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CW: yandere‼️ FEM NEUVILLETTE NATION‼️ this is SAPPHIC, for the GIRLS. I love my transfem wife <3
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Refined. Clingy.
Some of the words that come to mind as you sit on your shared bed, back pressed against some of the finest pillows as you stare at the wall ahead. You could probably name 15 more words if you really wanted too, but dedicating even more time to thinking about her would only make to sour your mood even more. Some would say that refined and clingy are opposites, or at least very hard to find something that could fit both words at once. But in your now years of experience dealing with neuvillette, you can now disagree with those people.
As she rests her head in your lap right now, her arms reaching up to lazily wrap around your waist, you can safely say the white-haired woman is clingy. Against better judgment, your gaze drops from the wall to her, looking over her closed eyes and soft lips with nothing short of an annoyed frown on your face. Because, even in her most vulnerable and careless moments, she is still incredibly…perfect.
It makes you wonder how many years she must of spent making sure at every moment she looked put-together, and you could almost feel a pang of envy in your heart. Because when she held your hand in hers, or stood close to you in public, she never showed how desperate she really was. Because if she keeps her lipstick perfect and hair in place despite the bruising grip on your waist, nobody will ever know she is obsessed.
Ah. A new word to add your description of her. You lift your gaze from her back to the wall, and go back to thinking about what you were before. Which was her.
#yandere genshin impact#yandere#yandere genshin#yandere lesbian#cw yandere#cw stockholm syndrome#?#idk reader kinda obsessed with her too#in a hateful homosexual way#real though#one day I might make them have hate kisses#yandere neuvillette#yancore#yandere woman#also I just kinda pull this out my ass#no plan no re-reading just love for my transfem wife#Yall thought this was genderbend neuvi?#nah she TRANS. transfem neuvi nation rise
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Blood Blossom Au: Baby's First Commissioner Meeting :)
TL:DR This Post: Danny (orphan) gets poisoned with blood blossom extract by Vlad. He runs away from him and ends up under the care of one Pre-Robin Battinson Batman! Starry is loudly pushing her batdad agenda.
(Also known as "Late At Night, When The Nightingale Sings" on my ao3!)
This was a fun rough idea I've been sitting on for weeks, thinking about how Commissioner Gordon and Nightingale's first meeting might go.
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Commissioner Gordon likes to think that he's adjusting to the new normal of Gotham very well, -- the new normal being grown men running around dressed like bats, in military-grade strength body armor, committing acts of vigilantism, -- and slowly, little by little, he was no longer being surprised when this new normal pops up out of the shadows like the world's most terrifying daisy. His shaving lifespan thanks him for it.
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The kid is a surprise though.
Granted, he seemed to be a surprise to the Bat too.
There's been a string of murders lately, -- which, in Gotham, is kind of like saying there's been another storm during monsoon season. And there's just been another; in some dilapidated building down in south Gotham, with the broken, boarded-up windows and mildew-crawling walls to match. The victim is a man in his thirties, multiple gunshot wounds to the chest, left in the center of the room for the blood to pool out around him.
The place is already secured when he arrives, the building swarmed with officers and the forensic detectives. The Bat emerges shortly after he does -- or, he might've been here the whole time, hiding someplace dark and shadowy. For his own sanity, Gordon doesn't think about it too hard.
The kid is a surprise, and he appears like a bolt of lightning.
He shows up in the middle of a conversation Gordon is having with the Bat.
A whistle, sharp and loud, slicing through the air, meant for open air rather than a confined space. Gordon's ears pierce and protest the sound, and the solemn, murmured chatter floating through the room abruptly cuts off like the swing of a gavel. As he turns towards the sound -- as they all do -- he swears, up and down, that he sees Batman's shoulders jump, just slightly.
At the source, perched on the window, is a boy. A boy in a gray-blue scarf and an oversized black hoodie, one that hangs off his frame and has ace bandages wrapped around the wrists in some attempt to cinch the sleeves. The hood is up, big like the rest of it, and threatens to swallow the upper half of the boy's face whole in the fabric. What upper half Gordon can see, is smeared with some kind of opaque, black face paint. He's holding onto the side of the frame with one hand, on his hip is a grappling hook. A familiar grappling hook.
Gordon has multiple questions, and his officers tense up.
Martinez puffs up, brows furrowing as his face shapes into a frown. Shoulders rolling back. "You can't be here, kid--"
The reaction is immediate, like a spark to gunpowder, the boy yanks his fingers from his mouth and his mouth twists into a scowl. Head snapping over to Officer Martinez, his hood manages to stay on but Gordon swears that as he bares his teeth, the glint makes them look sharper than they should be. His voice is rasp and quiet and harsh; snappish in its hissing; "Put a fuckin sock in it, Martinez. I'm not stayin."
Martinez reels back, and the boy immediately veers his attention off him. Like a switch, his demeanor drops. Despite half his face being covered, his mouth twists into a cringing, apologetic smile. Slanted and off-beat, embarrassed. It'd be disarming if this wasn't Gotham, and if he didn't just hiss at Martinez like he was about to bite his head off.
"Sorry." He whispers, voice deceptively polite and softer now. Gordon has to strain his ears to hear him. "I was looking for him."
He points his finger towards-- Gordon? No, Gordon follows the direction, and finds himself looking at -- the Bat.
The Bat, who always looks stiff as a pole, now looks even stiffer. Somehow. Well, the explains the grappling hook attached to the boy's waist.
"What are you doing here?" The Bat says, gruff and unable to completely smother the stumble of surprise in his tone.
The boy still holds a sheepish smile, and slips off the window ledge. His feet hit the creaky boards with a near-silent thud, the Batman finds his feet and rapidly begins crossing the room.
Gordon notes the slight tremble in the boy's legs as he straightens. He adjusts his scarf, which droops close to his knees now that he's standing, and slings a backpack -- how long has had that? -- off his shoulders. When the Bat reaches his side, he does as he always does, and looms over the boy like a spectre. A threatening mass of shadows cloaked in all-consuming black. Standing next to him, the boy looks teeny in comparison.
The Bat is a man who terrifies even the most hardened criminals, Gordon has seen grown men shiver in fear at the mention of his name. And yet when the boy looks up at him, he doesn't even flinch.
Instead, his sheepish smile melts away like ice under the sun, holding only traces of his previous embarrassment. It remains as a shadow on his face, a small upturn at the corners of his mouth. The boy pushes his hood back just enough to reveal glinting, ice-flint eyes surrounded in tar-black face paint. He holds the backpack up with one arm. "You forgot this."
#I have never seen Batman (2022) so really I'm just using battinson and crew as templates for my fic. but hey what else is new lol#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc fic#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dpxdc fanfic#i dont know shit about detective work or true crime so forgive me for any bad terminology or incorrect procedure for how these things work#just a fun rough idea for how i imagined gordon's first meeting with nightingale goes LMAO. im sticking to the idea that danny doesn't#officially join the field for a *while* due to more than just health reasons. so his first appearances are brief and usually to give B smth#danny: im only here as express delivery for vader's little brother over there. yall stay safe tho.#bruce: *kill bill sirens bass-boosted* ohmygodwhatishedoinghere#batman: how did you get here... | danny: you have so many spare grappling hooks it was pr easy to just grab one and go#also danny is whispering on purpose because he doesn't have his ghost form to fall back on as a secret identity. so he *is* actually taking#extra steps to keep his identity safe. and people usually sound different when they're whispering. he also has personal beef with#office martinez despite the fact that they've never met. Danny's HEARD of his ass. he hATES his ass.#Martinez: *to batman* freak | danny: im going to Bite Him. | batman (reluctantly): hmr. please don't. | danny: im going for his shins#Martinez and Nightingale have this whole thing going on between the two of them. danny WILL slap a sticky note on Martinez's back that says#'asshole' on it and its the one spot square on his spine that martinez can't reach.#someone: why are you beefing with like. an actual 12 year old | martinez: HE'S A LITTLE RAT. THAT'S WHY. he's here to torment me#battinson: *did you grapple the whole way here* | danny: yah. it was kinda fun. i would've gotten here faster but i kept having to stop#battinson: *hnnn* im driving you back | danny:.. are you sure? | battinson already pulling him out of the room: y e s#i've been thinking about this for literally WEEKS. what did bruce forget? good question! i'll figure that out if or when i get to this#danny has Issues behind the word freak so its like a mini beserker button for him regardless of who the word is aimed at lol. lmao#martinez calls batman a freak once while nightingale is within range and its just the doom ost as danny simply Disappears from sight#like oops. you are now. In Danger. rip couldn't be me.#blood blossom au
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"Just ignore how every minority man is treated, because talking about it is basically like saying some women don't experience misogyny"
Never the point of this convo. In fact, you're literally making up a guy to be mad at. Why is it that a different minority talking about their own issues in their own space makes you feel this way? Why is it a minority making their own words to explain something they experience now an attack on you? Is it, perhaps, that you don't understand the experience and therefore project your own understanding of it onto everyone who speaks about it regardless of THEIR actual experiences?
I'll be the first to admit I don't know every fucking experience out there. I gotta trust my trans sisters when they talk about their experiences- same with any other identity I don't understand. Why are trans men not afforded this? We are literally an oppressed minority. Our bodies are constantly regulated and cracked down on and treated as freakshows. I feel like on some level, as trans people, others have to feel it and see it. Right?
Or are we just supposed to stay invisible?
#transandrophobia#like i love the logic leaps made by these people who are SO mad about this...#its just more and more clear you just want us to shut up and stop talking and taking up space. we get it. you dont care about our issues.#at least give us space to talk about it????#like man id like to talk about my reproductive rights and my bodily autonomy and how im affected by shit but thats kinda hard to do when#everyone just wants you to shut up#like im sorry ???? im not a cis man. i have like. actual issues im dealing with? even though i am a man myself? that doesnt negate my#experiences LITERALLY FUCKING BEING HATECRIMED ????????#i would like to control the language i use to explain my experiences. im not gonna tell you how to tell your story. why the fuck would you#try to do that to me???#also like even cis men suffer under the patriarchy this shit sucks for everyone. theres very few people who actually thrive under this shit#it hurts a lot more people than it props up#some people have access to privledges. doesnt mean that. EVERYONE has access to those privledges.#quit being nasty. quit trying to divide the community. you arent helping anyone by projecting your trauma on EVERYONE.#“just ignore peoples talking about their issues because (strawman pulled out of ass)” maybe talk about shit you understand#and go get a breath of fresh air or something. look at something pretty. do literally anything productive and/or relaxing. because this isnt#doing shit for you or anyone else
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I'm kinda baffled that I've only seen one Callum Crown ask blog so far. And it's... wildly out of character if I'm even allowed to say so. It must've been made before we got all this information on him or by someone who just doesn't know much about him. I don't mean to sound rude in any degree, I'm just surprised, is all.
(Please, someone make an actual callum ask blog, or I may have to do it myself. Which I am admittedly scared to do so.)
#dusty yaps#i would opt to make my own callum ask blog but#i am also dreadfully afraid of makin him out of character#i also dont know enough about him to confidently say i could pull this off#not to mention i already have a tobias ask blog that ive been neglectin#but it would be kinda funny nonetheless#every time i see that callum blog a piece of me dies inside#HE WOULD NOT FUCKIN SAY THAT!!!#i say#not knowin exactly what he would say either#BUT HED BE MORE RESPECTFUL THAN THAT#sorryyyy#the demons are gettin me#i dont even know if that blog is supposed to be callum durin his presidency#or after#its so inconsistent#sorry i just hate to see people get my fave characters wrong#but sayin that makes me feel like an ass#im scared people are gonna think im some self conceited guy who thinks he knows better than everyone else#aauuuhggghhh THE DEMONS
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should i change my headcanons based upon “i saw it in a dream”
#as far as witcher dreams go this one was extremely mid as i actually woke up from it by going ‘but that doesn’t make any sense’#and i should have done that several times earlier#triss dragging geralt onto this cursed ass cruise ship by feigning illness and then lightly crying about it was the most in character thing#the thing is that in the dream the events of it were being presented ‘to me’ as ‘canon’#as in this was a new book or something a la crossroads so this is part of the lore now#so the thing was that geralt had another company in his 20s but they all died/were cursed/some insanity#one of them (and i only remember this bc it was terrifying for some reason) was turned into a tomcat and they couldnt figure out#how to change him back so they left him with other people and came back like 10 years later#it was like he forgot human life and was also a really old cat so they just allowed him to die as a cat#the other ones were not that interesting i think one was a postmaster who did fisstech and the other was a young mentally deficient girl#who had some powers/was a Source but she got betrayed when triss (yes triss was here) basically abducted geralt#and she took him on a cruise ship and then the game vampires (yeah so this is when i was like ‘what’) showed up#i guess they lived on or were haunting this cruise ship#actually was pretty cool because i got ‘POV lady orianna drinks your blood’ i’m OK with that#however regis and dettlaff showed up and immediately started acting like a monty python sketch or something#they kinda entered swaggeringly to start drinking people and#regis was like ‘ok you go around that side of the room and i’ll go around this side and we’ll take a survey’#and dettlaff was like ‘why drink from all of them to judge the taste just take a few … ‘samples’’#and regis went ‘ohhhhhhhh’ and they had this loud conversation in front of a room of terrified humans#and the dream ended with me basically pausing it and arguing to some other people that this can’t happen because so and so#and i started trying to pull examples/quotes about it#this is the most embarassing and unhinged dream i have had about the witcher i’m going to go hide in a hole now#usually my dreams are some semblance of canon or at least what i like and prefer#dude. regis showed up at the end but his game design. and his outfits were ugly 😭😭😭#the elbow-high diaries#oh but the ONE thing that was kind of cool was seeing how vampires are created#they fall from the sky in stormy weather and are invisible to the human eye and then if they come across another they scream them to death#or not death but dissipation and then they absorb the defeated one’s?? traits or whatever#i kind of like my current idea better but maybe this for like a subset of them or something
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Yeah...I don't really buy that the guy who had a panic attack over his last girlfriend being mistaken for his wife and was more than ready to dump his current one for being a former nun is even going to contemplate proposing to her.
Knowing him, he would be so deep in his eventual gay crisis that he accidentally sends false hints that made Marisol think that he was gonna propose to her. And then, when she's expecting him to get on one knee, he's telling her to go the fuck home and stay there. (because dumping is still hard for him)
#911#911 abc#911 on abc#911 season 7#911 s7#911 s7 spoilers#911 twitter#911 speculation#911 s7 speculation#eddie diaz#911 eddie#911 marisol#marisol nolastname#anti eddiemarisol#buddie#911 buddie#I don't know why everyone is putting it out there that Eddie's gonna propose#like can we not#like I said in one of my previous tweets#we don't need him pulling a 5b buck and making the stupid choice to keep marisol around#he already mistook bobby's advice and asked her out#hopefully Shannon's ghost slaps the hell out of him and tells him to just dump her#because chris doesn't need another mom and he doesn't need another wife#also because he has a whole ass golden retriever as a future husband that he still needs to get with#but in all seriousness#can they please get rid of marisol already#like the character is pointless and the actress is a piece of shit so why is she still here#she's bland as hell and shouldn't be on screen for this long and sure as hell doesn't need to be on for another season#also#it's kinda distasteful for a network who gave us a bisexual firefighter to keep a homophobic and transphobic actress who hasn't apologized
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hsr age estimates... i was just sorting out my thoughts since same face has everyone except the Kiddos looking like they're 20 when that's definitely not true for a good chunk of them + ages are EXTRA poorly defined due to not all the characters being human and having different life spans. so for those guys these numbers are like. vague equivalences. also using the 20s as an example "early" would be anything from 20 to 25 and "late" is 26 to 30
#every row is sorted youngest to oldest but like it kind of doesn't matter since a lot of them are around the same age#like in the early 20s row everyone from the trailblazer to guinafein is 21. maybe one or two are on the cusp of being 22#then sparkle and qingque are 23 and tingyun's the oldest there at 24#jing yuan is the baby of the remains of the hcq methinks...#because jingliu apprenticed him when he was close to yanqing's age give or take a year or two#so i'd say there's a good 8-10 (long life species equivalent of) years between them#so he's like 39 or 40 now while she's pushing 50 and blade isn't far behind her#the only one i pulled out of my ass is luocha. the guy barely exists to me i kinda just threw him wherever. my bad#but also idgaf -_- the guy barely exists to me.#this was a great waste of company time i love getting paid to do nothing
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We poppin the BIGGEST bottles if Boy and the Heron wins the Oscar tonight
#sammy rambles#literally the ONLY thing i care about with the oscars tbh#my initial choice was spiderverse but after seeing boy and the heron i was like “.. yeah THIS is the one”#and hearing rob pat voice that feral ass goblin ahh heron man mf sold me that man deserves MORE than twilight#even if it doesn't win i just hope it's anything BUT elemental i just wanna see disney take the L for once lmao#tmnt mutan mayhem deserved the nomination over elemental but i digress#at least wish wasn't nominated LMAO#see y'all in like 2-3 hours to see if I'll pull up with the makorra meme#also i hope it comes out on streaming soon. seeing it twice in theaters isn't enough i NEED to see it again multiple times#also it would be kinda funny if nimona won instead it'll be the biggest FUCK YOU to disney
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sometimes i have moments where i have to wonder, "how the fuck is phoenix BROKE?"
and then i remember that lawyers operate on billable hours & having to complete trials within 3 days can't be super profitable...especially because phoenix's investigations themselves are almost definitely pro-bono. iirc a lawyer's income also comes from retainers (a set fee you have to pay to secure an attorney), but that can range depending on the attorney...i'm sure most of phoenix's clients (especially maya) have to operate on payment plans, too, so it's not like he's getting $100,000 upfront. i'm sure fees were also altered when the justice system got fucked over. not to mention that phoenix has huge gaps between cases (the ones we play, anyway) so his income ranges wildly, i'm sure.
that or phoenix has some atrocious spending habits...me too king
#🎬 || time for bear. (ooc.) || 🎬#{ i have real professional lawyer knowledge im not pulling this out of my ass gksjfngkd }#{ tbf i have experience with family law and not like... criminal cases. but still }#{ there's also a ton of fees that attorneys have to pay just to file paperwork which is insane. }#{ and theres S O MUCH PAPERWORK INVOLVED... }#{ i wonder how that got expedited in aa too. i had a discussion w/ my qpp about- }#{ -the way evidence kinda comes out of nowhere in these cases. irl you have to jump through a ton of hoops so the judge- }#{ - knows what's coming and that everything has been properly acquired }#{ i wonder if because trials have to be rushed now they just said fuck it. which really opens the doors for all sorts- }#{ -of courtroom fuckery. no wonder everything is corrupt. }#{ anyway ksfdgndjkfs i think abt this stuff a lot. i know aa is nowhere near reality but the court system is such- }#{ -an interesting way of worldbuilding... }
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If you thought I was the one autistic person out there who doesn't have any Sonic OCs you thought wrong
I haven't exactly been hyperfixated on Sonic stuff lately but I got an urge to draw this guy here, Amanita the Seedrian. He's one of my main two OCs, alongside a sona/self insert character who maybe I'll post eventually? Idk.
Anyway, about Amanita: he's a Seedrian based around mushrooms who mysteriously survived the destruction of Green Gate and the subsequent rise of the Metarex. Already an outcast on his home planet due to his fungal nature, he only felt like more of an outcast when taking refuge in a whole new world unknown to him, and thus isolated himself in the forest for a long time. He eventually started coming out of his shell upon meeting Grim the Hound (the aforementioned sona I haven't posted yet).
He's an amazing healer, but also has poison based powers. He's quite shy, but he cares deeply about others, and though he may seem hesitant at first, he does like learning about new places and trying new things. His design is inspired by jiangshi, aka Chinese vampires.
#sonic the hedgehog#sonic oc#seedrian oc#amanita the seedrian#i actually have a lot of thought put into how seedrians fit into my sonic fanonverse#but that's a post for another time cuz it takes just so much explaining and infodumping#even when it comes to just amanita I'm kinda leaving some stuff out just to make sure the post doesn't turn into a whole ass fanfic#but if I'm ever in more of a sonic-y mood maybe I'll elaborate. maybe.#also when i color him in i try to make it look like his hair is casting a shadow over his face but idk if it actually reads like that#it's kinda hard to pull off with colored pencils
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only thing i got from that episode was rick lost diane at 27 and was ready to chase birdperson to the end of the universe by 35
#sorry to the ppl who got excited abt the diane stuff but it just felt like puppeting her corpse for str8 fanservice n nithing else#but i also already find every diane cameo is beating a dead horse for artificial rick heartwarming moments#n i kinda dont care#esp to pull it dyring yr morty focused episode#dont like how the show cant be subtle ever either but id rather that w morty who is a 14yo figuring himself out#vs rick who would rip his teeth out b4 say some shit abr himself#so ig i liked the wnd half n hated the first#writing felt REALLY awkward n off n the animation was. really not nice either#if anyone wanted my thoughts fbcbvb#jk ofc abt only thing i got i just cant be assed to not put this in the tags bc idc abt getting into things
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One funny thing to me is that sometimes my bestie will send me reels like this one
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And I have to be like. Bestie I appreciate that you’re on my “side” ig but 1 I’m just having fun and 2 in no way did he treat me like his bf and our FIRST text conversation he was like “hey I don’t want you to get the wrong idea bc I don’t want a relationship”
#like. if anyone was “in the wrong or immature here it was for sure me#but I KNEW that going in that’s why I’m not upset or anything#I’m literally chilling and my friends are so mad for no reason#how do you say I’m literally not mad in a believable way. bc I’ve tried and they have NOT believed me#and then I’ll mention us hanging out off handedly and they’ll be like details now I’m like ok here’s the highlights they’re like wtf.#I’m like. I didn’t give you details for a reasonnnnnnnnnnnn#it’s not happening. it’s okay. it’s fine to be weird flirty friends. that’s fine.#also. I kinda. don’t agree with the original post anyway? like. the line between platonic and romantic is so vague like. doing stuff and#then realizing you might have been giving the wrong impression so you communicate what you want is not immature. it’s actually the opposite#so idk#my bestie has been in a relationship for a year and is like. anyone who’s not willing to commit rn is immature like. girl. I don’t even know#if I want to commit. so it’s literally so beyond okay.#the fact that we haven’t fucked yet is honestly? maturity I think. or maybe he just had the entire world convince he wants me and doesn’t#but I think what’s going on is he does like me but doesn’t want a relationship for mental heath reasons (he has kind of implied this im not#pulling this out of my ass) in which case. i do appreciate that he hasn’t tried to sleep with me (bc i would say yes and that would probably#me worse/harder to get over/ignore)#these tags are an essay Jesus. I’ve been drinking all day on the beach lmaooooooo#also it’s my birthdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy#work guy -_-
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so i have 9 hours so far on ZZZ
i downloaded it JUST TODAY. AT 1PM. thats not normal
#this is exactly like how when i first played ngs i immediately got 8 hours on it on the first day#the fixation hits hard#thought 'oh ive been wanting to play this and i also need something to cope rn'#oh boy did i cope#saw my husband for ONE FRAME and went INSANE#I LOVE YOU ANTON. MY HUSBAND. MY GIRLFRIEND. OH HOW I LOVE YOU#I NEED HIM SO BAD (literally i need to pull him in game) GIVE ME HIM NEEEOOOWWWW BEFORE I GET ANGRY!!?? GRRRR!!!!did not#mean to put those question marks#marks of inquiry#bruh this game has sexy ass gameplay. I SAW IT BEFORE BUT IT FEELS SO DIFFERENT WHEN YOU'RE ACTUALLY PLAYING IT#IT'S SO HEAVY AND UGHHDH IT REMINDS ME OF DMC A LITTLE#specifically dmc5#example: the Epic shots when you kill all the ethereals in an area#another example: anby's skill. that is literally a vergil combo#another thing that reminds me of ngs is how stuffy the game mechanics are#idk what i'm doing 90% of the time. i get an item. oh cool! where the hell did i get this from.#reading the descriptions of each item doesn't help because none of it sinks in 😭 it's like trying to read from 15 feet away#it's kinda like base game?? in the way that it feels like Everything has already happened and it's shoved in your face and you just kinda#have to figure out what to do#only this time i can't emote and pole dance with other people#oh to see anton pole dancing. /j#/hj :^3#....../srs :'^3 (i cry a tear)#i've been cooking up an s/i since the game was announced but i still have close to nothing. NO IDEA WHAT THEY WOULD LOOK LIKE.#huge ass weapon obviously. low hollow aptitude but they're such a good fighter that it didn't matter#i know my 'haha i've known this game since' shit is annoying but LET ME HAVE THIS!! I WILL FOREVER FLEX BEING A FAN FROM THE START HEHEHEH#anyway. anton. my pookiebear. my shnookums. Fucck yoyAAAAAAA I LOVE
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I love writers I love when they ramble on abt characters and their motivations, their core values and the reasons why they react to things in certain ways and having character interactions work off of each other due to their differing ways of viewing the world and in general I just love character analysis
#as someone who loves humans and human behaviours and figuring out why people react to things the ways that they do#uhhh I'm actually surprisingly really bad @ writing characters with those same traits 😅#unless it is smth I can connect to on some sort of level like a few of my characters have issues that I specifically relate to#thereforee I can understand the ways they act in certain circumstances#BUT when it comes to characters that are like almost entirely outside of my wavelength it's pretty hard for me to understand how they work#and it's pretty basic habits and behaviours I just fuckin lack them in general#like the concept of clinginess or abandoment issues or wanting to stay around people who treat you badly or jealousy or missing people#also love like I understand my type of love but my type of love isn't typical from what I've seen from others#even some of my own past issues like dealing with trauma have kinda been lost on me especially bcuz I'm the type to ignore stuff#like I just ignored it til it came back to bite me in the ass and had to just kinda struggle with it and go completely numb#until I got tired of feeling that way and pulled myself outta it step by step and my various negative ways of thinking elude me#since I just gradually built myself up and rearranged my brain so that all negative thinking eventually turns into dust#whether be positive or purely neutral until I'm able to handle it better#REGARDLESS I try to get a sense of what these other traits are like and how exactly they work for people but it is VERY difficult for me#bcuz the stuff is just such an alien emotion to me like people get REALLY emotional about things that simply aren't a problem for me#and I wish I could understand why and what goes on in the brain that causes that but my brain just doesn't work that way#SOOO me trying to make characters of typical issues I see people having DOESN'T really work when I have no idea what's going on#like IN GENERAL my characters need to have more emotion behind them but the emotions I need them to have are#like I said before. something I totally lack ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ so I have no idea how to do it#I mean I think I need like a check list I need to make a list of traits my characters have in general cuz I never write anything down#it'd be easier to figure it out if I had words to go along with it and then I could figure out the behaviours behind those words#plus I need to draw my characters cuz I'm very much a visual person I can't get as good of a feel without some visuals along with it
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Yet another beautiful day to have the Maxwel tag blocked (can't see half of the posts in the Wendy tags)
#rat rambles#starve posting#maxwell posters have lost any semblance of tolerance from me ages ago Ive yet to meet a maxwell fan who's just like a normal person#and to clarify I actually do like maxwel as I am the number one just some asshole whos in too deep enjoyer#but dear god are ppl just absolutely incapable of being normal abt this man and everyone around him#and even beyond that ppl just do not get this man like please he is indeed interesting but not because of some 'retconed redemption'#like pls we can live in a world where he is not an irridemable monster and is in fact just some guy while also still being a flawed person#like the fact that he is so deeply flawed in ways that he never actually properly adressed and challenged is the interesting thing to me#like look at me. he went through horrible shit he didnt deserve. that didnt inherently make him a better or worse person#it just made him a more miserable person#and he didnt escape because of some change of heart or character development#and afterwards he teamed up with wilson because of necessity#I do think on some level he genuinely cares abt the other survivors and he does have genuine regret for how things turned out#but again those things dont inherently mean he moved past the flaws that got him here it just means he has the ability to recognize that#shit sucks and that he wish none of it happened#its why encore is one of my favorite animations from a character perspective because it shows some juicy charlie and maxwell stuff#mainly it shows both that charlie has not forgiven his ass and is manipulating him and that maxwell is still susceptible to it#which isnt a sigh of them rolling back development it's just a sign that maxwell is easy to manipulate with the right cards#which adds up considering his past and his present very well in my opinion#this is a man whos historically always ran away from his problems and is always on the hunt for a sense of control#and charlie tapped into both that and his ever present guilt#its in fact very unsurprising and not out of place for him to fall for that sort of manipulation#and it also makes for a great set up for the inevitable betrayal from charlie as maxwell is hit by the harsh reality of his situation#and that whole situation would lead to some yummy tasty parallels when charlie inevitably gets betrayed herself (I hope)#the ways charlie and maxwel are so similar yet so different facinates me deeply I love how much charlie doesnt realize shes kinda fucked#I want her to be betrayed so hard and left in the dust with no ground to stand on I want the rug pulled out from under her feet#her composition comes from her confidence in the necessity of her actions and the moral superiority she feels over maxwell#so having her sense of superiority be revoked would make for a super fascinating dynamic as she tries to justify the situation in her head#I wanna see her siral and then maybe change her pronouns idk
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Teehee I got hugged today 🥰
#the klock keeps ticking#it was literally like 2 seconds but idk im like WOOOOO#like it wasnt long enough for me to be all satisfied touch wise nah im so starved itd take all night and day man#and also this particular person is uh. very special ahem. and it was like#i wrapped my arms around them best I could and i could just feel their hips and like their body squish under my hands#cuz theyre so squishy and sturdy at the same time it felt safe and its like. thats really scary actually#ive never ever felt safe hugging anyone this kinda thing is brand new to me#touch in general is new to me. at least consensual touch that i wanted and initiated#and i just felt really nervous cuz like i really love this person but sometimes its hard cuz like ‘guys’ dont hug each other often#or at least not in a case like this where we’re friends but theres this sorta avoidance around anything romantic#cuz we’re both very awkward and also uh. trying not to cross certain boundaries just yet we need time#but unfortunately im so aaaaa rn and touch starved and i was like im just gonna bite the bullet and ask if we can hug LIKE A DAMN GAY ASS#its like fuck i may as well propose marriage and get on all fours while im at it aaghhhhh why am i like this#but it was fine they werent weirded out or anything. not visibly anyway. and they hugged me!!!#me! of all people! im like so happy we got to hug but im also really pissed cuz it was really brief and i didnt get to memorize how they#felt and now im just like grrrrr. fucking tease why must i be so tortured i get the smallest taste and then poof its gone#i just wanna cuddle and hug them for hours and pull their hair and feel their body all over and uhhhhhhhhh#ahem. i may be getting too gay here huh. damn itttt. fuck me. how do you ask your mate if you can explore bodies#in a way that definitely isnt platonic without making things weird
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