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manygeese · 3 months ago

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I just listened to Epic the musical and DAM! hera’s my favorite and that is my only takeaway

(that and that “there are other ways” is my favorite song)

#she’s SO DISCO!!!! i LOVE HER #ugh she ate. Zeus can go fuck himself bc I just KNOW she gave him rancid side eye when Athena said #and I quote #“never once has he cheated on his wife #I loveeeeeeee her #hera epic the musical #hera #also I have a physical need to draw her #epic the musical #epic the wisdom saga #epic the thunder saga #epic the underworld saga #epic the circe saga #epic the ocean saga #epic the cyclops saga #epic the troy saga #there are other ways #god games

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itz-pandora · 1 day ago

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Thinking about Shadow and Metadow and Metamyadow

#Thinking about Shadow and Neo rn!!!#Shadows system are like. SUPER outdated. His hardware cant keep up with his software #<- (He overheats a lot which is a cause for more organic body language like blushing and having a reason to breathe)#Neo doesn't understand why he doesn't update his hardware. Neo has a much more efficient processor so she never overheats.#Shadow is afraid to go under such a big change. 1.) Nine PTSD. he gets squeamish about getting unnecessary maintenance.#2.) He prefers to feel organic by slowly updating hardware to mimick aging. 3.) His hardware has Black Arms tech in it!!#His hardware is super adaptive and can't be irreparably damaged because it can heal itself #also he doesn't know if that contributes to his variety of emotions and sentience. so he is NOT gambling that.#Shadow needs to feel like he's organic. Neo doesn't. Neo doesn't understand why he'd choose an old flawed system.#Neo still respects his decision. it actually makes her more curious because be can have such physical responses to stimuli.#ALSO HEHEHE #they bond over having free will stripped from them!#scariest experience of Shadows existence is basically how Neo felt for YEARS. She's desensitized but hes very sensitive about it.#‼️bonus bc cute‼️#they bond over liking Amy! theyd both die for her and Shadow jokes about her messing up their systems #robotfucker amy /j #Metamyadow is in my brain i need to draw them more

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azzymaxxing · 2 months ago

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ummm

been thinking about this awhile .... my son made of slop

#pleasee say nobodys thought about this before #i go insane over this idea on the daily. goop boy #hoping this all makes some kind of sense i havent slept At all #to be clear hes still just as insane as flowey. if not worse now he has hands #i think hed like hanging around alphys but only cause shes the only one who'd be too scared to tell evryone a dead kids telling her #about his murders #i dont think he'd ever grow fond of her. he'd just get bored of actually physically hurting her #^ i also think he would blame her a lot. this is a thought i have abt canon flowey/asriel too #i think he would Need somewhere to place the blame and saying its alphys fault for making him would be easier than other options #alphys defense lawyer here dont get it twisted #ok enough rambling #uhmmmm #asriel dreemurr #dont really want to tag this it Sucks. but #au tag will be made if i draw him again trust #^#amalgam asriel

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phagodyke · 5 months ago

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genuinely so devastating to finish my flcl rewatch and pull up the tumblr tag confident that everyone else is also down cataclysmic for haruko and posting abt it but *crickets*

#I THOUGHT IT WAS REALLY POPULAR ON HERE.... WHAT THE HELL GUYS #appreciate all the artbook stuff and the handful of fanartists but other than that its so dead its so over 😭😭😭😭#and most of the posts abt her are like 'shes such a terrible person but fun character other than that!' STFU. POSER #her selfishness and apathy and singleminded drive is literallt what makes her so fucking hot whats so hard to understand #a woman is headstrong n decisive n doesnt care abt ending the world for her ambitions n suddenly ur like ohhh devotion is baaaad #move aside gayboy im gonna get it id let use me in whatever scheme she needs thr fact shed only pretend to care abt me is even better 🥴#i love physically violent women i love being smacked with bass guitars hi hello im right here 😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚😚#wheres that post thats like i dont even have mommy issues i just think its hot to be a womans pet LITERALLLYYYY #god i need to draw her 5 million times but i wont have any free time until at least tues.....so sad #wait for me babygirl...... i wont forget abt u #we would have the most toxic relationship ever it would be awful for everyone in a 50 mile radius people would die #fake manic pixie dream girl fans when a girl with real mania comes at them:#ANYWAY RANT OVER i need to get my shit together for work tmr #also my chocolate orange cake turned out sooooo good i need to use this recipe again sometime #feeling way better plus i didnt even fully crash i just had like an hour or two of turbulence. but i do need to start winding down for bed #soooo goodnight everyone... and haruko especially.......#.diaries #flcl

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widevibratobitch · 5 months ago

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(not quite logging back in just venting dont mind me <3 ill reply to everyone later mwah)

#i guess the worst thing about allllllll the times my mother tells me im crazy is that i know she's right lol #like the instant overwhelming need to sh whenever she says it or in fact every time we fight should be enough to confirm it 🤡#like i legit wont calm down until i physically hurt myself preferably also drawing blood. this is not Sane Person Behaviour #anyway whatsapp just spent a few minutes crying curled up on the floor in the kitchen pulling my own hair trying to ✨Not SH✨#because its stupid idiot motherfucking summer and everyone will See #and ended up doing it regardless lol #and its so funny cause like literally the moment i do it im perfectly fine and mentally and emotionally stable again 🥰😇#anyway i love my mom she's great but she did ruin my entire life and me as a person too #and basically all my adult problems can be easily traced back to my psychological nightmare of a childhood #except i cant blame her for that either because she didnt have it easy and she raised me on her own (and unmedicated too)#while my dad didnt really even get many occasions to ruin me on a fundamental level (like he sure did use those few chances he had but yknow #not nearly as many as my mom got)#so i cant just blame my mom and let feminism lose like that #anyway. she should never have had children and i there's nothing i regret more than her husband dying instead of me #ok logging back off byeeeeeeeeee

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muninnhuginn · 9 days ago

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The instinctive reaction for both Xiahou Dan and Yu Wanyin when they take their first lives is to just lean into the unreality of the situation. It's so much easier if their victims are just all paper people, 2D characters, and nothing else. But they still keep count of their kills, at least at first. The 2D person rationale is just to try and convince themselves when deep down they know better.

And the fact that Shanyi (number 27) is the one that finally makes Xiahou Dan stop counting. He hadn't given up after he killed the maid, despite the low point in his life that represented, but still trundled on as his bodycount piled up. Still tried to survive long enough to meet his companion. That *Shanyi* is the turning point that makes him embrace his role as puppet/tyrant emperor and stop trying to escape the narrative. And it was a death he didn't even directly *intend*; wasn't even conscious at the time. The death of someone who was killing to protect their closest person.

After he embraces his role, he still remembers what it was like in those early days, so even as he continues to hide from Yu Wanyin, he still offers to take any potential murders from her hands. He knows he's already too blood-soaked for it to make a difference for him, but Yu Wanyin still has hope. It still affects her when she has to dirty her hands. She's still a stranger in this land, compared to him who is now in many ways indisguishable from the tyrant role he plays.

And Yu Wanyin offered him hope when he had long given up, so of course, he wants to protect that. Even if it means killing others.

In the end, he's not so different from Shanyi.

#all considered I do not think shanyi racked up quite the same bodycount but it's the spirit of killing to protect okay 🤣#how dare you #cheng he ti tong #also. thinking about XHD's self-preservation manifesting in different ways. with the maid it was his secret being threatened.#+ ofc his aversion to physical contact being the one point where his own self overrides the role he plays and that's rooted in trauma #as emperor the consorts are part of his role and whilst there's probably a layer of XHD being written for a more monogamous era #in-universe YWY notes that the emperor of the books never had any issues around that kind of thing.#anyway where was I. so. XHD's kills morph from preservation of self (whether his secret/his life/etc) to protection of another #he goes from barely keeping his head above water so all he can do is survive to having support enough that he can make his own choices #and that's only through YWY's hope and tbh through her plotting too. having a companion rather than being alone in a world of paper.#also I don't need to draw the XHD-Tu'er parallels here because XHD does that himself #edit: also just hit ch 18 and 'trying to stop sth that happened 10 years ago' like he thinks he's a hopeless case already. but not her.

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castlefly · 7 months ago

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also back on the poppy brainrot

#I have a need to draw her again #wip #also my computer is killing me physically #>:/

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katyspersonal · 2 months ago

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dfjfsdgfds @ anon NOOOOO don't worry about this!! Trust me you are not the first person who saw my icon like Messmer until squinting at it really hard xD Let's be real, not only Drake Warrior Set does have similar aesthetic, but also before SOTE actually launched we all thought Messmer was straight up connected with Dragon Communion!!

Though to be honest, even I myself keep thinking about Messmer on reflex looking at my icon dfhfdhfd The "vibe" morphed into some strange mental image that is like a "blend" of aesthetics and vibes (and genders) of Eleonora and Messmer and I could not shake it off! It even had a strong passive effect on my self-image and perception of my gender. 🙄 And it felt extremely cathartic picturing myself as this spontaneous "character" until they detached and literally became a new OC xD (if you are prone to fiction kinning, sprout minor alters like Malenia sprouts the sisterdaughters or both you just KNOW what I am talking about lol!!)

#personal #ask replies #it is very hard to explain this #but yeah I am deadass like Malenia who gets alters against her intention that also shortly become their own people #and sometimes a right drawing or even *idea* of a character is a beginning of it lol #granted I felt strong connection with Messmer and it is complicated.#I wish I could explain this process without having to hope the person knows from experience or knows someone LIKE that #but like... it is complicated lol. malenia's situation is the best comparison to it #I hate losing these 'images' though #I always feel like my 'real' self when they take over my self-image and then they just separate and become characters!!!#like no! stop becoming 2D remain my fursuits instead! bitch #I just want to feel complete but every time I feel like I've found my identity it cuts itself away from my empty husk and I am hollow again #just goes to show how important Malenia is #she like... represented things that you had no idea how much you NEEDED to be represented #she covered so many types of both physical and mental illnesses. she is like metaphor for literally every condition #THE relatable character #fromsoft just can't flop with characters but you KNOW martin added

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mars-ipan · 5 months ago

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i do love my family very dearly but the internalized ableism the men in here struggle with is. so much

#marzi speaks #it’s worse with my brother but he’s doing more to actively work on improving that #my dad however has very subtle internalized ableism that i don’t think he recognizes is there #which is. fun #like earlier. either last night or this morning i don’t remember #i was talking to him about how while ideologically i have nothing against accepting needing help and things like that #in practice it’s very challenging to adjust to being disabled even temporarily. and that if i do end up with a diagnosis that’s gonna be #a lot to handle. both mentally and just with the lifestyle changes i’ll have to make #and he makes a bit of a face and goes ‘i wouldn’t quite call you disabled. i’d just say ‘ill’’#and i just sort of look at him. and i blink. and i go ‘i am physically Un-Able to do things i am normally able to do’#‘i can’t walk long distances at all. i can’t sit in chairs for too long without causing pain’#‘i’ve spent the last 24 hours staring longingly at my computer because i want to draw but am currently Not Able To’#he didn’t argue with me but i can tell he was still unnerved by the idea of picturing his daughter as disabled #also like . illness and disability are not mutually exclusive? several disabilities are or involve chronic illness #i shouldn’t be surprised though. i mentioned considering starting lexapro #and he went on his ‘you’re an adult and it’s your choice in the end but i wouldn’t recommend it’ spiel #(he’s anti-psychiatry bc he doesn’t like the idea of breaking the brain down into smth so purely physical)#(and also doesn’t like the idea of someone being dependent on pills their whole life)#(which i’m giving him some slack on rn bc he is a just-got-clean recovering opoid addict. so)#(btw before any of you say SHIT abt my dad he took his pills legally prescribed for chronic pain and did not abuse them)#(and even if he DID that would give nobody a right to make a moral judgement on him. ok cool)#i then reminded him that my mom takes anti-anxiety meds and they really really helped her #and he just goes ‘true.’ and moves on #king u got some shit to unpack #it’s fine if u didn’t want to start antidepressants when it was recommended to you meds aren’t for everyone #but like come on now. u don’t gotta be so fundamentally against it when literally ur own wife who you adore takes psych meds #anywho my mom handled me making the disability comment much better. she was basically just like ‘ur fear is totally understandable’#‘u have a good support system we’ll help you through it’#which. thanks mom 👍 that was very kind of her to say

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arolesbianism · 8 months ago

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I hand you a doodle and then go back to dying of the plague

#keese draws #oc art #oc #ocs #furry #furry art #furry oc #Im sick 😔#I can tell because all my joints are hurting instead of just my knees lol #which actually is strange since usually when Im sick the first sign is my nose being super duper runny #but I can actually breath just fine if not better than usual rn wow #but yeah say hi to antinio theyre a design I got a couple months ago I think #theyre a part of a new ish story I made around the same time that surrounds the other escaped patients of the facility pent escaped from #pent didnt actually go with them tho partially because none of them like her and she doesnt like any of them but mostly because shes more #physically unstable than the others and needs regular goop recharges that kept her camping near the facility until bud and daisy dropped in #but yeah everyone else left together and spent some time wandering before getting lured into the origin place of the goop #this guy is actually quite the unique case among the bunch because they were originally an ocean dweller before they were revived #this basically means they only half understand what everyone else is saying and can't actually talk themself #and also that despite not needing to breath they constantly feel like theyre suffocating and they are generally pretty bitter abt all this #they cant rly go home partially because theyve been dead for too long and mostly because theyd kind of just fall apart in the ocean #even just washing their hands causes their fur and skin to get all slimy #hey they at least have a new bestie even if said bestie is also part of the only half understands everyone party meaning they even less #know how to communicate with eachother since they both speak different languages from eachother #but hey now they can be confused abt whatever the hell applebounce is yelling abt together

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sysig · 1 year ago

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Working on some designs for one of my oldest OCs, “Cure” (Patreon)

I also managed to track down some of her initial concept sketches from 2018 - why 2018 considering I called her one of my oldest OCs?

Well, her design has always been rather elusive, even more so since she spent so much time in my head without being brought to paper - even these sketches make mention of it!

Pretty sure she got “Cure” in 2018 too - starting to take form!

#Doodles #Original #The quotes are very intentional lol #As stated under the cut I started designing her in 2018 but she's existed since around 2007-ish? Latest would be 2010 #Part of her having such a range of uncertainty is that it took me many many years to consider putting her to paper!#She might've existed in 2007 but there's no record! She might've existed in 2010 but no record! I don't think I even wrote about her #She was a completely mentally-extant OC for many many many years #Partially because at the time I had just started drawing and knew I wouldn't be able to put down what was in my head to physicality #And then the longer she stayed in my head the more she became that kind of mental kaleidoscope ever-shifting impossible-to-draw design #But screw that! I have a few years of doodling under my belt now! Even if I can't get her quite right I can at least make an attempt!#It's especially funny because outwardly she is meant to be a pretty generic teddy bear lol - not Exactly but more like the vibe of one #Round and plush and innocent - innocuous #And really she's not like Nefarious or anything lol - she's not what she seems but she also is?? It's hard to explain lol #A lot of it does still come down to subtleties so it actually is still hard to capture but it'll only keep getting harder the longer I wait!#So at least pinning down Some things about her design that I'm happy with and can refer to helps the me down the line haha #The first one is actually pretty close! It's always a coin flip on whether the first one is a disaster or nails it haha #The heart ears and straight body are pretty good tho I gotta say #And honestly it was the little lace-ribbon bracelet that was the deciding factor for me to try drawing her again haha #I had an idea I thought was silly but to do it I needed a design to work with!#Getting there getting there - every little bit closer

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cyb3r-mutt · 8 months ago

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Have to go see my father again this morning I really really really don’t want to

#but I can’t cancel cuz I actually have to return his birth certificate #cuz my younger sister needed it to apply for her uk passport cuz she wasn’t born there like me and my older sister #but she has even less contact with him than i do #well none actually and even though I am extremely low contact with him I am an anxiety and guilt ridden people pleaser f #rant incoming sorry #also she’s being so rude to me about it even though I did it for her??? i didn’t go for coffee with him so we could have a relationship #I went so she could move to Scotland like she’s been planning for years #and I don’t even talk to her about it because it’s not something im like holding over her head??#I fully volunteered to do it to be a nice sibling #I didn’t even tell her about how it went cuz I knew she didn’t want to hear about it #the only updates I gave were im going to get it and I got it and now giving it back #so why is she attacking me and asking why I want a relationship with him????#I never said that and I fucking don’t??????#i did years and years and years of therapy to not get physical reactions to him sending me a random text #so yeah im able to receive a text from him without it triggering a panic attack #but only because I’ve been through extensive trauma therapy like emdr and art #not art as is like drawing art but as in accelerated resolution therapy #anyways hes an asshole that I know will never be the dad I wanted #and im glad i did it cuz im excited for my sister to move to Scotland cuz i want a reason to visit all the time

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cestacruz · 9 months ago

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Mmm Jeanne

#servants cant learn new stuff (i'll talk about jalter in a second) therefore #jeanne shouldnt know how to read or write #we actually Dont get a confirmation that she can do those things in summer 3. because the book that jalter thought jeanne wrote #was actually Her own book #jeanne works with marie. maybe she comes up with the ideas and does rough drawings that marie would be Delighted to bring to life #marie reads to jeanne is my image #jalter taught herself how to read and write and i think that was possible because of the unstability of her existence #if you try to teach jeanne how to read and write it will stick for a second but if like idk 15-20 min pass she would likely find herself #unable to read again and her writting to be suboptimal #she can sign her own name ofc thats historical #she can recite the bible from memory iirc #i love jalter's ability to be her own person even if it comes with the fact that she is very much. an ephemeral dream #like her FCKING SKILL IS CALLED.#WHY MUST YOU HURT ME LIKE THIS FGO #anyway. now jeanne again but physical #oughhh thank u for the support in the tags when i said jeanne should have self image issues because she looked different in life #i hadnt fully talked bout it i just went with hair but yeah. i need to check again because im pretty sure her body wasnt Suuuper different #but i just gotta confirm #but im just so i love the idea of her just not liking the way she manifested abd not knowing Why she manifested like that #when there are Countless depictions of her with her short brown hair #sieg looks to the side whistling (its not his fault but he knows the pseudo servant part #and its probably a mix of . fate apocrypha's manifestation and of how some people imagined jeanne looked like #but it still upsets her #not that she'd ever complain to people #you can probably get it out of her tho #unrelated and only to those who reached this far: im thinking of a singularity set in 15th century orleans in the Middle of the hundred year #war. but the difference aint “oh jeanne d'arc came back to life evil” rather than “there seems to be a battle here where it shouldnt and oh #my god is that jeanne- oh god jeanne d'arc fucking died--#and chaldeas has to try and fix the war without living breathing jeanne d'arc #actually thats not the middle of the 100yearwar but yknow what i mean. also haha jk unless...

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keeps-ache · 1 year ago

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OH (one of) my siblings is learning to draw now !! this is very cool and swag, the only thing that isn't is that he is trying to learn from me fhsvh

#just me hi #he is doing so great and well !!!#i also have two other younger siblings that picked up drawing in the last 2-3 years which is really cool !!!!!!!#i'm super proud of them and i am excited to see where they go :DD #but they NEED to stop asking me how to do this-and-this because i Don't Know hfsvh #it's really cool seeing how their interests culminate and i waaaant to see what they maaaaaake #trying to convince my brother (apollo) to make an oc bc i feel like it's kind of fundamental. and also i want to see what he makes Hdbvsh #leo has already made like. a Ton of ocs and tells me about them from time to time #they're very cool 15/5 #my youngest sibling is also an artist but i don't know about any of her characters #i know she likes to paint though! she's very good with colours :DD #+ i have a sibling that writes #very awesome stuff! i wonder in which direction they're going to get weird Lmaooo #//okay just came to say that. i think my siblings are awesome n cool lol #but because i'm weird in ways unrelated to art i physically can't say that to them hfsbvhs #so i'm going to tell a handful of people on the net :3 hfsvhf #//okay NOW ciao. bye. toodles. BYYEE !! <33

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saltedsolenoid · 2 years ago

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vriska serket sketch page dedicated to thatonekat

#first thing that i drew since i Aged Up #will vriska define my next year of living?#vriska.#vriska serket #homestuck #and jegbert's there too #i don't know what i tag them as. i need to figure that out #bcuz i know i had a clear preference for like months #but then i just. forgot #OH WELL!#also the main vriska fullbody? i know i fucked up the timeline with her but tbh i drew it without a reference #and i think she should be like 15 in that picture #mid-meteor trip #also i think the godtiered versions of the trolls should have kept their physical disabilities.#hot take of the day #things that i draw

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im2tired4usernames · 1 year ago

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I'm so unbelievably annoyed.

So I care for my siblings 24/7 I work on the weekends I am constantly nonstop working cleaning care giver cooking working working working have no time for rest no time for hobbies no time for friends no time for me.

The older women at my church have discovered that I am childfree for three hours on Wednesday mornings.

They have just decided that I am leading a Bible study now for those three hours.

I do not believe or like Christianity.

I do not have time for this.

I can not put myself as an apostate or things will get very bad for me.

I do NOT have time for this.

But they seem to think I need to make time for Christ and myself and reading the Bible with women who are over three times my age not exaggerating seems to be the best solution.

I do not want to do this.

I can not seem to get it through their thick stupid cultist skulls why I do not want to do this in a kind polite way that won't put me in a uncomfortable and bad light.

"Because I need to make time for fellowship and Christ."

It's important to note my late mother was a big part of the Wednesday Bible study so they're probably just hoping I'll fill in the hole.

I still do not want to do this and can not seem to find a way out of it because every time I come up with an excuse on why I can't they find a way to fight it and talk over me because they just fixed the solution so i can host and lead the Bible study.

I am 26 the next youngest is 67 in the group I do not understand why they think this is the best selfcare situation for me when everyone can clearly see I am so short on time and energy.

I DO NOT WANT TO DO THIS BUT I CANT GET OUT OF IT OUR FIRST MEETING IS THIS WEDNESDAY AT MY FUCKIN HOUSE.

#someone fuckin help me GET OUT OF THIS THEY HAVE NONSTOP BEEN TEXTING MY PHONE SINCE THURSDAY ABOUT WHAT BOOK WE'RE DOIN THAT THEY PICKED #ALSO I HAVE TO BUY SOME SHITTY CHRISTAN BOOK AND I REFUSE TO SPEND MY MONEY ON RELGION #i don't fucking get it half the women think I'm a blessing and such a good good good girl whos list her faith because of her mommy's cancer #the other half sees me as a demonic slutty witch and has done nothing but scream and talk down to me and hurt me my whole life #i don't get it i DON'T WANT TO DO THIS WHY STRESS YOU SO THICK #READ THE LINES #REEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAD BETWEEN THE LINES I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DO THIS #I WANT TO SPEND THOSE THREE HOURS DOIN CHORES WITH OUT KIDS BUGGING ME DRAWING OR LISTENING TO MUSIC N BOOKS MY FAMILY WONT LET ME LISTEN T #I WANT TO ENJOY BEING ALONE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER FOR A LITTLE BIT FUUUUUUUUUCK YOU #seriously i need to get out of this for my fucking physical and mental health #i don't want to be apart of this i want to scream #i need to fake my death

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