#also i would just really really appreciate if anyone reads this

[dumbopinions]

This is probably right but also, what if we get another incident where like all of Iceland found out that the book they thought was Dracula for like 100 years was actually just something a guy made up and published as Dracula? I mean, I’m not saying that an AI mistranslating it for a bunch of people would be funny, except actually no, if I got to meet that person and discuss the book and make conversation with them casually about it and then go back and check my copy to ensure I wasn’t insane…. Ok, I see how no one figured it out for a hundred years. But it does still feel like there’s a joke in there.

And in total fairness, that is also the first way I encountered lots of stories, as a summarized version. I was reading Shakespeare in 3rd grade, and part of that was because in 2nd grade, a librarian had found a book of the general stories for me to read. And I ended up reading a lot of sci-fi because my mom had given me a bunch of old comics based on sci-fi stories. None were good translations or adaptations. But I liked them enough to read a bunch of related things and eventually read the real thing. That wouldn’t be how I approach reading a book today, because I gobble them up like candy. Though it might be worth it for someone the classics I’ve tossed aside as not for me, simply because I don’t appreciate the writing style. It’s possible if I had a better idea of what it was building to, I’d be less impatient.

I’ve been considering this with a book I simply cannot either read or listen to (I’ve been trying for a year and a half for a friend who really loves it). I’ve repeatedly cut it off at the same point, with the sense that I’d rather kill myself than try to finish. I cannot, cannot, get over the amount of description that is utterly insipid. It makes me want to claw my eyes out. Or ears out (an audio book attempt). I would also pay someone else to simply tell me all the important bits, but I don’t know anyone else who gets past 10 pages. There must be something in it but for the life of me, I don’t know what.

what is HAPPENING

[mullermilkshake]

Don’t leave me all on my own, it’ll break me

Part 13 <- Part 14 -> Part 15

Jinwoo proves to you that you and his children and his first priority.

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Kind reminder - I have only seen the anime, I’ll get round to reading the manhwa, but I have a lot going on in my life at the moment that's affecting my health so it'll be a while, so if anything seems ooc, I’m working on it lol 😎. I only know of what the anime showed, nothing else, I’m trying to remain spoiler free but it’s proving difficult. I'm researching what I can and I've had stuff spoiled that way too 😂 I try to keep the characters as canon as I can but they write themselves. (Yeah, they can be unruly like that) that being said, I am taking into account of your comments and what sort of storyline you're wanting to see, (but please don't ask for anything to be added) I’m going at this chapter by chapter, by the seat of my pants. I have no clue what these characters are doing until they do it 😂

Thank you for your patience and continued support, I fell in love with the anime immediately and adored this fandom the minute I stepped into it and I’ve been welcomed with opened arms which I appreciate.

I love you, pookies!

(Also, if anyone knows how I could read the manwha offline, I'd really appreciate it. 🤗)

"Jinwoo... is that true?" 

You ignored the rumble of excitement, the journalists shoving mics in your face and endless questions that Jinwoo couldn’t quite hear. Your betrayed look broke his heart.

“No. it’s not-”

“Hunter Sung! Can you comment on the good news?” 

“How far along, has it been a smooth pregnancy so far?” 

“Hunters, what happens now that Hunter Sung is leaving? What of this facility?” 

Jinwoo pushed past the journalist’s invasive questions and guarded you enough to pry you away from their grasp. He ignored Jong-in’s calls and stormed past Have-in to slip back into the room he'd been in before and shut the door to the world behind him. It took everything in his self restraint that was barely there not to flatten the entire room. Killing all of them seemed about as close to reaching neutrality as Jinwoo was going to get. 

You just stood there, in silence, staring at the wall in that oversized sweater hiding the twins away from prying eyes. So broken and empty, your eyes plain and emotionless despite the tear slipping from your cheek.

It was the only thing to cool Jinwoo down from erupting. The only thing, besides you and the babies that leashed his impulsivity was giving away any inclination to what his darker side was like until he got what he wanted. It was why the Chairman still had a head. Why Jong-in still had his face intact.

“This is…” How could Jinwoo tell you without making himself look guilty? Without proving the Chairman’s lies on desperation you would not take them at face value.

“Are you leaving me- putting me in that place like Hae-in? You said you didn’t want that… tell me it’s not true, because I can’t believe that…” You breath picked up, erratically filling the rooms unsettled quiet amongst the rumble behind the doors.

“I’m not.” He said, taking two steps towards you.

“No.” You backed away, biting your trembling lip. “Don’t come near me… After all that about never trusting the association with the babies and putting your foot down about help from the Chairman- and, fuck, I don’t know what to think. you say you care and have these feelings, but I saw you go off and talk to the Chairman. If you want to be rid of me, just say it. But I have to hear it from you, not publicly in a room full of people!”

You were pregnant, hormonal and therefore unreasonable. Jinwoo didn’t take it to heart despite it hurting, had this been any other time, you would have used logic.

Jinwoo couldn’t bear seeing you cry. “He dropped it on me. I told him no before he could even finish. I would never do that because I-”

He had to stop himself, you had only just gotten used to being addressed as his girlfriend, no way could you take hearing his love for you too. It was all happening too fast in one singular moment. 

It can’t end like this. 

“Because what?” You said, wrapping your arms around you and blinking the residual tears away after your curiosity got the better of you.

“I just think we should take a minute to simmer down-”

“What were you going to say?” You stepped closer, but never touched him.

Jinwoo wanted to tell you, he really did. He craved it, using three words to express himself where he hadn’t been allowed to yet. No room to spread his wings and really let himself go to embrace you and his new found purpose with no limitations.

“Because…” Even upset, eyes red and wet, you were so beautiful. What could he say to you that wasn’t what he was feeling?

“Because you what, Jinwoo?! I don’t know if you can tell, but I’m really freaking out here!”

“Because I love you, that’s why!” There it was. No turning back now.

He should never have shouted or raised his voice. That was unfair to you.

It seemed to calm you though, oddly enough. Though it could have been shock. “You what?”

“I love you. You’re the mother of my children, and you think I’d leave you in that place just to fuck someone I don’t care about? To keep the Chairman happy? Never. I don’t want to be anywhere that isn’t with you, I’d lay down on the floor so you could walk all over me if it made you happy. I’m disappointed that I haven’t communicated that well enough with my actions, but I’ll show you every day until you understand… I shut Chairman Go down right away and walked out, I never agreed to this. It’s not what I want, it’s not what I’ll ever want. The Chairman's programme can go to hell.”

You stood there, taking deep breaths into the sleeve of your sweater, which soon switched to more shallow and panicked. “You… is that… Oh my god- oh god… it’s too hot in here- I need this off- I need it off.”

Jinwoo rushed to your side and tried to pry your hands from your sweater neck, stretching the material with little whimpered cries and more tears that Jinwoo had ever seen from your eyes.

“I can’t breathe- get it off- get it off of me!”

Another mana spike came right in front of Jinwoo’s eyes, more powerful than last time. And his shadows even noticed, it triggered Igris to appear for a moment before his eyes though Jinwoo never called him forward. You however, were too riled up to notice, if you could now sense the twins aura all of a sudden, you didn’t let on.

“Jinwoo!”

He pulled your sweater off and kept you close, your limp body sobbing into his shirt, clutching at it for dear life in a wet mess. Jinwoo stroked your hair as a way to try to comfort you after dropping his heart on the room, a lot to process when the timing was all wrong

Jinwoo crouched down to the floor, you moved down with him and sat in his lap all curled up and clinging to his arm. The babies aura was still heightened, pulsing almost. They must have been responding to you, though Jinwoo was surmising, you still didn’t notice.

“I’m so tired of this. I just want to be left alone. I want everyone to leave us alone, Jinwoo.” 

“I know… I know…”

After the initial shock of declaring his love for you, Jinwoo rocked you.  He needed to do something about the Chairman sooner rather than later, this could not continue and it prompted him to take the initiative, to attempt to send one of his shadows into the Chairman’s presence the next opportunity. He could have been as perceptive as you for all Jinwoo knew, but he had to try. The Chairman wouldn’t get away with upsetting you like this again, he simply wouldn’t allow it. Though if anything the Chairman did succeed in, was allowing Jinwoo the choice to use violence.

Violence on the old man and if he was lucky, if he pushed Jinwoo far enough, he’d cease to exist regardless of the backlash or consequences. In truth, who was actually strong and fast enough to even out match him to throw punishment his way?

I could kill him and anyone else who tried to stop me. The way I feel now, I doubt I’d feel any remorse for it. It wasn't a good intrusive thought no matter how much Jinwoo agreed with it.

“Oh god… I’m such a mess. I was never this emotional.” You sniffled, rubbing your cheek against his shirt and fiddling with the collar. “You… really love me?”

“I do. So much. I just didn’t say anything because I was worried you’d leave.”

And just like that, the mana spike vanished and stopped pulsing like high blood pressure. A calm room, a calm mind. You relaxed in his arms, and the babies followed suit.

“I don’t know how to feel, I’m so confused-”

Jinwoo shook his head and watched you carefully, pressing his lips to your forehead. “Don’t overthink it. I get it if you don’t feel the same.”

Though the only thing he’d ask of you was your love in return, his desperation to be close to you switched things up, and now that need started to shift to even if you hated him. He’d still love you. He’d still commit unthinkable things for you if you asked.

“Just let me love you, let me take care of you and the babies. That's all I ask.”

“I never said I didn’t feel the same.” You said, pulling away just a fraction to look at him, nose all blushed and cheeks wet. “I’m not sure how to process this, but I don’t want you to go anywhere.”

Well, it wasn’t a ‘I hate you Jinwoo, get the fuck out of here.’ at least. It gave him more hope than anything.

The sentimentality drew Jinwoo closer to you, gently rubbing your baby bump. “That’s enough for me. We can figure it all out as we go along.”

He knew with every inch you gave him, his impulses wanted a mile.

“What do we do now?”

He wanted to keep you in the confines of this room whilst he had it out with the Chairman. Jinwoo wanted to know why a man like as himself, with other responsibilities, was going to such lengths. The more time passed made him see just how much the Chairman had changed. Jinwoo wanted to get down to it, maybe fight the man to air his frustrations as to why he wanted such an influence over his children. He was the association. So why the underhanded tactics to piss Jinwoo off?

The Chairman knew what Jinwoo was capable of, so it made no sense why he was acting the way he was.

I have to know why. 

“We’ll exchange with one of my shadows, Igris will stay with you and I’ll pay the Chairman a visit. I think it’s about time we have a heart to heart.”

You made a disgusted sound, sitting up properly though remaining between his legs. “No, not that again. I threw up last time you took me with you.”

Information like that would have been useful at the time. Jinwoo was only showing you how it worked during the early days of your pregnancy in case he ever had to use it, though he never needed to, until now.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

You shrugged, wiping the drying tears from your face. “I don’t know, you left for a raid before I felt sick, like it was delayed, but I put two and two together. It's not that serious. I think the babies don’t like it, like any mana I use or any that gets used on me, it’s like they hate it. They tolerate eye’s handmaiden, but that’s about it. It's passive, I have no control over that.”

“They move about more than usual?” Jinwoo set his hand back on your belly, rubbing away with his thumb.

“That’s the thing, it’s the opposite. They don’t move at all, it’s like they can’t be bothered with it. It’s only a little movement when they do, I can’t feel it outside yet. But they get active sometimes, like little flutters.”

Jinwoo was waiting for the moment you pulled him to the side and pressed his hand to your belly and wait for the babies movements, the little kicks from their tiny feet. Any day now, according to the doctor.

“Maybe their mana is so strong they don’t need to bother with it? We won’t know until they’re here, but if the data is suggesting that they’re using your mana is correct, they might not be able to tolerate anyone else's."

“”I thought about that.” You turned and leant back into him, pressing your back to his chest to which he kept his hands on you. “But I hoped they’d do well with yours at least, you know, being their… Dad.”

What a big turn of events? You’d never really mentioned Jinwoo’s role in this, like his real role. He was the twins father, he would always be. It was like you were coming to terms with it, finally accepting the best to come.

“Could be.”

“Or… maybe they’re just lazy, ever thought of that-“ 

You felt it, Jinwoo did too.

“I think they heard that.” Jinwoo stared in awe, he understood the distinct movement on your belly, a subtle kick, but it was there. “That was what I think it was, right?”

Holy shit. 

It was there, his babies. His babies moving right by his hand like they were trying to grab his fingers. Less than four months to go and he’d hold them in his arms. Four months and his life would change forever. 

“Yeah… I… did they- no they’re babies, they can’t respond, can they?”

Jinwoo chuckled, your stuttering was even cuter this time. Much better than tears streaming down your face. “I think we should start talking to them now, when we get home. Maybe they’ll get used to hearing us?”

For now, Jinwoo’s anger had melted away.

For now.  

But he still wanted a word with the Chairman. Also with Jin-chul, the elusive man who seemed to have vanished from the Chairman’s side.

“Maybe we should. That’s if we can get past that shit show out there. Honestly, it's stressing me out more than if we were just left alone... I'm pregnant with twins, not outer world beings, or gods. I get the excitement, but come on."

“Yeah. We need to think about this carefully, going forward. Something that’ll get the Chairman to back off-”

Actually, this could go in his favour.

An announcement. A big one. Huge. Astronomical. Something to make it difficult for the Chairman to sweep away. A statement that could outshine your pregnancy.

Something extremely public.

“I might have an idea that would stop all of this.” It wasn’t fair to spring this on you while you were vulnerable, or after he’d just told you he loved you, but Jinwoo saw the opportunity and ran with it. “It’s pretty crazy, but it would stop people from interferring.”

“What’s that?”

Should he? Could he? You might slap him if he didn’t ride your mood swing right. 

“Marry me."

Part 13 <- Part 14 -> Part 15

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DISCLAIMER - Crossposted from my AO3 - I do not own any of the characters or anything from the anime or manhwa. This is a work of fan fiction and is absolutely not representative of the views or intentions of the original creator(s).

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[punanami]

maybe unpopular opinion idk... but i feel like people need to stop putting 'not proofread' on their works.

because if you aren't excited enough about your own work/thoughts to give a fuck enough to reread it—why would that make anyone want to even read it in the first place?

99.9% of the time i never feel like the 'not proofread' work is not actually 'not proofread'. sure, there might be a few errors here and there but overall unless you are just some grammar/language wiz that never makes an error and puts everything down exactly how you wanted it on the first go, you've likely reread/proofed your work on some level.

what I feel like people are really trying to say by putting 'not proofread' is "im not very confident in what I put out and I don't want you to judge me for it. so im devaluing my own work before you can."

to which I say fuck that.

if you like it, be proud of it. even if you aren't trying to be some literary genius. even if you just want to share your rabid incoherent fandom thoughts into the void—own it.

be confident in what you are presenting.

be excited about it.

it makes others get excited about it too!

we are all dorks in the same fandom who are seeking out similar content about our favs. even if you are new to writing, or recognize your skills aren't the greatest, or if whatever language you are writing in is your second language (which btw majority of y'all have better grammar than native speakers, especially when it comes to English LOL) people will still appreciate and enjoy your work, if YOU enjoy it.

you enjoying your own work is the only validation you need to publish it.

we appreciate your contributions!

also sidetone, I reread everything I put out 10+times and will still find brand new errors upon the 5th published reread so "proofed" doesn't mean perfect! especially if you are dyslexic and adhd (like me!) or have any other neurodivergent trait, learning disability or challenge. people have never pointed that out to me even if i'm inwardly cringing at the error like 'how are they reading this?!' lmfao.

[maxdibert]

What were the interpretations of the Marauders in the 2000s?

James has always been excused in one way or another, his fans just can’t seem to acknowledge how abusive and toxic he actually was, probably because it would make him harder to defend. But they didn’t turn him into some golden retriever either. James could be cruel, he could be a dick, and he could be really obnoxious, even if people downplayed some of his behaviour that borderline screamed sociopathy. But he was cocky and arrogant, and that part was never erased.

Sirius was Sirius. Even in Wolfstar fics, he was still the same cocky, narcissistic, aggressive guy. He hadn’t been abused by Walburga, and his relationship with his brother was tense and complex. People explored Regulus through his connection to Sirius, not by randomly shipping him with anyone and giving him a totally made-up personality. There were a ton of angsty Black brothers fics that were genuinely great to read, because they really dug into that relationship and how it spiralled until it was completely shattered. Sirius also had a lot of fics with female OCs — if he wasn’t paired with Remus, that was the standard — and later on Blackinnon became popular, but more in niche spaces.

Remus was that quiet, bookish guy focused on his studies who didn’t usually raise his voice — and, well, Peter got overshadowed anyway, lol.

What was most surprising was how Snape was handled, there were really only two options: either he wasn’t mentioned at all, or he was referenced briefly. But no one was out here acting like he was some kind of would-be rapist or literal monster. There wasn’t that extreme vilification of the character. If people didn’t like him, they just left him out or acknowledged him in passing because of Lily, and usually kept a neutral tone. There was a kind of unspoken respect for not bashing characters gratuitously. Same went for Peter, honestly, when people did go too hard on Peter or Snape, there were actual serious criticisms, and people called it out.

What I think was really appreciated about the original fandom is that people didn’t try to stuff characters full of traits that weren’t theirs just to make them more likeable or to justify why they were their favourites. People didn’t need James to be a good person to be his fan, they accepted that he was kind of awful, and still had their reasons for caring about him. And honestly? That was way more valid and way healthier than the absolute mess the fandom has become now.

[boo-cool-robot]

I don't appreciate being referred to like I'm a dumbass for thinking a character who has said sexist things could in fact be sexist. Gojo letting Maki use his given name indicates that he is fine with her being familiar towards him. He also tends to use everyone's given name. This does not mean that he can't be sexist towards someone he is familiar with. Gojo said something sexist to Utahime and we don't see him say sexist things to Mei Mei, yes. I hope you do not seriously believe that a man can only be sexist if he says sexist things to every woman he knows. You don't have to read Gojo as sexist towards his students, but talking like this about my reading is unnecessary.

As for Wolke's points: Regardless of whether Gojo sincerely believes what he said to Utahime, he still said it. (The things he says to Ichiji are extremely rude but not gendered.) And that indicates Gojo accepts sexism to some degree, or at least doesn't mind being seen as sexist. I think it is absolutely plausible Gojo is sexist to some extent. By this, I don't mean that he consciously thinks women are inferior and he deliberately refuses to teach them. I mean that he's spent his whole life in a very misogynistic environment and likely has passively absorbed sexist beliefs. Similarly, we see him invoke an anti-Black stereotype to Miguel, which does make sense considering Gojo is from a society where anti-Blackness is extremely common. He doesn't aggressively hate Black people and apologizes once called out, but he did still have that passive belief. I think you would understand why it would be concerning and a possible indicator of sexist teaching practices if a real life teacher said things about women needing to behave a certain way to attract men, or women being scary in a way men are not. Unconscious biases can still show in behavior.

I don't think Gojo thinks badly of Nobara and Maki. I've said before that I actually think it's likely Gojo likes Maki and thinks she's strong. (Kirara is a question mark because she's no longer a student in JJK proper and we don't really see Gojo interact with her, but it's interesting if not indicative that she doesn't particularly care for Gojo either.) I do think that him not knowing how to train Maki's Heavenly Restriction and Nobara not needing more training on how to use her CT is not exculpatory for him not being shown even trying to train them in other ways.

I think one reason for the difference in our readings is that you prioritize higher-level decisions by Akutami as explaining the reason Gojo behaves the way he does. I see you point to plot events as the reason we only see Gojo train Megumi, Yuta, and Yuji. And I definitely would agree that Akutami creating a cast that doesn't have as many women and girls is a reason for Gojo not being very close to many female characters. It seems like to you, your default reading for a character is "not prejudiced" unless shown strong evidence otherwise. On my part, that's not the case. For my reading, I am taking the in-universe facts of Gojo not training his female students and contextualizing them with other in-universe things Gojo has said, concluding that Gojo is unconsciously sexist. Your read is legitimate and I don't think anyone has to agree with me. I don't even think that my reading must be the most correct. I just find it interesting to do in-universe readings that don't prioritize meta-knowledge. I just don't think "this literal patriarch in an extremely sexist society might be sexist in-universe" requires extraordinary justification, and I don't think Gojo can said to be definitively not sexist in how he treats his students.

(And re: curses in Shibuya, curse personhood is not a settled question in JJK, and whether exorcising curses counts as murder is something that different characters think differently about. Regardless of where one falls in that debate, the disaster curses are shown to have thoughts and feelings and Gojo was both mocking and very brutal towards them. I don't think he was wrong to be very violent since they would have murdered thousands had he not intervened, but Gojo toying with Hanami and Gojo as he fights them is a relevant data point in the whole picture of how Gojo feels about violence. "Gojo thinks violence is fun" is a reasonable conclusion to draw.)

uhm guys, why am I seeing the overly violent and/ or misogynistic gojo interpretation getting popular among fans now. 😐

I’m not saying that he isn’t a violent person, but it’s been bothering me for a while that people have started to center his entire personality around violence and what he displayed against the disaster curses in shibuya (the emphasis being on the fact that he was fighting CURSES not humans) - especially considering his development post HI and his epiphany that not everything in life can be achieved through strength and violence.

“he didn’t train nobara or maki”. nobara has a traditional CT and was thoroughly trained by her grandma, plus she was literally taken out of the story in shibuya while he got sealed. maki is someone with a HR, hardly anyone at JJT knows how to train such a person besides giving her physical training and battle experience (much less gojo who generally struggles with teaching). that’s why she basically learned everything by herself.

“he only trained his male students” he was absent for most of the story bc of his enormous workload since he’s the only special grade on full time active duty?

that’s why he had to send yuta off to miguel. he took megumi with him to the zenins for strategic reasons/future arrangements (bc they were clearly interested in megumi’s talents). he probably showed him the basics of his CT, but megumi interpreted his technique on his own and it’s implied that he doesn’t rly train him unless megumi asks him to do so. he only taught yuji the very very basics and basically let him in todo’s and nanami’s care later. his other students also trained on their own mostly, regardless of their gender.

like come on guys, gege’s writing is definitely misogynistic at times, but saying that gojo was deliberately mistreating his female students isn’t it.

[audreythevaliant]

Please please don’t listen to your mind when it plunges you into the depths of despair. It’s lying to you, I promise. Please pray, read some scripture, sing some comfort songs, eat food and drink water, then eat popcorn and drink tea. Take a walk outside in your bare feet and then take a long warm shower. This too shall pass.

[drawingrainbowsonthewalls]

Heya, I know you already got quite a few responses, but we enjoy to talk about this stuff!!

1. Like others said, paraphilia is defined as an odd attraction or love for something out of the ordinary, it doesn’t even have to be sexual or romantic. Yes there is a lot of overlap between kink/fetish and paraphilia, but when it comes down to it, it’s up to the individual to decide which one better describes them. Also kink, fetish, and paraphilia are not exclusive to adults, being 18 years of age does not actually have a detrimental impact on you and your identity. Teens and children can have a very complex and genuine understanding of sex, kink, and paraphilia. so I think the term paraphilia/paraphile and paraphilic spaces are generally more open and accepting to younger beings.

2. You know it took me a while to learn to fully accept and support the big three. However now I consider myself to be a close ally to them, paraphiles [unless they’re transparaphiles] do not choose their attraction. Just like how a gay person did not choose to be gay, paraphiliac attraction is barely different from “normal” attractions, so no you cannot recover from them. Also, though it does happen, most victims of sexual abuse or assault as a child are not from pedophiles, they come from people who are looking for an easy target. Child predators are not the same as pedophiles, and that is a common misconception I see all the time. Plus let’s say a gay person SA’d someone, that doesn’t mean all gay people are horrible or have intentions of hurting others. Same goes for any paraphilia, including the big three.

3. Having the stance of being anti-Radqueer, transid, para, etc. isn’t really a problem in my opinion. As long as they are not harassing anyone, saying horrible things about them, being generally disrespectful, trying to take away resources, etc.. it isn’t really about the stance itself, it’s about the beings who use it.

4. How would it genuinely affect someone who is cis whatever disability or disorder? I am autistic, have GAD, potential bipolar disorder, and recently my doctor is starting to suspect I have POTS. Not once in my disabled and disordered life have my resources been “stolen” from me by transabled beings, nor have I felt disrespected by them. It’s their life they’re living, not mine. The reason I don’t get the accommodations I need is because of the government and beings in power, not those who identify as something other than they were born as. Discrimination and disrespect against transabled beings is ableism and it is transphobia.

5. To me it means to be free of the burden to be perfect and pure and a standard I can never live up too. It is about refusing purity and accepting those who have been outcast from where they should’ve been safe and those who are learning. It is to be safe and to find community, to be open and not keep secrets from each other. For me it has always been a place and identity to stop sheltering people and present them with the facts as they are. For me it has always been love.

6. I mean I will never tell someone that who they are is wrong but something I can’t support is beings who are non-consensually harmful, and beings who tell others to off themselves because their beliefs are different. I will always try to be kind to those I don’t agree with, I must admit it’s something I’m working on. I guess I also cannot support rage baiting, inducing fear on others through media and actions when they have not consented to that, and other such acts.

Much love to you, we appreciate it if you took the time to read our response <3

if you're easily offended, please don't read this post, i can accidentally do just that

i want to learn about radqueers

now, if you chose to click "more" and read further, i want to say i'm anti rq... was anti rq? still am??? i don't know. the thing is, i realized i never really listened to any of you guys, nor have i ever encountered you personally. i think that's wrong, and i want to know more about your views

i don't guarantee i'll change my mind about this, but i promise to stay respectful in discussions. if i say something you find offending, please politely explain this to me, i genuinely don't understand you but want to

you can reply (but i can't reply in comments, technical issues), reblog and add something, send me asks (you can do it anon). please stay nice to me, i'm coming from curiosity here and not judgement

tonetag for all listed questions: /gen

1. i saw a carrd about paras. beside the big three, those are just kinks? am i getting this right? why would you choose a paraphilia label if you know you'll probably get hate for that, if you can easily pick a kink label and you'll be safe among adults?

2. what's your views on big three? i'll be honest, i hate pedophiles and zoophiles, it's obvious reason - they're harmful. i was a pedo victim too, still heavily traumatized. why would you support them? do you actually support them?

3. if someone's anti radqueer, are they hurting anyone? if yes, then how exactly?

3.1. what if they're against transIDs?

3.2. what if they're against paras?

4. if someone claims to be transdisabled, transautistic etc, any transcondition - don't you think it's disrespectful to people who actually live through those experiences, don't have any choice and face ableism no matter of how they identify?

5. what does your identity as radqueer mean to you?

6. what's your hard taboos? what/who you'll never support?

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thank you in advance. i appreciate anyone who might spend some time to answer

[kyloreno-911]

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[ninashiki]

I RESPECT YOUR TASTE BUT IF I MAY POLITELY ASK WHY KAZUI. hebores me i cannot lie so i want to understand why ur invested in him

No that's totally fair! Putting this under the cut

Honestly it's mainly that he's relatable! I tend to eat up gaynst if done well, and the overall production of how it was done in Cat (and his T2 voice trial, QnA posts) was fun. I also like that the gaynst happening was with an older man but not tied to romance. The overall bait-and-switch of "you thought he was just some random cheater well Guess What he NEVER cheated he only LONGED TO and she fell/killed herself because he was GAY and CAME OUT TO HER." was so fucking funny at the time too. (I can't remember rn if the accident theory was disproven) Cat is also one of my favorite Milgram songs, I had it on repeat for a long time (while I never listened to Half lol). I really hoped the innocent/forgiven verdict would have dialed up the resentful energy in that song (the eating of the dove bit at the end) and made him realize nothing is wrong with him but sigh of course not, it's obvious in the way Yuno is treated that Milgram is written with conservative Japanese sensibilities in mind. I'm not sure what they're going to do with him now, the self-hating energy is frustrating but not surprising. Hoping he doesn't get assigned a ballad. A decent portion of my love of him was also out of spite, since it was incredibly frustrating to see how people talked about him (even in the English fandom). I hope he got to be loved like a cat before he was summoned to Milgram, otherwise #rip. FWIW I would still completely support him if he was straight, then he'd be more of a Sylvain Gautier character lol. It never made sense to me that he was in Milgram (same with Yuno) so it made me feel strongly about him even if he's a flat character overall.

I am aware that could be considered shallow but the premise of Milgram is pretty shallow anyway. There is no way to ethically judge any of the characters without knowing what the final consequences of doing so are, which could be anything as far as we know such as suffering eternally (ex sending them to hell), head exploding (what happens to them in the novelization iirc), or not reincarnating and getting their soul destroyed/sent to the void (plot of the anime Death Parade which I am leaning towards the most as what they'll go for since it's implied everyone is already dead). I mean maybe some people would want that but I don't really think any of the characters deserve those fates since it's absurdly disproportionate... I would elaborate more if it didn't compel me to write thousands of words 😭 my ideal personal outcome was/is everyone getting forgiven

[peaceoutofthepieces]

wondering if the 71 full remaining days are enough to finish the imogen x sahar fic i started last september

[corvidcall]

Tell me about your WIP :>

my WIP?? ah, you must mean THE ALBATROSS AROUND MY NECK

do you want an extremely long fanfic for a 15 year old free browser game? do you want a fic thats mostly focused on OCs, that only depicts two fan-favorite factions to talk about how they're evil? do you like fics that inexplicably have a lot of discussions about communist theory? not actually THAT much but like... wayyy more than you would have expected in a fanfic, and it's brought up inelegantly every single time??

well... that's weird. why do you want that?? your life will not be easy. that being said, perhaps you can enjoy The Book of Red Murder, my Fallen London fanfic that has been on a "short hiatus" for over a year because i wrote too hard and now every time i open Scrivener i have a panic attack!!! at 82k words, it is MAYBE 60% done. will it ever be 100% complete? its funny you should ask that!!! (gets real cozy in bed and goes to sleep)

[whysamwhy123]

HALLEJUAH!! I REMEMBERED HOW TO ACTUALLY FINISH WRITING SOMETHING FOR A CHANGE!!

Of course, it's not any of the fics I wanted to finish. I went back to what is essentially my bread-and-butter now and wrote a short-ish, random OrangeHook fluff. But considering how much writing's been a struggle as of late, I'm just glad that I successfully finished something. I was back in one of those stretches where I couldn't seem to write much of anything. And this fic isn't about their age difference or Hook being a cuddlebug, so...progress?

Unless I decide I completely hate it (which is always a possibility) expect something to drop on Valentine's Day, tis the season, after all.

[oveliagirlhaditright]

I forgot to mention that I saw the trailer for the new the The Hunger Games movie when I went and saw Blue Beetle (the prequel, you know?) and it does look really good (even though at first I was unsure about it). I'm probably for sure going to see it when it comes out. Though this will be the first time that I haven't read the book first... unless I do end up reading the book between now and then.

[atsu-i]

Hello, I just saw the anon ask talking about you not being on tumblr that much anymore and we don't really talk to eachother (I think we only ever exchanged messages once), but I wanted to say, while I can, that I have wonderful memories of this website and a lot of them include seeing the mangacaps that you reblog or reading your tags, including all of the occasional venting and even some of the adorable auntie stories.

If you allow me to ramble a little bit, I want to talk about the blog that you called "shitty" and how I think it is actually really cool.

You might not think that you do much because you mostly just reblog stuff, but I feel like all the mangacaps that you reblog are more meaningful than most people think. I think that they are an act of self-expression and throughout the years I've felt like those kinds of posts express a desire that people have to be more honest with their feelings and put them out into the world. I've felt like the mangacaps, combined with all of your text posts, probably do accomplish some of this.

I am not going to say that your blog changed how I view life or anything like that, but I can say that your blog, along with many other similar ones, have seriously been a part of my journey of better understanding myself.

For example, today I liked a post that had a guy feeding a cat in it. And I didn't like the post because the art was amazing. I liked it because I thought that the guy is gentle and that aspect of gentleness resonated with me personally. And obviously, there are times where I might like a post just because I think that the art looks cool, but I think that a lot of times when I'm browsing through tumblr I'm just learning more about myself through the things that I like.

Maybe the whole thing isn't supposed to be that deep, but sometimes (not always) for me it is. I think that this whole thing feels unreal for you because you don't put a lot of effort but I think that it is pretty cool that a bunch of people like the blog despite that.

As always, have a nice day and drink some water.

;-;

[scooberdiver]

I think I need to get like super into tarot reading. I think that would be good for us

[navybrat817]

Miss Navy! What if the reader joined the thunderbolts and fooled around with Bucky?

Bahaha. I have a thot, nonnie.

Not Exactly a Secret

Pairing: Thunderbolts!Bucky Barnes x Female Reader

Summary: You and Bucky are really good teammates... and more.

Word Count: Over 1.1k

Warnings: Kissing, implied smut, humor, team bonding (kind of), Thunderbolts spoilers, Bucky Barnes (he's a warning, okay?).

A/N: Using this beautiful @nixakimbo edit for reasons (you know why if you've seen Thunderbolts!). ❤️ Not beta read and written on my phone, so any and all mistakes are my own. Please follow @navybrat817-sideblog for new fics and notifications. Comments, reblogs, feedback are loved and appreciated!

In hindsight, they all should've seen it coming.

You were the last to join the team and easy to get along with. You could roll with the punches and keep up with Alexei, put John in his place when he stepped out of line, sympathize with Bob, and have a blast with Yelena and Ava. Hell, you even congratulated Bucky on his six month stint as a Congressman and swore he made a difference. He admired your kindness. He admired you.

The team thought Bucky was just being extra welcoming since he always found an excuse to be around you. If you offered to cook for the team, he was beside you in the kitchen ready to help. If you wanted to spar, he dropped what he was doing to go to the training room. And if you suggested a movie night, he sat next to you with your favorite snacks ready to go and a blanket in case you got cold.

Everyone noticed that Bucky smiled more when you were around. He laughed more, too. Turned to you for advice and didn't mind staying up late to chat or exchange books. Your room also happened to be beside his and he spent a lot of time in there, more than a regular teammate should.

The recent movie night you snuggled against him and started to doze off. If anyone else had tried to snuggle with him there was a chance they'd lose a hand, but not you. “Mmm. You're so good to me, Bucky,” you said when he picked you up.

“You know me. Just being a good teammate,” he replied, holding you close the way a boyfriend would and not at all like a teammate.

Yeah, they should’ve seen it coming.

Bob stumbled upon you by accident. He had forgotten his hoodie in the common room after one of the movie nights and froze when he spotted you and Bucky making out on the couch. He stood there for a full minute torn because he wanted to get his hoodie back, but he didn't want to interrupt. He ultimately decided against it when Bucky pushed you back on the cushions. On top of his hoodie.

“I’ll just… I’ll get it tomorrow. And I’ll wash it. Yeah, yeah. I'll do that. It’s fine. Everything’s fine,” he mumbled as he went back to his room.

You were kind enough to wash it yourself the next day and offered to buy him a new one, but he declined. It was nice that you offered. And he was happy because he saw how happy you made Bucky.

Yelena caught the two of you in the training room. For a moment it looked like Bucky was trying a new move on you and she almost asked him to show her how it was done. Tilting her head after a few seconds, she realized what she was seeing wasn't a defense move at all. If there was any doubt, the grunt he let out and the moan you gave him in response when some clothes were moved aside told her very loud and clear what was happening. And it would've been rude to stay and watch.

“Oh, I'm not sparring on that mat again,” she muttered.

She did spar on it again after Bucky cleaned it twice.

Ava didn't catch the two of you doing anything. She phased in the kitchen one day while Bucky was eating and making a mess. The exasperated look on your face when you tossed him a paper towel was adorable, as was the smile you two exchanged. Bucky never looked that soft around anyone else.

“You eat pussy like that?” Ava asked to get a rise out of Bucky when another drop of sauce hit his shirt.

“Yeah, he does,” you said without skipping a beat.

Ava laughed, thinking it was a joke at first, before she caught Bucky staring you down and licking his lips. You bit your lip and Ava almost phased out of the room to give you two some privacy. You beat her to it by sauntering out of the room with a smirk, the super soldier hot on your tail and leaving his mess behind.

“Thank you for not using the counter since we eat here!” Ava called out after the two of you.

Bucky had you on the counter the next day so he could eat, too.

Alexei found the two of you in his limo tangled up in each other. You couldn't explain why you and Bucky decided to fool around in there, but you wanted to have some fun and the limo was there. And it was clean. The Red Guardian wasn't at all upset. In fact, he felt honored that the Winter Soldier wanted to have sex in his limo and blasted “Pony” to set the mood.

“That’s what I talk about!” he cheered before Yelena dragged him away.

She also decided then and there that she’d always ride in the front seat of the limo.

John was the last to know, which surprised no one. After a successful mission, he realized neither you nor Bucky had answered a question he asked. Whatever smartass comment he began died in his throat when Bucky unashamedly kissed you. There was nothing gentle or chaste about it. It was a deep, filthy kiss and he felt like a perv watching.

Bucky must've thought something similar since he gave John the finger all while he continued to kiss you and you gripped his hair.

“Are you guys…” John trailed off since the rest of the group didn't seem at all surprised by the display. “Wait, did everyone know? Was I the only one who didn't know?”

“Yes, dime store Captain America.” Ava rolled her eyes. “Everyone knew.”

Whether it was the insult of being the last to know, John looked offended. “Even Bobby? And since when did the two of them become a thing?”

Bucky broke the kiss to glare at the blonde. “Yeah, asshole, Bob knew,” he replied.

“And it wasn't really a secret. We just hadn't officially announced it,” you said, giggling when Bucky’s lips found yours again.

Apparently the display was the official announcement.

“I really did know,” Bob smiled before he cleared his throat. “I, uh, found them in the common room.”

“Training room,” Yelena said.

Ava nodded. “Kitchen.”

“Limo!” Alexei shouted, hitting his chest. “My limo.”

“Jesus Christ,” John muttered.

Bob shrugged. “I think they make a good couple.”

“Of course, you do,” Yelena said, a small smile forming on her face as you and Bucky carried on. “I think so, too.”

Yeah, lovelies. Loved the film. Not at all sorry. Catch more shenanigans with Game Nights. Love and thanks for reading! ❤️

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