#allie talks

[sadbicth]

back when roe v. wade was first overturned, my gynecologist sat me down and informed that, despite my severe and incurable pcos, there is a strong chance that in the near future i would lose access to birth control, which is my only treatment.

now, 3 years later i’m being told that, because of my significant chances of requiring an abortion during pregnancy, i would have a very low chance of accessing that.

i’m told that i’m nothing more than a baby machine yet they won’t do everything possible to protect that machine. this country would rather women suffer and die than get rid of a clump of cells that could kill us.

to put this into perspective, if someone in your immediate family needed an organ transplant and you were the only one who could provide that, they are legally forbidden from forcing you to provide that. you have the right to let that family member die over giving them your organ.

organs have more rights than women. ORGANS.

i’m curious if the government will start looking at cancer or parasites as something that has rights and can’t be removed, even if it might kill us.

i am so tired of having to pretend like we’re all okay with this and that it’s fine. because it’s not. i genuinely hate living in this country. and why shouldn’t i? it’s not like it loves me back. why should i be expected to love a country that shows me time and time again that it hates me and the people i love most?

i will not be quiet about this. and you shouldn’t either.

[alliekitaguchi]

there are three things about me that are true and unavoidable:

1) i used my real name when making this account almost 15 years ago

2) i post a lot (exclusively) about critical role

3) i work for markiplier

and every single day i wake up wondering if today is going to be the day some poor markiplier fan is going to curiously finds my tumblr page and be immediately bombarded with gay fanart of some halfling twink and a blue guy making out 😭😭😭

[oneshotnewbie]

Writing a book is so frustrating, it doesn't matter how many books you have already written. It's like assembling IKEA furniture without instructions—or worse, with instructions in a language you don’t speak, missing half the screws, and realizing halfway through that you were trying to build a table, but now it’s definitely turning into two goddamn chairs.

But hey, at least you can console yourself by telling everyone you’re a writer/author! Well, before they ask "When can I read it?" And you laugh, cry, and say, "That’s a great question!"

New book "The Patient" will be published in summer. God save my nerves and help me write 🙏

[some-loozzr]

Guys,,

I can install games on Steam now!! :D

[stars-after-dark]

i dont post things like this but this has been bugging me. if we want men to express their emotions healthily, then maybe we should stop calling male athletes that cry after losing something ‘crybabies’ and the sorts. people cry when they’re upset, it’s actually a human thing to do. and i’d much rather see ronaldo or murray cry on tele even if they have won all sorts of accolades prior than them put on a brave face to take out that upset on something or someone in a much more harmful way when the cameras are off.

this one goes out to you media tabloids in particular.

[hodgepodge-of-rog]

about me: my name is allie, and i'm a 30 year old female living in kentucky. i am an artist, singer, and writer for fun. i am a Christian, and follow Christ and His teachings, so please be respectful of that. i have asperger's, adhd, and fibromyalgia.

this blog originally started out as a Queen blog in 2018, but considering it is my main, i will post things other than Queen.

rules: this blog is 18+ and contains graphic adult content. minors are not welcome, and if i suspect or find out you are a minor and interacting, you will be blocked, no exceptions.

your blog must have a name, bio, and icon. no new blogs will be accepted.

this blog does not support abdl or ddlg

this blog is run by a conservative christian. leave if you don’t like that.

current hyperfixations: metallica and supernatural

My Soundcloud is where most of my covers are uploaded. Only two tracks have me playing the instrument (Mad World and Moon Song), everything else is from youtube.

My Youtube is where new covers will be uploaded, as I have reached Soundcloud's free upload limit.

[annawoodhull]

My workplace had a dress as your favorite tv character for employee appreciation week, and I went as modern day Alicent Hightower.

Guys, I WON!

[moxidi-fanarts-and-sketches]

you're laughing. there is an alternate fantasy high timeline where mary ann is the barbarian of the bad kids and plays bass, gorgug is best friends with biz and co-prez of the av club, sandra lynn is with sklonda and squeem is dead and you're laughing. ally beardsley is getting to play their unused pc, sir amanda maillard, and you're laughing. fig and ayda got engaged and she recorded a 80-minutes long proposal album for her and you're laughing. cody walsh and loose baron were pronounced creepy and freaky by kristen applebees in an olive garden and you're laughing. PINOCCHIO IS BECOMING THE SETTING AND YOU'RE LAUGHING.

[emiko-matsui]

Here's what you missed from the ScreenRant+ interviews with the Fantasy High: Junior Year cast

The reason Gorgug and Zelda broke up was a natural drifting apart. There were no animosity or harsh feelings, but Zac felt it unnatural for them to stay together for such a long time and still be true to the characters

The reason Cassandra's name is found in ancient stones and writings even though Ally was asked to make it up in Sophomore Year is because it wasn't Kristen choosing a name, it was Ally choosing the name that came to Kristen in a holy revelation of remembering a forgotten name

Ayda Aguefort wasn't removed from the season because she was too powerful to have around, but rather that Brennan genuinely felt a natural follow to her arc was to spend time creating a family bond with Arthur

All of the cast are clear with the fact that Senior Year is not being discussed at the current moment and is something that would be far in the future, but all of the cast are also excited to return to Senior Year and Brennan has plans for what he wants to expand on and plot threads in Senior Year. Additionally, Brennan said he left Sandra Lynn and her relationship to Bobby Dawn unresolved because he rather wanted to leave that storyline for a Senior Year.

Ally considers Gertie's action of immediately declaring Kristen as her nemesis after realising Kristen didn't want to be with her forever after kissing her once was Kristen "getting a taste of her own medicine" and finally being on the end of the insane chaos she's been dealing out to NPCs for years.

Emily was the one who came up with Fig taking on Gilear's bad luck/curse and she was inspired to do it by Fabian's delevelling in Sophomore Year.

After being pitched the headcanon that the adventuring party Goldenhoard was talking to in the first freshman year episodes was The Rat Grinders Brennan liked it so much he, on the spot, retconned it into canon

The cast thinks the four dogs joke is even funnier because they know Ally's mom is a dog breeder

[giantkillerjack]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

[plain-text version of this post can be found under the cut]

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

Plain-text version:

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

P.S. Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

[sadbicth]

every single person who voted for this presidency will have to look their mothers, sisters, daughters, nieces, aunts, friends, and coworkers in the eye and tell them that they supported a regime that hates them.

and if a man in your life tells you ANYTHING that hints at them having voted for this, tell them how it makes you feel. tell them what exactly it was that they decided was okay for the sake of cheaper eggs and gas.

they don’t deserve peace. ever.

[alliekitaguchi]

i'm a finalist in a script competition and i had my finalist interview today and the first question they asked was what shirt i was wearing.

it's the fucking mollymauk shirt.

the first thing i got to tell interviewers was that my shirt was from a dungeons and dragons game

[oneshotnewbie]

Guess who bought the only Criminal Minds special and limited complete box set left in stock? This happy girl!❤️

(Thank you, Jen!)

[paladinsbrainrot]

[stars-after-dark]

Hey! Tell us what you're cooking up for your TDJ Mulan story 😎

i'm cooking a three course meal, yall best be ready to dish out them yelp reviews

As we saw at the end of chapter 3, we've nearly been introduced to all of our main cast, so look forward to see some popular character interactions as well as how Soohyun and Gaon will fit themselves into the Imperial Travelling Army. For future chapters, there's a lot more to explore with the world of the monarchy, threats to the throne and reasons why certain characters are in the positions that they find themselves in. The entire fic is plotted out already along with the next two chapters, I just need to finish them now!

so to answer your question: i'm cooking a whole three course meal with freshly squeezed juice on the side, so yall best be ready to dish out them 5 star yelp reviews

thanks for the ask!

[hodgepodge-of-rog]

i know yall won't listen but i uploaded a new cover.

gotta use youtube now bc i reached my free upload limit on soundcloud.

pls enjoy me belting it out to black sabbath thanks