspoken rule you don't mess with [attack or rob] Remembrance knights#because if you do that gives them a reason to forget you#and to make sure the world forgets you#to anyones knowledge they've never done that before#but then again -- if they did how would you know?
90 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
Trick or Treat!! š¬
Hereās a 5 minute sketch of Elsie!!š«¶š«¶
Sheās writing a fic, I havenāt had a chance to read it yet but itās about Elsiešš & on her blog you can see a lot of excerpts!!
#i have 30+ messages in my ask box now & Iām slowly going to go through themššš#I made the executive decision literally right now that Iām going to also be sharing the fics etc of these trick or treatersššš#I am not a big creator or popular or anything but itās fun sharing the love and maybe youāll find someone new#or your next favorite mc or fic!!! š«¶š«¶š«¶š«¶#sorry these are coming out so latešš I had a terrible weekend and needed to recoverā¦#and I was going to do everyone in one big post but tbh I like this idea better#I did a few others on Halloween and you should check out those angel creators as well!!!!!!!!š„¹š«¶š„¹š«¶#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy mc#hogwarts legacy oc
37 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
Sorry if this is annoying.
I'm writing a hazbin oneshot and I'm having issues with dialogue. Any wisdom on how to handle the balance between Alastor being an arsehole and wanting to write him having a couple of moments of geniune sincerity.
Well, those two things don't have to be mutually exclusive!
If you're trying to get your character to do something, you have two variables to work with: "what would it take to get this character to do this" and "how would the character go about it."
As far as "how would Alastor go about sincerity" is concerned: If he's interacting with someone that he's inclined to be sincere with, for whatever reason, there's a solid chance he's going to be a dick about his sincerity, and also sincere about his dickishness.
The canon scene where he makes a deal with Charlie was in many ways him not even trying a little to hide how manipulative he's being, but I think a key moment of it is that he does give her sincere advice about how to present herself and emotionally handle the situation ("A smile is a valuable tool, my dear!" - ironically cautioning against sincerity). And, again: he completely owns the fact that he thinks the situation and Charlie's misery are absolutely hysterical, and that he has something over her. He outright crows "I know something you don't know!"
Despite his scheming, Alastor is often pretty open about the kind of person that he is, which is not a very nice one, when it is in line with his preferred self-image. Sincerity is not synonymous with softness, and I don't think softness is the kind of vulnerability that would come naturally to him in most circumstances. Let him be an asshole even as he's being sincere - either deliberately or accidentally. Or let him be defensive, or unsure, or nervous. There are a lot of ways to present sincerity that make a lot of sense for him depending on the situation.
As for "what would it take for Alastor to be sincere," especially if you do want it to be a soft sort of sincerity... that is up to you and the machinations of your story! I spent several dozen thousand words in 666 exploring that one, haha.
#ask#personal#downthegenderriver#no need to be sorry!#also @ everyone that's sent me an ask the past few weeks#WORKING ON IT#ENERGY LOW#PROBABLY BE A WHILE QQ#hazbin hotel#alastor#writing advice#my writing#asks like this make me verbalize why I make the writing decisions I do#when much of the time I'm at the point of āidk I just write it in a way that seems consistently characterizedā#so I like being made to think about and analyze it#thank you for the ask! <3
35 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
Doodle of BnuyEiko in that one Cinnamoroll x Miku collab hairstyle trend in MS Paint
Sorry for going missing I was just trying to survive life and my impending doom (assignment due this friday but not anymore now I guess)
#the layers update is the greatest thing ever#edu lore but when I was little I drew so much on MS Paint#so it's nostalgic#little doodle to make up for my not posting for a bit#sorry :(#I really wanted to draw bnuyeiko in this hairstyle tho I thought she'd be perfect bc she has the ears like Cinna already and everything#I also have a few asks piled up so I'm really sorry to everyone who sent me stuff :( I'll get to it as soon as I can#thank you for sending them tho#I always appreciate it <33#sorry for yapping anyways#oc#oc eiko#adagiorii oc#original character#oc art#art#oc artist#oc artwork#artists on tumblr#digital art#original art#my art#my oc#my oc stuff
39 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
18 hours of this guy. i can never get enough.
#woah ! the bunny talks !#osomatsu san#ososan#mr osomatsu#todomatsu#todomatsu matsuno#atsutodo#atsushi kun#yeah whatever i still dunno how to tag him.#why did i tag atsutodo? well. theyre next to eachother arent they? that counts#ship art comes in many forms#also sorry for neglecting the thing i made my blog for. i got carried away with drooling over osomatsu.#i need to get back to drooling over todomatsu.#i almost hit him with the transmasc beam a few times while drawing but decided against it#cw bright colors#bright colors#idk i think its bright#i recommend everyone do this actually. just grab a bunch of references and fill a page with doodles.#its fun!!! try it!!#anyway. enough talking in tags.#oh btw the picture in the middle with the totty censor is my gf :3 he asked me to use a pic of him as a ref so i did :3#she also asked for the flower. lol.#okay i need to Shut Up.#OH ALMOST FORGOT#tw blood#there we go :3#send post. yah.
42 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
me restraining myself when i see lee and clem get left out of parent child video game duos
#then she also grows up to become the parental half of an adopted family unit#everyone always asks 'wheres the MOM with adopted SON huh?' like shes right here#this was also me when clemvi got left out of the gaymer girl zine ive never recovered#one of the few gaming wlw couples that have actually kissed multiple times and called each other girlfriends....and they werent in there#clem im so so sorry bby girl you dont deserve to be ignored like this you were and are an icon#it speaks#twdg
178 notes
Ā·
View notes
Text
post may or may not be cringe, but we're rolling with it š¤š¼
I dreaded having to do this (again) all year long, but guess who's going on a semi-hiatus!!!! hint: me āš» (I'll call it semi bc I'll prob be lurking around here and there still, lmao)
most of you may know, but I've been super busy with school lately given that I'm graduating this year, sooo I'm predicting it rn I won't be able to write anything for a while š
it's not that I don't have free time at all, it's just that everything that's been on my mind lately is shoolschoolschool, and I almost never think of anything else š + I can't find it in myself to have the mental capacity to balance everything I have going on here and aiming to be at the podium once graduation comes around
though I will be posting chapter 6 of push & pull this week, AND maybe a teaser for score his heart?? but idk, we'll see! if I do end up posting both of those, I think that'll be it for a while
I'm so sorry to be letting anyone down, especially those who have been enjoying my ongoing series so far</3 I promise that once I make the time to write in between school and my social life outside of tumblr, I'll be back to writing/posting better than ever!!
I'll just take this opportunity to thank everyone for supporting me and my works this past summer vacation!! I truly believe I wouldn't have been able to survive the summer heat without you all š¤
thank you all so so much, I hope you understand!! as I mentioned, I'll still be lurking around the app and answering asks/messages if necessary!! I LOVE YOU ALL SOOO MUCH, I'LL BE BACK BETTER THAN EVER, I PROMISE!!<33
#I FEEL TERRIBLE HAVING TO DO THIS:((#this really is what I've been avoiding to do since summer came around huhu#but at the same time it just feels right#i don't want to just disappear on you guys bc idk how to balance my time#again!!!! I'll be posting push & pull chapter 6#and maybe maybe a score his heart teaser both this week#then that'll be it for I think a few weeks?#I also made this post for the sole purpose of those that has sent me asks#and if u guys haven't noticed#I've been answering asks super duper late lately huhu#just bc i really do have a lot on my plate rn I'm so sorry šššš#I really hope everyone understands!!#and I'LL SAY IT AGAIN!!#ILY ALL SO MUCH#I'LL BE BACK AND WRITING SOON TRUST!!#also yk like#we have a career assessment test tomorrow#and i SWEAR if i don't get civil engineering for one of my top career options#I'm gonna flip out#I've always planned to be a civil engineer PLEASE LET ME HAVE THIS#PLEASE PELAEE LELASE#oki that's all from me for now MWAH<33#šļøfrans; [ yaps !! ]
26 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
girl your hanahaki au is absolutely wrecking my shit i--- I don't ever read ongoing fics and this is why. I just cannot wait?!? But the waiting somehow makes it better too?!? I'm literally dead bro I can't I love it so much
hahah omg thank you !! Iām really happy to hear you took a chance on this wip and that you like it so much!
not to get on my soapbox or anything but you have given me a great corner to shout from
as a disclaimer I totally understand why people will choose not to read wips and I truly think you know your mental health and what you can stand to wonder about/think about/obsess over/NEED to know a conclusion for better than anyone else
BUT as a writer who almost exclusively posts in wips, people reading them before theyāre finished is my life blood and I am so grateful and it makes the writing process so much more fun for me because I know at least someone else is invested in my brainworm of a story?? someone else is enjoying it and thinking about it and Iām putting a small amount of good into the world??
the best analogy Iāve been able to come up with is like:
when you read a finished fic youāre eating a whole meal and thatās great thatās so amazing (especially if you tell the cook you liked it after youāre done). and youāre literally always welcome to eat that meal whenever you want. finished fics are like standing dinner invitations: I am always happy to have you and I mean that very genuinely
but if you read a wip, youāre keeping me company in the kitchen while I cook. and thatās sort of priceless. in some instances, you can even tell me the food needs more spice and Iāll think about it and listen!!! youāre sitting on my kitchen counter as I bustle around my space and weāre talking about what Iām doing and also how Iām feeling and maybe how youāre feeling and it just feels like community more than anything else Iāve experienced in any fandom. like youāre with me in my space as Iām creating food I hope you like. weāre both invested and itās amazing
and I think in general thatās why wips are a lot of fun and also maybe why the waiting between chapters is fun for you - youāve suggested that I add paprika to the pot and youāre waiting and wondering if I will, and Iām laughing and hoping you like the soup either way but also wondering if paprika will work with the recipe, and if I can add a bit to it just for you while staying true to the dish I envisioned at the get go.
#asks#(stepping off my soapbox) very sorry for that I didnāt know I cared so much#but the truth is I want everyone to read wips all the time and I DO get why people donāt#because a story that remains unfinished haunts you sometimes and people enjoy that on different scales#but wips are amazing#as an author with many#but also as an author with more completed stories than wips but who also is apparently#known for having wips which like make it make sense I guess whatever#wips are amazing because my#favorite part of stories is talking with you about them#I cut out answering ao3 comments a few years ago so I could focus on writing stories#but I always try to answer asks on tumblr#about a chapter before I post the next one#I love it itās my conversation space where I feel most comfortable#comfortable *#and Iām so sorry#this ask answer has ballooned way past what your very kind ask warranted#I just have emotions about this lately#waiting can mAke it better I promise - you make a potato salad and you donāt immediately eat it. you put it in the fridge#so the flavors meld#sometimes fics are the same way tbh if you can experience them like#that.#sometimes you read a wip and youāre like wow that could be a motif and then you watch I#that motif develop over a year and you get this satisfaction of being right and also being proud of the writer??#idk I could be talknin#out of my ass but I just. love Wips. all the time and always
39 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
whatās your favorite muppet?
GONZOā¼ļøā¼ļø I was cast as Gonzo in a second grade play, and I made his nose out of papier-mĆ¢chĆ©. Heās been my favorite ever since. I also love that heās the weirdest one! (Iām guessing I got the role for a reason.)
Also, please look at how he dresses
#asks#the muppets#gonzo#gonzo the great#i definitely got typecasted as gonzo#i remember the nice popular girl who everyone liked was kermit#this petty blonde girl who was into fashion got miss piggy#i tried out for a few and they immediately eliminated me for miss piggy because i didnāt know how to pronounce āmoiā#i was the proudly weird and creative kid who was also undiagnosed autistic#gonzo was the objectively correct casting#:)#also iām sorry i took so long to answer this#excellent question!! thank you!!
17 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
Hi I was thinking about your mags and mizzen as siblings headcanon and I was wondering if Mags and Persephone knew each other? Like pippa knows who mags is because sheās a public figure but does mags know Persephone? Does she know that Persephone was Mizzenās mentor? And lastly do you have thoughts on what their relationship (if it exists) would be like in the future?
Apologies if youāve answered this before <3
omg iām so happy that you asked this!!! i love thinking about the mags/mizzen/persephone lore (that i completely made up).
iāve touched on how i think their relationship is just a little bit in my post about finnick & persephone meeting for the first time-
persephone shifts uncomfortably, she typically avoids mags at all costs. mags has never been hostile towards her, but thereās always a hint of accusation in her eyes when she looks at persephone. persephone knows she deserves it.
and realistically, i think that would be the extent of their relationship for the majority of the years. but i would love the chance to expand on that a little bit and talk about the first time they met!
ā persephone doesnāt watch the 11th hunger games. in fact, sheās an anxious mess the entire time she knows theyāre going on. she doesnāt tell anyone else because everyone else seems to have moved on and arenāt affected by it.
ā because she was avoiding everything hunger games related- she doesnāt find out that mags is mizzenās older sister until after the 11th hunger games. interestingly, itās coriolanus snow that tells her at a dinner their āfriend groupā is having.
ā she wants to talk to mags but itās too late by the point. she doesnāt have the chance to speak to mags until her victory tour brings her back to the capitol.
ā persephone seeks out mags at the victor party. sheās a mess when she does it because sheās had a few glasses of posca by this point to work up her nerve.
ā and mags sees the drunk, crying capitol girl in front of her babbling on about her precious little brother and sheās furious. sheās fucking furious.
ā but mags is also smart and she knows better than to tell off this stupid capitol girl- because it would only lead to her own punishment. so mags just gives persephone a tight nod and walks away.
i think persephone will always feel guilty when sheās around mags but i think eventually, once mags starts mentoring herself, she forgives persephone.
but mags herself never has the chance to tell persephone that. i like to think once persephone begins relaying information to finnick that he tells her that mags doesnāt hold mizzenās death against.
maybe thatās when persephone finally begins to forgive herself.
#asks#ah omg thank you for letting me ramble about this!!!#sorry everyone it probably makes zero sense#mags flanagan#persephone price#i think pippa feels like mags hates her forever but mags really doesnāt#at least#she doesnāt after a few years#also yeah i think pippa kinda fucked up their first interaction#i canāt blame mags for being pissed in that moment
12 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
The Hierophant, Strength and the Hanged Man for Carmen?
Thanks for the ask! For once, there is something resembling brevity to my answers.
(also reordered to obscure some aeon spoilers for anyone for whom those are a concern)
[tarot asks]
Strength: On what issue is your character persistent?
The abomination thing. Itās the abomination thing. Itās most certainly that, the abomination thing. Carmen has developed a fringe theory of the cosmos in which the pristine world of Golarion has been corrupted by the unnatural incursions of creatures and forces not meant to exist on it. History is full of hubristic supernatural overreaches, evil wizard tyrants, and wicked gods and demons sowing destruction. Fey tricksters run rampant in the wilds, the self-righteous so-called good gods leave doctrines of discord for their followers while turning their backs on disaster, the unquiet dead have so infested the earth that a whole disgusting nation of them has taken root. People turn to religion for salvation and the gods feed on their fears and their hopes and all their beautiful, rich lives like parasites. And hardly anyone can see the connection, that thereās not good and bad types of abomination, but that itās rotten all the way down. That you need to purge it all: the angels and the demons and everything else. The Worldwound is but one corner of a far greater crusade, one that mortals fight endlessly every day just to survive. Sheās absolutely miserable to discuss religion with.
(From a meta perspective, this was an adaptation of her impractical and logic resistant tabletop philosophy that every arcane magic user ever born was, deep down, evil, because magic is inherently evil and corrupts everything it touches.)
The Hanged Man: When has your character needed to step back and look at things from a different perspective?
Honestly, just being appointed Knight Commander was a major moment for this. Carmen has never thought of herself as a leader. She knows she doesnāt have a lot of social savvy or patience for trying to parse issues outside of her skillset. Her skills in compromise are generally poor. She doesnāt like delegating tasks. Sheās most comfortable receiving orders, not giving them. And grand strategy? Sheās a soldier, she doesnāt know what it is that generals do. Itās hard to understand what sheās being asked when Galfrey makes her intentions clear, and it took some processing to come to terms with and accept. Trying to push outside of her usual narrow view of the present and to consider Galfreyās reasoning, Galfreyās character, and the state of the crusade did help. As much as the symbolic reasons or the reason of blessings she knew she hadnāt received and disliked being associated with didnāt resonate with her, she could see logic to the crusade needing new blood and fresh morale. The disaster of Kenabres made that much clear. And some morally superior part of her could also be swayed by the logic that she was the right choice for being more upright, for being more clear-headed, for being willing to do what others wouldnāt, just like when she purged the Wardstone.
I suppose in the end it would up less the empathetic understanding of others and more a roundabout way of reaching her own warped perspective there though. Common Carmen L. She does respect Galfrey though, mostly. She has very complicated feelings about Galfrey. All part of the toxic yuri love triangle.
AEON SPOILER ZONE
The Hierophant: Who has served as a mentor to your character?
Carmen has had effectively zero people in her life in the recent past she would consider mentors, especially in the crusade. To āmentorā her would require demonstration of shared values, valuable skills superior to her own, and a temperament she finds agreeable and worthy of respect. Let me just say that there are no characters in the game who meet these standards. She respects some, like Greybor or Galfrey, as equals or near equals. But thereās no one who can put her in a position where she feels that she is a student. The closest that you could probably come is the aeon in the mirror (itās always that damn aeon in the mirror), and thatās because to her, it is very much not a separate being. Itās just her. Sheās just spending time clearing her head and thinking- thatās normal, everyone does that! And she easily internalizes insights she picks up from there. Itās fine. Donāt worry about it.
Would love to see a dynamic of mentor and penitent disciple between her and Hal if she ever halfway shaped up her act though, that would be fun. I thought about that periodically in 2021.
#sometimes asks about carmen run up against the thing where I kind of never found it in me to finish adapting her backstory#so she winds up very present focused and a little thin relative to her tabletop counterpart from greyhawk#there are a few reasons for this. a big one is just that I just lost motivation as my interest in wrath waned after release#but also being exposed to later game spoilers just murdered any desire to rally and do it anyway.#if you know you know and I'm sure you can understand how it fucks with investment#sorry I try not to have full blown wrath hater moments on main for the sake of everyone I know does like it but. hm#I'm sure if I ever drag myself that far I'll hash out how to proceed. it would be nice to be able to. peace of mind for me.#ask game#carmen regis#kaleido-scope-lady#aeon spoilers#idk. is there a tag used for that#maybe it counts as#wotr spoilers#?
14 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
Hi bestie, hope you are doing fine. <3 you are one of my favorites here btw, just wanted to let you know this before continuing. <3
About the last thing you posted, I wanted to write you something because you said you hope at least one person writes to you.
I, myself, usually write out of necessity, I have to write only because of my degree, and loscar being my favorites, are always the characters I use to work with words. The concept is usually similar. I have some kind of a fixation I can't get rid of. Maybe I'm not satisfied with something? I don't know.
For some reason, whenever I write about them, one of them is not present and sometimes it's vague whats the reason behind it. In addition, another frequently used symbol in my writings is usually some kind of a garden that comes with them. A kind of symbolism for their love or their absence. An overgrown garden is usually used to symbolize the absence of one of 'em, and a beautiful lush garden reflecting the light in a beautiful way is usually a symbol of their good, or better days when they were together, in love, and happy.
You can use all the above and some kind of a supernatural or paranormal thing. Make one of the characters into a ghost or maybe let it be realistic and make one of them solely an idea that the other one has in mind. A product of their imagination or madness.
I didn't have any idea, and I thought maybe writing this to you; gives you some kind of a picture? Even if at last you don't like it and forget about it, at least, I've tried. I'm not really good with giving ideas or words, so an imagery was all I could give. Hope it helps one way or another. :>
With love, a friend. <3
Omg first of all skndkskdkslskfk thank you soooo much for this ask!!!! I'm very honoured to be one of your favourites (ā ļ½”ā ā¢Ģā į“ā -ā )ā”
Second of all i really like your idea so here something that my brain generated when i read it, hope you like it :p it won't be finished or anything but still something
It always was there, as long as he could remember there was a door that lead to a garden. It wasn't magical itself (at leat it didn't show anything to logan) but it's just always appeared behind any door if he thought about it enough. Garden was beautiful but always only for him to see, logan could never find it when he wasn't alone. The incident when he was six and tried to show it to Dalton but without any luck for twenty minutes before giving up and being teased about "imaginary garden" was enough.
One of the first times Logan gone there he broken a few branches and stomped few flowers, it wasn't out of cruelty but more of childish need to destroy sometimes. But after that only thing he was answered with was quiet gust of wind that made plants sing. It shouldn't have gotten any reaction from him probably but still, Logan was momentarily flooded with shame because of his actions, a gentle voice in his head reminding him to treat everyone around with kindness while broken wood shined under the sun as to remind him of what he did. Logan flew out of the door right after and didn't try to summon garden back for a few weeks.
Afterwards he got into a habit of helping the garden any time he visited, maybe picking up few leafs or watering flowers with hose that always was somewhere around. Besides that he just hang out there as before, sometimes running wild or just napping under trees.
Time was moving the same for outside world and here so for most part Logan only had bit's and pieces of time to spend there before his family would start to worry.
As his life progressed there always were three constants - racing, garden and oscar.
After moving to Europe it was pretty nice mix to keep him grounded, a passion of his life, a place ha can feel at home that will always be there for him, and only person that would be his friend no matter what distance is between them.
Meeting oscar probably one of the best parts of moving, part of the reason not to give up. Their friendship wasn't one to fall apart from distance of being in different series (tested in Logan's first year in f3) and by the time they got to f1 the bond is stronger than ever.
It makes Logan wish sometimes to show his garden to oscar but at that point garden became his place of solitude, his always sunny runaway spot. Even if he knew he wasn't there alone, Logan saw that sometimes pots were moved around or leafs that he put off cleaning weren't there when he came back. Maybe it's garden being actually magical, maybe someone actually come there but they never bothered him so he figured thay couldn't be too bad.
So he continued opening closest door whenever things became too much and sticking close to oscar, two simple truths of his life.
Until one day after oscar being so sweet to him and logan wanting to repay to that he broke his promise of not breaking anything in the garden. Well technically he didn't break, just carefully cut off a few flowers that he doesn't remember planting, to make a small bouquet for oscar. But it was fine wasn't it? He always could just put some new there and it's not like there was someone to mind.
Or so logan thought before he saw frown settle onto Oscar's face just few minutes after he received flowers, his initial smile melting away longer he looked at bouquet. This reaction made Logan anxiously ask if everything was alright but he was quickly reassured that nothing is wrong and oscar even going as far as to kiss him on a cheek, leaving him dizzy while oscar retreated back to McLaren.
Logan tried not to think too much of this interaction because he's pretty sure it would just drive him mad. So he hides this memory in furthest corners of his mind till he gets back to garden hoping to water some greenery and maybe even plant a flower that he was eyeing for a while.
It all came to halt when he was walking past flower bed that contained flowers that he cut off before. There was a McLaren cap hanging on one of the strongest stems that were left there as a result of his bouquet preparations. When he picked it up there was a little note with "these were mine >:(" that in pairing with cap left no room to imagine who other person in the garden was
"Fuck"
#logan sargeant#f1 rpf#oscar piastri#loscar#sorry that it took me so long#also i wrote this in one day with few breaks and I'm very sorry for all typos in there#when i read ask one of my first thoughts was about Logan being able to access garden in the day#no matter what time is it for logan it's forever day while oscar got there only at night even tho it's still beautiful#thank you sm for the ask :***#hope you liked the result#ims writing#also reminder that English isnt my first language so it may be a bit bad#goodnight everyone
15 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
Hello. I just wanted to say, even if you donāt get enough likes or reposts on any of your comics, you should still be posting them for those people who enjoy them and DO want to read them whenever they can.
Hey bro, I understand what you're saying, and I think maybe your point is supposed to be, like, that I shouldn't worry about notes and stuff? But this is one of quite a few anons/messages of this ilk I've received lately, so here's the thing.
I've literally posted about seventeen different comics on tumblr for you guys over the past three weeks. In addition to multiple illustrated pieces, three fic updates, and two oneshots (that's over 36k words my guy!) in that same timeframe. Quite frankly, that's a lot of content.
I'm really, really glad you guys are enjoying the things I'm making! But please let me publish things at my own pace. When I say that I usually wait for the previous part of a comic to hit a certain number of notes before I publish the next, I mean, like I previously stated, that I'm using it as a way to time things/space things out and give each part a chance to breathe and do the rounds before adding more-- not that me continuing the project is dependant on the amount of attention I receive. But even if it was... it's my right to operate that way if I want to!
And. Like. Yeah, okay, I guess I'll go ahead and delete that other ask about the SepAU thing? 'Cause it's really just resulted in me being informed by people, anonymous or otherwise, that I'm totally screwed, they'll be voting against me, etc etc. and I'm? Not having that fun of a time?,,, Actually?,,, I'm already aware that I will likely lose and that's okay, it's just a game. I'm not going to stop making content because of it, so please don't worry about that. But all these anons and such are really not,,, helping. Nor encouraging me to publish anything else.
So I'd really, really appreciate you guys' patience. I'm not gonna answer any more asks like this. Thank you.
#asks#anon#i also like. dont expect everyone to be totally up to speed on like#my personal life and mental state and all that but like#gestures to all the vent comics and posts ive made in the past few days#guys please#why are we doing this NOW?#and @ anon im sorry its not just you and its not just your ask this is the one i chose to answer#there were others who probably deserved this response more but i deleted all of them#so sorry#im just a little frustrated right now#i just wanted to? play the silly tumblr poll game#and i think the universe just actually designed it to humble me and put me back in my place maybe#and also maybe theyre just not for me and i made a mistake#so this is probably going to work out for the best#sorry
77 notes
Ā·
View notes
Photo
im sorry utah nation. I played videos game instead of working on an episode,, orz
on an unrelated note, I wanted to ask: does anyone have any tumblr themes or ways to make posts chronological? We have roughly 150 episodes of UtahLIVE, and although most of them can be read out of order, there is a timeline (plus it would be more convenient for new readers. Ive gotten a lot of asks about topics or scenarios that have already been answered). If there are any tutorials/themes/tips let me know via DMs or ask box!
additionally:
LETS GOOOOO!!! This is insane! 4000 people... thats roughly twice the size of the student body at my school. I dont know how many of you guys are porn bots, but im still going to take this W. I feel like I should do something special? People usually do community events for milestones I think so if you have ideas let me know?? Otherwise Iāll have something fun to post in the next week.
+ some quick q&a below
avoiding potential lawsuits š
I know this one is meant for Wilbur, but alas thats just how I draw eyes. Sorry my art style gave your fave character cataracts. yeah its permanent. no sorry we cant fix it. um. insurance doesnt cover the surgery so hes like that forever. yeah. sorry
(i do like to mess with how I draw eyes, but the white color is a stylistic choice)
its a psycho-competitive relationship that can be construed to be romantic (but it's not explicit). obviously
anon im holding your hand so tenderly and lovingly. it means a lot that people like my art! more than I can say, which is why ive been trying to figure out how to answer this ask for the past like... two+ weeks since you sent it in! Im probably gonna hold off on sharing my other accounts for a few reasons (there might be some people who already know my other blogs which is fine idc welcome to my twisted mind etc im just not going to advertise them here). My main blog is basically a spam blog where I dont tag anything. I dont really post original art and my fandom art is few and far between. 90% of my work just goes in discord DMs or servers š I think the main reason though-and this may or may not make sense to some of you-is that I donāt want your opinion of me to change how you view the story. This is a super specific example, but for all my fic readers out there: have you ever joined an authors server, and then after meeting them you feel a bit odd about the fic since the creator isnt exactly the person you thought them to be (not necessarily in a good or bad way)? Thatās exactly what I donāt want happening with this blog. Basically: Nooo what if you find out about me as a person and realize im cringeeee aaaaa [image of the werewolf transformation (you know the one)] That being said, weāll see how things go, I guess! At the very least, Iāll probably put my socials out when Iām done here (we got a ways to go before that happens though, so dont even start to worry about that) that was a lot of text for one answer. yeesh š¬ sorry about that
#utahlive#4th wall break#im a creep. im a weirdo#it is crazy as hell to see blogs and artists I really admire following this account#(image of the guy at the party) they dont know we're mutuals#also for the tntduo romantic ask; the implied answer there is that its up to you#I do have my own interpretation and canon but I know not everyone agrees so Im not gonna make it obvious one way or another#sorry for so many non-answer posts the past few days
395 notes
Ā·
View notes
Note
is the book or musical of les miserables better?? (im assuming you are familiar with both haha) i would like to see/read it but i dont really want to commit a bunch of time to the book unless its better :))
I personally like the book better, but it is very dense (it's called the Brick for a reason!) The musical is definitely wayy more accessible and better for starting out :) (if you can see it live, even better! that was my first introduction to it and there's a lot of lighting and blocking that makes the live experience better imo.)
i will tell you a secret though: I haven't finished reading the book at all. there are a lot of digressions about things that i don't feel like reading, so i just read my favorite chapters and skip the rest lmao. so if you want to do that that's chill too!
you don't even have to have read the book or seen the musical to join the fandom tho!! i will personally give you a crash course on the characters if it'll get you into it lol. (i have So Many fic recs you have no idea). I read the entirety of World Ain't Ready (incredibly good fic, the most popular one in the fandom) right before seeing the show and that made it so much better :)
anyways the musical is easier, the book is better, you don't need to do either to enjoy the content!
#i will do anything to get my friends into les mis#i need someone to talk about my darling dead french revolutionaries to#btw the majority of the fandom is focused on these two side characters who die together but in a extremely gay way#like there's the les amis side (which is the dead revolutionaries side) and the valjean/javert side (which is toxic old man yaoi)#both are fantastic btw#also if you want to read the brick there's les mis letters#which is like one chapter every few days and everyone reads it together#anyways sorry for ranting at you but i am in desperate need of someone to introduce to the random#*fandom#les mis#asks
6 notes
Ā·
View notes