#also dont fucking harrass people jesus christ

[glitterspaghettiketchup]

Small guide for internet drama

take a Fucking Step Back™

screenshots or it didn't happen

if screenshots, context or it isn't real 2.5. if screenshots, is it actually proof or no

if real proof, show dates or it isn't recent 3.5. if not recent, show recent examples or it isn't accurate

Is it actually an issue or just stupid internet dicourse

If it's real and recent, do you actually need to do anything about this

If you absolutly have to do something about it, dont make stuff up

that's it, that's all you have to do

[cumscrotesailboat]

I finished Citrus, the "infamous" GL that i keep hearing about and as far as i've seen, its only the anime thats insanely weird. The manga is super different from the anime adaptation. There's a lot to critique with this series BUT the argument i hear saying that it caters primarily to men is not quite accurate. It was made by a sapphic woman, of which the story was inspired by a real experience she had, published by a company that caters to QUEER women. It certainly wasn't made with men in mind.

(Also, spoiler at the bottom if you have plans on reading it)

With that out of the way, the "incest" subplot of the series felt like it had little significance to the narrative of the story. The only time it was being mentioned was the Blonde MC's inner dialogue about how she can't possibly be with the Black haired MC because they're sister and that's it. At the end, their parents agreed to not get married so the two can legally be married. There was no push back on the parents or anyone they knew, it was just there. I can't tell what the author's purpose with it is. In another wlw series i read, the incest subplot was there to shut down the argument "If same-sex love is ok, then that should mean incest love is ok too bcs it doesnt affect anyone right?", but in here I can't be sure if its for drama or if its for the "spicy forbidden love awoogawooga" japanese anime fans seem to love. Personally, i think its the former. It's drama but very weak drama. I don't wanna write off the latter that fast either. Sapphic women can get weird with incest fantasies too. I personally am not into it bcs its incest, crazy take i know, but sure ig? This one I don't really care since it had such little effect on the narrative that you can just ignore it or even delude yourself with thinking it wasn't there at all and your understanding of the series would still be fine.

For the sexual assaults in the early chapters. I dont fucking know man, why did she do that? I mean, we know why, she was trying to push the Blonde MC away as seen in the letter but uhh.. 🤷🤷🤷? Sexual misconducts, harrassment, and assault just makes me feel uncomfortable so this is the one I dont like with the series at all. To give meaning to it (just bcs i dont wanna gloss over it that fast), the black haired MC did that as an impulsive act of selfishness, isolation, and fear of companionship. Early chapters has her shown as shackled by her family's legacy so she was cold and also fucked up.

Another thing are the supporting characters, there's this middle schooler that just fucking REEKS of trauma and the series just doesn't address that. It's so funny bcs you are 13 girl, don't talk as if you're in that grown up world you keep talking about. They're all great tho, even if they felt flat. One thing i keep noticing with nowadays consumption of literary is that every character has to be well-rounded, no it doesn't! its fine if the main cast are the only rounded ones! but yeah, that middle schooler has to be stopped. Please author, what the fuck is wrong with that kid😭☠️

Overall, its really not as bad as its reputation precedes it to be. Its weird yeah but not as weird as the majority of people say it to be. Its fluffy and drama and it definitely wasn't made for men. It's really whatever and only got its reputation bcs of that weird ass anime adaptation thats trying to cater to those freak ass "otakus". Saying that word makes me feel disgusted, jesus christ. I have mixed feelings if its a series I'd recommend bcs there are other series that are better but what i'm sure is its an okay read. I'm big to romance and drama and this series has that. It didn't make me cry but it made me feel tense and sad for the characters, and in my book thats a successful attempt at those genre.

My only gripe with it really is the unnecessary incest and SA, thats why its getting a low score for me. Everything else was fine

anw balls

[aroacefurb]

okay so i got one single comment about this but i need to clarify in case anyone else misinterprets this. no i do not think people should be harassed for shipping aroace characters jesus fucking christ. people in fandom need to stop equating any sort of judgement to harrassment. sure you can do whatever you want forever with fictional characters but that does not mean people arent allowed to criticise you. i am side eyeing people who ship aro/ace characters in a way that seems aphobic to me but i dont think you deserve harrassment.

also to clarify some other stuff i saw in that comment + others:

obviously allos arent the only one who do this, i did generalise a bit there. i am not saying that you need to put your identity on display before youre allowed to ship an aro/ace character.

and when i say "take their identity into consideration" i feel i made myself pretty clear but like. no i dont mean have the character proclaim they are aro/ace when entering a romantic/sexual situation. if anything that is the opposite. because you can write an aro/ace character and have them preface that theyre aro/ace in the text which sure i prefer to outright ignoring it but *that is also the problem i am talking about*. being like "well some aros/aces still get into relationships/have sex!!" isnt a free pass to completely disregard the characters identity. and you should also consider if the character was ever stated in the text to be sex/romance repulsed or non partnering etc. what i mean by "take into consideration" i mean write the aro/aces experience with sex and love different because they generally are different!! if you are writing a character who has an unconventional way of attraction, write them like that!!!

at the end of the day i ask anyone reading who thinks this is unfair to consider this: if there was a character who was a lesbian or a gay man, a character who is exclusively attracted to the same gender. and someone shipped them with the opposite gender - would you be annoyed by that? if not, then i guess its fair you think the same way for all sexualities. but if you would be annoyed. then there is a double standard there.

the statement "being ace and or aro is a complex spectrum, and putting fictional aro/acespec people in ships isnt inherently bad because plenty of ppl on the spectrum still have relationships and experience certain forms of attraction" can exist alongside "aros and aces are allowed to be upset when allos ship canonically aro/ace characters in a way that clearly doesnt take their identity into consideration"

both r true

[scummy-writes]

The irony in people telling fans to stop 'bitching about the genderbends' of characters like Jean or Kichou while also pairing those characters with the male suitors.

99% of the 'bitching' is from lgbt+ folks tired of being openly denied a possible gay love interest for them, and then seeing the genderbend stuff be turned into a joke or some 'yaoi' shipping fuel

Can you like the genderbends? Yes, thats fine, thats not the argument

Can you enjoy the ships that you like them in? Yes, thats fine, thats not the argument

Can you enjoy smut of your ships when you know thats not the only reason you enjoy them? Yes thats fine, thats not the argument

"Cybirds changed major details of all the suitors-" shut up. Shut up. That is not the argument.

The argument is that yall will openly tell lgbt+ folk to shut the fuck up over being rightfully miffed over this stuff happening constantly while yall will ship suitors together and dont see the irony in it. Yall really dont see the irony of shipping dudes together for your personal (and often only sexualized) enjoyment while speaking over lgbt+ folks and saying their complaints arent valid solely because youre 'tired of hearing about it'.

And then yall will doubledown on it and harrass lgbt+ folk for going "okay, well then I'm going to hc them as trans-" while STILL 'squealing' about how 'gay' the suitors are for each other.

Yall dont support lgbt+ folks if youre constantly talking over them and pulling this shit!!

At this point I really dont care if its an old argument or not, I think it comes up again because there will be jokes about it constantly and its frustrating to see. Lgbt+ folks have a right to complain about this shit, its exhausting to see it happening all the time, especially now when we think games are starting to become a bit more progressive just to have the genderbends be subject to ingame and outgame jokes about being gay.

'Its an otome' BI PEOPLE PLAY OTOME TOO YALL like good fucking god this tired argument falls apart because yall act like there isnt bi or other lgbt+ people playing! No lgbt+ person wants to be casually playing a game theyre enjoying just to get hit with how people view their sexuality as a joke or fetish fuel, jesus christ

'Whats the point of complaining then-' so now yall wont get pissy with me when I block people over this shit or send in homophobic/transphobic/etc shit to me thinking im somehow okay with it god damn if yall can vent about how annoying it is when xyz happens in the games I can vent about how annoying it is to see lgbt+ folks talked over while gayness is turned into fetish fuel here jesus

[beizhuo]

alright folks , i made this post last night about amending my carrd rules . & now , after calming somewhat down from getting sick to my stomach about it , i must now make one final update post about this to make people really & fully understand where i stand . why ? because i am , once again , having / needing to finely comb through the people i want to follow & interact with due to some very , VERY toxic behavior & terrible , childish individuals that think its real cute to stalk , harrass , steal , & gatekeep folks . 

understand that i will NOT be namedropping anybody in this post . this is not my intention . i am not out here to isolate folks or make people ‘ chose sides ’ . making people do that is absolutely horrible ! i do not give a damn who other people interact with . i do , however have extreme issues with theft ( amongst other things ) . i can draw a god damn line at theft ! 

harassment ? don’t care . you’re trolling , i can ignore you . gatekeeping . you’e petty and attention seeking im here for friends anyway . but actual literal theft - i can draw a line there . please get out & OFF MY BLOG if you are so unoriginal that you haveta steal from me or my friends !

please know that you can interact with those thieves & gatekeepers , i don’t care ! but understand that i will most likely softblock you because i genuinely do not want them to find me . no hard feelings . ( they have found my other 2 blogs , and i am tired of them finding me ! especially for baizhu ! i don’t even follow some of my friends here cause of this ! ) i am not even in the genshin community to begin with . my group ? we don’t do communities for toxic behavior and people being so exclusive to the point of driving people out & away . its distasteful and mean ! do you know that i have some friends that were cut off from communities entirely all because they were a dupe ? tHAT is the kind of dupe drama i fucking hate . along with theft . anyway . i will start from the beginning of my rules that i deem important .

DUPLICATES . ( AND MIMICRY / THEFT )

the irony that this is the first point . it is like it was a wonderful transition . anyway . this is actually having to deal with two rule points . and i want to group them together cause they are related .

myself & a few other people have come to find out that .... there is somebody AT THE VERY LEAST taking inspo from us . i will start with dupes .

my friend has a character and was WHOLLY mistaken for another mun . which is fine . that happens , but things took a turn for the worse when they were then shunned / cut off because they werent ‘ good enough ’ . do you know how HORRIBLE that is ? to be told that you aren’t good because you weren’t the mun that they wanted ? this is the type of shit i cannot stand with dupe drama . DO NOT EVER COMPARE DUPES WITH ONE ANOTHER !!! i mean it . 

i follow different childes ! and you know what i adore them both . they are both amazing ! 

sure i may have my mains / exclusives ( and im not inclined to interact with other blogs of that same character ) but i still like portrayals . i do , in fact , just READ threads sometimes . i don’t necessarily follow for interactions . like ffs man . i like variety . jesus christ .

going to mimicry / theft . you know ... i have fucking seen this with a couple of friends . there is a difference between coincidental similarities , however ! for myself & for my friends , we have SEEN inspo taken from us . im gonna say this really loud for people .

MIMICRY IS NOT FUCKING FLATTERY . 

do not take inspo from me . especially without credit . absolutely do NOT do it . you are very unoriginal for doing that shit . 

now , you like something i make / made ? you are inspired to want to make something ? fine , that’s okay , you can ALSO fucking ask me , you can also credit me . as you fucking should ! you can notify me and go , damn , i really like your style , do you mind if i use it in xyz ? sure , go right ahead . do it . im begging you , go ahead and do it IF YOU FUCKING ASK ME . god im so fucking angry about this , but this is some vile shit . and im angry .

i am angry and terrified cause i literally cannot get away from these people cause they seem to be wherever i go . i DO NOT DO COMMUNITIES BECAUSE OF THIS .

as a good friend said : it’s like they are a virus that you cannot get rid of .

thats what happens with attention seekers unfortunately , but for the sake of my safety & health , i will not have it on my blog or dash . if i see these people on my dash often , i will unfollow .

and it isn’t like a specific person , its a GROUP of people . which leads me to my next point .

DRAMA / CALLOUTS.

imagine having beef with an individual , and then going around and gatekeeping that individual and getting people to unfollow / block them . im not talking about , ‘ hey this person is vile because they ship incest ’ . i am talking about ‘ i had a disagreement with this person & they hurt my feelings >:/ they are mean and will hurt you . etc etc etc . ’ 

i do not give a flying fuck about somebodies issues with another person . so you guys don’t get along . not my problem . i have people that hate me . i have friends where i hate their friends . shit happens . i am probably absolute scum to some people lol . i get mistaken for other people sometimes . it’s fine , hate me cause you think im that person . that person is snowflake repellent anyway , go choke on your kool aide that you are drinking ig . 

okay sorry i am angry but still . people claim and cry about wanting to talk & communicate . but then . guess what . sometimes shitty people are like , so this person said this to me , and they are mean . IF YOU ARE THE PERSON THAT GOES ‘ OH MY GOD HOW DARE THEY ’ AND BLOCK THEM THEN YOU ARE THE PROBLEM . i will give an example . of using my two names that i have .

somebody goes to amphy and says ‘omg ghost said this , and im frustrated and angry with them cause what he said was uncalled for . ’ if amphy goes ‘ omg ghost is shitty ’ and then unfollows / blocks them without any other discussion , then thats an issue cause ghost has no idea wtf happen . amphy got involved in YOUR relationship with ghost even though ghost has been nothing but kind and sweet to you . you also don’t know if amphy is just victimising or being emotional either . so why they fuck would you believe somebody who is venting to you about it and then block somebody who did literally NOTHING to you .

i dont know if i explained that correctly but i will give you something more realistic , again without namedropping .

i have a few friends that hate one another . i’ve known all of them for years . but they all , i kid you not , they ALL fucking hate each other . there’s three of them . and they cannot stand each other . i just happen to be somebody who gets along with all of them . you bet your ass that at one point , they all came to talk mad shit about the others . what did i do ? i went , oh okay . well im sorry that you have issues with them . sounds like a bad experience , but i can’t do anything about that cause i am not you and i am not them . if you are gonna change my mind , it isn’t gonna happen , sorry !

i have had people shit talk people i have no idea who they are , and i just sit here just being a source for them to vent , but i never NEVER EVER act on anything i hear . why ? cause its petty drama and gossip . if you do that , then damn , sorry kiddo , get some help on that alright ? maybe be nicer . i dunno .

now . racism ? pedophilia ? incest ? HARMFUL SHIT ? that’s different . but again , theres a lot of miscommunication . i have people coming and pulling the cards like they are hot shit  and that isn’t fucking cute . THAT ISN’T CUTE GUYS . you are the problem if you try to victimize yourself cause of something YOU misinterpreted .

i have a friend that has this on their blog .

i am literally going off on a god damn tangent . anyway . :) 

fuck you if drink kool aide .

THERE ARE OTHER MENTAL DISORDERS! YOU ARE ABLEIST IS YOU ERASE THE OTHER (UN)COMMON ONES.

i know that autism is the ‘common’ one here . you are valid okay . but guess what . ADHD , BPD, DiD, and straight up depression and anxiety are also things as well ! there are MANY folks here that are also undiagnosed as well OR they lay on some sort of spectrum as well . I am once again not going to disclose my own things here cause again THAT IS PRIVATE INFO , but fuck you if you refuse to see other disabilities .

also there are physical disabilities as well btw .

if you are not understanding of any other disability , or you wanna mute / deafen other mental disorders , YOU ARE THE FUCKING PROBLEM .

end of story . 

treat other people how you want them to treat you and don’t you dare ever shove your baggage at them . thanks . 

please be more understanding that some people are not okay:tm: . 

i implore you to get help if you need help , but sometimes some people dont have to take your shit . and they most certainly do not need to sit and take your issues if they are not okay either . its toxic and very unhealthy behavior to expect others to help you . they can help you as best as they can , but you need to understand that everybody has their moments . do not guilttrip them . do not gaslight them . 

but also understand that sometimes , people are saying things cause they genuinely need help ! you can be there for them but as a friend , you need to also tell them your own boundaries as well and tell them that they need to seek professional help .

but also , if somebody refuses to get help , then that is on them . not on you . 

anyway another tangent , but back to the point . autism , while you need to understand is something you need to see and understand , is not the only mental disorder ! and you need to understand that some people suffer from really REALLY shitty things and are sometimes undiagnosed . i am really REALLY tired of depression , ADHD , BPD, and DiD getting brushed under the rug like they are not important . cause guess what , there are spectrums ! all mental health is important . fuck you if you disregard the other disorders , you are being ableist .

STOP HATE READING PEOPLE.

im really sick and tired of this . you don’t like something somebody said ? you can either : ask what they meant or block / unfollow them . 

DO NOT FUCKING STALK THEM EITHER . 

you have an obsession if you hover on their blog too .. do not do that . that is SO unhealthy for you . here is what a friend said on twitter . ( not name dropping them , just copy pasting them )

❛ i stg people need to fine a better hobby than to hate read a persons blog or profile. not a good look on you when you go and read what they post about just to get angry at something you think they said and then you go off spewing lies about it cause 'youre offended.'  

like you already hate them in the first place. you weren’t 'looking to see if they were a better person.' youre just looking to find another thing to hate about them. 

that is what hate reading is about. so you can read their posts and find just another reason to hate and laugh at how bad you think they are.

but it doesnt make you a better person. it just makes you a sad person with no life. stop hate reading people. grow tf up. go breathe on some plants or something idk.

i say this very loud and clear . if you hate read me , i live in your head rent free . not my problem . but it does become my problem if you begin to steal shit and start spewing lies about myself or my friends . grow up and move on with your life . sorry my life seems more interesting than you ig . idk .

anway this got long , and at this point i am going off on a tangent but !!!!

TL ; DR

read my rules ig . idk .

you can dm me for more info if you want . at this point i have blocked the problem blogs for myself. if you are curious you can ask . HOWEVER. i am not going to tell you to block or unfollow . why ? cause at the end of the day , it is MY beef . this are my issues . i am NOT here to gatekeep .

i will say that i will tell you IN private the for MY story . but keep in mind that it is MY story . not yours . not theirs . it is all about perception .

my perception is that they are scummy gatekeeping thieves . they gatekeep the people they dont like or are intimidated by . i am somebody who fucking bites and calls people out on their shit , because of this ? i make enemies . but my enemies are not yours . i dont care .  dont give a damn . i am intimidating to people who are cowards and i don’t care . 

if they feel bad when i call them out , if they try to go around and do damage control , then that means they are guilty .

and then you can ask yourself this : why are they reacting like that ?

i am once again going to bring up that other twitter user that i quoted before .

❛  you dont like hearing that because someone is holding a mirror up to you and it makes you uncomfortable because you know you . and you know the parts of you that are good . so in your heart you have to come up with a narrative that makes you feel better about the fact that somebody is asking your to confront the parts about yourself that you hate the most .

anyway . this got long . im so sorry for the long read . im so sorry i sounded hostile ad angry . im just volatile sometimes . im just really tired . and i dont need to come on this blog and have a panic attack . 

anyway . cheers loves ! stay happy , stay healthy . drink your fluids . take your meds !

[retrauxpunk]

sv 6.06

recap post of the penultimate episode of silicon valley under the cut (with spoilers as usual)

this miiiight be a downer post so if you want to avoid that ... this is your warning

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... i think this is the first episode recap post i’m writing that doesn’t start with ‘what the fuck’ because honestly i think i found this episode a bit weird and not ................that good? and MAYBE it’s just because i’ve had a shitty couple days? i’m not totally sure.

but.

I dunno.

I’ll try do this chronologically.

it was a good point of yikes with richard not actually having secured the AT&T deal and just telling his employees that he had because like, that’s a good potential source of conflict. i’m down for that.

i liked when he was talking to AT&T guy and then there’s a cut to dinesh and gilfoyle standing their like shocked parents. dinesh’s expression of ‘WHAT’ ... yeah i like that. also gilfoyle looked especially fine as hell, particularly the hands.

okay.

i 

... gilfoyle using THE AI TO DEBUG CODE? i think this broke my suspension of disbelief. this seems wildly stupid and implausible given, like, gilfoyle’s WHOLE CHARACTER? i don’t really buy that someone who’s as security-conscious and conscientious as he is would, um, DO THIS? please feel free to present counterarguments if you disagree with this (or any other points in this post tbh) because i’m honestly open to hearing them, in fact i would welcome anything that made this episode feel more sense-making and less ‘what the fuck did the show just decide to fire all their tech consultants and throw character out the window?’

LIKE. it’s partly the fact that this seems a bit farfetched on the technological realism front but it’s MORE SO the fact that it just seems so NOT GILFOYLE.

GIVEN THAT FIVE EPISODES AGO HE GOT MAD AT DINESH FOR LETTING THE TWO AIs TALK. HE’S CLEARLY AWARE OF THE RISKS.

and he acts like this cavalier dont give a fuck asshole but i DO NOT BELIEVE that he would risk ALL OF PIED PIPER’S CODE with his AI?????? FUCK what is this!!...?

..............????

okay.

i’m  ............ upset that they seem to have COMPLETELY DITCHED this whole jarrich thing they were building up. i’m NOT saying i’m mad that they’re not canonically a romantic couple. i’m saying that -- shipper goggles completely not in the picture -- the first four episodes built up so much stuff for them, there was SO MUCH about their relationship, and with 6.05 and 6.06 there was just fucking NOTHING. and it just. feels like kinda shitty writing? UNLESS?? in the final episode there’s a lot of richard and jared content to make up for it?

like the first four episodes had so MUCH content about their relationship (jared’s whole generally lovelorn thing, accidentally driving to the hacker hostel, quitting, richard throwing a fit when he quit and watching with this cocktail of sadness and bitterness and anger as jared leaves, their fight at the hacker hostel, JARED BRIEFLY FORGETTING TO BE MAD AT RICHARD AND SMILING DURING THE WHOLE BUYING HOOLI THING, richard apologising and telling jared he missed him, JARED FUCKING CRYING) and then there’s just NOTHING? what the FUCK? IS THIS? it HONESTLY feels like the writers were building up to a big richard and jared moment (whether romantic or platonic, either works) but then that storyline got axed by an executive and they got forced into dropping or something, or they just fucking collectively FORGOT about this whole arc seriously WHAT. IS THIS?????

this is the first time in my life i’ve gotten this level of upset about any tv and i guess, well, whatever they do with the finale, it can’t be as bad as what they did with game of thrones!! (i don’t watch game of thrones or read asoiaf, but it was pretty impossible not to catch wind of that whole clusterfuck) that’s gonna be my source of ......... solace.

so yeah.

for FUCK’s sake. all of jared’s talking about gwart, i just. if that’s meant to be sincere i don’t fucking buy it because no fucking way did jared imprint so hard on a person who was fundamentally a rebound

I’M STILL MAD ABOUT THE LACK OF JARRICH STORYLINE WHAT THE FUCK this is not even a queerbaiting issue THEY HAD A FUCKING STORYLINE TOGETHER AND NOW IT’S VANISHED INTO FUCKING SMOKE WHAT THE FUCK

ALSO DID THEY SERIOUSLY JUST WIPE OUT HOLDEN OFF-SCREEN ARE WE REALLY MEANT TO JUST IMAGINE THAT IN THE GAP BETWEEN EPISODES JARED JUST CONTINUOUSLY EMOTIONALLY ABUSED/HARRASSED HOLDEN INTO QUITTING WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK

honestly when i set out to write this recap i was just like ‘this prob won’t be a long post because all i really have feelings about and want to talk about is the ending of the episode’ but clearly ... that has turned out not to be the case

okay anyway, yeah, i mean, it’s definitely plausible that if richard and jared were to real life people that jared would rejoin pied piper and they’d just simply never address their falling out, right, i mean people are plausibly that emotionally constipated sometimes and don’t communicate in situations where you’d expect them to.

BUT THIS ISN’T REAL LIFE IT’S FUCKING TV and it appears to me rather much like shitty screenwriting when you set up a relationship conflict that’s fucking PACKED with juicy emotional moments and then it DISAPPEARS INTO THIN AIR what the FUCK

jesus christ

okay

anyway.

russfest.

honestly when jared was seeing gwart around i was a bit like, okay if this meant to be a legit hallucination it’s a bit Much because, really, jared being that genuinely devoted to gwart that the breakup with her cut him that much? i’m not buying it 

so i’m glad it turned out to be Not a hallucination

i liked the twist that actually yaonet wasn’t throttling pied piper, pied piper itself just wasn’t good enough. i liked richard breaking down over it. tbh on a subjectively level i found it a bit painful to watch because he really did behave like a toddler and that was a bit, like, second-hand-embarrassment. but i don’t like object to it or anything.

WHY IS THIS SEASON ONLY SEVEN EPISODES.

the fucking speed with which richard breaks down and then magically finds a solution honestly feels way too rushed and unearned.

U N E A R N E D

that is how i feel about the resolution of this episode. like.

okay so if i remember/understand this correctly, richard’s [extremely hand-wavey solution] was to apply his compression algorithm to son of anton which allowed it to become more intelligent and learn faster/better? and that basically FIXED PIED PIPER? he used gilfoyle’s [a tad unrealistically] bitching AI to like ... have pied piper fix itself? 

i barely understand it.

and it’s not like i demand a fully fleshed-out solution, right, like with the middle-out jerkoff epiphany, that wasn’t fleshed out but there was enough detail for it to feel believable. whereas with this ... it did not feel like that. 

yeah the whole thing felt way too rushed.

what even was it? like, gilfoyle was using son of anton on pipernet to debug things ... whereas richard first used his compression algorithm on son of anton, then set son of anton loose on pied piper? okay that makes, like, enough sense that if they poured more time and detail into this, then i’d probably be totally happy accepting this in the storyline and my suspension of disbelief wouldn’t have been fucking skullfucked

but this, just. this pacing. i did not like it. it felt massively unearned because there were, what, a very small number of minutes between when richard finds out his tech is inadequate to when he finds a solution?

GOD THEY COULD’VE MADE THIS SO MUCH BETTER IF THEY’D PUT AN EPISODE BETWEEN PROBLEM AND SOLUTION INSTEAD OF JUST LIKE TWO FUCKING MINUTES

this makes me SO MAD IT GIVES ME THE CONFIDENCE TO THINK I COULD WRITE A BETTER STORY THEN THEY DID? FUCK???????

???

okay like yeah totally possible the writers had constraints outside of their control and they did the best they could. but. i’m still not ... happy with the result lol

anyway yeah i’m fucking cheesed off about how richard gets skullfucked with the inadequacy of his own tech, has a breakdown, and then MERE MINUTES OF SCREENTIME LATER, he has a wild solution that works!

and sure, they had it appear to fail first, which was good. but then it magically was back up and running! and yeah i liked how russ said ‘lights!’ and it turned out that this magical new pied piper had gotten so awesome that it build this new feature for itself or whatever, but, honestly, it happened way too quickly to feel believable or satisfying and i’m mad.

because this show has set a pretty high standard in the past and now it’s been a fucking let-down with this episode. god.

what the fuck is this pacing? it was so good at the beginning of this season!! WHAT IS THIS???

AND IF THE PROBLEM IS TIME

THEN WHY THE FUCK DID THEY HAVE SO MANY PLOTLINES WITH FILLER? THE WHOLE ETHAN CONFLICT. GILFOYLE AND MONICA VS TRACY. GAVIN FUCKING BELSON’S STUPID BOOK DEAL. can you imagine how much better this russfest plotline would’ve been if they’d had MORE TIME from not doing those ultimately unimportant subplots? fuck

i have legitimately worked myself into a rage writing this post. i did not expect to have this many feelings, to this level of intensity.

and it’s fucking frustrating because the bones of an awesome arc are here! the moment when the AT&T guy sees the giant hologram from the plane, that could’ve been actually epic rather than a feeling of ‘i know this is meant to be epic but it just feels totally hollow because they completely fucking compressed the biggest part of this whole episode into five fucking minutes’

and richard’s breakdown where he’s jumping on the laptop, screaming about ‘six years’? god that point would’ve been amazing if there’d been more time to explore it!

on a lighter note, i was amused when richard said he had gilfoyle’s laptop because i was like ‘oh okay it’s nice to know that richard is a l33t enough hax0r that he can get through gilfoyle’s undoubtedly Strong laptop security with [presumably] relative ease’ ... and then it turns out it’s dinesh’s laptop and i’m like, ah, okay, less impressive then XD

...there’s no way that the girls in jian-yang’s ‘coding class’ were stupid enough to believe that writing fake amazon reviews constitutes ‘coding’. not in fucking 2019.

i’m mad.

god this has lowered my expectations of the series finale SO MUCH which i guess may be a good thing because, y’know, there’s less capacity for disappointment now.

IT’S OKAY.

IT’S OKAY.

EVEN IF THE SERIES ENDS ON A SHIT NOTE, WE HAD FIVE AND A HALF SEASONS OF SHOW THAT RANGED FROM FUCKING AMAZING TO NOT AS GOOD BUT STILL ALRIGHT.

and i have a whole imagination’s worth of potential fan content to be created once the show’s over. i don’t know how long this sv love affair will last but i sure fucking intend to keep it alive as long as i can.

on the topic of fan content, if you’re interested in making sv fan stuff and receiving it as a christmas/holiday gift, please consider signing up for the silicon valley secret santa/gift exchange that i’m running :))) the official blog for it is @svexchange2k19 and the sign-up form is here

[fishy-rat]

finally decided to make this post

kabi/kabi-chu is a disgusting whore that gets hot at the thought of her and her friends harming real people over fictional shit

tw violence threats

kabi lets its friends pull this shit too

tw death threats

(this fucker named marven, is the same manchild that whined about being kicked out of a server for being a piece of shit)

no normal human being would write this. a future serial killer writes this. i hope this thing gets put in jail with no chance of ever leaving.

i dont care if you hate fictional incest or age gap or whatever. wishing to harm people, harm minors, over something as minuscule as fiction? that's fucked, and you're fucked. stay off the fucking internet, and go to the nearest pysch ward, so that can lock you there and throw away the key.

tw death threats

first, they are not "diet pedos". stop throwing the word pedo around like its a funny insult. it's a mental disorder, not a insult you can throw at someone.

second: only serial killers write this shit. no sane person would unironically say that. go to jail before you kill someone. Jesus christ.

final set of screenshots;

tw blatant lying and buttkissing

"i just block people and move on with my life!!!"

whats this then

the censored part is "proshipper" btw

the second one literally says "antis dni"!! that means you!! that means "dont post this to your discord so your friends can harrass me"!!! notice how the censor is outside the image border? she didn't!

or maybe this just means that she doesn't see "proshippers" as people....

...makes sense for a white cishet to think that way....probably not redirected racism...

also the bisexual enforcing kabis praise kink... dear god...

anyway fuck these people and ship all of her ocs with the wrong ones, get marven away from everyone and lock it up, and dont idolize jerks like them

[magicspaceuncle]

Ok, Im now done refreshing the lobby coffee bar, lets elaborate

I was converted and baptised into the so-called church of jesus christ of latter day saints at the tender age of, like. 10. Im also AFAB transmasc/nonbinary, a factoid which is relevant to the story

I joined tumblr back in... Oh, 2012 I think? 2011? So when I was roughly 13-14 age, I dunno, my math is bad with time

At first, I was a homestuck ask blog. And then a different character, same blog. And then i gave up and just made it My Blog because I didnt understand the concept of side blogs

And at some point in my teen years, after converting to the normal-ass main blog of chaos yall seem to appreciate (i dont really pay attention to follower count but hey theres a decent amount of you so at least im #Relatable or something) anyway, some time in my early teens, before I realized that Transing One's Gender is an Option, i had a phase where i was Hyper Femme. Possibly i was trying to prove to myself i could be a Good Mormon Girl(tm). Im not sure. But. by all accounts, offline I *was* a pretty decent mormon. I went to church every sunday, i biked through the literal ice before school every morning praying to jesus to keep me warm on my way to seminary, church camp in the summer, being a Good Bringer Of The Word Of Christ to all my friends. You know. Good Evangelical/Culty Christian Stuff because I just didnt know any better and was regurgitating what I was being taught without thinking about it.

I also discovered I was (and am) very bisexual. And my tumblr blog... well. Ive never had a Good Christian Blog. And i never wanted to - the idea of cutting my own interests just to suit someone else's idea of what God wanted from me seemed counter-intuitive. Why would He have made me like this if it wasnt His will I be like this? (This would also be the start of my questioning of my beliefs, but thats a seperate ramble)

Aaaand this particular tangent is ultimately about one year in particular, mid/late high-school, the same year or perhaps year after I realized I was trans. I had spent the entire summer planning and hand-sewing and making my own patterns for an original costume for my younger sibling, we were going to Kumoricon that fall together. And I mean entire summer. And because I wither and die without some form of validation (because I RARELY got any at home that wasnt just Participation Trophy "Validation") I posted pics to my tumblr of the finished outfit

I still stand by my costume work at the time because I put a lot of work in and considering my limited skills and respurces, i think it looked bomb as hell

Anyways, posted it to tumblr

And then, not considering the possible consequences, I posted a link from that post onto my facebook so i wouldnt have to rewrite and repost all the pictures and descriptions

I forgot that, once youve viewed a post, you can simply. Follow the username back to the main blog

Literally within 24 hours I was recieving anon hate in the form of someone harassing me for the UnGodly content on my blog. For my openness about being Bi, and the stirrings of questioning the so-called church's teachings. I didnt respond until they started using my name

My full, legal, deadname. Which not only did I refuse to answer to, but also nobody on Tumblr knows my last OR middle name. Hell, very few people IRL know/knew my middle name. And THEN. They started naming individuals within the so-called church - my bishop, my young women's leader, my old primary teacher - who would be So Ashamed if they saw how filthy and immoral I was being.

At that point i responded to some of the non-personal anon asks, calling them out for harrassing me and reminding them I can do whatever the fuck I want on my blog

And then the motherfucker. Made a temporary email. And emailed a link to my blog to my biological mother, who was also a fairly active member of the so-called church. Along with a short letter describing my UnChristian behaviors, and 'outing' me as queer to her.

Now, luckily, my mother had known about my tumblr since day 1, and she didnt give a shit. Nor did she outwardly care about me being queer (again, thats a seperate rant).

But can you imagine how dangerous that could have been if she HADNT known? If she had been More Mormon? I could have been beated. I could have been kicked out. I could have been killed.

The harrassment stopped shortly after that because my mother responded to the email to the effect of "I already know, its fine, leave my child alone", and I turned off anons for a While

But to this day that always baffles me. Who was that? Clearly someone within the so-called church, must have been in the same ward as me, AND facebook friends. But also

They were on anon. Which means they either already HAD a tumblr OR they made one just to harrass me

Yes, I was at the Devil's Sacrament. But Goody Proctor, *so were you*.

Checkmate I guess?

(Apologies for the words with asterisks, im on mobile and every time I try and delete the asterisks and just italicize the text, those ones grey out and I cant touch anything. Tumblr is a perfectly functional hellsite app and there is no war in Ba Sing Se.)

I used to be Mormon, as a teenager

I made some friends but overall Im *very* glad I got out of the so-called church when I did

But i was just randomly thinking about my mormon days and remembered the STRANGEST occurrence of anon hate

It was wierd and in hindsight absolutely could have put my life in danger holy shit whoever did that was either malicious or just not considering the possible consequences of being nosey

[rilethunder]

There’s some guy in twitter who linked me into this thread and you know what, I’ll just fucking respond to this entire thread point by point.

Can reverse sexism exist?

Yeah but it’s not call “reverse sexism”. That’s just sexism.

Sexism is an INSTITUTION which deprives a class of power and actively harms them. 

No, sexism is a form of bigotry in terms of gender and sex. That’s it, you don’t have to try and expand it further.

Sexual Harrasment is never okay. BUT it cannot constitute sexism against men, for in our current patriarchal society, men have all the power. 

It’s not sexual harassment and therefore cannot be “sexist” against men? You know this is the very same idea the Patriarchy tells men right? They can’t be harassed or abused? Jesus christ this bigotry.

Also “men have all the power” in a country where men are murdered everyday  worked to death for most of the time, yeah right, power of course.

Men cannot be seriously discriminated in the same way women are. If men go topless in public for example, It's perfectly normal and acceptable. But god forbid if women go topless, society feels that it is wrong, and that such behavior constitute consent to be sexually harrased and abused. 

You wokes don’t fucking go outside or anything?

It’s never really acceptable for ANYONE to go topless unless they have very good reasons to do; and even then men who topless also constitute consent to be sexually harrased and abused with simple remarks like “damn that six pack!”, “let me touch those abs/muscles!” “hey give me a hug with that body of yours!”. Hell even getting called “kuya/pogi” can also make men uncomfortable. Men are very pressured in public to accept such gestures “to satisfy guests/audience” so as to not come off as bad or at least unprofessional. So is anything men suffer from such too, but we’re just told to “take in stride”.

This disparity in power is what quells in the statement "Men are Trash." it does not refer to me, you, or my friends specifically. It refers to the SOCIAL CLASS of people whove historically had power over another, anf millenias of abuse and oppression they suffered under us men.

The only social class that I feel that exists is the “rich/poor” which is also the basis of privilege. If you try to describe “men is a social class”, you’re simply using bullshit buzzwords to avoid criticism of generalization. Also, historically? You might wanna check up on that brudda.

I’ll translate:

1st tweet: “ Q.2: "There are men who get harassed."

Yes. Sexual harrassment is not limited to women. All forms of sexual harassment must be condemned.

Well according to you, men “don’t get sexism or sexually harassed” because of your definition of sexism, so clearly you’re talking about women here.

But compare the statistics of sexual violence of men and women. There is a CLEAR and MEASURABLE disparity between cases a 2018 survey showed that 80% of women have been sexually harassed in one form or another. 80 FUCKING PERCENT.

The sentence is “women are sexually harassed” but somehow this was connected to men? What if half of those cases were perpetrated by women? I smell some confirmation bias here.

Also, high chances are these are based on reported cases, which can be a direct result of letting women file their own cases, encouraging women to move forward with the complaints. This isn’t the same as men, and that is because OF YOUR FIRST FUCKING TWEET IN THE THREAD.

When you White Knight so fucking hard you contradict yourself and even make up people like you the reason why there’s little cases of sexual harassment for men. You’re being disingenuous at this point.

it doesn't matter if you dont harass women, a significant number of Men are oppressing and violating women due to the patriarchal institutions that exist in status quo.

That’s one big jump from “women are harassed” when you can’t even confirm yourself what’s the entire reason why they are. Smells like bias at this point.

Men get sexually harassed. I experienced it myself sadly. BUT if the only time you mention men's rights are when feminists and women are creating posts and topics to break down the patriarchy, then you dont care about mens rights. You care about maintaining this sexist culture 

If the first thing you’d say to empower and fight for women’s rights is “men are trash”, then it implies feminism does not give two shits about men and men’s rights.

If the entire talking point of feminism is to “break down the patriarchy” but tell men that their experiences “ are not as bad as women’s”, then I can declare feminism contributes to the patriarchal system.

If your idea of fighting for women’s rights is under the pretense of “rape culture” that trivializes rape victims, then you’re giving off the impression that rape victims ARE YOUR SHIELDS, not your audience.

If there’s anyone who wants to maintain this sexist culture, it’s you fucks, not us.

If you’re telling us men that our experiences are invalidated by experiences of the opposite gender, then I want no part of it. I have far too much self respect and dignity than do that for the sake of “women’s rights”.

I’ll do that on my own, thank you.

If we men truly care about ending this culture of violence, then we must understand and support women in their struggle for liberation.

If you think that sexism is the only problem that contributes to the “culture of violence”, you have oversimplified the problem of this country.

If even WOMEN don’t like your movement, then that says a lot about what your movement is all about.

idk but I’ll ad you guys @siryouarebeingmocked and @someoneintheshadow456 since you guys might add some other stuff in this.

[effervescentmind]

Entry 13: 6/14/19 @3:57 p.m.

I’m once again on the patio at work.

So some things have happened since the last time I wrote. A few days ago, I was at work and greeted a table. The Wife was there first and I guess her husband was parking the car. Anyway, I introduce myself to her and in the middle of getting her drink order, a man puts his arm around my waist and squeezes me against his body from behind. “Hi, how are ya!?” says the smiling man next to me. “Well, that wasnt creepy”, his wife says irritated. I didnt speak, just went to grab the drinks and gave them to a coworker. I asked him to please take my table, that I was uncomfortable with them. He agreed and I continued to care for the rest of my section. I ended up telling my manager and he told me to just get him if anything else happens. Nothing did but later on I was standing in the front, talking with the hostesses and I saw the man walk out the door. His wife was on her way out too and I just felt the need to say something. “ Excuse me ma’am. I think your husband owes me an apology, he made me very uncomfortable’. “I already yelled at him but if you want me to go get him and fucking give you a fucking apology then I’ll fucking do it. Jesus fucking christ!”, she yelled as she rushed out after her husband. I was so angry that I went to the back and refused them when they came inside. She was up there yelling at the hostesses because I refused to come out and demanded that I come up for my apology. I didnt, told the girls to tell her to leave. She did but not after letting everyone know that they were never coming back again. I told my manager what happened and he was more upset that I didnt come get him and started arguing with me about it. He made it about himself because he wanted to yell at them. I hate him, he always wants to be in the middle of drama and hes unprofessional and belittling. I cant believe that I had just been sexual harrassed and he was angry with me because I felt the need to say something. I HAVE A RIGHT TO TALK IF I WANT TO!!! I’M THE FUCKING VICTIM DAMMIT!!!! And didnt I get you from the beginning?? Why didnt you go talk to the table after that?? Smh, I hate him. He also tried to make me feel bad and make a passive-aggressive, half threat about the possibility of corporate recieveing an email from the guests. Like why the fuck is that even a valid argument?? I am the one that was assaulted and we have it on video. Do you honestly think that corporate would fire me for that?? Fuck no! Unless they want a court case on their hands which I would GLADLY go through the trouble of doing. Its just insane that I felt uncomfortable and violated at work and I dont even get any fucking help from management. 

Later on that night, I went home and got ready to hangout with a guy I met and chilled with the night before. He was my lyft driver and really cool but that was short lived. We ended up having sex and he came in me without permission. When I asked him if he had, he said yes and then I got angry with him. I expressed my feelings and how stupid he was and he told me not to worry because he “takes care of all his kids” like???? BITCH I DONT WANT KIDS!!! This wasnt discussed like????? He laughed and argued back a little. “You didn’t even ask me if I was on birth control!”. “ Are you?” I glared at him, “ Don’t fucking ask me now dumbass, buy me a plan b wtf.”. He asked how much, “I don’t know, between 40 and 50 dollars”. “Hell fuck that. Nah. Not doing that sorry.”. I started arguing and he stopped me and said he would do it. Then we laid there in silence. “So you gunna be mad all night cuz I aint tryna be quiet like this all night. Like when you gunna stop being mad”. He was chuckling at me again…I stayed quiet but was cursing him out in my head. I was in disbelief that he was not understanding the level of violation he just put me through and that he had the audacity to tell me to get over it. I was on birth control but he didnt know that and that was a risk that I didnt appreciate. A selfish, stupid risk. Ugh, he made me sick. Such trash. I was going to make him give me 50 for the plan b I didnt need but fuck that. I wanted him out of my bed. I wanted him out of my fucking apartment! “I’m going to get the pill myself”, “ Oh, ok good”. What a piece of shit…he really is a fucking bum. He cant afford to get me a plan b but he can take care of my baby? Smh, such a garbage broke little bitch! “ Yeah, Imma get it and you need to go.” “Oh, for sure” he jumps up, gets dressed and goes to the living room. I put on my clothes, follow and watch him pack. He then angrily asks me if he can have his 20 dollars (I asked him to bring me a little bag of weed and I would pay him for it) and I told him that I had to get the pill and that was the least he could do. With added aggression, “So you keeping the weed or the twenty?”. I wanted to punch him in the face, Man he was a piece of shit. “Take you’re petty ass twenty and leave you broke ass nigga.”. He started arguing about leaving and I told him to get the fuck out that he doesnt get away with violating people and closed the door behind him. 

So, I’ve decided to refrain from boys for a while. I’ve tried to find a fwb but the guys I’ve met have been pathetic and aggrivating, broke bitches and I just don’t have the time or enegry for it. I’ve had two ask me for money like?? Hell nah bye!!!!!!! Ugh, I’m really done. Deleted the dating apps I had and everything. Just going to concentrate on my life, betterment and school. I can’t be living here in Texas longer than I want to and I can’t be stuck at this bullshit ass job that wears me out and doesnt pay enough. I gotta do better and be better. I deserve BETTERRRRRR!!!!

In other news, i paid off my Dade county court fee and turned in all the necessary documents and whatnot. Soon I will have my license back and be able to drive legally and with peace of mind. So, thats something to look forward too :) I also will be starting my one year of classes in September. Things are slowly falling into place and I can only continue to go up from here.