#also saw a reblog so IM CLEARING MY NAME LMAO

[fuedalreesespieces]

one thing that always gets me whenever i read inuyasha modern au fics is that inuyasha is supposedly "the slacker" or the guy who doesn't try hard on anything academia related, and that always struck me as odd bc you're telling me inuyasha wouldn't be competing with, say, koga for rank 1? that he wouldn't study his ass off in the subjects he's actually interested in? that he wouldn't pour his everything into extracurriculars he cares about? he has his aloof moments in canon but ultimately he's a hard worker and i think that trait should be reflected in aus!

plus if we're thinking about the setting here, inuyasha's canon behavior is greatly influenced by his upbringing (and later lack thereof). putting him in an environment (modern au, lack of youkai discrimination) where his talents are cultivated instead of looked down upon would give us a very different character. it's always interesting to me whenever i see canon-typical inuyasha behavior in an au where his mom is alive because it suggests that his mistrust and gruff behavior are just part of his personality and not largely a result of childhood events. i feel like modern aus are an opportunity to see how he might have grown if not for the death of his mother + father & the consistent threat looming over him as a child. what would his personality be like then? how would his first meeting with kagome go considering that? his dynamics with his older brother? his goals? it's something that could be explored in a fic taking place in the feudal realm but it's kind of difficult to just subtract the discrimination aspect that comes with that setting...just things to think abt ig!

[shotorozu]

hellooo,, i saw another tiktok video(and since ur like the elite on writing this type of reqs im requesting to you aha) https://vt.tiktok.com/ZSJYsk4CY/ for shoto, kaminari and monoma (if u write for him) ty 💕

‘bae lol’

(the greenscreen heart, then kiss tiktok trend)

character(s) : todoroki shouto, kaminari denki, monoma neito (bnha)

legend : [Y/N = your name] for monoma reader’s a part of class 1-A, they/them pronouns used, quirk’s not specific

headcanon type : fluff (x reader)

note(s) : oh, i absolutely love AND hate this trend, it’s mostly bc im single though :,) not like i can get a partner in the pandemic. anyways! i love your thinking, anon <3 also no proofread bc its like,, 2am here </3 will edit later!

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todoroki shouto

he’s very aware of your tiktok antics, but out of all of the ones you’ve pulled on him, and asked him to do

he loves this one the most.

because shouto doesn’t have to get the lights scared out of him, and it doesn’t have a chance in ending terribly.

you brisk towards your room, knowing that shouto rests inside— “shou!” you call out to him, and he tilts his head up

“Y/N, tell me it’s not—”

“no, i swear!” you drop next to him on the bed, and you play the video. “this would be fun to do, right?”

he doesn’t say anything at first, but he definitely wants to do it, judging by the fact that he’s replaying the tiktok over and over again.

abruptly standing up, he tugs at your wrist “let’s do it.” he says with determination hinted in his voice

you’d think that he’d get the hang of doing tiktoks because of you but LMAO NO— the greenscreen failed you both multiple times in a span of 40 minutes.

the first take, the heart was blurry, the second take, the kiss was captured seconds before the kiss, and the third take— your phone fell 💀

plus, his movements were a little stiff the first few times, but after the third try— he definitely got the hang of it.

and,, he doesn’t understand tiktok effects, not even the slightest.

on the brighter note, he has more excuses to kiss you so,, it’s a win for him! he won’t get sick of doing any retakes :))

you knew the moment he focused on making the perfect heart, as he firmly pulled you close to kiss you

that, would be the perfect shot there. he almost forgot that there was a camera recording

shouto is seen replaying the filmed tiktok over and over again— and it might’ve looked odd to anyone else

but not to you, definitely. for you, it’s the norm to see him like that.

“do more trends where i could kiss you more.” he pecks you on the lips, before he leaves you be temporarily only to edit the tiktok, ofc

the tiktok itself blows up by a ton, gathering 2M likes, and 5M views, in a surprising amount of time, and you didn’t even notice how he placed his hand on your hip

until the comments pointed it out to him. which shouto replies with “i always do that. you just didn’t seem to notice.” it’s fine bc you do now

the comments consisted of “where can i find a guy like this 💔” “haha that’s so cool *blocks*” “okay but we sEE THOSE HANDS 👀”

nonetheless— please do more trends like that with him. don’t be afraid!

shouto rates the entire ordeal a ♾/10. can and will do it again. oh— and he saves his home and lockscreen as the final outcome from the tiktok. he did a screenshot it, and decides to keep it like that for a very long time

kaminari denki

again— this man is ALWAYS on tiktok, so he’s aware of most of the trends there. but that doesn’t make them any less scarier

but oh wow, he loves this trend. denki was just praying that you’d see it— and ask him to do it with you.

he was grateful that luck was on his side, since he was ecstatic when you skipped over to him— asking him to do a tiktok trend

“oh, what tiktok trend? wait— please tell me it doesn’t involve me breaking up with you for a week so you could listen to drivers licenses—”

“what? no— let me show you” and when you showed him the tiktok, he showed you this cheeky little smirk

“let’s do it! the sooner the better!” he says, and he seems more excited that you 💀

denki’s so enthusiastic, to the point that the first few takes are a total fail— as he makes you fall over your feet, as the result of quickly pulling you onto him for a kiss.

“denki— one of these days, you’re going to shatter my face”

“sorry, sorry!” he grins sheepishly. and it’s a miracle that he didn’t accidentally short circuit!

you guys try again, still persistent in getting at least a decent video, and this time— when he yanked you, causing you almost slip

he tightened his hold on you, a hand pressed against the small of your back and another hand dangerously close to your bank

the kiss is eager, passionate— and he holds you like you’re on the verge of death

and this flusters you because MAMDKWDK what happened to the goofiness 💀 i suppose that’s what happens when you have an eager denki kaminari.

you upload the video, thinking it would only get 5 likes at the very most— but it exceeds your expectations

though most people couldn’t get a clear view of your relationship dynamic with him, denki’s enthusiasm did attract the attention of 2.8M people

and in a good way, because the video did get 800k likes

the comments consisted of “when he caught you when you almost fell :,)” “damn he was EXCITED” “hey, have you told us where you got your boyfriend? i need the link to find someone like him NOW‼️‼️”

the bakusquad fawned over the video weirdly, but it quickly gets overplayed by denki— since that’s all he watched for a week or so 💀

monoma neito

bruh </3 as much as he loves you, you’re going to kill him with pranks one of these days.

he’s totally in on it if HE’S not the one being targeted, but most of the time,, neito’s the subject of your pranks

so he thinks it’s another silly prank, where you make him pick a number between 1-5 and ghost him for that many hours.

but when you show him the video one day, when you guys were chilling in your room— as per usual, he declined :,)

“sorry dear Y/N! but no. that’s my answer”

“but whyyy?? it’s so harmless!”

“the class is going to tease me for being a part with a silly tiktok like that.” and besides,, he’d be a hypocrite for participating in that kind of tiktok with someone from class 1-A.

in reality, he did want to do it. he wasn’t so sure on why he said no— but he does want to show that something so easy isn’t really a bother to him.

“oh- don’t be so sad about it! you know what?” he gently pulls you up, “let’s do it. i don’t care what those silly class 1-A kids will say anymore.”

“what? i thought you said you didn’t want to.”

“have you ever heard of a lie?” he clicks his tongue, but he’s glad that you’re feeling much better than you did 10 seconds ago.

when it comes to it, he’s actually really shy about it. not like a ‘i don’t want to be seen with you!’ more like ‘gosh, how many takes is this going to take? will i be able to kiss them properly?’

“what if i end up accidentally copying their quirk? neito— focus, damnit.” he thinks to himself, brushing the anxious feeling away.

he’s determined enough to stay focused— but man struggled a bit with cooperating with the heart shape.

“neito— not that heart!” “well, you said to make a heart, so i did!”

it takes a few tries for the greenscreen to cooperate, and for you guys to get in sync

and when he finally has to kiss you, he grins at you— a very obvious blush adorning his cheeks, as he smashes his lips with yours

then he remembers that he actually has to break free from you— and forces you guys apart, still trying to play it cool

“wow! i look awesome. only i could kiss you like that, right? i don’t need an answer, because i know it’s true!” he says with that proud laugh of his, but it immediately dissipates after the second replay

neito leaves you be, not only for you to upload the tiktok— but also because he needs to THINK WHAT JUST HAPPENED he’s running laps in his mind rn

you upload the tiktok, not worrying too much about it— as you wanted to let it sit for a while, before checking up on it

however— when you open your phone again, you get bombarded with multiple text messages from kendou, and the other class 1-b students.

“you and monoma went viral!” is what you can sum up about most of the messages, and you have to see for youself— wanting to know if the tiktok really did get 800k likes and 1.9M views in a short amount of time.

spoilers ‼️ — it did

the comments were mostly like “why can i smell the dynamic from a mile away 💔 i want that.” “he’s definitely annoying to everyone but you” “sHEESH the way he smirked before he kissed you 😩✋‼️‼️😔”

monoma flexes on a daily that he did that to your class— but he HATES how class 1-b wrecks havoc on him, by teasing him

in short— he does prefer this more than being scared. and! he didn’t have to verbally ask you for kisses 💀

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do not plagiarize, reupload, translate, or use my works for audio readings without permission

[itsnothesameasitwas]

hiii! this month I’ve read a lot of great fics, so I decided is time to start my monthly fic rec… that means I’ll be doing a short fic rec and recap every month with my favorite fics of the month

note: the fics I’ll be mentioning weren't necessarily posted recently

!!! - please be careful and read all the tags and/or warnings before start reading and left kudos and nice messages to the authors <33

❀ Divinely Blessed by thinlines @thinlinez  | 17k | Explicit | ABO | fic post

“I heard you, Ni. But what do you mean?”

“What do you mean what I mean?”

Harry rolled his eyes as he shoved his alpha friend down onto a seat. “Did you mean you lick someone out or…?”

“Nah, mate! It was me! I got licked out!” Harry could only stare at Niall in horror.

Alpha Harry prides himself on having the bravest and most caring omega who might or might not just fulfill his sudden curiosity.

note: for some reason i don’t know i fell in love with the ABO and found this fic someway and WOW! it’s really fluffy and sweet and while i was reading all i could think about was “god! i really want someone who love me like Harry loves Lou and viceversa” and also has a great smut scene, funny and well writen (cliff ily babe)

❀ Promise me you won’t run away by thinlines | 23k | Explicit | ABO | Español

“Does kissing me stop you from having bad thoughts?” Harry asked, voice muffled into the collar of Louis’ dress shirt. Louis chuckled at this. He trailed a hand down Harry’s back, feeling the muscles tensing along with his touch.

“I guess you can say that. You’re a good distraction.”

“Then I will be the best distraction.” Harry answered, pulling back and watched Louis’ lips unashamedly.

“Come distract me, then.”

Or the Prince/ Knight AU in which Harry left Louis, but the omega never once gave up on them.

note: this fic is beautiful and really REALLY well written, i need to say i cried and im the most cold person in the world but this caught me and I LOVED IT! but also when i finished it i got mad because in the end notes was the spanish translation and i read it in english lmao; anyway i love it!!!... summing this up, the fic made me thought about that LOVE ALWAYS WIN <33

❀ Twist the knife by jishler @jishlerfics | 6k | Explicit | Angst / Smut | fic post

Infuriating, but Louis missed it. Louis missed him. His thighs and his chest and breath and warmth and toothbrush next to Louis’. He missed sex with Harry but he missed his presence more: Louis would settle for watching Harry get himself off if it meant he got to see him; hear the voice that was like a soothing balm over all his wounds.

Two weeks after their breakup, Harry wants his toys back.

note: i definetely don’t read smut in purpose and the reason i’ve read this was because i love the moodboard BUT i need to thank the person who put it on my dash because i liked it so much!! was fun to read and the smut is pretty well written :))

❀  Hold you now by solvetheminourdreams @solvetheminourdreams | 131k | Angst with happy ending | fic post | playlist

The string within Harry's own sweatpants is now dangling outside of his pocket, stretched so far out that the seams of his pants have tightened. His eyes remain hyper focused on Louis, how oblivious he is—scrolling through his phone without a care in the world, while Harry feels his tilt on its axis.

Three years ago, Harry Styles said goodbye to communications consultancy firm McQuiston Worldwide, leaving a life of travel and agency PR behind. When he accompanies his best friend to a family wedding across the Atlantic, he'll be forced to reopen old wounds and face his past—one that no one wants to hash out, but may just have to.

note: at the end of the first chapter i was emotional, is the kind of fic that you feel every single emotion, the one you literally feel are part of it... it’s perfectly well written and please give it a chance and  check all the stef’s works because she’s a super talented writer... if i say something else i’ll probably do spoilers so, shut up ana.

❀ The money mark by brightgolden @brightgolden | 52k | Explicit | ABO | fic post

Harry's heart beats faster in his chest as the name sinks in. The Tomlinson name is awfully familiar, and he isn’t sure how many rich Tomlinsons are out here in London, but he knew one. Seven years ago.

Like all fine things in the world, Louis Tomlinson ages exceptionally well.

OR

Where Louis is Harry’s first sugar daddy who dumped him over text and their paths cross, seven years later.

note: THIS IS MY FAVORITE FIC OF THE YEAR. sorry, but this fic is super well written, is omega harry + alpha louis and find smth like this is almost impossible! but i loved the fact that harry could be an omega and a sugar baby but he’s independant and strong and wow! it’s amazing; everyone should read it because it’s really good!! (ps. louis is the alpha of my dreams, he’s a complete gentlemen)

❀ Sweet like candy by neodiamond @neondiamond | 4k | General Audiences | ABO | fic post

Louis is an Alpha with an odd obsession for gummy bears. Harry is an Omega who makes friends a little too easily. They meet on the bus.

note: this is the cutest fluffy fic I have ever read! strangers to friends to lovers <333

❀ Literally making love by Brooklyn_babylon @twopoppies | 30k | Explicit | Robot/Human Relationship | fic post

Holding up one of the android's eyes to the workshop’s windows, he smiled as the light picked up the gold flecks in the pale green of his irises. Louis had always paid attention to even the tiniest details.

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All Louis intended to do was rescue someone in need from loneliness. He had no idea it would be himself.

note: science + me = signal error BUT this fic. OMG. how to say this is one of the fics would be in my recap at the end of the year; i have read another fic by Gina and was really good but this is probably my favorite between both of them... all i know and want now is to create my perfect partner lmao. 

❀ I’m gonna keep this love, if you let me by pixies @tomlinbuns | 26k | Explicit | ABO | fic post

Louis makes Harry pretend to be his boyfriend one night out. The rest is history.

note: this one is simple to discribe... the best of the best. one of my favorites abo fics, funny, teasing and very romantic. i enjoyed so much read how these two guys fell in love with each other. god bless this fic <33

❀ Beautiful stranger by lovelarry10 @chloehl10 | 66k | Explicit | ABO / Mpreg | fic post

“Did you want to- oh. Uh, sorry, I-” Harry stuttered, licking his lips as he looked over Louis’ bare torso, not focusing on the ocean ahead of him. “You’re very distracting, Lou.”

“Trying to tell me you haven’t seen a topless Omega before?” Louis asked, walking back to his rucksack and grabbing a bottle of suncream out of it before returning to stand by Harry.

“Not one as stunning as you,” he thought he heard Harry mutter as he started to rub the cream into his shoulders.

*****

When Alpha Harry Styles attends the Gucci Cruise 2020 show, he knows what to expect: clothes, clutch bags, and a few too many pretentious people. What he doesn’t expect, however, is to run into an Omega who is more beautiful than anything on the runway.

note: this fic is from 2019 but who cares, i loved it so much and i want to thank/blame @justalarryblog​ because she unintentionally recommended it to me in her abo fic rec post and now i want someone like this harry in my life... is it too much to ask? because is one of the most beautiful abo fics i’ve read this month and wow. if you haven’t read it yet, what are you waiting for??

❀ Waiting on you by beckywritesthings @beckydoesthings  | 21k | Mature | Mpreg | fic post

“Do you want to touch?” Harry asks, taking one of his hands off to tangle with Louis’. His open invitation finally drags Louis’ attention away from his baby and up to his face, blue eyes wobbly with emotions. It’s clear that he’s too taken to really form words, so Harry takes the initiative to press their laced hands against his shirt fabric, warmth from the skin radiating through.

Louis pushes his shirt up to his chest, taking Harry’s hand and pressing it to hold the fabric in place. His hands return to warm skin, palms even more scalding now that there’s nothing in between them. And then, as if that wasn’t enough for Harry’s heart to handle, Louis leans in, pressing his lips right above his belly button.

“Hi, baby,” he says, lips moving across his skin softly. “I’m your… I’m Louis.”

Or Harry is pregnant with a stranger’s baby and Louis doesn’t know. It’s a minor detail that Harry’s both living with Louis and in love with him. No big deal.

note: this fic is really new, someone reblogged the fic post and when i saw it first i was like ‘huh?’ and then suddendly (in less than a minute) decided it was the next thing i’ll be reading and now i’m completely in love with it. Lou i need to say you’re the kind of guy everyone wants in their life <3 

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❀ all the love, ana. xx

[cosmictulips]

A sort of Reintroduction

because it's time to clear some things up

also thank you to @introvertedlion7711 who will either be tagged or not because tumblr.. isn't showing... your blog as I type this lmao --- for the beautiful name suggestion because I saw it, I screamed and I knew it had to be mine uwu.

so with the mess of the discourse, and a bunch of people unfollowing, following, etc. and the fact Im at 4250 posts and 425 followers, I figure it's time that a lot of people know what my blog is because it has kind of had some small booms lately and a lot of people don't think my blog is anything outside of tarot.

and I got some news for you LOL

so let me reintroduce myself since been years.

Hi!

I can't form question marks without tumblr doing something weird! my name is Taryn, but please call my Tulips or Cosmic. or Taryn. Idk. whatever suits ya lol.

I am 25 years old, going on 26. Astrologically speaking I am a Taurus Sun, Virgo Moon, Pisces Rising. I have Mars and Saturn in my first house, and I have a sagittarius midheaven. many people like me, many people don't. it's interesting because I also have Jupiter, Uranus and Neptune in the 11th house. so... pls... be my friend uwu I like talking to people.

I am a witch of many things! Ocean stuff, Space stuff, Earth and Nature stuff. Hedge Witch. I'm a hedge witch lol. Not to be confused with Plant stuff because I can't keep plants alive but I sure do love to know about them lmao.

I have plenty of tags which you can find in my pin post. Id recommend checking them out because a lot of it, you can't find anymore because the person deactivated lol. I'm like a weird time keeper.

and this is the stuff I like to reblog and post about. not just tarot readings. and tarot stuff.

In terms of witchcraft and all these fun divination things, I've been doing it for a long time. since I was 11. Tarot since I was about 16 but fully committed at 19. I work with many Gods. Norse and Greek. though I know a lot about Celtic and Roman as well. My sister works with the Norse Gods so while I don't personally worship them, they have popped up for messages and are pretty chill with me. so that's nice.

My gods that currently worship are as followed :: Zeus, Aphrodite, Athena, Artemis, Nike, Soteria, Eirene and Enyo. these are in no particular order of importance of my life. though Aphrodite is always hanging around my shoulder.

In recent time I've felt Eros, Apollo and Hermes sneak around. so I'm trying to work with them as well as Hecate and Hestia. Hestia in particular wants me to practice Bindrunes so at some point you will all see that too. I got a deck coming in at some point in the year. so be on the look out lmao.

I have a temper. a lot of you have seen that already. it's not an attitude problem, it's a respect problem. I'm a very nice person until you disrespect me. that's just how it is. I don't believe respect should be earned, it's automatically given and it's up to you to keep it. that's all I will say about that.

I can understand 4 languages. French, Dutch, ASL and Japanese. Japanese is a little wishy washy but it's getting there. I'm also learning Norwegian, Greek and I'm thinking about getting into Korean or Mandarin. idk.

UHm but yea going back to like, the witchcraft and astrology stuff. I am dominant in Uranus energy. Uranus, Mars and Saturn. what a FUCKING trio lmao. I have a lot of fire and air in my chart so have fun with that. and I guess capricorn since Saturn is like... my top guy. these aren't the first, second, third placements by the way. they're a three way tie LOL.

I am Dyslexic. I have ADHD if you haven't noticed, and I have a lot of anxiety to the point of paranoia....and anger issues. I won't be afriad to admit that. I'm working on it though. it's why my perfectionism is so strong and my will to survive is so weak.

I don't really care to talk about that kind of stuff though. I don't see it as a badge of honor like a lot of other people. I just see it as a way of my life. the fact that I even have to put some of this in order to gain some sympathy from some of you is kind of annoying. but whatever. it is what it is. and i"d like you to know this bit about me.

some other fun facts about me::

1. I get horribly motion sick a lot.

2. I get headaches... every day. regardless of what I eat or drink. I don't know.

3. I think my ears are fucked up LOL I once lost hearing for a whole year. I don't know.

4. I am a twin =)

5. fastest way to my heart is to send me photos of your pets. you'll get a free reading from it and make my night.

6. Id like to be an Ambassador someday. or a Linguistic Anthropologist. travel around the world, learn languages and help restore cultures and languages that we're so constantly losing.

7. I'm a huge humanitarian. I care way too much about other peoples suffering. it's almost... debilitating lmao.

8. I'm dumbly intuitive. you can't get much past me. sorry.

9. ask me about space. ASK ME.

10. Tulips are my favorite flower c=

[lesbiancarat]

Book anon!! Seeing the boys be back feels so wild in a good way like suddenly we have so much happening from pics, video performances, future jun solo stuff again and hoshi solo!?! To speculate, the spider logo gives me Spiderman vibes so is this hoshi saying he is Peter Parker lol? Like I know I said I missed the boys but my gosh they don't have to dump EVERYTHING on us lol

To slightly still talk about the mingyu situation (which I hope its alright!) I found something annoying during all of this that you echoed and some anon's said and it was how QUICK some fans were dismiss OP1 with her experience and feelings, making it seem like mingyu is the one that had it worst. Now by all means, it is upsetting to know that yes this will follow mingyu and the rest of the boys till the end of time. Sadly we cannot change that, all we can do is correct people on the situation so I do kinda feel bad BUT to say mingyu is "completely innocent and not at fault" makes me confused because ??? He isn't, not fully. Do people forget that he ADMITS to saying jokes. Yes not towards OP but he still said such jokes and to me, that doesn't mean he is innocent. He admits his faults and takes accountability to that, I give kudos for ya know? Like yes he is my bias but my gosh I am not going to claim he didn't do wrong when well...he did. It frustrates me that fans suddenly forget that the main cause of chaos (at least internationally for fans) was of that horrible mistranslations. I'm sure kfans were also upset but seeing icarats demand pledis to S word OP1 when that isn't the right mindset. I had some hope fans would be smart, especially after the news we found out about mistranslations and all but looks like this fandom isn't safe from bad apples =/ this makes me confused like how do people just idk, not have their morals i guess, when it comes to their faves?

For me, where i stand with mingyu is im disappointed that mingyu said jokes but I'm willing to give him a chance so to speak, like I'm a bit more ok with say reblogging content a out him. For anons that I saw who said they need time, that is valid! It is ok to take a step back from the member, group or fandom! This fandom space should make you happy and comfy and with what has happened, things are rocky and your feelings are valid! Never doubt yourself for overthinking or saying you're a bad fan bc you are not. If you do decide to leave the fandom, I hope despite the dark cloud with what happened, you can remember the warm sunshine (aka happy moments) from the fandom and boys. Its ok to no longer be a fan, things change and we change as people. It is also ok to not be apart of the fandom while being a fan (how im sort of in with bts). It may seem like you're the only one feeling like this but you are not! Do what makes you comfy to my fellow carats! If you are ready to comeback, I am here with cookies. And if not, I am also here with cookies!

*clears throat* to move on a bit, for the hybe naming, ahh that makes more sense! Thanks for clearing that up, I guess I miss read the article I read. I saw you mentioned pledis might be moving and oof, that kinda hurts. I sort of thought they wouldn't due to it just being an investment but should have seen it coming. I will miss that green room

right? it kind of feels like they went from 0 to 100 with the content dhfkfj

and yeah i agree, it's frustrating that it seems like a lot of people can't see or understand the nuance of the situation. i think maybe some people are trying to overcompensate for the mistranslations which had such serious accusations, and i think others are just uncomfortable with the idea that celebrities can make mistakes and be forgiven (as in, they think the only way celebs can be "forgiven" is if they were completely innocent in the first place. otherwise they must be cancelled and since they don't want to cancel mg he must be 100% innocent!). but i don't think either of those, or any reason really, justifies the lack of compassion for any of the OPs. it's possible to have conflicts where no party is a villain, actually

i do think the correct response for carats as a whole is to start moving on. the conflict between OP1 and mingyu has been resolved between the two of them, and the other claims were proven false. if OP1 is satisfied, there's no need for carats or non carats to call for mg to be punished further. but on the other side of that, which as you mentioned is more of a problem currently, there's no reason to punish (ie sue) any of the OPs. as i said in my other post, the OPs are still victims even if mg wasn't the perpetrator of the other claims. if even an institution whose primary purpose is to make money (ie pledis) can look at the situation and be like 'hey, it wouldn't be right to try to prosecute these people so we're not going to' then i think that's a sign that to sue these people would be unjust

but also to clarify when I say carats as a whole should move on i mean there's no collective action we can or should take that would be helpful. i don't mean that every individual should force themselves to move on before they're ready. as I've said before and as you've said, i think any carat that needs more time to process and isn't ready to go back to doing normal fan stuff, or those who won't ever be and decide to leave the fandom are totally valid! i second everything you said in that regard, everyone should do what makes them most comfortable ^^

also you say it makes more sense but you may have been right in the first place OTL. i mean what i said before about there being 3 different entities is true. before there was Bighit co. ltd, Bighit labels, and bighit entertainment. We know Bighit co. ltd is being renamed to HYBE and we know that bighit entertainment is Not being renamed, but it's the Bighit labels that's where the confusion lies. i /thought/ bh labels wasn't being renamed but i watched their rebranding presentation since i answered your last ask and it sounds like it is being renamed to HYBE labels. they haven't changed the youtube channel name yet though which is kind of what I'm waiting for so i guess we'll see?

yeah people have been talking for ages about how all the artists are gonna be in the new building and i was always kind of skeptical. i thought it was more likely that pledis would just have a few offices in the bh building rather than relocating their Entire Company lmao but it looks like that's what's happening. it is a nice facility, but yeah it's a bit bittersweet to say goodbye to both of the pledis buildings since so many things happened there 😭

[horansqueen]

part 3 of the threesome: y/n has a dirty dream about niall and is saying his name in her sleep and harry calls niall in the room to fix her problem

finally! part 3 of the 3some! you can read the other parts here: PART 1 // PART 2

I used the ideas I got but sort of changed them a bit to fit. 7.2k. yes, im sorry lmao i wanted to include all of this! SMUT!!! and the usual warnings :)

please let me know what you think it would make me so so so happy! and if you like, reblog and comment too!!! :) 

(i already have a few ideas for the next part, depending on how well-received this one is and if ppl are interested)

NIALL

At Harry’s request, I decided to remain far from his girlfriend. I was pretty sure he was not completely over the fact that he found us fucking without his consent and although he didn’t seem to hold a grudge, I knew better than to make the same mistake twice. Unfortunately though, it didn’t feel much like a mistake. The feelings I had for her, albeit only sexual, were starting to obsess me. I tried different things to get her off my head but it seemed pointless and after a while, I decided that the best way would be to start dating again.

I had a few dates with Nadia, and I enjoyed her company. I was not sure it would actually work between us but at this point, I was ready to try anything and Nadia was a good distraction. She had a killer body and was exactly my type, which also meant that she was very different than Y/N.

The two sexual encounters I had with Harry and Y/N were always in my head and if I wanted to be honest with myself, I would probably crave it forever, but I was trying not to keep my hopes up because I was pretty sure it would never happen again.

Until that day. The day that for some reason, Nadia, Harry, Y/N and I all wanted the living room for a movie night. Harry’s girlfriend (as I tried to never forget), was wearing shorts and a tank top and although I was well aware of what was hidden underneath, I was desperate to see it again. My eyes fell on her legs as Harry proposed that we just watched a movie the four of us together and I was a bit too lost in my thoughts to argue.

We ended up watching a James Bond movie but as usual, I couldn’t focus on the story. I was sitting on the couch, Nadia leaning against me as if we were an official couple, while Harry and Y/N were on an other couch. I kept glancing at them, staring at Harry’s fingers brushing against his girlfriend’s thigh, as I tried not to get hard at the thought of what it would feel like. I must not have been as subtle as I thought because at some point, I looked up into Y/N’s eyes and she was staring right back at me. She sent me a smirk and spread her legs slightly, making my eyes fall on her inner thighs immediately.

A loud action scene started and I saw Y/N glance at Nadia. I could swear I saw hatred or anger in her eyes right before she moved them back on me. Her hand slipped on her breasts, her fingertips rubbing gently on her nipples, making them poke through the fabric of her top. I squirmed a bit, trying to get a better position. Nadia was leaning against my crotch and I didn’t want her to notice I was turned on by an other girl. In fact, I didn’t want to draw attention to me at all.

Y/N started nibbling on her bottom lip, dragging her hand between her legs and caressing her pussy slowly over her shorts. I held my breath and felt my heart twist in my chest when she pushed her shorts aside, showing me she was not wearing panties..

“Fucking hell.” I whispered, closing my eyes tight as Nadia turned back to me and sent me a frown.

“You okay Niall?”

I cleared my throat and opened my eyes again, sending her a smile. “Yea, just a headache.”

She brought her hand to my cheek and it took me all my strength not to glance back at Y/N to see more of the show she was putting on for me.

“Would you rather go to bed?” she asked again, testing my patience.

“Naa, let’s finish the movie first, yea?”

With a quick nod and a smile, she turned her attention back to the movie and I breathed out subtly before filling my lungs again and turning my head back to look at Y/N. Her finger was running on her slit, focusing mostly on her clit. I could see her pussy glistening because of her wetness and my lips parted when one of her fingers slipped inside of her. I could only imagine what it would feel like to slide my cock inside her and I groaned, this time moving more on my seat. It made Nadia move and I felt suddenly relieved that she was not pressed on my dick anymore. When Y/N took her finger out and brought it to her lips, I felt my cock swell in my pants and placed my hand over it to hide whatever was going to show. She sucked on her finger for a few seconds and brought it back between her legs, spreading them more again and adding an other finger inside her. Her free hand ran on her breasts as she was fingerfucking herself slowly. My pants felt too tight and I couldn’t help it anymore.

Quickly, I bounced up and cleared my throat, excusing myself, before rushing to the bathroom. I closed the door behind myself and held my body weight on the sink, my eyes closed, as I tried to let go of my hard on, without much success. My hands gripped the counter so hard my knuckles turned white but all I could focus on was how hard my dick was pressing against my pants.

No matter what I was trying to do, it was not working. I couldn’t let go of my hard on, I couldn’t forget my sexual nights with Harry and Y/N and clearly, I couldn’t stop the lust I felt constantly for my best mate’s girlfriend. Not even a girl like Nadia, who was physically everything I ever wanted, could make me stop wanting Y/N. It was driving me crazy up to the point where there seemed to be no solution and I was ready to accept that I would never truly be satisfied.

I was just about to give up and jerk off when the door opened and it made me realize I had forgotten to lock it.

Y/N

I hated that girl, with her perfect body, her long legs and the way she was all over Niall like they were an official couple. Yea, I was jealous. I loved my boyfriend, and I didn’t want to leave Harry, but I also was not ready to let go of Niall, and seeing her with a barbie was igniting a fire that I couldn’t seem to smother.

When I noticed the way he was looking at me through the movie, I felt content with the whole thing and I decided to tease him, just to see where it would lead. The way he squirmed on his seat and finally propped up the couch to run to the bathroom made a feeling a victory spread in my veins. I loved knowing he still wanted me as bad as I wanted him and perhaps, this girl he kept hanging out with was not a big deal for him.

I waited a few minutes, hoping he wouldn’t come back too soon, and finally turned to Harry, turning his face gently my way to kiss the corner of his lips.

“I’m gonna go get some snacks.” I just breathed.

He nodded quickly and pecked my lips, turning his attention back to the movie. I glanced at Nadia, noticing she was doing the same. I was wondering if she even noticed that Niall was not next to her anymore but I pushed that thought away and walked to the bathroom. I pressed my ear on the door but heard nothing, a bit disappointed. I sort of wished I would have caught him masturbating.

I turned the knob and felt my heart jump when I noticed it was not locked, but it’s only when he looked up at me that my heart completely twisted. I wanted him very bad but I was too scared of rejection to tell him with words. Instead, I walked in and closed the door behind me, this time, locking it.

My eyes traveled on his body and ended up on his dick. My lips curled when I noticed he was hard and I bit my bottom lip, bringing my gaze back to his. I moved a few steps closer and placed myself between him and the sink, leaning against the counter. I tilted my head and grabbed his shirt, my smile turning into a smirk. My free hand moved to his cock and I palmed him through his jeans for a few seconds before slip it in his hair. We stared in each other’s eyes until I let out a low chuckle and pushed on his head.

“Come on, you know what to do.”

It took him a few seconds to understand but I kept pushing gently on his head until he was on his knees and I propped one of my legs on the side of the bath.

“I really want this.”

My voice was low and I licked my lips as he was looking up at me. His hands brushed on my legs and with two of my fingers, I moved my shorts aside again. It barely took half a second until I felt his mouth crush on my pussy. My eyes closed and I let my head fall back slightly as he ran his tongue on my slit.

“Your shorts are drenched.” he just said in a low tone as I felt his breath against my pussy, making me even more impatient.

“Mm yea, it’s your fault.” I pushed on his head, bringing him back between my legs, and this time, his tongue slipped inside me, making me hold my breath.

“Oh god yes, don’t stop.”

He kept tongue fucking me for a while and I could hear how wet I was as he did. He finally moved his lips to my clit and I let go of his hair to press my palm on my own mouth as I tried not to moan. I could feel my leg starts to shake and he gripped it tight, trying to help me keep my balance.

“Oh fuck, Niall I’m gonna cum.” I murmured, slipping my hand back in his hair and gripping it tight and hard as I started grinding on his face.

I could hear him groan against me and my whole body started shaking. I closed my eyes tight as I felt an orgasm cross my body and he kept sucking on my clit hard until the grip i had in his hair loosened and I let out a sigh.

“Jesus Christ…”

I kept my eyes closed and dropped my leg as I felt Niall’s hands run up on my body. His warm breath made my lips curl and I whimpered low when his mouth met mine. I allowed him to kiss me deeper, tasting myself on his tongue. An amazing post-orgasm feeling was lingering as he pulled my body closer to his and I let my hands slide down until his pants, unzipping them slowly.

“Harry didn’t want us to fuck, but I don’t think he mentioned this.” I whispered against his lips as I took his dick out.

He was so hard I was pretty sure it wouldn’t take long for him to cum and I pushed him away gently to slip my shorts down. I watched him as his gaze followed my hands until they were both wrapped around his cock. He hissed between his teeth when I squeezed it and started jerking him off slowly and his eyes moved up to meet mine. It made me smile and I nibbled on my bottom lip, wishing I could feel him inside me.

Instead, I moved one of my hands to his back, pushing him closer to me. I spread one of my legs slightly and slid his dick between my legs before to close them again. We remained motionless for a few seconds and I could swear I felt his dick twitch against my pussy. He pulled himself back slightly only to push himself again and I held my breath when it rubbed against my clit, overstimulating me and making my eyes flutter.

“Fuck, petal.”

Hearing him curse and giving me a cute name made my lips curl again and he started thrusting gently, helped by my wetness and his spit. His hand found my waist and his mouth brushed against my neck, drawing out an other moan from me.

“I want your cum so bad.” I admitted in a whisper. “All over my pussy..”

He groaned in my neck and my eyes shot open when he dug his teeth in my skin. A rush of pleasure invaded me and I moaned his name slightly louder than expected. His hand gripped my waist tighter and he groaned again before moving back a bit. I felt his cock slip away and quickly looked down as he jerked himself, the tip of his dick rubbing against me. Quickly, I propped myself up on the counter and opened my legs. He moved closer and let out some profanities as he came on my pussy. I watched his cum drip on me, feeling my whole body throb, and finally grabbed his dick to brush my thumb on his tip.

“Fuck…”

I smiled and stared between my legs as I ran my finger on my slit, spreading his cum more on me.

“You need to get dressed, petal, they’re gonna be looking for us.”

I nodded, slightly disappointed, and grabbed my shorts back, stepping in them.

“You’re… not gonna clean yourself?”

I let out a short laugh and turned to him as I was pulling my shorts up.

“No, why would I do that?” I asked, taking a step closer and tilting my head. “Your cum all over my pussy turns me on way too much.”

HARRY

She was gone with him, I knew it. I didn’t know if they both thought I was an idiot, or if they actually did this on purpose. I knew she enjoyed when I was a bit rough with her, but I was getting slightly annoyed at the fact that she seemed to lust my best mate more than me. It really hit me earlier this week, and since then, I couldn’t seem to get over it.

I was freshly out of the shower and she was already asleep. It was  dark outside and I knew she had a rough day, which is why I wasn’t surprised that she had fallen asleep almost as soon as she got back home, completely dressed in our bed. Seeing her so vulnerable, her hair sprawled on the mattress, her shirt slightly twisted, and her lips half-open, really turned me on.

I felt like we hadn’t fucked in months, even if it had only been a few days, and I dropped my towel on the floor to grab my half-hard cock. I got closer to the bed as my hand squeezed my length a bit before moving on the bed with her, making sure i wouldn’t wake her up. Slowly, i moved her shirt up and cursed low when I noticed she was not wearing a bra. I let go of my dick and stared at her, laying in front of me, wondering if I should touch her. Suddenly, she squirmed slightly and i held my breath when I heard her whimper. I waited until she stopped moving again to work on her pants. I felt lucky she had decided to wear sweatpants and groaned low when i noticed she was also not wearing panties. The fact that she was going around without underwear these days really fucked me up and I allowed myself to spread her legs slightly, slipping two fingers against her slit.

“Fuck, what are you dreaming about?” I murmured, knowing she wouldn’t answer.

I slid my fingers inside her as I grabbed my cock again, kneeling on the bed next to her. I could feel how wet she was without even fingering her and it was driving me insane. I got closer slowly to run the tip of my dick against one of her nipples, wondering if I wanted her to wake up or not. I pulled my fingers out only to push them back gently. I watched her squirm again and kept fucking her slowly for a few minutes. The more she whimpered, the harder I was getting and I finally took my fingers back to rub her juice all over my cock, focusing on the tip.

I couldn’t take it anymore and just got on top of her, running my lips on her neck as I slid an inch of my cock inside her.

“Mm…”

Her head moved and it brought a smirk on my lips.

“How does that feel princess? Good?” I breathed out, nibbling on her skin and making her moan louder. “Your pussy feels so fucking amazing, kitten.”

That’s when I heard it. The only thing that could literally make me soft again.

“Mm, Niall…”

I stopped moving completely. All I could hear was my heart beating all over my body and I was not even sure I was hard anymore. I backed away a bit to look at her and noticed she was still sleeping.

I didn’t want to be the kind of boyfriend that was jealous but knowing my girlfriend dreamed about my best friend fucking her when I was the one inside her was really bothering me. I could just move away and leave to be mad somewhere else, but it didn’t just annoy me, it also made me a bit angry.

I let one of my hands run on her stomach and up one of her breasts, slapping it before squeezing it tightly. I could feel her waking up and she started struggling beneath me, not completely aware of what was happening. Still, the way she wiggled made me hard again and I slid my hand up to her neck, pressing my fingers on her throat. Her eyes shot open and she jumped slightly when she noticed me before sighing low of relief.

“Fuck, I’ve been wanting to use you for about a week.” I admitted low. “You want me to use you, don’t you kitten?”

She nodded quickly and I pushed myself roughly inside her. Her lips parted open and her eyes rolled back as one of her hands grabbed my wrist. It only made me press my fingers harder on her neck and she breathed in through her nose, showing me I wasn’t going too hard.

“Fucking look at me.”

She obeyed quickly and I started thrusting in and out of her as hard as I could, making sure she would feel every inch of my cock slip in and out of her. The way she stared at me was full of lust and I enjoyed the fact that she was definitely not thinking about my best friend anymore.

“Tell me you’re mine.” I ordered, my lips so close to hers they almost touched. “All of you.”

Her grip around my wrist tightened and she moaned more.

“I’m yours, i’m all yours.” she repeated a few times, making my dick swell even more inside her.

I stuck my tongue out and turned her head to see her cheek, licking from her jaw to her hairline.

“Fuck yes you’re mine.” I whispered right in her ear. “You’re my own little slut aren’t you?”

Once again, she nodded quickly and I bit behind her ear as hard as I could, making her yell. I knew she liked it and her eyes fluttered suddenly.

“Harry, I’m gonna… i’m gonna cum…”

Her words made me fuck her harder and deeper as I watched her body jerk with every thrust.

“Cum.” I just let out. “Cum and scream my name. As loud as you fucking can.”

Her eyes shut tight and she started wiggling under me. Her body shook with spasms and I could feel her throb around me, squeezing my cock inside her and bringing me close to an orgasm too. But it’s only when she started yelling my name along with a few curse words that I felt the rush.

“Harry! Fuck, yes, oh my fucking god, Harry!”

I spilled inside her with a few groans as she kept mouthing my name low with a few whimpers in-between. I let go of her throat and let myself fall on top of her, still maintaining myself slightly to be sure not to crush her. After a while, I brought my forefinger near her neck and brushed it on her skin.

“Did I hurt you?” I asked, feeling suddenly extremely guilty. “I’m sorry.”

She smiled and turned her face to look at me, shaking her head from left to right.

“No, it’s all good.”

I nodded and we stayed silent for a while until I realized she was falling asleep again.

“Y/N?”

My voice was low, and I could barely believe what I was going to ask. Hopefully, she wouldn’t remember in the morning.

“Mm?”

I stared at her and brought my hand to her cheek, turning her face in my direction as she kept her eyes closed. I loved her. I fucking loved her.

“Do you still love me?”

This time, her eyes fluttered open and she stared back at me. Her lips curled and she chuckled without a sound, bringing her own hands to cup my face.

“Yes. I love you, Harry.” she confessed, licking her lips. “I really do.”

NIALL

I was surprised to see Nadia putting her coat on when I came back from the bathroom. Y/N had decided to let me go back first and join us a few minutes later just in case people would become suspicious but now I was a bit scared Nadia was aware of something.

“You’re leaving?”

She grimaced, sticking her tongue out in disgust and it made me frown.

“Yea, I work tomorrow. And since we said we would never spend the whole night together..”

That was a rule I made up myself, and I knew she hated it, but there was no way I was going to be steady with someone. She’d leave clothes in my drawers, her stuff in the bathroom, and eventually, before I could even do anything about it, she’d practically be spending six days out of seven at my apartment. No, that was not going to happen, and it was the only way I found to make sure it wouldn’t.

“Oh okay, I get it.”

She took a step closer and kissed my lips before letting her hand slide on my chest.

“Call me?”

I shoved my hands in my pockets and glanced behind me to see if Y/N was coming back.

“Mm, okay.”

“Keep watching the movie, I’ll show myself out.” she proposed with a smile before waving and leaving.

I sighed and let myself fall back on the now empty couch to put my attention back on the movie but something was weird and I suddenly felt uncomfortable. I turned around only to see Harry glaring at me. If looks could kill, i’d be fucking dead already.

“You okay, mate?”

“I know you fucked my girlfriend.” he let out, ignoring my question. “Again.”

I swallowed slowly and licked my lips, finally shaking my head and looking away.

“I didn’t… really…”

I stammered, searching for the right words, but i knew that no matter what I’d say, he was not gonna buy it. I didn’t know how I was gonna get out of this and I suddenly felt very nervous.

“While your girlfriend was there too…” he continued, ignoring what I said once again.

This time, I turned to him and frowned.

“Nadia isn’t my girlfriend, and she never will be.”

“Alright.” Harry said, getting up. “That makes something clear at least.”

He walked closer to my couch and i could feel my heart thumping hard inside my chest. I didn’t want to hurt him, but I also didn’t know how to resist his girlfriend. Unexpectedly, he sat next to me and sighed, closing his eyes.

“I love her, you know.”

His voice was almost shaking when he talked and I suddenly felt extremely guilty, guiltier than I ever felt before.

“She loves you too.” I just replied, without knowing if I was lying or not.

“Look, I’m okay with you two doing stuff sometimes, but in the end, she’s with me.” he explained as I held my breath. “And when I fucking marry her, you’re gonna stay the fuck away forever.”

I quickly nodded. There was no way I was going to argue with him. That’s when Y/N entered with a bag of chips and we both turned to look at her. She sent us a curious look and Harry made a quick head movement to tell her to come closer. He extended his arm and she quickly grabbed his hand, walking past me and quickly straddling him.

“Leave the bag.” he told her in a hoarse voice, staring in her eyes.

She did as she was told and I realized that she loved forcing me down on her, but she would let Harry dom her all the time. She was getting something different from both of us and I was not sure what to think of it.

Roughly, Harry pushed her head closer to his and kissed her lips. I stared at them, feeling slightly uncomfortable for being there with them when they seemed so intimate.

“Dry hump me.” he whispered. “That would be a good start.”

I watched as her lips curled into a large smile and she started rubbing her hips against his. I knew how wet she was, and I also knew she had my cum all over her pussy. It took me all my strength to get off the couch but I didn’t have time to go anywhere: Harry grabbed my shirt.

“You stay here.”

I didn’t say anything and I sat back, trying to avoid looking at them, without much success. The way her hips were moving, her pussy rubbing hard against the bulge in his pants, I just couldn’t look away. He was holding her waist and I could see his fingers sink in her skin through her shirt. I was getting hard too : the sight was incredible.

“What do you want me to do, kitten?”

Their eyes were still locked on each other and I palmed myself through my pants. I was still horny, even if my last orgasm happened not so long ago and was incredible. I wanted more, I always did. And I was not sure if Harry kept me around to show me that Y/N was hers, or to have me participate again.

“Touch him.”

This time, I held my breath. I could barely believe the words that came out of her mouth and I knew the shock was visible on my face. She stopped moving over him and both their heads turned my way. My eyes fell on Harry’s hand as it moved close to me, giving me time to back off. Every fiber of my being was telling me to get up and leave but the fact that my dick was still hard made me doubt everything. His hand reached my thigh and I stiffened as he squeezed it gently.

“Relax.”

I breathed out, looking intensely as his hand slipped up on my thigh to reach my cock. I was a bit confused about how to feel and I sighed in relief when Y/N pressed her lips against mine.

“Kiss me.” she whispered. “It’ll feel good, I promise, okay?”

I nodded as her lips brushed against mine. “Mmhm, okay.”

It was insane all the things she could make me do and I kissed her again, deepening the kiss this time. I felt Harry’s hand unzip my jeans as my heart threatened to come out of my throat but I didn’t move. I felt Y/N’s hand slip under my shirt as Harry’s fingers ran on my cock, over my boxers. I couldn’t help but feel aroused by all these hands on me and the attention I was getting. I never had that kind of threesome before and for some reason, I always thought it would be with two girls.

Y/N

I couldn’t believe my eyes. I knew Harry was ready to play the game, but when it came to Niall, I was not really counting on it. But I was wrong, and I was glad to be. I knew he wouldn’t go too far but seeing this turned me on even more. I allowed my lips to leave his only to take a look at Harry’s hand inside Niall’s pants. I let one of my own hands slip in my shorts to notice I was already wet before getting up and pushing my shorts down. I did the same with my top and threw it on the floor before noticing that Niall was staring at me.

“Was that me, or the fact that Y/N got completely naked?”

I glanced at Harry and finally my gaze moved down on Niall’s crotch. His dick was out, Harry’s hand wrapped around it, and I noticed just how hard he was.

“Maybe it’s time you help him, kitten.” Harry proposed with a chuckle. “And me, too.”

I watched Harry let go of Niall and get up to pull his pants down. It took a few seconds but Niall did the same before they both sat back on the couch. Niall was definitely harder than Harry and it made me want to sit on him but instead, i got on my knees between the two of them, running my hands on one of their thighs each. I reached for their dicks and squeezed them at the same time, earning a groan from both.

“Admit it.” I asked with a smirk, looking at Niall. “You prefer when it’s me.”

“I do petal, I really fucking do.”

His confession made me chuckle and I started jerking them both, doing the same wrists movements and focusing on their tips. I felt Harry’s hand in my hair as he pushing his body forward a bit. I knew what he wanted but I liked it too much when he took control and I let him pull me by my hair. I opened my mouth as he pushed my head down on his dick, still trying to stroke Niall at the same time.

“Make me harder, kitten.” he whispered as I felt his dick swell more against my tongue. “Just like that.”

I choked slightly as he pushed my head down and pulled on my hair again and again. When he let go, I looked at his cock soaked with my spit and wiped my mouth. I barely had time to breathe when I felt an other hand in my hair. Niall’s grip was even tighter and I inhaled deeply before he pushed hard on my head. His dick slipped completely in my mouth and I chocked again, gagging a bit. He held my head down and I realized it was the first time Niall was rough and took control with me.

My hand found Harry’s dick and when Niall let go of my hair, I grabbed his dick too and started sucking on his tip. He groaned again and let his head fall back and his eyes closed for a few seconds before opening them again and looking at me. I felt his cock throb a bit in my mouth and moved again to go back to Harry, my tongue running from his balls to his tip slowly before tilting my head and sucking down his length. My tongue slipped on his balls and gently, he passed his hand in my hair.

“I love when you do that.”

I thought he’d ask me to do it to Niall but he simply enjoyed my tongue on his balls until I backed away to look at him. He sent me a smile as I let go of both of their cocks and he grabbed his to keep stroking it very slowly.

“He’s already got a piece of you in the bathroom earlier.” Harry pointed out, making my heart jump in my chest. “You’re gonna ride me first.”

I stared at him in shock, my lips slightly parted, and finally glanced at Niall.

“He didn’t tell me, but i’m not stupid.”

I felt suddenly guilty and licked my lips, placing my hands on my boyfriend’s knees. I knew he could read it in my eyes and he brought his free hand to my cheek, caressing it softly.

“Come on, kitten, sit on my dick.”

His voice was gentle and I licked my lips again before getting up, putting my weight on his knees. I finally straddled him and his eyes followed mine until I was on top of him. I moved down very slowly, feeling his dick slide inside me. I gripped his shoulders at the amazing feeling and closed my eyes, letting out a short and low whimper. When he was balls deep inside me, I remained motionless and opened my eyes to dive them into his.

“I’m sorry.” I mouthed, glancing down at his heart-shaped lips.

He brought me closer, his hand behind my head, his lips opened, and he kissed me hard and deep. His tongue felt so good against mine that I let out a few moans. He swallowed them and I started rocking my hips back and forth to get some friction. I was horny and I wanted him. I wanted Niall too. I wanted them both.

Harry stopped kissing me and leaned against the couch, allowing me to move better over his cock, bouncing on it. I enjoyed the feeling of his dick deep in me and every time he was completely inside, I felt a rush to my brain and whimpered.

It took only about a minute until I felt fingers brushing my ass gently and I turned to look at Niall. He was jerking off hard, his other hand traveling on my ass gently. I waited until his eyes met mine and he finally moved closer on the couch, bringing his hand to my breasts and letting it slip between my legs. I felt two of his fingertips rub against my clit as I kept riding Harry and I felt my whole body shake at his touch, as if an electric shock had crossed my body.

I stopped moving over my boyfriend and breathed in as Niall kept going. I looked down at his fingers and noticed Harry was looking too. He looked up and our eyes met again before he made a quick head movement.

HARRY

I motioned for her to go ride him and she quickly switched to sit on his lap. He didn’t say anything, he just held his dick as she sat on it quickly. His eyes fluttered close and his hands ran from her shoulders to her ass. I watched as he squeezed it and spanked it once a bit gently and then harder. It made me want to do the same and I got up, placing myself behind her. I gripped her hair with one hand and pulled on it, making her head fall back. Her eyes opened as she was still squirming over him and I bent down to kiss her, quickly pushing my tongue past her lips. She quickly sucked on it and it made my cock swell even more in my hand as I enjoyed her lips wrapped around my tongue as they would be around my dick. Fuck, she definitely knew what she was doing.

I let my grip loosen and she rode him harder and quicker. I could hear their skin hit each other’s and roughly, I spanked her as hard as I could. She let out a loud moan and I did it again, watching as the skin of her ass turned a soft shade of red and then a darker one.

My hand squeezed and ran on my cock as I watched them fuck in front of me and after a few minutes, I pushed on her back to make his dick slip out. I bent my knees and quickly pushed my cock inside her. She was bent too, her face very close to Niall’s, and I could only imagine her, eyes closed, lips parted, whimpering low as I fucked her. I knew that’s what he was seeing and he grabbed her face to kiss her with difficulty, trying to follow the jerks of her body as I thrust in and out of her.

Both of my hands were on her ass and I spread it slightly before letting one of my fingers slip in her asshole. She moaned loud into Niall’s mouth, holding herself against the back of the couch and I watched his hand reach for his cock again. I was going to cum, I could feel it, and I moved out of her, stroking my dick quickly. It only took a few seconds and I groaned as my cum gushed all over her ass. I let the tip of my cock rub in it, spreading it more on her as I cursed low. I watched as it ran down the curve of her ass cheeks, slipping down on one of her thighs and it made me groan again.

After a few seconds, she turned around, her back facing Niall, and sat on his dick again. She tilted her head with a smile and I took a step closer. She bent down slightly, grabbing my dick and running her tongue on the tip, sucking off what was left of my orgasm.

She moaned again when Nial started moving his hips up to keep fucking her and when the throbbing sensation stopped, I took a step further to watch them.

“My god, petal, you’re gonna make me cum again.”

I wished he didn’t add the last word but he did and it made me grimace despite myself. He grabbed her waist and helped her up as she got on her knees. I didn’t know if that’s what he wanted but when she stuck her tongue out while gripping her own tits hard, he moaned and came on her face, some of his cum sticking in her hair and some falling on her breasts. He panted and she did the same with his cock as she did with mine. I couldn’t help but stare as she ran her tongue on his length, sucking hard on his tip to get every last drop.

It’s only when she got up that I noticed she was covered with both our orgasms and she looked fucking amazing.

“I want to engrave this fucking picture in my brain forever kitten.” I admitted, my eyes traveling on her.

“You look extremely hot like that, petal.”

She sent us a shy smile and looked down as I took a step closer to her.

“Did you cum?”

She allowed her eyes to meet mine and she shrugged.

“It was good.”

Curious, Niall moved closer too and I glanced at him. He just gave me a short nod and I gripped my girlfriend’s throat hard again.

“Sit down and spread your legs.” I whispered.

I knew being rough with her would work and she nodded quickly, doing as I asked. Niall and I both got on our knees as she brought her feet on the couch, exposing herself to us. I’ve always loved her pussy. The way her inner lips stuck out a bit was extremely inviting and I quickly slipped my tongue inside her, making her hold her breath. I could feel my nose rub against her clit and I heard the sound her hands made when they gripped the couch.

I whimpered low against her core and finally slid my tongue south, reaching her asshole. She stiffened but moaned louder, one of her hands running in my hair. Her eyes were closer, her head was leaning against the couch, and I could see NIall running his mouth on one of her breasts as he rubbed his palm against the other.

“Fuck, don’t stop.”

Her voice was low, almost like a sigh, and I kept flicking my tongue on her asshole for a while. I stopped when I felt how wet she was getting as it dripped on my tongue and finally moved a bit on the left to give Niall more room, pulling on his arm to get his attention. I was not sure he was going to like it but he finally gave in. We both started rubbing our tongue on her pussy, making her twitch and squirm more than I thought we would. I knew it felt weird for Niall the first time our tongues accidentally touched but he quickly got used to it.

She had one of her hands in my hair and the other in his and she finally opened her eyes to see what we were doing. It seemed like the sight of both of us at the same time between her legs turned her on because she held her breath and started shaking.

“Oh my… god!” I could see she did all she could to keep her eyes open as an orgasm reached her. “I’m cumming…”

I felt her cum on my tongue and I was sure Niall did too. She shook more than I thought she would and I pressed my tongue on her clit as she came while Niall seemed to have slipped his inside her. After a minute, she inhaled deeply and pushed us away, overstimulated. It made me laugh and I looked at her until she looked back.

“You will always cum with me, got it?” I pointed out. “At least once.”

“With me too.”

She frowned at Niall and her eyes quickly moved from me to him and to me again.

“It’s okay, I’ll explain to you later.” I shrugged, getting up. “Shower and bed? I think it’s cuddle time.”

They both stood up too and she nodded to me, turning to Niall and wrapping her arms around his neck. She pulled him closer and it took him a few seconds to answer the hug.

“Thanks Nee, and, goodnight.”

She giggled like a school girl and let him go, pecking his lips quickly and reaching for my hand.

“You’re coming with me?”

I stared at her, a fond smile on my lips, and just nodded. I couldn’t explain how bad I loved her, and I was ready to do anything to keep her.

[azaraspirit]

Daughter of Thor: Chapter One

ok im too excited for this chapter to wait two hours lmao i really hope you guys like it!!!

tagging: @petersboyfriendsonofthor @keepingupwiththeparkers @mcuspidey @starksparker @spiderboytotherescue @spideypeach @fanboy-tom @underoos-tom @pmvelez97

warnings: mild language, some bullying

word count: 2280

a/n: sorry for the long post im on mobile so i cant use the keep reading cut whixh i think is annoying af. feedback and reblogs would be greatly appreciated! idk when ch2 will up. next week most likely. i put all of my energy into this first chapter so i still need to plot the next one and outline it and what not.

***

Thor felt love for his wife Jane and his friends but nothing compared to the little bundle of joy that he held in his arms. When Jane first told him she was pregnant, he was absolutely thrilled and now their daughter was finally here. She was perfect. Absolutely perfect. She took after Thor with his eyes and curly blonde hair but had her mother’s nose, lips and chin.

Fresh tears trickled down Thor’s cheeks as he admired his new daughter that was wrapped in a blanket.

“So beautiful.” Thor praised. His infant daughter grabbed one of his fingers, making him smile.

“You’re never going to give her back are you?” Jane asked as she saw how in love Thor was with their child.

“Never.”

Jane rolled her eyes. “May I remind you that I did all the work?”

“Okay, you can name her but that’s the best I can do.” Thor teased.

“I always liked the name Hannah.”

Thor smiled down at his daughter. “Hannah, daughter of Thor. I like the sound of that.”

***

“What do you think you’re doing?” Thor chuckled as he watched his little girl attempt to climb onto the throne.

She grunted, pushing herself up but to no avail. “Trying to sit on my throne.” she pouted.

“Your throne?” Thor questioned.

“Well someday it will be.”

Thor laughed, picking up his little toddler in his arms. “Yes, one day, little one. You are destined for greatness and someday you shall be the queen of Asgard. But for now, you’re my little princess.” He gently kissed her cheek.

“Dad! Not in front of Uncle Loki!”

He looked up to see his brother approaching them. “Don’t worry, I didn’t see anything.” He smirked, holding his palms up.

Hannah wiggled out of her father’s arms to run after her uncle. She hugged his legs before he picked her up and wrapped her arms around his neck. “How about we do some training today little one?” Loki asked.

“Okay.” Hannah smirked as she held up one of his daggers.

“You little sneak!”

They both laughed.

Thor stared at them. “You teaching my daughter to pickpocket?!”

Loki shrugged, trying to look innocent. “Figured I should teach her what I know.”

“She’s only five! Too young for daggers!”

Hannah rolled her eyes. “Told you he’d get mad when he found out.”

“Well you’re the one who picked in front of him.”

“You taught me.”

“Touche.”

“I don’t like my daughter playing with weapons.” Thor said sternly.

“Brother, hear me out….”

“Okay, I’m waiting.” Thor crossed his arms.

Loki cleared his throat but no words came out. Thor raised a brow.

“Never thought you’d let me get this far.” Loki admitted.

“Dad, he’s teaching me to defend myself.” Hannah spoke.

“Yes, what she said.” Loki agreed, nodding.

“Hannah darling, you’re only five.” Thor defended. “What do you need to defend yourself from?”

She rolled her eyes. “I’m a highly sophisticated five year old.”

“She’s not wrong.” Loki shrugged.

Thor sighed, seeing he was outnumbered. Looks like his daughter inherited her mother’s stubbornness. “Tell me you’re being careful.”

She nodded. “Haven’t even scratched myself yet, Father.”

“You should see her in action. She’s a feisty one!” Loki smiled at her proudly.

Thor sighed again. “I’d rather not.”

“So can we train Uncle Loki? Please?” Hannah batted her eyes and there was no way Loki could say no.

“Course. That is if your father is okay with it.”

They both looked up at Thor. “Pout your lips, he can’t resist when I do it.” she whispered to him.

Loki pouted his lower lip making Thor chuckle. “Alright. Just be careful. I mean it.”

“Thanks Daddy! I promise!”

***

That evening Hannah was in her bedroom with her mother Jane who was braiding her hair as she told of her adventures with Uncle Loki.

“Knives huh?” Jane asked.

She nodded. “You should have seen me, Mom! Uncle Loki said I was really good for my age!”

“Uncle Loki.” Jane sighed, still not his biggest fan. “I don’t like the idea of you playing with sharp objects honey.”

“Daddy said the same thing but he let me.”

Jane sighed again, padding her shoulders. “All done, sweetie.” They looked in her mirror, Hannah admiring her new French braid. “I love it, Mommy! Thank you!” She stood up to hug her and kiss her cheek, making Jane laugh.

“You’re welcome, sweetie.”

“You’re not gonna let me stop training with Uncle Loki are you?” She pouted. “We have a lot of fun.”

“You’re guilt tripping me aren’t you?” Jane asked.

“Maybe.” Hannah looked away innocently.

“Well I guess you should know how to protect yourself.” she said.

“Thank you, Mommy.” Hannah kissed her cheek again.

“This is my dagger.” She grabbed her weapon from her dresser and showed it to her. “Isn’t it beautiful?”

“Also dangerous.” said Jane, holding it in her hand. It was rather stunning. A black hilt decorated with green jewels. Swirls were carved in the blade.

“Uncle Loki gave it to me.” Hannah smiled proudly.

“The things he teaches you.” she sighed.

“You teach me things too, Mommy.”

“Like what?” she smiled.

“Well I know how to be nice and kind to everyone and you just taught me how to French Braid. Uncle Loki is teaching me self defense. Father teaches me about strength, loyal and honor.”

Jane smiled down at her, proud of what the woman her daughter was growing into. “We just want you to be safe is all.” She tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear.

“I know, Mommy. Like I told, Daddy, haven’t even scratched myself yet.”

Jane stroked her cheek fondly and kissed her temple. “It’s getting late, honey, let’s go to bed.”

“Okay, Mommy.”

***

Jane walked in the empty corridor, her daughter now asleep for the night. She had a few words to say to her Uncle Loki.

She knocked on his door and he answered. “Fancy seeing you here, Lady Jane.”

Jane rolled her eyes at the nickname. “I want to talk.”

Loki stepped aside to let her in. “I know we’re family now but that doesn’t mean I have forgotten about what you did in New York.”

This time Loki rolled his eyes. “Heaven's sake that was a lifetime ago.”

“Still, it happened.”

Loki didn’t respond.

“But I’m gonna put up with you because I see how much my daughter loves you. She admires you and she spent twenty minutes excitingly telling me about your training.” Her voice was laced with venom at the last word. “I don’t think it’s exactly appropriate giving five year olds sharp objects.”

Loki forced a dry laugh. “Thor said that to me as well and I understand but I also think you two underestimate her. She is more capable than you know. I am training her so she can be great.”

Jane sighed. “She can be great doing other things than fighting.”

“I’m not teaching her to fight. I’m teaching her self defense. There is a difference.”

Jane narrowed her eyes at him. “Whatever you call it, I want her to safe. Train her better, train her harder. Train her to where she can defeat even you.”

An uncomfortable silence settled between the two adults. “I will, I promise.” Loki swore. “I care about her more than you know as if she were my own. I would never do anything to put her in arms way. I would never make her do anything I wouldn’t think she was capable of.”

Jane stared at him, surprised by how genuine he sounded. He was telling the truth. “Just keep her safe.”

“Yes, Lady Jane. You have my word.”

Jane smirked. “Enough with this Lady Jane crap. It’s weird.”

Loki bowed making her roll her eyes. “I’m going to bed, goodnight.”

****

Thor never liked the idea of his daughter playing with weapons but he found himself watching from nearby as she and Loki train in the throne room. He cheered when she sent Loki to the floor, a knife at his neck. He had to admit she was rather good.

Loki chuckled. “Better. Much better.”

Hannah smirked. “Don’t worry I wouldn’t have actually stab you.”

“Thanks.”

She offered her hand and he took it but he pulled her into a headlock, forcing her to her knee with his foot.

“How many times do I have to tell you not to let your guard down?”

She grunted. “Damn it.”

He let go and flipped his dagger. “Letting your guard down can have deadly consequences. Never forget that.” He let her go and she cursed to herself. “Think that’s enough training for today.” It’s been years since his encounter with Jane but he has never forgotten the promise he made to her to making Hannah better than him in training.

Hannah scolded herself as she left the throne room, catching her dad in the hall. “Hey, Dad. What are you doing in here?”

Thor was caught off guard. “What? Oh, I was just uh, inspecting these columns.” He patted the one next to him. “Yup. Still sturdy.”

Hannah saw right through his lie. “You were watching me and Uncle Loki weren’t you?”

“No.” he scoffed, avoiding eye contact, crossing his arms.

“You’re so full of it.” she smirked as she and him went down the hall.

“You are pretty good, by the way.” Thor spoke, his arm around her.

“Thanks, Dad.”

She was twelve now and has become a rather excellent fighter but Uncle Loki still wasn’t entirely please. He was hard on her. All she wanted to do was please him but nothing seemed good enough.

She and her father stood out on the balcony, overlooking Asgard in all its glory. It was beautiful and she never got tired of it.

“Dad?”

“Yes, love?”

“When can I visit Earth? Mom is from there and you told me of all your adventures you had. Seems only fair I can come too.”

Thor sighed. “I thought about it. But I was going to wait till your older. Earth is...strange...dangerous. Here in Asgard, you’re safe.”

“But being safe all the time is boring.” Hannah complained. “I know how to defend myself. You saw. Please, Dad I really want to go.”

“Okay, let’s make a deal.” Thor said, Hannah hanging on his every word. “You can come along with me when you can defeat Loki in training.”

She scoffed. “That's not fair.”

“Never said it had to be fair. Or you can wait till you’re sixteen. Whichever comes first.”

Hannah groaned. “Fifteen?”

“Fine.” Like she would ever beat her Uncle.

Her father rested a hand on her shoulder. “Don’t worry, love.”

He gently kissed her on her head before leaving.

Hannah sighed. She stood there for what felt like hours, watching the sky change. She rested her forearms on the balcony, looking down and something caught her eye. She noticed a young boy, her age maybe a little older. Three other boys were surrounding him. He looked uncomfortable, almost intimidated like he was prey and the boys were a pack of wolves.

Hannah almost ignored them but when she saw them shove the cornered boy to the ground, anger boiled inside of her. If there was one thing she hated was bullies.

“What are you gonna do about it, blind boy?” the middle boy mocked. “Gonna go cry to your parents? Oh right. They’re dead.”

“Don’t you know? Blind boys can’t cry.”

“Good one.” The boys bumped fists.

The cornered boy felt utterly helpless as he was backed against the wall. One of them raised their fists but before he could punch him, Hannah suddenly dropped down between them, grabbing hold of his fist.

“Whoa, what the fuck? Where did you come from?” They jumped back, startled.

“Asgard.” Hannah answered, flatly.

“Move out the way, this isn’t your business.”

“Dude, that’s Thor’s daughter.” one of the bullies realized.

“So? I’m not afraid of her.”

Hannah looked back at the boy behind her. “You okay?” she whispered.

He nodded.

The lead bully took advantage and swung at her but she grabbed his arm, surprising him. “Bitch, please.” she scoffed, rolling her eyes. She twisted his arm behind his back and stepped behind his knee, forcing him to the ground. He cried out in pain.

“Hurt this boy again and I’ll break your wrists? Got it?”

They nodded and she let go, shoving him with her foot. They scrambled away like cowards with tails under their legs. She had to admit it felt good finally using some of the techniques her uncle has tought her.

She turned to face him. “It’s okay, I won’t hurt you. What’s your name? I’m Hannah.”

“Zander.”

“Hey, Zander. Why were they teasing you?”

“I’m blind.”

“Oh.”

“Thanks for saving me. You didn’t have to.”

“I know.” She smiled. He smiled back. She couldn’t help but notice how cute he was. He had messy black hair and freckles dusted across his cheeks and nose. His lashes were a mile long. His eyes were a milky white but they almost glowed. He was rather skinny and wore ragged clothes.

“I was just about to go home and have dinner. Care to join?” She paused. “Maybe after a bath?”

“W-why are you being nice to me?” His voice was frail and it broke her heart.

“Because being mean doesn’t help anybody. C’mon.” She offered him her hand again and he hesitated. She was the only person he knew that showed him any kindness. Her hand felt soft and smooth as his fingers curled around her own, the boy realizing that she truly meant no harm. That moment he swore his loyalty to her. She saved his life and one day he swore to save hers.

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

going off the back of that post that i reblogged last night about being a virgin/not dating/not having had a relationship by your 20s should be normalised and not shamed.... i thought I’d make a separate post bc meh anyway.

but yeah going off that post, I hate how when I was 17/18 and 18/19 when I had guys approach me on facebook for sex/a relationship/to date etc the question i had the most from all of those men (who at the time were in their early-to-mid 20s) was “are you like waiting for marriage or some stupid fucking bullshit for losing your virginity? like why the fuck haven’t you slept with someone yet? you’re 17-19! you’re obvs broken and let me/us (the us part was when it was 2 dudes, one trying to set me up with his friend) fucking fix you! what the fuck?” and then obviously that rant devolved into my typical point of “you should’ve fucked someone by the time you were 15!” bullshit rant that all of these men rattled off after the marriage/virginity question.

but no. i’m not waiting for marriage to have sex/lose my very non-existent purely social construct virginity. no. i’m not waiting for it to be “special” bc I know a lot of losing your virginity is MEANT to be awkward and funny and uncomfortable, unlike all the media around it making it seem seamless and perfect half the time.

but you know what I’m waiting for? a person that fucking respects that, in a sense. a person who doesn’t fucking think their stupid fucking mostly good-for-nothing genitals (ok in these cases it obvs a dick) will magically control me and “make you (me) into a real woman who loves real dick, real men, and real sex” which is something that “I’ll give you sex lessons in my car” guy literally said to me in 2014 when he was angry at me for not having lost my virginity by 18/19. im waiting for just like the bare minimum respect level that SO MANY MEN fucking refuse to fucking meet that it makes me fucking sick.

warning: this next part mentions suicide/self-harm.

like y’all I went through a lot with my stalker constantly harassing me with his “will you fucking hurry up and fucking consider that wonderful weekend of sex down the coast, so that I can be the first to have your virginity???!!! (and also so that I don’t try and kill myself, you selfish bitch!)” act. like why in all honest fuck would I give it to a guy that consistently threatened me with his suicide/generally threatened self-harm each time I refused to touch him? why would i give it to the guy who made me terrified that he’d punch me in the face if i ever called that bullshit out or generally criticised his behaviour in any way, shape, or form???? why would i give it to the boy who DEMANDED in first two days of knowing me, that i “hurry up and get on the pill so that I can fuck you!” and then followed that up with refusing to use condoms and then the “we’ll get married & have kids one day bc you’re girlfriend material” line, as if he was going to trap me at 16 with a kid to be his baby mama, and then never let me go to uni etc bc i obviously had to be stuck with the kid while he fucked off and fucked around with other girls.

like y’all 16 year old me mentally read my stalker for fucking FILTH each time he pulled his bullshit acts. she knew that he was abusive/manipulative/controlling etc. why the FUCK would she give him the satisfaction of “being the first to fuck you (her)” like she was some gatekept special unicorn or other fucked up shit???? virginity is used to control women by these creepy manipulative men. and the men mentioned in the first half of this post all were like “like yeah he sounds fucking yikes, but you should’ve just fucked him anyway; to be normal and to not be a fucking stuck up, frigid virgin bitch like you are now! you should of just given the guy a chance!!!! 🤬🤬🤬🤬 maybe he would’ve treated you right if you fucked him and gave him what he wanted!!!! lower your fucking standards!!!!😡” like no????????? and y’all are really going to excuse suicide threats/self-harm threats and other violence towards women, over a woman not having lost her virginity yet???? what THE ACTUAL FUCK IS FUCKING WRONG WITH YOU?????? you are MOTHERFUCKING TRASH and you need to FUCKING LEAVE.

then yes there was the less yikes clear braces guy at catholic school. but all the same. 14/15 year old me DID NOT LIKE HIM in that way at all. I didn’t want to fucking touch him, because everything about him disgusted me (which was super fucking rude I’ll admit, but yeah).

but why the fuck was she expected to give up her virginity/have a relationship at all etc with a boy that she NEVER had feelings for???? why was she ALWAYS dismissed (typically more often by male students, but also by some female students and then eventually teachers) when she said she didn’t like him???? and even after she fucking dumped him???? WHY THE FUCK IS IT SO FUCKING HARD TO BELIEVE GIRLS/WOMEN when they say that they DON’T LIKE and NEVER LIKED someone?????

but other than that, why was I expected to give myself to him??? I had boys who always said to me “I bet you’d love licking the shit out of his braces. yeah get that nasty shit out of there for him with your tounge... I bet you dream about it” and other vile shit about this guy’s psoriasis etc, and other shit like that for 3 straight fucking years..... and then those boys fucking wondered why i’d fucking slap them and storm out of fucking class.... and then they always pretended to act all nice after it. why the FUCK was i expected to endure that?????

this is the relationship where the WHOLE year group pressured me into it (or at least I felt super pressured by my entire year) bc even the other half of the year started to harass me about it. whenever i told anyone to fuck off about it, they’d just push it harder. it was a fucking mortifyingly awkward and awful relationship where i never answered his texts.... where he would spell my name wrong although I was his “best friend” (although yes autocorrect but you wouldn’t over sight that in a text to your girlfriend, right?) and where I constantly faked sick or totally ignored his advances for dates...... by actually going over my friends houses, instead of going to the movies with him.... and then when he moved schools at the end of 2010 I felt like it was my fault bc I’d dumped him???? so he’d lost a good friend after that??? idek man teenagers suck lmao

but in the whole story about clear braces guy, I think you can see the underlying thing there was that i OBVIOUSLY wasn’t ready for a relationship, and honestly I don’t think this guy was either..... considering that when he asked me out over the phone he seemed awkward about it I suppose.... like we’d been pressured into FOR 3 YEARS of constant harassment from our year group..... so he felt like he HAD to ask me out finally. and then when he made it “facebook official” i gagged... and then snapped and then yelled at him. i was fucking livid. i cringed at the couple selfie he took of us at the end of one PE lesson after the “fb official” disaster. it was a fucking nightmare lmao.

can y’all see that this SHOULD NOT HAVE FUCKING HAPPENED AT ALL if we’d just left been left fucking alone to be friends that talked every day???? like yes he had his story of having a crush on me since the start of 2008/year 7, but I always felt nothing like that for him. EVER. we were just two metalhead friends bonding over parkway drive and marilyn manson and emo kids bonding over adtr and other bands which everyone else was into anyway.

like I did feel sorry for him in my class bc no one would sit with him, bc he was a bit weird (the braces thing didn’t help him either). he talked to me too bc most of my class was scared of me and my very dramatic screaming matches with teachers/emotional outbursts that would get me sent out of so many classes for most of year 7. but i always, ALWAYS saw us as just friends. basically it was just my group that believed that I didn’t like him (well eventually) bc they always got up and moved away whenever braces dude came to sit with me at at lunch/recess. like my group was embarrassed for me or something???? idek man.

but yeah. my point with braces guy is that why fuck should I have been pressured into that??? and ESPECIALLY why the actual fuck did it have to be a fucking whole year group level of sustained harassment for 3 straight years, where on every fucking level I WAS FUCKING IGNORED by everyone????.... and where that sustained harassment made me feel as though if I’d said no, i would’ve been called a selfish bitch/whore/slut bc teenagers are dumb as fuck. like even teachers started pushing it from time to time by 2010. i fucking hated it. why should a teenager be harassed ON THAT LEVEL FOR THAT LONG while still being invalidated..... and then still be expected to have a good view of relationships and sex exploration after that???? like it warped my views so much.... and then gave me a big part of a horrible fucking year long depressive episode in 2011..... and also gave me a weirdly obsessive and deathly obvious crush on one of the very popular pretty boys who had pushed me into that relationship anyway.... especially when that said boy gave me a flirtatious comment when I was “going out” with braces boy. like how the fuck is any of that healthy???? why was I expected to lose my virginity to someone I never had feelings for in the first place????

so yeah. this is my view on why people never having had a relationship/never had sex/not lot their virginity by their 20s should be a more normalised thing not to be shamed for...... and why teenagers should NEVER be harassed to have relationship that they don’t want, fucking period. just relationships in high school are fucking awful.

[csockets]

Prompt Challenge With Friends

I invited my friends, @bluemoonfantasiesii and @mahi-does-some-art, to join me in a writing a prompt posted on @write-it-motherfuckers‘s lovely blog~~

WIM, thank you for all your hard work!! I’ve always liked the prompts you’ve posted and sometimes I’d get inspired but I was never crazy inspired, you know? But until I saw “darling really” and there was such a sassiness that I couldn't help but like and I just, really wanted to writing something to go with it!! Low and behold, I did write something and I got to read my friends work in the process!

So, many thanks to Master WIM! Please enjoy my work under the keep reading line!!

The Prompt Used

Note: The characters  and the location: Loystin, are of my own creation! Azben Katrina is my OC not actually me! Adalant and Marcie are twin sisters. The Baboon King is a creature; an image I picked up from Google, used for reference then named it such because honestly, the creature looked baboonish lmao. Also, the world just might be it really is im sorry lmao heavily inspired by my sudden obsession with MXTX couples and the Xianxia novel genre. Any other questions can be answered through reblog, reply, or an ask!

Warnings: Minor blood and gore, profanity, possible same sex flirting, violence and probably more but im not too worried so *shrugs*

Adalant swore immediately.

“Why the fuck are we here?”

Azben grinned, tapping her chin with an elongated nail.

“To do a lil fun.”

Adalant growled, glaring heatedly at the huffing warrior.

“But you were sworn to ho--”

“Lalala, I can't hear you, lala--”

“You--”

“LALALA--” She laughed loudly, leaning back to avoid the swipe of Adalant’s bat, nail head plucking at the fabric of her robes. She took a step back and straightened, amused at Adalant’s ruffledness.

“House arrest. I will get in trouble.” She said edgedly, sharp as she turned away and made for the forest ahead of them.

Azben huffed a breath, catching up to Adalant’s side. “Yea, but leave it to me! I have a plan~!” She smiled and winked, bumping their shoulders affectionately. Adalant shied away, hissing angirly, swinging her bat to rest on her shoulder, trudging forward, not making an effort to actually lead her friend back. While Adalant and Azben were on equal footing for almost anything, Azben had her beat in quick wits, her need to make jokes and ruffles feathers and rub them the wrong way, the desperate need to make chaos everywhere, absolutely being the clown was Azben’s job and talent. Adalant sighed and let go of her annoyance at being tricked once more, especially tricked into getting Azben off the estate.

She glanced at her partner, watching her eyes crincial with laughter in the corner, green eyes dark with mirth, looking ahead. Her lips were constantly pulled into a smile, large and bright, yet teasing, maybe a half-smirk if you wanted to look at it that way.

“What are we hunting?” She asked, becoming eager for the fight ahead of them, suddenly excited by the thrill that fluttered fleetingly in her chest.

“The Baboon King.” Azben said idly, like she didn't just suggest that they take on a dragon level disaster that was claimed by Adalant’s sister two days ago. Adalant swallowed and closed her eyes to pray to her sister, asking for forgiveness for her foolish friend. She opened them to a large tree root.

“Okay.” She said quietly, straddling the large tree root to slip onto the other side, rolling her eyes as Azben made a show of flipping into the air and landed into a crouch, back arching as she quickly straightened with the grace of a feline. Azben glanced her way and Adalant could feel the burn of her stare and faintly, Adalant could see Azben raise a brow.

“Not curious--”

“No, not really. You probably promised her a lap dance for later.”

There was a deep breath and Adalant closed her eyes once again as Azben gasped dramatically, an obvious tilt in her voice as she whined, as if she had been wronged.

“How dare you! As if I would stoop that low for- for a beast hunt! You should be ashamed of yourself!” Azben cried and pouted, bottom lip rolling out cutely, all red and wet. Her eyelashes glittered with tears and the way her green eyes sparkled with light and her brows furrowed with gentle lines, Azben gave the image of a kicked puppy, sniffling quietly and blinking rapidly, as if willing the tears away.

Adalant snorted.

Azben crossed her arms tightly across her chest, huching her shoulders. She glared at her yet still completely looked kick. Honestly, Adalant’s chest swelled to offer her a pat on the shoulder and a few words but Adalant also knew it was a way for Azben to get to her, so Adalant could only rub faintly at her chest to dull the ache with a frown.

“You’re my dearest friend, sister!” She huffed, “Yet you accuse me of improper behaviour and breaking regulations!”

“Which you owned up to and even said you’d help me avoid punishment.” Adalant pointed out and maybe, she should have questioned the glint in Azben’s eyes that broke her ‘kicked puppy image’ but Adalant was too focused on balancing on the log across a ravine they had found after a few minutes of walking. She crossed without much thought, Azben’s whole licked-puppy image fading to her nonchalant look, walking across the log without a care, long and loose braid mused in the wind as a draft blew up. She visibly shivered and pressed her robes against her thighs, frowning.

“These things are so long yet I still feel a breeze, what the hell.” She grumbled, dissatisfied with her family’s winter clothing.

They continued on, walking through the underbrush and over roots, Azben animatedly chattering away, poking fun at Adalant and taking an interest in the small fungi and large blooms of winter plants, blue and white petals, purple mushrooms and black vein like roots that wiggled at their boots as they passed. It was as the sun rose to the middle of the cloudy sky that Azben finally hushed, quieting to a seriousness that befitted the beast up ahead, target of their illegal beast hunt.

It was also then that Adalant started to smell the heavy musk of sweat and freshly turned soil, sniffing experimentally at the air for a real scent. Her nose wrinkled as iron flooded her nostrils, salt and green odor with the stale scent of disturbed still water. She felt the air next to her shift, Azben’s nail skittering down her sleeve and making a circle at her elbow. Straight ahead? She glanced back and nodded, pulling her bat from her shoulder and readying herself. She slowed her steps and made her stride longer, shifting forward and squinting ahead. Azben shifted through large leaves, her frame disappearing from sight, her tail a slithering snake as it trailed along.

Adalant waded through thick undergrowth and vines, swinging under a wide and heavy vine that hung low but too high for her to easily cross over. Adalant listened and found the forest devoid of sound, an immediate sign to a disturbance but faintly, she could hear a few birds tweeting away.

The blood from before was way heavy in the air as it clung to her body, probably masking her scent and even Azben’s strange brand of ‘smelling me is like smelling a very fragrant flower in a summer heat’ scent. Maybe it was a deer of sorts? A large animal from the irony yet musky warmed fur smell of a long haired creature.

Sunlight shone heavy upon the clearing she peeked into, blinking blindingly at the sudden touch of brightness. The clearing was small but stretching, medium rocks set into arches that towered over her, and strange statues of sorts, grey and black in colour. White flowers grew, pretty and dainty. Yet, her eyes only fell onto the massive beast sitting, its back to her.

She dared to not breath the curses that waterfalled into her throat, her breath caught at the sheer height of the King. Muscles was the first thing to come to mind, then berry red because its back was probably a brick wall with iron plating, bulging and bright red with white stretch marks. Its arms were thick, a white tail languidly flicking in the grass, white and grey fur a mane with black streaks. Knees poked out from its flanks, knee caps with a crusted look to them. Her eyes widened in bewilderment when hands with talons for fingers threw a bone back, Adalant’s mind now registering the tinged red skull that seemingly looked up at her from her feet. She swallowed her gasp and ducked quickly, feeling the bone sail way past her head, her hair picked up in the wake of the force of its power.

Its hand was wide, large, easily able to crush her head within its palm alone, talons looking like jagged rocks, black with a violet light from the sun above. Its muscles flexed and she was amazed at the sheer fear that gripped her heart tight, lungs painfully cut off from the air she desperately needed. Adalant didn't dare to straighten herself, listening to the King grunt and the cracking of bones as they splintered and the slurping sound that made her stomach flip.

Azben wanted to fight this thing. The thing that could easily crush their skulls, dismember them and eat them. Her heart already sung with fear from its back alone. Imagining its face wasn't the brightest of ideas and she swallowed painfully through the tightness of her throat. Yet, she found herself easing forward. Remembering all the strategies her and Azben had planned for beast’s of this magnitude. Her bat was held tight in her right hand, chest taut as she approached.

She was hiding behind one of the many rock arches when Azben finally appeared again.

And appear she did. Quite literally.

She appeared above the beast, arms crossed and her own talons prepared for an attack, a faint glow of green around them. She was silent as she fell, the sun blinding. Adalant watched the beast look, because he wasn't stupid, quite the intelligent beast, his hand blocking the sun but she was still a dark shadow to him, light flowing past her form and Adalant’s feared dulled to a shallow burn in her stomach.

The thrill of the fight came forward as Azben came down, talons raking through its mane and tearing through its shoulder and half its face, its roar of pain deafening as her body leapt forward into the beginning fray, her bat pulled back and cutting through the air.

She could only grin maniacally as Azben’s snarl of pleasure fitted between them, dark and sadistic in their first attack.

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The sun was falling when Marcie bounded out from the tree tops, her growl of anger overshadowing their laughter and they both squaked in indignation, crying out as their arms were twisted behind them and Azben whined as electricity crackled to life in her ankles.

“Adalant Kuygetsa of Loystin and Azben Katrina of the North, you will be sentenced to three months of copying the family rules and attending the stables! Azben, you broke house arre…”

Adalant glared once more at Azben, her cheeky grin too big for a fool in trouble.

Under her sister’s list of broken regulations, Adalant hissed her accusation, “You said you’d help me avoid punishment! I trusted you,” She whispered and could only falter in her anger and betrayal when the dragon woman winked and purred,

“A horrible idea darling, really.”

And how Adalant screamed when she was refused the right to bloody her friends beautiful face.

[aenslem]

What do you think about Adam and Lilith?

im kinda not sure why you ask ME what i think about them cause ya know… i already said i don’t ship them  idk if you saw it but anyway I don’t think about them at all lmao but now i have to??/ i guess to answer this huh

i tried to answer to it a few times already and idk how to do it without going into much details or write it so i don’t get 1246 messages of how horrible i am for doing it just because i ship something else??? like, you ok? so here i go writing a lot which has 0 sense and idk you asked you get it

if you followed me since 2018, since i started watching caos, you would know that i don’t like the way adam was introduced in the show. at all. I am fine with adam being there, i have nothing against him and him and lilith together, even though i ship madam spellman, it doesn’t mean i automatically hate other ships and i kinda feel like that’s what everyone thinks while throwing stupid asks in my inbox or just writing about madam spellman shippers in general out there. 

the show itself stated (and i already mentioned it somewhere here) that mary wardwell lives alone, that she is alone, that was right in the first episode. no adam was mentioned before, nothing indicated his existence at all. so yes, when they said there will be mary’s fiance it was like “what? what the fuuuuck?” so this is the main issue i have with adam being there. if they, at least once, slightly, mentioned his existence - i would not throw tantrums about adam :D

and you know what? it took few episodes, a lot of time when you have just 9 episodes in part 2, so i don;’t think writers did not know what to write in part 2 and came up with this idea AFTER part 1, as we know it’s all just s1 and most of it should be written or at least the main ideas of it should be there in the beginning, if it was something small then yes, but it was not small thing, if so, then i think they just don’t know what they do with characters and what to do with them now, and we can get any possible shit in part 3 and 4. i mean, they have to have some kind of an idea of where they go with main characters…

and while yeah, i can excuse this with “this is caos, when they did something right at all???” but i should not, writers should do it so we don’t have such a plotholes. 

and if anyone goes here with: if you don’t enjoy don’t watch i will find you lmao 

i enjoy caos, i hate it but enjoy :’D it’s difficult 

so, to adam and lilith. 

adam himself is… meh :D he could be more, but he was there just to make lilith’s character deeper, he was… a tool. ok, i always write something is “meh” but never explain what does it mean. i mean he is not worth of my attention, he is there but i don’t care, he was not interesting enough for me to like him or hate him, he is just there. i just don’t feel anything towards this character… if he was something in the show without lilith, then maybe i would like him? yeah, he was nice and all, but also was not?? i did not like him kissing mary just because they are in relationship, even if you are in a relationship it doesn’t mean you go and kiss the other person when they clearly don’t want it. on the other hand he really tried to be nice, dinner and all, he at least bought flowers lmao at first i was really like ready to hate him because i will never stop going about it - he never existed before! and appears from nowhere. but somehow he was not that horrible to hate him :’D some scenes were funny, some were just to make it clear what lilith thinks about something like marriage, can’t remember but i guess he said back then that they will not do anything she is not comfortable with - which is like GOOD, you dude grow up, thanks. but i am glad he was not there to have funny scenes only. 

also, yes, lately i am so tired of hetero shit on screen that anything which is hetero is automatically OH FOR HEAVEN’S SAKE - AGAIN??? so i was not expecting anything here, only hate towards it all :D but i guess, since i was like that, that is exactly why i did not hate it. not good enough to love but i was not expecting anything good, so whatever it was - it was not bad. it was funny in some scenes, mostly because michelle gomez has incredible facial expressions and also, you can clearly see - she enjoys playing with another human being. oh poor thing, give michelle people to play with :’D 

as someone who is here because they love michelle and lilith, i look at adam from the side of how he affected lilith. and again, he would not be there at all without lilith, he would be nothing in the show, he would have nothing to do, he was just a tool for another character’s arc. I loved seeing her like that, not entirely, but most of the time, like she was not doing shit for dark lord, was not preparing herself to meet him, she was just drinking tea/coffee, doing school job, sitting peacefully, i loved seeing her smile. not that mischivious one, or that one where you realize, that’s it, that woman’s gonna kill me bye bye :D but that warm smile, let michelle gomez smile more!

let her play female joker

i mean no, not that kind of smile but it’s not a bad idea :’D dc take note

if adam and lilith would become a thing and dark lord would not kill him, i guess i would not care for the ship, i would not be against it, it would be just there. not my type of a ship… like there’s lois lane and clark kent and i don’t give a shit about them, they are there and let them be, they don’t touch me, i don’t touch them lmao but i do realize how much lois means to clark, so yes, i do realize adam means something for lilith, and i don’t erase it because i ship something else, there’s this thing… idk what it’s called, it’s when you ship something and ship another thing also, or just don’t hate it because you ship the first thing. aham, good thing by the way, ya all could use it.

there was this theory here, can’t remember who wrote it tho, that adam never existed at all and it was all dark lord’s plan to see if lilith is still on his side or something or torture her, good one, that would be such a great if it was real in the show, cause that would explain why he never existed before. and it would not erase her growth that we see, that soft (sOFT?) side of her, that domestic mother of demons/queen of hell side which walks on heels in her own house in the middle of the night to drink some water :D. it would be unfair to her, but dark lord already killed adam and made her eat him, so what could be worse?  i really did not want her to suffer that much :( she deserves so much better that what she gets… 

honestly, life is unfair to lilith so much, she was there all the time for dark lord, she did everything for him and he did not even hold his promise, he just gives the throne to someone who doesn’t even want it and clearly doesn’t deserve it, just because you are a daughter of the king doesn’t mean you deserve the throne. lilith really worked for it, she earned it! she deserves the crown and the throne. she was there for lucifer for so long and he just uses her… and once she gets something nice, something good, it’s taken away so brutally! so yeah, if adam never existed and was just dark lord’s manipulation of lilith, then yeah, it’s much worse but again, he already made her eat adam… none of other characters get so much shit in this show. if they make lilith suffer more i swear i will buy ticket and find them all and i will go to them with a chainsaw. 

anyway, i saw people going miles writing how madam spellman shippers are all like: lilith never loved adam for real. like i have not seen those shippers myself but somehow i saw everyone else writing how bad MS shippers are… like yes, we have idiots around, but which ship doesn’t have such an idiots? like dude, why do you even care? ship your ship and be happy lmao same goes for everyone, stop fucking fighting over something that doesn’t even exist. canon or not? why do you care, it’s all fiction in the end. just because your ship is canon doesn’t allow you to tell everyone else to shut up about something that is not. can we all just ship whatever we want and have fun??? like, if you can’t laugh at your own ship - then honey, you have a problem. like, i will be the first one making shitty jokes about madam spellman :’D wait, i already do it.  you can love something without being too serious, it can bring you joy and happiness, but you don’t have to ruin it with all the shit. 

be smart ffs everyone: IGNORE WHAT YOU DON’T LIKE, block it, scroll down, stop spreading hate. 

and ya know, if you say that YOU DON’T WANT TO INSULT SOMEONE/YOU DON’T HATE IT BUUUUUUUUT… and then go miles writing how you hate it and insult someone doesn’t mean that doesn’t count as an insult, just because in the beginning you stated that you don;t want to insult or you don’t hate it. you do! i don’t really remember what it’s called but it has a name…  

anyway

i can’t say she loved him, he was nice to her, he tried to make her happy, but i don’t believe in love which happens so fast, and events were going really fast in those parts. so i think she enjoyed that there’s someone who cares for her finally, and she cared for adam for sure, she liked him, he was someone who finally was good to her, something that did not happen for a loooong time. so yeah, taking it away from her was really unfair and i hate everyone for it.  but loved? not sure. bUT she was totally ready to give it a chance.

also, don’t comment, it was my opinion and i don’t need a conversations about anything here. you asked you get it. don’t throw your opinions here, don’t reblog to add what you think, make your own posts for it. please.  

[lercymoth]

In short: White fascist asshole pretending to be a 'black man / immigrant to the UK', capitalist scumbag who doesnt care about people in need, possibly a neo nazi. Long story:

I’ve been looking at his page for months and I have come to the conclusion he’s either a white racist dude posing as a “black man / carribean immigrant to the UK” or he’s just the living incarnation of Uncle Ruckus. If you take a deep close look at his blog, you’ll see him reblogging and sharing shit you can’t imagine any black person saying. I’m not saying  all black people think the same way, obviously, but last time I checked 0.0001% of black people justify police shooting unarmed black people with “Which race (black or white) do you think is more likely to commit a crime? I’ll wait, liberal.” Let me explain:

I’ll start off with the smaller stuff. If you look at whitepeopletwitter’s tumblr page, you’ll see a ton of right wingers always coming to argue and fight, and I’m pretty sure the majority of them are white (not to mention, conservative America is a very largely white demographic). siryouarebeingmocked is literally like every right wing white dude on this site, going around looking for a fight, (he even keeps fucking score of ‘who has the most points’ in the argument lmao). I searched his name on tumblr and found a  bunch of people calling him out for that

Now obviously, just because he's right wing doesn't automatically mean he isn't black, but don't worry. It gets better.

You keep looking at his blog, you find some suspicious stuff. Like, he always talks about leftists being 'authoritarians' or some shit like that and then just casually reblogs this.

I like the implication that if an authoritarian says they want you dead, you tell them to go chew glass and that alone makes you a ‘mega nazi’ lmao. I’m pretty sure I once saw him reblog a post where someone said they wanted nazis censored online because they support genocide, and someone (who im pretty sure was on the same side as SYAMB) accused that person of... being a nazi? For wanting them censored? I can’t find it because tumblr’s search engine is trash, I can hardly even find some of my own specific posts when using it, but I think this should suffice for proving he’d do something like that: There was one time he was literally defending Stonetoss. You know, that neo nazi alt right political comic artist. The one who literally made a comic denying nazis killed Jews in the holocaust and tweeted “If someone calls you a nazi, your response shouldn’t be “no I’m not”, it should be “So what?””.

Mind you, all of the above comics were made by Stonetoss and were literally above these replies. They’re just ignoring all the nazi shit and defending it, even though it’s clear as day he’s a nazi. Also if you look at his blog there’s a suspiciously large amount of stuff on his blog tagged #nazi. If you wanna see the thread: https://siryouarebeingmocked.tumblr.com/post/186734171316/source#notes

Anyways, the last thing that is probably the only thing I should mention because it pretty much proves he’s most likely not black. After looking at his blog for a while, I see a ton of stuff on his blog of him and other people getting super pissed off when someone says something negative about white people, but I rarely, if ever, see him get mad when someone says something of similar nature about black people. In fact, he posts an awful lot of anti-BLM content. I don't doubt there's some black people against BLM for whatever reason, but I doubt they're as against BLM as he is, trust me, there is so much anti-BLM content on his page.

Oh, and there was the time he was defending cops killing unarmed black people. Long story short, he saw someone say "police have been killing unarmed people per capita more than anyone else", so his response?

"Did you know that people often try to kill other people with their bare hands and feet, or reach for a deadly weapon to attack others? Now, which race in America is most likely to be violent criminals? I'll wait."

DLet me reiterate: This is a supposed 'black man/carribean immigrant to the UK', and he:

- Acts like most white right wingers you see on this website

- Defends Stonetoss

- Super against BLM

- Defends cops killing unarmed black people

- ^ Did so by confidently saying black people are most likely to be violent criminals in the same tone as someone would say "Checkmate, liberal."

If you want to look at that post, here's a link:

https://aridara.tumblr.com/post/640865721742655488/aridara-so-siryouarebeingmocked-being-the

Anyways, now that you know who SYAMB is, if you ever see something reblogged from him, or he just happens to be one of the reblogs in a thread on that person's blog and he's on the same side as the poster... That should say enough about what kind of person you're arguing with, because they're on the same side for a reason.

[fair-fae]

You know, I'm not a drama person, I don't like it, but it came up on my dash so much that I kind of had to read it. All of that nonsense could've been avoided if you didn't even take it to the public. Judging people for THEIR characters that THEY made and can do WHATEVER the hell they want with them? Oh woo ho good job, you're so popular for taking the "barrage" of it. No. all it did was prove that you're a D-bag and I've got a nice, long list of people to block now and avoid contact with.

Okay, anon. I haven’t bothered setting the record straight with most of this shit, because I know folks like you will continue to believe what you want to believe and hear what you want to hear, just like you’re doing now. But I’ll bite. You’d think all of you getting onto your soapbox about how you shouldn’t judge or attack others wouldn’t keep talking shit about a situation you know nothing about and/or are terribly misinformed about. So I’ll enlighten you with what actually happened.

A while back, the person in question got into an argument with some people on the RPC, trying to tell them that their interpretation of the lore was wrong. Rather than leaving it at that, when he effectively got shut down there, he proceeded to take a screenshot of the conversation and post it on his tumblr, complete with a rant about the people who disagreed with him, their opinions are so wrong and awful, how dare they disagree with him, etc. essentially playing the victim when he was the one to try to badger them for their opinions in the first place. He also left their names, icons, signatures, etc. in full view.I responded and told him he probably shouldn’t be trying to harass any other people about the lore considering his own character concept (thus, you would think, making my opinion on his character pretty clear). Why? Because it’s fucking true.I don’t give a shit about the lore or whether anyone follows it. Probably every single one of my own characters at least bends the lore. But at least have the self-awareness and respect for your fellow role-players to say “yeah, my character breaks the lore” or not get your jimmies rustled every time someone says “oh, yeah, his character is lore breaking.” You wanna break the lore? Cool. Own up to it. And if you do break the lore, don’t try to force everyone else into following it–especially when you can’t even admit you break lore and instead stretch the lore to try so hard to justify your entirely lore-breaking character concept. Don’t try to heckle people for presumably doing what you do but won’t admit. Granted, these people weren’t even breaking lore anyway, which makes his insistence that they were even more ridiculous.So after some excuses about how he was trying to start some intellectual discussion or something and not just drag these people despite featuring their identities and primarily just complaining about them throughout the post, he admitted he should have at least edited out their names and apologized. Great! You’d think that should be the end of it. I didn’t have anything against him at that point, but also had no desire/reason to associate with him, so I didn’t. A couple months go by. Some post comes across my dash. A girl in the community is doxxing her online ex-boyfriend in a callout post about him for unexpectedly breaking up with her because she “thinks” he was lying to her about serious issues and “believes” he was cheating on her. Because I’m a loud and opinionated person, and because that’s some heinous thing to do, I spoke out against it (via a post on my own blog without naming names, mind you, because I’m not going to hijack someone else’s post with negativity or call them out by name). The girl found it, assumed it was about herself, flipped out, and then of course I was the bad guy for saying doxxing isn’t okay. And then the person in question joins in. Not even to discuss the topic at hand, but to dredge up the old drama about how I was so mean to him and he did nothing wrong, etc. A pretty crappy 180 turn for a person who apologized and made it seem like there were no hard feelings, but whatever. Someone saw that he obviously didn’t like me, and seized the chance to try to talk shit and spread rumors because they knew he’d give them the platform. They sent him some anon about how I hate women (lmao). And of course, he published it, with no skepticism or disagreement, only more commentary about how I’m mean and awful. I went to respond, only to find myself blocked. So I went on about my life because it’s not that big of a deal, but hey. The moment you talk shit about me, especially in a venue where I can’t respond, especially facilitating some lies and BS rumors, especially after leading me to believe we’d made amends–you aren’t off limits. You don’t get spared niceness and politeness. Is that mean and petty? Probably.¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I’ve never claimed to be a nice person.Now, to the horrible, awful thing I did to make this “public.” Fast forward to yesterday. I’d kept my mouth shut and left him alone. In a section of the RPC that doesn’t get a ton of traffic, largely because you have to make an account on the website and then manually opt in to this specific forum, several of us were discussing an absolutely awful person which is an unrelated story I won’t get into. Someone asked something along the lines of, “Are you guys talking about Underaged Looking Allagan Voidsent Chimera Demon Guy?” I responded with basically “No, we’re not talking about Underaged Looking Allagan Voidsent Chimera Demon Guy.” And that was it. We moved on with the conversation because he wasn’t who we’d been talking about. His name, tumblr, server info, in game race, class, etc. was all never given. No identifiable information beyond a very brief and tongue-in-cheek description of his RP character comprised of words taken directly from his own wiki, tumblr info, talk of his own character and RP posts.Someone saw the conversation, and based on our intentionally shitty description, was able to accurately guess who we were talking about and send him an anon to tell him about it. You’d think that would be pretty telling about his own RP, and this anon’s interpretation of it. He answered the anon in a long rant about me that featured both my in game name and my tumblr handle. In case you need me to spell this out for you, he went public with it first. I’ll also remind you that I was blocked, so I wasn’t/couldn’t be following him, and I was not properly @tagged in this rant, so I never would have seen it unless someone told/linked me, or someone I follow eventually reblogged it. And I honestly can’t imagine the level of narcissism it takes to write a long personal post full of wangst and victim-playing every time you hear a person had something negative to say about you or your RP character (not even by name–and by picking words from his own descriptions of his character), especially a person you have had issues with in the past and who you openly shit-talked yourself prior. Who does that? Lord knows my blog would be overflowing. Not everyone will like you, especially not people you jabbed at first. Especially not with an off the wall RP concept. Especially not with you trying to pass that concept is lore abiding and just ���unusual.” Especially not with you trying to tell other people they’re “wrong” about the lore. Especially not with your character being a squicky, walking fetish and immortal jailbait. And that’s not even touching other things people have told me about this person that rubbed them the wrong way. Move on with your life.However, I found out about the post thanks to the OP himself when he unblocked me just to send me the link to the post and then before I could even read/respond to the post, sent me a barrage of IM’s still playing the innocent victim which is grating enough on its own but also included him straight up lying about ever posting/saying anything about me, insisting he’d done nothing to me, had nothing against me, this was so out of the blue and uncalled for, etc. When I pointed out this wasn’t the case, that I had seen and read the posts firsthand because blocking me doesn’t prevent me from seeing his posts, he began to lie instead about the contents of said posts and pulled some gaslighting bullshit about how I had just “misread” them, all the while either willfully or coincidentally not seeming to understand anything I said to him (I mentioned him publishing the anon about how I hate women at least twice and the response was always “I never said you hate women!!” Well no shit). He kept insisting that I had “gone behind his back” and that if I had a problem I should “say it to his face” despite the fact he’d had me blocked and that I’m not a douchey enough person to try to contact him despite that, and despite the fact that he had “gone behind my back” and not “said it to my face” twice now prior, and had done just that with his post about the folks from the RPC as well.He also insisted that the tumblr post was meant just to innocently “bring the issue to my attention to clear things up” despite me having no way to see it on my own unless by coincidence, and despite him proving to be willing and able to send me IM’s instead, which you’d think could render the need for a public post moot. When I pointed this out, he promptly deleted the post, lest anyone else see through his bullshit to what he was really trying to do.After my initial response to his wall of IM’s, he sent another wall this time with more insults and accusations, and promptly blocked me so I couldn’t respond. So yes, I made a vaguepost, I know, how awful, how dare I. A vague post vague enough that only someone who had seen his post, or who heard about it from him otherwise, would know who and what it was referencing. Until he responded to it himself, that is and unblocked me again to send me more angry messages to which I responded by permanently blocking him instead because this game of blocking and unblocking sure was getting old.Cue his charming friends sweeping in to tell me to eat a dick, making false accusations against my RP partner and I, sending me threats on Discord, telling people I flashed my breasts for money, etc. And the other person? The one who brought him up in the first place who I had only been responding to? Whose name he was given, was aired in the same public post on his blog as mine? As far as I know, she hasn’t gotten any hate, probably not a single message. And I’m glad, because she shouldn’t get any, she doesn’t deserve it. But at the same time, sure seems sketchy that the person who did the same exact thing as me–and who did it first–has not provoked anyone’s ire, not even been messaged. The public post in reply to the anon who named her, even, was aimed 100% at me. Now isn’t that funny. It’s almost like this was an excuse for people who already had beef with me to try to take shots at me and pretend it was justified. It’s almost like all you anon keyboard warriors don’t even know how this started or what actually happened.And now I’m going to talk about something else. You cannot do “whatever the hell you want” with your character. RP is a two-way (or more) street. There is a real person behind each and every character. These people are looking for fun just like you, and are every bit as deserving, and your fun shouldn’t impede on theirs. We are all allowed equal parts of fun.So when people play their weird ass lolicon/shotacon/pedobait characters, who is having fun? What if the other person in the RP was sexually abused as a child and you’re dredging up terrible old memories for them and making light of their pain? What if they’re a parent worried for their child, or worse, the parent of a child who’s already been abused? What if they’re an actual pedophile and seeing you RP this is tempting them, making them think they’re desires are normal and okay? Hell, what if they’re a goddamn ordinary person who finds it creepy and uncomfortable?What if the fetishized, futa ERP avatar is interacting with someone who is trans or nonbinary or intersex IRL? What if it’s triggering them (in the genuine, real sense of the word)? What if the walking affront against the lore character talking about being an Voidsent Half-Primal Garlean Spy in the middle of the Quicksand is ruining everyone’s immersion–particularly when they refuse to play along as others respond realistically IC and try to kill them or arrest them or kick them out? What if the OP af infinitely-stronger-than-everyone-else-around-him character is making the RP unfun for every other RPer involved because their characters can’t do anything but get beaten up or bow to his whims unless they stoop to godmodding or suddenly beefing up their own character?People can and will judge your character. Those judgments are usually best left kept themselves or quietly shared between trustworthy friends. But when your character trespasses on the OOC fun of the role-players around you? Sorry, my guy, people have every right to speak up. And all this nonsense? All this nonsense was a small handful of people who were already pretty nasty showing their true colors and getting told to pipe the fuck down. A pretty good outcome, if you ask me. So, please, block me, anon. My life will be better without idiots like you in it, and the same probably goes for anyone else you intend to block. Your nameless, ignorant, anonymous presence will not be missed–or noticed, for that matter.

[newmainolddead]

1) why did you choose your url ?

sdkjf so i have a reason for my old url but for my new one it's literally just that i had to make a new main blog (tho i just made a sideblog and use it as main lmao) and couldn't think of a url but just didn't want to put any time into thinking about it so i just went new main, old dead and now im not changing that ever again dsfkl

2) any side-blogs ? if you have them, name them and why you have them

this is a sideblog xD

nah but i also have a writing blog that i don't really ever use (@somerandom-writingstuff (curse you somerandomwritingstuff for taking my ao3 url /j /lh sdfkgh)) and @lgbtqpixelart lol

i also used to have at least two or three more can't remember specifics but deleted them at some point, but one was an ace side blog that had like 30something reblogged posts and a blog where i put like random mandalas and patterns i made and one blog silveranon

3) how long have you been on tumblr ?

according to postlimit.com sometime in 2017 lmao

4) do you have a queue tag ?

why would i have a queue tag i announce if i queue shit and am not actually active in the next few days/weeks and i honestly never post regularly anyways so if i don't throw 250 reblogs at once it's my queue dksfjl

5) why did you start your blog in the first place

because i always saw fandom stuff from tumblr on pinterest. yes, that era

6) why did you choose your icon/pfp ?

i always keep the default pic xD i would never trade my newmainolddead default pfp away <3

7) why did you choose your header ?

no

8) what’s your post with the most notes ?

apparently this one with 189 notes but that's cause whovi grandbeb and i were talking on it dskfjl (thought it would be the i love bread one tbh sdkfjlg)

also i apparently have 18130 posts, since when? also that's 30 posts more than ten times of the posts i have on my official main dkljg need to make three posts there dkfljg

9) how many mutuals do you have ?

uuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

10) how many followers do you have ?

tumblr says 170 but tumblr also counts blocked people for some reason so it's 110 apparently and exactly 100 of them are from last year lmaooo (also some people follow me from two accounts and one person from a stunning four accounts lmao) also i have no idea what any of y'all are doing here???

11) how many people do you follow ?

oh god last time i checked over 1100 and that was a while ago but i tried clearing that out but yeah

1231 huh need to find three more people lol

12) have you ever made a shitpost ?

this is tumblr sir everything is a shitpost

13) how often do you use tumblr each day ?

listen it's either the whole day or nothing there's no in-between

but im only at 18k reblogs so not that much

14) did you have a fight/argument with another blog once ? who won ?

uuhhh unless you count like that time terfs and radfems found my post where i blocked them and they still kept replying cause tumblr's weird with blocking from sideblogs i don't argue with people i got my confrontational girlfriend for that (love you darling 💜)

oh or that time someone wouldn't like read my reply at all and vague-post about my reply

15) how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts ?

fuck. them.

i don't care how much i agree with the post or how much i need to spread them around, i would rather make my own post than reblog these, it's shitty af

16) do you like tag games ?

yah, i never really get around to doing them (am procrastinating dfskjgh) but i kinda do like them lol

idk i love answering questions dsklfjg

17) do you like ask games ?

i mean if i ever got asks about them yeah would be fun i love answering questions

18) which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous ?

eli and misty and socks

19) do you have a crush on a mutual ?

nah ew most of my mutuals except like three or four? are minors

also im aro lol

(unless being in a qpp with one counts? love you darling 🥺💜)

20) tags ?

okay so everyone i'd tag already has been tagged by the grandbeb or is the grandbeb soo dsfkjh

i do not know dskflj

check-in tag!

thank you. @bitnotgood28 for the tag i appreciate it <33

1) why did you choose your url ?

i thought it was clever tbh

2) any side-blogs ? if you have them, name them and why you have them

nope i have no idea how they work

3) how long have you been on tumblr ?

well i’ve had this account for a while but i didn’t start actually being active until probably three to four weeks ago?

4) do you have a queue tag ?

i... do not

 5) why did you start your blog in the first place

i was banned on twitter so i finally figured out how this stupid but lovely app works <3

6) why did you choose your icon/pfp ?

pride month!! rainbow!!!

7) why did you choose your header ?

again, pride month. and larry because they are my loves

8) what’s your post with the most notes ?

this one comparing the umbro shirt to the blue bandana <3

9) how many mutuals do you have ?

um i’m not sure

10) how many followers do you have ?

umm i think almost 80 and idk why they follow me but they do and i love them

11) how many people do you follow ?

247

12) have you ever made a shitpost ?

ummm no? idk osjdidhd

13) how often do you use tumblr each day ?

probably too much

14) did you have a fight/argument with another blog once ? who won ?

i havent i’m afraid of confrontation :)

15) how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts ?

i’ll reblog it if i feel like it

16) do you like tag games ?

yes i love being tagged in things pls do it more

17) do you like ask games ?

yeah

18) which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous ?

all of them seem tumblr famous to me lmao

19) do you have a crush on a mutual ?

not romantically but if anyone would like to be friends i’m down

20) tags ?

um um @exzouis @whaleharry @quickpauseinconversations @thehornoftheunicorn @halosanchor (sorry if you’ve done it already no pressure!!)