#also people dont need to give their life story for you to judge if they actually totally could be being activists

[rouge-the-bat]

i feel like some people forget that not everyone actually can help/engage with issues going on in the world. its great to encourage doing it when people are able to, but its not an obligation everyone needs to abide by or theyre a terrible person.

a lot of people have their own issues, and dont even have the energy to expend for activism. not everyone is well off enough to even be taking care of their own life properly. guilt tripping just causes more undue stress for those already suffering.

[libbee]

Some Astro Observations 🪐

1st house stellium really do have an in-your-face presence. They can be attention seekers without appearing like one. They can be assertive on others without realizing it. Self-reflection is pretty hard for them because they justify everything they do as the natural personality that they cannot change. If others have a problem with them, it is them that need to adjust.

Sometimes, I really do internalize that life is pre-written. "Free Will" is a feeling which is only just a feeling like happiness and anger.

10th house stellium may not always have successful careers or are overachievers. But they can be really great people's person. They may know how to sell their persona, their personal transactions are also quite professional because of how calculative and opportunistic they can be.

Saturn in 8th house does not always give long life. It can give long disease though. It can give life situations where the solution is delayed beyond tolerable limits.

2nd house placements really do value valuable things whether it is possessions or people and even ideology. These are people that may keep touch with all extended family because every person is an asset to them.

Scorpio risings are quite extreme in their persona. Very talkative to very quiet. Very goofy to very irritated. They may be a rollercoaster.

One time I saw a native being very authentic about their life problems and financial weakness. They were too much honest about their problems telling in detail everything wrong in their life. Wow, does this person really trust me so much? Turns out they are a Cancer stellium. This detailed sharing of life story was actually a subtle manipulation to appear harmless and innocent, so that people dont notice their mind game and cunning flavour of personality.

Being in the good books of every single person is essential to a Libra. Their self definition depends on how other people tell them who they are. It is important that people tell them good things about their personality because a Libra can't stand appearing like a bad person.

8th house moon too have extreme emotional drives. This can lead to addictions to things that give extreme pleasure such as food, music, entertainment, social media. They feel everything to the extreme and nothing less.

Capricorn moon really suppress their emotions in order to bear responsibility and appear strong. Their vulnerability can show in other ways that connect the psychic life to physical life such as being obese which shows suppression of feelings.

How we project our own mental images on others and judge/analyze them. But if we withdraw the projection, we realize it was actually our own personality that we saw in others. Even the very bad and worst and evil qualities that you notice in others but refuse/fail to see in yourself.

If you have 7th house lord in 8th house, do warn your partner that they are going to undertake lots of responsibilities and unpredictable ups and downs on your behalf and as being associated with you. Relationship is not just romance and flirting. It is life changing because you become responsible for the well being of someone for a lifetime. You stand with them through thick and thin. And 8th house gives challenges like anything. Though the goal is to tame your mind and neutralize the feelings. Pain or pleasure, all is same. Praise or insult, all is same. 8th house challenges can make you a deep thinker and deep observer who goes to the root of everything. You will realize that it is the bad people and the misfortunes that are the actual eye openers to the truth of life. "But the right way to wholeness is made up, unfortunately, of fateful detours and wrong turnings." ~Carl Jung

[fruitstopia]

┊❛ 𝖽𝖺𝗉𝗁𝗇𝖾 𝗄𝗅𝗎𝗀𝖾𝗋 𝖺𝗌 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝖼𝖺𝗋𝖾𝗀𝗂𝗏𝖾𝗋 ❜┊headcannonsᵎᵎ

A / N : ( x little!reader - no pronouns mentioned ) , requested by @lottiesboy hiiii!! i adore your blog!! so u can imagine the squeal i squelt ( not a real word ) when i read your ask !!! i hope u like this <3

━━ daphne kluger, an a-list celebrity starred in various movies & even directed some . many people find her as self-centered n arrogant & some people like to call her mean names but to you , you just call her momma.

━━ your momma. momma who always makes sure to spend time with you as much as she can. her schedule is almost always full-booked , cancelling one of her interviews or red carpets just to spend time at home cuddling with you is her number one guilty pleasure

━━ momma! daphne who can ' t go on long without her baby so she often brings you to work giving you your own little space in her trailer , staying at da hotel while she ' s off doing 'big momma work' , keeping her company when she ' s doing 'hair & makeup'

━━ "momma so preeeeettyyy " chuckling as her thumb gently circled your cheek " thank you baby, you're too sweet "

━━ momma! daphne who draws a heavy line when it comes to you & her private life , never forcing you to come to work with her , never spared the press any details about you except bragging about how lucky she is to have you in her life , always asking you about how you feel on doing certain things or meeting certain people , never judging you and always putting you first.

━━ momma! daphne ' s ideal way of destressing is to wake up with you jumping on her bed , making you pancakes , spend the day however you want , giving you a nice warm bath , ordering takeout , read you a bedtime story then do it all again the next day

━━ buying you so many toys of your choice , just SPOILING YOU TO THE BRIM , there ' s no 'have you been good lately' you can do no wrong in her eyes.

━━ momma daphne is not a strict caregiver but she ' s very firm about what you eat , spoonfeds you fruits & veggies , a different menu everyday to ensure your body get the nutrients it needs , bringing a kiddie bottle for you everytime you go outside so you dont get dehydrated but minimum sweets for you :c

━━ i don ' t see her as an everyday cook nor as a baker but sometimes she bakes pre-battered brownies with you just for fun

━━ doesn ' t establish any rules but do clean up after you play , one time she stepped on one of your blocks and made you sit on the corner for like fifty seconds

━━ not an outdoor type of person but she likes to take you travelling , just the two of you

━━ when youre in an older headspace she ' ll become this fun - playful momma , she likes take you to the park , the beach & play pirates with you at bath time

━━ but if you ' re in a much more younger headspace , she ' ll take things slower , never leaving you out of her sight , does everything for you n tickles are more on da merciful side .

━━ when you ' re in baby-mode she ' d be so clingy agahagahsbejssksiw , always having you by the hip , brings you everywhere! sits you down on counters / tables while she ' s doin stuff , trapping you on her lap bcuz she doesnt wanna let you go :((

━━ " b-buhh mommaaaa-! wan ' tedddyyyy " " i knoww babyy but momma don ' t want you to go "

━━ she loves you more than she loves anything else in the whole entire world , you are her rock & the light of her life.

ꗃ also i have a wip fic for her ! (got too carried away) so look out for that^^ thanks for reading <3

[bleue-flora]

thinking about cdream and autism, do you think his habit of jumping and pacing around while talking are him stimming? I do that too so Im wondering if it could be something like that for cdream?

I also wonder how the rest of the server would react if they discovered cdream's autistic. I think some characthers like ctechno would be like "that was obvious" other would dont give a shit bc they hate him and other would like "this explains some stuff actually".

Im sorry but now i find the idea of cdream finally being put into a trial and ctechno and cpunz and maybe cranboo being his lawyers and defending him like "Your honor, my client it's literally neurodivergent and also a homeless lonely woof, and a 3yr baby" to the rest of the server. I find that idea funny idk why like cdream and his defense fighting bc like "omggg techno im not homeless and we have the same age!" "dude dont break characther, we're trying to save you!!" ranboo is just wondering what went wrong to get to this and punz is planing on stabbing the wilbur judge bc "who put that man in charge?!?"

-Cleo

Oh for sure, I’ve actually talked about it in my essays about c!dream being autistic [post] and later in a discussion on adhd [post]. I think since it’s not like we can see c!Dream fidget as a Minecraft character the best representation we can get is him bouncing around. :)

How would the rest of the server react?… hm I’m not sure… would they care? Would it matter to them? It’s hard to know, when you have a group of people who will throw someone in prison or watch him lose his last life, it’s hard for me to think they’d give a damn. I just don’t know, I’ve only ever told friends and family and some others who I figured would give a positive response, never to like an enemy. And usually I would do in advance so people have context before I do something they dislike, not during or after (something I think cc!dream might have screwed up on - though to be fair he did make a comment in a podcast so…) as it then doesn’t feel like I’m trying to use it to excuse my behavior. In other words, I think when, as in at what point in the story, people found out he is autistic, makes a difference. If for example they only found out later around the time of Doomsday I don’t think it would change many of their perceptions of him. If they had it before a lot of the conflict began then that might be different. Like for example, would people allow Wilbur to target him if they knew, hard to say but it would be interesting. It also matters how they find out and how much they know. For example, I tell people about what it’s like for me, so that I can then ask them to give me some grace when I need it and give me a chance to explain my side if need be. I tell them so I can then ask something of them, so the question is would Dream tell them in an effort to ask for their grace. Or would he just tell them and then just assume they would give him the benefit of the doubt. Because it’s also important for him to communicate what’s going on, if there is a disconnect happening because of autism like - me getting upset because I’ve gotten too overstimulated by the bright lights or clock ticking, then I need to tell people that’s why I’m losing it not because of anything they’ve done. Assumptions are communication’s biggest enemy or more commonly phrased, “Assumptions are the enemy of true understanding” or as George Bernard Shaw says, “The single biggest problem in communication is the illusion that it has taken place.”

Knowing of autistic diagnosis is step one, step two is communicating that and what it means. Now that you and the other are aware you’re speaking a different language you need to do the translation. To continue an analogy I did earlier, now that you realize you are talking about an American jumper and the other person is talking about a British jumper, it’s time to take the time to explain what an American jumper is and learn what a British jumper is so than you are on the same page.

This would be the same for c!Dream. The best way for his diagnosis to mean anything without people treating him demeaningly (which does happen) is for him to communicate. But both parties have to be willing to listen and understand where eachother are coming from. The autistic person has to put aside their logic to realize that that isn’t always how other people think, and the non-autistic person has to put aside their emotions and feelings of the situation to hear the other person out. (This btw is the problem with the conversation with cc!Tubbo and cc!Dream, cc!Tubbo was not willing to hear cc!Dream out or change his mind. And if that’s the case, discussion is unproductive because the person isn’t willing to hear you out and possibly change their mind or perspective).

In other words, there are basically four outcomes from c!Dream telling people depending on when he does 1) they disregard it as an excuse that he’s using to justify his actions 2) they take the opposite approach and baby him (I think this happens I wouldn’t know it’s not been my experience) 3) it makes no difference in their opinion one way or another or 4) it provides the scaffolding for a bridge of understanding that for the members willing to form that bridge are able to better community and understand c!Dream. But again this only happens if it’s caught, highlighted and both sides are willing to talk it out. Though diagnosis is also useful in the real world, because now that you know you speak a different language, you can start to learn the other one to understand them better. Because then you can be aware of what’s happening and better adapt. And these skills can come from experience, books, therapy, videos and stuff that can help you become aware of how non-autistic brains work to better communicate with them… anyways I’ve strayed from the point haven’t I, oops…

[zolica-ao3]

NEW CHAPTER NEW KUDOS FOR U!!!!

no but really if i could leave kudos after every chapter i absolutely would (and i thing many MANY other readers would agree with me)

now onto the main event:

SO MUCH FLUFF SO SWEET SO COZY aaaaa i want this little family to have everything good in life cause they deserve it. also oscar stop being flustered every time your boyfriend talks about you challenge: failed again.

the mars reappearance again!!!! i love them SO MUCH they are slaying. and the old sapphic lady with her knitting project and broken english T^T thank you sm for not forgetting about our queer elders!!! it's so nice to see them pop up from time to time even if its just to give some reassurance with their presence and kind words.

and the way our lil family integrated into the neighbourhood's community? i'm melting from sweetness i swear. the way the neighbourhood is ready to preserve and protect landoscar and luka,,, they way they dont judge just accept,,, we need more people like that irl. the world needs more people like that irl.

at the end of the day, i think ch30 really capures the essence of one thing: it's the little things, small kind acts and warm smiles in life that matter the most. the everyday things, moments of kindness. they might be short but they are so so important!

i loved it, thank you sm for writing it! can't wait for the next update!!!

please take care of yourself, i hope you have a lovely day 🫶🧡

🥺🥺🥺 Lux, thank you so much! This is really sweet! Again! 🧡

Oscar is still getting used to the idea that people might like the two of them being in a relationship. He expected a lot of backlash, has been bracing himself for it. And now everyone is just really nice about it.

It's confusing!

A little Mars moment indeed hahaha! They do be slaying, getting a kids room ready at the office within a day. As Oscar expected from them, since they are efficient AF.

Hahah! The sapphic old lady is definitely based on the old people that visit my store all the time. Crazy stories, lots of over sharing, but super kind as well. Love them 🥰

The world, our world definitely needs to be more accepting. I hope to inspire a bit of kindness by writing a (maybe too) perfect world. Community and kindness is the key to a happy life 🧡

Thank you so much for your ask! I loved it! I hope you like the next chapter too. 🤗

[a-writers-blurbs]

A bit of a disclaimer ig...

Hi guys,

This is going to be a long post that sounds slightly rant-y & I'm going to apologize in advance for that. I am going to make exactly ONE post (this one) about this topic, and I will not be discussing it further or posting about it again. I will also not be responding to any negative comments but deleting them instead.

These are my personal opinions and [...not *trying* to sound rude, but there's no other way to say it...] a bunch of random people online aren't going to change my opinions.

My husband is an artist. He does canvas painting & draws comic books (think anti-hero dark horse). I paint furniture (kinda mini murals) & make chibi drawings. I've also been writing fanfiction since the late 90s.

That being said, this post is about AI art.

I get the controversy, I do. But I've heard this argument before, when fanfiction became more popularized. The whole "You're just stealing someone else's work & changing it up to call it your own" is (at its core) the same argument against AI. The only difference is that instead of you yourself changing it, you're allowing a machine to do it.

But I digress...

Over the last week, I have received several messages about my use of AI art. First & foremost, my stuff is appropriately tagged as AI.

Second, I don't sell or advertise these pictures in any way. In fact, none of them have been posted anywhere but here (as of 6/1/24).

Third, and probably most important, I DONT MAKE THEM FOR YALL. Fanfiction & fanart are a HOBBY. It is something that I do because I enjoy it and it destresses me. I DO NOT do it, hoping I'll get 1000s of followers, views, likes, etc. Every story I write, I print & bind for my library. I will now be doing the same with my AI pictures.

I have a condition that has a symptom called Maladaptive Daydreaming. Because of this, my head is full of an alarming amount of excruciatingly detailed & unrealistic scenarios and images. (To the point that it affects my everyday life).

I can't necessarily recreate the images in my mind without help & the only way to get rid of the random scenarios is to write them out. So I do write them. And now I use AI to help me get a BASE image. I do still go in myself and edit/redraw parts of each generated image to fit them to the characters I want them to represent. I do thus using digital art.

Granted, there's a whole other group of people that think digital art isn't real art... but that's a discussion for another day. Anyway...

TLDR:

I use AI art & will continue to despite some people's dislike. I will continue to delete any and all comments left publicly that are malicious, rude, or condescending. My stories & are are for me. If others enjoy it, great, that's freaking awesome. If not, there are literally thousands of other fanfic authors you can follow instead of me.

Again, I apologize, I know this sounds rude. But I need to be 100% transparent on this one. I am extremely grateful for every folllower & reader I have. I won't lie & say comments/positive interaction isn't a serotonin boost because it is. Yall also give me more motivation to actually complete a story vs. moving on to the next idea. But I'm not going to change the way I do things to appease someone I don't even know.

This is one of the few things I enjoy doing in my free time & have been doing it for 25 years now, and in the last 5 or so years ALL fandoms have gotten so toxic its hard to enjoy anything anymore. Last time it got like this, I simply stopped posting. I'd rather not do that again, but if people (who aren't even following me) don't leave me alone, I'll probably have to do it again, sadly.

But for now, hopefully this post will give people with different opinions to go ahead and block me from their feed. We're not going to agree so instead of wasting energy arguing, let's keep the peace & agree to stay off if each others feeds.

I won't judge you on your idea that you feel it's your duty to harass people over their choices & you won't judge me for enjoying something. 😉

Thank you for listening. Love yall & and I hope your day is blessed!

[oatlystrawberryicecream]

Noticed that Jason’s loneliness shows itself when he trying to get in others’ heads. His interest in others’ capacity for the same kind of ruthlessness he’s grown into made me wonder how you think that would relate to the last ask you had about Batfam members who would reach out to him or understand him. For example, Barbara Gordon surrounds herself with people who keep her from going to dark waters. Do you think he would pick and prod at those vulnerabilities to bring her down to his level or do you think his respect for her would keep him from doing that? That interest is what I think would put others off him. Stephanie. Cassandra. Dick.

thank you for such an interesting question!

jason and loneliness: i think he has a strong preference for solitude and that he is actually pretty good about reaching out when he wants company. the ways he reaches out are often dramatic and unhinged, and he will lead with whatever indirect message he thinks will get his foot in the door before he reads the mood and determines if he is safe enough to open up. so it is a toss up whether he will get the companionship and support he wants. but he is good at starting the convo or conflict, whichever it turns out to be this time. he is like a cat that knocks your shit over and then when you scold them jumps on your lap and starts purring and making biscuits.

his enthusiasm at others’ capacity for darkness: everyone acts like jason is uniquely violent but he knows these people are no better than him. jason is discerning in his application of violence! i think regardless of whether he killed garzonas or not he learned what unintended consequences are from the aftermath (the dad’s revenge quest) and so he is pretty deliberate and calculating about that stuff now. all that being said the appeal in seeing other people act on their ruthlessness is to get it to click for them that they dont have anything over him. not everyone would have made the choice to kill captain nazi but everyone can feel ok about him being dead. jason would like for people to get off their high horse and admit it. he has always felt unfairly judged going back to being a kid taken off the streets and dropped into old money luxury, he can never shake the indignity of it, it is just for a different perceived flaw this time. plus like it speaks to the traumatized little boy who as a matter of survival needed to know how the people he was forced to rely on would respond in the worst case scenario. so of course he wants to be prepared for what level of danger he’ll see from them when the tides turn and he’s on the opposing side.

would he try to expose that dark tendency? maybe. i think if something arose that called the more upstanding comic book morality into question he would observe and take note. in some situations he will pointedly remark about how ineffective the dubiously legal vigilante shit is. he is a mouthy guy and his convictions are solid so he cant stop himself sometimes. he knows that not everyone is him and not everyone could live with the choices he has made but he doesn’t think that gives them a right to condemn him. it does not mean they can impose their perspective onto him or expect him to cede and conform for their sake.

for all that we love jason and connect to his story he is an off putting asshole at times. there is a part of him that wants to drag people over to where he is but i think he would rather keep them in his life than be right about them. for me a jason story doesn’t work if he has to constantly overcome his own worldview and ingrained morals to match up to what others want him to be. if it is gonna work i need more flexibility and open mindedness from bat adjacent people.

i dont have much in the way of specific character thoughts here other than he really does let his insecurity take a front seat when it comes to dick and ik it is an elseworld but in dc vs vampires when it was revealed dick was the vamp king jason’s reaction was very telling, also like brothers in blood.

[ditzydreamsss]

hello everyone

im gonna rate judge slash talk about every game i have on my phone becauseeeeeeeeeeeeee im procrastinating

1: Cookie Run Kingdom i first downloaded it around the time the sonic event was ending. but i took a really long break then came back so my team isnt as strong as it could've been :[

2: Cookierun: Tower of Advantures ngl i played it for an hour when it first came out and i've been afraid of the storage it'll take up ever since. (i havent opened it in a while=needs BIIIIIIIG update)

3: Cookiezrun Puzzle World im on level 312

4: Good Pizza, Great Pizza I forgot this game existed. i played it SO MUCH when i was camping with a lot of people this one time and completely forgot about it after

5: 2048 ngl this game is probably why i almost failed science last year (was playing unblocked version of this on my chromebook & wasnt paying attention)

6: Orbia another game i played a lot during that camping trip with a heck ton of people. stats (for mountains) progress: 9.7% (level 196) fails: 867 play time: 3h 59min dashes in a row: 80

7: Roblox i play creatures of sonaria. thats about it (also adopt me for nostalgia's sake also if you ignore everything ever it's a pretty chill game :D)

8: Titian Uprising the httyd game. its fun ig im stuck right now tho

9: Animal crossing pocket camp why do i have this i havent even opened the app once

10: Dash Tag yes i played animal jam for years before im semi-quitted atm i play this when i have nothing else to play

11: 좀비고 (Zombie Highschool) first school life game i played. i havent tried the magic high school one yet. i stick to School Life cause the 판정 for hits in wonky and i rage quit multiple times

12: Flappy Dragon i forget this exists half of the time. chill game

Now entering: rhythm games category

13: Hatsune Miku: Colorful Stage i hate this game sm i'd give it a 10/10 (theres been touch issues. its probably my phone though)

14: Arcaea interesting gaming experience. i suck at it

15: Phigros PHIGROS IS SO FUN AND I LOVE IT SM ITS SO ENTERTANING AND FUN ALL THE TIME THE NOTES GO WHOOSH AND BOOM AND SWOOP AND

16: Lanota I love it a lot but i havent played much cause i dont have the paid version

17: Paradigm: Reboot bro why are there notes coming from sideways WTF BRO WHY ARE THERE NOTES COMING FROM THE FUCKING CEILING

18: Voez i only played Cereberus in there. it's good game. combination of phigros and rizline kinda

19: Milthm wtf is going on where are did the judgement line (bubbles??) go what what what

20: Deemo i like the story :D its really chill. if you like piano music and also rhythm games then go play this.

21: Rizline i love it sm. i dont have full version :(

22: P.Muse my eyes died (flashing lights warning if you ever play this)

23: RhythmStar i have it just cause i like the remixed classical music into more rhythm game-y hyper music. gameplay is boring asf

24: KALPA havent touched it yet

25: Gadvia also havent touched it yet

26: MUSYNX also also havent touched it yet

gj, you escaped the rhythm gaming area!

27: Pokemon Quest it's chill. frustrating at times. i like pokemon. pokemon is my childhood. i love pokemon. i miss ketchup pack.

28: pokemon go when im outside. me when i touch grass (LIE. I WALK AROUND MY TINY APARTMENT IN CIRCLES)

29: Finch great self-care app! if you ever need a place to rant, that's the place.

30: Voidpet Garden i love the lil critters

31: I Love Hue when i have nothing, absolutely NOTHING to do

32: Tap Tap Fish i needed an afk game.

33: Bricky Boy repetitive, but if you need a quick game then yeah.

34: Zen Koi 2 very chill fish game.

35: Cardcaptor Sakura: Memory Key so. i also grew up on ccs (not as much as pokemon however. nothing can live up to what pokemon was to me.) so i was really hyped and happy when it was announced there would be a ccs game after the fandom being dead for 2ish 3ish years. my opinion? if you don't know cardcaptor sakura, you probably 99% wouldn't play it. but then again, it is early.

36: D....d..... Duolingo p..plea.....please......... dont burn my house down

[wabe3]

Sometimes I see things on this app and just stare in shock, I saw someone say (not exactly but basically) they where concerned for people who ship caitvi and their relationship standers........

MY GUY, DID WE WATCH THE SAME SHOW and I say this as someone who thoroughly enjoys caitvi, NO ONE IN THAT SHOWS RELATIONSHIPS SHOULD BE YOUR STANDARDS CANON OR NOT, ROMANTIC OR NOT

A brief list of why (I don't even need to add names cause you know who)

- you and your friends tried to kill her multiple times AND she also tried to kill you

- yall stop seeing eye to eye on your inventions and one instantly statrs regularly insulting the people and the place your from THEN TRIED TO GIVE CONTROL OVER THE ENTIRE CITY TO THE LITERAL KINGPIN OF SAID CITY. You die and even though you tell him specifically to destroy said invention HE USES IT TO BRING YOU BACK TO LIFE, THEN YOU GO COMIT LITERAL EUGENICS AND TRY TO KILL EVERY ONE AND ONLY THEN WORK YALLS SHIT OUT TOGETHER TO PREVENT MASS MURDER

- somehow one of the only slightly healthy ones, even thought it has a heavy overtone of using ones power over the other to manipulate him for your benefit, though I will say with this not even entirely sure she realised she was going this (her mums influence on her is stronger then she realised)

- you exploded some people, he tried to drown you, failed, you killed him, failed... kinda, THEN YOU SOMEHOW BOTH DIE BECAUSE OF ONE OF YOUR DAUGHTERS INVENTION

SO YEAH, I DONT THINK ANY OF THEM SHOULD BE YOUR STANDERDS FOR RELATIONSHIPS, PLEAS RAISE THEM IF THEY ARE CAUSE MY LORDY ME

(I say this with utmost peace and love to all these ships and characters, I adore this show and love all the characters their stories, how they react to the world around them and I litterly do not hate hate ANY of the characters in this show (like I dont really fucking like silco and ambessa IN the show, do I still love their characters, FUCK YEAH their interesting as fuck, but like I also whould like to slap them across the face real bad ya know) but like also THIS IS A SHOW people can like characters and ships they wanna like without having to be insulted or like morally check for liking them (except for the literal illegal ones or morally actually fucked ones (I say this cause a few days ago saw someone be confused why they where being judged for shipping vi and jinx..... INCEST MAYBE THATS WHY, Anyways)) LET PEOPLE BE, OK, THIS SHITS MENT TO BE FUN NOT ANXIETY INDUCING, PLEASE! Why do i feel like an older sister rn just trying to talk some sense into people, its funny cause im the younger sibling irl (i was going to make a joke about also not being a woman, which is ture, but i did grow up most of my life so far being one and also a sister and i feel like saying that without this context would not feel right, ANYWAYS, Gonna go draw now :D))

[thetomorrowshow]

hey man. I was just going through a bunch of my stuff from 2 yrs ago and remembered that I started reading your stuff around then! unfortunately, that was around the same time a bunch of crazy stuff happened, and my depression started. I started thinking about all the stuff I was reading from you, and it reminded me of how much you've gotten me through!

I remember how exciting it would be to come home from school on Tuesdays, knowing that another chapter would be waiting for me. when you went on hiatus, I marked the first Tuesday of every month in my planner and calenders, just so that I wouldn't forget to read whatever you had out when I got home. i would reread your works when I was having a bad day, I would even read them in school. I remember I had a document of some of my favorite works so I could read them in school since almost every website was blocked back then.

you also got me into writing! i don't write much anymore, but when I did, I would do it a bunch. I would stay up late writing and coming up with new stories and dialect. my older sibling even thought I should try to get one of them published! writing got me through some tough times, too, and helped me when I was down. I don't know if I ever would've started writing if it wasn't for you. you inspired me so much. thank you.

the first fan fiction I ever read was on this platform. I read a few, and some of them I quit halfway through. It was kinda getting to the point where I was gonna stop reading fan fiction altogethe. then I found your superhero au. at the time, only the first chapter was out. I didn't know how to navigate this site much at that point, but I did everything in my power to see if you had any follow-up works. I think thats when I created this account (my first one), just so I could follow you. you're the first person I've ever followed here. I figured out your posting on Tuesdays at five (for me) schedule and read all of the time. you definitely peaked my reading time. I don't know if I'll ever read as much as I did then ever again.

because you got me so into fanfics, you also introduced me to the ao3, just by having your link in your description. I started using the ao3 then because it was way easier to find fics there than here. it was through the ao3 that I met my best friend. they're the only person who has fully respected me and cared about me. without you I wouldn't have that. without you I don't think I'd have anyone right now. thank you.

one tuesday, I didn't have the time to read one of your works. I was pretty upset at the time, but it worked out perfectly. the day after was probably the hardest day of my life. I was so lucky to have just that one new chapter to get me to the end that horrible event. i cant even come up with words to describe how much you helped me through that day. thank you.

what I'm trying to say here is that you've done so. much. for me. you've gotten me through so many hard times and made so many connections for me. everyone has that one thing: a show, a movie, a book, an influencer, that they turn to when things are looking rough. something that can't hurt them or betray them, like anything they see in real life, in person. for me, that was you and your stories. you were my idle. and although I'm in a new chapter of my life, you and your works still hold a very special place near and dear to my heart that will never go away. I'll read whatever you give me until the day I die.

sorry for the long essay-ish ask that wasn't even an ask lol! I really didn't expect it to get this long. It also probably has a lot of grammar issues and some parts probably dont make any sense, seeing as im not going to read this over or make any corrections. I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable through all this, i dont mean to come across as parasocial or any of the sort, I just needed you to know how much you've done for me (and judging by the amount of people reading your works, I'm probably not the only one). you don't have to post this, especially if it made you uncomfortable in any way. I'm not asking for a reply, and I don't expect one. I only wrote this so you can see the impact you've made, even if it's small. my brother has been wanting to watch a movie with me for a while now, so I'm gonna do that now. who knows if I would be here, able to watch movies with my brother today, if it wasn't for you.

thank you.

I have been hoarding this ask for a very long time. Thank you, anon. <3

[technologyofspoons]

Title: Digging for Crows Tags: Kaz Brekker/Wylan - Polycrows - Wylan/Jesper

TW: Mention of Suicide,Mention of murder, Mention of Grape, Violence, Sexually explicit, Mild Powerplay, 

Description: Kaz Brekker thought he had every judge in his pocket. But it turned out one Judge has it personally out for Kaz. Now the King of the Barrel has been sent out to an isolated prison camp to dig holes in the desert and he's accidentally got Wylan Van Eck stuck for the ride. How will Kaz handle breaking them out, with a judge who wants to ruin his life brick by brick? All the while discovering unexpected feelings for Wylan who is in a newly opened relationship. AN: I thought I would share a snippet from the first chapter of the fanfiction I'm writing. I want to publish on AO3 once I get my invitation, so for now I'm uploading it to wattpad aswell. “Come on merchling, you know I dont give information away for free.” Kaz said, tapping the table expectantly. Wylan knew from the lightest spark in Kaz’s chocolate black eyes and the slightest upturn on his thin pink lips that Kaz was just teasing him. So Wylan reached over and flicked a sugar cube at him. It rolled awkwardly with a soft thud just inches from Kaz’s rested hand. Kaz lazily brushed it aside on the table with his gloved hand and it disappeared. “Not for a year or so.” Wylan finally said, inspecting where the sugar cube was only seconds ago. “There's a lot of trouble with the train lines. Lots of bridges over canals are still needing to be built.” Kaz nodded expectantly. He probably had already guessed the timeframe and just wanted confirmation. “But that can't be the only reason you’re here, Kaz. You could have asked in a letter, or sent someone to find out.” Wylan lifted his coffee up to his mouth and found that a sugar cube was now melting in it. Now his coffee was going to be too sweet. “I need you to get your bunsens and chemistry set out.” Kaz said. “I told you, I’m not doing that for you anymore.” He said putting his too sweet coffee down. “You don’t even know what it is for.” “It’s for you, that's all I need to know.” Wylan looked down at his light brown coffee and the slow dissolving flat side of the sugar cube. Kaz snickered. “After all these years, youre still so careful and distrusting. Good, it means you’re still not stupid.”  Kaz said. Wylan couldnt help but snort in mild amusement. Wylan had seen the worst of Kaz, the lighthouse still haunted him sometimes and the boat after Inej had been stabbed. But Wylan knew that the worst of Kaz was also a result of what made the best of him and why after everything, him and Jesper had still remained close to dirtyhands. Well, as close as you could be with Kaz. It still did not mean Wylan would just do what Kaz wanted all willynilly. He was trying to make something of himself, change the Van Eck name to actually mean something good. “I’m sure you have heard of there being a rise in nightphine. “ Kaz said with an unreadable expression. Wylan cringed and shivvered a little. He had heard. It was a mix of morphine and nightcaps. An illegal drug that would put someone almost instantly into a drowsy high state, then land them in a heavy sleep. If the dose was done incorrectly the person would be dead. There have been many reported cases of people using it for a variety of illegal reasons. Some people had woken up in unknown locations, their bodies and clothes discarded. Some brothel workers even waking up after it had been used. A few dead bodies were also found with the drug coming up in autopsies. It had originally been made for medical reasons, but as always, crooks had other ideas.   If you want to read all three chapters I have them here: https://www.wattpad.com/story/373844964-digging-for-crows

Soon to be on AO3 !

[silentstaresfanficandfanart]

what fueled you to write that fast?

I would need that help too

endless love ENDLESS LOVE FOREVER AND EVER

that is tos ay i write what i love and i love what i write and i try my very best to enjoy the process and have fun

do it often and youll get faster

have a rough plan in place or even an outline if you can

and you know that rush you get when you imagine your characters doing stuff in an amv or when you chat about them with a friend? you gotta jump into thew riting while thats still buzzing if you can!

plus it helps to have lovely pepole to encourage you, while its also VERY important to make srue not to prioritize ao3 comments or peoples attention over your enjoyment, as long as you can take that part in without working FOR attention and love you'll do great.

think of it like, Wataru

Wataru is doing his acts and all his amazing things for praise

as lovely as wataru is , hes very very sad and he's just trying to be loved <3 so even if he does an amzing job at everything he does, he's not happy unless someone else enjoys what he does! and that can trap you in trying too hard to gain others aprooval and forgetting what you yourself do!

another thing is challenging yourself, if you doubt yourself doing something big and scary like nanowrimo or actually completing an entire book can make the big scary thing not so bad. The important thing there to remember is that anything that can bleed, can die. That is to say, if you can 'cause damage' to somethings hp bar, you can defeat it as long as you keep attacking it! eventually it will fall.

you can write an entire book just fine, if you just keep writing it.

But you gotta give yourself an hp bar for the thing or it can feel overwhelming. personally i go with a "ask a question, answer it, and ask another question" style usually when im writing

usually i would say a good chapter length is about 5,000 words max, and then writing out an outline

for example

Eichi feels ill, why is eichi unwell?

reveal: Eichi is turning into a horrrible magical monster and keito has to become a magical boy to save him

resolution: keito becomes a magical boy and saves eichi!

question: what's going on and how is keito going to save the world from these aliens

(in this case the question kind of sets up the overarching primary plot point- having at least one can help a lot in storytelling but theres so many different ways to tell stories. i like personally really like the 'no conflict narrative' that some japanese stories have, not that they really lack a conflict but its great for slice of life things and can kind of be stretched a lot of ways i think its called Kishotenketsu

but you know, find a method that works for you but the most important rule for writing a lot fast, is to just have fun and be self indulgent, the hardest thing to do when it comes to writing a lot, is make yourself write at all after all, as long as you actually are writing something you REALLY enjoy and like writing, you'll want to keep writing. stay true and honest to yourself and if you hae ONE big scene in mind you freaking LOVE and dont erally want to write the rest you are tottaly allowed to do that. The difference between talent and skill is often passion.

Oh and NEVER. EVER. INSULT YOUR WRITING.

DONT BE HARSH. DONT BE CRUEL.

AND DONT JUDGE YOUR WRITING UNFAIRLY, INF ACT, TRY NOT TO JUDGE IT AT ALL ,JUST ENJOY IT. SURE ITS OKAY TO STUDY AND SEE WHERE YOU COULD IMPROVE AND GROW, BUT DO THAT BECAUSE YOU ENJOY WRITING AND WANT TO WRITE BETTER NOT BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU'RE BAD do it because you love writing and you want to love it even more and show it how much you love it by getting better <3 compliment yourself and your creative projects often

tldr: Do what you enjoy, never insult yourself, and remember to not push yourself to conform to others expectations and praise, but do praise yourself lots and lots <3 source: a lovely writer who enjoys it very much and can truly say they love writing

personally i got stuck in a huge rut by the way a few years back when my mom told me she struggled to get into my writing because i never finished anything and it took me a long time to finally work past that though she never meant anything harsh by it. It took facing nanowrimo to suddenly kick my love of writing back into gear. completing and sucessfully writing an entire actual book proved to me i could.

also on that note one more tip

writing an entire book actually isint that big a deal, its super exciting sure! you should celebrate it! but it's something we put on a pedestal which makes it seem superhuman to complete, but...it's really not. now ive written several books since nanowrimo last year, and you can really see just looking at my fanfictions how heavily beating that helped me. writing is FUN

writing can BE fun

the biggest thing ive ever seen stop writers is fear, shame, and doubt. Same with artists, or anyone else with any skills. love, love , love~ <3

just keep writing, keep loving it, and you'll find that even if you only write a little a day, youll eventually get your goals done <3 any mountain is climbable with patience time and love!

[coveredinredpaint]

hi! my name is rex too and i think thats pretty cool

anyway, i was wondering if you had any tips on dressing feminine but like,,,, also being able to pass? or tips on being confident enough to not need to pass?

heyy that is pretty cool!!

im gonna be honest with you, i never really managed to pass before starting t. there were like 5 times ppl gendered me correctly but after that they immediatly "corrected" themselves. the only person who didnt was a toddler, i hope hes doing great.

all the tips and tricks ppl gave out never worked for me, never managed to figure out why, im thinking it was mostly my voice.

so i got absolutely no passing advice for you, but i can definitely tell you how to work on your confidence and say fuck you to societies ridiculous expectations

(it turned out longer than i distracted, i cant give concrete advice apparently my apologies)

tw: mention of bullying and some mental health stuff but nothing heavy

before i start i will say that it takes time. it takes time to learn and let go of this need to fit in. to learn to do your own thing even if you have to do it alone. to grow and learn who you want to be or are.

first we need to understand that expectations of how we should act or dress or look, whether based on our gender or not, are absolute bullshit. like straight up made up.

step one is kill the cop in your head. every time you judge yourself (or someone else) for something, ask why you care about that. most of the time its cause you have been taught in some way that what youre doing is not according to "the rules". this can be for the smallest things, like when i get really excited and stim about something i used to feel embarassed because "men dont act like that". sometimes i still feel that way. its not something you can just get rid of, so its important to actively affirm yourself that what youre doing is okay and that you are allowed to do what makes you happy.

dealing with yourself is already a hell of a challenge, but other people, that something else. i hope you live in an accepting area and i have heard many stories of people are queer fully accepted for it. but often thats sadly not yet the case. surely isnt for me at my school. there are people who are gonna make you feel like shit, who are gonna call you all the horrible things the voice in your brain calls you too. you are gonna wish you were "normal" sometimes, even if you dont really mean it.

going back to normal? going back in the closet? letting go of the clothes that make my feel better even on the most dysphoric days? fuck no, i finally started to get myself, my life back, im not sacrificing that for some teens whos names i dont even know. so you turn it around, no longer "why do they treat me like that" but "how dare they treat me like that" if they kick you while youre down you better bite their ankles and dont let go. most people who bully people who are "other" are terrified of what they see in us. we are living proof that their belief of how the world should work is very wrong. they call you a fag and a tranny? you better come to school next day in the gayest clothes you own. they call you an emo and bark at you? you better be dressed even more punk the next day. they may laugh at you, yell at you, even record you or push you around. it doesnt matter, they hold no power over who you are.

but please do not try and carry this alone. dont let yourself turn bitter. its is difficult to be treated like shit for simply existing. even when it doesnt hurt as much as it did its still exhausting. find someone to talk to, whether its a family member you trust, a friend, a mental health professional or other queer people online. its important not to suppress your feelings. get them out, by either talking about them or writing or making art or music.

know that its your life and you can live it however the hell you want. be kind to yourseld, be kind to others. if you are not where you want to be to right now you will in the future. cant really call it a life if you didnt live for it. it will get better, you just got to keep going and keep fighting.

[weirdcat1213]

IVE MADE AN IMPORTANT (maybe late but idc) DISCOVERY

THE BEST QUEER STUFF THAT IVE EVER WATCHED/READ ARE THE ONES THAT JUST

DONT GIVE HOMOPHOBIA/TRANSPHOBIA A CHANCE

Let me explain

I love real queer stories ok? I love when they portray a queer character finding a real family or dealing with stuff I've dealt with. I feel represented and it's cathartic

With that in mind, let me tell you something: there's more than that in the life of a queer person. With time most stories turn into "I'm gay but what if people judge me/ I'm trans but what if people judge me for it". It makes sense for writers to do this don't get me wrong. It's a real thing and it makes people connect with the characters.

HOWEVER there's stories that say "homophobia? Never heard of her" and they don't mean it in a "this issue isn't real in real life so why would it be here" way. They mean it in a "everyone has moved from that in this world and we have other issues at hand" way. Moving the whole "people judge gay people" thing aside just gives the story more....freedom. The characters can still have issues in their world but there's just more space to discuss other things.

I'm gonna present 2 examples without spoilers.

Example 1 - Signalis:

The signalis creators mentioned a while ago that they agreed homophobia would not exist in their universe and that absolutely works wonders. We have cool lesbians in space and if [redacted] had a whole "I like a girl but....I'm a girl?" Other parts of her past would be weakened. [Redacted] is still othered by her peers but those reasons are more related to her personality, which gives context to the player and it makes it really rewarding when the player sees the little lesbian be happy with [redacted 2]. The couple is still fucked over by their government and their world but in a bigger way than "no girl kissing allowed". I actually loved to see them just vibing in space, loving each other and the little things they are criticized for in their world.

Example 2 - our flag means death:

Everyone is queer. The world of pirates is a strict one but they are dealing with so many stuff (class, racism, emotional intelligence, the britiah army) that gayness and gender are the smallest of their problems. Like their lives are in danger 24/7, who cares that those 2 guys over there are fucking? This one pirate could kill us all in a matter of seconds, who we are to not call them by their chosen name? And just like in Signalis, they are still oppressed in other ways but in the vastness of the sea they have freedom to love and isn't that neat?

This is cool for all the reasons I've said but also because it just doesn't dignify homophobes/transphobes and their presence. Their argument is stupid and dull and unreal so why pretend they have a good argument to start a discussion?

What I want to say is that queer stories don't necessarily need to touch on homophobia and transphobia to be relatable, real and good :3

[thetrashppl]

here's tavaris' overtly complicated relationship chart with all companions and a long ass draft explaining each that will probably be edited every week lmao

you've been warned

part 1 of the rambles under the cut

also feedback welcomed, as i have a lot to learn about all the characters still :)

WYLL: this is hard for tavaris to acknowledge, but he feels very small next to Wyll when they first meet. at first wyll's hero status awakens a lot of insecurities in him during their first weeks together, cause i doubt Wyll would approve of most of Tav's rogueish, thief-like strategies, and that makes Tav feel judged and kinda embarrassed since, at his core, he does respect and even admire heroes like Wyll. his own career as a thief wasnt so much of a choice, more like one of the very few options he was given. he's always loved stories about heroes and dashing princes, still keeps a few in his bag, and he knows Wyll is a good man. an amazing man, when he finds out how much he gave up of his life just for the sake of others. thats the first moment his misguided anger falters, sees Wyll for who he truly is, beyond the hero tales, and he doesn't really blame wyll for having to keep this a secret (he has his own) but tavaris is full of complexes he hasn't worked through, and he kinda refuses to give up on that anger even after this revelation. because he grew up as an urchin, feeling 'lesser', the more tav finds out about wyll's upbringing, despite his humble begginings and not being born into it, the worse those insecurities get this animosity is obviously one-sided, though, as wyll does disapprove of some of tav's actions, and he doesn't fully trust him at first, but in his case all of it is mostly justified, as tav is quick to anger the first days after the crash and wyll can tell tav doesn't have full control over his emotions, which concerns him a lot more than any petty thievery ever would (honestly he doesn't care that much, tavaris just thinks it's part of the reason why Wyll disagrees so often with his approaches). in lesser words, tav feels volatile to wyll. but, and this is why it's onesided, Wyll knows Tav has ultimately noble intentions for the grove, and gets to see Tav putting his neck out there in exchange of veeery little coin, so he can tell there's something greater under the nonchalant rogue impression tav might put up at first at some point Tav kinda snaps at Wyll for no reason, just all of his shit building up under pressure until he simply snaps at nothing. after some awkwardness, they both sit down and they talk. they talk a lot and tav opens up about his warped perceptions and slowly comes to realize how unfairly he's treated wyll, of all people. his apology is clumsy, as he still needs to truly understand where all that shame comes from, but it's enough to put them back on a better path. wyll on his part admits that this adventure might require more than one trick to get through it and that he's willing to look to the side sometimes so tavaris can do his thing, long as he knows what he's he's doing, their goals dont falter and no innocent person gets harmed in the process it never truly grows into an equal understanding between them, however? as tavaris thinks a lot more of wyll than wyll does of him, even coming to develop a little bit of a puppy crush, after they mend things up. and it's not reciprocated for no other reason than just, lack of closeness, ig. but tavaris tells wyll about how he'd sneak on roofs to watch dancing lessons through strangers' windows, so wyll teaches tav to dance as you would at fancy balls and masquerades. they make jokes about their matching eye trauma. tavaris finds out that the blade has a muuuch better, spicier sense of humour than he first gave him credit for, too, being one of the few companions to often join in tavaris and karlach's jokeful banters, astarion's, even. and ultimately, they're both sworn to protect each other, a promise they keep long after the nightmare is over

SHADOWHEART: at first tavaris isn't all that patient with her secrecy, mostly due to his own heightened paranoia after the accident triggered a lot of shit he had buried DEEP. shadowheart obviously doesn't appreciate his response when she settles these boundaries, so the relationship is tense at first once Shadowheart starts opening up he chills a bit, though he doesn't keep to himself that it all sounds a lil fucked up to him. doesn't give a shit about worship, doesn't know enough to care just, wow, does it have to be like that? shadowheart even if obviously defensive still appreciates the fact he's not rejecting her company after knowing the truth, just being forthright about his views on the matter, and obviously (from her pov at that point, naively) concerned about her wellbeing with tavaris being an impulsive gremlin sometimes and shadowheart being the one proper healer of the group, they spend a lot of time in the same group when exploring, and that time spent together and the trust that tav has to put on her when she has to heal him makes them grow closer faster than most other companions. shadowheart also finds tavaris hilarious once they get past the initial awkwardness (laughing both with AND at him lmao) so much so that she starts finding him a bit endearing they make it a habit to hang out at night sometimes, sharing a glass of wine together, as they both seem to be ppl that drink for escape or recreation, and tav also starts opening up to her about his own shit and regrets, cause after what she's been through and what she considers 'normal', he doubts she'd judge, or make a big deal about it, which makes it easier for him to open up. this closeness, something they're both not really used to, leads to a very awkward and clumsy makeout session one of those nights that they both instantly regret. if anything it helps them confirm there's no deeper feelings between them, neither an attraction deeper than friendly intimacy, just a very comfortable and accepting presence for each other. they still sit on each other's laps and are very cool with closeness and intimate gestures during those nights together, as even though they're both a bit stunted when it comes to emotions, it just feels safe and they both have seen a lot of each other by now to really make a big deal out of it. it's a clearly defined dynamic, to put it down shortly after that there's a bump or two along the way, especially during shadowheart's quest, before she makes the big decision, cause tav is not one to keep his opinions to himself neither filter them, and he has a lot to say while exploring the temple and about shadowheart's intensified faith in the face of the trial. in tavaris' run, she ultimately gives up shar. tavaris is there for her while she processes what happened and what is next, as best as he knows how, though he's not in a good spot himself at that point of the story (and the fact he failts to communicate this doesnt help the matter) but it's just bumps like that, what you can expect from a close, caring relationship between people that are still finding their purpose and facing so much at once. they remain very good friends after everything is over.

MINTHARA: unfortunately, cause i'd LOVE to explore her character, they're enemies and little else, though i can promise you, if we could save the grove AND keep minthara alive without bugging the fuck out of the game, tavaris would give her a second chance

LAE'ZEL: the relationship with lae'zel is something i'm still working at, cause there's a lot about her i have yet to see and read, but baSICALLY- at first it starts mostly neutral. tavaris doesn't know enough about gythyanki to feel like he can judge what still sounds to him like more blind faith, but that also means he'll often ask her to explain things about her culture, always curious to know more about the world (used to be a biiiig reader), which, even if it doesn't look like it, makes lae'zel feel less isolated. he also appreciates that she's not judgy about his rogue-ish approach to things sometimes, but he does feel a bit on edge around her (too cool with cold murder for his taste). lae'zel doesn't feel much towards tavaris beyond 'we share a problem and we can be usefulf or each other' though sure, sometimes, he can be tolerable- but she finds him too 'undisciplined', not so much judging his actions or reactions, but the lack of planning or finesse to them during a very risky, urgent situation. however those first weeks when tavaris is constantly on edge after the crash (not unlike her) he acts a little more aggresively, right, has a shorter fuse, but rather than just resorting to violence or intimidation, all those years using persuasion and deception to survive dull his edges enough so that it almost seems like he knows what he's doing lmao (though to his credit, he's better at reading people than he believes to be). that plus not being afraid to get his hands dirty in battle appeal to lae'zel enough to want a taste, just to let off some steam, and she lets him know as directly as she's known for. tavaris issss still working out some stuff about himself. he truly believes he wants this, it's not his first casual hookup. but part of him is tired of that. part of him craves something intimate, personal. he had it once, or so he thought, and the way he lost it left a huge mark in him. on him. while he obviously consents to these encounters, and has his fun with it, wants it to be enough for him, there's an emptiness he never quite manages to get rid of. after the crash, a lot of this stuff is brought to the surface. he tries to enjoy himself that night with lae'zel (though even he is caught off guard by the intensity djfsifdj) but something feels off the entire time. when lae'zel offers a second, he initially is down for it, but as soon as it starts he feels off enough that he has to cut it short. explains it to lae'zel, best he can word it. lae'zel throws some of her own personal brand of advice, which is basically 'if this doesnt work for you then find something that does and don't bring yourself to harm like an aimless fool', something like that, i have yet to grasp her voice. at this point lae'zel doesn't care enough for it to truly affect her, it's his loss. but it also means this doesn't affect their relationship for the worst, either. and it helps start an important personal growth for tavaris. as their adventure continues, and as tavaris grows along with the other companions and his personal quests, experiences he starts to realize are twisted mirrors of his own trauma, he also starts to appreciate just how much lae'zel is putting at risk to help them, not just herself. and to see exactly the brand of bullshit she's being fed. how terrified she is. their relationship isn't warm, per se, but he refuses to see lae'zel lost to the lies of her queen and lae'zel is one of the few people to grab him by the shoulders and shake him when he starts to fall as well for certain manipulators, refusing to let him give himself up regardless of what's promised. she's the one that reminds him, plain and simple, that he's not alone. to trust in his and her skills, as well as the other companions', as much as she does. and that there's always a (more efficient) way ahead

[purgemarchlockdown]

I tried to sleep early for once and now im awake now so???

Anyway Ive been holding in those dichotemy thoughts for a long yime Ive talked about it before that post because Im incapable of shutting up but like- I clued into those when I watched AKAA for the first time and I just had to go quietly insane about it since I was so scared that people would be mean about it.

Assorted sleepy thoughts about it:

-Mikoto also falls into this, Milgram I see your “playing into bias” narrative moves, you do not frame someone this much in blood and this much shadow if you arent trying to scare Someone. Mikoto being the most obviously horror movieish in MeMe was the biggest hint that something was up with it- why in thre series filled with murderers is this guy so scary huh Milgram??? What about this guy in particular? What was so different about him huh? I love it when stories do this shit- its always So Fucked I love it.

-Both TIHTBILWY and I Love You play into this to some extent but its much more subtly present in TIHTBILWY. That pouncing animation? The phone scene? The lyrics about matching pain and break up rituals? Fantastic, 10/10. Giving her Psychogram was even better.

-Going Back to Magic Amane is like…not scary, at all in Magic. She is Not Terrifiying in it. Its not even an After Pain Muu situation where if you look back you can see her “true colors” hidden behind the surface- Magic Amane is only really “scary” in that one shot where her eyes turn into spirals and thats less scary and more “quietly horrifiying if you know the implications”

Magic Amane was not scary and we voted her guilty so she could improve- I can imagine Yamanaka fucking cackling when the verdict was finalized. Which fair enough!

-Haruka and Muu play into this so hard that if I wasnt so Amane-brained the post would of been about them. I wonder if Haruka and Muu were partially intended to see how the audience would react to characters that used to be “appealing” but now are “people” and thus aren’t easily infantalized.

This leads into fun Audience-Kotoko paralles (useless weaklings should just shut up and let me protect them!) like- we’re pulling a Kotoko and I am (narrativly) Here For It!

-Muu Its not my fault is soo very good with this lens. Since- she really did do bad things! They all did! And Muu’s so unwilling to change its going to destroy her one day! Muu always tried to position herself as a “good victim” or “powerful person” its fantastic, I love it, itll destroy her one day.

-I hope this doesnt need to be said but dont use this to judge your morality or smthn. Im stating this cause Im relizing that if I didnt think about this all the time Id hound myaelf with guilt over playing into nasty dichotimies but also this is just some fun narrative stuff that is intended to make you reflect on real life, not a judgement of your moral character- I fall into that trap too easily so Im just gonna put that here.