#also not to be like problems for future me but i have a lot of work to do before patreon

[ficsinhistory]

Yes, I saw that scene! I don't blame Maddie, it's a very sweet gesture, I would fall for it. Not only that, judging by the way Tom reacted, he has his share of times he did this to calm Maddie down. Not many, but hey, like father like son. I really want to see more of these two and Maddie in particular.

And yes, Amy would definitely be delighted with grand romantic gestures, she's a hopeless romantic lol

And your thoughts on Amy? Immaculate op. Your mind is incredible!

I also believe Amy's history with the Metal Army is probably old and very personal. I theorize that Ivo stole one of her quills too in an invasion of her home - Little Planet - which would lead her to always approach problems thinking of the worst-case scenario. What would explain why the energy of the metal blow would be both blue and pink.

And yes, I see Amy even with all her empathy, altruism and kindness...being terrible at working in a team. Although I ser her not knowing how to work in a group is more like Amy being incredibly controlling and restrictive, a symptom of her desperately trying to keep the circumstances under control and not getting worse. Something that someone as chaotic and freedom-loving as Sonic wouldn't like.

And I begging this will be the situation.

Amy and Sonic have disagreed several times, from the oldest games to Frontiers. Amy is temperamental and has a strong personality and Sonic hates being ordered around. There will be a lot of friction and both jeopardizing each other's plans before a balance is established.

Perfect opportunity for Sonic to finally feel first-hand what it's like when a loved one throws themselves into danger without thinking twice. And on the other hand, Amy would learn that she hurts the one she wants to protect by being so reckless and daredevil.

Now, about coming from the future is an interesting theory and top tier angst. It's still too early to say anything, so every shot is valid.

My personal opinion is that Amy is actually from the present. The explosion took Ivo to the past, where he made his Metal Army, dominated Litlle Planet, and Amy was sent to live on Earth, a little after Sonic - of course, both would have no idea about each other because I love dramatic irony. She would fight with the metals from then on to prevent further interference.

And what would make her attachment issues come would be - and hear me out now - Amy knowing she won't get out of the mission alive.

My theory is that her chaos powers manifest as visions of possible futures, like a computer that calculates probabilities. However, the trauma messed up this ability of hers, always showing worst-case scenarios and basically what happens when someone functions solely on anxiety. Amy would take it at face value because of trauma and belief in fate (possibly coming from her upbringing on Little Planet).

After all, Chaos energy comes from emotions and hers would be in tatters.

This would culminate in her seeing a possible future where everything is saved but she would die. And Amy... accept it. She would live her life to the fullest based on her belief in unconditional love for all living creatures without ever forming attachments because she doesn't want the future to be harder for her or the people she would get close to.

That's where Sonic and the Wachowskis would come in. They would be a family to her and now she's devastated because she doesn't know how to tell them that there won't be a happy ending for her. That she hasn't had one for a long time. Because, as you mentioned, saving thousands of lives is more important than her and any desires she might have.

But it would be too hard to deny her own feelings. The fact that she doesn't want to die because she finally has love and family and has managed for the first time in years to not think about the imminent death that looms over her.

Tldr -> Amy's conflict is basically this part of Andor.

With Amy coming along, I can't stop thinking about the Amy-Sonic/Tom-Maddie parallels.

You know, the pink and blue scheme, Tom having a similar personality to Sonic and Amy possibly having some similarities to Maddie, Amy and Maddie possibly being two big city girls with Amy being from New York and Maddie from San Francisco while Tom and Sonic are both from Green Hills, the setup of Amy plus 3 Wachowski siblings as well as Maddie and Tom, who canonically have siblings too.

They've been foreshadowing this couple since the second movie, fight me!!

(and Tom x Maddie are the parents and couple ever, I love them!)

(Also, please give Maddie more prominence. She's awesome!)

[hexcii]

trans/non-binary reminder: you owe nobody androgyny or to look "non-binary" dress however you're comfy 🫶

HELL YEAAAHHHHH !1!1!1!1!1!!!!!!

Anytime I see NB representation in the media, and even with my irl friends, (whom I love mwah mwah) it’s always portrayed as either fully androgynous or slightly masculine and it’s always made me feel a little bit isolated cause I went in the complete opposite direction and just became a femboy instead 💅💅

Anyway have some of my outfits that I like and might draw my sona in sometime in the future

Ignore my octopus plushie staring at the camera fjkdkkfkkdd

I love being feminine, always felt uncomfortable in it before I knew I was trans but now I LOVE IT SO MUCH!! Plus I hate the feeling of pants so skirts, dresses and shorts galore!! Only problem with it that I find is that I get misgendered a lot more often than my more masculine or androgynous peers which I assume is because of the portrayal reason I stated above, hell the only example of a feminine non-binary person in media I can think of is G3 Frankie sjkdkskfd- This also applies to my sona too 😞😞😞 but I don’t got the energy to correct people online whenever they misgender me so oh well

This got long I’m gonna go eat lunch now

[starlightswordfight]

tagging for spoilers even though this is pretty early on and it's been out for like forever JUST in case BUT

something I think about a lot is the fact that laios's leg did heal all the way post-reattachment after the initial battle with the red dragon. because yk Healing Magic Okay ❤️ Yay ❤️❤️

and maybe this is just me but I would've loved to see there maybe be more long-term complications from that? that'd definitely cause a LOT of problems with future combat in the series so I understand why that wasn't really explored but it would have been so interesting to me to see how you'd navigate a situation like that!! and you also so rarely see physically disabled characters in fantasy at all so that'd be really cool !!!

and ALSO leg reattachments while successful often enough do still come with long-term problems. impaired mobility being the most glaring one

like give him nerve pain at the Very Least. pins and needles, numbness on flare up days that can't really be explained because my leg is literally healed so What Is The Problem. sometimes it just gives out for no reason

it could work so well thematically, too, with that concept of coming back different. just applied from a completely different angle; instead of the chimera, it's carrying disability with you that you didn't have before. phantom pain from a removal that didn't ever stay removed. sitting with that and learning to live with what you've got now instead of running back repeatedly to what was. suffering the consequences of an injury that healing magic cannot work around because the injury does not exist anymore

[justanotherhornycatgirl]

Pedophiles are wrongly ostracised based on the accusation itself (whether the disorder or the act) yes, that harms them and skyrockets the chance of them harming others. HOWEVER, this is due to the very real explicit harm that is, by definition, associated with the disorder. “I feel a strong desire to molest and rape children” is, in fact, a rather dangerous idea for people to have. Now while many disorders involve compulsions someone has no desire to act on, the fact that people push for the decriminalisation of pedophilic actions is pretty well fucked to put it mildly. There is a certain sub class of people who defend pedophilia because they don’t see it as harmful at all.

This is why people tend to be very much hostile towards pedophiles. Because the anonymity of online spaces means that there’s a high chance that any given pedophile is someone who is actually proud of their desires and past (or future) actions. The rebranding of pedophiles to MAPs certainly didn’t help matters since a lot of the internal discussions around “support” amounted to comparing AOAs and bragging about targets.

Now I do disagree with the social response here. Like any mental disorder it needs to be destigmatised to support those with it to reduce harm they experience and might create.

However, I do think that “apologise to the pedophiles” is absolutely going to see you as a target of harassment (possibly wrongly, I don’t know you) because for some people out here on the hellscape we call the internet (0/10 should shut it all down) that is code for “raping children should be legal actually”.

And again, to clarify, we are discussing the disorder that people are actually shit terrified of. Not kink or roleplay which is consensual between adults. Actual criminal behaviour at the highest level, and compulsions than scare the individual at the lowest. If people have the desire but refuse to act on it and aren’t disturbed by it? Great, that’s the best outcome, they aren’t disordered! Anything other than that is definitely a problem that needs to be addressed.

i strongly disagree that the harm is "by definition" associated with pedophilia

the majority of sexual violence against children is not perpetrated by pedophiles, and the insistence that it is only increases the danger to victims

rape is an expression of violence, not desire

and the people raping kids by and large did it because kids make an easy target when you have power over them, not because of being attracted to children

the solution to that problem is flattening hierarchies, child liberation, and sex education

and it does no good for anyone to target a separate group because we assume them to be by default responsible for harm they havent enacted

also, i dont think people should be terrified of the disorder, thats literally what ive been about

for the same reason we shouldn't be scared of people that deal with fantasies or compulsions of violence

and why we shouldn't start rounding up everyone with a rape fetish

that desire is just a thought

it doesnt need to be acted on, and alternatives to satisfy those feelings can be found

im a zoophile, im very open about that fact, and i have never once sexually harmed an animal

zoophiles likewise don't deserve to be immediate subjects of suspicion and fear just for existing

also, why do you feel the need to justify the position of the people harassing me if you agree that it is harassment?

like, the people coming after me arent compassionate defenders of children, theyre calling me a cross-dressing male rapist

theyre bigots that saw someone who would make an easy target that most people would be reluctant to defend, it is violence

theyre wolves after a wounded deer, they dont need your defending

[nomsfaultau]

(Can’t spell rabbit without, like, a few of the letters in anarchist!)

Immediately after catching Technoblade, suddenly Phil is like. I. Did not have a step two. But, hey, there’s a news network here they can get the word out about the lost bunny! Only, when the reporter asks, before he can say anything everyone says PHIL is the owner!

(Bun: no masters no kings no gods no scientists! I shall not bow before you! Put me down!!!)

When Philza insists Techno isn’t his bun (good. Know your place), 1. Kristin falls a little bit in love because what do you MEAN he ran a man bunhunt to rescue someone else’s pet! He’s so kind! And determined! 2. Tommy immediately tries to insist he should take care of Technoblade until his owners get him. Which. Terrible idea, this kid has no idea how to take care of a bunny (says the man who also has no idea how to take care of a bunny). Cue everyone pointing at HIM to take care of Techno?? HUH??? 

So the local news is talking about it for a week and the pet store gives him a free coupon for hay and pellets and what not and Phil is like there is No way I can back out of this now too late I’m a rabbit dad I guess. ESPECIALLY cause Tommy has demanded shared custody and has gotten bargained down to weekend visits to ‘make sure you don’t bleep up his cage’ bc Tommy Must find something he’s Better At now, and has decided rabbit care is his new expertise and future job probably. And Kristin is like mmm I should drop by. Just to check on the little guy. For the foreseeable future.

So now Phil’s social life depends on a very angry rabbit.

Techno is thrashing in his carrier the entire time, uncaring if he’s injuring himself because he needs to get out he has to they’re going to hurt him. But he’s so, so tired from being chased down, and realizes he can’t get out of the cage no matter how hard he kicks and gnaws and thrashes. As they drive to Philza’s home (idiot uses the break function of a car can you believe it), Techno grows very quiet. He’s never misbehaved this badly before. 

But he’s not taken to the lab and there are a lot of strange apparatus that are completely unfamiliar inside the Not lab. The enemy squints at him, then mutters, “it’ll probably bolt if I open the cage…” Techno glares at him. But the enemy does not deign to address his grievous bunny insult, instead digging around in a plastic bag (which is inedible). Carefully, Philza begins dropping pieces of food into his cage as Techno presses at the furthest corner to escape. 

Only it’s not just pellets. There’s lettuce, and carrots, and fresh hay. And meat if he’s fast enough and Philza pokes his fingers too far into the bars. The IDIOT and FOOL let himself get in biting range. That’s HIS fault. But as delicious as it all looks, Techno doesn’t touch it. Ha! Can’t poison him! He’s above such conniving schemes! And also his heart is beating so fast it makes him dizzy, nauseous with terror. But also because he’s not a stupid bun that eats poisoned very bad no good definitely not delicious lettuce. 

Philza frowns when he gets the water contraption stuck in and the rabbit doesn’t go for it. Shouldn’t they be super dehydrated? But those sharp red eyes are pinned on his every movement, the bunny flinching at his every move. Probably, uh, a really bad start, but it shouldn’t be long before their beloved human called in. 

His cage is set in the middle of the room, the strange belligerent foe on the not-lab coat dragging out every last piece of furniture or object until he’s left in a barren room. The doors are closed. Drat. He still hasn’t figured out the door knobs. Nursing his bitten fingers, Philza approaches the cage and suddenly opens the door. Then he slowly backs up, and sits in the furthest corner of the room. Watching. 

Essentially the problem is thus: 1. Humans Scary already for normal rabbit. 2. BTSD (bunnyptsd), 3. JUST GOT CHASED FOR DAYS AHHH. 4. Test. This is a test. Another test with secret rules he’s designed to fail. And the moment he steps out of the cage he’ll be punished for being a bad bun. 

Philza flounders, and decides his only recourse is Reddit, frantically looking up how to repair broken trust between me (25M) and bunny (??). And then scrolls wikihows. And then plays Lofi beats to not bite Phil to. And then looks up rabbit therapists. Nothing. Nada. All the bunny does is shake in his pin for hours and glare. Which, the glaring is super adorable, but still. He looks like a little cartoon with his blood red eyes with a scar across one, all set in the itty bittiest face. Philza tells the rabbit as much. Is he imagining it glaring harder? 

Well if Techno made wants to play the waiting game, Philza has the power of YouTube and mindlessly scrolling twitter. He is NOT leaving until Technoblade has eaten something. But well his favorite streamer, Misstrixtin, just went live and he gets a little caught up in the hype train, only for him to suddenly glance up at a small squeak to find Technoblade scaled the curtains and reaching for the vent. Human and bunny blink at one another. 

And then Techno launches himself at the vent, his bumbling guard belatedly scrambling across the room. Alas! He is too late! And if this is the best humanity has to contain him with they shall be easy to conquer! Techno kicks powerfully at the vent cover separating him from freedom. It doesn’t budge, and he squeals as he plummets from lethal height. No no no! 

As admittedly short as Techno’s life is, he doesn’t even have time for it to flash before his eyes before the human snatches him out of midair, saving Techno’s life. Unluckily, his rescuer immediately slams into the prison wall, and summarily falls in an awkward heap of limbs. Yet even still managed to prevent Techno from smacking into the floor, held up in a measly triumph before carefully lowering the rabbit to his chest. 

Techno promptly kicks him in the face for thwarting him. Unintelligible uncouth language pours out of the human as Techno bounds away to find a place to hide or escape. There is none. And as Philza peels himself off the ground, Techno cowers back, bracing for the human’s revenge. Like a wrestling match the human and rabbit circle the room. Well versed in the Art of War, Techno patiently waits for the opportunity to stri- oh wait, no. His opponent rightfully fears his wrath, slipping out a door. That’s right! Flee with your nonexistent tail between your legs, vile human! Now all Techno has to do is wait at the door to escape upon his foe’s entry. Any minute now. Anyyyyy minute now-

Unfortunately due to rabbit adhd, it’s either 20 minutes or approaching the heat death of the buniverse by the time the door cracks open. Techno lunges- and is immediately caught in the dastardly, conniving hands of his mortal enemy. “Ah no you don’t mate-“ Techno squirms as he’s unceremoniously dumped back in the cage, which probably has bars of titanium and kryptonite in order to contain his bunny wrath. He snarls as the human CRUELLY and DEMEANINGLY gently prods his face with a baby carrot. Arg! Bunnies don’t even like carrot ends that much! Bugs Bunny was the worst rabbit representation ever and set back progress by decades!

“C’mon you gotta eat some time.” 

He does not, in fact. Especially if it’s an Evil Carrot, trying to Poison him. But Philza has learned to avoid getting his fingers bit. Drat. Techno was certain his intelligence rivaled that of a cockroach. 

“Fine, fine,” Philza sighs. Then he glances as at the bag of frozen peas he’s using as an ice pack. Would that be more appetizing…? Probably not. And hey, apparently he gets free carrots for a year from the local grocer. He dips one in ranch, and begins crunching. Great. Just great. At this rate Tommy might start trying to steal his rabbit. Already Philza’s been dealing with random calls claiming to own Technoblade, without proof, a name, an address, or willingness to give any identifiable features. “Y’know, if your owners don’t show up soon I’ll have to start charging you rent. At least my last roommate didn’t bite me. Just refuse to take out the trash, and break the TV, and leave dirty towels everywhere, and-“ 

The crisp snap of a carrot cuts over him as the bunny begins to chew ravenously. Poor dude is nearly choking trying to get it down so fast. Probably absolutely starving after fending off half the town. Philza raises his baby carrot in toast. “Cheers!” 

Techno sends him a glare, and turns his back pointedly as he scarfs down Probably Not Poisoned food. Then again, Techno has survived enough LD50 tests to know body mass matters, and his mortal enemy is far bigger and stronger and faster than he can hope to match. And so Techno angrily munches on his carrot and begins to scheme. This world dominance thing is harder than he’d thought it’d be…

Bunnyblade's 5-Step Plan to World Dominance

(Ok ok first as a biologist I must do my due diligence to be like, there’s actually lots of rules regarding animal experimentation and their quality of life, animal testing greatly increases the safety of BOTH humans and the environment, etc etc IACUC is extensive and thought out. However. Whump :)

Tw: referenced animal abuse, trauma, blood

Lab Bunnyblade. Blood red eyes and sleek white fur that covers up his many scars. He’s level E under the USDA Pain and Distress category. No anesthesia, no rest. Little bun who always bites when he shouldn’t and kicks at scientists and doesn’t know anything but glass and iron and white and fear.

In his immense wisdom and many years of bunny experience (he is TWO (2) whole years), Bunnyblade resolves to topple the United States Government on the grounds of unethical treatment of its citizens (born on US soil! He should get rights!). But the only obstacle between him and the country descending into anarchy is escaping the lab.

As 2 in bunny years is well over 16 in human years, it’s probably not illegal for him to drive. What? Of course he knows how to drive. Bunnyblade only doesn’t know how to break, because he’s shoved a brick on the accelerator and his widdle legs can’t reach that far. He CAN use the turn signal. He doesn’t because he’s an anarchist.

So of course the greatest evil mastermind of the 21st century escapes the lab! Determined bun. Strong bun. But alone bun. All in the cold with no idea how survival works. Bunnyblade is well familiar with human lifestyles due to deciphering human languages and that one time he stole a phone and discovered the internet (with unlimited access for an entire night! THOSE FOOLS! Those moronic scientists scarcely comprehend the monster they’ve made!). But human society turns out to be very discriminatory towards rabbits with no income, and Bunnyblade is at the mercy of the elements.

Cue Philza finding what’s obviously someone’s pet trying to eat plastic turf grass. Cue him frantically chasing down a frightened bun across the neighbor hood so he can return it. (Blast! They’ve hired goons to catch him!) Except- what the hell, this rabbit seems to be evading him no matter what. And Phil starts getting tricky with trying to corner it, but it never seems to work. But in yet another desperate bid to outrun the determined little bun, he smacks into a small child, smelling his ice cream cone. After Tommy is done cursing the stranger to hell and back, he decides he’ll show up Phil by catching the rabbit cause he’s faster and smarter and handsomer!

And then stranger Kristin sees Phil making an absolute dorky fool of himself trying to save a frightened bunny and immediately thinks oh I can’t Not wife him she should help. So now they’re flirting in between absurdly elaborate schemes to trap the bun.

More and more goons are after Bunnyblade! This is TERRIBLE! They must know his secret plans to overthrow the government! It gets up to like 20 different people chasing him around the park. His heart is racing as fast as a rab- erm- okay immediately after he takes over the government he’ll rewrite all English idioms to be more rabbit inclusive, but until then- his heart is beating so fast it hurts, throbbing in painful desperation as more and more humans hunt him down in roaming packs. There’s so many he can’t ever stop running, knowing the second he’s caught he’ll be dragged back to the lab. It'll be so much harder to escape next time, maybe impossible. Never to see the outside world again. No warm sun tousling through his white fur. No soft grass beneath his feet, healing the lines scored into toe beans by wire cage floors. No. Bunnyblade can’t go back to the lab.

So he runs. And runs. Little body aching, unused to to wide open spaces but so desperate to become used to freedom.

Philza keeps being this close to capturing the bun. Mere whiskers off! Everyone is getting more and more invested in helping, feels like half the town is chipping in. There’s multiple teams competing for who captures him first. Philza isn’t sure how, but he’s somehow become the leader, coordinating groups and strategies since somehow the rabbit manages to get capture efforts tangled up in each other to thwart both teams. Tommy insists he’s in charge, though, and to appease the twerp a little Philza says the bunny’s name is ‘Technoblade’ when asked by the news crew. Tommy came up with it off of some kids show, seems to think it’s the raddest name ever.

The joke keeps getting tossed around that this is the reincarnation of Bugs Bunny, that this is a were-rabbit and they transform midday. But for the most part Philza really does this think is a normal, albeit insanely fast and lucky, rabbit. Until when he’s right on the bun’s tail, hurling himself at them in a desperate bid to finally catch them-

Concussion. Right. P-probably just a concussion haha! And after 20 million schemes 6 trips to the ER and enough carrots* to feed a small country, (*carrot thing is a myth but Phil is dumb he don’t know that),

...they catch Technoblade. Philza is cradling the bunny to his chest and -oh, oh he’s so small and soft. Could probably be held in one hand were he not thrashing so much. Philza pants in exhaustion, grinning triumphantly. Around him everyone erupts in the quietest cheers imaginable.

Technoblade is shaking badly. His fluttering heart never seems to calm even as Philza gently strokes them. His struggles are weak, poor thing worn out from fending off dozens of persistence predators. But he's safe now.

And elsewhere, a click of a spacebar on the live news story. The screen zooms in on a blurry glimpse of the escaped lab subjected. His large, terrified red eyes that almost seem to glow.

A long, long sigh, and a latex-gloved hand picks up a phone. “We found it. But it purposefully got as many eyes on it as possible.”

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Broke (2016): BBC Sherlock is a phenomenal piece of media and anything that seems like a flaw just hasn't been fully explored yet

Woke (2020): BBC Sherlock is an incredibly flawed series run by an egotistical writer, it never deserved the hype and is actively bad on so many fronts (especially representation)

Bespoke (2024): BBC Sherlock is flawed and bogged down by increasingly poor writing, which many fans refused to see while it was airing, leading to hugely misplaced expectations (particularly for the final series), AND it has the seeds of some compelling characterizations and portrayals, some genuinely solid performances, and touches--albeit imperfectly--on complexities that are still being discussed today (particularly as it relates to the relationship between Sherlock and John). The huge cultural impact of the show has created a massive pendulum effect in its public perception, leading to most people today remembering a caricature of the show (whether positive or negative) rather than appreciating its nuanced merits and failings...that being said Season 4 sucked

[thegreatyin]

And thus, with the passing of 24 hours, Caeru's ambition truly comes to an end. Major Nemesis spoilers below the cut- we're talking endgame ambition business here. Mostly on a character RP front.

The Doomed Scientist made quite a few... choice decisions, in the end. Killing Cups once and for all, recording his story as one of grief-

And sparing what little remained of Mr Mirrors, leaving it free to roam Parabola as it sees fit.

Some of them, he can explain. Others, he's still left to feel... discontent.

Cups needed to die. That much was certain from the start. It was a tyrant, as all Masters are, and complicit in the bargaining and eventual destruction of four (potentially five) cities, as all Masters are. It was an obstacle. A murderer. A petty monster that felt no remorse even on its deathbed, and it went out of its way to ruin multiple lives just because it felt owed its own sick and twisted idea of revenge.

It killed his first love. It looked him in the eyes and he knew what it had done and he knew from the start it was going to die.

Perhaps, in the end, it knew too. And yet it still pleaded, and wanted to live, and-

It made a bargain.

A bargain Caeru didn't take.

Not because he didn't want to. Gods, he wanted to. He wanted it. He wanted it more than anything else in the world. To have Greylu back, to give him the gift of life, of love, to show him the wonders of the Neath and the beauty of the correspondence and all of the people Caeru has met and loved and found home with along the way-

But. He couldn't.

Because Cups was a monster. And no matter what, it deserved to die. And he could not, in good conscience, allow it to live.

Even if sparing it meant everything he's ever wanted.

So he's left here, now. With a bloodied traveling coat, and a bloodsoaked knife, and a favor finally fulfilled.

And nothing to live for. No resurrected lover, no charming visits to Helicon, no slow dances in the living room, no memories to rebuild and lives to live and he won't live again-

Nothing. All he has is a coat born of obligation, not to his love, but to people he's never even met. To lives he's never even touched. To a paramour, still alive, with hair of rose-pink, who doesn't even remember her own brother's existence.

Cups didn't die for Caeru's sake. Cups died for the sake of all who wanted it dead. For the revenger's court, and the ghost screaming in his ear, and the reckoning that will not be postponed indefinitely.

And Caeru, who acted as a tool to carry out their wills? Who all but betrayed his own lover, just to satisfy a cause he never knew existed?

All Caeru is left with, is regret. Regret-

-And grief.

[runepixel]

hey guys. i'm not the only one who hears the lyrics to this song and thinks snowgrave kris and noelle right

[chloecherrysip]

Mario watching his and Luigi's commercial in Punch-Out Pizzeria

[palaceoftears]

Magnificent Century Rewatch: One Picspam per Episode

Episode 17: The Double Joy

-My dear mother used to say "walk barefoot on earth and it shall take away all your troubles and sorrows, earth shall give you happiness and joy"

-Your mother spoke well, one can only find peace in earth. But I'm not sure if it is on earth or in it.

[5-turtleducks-in-a-trenchcoat]

So around 10 months ago I decided I wanted to try animation again. Ever since then I've pretty much been working on this project every day. I've never been able to actually complete a big project like this, so I'm genuinely blown away by the fact that I managed to do this, especially considering how enormous of a task this was.

Also since this animation features Jane Prentiss, content warnings for worms and trypophobia.

[its-all-papaya]

new landoscar fic changed my life on god i had to come and tell you about it hope im not being presumptuous but can we hope for a part two i would scoff that in a second

the aftertaste, bittersweet

YAY THANK YOU FOR TELLING ME ABOUT IT !!! i love when people come talk to me about my fics <33333 and so so glad you liked it!

i have no actual plans for a part two, but none of my works are ever like fully finished in that most of them have extemporaneous connected plotlines already existing in my brain. and also bc i get so very attached to every version of lando and/or oscar that i write, and i never want to leave them behind.

that's the official answer, the unofficial answer is i love a/b/o and i love love sub lando and i probably definitely could write more of this relationship down the line. so if people like it enough (i live for praise, after all), it's probable i'll come back to these guys. i've got some ideas for them.

tyyyyyyy for visiting my inbox, come again!!!

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

Hi hello I watched all of carmilla in a weekend when I was 17 because a student teacher who in retrospect I had a bit of a crush on mentioned that she knew one of the actresses. also I am pretty invested in all your recent vampire stuff because I watched iwtv in 2 days last week because your edit intrigued me

oh hiiii 🫶 thank you for indulging me. thats so cool that you watched iwtv! did it live up to the expectation?

i also watched carmilla at 17! or like, 17-19. i found it when s2 had just started and followed it to the end. did something permanent to my brain but i think it was a good thing. on rewatch now im like, i was right to like this. like it's a solid show, it's good. it has its flaws obviously but it's well written, the emotional moments still get me, i can see why i liked it and i still like it now even when it's not anymore, you know, meeting every need that baby gay me didnt even know they had

what it doesnt reaallyy do though - i dont remember if i posted abt this or if i left it in my drafts but - is explore vampirism as a concept. their subject matter is more lesbianism than vampirism. which is great! thats what they wanted to do and they did it and it's very good. but reading interview with the vampire the book rn im realising how much potential vampires have to be metaphors for like so many things and i started wondering like 'wait, did carmilla just not really engage with it or did it all go over my head'. but it just didnt really engage with it all that much. which again is fine bc that wasnt what they were doing. im glad they were more about the lesbianism than the vampirism

but there's this interesting difference in framing, because in iwtv they keep calling armand 'ancient' right? and emphasising how old he is. and he's like 500? and i was like 'wait isnt carmilla like 400?'. she isnt, shes 340, but still, thats getting there, you know? and we know quite a lot about her history, but kind of just the Big Events. when she was turned, the events of the novella, coffin of blood, silas. thats sort of what we know. but none of the long lonely slog of history day to day you know? with armand i feel like we can really feel how much time everything takes. how every one of those years is made up of single days. with carmilla i dont feel that as much. i keep kind of thinking about daniel, when louis calls him a boy in the first episode, saying "im an old man, with all the triggers that come with it"

because carmilla might look 18 (or mid twenties at this point) but she has lived all that time. shes also seen her native land be claimed by like a succession of ruling powers, right? like armand. shes been buried alive, like louis. when lestat is born, shes already 80 years old, shes lived a whole human lifetime, and the entire adult part of it shes been a vampire. shes lived through 1680-1870 being a lure. i compared her to abigail hobbs in some tags on a post, i dont know if youre familiar with hannibal the tv show, but i do also kinda keep thinking about that comparison

if youre not familiar, in the first episode of hannibal the murderer of the week is this guy garrett jacob hobbs who kills and cannibalises girls who resemble his daughter. and later on it turns out she was made to be his lure. like they'd go places and he'd sent her to the victims to make friends and maybe get them back to their home or smth. not sure if they specified all the details. but that's what carmilla did for mother. and in s2 we hear from mattie that while every couple of decades carmilla had to lure victims for the fish god, she also seemed to just enjoy humans between those times, right? like the doctor, gets lonely, gets a new companion. but we've only sort of got mattie's mocking word for it ("dont eat him, hes a poet! or her, shes got such a wonderful voice. or that one, shes just too pretty to ruin"), we don't know exactly from carmilla's point of view what she was doing or why. if mattie's talking about stuff that happened after the blood coffin, 1950-now, then i think it's a fair assumption based on what carmilla says in the s1 sock puppet show that after she'd figured out what the real situation was and what her role in it was, when she'd started trying to save girls from being sacrificed, that she mightve been doing the same trying to save people from becoming mattie's victims. it's probably more likely that she was just trying to find excuses to stop mattie from sucking someone dry rather than actually having like an aesthetic based morality. but it might be a bit of both. im still trying to figure out what her philosophy actually is, like i dont know what existentialism actually means ghkfjghkj but i will

i also found it pretty striking in the movie when shes turning back into a vampire she says like "this was supposed to be done, you know? the blood lust, the self-loathing, the sleeping tied to a chair in my own bedroom". thats what defines her vampirism, wanting blood and hating yourself for it (the third part is a joke/reference to s1 but also i think meaningful for how she sees her relationship with laura when she IS a vampire. little bit of that 'she will reject me for my monstrousness' shining through). and thats what defines vampirism for lots of vampires across the genre obviously, but i dont know, it struck me. we dont get a lot from carmilla's pov, we know a fair amount about her, but the story is always told through laura. we get laura's diaries, but just snippets here and there from carmilla, what shes thinking, how shes feeling

and i love that shes a philosopher. i love that thats how she seems to try and find something to hold onto, in a world that kind of moves around her, having been murdered, kidnapped, turned and groomed to be a lure on the cusp of adulthood, never having been properly loved (the relationship with her father wasnt good she says in s3, and her mortal mother i dont think has ever been mentioned (like laura's)). the only good relationship she seems to have had for the better part of 3 centuries seems to have been mattie, and mattie seems to love being a vampire. i can imagine carmilla just sort of going along with anything mattie wants to do just because shes so desperate for that friendship. not like, against her will necessarily really. but more like, she hasnt even had the space to develop her own will, you know? and philosophy lets you do that. philosophy gives you frameworks to understand the world and to develop your own opinions on it. and by the 21st century she seems to have developed those opinions, she has a sense of her own values, but shes also still stuck in that same situation. shes jaded and cynical in the face of laura's optimism and strong moral code a lot of the time in s1 because she feels probably pretty powerless. like she does what she can to save some girls but at the end of the day shes scared of her mother and she has nowhere else to go really, right?

i like how she grapples with that over the course of the series, in tandem with laura grappling with her black and white morality. she sort of jumps ship from her mother to laura bc theyve fallen in love, but then laura still stuck in her hero thinking refuses to see her monstrous side. not literally bc i think the biological vampirism never seemed to be a problem for laura, but morally. the having murdered. carmilla needs laura to see that and love her while seeing it bc the last girl she loved rejected her for being a vampire.

but you see her kind of swing back and forth in s2. she softens first with laura but then they break up and she leans back hard into the sarcastic cynic defense mechanisms, leans hard into "im a monster, dont expect heroism from me". but thats like, it's sort of learned helplessness i think. it's powerlessness, resignation. bc morally shes not a monster. maybe she doesnt have as strong a drive to help other people as laura does and is a little more selfishly hedonistic in that she just wants to enjoy her/their life, but she doesnt hurt people for fun, she never has. she just sort of didnt have another option for a Really long time. so she pretends she doesnt care. "im a vampire, this is what i do, this is who i am". but clearly from the way she talks about it when she turns back into one, she doesnt enjoy it

and i like how she goes even further in s3, where she starts swinging even more to the heroic side, bc she sees hope. shes like "wow if we kill my mother, i'd be free". theres hope and she becomes like a lot more active. and shes like that at the start of the movie too, a lot happier, a lot more relaxed, and then vampirism is back and bam depression gfhgkjh like shes immediately more gloomy, ashamed of her past and her self, retreats into herself

sorry i just took this as an opportunity to dump all the carmilla thoughts floating in my head on you. you didnt ask fhkghgjh consider this an open invitation to you or anyone else to come talk to me about carmilla

[cookinguptales]

not really sure how I envisioned my adult future when I was a kid, but I suppose "lying in bed reading about minoan human sacrifice while eating ice cream" isn't too bad

[sherlock-is-ace]

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[cerbreus]

Sometimes I have an epiphany about something about myself being very not normal when I'm trying to explain all these intricate paths of logic and plans and how I map out every little tidbit of every little thing I'm stressed about or working towards n I see the look on their face and go 'oh okay so this isn't.... How normal people approach things.....'🤔