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EDIT: I JUST REALIZED I COMPLETELY FORGOT THELYRICS I WAS SUPPOSED TO PUT BEFORE POSTING SO UMM YA 2 VERSIONS
idk how to draw chainsaws
#scp#scp foundation#scp fanart#i scribbled this up rq so it looks weird#just dont look at it for too long#siiiigghhh i love u dr bright#dr bright#dr jack bright#dr shaw#dr elias shaw#someone pls get her a chainsaw gun#also idk what this perspective is dont ask
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sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.
but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.
I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.
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#dont know why continuing in tags but here is more#sometimes we need to ask âwhyâ and not just get mad about how we feel personally. because other people feel differently#yes im guilty of only thinking my feelings and situation and how it relates too and forgetting other peoples. i also need to learn#and everyone's feelings should be valid. just because something might âhurtâ you it might be important for someone else#everyones feelings are valid. but we cant protect everyones feeling. so idk the solution#but stopping someone from having a small positive among a sea of nevgative seems a little mean to me#youre not being empathetic to their side. and i can turn it around and be not empathetic to your side and say stop being upset#and get over it and let people have fun. but i wont. i hear you. but at the same time maybe hear us too.#not everyone wants to live only negatively. youre allowed to but dont expect others to.#and yes i GET IT these things can make the allistics and neurotypicals be even worse towards us. but what do we do?#throw out any positivity we can find and grovel in our struggles because the allistics wont take us seriously?#DO THEY TAKE US SERIOUSLY WITHOUT THOSE SILLY TRENDY THINGS? NO! THEY NEVER HAVE#like i said i dont know the solution and everything still be used against us by those people anyway so might as well have fun?#if we focus on struggles they baby us and dont let us do things and block us from living life#if we focus on positive they dismiss our struggles and try to make us do what we cant and dont help us#we cant win! so its not âthe 'tismâ or whatever other things people made up that cause them to act this way#they already act that way and wont stop unless we figure out how to teach them! but i dont know how! im just a useless little creature#this is probably controversial and someone will get because i dont agree with their perspective despite respecting it#someome will comment to lecture me even though i get it. i do. but two things can exist at the same time!! idk what to tell you!#autistic#autism#actually autistic#lee rambles#words are hard so dont know if i worded it well or not. probably not#also why take away fun things because another group used it for bad? make them stop the bad not stop the good!#i also might be missing more context. i think is about tiktok using these for bad. tiktok is just bad in general and i refuse to use it#why tiktok dictate and ruin our lives now in general? tiktok is really bad đ but that another conversation#no one yell at me and say i dismiss struggles of struggling autistics. maybe you dismiss me needing negative thing to have positive?#not in mood for negative response. will probably cry fhhddhsjdjdjkd#today is real struggle day but if i be little creature i feel better
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If you jouned a 7 sin thrmed group what sin qould you beee?
i'd be the brand new 8th sin: this thing
#ask#anon#answering seriously. uhhh between... lust. sloth. and envy.#had to ask a friend their thoughts and they said envy. their reason was ''boobs'' which. yknow what true.#but then i feel that also falls into lust but. beats me.#i do constantly yearn. yearning. for pretty men. wanting boobs. such and such.#but idk if yearning can be compared with envy.#plus those same points i feel also falls under lust. oh well.#i say sloth from a personal perspective but. i dont think thats a positive view to have for myself.#i think it ranges from person to person who talks to me and knows me.#hard to really select one of the seven sins for yourself i think. im not sure i can make that call. but its one of those three i feel.#also thats a greater hog badger. for reference sake.#absolute thing of the earth#anyway thank you for the ask anon. idk if i really answered your question. maybe the thing has a better answer.
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about your most recent post, what do you mean by white people having to watch out and think about what theyâre doing when it comes to introjecting?
Regarding this post
Specifically like, if white bodied people (reminder that white-passing people are still POC though!) want to change their name to a name that's for example traditionally Japanese, etc. (I'm not just pointing out that this "only applies to Asian names", this is just a common example!).
Obviously we (our system) can't stop anyone from doing what they want with their legal powers, but it's something we hope white systems really think about before they change their name so easily to something like that
Because of white privilege, white people most likely won't know what POC or SOC (systems of color) go through. People with less-white sounding names get racially profiled and/or deal with their names constantly being mispronounced to the point of changing their name legally to sound more white, or adopting an "English name". I don't think I have to explain the leaked Flight Ban/Watchlist and why the people on that list were there, for example
I hope that explains it! If white people want to change their name to something "different", I literally can't do anything abt that! In short, we brought that up because of racism, xenophobia, and bullying that's been done to people with less-white-sounding names.
#ask#anon#BTW Im not talking about INTROJECTING im talking what you do with this information AFTER the fact#Also our system is not white- we are asian. I'm saying this so that you know our perspective!! Not bc our words shld be 'better' than anyon#And also bc we cant speak for EVERY person of color. our perspective is of someone who is asian yipee#Also now that I'm reading what we said in the tags of that previous post- I hope it isn't read too much as a threat#But I trust that you can understand why any POC might phrase things like that when it comes to appropriating names#Also if someone says 'but what about spanish names?' well the context is that Spain colonized many countries so idk what to tell you#Ask us if you'd need this post tagged!#Also I'm being very /gen /lh!!! not mad at all#Also AGAIN pls pls i dont speak for all POC OTL.. but I hope this explains why ANY POC might ask you to think Deeply about ur privileges
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i think a not-insignificant amount of the heartbreak crowleyâs feeling in the end is because heâs finally truly understanding that whatâs happening with aziraphale (as he perceives it) isnât something that he can save him from.
#good omens#good omens 2#spoilers#good omens 2 spoilers#like if there's truth in the coffee theory that'll be a whole other thing but if its all straightforward As Perceived#i do think that tracks and i do think that clicked#and there's something very real and painful about that idk#like you can't undo an entire existence of that manipulation and abuse and how much of aziraphale's sense of self is#wrapped up in it all. being an angel being Good serving a Purpose#crowley can give love and support and patience#be a sounding board and ask questions that help aziraphale step back from things and think sometimes#but that greater disconnect and that final realization of what heaven really is. he can't do that FOR aziraphale#aziraphale has to live and experience that on his own and finally actually let himself feel that#bc i think he's very good at not letting himself think about or feel those things even after being so crushed in s1#idk i feel a lot of religious trauma feelings about it i think it parallels that abusive relationship for a reason#like dont get me wrong the BULK of crowleys pain is from that interaction just generally and that rejection#but i think this also plays into it i think that perspective of someone who was thrown out and had the blinders removed#and having this interaction and realizing Oh. Oh there are still hooks deep into aziraphale there's this festering damage#Oh there's no amount of talk or hypotheticals that will sever the tether for him bc even after everything aziraphale BELIEVES. in heaven#as an institution. and idk man im just fascinated with that angle of it for crowley bc its like#SO complex
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something a lot of band fanbases on tumblr do that really irritates me is that they'll post a photo no ones ever seen before with no context and then caption it with a woefully unfunny one liner and then when you ask them the context of the photo 6 times out of 10 they will not answer or not give you a source for the photo. and like they assume everyone knows waht the photo is from already. andif you dont then youre just an idiot i guess. info sharing in band fandoms in general has always been kind of an enemy to me. like am i crazy or do so many fans leave other fans in the dark about stuff and gatekeep things like photos or interviews or information in general. its so odd. maybe i am crazy. i have insecurity issues so maybe im imagining things. maybe im just projecting or something. i dont know. not sure
#they'll like post a photo of one of the members thats significant in some way to the bands history or a moment#even like something that was once said to not have pictures taken ever. and its like woah where did you find this clearly significant photo#like what do you think others dont care? i care. why should i have to askyou. why should i pry this info out of you. why is this the only#place im getting it#or they'll post something else it just. its something with a wide range of examples#you'll ask for a source and its either an ai generated article from this year or like. something someone told them 5 years ago#i know this is often the way of bands. i dont like hearsay in bands. i dont like oh someone said so and so did this weird scandalous thing#but i wouldnt know for sure bcs someone told me 20 yrs ago on livejournal and also we were both 13#i dont know where im going with this. i just want band members and musicians in these fanbases to be treated like people#and i think theres a vague level of dehumanization when you start indulging in odd rumors about them#even if they have a sliver of proof most of the time the rumor doesnt even matter much#and obviously this goes beyond music fanbases. just saying it from the perspective of someone whos been in several#''been in'' is of course thinly used bcs i really dont interact with fanbases often. i just. observe. bcs im shy#ummm anyways. thanks for reading all of this if you did. idk#have you seen jackie?
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nabe I used to follow ur blog since 2021 I think U were one of the few great posters and I feared u disappeared during October I am So glad I ur around!!!!
HAHAHAH omg thank u for sticking around, i was already kind of on/off bc of my health and the rapture was...... like i just dipped for two months but i was still looking at everything happening, im kind of here bc im nosy and stupid and tbf i need moral ambiguity in my life too so i dont live in a damn bubble. meanwhile im just here enjoying dnf as always :D love my stupid gay ppl đ we fought wars, we had droughts, we lost and won bc dnf is so damn real than ever.... WE PRAYED for times like this, im enjoying this bc i waited for it lol
#ask#like looking back at everything it was a mess but i still enjoy being around because i learn so much surprisingly#either good and bad about behaviors in communities and groups#to learn to let go things but also respect and understanding of our differences#the interesting thing about dreams actions being morally ambiguos is that many things are stuff that he did wrong then changed but the#actions are still there and for some people they can forgive and others dont but that doesnt make you any more of less morally superior#it also makes you think and questions things one has done wrong in the past. bc even from your perspective you may have changed for your#own definition of the best of you. for some it may not. that when your own morals and your integrity comes around. the part where#your own judgement plays around#idk what else to write theres so much to discuss here but my arms are tired already but u get the deal#but tbh the reddit takes about the situation kind of pissed me off LOL
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cr3 is gonna end and the pcâs still feel like the same people to me :|
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#the pacing of this campaign was shot to shit from the start and i really hope mercer learns from this and takes it into account for cr4#i actually think they need to do mini seasons like d20 does. not in the way that theyâre all completely separate from one another but#the way the unsleeping city had multiple seasons or a crown of candy or fantasy high. connected arcs in a bigger story#it would give mercer more time to plan and pace things and would give both cast and crew more time to prepare things#bc this campaign was. frantic. just full speed ahead with no breathing room. itâs a marathon sprint#i still feel like the initial assault on the key was like. maybe a few months ago#IT WAS A YEAR!!!!#what do you MEAN this campaign took place over five months!!! these people donât know each other!!!! I donât know them!!!!!!#VM knew each other for YEARS TM9 traveled for a YEAR together#CR3 viewers have been talking about a time skip happening as though itâs a guarantee!!! TM9 didnât end with a time skip and guess what!!#It was a good ending!!! Maybe a few loose threads but they were easily touched upon later with no issues#like idk ppl are allowed to like or even love cr3 i have no issue with that. i just think that from a storytelling perspective itâs just#so poorly paced and i think both fans and players deserve better than to be thrown into world ending stakes immediately#the initial assault on the malleus key felt like an endgame event and it was like fifty episodes in. Tm9 got to xhorhas around episode 50#characters deserve time to marinate. cr3 is a pressure cooker#cr critical#cr spoilers#kinda idk#donât even get me started on braiusâ inclusion. sam iâm sure your character is cool and complicated but heâs been here for like 20 eps#i dont know this man#also i feel like shorter seasons/separate arcs woven together would account more for peopleâs personal lives and any medical issues#like what happened with sam. ppl were hounding him asking for his return meanwhile he was being treated for CANCER like I canât imagine#dealing with that kind of pressure. players deserve privacy however they can get it.#(also fgcâs death is to me the only narratively satisfying thing to happen in cr3 iâm not kidding#fucking perfect setup and execution. exquisitely done on mr riegelâs part#laudna has also had some great story beats along with imogen but i think matt fucked up making delilah come back i really do)#anyway all the love to the cr crew and cast if you see this ily and your stories i just think pacing needs to be taken into account#âtheyâre just friends sitting at a table playing dndâ i donât think they are anymore actually#obviously theyâre still friends playing dnd but like. cr3 feels so produced and i dont mean that in a good way :[ it feels so corporate#off topic i am SO FUCKING EXCITED for the switch to daggerheart! I think itâll really breathe some new light and life into exandria!!!
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Got my score back for my presentation, & it was About what I was expecting. I knew the weak point of the presentation was how dense it was + how much I had to cover, and as a result I did end up largely reading off of the slides. Tried to insert some extra information about the stuff, but didn't have much in the way of discussion built into my slides. So like... I can accept that criticism lol (even if it does sting a lil đ)
Overall tho I got an average score of 8.6, professor score of 8... I'm not sure actually what will count for my grade. Is he including his score in the average at the top??? Also 8.6 is also not right. When I calculated my score from the tallied numbers, I got 8.31 for class average, 8.29 if I include the professor's rating in there as just one. For some reason, what he wrote is higher than either?? I certainly won't complain about a higher score, though I'm confused lol
But yeah people in general praised my research and preparation. Also video choice. Yay!
I will now try to focus on the good points and not worry so much about the bad. Regardless of any of it, 8.6 or 8 (out of max 9) is generally Pretty Good. Might as my professor for clarification on the grades when I next see him.
#speculation nation#which will probably be on...monday. he said it doesnt rly matter if i get the thing in on friday or monday#so since i'll already be on campus monday for class. also gives me more time to do it. it just makes sense.#oh also i was praised for the use of my quiz at the beginning hfksk yayyyy#gonna be looking thru my classmates reviews again i think. theyre generally nice.#i got 9 scores of 9. 4 scores of 8. 2 of 7. and 1 of 6. (again. where 9 is the top score)#the funny thing is. well the two 7s have valid critiques on them (primarily my delivery lol)#the 6 doesnt really?? have any criticisms in it. which is strange. like girl why did u give me a 6 đđ tell me pls đđđ#another praise i got was for including both sides of things. which tbh that was a big part of what video i chose over ERA#bc when i looked at that i was like 'why in the world would people protest against the Equal Rights Amendment?'#so i felt like it was an important thing to include. found a video that included perspectives from key figures on either side.#bc i dont Agree with the ppl who oppose it. but i think the context is important to understand Why we dont have the ERA yet.#ok looking thru all the things again makes me feel better about it all. overall the criticisms are valid lol#i definitely dont prefer the presentation style i had. just. ya kno. god there was so much to cover.#i will accept this deduction... as it is fair. also tho i do not know what my final score is đ professor please#'well prepared but weaker in delivery' was my professor's summary of it. yeah . yeahđ#oh well at least it's over lol. and even if it's an 8/9 thats not bad. would love the 8.6/9 to be my final score tho lol#idk i'll ask for clarification. later.
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what do you mean by "sometimes" trans women are women and trans men are men?
well i mean sometimes their birth sex matters more. but like other times I'll call them what they want to be called. I mean like I would still think women are adult female humans and men are adult male humans but then trans people are the exception to the rule. but also if someone has transitioned a lot then maybe I would consider that they have changed sex (I mean not 100% but like the appearance at least).
idk I try to strike a balance between being nice & um recognizing what words usually means and that birth sex can still affect life sometimes.
#im not tryin to be transphobic but like#idk i see from a trans person's perspective bc im trans but also it can be confusing tl call someone something that obviously opposes their#aplearance#but also i see hos it makes mlre sense tl consider someone as how they see themself in their mind instead of what they physically be#also this not the only time someone mismatch their appearance with how they are called#for exampke i know a guy named tyler who does not look like a tyler at all#i mean im getting used to it now but still#basically like trans wlmen can be considered as women & vice versa until tike for gynecology appointment#but i mean i guess we could say they are male women and female men#or maybe like consider trans people as like a thkrd gender category like how many other cultures do#idk i usually dont think about it this much#i mean i call the trans woman i know a woman & the trans guys I know guys#like idk if me getting a crush is even sapphic since i knew her before she came out as well#sorry this is a lot#anon#ask#anon ask
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dissecting the mortal emmrich romance path scene
dissecting the graveyard scene
mortal vs lich romance path
emmrich x rook cinematic (mortal)
lich version dissecting the alternate romance path dissecting the argument scene (lich path) dissecting the romance scene (lich path) emmrich x rook cinematic
welcome back my dears
Emmrich Volkarin - Choosing Mortality/Resurrecting Manfred
gonna start with how MUCH I love rook defending emmrich and therefore instilling confidence in him throughout the game, however it is particualry noticeable in this segment.
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oh yes
after being knocked on his ass from johanna skeleton construct he is visibly hurt, but this is both physical and emotional pain. I implore you once again to read The Flame Eternal for context behind Emmrich and Johanna.
emmrich's fear of death and cowardice rearing its head in the face of untold danger, until our beloved manfred makes the ultimate sacrifice, and demonstrates great courage.
oh baby, thats the stuff. Rook instilling confidence in her necromancer.
god is real and he is a hot necromancer. look at the confidence surge through him.
moving on
The scene cuts to Emmrich and Rook at the Necropolis asking to revive Manfred. Emmrich seeks out the advice from the Lich Lords of the Necropolis who inform that there are ways to return his spirit, at a cost -
alright here we go. If emmrich chooses manfreds life over accepting his death, he will no longer be able to achieve lichdom as emmrich wouldve have failed to accept death as a natural part of life. in emmrich relinquishing lichdom and choosing to revive manfred instead it delves deep into his character. for emmrich to give up lichdom would mean admitting that some things mean more to him than his fear of death - that choosing to live, that he could choose to be couragous, and face life head on, in spite of inevitable death. emmrich is a known coward, but this - choosing this path, means being resilent, being courageous, overcoming cowardice in the name of love.
it should also be noted that in the lich romance path, during the arguemnt scene, emmrich is not able to accept the inevitable death of rook. THEREFORE -
im telling you. man goes rogue, full blown, scarlet WITCH, rogue.
back to the mortal side -
this is actually tragic. if you know both romance paths for emmrich, you know that regardless of which path emmrich follows, he does not accept death when it comes to himself, his love, or manfred. he just cant. this game portrays regret wonderfully, so wonderfully i cry.
Rook's right, emmrich is much braver than he thinks. he rushes off to help rook FIGHT GODS, facing death every day considering we all know a romanced rook takes him on every mission. emmrich has also mentioned TWICE that rook inspires him, with how they have travelled so much, and how they are indomitable.
dont get me started on how confident he is in act 3. it makes me giggle.
this next line has confused a number of people so let me put my spin on it and break it down -
Death's abyss - referring to the act of dying, and emmrichs fear of death always recedes - the fear of death dissapears with someone to brave it for - inferring to rook, facing death and being brave is easier with rook in his life
these two are made for eachother. mourn watch rook in particular, the love, desire, and connection OOZES that destiny. and my heart, explodes.
This could also be interpreted as wanting to brave death's abyss for manfred, but from a romanced rook perspective, it makes more sense for it be considered as rook. and im unsure what unromanced looks like yet - so im going with that.
this line reiterates my point that the above line is referring to rook. facing alot of things would be easier if manfred was back... like idk, rooks death, maybe.
I cant tell you how much love shoots through my body knowing emmrich wants to face death and brave it for rook. which also makes the argment scene more tragic in a way, but we'll get there dear friends.
In choosing this path, Emmrich demonstrates resilence. and whilst he regrets the lose of lichdom, he knows that he has chosen the life he has always dreamed of. a life of love. a life with his eternal flame, rook. a life with their magic flinging skeleton son, manfred. an undying love that transcends. emmrich has yearned for the love he has in his life now, for a very, very long time. talking 45 odd years here. the man is terrfied, and lichdom was a way to avert his fears, but this, he is truly happy, despite his fears.
@askfordoodles reminded me of a banter dialogue that is available between Emmrich and Davrin. They discuss their sons, Assan and Manfred, and Davrin states, "What have we signed up for?", where Emmrich responds, "Love, I think." and yes, that most defintiely includes rook. emmrich, chose love. whilst it is stated that lichdom is his lifes work and dream. coming from someone who also overworks and grinds out work to get through the weight of the day without a thought of vulnerability. I understand him. When a chance of love opens its doors, its scary, a chance to be hurt. this man took that chance, to have the family he never had growing up. and never believed he would achieve. rook gave him back his heart and made him stronger for it. emmrich chose to pursue the life that his parents would've wanted for him. the thought...the dream.. that confirms his romance.
im not crying, you are. holy shit.
keep in mind this is man who grew up poor and alone. he has low self-esteem and never believed he was worthy, let alone would find the type of soul devouring love he craved. that love that you would go to the end of the earth for.
my heart is full.
He calls himself a coward on a frequent basis. but here? what growth. whilst his fear of death may never leave him, it is significantly easier with rook that loves him as deeply as he does. and manfred, a son to pass his knowledge onto.
it then ends with Emmrich stating that in regards to him giving up lichdom for manfred, he would not exchange the life he has now for anything. his now family -
"The Volkarins"
short-ish post, but the next one will be very long where I'll touch more on Emmrichs personality traits more in the argument scene as this is where his traits really shine through, see you soon âĽ
#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#datv#datv spoilers#emmrich#emmrich romance#dragon age emmrich#emmrich volkarin#dav#da4#da4 emmrich#maeve ingellvar#rook ingellvar#rook#dragon age the veilguard#mourn watch#gif set#do not re use#rpg#veilguard#veilguard spoilers#dav spoilers#emmrook#emmrich x rook#emmrich dragon age
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SEVEN ROYALTIES
âonce upon a time there was a prince, who did anything he could to be with the love of his lifeâ â park sunghoon.
park sunghoon x fem!reader genre: childhood friends to enemies to lovers , one sided love somewhere into the story , heavy angst , fluff ! warnings: characterâs death (not a main character) , curse words. (lmk if i missed something pls!) || NOT FULLY PROOFREAD!!
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NOTE. wow i dont even know where to start! itâs been a real while! i think like more than a month, iâm extremely sorry for being gone, school is so stressful, but i got some time to write now and honestly? i missed it so much!! hopefully youâd like this part and donât let it fool you, just because iâve been gone for a while doesnât mean iâm not continuing this wonderful series!! it was also supposed to be enemies to lovers but i honestly failed miserably and idk how to define it- some mentions of sunooâs story are dropped here too :)
âwhy do you always look at me like that?â
âlike what?â
âlike iâm the most precious thing youâve ever sawâ
a few years into your childhood and you were already been told that youâre going to marry off to someone as soon as possible.
you, being the second princess and the least favorite one, had to deal with a lot of struggles through your childhood.
everyone loved your older sister more, praised her, cherished her, spoiled her, gave her whatever she wants.
you, on the other hand, had to work hard in terms of getting what you wanted.
you always looked up to your older sister, you canât lie, you definitely understand why sheâs getting all the attention to herself without even trying.
your mom is your favorite person, sheâs actually your best friend.
some kids have hard time deciding what to answer when theyâre being asked whoâs their favorite parent, but you definitely know the answer already.
itâs your dad that never bats an eye to you, your mom however always tries to maintain her attention to both you and your sister. youâd do anything for your mom.
as much as youâre happy that youâre at least not a second option in your momâs perspective, the king is the one whoâs more dominant.
youâve always tried to get your fatherâs attention, even for a mere second, but he always pushed you away, making you feel unworthy and sad.
at age six, you were forced to go with your mom to one of her friendâs kingdom, your neighbor kingdom.
everyone in royalty knows about the good friendship your kingdoms have, and theyâre all surprised it still keeps on going.
royalty comes with a dangerous risk, people will always look at anything you do, and will not hesitate to attack if you happened to do something theyâre not a fond of.
your kingdom suffered lots of wars, but won almost all of them.
at the very same day you were forced to go with your mom, you also met the person who finally had all their attention on you, the person who you could rely on no matter when.
âiâm y/n!â you extended your hand out with a smile.
âiâm sunghoonâ he whispered and you tilt your head. he wasnât shaking your hand and you couldnât even hear him.
âwhat?â
âiâm sunghoonâ
âi cant hear you!!â you shout and put your ear really close to his mouth.
âiâm sunghoon!â he shouted into your ear and you fell down while holding your ear.
âyou did that on purpose didnât you!â you pout and he laughed.
thatâs when you realized his cute smile and the little dimples that grew on his cheeks.
he was cute, a cute and shy prince, you could get along perfectly with him.
and you actually did. you spent the rest of your visit just roaming around their castle.
he introduced you his six brothers, they were all very nice and funny, but only sunghoon interested you.
he told you about his interests and you told him about yours.
âi want to learn how to skate!â he said and you noticed his eyes growing in excitement while talking about it.
âit sounds really interesting!â you smiled and cheered him.
âwhat about you?â
âi actually donât knowâ you sighed, âi want my father to pay more attention to meâ
âwho needs your father when you have me? iâll be always here for youâ he smiled.
âreally?â you asked and he nodded, âreallyâ
âpromise me!â you held out your pinky and he locked his with yours, âi think promises are stupid, but only for you i promise to never leave you sideâ
âwhy are they stupid?â
âbecause sometimes you regret them, or even forget them, and you cant keep them foreverâ
growing up with sunghoon was something you could never explain.
having to suffer your fatherâs comparisons between you and your sister was something, but having to see sunghoon going through puberty was something else. scarier indeed.
the both of you were inseparable, to the point where your parents even started talking about marriage between the two of you when you were twelve.
every now and then in your teenage years, youâd come around his castle, your second home.
whenever you were pissed off with your father or just wanted some quiet, youâd find yourself going back to sunghoon, only he knew how to make you feel ten times better.
âwhat are you reading?â he asked you.
you were laying your head on his lap as he sat under a tree, it was a peaceful day and you wanted to enjoy some time with him.
âjust some fairytale storiesâ you put your book on your stomach and looked at him who was already looking down at you.
âwishing it was you?â he teased.
you rolled your eyes and smacked the book on his head, âfairytales are the best!â
you returned to read the book while he kept staring at you.
âread for meâ he asked and you looked at him, sharing an eye contact.
âheyâ
âhm?â
âwhy do you always look at me like that?â
âlike what?â
âlike iâm the most precious thing youâve ever sawâ
sunghoon coughed a bit and looked away, âjust start reading please, im interestedâ
âthe princess then took the princeâs hand and held it tightly, slowly closing the gap between them and leaning in for a kissââ
ânever mind! iâll just go sleepâ sunghoon threw you off him and laid down next to you.
âyou couldâve done that nicely!â you scoffed and he laughed.
he canât explain it, but something about you makes him feel warm and comfortable. he loves your company more than anything else in this world and thereâs nothing he loves more than staring at your gorgeous face.
spending a few years together made him long for you more and more every day that heâs not next to you.
he fell in love with you, and he fell hard.
you werenât better either, every day without sunghoon for you felt like eternity.
heâs the only person you can see your future with, the only person who loves you for who you are and the only person that has his full attention on you.
you trust him more than you trust yourself and you family members.
on royal events, youâd be acting like a married couple, shooing away the singles royals that wants to catch you.
you belong to sunghoon and sunghoon belongs to you.
âitâs nice to meet you prince sunghoonâ one filthy princess introduced herself to sunghoon while you stood by his side, holding his arm.
âlikewise, meet my wife, y/nâ he said, clearly uninterested in the princess but as soon as he looked over his side and met your eyes a smile formed on his face.
the princess scoffed and went away, finally letting you and sunghoon laugh it off.
âdid you see the way she looked at you when you said you have a wife?â you held a hand over your chest, out of breath because of the amount of air you let out.
âplease, it was so funny iâll remember it for longâ he nodded and you continued making jokes about everyone around you.
you shared your first kiss with sunghoon when you were fifteen.
âi love cherry blossomsâ you said as you walked together with sunghoon under the cherry blossoms.
it was one of your favorite things to do with him, walking through the long road, hand in hand.
âand i love youâ he let out.
âwhat?â
âwhat?â he repeated after you.
âwhat did you sa-â
he cut you off with a kiss, your first kiss.
cherry blossoms fell from the trees and the wind caressed your skin.
his lips were soft, locked with your lips. it was perfect, the kind of fairytale you were always wishing you could have finally came true, with the person you loved the most.
when you parted your lips to get some air, both of you giggled and he put his forehead against yours.
âi said i love youâ he smiled.
âi love you tooâ
regardless of the sudden confession, you decided to stay as friends, and when the both of you will feel ready, youâd try it out.
at age sixteen, your motherâs condition started to go downhill. she got sick and had to take medical exams every now and then, ever since then, you decided to spend time with her as much as you could.
âgood morning mom! how are you feeling today?â you asked with a huge smile on your face when you saw your mother.
âfeeling as usual, nothing newâ she gave you a weak smile, âhave you eaten yet?â
you shook your head, âi was at the garden after father had his daily complains over me, i needed to take some breathesâ
your mother nodded and hugged you, âiâm sorry your father is like that, if being a selfish father was a competition heâd definitely winâ
both of you giggled and spent a few hours together.
you never told sunghoon anything about your motherâs condition, every time heâd ask about her well-beings youâd say sheâs doing well but sheâs too busy with duties, and heâd suspect nothing.
at the age seventeen, your motherâs condition worsened, she had doctors around her all the time.
âhello motherâ you smiled.
ây/n! good morningâ she tried to smile back.
âhow are youââ
âi must ask you something before itâs too lateâ she cut you off.
âwhat is it?â
âiâve been thinking about it for a while, and it might be silly and selfish of me to ask you to do thatâ she sighed, âplease promise me youâre going to marry sunghoonâ
âwhat?â you asked confused.
âheâs treating you well y/n, i donât think iâve ever seen you happier than when youâre with him. youâre perfect for each otherâ she nodded, âi donât have much time left, hearing you promising youâd marry the man who makes you the happiest, would help me leave peacefully, to know that youâre going to live the life you deserveâ
âi promise mom, i promise iâll marry him but please, you have much time left, donât say such nonsense!â
your mother hugged you and thanked you. guess it wasnât so well-hidden that you were in love with sunghoon.
on one of the days your father called you. before walking inside his room you rolled your eyes, what kind of a complain he has now?
âhello fatherâ you looked at him coldly.
ây/n,â he called, âi need to ask you to do somethingâ
âhuh?â you looked over him confused, âyou never ask me for favorsâ
âyour sister is too busy with her duties, so i trust you with this oneâ he shortly explained.
âokay,â you nodded, âwhat is it?â
âi need you to come with me to visit the other neighbor kingdomââ
âbut we were never on good terms with them, theyâre hybeâs kingdom biggest rivals too!â you cut him off.
âtheyâre the only ones that can help us with your motherâs condition. we must do anything we can to help herâ your father sighed, âthey have a son whoâs interested in you, they requested to see you tooâ
you shook your head, âiâm not interested in himââ
âthis is the only way to help your mother!â he shout and you backed away.
âwhat about hybe kingdom! canât they help in any kind of way?â you argued.
your father shook his head, âthey canât do anything about it, and they must not know about your motherâs conditionâ
âso going to the rival kingdom and risking your good friendship is better?â
âyouâre coming with me and itâs finalâ
a few days before your visit in your neighbor kingdom, sunghoon came over.
before he went to search for you, he heard two servants talking about something that drawn him to it.
âdid you hear about y/nâs motherâs condition?â one of them said.
âit keeps on getting worse, poor y/n! i heard she has to go to the other kingdom to ask for their help together with the kingâ the other replied.
âi heard theyâre the only ones that could help! hybe kingdom knows nothing about it because they donât want to bother them too much, i also heard the son of the other kingdom is interested in y/n, what about prince sunghoon!â
âpoor them, i just hope she wonât end up with their son. i was rooting for y/n and sunghoon endgameâ
âagree, i also heard their daughter is interested in sunghoon! this is riskyâ she shook her head.
ây/n is strong, she wonât marry the son i just know itâ they both nodded their heads and sunghoon slowly walked back.
he refuses to believe what he just heard. y/nâs motherâs condition worsens? y/n marrying someone else? heâll never let that happen.
âsunghoon!â you called and hugged him, âi was searching for you instead of you searching for meâ
sunghoon was not responding, he was too deep in thoughts and didnât know how to stop them.
âsunghoon?â you waved your heads in front of him and he finally came back on track.
âi was just thinking about somethingâ he smiled.
âwould you like to talk about it?â you smiled warmly at him.
how could you smile so widely when youre going through all of this?
âitâs not something that should bother youâ he smiled and kissed your cheeks.
you spent the rest of the day looking out for sunghoon, he was different today, as much as he didnât want to show it, you noticed.
the next day sunghoon found himself standing in front of his biggest rival kingdom. he never thought heâd have to step his leg into this kingdom, but heâd do anything for you as long as he could.
âpark sunghoon! iâve never thought iâd witness a hybe royal inside my kingdom!â the king teased.
sunghoon closed his eyes and clenched his jaw, âi need your help and youâre the only one that can help meâ he said firmly.
âweâre rivals, why would i want to help you?â
âbecause i have something you wantâ he sighed, âiâll be getting my kingdom sooner or later, iâll give it to you together with my crownâ
âyouâll lose your crown for something possibly stupid?â
âi need you to help princess y/nâs kingdom. the queenâs condition is getting worse. i heard you gave the best doctors that can help herâ
the king laughed, âyouâre doing this for y/n and not for yourself? what a stupid prince you are!â
sunghoon looked away, fighting the urge not to stab the king and fight him.
âvery well, i will help in exchange of your crownâ
their agreement was that the king will send his best doctors to help your mother, and as soon as sunghoon will get his crown, heâll give it to the king. if one of them breaks the agreement, itâs off.
a few days passed, and it was supposed to be your visit day in the other kingdom, except that it got canceled.
âdid you tell anyone about this visit?!â your father shout at you and you shook your head.
âhow come he sent me this stupid letter saying that if we step into his kingdom heâll declare a war!â
âi donât know! i did nothing!â you argued.
âsomething stopped him, more like someone! iâm going to find out who did this!â your father roamed outside his room, slamming the door harshly and you flinched.
a week passed and your motherâs condition wasnât doing any better, the doctors told you it was already time to say goodbye but you refused to do so, you refuse to believe you wonât be able to see your mother everyday soon.
everything was too overwhelming and stressful, you decided to go to your second home, you needed some comfort and itâs been a while since you saw sunghoon anyway.
âwhat are you up to?â you found him in the castleâs garden, deep in thoughts.
âjust thinking about somethingâ
âby something you mean me?â you teased and he smiled, not answering your question because the answer is quite obvious.
you then hugged him tightly, and sighed deeply as you rest your forehead on his shoulder.
âis everything okay?â he caressed your back slowly.
âmy mom isnât doing well latelyâ you finally confessed. you had to let it all out and tell sunghoon the truth.
âsheâs sick, too sick. and the last week was such a roller coaster, her condition isnât getting better and itâs our time to say our final goodbyes, iâm not ready for that sunghoonâ you sobbed, âiâm sorry for dumping it all on you and telling you all of this now when itâs late i justââ
âitâs okayâ even though he already knew about your motherâs condition, he was so glad that you finally opened it up and told him, âiâm here for youâ
he held you tighter than before and whispered sweet comfort words that always knew how to calm you down.
right after you left he thought about what happened.
he made a deal with the other kingdom, the king was supposed to help your mother, how come her condition worsened? something didnât make sense to him at all.
âsunghoon!â his father called him and sunghoon rushed to the kingâs room.
âyes father?â
âyouâre getting married to our biggest rivals daughter and didnât even tell us? are you out of your mind?â he shout.
sunghoon couldâve swore that in that moment his heart stopped beating, âwhat?â he asked in disbelief.
âthe other king sent us a letter! inviting us to your wedding with his daughter! weâve never been so humiliated, how could you betray your family?â his mother interrupted.
sunghoon shook his head, âthere must be a misunderstandingââ
âhow come?â the king asked, âyour name is written on that letter! and it was probably sent to all the other kingdoms!!â
âwhat about y/n?!â his mother asked and his eyes widened.
ây/nâŚ?â
âhow do you think sheâll feel receiving that letter? huh?â
âno, no! none of this is true! you must believe me!â
âexplain yourself then! weâre here waiting!â sunoo, one of sunghoonâs brother argued.
sunghoon sighed, shutting his eyes tightly and clenching his fists, ây/nâs mother, the queen, her condition is getting worse. sheâs been awfully sick for a few years already, i overheard their servants talking about how only the other kingdom could help her because they donât want to bother us. so i went to them myself, i made a deal with the king that heâll help the queen in exchange of my throneââ
âare you out of yourââ
âjay! let him talkâ the queen shushed him.
âyes! i was ready to give up my crown if it means i can help her in any way!â sunghoon sighed, âthe king obviously did nothing and lied to me! and now apparently im âmarrying his daughterâ you know damn well thatâs never going to happen because i want to marry y/n!â
sunghoonâs mother wiped out her tears and hugged sunghoon, âiâm sorry you had to go through this, you couldâve told usââ
âi didnât want to bother you too, this story is complicated than you thinkâ
âwhat about y/nâs motherâs condition?â the king asked quietly.
ây/n said itâs been getting worse, they started to say their final goodbyesâ sunghoon whispered and the room became quiet, as a respect for the queen.
âyou should go to her, to check on herâ heeseung suddenly spoke.
âyeah, i bet she needs someone by her side right nowâ jungwon added.
sunghoon nodded and with his parentsâ approval he went to your kingdom.
he searched for you around and saw you staring at your garden, he smiled for himself and tapped your shoulder.
âheyâ he said.
âwhat are you doing here?â you asked coldly.
âwhat?â he tilt his head, âiâm here to visit youâ
âdonât you have a wedding to go get prepared to?â you scoffed, âgo away park, youâre not welcomed here anymoreâ
sunghoon had been stabbed a few times in his life, but your words hurt him more than ten stabs at once.
âyou have to listen to me iââ
âthereâs nothing to explain! i got the letter, saw your name on it and it was enough for me to understand this was all a game for youâ you shout, âi canât believe i actually believed your bullshitâ
âi hate you, park sunghoonâ you spit out, nothing but hate is in your fierce glance at him. he just chuckled, âyou donât mean thatâ
âoh i do,â you nodded, âand to think that i actually promised my mom iâll be marrying youâ you chuckled in disbelief.
âlooking back at that promise, i realize why you used to believe that promises are stupidâ you added.
âiâm sorryâ he apologized, âsorry isnât going to change anything, is it?â
ây/nââ
âjust get out, pleaseâ you were being nice, asking him to leave and pointing your hands to the door although he already knew where to go.
sunghoon didnât want to bother you, he thought youâd probably relax in a day or two, and heâd be able to talk it out with you.
you canât just erase all your feelings and delete all your memories after so many years, right?
as soon as he got out he went to the other kingdom, to finally get some sense into that stupid, useless king.
âpark sunghoon! so nice to see you my son-in-law!â the king said and sunghoon only wanted to punch his face.
âwedding? with your daughter? son-in-law? youâre out of your fucking mind!â he spit out.
the king only laughed in his face, âwhy? wouldnât you like to be my son? iâll take good care of youâ
sunghoon rolled his eyes, âthe deal is canceled, you wonât get any crown or another kingdom, fix whatever you did, you ruined my life anyway and you never even helped y/nâs motherâ
âoh but i feel like i havenât ruined your life enoughâ
âcut it off, we both know my kingdom will finish you once weâll declare a warâ
âwhat makes you think that?â
âi didâ another voice was heard in the room.
sunghoonâs father stepped in and put his hand on sunghoonâs shoulder.
âand iâm afraid i also know too many secrets about you, old friendâ he teased, âleave my son alone, and donât you dare ruin his life again. he did a mistake asking for your help but he did what he had to doâ
sunghoonâs father then dragged him out of the kingdom back to theirs.
right after sunghoon left your room, you went out to breathe and relax your brain a bit.
how could sunghoon do this to you? everything he ever said to you, every hug, every joke, was it all a lie to him?
there must be a reason behind it, but youâre too hurt to even care about it. no reason could be enough for you right now.
you decided to focus on being next to your mother, spending her last days together and showing her the brightest side of you, you didnât tell her anything and she didnât suspect anything so you just left it be.
three days passed ever since you last heard from sunghoon.
you miss him, you miss everything and anything about him. you needed his comfort the most right now, but you couldnât bring yourself to see him.
ây/n, sunghoon is here to pay a visitâ one of your servants informed you.
âtell him i donât want to see him,â you sighed, âand tell him to take careâ you whispered that line.
you refused to see him in any cost. youâre too angry to even care about his feelings right now. all you could feel is betrayal, and hurt.
in one of the next days, you went out to the garden to read some books and write on your diary.
when you got back inside the castle you saw your motherâs doctors standing with their heads down.
âweâre sorry your highness, we did everything we couldâ they said and couldnât even make eye contact with you as their eyes were full with tears.
you froze there for a few minutes, you knew this day would come but could never prepare yourself enough for that. you didnât want to believe this day would come so fast.
âplease tell me iâm dreamingâ you told them but they shook their heads, âweâre very sorry yourââ
they got cut off when they saw you falling to the ground, sobbing and covering your eyes.
you were crying like a little child who lost their ice cream, refusing to get up and screaming at everything.
the last few days were just about you and her, she taught you everything you needed to know about life and royalty.
âyou need to be a good wife to sunghoon!â she smiled.
âmom! he has to be a good husband before that!â
âyouâre right! if heâs being mean tell him youâd leave him and take all of his moneyâ she joked and you giggled.
âi donât need moneyâ
âyou donât, but you do need to annoy him and help him realize heâs nothing without you!â
all of those memories past by your mind all day, thinking about your dear mother, who was there for you when no one else was.
âwhoâs going to be by my side now, mom?â you asked quietly, âi already miss you so muchâ
it was dinner time in hybeâs kingdom, all seven brothers sat together with their parents.
âsunoo, weâve found the perfect wife for you! youâre going to meet her at the ballroom on ni-kiâs birthday!! isnât that exciting?â the queen clapped in excitement.
âyeah, very exciting!â sunoo tried to sound cheerful, but failed miserably in sunghoonâs eyes.
he pitied his younger brother for being the only one whoâs being forced to someone he doesnât even know.
sunoo explain multiple times to his parents that he wants to marry someone out of love, and that he believes that when itâs time, heâll meet the one for him. but his parents turned deaf to his thoughts.
âi already met her once, sheâs really pretty! the perfect pair for you!â
âyour highnessâ a few servants came into the room and interrupted the dinner.
âis it important? weâre having dinner right nowââ
âqueen (name) of (name) kingdom is no longer with usâ the servants lowered their heads as a respect and the king got up from his seat instantly.
sunghoonâs eyes widened, he was left speechless and froze in his place.
âweâll be going to pay our respects tomorrow morning together, prepare yourselvesâ the king said and left the dining room.
sunghoon didnât know what to do. it has already been a week and heâs been trying to reach out to you, but you rejected him every time.
he sent you letters but didnât get any back. he was hopeless.
what is he supposed to do now? he didnât even say his last goodbye to his mother-in-law.
the next day, you received loads of letters from loads of kingdoms, thanking the queen for her service and mourning her death.
hybeâs kingdom however, came personally to comfort you and the rest of your family.
the king and the queen, and six of their children. yes, only six of them. one of them was missing.
park sunghoon didnât come to comfort you.
âweâre very sorry to hear the devastating news, the queen was the kindest soul weâve ever got to meetâ the king shook your fatherâs hands and pat his back.
the six sons came to you and hugged you. you hugged them back and broke down. the six sons already became your brothers long time ago, you felt safe around them.
âweâre sorry y/n, weâre here for you nowâ heeseung, the oldest one said with a comforting smile.
as much as you were thankful for them, you were hoping to see a certain person, a person who didnât even bother showing up.
it only added up to your anger on him, how could he do that? what happened to always being there for you?
âsunghoon felt a bit sick and unwell today, he couldnât get up from his bed, he really wanted to comeâ the queen smiled weakly at you and you returned the smile.
you spent the rest of the day with your six brothers, completely forgetting about your father and sister, they were here to comfort you and be with you.
âsunoo,â you called out, âhm?â he answered quietly.
âis sunghoon really sick?â you asked and he nodded, âi think the news about your mother caught him off guard, he couldnât even speak after he heard the newsâ
you pressed your lips together and nodded, âplease wish him well, i hope heâll get better as soon as possibleâ
âi will do thatâ he smiled warmly at you.
just because youâre hurt by him, doesnât mean you donât care about him. he still holds a big place in your heart.
the next days passed by slowly, you spent most of your time in your room, sometimes even refusing to get out for a whole day.
sunghoon crossed your mind every day. your last words to him crossed your mind every day too.
you said you hate him, but you lied. you love him, you love him too much that it hurts.
you feel too betrayed and hurt by him but itâs somehow the last thing that interests you.
you just need to see him and hug him. but your ego wouldnât let you.
so you waited for him to fight for you, you knew heâd try again, and again, and again, thatâs just the person that he is.
after a while of isolating yourself in your room, you decided to get out and read some books.
thatâs what your mom would want you to do, to move on and start a new life.
as you were reading your book, you heard a familiar voice calling you.
ây/n,â your heart skipped a beat. you were too scared to turn around and see the person you were so hoping to see for so long.
âplease tell me youâre not who i think you areâ you breathed slowly.
âiâm sorryâ he let out.
you finally decided to turn around and you met his eyes. itâs been a while since you last saw him, you missed staring at his beautiful face, and his beautiful moles that made his face look ten times better, his kissable lips that always felt soft against yours, you missed everything about him.
âplease,â he whispered, âplease hear me out this timeâ
you blinked a few times, still not believing that heâs actually in front of you.
âyou didnât show up when i needed you the most, you betrayed me and lied to me, why would i listen to any of your excuses now?â you argued, but deep down you wanted to hear him so badly.
ây/n pleaseâ he pleaded, âjust listen to what i have to say, and itâs up to you wether to believe it or not, just please, i donât want us to break apart without you hearing the reason behind itâ
you let out a few tears to fall and slowly nodded, he was right, you never let him to explain himself, you were too selfish and cared about your feeling that you didnât even care about his.
he told you the whole story from the start, and you were sobbing your heart out.
âiâm sorry,â you let out, âiâm sorry for refusing to listen to you, iâm sorry for rejecting you so many times, iâm sorry for telling you that i hate youââ
âstop apologizing stupid,â he chuckled, âitâs over now isnât it? weâre even now right?â
âitâs over now, promise me you wonât ever hide from me something like that againâ you extended out your pinky.
âbut you said that promises are stuââ
ânot when it comes to youâ you smiled.
instead of locking his pinky with you he cupped your face and pulled you into a kiss.
âi love you y/n, iâm sorry it took me a while to get back to youâ he whispered.
âi love you too sunghoon, im sorry for rejecting you multiple timesâ you giggled.
âfinally! get married already and leave this kingdom please!â you heard your sister in the back.
âiâm sorry that my sister canât be a bit more like your brothersâ you awkwardly smiled and sunghoon laughed.
âsheâs right though, letâs get married as soon as possible and get our own kingdomâ he pecked your lips.
âIN TWO DAYS??â
âwell you said you wanted to get married as soon as possible! i already planned everything!â sunghoonâs mother smiled and hugged the both of you.
âcanât say iâm not biased, iâve been shipping the two of you ever since you both metâ the king added.
âare they gonna have babies as soon as possible now too?â
âNI-KI!!!!â
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shalom sister. i love your blog and your writing. reading your posts always fills me with fire, i can tell you have a good heart. donating to your campaign makes me feel so good because i trust you and truly you are doing gds work. anyway i wanted to ask you a question!
when i hear new things from gaza, stories of hamas doing X and IOF doing Y, i ask around and iâm not sure what parts of that story is true, if any. anyway idk what to believe all i know is that israel is committing acts of genocide and while the rest of the world is allowing this greatest evil, israel pretends that to be jewish is to be a colonizer. anyway some of my family are zionists, but i cannot sway them because they only know farsi persian and hebrew, aka only trust extremely biased sources.
anyway i am fluent in english farsi and hebrew but my arabic is trash ): so i feel like i canât get the full picture from palestinians. all i can read are bonkers iranian papers and the disgusting zionist articles, itâs horrible because i know theyâre both lying, just about different things. a palestinian opinion is the only opinion i care about right now! anyway it got me thinking. i just wanted to know if you have tips for verifying online research? or go-to non arabic websites? or even a translation app haha. i just want my family to see the truth!
shalom<3
shalom! thank you so much for reaching out, i really appreciate it.
personally, i use different sources for different material. i use middle east eye (specifically maha hussaini) and also mahmoud abusalama for videos of what it's like in the north. i use the electronic intifada interview podcasts to learn about specific things happening (i just finished watching this one about the collapse of healthcare in gaza). i would check out @northgazaupdates on here too. there's euromedmonitor as well.
and really, there are a lot of diaspora palestinians who are relaying what their family tells them, and they post on twitter a lot. someone i know does this is samah fadil. there's also @el-shab-hussein who translates things from Mona. here's mohammad smiry who is in gaza and tweets primarily in english. dr. mustafa elmasri also tweets in english too.
i would use al-jazeera, i have a fact checking guide here about any news source really. i don't use it as much but there's also the palestine chronicle. sometimes i use quds news network.
i really don't know much about hebrew media so i can't really tell you about sources i recommend there. i don't know if @bringmemyrocks or @rodeodeparis can perhaps provide some input?
i will say, if you're looking for hebrew palestinian media, i dont think there's too much because there's a ridiculous amount of censorship in '48 right now (honestly it's been going on for years atp) but what a lot of palestinians are doing is relying on internal networks. if you want, there are some israeli historians like Ilan Pappe and Avi Shlaim but I'm not sure if they write in hebrew. but they for sure write in english and provide a historical perspective from within israeli society itself.
this is what comes to mind rn honestly, but i haven't even touched on instagram because i haven't been on it in a while. i might add on later if i remember any really vital ones that i recommend.
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I feel like me and anon will just have to agree to disagree on this one đ
interesting arguments made. i would also bring up that apollo also found out about the prophecy when he shouldn't have and my little explanation for that earlier was that He Just Knew instinctively even while he was dying because i thought that was a bit funny. god of prophecy and knowledge and all that, but if we're going more in-depth:
just because apollo/lester was "destroyed" does not mean he's entirely gone, and the fact that he's hallucinating in the first place proves it. helios, for example, despite disappearing for millennia, got gathered together by medea so he could be shoved into caligula. also every time apollo stays away from the sun palace for too long apparently it goes back to helios's scent of Axe Body Spray.
not all of apollo's essence would've been thrown into chaos. there's still the question of how zeus stripped his immortality and what happened to it while apollo was mortal. though it's implied that over time, apollo manages to take it back, the fact is that he still didn't have all the godly strength he needed to pull himself up. there's still a bit of his essence which he doesn't have control of, probably in zeus's possession or something. that essence could still, in theory, use his power of foresight and gain bits of knowledge, subconsciously adding that information into his hallucinations (almost like dreams, but itâs something he wants to see being mixed in with little pieces of prophetic knowledge rather than a future or past event) but be too weak to do anything else (especially since it isnât in his control) like how harpocrates couldn't break his bonds or helios didn't come back until medea gathered his essence. but even with that slight hope, the situation is still bad since he canât tap into that essence anymore. he Canât take it back like earlier because there is No One to take it back. itâs all he is now, and all he is now is not in control of himself. heâs like metis now Lol.
but i bring up helios because in theory, this could mean someone like medea could gather that tiny bit of essence and somehow. idk. find a surrogate ig. this is all thought up of in the moment btw i know its Rough.
(in reference to this and this ask)
@the-ant-in-amber hallucination anon is back with receipts!!!!!
#thats a lot of what ifs if you ask me#i just dont think there's enough there for me to consider this realistic#also from a story writing perspective#why would Rick write a story all about hope and compassion and overcoming obstacles#only for the mc to be destroyed in the final fight#like that would be such a hopeless ending for the series#toa is not a story about the hero being doomed#its about the hero overcoming these things with the help of his friends#idk i feel like this ending being canon would kinda ruin the whole vibe#definitely an interesting concept#and id probably read a fic about this#but at the end of the day i Do Not think this is what happened in the story we are presented with
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Sometimes i think about nishikis portrait on that wall, do you think kazama saw it and thought kiryu, his son, should be there instead? Did nishiki represent all of those hedonistic ways of so many yakuza? While kiryu was an extension of himself, his ideals, his morals? Was nishiki all the things he hated? Or was he that constant reminder of all the ruin he caused. Did he have any feelings towards nishiki at all? Was he still that sniffling boy who dug his hands into his pockets looking for candy? Did he dote on him the way he did kiryu? Did he mourn yuko? Or did he not even know? Something tells me it was only nishiki at her funeral. Im uncertain if there is any RGGO info on this, but id love to know if thereâs any more details on Kazama and Nishikis relationship (also I couldnât find anything about how old nishiki/kiryu were when they went to the orphanage too, I assume nishiki was a bit older though). I like to think Nishiki did not feel much familial relations towards.. well anyone except kiryu, yuko, and yumi. At best kazama and kashiwagi were mentors unlike kiryu who viewed them as a father and an older brother. I think itâs a bit different for them partly because nishiki had a sister, his âneedâ for family was already filled by both her and kiryu. I like to think Nishiki thought viewing kazama and kashiwagi as family was a bit silly but would entertain it for kiryus sake, itâs clear to me that Nishiki enjoyed the yakuza lifestyle while kiryu for a lack of better word, didnât. So it makes sense to me that they were superiors to him and nothing more, he didnt owe them anything and they didnt owe him. Kazama and Nishiki have such an interesting dynamic partly because it is so non existent.. like yeah kazama⌠there was NOTHING you couldâve done huh? You really didnt see this one coming? Itâs interesting how nishiki is kinda portrayed by the fandom to be a loser when by all accounts he was a very successful yakuza, hell, his family succeeded him by 3 games! I wish nishiki challenged kiryus perspective on kazama a bit more, we see kazama being questioned a few times in some of the games but kiryu always seems to brush it off⌠it makes me wonder.. what are these seeds of doubt being planted for? Kiryu? Or just the audience? As a protagonist it is nice to see kiryu being wrong but idk, at this point in the series i cant help but ask; what is it for? Itâd be nice to see some growth from himâŚ
Sorry this was mostly headcanons/random thoughts! Also i had this quick thought n dont want to make another post for it but i think its cool how nishiki is mainly defined by characteristics such as greedy, insecurity , jealousy, vanity, and anger. You can sorta tell which nishiki fans favorite characteristic is too, personally mine is his vanity. That slick hair and crisp suit really does it 4 meâŚâŚ please godâŚâŚ let me fumble him just once!!!!!!!!!
#nishiki#yakuza nishikiyama akira#yakuza nishiki#nishikiyama akira#akira nishikiyama#yakuza#rgg kiwami#ryu ga gotoku kiwami#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza thoughts#rgg#rgg0#yakuza0#kiryu kazuma#shintaro kazama#osamu kashiwagi#kiwami#yakuza kiwami#yakuza 1
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i understand ppl getting disappointing over today's ep, even tho I was expecting something like that it still look me by surprise too. But honestly, we got spoiled -we have been for a long time.
It means a lot to me the parallels between ep 7 season 7 and the memories ep where Izuku can't use black whip against Katsuki. Its so, so crazy. In this chat about romance, Midoriya gets extremely embarrassed over the concept of being someone's boyfriend, and Present Mic (one of the common narrators of the show) adds a little build up: he is really amazing and has earned great achievements, but for all of his triumphs, he is still, just a damn nerd.
He is still Izuku, that awkward kid whose childhood friend considers too nerdy to see or understand concepts like romance, boyfriend, and him getting involved in them. This call back to Katsuki is unnecessary, even more so considering he is not the narrator, but still, Present Mic considered the best way to describe him is to use the words his closest person says. With Izuku getting confessed, and him explaining what he considers to be a boyfriend's role, Katsuki's presence is still part of the scene. But what's even more interesting is the way he is also linked to the other part of the scene: what Izuku thinks about admiration and love.
When the word boyfriend comes out of Himiko's mouth is like his whole brain can just think about cheesy, typical movie stuff (thats what a boyfriend is, right? someone you hold hands with, share crepes and go to the amusement park with, right?) instead of feelings. Idk about how different the idea of love is in Japan compared to the one im used to, but Izuku seems to not know that, to be a boyfriend, first there are usually some feelings that make you want to become that -affection, curiosity, even love*. That word, boyfriend, is associated with many concepts, and instead of asking "boyfriend?! Like someone who makes you feel butterflies in your stomach?!" he focuses first on actions the boyfriend does -boyfriend is the one you hold hands with, the one who you share crepes with, the one who goes with you to the amusement park**.
But once Himiko explains her own idea of love and admiration he gets to focus on the latter part of the conversation, he does get what it feels like, but not like her. When its not associated with romance, its almost like he is allowed to express more freely about his emotions and opinions about love; he actually reveals some interesting stuff.
So first of all, Izuku seems to start thinking about it more deeply when Himiko explains that to her, being a couple means becoming the person she likes. That immediately reminds him of his own feelings towards his mentor -he does want to be like him, he gets that satisfaction, but not how that could be romance duh lmao, and he is the one who brings up the admiration aspect. He doesnt see it as a couple thing, or a romantic feeling, because he immediately associates it to pure admiration.
"Yeah I want to be like All Might my biggest idol, so I get how great it is to try it". That's his way of connecting to her, creating a bridge of understanding each other's perspectives -"I get this part, but I cant understand how you could not want to share the feelings of the person you love".
Then he follows it with "I dont want to hurt the person I love".
So, for Izuku, there's something more going on than just being completely clueless about everything -he does have an idea about what he wouldnt want to do to the person he loves, and an idea about what he does.
When he focus on the boyfriend or couple side, he gets all flustered, because those are embarrassing topics, and immediately jumps into a general, superficial idea about what those mean. Because... he doesnt get it when is described with those names -those names are related to things that look so unapproachable for a nerd like him. However, when he has something he relates to ("becoming the person... oh! like the admiration I have for All Might!"), he has a chance to actually explain his feelings and opinion about her confession.
Once this reaches an emotion he does understand, he spills how he wants to share the feelings the person he loves has. Which is... not that different from what Himiko feels. After all they both want to be closer to the people they love by having something the person has in common*** He also wants that kind of connection on a deeper, emotional level, rather than the superficial description he gave before; he is more free to express this when he can ignore the big name and connotation "couple" or "boyfriend" has.
When Izuku thinks about love without thinking about Love, he has an idea of what comes natural to him: to get closer to the person. Maybe thats why he doesnt think about Tenko the way Ochako does with Himiko -he feels empathy for his past and terrible present, currently he feels guilt over not being able to do more, reach out sooner, save... but he doesnt talk about feelings he wants to share with him like that. So, it makes sense thats how he views it.
For him, love is not only understanding the other, is sharing feelings of love. And the other key to Izuku's love is one Himiko cant ever reach: not wanting to hurt the person he loves.
This paralleling extra content shouldn't be that important, but considering Izuku is unable to use black whip when remembering Katsuki's sacrifice to him... doesnt it sound relevant?
Izuku confesses he doesnt want to hurt someone he loves, and it parallels a scene of him being... scared of hurting Kacchan the way AFO did, and deciding not to -whether it was consciously or not, black whip decided to not attack him.
He can train with him perfectly okay until his own quirk reminds him of Kacchan hurting.
Am i crazy? EDIT: alright I think I see some stuff about Izukuâs idea of love, and this will be the short, quirk version of this whole thing:
Admiration and wanting to be like someone, solely, itâs not enough for Izuku to consider it love âthatâs what he does when it comes to All Might, and he knows he doesnt feel that way.
However, sharing the same feelings and not wanting to hurt them, thats way more important to him when it comes to love. Those, at least right now, are cores to his perspective of love.
He rejects Himiko's love because it has nothing to do with his from his point of view: she wants to hurt the people she loves, the biggest deal breaker, she doesnt share the same feelings as him, and she also considers imitation and admiration good enough to be considered love.
*it doesnt have to be romantic love, as platonic and queer platonic love and relationships can also start and continue to date and be wonderful for the people involved. Im adding this just to clarify there are multiple possibilities for a feeling of love, and its completely okay.
You can also date anyone for any reason really, including being confused by your feelings, expectations, social and peer pressure, etc., but im talking about what in theory would be the best case scenarios.
** This is in case we take into consideration the original meaning from the manga. In the anime, if the phrasing is actually different in Japanese as the subs suggest, then it would be "what a couple does".
*** The main issue that separates them is the abuse Toga has suffered that led to her seeing herself as a unlovable monster. For her, deep inside, she has to become the other person in order to be loved, bc she sees the goodness and precious things in others, and the only way she could ever be that... is if she literally stops being herself AAAAA MY POOR BABY
#grrr talking#bkdk#bakudeku#dkbk#dekubaku#decchan#himiko baby this chapter has brought up interesting things n I want to talk more about heeeeer#also another observation: ochako's reaction to deku's first idea of couple looks like she is âoh wow dude thats a lotâŚâ#it kind of reminds me of that scene where she says ânot like that -_-â when he compliments her a lot to hype her up#alsooo im still curious about tsuyu's idea of what ochako was going to do n im still thinking about how those precious feelings could be-#about himiko but whateveeeer#shes a girls girl
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