#all thats keeping me going right now is the fact that i can go smooch this fictional man when im done working

[birb--birb]

Current mental state

[nozunhinged]

my love sea rollercoaster

Okay so I was at the forefront of the love sea haters (don't ask me about mame I don't know anything about that discoure you can read why I didn't like it here if you want) but as weak as I am I kept watching and ep 2 still didn't do it for me but ep 3 turned the boat around so fast that I feel absolutely sea sick (literally!!) right now -- and because the discourse and perspectives on tumblr made me try to keep watching unbiased, I'd like to share my five cents as to why the story suddenly works for me after I've spent the first two eps rolling my eyes so hard I got a migraine.

I think it comes down to three major moments, with their conflict as the turning point

When rak started spitting the most degrading speech going at mut for dragging him out of the house, literally blowing so fucking low the blowjob mut was wishing for in the end was sky high terrain, I went "ok that's it, I'm turning this off" -- rak said word for word "no means no" but mut still kept pulling him I was close to angry tears what a fucked up situation that is, I thought.

But just as mut made rak snap out of it with his unimpressed reaction, so did I.

It was like the first half of the episode flashed right in front of me within the second rak was speechless. He was so on edge from the many calls he had in the first part and before that the diving incident -- he was streched out so thin that of course he would fall back to his default mode which is insulting anyone who dares to get within a 10ft radius of him. And then a guy who even dares to break down his pretentious walls? Better double down! (I'm still mad about raks tirade though, I would've dumped him in the sea right then and there)

But here's the thing, mut isn't fazed at all. Like, at all at all. And that's exactly what rak needs in this moment. Someone to vent his anger at so he can collect himself. We know now that mut had it a million times worse than this and his reaction isn't just because he has the hots for rak, it's literally his character. They both would react the exact same way if it was any other person. The difference? They develop an emotional bond over it and that's how they move forward. CHEFS KISS!

You might think but noz, of course its his character, thats the whole point? Yeah but not to me.

In the last two episodes, it felt like everything that happened between them was excruciatingly forced by the narrative (see my yaoi-post why I despise that) -- that everything between them is only brought out because they met. I know that thai bl (no, lets say the romance genre in general) has a big issue writing and introducing characters in a manner that makes their romance believable, but most of the time I can overlook that because we're not here for deep literary masterpieces, we're here for the smooches and the fumbles. I get it.

But when it feels so forced like it did the last two eps to me, even I just check out. So I already shelved that series in my mind and it's the first time I get so damn humbled that I have to write down a million paragraphs to defend myself lol. I think my longing for watching a believable lovestory reached so deep that it contributed to my current brainrot.

Don't get me wrong -- I attest this shift 100% to fortpeats insanely stellar acting. They make the characters believable and they make me understand why rakmut are prefect for each other although I HATE their dynamic. But that's the beauty of a good story my friends, I get now why their pulling and pushing works for them and I'll gladly watch them do that! Because until now, no aspect of the show managed to do that, neither the narrative progression, nor the editing, writing or pacing. Nothing. It was all just a jumbled, annoying mess.

So what's different now? The story lets fortpeat finally shine! (Accidentally maybe?)

Someone already said that the scenes are stale and slow (cant find the post anymore sorry) due to the fact that nothing is happening other than the two of them talking in the same position behind a different background and I 100000% agree. And the only way this poor choice is saved by is fortpeat. I was hanging on their lips for every single word. Their dynamic was suddenly so clear and palpable to me, I struggled to breathe properly. Rakmut are fucking made for each other and I'm losing my shit over it.

I can't believe they managed to make ALL the flaws of this show just POOF -- go away??? And it just keeps going like that. I could write 10 more pages about the little details of their dialogues that cemented my impression but I'll try wrap this up first.

The two other pivotal moments (to me) were muts reaction to rak telling him about his name. Yes, you read that right. Now that I finally understood how these two are ticking, I absolutely 100% understand where mut was going with this objectively BONKERS suggestion. Rak drops this bombshell of a trauma on him and he offers to do exactly that too??? Well, in muts head this is the only way to make rak understand that the outcome can be different. So of course, this idea would only work on him. Made for each other, I'm telling you. Two pieces of a fucked up puzzle.

Now, that scene.

First, doubling down on how much worse mut had it. (I'm not talking about his house thats a topic for another post) I think this one little story was enough to land the punch, the talk last ep was too long and clunky. I wouldve loved to have a scene where the guy who was fired tells the story to someone and rak overhears it, not understanding a thing and then putting the pieces together when mut starts talking I-- oh I think i wouldnt have survived that, I cried then and there already.

Well yeah I was in tears when they started fucking that was awkward but again raks reaction just made sense. They don't know each other that well and rak only knows one way how to make mut feel good which is riding him to the moon and back. And as a little cherry on top he completely let loose without any restraints.

There's already this amazing post by @hanhonymous which explains perfectly why the pillow talk after works so well as it does, so I'm not gonna say anything more. Just know that I was full on bawling at this point. When rak said "try it" it lost it. How he encourages his island boy who said "someone like me" a million times in the last ten minutes was perfect. Beautiful. Absolutely wonderful. Even his false lead felt perfect for this moment because only this way mut would understand that rak is absolutely serious.

I don't know how the bangkok arc will play out, my hopes are not very high but I will forever have this lovely little episode. And their lovely little pillow talk. And when they confess and love each other for real I will once again cry like a loser because fortpeat are amazing. Please someone get them a high quality production they deserve it so much.

[pesterloglog]

John Egbert, Jade Harley, Davesprite

Act 6, page 4336-4345

JOHN: oh man, rose and dave have sweet god tier pajamas like us! that's so awesome.

JOHN: haha, dave looks like kind of a doofus with that snug little hood.

JADE: i think he looks cool!!!!!

JADE: the cape is great, hes like a super hero now

JOHN: that's true.

JOHN: i still think i prefer my outfit though.

JOHN: look at all those trolls...

JOHN: there are so many trolls. the idea of meeting them all is kind of overwhelming.

JOHN: i wonder which one is which?

JOHN: i think that must have been karkat there. and that was probably his clown asshole friend he mentioned, too.

JADE: yup

JOHN: and that was definitely terezi, with the fancy glasses.

JOHN: not sure about the others... i wonder if vriska was there?

JADE: ...

JOHN: it's nice to see rose looks better.

JOHN: last time i saw her, she looked really grim.

JOHN: and also, dark.

JOHN: i was trying to talk to her, but she sounded like a babbling monster, so i couldn't understand her.

JOHN: it was really frustrating, and all of my nervous rambling probably made me sound like an idiot.

JOHN: and then when i woke up later, she was dead.

JADE: :(

JOHN: did you know...

JOHN: that i had to kiss her to make her come back to life?

JADE: !!!

JOHN: yes, it's true.

JOHN: it's kind of weird kissing a dead body, but i didn't mind.

JOHN: how did you feel about it when you kissed dave when he died?

JADE: ...........

JADE: how did you know about that!

JOHN: karkat told me.

JADE: oh

JADE: that figures

JOHN: do you think that all of our unbridled corpse smooching means karkat's silly shipping prophecy will come true?

JADE: umm

JOHN: i mean, the guy is really angry, and says fuck like in practically every sentence.

JOHN: but he does weirdly seem to know what he's talking about when it comes to romance.

JADE: yeah

JADE: i dunno

JADE: do you want it to come true?

JOHN: man.

JOHN: i don't know.

JOHN: do you?

JADE: hmmmmmm.....

JOHN: hmm, indeed.

JADE: i think i miss them already

JADE: and weve only been here for a few minutes :(

JOHN: yeah.

JOHN: there's a lot i want to tell them about.

JOHN: and a lot i want to ask them.

JADE: well

JADE: you could ask them now if you want

JOHN: really?

JADE: yes

JADE: in fact

JADE: you can hop right through me and join them

JADE: then you can travel with them to the new session if you like

JOHN: whoa!

JOHN: well, heck, why don't we do that then?

JOHN: it would probably be more fun with them than being on this golden battleship by ourselves.

JADE: it probably would!

JADE: but i cant go with you

JADE: i can serve as a gateway

JADE: but i cant travel to the sun myself, remember?

JOHN: oh yeah.

JOHN: dammit!

JADE: but its ok, really!

JADE: if thats what you wanted to do, i wouldnt mind

JADE: but whatever you do, you have to decide quickly

JADE: they will be departing from the sun very soon

JOHN: but i wouldn't want to leave you here all alone for three years.

JOHN: that would suck!

JADE: i wouldnt really be alone though

JADE: i have the population of five planets to keep me company!

JOHN: :O

JOHN: that's right.

JOHN: that makes it seem not so boring i guess.

JOHN: but still...

JOHN: i would feel really bad leaving you here, even if you do have a million salamanders and chess guys to keep you company.

JOHN: you are my friend and also my sorta-sister, and we just met for the first time ever a few minutes ago...

JOHN: i'm not going to be like, welp! see ya in three years jade!

JADE: awww :D

JADE: ok then

JADE: personally, i think this trip could be a lot of fun!

JADE: theres no pressure to do anything important or run around like lunatics anymore

JADE: we can just relax

JOHN: yeah.

JOHN: now that you mention it, i'm pretty beat.

JOHN: also... starving!!!

JADE: woof!

JADE: whoops

JOHN: heheh.

JOHN: i sure hope there are things to eat on those planets.

JOHN: there were a lot of weird glowing mushrooms on lowas. i dunno about those.

JOHN: i seem to remember a bunch of farms on the battlefield...

JADE: there should be lots of good stuff on the planets

JADE: also i would bet this ship is stocked with plenty of military rations

JOHN: yeah, probably.

JOHN: pff, hell, we could just raid all of our fridges and alchemize some tasty grub!

JADE: oh yeah!!!

JADE: durrr, problem solved

JOHN: ok, cool.

JOHN: but it would still be nice to say hi to everybody before they leave.

JOHN: just to let them know how we're doing.

JADE: yes

JOHN: like, one of the last things rose saw before she died was me dying...

JOHN: i wonder if she knows i'm ok?

JADE: im pretty sure she knows a ton of things now

JADE: considering she is a fully realized seer of light

JOHN: yeah, probably.

JOHN: then maybe i'll just hop over real fast, and give karkat a fist bump, and give dave a hard time about his hella tight little hood, and then hop back?

JADE: im sure that would be hilarious

JADE: but

JADE: if you go i dont think i can bring you back

JADE: i cant bring anyone or anything to here from there!

JOHN: aw man, really??

JADE: as far as i know...

JADE: if theres a way i havent figured it out yet

JADE: i am still kind of new to this omnipotence thing after all :\

JOHN: that's stupid.

JOHN: what is with all these rules!

JADE: i dont know!

JADE: im sure the rules exist for a good reason though

JADE: maybe to somewhat limit the power and reach of omnipotent beings?

JADE: if there are no limits at all, it could be especially dangerous in the wrong hands

JADE: like what happened with jack!

JOHN: isn't that a contradiction though?

JOHN: if there are limits to your powers, you can't exactly be OMNIpotent, can you?

JOHN: more like...

JOHN: semipotent.

JADE: then i guess thats what we are!

JADE: semipotent demigods

JOHN: demidogs.

JADE: woof woof woof!

JADE: dammit!!!!!!

JOHN: heh...

JOHN: can you not control the woofs?

JADE: i havent gotten the hang of the woofs yet :(

JOHN: so, the dog ears...

JOHN: is that a permanent thing now, or what?

JADE: i think so

JOHN: i like them.

JADE: i do too!

JOHN: you are like a furry now, but not really the weird kind that people on the internet like to have sex with in their imagination.

JADE: D:

JOHN: hey, can i at least send a message through?

JOHN: like a note or something?

JADE: sure!

JADE: better hurry up and write it though

JOHN: oh snap! ok, gotta think, quick...

JOHN: what do i write on?

JOHN: maybe the back of a movie poster or something?

JOHN: i don't think i have one captchalogued though...

JOHN: and now that i think about it, most of them were ruined by imps. :(

JADE: how about this one?

JADE: looks like its still in pretty good condition

JOHN: yes, that's perfect!!!

JOHN: everyone will love it, especially probably dave.

JOHN: i think i need something to fold it up and put it in though.

JOHN: i don't want to just like crumple it up and chuck it in there like some garbage...

JOHN: i could stick it in a book i guess.

JOHN: but i kind of don't want to part with any great reading material, especially since we're going on a long trip.

JADE: john you have to hurry!

JOHN: ok, ok, um...

JADE: here, will this work?

JOHN: oh, yeah. i guess that'll be fine.

JOHN: now, uhhh, what to write...

JADE: whatever you write just make it quick!

JADE: and tell everyone i say hi!

JOHN: ok, will do.

JADE: ok, while you work on that, i think ill bring up some friends

JOHN: huh?

JADE: you know, let some of our travel companions get acquainted with the ship!

JOHN: oh fuck, it's dave sprite!!!

JOHN: i forgot about him.

DAVESPRITE: yeah no shit

JOHN: how've you been, buddy?

JADE: shooooooooosh!!!!!

JADE: write now, catch up later!

JOHN: ok, i think this is a pretty good letter.

DAVESPRITE: let me check it out

DAVESPRITE: maybe ill humorously defile willis and afflecks dumb skyward yearning faces

JOHN: oh HELL no.

DAVESPRITE: come on dude hand it over

JADE: nooooo come on guys theyre about to go just stuff it in the bucket and throw it at me already!!!

DAVESPRITE: too late i already did it with sprite powers while he wasnt looking

JOHN: augh you bastard!

JOHN: wait a minute!

JOHN: i forgot, trolls hate cleaning products for some alien reason! shit, that's going to make everyone so uncomfortable.

JOHN: oh well, there it goes. too late i guess.

DAVESPRITE: ahahahaha you fucked up

[munsnz]

Hii hope you're having a great week! If you feel like writing it i was thinking of a steve h x wheeler!reader, where they're having a dinner at the wheeler's and reader is nervous thinking it's going to be awkward and all but it actually goes pretty well.

LOVELY MESS — STEVE HARRINGTON

WARNINGS: anxiety, language??

PAIRING: Steve Harrington x GN! Wheeler! Reader

PSYCHOIE RADIO: What You Like — Wallows

L: Tysm for requesting anon!! This is actually something I’ve been wanting to write for a long ass time, and I’m so sorry this is a month late, I was In a rut for the third time this year, but finally, here it is!!

“Don’t worry, it’s going to be okay!” The kind-hearted guy, leaned towards you by the metal, old lockers, while you switched your books, shaking your head side to side, “Come on, whatever happened to Nance and I is over.”

Your eyes shifted to meet Steve Harrington’s, your 6-month boyfriend, who was also your younger sister’s ex boyfriend, Nancy Wheeler. Although she may have been younger, Nancy had it all, popularity, the smarts, and the looks, except you, the shadowed sister. Even your brother Mike Wheeler knew that Nance had outshined you, still being younger than you. That terribly tumbled apart as soon as Nancy confessed that she no longer loved Steve, telling him it was all bullshit, the words that hurt Steve those past nights.

You somehow got ahold of him, to get over the breakup as the two of you fought for the fate of the world along the group of kids, Mike’s friends, bringing you guys closer, leading up to confessing their feelings for one another.

“Steve I’d think it would be a bad idea.”

”How would it be a bad idea if we never tried it?” Steve cheekily grins, placing a warm kiss on your thin lips, smiling between them. You pushed his chest away with your hands, making him whine, “One more kiss come on! Or else we’ll have to go to the dinner!!”

You placed a notebook to block his wildly handsome face from kissing you again, giggling hysterically, “No, that’s my final answer.”

Steve had always been so fond about your family, the Wheelers, he knew Mike due to the previous events with the Mind Flayer and has met your mom when he was together with Nancy. But you still think it’d be awkward, you were going to bring your boyfriend, not your friend, nor Nancy’s boyfriend, but yours.

In denial, you always tried to not touch the subject, scared of it going wrong. As you saw Steve pout and cross his arms like a child, he mumbled, “I promised it’ll be ok, just let me go for once.”

”You already went to their house!” You squeaked as your palm hit his shoulder, slapping him playfully.

Steve raises his eyebrows, straightening his face while he sternly stares at you, “Yeah but I went as Nancy’s boyfriend, not yours right? So give me a shot honey.”

“I don’t know,” You started pacing along the hallway to get to class, knowing you were five minutes late, the weirdest thoughts flooding in. What if your parents don’t like the fact you’re with Steve? What if they prefer Nancy with him instead? What if-

Clearing his throat and whispering in your ear, Steve mumbled jokingly, “I know you’re overthinking Y/N.”

“Stop it!” You move a strand of hair from your face, clutching your books tighter, strolling away from him to the hallway of lockers, “What if it gets awkward? What if my parents don’t like the fact you’re with me!?”

”Can you at least think about it?” He shouts from afar, leaving his arms in the air, trying to get your attention while you tried your best to ignore him.

Soon enough, a teacher peeped their head out of the corresponding room towards the hallway for the source of disruption to find Steve’s tall figure continuing to get your attention, “Harrington! Off to class, you’re late!”

”Right! I’m sorry m’am,” Steve rapidly nods, zooming away to his Basketball period, where he knew for sure he’d get in trouble with the couch for being late. Still awaiting for his proposal to be answered with his loving mess, for a one of a kind dinner with your family, the Wheelers.

”Mike I swear to god you better not embarrass me!” You rush down the rug stairs, fixing your hair as you tucked it behind your ear, chasing your younger brother down. After Steve’s persuasion driving you nuts for that same day you both talked, you finally gave in to bring him over on a Thursday night under one condition, he wasn’t allowed to embarrass you or himself, just to keep things proper, and not awkward between your family.

As the days grew closer to the date of the dinner, the more anxious you got to the point you couldn’t bare to see Steve, keeping you and your thoughts to yourself for the past weeks. It was simple, a simple gathering with your family and boyfriend.

What could go wrong?

Everything and anything. From your parents making you look like a fool to be going out with your sister’s ex to Steve making a terrible impression on them although he’s met them already. You weren’t so logical, you were scared, not nervous but scared. What if this whole dinner would be an awkward disaster full of embarrassment and inconvenience?

But here you were, getting ready for the small event taking place in your home, chasing your brother to shut him up due to his witty comments. Now shoving your little sister Holly softly on the side to clear Mike’s path, he taunted, “Well I’m not the one kissing the pillow thinking it’s Steve! Mwah mwah!”

”Thats not true, Mike!”

You tried to reach to stop Mike from speeding through the kitchen but before you could make any other move, Mrs. Wheeler scolds at you two, “No running inside the house!”

”Sorry mom!” Both you and Mike loudly shout, slowing down your pace, suddenly catching up to Mike by dragging the collar of his blue striped polo.

As he squealed in pain and angst, you tackle him to the couch, tickling his sides on the soft brown cushion, “I got you! Now say it! Surrender!”

”Never!” His high-pitched giggled filled the cozy room, squirming under you, trying to free from your grip. Another wave of the tingles on his ribs were coming back, your fingers moving on his back.

You continued to make him laugh hysterically, lowering your voice to mimicking a villain both of you once watched on tv during a weekend night, “You must proclaim yourself as a liar! Or ye shall face the consequences!”

“I will not surrender-“

Instantly after the sharing of laughter being held by the siblings, you heard the rhythmic chime from the doorbell, Holly was making a fuss about her lack of apple juice in her sippy cup as Nancy tried to leave the porcelain plates on the clothed table in the dining room. You and Mike frantically got up from the couch after your mother was pulling you away apart, “Hey, he’s here!”

Shit.

You knew for a fact your loved one was here, an awful feel of unease aroused, making you tense unlike the past few moments before you heard the doorbell. Steve Harrington was here, at your door, for dinner with your family.

Gulping nervously, you hurried to get the door, but surprisingly Mrs. Wheeler got there before you could stand up from the comfortable couch, your heart pacing at an unstoppable speed, ruffling your top. Mrs. Wheeler opened the wooden door to find that same familiar, attractive face, both Mike and you peering on the side, roses in his hands.

”Mrs. Wheeler!” Steve kindly greets, handing her the bouquet of roses at the door, making her receive them with a soft grin.

“Hey there Steve- oh!” Mrs. Wheeler yelps when Mike harshly shoved you next to your mother, bumping shoulders with her, goofily grinning in front of him.

”Hi Steve,” You childly mimicked, but realizing the fool you made yourself look like, regretting your stupid action you made in front of your boyfriend.

As your mom signaled the brunette to walk inside the welcoming room, Steve lightly pecked your cheek, slightly bringing you closer to himself from the side as both of you solemnly walked inside the warm room. Watching the two of you, Mike made smooching and kissing noises behind you, kicking him in the shin, squeaks of pain coming out of your younger brother’s mouth in order for him to shut up.

And right as you saw Nancy slightly wave at him while walking off rapidly to find Holly for dinnertime, a sense of insecurity rushed in you. You leisurely shifted away from him, his eyes darting towards you knowing that something was up while Mrs. Wheeler rushed to the kitchen for the home cooked meal. Only 5 minutes in of the gathering and you were an anxious mess already, quietly panicking if anything else so terrible would happen, your fingers tapping the side of your thighs where they stood upon you.

“You know you can sit down right?” A gentle voice, your sister’s voice perked in the silence telling Steve. Nancy holding the little one in her arms, moved to sit Holly down as Mike lounged in the wooden chair almost staring you down jokingly to see your funny expressions.

Steve whips his head around, chuckling softly, pulling out a chair for you to sit in, “Yeah, this is why this is a dinner Nancy. You know, for sitting down and eating?”

A silence formed between the five of you, later on creating an awkward melody of chuckles being shared between Nancy and Steve, then turning away from each other, leaving this pit in your stomach at such uncomfortable state. Thoughts. Terrible thoughts rolled in meanwhile you sat which Steve offered to give you, Mike’s eyes widening while drinking the glass of milk being on the top of the table to try his best not to giggle.

Afterwards, Mrs. Wheeler interrupted the awfully weird silence with a fake, cheerful tone you knew wouldn’t be her usual self, carrying in the large plate with roasted chicken. She strictly ushered you and Nancy to bring in the rest of the side dishes from the kitchen out to the dining room as Mike and Steve chatted a little before your father strolled in to greet your boyfriend.

“Chill out Y/N,” Nancy places her thin hand on your left arm calmly, you turned your head around you understand what she was saying, “You seem tense, it’s okay.”

You scoffed at her comment jokingly, placing the bowl of greens onto the table when Nancy put the dish with fresh mashed potatoes as well. All of you took a seat, ready to feast, Steve clearing his throat to speak up, “Thank you so much Mrs. Wheeler for inviting me and for this wonderful dinner.”

“No problem Steve, ever since we met you with Nancy, you’ve been a great guy,” Your mother softly smiled, but changed her expressions once you shot your eyes towards her, “Anyways, enjoy the meal.”

Mumbles of thank yous and your welcomes being shared between one another, beginning to eat the delicious food for the evening. Shakily, you grabbed onto the silver fork, stabbing it into the chicken to eat it, the sound of plates moving around and cups being sipped, you decided to speak up, “Steve has been hanging out with Mike lately, they’re getting alone quite well.”

Your mother’s eyes widened, “Oh really? That seems like fun, having an older brother figure must be pretty cool knowing that Mike has grown up with a house full of girls right?”

Caught off guard from his meal, Mike hesitantly nodded while he falsely smiled, peering over to Steve for an agreement, “Yeah, Mike might be a little trouble with the rest of the boys, but he’s fun to be with at times.”

”A little trouble,” Your brother repeated jokingly under his breath, applying a mischievous look on his face, leaning back onto his chair, “I don’t think Y/N and Steve studying their human anatomy is-“

Before any reactions were being made from the regrettable comment your annoying brother made, Nancy slapped her hand across his mouth to shut up before he said anymore weird nonsense about you and your significant other. Steve worriedly glanced towards you with a beet red tinted face, almost wishing your mom hadn’t heard him while you stuffed your face trying to hide your expression.

“Michael what was that?” Mrs. Wheeler shot up a look towards your brother, laying her fork down with a confused face, “Human anatomy?”

In a stuttering mess, you tried to bring up some lame excuse to cover up along with Steve, you were sick to your core, knowing the stupidity that Mike claimed to be. It could be that your parents would say something terrible, you were flushed in multiple shades of red. You knew this dinner was even more terrible than expected, now your brother was making you and Steve look like a couple of fools, your hands sweating. Nancy chimed in to help between your idiotic stumbling, “It was this code name Mike used with the party and them.”

“Mmm yeah totally!” Steve wearily smiled, readjusting the hem of his red blouse he wore, watching you nod in response, a wave of relief washing inside you, “It’s the most oblivious things that are the most secretive, right Mike?”

Both you and Nancy darted a death glare towards the black-haired boy, who nodded rapidly under the threat of the siblings, “Yeah, Dustin was the one who made it up.”

”Kids these days,” Your father, Mr. Wheeler mumbles, slicing his part of the chicken in half with the butter knife as he shook his head.

Mrs. Wheeler humbly agreed, you mouthed a silent “thank you” towards Nancy’s direction, giving you a kind thumbs up later to kick Mike’s shin under the table, a quiet yelp escaping his lips for the second time. Later, feeling your hands gripping ever so tightly onto Steve’s large ones, being placed on your shaky leg.

Nancy brought up a conversation about an upcoming school event for the seniors at Hawkins High, Steve being able to catch up on the conversation. The mood was slightly calmer than it were before, things lessened up a bit as your harsh grip softened, feeling more balmy. Your boyfriend smiled, while looking off to your mom and dad who were intrigued by the conversation you were all having. Peace at last, worries washed away, it was okay.

Giggles and words were filled the large home, dessert was already handed out, Steve was on a roll to making your parents life along with your siblings, everything had merrily turned out great except the part where your mother talked about your embarrassing stories when you were little. This wasn’t so bad after all, Steve was definitely correct for once.

“Okay I have one more joke,” Your boyfriend sighed happily after the amount of laughter shared, your cheeks almost hurt from smiling too much. Steve set down his spoon then proceeded, “What did the grape say when they squished it?”

Everyone on the table shrugged, waiting for the hilarious response from him, Mike being close to burst into laughter before he said anything until Steve cleared his throat to answer, “Nothing, it just whined a little, get it?”

Once the joke was heard, your family surrounded the room with laughter, Mrs. Wheeler happily sighed after catching her breath, getting up to take the dessert plates back to the kitchen, picking one up at a time. Meanwhile your father and sister chuckled, you smiled like a freak towards Steve who was sitting next to you, holding your hand.

“See? I told you you shouldn’t have worried about his,” He whispers softly, giving you a light kiss, smiling as well, “You’re a lovely mess.”

You smacked his shoulder, earning a laugh from him, “I know I know, but at least I’m your lovely mess right?”

”Kiss! Kiss! Kiss!” Both Nancy and Mike, your siblings chanted with cheeky smiles plastered on their face, being in front of you and overhearing your conversation. Steve leaned in and shut his eyes to peck your lips, suddenly you placed a napkin in front of you to avoid him, catching him off guard. Such small act brought your siblings to laugh at him, he shook his head playfully, sniggering along. Maybe this wasn’t so bad, this brought all of you together, it was okay, no, better than okay. I guess it was just Steve’s lovely mess.

tags — @samiyamuntaha @thepowerstoner @ughgclden

masterlist — request open

[libertybri]

Sorry for requesting this after you just did all those catch ups, but i didnt realize you were. Can you do Glory and Tinker Tom? If not thats cool.

Lol! That’s totally fine, I love my growing list of our fallout favs!!

*For future reference to anyone else, I don’t mind if you guys want me to add anymore characters, in fact I encourage it!

Various Flirting Lines

Glory:

“No one else I’d rather have at my side, just you and me, Babe.”

“You can be honest. Tell me how much better of a companion I am than Deacon, he can handle the truth.”

“How did you get even hotter overnight? That’s impossible!”

Tinker Tom:

“I can’t help but to always want to keep you safe, I don’t understand it.”

“You’re really the coolest person I know. Topping everyone, without a doubt.”

“Sole, I really appreciate you being so kind and patient with me. You’re a beautiful soul.”

They react to kids making a comic about Sole

Glory:

“Woah-oh! Check this out! I even made the cover, and I might just look better than you, agent. Kidding, of course. You’re hard to beat.”

Tinker Tom:

“How do they know about this?!”

They react to Sole asking for a kiss

Glory:

“Get over here.” She aggressively pulls Sole in by their waist and smooches them smugly.

Tinker Tom:

“Right now? Okay.” He shrugs and kisses them as asked to do, seeing no reason not to.

They react to Sole having a fear of being poisoned

Glory:

“Stick to me and I’ll make sure nothing out of the ordinary happens.” She promises her protection and actually does keep a close eye on all of Sole’s handed drinks and food from that point on.

Tinker Tom:

“You know, I think I have just the thing that cures any poison.” Their fear is him. Tom is the poisoner. Run.

They react to Sole having long, strong nails and using them to kill someone

Glory:

“Geez agent, that was a bit brutal, don’t you think?”

Tinker Tom:

“Woah… I- I- I don’t even know what to say to that.”

They react to Sole coming out as aromantic

Glory:

“That makes sense now that I think about it. How else could you put up with Deacon’s obnoxious flirting for so long?” She jokes about it, seeing no real difference in Sole’s confession.

Tinker Tom:

“Oh, alright. Thanks for telling me.” He doesn’t really get why Sole felt the need to tell him this, but it does make him kind of happy to know that he’s a trusted friend to them.

They react to Sole asking them how they’re single

Glory:

“Well, a certain someone hasn’t shown that they’re interested until now. I was just waiting up for them.”

Tinker Tom:

“It’s really hard to trust people these days, I mean, anyone could be an institute spy or a deranged killer. Best I not fall into their traps, you feel me?”

They react to Sole teaching them/asking them to play chess

Glory:

She knows how to play, but pretends she doesn’t when Sole asks. After Sole explains the rules and they begin the first game, Glory obliterates them, causing them to never play chess with her again as she basks in her glory.

Tinker Tom:

He’s always wanted to learn and when Sole offers to teach him he can’t even hide his excitement. He catches on super quick and becomes really good at the game, beating Sole game after game until they call it quits.

What I think their element would be

Glory:

Earth

Tinker Tom:

Water

They react to a blunt, seemingly unfeeling Sole asking them out

Glory:

“Uh yeah, sure. I’ll admit, I didn’t really see this one coming, but I’m certainly not disappointed.”

Tinker Tom:

“I don’t know. I think I’ve been wanting this, but you really make me nervous. You know what, I- I’ll trust my gut. Yes.”

What costumes they would wear for Halloween

Glory:

(regular) Deacon

Tinker Tom:

Astronaut

How they would react to a “haunted” house

Glory:

Tries to fight the actors

Tinker Tom:

Screams at every jump scare

How they would play Sims 4

Glory:

Uses money cheats, creates elaborate mazes for her sims to go through, in the middle of each maze is always a computer (the bait), there is no end to any of the mazes

Tinker Tom:

Builds a bunker for his sim named ‘Not Tom’, suspects the welcome party are actually out to get him, lives his life making a sustainable life underground for his sim and avoiding the outside world, Bonus: he lives in Strangerville

They react to Sole feeling guilty about moving on

Glory:

“Hey, you’re a good person and you deserve this. You deserve it more than anyone.”

Tinker Tom:

“I- I know I’m not ideal, but I really just want to make you happy like they did because that’s what you deserve.”

They react to meeting an Amazonian-like Sole

Glory:

“Woah… guess I just got replaced as the coolest agent.” She feels a tinge of jealousy but it is heavily outweighed by her admiration for Sole.

Tinker Tom:

“You promise the Institute didn’t send you? I- I just never seen anyone like you before.” Truthfully, he’s obsessed with Sole’s look and everything about her, but he’s still very wary about just why she’s so different.

They react to f!Sole falling and getting an ouchie

Glory:

“Let’s get up now, Love. You’re embarrassing yourself by staying down there.” She laughs it off and extends her hands for Sole to take and helps her up.

Tinker Tom:

“Feet ain’t working right anymore?” He teases Sole and offers his arm for her to pull herself up again.

[beanst0ck]

ok but HAJSGWIEH I've been thinking bout this and is just so cute I need to see a hc of this do u know that tiktok trend, like there is a song playing and you need to kiss your partner in the sound kisses of the song (the audio name is "by the sea" if u want to check out) can I have hcs for kenma, bokuto and tsukki with their s/o randomly dragging them to a place on his room and doing this trend?? it's so soft I just need it pls 😔💖

sorry this took so long anon!! ive actually never heard of this trend, but my friend (@shou-kunn) sent me the tiktok and i combusted

THATS JUST SO ADORABLE :’))

kenma’s might be a little longer because,,, favoritism?

parings: kenma x reader, bokuto x reader, tsukishima x reader

cross posted on my wattpad

Kenma Kozume

it had been awhile since kenma started playing his games and everyone knew when he started would not stop for anything

but,, you were currently bored out of your mind and wanted his attention :(

each time you asked him when he’d take a break he’d always respond with the same thing

“im almost done.”

“just a few more minutes.”

normally you wouldn’t really care and let him do his own thing, but his eyes had been glued to his screen for a couple of hours now and you were beginning to grow concerned for his eyesight

like seriously,, this dude is staring at a screen 24/7 how is he not blind yet?? he doesn’t even use glasses?? contacts??

while scrolling through tiktok you begin to think of ways to distract kenma from his games

it was almost impossible to pull his attention away from them, nothing could do it except,, you!

well, specifically your affection

babey boy is secretly touch starved and will never ask you to give him hugs or kisses

but he desperately craves them,, he’s just too shy to initiate them himself :((

so whenever you decide to show him some love, he does not deny you because he loves it when you show him affection

you suddenly remember a tiktok your friend sent you and a literal light bulb goes off

you hop off kenma’s bed and kenma eyes you wearily as you walk over to him

“(y/n) what are you?..“

he watches as you set up your phone so you’re both in the camera’s view

“don’t mind me, keep doing what you were doing before!”

kenma reluctantly agrees and goes back to staring at his screen

but he knew you were up to something, especially with that cute smirk on your face, so he didn’t start a new game

he heard an audio begin to play and didn’t pay much attention to it

that is until he felt your soft lips touch his cheek

now THAT made him look away from his screen and over to you

he kept his head down, hoping his hair would cover the blush on his cheeks so you wouldn’t see

he didn’t even hear the audio, he was just secretly hoping you’d kiss him again because he wanted to feel your lips,, again

suddenly you were peppering his face in kisses again and his face was on fire

he couldn’t even speak proper sentences, all of his words coming out as a gibberish mess

all he could do was shyly pull you onto his lap and bury his face in the crook of your neck

“kenmaa, i needed to give you one final kiss :((“

he looked up so fast hAHAHhah

you had to hold back a little giggle bc you didn’t wanna make him turn even more did

ok yea no nvm we all wanna see kenma with a blushy face so, you couldn’t hold back and let out a small giggle

the pout that formed on his face, aDORABLE

“(y/nn)..”

oops right you’re supposed to kiss him

you gently grab his face and give him a final peck on the lips

after that he put his games down and just snuggled with you :’))

Kōtarō Bokuto

the gym was set to be at a cold temperature, keeping the players nice and cool while they practiced

you on the other hand, were beginning to slightly freeze up because you weren’t moving around

you had decided to be a nice girlfriend and wait for bokuto to finish up his practice he totally didn’t drag you there to show off his powerful spikes

but you stuck around because each time bokuto hit one of akaashi’s sets perfectly he would turn back and look at you

“DID YOU SEE THAT (Y/N)!!”

if you didn’t see he’ll get all pouty and go into one of his emo moods so please look at him :((

unless you’re recording,, then he won’t mind lmao

BUT you gotta make sure you get him perfectly, all angles!!

let’s not forget to record that cake tho-

OK OK BACK TO THE PLOT—

as amazing as it was getting to see bokuto’s amazing spikes, it was beginning to get late

and our poor bby akaashi was beginning to grow tired :((

he told bokuto he was going to go home now, which resulted in a pouty bokuto

and no one wants to see bokuto sad :(( so you suggested something you knew he would not say no to!

“bokuto! let’s do a tiktok!!”

his mood improved immediately lMAOALSM

he ran over to you and was literally bouncing with joy

“really?! which one!!”

you told him he probably didn’t know it and he went ‘🤨?’

because this boy knows about a lot of tiktoks not rlly just the popular ones like the renegade dances and stuff,, idk why i think he’s on straight tiktok?? well not straight STRAIGHT tiktok but like he knows a lot of dances

so you explain to him the rules,, which is really quite simple

“stand over here in front of the camera,, and stay still”

ok so like now he’s really confused

when you push play and the audio starts playing you can tell by the look on his face that he’s never heard this audio before

before he could ask you what’s the tiktok about you give him a lil smooch

and then you give him another one

and then another one

HE LOOKS SO HAPPY!! 🥺

he puts his hands on your hips and brings you closer as you continue to give him more kisses

once the tiktok is over he’s all happy and blushy

“is that what the tiktok is about?”

“yup :)”

“lets do it again!!”

now it’s his turn to give you kisses >:)

be prepared because this boy is about to shower you with a whole lot of kisses everywhere

and i mean e v e r y w h e r e

Kei Tsukishima

after school ended you and tsukishima began to walk home, but before you parted ways he invited you over to his house

while asking though he would not look at you like at all

“tsukki, are you blushing??”

“shut up, im not”

he totally was lmao

once you arrived he tried at all costs to avoid his brother, but akiteru was just unavoidable

apparently akiteru didn’t know you were his girlfriend because the look on his face when he saw you

“you brought home a girl?! are you his girlfriend?!”

he was so happy to see someone else other than yamaguchi tolerate tsukishima’s shit

but tsukishima dragged you away from his brother so quick,, you didn’t even get the chance to introduce yourself

you guys entered his room silently and he set down his things on his desk, telling you to make yourself comfortable

similar to kenma, once tsukishima is focused on something it’s difficult to take his attention away from it

and right now, tsukishima was focused on doing his homework

we love a studious boi uwu

ok but anyways

you on the other hand, were not studying for whatever reason

in fact you weren’t really doing anything at all

instead you were just relaxing on his bed, minding your own business because you knew not to disturb him when he was busy

but,, you were beginning to get bored of doing nothing

and you wanted affection from your salty dinosaur,,

finally thinking up of an excuse to use to steal a kiss you hop off his bed and walk over to him

he didn’t even notice you setting up the camera or beginning to record him because he was blasting his music loudly

but he did notice when your lips made contact with his cheek

he stopped writing and looked over to you to ask what you needed, then he noticed the camera and scoffed

while it might’ve looked like he wasn’t enjoying your kisses,, it was taking everything in his power to not give you a lil smile

besides,, the blush on his cheeks were enough to tell you what you needed to know :)

once the audio stopped he turned in his chair and pulled you closer to him, giving you one of his well known smirks

“if you wanted a kiss you could’ve just said so”

“shut up”

haikyuu mlist

[1a-imagines]

First kiss headcannons

Characters: Midoriya, bakugo, todoroki, kirishima

A/n: I usually only do three characters per post but!! hear me out here-

kirishima

Thats all, i couldn't decide between the four of them so i thought why the fuck not? More love to go around. Please enjoy.

Midoriya:

He'll be pretty shy at the start of the relationship, so that means you're going to have to initiate the first kiss.

But you don't have to worry about if he wants it or not.

He may be too shy to initiate it but he will stare at your lips non stop.

Talking to him? Staring at your lips.

Eating? Staring at your lips.

He's trying to sike himself up to kiss you but he can't bring himself to.

You make him too weak.

Anytime he gets close to kissing you his body suddenly feels like it's on fire and his legs turn into jello.

And it's all too obvious to everyone around him (including you) that all he thinks about is kissing you.

So when you finally decide to give him a break and kiss him, he's more than overjoyed.

You grabbed his cheeks between your palms and place a sweet kiss onto his lips.

'Oh my god y/n's kissing me!!!'

He's completely freaking out- in a good way of course!

He's so happy and excited.

He's waited for this day for a long time now.

It might take him a few seconds to kiss back so don't pull away too fast.

He's just processing the fact that it's really happening.

He wants to savour it.

It'll be soft and slow. His kiss will be shy as he experiments with it in hopes to find out what you like.

His hands will shakily place themselves on your hips, it's so gentle it feels like a ghost's touch.

He's a bit tense to start off with but you can get him to relax by running your fingers through his hair.

You'll be able to hear the soft shaky breaths he intakes through his nose as your lips move in sync.

His heart's beating so fast and his head is spinning.

You can feel the heat radiating from his freckled cheeks and it's so cute.

Depending on how sensual the kiss is you might even get a small whimper or whine from him, which will only make his blush deepen.

When you finally do pull back he looks like he's in a completely different world to yours.

He's so dazed.

It'll only take a few more seconds for him to smile the biggest, love sick smile you've ever seen.

My god he hopes you do that more often.

He'll pull you into a tight hug and you'll most likely be stuck there for a good few hours.

All he'll think about for the next 2 weeks is that kiss and you can tell when he's thinking about it because he traces his fingers over his lips

Please give him more kisses.

Bakugo

He may not be the most affectionate towards you.

Especially to begin with.

Sure, he likes you a lot but, it just doesn't really occur to him to hold your hand or give you hugs.

He's not that kinda guy, he has other things that occupy his mind.

And even in the rare instance when he does think about it he's too prideful to actually carry it out.

But when he catches himself thinking about how soft your lips look and how he could just lean forward and-

Fuck!

He's not sure how much longer his pride can hold up.

It was like you were teasing him without even being aware of it.

Believe it or not, he does want to do all that romantic shit with you but another part of him keeps holding himself back.

It's an internal struggle.

But be patient with him.

Eventually, he becomes so pent up he bursts.

That's when you get your smooch.

You were just so goddamn gorgeous! Your lips were perfect and looked so- kissable!?

Why did you have to do this shit to him!?

One second you're sitting alone talking to him about your day as a movie plays in the background and the next he's grabbing the back of your head and pulling you into a heated kiss.

He doesn't have a clue what he's doing so it's kind of rough and sloppy to start with

But this is what you get for making him feel so pent up!

If you think it's going to be a quick first kiss then you're wrong.

He might pull away for a second to stare into your eyes but suddenly he can't hold himself back.

He was right, your lips were so soft and now he needed more.

In a matter of seconds he's all over you again.

This time is a lot softer, but still just hungry as the last.

He'll pull you close, and hands may or may not wander depending on how enthusiastically you reply to his kiss.

You'll end up making out until you're out of breath because- damn he's hooked on this feeling.

You're hairs going to get messy and your shirt will get pushed up a little.

But he won't go past that.

When he pulls away he'll just stare at you for a few seconds as you both tried to catch your breath.

You might assume he's going to kiss you again as he stares at you with an intense look.

But he ends up turning his head away from you, throwing an arm around your shoulder to pull you to his side. All while his cheeks are flushed pink.

"Tch… dumbass, distracting me from the movie..."

That one kiss will wake something in him and you're going to get kisses like that a lot more often.

Todoroki

Your first kiss will take awhile.

This baby is opening up slowly so you have to be patient.

But there has been the odd kiss to your knuckles when you've been out on dates and such.

He only does it because he saw it in a movie once-

Poor baby has no idea what he's doing.

But he still wants to show he cares about you.

Your first kiss won't happen until you two have a really intimate or emotional moment.

It'll be just the two of you.

When he's most vulnerable and open.

It's late at night and you're talking as you sit on his floor, he might be opening up to you about his past or his feelings in general as you hold him in your arms.

It's new to him but you've somehow managed to coax it out of him.

He feels so comfortable and safe with you.

It was something he hadn't felt for a long time and it made him feel a sense of belonging.

All he could hear as he talked was your steady breath, and the feeling of your hand running through his hair felt amazing.

He almost fell asleep.

He pulled away from your embrace, only far enough to look into your eyes.

He just wanted to tell you how he appreciated you being here to listen to him.

But there was something more between you two.

It was like an intense, unspoken need?

He didn't know what it was..

He caught you glancing down to his lips and he saw your face move slightly closer to his

He could feel the pull as well and he leaned forward with you until your lips lightly brushed together, not quite a kiss but you could still feel his lips on yours.

You noses brushed together a few times as your eyes hung half lidded

You were both testing the waters for a few seconds to make sure you both really wanted this.

The mood in the room told you everything you needed to know and you both finally leaned forward the rest of the way.

His hand automatically went to your hair.

He had always loved running his fingers through it, it was so soft and relaxing.

His other hand went to your waist.

You never would have expected your first kiss with him to be so passionate.

He put all his emotions into that one single kiss.

It's slow, breathtaking, passionate yet innocent all at once.

It lingered for a long time, your lips still tingling even when you pulled away.

When he pulls back he won't exactly know what to say.

So instead he silently grabs your hand and stares into your eyes.

And for the first time in a long time he felt a big, warm smile curl onto his lips.

'This is what love feels like.'

Kirishima

Finally, someone who's open with his emotions and feelings!

Your first kiss won't take long at all, well, only if you're comfortable with that of course!

He has no problem with waiting.

Unlike the others; when he feels the need to finally kiss you he'll just straight up tell you.

You two are out on a walk and you're laughing at something he said when he suddenly feels the urge to do it.

Sometime about your sweet laugh and angelic smile had given him the overwhelming need to kiss you.

So he straight up asks you.

"Hey.. can i kiss you?"

He's a gentleman, of course he'll ask permission first!

He is aware it might be too soon so better to ask than push something on you that you might not be ready for.

That would be totally unmanly!

You've only been dating for a little while so if you're not comfortable with it he will be totally cool with it and change the subject so you don't feel bad.

But if you say yes then he's going to get the biggest grin on his face.

He looks like an excited puppy as he stops you from walking and turns you to him.

He takes both your hands in his and softly pulls you towards him until your chest meets his.

He's pretty nervous about it since he's never kissed anyone before but he's more just excited to experience it.

And he's experiencing it with you of all people!!

He feels so lucky! There's no way he could pass up a chance like this!

It'll be a small kiss, not much movement.

Just a soft lingering kiss.

He doesn't want to overdo it and accidentally make you uncomfortable.

But it's still so heartfelt

He can't even hold it for long because he's smiling too much!

When he pulls away he gives you the goofiest grin you've ever seen.

He's completely love struck.

"Wow…" He breathes out. "You got a really nice pair of lips on you."

He's so giddy he even starts laughing, he can't help it! He's just so happy! It was the best feeling in the world!

There's isn't anything that could happen that would take that smile off his face for the rest of the day.

He's going to get a lot more confident about giving you kisses now, so you can expect many more to come.

And everytime you share a kiss he never fails to pull away with the biggest, dorkiest grin you've ever seen.

[secretly-tword-obsessed]

Aaron Bu...Oh boy

Hello lovelies! This is the first part of my ‘Alternate ending to Hamilton songs’ series. Hope you enjoy!

Fandom: Hamilton

Ship: Hamburr

The guy was cuter than he’d expected. Okay, that might be a bit of an understatement. The guy was more devilishly handsome and adorable than he’d expected. There, thats a better description. 

The guy was shorter than Alexander, and had a little round face with large eyes and lips. He wore a simple outfit; a dark purple coat, a white shirt and high-risen pants. And he was muttering something under his breath, just standing there motionless, as if waiting for something. Alexander was not too familiar with such a stance, he never waited, not for a thing. He was far too active and productive to wait. I mean, what was the point? Why wait when he could act?

He approached the man, first checking that he had the right guy.

“Pardon me-”

The man turned around with an intrigued look on his face. Alexander’s heart beat sped up, and he felt his palms getting sweaty. He had never seen a cuter man in his life.

“Are you Aaron Burr, sir?”

Burr chuckled: “That depends, who’s asking?”

Ah, so he had a sense of humour to. And the most cheeky adorable gorgeous smile imaginable. Great.

“Oh sure sir, I’m Alexander Hamilton, I’m at your service sir. I have been looking for you”.

Crap, perhaps that last comment sounded creepy. Jeez, it was hard enough for him to have discussions like this in the first place, but the fact that the man was cute made it ten times harder.

But Burr just kept smiling. Oh, that smile. “I’m getting nervous”.

“Sir!”, Alexander interrupted, “I heard your name at Princeton, I was seeking an accelerated course of-”

“Sorry, what was that? Please slow down”, Burr said, a trace of nerves in his eyes too.

Slow, how slow? Slow-motion snail-slow? If he made that joke, would Burr laugh? Well, here goes...

“I heaaaaarrrdd yooooouuurrr naaaaaammmmeee”

Burr chuckled. Again. That chuckle. 

“Haha, very funny”

“Your not easily amused I see”, Alexander joked.

“I am amused, but only mildly”, Burr stated, “Continue”.

“Well, uh, I, uh, heard your name at Princeton”

“Are you okay?”, Burr asked tentatively, stepping closer to Alexander. He could see all of Burr’s features more clearly now, like his scruffy eyebrows, and he felt like he could melt. Was the sweat running down his forehead showing?

“Yeah”, Alex responded, “I’m fine, your just a bit hot. Crap! I mean, it’s just a bit hot”.

Kiss. 

Peck. Smooch. Emotion-backed. Right in the centre of Alexander’s cheek.

Burr’s lips may have been big, but they were delicate against his rough skin.

Burr smiled brightly as he departed, “I think your hot to, Hamilton”.

Alexander blushed, if he wasn’t blushing before, he was now, “What was that for?”

“I’m very good at reading social cues”, Burr said with a shrug, “I knew you had a crush on me from the moment you looked at me. In fact, I think anyone would’ve known”.

Alexander shook his head, how? 

Burr could see the man’s confusion, and found it quite cute. The man was quite cute in general. He had a soothing voice and a shaky posture, and the most beautiful eyes Burr had ever seen.

Alexander kissed his lips, and he returned the kiss. The sun shone bright in the sky. Both Burr and Alex believed in miracles at this point.

When they departed from their second intimate action, Burr let Alexander know everything in his mind. Alex responded with everything in his mind. They stared at each other for a few seconds.

“Do you, uh, consider this a long term relationship?”, Alexander asked.  

“I sure hope so Hamilton!”, Burr remarked, “I wouldn’t have kissed you unless I saw definite potential!”

“You-you can call me Alex”, Alexander stuttered, wondering how on Earth Burr was keeping so calm in this situation.

Burr tilted his head a bit, “How about Hammy?”.

Alexander chuckled, “Sure”.

”Okay than, Hammy”, Burr said, leaning forward to lightly kiss Hammy’s neck.

Hamilton giggled and jumped back, “Be careful Burr! I’m ti-”

He stoped when he saw the spark in Burr’s eyes.

“Your what, Hammy?”, Burr asked inquisitively, his eyes glistening.

Hamilton shook his head, “Uh, nothing”.

Burr smiled, “Did you know, Hammy, that I have a catch phrase?”.

Hamilton raised his brows, wondering where Burr was going with this. “Um, no. What is it?”.

Burr took a step closer to Ham, “Talk less”

Hamilton tilted his head in confusion, “Okay?”

Burr smiled brighter and got up on his tiptoes, and whispered faintly in Hamilton’s ear: “Smile more”.

With that, he dug his fingers into Hamilton’s side. Hamilton burst out laughing, the biggest smile on his face.

“Wow!”, Burr said, “You were right, you ARE ticklish. But no, not just ticklish. I’d say, very ticklish”.

Hamilton somehow managed to squirm out of Burr’s grip, “Not fuhunny!”

Burr just grinned smugly at him, “I’ll give you ten seconds to run”

Ten seconds? That was far too generous. There would be no way Burr would catch up if Hamilton even had a five second head start, but ten seconds, jeez! Wondering what on Earth the adorable munchkin was planning, he ran.

Somehow, a civilised greeting had turned into this. A game of chase. Although, Hamilton definitely didn’t mind. He felt careless and free as he ran, wind gushing though his hair. 

And after about fifteen seconds of running, he felt an unfamiliar long arm wrap around his torso. The arm tackled him gently onto the grassy ground. When he looked up, a freckled boy with bushy hair, who looked about his age, was staring down at him. 

“John Laurens”, he said with a grin, “Pleasure to meet you”.

“Wha-?”

He saw three other men run behind him. One had a muscly figure and a strong expression, one was skinny and had curly hair tied up in a bun, and the third was Aaron Burr.

“Maquis de’Lafayette”, the skinny man said in a thick French accent, “But just call me Lafayette”

“I’m Herc”, said the muscly one, “We’re all friends of Burr’s”.

“So”, Laurens said, turning to Burr, “Why have we tackled him anyway?”

Burr smirked, “Oh, I think he knows”. Burr crouched down beside Hamilton, the cheekiest look on his face. “Hammy, why do you think Iv’e ordered these men to tackle you, huh?”

Hamilton gulped, and his cheeks went pink, “I, uh, I don’t know Burr”

“You honestly have no idea?” Burr asked in a slightly teasing tone.

“Nup”, Hamilton confirmed, “No idea”.

Burr grinned, “Liar”. 

He dug his finger into Hamilton’s ribs. Hamilton instantly tossed his head back, and began laughing.

Mulligan, realising what was going on, leaned down to pin Hamilton’s arms above his head. The other two men just watched in amusement and delight.

“No-Heheheheherc!”, Hamilton cried, attempting to kick his legs out but failing as Herc held them down.

Burr wiggled his fingers under Hamilton’s arms. His laughter ticked up a pitch, “Nohohoho!”

“Your so cute Hammy”, Burr teased, seeing how flustered it made his new boyfriend, “Uh tickle tickle tickle. Uh tickle tickle tickle”

Hamilton was so red with flusteredness and laughter, but Burr knew that the man was fine. In fact....

“You know what I think, Hammy?”, Burr asked as he went down to squeeze Hamilton’s knee.

“Ohohoh shihihiht nohohot thahahaht!”

Burr gasped and put a hand to his heart, “Language!” He squeezed tighter and spidered his right hand fingers around the upper leg. Hamilton lost it, an ear to ear grin plastered on his face.

“Well, as I said earlier, I am very good at picking up small social details”, Burr stated, as if there wasn’t a squirmy, giggly mess below him, “And I have noticed that you, Hamilton, correct me if I’m wrong, are actually enjoying this”.

If Hamilton wasn’t red before, he certainly was now. And Burr’s words only heightened the ticklish feeling.

“Nohohoho I dohohohn’t!”

Burr lifted his hands up, looking down and observing the mess below him. He gestured for Herc to get up, and he leaned down to plant a light kiss on Hamilton’s forehead.

“Oh, don’t be so sappy Burr!”, Laurens whined with a chuckle, “Hamilton, if you want to get him back, his worst spot is his neck”.

Burr swung his head around instantly, “What?! Laurens, why you little-”

Burr was interrupted by his own short giggle as Hamilton leaned up and lightly tickled his neck. Burr looked down at Hamilton in horror.

“Oh my dog Burr, that was so cute!”, he stated with the biggest shine in his eyes.

Burr jumped off Hamilton instantly, making a run for it. Hamilton stood up and laughed with the other three.

“Perhaps this would be a better time for me to get further aquatinted with you”, Hamilton said. Lafayette just chuckled, “I’m from France, happy now?” “No time!” Laurens cried, “Burr is getting away!” And with that, the four men set out on there first adventure together, there common goal: finding Burr and tickling him to pieces.

[felswritingfire]

Would you mind doing sfw and nsfw with dating Hephaestus from TAS? Also can the reader be male, if not thats okay.

Anon, you are my favorite person now and OF COURSE I CAN DO A MALE READER, DEAR

(Also this is another one that’s a second round because,,,,,, Tumblr decided that the original draft was a good sacrifice to Cthulu,,,,, haaaha)

Dating Hephaestus

(SFW)

Hephaestus is elated when you two get together

It's a bit weird at first, especially since he keeps calling you Mama while he holds his hand, so, like, there’s a couple of mixed messaging there

After a while he (truly) comes to terms with the fact you may have his Mama's soul in you- but that doesn't mean that you're his Mama

And once your relationship has been a thing for a month or two, he'll start using your actual name, which he's really blushy about it the first couple of times he uses it 

He likes to make you little trinkets out of scraps of metal that he manages to get his hands on

They can range from being figurines of you two holding hands to an intricately designed pocket knife and even a chain to hold your wallet (if you use one that is!)

You have no clue how he gets so much detail into such little things, but boy does he do a good job of it, holy shit-

He will combust into a flustered mess if you compliment him; he will also be glowing for the next week as well

He prefers at home dates opposed to ones that involve you guys going out, he’s super paranoid from what has happened in the previous loops

His favorite at home dates involve you guys popping in a movie and him laying his head on your chest as he listens to your heart beat and his arms loosely hugging around your waist and you play with his hair or rub his shoulders

He will go out on a date every once in a while if you really want to, he’s just on guard for more than half of it and even jumpier than normal, but he’ll try just for you!

He gets really shy with kisses, he’ll give you a hesitant peck if you smooch him first

After he does, though, he’ll hide his face in his hands, trying to hide the blush that’s raging on his cheeks

Heph is not surprisingly a possessive partner; he’s terrified about the possibilities of you getting hurt, coupled with his insecurities, he has a nasty tendency to come off as hostile to other people that he deems as a threat. Especially Talos

 If he catches him chatting to you or (oH NO) touching you, he will go charging up to him and get in his face, the ever-burning flame on the side of his face glowing a furious red, as he bears his fangs at Talos 

It’s really up to you to calm him down: take his face into your hands and whisper sweet words to him or place a kiss on his cheek and he’ll immediately relax

He enjoys listening to your voice and it calms him down immensely

No matter if you’re taller than him or shorter, he will hide behind you when he gets nervous with a situation 

If you haven’t already, you’re definitely meeting the Crafters 

And you get sucked into their family really fast after their done freaking out about the fact that Heph actually has a boyfriend

NSFW

AMAB USED

(Sub Hephaestus)

I apologize if you’re a sub, but you’re most likely gonna have to take the reigns the first couple of times

Our boy is horrified at the thought of hurting you and his insecurities get the better of him in most cases so he’ll just freeze until you make a move

He really likes when you press him against the bed/cushions while massaging his pecs with your other hand and sucking his earlobe

He’ll sigh and arch into you, resting trembling hands against your lower back as you trail kisses down his body until you hit the zipper of his jump suit and take it between your teeth and slowly drag it down

He’s a tad embarrassed of the size of his dick (he feels that it’s too big, which fun fact for y’all! He made Talos’ dick smaller and it makes complete sense why because Ancient Greeks would view smaller penises as more attractive than bigger ones! The more you know, if you didn’t already)

But if you manage to deep throat him (judging by the size of his bulge, our boy is pretty well endowed) he will instantly N U T- and no, there is no warning, the feeling of the walls of your throat fluttering at the weight of his cock resting at the back of it will be enough to send him to the ninth heaven, let me tell you

If you give him a rim job he will be a mess

He’ll hold onto the sheets/cushions as he loses himself in the feeling of your hot tongue laving against him; groaning as he feels you poke inside of him

He’ll adamantly press his ass back against your mouth though

He’ll squirm when you start to finger him, blushing all the way down to his neck, it only getting deeper as you begin to add more fingers and scissor him to loosen the tight ring of muscle until he’s begging you to please, please put it in- please, oh, Gods, he needs your cock right now-

His head will snap back and he’ll arch his back as you enter him, slowly, marveling at the feeling of being filled by you as you leave him breathless

You can actually feel his entire body tremble as you bottom out, your balls flush against him as you give him time to adjust

He prefers doggy style when you top because he’s genuinely embarrassed of the possible faces he makes

The loudest he gets is groaning and even then it’s really not that loud 

His entire body will tremble when he cums

If Heph bottoms it is A GOOD TIME IS WHAT I’M GETTING AT

(Top Hephaestus)

Just because he prefers to sub at the beginning doesn’t mean that he’ll never top, it just takes him a bit to warm up to it is all

When he does top, he prefers positioning you in a way where he can see your face, though he’ll completely understand if you’d prefer one where your facing away

On the topic of positions, he really, really likes the cowgirl (cowboy, in this case, I suppose-)

It gives him a chance to watch you bounce on him and feel the tight walls of your ass clench around him while allowing you to set the pace! It’s great and it’s practical- what’s better for an inventor like him then that????

He’ll treat you like a god: smoothing his hands over your chest and stomach, before caressing your hips before running a hand back up to your navel and following the path down to your erection where he can tease it with slow and gentle touches

He’s kind of afraid he’s going to break you, not gonna lie

Heph isn’t the best at oral, but he isn’t the worst either

He thinks it feels a little funky at first to have something in your mouth and he might just stick to sucking and you’ll definitely have to convince him to take more of you, because???? He has a gag reflex and he’s so afraid of accidentally throwing up on you, my dude, and then you’ll never want to have sex with him again- and what if you break up with him over this??? HE CAN’T HANDLE THAT-

There has to be a lot of communication and encouragements from you to him to get him to calm down

He’s eager to please, he’s just nervous he’s going to fuck up

He’s much, much better at fingering

Like, he knows how to hit your prostate just right that you’ll be seeing stars and it won’t even take him very long for him to find it

Once he does, he’ll hyper focus on it for a bit because he really likes the way your skin flushes when he does grind his fingers against it

You might be overstimulated before you start ngl

Once he’s done hyper focusing on your (poor) prostate, he’ll be very slow about entering you, because again, our boy is pretty big 

But boy, does he feel amazing-

You can feel every vein as he presses into you and the stretch, even despite how much he stretched you with his fingers, still has that burn that quickly dissipates into pleasure

Once he bottoms out, he’s trembling to keep himself up and trying not to loose himself in the feeling of you

He starts out with soft, slow thrusts but if you ask/tell him to go faster he’ll for sure oblige

If he’s jealous he’ll be a tad rougher than normal; he might actually bite you if you don’t watch it

After Sex

He’ll be blissed out afterwards, his consciousnesses, seemingly, floating about in the clouds, no matter if he was top or bottom

But that doesn’t mean that he wouldn’t cater to your needs- you need a glass of water? On it. Need a towel to wash off? You want the yellow or the red one? You want to take a bath with him? He’s already got the water running

If you just want to cuddle afterwards though, he won’t be one to say no, but he will remind you that either he/you need to... clean yoursleves out it y’all didn’t use a condom (practice safe sex, my pals!) in a little bit

Even if you guys had sex a hundred times, he’d still get flustered about it

[needs-to-stop-looking-at-valves]

Damn that mommy kink Airachnid ask was so good! But could we now maybe have some Sfw and Nsfw headcannons for Mommy Airachnid’s everyday life taking care of her s/o, do you think she’d actually let her s/o be in their “little space” all day?, would her s/o have a play room?, what about punishments? (Also I hope that the Anon who sent that request is ok :( I know how they feel and it makes me happy knowing how accepting of our kinks you are. Thanks for taking time to be here for us)

I hope they’re okay too! We all have the right to have our kinks. Tbh, long as a kink isn't harming anyone (not talking shit about BDSM, thats valid), we need to embrace what we like. Even if others don't! Like, I don't like vomit kinks, but hey if you’re thing, go for it! Anyhow, let's get to answer this! 

She’s actually VERY motherly in her personality. Protective, caring, and constantly coddling, this was a kink that came easy to you both.

Airachnid brings you food and snacks upon request. If you’re good, you get something a little sweet to go with your meals.

She cares for you, despite the fact that she has the tendency to leave often, much like a cat. It really makes you miss her though, and she’s well aware.

Nicknames for you are stuff like ‘baby’, ‘sweetie’, ‘sugar’, ‘precious’, etc.

Of course you have your own little space! Its a spot just for you, filled with everything you need to be happy. Just name it, and she’ll get it for you.

She's a pervert. She keeps grazing her claws against you, keeps giving you little kisses here and there. By the end of the day, you’re just ready to GO. It's essentially an all day foreplay.

She’s so gentle with you. She’ll give you smooches, she’ll tell you what she loves about you; it's surprisingly gentle, given the fact that she’s an actual murderer.

Let's say one day, you’re just being a brat. She understands, not everyone can behave themselves, but she expects you to hold some decorum. If you throw a big enough fit, she decides to take matters into her own hands.

Her punishments depend on just how bad you've been. It can go from a few spankings, to having a toy shoved up inside of you all day, with NO chance of release. She can be even more creative, if you want to push her.

[darisu-chan]

Marco’s Feelings (Or How He Lied to Himself Almost the Whole Show): An Analysis, Part 2

Welcome to Part 2 of this analysis! If you haven’t read Part 1, you can find it here. If you have, then let’s continue with this analysis, this time dealing with season 2.

(Long post ahead)

Disclaimer: although this is my opinion, I’m basing it on the subtext of the show and not on what I just want to believe. I know I’m a starco shipper, but, honestly, the plot made me like them and not the other way around. I’ve shipped Star and Marco with other people, although, ultimately, I do prefer them with each other because of what I’m about to explain in a bit. So take that in mind.

Season 2 starts right in the aftermath of the season 1 finale, Storm the Castle, with Star getting a new wand and starting to learn important lessons, like dipping down. But wheres does that leave Marco? In this season Marco is beginning to come out of his shell, finally, and sets on the path of becoming the best version of himself. Through meeting Star, he realized he loved going on on adventures, which is something he wants to keep doing. Through his experiences as Princess Turdina, he’s not only becoming the embodiment of free will but also he’s becoming more comfortable in his own skin. As he matures, he also starts becoming more confident. It’s no surprise this is the season he dates Jackie. It’s the culmination of a process in which Marco is finally being daring enough to get what he wants.

But what does it mean for his feelings for Star?

As I explained in Part 1, Marco did an amazing job concealing his feelings for Star right after BMB. His feelings can be seen as strictly platonic from then onwards. However, there are still several things to point out in these platonic interactions which will explain his actions later on. 

When Mr. Candle Cares first aired, a lot of fans were excited because Marco was shown saying “Star and I have recently become smooch buddies” in the trailer, and although that turned out to be a ploy to out Tom, this episode wasn’t a “major loss.” When Tom and Marco are playing ping pong, they begin talking about Star. Now, clearly Tom knows a lot of her. He met her first, they dated for a while and they come from the same dimension. Yet there are things Tom doesn’t like about her, and he complains about Star doing whatever she wants, and Marco states fondly “Yeah, thats Star.” Tom is fundamentally angry and aggressive in the early seasons, and later on we see that, although Tom doesn’t snap at Star anymore, Star does snap at him. They know they have flaws and, although they like each other, they are less accepting of them. Marco knows Star has many flaws, cheating at games included, but the way he states that very simple phrase says a lot. He accepts Star, flaws and all, but not only that, he genuinely still likes her even if they don’t agree in everything. They’ve got each other’s backs. However, the next thing he tells Tom is more relevant.

“It doesn’t matter if you beat me at ping pong or pull out all my organs, you can’t make Star be your girlfriend unless she wants to.”

This ties perfectly to his confession in Here To Help:

“And it was intense at the start and I know it’s in the way.”

“In the way? Marco, why does it have to be bad?”

“It is bad if you don’t want it.”

In BMB it became clear to him Star doesn’t want anything romantic happening between them. Liking Star is not bad in itself, but it is bad if she doesn’t want it. Marco accepts this and moves on (remember that Marco began his journey of free will a little earlier than Star. Although rebellious, Star is not choosing her own path yet. This is relevant for season 4). He doesn’t think Star will ever like him, not when she likes Oskar. But, at this point in time, it’s much easier to push these feelings away. He has his own crush on Jackie and he has a deep friendship with Star. The status quo can continue without chaging anything. 

However, as Marco grows and matures, he wants to change the way things are, not wanting to remain in the same place he has been the whole time (Freeze Day, Red Belt). Unknowingly, he’s defying the status quo and, eventually, it will come down to his relationship with Star. As for our princess, she is also changing, and it comes to a point in which she cannot push her feelings away anymore. 

Before continuing, let’s make some honorable mentions of Marco’s relationship with Star that, although didn’t advance their romantic feelings per se, are important for their overall relationship. First, let’s talk about Star on Wheels, when not only does Marco trust himself enough to save Star, he’s the one saving Star as oppossed to her own crush, which is a subversion of a classic Romantic Interest Saves Protagonist trope... or maybe even then it told us who Star’s real romantic interest was suppossed to be. This episode is also an excercise on trust for the both of them, not only on themselves but on each other. Star is angry at Marco for lying to her when he said he wouldn’t let go, and did, and she has to trust Marco to help her. In the end, the reason why Star was saved was both by believing in Marco and believing in herself.

In Star vs Echo Creek, we see Marco being worried about Star’s whereabouts and him having waited for her the whole time in the police station. This episode is a great example of Star running away from her problems first, and then attempting to solve them after a time of reflection, which is a current them in all seasons in various levels. However, in regards to Marco it tells us that, no matter what Star does, what she chooses or how she acts, Marco is going to be waiting there for her, helping her too.

Marco wanting to show Star one of the many amazing things on Earth since she’s shown him so many amazing things already in Camping Trip speaks about Marco trying to reciprocate all she’s given him. Also, River questions the nature of their relationship, which, again, is a way to remind the audience of the possibility of Starco happening.

The other episodes are not really worth talking about in terms of Marco’s feelings for Star and their relationship other than them being best friends. So let us move on to Sleepover, or the episode that pretty much broke the status quo, at least for the audience. After someone lied to the truth box, we, as the audience, are confronted with the fact someone lied. It could’ve been Janna, who some thought had a crush on Marco. It could’ve been Jackie, when she said she liked that boy from camp. And there was no way the person who lied was StarFan13. So, we’re given too obvious choices: either Marco or Star lied. And when it is not only told by the truth box that Marco wasn’t the one who lied, we’re confronted with the fact it is Star who lied. At the end, we are told why she lied and the truth is revealed: she has a crush on Marco. 

What is interesting to note is that Star’s feelings are the ones that are spelled out to us during the second season, and they were never that obvious with Marco in the first season or even in this one. I’m guessing it has to do with Star being the protagonist, but it also has to do with their personalities. Star is more of an open book. She shares her feelings and thoughts. And being so impulsive, eventually she was going to reveal everything she was feeling. Marco, on the other hand, is introverted and he’s the type of person who thinks things through. Having Marco’s feelings be hidden in comparison to Star’s, and only being something you have to pick up from the subtext or the imagery instead of being spelled out for you, is definitely in character and if it is something done on purpose, I commend the writing and animation teams for that.

In Sleepover we have two very interesting speeches that not only tells us things about the way Marco and Star think and feel, but they are things which can be applied to their relationships with other people as well as with each other. I will talk about Marco’s speech about Jackie later, but it’s interesting that not only do Star’s words tie in with what she was feeling at the moment, they also pretty much can relate to Marco. The idea that feelings are not black and white, that when your heart and mind don’t agree, it is difficult to know the truth, is something Marco wrestles with right until Here to Help. By pushing his feelings away, he’s trying to obey his own mind because he knows that by listening to his heart there’s more left to lose. Later on, we know that the longer this went on, the longer it affected Marco until he couldn’t hide his feelings anymore. But, at this moment, Marco is deep in denial. It all comes back to BMB and the conversation he had with Star. Marco here is in “be her best friend” mode, and he will continue down this path until almost the finale.

Now, at the end of Sleepover, there is tension between our two mainc characters. Tension in writing, specially when it comes to film and TV is super important and it is the foundation of any screenplay. Here, our characters are put into two conflicting positions. We, as the audience, know something is going to go down between them after this point, but we don’t know how or when, until we keep watching the rest of the seasons, which, if you actually did at the same time the episodes aired, it took years. This just adds to the suspense, which remember is always more important than the surprise. However, the characters themselves don’t know things are about to change. Star is running away from her feelings, and Marco, who already went through a similar process before his feelings were much stronger, remains oblivious. This part is incredibly relevant because the writers used this tension to not only introduce the idea of a love triangle later on, but it’s the main reason the romantic drama got dragged on for so long. Basically, they wanted to keep us on our toes, and boy did they succeed!

Before moving on with the rest of the episodes in which basically stuff goes down in terms of relationship drama, I just want to say that in many season 2 episodes we’re shown how important Star and Marco are to each other, which is not only important for the season finale and during the events of Battle for Mewni, but for the final episode of the whole series. Although Star and Marco became best friends fast after the first episode, their relationship kept growing on key episodes until we realize their relationship, be it friendship or something more, is not only the foundation of the show but it’s an integral part of their lives, and this is more obvious when we realize they will never let anything come in between them.

One of the best episodes to illustrate just how important Star is to Marco is during Gift of the Card, when, at the end, Marco is willing to die with Star. I mean, it was played for jokes and we knew they weren’t going to actually explode, but they didn’t know that. Marco was truly comforted by knowing he’d die next to Star, and that speaks volumes of what he thinks and feels for her more than anything else he could have done back then. It’s also sweet that when she’s crying, he’s the one t comfort her by hugging her.

It’s also great how their apologies parallel their personalities. When Star apologizes for not telling him about the card’s expiration date, she’s apologizing for not thinking things through and acting rashly. When Marco apologizes for being picky, he’s apologizing for overthinking. It is interesting to note that these flaws are the same ones which kept them apart until they matured. It almost feels like they were apologizing in advance for what was about to come.

And now, after many plot-centric episodes and other shenanigans we find the controversial Naysaya. This episode, among others, is used by some people to prove that Marco lied and he didn’t have feelings for Star then (which also contradicts the Blood Moon being a curse, but oh well). In this episode, a curse Tom put on Marco since BMB starts acting up in the form of a little head growing on Marco’s neck that says embarrassing things each time he tries to ask Jackie out. The episode ends with Jackie and Marco hanging out, and that’s pretty much the start of their relationship. As for the arguments that invalidate Marco’s feelings for being there, is that the curse didn’t act out in front of Star, and that Marco was attempting to ask Jackie out, and not Star. So, here’s the thing, 

Let’s talk about Jackie and Marco’s feelings for her first:

We know that Marco has had a huge crush on her since they were kids (Freeze Day) but that he’s been unable to have an actual relationship with her. Sure, he nods at her in the hallways and he sends her cat memes and the like, but they’re more acquaintances than friends at this point. Jackie was even surprised to learn Marco had a crush on her, as she had no idea about it. So what do they really know about each other? It’s merely superficial at this point, but Marco wants to change that. Let’s analyze his speech during Sleepover:

“I told you! I have a crush on Jackie... At least I think I do. But what does that really mean? I’ve put her on this sort of pedestal, so do I like the image of her or for who she really is? I mean, I like her enough to know that she deserves someone who wants to get to know her, which is definitely me.”

Marco likes Jackie. The fact that he likes her does not invalidate any feelings he has for Star in this moment, especially when he’s deep in denial. Star pretty much doomed them back in BMB, by expressing her needing a friend, and so Marco pushed those intense feelings deep, deep inside of him and convinced himself that what he felt for Star was just friendship, and shut out any other potential romantic feelings. It’s not that his confession in Here to Help is a lie, it’s just based on the grounds that, in this specific moment I’m analyzing, he had lied to himself so much, that he genuinely believed the only girl he liked was Jackie. He had liked her for forever, in fact. It was easier to like Jackie than to like Star, and it was more convenient for him to have an unachievable crush because there was no fear of rejection. Marco’s a safe kid in this moment in the series, he’s not about to stop liking Jackie for something that has no possibility of going anywhere. Marco, knowingly or unknowingly, made a choice. And, as he began changing and fighting for what he wanted, he chose to get to know Jackie better and see if there was actually potential for a committed relationship, which translates to the potential of loving her. Marco does not love Jackie. But he likes her enough to want to know the real her, as he himself stated.

Now, why did Jackie start liking Marco? One of the complains was that it came out of nowhere. First, because she was moved by his heartfelt words during Sleepover, and, come on, who can blame her? I think any of us would start considering someone as a potential partner after hearing they want to get to know us better, and not because of shallow reasons. Secondly, he was honest with her both in Sleepover and Naysaya, and it adds up with what we know of Jackie. At her core, she’s honest and likes keeping it real. Marco being honest as well is an appealing trait. It’s no wonder she asked him out first to the movies and then to the dance in Bon Bon the Birthday Clown. 

BBtBC is another episode which broke the fandom and it is the start of Star realizing her feelings for Marco. What does it mean for Marco, though? Well, for one, he is fulfilling his years-long wish of dating Jackie-Lynn Thomas. However, that does not get in the way of the importance Star has in his life. Now, this episode is also proof that the Blood Moon was actually a curse, or at least it was used to prove Starco was forced or something by anti shippers way back then. Honestly, I didn’t take the Blood Moon appearing after Marco and Jackie’s first kiss as a sign that it was getting in the way of their blossoming relationship, and that it was forcing him to Star’s side. I took it as the Blood Moon warning Marco that Star was in danger, because just before the kiss, Star was fighting against Ludo, who was there to take her Book of Spells and Glossaryck with it. Marco’s reaction after seeing the moon was checking his phone, which showed all of Star’s missed calls and he assumed she was in trouble (which she was) and went to help her. And, honestly, I’m glad he went, because if he hadn’t, Star might have been sucked inside that portal. Anyway, I cannot refute the claim that this showed the Blood Moon was actually a curse, although I still believe the writers had to retcon it after how badly the fandom reacted to Booth Buddies. If, actually, we think the Blood Moon was just truly uniting them as souls, the finale and how they cleaved Mewni and Earth together with their magic makes more sense, but let’s not go into those details, yet.

Another interesting part of this episode is that Marco is confronted with a tough choice: stopping Ludo from taking the book or saving Star. And the guy doesn’t hesitate. He goes right away to save her, and even when Star warns him that he could be pulled into the portal too, he exclaims “I’m not letting go!” And boooy, can this very phrase be applied to his relationship with Star. He has never let go of her. Each and every time Star has been in trouble, Marco has been there for her. Through ups and downs, through all the heartbreak, he’s been right by her side. And that, my friends, is beautiful.

Okay, next he helps Star up first, and even if he then goes to Jackie’s side (which makes Star jealous and it hurts her), this is an early indication of how the Jarco relationship will go next. Star comes first. She always has and always will. Jackie realizes this later on, but for now, that was our next clue. 

Final thought on BBtBC. When Star starts crying about her missing book, Marco instantly goes to comfort her and he hugs her, but as they hug she announces that she “lost Glossaryck” and that greatly upsets Marco. I’ve always felt, even if they didn’t truly touch on this in the show, that he felt incredibly guilty of the part he played in that situation. I mean, just look at his face after Star says that:

But, I also think, Marco doesn’t regret that choice, and that’s probably why it was never touched upon later on.

Well, in following non-drama related episodes, Star does not act jealous again and, meanwhile, Marco continues being her voice of reason, as he usually is, until Running with Scissors, another episode which cleaved the fandom in two. As for my personal belief of what happens with Marco after he returns to Earth is what Adam McArthur said: it’s like a dream, and he starts forgetting details as he returns to normal. Or we can say there are two Marcos, our normal one and Adult Marco. What I can say is that regardless of our interpretation of Marco’s state of mind after his adventures in this episode, is that the experience made Marco way more confident than he was beofre, and it adds to Marco’s sense of adventure. It’s clear that Marco likes living adventures and not being a normal teenager, which will come into play in Sophomore Slump. As for Marco’s feelings for Star, well, she is the one that convinces Marco to come back home:

“What about your parents? Or your friends? Or me?”

Which is a pretty big deal, considering that the idea of seeing his parents again wasn’t the one that drew him in, but not seeing Star again did.

Now, let’s move on to Heinous, when Star is Marco’s inspiration to thwart Heinous’ plans and giving a very sarcastic message instead of actually attempting to tell other princesses to give up their individualities.

With this episode we finally are through the non-shipping episodes, and now the real trouble starts.

Since this is so long already, I’ll analyze Just Friends through Battle for Mewni in the next post.

Thanks again for reading!

[tillman]

hi i ranked every single dark souls 1 character by who i think is the most kissable . its 79 characters all with a description of why theyre at the place theyre at with images for reference :-) its all under cut for u to enjoy.. thank u

this is all my opinion cus hehe im making the list but also im god so this is fact now . 

counting down because u know what ! buildup is fun and i have to start off with everyones most favorite:

GWYN - 79

im kidding. fuck gwyn and everything he stands for. he wouldnt even be a good kisser he doesnt have FUCKING LIPS

SEATH - 78

oh you really wanna kiss the incel dragon who kidnaps ladies for his weird experiements?? yeah?? who are you, big hat logan?

EINGYI - 77

heres one i wont get hate for: this fucking asshole . die bastard . he cant even kiss his face is all infected and gross!

KAATHE - 76

he sucks.

SMOUGH - 75

not only is he too big to kiss! hes a cannibal!! hed eat you!!!! thats no kiss i want!

MANUS - 74

listen i know yall love daddies and all that but hes manipulative and not a nice person so id watch out. i GUESS hes kissable as he was a human before but def not a good kiss

BED OF CHAOS - 73

its just some vines that sometimes set on fire!! If it were still the witch of izalith she would be probally in the 20s as shes a good person who tried very hard to help the world but in this state... u cant even kiss her!

FRAMPT - 72

better than kaathe but the whole no lips and being a manipulative snake monster really throws me off and shoves him down at the bottom

FINA (GODDESS OF LOVE/BEAUTY (?)) - 71

(mentioned character - no image sorry :-( )

Listen as much as im all for love, this is love u dont want ! just trust me dont be lautrec dont do it you dont want to kiss fina listen to me. please dont kiss fina.

VINCE AND NICO - 70

way of the white members are NOTABLY unkissable but these guys. are just so boring. theyll be your white bread boyfriend as neil would say... bad kissers and bad people!

LAUTREC - 69 

aw fuck wait can i make another character 69 he doesnt deserve it. anyways not only is he not over his ex (fina) hed probally gut you and steal your lunch money half way through the kiss anyways so whats the point . thats not how u treat a lover idiot

CENTIPEDE DEMON - 68

it eats your face and you die. next pleaaase

PETRUS - 67

another way of the white cleric. he at least starts off nice and he says fuck rich people but also he let that happen to rhea and i fucking hate his guts so no.

PALADIN LEEROY - 66 

out of all the way of the white idiots hes the best in that he wears armor and seems cool but its the way of the white man.  i cant get past that. sorry leeroy at least your armor is cool. he probably hasnt kissed someone in hundreds of years anyways 

MOONLIGHT BUTTERFLY - 65

delicate ... but beautiful! i dunno how to smooch it but i def would if i could ! i dont think it can kiss back but, o well! we all have flaws

IRON GOLEM - 64

it cant kiss back but its COOL and can throw me like a javelin so like . yeehaw id smooch its little face place 

UNDEAD MERCHANTS (BOTH) - 63

between moss and yulia i think they got enough on their plates! plus since theyre so hollowed, i dont think they have any lips to kiss back with! 

INGWARD - 62

hes not like . bad persay but also i dont trust him after he helped with new londo. cool design tho. i wanna kiss that bird beak mask

JEREMIAH - 61

was a bullfrog, and never took off his crown long enough to kiss another person...... i feel like if he did though! oh boy!!!

Asylum Demon + Demon Firesage + Stray Demon - 60

more kissable than some bosses, but still not the greatest lips. good butts though on all of them.... so i guess thats fr u kinky people 

SNUGGLY THE CROW - 59

(no image shes a crow) 

please stop drawing her as an anime girl shes literally just a grow that likes warm things oh my god you freaks be nice to her

BIG HAT LOGAN - 58

hes hard to kiss around the hat! and on that note hes pretty much taken with his obsession with seath. good luck! hes nice though so better than most of this list so far

GAPING DRAGON - 57

ranked so high because past its giant underbelly of teeth and destruction is this very tiny head which i think is so funny i cant help but want to kiss its little snoot.... hehe baby

PRINCE RICARD - 56

oh now were actually getting into kissable range! ricard is a prince (maybe even of astora... kissability increase.) so his high ranking might get you some kissability points, but the hollowing is gonna lower that. 4/10 no kissable lips!

4 KINGS - 55

whats better than a prince..... a king... whats better than a king..................  4 KINGS! just watch out for their overly anime spiky armor and the fact their in a never ending void nightmare but they do have faces so thats points above the rest!

SALAMAN - 54

(mentioned character only! sorry!)

hmmmm we dont learn much about him other than he was close with quelana and he was ............ hot!  hes a pyromancer.  being of the great swamp pushes him down a bit because he prolly smells like his name sake but u know what ! maybe hes cute! we cant be sure! hes in the running at least!

TAURUS DEMON - 53

hmm... bad lover.... good kisser................................................... the things i do for big beefy demon love.

GOUGH - 52

While you cant kiss gough cus all the sap in his helmet i cant bare to put him lower than he is hes just so sweet. a kiss on his helmet because i love him so much

NITO - 51

while he cant kiss back, nito deserves a kiss or two! plus he has a lot of hands so u can hold his hands and be hugged at the same time and u know what that might be just as good as a nice kiss. good on you nito!

STONE DRAGON - 50

again a non kisser........ damn beaks! the stone dragon does need a kiss though. they havent seen another living soul in years down in ash lake! so im giving them points on that alone.

VAMOS - 49

like the last two.... no lips! vamos though makes up for it in his charm and wit, and his exceptional skill in smithing! so even without lips to kiss, you still should kiss vamos! hes a good friend

ARIAMIS - 48

(mentioned !)

wow... a painter! and a skilled one at that! this man created the painted world used to keep priscilla safe and that is so noble it gives him points right off the bat! i feel like though, as an artist, he might be a bit weird about it. so watch out and be safe, but in the end, get free art and some free smooches out of him!

ELIZABETH - 47

thats my mom ... of course she gets a good cheek smooch for all her hard work keeping dusk safe!

DOMHNALL - 46

i love domhnall hes a good guy whos trying his best but also his mask is so fucking goofy i dunno if i can do it .

RICKERT - 45

as much as i think rickert would be a good kiss (hes smart, cute, and skilled!) he is trapped behind some bars willingly and probably wont let you in. i can dream though!

CEASLESS DISCHARGE - 44

if theres any boss that NEEDS a kiss its him. poor dude lost all his family and was turned into this laughing stock of a creature. youd probably burn your lips but .... please just be nice to him :-(

SHIVAS BODYGUARD - 43

ooo a strong yet silent type.... hes even cute under his mask! good kiss, but i feel like he might just care more about his actual job than a kiss ! hes dedicated !

CIARAN - 42

putting aside me knowing shed be a good kisser, i just understand she probably doesnt want a kiss right now, shes grieving over the loss of her friend and i respect her comfort. maybe a good pat on the shoulder and a cup of nice tea with her would be nice though! 

PINWHEEL - 41

may seem like a weird choice to put a necromancer up so high on the list but.... honestly pinwheel needs some love. dude lost his whole family and in trying to revive them accidentally fused them to himself. while he might not be the best kisser, i honestly just wanna tell him everythings gonna be ok.

KIRK - 40

ok if you know me you KNOW how much it pains me to put kirk so low but. hes a busy guy! not only is he doing so much work to help out where he can with the fair lady, but you might just get pricked by his spiky armor while youre going in for the smooch! so, as much as he deserves a kiss for all his hard work, maybe pass until another time!

SIEGLINDE - 39

were getting there! she is just so strong... and so brave........ she may not even be undead! sieglinde is so strong and wonderful doing all that just to deliver a message to her unruly father, she deserves so many kisses! Shes got a lot on her plate though so please respect her......

BERENIKE - 38

(just mentioned!)

implied to be a huge strong knight who made it to even sens fortress! yes please ! 

BELL GARGOYLES - 37

hmmmmm,.......... if u can get past the whole lighting your face on fire, these are two loyal gargoyles! that seems pretty good to me!

BEATRICE - 36

a wonderful helpful witch friend! she is so nice to help you defeat flying bosses with her magic!! i love her so much! shes even cute to boot! 

GIANT BLACKSMITH - 35

HE HELP ANYTIME................... I HAVE TO GIVE HIM A KISS FOR ALL HIS HARD WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LEGALLY I HAVE TO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RHEA - 34

putting aside my hatred of the way of white.... rhea really is just a babey.... shes adorable and kind and just wants everyone to be ok so im won over. maybe a little forehead smooch for being such a good person!

OSCAR - 33

oh oscar. a noble, heroic, and cute knight but in the end. would he be a good kisser........ i feel yes, but maybe not so much so! hes busy focusing on being a hero you know! hes a good friend and i cant help but fall in love with nice guys

THE FAIR LADY - 32

she deserves the entire world and all i can give her is my humanity and a kiss........... sobs. i wish i could do more to ease her pain but she is so strong and wonderful! please give her a nice smooch! 

QUELANA - 31

i didnt wanna separate them ........ her wonderful sister! who even taught humans pyromancies! shes smart and nice, and honestly probably needs a kiss. 

MILDRED - 30

uh my notes from last night are just

so yeah! thats mildred!

CRESTFALLEN MERCHANT - 29

hes sad as fuck but also... kinda handsome! he was a knight of berenike and made it almost all of the way through sens fortress showing how skilled he is! a strong man like this (inspired by maybe the best kisser in demons souls, boirr) has to be a good kiss!

SIEGMEYER - 28

hes going through a lot right now but... how could u not think siegmeyer is kissable. thats on you man. thats your own character flaw.

OSWALD - 27

ok this might be slightly controversial but i feel like oswald would be a good kisser. if you got past his slightly weird love for velka who well get to (thats just carimites (carimians? carimfolk???)) hes nice and kind and maybe the funkiest character in dark souls

KALAMEET - 26

another cant kiss you but.... kalameet is just so cool ! very shadow the hedgehog and u know what that is NOT a bad thing. you might have a rough time trying to get there, but..... aww whos a good dragon.....

DARKMOON KNIGHTESS - 25

alright the final stretch! the darkmoon knightess is the anor londo firekeeper, and a friend of gwyndolin! shes supposed to be “ugly and shit” (real quote. i would never lie to you) but her model is so cute! defiantly kissable as fuck!

 SANCTUARY GUARDIAN - 24

GOFH ITS JUST A WIDDLE KITTEY CAT........... I GIVE IT A WIDDLE KISSEY ON ITS FOREHEAD AHOWHWWAWWW BABEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALVINA - 23

AWHAHWAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW SHES H(FADOESAGVFOSDHFSO CUET EIFEDKC LKOFIE JS I LOVE YOU FJEADFIDASHCODEUFCUSFKSDHFKSUHFC

DUSK - 22

oh yes!! the princess of a lost land...... will you be her knight in shining armor.......... oh i just love her so much. shes sweet and nice and cute and deserves a kiss or two!! please be nice to my daughter!

SHIVA - 21

hottie with cool armor and a cooler sword. since they cut his whole sidequest i can with all certianty say YES he is super kissable and is probably a great kisser 

QUELAAG - 20

IGNORIGN HER GIANT SPIDER LOWERBODY........... SHES JUST DOING THIS FOR HER SISTER SHE JUST WANTS TO HELP HER POOR SISTER WHOS IN PAIN HOW COULD YOU NOT LOVE HER SO MUCH!! PLEASE KISS QUELAAG! 

GRIGGS - 19

im putting griggs so high cus hes kissable in a factor unseen before...... baby factor. hes soft and nice and is just trying to find his dad! just tuck him into bed and kiss him goodnight! its what he deserves! 

ARTORIAS - 18

everyone already KNOWS why artorias is a good kisser. hes nice, strong, brave, and most importantly. cool as FUCKING HELL ! HE DOES SICK ANIME FLIPS!! if you can look past the abyss slowly taking him over, youll find a good good boy who deserves a good kiss.

ANASTACIA - 17

the good firekeeper who we spend most of our time with in 1! YES of COURSE Shes kissable. she deserves SO MANY kisses for all of her hard work in keeping the firekeep shrine lit! good job anastacia im sorry lautrec is like that

VELKA GODDESS OF SIN - 16

(just mentioned!)

if her title alone doesnt bring you in, youll be pleased to know shes implied to help watch over priscilla (who well get to hold your horses) and keep the poor girl safe! a strong sense of justice and a love of crows, shes probably an amazing kiss if you can find her! 

ANDRE - 15

were closing in on #1 and i just have to throw andre in here. hes so nice and strong! just . please kiss andre! he deserves some he does so much work! 

PRISCILLA - 14

poor priscilla. called a monstrous crossbreed and has to hide in a painted world to stay safe from those who would hurt her. including the internet! leave her alone you freaks shes not your fetish fuel!!! she deserves a good kiss on the cheek and a hug for all she has to put up with

 CRESTFALLEN WARRIOR - 13

its my list i get to put the crestfallen warrior where i want. and u know what? he would honestly be a good kiss. hes kind and helpful and never once wishes you harm, he just needs to be held tightly and kissed passionately and u know what. dont we all. 

GWYNEVERE - 12

she is beautiful but .... 1 shes married and 2 shes not even real! whatever. her husband the flame god flann is at least.......... hot! haahgdaefshdfcdhswfe im so fucking funny

BLACK IRON TARKUS - 11

listen i see a big beefy dude i go “hey thats hot please kiss me” so of course tarkus is this high up hes the beefiest dude around.... right?? anyways all knights of berenike are kissable hes just the MOST kissable of the 3 named ones!

ORNSTEIN - 10

this dude kisses the son of gwyn you KNOW hes a good kiss. the golden lion armor just helps so much. we love you ornstein .....

HAVEL THE ROCK - 9

HERE HE IS ... THE BEEFIEST GUY AROUND ... this bitch uses a DRAGONS TOOTH as a huge club to bash people with if that isnt big dick energy i dont know what is. armor made of stone. heart made of gold. havel the rock please god kiss me passionately under the moonlight .

SIF - 8

oghfoghfohg puppey..................................... SMOOCHIE THE PUPPY>...........

NAMELESS KING (!?) - 7

(hes just mentioned in ds1!!) 

I KNOW HES A DS3 BOSS BUT LISTEN TO ME THEY TALK ABOUT HIM SO MUCH IM ALLOWING THIS.  he defected from his awful dads team to go help the DRAGONS!! thats so cool hes so kissable. would be more kissable if he wasnt kissing ornstein but thats ok . i respect them both.

MARVELOUS CHESTER - 6

this MAY just because i have a huge crush on him but also here are some good kissable things about him: his fasion, his voice that sounds like a purr, his laugh, his malice, his funny mask, him. thank you for your time.

GWYNDOLIN - 5

FINAL FIVE! heres gwyndolin. the most kissable of all of gwyns children for the sheer fact of how much work they put in to making sure people stay safe and happy. they are so kind and wonderful they deserve SO MANY kisses! good on you gwyndolin....

LAURENTIUS - 4

now heres a fun one! laurentius is one of the nicest guys u will EVER meet in any souls game. he genuinely cares about you, he loves and respects u even if u dont respect him or his skills, hes nice cute and above all: i love him . please kiss laurentius he is a nice guy who just wants the best for u..... dont be mean to him.....................

CAPRA DEMON - 3

the highest one that cant kiss back and thats for the capra demons SHEER HORNY ENERGIES. this is a demon you can fuck! thats it i have nothing else to say i just think the capra demon is funny

SOLAIRE - 2

do i seriously have to explain why solaire is so high up. not only is he nice and cares about you, hes handsome, passionate, and just a good fucking person. he is hands down one of the most kissable characters in any souls game ever! fuck yeah! go off you funky little lover boy! 

and finally.

its patches.

[vantekay]

valentine ||jhs

word count: 3.2k

estimated reading time: like 10 ish minutes, maybe? I haven’t been timing these sksks I’m sorry I will eventually come back and time it

genre(s): fluff fluff fluff and more fluff also a scene where you stargaze because I’m self indulgent and like every fic of mine that has a date scene includes stargazing sksksk sorry 

warning(s): none 

“throughout all the seasons, in this transition of winter-spring you've been here beside me with the sweet nothings you're whispering”

hoseok has always called you his rock because you kept him grounded whenever he needed it, reminding him in times of hardships that he was more than enough and that those bouts of feeling like he wasn’t enough would pass. he also called you his rock because you had been in his life for as long as he could remember, literally. you had known hoseok since you guys were kids. teeny tiny tots playing together at the daycare your mothers had both decided were good enough to watch you while they were busy. it all started because you, a very shy kid who kept to themselves in the corner, was crying and you immediately caught hoseok’s attention. you had come to find very quickly that he was the literal embodiment of sunshine and rainbows and everything else that could possibly bring you joy. he had been the only kid to approach you in the daycare since you arrived, and he made it his mission to make you happy. he had introduced himself to you as hobi, and from that day on it was hobi and y/n against the world. as you grew older, you had found that hoseok actually lived in the same neighborhood as you and this led to you and him growing closer as you aged. enter your tween and teen years and you were pretty much bound at the hip, doing anything and everything you could together. you had begun going to the others family gatherings, parties and other special events together and there came a time when both of your families had begun teasing you both about being an item. this would always prompt your cheeks to turn a deep rose color as hoseok denied any chances of getting together with you, claiming you were more like a sister to him. this had hurt you a bit the first few times he had said it, seeing as you had feelings for hoseok that were definitely not brotherly and you had always silently hoped he felt the same but you learned to quickly push those feelings down and laugh along with him whenever family members brought it up. this continued for a couple years until one drunken high school party where you had confessed your feelings for him and, to your surprise, he felt the same. the next day was spent soberly clearing things up and properly confessing, marking the beginning of your new relationship with hoseok. he learned very quickly that you were supportive of him. you always had been, but now that you proudly wore the title of girlfriend it had been enhanced ten fold and it made hoseok's day. whether it was cheering him on at his tennis games or during his swim meets, you never failed to bring a smile to his face when he caught you waving at him from the sidelines, the widest of grins on your face as you showed him how proud you were. you’re praises never stopped on the field though, no, hoseok would hear them the entire way back to your homes, and if you were spending the night at his then you would continue to praise him there too. when he had finished getting ready to relax and you were waiting for him on his bed with open arms, he would happily clamber into bed with you and accept your cuddles, you held him close to your chest as you ran your hand through his hair and continued to talk about how proud you were of him, how amazing he did during the game and so forth, until finally his eyes would flutter closed and the smile on his lips stretched wider.

“you're a lovable, angelic piece of perfect and anything i do for you is worth it times a million and a half”

it should come as no surprise that hoseok loves to do for other people, especially for you. whatever it was you needed him to do he would do it in a heartbeat. you needed a new pair of pants because you spilled coffee on your old ones? hoseok was already on his way to the mall as soon as you told him. you had a really bad day at work and you wanted takeout and a movie night in? hoseok has your favorite takeout place on speed dial and your order memorized and could make it to your apartment in 10 minutes flat with your favorite movie. you were his angel, his world, and he loved doing things for you. hoseok always made it known that you could count on him, constantly telling you that it didn’t matter how busy he was or what he was doing. reminding you that he would always drop whatever it was and help you in any way he could. this made touring a little difficult for him, seeing as how he wouldn’t be able to stop in the middle of a show to help you if you needed him but you knew he would help you as soon as he could. there was one time, however, where in the middle of a show he had gotten a message from your coworker telling him that you had fallen at work and were rushed to the hospital. it wasn’t anything major, just a preemptive trip to make sure you didn’t break any bones from the fall but it was still enough to plant that seed of worry in hoseok. what made this worse was the fact that he was in the middle of a show, in between songs and getting a quick change when he had heard the news from a staff member. they tried to reassure him that you were okay and that you weren’t actually hurt that badly, that your coworker just wanted to make sure you hadn’t broken any bones but it was still enough to drive hoseok mad. he tried to brush it off for the rest of the show and not worry ARMY but you were all he could think about. of course he immediately thought of all the worst case scenarios he could, like you being stuck at the hospital all by yourself because your friend had to leave, or you having broken every bone in your body and having to be put in a full body cast for a couple of months and many other unlikely scenarios. as soon as the show had ended, he rushed off stage to video call you, not even bothering with a text to make sure you were still up. his heart was relieved for a split second when you answered on the second ring, and he didn’t even let you speak before he was already blubbering off his concerns.

“oh god angel I’m glad you answered, I got the text from your coworker saying you were in the hospital as we were in the middle of the show and I was so worried about you. are you okay? did you break anything? do I need to sue your company for the fall? psychological damage that you may have suffered? god baby I’m so sorry I’m not there to sit with you in the hospital right now and- wait, are you at home?” hoseok furrowed his eyebrows and squinted down at his phone screen as you leaned your head back to let out a loud laugh. he backs away from his intense staring with his lips down in a frown and a pout on his face, waiting for you to explain.

“I got out of the hospital like, an hour ago love. it was just a trip to make sure I didn’t break anything, which I didn’t, I just twisted my ankle s’all.” as you spoke you could watch the worry physically drain itself from hobi’s face, his heart shaped smile beginning to form itself on his lips at the thought of you being okay.

“oh thank god, y/n I couldn’t even begin to tell you how worried I was about you, I was starting to wonder if management would let me fly home to see you in case you had been put in a full body cast or something.” now you both laughed, hoseok blushing slightly at how ridiculous he sounded but you assured him that you loved it, loved him for caring so much about you and being ready to do whatever he needed to take care of you. you meant a lot to him, and he would be willing to give you his heart in a split second if you needed it, that’s how much he loved you. 

“cause i love you and i'd like to spend forever in the subtle warmth inside your arms”

hoseok’s favorite thing to do with you has to without a doubt be cuddling. he loves it when you cuddle him or he cuddles you, he doesn’t mind either position as long as he can feel the warmth radiating off of your body and onto his. he loves holding you close, head pressed up against his chest so you can hear his heartbeat while his hand runs through your hair as he talks to you about his day and you talk to him about yours. hoseok always wants to be touching you in some way whether it be hugging or cuddling or holding hands, he always wants to feel your warmth. whenever you go out in public he is holding your hand, if you have to separate for whatever reason he always makes sure you part with a hug and if you guys are just spending time at the dorm or at your apartment you better believe you’re cuddled up on the couch together. hoseok loves it the most when he wakes up with you in his arms, the way you’re always wrapped up in his embrace like you haven’t moved since you fell asleep in the same position. he loves it when it’s raining really heavily and you beg him to sit out in the living room with you, huddled up on the couch with your favorite blanket and a movie on the tv, drowned out by the sound of the rain hitting the glass of your window. he loves it when you rest your head on his shoulder while gazing at something, whether it be your phone or whatever else may be holding your attention and he just enjoys being close to you, and he never wants to let you go.

“i'll keep on creating for you until my final days, dancing in the living room and smooching while the vinyl plays”

one of hoseok’s favorite memories with you is whenever he had a day off and you insisted on dancing with him, since he would continue to practice even if he was meant to be relaxing. the day usually goes something like this, you begin by sitting in the living room and watching him dance, then he insists on teaching you some of the moves so now you’re up and dancing with him and then eventually you convince him to do some kind of slow dance with you as a cool down from earlier. he would never admit it but he loves it when his days off go like this, getting some practice in and then ending it with you and him slow dancing while your bluetooth speaker plays whatever love song you have in your playlist. he loves holding you by the waist, watching as you lean your head forward on his chest while you dance, hands intertwined and the soft sounds of your breath mingling as you sway together in the living room. hoseok will begin his kiss attacks with simple smooches to you hair, and then gradually makes his way down to your face after you’ve removed it from the warmth of his chest to look up at him. he starts his descent at your forehead, leaving a kiss there before travelling to your nose, and then both cheeks, your chin, the corners of your mouth and then finally landing on your lips. the kiss is always soft and sweet and makes butterflies erupt in your stomach and you can’t get enough of him which leads into a makeout session. hoseok’s hands grip your waist a little tighter as your hands move to play with the hairs at the nape of his neck, not once breaking apart for air. you continue like that for what feels like hours, just holding each other and sharing kisses under the dim lighting in your living room until hoseok’s stomach begins to growl louder than the music playing in the background and you break apart with a laugh, walking into the kitchen together to prepare a meal.

“cause we can both hear the compliments coming in from these pals of mine and I've been wondering if you would be my valentine”

hoseok remembers back in highschool, when you had just started dating, and valentine’s day approaching faster than he would have liked. he was nervous seeing as it was the first holiday you would be spending together as a couple and he wanted it to be perfect. his friends had encouraged him, telling him they would help him with any planning or preparations he had. what he really wanted to do was take you out for a picnic date at the park you really liked that was a bit of a drive out of town and then watch the stars with you. he tells his friends about his plan in hopes that they will get the hint to leave him alone, but something about the way they smile at him after he’s done speaking tells him otherwise. brushing it off, he waits for you in the school’s parking lot and gets ready to put his plan into action. when you get into his car, he starts to drive towards the location of the park which is on the opposite side of town where you both live. you’re confused, and look over to ask him what he’s doing to which you only get a “you’ll see” out of him. you sit back and enjoy the ride, wondering what he could possibly have planned for today. when you arrive at the park the sun has begun its descent and hobi is quick to pull you out of his car and towards the location of the picnic dinner he has had set up for the past few hours. you laugh at his enthusiasm only to be wowed by the location for which he has picked out. the spot he found has a perfect overview of the horizon ahead, and it perfectly shows off the current setting sun and all of the orange pink and purple hues stemming from it. you stand there in awe, mouth hung open as you watch the sun set and hoseok can’t help but take a couple photos of you, some from a few feet behind you showing off both the setting sun and your silhouetted frame. he smiles down at the photos before walking up behind you and wrapping you up in a hug, head placed on your shoulder as he places soft kisses into the crook of your neck. you giggle before attempting to get away from him, claiming that his shows of affection tickle and that you want to eat. he leads you back over to the blanket and begins to pull out the food he had prepared. to your surprise, he pulls out a bunch of fruits and what looks to be kimchi made from scratch. you look up at him in awe while a blush blossoms on his cheeks. he dishes out the servings of food between the two of you before starting to eat, striking up conversation with you about school that day and what plans you had for the weekend. after you both finish eating and the sun has promptly set, he asks you to lay down with him on the blanket to stargaze for a little. it takes you by surprise, seeing as hoseok has never addressed the idea of finding stargazing particularly interesting but you assume that maybe he had seen posts about it on twitter or instagram pertaining to how it was a cute date idea. you lay hand in hand and watch the stars for about an hour before you pack up to go home, the cold air beginning to nip at your skin and creating goosebumps. once you’re back inside his car hoseok pulls out one last surprise gift for you. you assume it’s a ring, considering the box he occupies in his hands is too small to contain a necklace or bracelet and you feel your heartbeat begin to pick up. hoseok smiles before opening the case and showing off a beautiful gold promise ring set, one for you and one for him. he takes the one meant for you out and begins to place it on your ring finger as he speaks softly. 

“I got these because even though we just started dating, we’ve known each other our whole lives and I can’t imagine the rest of my life being with anyone else but you. I want to continue making memories with you and I want to build my future with you, y/n. so I want us to make a promise that we will always be there for each other.” hoseok looks back up from your hand with a smile on his face as he finishes talking and you quickly lean forward to place a chaste kiss on his lips. “of course I want to spend the rest of my life with you hobi, I promise.” you extend your pinky finger for him to latch onto and he does so with a small laugh, leaning forward to kiss you again. it isn’t until you hear whooping and hollering from outside that you pull away, looking around quickly to spot the source of the noise. hoseok rolls his eyes and leans his head back until it hits the headrest, promptly bringing his hands up to run down his face with a groan. “I knew they were going to follow us here.” he mumbles before his friends arrive at the driver’s side window, smirks plastered on their faces as they show hoseok a big thumbs up. when he turns to unlock the door their expressions all drop, quickly running off into the direction of their own cars in order to escape hoseok’s wrath. you laugh from the passenger's seat as you watch him chase his friends around the parking lot, yelling about how they “need to respect his privacy” and “can’t you guys get your own girlfriend instead of living vicariously through me?!” 

when he finally gets them to leave and has returned to his spot behind the wheel he turns to apologize to you, “as you can see, they were very excited for our valentines plans, and they wanted to see if you would turn me down or something I’m not too sure what they were expecting.” but all you can do is laugh some more and tell him that you didn’t mind, that you thought it was cute his friends wanted to see how things would turn out, and maybe they would finally listen to hobi and stop living as though you were their girlfriend as well.

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Can you tell us some about your selfship w/ Jack :0 like how you two met (can be actually how you found out about the character or an in universe thing if you have one), what you love the most about each other, and maybe your favorite thing to do together?

Boy I might ramble so let me put this under the Cut ft. suitable image that describes the mood.

I answer all ur points so- how i found jack (also how i found blands)- about my self insert- what i love abt him

So like. I’ll start with how I found Jack cos that’s always a fun story to tell. Jump back to late 2014, like November-December, FNAF fandom was having it’s first stagnant phase, and I wasn’t back into Homestuck yet. I spent most of my time watching youtubers like Markiplier and RPGMinx, anyone I found from FNAF videos basically. So like all the people that played Prop Hunt together on those channels, I found them all and watched them all. Was also a time that I watched people on Twitch when I really ran out of shit to watch. 

So it’s like, late November, first week of December, can’t remember which, was browsing Twitch for something to watch, saw Cryotic was streaming and was like “hey I know that person they don’t stream too much I think I’ll watch them”. Cry was playing TFTBL Ep1. I watched like, from the point where Rhys and Vaughn enter Shade’s lil place. And I think I went to bed before it finished. Went to school the next day and talked to a friend about it, telling them about this new game I saw, my friend knew it too so we talked about it for a while. By December 10th, I’d bought the game, and by December 20th, I had all of the Borderlands games.

So how did I actually find out about Jack and fall for that idiot? Well my stupid ass didn’t meet him in TFTBL because I finished the first episode AFTER starting the other games. So I actually met him in TPS. On Christmas Eve. I was Hooked. Because I played like, all the starts of the games before I played the endings, I still knew he was gonna be a terrible shitty idiot. 

At the time I was going through some bad shit, like I’m sure it was the midpoint between two major points of abuse in my life, so I was already diving into coping mechanisms and recently was self shipping again, so I latched onto Jack and have been really gay for him ever since. Although I never posted it on my blog until this year, as I didn’t know of the self ship side of tumblr, and due to all the discourse Jack causes, I didn’t want to cause trouble or be judged or anything so I kept my mouth shut. And now I don’t shut up about it in my group chat, annnnd now here I guess too jdshgjdsg. 

Hell my old blog you can’t find one post about me LIKING Jack, let alone self ship or anything. And I still left the fandom and abandoned those blogs due to my only friends at the time constantly insulting the games, to the point where I didn’t want to play them anymore. (Like, they were fans of the games but, in a “I hate the fact there are canon lesbians and lots of lgbt people and memes and shit in the games” so they were mad non stop and ranted at me, the 14 year old loner jdhsgjdsg.)

So yeah. 3+ Years of Jack Hell.

Anyways, I do have a self insert!!! Her name is AJ and she is the Worst. She’s super OP and super cringy but I don’t care because I’m having fun. She’s been through a lot of design changes, with one from 2014, and then a lot from January. But the overall character hasn’t changed. She’s me but too op (being a very old siren with pink tats that still looks 21) and good looking and Actually Smooching Jack. You can find the most recent drawing of her here! Her tag has some of her older art but not all of it. 

Story wise, she has an AU timeline with Jack where like, I gave him a new backstory (no wives or gfs… only me now….), but the main games plots stay the same, until her own big plot after BL2. 

AJ meets Jack at a Hyperion Science Facility on Pandora, when he’s only 19 years old, young Hyperion programmer that was only there to fix some equipment and move on. He has Angel when he’s 20, believing her to be from a drunken one night stand with a scientist at the facility, who Died p much right away. He doesn’t actually see AJ again until he’s 23-24, when hes taken over this project to shut it down. Moves AJ to where he’s living cos boi he has a thing for this girl he saw only one time. Spent like a year together and then started dating the day before Mercenary Day (aka December 24th, like how thats the day I first found Jack dsjhgjdsg). 

Pretty much from there it’s just. AJ helps out with BL1, would be present in TPS like a player character, I guess. Around Jack a lot bc she lov him. BL2 she’s mainly on Helios, like Jack, so probably wouldn’t be seen. Post BL2 she’s stuck on Helios, trapped in Jack’s Office, for seven years, had her arm cut off and all, it’s not pretty. TFTBL starts to happen, moment Rhys enters Jack’s Office shit changes because AJ is there, Rhys breaks AJ out of the office and onto Pandora. She also somehow gets AI Jack who has no clue who she is and is only nice to her to keep her alive so he can stay alive too. (We joked that she slaps the AI out of Rhys and honestly. Mood). She stays on Pandora for 3 years with AI Jack, Vaughn, and some contact with a few Hyperion people. Ends up opening a vault, finds it to be one like Eleseer, instead of knowledge it gives her power.

Then you get my lil story aka Borderlands: Infinite, aka BL8, which many people in my group chat are a part of. This currently doesn’t have a set plot, other than there being a paradox world, AI Jack is a main villain, Lilith and AJ are on opposing sides, and everyone comes back to life a little. It’s really weird.

What I love most about Jack is he is an absolute bastard. But he’s really funny and his voice is really good and I think he lives up to the handsome part of his name. Hell I even like the soul patch from TPS even though nearly everyone hates that. He’s such a nerd. An evil boi. Absolutely terrible. 

AJ wise she’s pretty much the same, he’s pretty much the first person she ever gets to know, he looks after her, plus she’s with him from way before he goes off the rails. She just so happens to sorta go off at the same time. Which is why she sticks around when he starts doin bad shit. And Jack’s into her because she’s the cutest damn siren to ever exist like how could you resist. She makes shitty jokes about her being an engineer and him being a programmer. 

Before like, TPS their fav thing to do usually involved the ECHOnet, playing games, watching movies, simple stuff. AJ couldn’t really go out much as she was depression (and also needed to be hooked up to electricity at all times. She’s weird. There’s a metaphor in there somewhere for something.) Post TPS she probably enjoyed following Jack around, bein the trophy GF, and also shooting a lot of people. How the times change.

djsghjdsg

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good things that happened today:

i got out of bed on my own and got ready for school w/o too much difficulty!!

even so my brother was still nice enough to check up on me a couple times to make sure i was doing ok, and later drove me to school :D he ruffled my hair when we got there and told me to have a good day

i really really tried hard to understand what the ufck i was reading (since im taking classes on the computer) w/o getting distracted, and i was able to focus today and actually learn and comprehend some GEOMETRY shit today

i only have one more thing to do with that same geometry class before im done with it!! granted the next class is geometry B .. but still!!

they’re letting us have a break class in third period again, so we can have art classes again!!!

today was like the third day of it bein back, and my instructor complimented my work on the assignment a lot!! i think he noticed i was a little nervous about being slower and more precise than the other kids, and went out of his way to reassure me by saying my art technique was similar to artists in the renaissance period- “you keep building and building and building on something, focusing on all the little details to make something perfect” and i was like oh man... thank u..??!! i was genuinely moved asdfhjfk

our school was basically like fuck it and faked that fire drill i mentioned before jsut so we could get out for the weekend a whole hour early.....

it really was honestly so pretty out while i was waitin for my dad to come pick me up, like i rambled about it in the tags of that post but it was such a nice day out.. there was just the right amount of wind and it was refreshingly cool and breezy, and it was easy to tell that flowers were poppin back up and everythin was like .. fillin up with life almost, it made me realize how different things have been over the past year or two and how yes, i really am alive and standing here, at my school where i have good grades and the ideal schedule and i have no reason to panic about it anymore, and how im going home to a supportive family and good friends and a safe corner of the world meant for me and my family, how just. wonderful it is to be here right in that moment and to have made it from the darkest period of my life. it was an amazing feeling!! like its hard to describe it... i was just proud of myself for being able to recognize how much things have changed for the better and how i made it, how im still alive. it was so so nice

plus my dad bought me celebratory raising cane’s on the way home from school!!!!!!!!!!!

there’s a website that is an ongoing developing project managed by partners of the seoul dynasty that works as a kind of VOD reviewer (for overwatch obvi!!) that im a beta user of! they have a discord server im a part of too, and the other day they made an announcement that they released all these brand new features a lot of us users have been lookin forward to for awhile, and today i got to see them for myself!!! its quite impressive!!

i got sleepy after eating the food my dad bought for me, like im talkin my eyes were gettin too heavy and i was starting to doze off in my chair, and for a moment i was worried that if i went to bed now my schedule would be all messed up for tomorrow, but then i realized i dont have school tomorrow so i said fuck it nd wen to bed!!!!!!!!!

i curled up with my cat on my bed and i kind of haphazardly took off my glasses and placed them somewhere on the bed.. before i was out like a LIGHT

i was sleepin in a weird position (like quite literally curled up right beside my kitty and right on the edge of the bed) and my brother actually poked his head in and asked me if i was ok hshfgh.. he was reassured when i told him ya .. im just out here sleepin..

i woke up a couple times in the night but it was just to make sure i wasnt disturbing friday too much with my presence, and each time i gave her a lil smooch she would chirp instinctively and start to purr

i woke up just now for the same reason but also so that i could finish writing all this down because while it may not seem like much i felt absolutely compelled to do this today .. i think ill brush my teeth nd wash my face real fast before hittin the hay again

i felt and still feel very grateful for all that i have right now .. like all the basic stuff people tend to take for granted, like food and water and a place to sleep. but i know im especially lucky in that i have a good relationship with my family and friends, i have an education and a future, i have clothes and shoes and even bits and pieces of jewelry, i dont have any medical conditions or injuries, i can see and hear and smell and touch, im safe and happy with everything in my life right now and im very conscious of that fact pretty much daily.. sometimes it feels like i disassociate almost, because very often i take everything in and i stare at everything and all the details. like..

these are my hands, those are mine, that door looks like its made of wood and you remember when they worked on the transition right there from tile to wood, you have a cat in front of you right now that had a whole nother life before she came here, but everything aligned just right so that now shes here in front of you and just about as blissful of her ability to take a cozy nap right now as you are, like its really all sinking in on a daily basis and has been for as long as i can remember, except its not the typical dysphoric-like disassociation people normally experience, i think.. its like a good thing! 

and on that note im grateful that im grateful, if that makes sense.. im glad i can realize i have all this and that i can appreciate it for what it is because the ability to do that is typically missing from most peoples lives until they lose what they have and its too late.. maybe im talking too much about it but the best way i can describe it is like being aware of your consciousness and your presence, plus the presence of every little thing around you so that you realize you are here, but in a way that isnt overwhelming and more fascinating and wonderful. i like it a lot 

im still here! im still kickin!!! and chances are i will be tomorrow too, and the day after that and so on so forth .. i recognize ill have bad days and days in between but im still alive and right now i think thats enough

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Can I have an MC with really bad anxiety? Like not social but more like she cant even sit in her bed alone in the dark? You're doing really great so far, keep up the good work!

of course! also thank you!!!

i always get motivated for this one in the middle of an anxiety attack lolololol

TOTALLY NOT LISTENING TO HALLOWEEN MUSIC TO MAINTAIN MOTIVATION 

zen

it was a quiet night 

you had just had the busiest week of a hectic month 

so you got a little clingier with zen

he enjoyed it happy to have some relax time

the phone was ringing in the other room making zen have to leave to grab it

this already made you nervous 

who was calling in the middle of the night

with zen gone you didn’t feel safe

at any gust of wind you jumped 

at any creak in the house you jumped 

any noise sent your anxiety off

you couldn’t stop thinking of what could happen

you were so deep in your thoughts you didn’t notice zen in the kitchen

he suddenly dropped a glass and you couldn’t stop you anxiety

you thought unknown was going to get you again and you started to cry and hyperventilate

you just couldn’t control your thoughts

luckily zen noticed and came over to you and pulled you close

“hey babe I’m here! i just dropped a glass I’m sorry it scared you!”

you just hug him tightly thankful it wasn’t who you thought it was

you just cry for a bit shaking 

he whispers sweet words to you rubbing your back comforting you

he knows about your anxiety as he probably had to help comfort you 

yoosung 

you two were playing a horror game of your own request which was surprising to him

it was mainly to do with the fact you were tired of feeling like a burden

you were doing great albeit your anxiety making you stiff as a board

you were really fighting it

you just cant do getting chased or jump scares

after the first game you are feeling confident even though you are shaking badly 

yoosung was too

he was allowed to pick the game tho

he happens to love the thrill of jumpscares 

its that boost of energy for school lololol 

he pick five nights at freddy’s

you falter

you start playing shaking so much 

with his help you get to the second night 

you try and alternate between him taking over when a jumpscare is near 

and this works till like the 4th night 

when you all get distracted 

theres suddenly a jump scare that makes you scream 

you curl in on yourself shaking and crying mind wandering making it worse

doesn’t help you like to look up the theories and then you get freaked out

you then are thinking about how stupid it is that a game is making you freak out but he doesn’t think so

he grabs his favorite blanket and his hoodie that you love

he rushes to get tea going and he quickly puts on cute animal videos while you are at the compute and has you get up so you can both sit there

you on his lap

this helps distract you and you laugh sniffling at the silly kittens

next thing you know you are asleep on him and he doesnt know what to do 

jaehee

your school has really been taking a toll on you

you never thought how hard it would be to major in theater 

sweats nervously

you have to practice a monologue but you also have all you academic work to do

as you are working on it you check the time and how much is left 

its now 3 in the morning and barely finished and you still have that monologue to practice that’s due tomorrow

you start thinking of the worst and begin to shake crying silently 

jaehee wouldn’t have noticed if it weren’t for the fact you dropped a glass by accident trying to calm down

that made it worse because now you think thats more work and how it upset jaehee

but she simply cleans up the mess and gives you slippers in case any stray glass got anywhere 

she makes some tea for you to calm down and gets you a blanket and plays some recordings of zen singing because that’s what helps her 

she gives you a hug and a kiss and makes sure you are ok and decides to help you with the work

jumin

you were in the penthouse playing with Elizabeth while he was at work

you were having an amazing time till the power went out

you completely freeze up 

you werent aware that you werent breathing till you needed to breathe again

you were just frozen

you shut your eyes tightly like you were taught when you were younger when scared of the dark 

you didnt have a blanket to hide under and you didnt want to move

you were thinking of all the things that could be lurking in the dark and start rocking crying 

elizabeth worries about yoy and brushes against you meowing and you sit crisscross applesauce so she can sit on your lap

you peat her and she purrs comforting you 

suddenly the door is opened making a loud noise and she runs to greet the familiar face but it just made your anxiety worse

you rock again thinking its someone whos going to kill or kidnapp you for being the heirs wife

“sweetheart? its me jumin? your husband?”

he goes over to her with a flash light and he sits down next to you pulling you into his chest whispering to you to calm you down planting kisses to your temples 

you hug him tightly glad to have him right now

the power comes back on and you don’t want to let go

hes fine with this

707

you were on the computer writing things on tumblr 

when suddenly its hacked 

you cant get all these freaky things of your computer and you are panicking crying

there were quiet a few nsfw things 

some of which hit a few triggers 

you scream for seven 

he had been teaching you computer things but your anxiety wont let you think clearly 

you keep telling yourself that if you were  calmer you can fix it and not need his help

when he comes rushing in you try to explain and he pushes up his glasses telling you hes serious thankfully 

you are still panicking though anxiety running rampant in your head 

you feel bad because he deals with his brothers mental illnesses enough he doesnt have to deal with yours but he honestly doesnt mind 

he shuts down you computer and takes a part out of the computer it self

“well you couldn’t of fixed this it’s well hacked but has been for a while so we need to fix that but that can wait”

he says this knowing you used many unimportant accounts on that computer under his request

hes gets some tea going and wraps you in his jacket taking his headphones off playing relaxing nature sounds he knows helps you from watching your youtube history

and he just hold you close playing with your hair for a while

you are finally calm and he feels like a hero because he got to help you and saeran today 

“im not called god 7 for no reason” 

you smack him and just hug him

unknown

you were sitting on the bed with him and bad memories that cause anxiety hit

you normally try to handle it on your own away from him because he needs more help in you mind

but you just cant stop it 

you and shaking badly trying to get the thoughts to go away 

you hold your head desperate to calm down and rock

at this point he notices and knows whats going on and he pulls you close rocking 

“hey you should tell me you go through it too i can help you like you help me…”

you just hug him and he hums slightly playing with your hair

its the most relaxing sound you’ve heard and you quickly calm down

“so what caused it?”

“i remembered what we went through to both be here where we are now”

he just looks sad and understanding now realizing it scarred you too

later he gets you flowers 

v

you have one dark thought and you jump straight to the thought that you are becoming rika

this of course freaks you out and anxiety comes to say hi and try to spend the night

not today satan

your mind goes through all the ways you could possibly be rika 

you curl up freaking out shaking and crying wanting to stay away from v so he doesnt find out you are “rika v2.o”

its too late 

he rushes to you trying to see if you are ok 

when you tell him you are worried you are gonna become rike he gives you this long talk about how you are nothing like her

hes just sitting next to you and he tells you to talk about your favorite subject to calm down

you choose art and he and you just chat about it for ages till you realize you are calm 

you tell him hes fucking magic 

“no haha i just did research”

you give him a smooch and say no you are fucking magic and he just laughs nodding 

i hope this is ok? its like 4 in the morning and ive been suffering from con depression all day and plus i havent done an imagine in A G E S sorry for that writers block is a bitch