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Okay. Hmm. I hear you with the “Soda and addiction” headcanons because on a surface level, I get where folks are coming from. He’s an adrenaline junkie, the world is loud and overwhelming, he finds ways to drown it out. I see what’s happening with those headcanons. I sort of get the vision.
But I feel like everything we learn about him in canon directly contradicts the idea of an addictive Soda.
He doesn’t drink. (I know people theorize Ponyboy is wrong about this, but listen, we have to believe the kid sometimes or the entire concept of canon becomes a joke.) He rarely ever smokes. He stays out of fights to protect Darry’s custody. He keeps a steady job. He’s faithful to his girlfriend and has a longterm goal to settle down with her—and canon implies they were having little, if any, sex.
For being flighty and easily distracted, Soda actually seems comparatively responsible, at least when paired against most of the guys in his circle—and if you’re not willing to believe Ponyboy’s narration, I think Darry’s trust in Soda is the biggest proof of this. These guys “know the score” and living recklessly isn’t just a matter of personal lifestyle, it’s something that directly affects their family. Soda is aware of this and the repercussions his actions have on Darry’s custody, and I simply can’t believe he’s out there living the Two-Bit life behind his brothers’ backs.
NOT TO SAY he’s living responsibly, because, well, he’s still Soda. But there’s a measure of awareness and self control that I don’t think we give him credit for having.
Pinning Soda as the addictive brother is ironic to me when PONYBOY MICHAEL CURTIS IS RIGHT THERE. The kid who eats handfuls of aspirin. Who can’t live without pepsi. Who chainsmokes at 14.
One of the Curtis boys has an addictive personality, and it ain’t Soda.
#I think this also plays into an overall theme of headcanoning soda as a darker character#which also doesn’t ring true to me#steve is angry and soda… isn’t. that’s why their dynamic canonically works#the entire foil of comparing them to bob and randy falls apart if you think soda is the angry one#if soda lost steve he would follow randy’s path of losing his taste for fighting and the social status quo#but steve would become angrier. steve would go off the rails.#the headcanons are interesting to be sure#but it’s simply not my soda#the only thing my soda is addicted to is just plain living#take it or leave it but that’s canon#I’m team addictive personality ponyboy curtis all the way#the outsiders#the outsiders movie#the outsiders musical#sodapop curtis#ponyboy curtis#bawl baby sodapop curtis
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You can dismiss Norm's words about Lucy’s cannibal husband as merely a joke on the writers' part, but I dare you, tell me about one single time Norm was ever shown to be wrong about anything.

#i just thought it's interesting#and all the other jokes norm makes about lacking enthusiasm etc are plain truth#also the i love you shot went through hours of post production and they still decided to keep the graffity how curious is that#ghoulcy#lucy maclean#cooper howard#lucy x cooper#ghoul x lucy#fallout amazon#fallout tv series#fallout prime#fallout on prime#norm maclean
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Humbly requests for more amphiseidon
Okay um- this was gonna be series of sketches, but I had this idea ever since seeing Neal's concept Amphitrite (which has only been this image). Ever since I felt the urge to make her.. gigantic.. but I like her being the size of the average god, but remembered the Gods just shapeshift so-
I made this..
I hope you don't mind that I use this ask to ramble:
This Amphitrite of mine is the version that she (and the other Nereids) is born of Nereus & Doris. I chose this version because of the lineage being more interesting to me & how I depict her here. Though who knows, I might switch to Oceanus because he's a titan. But I chose Nereus because he is "The Old Man of the Sea" and Doris is Okeanid nymph (so really it just moves her down a generation from Oceanus daughter to his granddaughter). But Nereus's father is Pontos, the Primordial God of the Sea & husband to Thalassa (his counterpart as Primordial Goddess of the Sea). It just makes her ancestry more interesting to me. And Pontos is depicted with crab claws on his person, like Amphitrite.
And because of all this big tie to water, I would assume she's more skilled with the element than Poseidon, since he inherited the Sea. Not to mention that she is just sometimes referred to as the entire ocean, making her a literal body of water (haha). And that's where this form ties in. I'm sure she could cause quite the damage if she wanted to, but I like to think it's not in her nature & that she's just the calmer seas. If anything, I think she's more patient in this form of hers, which is why her hair is more flowy than curly. Her tail is also based on Nereus's. So she shares that with her father :]
The only thing to remain on her person is her crown, located in her center. I like to think her grandfather Pontos bestowed it onto her as his eldest granddaughter. I also think it'd be cute that if Poseidon wants to find her (when her body is literally just water flowing anywhere), he'll look for her crown & that's where she'll be.
#asks#greek mythology#amphitrite#poseidon#poseidon x amphitrite#i had so much fun rendering this#maybe this is how they'd play hige and seek-#itd also make the seeking of Amphitrites hand in marriage interesting to me too since Poseidon wouldnt know of that trick yet#so she'd just merge with the ocean (and her crown would be in plain sight) & hed think she just disappeared as she sneaks away to hide#stars i love amphitrite so much..#GAH NOW IM THINKING MORE ABOUT THEM BUT I CANT DRAW AT ALL TOMORROWWWWW OR THE DAY AFTERR NOOOOOO#sketchbook it is...#april 2025
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Imagine looking at a character whose entire premise is that in every stage of his life, he's made every version of himself into someone that inspires people to such a degree that EVERY SINGLE VERSION OF HIM has people wanting to literally follow in his footsteps in some way or another.....
And coming to the conclusion that like.....the most important things about him are the sum of all his trappings. His entirely homemade developed from scratch could not exist if not for what he already was and brought with him BEFORE crafting this newest version of himself trappings, with his greatest trait throughout all of it being his adaptability; his ability and willingness to roll with the punches and not try to simply weather any opposition or changes to his life but instead reshape himself as needed to better fit INTO whatever new shape his life and the world around him takes. All while managing to carry the most innate, fundamental and necessary aspects of himself from one version to the next. Thus every single version of himself is different but simultaneously every single version of himself is also undeniably the same person.
The strength of this character, to me, will always be that he can be so many versions of himself, he can become so many things, all without ever actually losing or discarding any of the aspects of himself he considers most essential, the things he's not willing to lose or give up just to keep going. Finding that road not taken by most, usually because most never even think to look for it as an option. But one that he's always able to find because the one trick he's mastered in his tumultuous life is threading that needle of not just digging in his heels in an unproductive way but rather being selective about when and where he makes a stand and decides "this is not a thing I'm willing to compromise about" but here are places and ways I can and will change and evolve and adapt in order to make it possible for me to hold onto these parts and keep them as they are.
And that's why its always so mind-boggling to me that so many writers can't seem to think of anything else to do with Dick Grayson other than invent some new reason for him to just....not be that person, or to like just take the character whose most basic fundamental trait he's NOT about to compromise on is willingly giving up his spot in the driver's seat of his own life.....and make him just a passenger in his own life and stories.
Dick Grayson at age nine....at age nineteen...at age twenty nine....the one core thread running through all versions of him is the only way he's standing back and letting you call the shots for him or putting him on the sidelines in some way is over his dead body.
HOW he goes about that, what that looks like, who he becomes and what aspects of himself he plays up at some times and what traits he lets fall by the wayside at other times when they offer less in service to his primary goal here....that changes constantly. He changes constantly.
But those changes are almost always (or at least they used to be/should be IN MY OPINION) made with the intention of keeping certain things about him or his life as consistent as possible.
That's the duality of Dick Grayson that I'm here for. The inherent contradiction of him that COULD allow for endless conflict and breaking new narrative ground in all sorts of ways if mined properly:
His eternal willingness to compromise....but only ever in pursuit of doubling down on the ways he's not willing to compromise.
Forever walking that tightrope in ways that only a kid born and raised in a circus could ever hope to.
#see also: my grinding teeth when people disparage his circus origins#like the only thing its good for is colorful backstory and explaining his acrobatics#THERES. SO. MUCH. THERE.#theres so much EVERYWHERE in every aspect of his backstory and his preexisting comics and yet over and over we get#....what if we just ignored all that and did what the fuck ever as though this character has nothing integral to him or fundamental to say#to be fair my gripes with Taylor are not exactly interchangeable with my gripes with the previous runs#but I lump him in as an extension of them because while evocative of different SIDES of my ennui with these takes on Dick.....#the thing about Taylor's stuff to me (or the parts I read at least) is that its generic as hell while only retaining superficial elements#of Dick's character and stories in order to point to them and say see these are definitely about Dick Grayson. like....only in very surface#level ways. underneath that theyre basically generic superhero adventures that could easily be retooled to be about a pretty sizable number#of other characters. tbh with the whole alfred inheritance thing it honestly felt from the get go#that Taylor was more interested in writing a kinder gentler Batman like a Bruce from one of the animated shows like#The Brave and the Bold who gets along better with everyone else. even the way the Brave and the Bold largely exists to use Batman's#popularity as a star vehicle to platform his co-superhero for the episode lends itself to Taylor's approach in his NW run#with the central figure - only nominally DG imo - basically existing as a platform allowing for the drafting of any other character he want#to write in any given arc or story in a similar way to how Bruce is utilized in Brave and the Bold#anyway. idk idk. my issues with Taylor are not the same as the others exactly but also they are and also I just plain dont like the guy#so I complain about him at any given opportunity even when its not technically as accurate or relevant as it possibly could be#I Am Flawed. its fine though dont worry about it. its called being nuanced
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let's all think about roman literally on his knees at gerri’s feet, begging to be saved. but you can’t be saved from Logan, that’s the whole point, he is a planet of a person he’s a black hole he is every decision already made. gerri tries to get him to see this — there’s no way out, no move they could possibly make against him, because Logan. always. wins. maybe if roman could give her one reason to fight for him, but there aren’t any. it’s pointless. it has nothing to do with roman, really, and everything to do with the harsh reality that Logan is the center of their universe. but all that nuance is completely lost on roman, because in that room he is seven years old again and always. and when she asks how it serves her interests, what she is saying is show me a way out, but what he hears is that she doesn't care about him. and maybe she never did.
#that was their real relationship shattering moment imo. can’t come back from that one if you never ever talk about it again#succession#romangerri#to be so clear: she cares. she cares so much it makes her look stupid. but she Is her job and that is her priority#but ALso when she says how does it serve my interests. we could also count him as one of her interests.#and how would it serve either of them if she gets fucking decapitated and frozen out and left to die. how could she do ANYTHING from there.#like yes i do think that she is also saying the plain text version of it - how does this benefit me personally. because it sure doesn't#but the power of the unconscious unspoken 'what benefits me includes you' whoooo now that. is crazymaking#if half of your two-person team just got financially and professionally obliterated. i probably would not follow him off that cliff#i think i would probably say wow your son is craaazy i totally support everything you're doing from a business angle.#even if it's a terrible interpersonal move and you WILL die alone.#like she could be (almost) completely honest and still keep his trust and her position. and then he's dead and who's next?#Gerri has a better understanding of Logan's impending death than maybe anybody. ESPECIALLY Logan. easy hill to die on because it is textual#she also doesn't grieve him at all and there are many reasons for that! but i think mostly it's that she saw it coming#only girlie besides tom who understood the concept of succession but like for real#okay done typing now#sp#i love my freakies okay leave me alone
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Guess who got into ENA
Anyway, here are my favorite characters (outside of Ena herself).



#ena#ena dream bbq#I think the Shepard is neat. I love her design voice and no-nonsense attitude#TURRON#Phindol is full of good vibes. His voice is perfect and his model going crazy makes me laugh#Hoarder alex is just plain hilarious. His rant made me laugh so hard#and then he just fucking dies. Absolute Cinema#he's such a funny asshole I love him#hoarder alex#phindoll#the shepard#also I love ENA herself. Her design is sick I love her voices and I find her very relatable and interesting#sad and meanie ENAs are my favorites (yes I am basic)#I love the series general batshit vibe. Just embrace the nonsense#reminds me of Yume Nikki but a lot more engaging for me
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Jojo Merch Interest Check!
Gonna be flooding this with ideas because!! I’ve had so many ideas in my head and wanted to see if there was any interest in them. One of my fave things besides Jojo is CDs, and what better way to show my love for it than, boom-! Jojo inspired album keychains!
This would basically be an epoxy keychain, 3.15 inches (8 cm) length wise and include a front and a back designed after an album based on the namesakes or references for the Jojo character. Shown above, I did a Lucy Steel mockup based on Sgt. Peppers Lonely Hearts Club Band album and designed with a back that would possibly list the other songs and be designed to look like a cd case.
There will be no moving parts, no extra pieces, just a plain and simple square with a character and album design with the front being made with epoxy!
Some concepts I sketched up:



Gyro with the Ballbreaker album cover (debating on going green or going blue)
FV with the Dirts Deeds Done Dirt Cheap cover (that would prolly feature different FVs we see including an older one)
Johnny with “The Very Best of Fleetwood Mac” cover that would resemble a steel ball and include the various Johnny’s we see in the story (including young Johnny, teen Johnny, potentially JJL Johnny too :)!)
If you’re interested, please vote in the poll below so I can consider if I want to spend time making these! And while I did show off only Part 7, I can potentially do other parts if it’s requested or they do well. This is a bit of a larger undertaking compared to what I consider my usual stuff but if it’s positively received I’m willing to put in the effort to make em!
#my art#buy some apples#uhhhh yeah! teehee maybe I’m jumping the gun asking ahead#but I’m always tryna make fun Lucy stuff for myself and said!! why not share the love if there’s an interest#I have a big cd collection it’s my favorite thing seeing in my room#and I’m like omg!! what if I had a keychain aaaa#I did have another few artists who made keychains as an album#and I adore those but also I’m not too keen on the magnetic pieces cuz what if fall off :(#but I understand there would likely be no interest in just. plain square keychain idk so hence why I am asking!#and as always if there are any questions just ask!!#interest check#merch interest check#jojos bizarre adventure#jojo#jjba#lucy steel#johnny joestar#jjba merch#jojo merch#funny Valentine#gyro Zeppeli
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Hi Rocky, remember when I said I had conflicting feelings about Round 7. Well um what did you think of the new video
Geo!! Lovely to see you :3
So unpopular opinion maybe, but I actually really liked Wiege? That could be just because I enjoyed the song but the amount of lore that they're able to give us in little snapshots is truly amazing. Hyuna losing her round, Hyuna sacrificing herself for Luka, all of the natural metaphors in the lyrics (the wings drenched with longing finally unfold, you'll embrace the sea that sings, etc), Mizi finally gonna go apeshit . . . I'm excited for what's next and I'm actually very happy with Wiege! Not necessarily happy that Hyuna died but uh thats more complicated. . .
One, it seems apparent that Luka killed the other clones of him? Which is both insane but also makes a lot of sense, insofar as his feeling of superiority towards them. It's a crazy thing to think about but it shows the way that he views most other living beings as chess pieces in a broader game, if that makes sense? He doesn't really care about people on a personal level, most often, and that's what makes Hyuna special. . .
We also get to see how Luka's love is both obsessive and possessive, the him kissing her wanted posted while in his room, (yknow the whole "your life is mine" bit from before) but we also get to see how Luka's love really is, in part, about seeking comfort from someone he loves. He leans into Hyuna while she cries, likely mourning Hyunwoo's death, and when he runs towards her, he's reaching out. It's strange how . . . earnest it is, how unadulterated by anything like possession or conditions. Not only that but Hyuna does seem to genuinely love Luka back, maybe not romantically, but she definitely cherishes him, which we knew before but it's still nice to see confirmed again.
Additionally, I would say that we get evidence that the fight that killed Hyunwoo, well, it was started by Hyunwoo. It seems likely that Luka did something to annoy Hyunwoo or did something that frustrated him, enough that Hyunwoo decided to get physical. I mean Hyunwoo doesn't seem happy about it, for sure. But with the framing, it makes me think that Hyunwoo was simply killed in a fight, most likely on accident- though we know that Luka has possessive feelings over Hyuna, from what we've seen of his past with Hyuna and Hyunwoo, he didn't seem to view them as that much of a separate entity. A lot of the shots where Hyunwoo is still alive, in Wiege at least, Hyunwoo is framed as positively as Hyuna is . . . which makes me think that Luka didn't kill Hyunwoo on purpose.
Then again it doesn't really appear like Luka knew what he'd done, in the aftermath. . .
We also get to see more glimpses of the kiddos at the garden which made me very happy!! I don't have much to say about it but I simply find it endearing to see them all together again, to have that confirmation that they really were friends, they really did love each other. Ivan bringing the others to take care of the waygein was the most interested of the "past" cutscenes to me . . . besides all of the Hyuna focused ones, that is.
Additionally, the snippets of a modern alternate universe, seemingly the high school au? or something adjacent to that, is so lovely, just to see them all happy . . .
I think it's so interesting that Hyuna sacrifices herself, fulfilling a pattern that we've seen before with 3 out of the now 4 dead characters. Ivan, Sua, and now Hyuna, all sacrificed their lives for a person that they loved. It's fascinating on a more meta level that Hyuna's sacrifice is the only one that isn't planned, she didn't intend to die for Luka today but she does because she doesn't think, she just knows that she needs to save him from being killed. I think that both of those forms of sacrifice are kind of lovely, they show the willingness to put your life on the line for someone you love (but sacrifice in and of itself is often a selfish act, and I'm definitely not saying it's heroic . . . just poetic).
Not only that but the rocket imagery behind Hyuna while she's speaking to Luka is so so strange. I don't really know what that is but I have one theory; "because everything begins from there." I think that the rocket, maybe, is representative of that first contact that humans had with the seygein all those years ago, the way that humanity got itself into this mess of slavery and suffering, and by extension, "everything begins from there." but that's my only real thoughts on the rocket . . .
man this is so long I'm sorry Geo . . . suffice to say, I actually like Wiege!! probably a weird thing to say but uh yeah, the song is lovely, the animation is stunningly beautiful as per usual, and the story is utterly thought provoking, I am rapt. The amount of lore we got in this episode along makes me froth at the mouth a little.
Thank you so much for asking, Geo!! I am going to send you an ask because I'm curious what you thought 👀 love youuuu thank you so much for indulging me :3
#also hyuna sacrificing herself kind of makes sense in the grand scheme of things like#she & sua & ivan have been shown to have self worth issues. if that makes sense? like sua and ivan are resigned to death#while hyuna fights for her life; its kind of plain to see that she's struggling with her past. her trauma. depression. which is reasonable!#its just super interesting that hyuna we first knew as this lively spitfire and now we know that yes she is that but she's also got demons#i love that honestly the complexity of her is so lovely#ummm yeah again i'm so sorry this is as long as it is#alien stage#alnst#alnst luka#alnst hyuna#alnst mizi#alnst hyunwoo#alnst ivan#alnst sua#mizisua#rocktalks#rock yaps incessantly more like but whatever#geospiral
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i will say im a windclan moor >>> windclan prairie truther in my heart but i also think looking at "warrior cats is set in the new forest/england/the uk" and going "no it's not. it's actually set wherever i live" is awesome so whatever. whatever you think is right and whatever i think is right. 10 billion creative and inspired by personal experience warrior cats settings forever
#USamerican fans you guys may be oversaturating the headcanon department due to how many of you there are#but it's not like the series' setting is concrete anyways and also fuck england#if the series was set somewhere in the usa the wildlife would be way more diverse and interesting at least#and who is anyone to rob someone of going to some sort of open field or plain or hill near them and going wow...... windclan territory#that being said heather and gorse is pretty#also to be clear this isnt meant to be dismissive of anyones opinions on this rather just accepting of Them All#if youre very passionate about the sanctity of english warrior cats then i also respect that#i just think arguments about beavers/mountain lions or whatever is silly when everyone is bringing their own vision#wc talking
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I have not been in this fandom long enough to reasonably judge others' takes however. "EPIC fans are so silly to characterize odysseus as feeling guilty for his actions don't you know he's a war criminal" is definitely a wild one. like first of all to each their own so settle down and let people enjoy things ok. and secondly making choices with a bad outcome, even knowingly and deliberately, does not exclude the possibility of feeling bad about it later. in fact it makes for a much more in depth character because then you get to explore what he does or doesn't feel guilt over, and why, and if that guilt ever edges into regret or not.
#and thirdly i actually find it fascinating the way EPIC had him take a very conscious role in the greying of his morality#it's interesting to me because from my point of view odysseus in the odyssey is almost a passive player in his own myth#and i enjoy taking that very active moral choice and applying it to some of his non EPIC actions#odysseus#epic the musical#uh what is the tag for the epic cycle#as far as I'm aware it's#tagamemnon#?#idk i just think that if you were to ask your character what they would do differently the answer should not be ''nothing lol''#that is either a character who needs wayy more development or a storyteller who needs wayy more practice#also. WAR CRIMES DIDN'T FUCKING EXIST IT WAS THE BRONZE AGE#regardless of how socially acceptable or not his actions may have been#none of those men on the plain of fucking troy was about to sit down and agree on what constituted a crime of war#like if achilles can get away with flaunting straight up deliberate corpse desecration#i don't think anyone gets to say a word against odysseus for being a sneaky underhanded bastard who doesn't fight fair#coming back an hour later to add yet another point. the point of the people with this take is ''haha dont you know hes a bad person''#which fine yes by modern moral standards he is and even by contemporary standards* some of the stuff he does is super yikes man#but that STILL does not preclude him from feeling guilt. 'bad people' can feel guilt#gonna go ahead and explain those quotes around 'bad person' btw um i do not believe in morality like that. no one is fully good or bad#i shant speak on THAT further unless someone asks though#*contemporary is an iffy word here i feel because the default is to call the time of the penning of the text contemporary#despite the events in the text taking place several centuries earlier.#in this particular case because i am speaking from a point of textual analysis i will use the former#however i think that the latter is also a useful reference point
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am i allowed to say that I like Hank and Conner as both a figurative father son duo and a couple. Even at the same time, and they have really complicated feelings about it and kinky sex about it??? like both "I'm such a freak D:" and "I'm such a freak~ >:P"
#hankcon#dbh#complicated dynamics yee#I think the writers probably intended the father son intereptation more but its fiction so they aint stopping my interptation#Idk how to explain this more but i think this is more interesting then plain this is a father son dynamic conner is a uwu baby#and more interesting then we are two people who love each other who also just happen to have a huge age(?) gap and this android#android is the only person ive been able to form a deep connection to since my son died and i totally dont see similarties to between them#LIES#HAVE FREAKY SEX ABOUT IT NOW
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please not again
#long life update/rant tags because i cant just be vulnerable in plain text like that i need to be at least a little hidden#basically#i dropped out of uni like a few months ago#this was a hard decision but i am overall happy with it !#I dropped out because it felt like a waste of time and made me give up some opportunities#and now that i dropped out I actually got a bunch of work to do!#more than i expected#my only struggles right now managing my time well#and charging enough money#because I'm not even close to minimum wage but that's a different issue#but my family is really pushing me to start uni again in a different less demanding place#and not even learn art this time !!#do like a compsci degree???#like yeah some of my interest need a good programing base#like web and game development#but idk if comitting to a compsci degree for the next 4-5 years is worth it ????????#i understand they want me to have something to fall back on if art doesnt work out#but i feel like every time i start spreading my wings they are being chopped off#and it always falls back on me for “limiting myself” because clearly i can do both and just dont want to#i dont want to keep dissapointing my family#i already feel like i will never amount to anything after dropping out of the art uni#but i also dont want to keep hindering myself where this is the closest to where i want to be#and i just feel very stupid and uncappable right now
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ever think about how ace's ship is the only other red ship we've seen besides red dwarf?
#red dwarf#fmj#fmj: text#I can only think of explanations for why red dwarf is the only red ship#she's the main character. she's the most important. anything else being red draws too much attention#the other main vessels are also bright colours for this reason and everything else gets to be more plain and inconspicuous colour-wise#but wildfire is RED#I cannot think of a reason why wildfire should be the ONLY EXCEPTION for this very clear visual storytelling rule#... apart from destiny :)#I mean it's a hero ship too so yeah make it bright#and there's the idea of it being a sportscar in space#but there are other colours besides red that could also be shorthand for this#yellow would've worked and not clashed with starbug etc#even white. give it some stripes. I'm just saying it's very interesting that they went with red
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had a follow up phone consultation about my iga nephropathy and what it means. turns out i've probably going around with a severe autoimmune disorder and stage 5 ckd equivalent kidney function since i was like 10 years old and just never knew lmao
#:)#the two interesting things about me are the complete lack of symptoms despite very severely advanced renal toxicity#and the fact that my gfr always floats back to the ~12 range no matter what#evidence dictates that earlier in my life i had an Inciting incident which wiped out 90% of my kidney function#and also gave me this chronic inflammatory autoimmune disease#but then i just compensated for having no organs from a young age and so i just Don't feel it#given my numbers if i had just gotten sick in late 2023/early 2024 i'd be so ill i'd be completely bedridden#anyway what Happened last year is a post-covid kidney injury stemming from an IgAN flareup that knocked me from ~12 to ~8#upset the balance and gave me extreme hypertension. you know the rest#basically the gfr improvements i keep seeing are likely the 2024 injury healing back to baseline#the problem is my baseline sits at the absolute bottom of ckd 4 if we're lucky.#so cool that i have no symptoms but the problem will be later in life#since your gfr naturally declines by up to 35 points and i plain do not have 35 points in me no matter what#so i'd probably have rapid kidney failure and death in like 30 years from now that nobody could do much about#since even being on dialysis does require at least 1 gfr point#the other problem is that because it's autoimmune and characterized by flareups#there's about a 1 in 5 chance any transplanted organ will just immediately suffer a flareup and get destroyed#which is fun! hopefully and probably this won't happen maybe#anyway immensely funny that i've been This Sick basically my whole life. it just wasn't relevant
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さよーならまたいつか! | Kenshi Yonezu
誰かと恋に落ちて また砕けて やがて離れ離れ 口の中はたと血が滲んで 空に唾を吐く 瞬け羽を広げ 気儘に飛べ どこまでもゆけ 100年先も憶えてるかな 知らねえけれど さよーならまたいつか!
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Fall in love, only to be crushеd once again And eventually, go our sеparate ways Blood seeps in my mouth without warning And I spit into the sky Spread your wings and soar Fly away to wherever your heart desires Would we remember in 100 years? Who cares? So long and see you again!
#さよーならまたいつか!#sayonara#sayonara mata itsuka !#米津玄師#kenshi yonezu#音楽#gif#my gifs#god this mv is so much fun !#amidst all of the destruction#shattered glass & flying chairs#there goes kenshi yonezu#strolling around#the further back it rewinds the more confident & cheeky he becomes which is such an interesting contrast not just to the events in the mv#but the kind of biting yet light lyrics in the song itself#sooo good !!!#i've been reading a lot of the interviews he's done recently & i gotta give him kudos for questioning why he was approached - as a man -#for a tv show about female struggle for recognition & acceptance in a male dominated field#how he then incorporated the stories of his female friends into the song & acknowledged advantages he may have#he also touches on some other topics like the transience of the human condition & how it matters in one on one relationships#idk ! i liked his perspective 🧐#also ! on the root beer discourse !!#pleasantly surprised that he enjoyed it so much 😭#i am very much pro root beer#most of my friends sadly are anti :(#but i would drink sleep & breathe root beer if not for the sugar content#now i just wonder if he tried just the plain stuff or a float#it makes a big difference you see
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*lovingly tackles Aine*
Read my Yandere! Pierro longfics first ♪( ´▽`)
Last week, my beloved mutual @ainescribe surprised me with Savior! Darling fan art and AHAI9232@2-!/! CRYING SCREAMING I WANT TO LOOK AT THIS ART AND WORSHIP YOUR VERSION OF SAVIOR THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BLESSING ME WITH YOUR ART—
*clears throat* Anyway, now that I finally have the time to properly sit down and comment on the fan art, I’ll do just that. Feedback will be in the tags and it will be unhinged. Once again, thank you so much to Aine for drawing this <3
#feedback#fan art#pranabefall#AIIINE ;-; once again. thank you so much!! it rlly means a lot to me that you enjoyed my writing and felt inspired to draw this :'>#and as someone who loves fashion and character design. it's so so interesting to analyze your version of savior#there's so much symbolism and visual storytelling in each sketch/ outfit and i shall now proceed to pick apart each detail as best as i can#her snezhnayan fit.....god i love it. it's regal. distinctively snezhnayan. and draws attention to her--and you just know that was pierro's#intention when he dressed her in those garments. IT'S JUST SO...!! savior's wardrobe scrubbed clean of her original culture and preferences#replaced with the foreign garments of her captor's nations.....in line with this. i love how her kokoshnik and khaenri'ahn earrings are big#and attention-grabbing. you can't look at her without taking note of those accessories. it begs the question:: how many times has savior#looked at the mirror after being dressed up in snezhnaya and was unable to recognize her own reflection?? :'>#also shoutout to some details aine shared with me: 1) the face marks are inspired by weeping angels 2) the kokoshnik was traditionally worn#by married noblewomen BUT the veil was normally for unmarried women so savior's outfit can be seen as a form of compliance + rebellion#(though later on in history it became accepted for married women to also wear that veil. also my apologies if what i said is inaccurate)#lastly shoutout to savior's expression!! very poised and mysterious....due to her emotional state or pierro's rules on how to act as his#spouse in public?? we'll never know~ the first drawing hits even harder when you compare it to the next one!! such an interesting contrast~#savior in her plain attire. casual and domestic with a smile on her face....i'm guessing this is her pre-fatui version?? she looks so warm#and friendly. and i can definitely understand why pierro fell for her smile <3#also i fucking love the caption. sorry pierro but you are cursed to be a loser/ simp/ pathetic man in all of my fics and AUs xD#NOW ONTO GODDESS! SAVIOR AAAHHHH!! i love the greek goddess motifs. she looks so regal and awe-inspiring but in a different way from her#snezhnayan attire--archaic. divine. and more suited to her personal style.....yet both versions of her look so painfully isolated :'>#her blank eyes. emotionless face. and veil give me the vibes of a spooky victorian ghost...or would a statue/ portrait be more fitting??#the lack of a necklace is also an interesting design choice given what happens in the fic. and now i realized i forgot to comment on your#version of her snezhnayan necklace oops. similar to the kokoshnik and earrings. the size + grandeur makes it impossible to ignore#that and big jewels = expensive af. ohhh and i love the sparkles on her veil!! pierro rlly spared no expense in dressing up his wifey <3#it's also funny how all of these outfits are similar to my own version in terms of 'savior wore grand clothing during her glory days as a#goddess -> wore simple attire after her decline for practicality and to blend in with humans/ disassociate from her old identity -> is now#dressed in even grander clothing as the harbinger's spouse. but it's used to reinforce her new identity and pierro's control over her'#tldr:: your design is so creative and i can see the effort you put in analyzing her character and depicting her based on your interpretatio#thank you for being my mutual + reader and i hope we can share even more harbinger/darling brainrot in the future :>
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