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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#gojo satoru#megumi fushiguro#jjk art#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#jjk leaks#pulled another allnighter fr Angst's sake cries i havent slept.......but i couldnt help myself i was out all DAY i hadnt drawn all DAY#do u know what that does to a mf i felt all antsy and Wrong#so i cracked an energy drink i think i may have a problem honestly but hey at least u get ur daily dose of megumi angst#remember how i said i considered including gojo in the yuuji/tsumiki/megu squared train piece#well this is me making up fr Not including him there#i ws right his and megumi's relationship deserves its own homage smile :)#anyway @ anon who wanted a gojo/megumi hug.....ik it's not exactly a hug but you can forgive me im sure <3#dare i say it's better than hugs jeremy.....#honestly fr all my gripes w gojo i Did get kind of emo abt this?? but i feel like. the majority of my emotions r on megumi's behalf#also might have been the mukashi mukashi no kyou no boku on repeat that'll also do it#seriously debated putting translated lyrics as the caption but it feels like a copout doing 2 lyric-captions in a row#also i do have some shame. miku lyrics r a bit.#anyway art notes uhhhhh finally got gojo's hair to not look Yuuji#who knew the trick was to make it longer smh maybe sleep deprivation n 10 hours of staring at a screen Does make simple problems hard#oh file name 'proud of you' btw
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Thankyou for posting about nameless consistently and keeping the fandom alive!!! <3
Why thank you so very much!!!! ^^ Someone's gotta do it!!! And I sure don't mind stepping up to be the one to carry the fandom on my shoulders!! ^^
But thank you for liking, reblogging, commenting, etc!!!!! It wouldn't be the same without you - it'd just be an archive of Nameless stuff without any interaction :D
I've made posts before about autism headcanons for the characters and paired them with Spotify playlists I've made for them. I've made playlists for both Soi and Shinbi, but I don't really have many headcanons for them.
I hope that when I make these playlists, people might be listening to them..... Hm.
Idk if I'd make any playlists for the other characters tho. Doubt I could make any for Zion or Hobin, n I guess I could make one for Yujin, but I imagine there'd be a very limited amount of songs I could choose for him
I hope people enjoy my fics too!!! :0 I'm especially proud of my wip Secret Ending Three.. I should write more of it today!! That, or I just cave and try making a playlist for Yujin. Idk!
It would've been nice to do something for Cheritz's anniversary in February - I was planning on getting a Nameless (the character) tattoo, but was depressed at the time, and cuz of how much energy getting a tattoo takes out of you anyway, I decided to leave it. I may instead get that tattoo on my birthday, in September then.
Nameless my favourite thing ever - I hope I can get some official merch one day - I'll probably get it for Christmas :3 after that, I might want to start saving for Crobi Dolls. That'll take me years, but it'll be a life long hobby, so it doesn't matter
Maybe you might like to make Nameless content too!! :3 I encourage it, all the help is appreciated ^^ on the Discord, I regularly (ish!!!!!) stream the game n I always love when ppl watch the stream, even if they don't say anything. I try to do it on Fridays, but it's mostly just whenever I feel like it - after I finish Nameless, I'm gonna stream Dandelion too!!
Hell, maybe I should just do it on Twitch or something if I wanna make it a proper regular thing?? No idea. I just like Nameless and Cheritz a lot
I'd really love if I could meet other Cheritz fans (who Aren't just fans of MM or Ssum) irl.... Ik that someone in the Nameless fandom actually had their own stall at a London con, so ik that a Nameless fan out there is actually in the UK!!! But London, at a con.... Idk if I'd go there to see em
Do you love how my posts turn into rambles about just about anything? I think it'd kinda cool tbh, what do you think?
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Sometimes I forget Tyler Robert Joseph was an honest to god jock who was so good at being a jock he almost went to college on a jock scholarship. Because instead of doing basketball he decided to don his little emo slippers and write little emo music starring gayass protagonist Clancy NoLastNameGiven and his boyfriend Biblical Allegory
#twenty one pilots#tyler joseph#josh dun#contemplating tyler's biceps and what about it#this is a silly joke post btw you can like sport and also do music and make little gay people <3#could not be my range of hobbies personally bc if i move too fast i faint but#also also btw i mean jock as in someone who plays a sport or is very into sports not a body type#athletes can and do look all types of ways :-)#ik tyler was very thin (and still is) but again he was a good enough athlete to get a scholarship offer#therefore Jock. to me
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You’re the resident chilchuck expert, so I was wondering about it there’s any canon evidence that he did smoke or drink alcohol when the kids were younger. I always thought it was something he picked up due to the strain of long jobs, when the kids were already older, but you seem to think differently and I was wondering if there was anything in canon that made you think that way!
Now that you mention it I guess it’s true there’s no evidence he did. Smoking we literally only know he does at all because of one post-canon panel where he has a pipe, so no, maybe this stick-looking thing in the panel below too though, I’m not familiar with medieval blunts eh. We’ve only gotten one panel of him and his daughters interacting when he was younger so that’s not too insightful on that end, and every time we see him young and freckled it’s in a job context so again not really where we’d expect him to be drinking. The earliest proof (/heavy implication since we don’t see inside his cup I guess) is 3 years before canon when Laios hired him, where he’s at a bar, classily placed in front of all the bottles ✨
Yes alcohol is almost certainly a way through which he copes especially with stress, so if we go with the theory he started around when work got stressful, well… Chilchuck started working as a dungeon diver ~10 years ago so when he was ~19, making Mei, Fler and Puck ~6 and ~4 respectively, so from that draw the ‘stressful enough to start drinking’ line wherever. We don’t know what he did before that with any certainty, and it could be he did odd jobs, lived off mostly mutual aid and community work, or just focused on only raising the girls. Half-foots tend to be poor and I see a lot of that in Chilchuck specifically so I don’t think he could have afforded to not have some paying work though.
Alright, so then why do I think he did drink when the girls were younger?
I give a more complete rundown of the info we do have on his alcoholism & his family with panels and references + all the speculation I make from it here. But the most targeted and objective answer I can give is:
Of course there’s just very very little we know of Chilchuck’s life with his family, and I think that’s by design too. I think the details being up in the air is to allow more nuance of the topic, like, will trying to reconcile go well, is their relationship salvageable? We don’t know, because we don’t know. So the message of giving hope a chance even if it’s a long shot, that things could truly go either way, is more relevant, impactful and meta in that way. How long was he usually away for work travels into dungeons here and there? How did he act with them? All we can really do is "it’s likely that", it’s a game of which way we think it’s more implied. There’s no right and wrong answer, it’s all Marcille-like larping the events out.
My main reason for thinking he did is that his father died from overdrinking and Chilchuck is very aware of that. He mentions his death casually in the extra about their stance in alcohol and in his Adventurer’s Bible profile, etc. He acts towards the alcohol presumably the same way his father did: with abandon, uncaring for the health effects, probably happily too considering Chil says "dying doing something you love is a good way to go". Very nonchalant. So you see what I’m saying here right, wether he started early or late, his view of alcoholism is very influenced by what he saw of his father growing up, it’s something he’s always been aware of and saw in a mostly positive light, something that was inherited you could say. It’s something that was normalized to him from a young age. Regardless or where it goes from there I do think this part is pretty inarguable. If he views it positively and we know that in the present alcohol is his favorite food that he loveees, why would he have held out on it? Personally that all makes me think he started drinking very young, especially since I don’t think they limited alcohol to age as much as modern standards (and I mean, teen drinking is obviously still a thing). And here you could argue, maybe his father only started being more alcoholic later when Chilchuck moved out, or something! And to that there’s nothing I can say except I think that’s a strained theory, and that Chil might even have largely cut contact with his family after moving out (since he and siblings are listed as almost strangers and he doesn’t seem to have much emotional attachment to his parents, but also we know he rents out his place to "a relative"), but it’s true we have no evidence. "I’ve picked up the same unhealthy substance abuse as my father haha! No big deal right haha" repeated several times to me just reeks of intergenerational trauma, & the alcoholism gene as they call it. Like effortless sliding into drinking as if it’s second nature, it’s natural after all, it’s normal after all, it just makes sense, it makes you feel good and that’s what matters.
BUT from my interpretation then we have a whole other layer: Alcohol is of course not all bad always. I think he’s always liked alcohol and drank it on occasion and it brought him joy etc etc, but I think here the implication in the question is, how much effect did his drinking have on the family relations and how early? And that isn’t so much about when him drinking started but when the alcoholism started. Addiction is defined by a habitual need, that has negative effects from filling that need (physical, psychological, social, etc) and negative effects from withdrawal. If Chilchuck drinks to cope and he can’t not cope without it, that’s addiction, if it affects his relationships, if it’s a need he has, it’s addiction. Addiction can be very insidious or look very casual, and how much people around the person are affected by it is case by case. Cheerful drunks can be sooo annoying and uncomfortable though let me tell you. Drunks are drunks. And this sounds harsh, but even if people around them don’t mind drunks it’ll still have some effects here and there, living with one can be such a challenge, ily drunks good luck with everything much like Chilchuck you deserve good things 🫡
Ok so with the dad thing and the "ok well maybe he’s always drunk casually but it grew worse with time around when he started working as a dungeon diver" precision made, the other bit of info we have that can inform this is that Chilchuck is on a harsh diet and that alcohol is a hunger suppressant. We know Chilchuck "used to be fine not eating for two days", that literally on screen to quench his hunger so it doesn’t keep him awake he goes to drink water, drinking is his instinct to hunger. Again alcohol is a hunger suppressant and if you want info on that the internet has a lot of research and anecdotes about it. He diets to be light enough to not trigger traps, so it’s something he’d have started after dungeon diving most likely. Between the stress and the diet, yes it’s extremely likely he started going harder on alcohol after he started working in dungeons. There’s arguments on wether two days without eating is less bad for half-foots than humans, but apart from smaller portions there’s nothing that indicates half-foots should get less than 3 meals a day. They need less food but that’s because their bodies are smaller: the need is proportional to the body, not smaller than others’ races, the % of need is similar even if the kg amount of food isn’t. There’s also a popular headcanon with support basis that half-foots run hot and have a faster heartrate and whatnot, and that points towards a faster metabolism rather than a slower one: a bigger need for eating rather than a smaller one. He has the same bmi, 18, as Mickbell, but perhaps because Chil is much taller he’s less intensely visibly underweight with ribs showing than Mick during the bath extra, it’s most apparent when he becomes tallman.
Alcohol is something so important and omnipresent in his character that I have trouble believing it’s something that was part of only a small fraction of his life. It’s his immediate go-to, his no-brainer solution to a good time, I’ve sort of always assumed especially after looking at his family that it’s something he discovered decently young. Like he just acts like someone who’s always had alcohol to fall back on and started young idk. Alcohol is one of his 5 keywords. Alcoholism is very ingrained into his world view and life, his "it doesn’t matter" stance his ‘work hard play hard’ mentality his idea that the world is harsh so you get relief where you can, so it just makes sense to me that it’s always been in his life, if not actively then at least looming.
So yes, in summary, my take: Alcohol was always something he wholly enjoyed to an unwise level, but it could have been considered casual until he started working into dungeons and his need for it on a regular basis intensified. Alcohol has always had positive association to him as far as we see, so when it started being a problem he didn’t see it as such. To quote him, "I drink anytime I get the opportunity to". Why always? Approval of father’s alcoholism. Why alcoholism at all? Diet + stress & coping mechanism & emotional stunting + relationship issues, and she decided she had enough after they went out for drinks.
Conclusion
Chilchuck having drunk from a young age makes sense to me and it’s the strongest narrative angle I see on the table, but that’s objectively a me opinion, yes! There’s no evidence, moreso there’s canon basis and supporting info, but it’s all very left up to interpretation. I’ve made my own interpretations of things from the scraps we see, like everyone else making Chilwife and daughters content. Wether you have a stance on the topic or prefer to leave it vague in your takes, it’ll be a matter of what you think makes most sense, or what you’d rather believe I suppose (which is literally fine)
There’s a lot of subjectivity in even just setting up causal links like you probably noticed during this and I was careful with my word choices, because we’re just extrapolating from what we see and unless Kui states it explicitly from a reliable mouth all we can do is have informed opinions on most things. This particular interpretation is influenced by other details I’ve come to form about my interpretation of Chilchuck too, the more psychological and emotional sides of him and the timeline and how his marriage even happened, unplanned pregnancy imo. Like I hope you see what I mean, this wasn’t supposed to be a speculation post just a quick simple answer but there’s sort of just no other and concise but complete way with the subjectivity nuance to put "maybe it could be yes because of this but maybe it could be no because of this" haha
Edit: Wait the phrasing on this… Interesting. "In recent years"— This does imply that if not just his alcohol consumption increasing then the diversity and quality of it did, so either he indeed did start drinking more (not necessarily meaning he didn’t drink before) assumedly because of his wife leaving, or he started drinking other/more different kinds of alcohol maybe due to the union he formed + his experience gave him greater salary than he had previously (and no wife and family to provide money for), a mix of both perhaps.
#Also he’s a lot like my own dad so to me with how he is it’s just an immediate “oh yeah he has always drunk duh of course”#So i can admit to bias. Or to specialized knowledge and authority on analysis idk in which way that tips the balance in my favor or not lol#Dungeon meshi#chilchuck tims#meta#alcoholism#This post was meant to be short :|#-slaps chilchuck’s family- this baby can fit in so much projection#I have like 3 chil alcoholism & chil family fic wips rn weeeeee#I’m the kind of alcoholic’s kid who grew up to never touch alcohol btw so like. Ik Chil could not have drunk young i just think he did#Can we appreciate the alcohol opinion & resistance chart actually. So often in media it’s either “alcohol’s a source of fun yippee” and#“alcohol is evil”. Thank you Dunmeshi for diversity of opinion thank you for nuance i rarely feel so seen#Izutsumi deserves to tell Chilchuck he stinks#AND BY THE WAY I hope you don’t feel talked down on anon. Ik you seem to have your own interpretation already & that’s good#sometimes i was adressing like. The General Public TM more than you which is why I spent time on some things like ‘think what you want’ etc#Okok i hope that covers it. Help where does the time go#It’s the sort of thing that makes Kui’s masterful storytelling by implying things here and there until it forms a big picture frustrating#for meta. Like! You can’t prove Chilchuck has been poor/grew up in an empoverished family/environment. There’s no evidence#but also you cannot tell me with a straight face that he isn’t and hasn’t like omg. But then it takes 30 pages to explain how he’s coded#Stop showing and not telling Kui smh /j#Ask#I think a lot about the trolls comic and man he was already so tense and grumpy and yelling. I do think that guy was stress relief drinking
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spent the first hour and change at work deleting some old files and am having a grand ol time laughing at myself for not realizing i was a lesbian sooner
#vulnerable tag rambles ahead please be kind abt them i didnt intent to ramble this much but i dont wanna delete it eitehr#me to every single man i have ever dated after 6mo-1y: yeah hey this really isnt working out i dont really know why but i really hate mysel#and i dont want to blame you because i dont think you did anything inherently wrong here; i think this is something about me but i need#space to figure out why im feeling this way [every single one reacted by telling me No i wasnt allowed to leave btw]#i hold very complex feelings about these relationships esp bc of them ending in very violent/chaotic ways most of the time#but its interesting to look back at it all and realize ive left every man for the same reason (which is that ive hated myself Every Single#Time ive dated a man) and its funny bc i recognized the self hate pretty early on w/ cishet men but when it came to queer men it was#much more confusing (esp w/ nto knowing Any lesbians at that point in my life). im so happy im a lesbian tbh#i have a lot of issues w/ the racism fatphobia and transmisogyny present in lesbian groups#and also coming out as a lesbian really truly saved my life. before i met my wife i was quite literally in a 3yr abusive relationship that#definitely would have died in if i hadnt realzied i was a lesbian and ran from him#its also weird seeing liek the hard evidence of the things that happened to me btween 2016-2020 tbh#cause that was such a bad time of my life. i truly dont know how i survived it but im so glad i did#like the three major relationships in my life b4 meeting my wife was: guy who was in college when i was in HS who stalked me when i left;#guy who was a year younger than me who cheated on me the entire time while telling me he was being victimized (he wasnt; this was very mess#guy who saw the very messy toxic ldr i was in and helped me dump my ex then decided that meant we were in a relationship [insert 3 yrs here#and admittedly all 3 years with him werent the same level of abusive but it was definitely unhealthy from the start considering I Didnt Kno#we were together until he wanted to celebrate vday and got mad i didnt know our anniversary - and like this isnt including the other stuff#that happened between those Relatonships[tm] (cause ive never been monogamous; these were just the Major Relationships)#like i genuinely think if i hadnt come out i'd be dead rn given just how dangerous my relationships were/continued getting#i am also so tired now that ive seen all this cause like. fuck i can barely believe it and i not only lived it but have PTSD about it#i should write about my life sometime. i feel like it'd be cathartic to try and make a tangible timeline and stories from the years ang stu#anyway yeah. be nice about the tag rambles. dont message me with pity or curiosity or anything about this. i dont usually talk abt this stu#publicly bc i hate the ways ppl start tryign to baby me when they realize my life has been extremely fucked up until only a few years ago#n im still working on accepting kindness from others bc of [insert life traumas here] but its a long process so pls respect my need for jus#being heard rn w/o too much pressure< 3 (but ig if u do read this can u like it cause i feel a little crazy seeing all the evidence of the#stuff i experienced now also cause fuck ik logically it was but also i cant believe it was all real still yk)
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💘, ✨, 🍓, 💌, 🐶, 💭 for any 🤍🤍
gasp CUTE PROMPTS THANK U ALEXIS
shroomiya
💘 — what's the closest you've ever gotten to confessing?
during her preparing for the year's summer festival. seeing all her passion for the festival (+ anything else) is one of my favorite things about her, so i was about to abandon all confession plans and tell her right then :)
✨ — describe your crush f/o in your own words!
just.. wowowowowow <3 wow <333 she's so pretty!! and lovely!! and full of beauty and endearing habits!! <333
🍓 — what did they do that first caught your eye?
honestly? i just saw her once and thought she was pretty dhcigcjh (which she is ofc 💖) I spotted her out of the corner of my eye while walking to my home and thought about her the entire way back
💌 — have you ever written love notes/letters to them? what about poetry about them?
oh 100%. I love love love writing letters for her. something that I made that she can keep?? im definitely making her so many she'll have to dedicate a drawer to them. (I'm very much a person of sentimental keepsakes, so I'd also give her more than just letters. like little souvenirs from places we've been together!!)
🐶 — is your crush on them obvious? how do you act around them?
very. but I also act very loving with my close friends so it could be easily covered up by "oh shroom does this with all their friends!!" but if you looked into it, it would be evident that I'm looking too much into how i appear to feel about her so I'd end up being MORE obvious. but yea I'd act very sweet and loving to her and try to cover it up by it just being platonic hcchuchj
💭 — have they ever appeared in your dreams? do you daydream about them often?
irl, I forget most of my dreams so idk xgucguxug. but in universe i would have the occasional dream of her! but yes <3 she does often cross my mind <3 fish and fireworks remind me of her!!!
shroomsym
💘 — what's the closest you've ever gotten to confessing?
ok this requires some context. stress is a part of the game he's from, if you get too much you can't do some things (it goes up to 100). once each time you find sym, eventually you can click an option and he will relieve 5 stress. the way he does this is by putting his forehead on yours. the first time he did this i was so awestruck by him and almost blurted out my feelings (he probably already knew by then fyucguxjgxgj)
✨ — describe your crush f/o in your own words!
he's so.. !!! <3 as dys (another character from the game) would say, "he's more pretty than handsome" he is!! he's very pretty <3
🍓 — what did they do that first caught your eye?
this also requires some context. so you can go exploring in game, and this is how you meet sym. you get a few glimpses of him and I have too much space in my brain for him to fill. he's called a mysterious stranger the first times you see him. how is he supposed to leave my mind after that?
💌 — have you ever written love notes/letters to them? what about poetry about them?
yes but sadly paper to write on is not really a thing in this game hjccvjccjg. HOWEVER!!! it got replaced with digital stuff. 50% of my notes are definitely about him in some way.
🐶 — is your crush on them obvious? how do you act around them?
even more than with yoimiya. he knows. probably before I do. but does he do anything about it? no he'd wait for me to say something, not because he's nervous, but because he'd want to know how I'd confess to him. but I would be VERY flustered around him, especially because there are basically zero times when I'm with sym and someone else (for a while, at least).
💭 — have they ever appeared in your dreams? do you daydream about them often?
irl, same as yoimiya, I forget 99% of my dreams so probably but idk ihccihcuh. but for in universe. being so real. he'd find a way to worm himself into my dreams. which sounds weird but it'd be for us to have a tea party or something fyxguxgux. but yes, I think about him, too <3 purple reminds me of him
#btw ik like none of you know who sym is but I adore him <3 I hope you don't mind me including him ugxxugxg#sym.. <3#BUT I LOVE YOIMIYA!! SHE'S THE CUTEST#SHE'S SO EVERYTHING!!#oh wait sym is. he's. like. this#alien guy. he's purple :}#he's such a sweetie id love to have a tea party with him <3#also yoimiya has been such a way for me to slowly heal. thank you lovely for reinforcing that love is real <3#I love them both with so much of me!!#:shroom is typing...#:shroomiya:#:shroomsym:#sym <3 yoimiya <3#thank you so much for the ask alexis!! ur next vi.. mwah hah hah...#...with alexis:
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just saw someone on youtube show what happens if you betray astarion in the beginning and tell that gur he is the vampire he is looking for and i haven’t stopped crying. even if you end up defeating cazador anyways astarion will have already died at this point (either cazador killed him or the gur) and his zombie will be partaking in the ritual. and when you kill cazador astarion’s zombie will be destroyed alongside it and i just….he really died without a single person in the world caring for him and after finally being free for the first time in 200 years he was betrayed by the first person he opened up to about being a vampire and dare i say even trusted (depends how you play before) at least a little (and if you let him suck your blood before and extend kindness towards him and understanding towards his condition just imagine how much more that would have hit him)
#also neither your party nor cazador nor the other vampires will mention astarion at all…#he keeps the happy buff btw...if you let him suck your blood the night before you betray him i am KMS#astarion#bg3#baldur’s gate 3#everyone who can do this is god’s strongest soldier like omg#(ik there are people who don’t like him and could do this no regrets but…they are wrong actually <3)
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right, so, you know how ten and donna are so close they're considered practically siblings? I think that should apply to eleven and amy as well
they're not quite the same type of dynamic, but I sincerely believe that (where ten and donna were on more equal footing with one another) eleven DEFINITELY sees amy as his little sister and, him, her older brother
I've been trying to figure out WHY eleven and amy were so special to me even if I wasn't exactly the biggest fan of his run and I think this is it
I may be wrong bc the only thing going through my brain rn is angels take manhattan and god complex butttt the way he treats her and the way she wholeheartedly believes in him makes me think of that sort of relationship. like they're not sibling-siblings but they're best friend-siblings. if that makes any sense at all
the way the eleven tolerates having rory tag along on their adventures cause he makes her happy (and eventually grows to care about him too), the affectionate/reassuring forehead kisses, how I genuinely believe that if he could've eleven would've done literally anything to get her back, and him being SOO protective of his amelia "you always get what you want" pond. that is his little sister!!! his precious pond!!!
plus the constant bickering. rory tries to say a single word and the doctor shuts him down so quick, but with amy it's just that constant back and forth bc he loves her and it's fun to play fight
he's like her weird, adopted older brother that keeps going off on adventures and who no one else really likes, but she loves him to bits and he would do absolutely anything for her
#iN tHiS eSsAy I wIlL—#idk if I'm just late to the party and everyone already knew this or not but it's like a revelation to me#this is clicking so perfectly in my brain it almost makes me want to go back to watch them again#I'm soo in love with them even if I don't ever really want to rewatch their seasons <3#I'm just having feels about amy again man. god I love her#also ik that makes some plot points very strange but tbf whatever it makes weird was already off to begin with#squints btw if this post completely wrong and I'm just totally misremembering them someone should tell me#or if you've got a different opinion you should also tell me that bc I'm curious#eleventh doctor#amy pond#doctor who
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hi guys please wish me luck for my college entrance exam tomorrow for one of my dream schools xoxo
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#LET'S GOOO MGA PAREH 💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅💙🦅#i'm so chill for some reason even if ik i will never forgive myself if i don't get in. anyway. manifesting!!! i will pass with flying colors#IT'S REAL DAMN STRESSFUL FOR ME bcs i am aiming for honors courses which means i have to be top 15%... i am top 15% (and higher) in my batch#in school anyway but... urgh...#so. yeah. give me all your best wishes thankyousomuchxoxo AHHEHEHWHSHFJAH sobbing (but fr. if you do. i really appreciate it!!)#i believe in myself :] mostly. the time limit scares me and math and abstract reasoning bcs 5 minutes for 30 items but yeah. okay.#i am Smart ..... bro i literally got perfect on my physics exam and got 100 in statistics (i am really proud of these in particular)#my extracurriculars are good !! all my math scores are insane (cue a math nerd) and science (science nerd) english (god. no explanation#needed) honestly every subject is slay and so is my essay-making but ERGH. honors course... top 15%...#i will try to be chill! honestly i am already lol the nerves aren't getting to me somehow. gl to me and all that i know and do not know.#both here and irl :3 also to fellow ph kids (who are most likely younger than me if they aren't older and yk not worrying abt cets anymore#LMFAO) err idk if . okay idk what i was going to say LMFAO anyway i'm busy af and idk if i'm good with teaching others#but if you ever want any tips from me (honestly i don't really have tips. i do what i do and just make it. but there's a lot involved there)#feel free to come to me for anything ^_^ anything at all tbh. doesn't have to be acads idk i like helping others in general. BUT IT DEPENDS.#but yeah just hmu whatever i will have you know i am genuinely a smart & responsible kid and i am proud of that bcs my family is amazing w#smarts but also the Hard Work is there so :3 !! english is my forte science is my forte math is my forte. also socsci and whatever tbh.#i'm probably insane but i genuinely love all those topics and what we learn in school FISHFK so yeah !!! okay i shut up now#will do my best... zzz... and then i will work on myself. to be better than i already am and even better than i could possibly be. ya. fun!#the mga pareh is a joke btw i like imitating filipino kids like that. like yooo mga pareh let's goooooo wahee!!!!!
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oc art dump >:3
#not tagging this cause. its all low effort sketches but :3 atlas nova images time#ALSOOOO ik the colours aren't consistent 💀 i've only just figured out the exact colourpallete i want to use for them#GUYS ITS FINE...its fine she can shapeshift...its fine the mismatch in colour palletes was intentional (lying)#alsooo also. i NEED to learn to do more dynamic poses + different angles. we have ENOUGH front facing images from the waist up#im obsessed w/this little guy btw. <3 my fav totally normal human being :3 (they...rlly aren't. frankly they're super “overpowered” but...#they're just chilling and being silly abt trains & astronomy!!)#also. shout out to anyone who recognises the bottom left as an attempt at drawing a scottrail uniform...you're the real ones...you get me..
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people act like people born post-new millennium have no idea what a floppy disc or a vhs are meanwhile i, born in 2004, have memories of going to a video store to pick a movie to rent and watching it on one of those bigass 4:3 curved screen tvs and being sad when we had to return it
#xenon screams#also we have vhs tapes#they're home videos of when i was a baby#and ik what a floppy disc is but that's because my dad told me what save icons are#i still use that bigass 4:3 curved screen tv for the wii#btw why do people pretend like everyone who played the wii as a kid is 37 now#i was 2 when ghe wii camw out#millenials and gen z have the same childhood#the only difference is that we were preschoolers while you were middle schoolers
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i recently did an essay for university about how male violence are in the top 5 causes of death for women in many countries around the world. after finishing it i am having to physically restrain myself from drop-kicking people who say we need to include cis men more or we need to pander to them or "both genders do it". bitch please show me a map of a single country where women killing men is on the same level as multiple cities let alone countries
RIGHT!!!! like YES there is female on male violence and im not saying theres not, but the problem is that ppl only bring that up to avoid talking about female victims. its only for a point, its never out of genunine empathy!! otherwise they would be talking abt mlm violence. they just mention it to discredit female victims!!!
#like im very biased here because im a ''''''woman'''''' (im nb but i very much so pass as a cis woman since im afab) and im also ugly (not#my belief BUT it is how i would determine myself in society) and fat and cishet guys have been nothing but cruel to me. i can think of three#and one was bi so he doesnt count!! ones my dad and the other an online friend. when youre not of use to guys they just. dont treat you#right. or when youre masculine enough they kinda treat you like an equal but not really. theres always this wall between u like were over#here and youre over there.#i also live in a red state and red county so this affects me more than like say someone in la where ppl are more '''''''''woke''''''''' here#we dont have cishet guys like that. and the ones i do know!!! they all turned out to be abusers to my friends. when every girl i know has#been sa'd in someway theres a problem. and it just !!!! it bothers me that we bascally had metoo overturned roe v wade overturned and yet#ppl still think now is the time to focus on like men again. like damn!!!! we only got about 3 years of yall being good!!! then ofc all the#yt guys came out as shit and so did u know the wife guys !!! this is just like :( i wish there wasnt a barrier between me and guys !! but i#never put it there!!!!#answered#negative /#violence /#btw ik woke is like used as a alt right term thats why its in#in quotes also to refer to the guys who like say theyre '''woke''' aka take feminine studies for pussy
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fucking aroubd and finding out if someones runnint their mouth . results arent in yet
#dont think . yhis will end the way i tbink BUT IDC anymore ik how i feel abt all of this and how i felw abt this fucker#not . fuckaaa mcgee but someone hes friends with whid does this weird fucking dance with me and i cant atand it so !#i already know to shut up ajf learb to hold my tongue abt this topuc (for the most part. tgus is kne thing being hammered into me still#but im making Progress . sorta)#likw i only (that i can rmb my memorues splotchy bx i was WASTED and i know im a trickster myself when i drink#like . the dhit that comes out of my mouth . i beg og u . learn to be Quiet#and i am <3#but thus FUCKER. cannot stand him. dont like the way he talks to me and talks abt how i feel abt him lile u dont know SHIT#i dont Like you for a multitude of reasons ! but u being friends w fuckass mcgee over thwre is NOT the core one#bc i dont care who he surrounds himselc with 😭 i have Opinions but they dont rlly matter and at the end of the day none kf this#inherently rlly impaxts me at all abd it shouldnt#anyway. told him smth i dont tjink is true to test smth but to also . Get Out Of That Situatiob bc . fuck you dude lmao .#i dont wanna associate with you and i dont like that you try n talk to me how u do and when u do .#like . idk i just dobt Like Him ive had a hanfful of drunk conversatuons w him but like . yea i just dont like him.#anyway. im embarrassed to go ibto wkrk ymr im gonna be so real !!!#the fuckhead standung behind me tbe entire time i was talkibg to his friend was awful and makibg me feel sick at the time btw#like . esp now i can feel energy rven 100x more intensely (why im staying home.tn. jd sgits meant to happen i am NOT triggering it by going#out and deliberatley seeking trouble. so)#but anyway . dont know what he was sendubg our way but it wasnt fucming pleasant and WAS making me wanna puke .#like overall not a pleasant 5minutes
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having a roommate youre actually friends with is so weird
#good weird#but like after being uncomfortable in spaces i'd lived in the past couple years#it's nice#but also. it's weird#with this one friend at least#i feel like i have an established dynamic with certain friends#yknow. older nb friend is my dad. i'm flirting w like 3 of my friends as a bit#but my roommate and i are like. i mean we're so chill but it's strange hearing ppl assign a dynamic to us#that lasts for longer than a single temporary bit#yknow? idk#which btw i dont think he cares at all#but to me it's weird. not gross weird jusr. inaccurate#like i have been adopted by many older friends at this point (too many tbh) but when he's assigned my dad for more than a punchline im like#'wait...no'#just inaccuratw vibes#and we joke abt him being the wife bc frankly he does all the cooking and i do jackshit (thats not true i clean a fair amt but)#but we are not relationship dynamic friends. not our vibe#idk it's weird tho bc like. we live together obviously#and i care abt him a lot ofc#and when he's out late for the weekend i do kinda sit there like a worried mother or a wife awaiting her husband's return from war#not texting him bc his life is none of my business like that but also wondering 'when are you coming home?'#it's just. weird. again not bad weird#but i just didnt thinkit would be this way#i wasnt prepared for caring this much ig??? lmao#like. ik some of my friends were kinda surprised/uneasy we decided to live together#bc we're newer friends who really only got closw earlier this yr and some other stuff etc etc#and admittedly it's a slightly strange duo. but i actually really like it#maybe this is just what it's like not being fundamentally uncomfortable in the place u live LMAO#but ya. he's graduating this school yr and i still have another year and literally we're still in sem 1 but like#i'm gonna miss him when he's gone
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Spotify All-Time Iceburg for funn
Yes this is my poorly hidden attempt to get people to listen to the music I like
Picture of my cat biting a croc covering you know who so you guys don't have to take psychic damage like I did when I saw it 🫶
#Actually criminal Adam & the Ants are so low down#literally how#theyre so iconic#Oh btw the Doctor Who is from me listening to 8th doctor audio dramas 👍#Biggest rec from this whole thing is Pillow Queens#theyre so underrated#In Waiting is literally The Album Ever#Also Los Campesinos!#but yous already know that#live laugh los camp! <3#music#rams ramblings#(of anyone doesnt know who the cat is covering its L0vejoy Ik theres probs other problematic musicians here but the VVilbur stuff is recent#<- censored because i kept getting abuser apologists in my notes on my main when i said i dont support them
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got 2 the end of the glass desert got caseys last starmail screammsss
#ive gotten it b4 but i had forgotten the parallel... Like whateverrr 2 doors 2 doors.... hobson chose to stay with the one he loved beatrix#chose to leave iiii fucking get it i get it im literally 💥#its so funny that its like a silly slime game and its also like Youre the only one who can decide what path yr life will take btw.#but anyways. aside from my screaming i haveee got my thang mostly set up.. Well. i have 2 move some farms around#ik my ranch isnt efficient or whatever... i also dont have any largos bc largos freak me out i dont like them. so i only have single types#and i have each type in individual pens...#n like. Would it be technically more efficient to segregate them by like. diet. or to have every ranch expansion have certain slimes and#then their favorite foods bc then i could have a drone automatically fill their feeders#yes it would be and it would save me the stress of like. having to spend an hour refilling all the food and collecting all the plorts. bc#currently. ok so firstly i sort my slimes by like. theme kind of... so my cave slimes. i have rock crystal phosphor and boom. bc theyre all#cave. i wasss gonna have mosaic in there but wewill get into that in a bit so instead i have my pinks in there as well. n thenn for my erm.#overgrowth ive got my tabbys my hunters my honeys and my tangle slimes there... bc yk. tabbys hunters honeys r all moss blanket which is#famously what the overgrowth is themed after. and tangles r there bc theyre plants LMAO. + it means i have 3/4 of my meat eater slimes in#one place. but lord i feel bad for all my meat eater slimes bc theyre suchh a pain to feed... i do only have 6 slimes for my meat eaters.#my others i have 18...#i thinkk i might only have 12 crystals ? idr. bc my crystals r so annoying all the time they r constantly busting out#and it scares me bc im like If you break into another corral and eat a plort and become a largo you r literally going straight into the#ocean IDC. i do care i like my slimes.. but also dont fw me.#but anyways. then in my lab WELL actually this is a enw developmnent. they were in the lab now theyre in viktors workshop#bc see ive worked it out with my brilliant mind. bcc. ok. so currently my gardens r split between ogdens retreat and the like. main starter#ranch bit right. but i hate the way its split currently#bc i have like. ok. so in my main i have 4 umm. like.. gardens and rn its heartbeets mint mangos cuberrys and silver parsnips#the silver parsnips r a leftover from when erm. i was gonna have the mosaics in the cave. BUT see bc odd onions grow with carrots#i feed my pinks with carrots yk. sooo i figured. since i have my crystals in the grotto itd make more sense to have my pinks there since.#carrots and odd onions... so ya thats why i switched them SO for my like garden zones i like to have a silo obv so the drones can harvest#n i was gonna have the garden for my lab slimes (so oca oca + silver parsnips + phase lemon + prickly pear) in vks workshop#BUT that only has 4 plots so i wouldnt be able to ermm. have a silo but the lab has 5 plots so i just switched them around :] YAY! so i jus#need to get my erm. gardens from my main zone into the lab and then switch all the crops around so its all set...
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