#also adam adam seems like the obvious choice here but also adam is ADAM so it feels kind of ooc

[wander-wren]

i’ve found a hole in the market

[hypnos333]

The Garden of Eden

Adam x Angel Reader

Synopsis: You were in the garden alone growing flowers until Adam came and fell in love with you first sight

Warning:Smut

Your palms wrapped into a glowing gold around the rose ready for the flower to grow and it did. Your long hair was flowed around the garden not getting up any time soon to go back to heaven.

You loved earth, the seven days god made it you watched all seven days, to see the beauty of it all.

Little did you know a naked man was peeking behind the tree, observing you, and fascinated with you. He watched as your long hair flowed through the winds and how you eyes were fixated on growing the flower.

“I know you’re back there, Show yourself human” You said without looking up, Adam continued hiding swallowing his pride to correct you. “I’m sorry that a bit rude of me, What’s your name?” You asked him making step out of the tree now standing behind you.

“Adam, What’s yours?” Adam said confidently and pridefully as hum running your hands through the rose.

“My name is ___ I’m am an Angel taking care of Eden” You replied to him with respectfulness and gentleness in your voice. Not even Lilith talk to him like that all she does is sass back at him and just gives out a full attitude but you were different. You were submissive and you always seem to listen with pretending too.

“Why do you want to work here? Or were you forced to-“Oh heavens no, this is all by choice I pleaded God to let me even step foot here” You interrupted him

He nodded standing there awkwardly before you turned to him gesturing him to sit next to you.

“Lemme show you something” You said as he sat down, you took his hands into yours then you put your hands on top of his before wrapping it around another dying flower this time it was a Sunflower.

His hands glowed a golden as it heals the flower. When it was over his face was full of disbelief and shock you didn’t pull your hands away and neither did he. “What the fuck did I just do” He said making you chuckle and his cursing.

“Well you healed a flower of course” You said stating the obvious.

“Ohhh well fuck me” He mumbles to himself making you playfully push him finally letting go of his hand, Adam was a little disappointed but ignored the feeling anyways.

He laid down on the grass making you follow suit as you both continued getting to know each other.

Days past and before you knew it Lilith and Lucifer got banished to hell, so God gave Adam a new wife but before he even gotten a new wife there was a secret that you both will forever keep.

Moans could be heard throughout both your secret spot as his dick abused your cunt in and out multiple times. You were moaning against his ear as he fucked you against a tree. “A-Ah Adam f-faster” You moaned out making his thrust faster as one of his hand moves to squeeze your breasts making Moan louder. “F-Fuck I might as well milk my cum into you and fuck you a baby angel” He whispers into your ear as you moan even louder at that. “Yes Adam fuck a baby into me” You moan out and that when he cummed deep into your pussy making it leak

Yeah but since Adam and Eve as a new wife you both can’t secretly fuck anymore, it goes against the bible and when Adam fucked Eve you haven’t talked to him when he had three children and got banished of Eden for trusting Eve and eating the apple.

You were also pregnant so you could definitely not see him anymore.

Later you gave birth to beautiful boy, Isaac a name fit for an Angel when he was two that’s when Adam died.

A baby Giggling could be heard coming out of your house, Adam was nervous to see you and maybe thought you moved on to someone else. But he had to at least try and make it seem like he’s a pussy. So he knocked it took few minutes but then when you opened the door he was shocked.

It was you as beautiful as ever but holding a baby angel who had his hair and skin complexion, but your eyes and smile. “It’s either you fucked someone who looked like me or that baby is mine” He stated bluntly making you roll your eyes.

“Lemme put him down for a nap, come in if you want” You said opening the door wider for him making him come in and close your door as you went to put Issac in his crib.

“What’s his name?” Adam asked realizing the baby was actually his.

“His name is Issac” You said simply before sitting on the couch across from him. Making Adam move to sit next to you and pull you on his lap.

“Why were you so far away from?” He whispered in your ear before kissing and sucking your neck making you moan quietly. “A-Adam the baby is in the other room” You said as he slid his hands into your dress groping your breasts.

“He’s sleeping anyways” Adam stated bluntly making you thankful that Issac is a deep sleeper. Next you knew your bouncing on Adams thick cock, cum thirsty, Your moans were loud as the skin clapping of you bouncing on his dick naked.

Adam was squeezing both your breasts as you bounce “Yes take as much as you want you dirty whore” He said before he grabbed your hips thrusting even faster. As you almost scream at the pleasure you came hard at the same time Adam came inside you again.

You laid tiredly on his shoulder as he put you to bed but then the baby started crying making him rush to Issac to see reaching out to his binkie on the counter. Adam gave him the pacifier making Issac put it in his mouth before smiling at Adam one more time before falling asleep.

That is definitely yours and his child

[mirroredmemoriez]

John Kramer and The Denlon's

Cracks everything in my body. It's time to yap. I keep going on in many posts about the fact John is just as flawed as those he tries to ''better'', so I want to go over one of my main comparisons in a tad more depth than I have before. John Kramer and Jeff Denlon honestly are very similar when it comes to their backstory and need for revenge due to grief. Even though John always states that he tests people so they become grateful for being alive- It's very obvious in some cases, he's doing it for his own type of gratification too. For example, Cecil Adams who caused Jill Tuck to miscarry and then Cecilia Pederson who scammed John. He didn't put these people in traps just because of his philosophy, but because they were also very ''close to home'' for him.

The loss of a child is very integral to both John and Jeff's character. Both of these men crave justice.... However, the way they want it and how they achieve it isn't exactly the most healthy thing. It leads both of them to neglect their partners, Jill and Lynn. (Just took a break to eat leftover spaghetti I am legit lost in the sauce- I don't plan out these little rants I do, so I just go where rambling takes me.) When it comes to the major differences between them, Jeff is more rage fuelled, at least in how he carries himself. His anger manifests more verbally and physically than John- Which is his downfall, alongside him not listening or acting when needed. This is a bit of a reach, but another thought nonetheless and nothing I say needs to be something I'm 100% on anyway. Danica Scott, the only other witness to Dylan's death didn't cause Jeff's son's demise, however her lack of action and fleeing the scene made her someone Jeff would want to take revenge upon anyway.

Amanda, although she had more involvement with Gideon's death, seeing as she was the one to convince Cecil to rob the clinic, didn't take physical action either. However, outside of her just being a drug addict- It is debated whether or not John always knew about her role in Jill Tuck's miscarriage, another reason for her to be tested.

We've also got basic comparisons such as the fact Jill and Lynn are both in the medical field and having mentioned Lynn again? Her demeanour is more like John than anybody else I have brought up in this post I'd say- I can't really word well why I think that, but it's there anyway. (Another thing to add is how in Saw 3, John in his delirious state starts getting confused and thinking Lynn is Jill.)

Might as well slip some others thoughts in here too whilst I'm fucking rambling this much- I don't have too many complex thoughts on Jeff Denlon I guess, I basically seem him as an example within the Saw universe about a person who cannot let go enough that it results in his trauma and vengeance taking over his life and ending it too. He's not a evil or terrible man, just very flawed. He had some of the physically easiest traps in the franchise to complete, but because he never made an effort to heal and instead remained stagnant within his grief... He takes too long to take action and morally flip flops all over the place when it comes to what decision he'll make- It's that or he doesn't assess the long term consequences of things such as never forgiving. I personally don't think he ever has to forgive someone like Timothy Young- However, I do believe he let's it impact his life and those around him too much. Corbett didn't deserve the neglect she faced and she herself is a child grieving her sibling. Grief and forgiveness are very hard topics to navigate, but I honestly as a viewer felt the most bad for Corbett more so than Jeff or even Lynn. Coming back to Lynn, I believe she ''learnt'' the most or at least came to terms with things faster within her trap than Jeff. She didn't have time to dwell or not be fast paced with her choices, because her life was connected to John's. She was doing her best not only to stay alive, but to get back to her family even if it was dysfunctional. (Me when I come back to this in my drafts weeks later, time to attempt to find the wave length I was on whilst doing this before.) It's an interesting though to picture different people in other traps. For example, if Lynn was going through Jeff's test. Would she have reacted faster than him and made clear cut decisions? Could she forgive? Jeff is no medical professional and his rage wouldn't let him care for John to the best of his ability so we know he'd fumble that, which is why I'm more so focused on Lynn in his test. Lynn's grief is more ''subtle'' compared to Jeff's and as an audience it's hard to pinpoint what her thoughts and opinions of those involved with her sons death would've been. She turned to antidepressants and her fractured marriage led her to having an affair, not to mention the child neglect. But when it comes down to it, we don't see as much as a drive for revenge and justice within Lynn as we do Jeff. This would mainly come down to screen time, setting and general context but it's an interesting thought of how she'd handle someone like Danica or Timothy if they were right in front of her.

This is why I say she learnt the most from her test compared to Jeff in his? After everything she went through with Amanda constantly up her ass and power drilling through a guys skull- All Lynn wanted was to reunite with her family. Like, the only time we see Lynn exert full physical violence is in a deleted scene where she attacks Amanda.... And even then that is because she wants the key for her collar more so than a drive to murder the other woman. On all accounts, she actually won that scuffle as well.

But then for example Jeff when he finally encounters John? He just can't help himself! Lynn literally is on the floor bleeding out, reaching for him not to leave and this man just can't NOT go and fulfil his need for vengeance. He'd literally just acted upon it before too by shooting Amanda, though that is more understandable giving the context of the fact she shot Lynn..... I think overall this is why so many people dislike Jeff but they just can't word it? Like he's been dubbed ''slow ass motherfucking Jeff''- But it's not really the speed of execution, it's either the lack of long term critical thinking and or the fact he's indecisive? Jeff doesn't have the weight of a contraption around his neck and or his life truly on the line like his wife.... However, somehow Lynn is still managing her test better than him with a freaky little lesbian on her ass and doing backhouse brain surgery on some random old dude with a fucking power drill. I'll also bring up the fact that like John and Jeff, Mark Hoffman has a pretty similar drive and motive to the both of these men. Just like how Jeff saw his sons death, Mark saw the aftermath of his sisters murder for example. All three of them feel justified in their actions against those who have wronged them and etc....

And as I always bring up in character studies like these, the perceptions from the audience are so interesting- Especially when you start comparing characters. It will come as no surprise when I say, I am a pretty active Tumblr user... Through this? The interactions with media and popularity of characters from Saw on this platform are decently clear. First I'll get it out the way that screen time plays a big role in making characters fan favourites. Although, Adam is a subversion to this as he's only in one movie (alive) and likely the most popular Saw character- Anyway! Using John, Jeff and Mark as examples here still... As previously stated, these three men can be considered quite alike in some aspects! But our perceptions of them are quite different due to how they're presented and what we know about them. John is an older sickly man, his life being cut short by the fact he has terminal cancer. His wife miscarries and later on then becomes ex-wife and then also somewhere down the line he gets scammed by a fake cancer treatment....All in all? Dude's kinda got fucked over. But what I haven't mentioned yet in this brief is the fact that whilst most of this is going on, peepaw is designing elaborate death traps and testing people in them slash indoctrinating some into his fuckass ideology! He as a character get's quite a neutral response and or a 50/50 split? He's Jigsaw, the face of the franchise.... There is a decent amount to discuss in regards to him. However, when it all comes down to it it I wouldn’t say he’s favoured as much as other characters.

Moving to Jeff, he witnessed his own son get killed in a hit and run and the grief and injustice of that basically made him spiral into neglecting himself but also his family. He cannot move forward from the loss of Dylan and this is why during his test he is so slow to act- I think one thing to mention here too, is this is something John likely accounted for. Jeff’s test is designed for him and the challenge isn’t that of " OH CUT YOU ARM” it’s for him to overcome his grief and to choose whether to forgive or let those involved with Dylan’s passing die. It’s easy for us as viewers behind the screen to think that he could’ve done almost everything faster. But we’re not Jeff. It’s shown time and time again mentally he just cannot move on and the only reason he is making progress though the test is due to its nature, average therapy? Jeff just wouldn’t go because he refuses to confront HIMSELF in regards to his own grief and would rather wallow in fantasies of revenge.

Mark Hoffman? Obviously the case I’ll bring up with him is that of his sister's murder. Angelina is his only close relative, with no other mention of Mark’s family in the franchise really. So, when she is killed in a case of domestic violence and he also sees her dead body? Yeah, that’s certainly the kind of thing to fuck someone up mentally. Which is why Mark then developed a drinking problem to cope and started to display more erratic behaviour such as shooting a man three times who’d actually surrendered beforehand…. By the time Seth Baxter his sister's killer is released from prison via a technicality- Mark has no quarrels with taking his revenge via abducting him and placing him in a Jigsaw like trap. However, as we all know, this trap is by no means escapable and is only being used by Mark as a scapegoat to get away with murdering Seth. This act then kickstarts his life as an apprentice for John when he himself is abducted.

(I legit forgot this was in my drafts- Months later. I’ll post this now even if it’s not really complete…)

[snownorites]

Some disjointed thoughts on Sua and her sister that I had yesterday cause I've seen some people on twt being really adamant that Sua was in the "loved before anakt" category and I don't think that's what the point of Heavenly Garden is personally

For one, I don’t think she's actually looking out for Sua here. (using WhataFruit's translation)

I think her intention was to make Sua feel bad about herself. The word choice is extremely deliberate: "you're so unkempt" "that is unseemly" "you're already dumb enough as it is". That last one is obvious but those first two I think are super important to understanding the kind of competitive environment "being" a doll must have fostered. She's trying to put Sua "in her place" here and make her feel like she doesn't actually deserve any of the favouritism Nigeh gives her because she's "stupid" and can't even play her part properly.

And Sua has every reason to believe what her sister tells her. Outside of her cruelty she's so nice, so gentle, she even plays with her and tickles her. Ofc Sua would assume that she has the best intentions and to me that's the point of why her sister acts that way. It's not about affection or love really, it's something closer to bullying. This way every insult, every instance of belittling however small stays with her and hurts her. Her pity of Sua may be "genuine" but it seems to be more mocking? Saying that she loved Sua to me feels a bit like buying into the performance.

The framing of the comic to me is also very interesting because the contrast between Mizi and Sua's sister is telling us that we need to consider their affects on Sua in relation with each other. Sua did not feel loved before she met Mizi.

Her saying this is supposed to show that her sister was all she ever knew in terms of human connection. "Back then" as in before meeting Mizi.

Sua thinks that her sister was actually the pitiful one all along but something really interesting is that it's not because she finally found self worth or because she knows that her sister was wrong about her being unkempt or "stupid", it goes right back to love. Her sister is pitiful because she didn't know love.

That heavenly garden, Mizi, loving and being loved. If Sua felt love before anakt I don't really see why it'd be framed like this.

And the thing is that love is a super big theme in Alien Stage. You could very well argue that this is just how her sister shows love and since we don't have her pov the way that we do Io's or Ivan's there's absolutely no way to refute that the same way there's no way to prove that. But to me including Sua in the same category as Mizi and now Till feels really disingenuous. Mizi and Till felt loved before anakt and carried forward that love in all their actions. Sua did not and her actions reflect that.

I think that Sua's feelings of self hatred are a pretty important thing to also consider when analysing anything to do with her (and I'll probably have to do a seperate post about that because this is already so fucking long lmao) People don't pay enough attention to this and how a lot of it comes from the bullying she experienced

Before Mizi, Sua was objectified by everyone around her, humans and segyein alike. And maybe her sister was different and we'll see that in another comic but to me heavenly garden's intention is to reinforce that this bullying wasn't just the very overt kind that's shown above. Like with the new Till comic, all the material we get builds onto each other, Heavenly Garden gives context to just how sinister the bullying was.

And I don't say all this to say that people are wrong about her sister potentially loving her, maybe she did, but Sua did not feel loved or experience that love. It's weird that I'm seeing more justification and rationalisation of her sister's behaviour than people actually taking Sua's narrative into consideration and trying to understand how her sister fits into it.

[secretagentsloveblogs]

hi i wanna talk about symbolism in the redacted audio universe uhhhhh don't read this if u don't wanna read about religious themes, climate change, or abortion rights

LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO kk anyways:

the inversion seems to be their version of covid. david's role of putting up a ward and locking people inside feels representative of the lockdowns we experienced in 2020 (i'm not comparing the efficacy or efficiency of the lockdowns or the ward, this is purely about the symbolism).

the meridian seems to symbolize mother earth and the resources we 'punch through' or we waste at a rapid rate. (i swear avior was the one who described it like such). this makes me think it symbolizes climate change. the rain is progressively getting worse, and because of the imperium, we know it's because the meridian is, in layman's terms, dying. so... the more rain we hear, the worse the meridian is doing.

hush/avior/vega are fountains religious symbolism. holy shit. where do i start.

avior and hush being brothers doesn't deter me from thinking this could be an adam and eve scenario, in which avior is to adam as hush is to eve. but then, i realized it may be more applicable to think this is a mother mary/jesus retelling. avior is mother mary in this scenario, and hush would be jesus.

i can't tell if vega is a fallen angel, an/or the antichrist, or if he's going to take hush's place in his task and sacrifice himself for the greater good (which .... sounds like someone dying for my sins but whatever maybe im making it up)

avior hating hush and wanting nothing to do with him COULD be loose commentary on abortion rights as he wants nothing to do with hush, despite him being the 'vessel' (awful wording im sorry) USED to bring him here. (WHICH IS EVEN MORE INSANE WHEN YOU THINK THAT THE SOVEREIGNS MADE HIM DO THAT. HE HAD NO CHOICE). (but i'm aware that u have to forget the fact that they're 'brothers' for this to make sense. like i said. loose commentary).

i need to refresh my knowledge on it before i definitively say or believe this, but the cacophony could be a world war. i think the destruction vega talks about if the sovereigns were set free is meant to be an allegory for armageddon.

sunshine is a prophet lowkey like their communication w brachium???? idkkkk mannnnn (/j) ... (/srs) (but also, we know that daemons can get lost or lose themselves so maybe serenity daemon brachium and empathy daemon regulus and (almost) caelum are representations of fallen angels at different states of 'fallen').

......anyways :D these are only scraping the surface of all the symbolism 😭 there is literally SO much more to find (and i will find it, erik. ill make it up if i have too). these things could have been obvious tho so maybe im late to the game. (i also don't believe all these were intentional lol, and i could be wrong. just wanted to share the things i thought were interesting<3)

[showtoonzfan]

Also yeah this new Hazbin cast is not it man. I’m sorry. Most of them either sound flat, don’t fit with the character design, or are just not as good as the original. Angel and Alastor I especially don’t like, Alastor sounds so nasally and Amari just can’t top Bosco’s performance, with Bosco not only was he good but when Alastor was threatening, he SOUNDED threatening. I may have made fun of Al’s design, but Bosco’s voice is what made the character interesting and threatening for me. With Amari’s voice he just sounds beyond silly and I can’t take him seriously.

Blake Roman is literally just intimidating Kovach, except this time Angel just sounds forced and awkward. It makes you wonder why Viv just didn’t get Kovach back since it’s obvious she wanted to find someone so similar to him, and then you realize…oh yeah, Kovach wasn’t on Broadway or is a big singer. Micheal was really good at what he did as Angel too as everyone has already said so Viv fumbled the bag SO hard with these two it’s sad. I’m especially pissed about Alastor cause Bosco was the reason he was my favorite character and now he sounds so cringe.

Husk and Vox are played by two very talented actors/singers but their voices just don’t fit with the character design, though I’m not that against Christain Borle as Vox, the voice doesn’t fit the twink design but at the very least they got a man who sounds like a full grown adult playing a full grown adult lmao. Husk is a different story however, because it feels like Keith was picked to play him just because he was famous and nothing else. Back in the pilot, Viv had a specific voice in mind for Husk and she found it, aka Mick. He perfectly came off as an old washed up grumpy alcoholic, and Keith’s voice kinda just…erases all that personality. Sure Keith’s voice sounds cool but that’s it, it’s style over substance.

I wish I could say more about Charlie and Vaggie but I’m not sure what to say other then they kinda sound forced and awkward too, and I hate saying that cause they’re also played by two very talented actresses. Stephanie B played Mirabel from Encanto, she’s had voice acting experience before so I hope she ends up sounding good in the actual show. Erika meanwhile…I hate to say this but other than her singing voice there’s nothing really special about her as Charlie compared to Jill Harris, though even with Jill I never felt any strong feelings towards her performance.

Adam meanwhile, dear GOD I was right about him looking bad in animation form, his design sucks so fucking much. Fans were right, that’s Alex Brightman’s voice, he seems to be using his normal voice but just a tad deeper. He’s the only one who’s a fine choice, though I really wish we got to hear him as Pentious here!

But yeah in terms of the voice cast I’m just disappointed man, really disappointed. It makes you really realize how talented the pilot cast was. They were so good cause they were all chosen for a reason that wasn’t just “they’re famous” and it fucking sucks how bad Viv fumbled everything.

[swimming-karyss]

Hello, what are your thoughts on Monkey D. Dragon's relationship to Luffy? Specifically, Dragon's views and emotions towards Luffy. It would be pretty sweet if Dragon also saw Sabo as his other son.

yippee, that's something I wanted to talk about for a while! (but was too lazy to)

It's obvious that Dragon really loves Luffy, and even if leaving him was his own choice, he does seem to be torn about it, going as far as visiting him discreetly (thus risking being found out) he smiles the most when it comes to Luffy.

Now it's a bit more complicated with Sabo. (Also I usually ignore anime-only stuff, like his flashback, bc I can't access it easily, 1000 eps and such lol) First, Dragon was the first adult (safe for Dadan) who took Sabo's words seriously. And Dragon felt a sense of connection, as Sabo had similar worries and experiences as he did. Dragon even promised to never forget that event. Though Sabo was the one to forget about it, and Dragon didn't seem to recognise? him. So that development was stalled for a while. Now it's hard to say how close they were pre-ts. It's noteworthy that Dragon didn't push Sabo on any path (unlike certain someones *cough*outlook*cough*garp), joining RA was Sabo's choice (pic.1 ).

Dragon clearly cherishes Sabo (and Koala too!!) he's very proud of them, he even wanted to 'show them off' to Kuma! It seems like their relationship is more of a mentor-pupil than that of a subordinate w superior. In post-ts it's also made apparent by Sabo freely chatting w him, talking his ears off even, about Luffy. (tho tbh one could argue that it's because it was about Luffy, Dragon's son, rather than something Sabo does regularly) Also a little something I've noticed: Dragon's the only one who doesn't reprimand Sabo when he's acting silly (pic. 2) Even though Dragon treats war really seriously (he even disapproves celebrating victories during wartime because all of them come at a cost), and they talk about starting a war with Celestial Dragons literally the next page! You can't say there isn't even a little bit of special treatment here X) But it is necessary to remember, that no matter how much Dragon cherishes Sabo, he's still adamant about his priorities: he will put his principles before his personal relationships (pic. 3). (That's also kinda the reason he had to forgo raising Luffy...) And tbh I wonder if that will ever come up again in the story...

And now my favourite part! ^^ Did you know that Luffy made Dragon's life better just by existing? After their relation was revealed: his subordinates started to see him more as a person, a human, rather than a mysterious revolutionary leader. His relationship w Sabo also undoubtedly got better as they've got a personal connection - Luffy - rather that professional. Plus as a cherry on top they've got to meet Niko Robin. A valuable ally and a dear friend! (●'◡'●)

[lnkedmyheart]

can you name every time in which dazai has expressed care for chuuya?

Sure, I can try. Dazai has a unique brand of care and it shows less as the more obvious show of affection and more as an interest in people. Lets go chronologically

Dazai's irritation at the meeting with the sheep in 15. He has imo already started his own weird bonding ritual with Chuuya by that point and wants him as his personal friend, his dog in Dazai lingo cause he is a moron. He gets irked at the way Shirase, and by extension the sheep, make demands of Chuuya. That being said, this is still early and he more or less just uses this info to exploit for later.

Dazai's fascination from the GSS squad vs Chuuya fight develops into Dazai wanting to keep living. And I think that is some kind of care because Dazai legit is vibing with the guy by this point. Him wanting Chuuya to be assigned to him and not Koyou and printing out newsletters about him etc all seem to point towards some weird way of wanting to be on talking terms with him.

In stormbringer Dazai carrying Chuuya all the way across the city to the Old World so he can see Albatross and hear his final words is very important to me.

Dazai's growing agitation at them not getting to Chuuya in time during his capture. Its not as noticeable but he was uncharacteristically insistent.

Dazai's insistence on Chuuya's humanity in general.

Dazai's entire plan in sb was so he could get his hands on details about Chuuya. Like he flat out admits that Mori and the mafia dont really matter to him here and Chuuya even understands that.

That one scene when Guivre first appears and Dazai whispers to Chuuya to not look. An underrated scene imo.

The very well known scene where Dazai gives Chuuya a genuine choice and was willing to put the entire city at risk because he believes Chuuya has a right to his humanity and past. Also him explicitly laying out everything in front of Chuuya.

Obviously him catching him as he fell and holding him or whatever. But also another underrated scene where when Chuuya feels lost at the care shown to his person by Adam in the epilogue Dazai has the softest most fond reaction.

In the day I picked up Dazai he talks about Chuuya to Oda. I think its cute.

Onto dragon head now: Dazai completely flipping from completely unbothered about the war to deciding enough was enough when Chuuya calls him out with a punch and is genuinely mad at him. He is very subdued throughout the manga panels. He doesn't evem tease him. Him quietly accepting that Chuuya needs to use corruption and despite him telling Dazai not to stop him he nullifies corruption by touching his face and then letting him rest on his lap and even puts his hat on his head. Hell Dazai's entire perception of events changes because of Chuuya, from making light of the colonel's death to angrily telling Shibusawa that he had crossed a line with that act. Also Dazai's "get shot and die" line is explained to be a code warning Chuuya of an incoming grenade.

Onto the manga timeline: Dazai is generally far nicer and more civil with Chuuya than any of the mafia members post defection. He gives Chuuya a choice with Lovecraft again, he is very gentle with Chuuya when nullifying corruption, not letting go of him till he knows Chuuya would be able to handle his own weight unlike with say Atsushi. He folds his clothes and brings his hat back. Note that the hat is very important to Chuuya.

Dead apple has Dazai's face when he touches Chuuya to nullify him and then holding him down post corruption. And the sheer trust he has in a Chuuya to follow through on a plan that was never discussed. And Chuuya's hat magically appearing in his line of sight when he leaves. Also you can't tell me he doesnt care when he makes that face.

Dazai's anger at Fyodor bringing Chuuya to Meursault is self explanatory, his bond being questioned is too but particularly his whole speech in 101 where he starts thinking back on their moments is proof enough that he genuinely cares about Chuuya in some weird obsessive way.

[fandomluver-101]

The gaming dichotomy of me vs Steve continues with Lies of P (hehe, I made a rhyme)

As always, spoilers for Lies of P

I have finished two playthroughs and can now unblock the tags (I was avoiding spoilers).

Lies of P has a humanity mechanic, which is dope af but not obvious at first (going in completely blind). Humanity increases with various lies, it's shown through P's growing hair, the etext changes post lie ("your heart pounds"). Like, me and Steve both went in thinking "okay, lie-truth morality meter." But I noticed the change in text and P's hair - he didn't, not really. I noticed the noises from dodging and heavy weapons - he didn't. Humanity, not lie vs truth.

I lied. A lot. Like, a lot of the situations where you get the lie or truth option just made me feel bad. Lady wants her baby, baby is a doll, lie because she's already unstable af. Man wants his puppet wife's ring, lie to save his feelings. Lied to get into the hotel at the start, it's a must. I didn't lie to Alidoro, but I did to Simon (hoping to avoid a fight) I lied to Eugenie, I lied to Belle, I lied to Venigni, I lied to The Atoned (again, hoping to avoid a fight).

And despite lying so much, I got the best ending on my first run, which is such a stark change from what you'd expect of modern media (be true and honest seems to be everywhere lately - but Lies of P said nope, that's not always the right or best choice). P doesn't give up his heart, refused to quit (I died forty times, we both kept a counter - of my sixty-five deaths, most came from that one boss I wasn't dodging and squinting at to try and read puppet text, what the fuck), shed a tear for Geppetto, and saved Sophia.

Steve didn't lie all that much. Like, he played it being as honest as possible because he was adamant about getting the best ending and well... He didn't get it. He didn't even get the option to get the good ending, P got his heart ripped out and Geppetto and Carlo kill everyone. He's still fuming right now and said, and I quote - "Telling the truth is supposed to be the right thing in games, why am I being punished the one time I don't lie?"

Also the part where Steve didn't find out Geppetto was the cause of everything until it was told to him. And I'm over here raging at the damn puppet show and purposefully dying thrice to see if that does something (it doesn't).

Side tangent, I really wish there was an option in NG+ to not reject the King of Puppets / Romeo. Even on my first run, I didn't want to fight him after seeing the puppet show because Geppetto takes your heart out! I went in blind af, but the moment I saw that I was like "nope, nope, nope" and then when P smacks the King's hand away, I screamed "no, take his hand, why can't I take his hand!" I've played enough games like this to know the bs was coming 😤

But yeah, I'm exited for a second game (it's Dorothy!) and I'm gonna likely be replaying this game for the next few days off. Steve is still raging lol

[ohthethingswedoforlove]

imagine a real cowboy/cowgirl(/idk the nonbinary term for it im sorry) falls to the underground after clover (idk they could be a family member or neighbor of clover lol idc I just want someone from the surface to be concerned for clover's disappearanse) and Starlo meets them and hes sosoo excited to show em around but the cowthem just wants to find their kid an neither Starlo nor the gang knows how to tell them the kid is fucking DEAD now LMAOO

Ohh Starlo request, fun fun! Also, I feel like I need to personally thank you for adding 'cowthem' to my vocabulary lmaoo I think that cowpoke is the closest thing to a gender neutral cowboy term haha

This takes the tone of the reader being related to Clover, in an older family member way. Perhaps an older sibling, parent, aunt/uncle; your choice.

Warnings: yandere character; mentions of death; imprisonment;

  Well, this is awkward, huh. And here Starlo thought he could have a break.

  He was both excited and wary of your appearance in the Underground. After all, Clover left such an impact down here, and a new human showing up while the wound is still so fresh is bound to feel...Dividing.

  It was clear you came on a mission, however. You wasted no time in trekking through the Underground, always pinpointed in your search for Clover. Never discouraged even with every monster you come across seemingly knowing exactly who they are but having no idea where they went, always with a certain wistfulness in their tone, and a 'Oh, there's two of them now?' reaction.

  Starlo would be lying if he said he wasn't starstruck when he first saw you. You look and act strikingly similar to those humans he spent years idolising and mimicking, even more than Clover themselves. To the point he thought you had indeed walked right out of one of his old western movies he holds so dear.

  But a human. Right now. Right after...Everything that happened?

  And you- Oh, why, why, why did it have to be one that reminded him of Clover so?

  His fascination still spoke louder, though, and he just had to welcome you to his town. Even with the rest of the gang, along with Ceroba from the sidelines, bordering on being horrified at your resemblance to Clover.

  Unfortunately for him, however, he can't ignore how much you do remind him of them. Aside from the obvious resemblance, it's also the strong resilience to try to do what's right, the stubbornness, the kindness, the whole getup even. You're not them, obviously, he doesn't see you as such, but...His heart is still soft.

  He refuses to tell you what happened to the kid. He talks of them like they're a hero, like he was their mentor and that he was so endlessly proud of them. All truths on those parts, to be fair, but he just can't seem to tell you where they went. Clover is very adamant about their goal, once they got their mind set on something, it's hard to stop them! Surely, you know this too? Then, you don't have to worry, right? They...Did their best, he vaguely tries to reassure you.

  He also tries to keep the others at an arm's length from you. Refusing to let them near you long enough for any of them to have a moment to tell or even just hint of what happened, monopolising almost all of your time. He'll pull them aside too, confronting them with a strange coldness in his tone while telling them that it'd be cruel to let you know. If it felt awful for them, can't they imagine how it'll feel for you?

  But can't he imagine how cruel it is what he's doing to you?

  Nevermind the fights he starts to have with Ceroba, someone who's by now unfortunately familiar with the pain of losing a child and who would be the better person to help you.

  Instead, he keeps pulling you along with him, hoping that he can keep you distracted and entertained enough for you to want to stick around. He...Wants you to stick around. So, so much.

  But he knows what he has to do.

  You have to know the truth, eventually, both about what happened to Clover and, well. What has to happen to you in return. 

  But he doesn't want to.

  Is it selfish? Does he care? He already lost a friend, so recently and so cruelly, on top of everything else that happened. It was for the better, for the future of the Underground, sure. But he still lost a friend. 

  You don't have to suffer the same fate, right? Clover, ultimately, chose theirs. For as much as he and the others wished for a different way, it was their choice. But you don't have to know. You don't have to make that same choice.

  So what if more human souls are necessary to break the barrier, so what if it's for the better? Other humans will surely fall down after you, he can't have you be the next one for the slaughter, whether you'd walk into it willingly or not.

  He couldn't protect Clover, but now he'll protect you.

[mistermalaprop]

@deadangelcat alright here is Crosshairs and RID Drift- have fun :,)

(Crosshairs Stranded AU Oneshot; Based on S1 E12 of RID15. This was written back in mid 2024.)

—

“Still can’t believe ya’ got energy signatures,” Crosshairs grumbled, leaning against the command center’s consoles, yet not touching anything. In the corner of his optics, he could witness the two humans having a discussion. Primus, those two reminded him too much of those Yeagers he hung around with before. He hated that he kind of missed Cade’s snarky attitude.

“Quite frankly, I’m surprised you were unaware of them.” Fixit replied, his servos tapping along the holo screen as he did so, “It’s an extremely useful tool for all Cybertronains. It’s how we track each other or find energon.” 

From what Crosshairs understood, over his days of observing, is that Fixit worked as a medic yet also the group’s higher intelligence. A commander yet not actually in charge. Crosshairs still believed he was the best choice for leadership.

“Hmph. Whatever…” Crosshairs crossed his arms, leaving the bare-bones conversation like that as he turned his helm away from the minibot. Something was wrong, he didn’t like it. He felt metaphorical goosebumps.

Apparently, that sense was right, as not even thirty seconds later, Crosshairs’ helm immediately whips around again as the command center sets off an alarm. “What now?!” The paratrooper growled out, but Other-Bumblebee took Fixit’s attention.

“What’s the story, Fixit?” Crosshairs turned around and got off the console, he kept his optics on the holoscreen as Fixit explained. He also saw the other three Autobots crowd around too, having heard the alarm. Other-Sideswipe, Strongarm, and Other-Grimlock. He hated all three.

“Sensors detect two Cybertronian ships landing in the forest west of Crown City.” The screen enlarged and flipped, allowing Other-Bumblebee and the rest of the team to get a good look at the digital map. “Scans are inconclusive.”

Other-Bumblebee’s optics widened for a moment before narrowing, “We should prepare for hostels, just in case.” 

Other-Grimlock looked to be about to comment, but he was interrupted.

“Why don’t we just not go.” Crosshairs interjected, drawing the attention of the rest of the group. They stared at him like he was the crazy one. Ugh. After a beat of silence, he propped his servos on his hips and continued, “Seriously? We’re just gonna go check it out? When we know nothin’? No wonder.”

“It’s our job, Crosshairs.” Other-Bumblebee stepped forward, his optics locking with Crosshairs, “Whatever it is, it’s too close to the humans for comfort. We need to investigate. Besides, there’s a hunting lodge in that area.”

Crosshairs rolled his optics and climbed out of the command center, landing on the dirt. He dusted off his metal coat, “Well, I’m not goin’ then. Ya’ got death wishes and I ain’t a part of them.”

“I’m ready!” Other-Grimlock finally spoke, his sharp teeth gleaming as he grinned excitedly. That little moment of happiness was stripped away when Other-Bumblebee shook his helm.

“No can do, Grim’... like I said, there’s a hunting lodge nearby.” Other-Bumblebee patted Other-Grimlock’s upper arm with a servo, seeming only slightly apologetic. “If we run into any locals, It might be tough to explain a big metal… you.”

Crosshairs watched as Grimlock just frowned at Other-Bumblebee. What a strangely adorable expression. Either way, this was none of his business, so he was gonna go and sneak on out–

“Which is exactly why we need our other, less suspicious green bot on the job.” Damnit.

Crosshairs groaned, knowing that now that Other-Grimlock was kept out of the mission that Other-Bumblebee was going to be really adamant on his involvement. He stopped in his tracks and slowly turned around. Faintly, the paratrooper could hear Other-Sideswipe snicker at his reaction.

Other-Bumblebee, ignoring Crosshairs’ obvious disinterest in the assignment, leaned down to the humans to talk to them. 

Primus… he hated every one of these Autobots. 

Aside from Fixit. He was fine.

—

It would be a couple minutes later when Crosshairs, Strongarm, Other-Sideswipe, and Other Bumblebee would arrive at the lodge. The three Autobots skidded to a stop at the same time, while Crosshairs lagged behind.

“No sign of humans.” Bumblebee commented after a moment.

Denny, climbing out of Strongarm’s alt-mode, hummed in faint surprise. “Maybe it’s not hunting season?”

Right after Denny stepped out, yet before the Autobots could transform, Crosshairs finally arrived. The paratrooper didn’t even stop his alt-mode before he swiftly transformed into root-mode and landed pede-first on the ground before the others. He held his blasters locked and loaded, aiming at the lodges and the trees.

Dust kicked up from the ground when Crosshairs’ landed, coating the other three Autobots and the human. 

“Be careful!” Strongarm yelled, stepping out of the dust radius.

“Gah! Hey! Watch the landing!” Other-Sideswipe quickly tried to brush off the dirt as the human, Denny, wiped the dust from his face.

After taking a moment to observe their surroundings, and ignoring the others, “Denny. Take cover.” Other-Bumblebee ordered strictly to the human, in which the human– surprisingly– did exactly as told. Crosshairs scoffed as the human ran off with a salute.

“Suck-up.”

The group’s attention was focused, once again, when the sound of a revving engine filled the air. Other-Bumblebee narrowed his optics toward the treeline just behind one of the lodges. Noticing the location of Other-Bumblebee’s interest, Crosshairs quickly snuck away from the trio. Staying in a crowd only caused more problems; he’s moving away to a better spot.

Turns out, like everything Crosshairs did, that moving away was the best choice– as when he reached the farside, a brooding purple motorcycle flew out of the woods and transformed mid-air into an even more brooding Decepticon– wait, no. He looked like he was wearing a shit-eating grin.

Purple, purple, purple. So much purple. Crosshairs was going to get a headache from the edge. 

The paratrooper took cover behind one of the smaller, off the side lodges. He was green and black, so he had a better chance of camouflaging than the rest of his… What did Tessa call them? Oh, yeah, Power Rangers. Seriously, why was everyone so brightly colored–

“There’s my prize.”

Oh, damn, that’s a voice if he’s ever heard one. 

Crosshairs turned his helm back to the group, only to be met by the sound of yet another engine filling the air. Right, two spaceships. Two Cybertronians. Another vehicle skidded from behind the lodges on the other side of the yard, this time an orange and yellow sports car, before also transforming. 

… a samurai. Crosshairs felt his optic twitch. He’s going to bloody murder this universe’s maker for this if this bot turns out to be who he’s thinking–

He was not allowed to linger on the orange Autobot’s frame, as the Decepticon started to yell as he launched fragging missiles out of his arms, “Airazor, Divebomb: bring him down!”

It seems that the two new bots have just ignored Crosshairs and his rag-tag team, as now they’re just attacking each other.

“Jetstorm, Slipstream: Go.” The Autobot commanded, sending off two beyblade-looking bots from his arms. All four projectiles transformed into little Minibots and Cons. Primus, these little guys reminded him of hatchlings. Does this universe do those, too? Who knows–

Oh wait, nevermind, turns out the hatchlings were near-sprinting towards Other-Bumblebee and the two. The Decepticon said something about a prize. Primus, he hated this…

Crosshairs was about to leave his spot from behind the lodge, before he witnessed the Minibots and Cons just attack each other instead. Well, this was interesting–

“I have him, Master Drift!” A little red-black Minibot cried out.

What.

“Never gloat, pupil.” Replied the orange mech.

He’s going to murder someone. Primus, it was him. Crosshairs hid behind the lodge once again, his servos holding the sides of his helm tightly as the loud sounds of battle rang out from behind. Images that Crosshairs shoved down began to flicker in his processor; He’s survived many vorns of death, betrayal, and spark break without many issues, but it’s when he’s come face-to-face with another version of his friend that triggers a break.

Flashbacks of Lockdown and Drift filled his processor. No matter how much he tried, he just could not shove the thoughts of Drift’s cold and empty, gray body laying on the ground, Lockdown standing above him with spark in-servo.

“Pull it together, Cross–” The paratrooper muttered to himself, optics shuttering as he attempted to calm himself, “It’s fine. It’s not him. Just… just like Bumblebee… it’s a name–”

Crosshairs’ optics blinked when his audials heard a particular grunt from Other-Drift. And just like that, it was like his processor went quiet. Crosshairs’ servos left his helm slowly, lowering to the ground to push himself off his ass and back to his pedals. Crosshairs stepped out from behind the lodge and back into the open. He felt weightless– he could not hear nor care to pick up the sounds of anyone else but Other-Drift and this Decepticon.

“It’s always been your weakness, Drift,” The Decepticon laughed. Finally able to see the position, Crosshairs’ processor envisioned his Drift and Lockdown. The Decepticon perched on top of a downed Other-Drift. It looked too similar. Crosshairs did not register the shifting of his arm as he rose a blaster, aiming at the Decepticon’s frame, “You fight fair–”

“Wait, Crosshairs–!” 

“Aagh!” The Decepticon– Lockdown– cried out in pain as Crosshairs fired off his cannon, the bullet slamming right into his back. “Who–” Crosshairs fired off another two bullets, sending Lockdown flying off Drift and to the dirt. The bounty hunter grunted and moaned in pain, sprawled on the ground and attempted to crawl out of Crosshairs’ reach. “Who are you?!”

The paratrooper did not respond, not even registering that the hunter spoke at all. He bore a blank expression as he crouched on top of Lockdown, using his free servo to grab the hunter’s wrists and keep him bound, unable to move. Crosshairs pressed his cannon right up against Lockdown’s spark chamber, his blue optics locking with Lockdown’s red ones. 

Red?

The paratrooper wasn’t able to quite figure out what was wrong before his frame was body-slammed off the other. He grunted softly when his faceplate hit the ground, dirt clouding his sight as his processor started to fill again. The sounds of other bots finally processed and the hallucination of Lockdown disappeared–

“What were you thinking?!” Crosshairs heard the voice of Strongarm in his audials, her frame restraining him, “We don’t kill them! We capture them! That’s a crime!” 

Crosshairs stayed silent, optics wide and wild, focusing on many things at once. He watched as Other-Bumblebee helped Other-Drift up as the severely wounded Decepticon ran off into the woods again with his Minicons following. Other-Sideswipe and fired off his blaster in the Decepticon’s general area but did not hit his targets. The two Minibots from Other-Drift crowded their Master.

Fuck… He was going to have to answer so many questions.

—

“... what.” Crosshairs blinked upward at Other-Drift.

“Although your methods are questionable, you’ve saved me from Fracture.” Other-Drift repeated, his expression stoic and his words even more so, “I now owe you a life debt, which must be repaid in kind.” Other-Drift bowed toward Crosshairs, who still looked a bit confused. “Life… debt?” Crosshairs glanced over at Other-Bumblebee, but he was distracted talking with the rest of the Autobots and the humans. Wow, how helpful.

Drift lifted his head from the bow and straightened up once again, “Fracture will not give up easily. To repay the life debt, I will protect you from the attack he doubtless plans even now, and I shall not move from your side until that is done.”

Like most times when Crosshairs is confused, and also standing face-to-face with a mech with similar mannerisms and name to a previous ally yet is clearly not that ally, he lashed out.

Crosshairs glared up at Other-Drift and, without really thinking, he pressed a servo against the samurai’s chassis and nudged the mech away. “Frag off, go and die for all I care–” Crosshairs attempted to walk away, but Other-Drift seemed very adamant about sticking by his side, even ignoring the physical attempts of pushing the other away.

Other-Drift's resolve remained unwavering as he kept pace with Crosshairs, matching his every step with determination in his optics. "I understand your skepticism, but I stand by my oath," Other-Drift insisted, his tone firm yet oddly reassuring.

Crosshairs felt a mix of frustration and a flicker of something else he couldn't quite place. This alternate version of Drift was a constant reminder of past wounds, yet here he was, pledging to protect him. It was a strange twist of fate that Crosshairs wasn't sure how to process.

[scekrex]

Hiiii💕💕 me again I really loved your story and writing style<3

But any way I have a other idea, here it goes when Adam meet male reader for the first time and when he first saw him quickly thought of Eve and Lilith? But he tried brush those thoughts out of his mind when they start to know each other more but Adam can not stop looking at him this time y/n wanted to make a joke so he says.

"Do I look like your girlfriend?"

"No.. My late wife (or something else)... I cannot believe it"

"You could've been her twin!"

"Your face.. Your voice... Just your hair and clothes are different-"

"My name, is y/n l/n"

If you can thank you 💕💕

You'll be from now on known as "💕💕", also really love that idea!! So here ya go babes xoxo/p

Pretty baby with the sun in his eyes

pairing: Adam x male!reader

warnings: language

note: not beta read bc fuck you I don't have beta readers

You had first met him when Sera had introduced you to him in her office. It had been a little weird to meet the first man to ever be created, not because you had been nervous but because he hadn't been able to stop staring at you. It had seemed as if his eyes were glued onto you, no matter what you had done, his eyes had been onto you, drinking in every tiny little movement you had made. His expression had been blank, though, there was no way you could've known what had been going on behind those eyes of his.

To Adam it had been quite the shock to lay eyes on you for the first time. Your facial features looked so similar to Lilith's, your voice reminded you of Eve’s, it made him feel home. He shook that thought out of his head immediately, Eve wasn't supposed to sound like home and your face that could've been the face of Lilith's younger brother made his stomach feel heavy and his heart skip a beat every now and then. Fuck no, he wasn't seeing his ex wives in you - at least he told himself so, he was very aware that was a total lie.

And that was something that never really changed. Because once the first man had found out that you were a fellow rock enjoyer, he had been quick to give you calls every now and then, inviting you for jam sessions, the concerts his band played and sometimes even for small things like grabbing lunch together or getting ice cream. You two had been quick to figure out that you enjoyed a lot of the same things, you were quite similar. But Adam's eyes never managed to truly leave your body, one way or another they were always onto you, always putting you in some sort of unique spotlight.

Three months after first meeting him you were on the way to his apartment, he had invited you over - why you didn't really know, he had simply sent you a text that read ‘Pull up, bitch’. And given the fact that you had nothing better to do for the day, you went.

Arriving at Adam's place was surely something, he was living in that huge flat, of course he was. The first man seemingly only got the best of the best. You snorted as he swung open the golden door that you had just knocked on, he was wearing an oversized band shirt - of his own band, no way that dude would wear any other kind of merch than his own - and a pair of white sweatpants with golden stripes on the sides. His mask was somewhere, it was definitely not covering up his handsome face this time and you thanked God silently for that gift.

“Sup, babes,” he smirked as he stepped aside in order to invite you in. The second you set foot inside his home his eyes decided to never leave your body again.

This time you made the choice to address it, you were low-key sick of dodging the topic even though it was as obvious as it could get. “What’s with the staring, big guy, do I remind ya of your girlfriend?” your lips had curled up into a small yet cocky smirk as you raised an eyebrow at him. The brunette rolled his eyes at that, you knew he had no girlfriend, that well you knew each other at this point. Yet he couldn't deny that you did remind him of Lilith and Eve. “Nah babes, no girlfriend in this guys life, you know it,” he casually hummed as he wrapped an arm around his shoulder to guide you to the living room, “However, your ass reminds me of my ex wife.” You raised your eyebrow even higher, giving him a side eye, “What, you're saying you're staring at my face all day because my ass reminds you of some bitch you were married to?” That didn't really add up to you and you called bullshit on it. It simply made zero sense. But Adam was quick to clarify, a sigh left him before he explained, “No man, what I mean is you remind me of both my first and my second wife. Your face looks so much like Lilith's, in the name of the holy spirit, you could be her fucking twin brother,” he paused a moment, then continued, “And your voice, fuck, it reminds me of Eve’s, it sure sounds fucking deeper, duh kinda obivious, but… it holds the same warmth as hers.”

Now it was for you to stare at him. He had just told you you looked and sounded like two women he had been married to, that you could be their brother - twin brother even. How were you supposed to react to that? Was it even meant as a compliment?

“Well, quick reminder that my name's Y/N Y/L, I'm neither fucking Lilith nor Eve, get that shit inside your head.” Adam raised his hands in defense, “Nah, trust me I know. You look and sound like them but your personality is so fucking different from them, they were whores.” It really didn't surprise you how he talked about them because from what you knew, he wasn't wrong and had every right to be upset. “Good,” you crossed your arms over your chest, “Because if you ever fucking dare to moan their names, I'm fucking out.” It was a joke, clearly, but yet you saw a faint brush on his cheeks.

Oh you would definitely continue to tease him like that.

[novastarrart]

Banban/Devil Headcanons

Just wanna get my thoughts out there so here goes. It's a lot so, there's your warning lmao

*Note: For simplicity's sake I’ll refer to normal Banban as Uthman and the actual researcher/genome donor as Dr. Uthman*

Banban/Uthman:

All the mascots seem pretty tall so I hc him to be like 6'5"?

His tongue hangs out of his mouth constantly, it was done this way to make him more appealing/cute to kids.

That being said, When he's aware, he can keep his tongue in his mouth, usually to talk. But absentmindedly it just sorta lolls out.

He has a form of body dysphoria, being that he sees himself as a human, even when looking in a mirror.

This is why he hates being called Banban and not by his "true" name Uthman (or Adam if he knows you well enough).

However, he doesn't get too angry if you don't know about all that in the first place. Still, he'll correct you with some annoyance (Like he did with Bittergiggle in part V).

He has some memory problems, due to his own memories mingling with Dr. Uthman’s. Sometimes he’ll forget who another mascot is (Like when he referred to Nabnab as “That thing down there”. Or when Sir Dadadoo first appeared: “Hey is that a friend of yours?”)

The party hats hide his horns, this was partially his choice, and partially the researcher's. They were worried the horns would scare the children, so they decided to hide them with something “fun”. He doesn't mind them though, he wants to look as human as possible.

His voice is very apathetic and monotonous, he doesn't have much control over this, it's just natural at this point. Whether or not his donor, the real Dr. Uthman, spoke like this, I haven't decided on. He definitely has an accent of some sort, which he picked up from Dr. Uthman.

He's actually a lot more emotive than he is in the game! Although he does usually default to that goofy smile

He doesn't really blink! He can close his eyes, and has eyelids, but for some reason he just cannot blink. He does not realize this at all, and it unintentionally  scares others.

Thanks to his donor, he's very intelligent and can actually perform a lot of different surgeries and has a vast knowledge of medicine. He obviously uses this to his advantage to uhh open up victims.

He can consume human food and drinks, but it really doesn’t do anything for him nutritional wise, this is more than likely why he feels consistent pain near his abdomen

Hellish Banban/The Devil:

So comparing the models, bro is taller than regular Banban, so he's probably like 7ft tall

Definitely more muscular and stronger, has better endurance too

VERY FERAL. He relies on pure animalistic instinct in this form, although he is still capable of speech if he needs to speak.

Loses his "human" side and gives in to his more monstrous side. Any human memories are probably just gone at the time.

Speaking of which, If you call him Uthman, he'll probably just laugh and rip you apart. He does answer to Devil/Demon or just Hellish for simplicity's sake.

As said before, this feral side is triggered by adrenaline. Usually triggers when Uthman is about to die or is severely hurt (sorta like a Bruce Banner/Hulk sorta relationship).

His horns grow longer and sharper in this form, as well as his teeth. This is... probably pretty obvious why.

He seems to lose his pupils in this form? Uthman's eyes turn all white when he's turned or about to turn.

And that's an indicator you should start running!

Relies more so on his sense of smell, then his sight to find his prey. I like to think his tongue is like a snake which he uses to pick up scents/vibrations (another reason it hangs out).

He can DEFINITELY smell human's organs/blood/etc.

He can probably also pinpoint if something is medically wrong with their organs too (Diabetic, kidney failure, heart problems, etc.). This would be very useful, however he's not really thinking of helping you right now.

He's a lot tougher and can handle being banged/smashed around (Like that fight with Jumbo Josh). He’s VERY hard to kill.

He'll eat any organ honestly, Pancreases are just his favorite! (Maybe they're sweeter due to them producing insulin? Who knows!)

Still has some intelligence, but this is mostly overridden by adrenaline and instinct to eat and kill others. Overall, he doesn’t think correctly when in this form and will do things that are harmful to himself and others without much thought.

Aaaaand that's about it for now? Let me know what you think if you want!

[oglyndwr]

I have so many head canons and a dormant tumblr account let’s fix that

What I think the raven boys would major in in university also I go to the uni that Maggie Stiefvater went to so that means I’m right duh (warning I acknowledge canon but also do with it as I please. This is not by choice it just happens in my brain.):

Gansey: Two possibilities here,, I mean… History is one of the obvious ones but I think he’d do Historic Preservation then work in museum curation. This is if he follows his own whims. More likely he’d follow after his dad but he would absolutely not be doing poli sci I see that everywhere it’s wrong everyone knows they make no money and if he’s following his dad then he’d listen to his dad who would be saying no absolutely not poli sci majors are liberals. He’d be doing pre-law then go into politics. Probably go to law school also. Honestly he’s smart enough to ace law school while also doing his nerd glyndower shit ‘on the side’ so I lean more pre law. Sometimes.

Adam: honestly I think it depends where he goes. Definitely Ivy duh (although let’s be so fr even with a scholarship realistically he would never be able to afford that… fantasy to the max American higher education is fucked up). He’d do something conventionally difficult and lucrative because duh, and he’d choose whichever one of those programs the college he chooses is known for. I can see him doing pre law with gansey, biomed, applied math, or Econ. I despise Econ myself but surprisingly find myself imaging him in that program more so than the others (except maybe pre law with gansey) because of his history with money; I think it would make sense that he’d go into that field since he’s been financially conscious from such a young age. Plus it might make him feel like he has more control over his own financial situation (trauma symptom or trauma coping? Who knows)

Ronan: pretty sure Ronan canonically does not go to college. For these purposes I throw this fact to the wind. Obvious choice might be agricultural science but I also throw that in an incinerator this time. Ronan would feel like he learned everything there is to know about farming from Niall and refuse to listen to his professors if they say anything contradictory to what Niall’s taught him (but really he just doesn’t want to taint Niall’s memory. Bittersweet so Ronan). On the test he’d circle the answer the professor is looking for then write in “wrong.” With a lengthy description of some Blackwood method his dad taught him (that probably actually is more environmentally conscious and efficient) with every other word being an insult to the professor or profanities. Also if this is a world where his magic is still valid… absolutely no way he’s majoring in a hard science he doesn’t need it he has fucking magic. He can dream a forest he can dream a harvest he doesn’t need to know slash and burn or whatever the fuck. Other obvious choice would be classics or Latin (is Latin even a major?) and like… yeah but too duh to be interesting to me. There are a few options I like to entertain. I feel like when his parents were alive they all played trad Irish instruments/music together, and Ronan might major in music performance. This seems most realistic to me because he wouldn’t have to study all that much and since it correlates with his love for Niall he’d be less likely to refuse to practice/study/go to class out of spite if a professor pissed him off (which I feel like he’d do in any other discipline). I also think he’d have started really young so he might not even have to practice that much, but he’d still practice a lot bc like I said, his love for Niall would be translated into his love for the instrument. As for the instrument itself, I’d like to say Irish bagpipes but secretly I imagine it’s fiddle (def ooc tho). I also think he’d be well versed in all of the instruments like at least know the notes even if he would need sheets (I imagine he’d be able to play virtually anything by ear on his primary instrument) like Concertina, accordion, whistle (god imagine squash song on a fucking tin whistle… he’d do that bit so much and it would be 100x more insufferable), maybe flute, DEF spoons but mostly for bits, etc. I think he’d also learn banjo but he’d play more folksy Appalachian music on that. Another major might be civil/environmental engineering or some other applied science but like.. I just do not see him caring about learning the foundational stuff,, especially in a classroom setting. He’d want to know the stuff you need to know to do the actual work and none of the other foundational math, theory, conceptual shit. He’d fail the physics pre req because he wouldn’t open a textbook with a gun to his head and wouldn’t be able to recite the fundamental theorem of calculus. He’d probably even know it or at least how to apply it practically, he just wouldn’t have it memorized in those terms yk?? Anyway, final decision music performance.

Blue: I also don’t think blue went to college in canon and this makes sense to me. However, let’s say she did. I’m not very concrete in these headcanons but I’m thinking studio art, fashion design, or maybe poetry/creative writing as my primary inclinations. Secondary: sociology? I think she’d be into that and have a lot to say in those classes. She cares a lot. Maybe gender/sexuality studies but I just personally don’t like that one so even though I see it in her I choose not to acknowledge or engage. I can see journalism, she’s got a quick tongue and is very passionate about social issues buuuut I think she might be too adversarial to do interviews. Like as soon as the person she’s interviewing or whatever says something she doesn’t agree with she wouldn’t be able to wait to write the scathing piece she’d just flame them right then and there boom interview over not enough content for an article. Also maybe environmental science (I can see her doing research in this field like knee deep in a river collecting samples to measure turbidity or some shit but it’s so interdisciplinary I don’t think she’d major in it.. but also I can see her being vegan and like one of those crazy British climate activists DISCLAIMER I’m absolutely not hating on this in fact I am an environmental science/physics double major who is also a vegan knee deep in rivers doing research on mineral accumulation in VA lmfao). I can sooooort of see her doing poli sci but also like no absolutely not she’s too anarchistic like she’d be fucking the system left and right then get kicked out or something (but also most poli sci majors I know are extreme leftists in the way I imagine she’d be… so…) Overall I think studio art or fashion design would be her thing and she’d also be a cool ass barista on campus that everyone is in love with

Noah: yeah yeah he’s dead but not in my heart he’s not. He’d be alive and doing aerospace engineering. Yes I know your eyes just bulged out of your head but hear me out. He’s so precious I feel like he was a dinosaur kid but like the kind where literally everything about his life was dinosaurs his pjs his books his room his birthday parties like you know the type. Then when he grew out of that at like 5 or 6 he became a space/planes kid. He’d make models of planes and there would be a bunch hanging from strings on his ceiling with a model of the solar system in the corner. He would never have grown out of this. In elementary and middle school he’d be in the gifted program and from my experience in the VA public school gifted program we did soooo many building projects that in hindsight were just fun engineering challenges for kids. I also headcanon him being good with numbers but don’t have an explanation for this.. maybe it’s because his first sentence had a number in it. Maybe I’m thinking of how he has to calculate dates or something? Whatever anyway he’d be the first kind in third grade to master their multiplication tables and teachers would love him because even though he’s hyperactive (ALIVE AND HYPERACTIVE THANK YOU) all of his special interests are sciencey and maybe he’s not paying attention to the class material but he’s explaining something he read in an astrophysics book to his seatmate so they wouldn’t be mad (this is me projecting because I was hyperactive but I would explain the entire plot of warrior cats to my seatmates and neither the teachers nor my classemates appreciated that ever… didn’t matter if I was first at multiplication warrior cats freak was immediate social isolation so I choose to live vicariously through my own fictional Noah czerny thank you very much). At Monmouth he’d make rockets and Ronan would paint them crudely and they’d fuck around launching them in fields coming up with dumb experiments and betting on them. Ronan would sometimes cheat by dreaming ones that don’t obey the laws of physics and Noah would secretly inspect them for hours in his room later trying to figure it out (but Ronan would only do this very rarely so Noah wouldn’t catch on). Then he’d go to college and obviously do aerospace engineering AND he’d excel because he already knows all there is to know about aerodynamics, propulsion, and flight mechanics. I am so sure of this I don’t even have alternate hypotheses. Also super random but I headcanon that Noah is Jewish and he him and Ronan lovingly rib a lot about catholic jew shit (guys as im writing this im realizing that I just want to be my fictional version of Noah someone be my sassy catholic Irish emo bestie please)

Ok that’s all thanks for listening

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"Great Alastor, altruist, died for his friends"

a deeper look into Alastor's solo part of the final song

The entire soundtrack has been stuck in my head since the show ended, but Alastor's part of the final specifically has been playing on a loop in my brain since I first heard it.

The slow downward pan from the Vee's feeling like they are now finally able to take over the city to the upward pan with Alasto's song starting was a fantastic choice, the contrast in their emotions, in the music, and still it all fit perfectly together.

"This place reeks of death," is such an underrated opening for this song in my eyes. We know Alastor is a cannibal, we've seen him eat a dead deer before, [^1] which would point toward him not having a problem with the smell of death and decay, but he goes out of his way to mention it smells of death. I don't think he truly meant the smell of death in this scene though. He might be talking about the death of his career if he had gotten killed in his fight with Adam. The line "Great Alastor, Altruist, died for his friends" is not him referring to himself as an altruist, it is the headlines he already sees if he truly would have died, seemingly for his friends, for the hotel. The way he follows it up with "Sorry to disappoint, this is not where it ends" shows this. It's him stating how absurd it is, but that this would be the story everyone would be thinking should it have happened. But I also feel like he says it because he knows there's the tiniest of truths behind it. Why did he fight Adam alone? Why did he fight in the first place? For the hotel, for his friends. As much as Alastor hates to admit it, he has gotten closer to the people in the hotel for sure, especially when we look at how he interacts with them all. He seems friendlier, even if it's just for show and to keep up his facade, but he truly does act like he at least cares a little but about them. The look he has while even saying it speaks volumes, he looks truly terrified of the implication that hell could see him as an altruist in this fight.

At first, his smile was an angry snarl, aggression about being humiliated by losing this fight clearly written all over his smile. But then it turns genuinely afraid like he fears the mere concept of being seen as a decent person, not even a good person, just decent enough to fight for the people in the hotel.

He digs his nails into his scalp, dragging his hands down the side of his face, but not at the prospect of dying, but at the idea of what would've come after he had died. [^2] At the idea that all of hell would know he not only died but died for someone else. Before this thought of what other people in hell would think of him, he looked more angry, enraged that Adam even dared be an opponent that Alastor had to run from in order to get out of there alive. His reaction is surprisingly human considering how Alastor normally holds himself. Sure he was alone ignoring the eyes following him around his destroyed radio tower, [^3] There's no one here that he would have to lie to, but he knows better than anyone that you're never truly alone in hell, so it still surprised me how honest he was with the viewers in this moment. It's the most we see of him that doesn't seem to be a character, a facade.

His whole persona is this blatant mask he wears constantly, obvious to everyone who knows him. He even admitted to Charlie that his smile is not real in the slightest. But it works. Every scene where Alastor was talking before his Breakdown Ballad in the finale, I second-guessed every single word that left his mouth. Wondering if it all is a performance. I see a lot of people online with the same thought, looking at everything he says twice, trying to see any hidden meaning, any clue as to what he truly wants to say behind words that, if said by any other character, would've been the least interesting thing ever. And even then, his fake smile keeps in place, even if the actual emotions behind it are clear as day, while alone in his destroyed tower. It might be to fool himself like he fools others, but I think his smile is not able to be dropped, let it be part of his deal or part of his punishment, Alastor will never be seen without his smile. [^4]

Overall i feel like Alastor does care about the Hotel staff and guests to a certain extent. I can't fully trust it, and I'd be less than surprised if I were to be wrong, but there are scenes where he seems too much like he cares.

Moving along on the song, the next lyrics are rather straightforward forward "I'm hungry for freedom like never before. The constraints of my deal surely have a backdoor" circling back to what I mentioned above. His current goal is to escape this deal that is constricting his powers, powers that would most likely have saved him from the injury he sustained. The next and final lines"Once I figure out how to unclip my wings. Guess who will be pulling all the strings?" strongly point towards how he is unable to use his full strength, that his full potential can't be reached while he is still under this deal he made. The thought of Alastor not being at his full potential in his fight with Adam is on some level truly terrifying, a Sinner can reach these kinds of powers in hell that he is able to fight someone like Adam, the first man, someone with approximately the same amount of power Lilith must have? I've just today talked to a friend of one about it. Yes, Alastor lost the fight, but he held up quite well and was a worthy opponent to the point that Adam had to seriously take a second, stop joking around, and concentrate on the fight to get a single hit on Alastor. All of this while Alastor also got a few hits in, not as strong as the ones he had to endure later on, but still. They were hits.

Regardless, in the end, Alastor came very close to dying, and that was for a cause that wasn't just for himself. Seeing what Adam did to the Hotel (or Sir Pentious while we're at it), Alastor has to honestly be glad he even survived that blow directly to his chest. There surely was some plot armor behind this decision, but it's still believable when we trust the theory that Alastor made a deal with someone far more powerful than anyone expects.

This show, and Alastor specifically, has taken over my thoughts completely.

[^1]: in my eyes his being a cannibal points to how he has a need for superiority. To always prove his worth. In his days alive he was a serial killer, a hunter, and now in hell, he has aspects of a deer, a prey animal. The cannibalism is purely to show that he is still on top, that he is superior even to those similar to him, to those that are the same as him. He might have characteristics of a prey animal, but he stays the hunter.

[^2]: this strengthens my theory that Alastor is also afraid of dying whiteout escaping the deal he is currently still bound to. I touch on it in this post a bit more clearly, it's almost at the end of the post.

[^3]: I'd like to link everyone to this post for some thoughts on the eyes in this scene. It's incredibly well written and I couldn't have phrased it better.

[^4]: the closest we ever get to not seeing him, or more part of him, not smiling is shortly before he vanishes from the fight with Adam. His shadow can be seen frowning in the background before quickly correcting itself. It's a blink-and-you-miss-it kind of situation.

[squashonesquashtwosquashthree]

i got the opportunity to see cabaret with orville peck as emcee and eva noblezada as sally bowles so!!!! here’s all my thoughts!!!!

for context i went into it knowing Maybe 4 songs, the eddie redmayne tony performance of willkommen, an interview from adam lambert about the audience reaction to if you could see her, the amy lennox performance of cabaret, clips of the alan cummings run, and i Just finished goodbye to berlin yesterday. so. vague amount of knowledge going into it.

first off the kit kat club is BEAUTIFUL. the immersion from the get go with the dancers and musicians before the show by the bars, feeding into the immersion of the club performers interacting with the audience later. i love that only the Performers interact with the audience, and the regular people (bradshaw, schneider, etc) don’t to sell the “the audience is audience to both the musical and the club” inception.

i didn’t know much about orville peck going into this but he’s such a good performer and he made some really cool choices. above everything, his emcee was played so resentful and angry. from the get go, it reads as aggression, and then as the show goes on it gets recontextualized as resentment!!! like during mein herr hes in the audience GLARING at sally, and to me it reads that since emcee is the character most aware of the political circumstances surrounding the club from the get go, he resents sally Specifically for purposefully turning a blind eye, he resents the club and the audience for keeping him in the situation, and he resents the musical for keeping him in this story. this was a (pleasantly) surprising choice to me since i really only knew the alan cummings version where emcee is a weird little guy but acts as if he and the audience are in on the same joke. i am also. prone to anger and resentment so ahahahah relatable.

i think playing emcee as resentful also made sure that the punchline to if you could see her was OBVIOUSLY awful. a couple months ago i had read that during adam lamberts run, audience members were laughing at the punchline as if it was an actual joke and Not an awful example of a) the obvious lie that politics doesn’t affect the club and b) blatant and extreme antisemitism to the degree where lambert was stopping to reprimand the audience and say “no. you’re not paying attention”. orville peck emcee was literally spitting out the line with such vitriol, i think it made it clear beyond any doubt that this was Not ment to be laughed at (even though it’s like. so very obvious).

as the show went on every time emcee had to do an introduction he was increasingly Not playing along. more aggressive and (again) resentful with every turn. again almost as if he was like “what the fuck why the FUCK are we still here”.

i talked to a friend that had seen it in november and they said their emcee was more resigned than anything, so it seems like this was a specific choice orville peck made, which is really interesting!!! i think it’s especially interesting that by the end he conveys a sense of going along with the times in order to survive, but again very much resenting the audience (the public) for letting fascism rise to the degree it does.

he’s also such a good singer????? i’m gonna have to check out his music even though i’m not really a country person

eva noblezada as sally!!!!! she’s. too good of a singer to be sally. i think there’s some story differences in terms of sally’s character from goodbye to berlin to cabaret. in goodbye to berlin she’s. 19 years old. which to me explains (not excuses) some of her ambivalence??

i don’t know how i feel about the pregnancy abortion plot points in the musical: in the book its much less of a big deal, especially since isherwood is VERY much not the father and is 3rd person to the situation, but i get the need to condense characters for the musical.

evas crashout during cabaret was so good, i was kind of in tears at the end. she played her as if sally had realized she couldn’t avoid the outside world anymore but was desperate to ignore it and above all keep the spotlight on herself. her movements were larger and more erratic than anything else she had done in the rest of the show which was crazyyyyyyy. i still really like amy lennox’s rendition, but eva’s was chefs kiss so good.

i think having all of the cast in the monochrome brown suits at the end was a cool choice, i think it was like. having to reject conform to survive (and again emcee is RESENTFUL of the fact, glaring and biting out his lines), but also specifically having to reject queerness in order to survive.

also!!! no one cares about this but my german is still good enough to get the bit of dialogue on the train but uh. definitely horrible and not good enough to catch anything sung.

ill probably have more thoughts as it marinates in my head but that’s it for now