#also its kinda vent lol

[jayadwal]

[dreamdripdistance]

im genuinely amazed at how much ive drawn over the past few months just because of in stars and time, and also like. in my own opinion, the amount ive improved? it pushed me to be more accurate with my anatomy and drafting because i wanna make cool stuff so i cant be lazy lol. it also gave me an excuse to draw subjects that i Like to draw but was too shy to. bc Too Sad. but that doesnt matter when the game thematically supports it LOL

though. i Have forgotten how to colour things HAHAHA

[sankttealeaf]

gamers. i miss the sun :(

[astraydestiny]

Often times it just so happens to be that no matter how hard you try, words just simply cannot make their way onto the paper in front of you. Maybe it’s you thats holding yourself back, maybe it’s life or school.

But that doesn’t matter to you, does it? The only thing that matters is your inability to act. You didn’t do what makes you, you. Your entire purpose, career, life, all revolves around creating- and you cant even do that.

But can you really blame yourself? Its not your fault, really it isnt. It cant be. Your mind cant formulate normal sentences anymore, your not as articulate as you once was, the muscles in your fingers have grown weak. That isnt your fault! Surely it isnt, if it was, you would have acted on them by now, wouldnt you have?

…

Forget it. Even that word looks odd. The r is out of place. R’s symbolize regal strength. Strength in aesthetic, strength in propriety. There is nothing strong about being forgotten. But then again, foget doesn’t sound right either. It’s like somethings missing, but I can’t wrap my head around what it is. It sounds so incomplete. Without strength, being forgotten is undefined, abstract, a sort of remembrance malleable to everyone but yourself. However with strength, with all those values upheld, with that false image sustained relentlessly for all that time, being forgotten is disappointing; egregious, a reminder that our fate lies not in our hands but in the threads that weave their way through our hearts.

Was it a consequence of my own self-loathing that I feel this way? An inability to concentrate, to focus on the things that truly matter to me? I reach out to that distant guiding light, but I receive nothing but the path deeper into the interstice of which I am trapped.

What is the purpose of creativity without substance? What is the beauty behind scattered thoughts with no clear direction? Questions with no answer.

Objective fact versus subjective feeling, which one will seize the throne of priority?

Who am I if I cannot be who I am?

All rhetorical anyway. Is my presence really that frightening to you? Rest assured, I do not recognize that man staring back at her through the mirror as well. We are the same in that we have been left with no meaning, no hope, and nothing left to work for in a life as cruel as ours.

No words can describe the pain of humanity at its zenith, brought on by the nadir of our own morality.

We enter an age filled with tyranny, hopelessness, apathy, and ignorance.

Or rather, we as in me.

[reinafish]

Kinda vent but u can ignore it bc im fine💥💥 drawing vanilla rn and its making me happy

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OK. TWO. GOT IT.

Lets try again

My and my uncle were watching a movie (and after we were gonna play mario party YIPPEE) and right when a dramatic scene was happening (character dying) my sibling + my cousin interrupt and kinda kept making comments for the rest of the movie (THANK GOD WE WERE ALMOST AT THE END. They were saying stuff like calling a character “Dumbledore” and at some point my cousin sang Chrissy Wake Up???😭😭)

Anyways it ends finally (it was good ig :> (i literally yelled over some symbolizm i noticed in it /vpos)) and I go to my room where my nintendo is charging! Oh why isnt it on- oh my god its on 5%. For the whole 2 hours of the movie. It barely charged.

So no mario party either hm

Tho i’ll prolly be able to play it later? I’m tryna be positive rn and I think its working actually :)

Uh idk i just wanted to get this out uhhhh ignore if u wanna ^_^ bc other than the bad stuff I’m good :D drawing Vanilla rn and i love her so ><

[gemharvest]

Need to get on top of whatever dumb fucking inferiority complex I got going on I'm tired of looking at everything about myself and going "Wow I am really sub-par." I know it's 2am but this isn't the midnight thoughts talking this is a fucking persistent curse throughout my day.

[astrxealis]

my favorite teacher plays dnd and bg3 do you know how crazy that is to me

[dandyshucks]

rambling abt my sister and her taking issue w Lil Guz on the trip fjfkdl

smth that was kind of funny (also immensely frustrating but I'm choosing to laugh about it instead of being upset about it rn LOL) is that last year I brought a k.ermit plush with me on our trip to the city to take photos of and my sister was annoyed with me for it, but then this year she was annoyed I'd brought Lil Guz instead and said she missed the k.ermit plush,,,, next year if I bring a different plush she'll probably be annoyed and hassle me yet again and say she misses the Guz doll fjfkdl

this year I was better about ignoring her yelling at me and trying to make me feel like shit and so I got more good photos of my road companion though :] I missed a lot of photo opportunities last year bc I got scared but this year I did my best to ignore her (while also making sure I wasn't pushing my luck so she wouldn't completely explode bc then I'd get yelled at by Everyone fbfkdl)

anyways!!! i have many photos of Lil Guz to share, I just need to ... go through and sort them for posting sporadically over the next while fhdkdl, I'm excited to share them though!!!

[mawenskiblue]

👁️ 👁️ what is this “nmg au”? Tell me more?

🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️💦💦💦 hides snippet under the cut (rambles in tags)

... It’s hard to tell what they’re feeling at times. Still, they shook his hand and introduced their name.

N.

A simple, one-lettered nickname. Unlike his, clearly inspired by his appearance; but he’s not complaining. Nightmare gave him a better nickname than what the multiverse did. ...

[stariomctrashio]

face to face with what you’ve done

[ii-zi]

Love how obvious it is when something trends organically vs bot activity just looking at the trending tab

[flyingspicerack]

Nobody

[maladaptivedaydreamsx]

Had enough items to speedrun and read both parts to Silvio's, then found more items and was able to read the sweet end for both Clavis & Jin.... aw hell yeah, triple epilogues baby 👀

I still feel very torn about how they're running things lately though, Ikepri is starting to feel much more cash cow-y with the high point requirements, the premium ends requiring BOTH readthroughs, and no more bday stories but instead grinding through events... love the characters & the storylines but like.. damn. i'm getting genshin ptsd ngl💀

[thesugarhole]

ive been licherally catching up with my python stuff all day since 10ish am (previous hours dedicated to my pre-focusing fucking around if you must know) and now that im all caught up with my clean notes and corrected exercises and its time to move on in the exercise sheet to catch up with where most of the rest of the class is (im assuming sheet 3, im 1/4 sheet 2) and its 20mins to 10pm and i just dont feel like it anymore. i kinda wanna go to sleep.

im gonna pull my hair out its like i did nothing from an outsiders perspective. but at least i have nice looking notes