#also been applying to jobs

[koppiki]

I have been on a crpg binge lately; it's not a genre I ever really played before (except for like, disco Elysium or baldur's gate 3 and divinity os 2), but I got into it after someone said it was a "travesty" that I hadn't played pillars of eternity. So, I played pillars of eternity.

That game is REALLY GOOD. Beautifully written, good VA (when it doesn't bug out, which is rare), and a neat story with characters I care about. I think I liked it more than baldur's gate 3-- found the characters a lot more interesting. The turn based -> RTWP took a LONG time to get used to, though. It wasn't enough to rip me off the game, since the beginning was intriguing, and I'm glad I stuck with it. And now that I'm USED to RTWP, I can play other crpgs I hadn't been able to get into before. Right now I'm doing pathfinder wotr, which imo trades a lot of the good writing / intriguing characters for a much deeper mechanical system that I really do quite like... Even if I DESPISE how weak most spellcasters feel early, insofar as "being able to do damage" and not just pure cc mage is concerned. Why should I try to be an ice wizard when wenduag over there with a bow has literally 20x my damage output, twice the accuracy, and no casting limitations?

I restarted the game a bunch of times because of that-- and also spent forever in the character creator for the same reason. I'm at about 80 hours in the game, and I think around 55 of that is purely just reading class descriptions. I'm playing on core difficulty, so it shouldn't matter that much, but the game does encourage minmaxing in a way that really burned into my mind. When I found myself googling stuff about minmaxing, I knew that's when I was too far gone. I hadn't even unlocked mythic classes, why did I care which one was the most "optimal" or "relevant to my ideas"? So what if it changes the outcome of the game? Just play, and whatever happens, happens. I did spoil some stuff for myself (in that, I think half of the fun of these games is discovering new mechanics and spells and such, and I googled some of them) but there's still a lot left to learn. So, I'm starting YET AGAIN (got pissed about my cold witch getting to level EIGHT and still not having a SINGLE interesting ice spell; I know snowball is "good" but I hate how often ranged touch spells miss), this time as a spellcaster that at the very least has a degree of quirk to offset the early game boredom (magic deceiver). My evil playthrough (which was my original plan, on account of me finding the writing very hard to take seriously at first, since if you can't take it seriously may as well ham it up as a stereotypical villain) can come later. there's some cool archetypes there! My dispel-focus-mage can also come later.

[welcometogrouchland]

(ID in alt) I literally said I was gonna post this month's ago and then never had the wherewithal to describe it and so I didn't Lmao (said with pain). But since I'm thinking of opening my commissions I figured I should remind ppl that I. Yknow. Can draw.

Lots of Steph here (I had major art block making all of these and my brain worms for her kept me going) + some sprinkles of stephcass for Cass nation to enjoy!

[foldingfittedsheets]

There is truly no better way to ensure I have a busy sales day than coming in with the intention of sitting at my laptop alone and uninterrupted.

[mohntilyet]

Wait is the middle picture from those three sketches that one scene from the wigmaker job?

yes! it's this specific passage where lucanis is just seething with rage and trying to keep a lid on it, and illario's a stablising, comforting presence. BROTHERS!!!!! <3 though i chose to draw his hand on his shoulder rather than his arm i guess. artistic liberty!

[ddenji]

i really enjoyed this bit of the chapter. two victims of control stand against each other. one of them made it out, certainly not unscathed but still able to find the good in life; the other is still searching for that control, the safe feeling of having no choice and the promises that were made that will never be delivered now. barem acknowledges that he’s still under makima's control, or at least his heart is, which symbolizes a more emotional connection to his relationship with being controlled. he feels robbed that her forced peace never came about. his anger is directed at denji now, the one who ‘got out’, because he’s been living in peace in barems eyes, while having destroyed barems own idea of peace. they are both victims, but denji is the victim who got to move on and barem cannot do that. i just really enjoy looking at part 2 from the angle of "who made it out and who is still trapped by the dreams of a dead woman", because makima does cast a shadow over the whole narrative.

(p.s. i'm not absolving barem of anything, he still sucks, but it would be so absurdly incorrect to me to not acknowledge that the other hybrids are victims of makima too, even if they dont see it that way, and how that affects their character arcs.)

[hygienic-soap-dispenser]

hi!! i hope you are well :)

i was wondering about your finland headcanons? i always feel a little at sea trying to figure him out

Hii hi!! I am doing okay and I'm alive <3

also you're my first headcanons ask, thank you so much! 💖

Ummm I was working on my fin headcanons for a while but few things are really set, so I don't have anything finalized

Anyways, here is a list of what I have so far 💖

Personality and Interests

Fin has an interest in languages and especially in Latin. He is actually fluent in Latin and keeps up with it regularly

He can play the guitar and piano. He is better at the guitar tho

Fin collects free buckets. No you cannot have a bucket

When working out, Fin is someone who almost always prefers strength training to cardio. He’s there to LIFT and it shows in his muscles

Growing up, Fin was self-conscious about his brown eyes. He values them now

In general, Fin has struggled with some body issues in the past because he felt self-conscious or too different from others. But after growing up and maturing, Fin now really values his own individuality and likes standing out from the rest of the Nordics

Nevertheless, there can be a rare nagging voice telling him that he doesn’t look good and needs to blend in more with the group

Honestly, I think Fin has a weird relationship with his own identity?? Growing up he struggled to fit in and now as an adult he doesn’t want to fit in, but it’s also like he’s stuck between two different worlds and can never be truly satisfied

Fin is a surprisingly good dancer

At work, Fin is punctual, methodical, and professional. On the weekends, he is a gremlin and a menace

Fin has a tendency to speed while driving, especially when he’s mad. He has amassed a collection of tickets over the years

Fin claims that he is a good driver, but his tendency to speed says otherwise. Swe doesn’t like being in the car with him because of this reason: he is praying for his life before Fin crashes the car due to his overconfidence

Fin has intimacy and possibly commitment issues

He likes to claim that he is authentic and true to himself, but he is still one self-conscious guy. Honestly, part of me thinks he uses the “I’m authentic” spiel to make up for the fact that he absolutely is not. But that’s for another post

Honestly he sometimes struggles with his sense of masculinity

Fin is an overachiever and by extension a workaholic

He knows how to sail, fish, hunt, survive in the woods, and work with ropes. But out of all of these he’s the worst at sailing

Outdoors and Pets

Fin has a mökki that he likes to disappear to, especially during the summer months or when he is overwhelmed with work. It’s located by a lake and is luckily located near some berry and chanterelle patches

Speaking of patches, these are TOP SECRET!! He will never share their locations with anyone, and if he sees someone picking at his berry bush, he will sic his dog on you

His dog is a white Finnish lapphund and she is adorable and is not scary

Also most of Fin’s pics on his phone and social media are of his dog (understandable)

He takes really good care of her, buys her expensive kibble, and has lots of toys and training days for her. He also likes to take her on hikes

Fin has a big collection of Aku Ankka comics at his mökki

Health

Fin is allergic to perfumes

Also in the last few years he has become gluten-sensitive and has some vague gastrointestinal issues (probably IBS)

He likes to claim that he is tough and illness doesn't bother him, but he actually gets sick easily and regularly. He tries to hide it tho

Appearance

Fin is plump but muscular. He can be your pillow AND help you move in the same day <3

His wardrobe is pretty casual and he dresses for comfort. He has a ton of hoodies and sweatpants in his closet

Fin has a scar on his left shoulder that he got after WWII

Relationships

Fin has a bad habit of disappearing out of people’s lives when he is feeling mentally unwell. He doesn’t want to be a burden to others and bog them down with his own feelings so he self-isolates when he’s sad and can get upset when people don’t reach out to him

In general, Fin just has a bad habit of ghosting. He does this a lot

Fin and Nor like to get together for coffee, winter sports, and talk shit about Sweden (time honoured tradition)

Fin and Estonia send each other cat memes via social media. It’s their love language (me core)

If Fin’s not at his mökki by himself, he’s probably with Swe. The kids love to play with Fin’s dog and in the lake

Fin is good at making friends quickly and being on people’s good side, but it’s very hard for him to TRULY bond or connect with him. A lot of his connections seem superficial and he has trouble getting them to go deeper

He identifies as demisexual, but has struggled with his sexuality in the past, especially regarding his potential attraction to other men. In the past, the thought of him being in love with another man made him ashamed

There are more things that I want to clarify/add in future posts, but I hope these are enough for now <3

[snevinsspn]

dean being older than sam and having experience with an apple pie life “pre-hunting” is so incredibly fundamental to their characters and the way they function (especially in the early seasons) it’s insane.

dean knowing how their family used to be before losing mary and spending his whole life trying to desperately piece it back together because it’s the only good he’s ever had and he romanticizes it even though he knows it wasn't perfect because it’s so good compared to what they have now vs sam knowing nothing but hunting and the family fractured by grief and wanting that same normal life by escaping because he can’t picture his family ever being like that.

like dean trying desperately to stay the loyal soldier to his father and look after sammy and do everything that’s needed of him for his family because he saw how it crumbled and how mary’s death tore them apart vs sam feeling constantly slighted his entire life because he’s never seen his family be a proper family that treats him the way he deserves. he has no history of happy family so he lashes out because he doesn’t feel there’s anything there to preserve. he has no hang ups on telling john how it is because he has no twisted up loyalty to a now broken and dysfunctional family.

it also explains so well how they view hunting and getting out. like sam hates it and wants out so bad because he views hunting as the source of all his family's problems and if they had never started hunting they wouldn't be "like that". he wants out because he believes the only way to be happy and have a good life is to not be a hunter. meanwhile dean knows that their family wasn't perfect before losing mary and starting to hunt ("their marriage wasn't perfect until after she died" and that entire scene show that really well). he knows that really there are problems everywhere and that family is complicated and that the issue lies more with their family than with hunting. he doesn't wish desperately to get out the way sam does because he knows there are problems with life no matter what and the only thing he's ever had in his life that was good was his family so he works so desperately to fix it and keep it together.

like dean looks at their family and says “this used to be so good and its the only good i've ever known and that’s buried here somewhere and i can get back if i’m Good Enough” vs sam saying “this has never been anything but a disaster and will never be anything but a disaster so if i want something perfect i have to leave”

[ferditheas]

What FE3H paired ending do you think is the "weirdest"?

Not in the sense of "I don't think it'd really make sense for these two characters to be important to each others lives", moreso in the "Felix and Leonie become street performers in non-CF endings" way. Or the "Lorenz and Byleth's son always looks identical to Lorenz, but only in Crimson Flower is he allowed to wear a rose" way.

[littlcdarlin]

Omfg I just got a job I applied for in october at my dream design agency. Starting in two months. I’ll move across the country & everything 😭😭😭😭

[comraderoscoes]

watching your friends waste their time with men you can see clearly aren’t shit but like. they gotta figure it out for themselves cus there’s only so many times you can gently say ~ are u sure he’s the right guy for u ~ . feels like teeth being pulled

[stardust948]

Just got an acceptance letter from one of the grad schools I applied to!

[kitchensinksurrealism]

I hate my job button -> 🔴

[ikilledjoedick]

having the stupidest revelation ever (got into a fb fight with my friends transphobic husband death to all jakeys etc and i wrote a three page response with a ton of citations and it made me realize that im wasting my time and potential and passion at my job and i maybe need to reconsider fields or something)

[disastergenius]

my actual favorite thing about every version of Hadestown I've heard is the variety and depth of harmonies and musicality that gets picked up. there's always something new to hear and something interesting happening

[audreythevaliant]

Please please don’t listen to your mind when it plunges you into the depths of despair. It’s lying to you, I promise. Please pray, read some scripture, sing some comfort songs, eat food and drink water, then eat popcorn and drink tea. Take a walk outside in your bare feet and then take a long warm shower. This too shall pass.