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I'm out of the hospital, turns out I have some kind of emotional trauma that's making my body try to suffocate itself, honestly same but what a bitch way to do it. Making it so I can barely breathe but I still have 99% oxygen and my vitals are good. Fuckin' hell dude. Anyways wish me luck in figuring that out, didn't make a lot of progress crying in the parking lol at 4am while waiting for an Uber after the news that my mind and body have disconnected or something, but check the bracelet swag
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#hell yeah#im going to explode#literally i was so chill#i do get stressed at work but i love my job#i had a really bad dating experience the month before but that's not it i think#i was waiting for my uber home while still suffocating and some random dude started playing music#i have no idea what the lyrics were#i dont even think it was English#but i was thinking about how frustrated i was and i felt my face get wet#just uncontrollable tears#4 minutes straight of crying#head looking up and wiping away every few seconds#paused so my driver didn't see me sobing but they did here me sniffing and trying yo breathe. not the best look#got upstairs and home#picked up a back of nerd candy and i fell apart#ive been chill for atleast a week#yeah i couldn't breathe but nothing came up#alll of this to say...#it was April 2nd#and unless my bodys a prankster#the only other thing from today was the end of the boop#i miss the boop so much#not it but holy shit it brings a little silly smile#boop
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the cover for the re-animator comic i made as a final project last semester and never actually finished lol. about dan reanimating herbert and figuring out he's gay in the process
#from dan's pov so it's like..he blames herbert for this happening to him that's why he's evily stealing his heart from dan's head(it's what#he uses to think after alll...) but also it's not true so it's really just a reflection in a broken mirror bc after all theyre the same..#anyways i dont like explaingin my pieces so that's all i'll say#reanimator#daniel cain#herbert west#reanimator fanart#reanimator 1985#romeo art#the dialogue on the comic was so bad lol...may remake it if i find the motivation some day
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Shuuichi and Touko
#natsume´s book of friends#natsume yuujinchou#natori shuuichi#fujiwara touko#dailynatsume#nyedit#allanimanga#animanga#fyanimegifs#fyanimanga#dailyanime#anisource#anime gifs#animeedit#gifs#gifset#natsume season 7#shoujo#shoujoedit#gif#anime#anime gif#sebfreaks gif#touko defeats them all#ALLL I SAY!!!!#best mama#tbh i´m like shuuichi when i have to call somebody
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sorry but do you ever think about the fact that the bernard we have today is a direct amalgamation of everything that happened in his past and i know that sound like such an obvious statement to say but it actually kills me to know that you can draw a direct line from who he is today all the way back to that sixteen year old boy who watched his best friend bleed out. like it is the defining moment in his life. it fundamentally shaped who he is and the person he's become. he is the bernard we know and love not despite the grieves shooting but because of it. because the gangs all got together and shot up his school. because tim walked out of that room with nothing but a baseball bat. because his darla got shot. because he watched her gasp and cry as she died. because he watched the blood coagulate around the wound. because he sat there and held her hand as her life drained out of her. because he walked into school that day with a joke he knew would make her laugh and her nose would scrunch up and she'd snort a little and tim would roll his eyes at him and call him ridiculous and instead he walked out with a bloody white shirt, blood under his fingernails, and two friends less. because, even now, almost half a decade out from the shooting, he thinks that if he closes his eyes, he will always be that stupid, scared little sixteen year old, holding the cooling body of dead best friend.
#there is a direct throughline from the boy we meet in robin 121 all the way to man tim reconnects with in urban legends 4#like maybe you guys have other interpretations of it but to me this is *the* defining moment in his life#and that's not to say that he perpetually bound to this traumatic event but it impacted him sooo much that his life is now divided#before shooting and after shooting#like you cannot tell me him falling into the cult was just something that happened to him#it happened bc he was in such a bad place from watching his friend die and then on top of that he loses contact with tim!!!!#this is his canon event!!!!#if you took it away from him if you made it so that he never had to go through it#the bernard we would get would not be the same bernard we got in urb leg4 and tdr#does it not make you want to chew on drywall that to get to the bear we love he has watch his darla die first????#head in hands head in hands#and it wasnt like batman came immediately after darls died!!! iirc they had to wait a little before he came#which means!!!!! alll those kids but bear esp had to sit in that room with darls' dead body until batman came!!!!!#do you think he cried and held her hand until batman came??? do you think he begged her not to go??? or do you think he told her#stories and made promises of all the things they were gonna do after they got out??? do you think he put pressure on the wound and#watched as the blood soaked through the jacket they were using as a towel??? and when she finally passed do you think he bit his lip#clean through to stop himself from wailing? bc if he's too loud the gunmen will hear them and he cannot be the reason jay from#history dies#auuuugh i cant fucking do this anymore#bernard dowd#timbern#darla aquista#louis grieve trio
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She hasn't gone mad from pain. It's just that her inner feelings have been suppressed for too long.
The Double (2024) 1.11
#the double#墨雨云间#cdramaedit#userdramas#cdrama#asiandramanet#cdramasource#dailyasiandramas#perioddramaedit#wang xingyue#wu jinyan#mymymy#ep 11#do you know what it feels like to not lose#we are onnnnn *checks notes* ep 11...and we got bitng alREaDYYYYYY#ROMANTICISMMMMMM#DELICIOUSNESSSSSS#literallyyyy *fangirl gigglesss*#oh we in it now friendssss WE IN IT NOWWWWWWWWWW#i love themmm and I neeed him in my lifeeeeeeeeeeeeee#excuse me while i twirl my hair and do the tango by myself#angst in dramas will forever be my jelly jammmm#and I must say that the way drama handles the grief/ pain/ revenge tbh alll the emotions with FL's ex is just soo goodttt#im hurtededd every flashback and the qin competion had me sobbing... girlie was BLEeding and i felt every bit of it of that song
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#helllloooo alll. I thought it'd be perfect to come back today#today is my bdayyy yaaay. ✨#its one of those melancholic ones#when u ponder your existence#but its okay#watched ai no wakusei since it was made in 2004 like me 😔💔#btw#i hope ill be able to ne more active here again#ive just been really busy w school n life and my mental health went 20000 steps down so yes. i hope itll just get better#this bday is always bittersweet#well since its the 19th#itll always be#honestly ive been avoiding subrosa even until now cuz my mental health is so shit i cant even imagine how subrosa will make me feel. but im#on it. i honestly miss all of u guys so much. ye probably not many of u care but still#i like this place. it feels somewhat like home. even tho i still feel out of place sometimes its still comforting being here. whatever lol#havent yapped in a while so im vomiting words. love you all. im hoping the depressive episode will leave my ass finally.#u know its bad when u havent watched bt lives since around mid november#but its okay ai no wakusei somewhat healed me. so im hoping for the best now (says this every month and ends up worse)#yeah.#🥰#buck tick#atsushi sakurai#ameoto ha Chopin no Shirabe#even if i cant come back yet im thinking abt all of u n love u. take care of yourselves and yes. do stuff you love. smell roses. look at th#moon that's been soooo beautiful lately 🥺 love#Spotify
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There's something about like. A certain genre of posts / Online Opinions about insecurity/depression/misery/complaints that are so unhelpful that they wrap right around to being straight up hilarious. and it's the ones that are more or less written to the tone of "Feeling bad? That's gross!" Like, just so you know, don't voice your insecurities/ have low self esteem, because that's offputting! You're gross and weird. Don't be insecure about that, though. That would be stupid if you felt insecure about people disliking you for being insecure. Not attractive. You should be thinking about being as attractive as possible. You shouldn't make comments about suicide, even if you're suicidal! Keep those thoughts entirely to yourself. Make sure nobody around you knows you're thinking about this. It would Make Them Uncomfortable. It's better to keep these thoughts in your head where they can fester. Don't post OR talk to friends with complaints about you feeling miserable or depressed. Tbh people who are sad/upset a lot? Kinda a red flag! You are probably miserable because you're a bad person and you've brought this on yourself. If you don't have friends, it's because you're awful to be around. Easy! Solved the problem for you. And no, there is no nuance to this, got it? So, make sure to feel bad about feeling bad, but don't feel bad about it, because, well, that's just gross. And annoying! You might've wanted your brain rotted thoughts to be Peer Reviewed, you might have just needed to vent- you might've been hoping for some comfort, to get things off your chest. Well, don't! Don't talk about thoughts or feelings that are negative with your friends, you'd be burdening them and that's only meant for THERAPY. #SponsoredbyBetterHelp #MentalHealth like, DAMN. that's so helpful. you're so good at helping. I um really liked the part where these are all hard and fast rules that encourage keeping feelings bottled up and keeping your friends at arm's length. That's really funny of you.
#I FEEL LIKE COMPLAINING RN in the context of this alternate universe these posts live in. that makes me evil rn. I may not even keep#the post up. but I Needed to complain about these bc I hate seeing them#really funny and good because it very much feeds into that part of the brain where you go wait am I stupid? am I horrible? am I annoying?#before you express any kind of personal feelings. from feeling insecure alll the way down the spectrum to feeling like your life is over#before anyone How Dare You Say We Piss On The Poor-s at me YES there is a nuanced version of this#which is. you can make someone feel like shit (A Fellow Sufferer Of The Mental Eelnesses) by using them as your dumping ground#in excess and usually with no regard for how they feel and without Regular conversations inbetween#and in a one-sided way where they can't do the same and complain with you as a sounding board in return#don't tell new friends you hardly know abt THE MOST personal shit you can possibly think of. there are steps being skipped here#right? we know this. we all know it. setting a boundary is a thing. overwhelming a person is a thing#on the other hand there is such a thing as a friend who IS okay to listen and wants to help. and friends who relate.#maybe talking abt personal stuff makes ppl feel closer sometimes. just a thought! maybe not everything is Emotional Labor. maybe just maybe#but like come on. these are almost intentionally unhelpful posts#long post
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Nanofather Lore insanepost
Alright. We've seen my murderboard. It's incomprehensible. But for those who haven't, here it is:
It includes... a lot of everything. I couldn't begin to describe the journey I went on putting this together. Without further ado:
The Nanofather, also known as "The Weaver," "Creaky Man," and sometimes "Geltfrimpen" or briefly as "wily weaver," "dirty jeremy," "muck dweller," and "crusty man," is a recurring ominous character which appears most frequently in the opening segments of The Adventure Zone: Steeplechase. He says a lot of weird shit. And after 33 episodes, I believe I have a pretty good understanding of this shit. Take a walk with me, through this 8-part dive into what the Nanofather's deal is.
I will warn you, this is... insanely long. Turn back now.
1. The Foretelling [moments leading up to the weaver]
Back in episode 18 of Ethersea, Justin mentioned how he's the last of them who has yet to DM. Then, later in the episode, Griffin loses his train of thought and Justin prompts him with "Spin the... spin the yarn" and the riffing leads Clint to say, "weave," and Justin says, "step up to the loom... let the weaving begin at the loom."
In the next episode, as the intro song fades out, Justin interjects in a high falsetto song, singing "Weave another tapestry! McElroy Family and me," and the bit goes on for a minute or so. Later, in Ethersea 24, when trying to convince Griffin to reconsider what happened in the narrative, Justin asks him to "Check your loom, weaver!"
When Justin finally makes his Steeplechase debut, he initially struggles with starting the story. So, Griffin jumps in with,
Griffin: "Can I do what you usually do to me?" Justin: "Please." Griffin: "And be like [singing dramatically] 'The yarn-spinner takes the loom in his hands and weaves a magical tale. Take the wizard by his hands as he flies you around on his rug made of wings and a angel’s hair.'"
Every subsequent episode has the same opening. The recurrence of these instances have culminated in the persona of "The Weaver."
2. The Stew [in which the nanofather discusses various culinary topics]
The Nanofather routinely brings up the food of his world, in some way. This starts as early as episode 3, in which he says, "Perhaps a few more moments before the stew is prepared."
Other segments include advice about nano-nutmeg [12], clarifications about cilantro (called corriander in the UK)[29], and directing the addressee to search for pepperoni and green pepper in "the pyre" [19].
The other three instances of mentions of food directly address Shookles the cat. First, "Shoockles, your master calls. Where's the scum canteen? Fetch it from the shoof... my thirst is unslakable" [7]. Then, in the very next episode, says, "Please... the pollen broth. My throat became so dry... Fetch me the pollen broth, Shoockles" [8]. And most recently, he speaks rather dramatically, saying, "I believe I went… as far as I could… I don’t know if… it was far enough… I’m terrified to push it further… I believe this is the limit… Yes… no, that’s true… It’s true… The greater danger is hesitation, yes… I will add one more half-teaspoon of cumin, Shookles. Thank you, Shookles, I… should listen to your culinary acumen more" [22]. This is assumedly in reference to something he is cooking, perhaps the stew mentioned in episode 3. Perhaps all of these ingredients are being used in the stew.
Either way, these interactions tell us that the Nanofather has an interest in cooking, and that Shookles acts as an assistant to him.
3. Direct Interactions [in-character conversations]
There are several instances where the Nanofather speaks with our player characters, or appears within their world.
This first happens in episode 20, when the crew enters the lair of Geltfrimpen and hears a voice familiar to the players coming from the dragon. He says, "Excuse me for this, but I have to keep up appearances." He continues to speak with the boys throughout the scene as they fight the animatronic. He says, "I’m having trouble staying here," and within the scene, Justin describes that, "The sound seems to be coming from like... the entirety of Geltfrimpen. It’s emanating from him, not localized to any one point in the dragon’s body." Beef asks the Weaver if he could come out of the dragon, to which he responds, "Would that I could." When Montrose begins refering to him as Geltfrimpen, he says, "I am not Geltfrimpen. I am here. But I am not Geltfrimpen." Emerich asks for his name, which is met with "Would that I know," but because Beef had called him creaky man earlier, the voice says "Creaky Man will suffice for now, I suppose. A good amount of christening."
He goes on to explain his situation at their behest:
"I will do my best to tell you what I know. It takes quite a bit for me to be as here as I am. But I will try. Part of me is in Geltfrimpen. But I am many places throughout the world. Part of me is here. Part of me is imprisoned here, I think. And through this act, I am no longer... trapped here, this part of me. I’m able to be more concentrated, if that—if that is the correct word, else... elsewhere... I will not be here long, and then I will vacate Geltfrimpen for good. And I will be a little bit more myself, elsewhere."
The implications within this one paragraph are that he does not have much of a physical form, and is potentially some sort of spirit, but he can manifest part of himself at will in some places. Montrose asks if he has a home base, but he says, "I’m... scattered. More accurately, I think... shattered."
He follows with even more interesting information,
"I’ve seen you elsewhere, I was... in one of the vans, as you made the thrilling escape. I was there. I called out, but it was so loud. I have watched you from the porch of Ustaben. In the... the whittling I sat, a rocking chair... I couldn’t summon up enough voice to reach you, but I called out. I called out to anyone who would listen, honestly. But you three are the first who seem to... be looking hard enough to hear."
There have been two heists with van escapes. The first is in episode 3, when Gravel pulled up in a stolen truck/van (it is important to note that they use them interchangably). The four of them were the only ones in the vehicle. However, this escape was not very thrilling, so we are going to refer to the Gutter City heist.
Sticky Finger(s) Paul Pantry asks the three of them to steal a truck called the Clean, and notes that it is made of Hardlight. When the time comes, Emerich has attuned with the hardlight Short Doug and drives in one of the trucks with him [9].
The second thing the Nanofather mentions is an obvious reference to the Ustaben attraction, Whittle Around. In the setup episode, Whittle Around is established as having a porch where "grandpa" sits and whittles wood-- grandpa, of course, being a hardlight construct who was initially Eustace but has since been replaced [0].
The combiantion of these two implies that the Nanofather exists for moments within, or as, these constructs. His spirit seems to be able to travel between them-- to what extent this is under his control remains questionable. Perhaps he is living within the park itself, haunting it. This is given further support at the end of episode 27, when an arcade machine in the back of Poppy's Place crackles with static and we hear the Nanofather say, "act... quickly." Emerich however is unable to make further contact, and this is the last time he seems to interact with them. Montrose says that they "have a ghost in the machine"[28].
4. The World He Inhabits [what we know about the environment, the character, and allusions to mechanisms of communication]
In his first appearance, the Nanofather says to the audience (which may be moreso to the players/player characters? uncertain), "welcome travelers," establishing that we are not from the same place he is.
The world he lives in is fleshed out through each episode. Highlights include "quite a long day tending to the muck fields" [5], "I've missed the meeting with the rust council"[13], and the afformentioned scum canteen. He also says, in episode 6, "I have a new tale for you. Of a muck-dweller turned hero to his- to his people… I seem to have lost it in the last rust storm." This sets him in a sort of wasteland. He also says, or rather, sings, "I'm a neutron guy, you're my nega-girl, I'll sweep you through the ash waste as we make our way through the,"[10] before he cuts himself off.
It seems to be a world where things are rough-- he says, "to make it 37 years is quite a blessing"[13]. That implies his age is 37, or that he has survived 37 years in the conditions that he is in. Additionally, he says, "you will find it in the pyre"[19], a pyre being defined as "a combustible heap for burning a dead body as a funeral rite," implying that they either have to make their own fires or 'bury' their dead.
Notably, there seems to be a recurring theme surrounding weather and time.
"It's gotten so quiet, lately... in the nights... and in the mornings... and the cyber night, the time between the night and the mornings..."[14] "It seems the storms have come early this evening"[4] "The last rust storm"[6]
This implies that time is somewhat technologically controlled, and weather is on a cycle. The building of Steeplechase, or what we are to assume is, is like holographically augmented[31], and so are the inside skies of the park. It is plausible to say the environment wherever the Nanofather is could also be simulated.
5. Wall Breaks [speaking to the players]
These indicate communication from the nanofather directly to the players. They imply to us more about the world, but more importantly, the means of communication and lore surrounding it.
In episode 9, we open the episode hearing a different voice. They say, "Hello? …Hello, spirits?" and begin to knock. "Nanofather says the spirits can hear you through the wall. Spirits… are you there?" But they are interupted by a familiar voice-- "Kavecca!," the nanofather says. "Just another of his stories, I suppose," Kavecca amends. "Kavecca, away from that! You dabble with powers you do not understand!" This raises a lot of questions from the players, about who Kavecca is, why there is another person speaking to them, and what the fuck the 'nanofather' means. What interests me is the referral to their audience as "spirits"-- and what implications does that have? Are they between the world the players inhabit and Steeplechase? Are the players spirits? Also factoring in Blades in the Dark, which has ghosts in it, which have been altered into hardlight for Steeplechase-- maybe the hardlight kept some of that original intent. Maybe that's how the nanofather is able to inhabit hardlight.
In the following episode, we find the nanofather singing a song. What follows is pretty strange.
ohh… I’m a neutron guy… and you’re my nega-girl… I’ll sweep you through the ash waste as we make our way through the…. [click] …do you hear me, Travis? Travis: What? I’m sorry… I didn’t realize I’d left the horn on. Travis: Are you speaking, are you- talking to me? Fare thee well. [10]
First, in "I didn't realize I'd left the horn on," a horn is primarily UK slang for telephone. That could be interpretted here as a literal telephone or whatever line of communication they seem to share. Next-- he directly addresses Travis. This is the first conversation the players have with this character, and so far the only. But it isn't the only time he addresses them:
Clinton? Travis? Gribby? My three… my three favourite micro-nephews. Here to visit me. What a wonderful treat this is… Come. Let me see if I can’t find you a new tale… Griffin: Gribby! Gribby can only say his own name. Justin: Oh? Griffin: Yeah, that’s sort of his thing. Justin: Do you… how do you… I’m surprised you have insight into these three new characters… already. Travis: I’m trying harder and harder to just pretend like we are not on the call when he records that part. Griffin: It’s the only way to not be... ensorcelled by the tapestry he weaves. Clint: Not me. Not me. Did you say Clinton? Clinton… Travis: It sounded like Clinton. Clint: I wonder who that is. Justin: Clinton, Travis and Gribby are apparently, I’ve just found this out with you guys, is— did he say— Griffin: The micro nephews. [15]
This is interesting because Travis is the only one whose name is not altered, and he was specifically addressed before. What we also glean from this is that the nanofather views them as micronephews, so he has an alleged relation to them. Previously, he has called them children but it wasn't apparent until now that he was addressing them specifically.
In the intro with Kavecca, it is important to note that they are the first person to call the weaver "the nanofather." We know from his time as Geltfrimpen that the nanofather has no proper name. Nanofather is more likely to be a title, or rather, a signifier of Kavecca's relationship to him, such as being his child or grandchild. This would put Kavecca on the same family tree as Clinton, Travis, and Gribby, if they really are his "micronephews."
6. Descent Into Weirdness [tonally different moments and their implications]
Everything The Nanofather says is weird, but these are the moments that absolutely baffle me, or upon which he is commenting on the story somehow.
The first time he seems to comment on the events of Steeplechase is in Episode 16, in response to a plot twist at the end of the previous episode (in which the Barrister arrived to kick Emerich's ass but they got him stuck in a machine). He says, "Oh, that’s not right… [rustling paper] …Oh, but this doesn’t make any sense, it was… The story wasn’t like this …. Or… I-Is it changing?" He then follows this in the next episode by... just... breathe-whistling menacingly? Note that this episode takes place when they are travelling between layers, on the start of their Ephemera quest.
Episode 18 starts with, "Oh… Oh, they haven’t… even begun to fathom it… But you…. You swore, we both swore? You know they’re not ready!" I wonder who the "you"/"we" is in this. Is it us as the audience, the players, or perhaps Kavecca? Eighteen is the beginning of the time they spend in Ephemera, and at the beginning of the episode Krystal has an encounter with someone in the Gallspire. This adds on to the commentary in 16 and implies that there is something bigger at play...
Episode 20 presents us with a poem of sorts:
Ever faster, ever closer, ever never slowing down… Ever nearer, ever clearer, ever nipping at the gown... Ever spinning, ever grinning, ever hearing what they please. Ever growing, ever knowing, that they are the disease…
There is no direct indication of what this is talking about, but I think it's about Dentonic. They never slow down, they don't know when to stop dreaming! They will warp whatever they must to fit their narrative and they don't care what the casualties are.
When the Weaver makes his entrance into the world of Steeplechase, at the end of 20 and speaking through Geltfrimpen, these occurences get more frequent:
"Oh, I… I’m mostly… mostly… with them now… [chuckles] ah… ah… smaller than I… assumed…" [21] "Mostly… echoes… yet to be… I’m sorry, I know that doesn’t… answer your question…" [23] "Yes… yes, I was surprised too, Shookles. What? Oh… Oh, they didn’t hear…"[25]
25 ends with Gravel being arrested for Sticky Finger Paul Pantry's murder. 26 opens with, "…yes, but I’d assumed it was… consigned to legend! I never would’ve expected- i guess… my understanding is not… what I’d thought it was. Terrifying, in a way, but also… quite wonderful." I can't even begin to parse what he's talking about.
Then of course, there is 27: "No, no, not to the boat... Only one... one node per layer... I tried to maintain hopping... but it’s too taxing... too many...noises..." What fucking boat? And he tries to hop between layers- maybe the nodes are in the things he is inhabiting. Geltfrimpen, the arcade box, hard doug, eustace... The arcade machine and Geltfrimpen aren't made of hardlight, and these are the methods through which he has actually been able to speak (he could only see through hardlight)... maybe these are the "nodes?" I wonder what the noises refer to.
When things start looking down for the crew as they try to piece together what the fuck is happening, The Nanofather opens episode 28 with, "I’m not sure yet… I’m hopeful… Ah, Shookles… optimistic…or perhaps… perhaps optimism is just the last refuge of those… with nothing left to lose..." The Nanofather is referring to himself in this line, and the fact that he considers himself to have "nothing left to lose" implies that he has a strong connection to the events in Steeplechase, particularly to the crew-- which makes sense given their previous interactions. But what is at stake for him is unclear.
In episode 30 he says, "The thought had crossed my mind… But it can’t be long now…" I must say this is particularly ominous because I have no idea what the "thought" is or what he is waiting for. His salvation?
Finally, we have episode 31. His last appearance.
"It feels… like something… has frayed…"
In this episode, Kenchal Denton speaks to the crew a lot about cutting loose ends. And then he drops them out of a hovercraft into a desert that seems to be entirely disconnected from the electrical grid Steeplechase is on. And we don't hear from The Nanofather again.
7. Ties to Clint McElroy. [the ways in which this comes back to him.]
[post-discussion following the moment in episode 10 when the nanofather asks, "do you hear me Travis?"] Travis: Is that guy my real dad? Justin: You wish Griffin: Legally, you have to tell Travis, if the muckdweller is his real dad Justin: Not the muck dweller. The nanofather. Please- Travis: Oh, it's right there in the name! I should have seen it a mile away it's so obvious now!
Now, this may be a stretch. And it started out to me as a joke, but guys. The further I get the further I am convinced. The Nanofather is connected to, if not is, Clint McElroy the Planeswalking Janitor.
Evidence A: He calls them "children" when he goes to tell them stories. Counterpoint: Clint can't be his own son. Counter-counterpoint: Clint's full name, according to Griffin on an episode of Wonderful, is Clinton Emil McElroy Jr. Meaning, he has a father named Clint.
Evidence B: When the Nanofather refers to Travis, Clinton, and Gribby, Justin later describes them as "these new characters," in the same way he insists that Clint McElroy his father and Clint McElroy the Planeswalking Janitor are separate things [Spiritbreakers Live in San Jose].
Evidence C: The Nanofather hops between layers, in a similar way to how Clint hops between planes. And the Nanofather seems to be fractured, scattered, not his whole self. He is powerful but weak. He is able to speak to players, characters, and potentially the audience? It transcends the boundaries between the two worlds...
Evidence D: Justin is a big fan of the TAZiverse. He has shown this multiple times but the ones I remember most are of course, when he introduces "Taako from Television" in Ephemera (and other Balance things, implies it was a legend passed down, etc), and when Griffin introduced that he would be playing Indrid in Dust 2. Like of fuckin course he'd be excited to bring things together more in small ways.
Evidence E: There has been increased Clint McElroy the Planeswalking Janitor activity, the most since before Ethersea. In April, Justin played the character Clint McElroy the Planeswalking Janitor in a liveshow in San Jose (I was there hi!!!), which had initially been planned for November but was rescheduled. Both of these, though, fall under the time in which Steeplechase was active, so he was thinking about this character during that time. Additionally, the merch of the month for August is a sticker of Planeswalking Janitor Clint McElroy. And he was mentioned in Steeplechase Episode 26, when there was debate over whether something was said by Emerich or his player.
Travis: I think that was Dad. Justin: Oh. Well, I mean... yeah, I guess dad could be in it too, Trav. Is that what you’re saying? Travis: No, I’m just saying, I think Dad was making the observation— Clint: Oh my God! Is this an appearance by Clint McElroy, the planes-walking janitor? Griffin: No, no, no, no, no, no, no. Clint: Okay— Travis: No, no, not yet. Justin: No, we can’t, we can’t. Travis: Don’t force it, don’t force it.
Evidence F: I didn't expect to find this one. Honestly I think it shows that I have gone too far as a person. But... guys this one drives me crazy. So. We meet Shoockles in Episode 4, when The Nanofather introduces him as "Cat bart... he's my cat. Bart Shoockles." And guys I was like haha that's funny there is no way this is related... But then I was on Clint's Instagram trying to figure out if maybe he had a cat, since I know Justin has one. And I came across a photo he took of a white dog, which I wasn't sure was his until I got confirmation from an old post on one of the boys' Instagrams. But... in the caption of the post with his dog, he calls him Homer. Clint McElroy has a dog named Homer. Let me just, direct you to the Simpsons family tree:
Finally, Evidence G: Justin would go really far for a bit. He likes to have fun and get silly with his family and he knows Clint would get a huge laugh out of this. And he would also do anything to get a good age joke on his dad.
8. Conclusion [how it all comes together]
The moment you've been waiting for. What does it all mean?
The Nanofather seems to play no real importance to the main plot in Steeplechase at this point, but he has huge potential to. More importantly, looking at the Nanofather gives us some insight into the state of the park and where the player characters find themselves. He works as both a narrative framing device and as a part of the story. He talks to the players, the characters, and the audience, truly bringing a special flavor to Steeplechase.
With everything we've seen and heard, there is sufficient evidence to say that the Nanofather lives within the walls of the park, travelling using its energy grid. He has only been able to manifest to the characters through the electronics and hardlight creations. When they arrived in Kidadelphia in episode 32, it was apparent they were not connected to the same electrical grid, and there was no hardlight. The fact that he was completely silent in both 32 and 33 supports this theory, because there would be no way for him to communicate with them. Either that or they were too late and he died.
He has found himself in a wasteland, with weather and times that are controlled electronically. He is scattered, does not have a name-- a shell of who he once was. If the Carmine Denton Nanofather theory were correct, this would be a beautiful picture: the guy who created a way for others to escape is trapped in the destruction that his creation wrought... Regardless, I am concerned for his wellbeing since it seemed like he was in a hurry.
The interactions between the Nanofather and the heist crew imply that there could be a larger plot with him, but I don't know how close that is to happening. The Nanofather is one complicated guy, and if they want to save him I... guess they'll have to never know when to stop dreaming.
Thank you for coming along with me on this long and gruesome ride. I started this way back after episode 30 aired, I think. It's been simmering for a month, my own personal stew of sorts... For those of you who have helped contribute to my madness, thank you, and to those who have watched in horror, I'm sorry. It's been a real one.
And now, to send you off, I present to you this excerpt from Episode 10:
Justin: Our friend and employee Jupiter is kind enough to help pull together recaps of this dumb stuff, but Jupiter, showing a lot of wisdom here, does not track the story of the nanofather […] Travis: I think they realize it's been so clear cut at this point that any child could keep track of all the nanofather/muckdweller lore.
#sierra speaks#taz steeplechase#taz steeplechase spoilers#taz nanofather#nanofather post#nanofather#taz weaver#taz theories#idk im on my shit#i am incredibly aware this is insane to parse through i have nothing to say for myself#also hi i asked a question abt the nanofather in chat on a livestream and justin was like#...its alll part of the plan... yeah...#and thats about it#so i did not find an excuse to include it#good luck yall#with reading this#also im posting at like 11 pm so. no one will see this first thing lol#this is 4265 words long. that is longer than my 10 page paper on frankenstein#uhhhh#god....
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My 1.3 k dtiys has arrived!! No rules, you can do all three, or just one, in whatever style you want. Tag me tho I'd love to see ^_^
Reblogs appreciated 🌊 my ko-fi ☕
#ITS HERE!!!!#i love alll of these#the big ocean queen especially she sai fun to draw#ldshadowlady#ldshadowlady fanart#empires smp#esmp fanart#esmp lizzie#empires 1#mcyt fanart#mcyt#mcyt dtiys#artists on tumblr#rare sketchbook
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Since Enjolras and Combeferre have known each other since they were in diapers, and Grantaire and Bossuet were childhood friends too, are there any others in teacher Au who have known each other that long?
And do Enj and Ferre, or Bossuet and R have any interesting stories from when they were small? 👀
HI EMILE!!!! 🫶
Hmm for now I believe all the other teachers met when they came to the school! We really only get these pairs of childhood friends because 1. Combeferre had recommended the job to Enjolras, who had a bit too long of an arrest record to hold onto any other jobs and 2. Grantaire lost a bet, which meant that he had to accompany Bossuet to apply for the job. He was extremely surprised when he got in.
As for childhood shenanigans, they all have a long looooong list of stories >:) perhaps I will explore them in future fics!! For now, they use their childhood connections in other ways...
#i think 70% of their childhood stories are too 18+ to share with the students 😞#but when their students graduate and establish a friendship with them they start to spill alll the deets#especially the Bossuet and R pantsy-ing war. it was apparently a huge thing (or so they say 🙄)#les mis#combeferre#bossuet#enjolras#grantaire#syrup art tag#syrup asks#syrup teacher au
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batty got me thinking abt starry's lore + tidbits 💭🌀
rambling under the cut don't mind meee
❇️₊✧ i feel like the prequelle era would've been perfect for them, but for some reason the meliora era is calling me ~_~ possibly framed where he made one guest appearance (with cowbell ghoul) (starlight was known as 'triangle ghoul' atp) and then hung out at the ministry until prequelle, where he finally solidified his presence alongside the ghoulettes #^.^#) ♪ how they got their name i can't decide but a constant scenario is them being summoned in the night and terzo going 'ahh a starlight for a starry night...💭' [everyone hated that.]
their arc is stumbling their way through understanding they're not musically inclined like everyone else and feeling a bit outcasted because of it - ofc the other ghouls still show them love despite it -_-;
🎸₊✧ when starry was summoned, they felt more of a pull towards aether...(i feel like if they COULD play, they'd be a bass player in my heart 💫) + just naturally getting along with quintessence ghouls in general ❣️
they follow aether around quite a bit often a first, like his shadow. aether turning to ask them questions and them giggling out shy responses and them both just having a secret inside joke convo while everyone's standing there like ...ok. i think swiss gets in on it trying to get star out of their shell like 'ohhh what are we whispering about?' and that lines his attachment to swiss eventually 🌟
💜₊✧ the ghoulettes feed star attention like no tomorrow, specifically rora, because it's a mutual exchange where she gets treated like a princess - (as mattie mentioned (੭ˊᵕˋ)੭) often referring to starlight as her 'hercules'. cirrus too, just bc she feels an inclination to be protective of the ghoulettes + starry (random bursts of cuteness aggression on stage - tickle fights and clinging onto each other 💥) lulu though, she's calmer - if anything it's more so starlight trying to get her attention and praise
❤️🔥₊✧ starry felt intimidated by dew at first- mostly because of his stoic nature and him just generally not giving much reaction to her in the beginning. he felt dew even disliked him heavily or looked down on him for being a fire ghoul but not 'carrying his weight'. i always like comparing the two with different elements of fire - dew is very wild, like an inferno that rises quickly and hot. star is more subtle, a fireplace - often pops into fireworks or firecrackers when excited. i think in the end, starry underestimated how much dew was actually interested in him + is oblivious to him somehow ending up in the same place as them... 💭 almost like it was purposeful...infatuation mayhaps
also uhmmm when they kiss they emit little sparks 🎇 that go bang ! crackle ! pop !
🖤₊✧ later when aether gives up his bass title to phantom (and retires to the ministry), phantom + starry become attached to each other very fast - i feel they both feed into each other's whimsy + are less 'experienced' than the other ghouls, so they kind of stick with each other. phantom is clingy (much to the annoyance of dew), which has him bouncing back and forth between the ghouls who can tolerate him hanging around or making physical contact with them in some shape or form (notably swiss, rora, + starlight) 24/7
#franken.txt#its so hard not to get sidetracked and talk abt their interactions alll the time#they love their boys and gorls what can he say 💥
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when SOPHIE said “I could be anything I want, anyhow, anywhere, any place, anyone that I want” I took that seriously
#SOPHIE says ‘you could be me and I could be you always the same and never the same’#so many people who claim to love her don’t understand her words at alll lmao#we are immaterial#I can be anything I want#I can’t be held down#immaterial#SOPHIE
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Oh my God a fucking " anti-transandrophobia truther" perisex fuck wrote word for word, in a massive fucking post " I wonder if intersex people know being Intersex affects your gender" (NO SHIT???)
And!
" I'm pretty sure all the afab/cafab (coercive meaning ya know ... GENITAL MUTILATION OF INTERSEX BABIES FORCING THEM INTO THE AFAB IDENTITY. The whole camab/cafab thing was stolen from the intersex community.) intersex people who claim the transfem title don't actually have transfem experiences"(regardless of the kind of the type of intersexuality they are?? You are just outting yourself as someone totally fucking blind to actual intersex experiences.)and! " They need their own term because they don't 'fit'". They tried to dress up the offensive bigoted nonsense they just spewed by trying to make it sound like they had our best interests at heart and "shouldn't be forced into using perisex language".... You are litterally trying to push intersex people you don't like out of our terminology to other them .... This literally reeks of literal terf rhetoric " most intersex lean one way and therefore shove them under that label" like...
Ur both intersexist freaks and bigots just in different ways. Imagine trying to claim you care about intersex people then try to determine our labels for us and push us in the way you think we should go regardless of our actual fucking lived experiences because you don't like sharing the transfem community with people who've experienced both transmysogny and transmascphobia. Not to even mention the fact the last time people tried to make a term to talk about their experiences, you've not shut up about it in years and called it a mens rights movement to try and silence an entire fucking portion of the trans community so you don't have to care about them. You literally fucking said " trans men experience both transphobia and mysogny but not at the same time (we do????) but trans women do" ok and ur blind to Transmasc issues because you think that nonsense and we are the same as cis men. Ur blind to our issues in the way you accuse us of being blind to your issues but only expect us to shut up and listen.
Anyway, denying that trans men can't face their own issues while also ignoring any trans man who disagrees with you and then attempting to delegitimize all intersex people who look you dead in the face in the transfem and Transmasc playing fields and tell you ur wrong...
Bro just say you hate Transmascs and anyone who might be slightly aligned with them and go home you intersexist piece of shit.
Also the whole " stop calling anti-transandrophobia truthers baddels! That's something specific"
My brother in CHRIST, THEY ARE LITTERALLY UNIRONICALLY IN THE USERNAMES OF THE PEOPLE YOU REBLOG FROM. BULLSHIT.
Anyway the fact y'all are all fucking white trans women and CONSTANTLY bring up black and indigenous people's experiences with gender while also being unironic baddels aka a horrifically abusive to trans men (including rape) and racist ASF movement within your community tells me everything i need to know as a native american two spirit intersex person with no "lean" whose experienced transmysogny and transandrophobia.
This is why they don't trust you motherfuckers, you got no class, just entitlement and weak ass attempts at silencing people you already hate and a weird trauma fetish for black and indigenous people. There is over lap between the transfem experiences and bipoc experiences but there is also an overlap between Transmasc and bipoc experiences, nonbinary and bipoc, like almost everyone can relate to our shit, ur not special 😭 leave us alone and don't use our oppression to try and legitimize your fundamentally transphobic views.
#levi speaks#cant make this shit up#transandrophobia#transandrophobia truther#intersexist#perisexist#perisexism#anti intersex#baddel#baddels#transmysogyny#transmisogny#/do intersex people know ur gender can be weird because your intersex?! 😯/ is the sky blue???#its got /do mexicans know about texmex?/ energy like yeah we do why are you infantilizing us#not just that but trying to delegitimize the identities and experiences of intersex people you deem /too close/ to afab#like just say you hate afab people and go home with your alt right white cis bf who hides your identity from his family#go back to /cancelling out/ your cis bf's vote 😮💨 we are gonna actually focus on getting shit done#go back to ignoring that abortion is a trans issue and exclusively focusing on bathroom bans and acting like trans men#feel safe in men's restrooms cause they dont lol#ive watched terrified traumatized passing trans men read a room and flee into the women's bathroom and still get harassed by terfs#out here claiming terfs treat trans men better#THEY WRITE 900 WORD CONVERSION RAPE FANFIC ABOUT US#they call for our deaths the same way they call for yoursel#sitting there making shit up about how transmascs will have terf followers and transfems wont#ok just say you think alll afab people are terf dyke hairy ugly feminists and go back to calling cis women fish fuck off lol#they litterally scream at transmascs who feel more allyship with cis butches than cis men then cuddle up to raciat white gays#ok boo sure boo you got it boo 😂😂😂#like im a trans woman i know most of us armt like these trash ladies but they specific have this sort look down their nose looks#and sincerely think they as het white trans women with cis bfs are the most oppressed demographic#and i just have to sit over here and belly laugh hun you are the cishet white man of the trans community and ur not even a man
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Your name is Nie Sangyu, the eldest daughter of General Zhengyuan Nie Xiangyuan. You fell in love with Marquis Moyu Ning Yuxuan at first sight and insisted on marrying him. And... you have your a nickname. No. 1 She-devil of the Capital. She-devil?!
Romance of a Twin Flower (2023) 1.01
#romance of a twin flower#春闺梦里人#cdramaedit#asiandramanet#cdrama#userdramas#cdramasource#dailyasiandramas#chineseartistsinc#asiancentral#asiandramasource#ding yuxi#peng xiaoran#tuserjade#lextag#useryd#samblr#mymymy#ep 1#this is alll over the place and all but i just had to say#I LOVE THIS SHOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW#i was kinda ehhh about it beofre starting but i was wrong#watching the first set of the eps was wayyy more fun than the other cdrmas im watching#i loveeee FL and her Amnesiac twin switched selffff#quirky genius as they put is a good decription of her#she literallyyyy has been put in a rough spot and she is taking it with great stride#Yuxi is giving the yuxi goods as usual sooo what else to say lolol#and imo i didnt think they would have that great of chemistry but I was WRONG they work and i like it alot#they are a MESSSSSSSS#and i wanna know more about mean twin cause like somethingggg isnt adding up about her past im hoping its juicyyy
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Got home and one of my B&N exclusive Chronicle of the Avatar books came in! (the RoK one) :D I was so happy! Then I opened it.....its not the exclusive. It's the same one I already own. (I think the seller just made a mistake and didn't realize buying from B&N doesn't automatically make it exclusive)
And on top of that, the seller states they don't accept returns (I still contacted them to explain the situation cause like....damn man TT0TT).
#silly talks#i'm so depressed#there goes my day#sok and loy are still lost in space somewhere *sobs*#i just want the art c'monnnnnnnnnn#let me have the bonus content *sobs*#hi key i need to lie down this too alll the wind outta my sails mannnnnn TT0TT#i was so excited to get hommmmmmeeeeeeee#it wasn't expensive but it's like....damn......#i'd say it's my fault it was just a picture but they just goofed I think#i just ordered another one and this one DOES have original pictures
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Seeing seungminners on twt be like Omg yes with short hair he'll actually look like a real masculine man and be manly and masculine and a real man and I'm just here like....... I'll throw up in my mouth if you keep saying that shit
#i hate talk like that#/hate it/#he was actually a man with any length of hair hes had and implying chopping it short makes him 'more' a man is just like#shut up. die. dont trust that kinda talk.#like imagine a girl idol had short hair and then came back with long extensions and everyone went YES!! NOW SHES A REAL WOMAN!! id kill the#feeling the same way about this the vibes feel rancid <3#twt seungminners you disappoint me#like just say you think hell look cute why bring manliness into this at alll
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