#alright. enough illness

[leminaus]

haiii

[tmos-time]

guy whos been using the zosan tag like diet erisol for months: yeah i think eridan could be convinced to get into one piece. yeah ill do that for @erisolweek free day

(if any of the japanese parts are clunky or off in any way, thats on me for only having translation pages and absorbed one piece knowledge to go off of, LOL. unfortunately, headcanoning that trolls can use languages like theyre just accents doesnt give me the power to depict it flawlessly)

[professionalchaoticdumbass]

in the past week or so ive seen a lot of people posting about how there's this oversexualization of trans girls on the site, and I gotta agree, there are way too many people (including other trans women!) who act like we're all dtf 24/7 or always super kinky and horny. I've been tired of that stereotype for ages and i am saying this as a rather sexual trans girl myself...

...but I think people are overcorrecting a bit now, and are starting to veer into "trans women shouldnt be talked about sexually / need to be shielded from it" territory. and, to me, that's really dangerous, because outside of some queer spaces - and even within them- the sexuality of trans girls is heavily scrutinized, as is attraction to us. as much as I dislike certain aspects of the memes and jokes that kickstarted the stereotypes, I'm kinda grateful for them as well. girldick jokes helped with my bottom dysphoria, voice kink shit helped me like my voice, and the whole "tgirl tummy tuesday" thing gave me a lot of confidence in my body where I hated it before. I think this open appreciation of trans sexiness has done a lot for both me and others on tumblr.

again, obviously its got its problems - people end up assuming every trans girl is horny, or only spread positivity if its related to sex with us, and of course the people who do have dysphoria from the things that are being sexualized are left out (like those the "girls without dicks are like angels without wings" memes, ugh, feels icky every time). and on the note of comparing tgirls to angels, we also started getting treated like we're ethereal fertility goddesses and that t4t sex was some inherently sacred ritual. spoiler alert, trans girls are normal-ass people and t4t sex can be holy for the participants but its generally a pretty normal thing to do as well

coming back to the "don't sexualize trans girls" posts now, I think they were initially going in the right direction, but at this point I'm starting to raise an eyebrow at more than a few of them. I'm not gonna whip out the "youre a sex hating puritan if you post about it" accusation because that is obviously wrong but again, I think people are definitely overcorrecting and starting to turn this into a (false) dichotomy when it's not. its a complex topic and each individual trans woman will feel differently about it.

(I feel like the internet just erases any nuance in favor of a two-sided, highly polarized flamewar with unrealistic views on both sides. actually i wouldn't even say this is a super-nuanced discussion because its really not that hard to say "fetishization is bad, but so is suppression of sexuality". will this post just end up being a void scream and people will continue drawing lines between one side and the other? probably. but I am a stubborn bitch and I have hope that we can be reasonable.)

anyways I'll close this off by saying that I wrote this between around 1:30 and 2 AM on terrible sleep the night before, that I hope what I said is coherent enough, and that I will keep being a trans girl who is openly sexual, gets horny over other trans women, and is proud to be transsexy as fuck. I will keep being critical of jokes and trends and memes that stereotype us, even from our own community. I will keep being angry at how poorly us trans folks are treated with regards to our sex lives, bodies, and relationships between the two. I will keep loving and lusting over trans women without fetishizing them. And I will keep doing all of these til the day I die.

[ronnabyte]

watching s2 p2. guess thats what happens sometimes though

[tears-of-boredom]

day 7: fantasy

i tried to make a lil animation. turned out alright in my opinion

[faaun]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

[high-sixing]

I’m super sorry for skipping two prompts for the Stancest Summer and posting this one a few days late 🙇‍♀️ One of them is smut, which I am super shu about and still working on. The other I just got too busy to draw.

But I wanted to post this one, even if it’s past its due date because this one means alot to me.

So the final prompt for @5summersofstancest was “A Tight-Knit Family” and I dedicate this piece to @donethedevilspedicure. I have been in the Stancest Fandom for a little over 5 years. Maybe more. I’ve seen people come and go and I adored everyone that I could. But it’s a very special thing when you make a close friend in a fandom. I am very glad that I took the time to find a lost Akuroku fic for a certain someone within the Stancest server as a challenge. I never imagined we would get as close as we are now a year later.

The Stancest fandom is a fandom family I am happy to be a part of, no matter how many people I see pass by. And I am especially thankful that it helped awkward little me make a good friend. From making fanart for you, giving you a 2.0 avatar remake, you tuning into my random discord gaming streams and listening to me talk about random shit. I enjoyed it all and more. May we have more years of friendship, Devil.

And I hope other people in the fandom can make a good friend like I have. Here’s to our Grunkles! Until next Summer!

This piece also marks the end of the pencil I’ve been using to draw this entire time. This thing has been through 3 stancest summers and all the fanart I’ve made since starting High-Sixing. It’s time for the lil guy to rest. You did good, Pencil-chan.

[art--harridan]

[Image description: A digital drawing based on the film Sing Street, depicting the character Conor Lawlor. It depicts a shot from the music video they made for The Riddle of the Model, so Conor is wearing his outfit for that. The gloved hands of Raphina hold a mirror, which shows Conor. He looks forward, mouth open as if he's in the middle of singing a lyric. The background of the mirror is green, while the background of the piece is an electric teal. This background also has red wavy lines on that follow the shape of the drawing. There's some fainter waves in the background, which are light teal and purple respectively. The actual drawing uses a textured brush, with clean lines and grainy shading. It's a dark purple.]

Inktober - Day 29 (Navigator)

Film - Sing Street (John Carney, 2016)

[umem1ya]

what if. what if I did a whole post abt ex-togame what if.

[dailypearldoodles]

Pearl but as a Sky COTL person(i think their called moths)

Day 342

Just the newbies are called moths by the fandom! Canonically theyre children of light, but people usually call them skykids or skids for short

Have a moth Pearl and Grian :3

[taiyami]

As much as I truly enjoy the ways the ygo anime developed and added to Mana's character, I can't help but be left with such a bittersweet pang when I think of her.

Her bond and devotion with Atem and Mahaad were all she had left after the events that led them to their places of rest. The millennium ring that she inherited from her beloved teacher Mahaad was now tainted by not only the bitter pain of his absence but also the hand of darkness. Did it change her? Or was that just the influence of time and the loneliness of losing both her closest friend and her mentor?

It must have been difficult to see Atem's name be scrubbed from existence for her. She knew him intimately, considering the nature of their circumstances. Perhaps her love for her friend was enough to surpass lifetimes; enough to wait thousands of years to reunite with her best friend and her mentor. We never saw Mana make the same open declaration to serve Atem for eternity as Mahaad did, but maybe she didn't have to. Maybe her devotion for them both was enough to be able to reunite with them when they needed her again.

[king-midas-fortnite]

🧪

What was life like for you while trapped in the underworld?

I'd really rather not discuss this.

[He takes a short breath as a throbbing discomfort starts.]

It wasn't anything I couldn't handle--

[The breath becomes a hiss through his teeth and a hand flies up to his head as the serum's ingrediants ignite a firey pain behind his eyes.]

Fuck--Alright! It was awful, is that not enough!? I was in hell! Imprisoned there by a god who was angry that a man had evaded him for far longer than any mortal should ever be able to.��

It wasn't a full two thousand years for me thanks to the Zero Point's own timeline, but it was for him, and thats all he gave a shit about! Gods are always so god damn arrogant.

[Thankfully the words spilling out of him relieve the pressure in his mind, but they do nothing to quell the discomfort of remembering things so horrible.]

Every day. For four years. Was a fucking nightmare. Total isolation in a cell to myself was broken up by the goading voices of shades that he allowed to taunt me, or torture from the ones powerful enough to remain corporeal. 

And by the visions given to me! Whether they were from him, or from the shades, I don't know and I don't care. 

When they weren't showing me the death of my daughters over and over and over again! they'd show me escape. I'd be running out of my cell and towards freedom, towards Jules, only to wake right back where I was, sitting on the stone floor with one hand chained above my head while my other arm, useless and handless lay at my side.

I could not eat. I could not sleep. I felt nothing but pain and misery for every hour spent in that miserable place. 

[He laughs, humorlessly. Manically.]

Oh, but sometimes, he'd bless me with his company. Hades. He'd grace me with a visit himself, come to remind me that this would be my eternity. That he owned me. 

I think what was most horrendous, was I started to look forward to him dropping by. At least it was something, anything, other than the fucking shades! 

[He takes a large breath and heaves a sigh. The pain from the serum had worn off entirely, leaving him exhausted.]

There. You have your answer, and I need a drink.

[her-canine-teeth]

bad astrology by flower face

[voidedjuice]

finally getting back to working on her again 👍

[the-busy-ghost]

"Oh it would have been more satisfying if the humans had invented a technology which defeated the Martians rather than have them killed off by accident just when humanity's impotence in the face of disaster seems to be confirmed". I

To me that's just a fancy way of saying "Yeah but humans could totally handle the Martians and the writer has a duty to reassure the audience of that!"

Sir we cannot even handle climate change and I'm sorry to tell you that it's not entirely due to a lack of technological expertise

[boytoyhalo]

sighhhh it really is gonna be f!cell killing the fed workers isnt it. that's where we're going with this story and there's nothing i can do about it. ok fine. sure